Celegorm opens a door and finds himself looking, not into a guest room, but into a bar.
It is not plausible that someone turned this room into a bar, both because it's not a very Noldorin bar and because the room is too big; he built this fortress, he would know.
And, Huan says, it's very powerful magic and it smells of somewhere very far away.
Noted.
He walks in. Worrying about the Doom would be overthinking it. He hopes.
I'll be happy to answer your questions, although I don't know the answers to all of even the most frequently asked. The establishment is called Milliways, I am Bar, and the door here has temporarily co-opted the door you expected to be traveling through. When you exit it will most likely be the time at which you left and the place whence you came.
It is quite safe here both by suspicious coincidence and by security personnel guaranteed to be able to handle whoever happens to be in the bar during their shift. Other people can and do find it, although people from your world will be inhibited in doing so while you are here because time is paused unless you hold the door open or something unusual is going on. Its origins are quite mysterious to me, and I do not control the door. Patrons who open the door by and large return to their own worlds; you could let someone in but it is improbable that anything would have entered your world via Milliways without that sort of assistance.
I can discern his species characteristics, but 'indestructible' is a relative term, Bar napkins serenely. Suspicious coincidence will guarantee that you will not be on shift while any patrons enter the bar who can overwhelm him but you are not guaranteed to suffer no work-related injuries. Access to the infirmary is free, however.
"There's a prophecy about him. If intradimensional shenanigans can beat prophecies I need to immediately import bar patrons or something - or is there a rule against using the bar strategically like that? Anyway. Cool. We'll look forward to helping out whenever suspicious coincidence guarantees we'll be good at it."
As if in response to his statement, the door opens.
A small human child, probably about six years old, dashes in. She skids to a stop and looks behind her in surprise when the door falls closed behind her, then looks around wildly for a few moments before calming down.
Her hair is a surprisingly familiar shade of brown and tied in a surprisingly familiar three-stranded tight plait. The eyes he could be forgiven for not recognizing, given that he had seen them only a few times before they changed to match his own, but the voice, when she speaks, is recognizable despite a decade and a half of development being sloughed off the top.
"What're you? You're pretty."
"I'm a mutant. Everyone at the Xavier Institute is a mutant except Ms. McTaggart visits sometimes and she's not. Mutants do stuff." I'm a telepath. It's interestingly different from osanwe; it seems to somehow convey the impression of another mind brushing against one's own. Can I pet you? she asks Huan.
"The Odette who is a friend of mine. I take it from this bar that there are other Odettes. Where Odette's from people can do magic, but it hurts and changes them so most people only do a little. But some people are very good and it doesn't change them much, so those people can keep doing it forever and become very powerful. They're Great Mages."
"There's a law against it that my brother just put into place for a really good reason, and she's twenty-one and I'm three thousand, and she's working on getting strong enough to stop the evil god that killed my father and tortured my brother and is trying to destroy the world and romance would be kind of a distraction. And if people found out they wouldn't trust her. And I do not in fact know if she'd want to, though I'm very pretty so she probably would."
"She'd rather know. If she wants to kiss you she's not going to want to kiss you less because she doesn't know you want it too and she'll be more distracted by fretting over whether accidentally letting it slip will make you not like her anymore than by waiting."
"You sure? I guess you would be. Sure, fine, if you run into her you can read her mind and determine whether she'd like to know that I'd like to kiss her, or that I'd like to marry her someday conditional on an understanding that I am very very much firstly of the House of Fëanor, and if either of those things are things she'd prefer to know you can tell her."
"I can't read, practically everyone can. My father invented writing. My father can invent anything, he's ridiculously gifted at art and engineering, and several of my brothers take after him - and whatever they do do, they're the best at it. I can talk to animals. Maybe that's what you're seeing."
"Do you mean he said you were dumb or that you weren't because if it's the latter you should listen to him too and if it's the former I should meet him so I can punch him." Getting punched by a six-year-old mortal would probably not be a big deal under most circumstances but this one is very determined.
"Well--lots of differences, on the outside, some of us have different skin colors or hair colors and some of us have wings and some of us have powers--I'm a telepath like Papa, and Emily does magnetism like Daddy, and Scotty's indestructible and has laser eyes, and we all have the X-Gene."
