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halls of stone
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Tumunzahar makes Menegroth look like a contract project. Which, the Dwarves assure her, it was. The stonework is astonishingly careful and beautiful, silky to the touch up close while from a distance it gives the impression of stretching on forever above, a sky of stone with crystals for stars. Vast natural cave systems are connected by dozens of perfectly smooth, gently sloped broad stone pathways from which the fall, if she fell, would be several miles down. There are handrails. "We use those to move materials carts," someone explains to her, "we're not going to be reckless."

There's an amphitheater, a place where a hundred of the stone walkways twine around to create space for a hundred thousand people to sit in close proximity, and someone is giving a lecture or a demonstration at the base of it, the seats closest to him filled with eager, tiny, bearded Dwarf-children.

And they spiral down, and down, and down, past waterfalls and egg-sized gemstones left half in the rock and halls of crystal. Everything grows gradually more ornate and more perfectly maintained and the clang of hammers fades behind them. "People say," her guide says, "that we only have a council instead of a single King because there were nine winners of the competition to design the throne so we couldn't just select one person to sit it." And they push open the doors to reveal, indeed, nine thrones so elaborate it would be hard to choose between them, and nine squat bearded people sitting them.
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The children have beards. That's interesting. Loki inclines her head politely to the nine enthroned people. "Hello. I am called Loki Odinsdottir."

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One of them leans forward. "Hello. I am Móðsognir. Welcome to Tumunzahar. I hope it has struck you as inspiring, capably-done, and secure?"

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"Yes, and neatly laid out too."

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"Thank you. How much has been explained to you about the role of the council in Tumunzahar?"

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"Not very much detail, but apparently you're the people to go to for information intended to be generally disseminated."

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"We're here to solve problems that are difficult to solve through trade - like the defense of our people against enemies, investment in avenues of research that benefit no one presently alive, or, yes, the sharing of information that needs to be publicly known. Travel between realms might be our domain, or someone might think of a clever way to fix that with trade, in which case it'd be off our plates." He smiles.

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"Sounds like a good idea to have people designated for those sorts of things. Well, I don't know if the accident that sent me here can be reliably replicated, but I'm planning to figure out how to go to and fro with passengers at will in the next fifty to two hundred years with sorcery."

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They nod. "Can you give a brief account of your realms, the others known to you, the things that distinguish this one, the ways of traveling between them that are known..."

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"Sure. Any objections if I use illusory visual aids?"

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"Please go ahead."

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So she starts with the galaxy. "According to Melian, the stars in your sky are actually fake because the Valar had trouble putting real stars together correctly by their deadline, but beyond that there are real stars of the same sort known to my realm, which are enormous spheres of burning material, so vast that they can continue to burn for billions of years. Most planets are spherical, and orbit suns at distances many times greater than the diameter of the planet. This particular planet is a cylinder, again because the Valar took too long to figure out something. This is a galaxy; most stars are in one because matter tends to cluster together on scales like this. My realm is here." She zooms way in, cheating on most of the intermediate detail, until she's got a scale model of the Asgardian solar system, then zooms in on the planet, which she can show in substantially fine grain. "It has a lot of knowledge of other realms and high technology, but for aesthetic and social reasons mostly pretends not to have the tech and not to have met the other realms; we're in regular contact with only a few. To get between them we use a magical artifice called the Bifrost," she zooms in and shows that, "which can send or bring a small party from other planets. I was going to travel to a place called Midgard," she dismisses the Bifrost, shows Midgard from space, "for a period of a few years, with a companion; instead, I landed on the ice -" She pulls out her map, highlights that, "with some Elves, who were crossing into this continent from Valinor." Are they following her so far?

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"That sounds like a terrible idea," someone mutters.

"Elves," someone else coughs. But for the most part they are eagerly and gratefully listening, craning their necks to see the models from different angles.
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"They didn't have any very palatable options, but, yes, the journey was not pleasant. Other ways of traveling between realms are in ships that can traverse the space between planets and stars; there's a wide range of those, ranging from ones that take a while just to get to a planet's own moon," she presents Midgard's moon, which is particularly striking, "to those which can cross significant fractions of the galaxy in hours or days. With sufficient magic, technology, or both, outright teleportation is possible; that's what I'm planning to do. There are techniques that work a little like the Bifrost without being anchored to a specific item, opening a path that circumvents conventional space to allow easy transit between chosen points A and B. There may be other classes of transit method I haven't heard of or am forgetting. Some of these methods might not behave well if implemented on a cylindrical planet which came to exist before its sun did and is under false stars, but the teleportation spell I'm working on should be fine."

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Everyone nods seriously. "Is there much transit between realms?"

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"Depends on the realm. The most common sort of realm is one that hasn't been developed enough for anyone to bother inviting it to the broader stage. Midgard is one of those; occasionally things relevant to other realms happen there - a species my planet is at perpetual low-key war with built a base there, we went and drove them out, I could take a vacation there as long as I didn't disturb anything overmuch. There are realms like Asgard, which know about the galactic state of affairs but mostly reserve active contact for a handful of relatively like-minded or similarly-advanced realms - with exceptions for a few scholars or occasional diplomats. And there are various circles of outright galactic influence, which have all kinds of policies and habits as regards other realms, various interstellar squabbles, etcetera. It is not common to travel to other galaxies; my spell will be able to do it - it has to get to another reality - but it's hard to scale up and hard to see much about where you're going before you get there to know where might be a good place to land, so no significant contact is in place that I'm aware of."

