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Jun did a show last night, so maybe he's holding it together well enough to do a lesson today. It'd sure help take Beila's mind off things; maybe it'd do the same for him. She can always fly away again if he's not feeling it.

Knock knock?
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He opens the door of the practice room looking tired, but less fretful than last time they talked.

"Oh, it's you. Hi."
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"Hey. Thought I'd stop by in case. I can just leave if you'd rather take a nap or something."

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"Nah, I've tried napping, it doesn't help. I can't promise a lesson up to my usual standard, but there's no harm in trying, right?"

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"Unless you accidentally train me to do something wrong and I have to painstakingly unlearn it."

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"I don't think I'm feeling that far off my game."

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"Right then." She sails into the basement, fire streamers fluttering after her.

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It seems Jun hasn't yet been able to install a wall mirror.

He watches Beila's fire streamers, but he seems distracted and pensive rather than focused on her progress.
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Well, okay. She can just sort of practice in front of him instead of on the beach.

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He rubs his face with both hands in a gesture of frustration.

"Well, I'm contributing nothing to this lesson, but at least I'm not actively setting you back," he sighs.
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She lets the fire fizzle out. "You look like you need, I don't know, chocolate?"

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"There's an idea," he says. "'Go questing for delicious food in an unfamiliar part of town', historically a very effective method of stress relief. Want to go see if this city is hiding any, I don't know, ice cream places I haven't seen yet? We can chat about bending theory, maybe I'll drop some useful insights."

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"Sure."

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"Great. Just a minute while I change into something less flamboyant."

He leaves the practice room, ducks into a dressing room, and emerges in much less than a minute dressed like a reasonably ordinary citizen instead of like, well, Delightful Jun.
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Beila's outfit is already pretty nondescript.

Off they go.
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They'll have to range pretty far afield to find an ice cream place Jun hasn't seen yet, but that suits him just fine. His mood seems much improved just from being outside and on the move.

"Did you get a chance to ask anybody about my theories of any-movement bending?"
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"I did mention it to the nuns, but the nuns were distracted by arguing with me about the Avatar State."

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"Oh?"

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"They think I need to be provoked into it at least once or twice by strong emotions before I'll be able to master it, but I read Meixing's autobiography and it didn't sound like the two versions had anything in common except for glowing eyes."

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"That doesn't necessarily mean you can do the one without the other, but it's hardly strong evidence that you can't... would it be dangerous to try?"

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"I don't think so. It sounds dangerous to go into the uncontrolled version, but that's what they want me to do anyway, and I don't think I could possibly make things worse by either failing to do it altogether or getting the wrong version under conditions of my choosing. Compared to flipping out because there's some sort of bad news character chasing me around, or whatever."

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"Then in my highly relevant and professional opinion as your firebending instructor, screw the nuns, they don't know everything. Arrange controlled conditions to your satisfaction, try it, see what happens."

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"Controlled conditions will probably just be 'in the middle of nowhere'. Although I'm not even sure that's strictly necessary, considering that the uncontrolled version burns itself out when there's no more distressing situation."

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"Might not be strictly necessary, might still be a good idea, in case of unforeseen disasters. And you don't seem to have any pressing emergencies to deal with, so it's not like there's a high risk you'll hit the uncontrolled version on your own without getting the chance to experiment first."

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"Yeah. I might never have a pressing emergency to deal with on my own, regular law enforcement is pretty good at its job."

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"So, no reason not to take your time."

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"But it would be a shortcut to doing that bridge across the ocean I vaguely want to build. I could just poll all my past lives and come out knowing exactly how to pull it off and then bam."

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"Bridge across the ocean, huh? From where to where?"

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"From here to the Fire Nation mainland, I think. Transit otherwise involves going over a ton of islands or in a boat, which is great if you want the scenery and not great if you get seasick and want to be there in a hurry."

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"Seems reasonable."

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"I like to think so."

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"It would've been very uncharacteristic if you'd said, oh, 'from the north pole to the south pole, it seems unfair that they have to use boats'."