"Animals have a language inside every part of them that describes what they are and their role in the song. Most of the bits tell what kind of animal it is, but some of them describe things about the animal - hair color, eye color, length, pelt thickness, things like that. When animals have children together, they get half their mother's bits and half their father's bits, and then the new one is built from that, which is why animals look like their parents."
"I mostly meant for why mutant couples have mutant children and human couples also have mutant children. Like how two brown-haired parents can have a blonde kid but if you see a black-haired kid with blonde parents you know they're adopted." But she climbs up onto a bar stool anyway.
He hugs her back. "So in Odette's world teaching magic to people who are younger than fourteen is very bad. Magic can change your brain. I think it's worth it to stop everyone in your world dying, but I am an irresponsible person who has problems with authority and you might want to get your Papa and Daddy's opinions. Or get a grownup here."
"Nazis are a group of people primarily defined by the idea that Jewish people and Romani people and handicapped people and homosexuals and some other kinds of people needed to die so they built death camps, rounded up everyone they could find that matched one of those descriptions, and worked them and starved them and beat them and experimented on them and denied them every form of dignity they could think of and threw them in the ovens when they died. They pulled out our teeth if we had fillings they could use and cut off our hair to make mattresses out of and the sky was black and greasy from the smoke from the crematoriums. The one who survived to the end of the war were nearly living skeletons."
"Nuh-uh. Just the ones who could tell him where to find Shaw. Most of them died at the end of the war, anyway, but some of them got away, including Shaw. Daddy found ones who could lead him to him and dealt with them and then after Shaw was dead there was us to look after."
"I'd rather know," she reassures him. "It's just slightly awkward to talk about. So, um, my plan was that if I still wanted you when the war was over and I was older I would know it was serious; actually talking about it now complicates things. Er, if I don't love you forever you're not going to end up like Aegnor, right?"
"Did I tell you - you know, I don't know if I did - Melkor came to visit us in Formenos, before he went openly evil. He wanted to convince my father to work with him against the Valar. My father was, I think, briefly tempted, the Valar had just exiled us. And then Melkor made the mistake of making a very vague implication that he could hurt us if he wanted to and my father slammed the door in his face and said 'begone, jail-crow of Mandos!'
Nelyo later got the chance to spit in his face but that's less of a happy story -
-we are not pressurable."
"Okay, then I am in fact fully-grown and Andreth has made some remarkably accurate-looking remarks about your species not maturing much once you come of age--see also Aegnor acting like a seventeen-year-old boy with his first crush--and I'm not sure why the age difference is such a big deal, although the political and other reasons not to do anything anywhere anyone is liable to find out until Morgoth is dead do remain."
"I am nonzero amounts of reckless but I don't usually make bad decisions out of it and it was my idea," she points out. "Also, Andreth is a sensible person who many people think highly of and she outright told me that the age difference thing was silly and if it weren't for the politics I should definitely kiss you."
"I haven't said I love you even though I'd be perfectly comfortable saying it to someone I was friends with because if someone I was just friends with with no crush reacted as though I had meant it romantically I could clarify the issue and I don't want to lie to you about how I feel about you because I was planning to stop hiding it at some point in the undefined future but I have no qualms whatsoever lying to someone whose business it is none of and to the extent that lying would be more difficult I think having this conversation at all would do it but I don't think that's a meaningful amount."
"As long as you understand that Illia comes first for me too and that if the Oath coerces you into trying to kill people--or you feel the need to for some other reason and I disagree--I'm going to stop you--I'm okay with that. ...For the short term, anyway, I'd want to talk about that before getting married but that's to the tune of 'I don't want to swear off children forever and I'd be leery of having children with someone for whom the children wouldn't come first' and I'm not willing to risk assuming that you wouldn't choose your father or brothers over a hypothetical son or daughter without asking."
"The only person the Oath wants dead is the Enemy until and unless he decides to sow discord by giving someone a Silmaril and they decide not to give it back. I am confident in my ability to bargain for and/or steal a Silmaril if that should happen but not so much that I'm willing to commit to not holding you back. If--if there was, something like Alqualonde, where you had no better options, is the kind of thing I'm thinking if, I would make everyone stop killing each other, not help them kill you."
