"Is my new librarian a Watcher?" she asks Sherlock the day after Mr. Giles joins the faculty.
"He seems fairly nice, from what little I've seen," remarks Bella. "I could easily have done worse. But I'm obviously not sure yet that I want to introduce myself. Well, except in the sense that I already handed him my student ID to check out books, and it has my name on it."
The crossing of the neighborhood proceeds without incident. It's really very quiet around here since she started her daily morgue visits. The morgue is getting less and less crowded; some days there aren't even bodies to mini-stake.
"...I am uncertain whether to congratulate you or pity you," muses Bella. "Say. Is there anyone in town you talk to besides me? ...Kitten poker buddies?" she asks, recalling something along those lines, as they pass the alley he identified as leading to the demon bar.
"I do appreciate the distinction," Bella says dryly. "Maybe I can manage to take long enough about it that I'll know how to handle myself in close quarters by then. And then I can aspire to live to the ripe old age of twenty-six. Or I suppose I can move to Renée's and pretend not to be the Slayer and let somewhat more people die."
"...When I had a soul," he says, "I cared about abstract ethical concerns like when precisely murder is wrong and whether or not I counted as a real person. They meant something to me in an immediate way. There were emotional consequences to violence that now do not exist. My repertoire of available actions is expanded; I can choose to steal or eat people or torture someone to death with no consequences except the practical."
"Oh, yes, I understand completely. Under the circumstances I can barely manage to blame you for the torture, let alone the killing. Just wanted to confirm. Tony's parents? They'd be genetically yours too, whether or not you ever met them. I confess I am quite ignorant about how clones slot into their creator's families."
"Do Watchers tend to know much about magic?" Bella asks in a complete topic change. "I'm still not accomplishing anything with what supposedly simple spells I've attempted and unless Slayers just fundamentally can't do magic, I'm missing something obvious that someone who knows magic would be able to tell me. It might be worth exposing myself to lots of crustiness just to get that figured out. Of course, maybe there are less crusty freelance witches who can take students and wouldn't need to know I'm the Slayer to find me worth their time."
Bella avoids taking out any more suspicious books the next day, although she does return the ones she's read - he can probably look up her borrowing history anyway, and he's more likely to do that if she's overdue with something. She gets no more than a raised eyebrow when she dumps her items into the bookdrop and scurries home.
Nor, in fact, are they attacked on any of the remaining neighborhood-crossing nights.
When he arrives for his blood on the subsequent evening, Bella says: "I think practicing martial arts in the backyard would attract neighborly attention if we make a habit of it, and it'd disconcert Charlie. Have you got a better idea?"
Off they go!
The crypt proves to be a little less cobwebby than advertised, but not by much. It has a ground level with a prominent, currently empty stone coffin, and a below-ground level with a mattress, a blanket, a kettle, a box of tea, and a lot of empty space.
"Less pleasant to carry all this way," she says. "I think I've interrupted local vampire reproduction sufficiently that a broom's potential value as an impromptu stake is not a significant factor." She deems the second pass sufficient, cleans off her duster again, and says, "So. Where do we start?"
"As simple as that: they don't use it," he says. "I don't believe I have any special physical advantage over other vampires, but I move and react faster than they do because I pay attention and I know my own abilities. They don't push themselves. Perhaps because they don't usually have to."
Bella pushes for a little extra burst of speed, which she can achieve but not sustain, and then she starts adding more kicks to the pattern, and then she spins once to make the front kick a roundhouse. "Don't vampires sometimes get into fights with each other? I'd think that would incentivize pushing even if most of them are never going to run into me or one of my predecessors. Or successors."
"On the other hand," (she throws in a backflip that would snap any neck attached to a chin caught in her foot's path, then resumes her flurry of blows at the air from farther back) "hearing you talk I'd figure you for English. And you also fail to look six or seven years old."
"Well done," he compliments, and counterattacks. Not at full speed. The point is to teach her, not to kill her.
And smoothly, seamlessly, he brings himself up to full speed and starts answering her every move before she makes it. Still with enough control to avoid hitting her full-strength. It seems almost choreographed, like they have been practicing this exact sequence for months and she just somehow forgot.