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They nod. "And we are, you think, a realm not developed enough to attract galactic interest?"

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"The regular people wouldn't make the cut for a typical galactic-scaled realm in search of new friends, probably. The Valar and Maiar, however, would - they'd get people wanting to talk to them and trade favors with them as soon as anyone noticed they could do things like construct cylindrical planets. The thing is interdimensional transit is not a solved problem, and Melian made it sound like this whole dimension was completely empty before Eru started making things; so nobody but me from my reality has had a chance to notice you."

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There are looks exchanged around the room. Awkward coughing. Then "..the Elves say that their gods exist and made the world. Various groups of Men say that too, about different gods. Are you quite sure that the Valar exist at all? Or have the powers ascribed to them?"

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"I've met several people who've met them and do not tell suspiciously inconsistent or suspiciously consistent stories about their properties," Loki says. "And met one Maia in person myself, which seems like broadly the same sort of thing and would serve to make my point about the appeal of this planet to onlookers even if that were it. Ulmo in particular apparently replies to questions, albeit not in a timely fashion, and someone is going to ask him something for me. That's the extent of my evidence, though, I haven't even confirmed the world's a cylinder myself because I don't see well enough to detect that by looking. I haven't met any Men yet, let alone interrogated them about religion, but it's on my to-do list."

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"Hmm. In that case - I'm not at all sure that our interests would be served by trading between the Elf-gods and anyone who would desire to trade favors with them. It sounds like, unless someone stumbles across this world in the manner you did, that is unlikely until you solve cross-dimensional travel?"

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"Not necessarily; it is unlikely that anyone from my dimension will show up thus - though that's one possible origin for Ungoliant, she could also be a Maia - but reportedly there are real stars which may have further inhabited planets of their own in this reality, and maybe somebody up there has invented space travel very, very fast and is already on their way for who knows what."

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"Ah. So we may become players on a much larger stage than we anticipated, much sooner than we anticipated, and we do not have much to offer them."

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"Maybe. I'm not planning to personally import anyone I don't think I can manage and if necessary evict, but I can't do much about spaceships from your this-reality neighbors and may or may not succeed in controlling the information itself once I'm back in my reality."

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"Getting home requires the knowledge that you called 'not a solved problem'. You expect that you can be the first in your dimension - or in any dimension that's made contact with yours - to develop reliable cross-dimensional transit?"

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"It may have been developed; it is not scaled up or systematically exploited. I wouldn't know about it if someone across the galaxy from me had invented a spell just like the one I'm working on and vacationed in thirty different dimensions at whim. I do know that there are no imports or immigrants advertised as such in the way that there are things from many planets. Anyway, I do have what is likely a genuinely unique advantage in spellcrafting."

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"When can we expect you to be capable of traveling between dimensions at will?"

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"Low end fifty years, high end two hundred, if it takes me longer than that I may have a sufficiently fundamental problem that I have to stop actual spellcraft and instead spend a few decades doing physics experiments to compensate for the fact that here I can't just look things up in a sufficiently advanced library but I currently don't anticipate that unless Melian was lying to me."

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"Well. We appreciate that we're getting a bit of warning, at least, but that doesn't seem nearly enough time to be useful to anything in an apparently vast and disinterested galaxy."

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"It depends a lot on who finds you, but if you get benign trading-inclined people in the first place - which seems to be the scenario you're most interested in preparing for and is probably the scenario you are best able to prepare for - the things that you'll be able to distribute that they'll want, without running yourselves out of natural resources they could get elsewhere, are intellectual property type things. Fiction, history, even recipes, it might be a workable scenario if a bunch of anthropologists got very protective of you and wouldn't let anybody else bother you because they wanted to study your culture in its untouched state - which might be patronizing but is otherwise pretty harmless."

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"We have no interest in being the subject of outside study in that way."

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"Then I will try not to tell any anthropologists you exist. I'm really not planning to deliberately open floodgates to unfiltered visitation, but I don't want to stay cut off from my original galaxy forever and also find it likely that the most efficient way to stop the Enemy is to import something to throw at him."

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"The Elves' enemy?"

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"I didn't have the impression he was nice to anybody at all, even his own orcs, but yes."

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"We haven't really interacted with him at all or seen anything for which he is particularly responsible, save a few battles with the Elves in which both sides were disinclined to discuss terms. And we take Elf stories with some skepticism. But we would be interested in hearing the events that led you to also regard him as an enemy."

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"Well, he kidnaps and tortures and mind-controls and forcibly breeds Elves to generate his orc troops, all of whom are in constant pain until I heal them and are forced as children to take unbreakable oaths - do Dwarves have those? - to serve him. I consider this behavior pretty inexcusable."

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"The Elves should really have opened with that instead of telling us how he defies Eru," the questioner agrees gravely. "We do not have unbreakable oaths; we have contract law. It works better."

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"The newcomer elves are much more about the inexcusable behavior than the defiance," Loki says. "Contract law definitely seems to have superior downside potential; I am leery of the oath concept but it affects Elves and orcs both."

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"The newcomer Elves sound in every respect superior to the ones we've been acquainted with. Is there no judicial procedure for adjudicating oaths, or declaring them void?"

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"The way it was described to me is that the species who can do oaths 'do not have free will' and are therefore just sort of... fating themselves to do what they swear to do. I haven't actually asked if death releases them; they supposedly have an afterlife, although a Vala-administered one of very dubious quality, from which they can return to life if the Vala in question lets them. Other than that they seem to be genuinely irrevocable and trying to break them causes extreme, devastating depression which can only be alleviated by taking up the sworn task again. And they work when little children speak them. It's... it's a serious flaw in the species design, the oaths thing. The saving grace for the orcs is that if they're caught alive and in a cooperative mood - healing helps with that - they can be convinced of redefinitions of a few words and from there reuse their coerced wording to mean something less inherently antagonistic."

