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Loki learns to become a bird.

She can be only one sort of bird, a swift, bad at takeoff from the ground but tireless and quick in the air - and who needs to take off from the ground when the transformation leaves one six feet in the air from a standing start? It would be nearly as hard to add another creature to this spell's arsenal as it was to manage the swift in the first place. She is satisfied with the bird for now; she slips out of the palace and flies, invisible, for hours, and lets Thor tease her about the assignations that must have kept her up late and left her tired in the morning.

(She sometimes has assignations too, but fewer with the first blush of hormonal need worn away. Sometimes Sigyn, sometimes whoever else. Mostly: flying.)

A few months after she has begun to spend time as a bird (and picked up the idea of teleportation, which will be desperately difficult but not, she thinks, outside her reach) there is a parade. They have these every few decades, on the bicentennial or centennial anniversaries of things. The queen, the king, the princesses, a lot of neatly marching warriors, decorative performers with competent dance steps and pleasing voices and desperately incompetent illusions, all winding around in a slow trek around the capital city to be looked at and wave.

It is somehow even duller to sit in a parade and wave and smile when she could be being a bird.

But she can't, not really, so she sits, smiles, tries to remember without checking her notes what this is the twenty-seventh centennial of exactly, waves her hand at the crowd.

And then there's a crackling burst of light and Frigg, the king, her father, has collapsed from their vehicle to the street.

The smoking staff of power aimed at them is just barely visible in the distance among the crowd. Thor has already seized her hammer; Thor will handle that -

Loki leaps after her father, to duck another blast, to see the extent of the injury. "HEALER!" she cries. "IS THERE A HEALER?"
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There is not a healer. Or if there is, he is inexplicably not volunteering.

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"YOUR KING REQUIRES HEALING! IF YOU HAVE ANY SKILL AT IT, STEP FORWARD!" Loki roars, checking her father's pulse. Be alive. Be alive while she collects her own courage or someone in the crowd collects their wits.

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The king is, currently, alive. But there are no guarantees about how long that will continue. And no one is stepping forward.

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Fuck.

Fuck, fuck, fuck.

Odds of an 'invisible healer' gambit working -

Gaps in the crowd through which she could manifest an illusory one -

No and no.

Loki bends her head over her father and repairs him completely, and then leaps up, weapon in hand, and goes to help Thor.
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Thor is not much in need of aid. Just as Loki arrives, the would-be assassin is falling to the ground unconscious or dead from a blow to the chin. The crowd in the immediate vicinity has cleared, except for one person who is looking at Thor very much in the attitude of someone who feels that she should attack but would strongly prefer to flee and is having trouble resolving this internal conflict.

(Back at the head of the parade, the king sits up in confusion, and the queen stares down from their vehicle in concern and surprise and growing anger.)
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There will be time for Loki to deal with the queen's anger later. First she's going to trip the likely accomplice and pin her to the ground by the neck with a forked Lævateinn. "Put Mjolnir on her," she suggests in a low voice to her sister. "So she can be questioned."

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"You've captured her well enough," says Thor, uncharacteristically serious and unhappy for having just been in a fight. "Is Father—?"

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"He's alive. I am - expecting to be called away. I suppose I can leave Lævateinn."

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She sighs with relief, then frowns with concern. "Called away...?"

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Loki looks over her shoulder at Odin.

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Thor follows the look.

Odin is glaring.

Frigg is getting to his feet, totally uninjured despite the large hole burned through his obviously-not-protective-enough enchanted clothing.

Thor... is confused.
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"If she doesn't give me a chance to explain you can ask Sigyn," Loki murmurs.

She takes her hand off Lævateinn where it pins the assassin's accomplice, keeps her hands visible. Looks apologetically relieved at Frigg.
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Frigg climbs back onto the vehicle and stands beside his queen. Guards surround the vehicle.

"Are the attackers caught?" calls Odin.

"Aye, Mother," Thor calls back.

Odin gives an order to some guards, who push through the crowd to surround the captured assassins. Out loud in her public-speaking voice, she says, "The attack has failed. The king is healed. We return to the palace. Come, Thor, Loki. Guards, bring the prisoners."

Thor... is still very confused. Some of the guards look at Loki with suspicion as they collect the prisoners, but no one interferes with her.
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When the prisoners are transferred to non-Lævateinn-based methods of capture Loki retrieves her blade and puts it back in its carrying-around shape and comes as called.

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Thor gets an approving nod from their mother when she arrives back at the vehicle. Loki gets summarily ignored. Thor darts a confused glance at her sister, but doesn't give voice to any actual questions on the way back to the palace.