"Yeah, I can see the appeal. I wonder if I'm going to be sore in the morning or if I'll just fix up overnight?" she says, still interrupted by the occasional wind-knocking-out or roll or that one time when she goes ahead and bites his sleeve but overall getting the hang of carrying on a conversation while in whirling violent motion. "I know I heal a lot faster but I don't know how it holds up against the kinda muscle tearing vigorous exercise causes."
"I suppose I'll have more precision available. I am starting to get tired but I'm not actually sure if that's physical exhaustion or it being late. There's no clock in here. Hang on a sec while I get my phone?" she asks, executing a throw that, if allowed to land, ought to send him flying into a wall and give her the leisure to do that regardless of permission.
She picks her Slayer skills apart. She finds things that do not make sense in among the good reflexes; the killer instinct, the subtle drop in self-preservation that she imagines was installed to match her regen. (She is not, happily, sore in the morning.)
And - like they are just waiting to be edited, like they know they are thousands of years old and must yield to training or more deliberate revision when asked in response to new contexts and techniques - they rearrange to suit her.
She grins. She doesn't think she can beat Sherlock when they fight again, but she thinks she can surprise him.
Bella's shunted enough of her intelligence into her handy new autopilot that she can focus her immediate consciousness almost entirely on reading his body language and his attacks to tell it which patterns to pull out. She feels like nothing so much as a conduit between sense and motion: she sees this, and her seeing directly causes her weight to shift, her hand to strike, her foot to jut out just so and force him to dance away. All she's doing is keeping her eyes open, keeping her attention laser-focused on the fight, and feeling the feedback from every sense she's got.
"Mostly just - well, for one thing, did you know that my self-preservation instinct was cut down to size for some reason? I didn't start wanting to throw myself in front of a train or at a demon nest, probably because I already wanted to be immortal and the change wasn't big enough to get me to regular, let alone sucidal, but it was there, which was... well. Interesting design choice. I left it mostly the way it was in the short term because I really don't need to be as concerned about injuries as I used to be - except brain damage, that's still a big deal - but I did not want that long term deathwish."
"I mean seriously. I'm not complaining - no crusty people have located me, I have not been maimed or killed, I pretty much just got gift-wrapped superpowers and a visit from a possibly divine being of some sort to tell me what was going on and this strictly beats the alternative especially as I was living in Sunnydale anyway - but I do not know what those people were thinking. Is magic just that constrained, that they didn't have a better option? Or did they like throwing teenage girls to the metaphorical wolves for some reason that appears in the DSM? Or did it seem like a really good idea at the time -" she plants a solid kick right in his chest where her previous instincts would have had her aiming a punch for his ear - "to hang the entire globe's hopes for a defender against what have to be millions of not billions of nasty bitey threats on one less than willing individual who they have additionally saddled with a deathwish?"
"I found out he has some knowledge of the occult and left him an anonymous note about the body-stealing witch, just to see what would happen. If he deals with the situation in a reasonable way, it may be worth an overture of friendship. I suggest you leave me out of it at first, however."
"Nicely handled," says Bella. "That is a good test for a potential Watcher. I can leave you out and explain how I know anything about what I'm doing solely by lies of omission and reference to the Internet and my self-hacking, that's probably a good idea."
After about fifteen minutes, Bella says, "I think you've seen at least one instance of all the changes I've made in action. Although obviously if you had six legs or poison stingers or something they'd be manifesting differently, I don't think we should spend any time attempting to outfit you with same for a more thorough picture."
Bella indulges in a backflip to disengage, and then fusses briefly with the wisps escaping from her practical ponytailed hair and fetches her notebook from her messenger bag. She started a fresh one for this project on the expectation that she'd be handing it over. "Behold," she says grandly.
"Hmm," he says, flipping through the notes. "The word that comes to mind is straightforward. Aggressive. Direct. Good for efficiently defeating anyone who is less skilled than you, or has fewer advantages; less good for an extended fight against an opponent of equal or greater ability. As you may have noticed."
Vampire wants her target disabled but with a beating heart; vampire wants to avoid breakage but doesn't care about bruising; vampire is motivated by hunger and will break off if her target is too dangerous to be worth eating. With this in mind, Bella launches herself.