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Nods. "There are many serious flaws in the species design. I'd take them up with the designers, but until this moment I assumed that the gods of Elves were as real as the gods of Men."

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"I'd take them up with the designers but I'm assured that if I flew to Valinor and yelled the result would not be chastened Valar."

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"If there are weapons that'd change the result there," someone says mildly, "we'd be happy to develop them."

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"Ha. I'm not sure what it'd take to kill a Vala but I'm planning to find out with Morgoth. Possibly from there the next step will be threatening his peers into behaving themselves, if they're even capable of responding to threats."

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"That seems reasonable."

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"I pride myself on being reasonable." Gosh, Loki likes Dwarves. These are good Dwarves.

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They seem reasonably fond of her as well. "So, aside from encouragement to take a more active role in the Elves' war, and a hundred years' advance notice that we may be acquiring very powerful neighbors, what concerns of yours seem likely to be concerns of this council?"

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"I rescued someone from Morgoth who needs a place to stay for a few years and would like to bring him here. And while I was not anticipating the nature of this trip, I have a general education in the advances of my culture, much of which is new to you and may be useful even in piecemeal form."

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"Elves have traditionally been ill at ease in our company. We have divergent perspectives on topics such as timeliness, religion, and occasions where singing is appropriate."

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"Well, this one is one of the newcomer's crowd, which may help with the religion item; he's been good about keeping appointments with me of a kind where I tell him what day I'll be there and he's exactly where I expect him whenever during that day I happen to arrive; and I have never heard him sing and suspect he will not be in the mood."

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"In that case by all means. I'm sure there are ways Elves can make themselves useful," though he sounds rather dubious. "We'd be honored to host any guests who are friends of yours, whatever our assessment of whether they'll appreciate the favor."

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"Thank you. And I have notes prepared on a couple of subjects, including metallurgy which interested the Menegroth Dwarves; and I can come up with similar exposition on other topics as may interest you. But I can't stay long this visit - maybe the lectures I have plus one more of comparable size. I'm due back across the continent soon. I should have longer when I come back with Maitimo."

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"You have the means to travel across the continent quickly?"

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"I can turn into a bird of a species that can fly about a hundred miles an hour. It's nothing on the teleportation, but it's what I have prepped."

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"That's very useful. We have shipping routes stretching several thousand miles in the eastern direction, but it takes a long time for news to reach us from there."

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"I'd expect it to. I can't carry significant cargo as a bird, but I have found myself relaying a lot of messages. Would you be willing to fill in my map?" She pulls out her map. "People have been tracing in the air on it for me."

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"The locations of the other Dwarven kingdoms is not our information to disclose. The Men don't seem to regard their location as a secret but I'm not sure that's because they're fine with it being shared, rather than because they don't understand what we're asking."

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"Any other landmarks you could share? Mountains, bits of coastline?"

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"There might be surveyors interested in selling it."

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"Fair enough." She puts the map away.

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"Do the newcomers have weapons for the war? Are they interested in trading for some?"

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"They have swords and bows. It'd be a long trade route, although it sounds like you're accustomed to those; and they haven't asked about it but may not have known it was an option."

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"We'd be delighted if you'd make it known to them that that's an option. We can offer something in exchange, since sending an emissary would be a substantial expense on our part obviated by your agreeing to take the message."

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"Can I take an IOU?"

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"Certainly. We'll have confirmation notorized that you conveyed a message across the continent for us and are owed a favor of comparable expense."

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"Maybe I should explain fiat currency. That can be the extra lecture."
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"We'd be delighted to see that the lecture hall is booked for any time you care to speak; we will need to expend no effort to see to it that it's full."

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"In brief, fiat currency is a system where it is customary to trade arbitrary things for various quantities of IOUs - usually not of favors; most places get this system off the ground by backing the currency in something concrete and scarce, but once it's underway it can actually be backed by nothing at all but the sheer momentum of the system and some anti-counterfeit measures."

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A considering silence. "That seems to run a serious risk of sudden losses in faith in the system, perhaps resulting from certain kinds of tampering, that would make lots of unrelated trades fail."

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"That's why you need anti-counterfeiting, and to be very careful with the sorts of institutions that may spring up to do arbitrage and lending and storage. The advantage of the system is that if one person has something another wants but the first person doesn't want anything the second has, the fiat currency is universally desirable and there's no need to run a series of errands trying to find something agreeable and comparable in value. They can just settle on a number."

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"We have gold for that, does this have any advantages over gold?"

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"Gold's a fine thing to back it with starting out; fiat can be made much easier to transport and allows you to eventually inflate to accommodate greater total wealth in the system even if you don't happen to find gold ore at a convenient rate."

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Serious nods. "We'll schedule a public debate on the topic beginning after your lecture," someone says, "and suggest to some specific small market that they try it and report results to everyone else."

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"Good idea. Any other questions before I go dump science and econ on an amphitheater full of Dwarves?"

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"None come to mind. It's a worthy use of time to have met you, Loki Odinsdottir."

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"Likewise. Thank you for your kind reception."

She inclines her head. She thinks she remembers the way to the amphitheater.
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Even if she hadn't, thousands of people are filing in that direction so she could just follow them.