"I like the way you found yourself here and immediately adopted our problems as your own. I like the way the Enemy makes you angry. I like watching you get stronger. I want to be there for that. I want to be there for you, if the war endures long enough for you to get ground away by it. I think you're great. Also all of the largescale magic tricks you pull are really hot."
"Before you, people who I told about my issues were separated into 'potential shoulder to cry on' and 'not'. No one actually said anything that helped before. And I hate the way you don't think as highly of yourself as you should and I want to hold you until you believe me down to the bottom of your soul that you're amazing. And when you smile--god, you have the most beautiful smiles I've ever seen in my life."
"Wasn't sure if you cared."
He's taller than she is. This would probably matter to someone whose feet spend more time on the floor than a foot or two off it.
She places one hand on his cheek almost reverently and leans in--or more accurately floats closer--to press her lips to his.
It miiiight be a little hard to disentangle the delight he's feeling from the delight she's feeling since there's so much of both of them. But that's--definitely--not a bad thing.
...She appears to have pushed him against a wall at some point, how'd that happen. Whatever, not important. What is important is reconciling the fact that she really wants to keep kissing his lips but would also like to investigate his jawline, hmm.
Yeah.
Teaching me Quenya is another thing that theoretically ought to wait for the end of the war that no one's going to know if it happens in Milliways. Or starts, anyway, I'm not confident in learning a whole...language...in...
If the door's pausing time on the other side I could just stay here until I'm strong enough to kill Morgoth and then nobody else has to die.
Well. It seems I can do that.
pause.
Maybe not literally a minute. I have to figure out where to resurrect everybody and a Feanorian fortress is not a neutral location. Also just to be on the safe side I want your brother Maglor singing that one song that helped with the chasm if possible.
Psychological health maintenance is very important.
After a few more minutes of this she says, So my magic totally does birth control and humans don't do the soul thing and anyway there are other options besides the thing that makes those things relevant and since I apparently don't need to squeeze as much kissing you into the next short period of time as possible to tide me over until Morgoth's dead we should probably either stop or the exact opposite of stop for the sake of my sanity.
Oh, yeah, women have two of the same thing and men have one of the thing and one of the other thing so it's the father's blood that determines it. I could probably decide anyway, if I knew enough practical bloodworking, but that would mean picking out its entire set of underblood manually instead of, you know, letting nature decide. And I don't know enough bloodworking.
"I don't find picking instead of letting nature particularly objectionable, but I wouldn't know how. Gender we can do by intuition. Though it's wise not to get too attached to the gender, at least not with Elven children- every once in a while someone doesn't like theirs and wills it into being something else."
"Oh, that happens to humans too, although as with many of your soul-related advantages we have to use magic instead. And I guess people who don't have anything better than a hedgewitch on hand might have to do without altogether. Do they get their parents to rename them in that case or pick their own or are elven names mostly just gender-neutral?"
"I did a demo for her while she was reading my mind, warned her not to do it until she's talked with her parents. I know it's not really safe for kids but I didn't want everyone in her world to die. Except fuckoff dude, apparently. There's a guy named fuckoff dude who is already immortal."
"It hurts and making kids hurt isn't okay, it's not really less safe for kids, given the available tradeoffs I didn't say anything when the House of Beor sent kids to the magic lessons I was giving. And. Okay good. If she's telepathic and has the information it can be distributed from there to whoever ought to be doing it."
That would be lovely.
Hey, at some point after I've figured out Sympathy teleportation, would you mind holding the door open a sec so I can fetch Illia? I don't fancy ending up literally twice my twin's age and don't want to bet it won't take decades to get strong enough to grind Morgoth into stardust.
No, no, we're not. We are definitely- I wouldn't spring that on you, and there are traditions I'll want to follow and you presumably have some too. But we're going to be here for decades, right? My species is supposed to be the ones who are patient by nature and I am not inclined to wait that long.
Point. I'd rather invite people who are not my sister but I suppose as long as she's there I can cope; I'd rather have a proper wedding and I'm not sure how that would happen--maybe we could pick a high-traffic day and announce that everyone currently in the bar is invited.
Andreth mentioned that she thought--well, that Aegnor had thought--humans could do the soul thing if they specifically appealed to Eru or something. Even if that works I'm not sure I want it at all and certainly not until Morgoth ceases to be an issue on the off chance it obviates the free will thing but a non-soul-bindy marriage is something else entirely.