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"I did consider from the Earth mainland to the North Pole, but the actual borders of the North Pole are complicated enough what with it being substantially composed of ice that building bridges to it is a problem."

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"Yeah. And a bridge between the poles seems... like it's answering the question 'where is the coolest place to build a bridge across the ocean', not 'where is the most useful place to build a bridge across the ocean' or 'what's a good way to make travel between the poles easier'; that's why I'd be surprised if you suggested it."

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"Also it would be a structural nightmare. Like, the planet turns! The forces involved in that would probably be pretty significant at a pole-to-pole bridge level."

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"That too. But I also wouldn't expect you to let practical challenges stand in your way if you really wanted a bridge between the poles for some reason."

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"True. But it might take more than mastering the Avatar State."

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"It might! Even the combined knowledge of all past Avatars can only get you, well, the combined knowledge of all past Avatars, and I've noticed there doesn't seem to be a bridge between the poles. So even if somebody did build one, I'd hardly call it a successful project."

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"Exactly."

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He grins.

Yes, the walk is definitely helping.
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Stroll, stroll. Perpetual helpful breeze so she doesn't fall down. Stroll.

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And: "That looks like ice cream to me!"

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"It does! Wonder if they have red bean."

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"Let's find out!"

They do have red bean. They also have many other flavours, of which Jun tries the three most excitingly-named ones.
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Beila gets some red bean. And some chocolate sauce to put on it.

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Jun eyes the chocolate sauce and other miscellaneous adornments speculatively, but restrains himself to just a few fruit syrups.

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Nom.

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Jun enjoys his ice cream immensely.

"Yeah, this was a good plan. Thanks for inspiring it."
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"You're welcome."

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Nom!

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"Do you wanna keep strolling into further unfamiliar parts of town?"

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"Sounds like fun."

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"Sure."

Stroll. Nom. Stroll, nom.
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Stroll stroll nom nom. All in all, this is much more pleasant than failing to deliver a firebending lesson.

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Yup.

Beila refreezes a melted bit of her ice cream and gestures inquiringly at his.
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"Oh, no thanks."

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"Ice cream soup for you it is."

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"The best kind of soup, obviously."

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"I'm a fan of miso, personally, but to each their own."

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"Depends on my mood, really. Today is definitely an ice-cream-soup kind of day."

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"I won't offer to melt it for you."

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He laughs.

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She grins.

A little old lady turns a corner ahead of them and seems to recognize Jun. Only: "Li!" she calls. "Li, hi! I'm home a day early and won't need you to look at my garden tomorrow at all." Blink. "Oh, you aren't Li. Sorry, these old eyes."
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...Hm.

"Don't worry about it. Who's Li?"
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"My new neighbor," says the little old lady. "Such a nice boy."

Hmm.
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"He sounds it. I don't suppose you could introduce us? It's just - I lost contact with my family a long time ago, and I'm always hoping for an unexpected relative to turn up so I can reconnect - being mistaken for someone in the street sounds like a promising lead."

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Beila is glad she let Jun take point on this, she could not have come up with and delivered so plausible a lie.

"Oh, sure," says the little old lady, "why not, but I warn you he's very shy, he might not warm up right away, and also I need to pick up my medicine first."
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"Thank you so much. I promise I'll do my best not to bother him."

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"All right, you stay put right here and I'll get my medicine and we'll go introduce you to Li," nods the little old lady, and she goes in to the pharmacy, comes out, and leads Jun and Beila to her house, chattering on the way (her name is Meng, she has a pet butterflymouse, she grows veggies and makes the best stirfries you ever did hear of, she has seven grandchildren...)

And here is her house, complete with vegetable garden, and there, she says, is where Li lives. She'll just go knock on the door, how about?
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"Oh, your garden is lovely. Sure, thank you."

And if he hangs back a little he gets the chance to warn Beila in an undertone, "Might want to stay out of sight of the door at first, in case he recognizes you."
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Beila steps aside.