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She fusses with her notes, getting them in order and composing a quick fiat currency outline, until it looks like most people who want to be there are there.

Physics and engineering and metallurgy and economics! Visual aids! Wheeeeeeee!
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She has an eager and attentive audience, and there's practically a shoving match to ask questions afterwards.

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She attempts to call on people and answer their questions fast enough to prevent an outbreak of violence.

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They've in any event apparently settled who gets to ask questions by bidding on it.

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These are such adorable economist dwarves. She will happily give precedence to the highest bidder once she figures out how that works.

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"I'm sorry," the person who ended up organizing the bidding says to her when at last everyone has to disperse because it's both the middle of the night and the amphitheater is booked for something else, "that's the obvious way to do it but the problem had never arisen before so I didn't think about it. We didn't have a chance to settle in advance on how much of a fee I could take for organizing the bidding - does three percent strike you as fair?"

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"I have no objections," she says.

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So now Loki has a lot of gold.

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"Is there by any chance something along the lines of a bank here where I can store this gold so I don't have to carry it around?"

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There are three! They have interest rates and varying levels of security and one of them lets you get your gold from banks in three other Dwarven kingdoms, if she's interested in an extra fee.

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"I don't know where the other Dwarven kingdoms are," she points out when this is pitched to her. She's probably just going to give Maitimo the gold anyway for spending money - it seems like one might want to have spending money for an extended stay among Dwarves - so she isn't terribly picky beyond not needing the foreign withdrawal option.

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"Ours is closest, will match their interest rates, and will be happy to dispense spending money for your Elf-friend and explain to him how it works if he can't grasp the concept," someone says, and steers her in the direction of his bank.

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"I'm sold."

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They are delighted to add her account to the bank. They have contracts inscribed in stone and only need to modify a few lines before it is presented to her, along with chisel, for her signature.

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Read read read... "...I have not actually learned to chisel stone neatly," she says. "Will this do? Nobody else can duplicate it." And she applies an illusion to the stone.

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This causes a little bit of consternation but no one thinks it's exactly impermissible.

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"I am in theory capable of dismissing the illusion at any time, so if that's a problem I can try my best to chisel in my name."

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"...if you did that you'd just be giving us your money," they say, confused. "But messiness isn't a problem, if that's your only hesitation."

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"It seems like it might mean that if I'm ever going to sign more contracts here I'd better learn to wield a chisel, since not every disappearing signature is such a benign possibility." And she gamely attempts to scratch in "Loki". (Not going to include the matronym.)

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They all applaud the effort and assure her that it's quite good for an Elf.

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"I'm not an Elf."

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"Tall and pink and beardless, though."

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"It's true that I physically resemble them more. However, I have free will, inferior senses, greater physical strength, round ears, and none of that fancy the-body-does-as-the-soul-commands stuff. And most of them are taller than me. My species is called 'Asgardians'."

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"We were erroneously assuming Asgardians were in essence like Elves, but you seem very, very different. Entirely in good directions."

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"I don't know, I kind of envy their eyesight."

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"We don't mind lighting things for you. We have to do it for Men and they're always so awed it's entirely worth the expense."

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"They've got better acuity too, and colors I can't see."

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Everyone nods, though very slowly, as if reluctant to acknowledge any advantages to Elves.

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So Loki doesn't push it by mentioning the "can't have children by accident" thing. It's not like Asgardians don't have that now, albeit not by nature. "Anyway, I will head back west now, but I'll be back in a few days with Maitimo."

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"He'll be welcome," the proprietor of the bank says. "And has leave to spend your money, unless he doesn't seem to understand how it works in which case we should dole it out to him in sustainable increments and help him use it for food and things?"

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"I will do my best to explain money to him, but if he strikes you as dreadfully ignorant turning it into an allowance may be reasonable; we can all three talk it over then. How long will this much stretch for necessities, anyway?"

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"Who knows what Elves need? I could live on it for several months."

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And he doesn't, like, eat. So. "Thank you."

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"Time well-spent."

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She will take that as a 'you're welcome'.

Out she goes. She's wired enough to get about an hour's flight high speed in the dark, but then she metaphorically crashes, literally coasts, for a night's sleep.
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She wakes up somewhere over eastern Beleriand again. There are a few orcs wandering aimlessly below.

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...Sigh.

She leaves the orcs alone.

She doesn't stop to cull the giant spiders either, or anywhere - except for a detour into a rainstorm for sips of water - until she's finally gotten to her appointment with Maitimo.
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He's higher in the sky, in wide slow circles. When he sees her he descends.

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Hi! Dwarves will harbor you. I like them a lot; you may or may not. Also, there is drama between your family and the cousins again!

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I think I could use healing from starvation. Did you add that to the way this world functions only after I told you I wasn't eating? Because if so, I am very annoyed with you.

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She lands and holds out her hand. In exactly what scenario do you expect me to respond to such questions usefully? Anyway, I'm not going to fly all the way to the Dwarves once a week to get you back to 'merely very hungry' so maybe you need to work on eating things.

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He lands on her hand. I expect flying is far more draining than being an Elf; as an Elf I should be fine for months, and the consequences of impairment are less serious since I cannot fall out of the sky and become trapped. How are the Dwarves?

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When he lands in her hand she heals him and puts him elf-shaped in one motion. "The Dwarves are very keen on the concept of trade! Once I figured it out it was pleasantly straightforward. I accidentally acquired some gold, which I have no particular use for so you can draw it out of the bank where I left it as spending money. It'll probably last a long time if you don't spend it on food except every few months, maybe not the full four years, you'll need to find some other way to earn gold if you run out and need to buy things. They do not think much of Quendi but think that the newcomers sound pleasanter on the whole than the locals. You may wish to make a good impression on behalf of your batch, they're considering opening trade lines."