I'm going to make a list of as many things I should teleport out as possible. Including the dinosaurs. You know, scientists have been arguing for decades what killed the dinosaurs; if there's a world in which the answer is me I--well, no, I could totally live with myself, but it would be annoying.
I started riding with Orome when I was way underage, maybe twenty? I was desperately unhappy - wasn't good at anything - and my father knew it but was helpless because he couldn't engineer me a talent and even inventing me an alphabet only got me so far. And Orome offered to take me out, and I was good at it. I was good at terrain, I was good at recognizing plants, I was stellar at tracking and gifted for my size with a bow, though I was by far the worst of his riders, and I was deliriously happy and so were my parents once they found out. And we went down south to hunt dinosaurs and I found and befriended a velociraptor. I named her Ambale. I thought she was delightful. I brought her home and my parents were not delighted. They explained to me that she might eat my baby brother, which I thought was an acceptable risk, and that she might be lonely, which I agreed was no good. So we took a family trip down south to release her to be with her friends.
When Orome got me Huan I think my parents were profoundly relieved. Merely a Maia, you know, that's easy to adapt to as a household pet.
Such hugs.
I like that I have higher standards for myself than most people do but it's strange, sometimes, to hear someone commend me for meeting expectations. Like it was something I was going to the trouble of doing instead of something I was being.
Not bad, mind you. Strange, but definitely not bad.
People either react to Maitimo by letting him steer them - usually into believing he's okay - by pitying him annoyingly until he exerts more effort to steer them, or by deciding that he deserved it. That's - not as uncommon as it should be. Kinslaying and all. There are a few exceptions. I'm not sure I am even one. I let him steer me, he's good at it and what the fuck am I supposed to be able to do. Fingon did weirdly well with it, he just sat there by his bedside feeding him strategic information and then once he was well enough offered to teach him to wield a sword lefthanded...
Getting really angry on his behalf and giving him powerful magic is the best possible response.
Let's see, I've met...Maedhros and Curufin and Amrod. I haven't met--Amras, obviously, Caranthir, and...oh, right, the seventh one was Maglor. Maedhros I like. Curufin I like. Amrod I didn't really form a specific opinion on besides 'lost his twin and this needs fixed'. Maglor I didn't really form an opinion on besides 'his music is bloody amazing.' I certainly don't expect not to like the ones I don't already actively like, and the sample size of ones I have actually met well enough to form an opinion on, while statistically small, is informative. And, let's be frank, if I would otherwise have been on the fence about any of them I'm probably going to like them just out of spite at the hypocrisy over what does and does not count as murder to the people who hate you. And, you know. Because it's important to you and they're your family and I love you.
S'pose not. Trades off against kissing, though. Macalaure once said to me that he thinks we're all only half people on our own but we can make up for each other. I think he might kind of be right about that. Nelyo forgets that he counts, too, as an end in the ends he is juggling, and because he uses himself so unrelentingly, he ends up using everyone more than he means to. When we're around we can demand him - his love, his time, not his work on our behalf - and that snaps him out of it. You shouldn't feel like you have to do it, I've never seen anyone who wasn't family do it successfully - Father does it oddly, and with inconsistent results, by pretending to be unimpressed with everything Nelyo does until Nelyo admits to himself that he's proud of himself and in fact pretty fucking impressive. Fingon does it just by openly and aggressively caring a lot about Nelyo's wellbeing until if Nelyo cares about him at all he has to care about himself.
The piece Macalaure is missing is that he forgets other people exist. Or - he knows they exist, he cares a lot what they think of him, he wants to impress and entertain and perform for them, but he forgets that most people are not performing all the time and that they keep existing when they leave whatever stage he's encountering them on. It is not good for him to be alone for too long. He was King when Nelyo was in Angband and he was good at it but only in a day to day way, there was nothing he intended to achieve with it, and I had to point out to him when people had emotional needs for reassurance and affection from him.
Both of the two of them live life at too many removes. That's a new thing. Before the war these failings were much slighter, and harder to notice.
It works out fine when we're all around to help each other.