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Loki sits quietly and wonders just how bad an idea it would be to just fly far, far away -

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And Odin remains quietly seething and Thor remains quietly bewildered and Frigg remains quietly concerned all the way back to the palace, where the guards take the prisoners away and the royal family are left alone together.

"Loki," glowers Odin. "Have you anything to say for yourself?"
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Loki has so many things to say for herself. I'm not sorry. But for the affection I bear my father you would be a widow. I have never for a moment been the daughter you wanted and it's time you accepted that. I wish they'd been aiming at you, I wouldn't have saved you. Mama, mama, look what I can do -

Does she have anything wise to say for herself?

"I decided a long time ago that I would rather he live and despise me than die not knowing he could have been saved, if ever it came to that."
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"I don't despise you," murmurs Frigg. Odin glares at him.

"What...?" says Thor, and then seems unable to finish her sentence.

Frigg sighs. "Loki used magic to heal me of what would have been a mortal wound."

"...Sister...?" says Thor, conflictedly confused and unhappy.
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"No one else stepped forward. I hadn't thought we were so short on lesser healers," murmurs Loki.

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"But... but how did you do it? You're not a sorcerer...?"

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Loki would sort of like to get out of this entire conversation without listing all her spells, but.

"The Tesseract taught me."
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Odin growls.

"Perhaps it was meant to be," says Frigg.

Odin growls louder.

"I don't understand," says Thor.
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"When we were little," Loki tells Thor, "I went wandering through the palace and found a door that was meant to be locked, left open, and in it the Tesseract, which I did not know not to touch. And it taught me."

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"It taught you sorcery? But - you're my sister. A princess of Asgard. Proper warriors don't do sorcery. But..." she looks at her father. "I..."

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Maybe she'll get it, maybe she won't. Clarifying that it only taught her the alphabet and it took many decades of mindbending work to get an actual spell - wouldn't help right now. Loki shuts her eyes.

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Thor falls silent.

"You are a disgrace, but a fortunate one," says Odin. (Thor frowns, but doesn't say anything.) "We will see what comes of the investigation."

And Odin collects her concerned husband and sweeps off.
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Loki relaxes, a little, when Odin is gone.

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Thor remains lost and confused and unhappy.

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"There's not a good reason why women don't do magic," Loki says softly. "And there never, ever has been."

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"But... but it's... it's not right," she says. "Except... you saved Father's life, that has to have been right, I don't understand why Mother is so angry..."

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"Because to save him, I had to know how to do it in the first place," sighs Loki.

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"If the Tesseract taught it to you, then that's hardly your fault," says Thor. "It's... it's strange, but if you weren't using magic in battle, if you only knew how to heal, then... I suppose it's not wrong..."

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"I have only ever cast spells in battle against the landwurm, and that only after it had already swallowed Sigyn."

...Let's see how she takes that before Loki explains how thoroughly it is her fault and how she can do other things.
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Thor... struggles with this revelation.

"It's... it's better to use magic against the beast than to lose a friend to it," she says finally, with obvious doubt.
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"That was my thinking."

She hesitates.
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"...Loki...? What is it?"

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"Well - I knew that this would be my thinking, if it came to it. I knew that if I had the choice of healing Father or letting him die - healing you or letting you die - or Sigyn, though I didn't know him then - I knew that given this choice I'd rather heal. The Tesseract didn't teach me entire spells. It taught me enough to build them. But I knew that if I needed healing, I'd want to have it - so I built it."

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"I don't understand you," says Thor.
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"I know. If I'd thought you might, I - I'd've -" Loki trails off.

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"You'd have what?"

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"Told you, I guess. Earlier. Without having been wedged into a healing in front of an entire parade audience. If I'd thought you'd understand."

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She frowns unhappily.

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"Maybe Sigyn can explain it better than I can. He understands."

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"Well, naturally Sigyn understands," sighs Thor. "He's... Sigyn."

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"He has some idea what it's like to look at your options and say excuse me, this must have been meant for someone else."

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...Despite herself, she smiles a little at the phrasing.

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"I told you about how they're the other way around, on Midgard. They don't have any magic to divide up, but everything else, backwards. There's no reason to have it one way and not the other. There's no reason not to have everything both ways. There is no reason why I can't be a healer and Sigyn can't be a warrior. We can, we are, it's only everyone else insisting that it's not done."

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"But it - it isn't done," says Thor. "Except you did it anyway."

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"I did. And I'm better at it than anyone else I've ever heard of, too."