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"Did my father agree to move east?"

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"No, he was occupied with the drama. It was not conciliation-inspiring drama, but they didn't seem tense enough that I had to postpone the Dwarf visit. I did however teach Tyelcormo to fly, which development means Nolofinwë supposes you may as well overfly their camp but please don't get shot for obvious reasons." She pulls out drama-related transcripts.

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He reads silently. "I wish I'd been there. Though it looks like it could have been much worse."

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"Yeah. I'm planning on going to the trial."

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"It will be conducted fairly. Nolofinwë is good at his job."

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Nod. "But if someone doesn't like it I might be a useful mediating influence. Anyway, I don't have a schedule plotted out for after that. No more orcs to heal twice weekly; I'll want to check on the colonists as they go south but they can get a little farther before I do that, might wind up ferrying palantirs around but that can wait, etcetera. When do you want to go to the Dwarves?"

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He considers this for a second. "Immediately."

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"Hm, I did kind of imply I'd stay longer than I did last time when they next saw me - would this put me at risk of missing the trial, I don't know quite how long it'll take them to get there - and didn't you want to fly over your cousins? You can do that now and they're in the opposite direction."

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"You can just show me where Tumunzahar is, presumably? I was interested in flying over Nolofinwë's host out of concern for their wellbeing and out of curiosity about whether you can simulate large numbers of people convincingly and to high resolution. Tumunzahar will satisfy the latter curiosity and give me a better avenue to pursue the former."

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"I can just show you where it is but if I don't go with you you'll show up and be a bird," she points out. "The tunnels are pretty roomy considering how short everyone there is, but I wouldn't choose to maneuver there as a bird. Plus you said it seems to make you hungry faster."

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"Right. Hmm. After the trial, then, if that's convenient for you and it doesn't end with anyone menacing anyone." He sighs. "I'd have told Father to try her here, sentence her to death, pardon her as the King of the Noldor, and send her home so Nolofinwë isn't even sure whether he should feel relieved or insulted and everyone in their host thinks of the incident as a embarrassment rather than a martyrdom."

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"...Well, that's an interesting approach. Do you have a guess how long the trial will take, or do you just want to hang out here being elf-shaped until I come back this way...?"

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"I'll be Elf-shaped and try to work on the aversion to eating or drinking, but I won't stay right here and would appreciate knowing when I should be here to expect you."

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"You'd know better than I would how long Quendi trials might last. I'd expect it over with in a few hours, maybe a couple days if the evidence turns out to be really complicated, were this Asgard; it isn't."

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"We've never had a trial on a charge this serious. Perhaps a week?"

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"...I might not stay there for a whole week unless they all look about to go for each other's throats the minute I'm not looking judgmentally at them. Well, I guess I could get spellcrafting done. I will plan to be here in a week; it shouldn't matter for your purposes if I get bored and detour to visit the traveling orcs in the middle or something."

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"You have a very low threshold for boredom. I've sat through infrastructure negotiations that lasted three Valian Years. I will be here in a week and remain here for a week afterwards in case it lasts longer than you expected."

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"I'm just glad I don't get bored flying - well, yet, it's still newish - or I'd have an awful time. I'd leave you some reading material just because thinking about you sitting here doing nothing for a week gives me sympathy boredom but I haven't got any you haven't seen. Maybe you can taxonomize the prairie grasses and make baskets out of them." She shakes her head. "Anything else to pass on?"

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"Tell my father that he owes me five birthday presents and they can all be moving to eastern Beleriand."

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...She snorts. "Your evidence is that it's been at least five years or I'm really from an advanced planet which puts caster wheels on its library carts," she points out.

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"Yes, but if that's true then he really exists and has more pressing worries than indulging me in testing how many complicated political schemes I can play out solely through distrusted third-party messenger while he thinks I'm disloyal and Findekáno thinks I'm dishonest, and I really would get bored if I couldn't play that game."

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"Well, I'll pass on the request. I don't actually remember how long ago you did get captured, maybe you do have a birthday backlog."

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"We don't actually celebrate peoples' four-hundred-twelfth through four-hundred-seventeeth, I just need a lighthearted way to remind him so when I escalate to pleading it won't come out of nowhere."

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"...Huh, I hadn't actually formed concrete beliefs about how old anyone was chronologically. Or how long it takes Quendi to grow up. You'd be yea high if you were four hundred seventeen and Asgardian." She holds her hand four and a bit feet off the ground.

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"Valian years are ten times as long as the locals say Outer Lands years are, and I don't know how Asgardian years compare."

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"Days seem similar lengths - maybe Asgardian ones are a little longer - and an Asgardian year is three hundred ninety days and change."

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"Then you're roughly the same as the Outer Lands ones, which they measured by the stars until all the recent alterations."

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"Okay, so you're four thousand, which is older than I am."

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"How old are you?"

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"Might be home in time for my millennium."

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"You're child-sized at five hundred but fully-grown at eight?"

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"I worked it out against Midgardians once, we're... fifty times slower than them, about, but we slow down dramatically past about eight hundred and loiter there for several thousand years before noticeably aging again. I don't know how Quendi age to compare."

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"Much faster than that, oddly. Fifty years to young adulthood in the Outer Lands, and fifty Valian years to it in Valinor - Valinor has time-dilation, too, they don't exactly pass ten times as slowly. We're considered fully grown at a hundred, and then like this forever."