Caranthir dislikes people as much as me but he likes Dwarves, they're more reasonable in his opinion. He forms opinions of people very rapidly and is a good judge of character but - people find it annoying to be sized up and immediately evaluated as worthless and uninteresting, and he doesn't find many people so but when he does he's not shy about saying so and the sort of people he finds worthless and uninteresting are disproportionately represented among politicians. So even worse than me at politics. He likes economics, sociology, history, people in the abstract rather than the particular. He's generous. He's easy to embarrass. He's ridiculously good with money and is the only reason we have any, Elves in general don't really understand it.
They do deserve it, but we still do not take Moryo to parties. Curufin you've met and I think you know everything important about him except that he constantly has minor injuries inflicted at the workbench and before my father died I do not think he ever accidentally injured himself. And he doesn't smile anymore. There's no one left who he'll believe when reassured that he's brilliant, our father was the only person whose opinion he ever took seriously on that.
And most of Pityo's problems you can solve by reembodying Telvo. The two of them complement each other very well and together you can just kind of set them a project and expect it'll happen in some ridiculous and surprising way. Alone they - don't do much. He's a great help on any task you set him to but he hasn't taken the initiative on any.
Please mind that you do not disturb the giant squid in the lake. You may be unaccustomed to the space warping features creating the illusion that the space proceeds indefinitely; be advised. Other remodeling is permissible, although I cannot guarantee that it will remain in place over time as you place it.
Odette is good with kids. This does not come as a surprise to her younger version, who adores what few much-younger children she's had the opportunity to interact with, and plans to be a teacher when she grows up--"probably still something not this if you don't teach it to kids when there's grownups around and it's not an emergency."
Edies would surely be flattered if they knew.
Edie wants to know if Odette is going to marry Tyelcormo, which has more to do with being six than having any reason whatsoever to suspect that anything other than kissing happened in her absence, and Odette says probably, because regardless of why her small version was asking it's true, and her small version is utterly delighted and wants to be flower girl.
"We have that too! They're generally, among the Noldor, things you made yourself, and I don't know if Bar has the right kind of workshop or forge - I guess if we're here long enough for you to be a god we might be here long enough for me to turn things in the park outside into stone or metal with magic."
"Creating rocks is actually not that hard! Pure crystal especially, gems are a lot easier than something practical like marble or granite. The custom where I'm from is--something relevant to starting a life together. Something expensive to demonstrate you can afford to support a family, or something skillfully made to prove you can make a living as a craftsman, or something useful around the home. The proposing partner gives their gift with the proposal and then the other partner takes it and then--some prearranged period of time later--returns it as a refusal or gives a reciprocal gift in acceptance."
I think the assumption is that there's well-ordered sex - with your spouse of the opposite gender - and then there's disordered sex, which is everything else - so if you're a homosexual you're probably also attracted to children and a rapist, and if you don't mind doing Wrong things you don't mind doing any wrong things.
"Uh, he'd have been extremely condescending and rude and you could use your Sympathy scrying to find out what happened to the previous inhabitants of his palace and you'd conclude Elves were dicks and maybe anyone we called the Enemy had at least good taste in enemies. And then hopefully you'd have encountered some orcs and realized not."
"The King was supposed to be my brother who has worked for it his whole life and would be stunningly good at it and he had to give it away because otherwise some people wouldn't try their hardest against the Enemy and the Enemy was more important but it was really hard and still is really hard to be the faithful subjects of idiots who don't deserve it."
"Findekano likes men, or at least did a really long time ago when we were all young and there was nothing at stake. Not that it's any of my business, Irisse'd have beat my face in if I'd - and -
- I have at no point been trying to imply that. Though I am suddenly finding it very plausible."
"There might be rumors in Fingon's kingdom, because Fingon is not as good as my brother at lying. Never heard even traces of one here. I thought you were talking about Fingon, and I didn't want - forgetting that the way our people think about homosexuality is ridiculous and unfair even to my worst enemy, Fingon's good at his job and I don't want him undermined in it - I am going to slap my brother."
"Oh, I wouldn't, raise a hand to Nelyo and he flinches and you feel like the worst scum in the world. But I spent centuries thinking that he thought I was disgusting and embarrassing - because he had the political credibility to do something about attitudes in Tirion, if he'd tried, and he never did -"
I have no desire to pander to the people who hate your family in particular but I do feel like it's valuable to communicate that it is not the case that I have abandoned humansville for elfland, and I am concerned that if I wore your stuff and you didn't wear mine that this is a predictable result.