She's got her bag on her; it has a chordpress in it. "I'm telling my dad where we are," she murmurs. "...Do you think this would be a good time to try a quick experiment with the State?"

Meng hobbles up to Li's door.

Knock knock.
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"Could be," he murmurs back, and that's as much as he can say before he's following Meng up to Li's door.

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It takes him a minute to answer the door - pretty normal for Li.

"Oh, hello, Meng," he says, smiling. "Home early?"
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"I am! You won't need to water my garden," she nods. "Also I saw a man on the street who looks just like you as far as my old eyes can tell! He wanted to know who you were, says he's looking for family."

(Beila, standing just out of sight, shuts her eyes. She breathes... Meixing said -)
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He glances past Meng at Jun, coming up the path behind her.

He freezes.



"Thank you, Meng," he says quietly. "Could you please leave us alone to catch up? I'm sure Sapphire misses you terribly."
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"I'm sure she does!" nods Meng. "Poor thing. Lots of nectar and no company." Off she goes to console her lonesome butterflymouse.





(Beila's eyes glow - and then stop.)
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'Li' stands in his doorway, waiting, until Meng is all the way back in her house.

Then he says: "So. You are real."
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"I admit I wasn't expecting this cold a welcome, but maybe I should've been."

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"How did you find me," he whispers.

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"Pure coincidence. Ran into the old lady on the street, just like she said."

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Dao is a little concerned - Spider seemed very nervous when he went to answer the door, and it's been a while.

He comes up to the front of the house to see what's taking so long.



He sees Jun.

"...What."
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Spider glances back fearfully. "Dao! Go back inside—he's dangerous—"

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- At that Beila steps around the corner of Meng's bean trellis.

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Spider catches sight of her and freezes again.

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"He's—is he? Are you? What is going on?" says Dao. He doesn't have clear line-of-sight to Beila, so he doesn't notice her stepping into view of the door.

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"Dao?"
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"Beila?"

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"You know the Avatar?"

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"I - I'm - what - okay," says Dao. "One thing at a time. Can we please not have this conversation shouting through a doorway."

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Spider looks warily at Jun and Beila.

"It's not - not safe to let them in," he says softly.
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"Is it really that much safer at this point for us all to stand around confusing each other in public?" he asks. "Come on. I know these people. Beila's my girlfriend," he emphasizes, hoping Spider will remember that Dao's girlfriend knows things about him, hoping this will be at least a tiny bit reassuring. "Please?"

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Jun tries to look nonthreatening.

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He hesitates over this decision, glancing back and forth between Dao and Beila.

"...okay," he says at last. "Okay. You can come in. I'll. I'll make tea."
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Dubious as all get out, Beila edges doorward.

She is looking very concerned at Dao.
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Jun steps inside. More curious than dubious, really.

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"Spirits, what a clusterfuck," Dao mutters, as Spider retreats to the kitchen to put the kettle on. "Look. Can I. Can I just. Everyone here is an okay person that I know and like, please stop looking like you're expecting each other to start shit at any moment, I think that is the kind of thing that ends up being self-fulfilling?"

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Dubiousness. So much of it. "When exactly did you make friends?"

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"Thiiiiis morning look it's complicated."

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"I'm getting that. So, explain, and maybe if the explanation is super good I can calm down."

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"I'm not sure I'm that good at explanations!"

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"Then you might have to settle for me being kind of on edge, but I'm not attacking anyone or glowing, see?"

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"You are totally not attacking anyone or glowing and I respect and appreciate that," says Dao.

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Spider comes back from the kitchen with a tea-tray holding a large teapot and four cups. He sets it down on the table and perches uncomfortably on the couch next to Dao, then looks up at Jun.

"You explain first," he says.
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"Running into your neighbour was honestly a coincidence and I wasn't expecting it at all, but before that... I'm a firebending instructor, among other things. I recognized Dad's bending style, clear as day. I—I didn't know I had a younger brother, until I saw the video."

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Spider slumps, covering his face with his hands.
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Dao hugs him protectively.