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"That's no surprise."

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"I don't think Mother should be angry with you."
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"I appreciate that. I don't think she should either. But she is anyway, and I am not sure what she will do with me."

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Unhappy conflicted Thor.

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"I was seen. She can't decide it is so shameful that she'll help me cover it up like nothing happened."

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"People will - I don't know what people will think," says Thor. "I couldn't have imagined that you'd be, a, a sorceress."

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"Well, the way I see it there are two general approaches. She can decide that since it cannot be hidden she must pretend it is acceptable to her for me - in particular, anyway, if not women in general - to know magic, and we all proceed as though I had her blessing. Or she can decide that I am to be considered a pariah for my unexpected skills, at which point either she will banish me herself or I will find the proceedings so exhausting that I will leave."

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"...I would miss you," says Thor.
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"I would probably go to Midgard again given the option, and I would not make myself difficult to find, but I would miss you, too."

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"I don't want Mother to exile you."

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"Well, I don't think it would do any good if I asked her not to. She's never liked me much. She might listen to you."

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Thor sighs unhappily.

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"I won't blame you if you don't ask her. I'd hoped never to put you in a position like this."

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"I... I don't know what to do."

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"You don't have to do anything. She may well decide to make a special exception for Tesseract-touched princesses the same way everyone makes an exception for one-eyed queens doing things not technically sorcery."

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She makes a conflicted face.

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That was probably pushing it a little.

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Apparently it was.

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"Sorry."

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Sigh. Nod.

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"Well, since no sentence seems to be immediately forthcoming and I haven't been expressly forbidden to do anything - unless you have further questions, I rather want to go find Sigyn."
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She hesitates, then shakes her head.

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Loki is so tempted to turn invisible, or into a bird, or both -

No. She can find Sigyn on foot. Or at least, she can leave this room on foot. If the rumor mill makes the streets impassable for the princess then they will have to be passable for a redheaded boy until she finds who she's looking for.

She inclines her head to Thor, then goes.
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And so, eventually: Sigyn's little house, where surprisingly few of his many acquaintances are ever invited to visit.

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Knock knock.

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He opens the door.

"Hello."
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"Hello. Someone shot my father full in the chest during a parade and he's currently in perfect health. Guess my mood."

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"Displeased. That is my guess," says Sigyn. "Do you want to come in?"

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"Yes. Frigg - has taken it rather well, but Odin is furious and Thor does not understand and at this moment I wish very badly to be understood."

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He opens the door wider and makes a welcoming gesture.

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She goes in. She flops on the nearest floppable surface. "Thank you."

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The nearest floppable surface is a very comfortable padded bench. Sigyn keeps a cozy house.

"You're perfectly welcome, of course."

He goes over to sit next to the flopped princess.
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Snuggle.

"They only know I can heal, that's all that's come up. And Thor's the only one who knows I invented the spell. My parents just got 'the Tesseract taught me'. True as far as it goes."
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Snuggle.

"Was it very public?"
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"Spectacularly. My spell isn't flashy, but everyone near where we were in the parade on that side of the vehicle saw me shout for a healer and not get one and saw Frigg sit up regardless."

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Much snuggle.

"We'll see what comes of it," he murmurs.
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"Yeah. I'm betting either 'princesses who have touched the Tesseract are special and may be magic' or 'so, which planet that isn't this one would you like to spend the next forever on'."

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"I hope for the first," says Sigyn.

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"Yes, so do I. But if I do wind up banished to Midgard do you want to see if they'll let you come?"

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"I might," he says. "I like you, and Midgard sounds interesting."

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Snuggle. "It would be nice to have company, especially if I'm going to be there longer than three years. But I'm probably getting ahead of myself."

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Snuggle. "Yes. It would be less disgraceful to her to pretend she allowed it, I think."

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"That is my hope. Thor feels awkward about the entire matter; she doesn't want me banished or all-but-banished but she's always been fond of Odin."

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"Hard for her, I'm sure."

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"Yes. But it is frustrating for me that it is hard for her. She likes me, she's just always been... unobservant... and it took her this, this moment at which I most keenly need support, for her to even notice that liking me was in tension with anything else that has ever appealed to her."

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"Yes," Sigyn agrees sympathetically. Snuggle.

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Snuggle. Not a whole lot else to say about the matter.

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Well, then, they can snuggle instead of speaking.

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That is good. Sigyn is helpful.

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He wishes to be helpful! It is good that he succeeds. Successful snuggles.

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And eventually, she gives him a kiss and goes home to see what her mother will have made of the situation with more time to think.