"He could absorb anything and then regurgitate it! Not, like, stuff. But energy. If you threw fire at him he could absorb the fire and throw it later, and if you threw Alex's blasts at him he could throw 'em back or bundle up the energy and force-feed it to someone, which he did, and if you tried to hit him with something it would stop going when it hit his skin and then he could make other things go later, and stuff like that."
"When Daddy was fourteen he and his parents got caught and brought to the death camps and they separate the men and women there so they were taking Daddy away from his Mom and he was fighting and yelling and he manifested his powers--not everyone's born with it, some people don't develop their powers until, like, puberty--and there was this evil doctor in the camp, and it was Shaw, only he was calling himself Schmidt at the time, and he pretended to be nice and he asked Daddy to use his magnetism on this one coin only he couldn't so he brought in Gramma and he said he'd shoot her if Daddy didn't move the coin and he couldn't so he did and when she was dead he was so mad he made all the metal in the room fly around and killed the guards who brought her in with their own helmets so Shaw was all like, 'aha, the key to unlocking your abilities is pain and anger' so he hurt him until years later when he escaped and he went for revenge and he found Nazis who would know where he was and he got information and then he killed them and eventually he found him, only he had other mutants with him, then, Emma Frost who could turn into living diamond and was a telepath only not as strong a one as Papa and Azazel who's red and can teleport and Janos who does wind stuff and they were on a boat, and Shaw was doing other evil stuff as a prelude to killing everyone so the government was after him too, and they sent Agent Moira McTaggert, who saw what they were doing and tracked down Papa because he was a geneticist who had theorized that people like that could happen, only he knew it could happen 'cause he was a mutant too, and his adopted sister Aunt Raven, who's blue and super pretty and can shapeshift, and McTaggert and Papa and Aunt Raven were on one boat and Shaw and his lackeys were on a different boat, and Daddy attacked Shaw but he got in a submarine and got away and Daddy tried to cling to the submarine so he wouldn't but Papa saw he was there and his mind was beautiful so he jumped in the water and convinced him to let go and come with him. And then they met Dr. McCoy, who works for the government too, and he invented Cerebro, which is a telepathic amplifier, and that let Papa find other mutants 'cause our brains feel different, and Papa and Daddy went on a road trip recruiting people, and they got Darwin and Alex and Angel and Sean Cassidy, and then they got a lead that Shaw was in Russia, so Papa and Daddy and Agent McTaggert went to go find him, only it was just Emma Frost and Shaw and Janos and Azazel attacked the place where everyone was staying, and they killed a lot of government people and they convinced Angel to join them and Alex tried firing a plasma blast at Shaw only he caught it and force-fed it to Darwin who disintegrated and then when Papa and Daddy got back they were super mad and decided it wasn't safe there and they all went to Papa's house, which is super huge, and they trained there and eventually they went after Shaw and Daddy put the coin that he killed Gramma over through his forehead but then the people Shaw was trying to goad into starting nuclear war shot missiles at them and Daddy was going to send them back at them but Papa said no and Agent McTaggert said no and he said yes so Agent McTaggert tried shooting him only he deflected the bullets but one of them hit Papa in the back so they were both super mad so they said some bad stuff and Daddy went away for a while and Papa has to be in a wheelchair only Daddy came back when he and Papa found out about Emily an' me and they were super mad for a while until they finally talked about stuff and what they actually meant when they said bad stuff and they were find by the time me an' Emily were born except Papa's still in a wheelchair."
Milliways summary! I'm not actually from the world I'm currently staying in, even, so that's two possible ways to get between worlds that I know of, although 'teleporting accident' isn't terribly replicable. Anyway: I'm not a mutant but I am super magic and I regrew my boyfriend's brother's hand, like, the first day I got there, before I had actually met my boyfriend, and I can fix your spine if you want me to.
By and large, Bar says, if you exit Milliways into another world, time will continue to be paused in your own, unless as a matter of causal fact you will not return there until and unless some event occurs there which requires the passage of time. However, this rule is less consistent than the already imperfect one about pausing while you are in the establishment.