"Yeaaaah I could install that but I think it's ugly and do not want it in my brain," she says, tossing the notebook back where she got it. "Maybe if I ever need to leap into an uncomfortable form of expertise overnight for an emergency we can try that. Okay, there's got to be some other way for me to figure out what goes in, hm." She begins to pace.
"Can you be - repetitive? Can I try a dozen things against the same attack pattern - a serious one, not one you're dumbing down for me, although please don't take my arm off or anything - and then see what works best, what feels right, and then figure out a higher level of abstraction that would've generated that without knowing what was coming?"
When the thirty seconds are up and she's sprawled on the floor, she thinks. If she'd seen that coming and countered thusly -
Autopilot off, up on her feet, and - "Again."
She picks up her notebook, scribbles out what she was doing, and seeks a pattern.
This takes her about ten minutes of writing, drawing arrows, referring back to earlier notes, and tapping her pen on the page. Sherlock is welcome to read over her shoulder.
When she's done, she writes the abstracted adjustment with all the triumph of a math professor chalking a theorem onto a blackboard. She closes her eyes, thinks it into place - it's so much easier to work with the Slayer stuff than it is to handle anything else, it's like she's got root access, like the instinct package has handed her a scalpel and begged for surgery - and gets up.
"Surprise me," she says, grinning.
He's still better. But she's approaching him.
Half a dozen thirty-second-sequences worked through, abstracted, and turned into heuristics for installation later, she is able to fight him to a standstill on the first try at a new one.
It's not perfect - she catches one blow across her shoulder and has to do something inelegant to get away from a kick - but they wind up with her sitting on his back and both his arms pinned in place.
She comes up with solutions to the rough patches, repeats the sequence, and winds up in a different but still victorious position on the second try. She makes and installs another high-level revision. "I feel like I'm doing computer programming on my brain," she says. "I mean, I've always described it kind of like that, saying 'hack' and stuff, but this is a whole 'nother thing. Call it a night? Shoulder's being annoying."
And home she goes. "Thanks," she says when they get close enough that if she steps any nearer the house the porch light will come on. "You're really helpful - I would not be at all pleased about having to work on this with live ammunition, so to speak."
At dusk she goes outside with Sherlock's jar of blood and the usual clothespin on her nose.
"I didn't notice anything that was definitely that. The only notable event at school today was something about one of the cheerleaders quitting abruptly." Pause. "Was the evil body-switching mother being a cheerleader under her daughter's identity, by any chance?"
"That sounds promising, then. Most people aren't going to be able to tell what I am just by how I walk, are they? I could ask Mr. Giles about magic lessons without letting on and see how he is in that capacity, if he's up for it at all. I don't suppose a Watcher who doesn't know he's got a Slayer under his nose has a lot to do in his spare time."
"I shall go conspicuously take out more books on magic at school tomorrow and then approach him about it if he gives me the least reaction to work off of," Bella decides. "But for tonight, let's carry on with what worked last night, that was fun and productive."
It occurs to Bella to ask as they approach the crypt, "Would anything meaningfully improve about the practicing if I took off the crucifix? I don't know how much of your attention not reacting to it takes, and there's always some possibility it'll pop out of my shirt and hit you in the face or something."
"So it's probably not hampering your ability to challenge me yet but it could do so in a few days if I keep improving at this rate, which is admittedly optimistic because low-hanging fruit is called that for a reason," Bella concludes. "Okay. I can take it off for this purpose after making reasonably sure that no one has tried to move into your crypt or anything."
Until they've done nine of them and then on the tenth, full of new edits, she does slam him into a wall. (She's also bleeding in two places and she's got a ringing headache, but Sherlock violently encounters that there wall.)
"It's - flattering? Unprecedentedly flattering. I mean, random people utter innuendo all the time, but it's not based in any genuine regard, whereas I'm pretty sure yours is." She pokes at her scalp gently, wincing when she reaches the point of impact and maps its borders.
He shrugs.
"And what with all of this bodyguarding and martial instruction, I am becoming somewhat attached to you."
He puts on a perfect imitation of Bella's voice and accent and tilts his head up slightly, with a wide-eyed, excessively innocent look. "Hi, Dad! Tonight a vampire flirted with me, and I encouraged him shamelessly!"
Now in Charlie's voice, with a sterner expression cut by a hint of wistfulness: "Sure I can't shoot him again?"