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"And what is my boyfriend doing here?"

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"Making friends in unexpected places?" he suggests, then sighs. "Oh man... look, can I just tell them?" This last to Spider.

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"I—I—"

He shrinks fearfully in Dao's arms.
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"Was my boyfriend by any chance kidnapped and then capture-bonded."

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"No! I mean - that is - technically a possible interpretation of events, but like - you know I have some pretty legitimate reasons to sympathize here, all right?"

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"Crossed my mind."

Among other things.
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Dao sighs.

"Jun, you seem like you're the least freaked-out person here for some reason, anything to say?"
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"I'm starting to get the feeling that there's a story here and it's about highly inappropriate coping mechanisms," he says.

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"Um. Yeah," says Dao. "Yeah, that's pretty much... that's pretty much the story. And I was trying to help him find better coping mechanisms, and it was working really well, and then suddenly you're here and also his brother? I'm very confused about that part."

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"It's a heck of a series of coincidences. Are we sure it is not time to award you your first 'congratulations, you have got caught up in dangerous shenanigans because you're the Avatar's boyfriend' badge?"

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"I am pretty sure that if he'd known I was your boyfriend he wouldn't have kidnapped me because he is not super super dumb," says Dao.

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"Being super dumb is not the only reason to kidnap my boyfriend."

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Dao makes a frustrated sound and hugs Spider, who has been remaining small and scared and miserable this whole time.

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"The coping mechanisms thing sounds pretty reasonable to me. 'Nothing else is helping my emotional state, why not try murder?' is the kind of thought process being raised by that man will tend to give you. I was lucky enough to find out how much I liked performance art long before I was pushed that far, but I did my share of stupid, destructive things as a teenager."

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"The picture I'm getting of your dad from the things you guys say about him is really unpleasant," says Dao.

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"He was a really unpleasant person."

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Beila can't think of anything helpful to say.
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"Beila, you look - I have no idea but it's worrying me," says Dao.

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"What, exactly, are you worried will happen?"

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"I'm worried you're going to not believe me about stuff, or believe me and not care, and you'll end up wanting to do something that hurts my friend, and - nobody needs to do anything that hurts him, okay, the problem is solved, we have solved the problem. No more murder."

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"You have solved the problem? How'd you do that?"

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"Better coping mechanisms!"

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"Seems like this might go better if you'd tell us what those were."

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...Dao hugs Spider some more.

"I - can I tell them," he says. "Please."
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"I'm scared," murmurs Spider in a tiny tiny voice.

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When one has nothing constructive to say, one should be a quiet Avatar.

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"I know," says Dao. "I'm sorry. But look, you wouldn't be here if you weren't really good at being scared and still doing stuff, right? And pretty much the only way I see out of this where everybody gets to be happy is if we convince Beila that you actually aren't going to murder any more people."

He looks up from hug to address his girlfriend.

"Beila. If you're convinced he's actually not going to murder any more people, will you like, not get him arrested or fight him or anything, and just let him go not murder people in peace?"
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Sigh.

"My dad knows where we are."
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"Fuuuuuck," says Dao. "Like. Knows you're here and knows you think there's a bone-stealing serial killer around?"

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"Yes. And I don't think he will be very impressed with your psychological assessment. But you'll probably be allowed to serve as a character testimony if you want."

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This news does not seem to be reassuring!

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"I don't suppose you could, like. Happen to have been mistaken about whether there was a bone-stealing serial killer around," sighs Dao.

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"That would require me to be really, spectacularly impressed with your psychological assessment."

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"Okay," says Dao. "Like. I am impressed enough with my psychological assessment that I am sitting here trying to argue you out of doing anything bad to him? Instead of being like 'great, rescue, please arrest the kidnapper'? And I swear it is not capture-bonding, seriously, it's - it's just not. It's just really not."

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"For whatever my psychological assessment is worth, I can give it if you tell me what your deal is," says Jun, addressing the shivering lump in Dao's arms.