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"That sounds like a better deal, really. I don't have very clear memories of my first three hundred years. After that I started keeping a diary."

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"We have very precise memories, usually. You tampered with mine and I now have a couple centuries-long blank stretches, though I've been mostly able to piece things together."

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"...Look, even in the scenario where I'm working for the Enemy I did think you'd concluded I was not literally the same individual you'd been dealing with previously, I had, what, different strengths from Thauron or something like that? I don't want to mess with whatever psychological grounding you're doing by periodically inserting this opinion but does it really have to be in the second person when you are referring to events that happened before I, be it in or out of the sole province of your mind, got ahold of you?"

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"Does it bother you?"

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"I know why you're doing it, I don't consider it unreasonable, I'll drop it if you prefer to go on saying 'you', but, yes, it does."

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"I'll stop. Why does it bother you?"

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"How would you like it? You go rescue somebody from horrific atrocities and you're having a civil conversation and maybe not everything's all better but at least they're not dangling from a cliff anymore and suddenly mid-chat they're talking about the time you did this or that horrific atrocity? I've got a good grip on reality, thankfully, I'm not going to lie awake at night going 'but what if he's right', but it gets old."

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"If I rescued anyone from Angband they would ask me to kill them and I would, and it would not bother me at all that they probably thought I was the Enemy as I did it."

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"You didn't actually ask me to kill you. I just objected when you announced plans to commit suicide. Rodyn didn't talk to me at all, he just ran. Anyway, imagine some other horrific atrocity if it's necessary to your empathy here."

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"My life isn't mine, in the unlikely scenario I'm somehow actually living it. If it were I wouldn't have announced my plans or been dissuaded from them. I think I am bothered less than you by being accused of crimes I didn't technically commit, because being a son of Fëanor rather inures one to that."

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"I don't view my non-commission of horrific atrocities as a technicality. ...what do you mean, your life isn't yours?"

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"There are a lot of people who put themselves in this danger at my request and because they trusted me and were sworn to me, and I have obligations to them and to my King."

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Sigh. "Anyway, thank you."

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"You are welcome. Do you find my obligations somehow objectionable?"

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"I find the concept of them rendering your life not your own objectionable, but since your life is not mine either I can hardly attempt to rearrange its ownership for you to accord with my aesthetics."

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"I believe that people in general have the right to end their life if they so desire, but that people who have accepted commitments that put the safety and wellbeing of others in their hands do not if it can be avoided and an avenue to fulfill those commitments still exists. Is that a less objectionable phrasing? No talk of ownership."

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"Yes, that is less objectionable."

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"And so here I am, seeing you in a week. May the trial be nonlethal for all parties and all hopes of their future cooperation."

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"Hear, hear. Do you want me to bring some food in case you progress on that in this time?"

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"I doubt I'll have difficulty finding any, there are lights in the sky here."

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"Suit yourself."

And she's a bird, and off to catch up to whoever's bringing the would-be assassin to trial.
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Eight people she doesn't recognize are bringing the would-be assassin to trial, all of them armed but not armored and moving anxiously through the mountains. Tyelcormo is flying overhead.

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She falls into wingbeat near him. Having fun with flying?

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It's delightful, though I think I'd like it about a hundred times more if I had the power to turn back. Father added undoing your magic to his long list of priorities, but I'm not even sure if that's the sort of thing one can treat as an engineering problem.

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Sorcery and technology can interact but my sorcery's weird. Do you want a break?

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Not at all, it's not getting bored of it so much as feeling like if I did there's nothing I could do about it. How're Dwarves?

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Dwarves are great! I really like them! They don't think much of Quendi but seemed to agree that your lot sounded better than the ones they've met out east.

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Give it a year, Maitimo'll have them enamored of us.

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As I told the Dwarves, I'm not sure he's in an ideal diplomatic condition, but perhaps.

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That's why it'll take a year.

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Ha. They're also potentially interested in opening trade.

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Unless they like Noldorin jewelry or some stones that are common in Valinor and rare here, we're five years out from producing anything valuable enough by volume to be worth shipping. Is that why Maitimo wants us to pack up and head east?

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I suppose he could have predicted it but I don't think so. They might like the stones, though, they seem very big on stones.

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Then we're in, especially if they can get their forges to better temperatures than are manageable with our resources here and will either sell us weapons or workspace. I mean, I'm not qualified to negotiate anything in any detail at all, but I'm sure what the answer will be.

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I bet they'll sell you weapons. I can almost imagine them selling you workspace just because it seems like they'd find it a novelty to watch Quendi hard at work.

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Well, I'm about as useful in a forge in normal form as bird form, but I can't imagine Dwarves are so gifted they won't be impressed to watch my father at work.

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You in the general sense. And while I've never actually watched him build a thing I imagine you are right.

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You're watching him build a country, but admittedly that's very much not his preferred medium.

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Countries often happen more or less on their own. I'll be impressed if he builds an unusually good one.

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Well, we're more aiming for unusually-enemy-besieging. But fair.

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I will also be impressed if he manages that but more with his army than with his country.

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Rather takes countries to muster and supply and arm armies.

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Sure. But I judge them on different criteria. He could have a perfectly functional army and the home front could languish indefinitely without indoor plumbing. ...I should explain indoor plumbing.

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You mean water and waste disposal systems that aren't from the Valar? You should ask Nelyo to explain them to you, he spent three Years getting all of the necessary permissions and land rights and interest for them.