"I assure you it's not warranted. You can read me if you want, Edie did it by accident and did me a big favor in deciding for me that Odette'd want to know I liked her. And you should read Huan, he's really cool - Huan, come meet the alternate-universe future in-laws!"
Huan comes.
"So I see." He lowers himself from Odette's arm into one of the booths. You know, I run a school for children with a trait a significant fraction of society, including a tragically nonnegligible fraction of their own parents, reviles, and I'm all but married to a man who to this day blames himself for the death of his mother and considers himself irrevocably marred by subsequent events. In my experience, people who consider themselves unworthy of the high regard that others have for them tend to be mistaken.
Yes.
We made it out fine. He--couldn't have known that, I think but he wasn't thinking. The--abandonment--was worse. And I hurt him too, and he was so, so hurt, by everything in his life. And I love him. Losing him was terrible. Losing him again, because I couldn't forgive--that would have been worse.
People do terrible things, when they don't have other choices, or when they can't see other choices. When they're hurting.
If you wish to believe yourself undeserving of my daughter's regard I suppose that is your own business but if you continue to consider yourself undeserving of her alternate's regard I expect that to hurt her at some point and that isn't only your own business.
The being bossy, maybe not, but the thinking in terms of 'ought' - a good person basically has to. If it turned out to be wrong to bring back all the dead everywhere, I'd still do it.
Or, it came up with your daughter, our gods take issue with men sleeping with men. As far as I know they haven't got a reason beyond 'it's Wrong' but even if they did, even if they count more than us so that doing whatever they want really is the right thing to do, I'd still tell them to fuck off. It's like - Odette's goals are basically the same as my family's goals, but she's not a Feanorian. She wants what we mostly want but if that changed, her loyalty is to her. I am not Good. I want basically what Good wants but if that ever changes, my loyalty isn't with Good.
She doesn't think that my loyalties are stupid, or that they'll ever stop mattering to me the way they do. And I think she'd stick with us as much as she possibly could even if things got really bad. We couldn't make it work, otherwise, I don't do well if I feel like I'm being judged or expected to improve.
But if some idiot goes and claims a Silmaril she's not gonna take on 'kill him' as her mission.
My father had a really hard time after his father was murdered - was murdered basically to get his attention - and he needed us and I do not regret being what he needed and I am happy that he could accept our help in that way but we all bindingly swore to retrieve his greatest creation from the Enemy and anyone else who withheld them.
Elves get to choose what form our bodies take. We look like this because we want to. The Enemy, ah, wondered what would happen if you forced Elves to bear him children and then raised the children in constant physical and psychological torment and forced them to swear loyalty to him as soon as they were old enough to talk. That's how he got orcs. Then he bred a million of them, all sworn to serve him and hate Elves and kill us or, if they can, take us alive and as prisoners back to Angband.
Well. If it helps to expose her to bad things that are the fault of different evil people. I have a brother who believes that the last four hundred fifty years of his life have been a sadistic hallucination by the Enemy, who apparently let him 'escape' ten different times, sometimes for subjective decades, just to fuck with him.
Yeah, expect the most helpful thing will be winning the war. And once he has more powerful magic himself. In a couple millenia I expect he'll start believing this is reality just because there's nothing of strategic relevance the Enemy could gain from maintaining a hallucination.
Ah. That. It's not precisely that a single gene is responsible for the great diversity of mutations; rather, the X-Gene alters the behavior of the rest of a mutant's genome--how, obviously, depends on their individual genetic structure. As for the other--I don't actually have an explanation for it, yet, but it's intensely peculiar to us as well.
Uh, remember how I said I was jealous of your brother for being able to get away with being rude to people who deserve it? I may have bitten a few people who deserved it when I was her age. She threw an indestructible friend of hers out a window--in her defense, she knew he would be fine, but.
I shall have to fetch Illia and possibly Andreth and then afterwards Macalaure and--hmm. Might be a good idea not to do the resurrection in Feanorian territory after all, just because Beth Miqlat has more space that is both empty/comfortable for a person to be in and defensible. You've got fortresses that already have people in them and areas not surrounded by walls, as far as I can tell, an almost-empty city is a rare commodity.