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"We are not talking, amateurs with what are objectively personal stakes in the matter and brief exposure to the subject think he's fine, level of psychological analysis quality," says Beila.

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"I came prepared to kill him if I had to, I'm not going to give him a pass just because he's family," says Jun. "But I do have personal knowledge that the kind of problems he might plausibly have can be very much solvable, and it can be as sudden and simple as finding out one thing you can do that just works perfectly. If you won't take my word for it and you won't take Dao's, though, what will you take?"

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"There might not be anything. I mean, there probably shouldn't be a way to convince people not to arrest serial killers at the last minute by saying the right thing."

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"I don't think I agree," says Jun. "I have no great faith in justice, theoretically or practically. The important part seems to be preventing people from getting hurt, and if there's a way to do that without anybody getting arrested, so much the better."

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"The point is to prevent people from getting hurt. And sticking to policies that tend to reduce people getting hurt, even if there are emotionally charged arguments under time pressure saying to break them just this once - is in aggregate a pretty good way of doing that."

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"I can see the logic, but that's not how I operate. Rules, on the whole, have not been good to me."

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"We probably don't have the time to come to total philosophical agreement on that even if it's in the cards."

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"Then I think you need to make a decision about whether or not they could possibly convince you," says Jun. "—Hmm, but before you do, here's a thought. As an alternative to 'we were mistaken about the bone-stealing serial killer', how's 'we found the bone-stealing serial killer, and he kidnapped me and ran for it'? Meaning in reality that I go with him to personally verify that he's not murdering anybody. It'll leave you down one firebending teacher, but nobody gets arrested and there's less... policy trouble."

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"Do you think you can succeed at that job if it turns out to actually be a job and not a... non-job?"
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"Yeah. I mean, I'd pretty much be betting my life on that, so, yes."

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Beila looks at Dao. And Spider. "Lying to Chali about how things went down and having to find a new firebending teacher is a lower standard of evidence than letting the serial killer go totally unescorted. But it's still a standard. What else is there to say about this... situation?"

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Lots of shivering. There is that to say.

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Hugs.

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"Look, little brother - do you hate your name as much as I do, by the way?"

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This question actually gets him to uncurl a little, although he looks at the floor rather than at any humans present.

"I don't... hate it," he murmurs. "I. You can use it if you want."
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"If you say so. Okay. It seems like your one remaining chance at not having to fight this out or get arrested is to tell us what happened and see what Beila thinks of it. So. Are you going to do that, or not?"

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He uncurls a little more.

"I don't want to fight," he says. "Or get arrested."
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"Okay. What do you want to do? What brilliant idea did Dao have that works for you?"

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Hesitating. Hesitating. Deep breaths.

"I want to be a healer," he tells the floor softly.
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"Wait. What."
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"I'm a waterbender. I - my father was always disappointed about it - he taught me firebending even though I can't do it - wouldn't let me learn how to heal. So when. I thought. If everyone thought I was a different kind of bender, it would be easier to hide. So I figured out how to fake firebending. And. When I told Dao why I was - doing all this, for real, that it was because it's the only time I ever feel okay... he said, why don't you try healing and see if that makes you feel okay too. And it. Did."

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"...I hate to ask this because of what the answer might do to Beila's faith in my ability to keep you in line, but: how exactly did you fake Dad's suicide, Sora?"

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"Bloodbending."
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"I looked up the - your dad died in broad daylight. During a half moon, which they note on police reports as a matter of policy."

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"Had to get it right first," he murmurs. "Had to get it perfect. If he could've suspected even for a minute. If he could've done anything to stop me. It would've been. Bad."

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"You can bloodbend at any time of the month, day or night, well enough to fake a suicide, you have taken up serial killing - Jun, what does this do to your estimate of your ability to handle him if handling as opposed to just palling around with him proves necessary?"

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"Honestly? Not much. Does make it harder to take him down nonlethally if it came to it, but by the time he's using bloodbending to stop me from preventing him from murdering people, that wouldn't be much of a priority anymore. You'll forgive me if I don't name all my tricks out loud and give him a chance to think up counter-strategies, but I think I've taught you enough for you to realize I might have some."