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Oh, is that the interminable-sounding meeting he was talking about or were there several of that duration? Then yes, he likely remembers more about the functioning details than I do.

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It took forever because you needed practically everyone in the city in agreement, since it had been built and planned without one and no one was willing to have an unsightly one. He worked on it rather tirelessly, and insisted it was boring but I think was having the time of his life.

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Aww. Did Valinor eventually get plumbed?

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Yes. And we built it into the foundations, here. Nothing's actually working because there were more urgent priorities but we won't have to rebuild anything to get it working.

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Cool.

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We were going to build a generator for your Asgardian lights, down by the river, but then we had to avoid outdoor projects for a bit.

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Hopefully that'll be cleared up soon.

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Well, we have better sentries now, they're back out building it. I don't expect they'll figure out who ordered this, why would she tell?

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Dramatic confessions at trial aren't unheard of, although I suppose I wouldn't much expect it in this case. Plea bargaining, maybe.

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That gives her an incentive to name someone truly or falsely. I realize that's a horrible thing to accuse someone of, but -

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Then if she names someone falsely they can produce an alibi. It's imperfect, entirely so, but it's not guaranteed to produce all the wrong incentives.

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If I tried to have someone assassinated and were dishonorable enough to let someone else do the shooting and take the blame, I'd definitely acquire an alibi.

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Then maybe Sarpalarë will turn on them for leaving her in the lurch; stranger things have happened. But I can't pull a judicial procedure with guaranteed results every time out of my pocket.

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Wasn't saying you could, was just saying I don't expect much to come of it. It won't happen again, but because we'll be more careful.

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That's why you get to learn to fly. All the deterrent in the world can't stop everyone.

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Kind of can. Note the lack of Morgoth assassination attempts, and it's not that there are people unwilling to die trying.

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I did not actually know for sure that no one had, she says.

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We looked into it when we were exploring avenues to rescue Maitimo. It does not seem likely that it'd be possible to kill him in one blow.

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Not with a sword, anyway.

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We do have other weapons. Not with anything we have or could swiftly invent.

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Yeah. I consider one likely outcome that I just invent a teleportation spell, go purchase some extremely high-yield bomb from a disreputable galactic weapons shop, and wipe Angband off the map, see if that does it.

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At the very least it'd take him Ages to build another physical form after it was destroyed by violence.

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After which I suppose he'd learn to take cover among non-expendable people, but I can have anybody who wants to get off this cylindrical fucking rock evacuated by then.

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If we get the Silmarils.

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Or find an alternate means to go on. You're not on a very tight deadline by galactic standards.

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We aren't, no. Anyway, the Silmarils can be expected to survive dropping bombs on them.

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That's good, otherwise I imagine obliterating the fortress and everything in it would meet with some objections.

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It'd be a tough tradeoff. On the one hand, Angband needs to be ended as soon as possible. On the other, without those we stop being part of the world or we go back to Valinor. Neither appeals.

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I am optimistic that my galaxy holds solutions for this problem, I just didn't do my homework for this test I wasn't planning to take.

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He does the osanwë equivalent of snorting. Tell me about it.

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I would have gone and got one of those data storage things that can hold a hundred worlds' works in a box smaller than your head if only I'd known!

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Soberly, We'd have built some boats.

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Well. Those look like some Nolofinweans on the horizon, which means I and most of my friends here will be turning back. We thought we'd send two.

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How were they chosen?

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Family of apprentices of Father's, so he trusts them, who seemed of the right temperament and didn't happen to actually set a ship afire, though they also wouldn't have been good candidates if they'd ignored the order.

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Good, good. See you later.

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Likewise.

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And Loki swoops down to walk with the group now that there is nobody to keep her company in the air.

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They nod at her. "Hello. We weren't sure if you'd make it."

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"I wasn't either, but I made good time to and from the Dwarves. Dwarves are great, by the way."

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"Aulë's very good for a Vala."

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"I'm mostly charmed by their culture over their design specifications, although I've heard some good things about those too."

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"What're they like?"

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"They're very into trade. They use gold as a basis now but I delivered a lecture on fiat currency, which may or may not take off - they're going to do a small scale experiment! Their ruling council is designed to handle only those problems particularly intractable to trade. The place is beautiful and they light it up for visitors, which is very thoughtful."

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"Perhaps if we manage to get through this trial without anyone resenting anyone we can ask about visiting Dwarves," one of them says ruefully. "That sounds lovely."

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"Well, they are very far away, although they do have thousand-mile trade routes and are interested in establishing one with the newcomers - I didn't explain all the newcomer-related drama, though."

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"Well, yes, everyone will hate us forever if they hear about that, even the Nolofinweans communicated that they wouldn't share it."

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"I'm actually finding it much easier to imagine the Dwarves snorting and going, 'Elves. Hope they've learned their lesson,' and not bringing it up again, but admittedly I am basing this on less than one extremely charming day of exposure. I will have to ask them if they mind saying 'Quendi' next time I'm there."

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"That's very reassuring, I hope they do. Might not be worth the chance, though. Aren't you sending Lord Nelyafinwë there? He'll figure it out."

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"I am, yes, and he's likely to be a better source of Quendi-relevant information on Dwarves than I am."

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"Thank you for rescuing him."

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"You're welcome. I only hope one day he manages to be completely rescued instead of merely physically rescued."

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"No one gets out of Angband, that's a saying of ours that's older than history. This is what he'd want, given how things were."

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"I hope so."

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"Well, this and a hug. We can't get everything we want in life."

