The next day is, alas, also a school day. She bids Brilliance good morning while she brushes out her hair. +Hey you.+
+Hey yourself! So I worked on that movement spell a bunch last night,+ he says cheerfully. +And I figured out a way to make it so I don't have to maintain it for you and you don't have to maintain it yourself. I just have to make you a tiny little device, with just barely enough power to keep the one spell going. It won't have to turn it on and off, because I bet you'll want it on all the time, so I don't think I'll have much trouble making it, and it'll be about as smart as an amoeba.+
+The amoeba is kind of the important part,+ he says. +I wouldn't make you a device if it was going to wake up. All devices are a little bit alive, but as long as it's not alive enough to want things, I'm fine with it. I don't think it's all that different from you making me a sweet potato. Those are biological too, remember?+
+If sweet potatoes could talk I'd be in a bit of a pickle,+ Bella says. +So to speak. So - devices are not significantly more "related" to each other than I am to a sweet potato? This isn't going to be, like, your kid or anything, this is an - arts and crafts project?+
He shifts and hurries into the kitchen, magephoning as he walks.
+What it looks like is mostly up to you. I was thinking of using some glass from the sand planet as a base, 'cause it's really pretty. And it'll have to be something you wear all the time; it won't be able to connect from a distance.+
+I can't keep copying Lexi's homework indefinitely or I'll start making a fool of myself in classes, I should do, like, an hours' worth sometime this afternoon and if I put it off I'm just going to get distracted by magic,+ Bella tells Brilliance as she gets in the driver's seat with Lexi in the passenger on the way home.
Bella and her sister do homework at the kitchen table, chatting companionably in half-sentences interpretable only to each other. Eventually Bella does what she deems to be enough, and she puts her schoolbooks back in her bag. "I think I'm gonna go," she tells Lexi.
Bella picks up a little handful of sand between the bands of blue and green; it averages to a lovely aqua. She pools it into the middle of one hand and picks up Brilliance with the other and commands the sand to melt smoothly together into a droplet without heat. (And she pays attention.)
"So? What I'm saying is," he lets go of her so he can gesture emphatically, "your minimum standards are high compared to what I'm used to. And you're sorry about that, and that's sweet. And I'm just gonna keep appreciating it the way I appreciate hugs and ice cream - it's something nice that I'm not used to yet."
+Morning, Brilliance,+ she says the next morning.
School ends; Lexi goes home with Jessica today and Bella drives home alone. "Leaning towards yes, but on the condition that you don't inform - by any channel of information, no insinuations or meaningful looks or significant pauses - Lexi or Charlie. It'd be their business if I acquired a boyfriend, but if I'm just having sex one time because it sounds like it might be pleasant that's another matter."
"Well, you don't really have a lot of conversations with them anyway, so the standard for how good a liar you have to be isn't high, and anyway I don't mean lying. Like, literally no one in the world has had sex with me, and also literally no one in the world goes around stating, 'I have not had sex with Bella Swan! No sir!', so, you know, that is not exactly the form that discretion takes here."
+Oh good.+ She was nervous, but this has mostly given way to relaxed lissome warmth. (The droplet on the elastic around her wrist helps, though she's not as aware of it as she is when she's attempting to walk or run.) Her hands drift around; one winds up in his hair and one around his waist.
"I dunno, maybe there's millions of people out there who're more awesome than you, it's a big universe, but you're the one I've actually met, so you're the one I've got feelings about. I don't think you're taking advantage of me. I think we're making out because we like each other and it's fun. You do like me, right?"
Alternating is good! Alternating means that Bella gets to swap between neighborhoods in her surprisingly large repertoire of noises. She's mostly letting him direct them here, because while both of them have more theoretical than practical knowledge he seems less inclined than she to let that interfere. That doesn't mean she doesn't run her hands over surfaces that present themselves, of course.
"Hmmm." Bella pulls her shirt over her head. Her jeans wound up on the corner of the picnic blanket and didn't wind up sandy, so that's more straightforward. "- I dunno. One time to see what it's like for fun, I can do that, I just did, I feel like if it's gonna be a recurring deal I'd want, like, labels, context, that sort of thing."