Enough firebreathing control to warm a cup of tea, say. A solid enough theoretical understanding of firebending to make any flame he pleases out of any movement. The capacity to produce lightning, including with unusual movement patterns. It does not boggle the mind to imagine he might be able to throw lightning even while being bloodbent.
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"Still. ...I could debend him."
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He flinches away from her.

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"Debending him takes away the one positive coping mechanism he's found so far," Jun reminds her. "And he seems to find the prospect even more terrifying than the rest of this conversation."

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Nod nod.

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"Jun, you have to sleep. And it's one thing to tell Chali that, oh, the serial killer grabbed his brother and ran off, good luck, and it's quite another to let him go on thinking this leaves him looking for a couple firebenders when one of them is an apocalyptically skilled bloodbender."

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Shiver.

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Jun looks at Sora with a kind of immediate concern he has not displayed so far in this conversation.

"Something to say over there?"
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Beila does not glow, startle, or fuck with the air. Such discipline.

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"I would rather die."
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"'We found the serial killer and I had to take him out' can also be arranged. Without you needing to attack anybody for it."

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"Okay."
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Jun is no longer concerned.

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Dao is kind of concerned. He hugs Spider some more.

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"I'm going to check my messages," says Beila, "and see if there's more information on how much time we have to come up with really clever solutions."

Check. Check.

"Nothing from Chali. He may not have read it yet."
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"Can we think of a really clever solution where, like. No one dies," says Dao. "That would be super nice."

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Spider hugs Dao.

"You still helped," he murmurs. "Even if. You still helped."
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"Well, I thought we were going in to address a firebender, so I didn't ask the past lives contingent about partial debending, but I can check, since I did master the Avatar State fifteen minutes ago."

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Cringe.

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"...Still no?"

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"I - I don't - I can't - I don't want to, I, don't want, to use it, but, I can't, it's, it's all I have," he says. "For - if - when there's people around, I—I always know, if they tried to hurt me, I could stop them."

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"But you're not sure you could go up against the Avatar," guesses Jun, "which is why you are falling apart so thoroughly in this conversation, and why you were so reluctant to admit you're a bloodbender?"

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Nod nod.

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"If this is what you'd be like around people constantly without the bloodbending option, I can see why you might prefer death," says Jun.

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Nod nod.

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"Could you handle having me around all the time, if we went that route?"

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"I think. I think you'll. If."

He takes a breath and tries again.

"I don't think you'd hurt me as long as I wasn't trying to hurt anyone else. So all I have to do is not do that. So it's okay."
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"I find it pretty unlikely this is even something I can do, because I doubt anyone's wanted to selectively de-bend someone before," says Beila. "But the bloodbending, not the watering the neighbor's plants or the healing, is the thing that's really straining credulity here."

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"Okay," says Jun. "But it seems like selective de-bending wouldn't help anyway. You're the one who'd be lying to your dad if we went the one way, so, your call: do I run off with him and keep an eye on him in case of incidents, bloodbending and all, or kill him? Or do we think of another brilliant idea? The well of brilliant ideas may be running a little dry here."

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"Give me a minute."

Beila picks up her chordpress.

"Any last-minute data I should incorporate while I think?"
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"I will note that he seems extremely risk-averse, and while it's true that he could kill me in my sleep, trying would be very risky," says Jun. "And for what it's worth I do completely believe him about the turnaround. It fits."

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"Mmhm."

But that all boils down to more amateur psychological assessment by someone who's known this guy for less than a day.

So much amateur psychological assessment.

Jun's betting his life on it, Dao's survived this long -

- and they're volunteering, which none of the previous dead people may be assumed to have done, which future victims are not doing.

What does she want?