"Good, I always hate it when I wind up feeling ethically obliged to self-hack." Her head isn't ringing any more; the spot is still tender but she's got plenty of tender spots. "I think I'm good for one more sequence played through till I have it down and then it's time to go home, ice various anatomy, and get in some sleep."
Finally she concludes the sequence with a graceful kick to his head, and calculates her edit, and implements it, and sniffs the air distastefully. "I really don't like the smell of blood," she says, packing her notebook away. "But I think it's bothering me less since I activated. I don't like it but I don't feel like I'm going to pass out at all."
"Yes, I suppose so. I do not wish to be licked at this time except in the metaphorical, educational sense, and even in that sense I'm done for the night. Oh, I suppose I could dab at the cuts with a teabag? Is it Tea Sacrilege to combine with blood?" Bella asks speculatively. "...And please answer the thing about the shark characteristics, I am not actually sure."
"I honestly don't know how you mean to compare me with a shark. You've been bleeding for two hours and I haven't leapt for your throat yet, except in the educational sense. And you've been watching me eat breakfast every day for a month. My habits are as you see them. As for the tea, you know, I am almost tempted to try it. But perhaps if you don't want me licking you, you also don't want your bodily fluids in my tea."
"It really isn't doing anyone any good, as you point out, and my objections to licking have approximately nothing to do with the resulting ingestion. Besides, for some reason I didn't think to bring, like, gauze or cottonballs. Let's have a teabag, if you want a bloody teabag." She holds out a hand.
"I do hope you aren't a shark in that respect either," she says, rolling her eyes. "Besides, I suspect that for the typical case in which a vampire gets to drink Slayer blood, they're hopped up on every hormone necessary to make them quote Shakespeare; maybe they attribute that to the blood." She dabs the teabag on her elbow and her ankle and her arm and hands it over.
"How odd," laughs Bella. "Why would that be a Slayer thing - wouldn't they have to do it on purpose? - I guess it could be a side effect of the mechanism behind the superpowers, depending on how those work. Or they could've just factored it in along with the deathwish to induce regular turnover, maybe. Pity I have no prior samples to compare against."
"I suppose most people aren't as patient as you were with people trying to shoot them while they attempt to make friends, but a careful vampire could pass long enough to find someone who'd tolerate the revelation. I guess that's not sociopathically hedonistic enough."
"Asking vampires you meet how old they are and taking down the information and then doing some statistical work to find out how your likelihood of meeting them interacts with their age?" Bella says. "I guess you'd have to like math or compensate for less math with more data-gathering. I don't like math much myself."
As they pass a fire hydrant she knows she scratched, she says, "What do they feel like? The crosses."
"The actual experience of encountering a cross, before the aforementioned erosion, was very much like watching someone sidle up to my basic emotional processing and say 'I'm going to make you feel like shit now', and watching my basic emotional processing reply 'The fuck you will', and being a bystander to the ensuing argument."
And in she trots.
She is a happy Bella.
Now she has to write in her notebook for at least an hour about that before she will be able to sleep, but that is okay.
The next day, Bella spends study hall at the library, and she finds some books on witchcraft, and she sidles in the most attention-attracting way she knows how to pretend to not want attention with them up to the checkout desk. "Um, hi, Mr. Giles."
The persona she is attempting to wear does already know about magic and vampires and the like (by observation and rumor, not by Power visitation), and is trying to find out if Mr. Giles does too.
And he reaches under the counter to pull out a stack of dusty-looking old books with extremely similar cover designs.
"I... actually already guessed," Bella says sheepishly. "If you look at my borrowing history... I didn't get these books exactly but I've gotten others that mention vampires and I didn't think it was smart to take chances, given all the funny statistics. I replaced my porch lights with those sunshine bulbs and know not to invite anyone into the house." If he agrees to teach her anything she'll also tell him about covering the town in crosses and her key to the morgue.
"Yeah. My dad and some other cops had a standoff with some folks who had oddly colored blood, a while ago. And Sunnydale has a pretty bad rate of unusual occurrences even when the sun is up. But I haven't found anything so straightfoward about how to deal with those. Have these books got instructions? Stars of David and maple syrup instead of crosses and holy water?" She flips through one of the books, treating the pages gently. "Because otherwise I think it comes back to magic."
He's sounding crustier by the second.