"...Okay, explaining humans to an alien mode engaged. So humans have all this emotional and cultural stuff that sits on top of sex and is also an end in itself. All the component bits are technically optional - including the sex, for some people - but common components several of which would generally be involved include, like, exchanging presents, and celebrating Valentine's Day because that's a couple thing, and exclusivity with the sex and/or the romance, and, like, emotional intimacy, and a sort of general courtship trajectory, and the relationship having a sort of public-facing aspect where the involved parties' loved ones know, and general life-event-support stuff, and defaulting to each other for situations where having a date is called for, and mutual prioritization in each other's lives, and I'm sure I'm forgetting some stuff. And because all these things are optional, and because all these things can happen without people being technically officially together, there's a fuzzy zone that gets a line drawn through it and that line is called 'deciding to label this thing these people are doing "dating"'. Does that make sense?"
"...Yeah," he says. "So which parts of that do you want? 'Cause right off, I can tell you exclusivity with the sex is not happening. I love having sex with you, but I'm not gonna give up having sex with everybody else for it. But on the other hand, you're already my favourite person and I already love you, and those aren't gonna stop if we don't fuck again."
"I'm not sure," he says. "A lot of it's still human-context stuff - like, I don't know what you mean by 'general courtship trajectory' but I'm betting having sex and falling in love and then calling myself your boyfriend ain't it, and it's not like I'm ever going to be in a situation where I need a date for something, and you're gonna have a hard time explaining me to anybody who doesn't know about magic... and I'm not sure what some of them mean, like 'life-event-support stuff', what's that? But sexual exclusivity's the only automatic no."
"The trajectory thing is more about a steady increase of seriousness, like, there's whatever you're doing, and then time passes and you're doing more of it. We're already cohabiting and stuff, so there's some constraints on how much trajectory there is to be had in any standard sense, but it's not nonexistent. And I might be in a situation where I want a date for something, I might get invited to a wedding, hell, with my droplet I can probably learn to dance and show up at school dances, I don't have to explain you, you can just be mysteriously sourced. Life-event-support is, like, if Lexi were in the hospital and for some reason I couldn't just magically fix this problem, would it be appropriate for me to cry on you. Or would you show up to my graduation ceremony and clap at the correct times."
"...Uh," he says, "I like sex. I mean I really like sex. I like sex like I like food. I fucking love ice cream, but I wouldn't eat nothing but ice cream for a year. I love fucking you, but I wouldn't fuck you and nobody else for a year. I mean, I've never even had sex with anybody else except that one guy I gave a blowjob to - I wanna find out what it's like with different people, you know?"
"Both metaphorically and literally, you didn't eat anything for four hundred years," Bella points out. "Now it's an impossible tradeoff when presented with your ostensible favorite person versus assorted random strangers?" She keeps her voice very even. She has no grounds for jealousy at this time; it will therefore be viciously killed if it should happen to intrude.
"I don't expect anything," she reminds him. "There's a reason I didn't ask about any of this ahead of time. It didn't matter for just," she gestures at the picnic blanket, "once. It might turn out to matter - although then again I'm not sure till I've given it some serious thought - for anything beyond once. And pretending other people don't exist isn't the idea, anyway."
"The reasons I'm your favorite person are sad, like, I'd be your favorite person by default because you have kind of a person-impoverished history, but that's not an inherent property of favorite person hood. I'm Lexi's favorite person, but she's had plenty of chances to find alternatives, if we didn't get along she'd have some friend who'd be her favorite person or maybe it'd be Charlie or Renée. Presumably at some point she will find a boy and they will fall in love and I won't be her favorite person anymore. Lexi's my favorite person. Presumably at some point I'll find a boy and fall in love and - she won't be anymore - and making that trade-in for anything less than the most special, most unique relationship seems - bad."
By the end of this speech, he is crying into her shoulder.
"I have no idea," he says. "I don't think falling in love is the kind of thing you decide to do, anyway, is it? I didn't decide to fall in love with you, I just - did. Because you're awesome. So maybe I'll fall in love with anybody else I meet that's awesome. Or maybe I'll never fall in love with anybody else again. I can't really tell."