Sora, here, forfeited his stranger's place in line as far as her seeking his welfare is concerned. She doesn't actively wish him harm, but she doesn't wish to trade anybody else's well-being in for his even at very favorable exchange rates and uncertain price except where those others can volunteer. If she could be sure that he were safe, if she de-bent him and de-psychopathed him to boot all in one motion, then she'd be willing to pay for his freedom with collective nervousness about a serial killer yet uncaught, her volunteering firebending teacher, and her track record of honesty with her dad. She wants Dao not to look at her like she killed his pet, but she really needs to set that aside; it is swamped by other concerns.

What does she have?

Not that much certainty. Lots of amateur psychological assessment. It points all in one direction, from... two sources, one of whom is her boyfriend with questionable personal sympathies and one of whom is the guy's brother. Who are being awfully convinced by short-term signals like and timid body language and the ever-reliable "saying so".

She could de-bend him. He'd rather die, and that's his prerogative, and nobody will think twice about writing it off as self-defense.

She'd feel heroic about it forever if he went away and quietly healed people in a suburb on an island and never hurt anyone again.

And if he recidivized - if he went through Jun, after another twenty years of timid covert practice or whatever it took, and then he killed another half a dozen people or even just one - she'd feel like shit, and it would be wrong for anyone to trust her again whether or not they actually did through a carefully sown string of lies -

Is this all awfully self-centered? Yes it is, and why shouldn't it be, because on her own head be it either way.

How can she use what she has to get what she wants?

She can't.

How can she get close?

"If he'd rather die," she says softly, tucking her chordpress back into her bag, "that's his prerogative. I can't turn a bloodbending serial killer loose. Couldn't do it even if I weren't answerable to Chali about it."
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"Dao, are you going to make this difficult?"

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Spider hugs Dao.
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Beila glances at Jun. "You don't have to, I made the call, I can own it."

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"No, I'll do it. I don't mind. Since we have the luxury, we should probably get our story straight beforehand; are we leaving out the fifteen minutes we spent debating whether to let him go when we tell your dad about this? And the part where Dao was here? I'm sure Dao has no desire to talk to law enforcement about any of this."

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"I assume you were careful to make sure no one saw Dao come in, Sora. Is there a back exit? Is there going to be enough noise for the little old lady next door to hear? It's not so uncommon for there to be a little conversation before things come to a standoff, that part's not necessarily a problem."

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"I don't think it'll sound like somebody being killed," says Jun.

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"He can go out the back, yes."

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"Assuming I ever let go of you," mutters Dao, "which I wouldn't be so sure about right now."

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"Dao."

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Beila wouldn't vouch for her opinion having more sway over her boyfriend than the bloodbending serial killer's, at this point.
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Dao... lets go of Spider.

"I don't, I don't, there are a lot of smart people in this room can't we think of something..."
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Beila checks her message. "Nothing from Chali. We've probably got a little while. But there might not be anything."

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Spider hugs Dao again.

"Thank you. For helping. It's because of you that I got to be okay for good reasons. Even if it was only twice. Okay?"
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"Not really," says Dao. But he doesn't resume desperately clinging to Spider.

And he doesn't tell anyone that this is, and has been since he let go, the result of bloodbending as opposed to his own actual decisions. If Spider is really that sure, then - fuck it, Dao is out of arguments.
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Spider stands up and walks away from the couch.

He looks at Jun.

(He stops bloodbending Dao. His point seems to have been made.)
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"I think we're out of brilliant ideas," says Jun.

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"I think so too," says Spider. He smiles a little, dropping his eyes to the floor. "It was nice meeting you, big brother."

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Jun laughs softly.

"Yeah," he says. "Same to you."

And he breathes lightning. No warning, no extraneous movement of any kind. It's bright and loud, but over very quickly.
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Spider is pretty definitively not alive anymore.

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Dao bursts into tears and runs out of the room, toward the back door.
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Beila watches him go, then grits her teeth and sends a more urgent-marked message to her dad.

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Jun looks pensively at what's left of his little brother.

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A few minutes later there's a siren, and a swarm of cops and a medical examiner and a lot of fuss and questions.

Beila and Jun get to walk away.