(If he were bullshitting her he probably wouldn't have said it was rare, so she's going to take this as likely accurate, and something she needs to find out about before attempting to learn anything.)
"Is there anything else you can tell me besides recommending the books? Are these even..." She looks at the spines. "They're not library books. Can I borrow them anyway?"
This is probably all she's going to get out of Mr. Giles. At least this time. What a pity. (And he knows some magic, too, if he fixed the cheerleader, as seems likely. Frustrating.)
She takes the books. She spends the rest of her study hall reading through the first chapter of one, taking notes, and then she goes to the rest of her classes and hangs out in the library to continue.
"Are you sure there isn't something wrong?" Bella asks. "Is it that surprising for the chief of police's daughter to move here and notice enough stuff to figure out that this town has peculiar and bitey contents? I mean, I've been here before, but only in the summertime, so his insistence on a sunset curfew wasn't nearly as suspicious back then."
"I don't think you're evil in some way," says Bella. "But seriously, how much of a correlation is this, is the world going to be forever mostly divided into people I can't be fully open with and people who might try to..." She glances at her book. "Sacrifice me to the Nameless Nine-Faced God?"
"I am pretty good at logic," she says, adding a period to the end of a sentence in her notes that she'd earlier paused in writing. "Also, I can't help but thinking that even if they're really that dirty, your glasses would still do more net vision correction if they spent more time on your face."
"Yuck," she says. "It seems really counterintuitive for defenselessness to be a better idea, though. Like, what am I, a sardine? Schooling with a lot of other sardines trying not to be special and hoping the barracuda goes for the other sardines instead of me because I don't stand out?"
"What precautions exist against brain-eating?" Bella asks. "I'd like to get the risk somewhere down to car-accident-in-the-rain levels, although I'd settle for worse, since not being a sardine is slightly more important than being all out of milk and really wanting pancakes and running out to the convenience store."
She peers at the sun, and sets her phone timer to remind her to leave in fifteen minutes. It wouldn't do to blatantly flout her curfew - never explicitly rescinded - while she is pretending not to be the Slayer.
"There sure are a lotta kinds of demons," Bella remarks, returning to the book she's working through and resuming notetaking. "There might be more kinds of demons than there are kinds of beetles. Haven't they got any psychological diversity or will they really all try to eat me?"
"Why not? Mightn't they be friendly and have interesting, helpful abilities? I could rely on magic less if I had demon friends who could do anything on the order of - make force fields or send their scary guardian spirits after people who attack them or even just grow scales that are made of diamond and occasionally shed one so I could annoy the DeBeers cartel and buy a house with a really good security system." These abilities all in fact belong to unfriendly demons that she has just read about.
"Unfortunately," he says a little sharply, "the world is not divided into creatures who want to kill you and people who want to be your friends. Researchers, especially several centuries ago when most of these books were published, tend to think that the best thing to do with neutral demon species is leave them alone."
Bella sighs. "Look, I know you deal with idiot fourteen-year-olds all day. But can you be a little more charitable with me? I know not all non-face-eating individual demons would want to hang out with me and braid each other's hair and protect each other from the forces of darkness. Not all humans want to be my friend and a billion of them I'd have to learn Chinese first to even get to know and I assume the situation with demons is even worse. But you're sufficiently down on magic as a solution to sardinehood that I'm asking about other options. If the non-face-eating demons are in a careful balance of politics such that not leaving them alone turns Demon Switzerland into Demon Cold War Russia or Demon Space Invaders, you can just tell me that, and I will not bother the demons you have ruled out. If the non-face-eating demons are non-face-eating because they have a religious prohibition and faces aren't kosher, you can tell me that, and I will, if I encounter any such demon, be very careful if the discussion should turn to theology. If the non-face-eating demons are presumed to be non-face-eating only because the grand total of four people to ever visit them were wearing the color red, then you can tell me that only four people have ever visited them and I am perfectly capable of deciding not to be a demonic early adopter. I am not stupid."
"I'm sorry," he says as he puts them back on. "The truth is, there are not as many books on neutral species, and I can only speculate on why that is. My speculation is that demonologists have been historically wary of finding out too late that the reason for someone's apparent neutrality was along the lines of your examples. But I can't know for sure, because it's just not in the literature."