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"He has not asked me for a hug, but presumably I'm not the person he'd want it from."

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"No."

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Sigh.

Spellwork and walking? Spellwork and walking. She'll get the hang of it with practice, it's not like she's ever been walking somewhere private enough for this before she landed here.
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They arrive about two hours later, Nolofinwë has people in uniform, armed, and looking anxious.

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Loki waves.

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They don't exactly relax. Nolofinwë comes out to greet them, though. "Our King says," says one of the escort, "that if you desire to kill him you should come yourself."

"Tell your King," Nolofinwë says, "that if I desired to kill him I would."
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"Well, we're off to a great start," mutters Loki under her breath.

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"Sarpalarë," Nolofinwë says, "you stand accused of giving aid and comfort to the Enemy, by attempting to trigger violence among the peoples that oppose him."

"Your grace," she says, "I didn't do that."

"I am very glad to hear it. Why don't you come inside, rest, eat, and consider how you can help us demonstrate that."
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That, Loki has no snarky remarks about.

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Nolofinwë finds her once his guests and his prisoner have been escorted to equally-guarded buildings in the valley. "Here as an observer?"

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"Yes."

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"We are technically out of guest rooms, by which I mean out of ones where I can really be completely certain that even if half the people in this camp wanted trouble none would occur. I assume you don't need that. What do you need?"

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"I'm perfectly comfortable sleeping in the air and I can fetch my own food from far enough afield not to interfere with your hunters and gatherers. I might come and go if the trial's proceeding slowly to see how the orcs are getting along. No need to worry about me."

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"Very well. Is there anything you'd have us know before we begin? It'll be tomorrow morning - I want to give anyone with something to say a little more time to come forward."

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"Did you find out anything relevant since I left last?"

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"We found her scout group. They all insist that she fell and sprained her wrist while they were barely out of sight of camp, decided to head back, and told them an hour later that she was back safely."

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"And they didn't verify that her wrist was sprained?"

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"They did not. It was agreed it hadn't been a serious fall but sometimes one just lands badly. We've revised our reporting protocols so that specific trick won't work again, of course."

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"So either her entire scouting group, or no one in the scouting group - more likely, especially if they don't self-assemble - is her accomplice; someone else was helping."

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"They were assigned. Someone else must have met her outside camp with the bow - which we were able to track the very apologetic maker of, he found the perfect wood for it and asked my nephew Aikanáro if it was worth it and Aikanáro said the guard platforms here could use it, and after making it he left it in the armory."

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"Does access to the armory at least narrow it down?"

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A regretful shake of the head "We're changing that now, too."

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"So - of people who had a chance to sneak off long enough to slip her the bow - what kind of suspect pool does that leave you with?"

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"Forty thousand. People were leaving to get wood, to get water, to go hunt. Someone should have seen the bow but no one has come forward."

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"Eugh."

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"I'm going to speak with her privately. I don't expect to get anywhere, but I think it's worth trying."

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"Be careful; there's still the possibility that she has it in for you too."

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"Nothing would delight me more than if she attacked me while we spoke; that'd clear up the whole mess marvelously."

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"Sure, but don't let her kill you, I can't fix that."

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"Could most Asgardians do that unarmed in a few seconds?"

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"We are substantially stronger than you, but no, it'd be hard. If she's really unarmed she'd have to be very lucky to do more than put out an eye. I just wouldn't assume she's definitely unarmed."

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"You know, if Fëanor managed to sneak a prisoner he was purporting to have under guard for attacking him a weapon she then immediately used to kill me I think I'd actually just be impressed when we met up in Mandos." He shakes his head. "I will take that under advisement, though."

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"I'm pretty sure nothing that convoluted was going on; they just might have missed something small when they took her eight foot tall bow."

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He nods. "...care to make someone invisible so they can be present in the room without her knowledge, and able to intervene if something like that's the case?"

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"Sure."

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And he starts walking towards the building where she's being held.

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Loki follows, presuming he will collect someone for her to turn invisible en route.

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He collects Findekáno, presumably communicating privately the reason why. "Thank you, Loki."

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"You're welcome." And now Findekáno is invisible.

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"I would also appreciate if you could make it impossible to hear inside the building. That's part of why standard Eldarin construction uses so much stone, but it hasn't yet been feasible."

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"Done."

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He nods, opens the door, and closes it behind him. There are a lot of eyes on them, but everyone looks away after a second.

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Loki hangs out near the outside of the building so Findekáno won't have to be prolongedly invisible past necessity and does spellwork. She's beginning to question the utility of attaching her notes to a physical notebook at all; it has finite pages which aren't exactly perfect onionskin thinness and it's not like she couldn't turn pages in a completely illusory notebook, she just wouldn't use her hands...

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It's an hour before the door opens and they come out.

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She has in that time made herself a completely illusory copy of all her notes and resumed spellwork with it floating before her. She turns Findekáno visible again. "How'd it go?"

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"It was interesting," Nolofinwë says. "No attempts were made on my life. She got the bow outside of camp herself, earlier." No, she didn't. I'm going to see if anyone gets less cautious.

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Smart. "I suppose if forty thousand people could have got in and out without being noticed it's not so much of a stretch if she managed it alone. Do you want the sound baffle to stay?"

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"Yes, thank you. When we've settled people may actually ask for soundproofed homes in general. In Valinor it was considered a luxury. Would you care to join us for dinner?"

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"Sure, thank you."

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He turns to enter another building. "That will also give me the chance to formally introduce you to the rest of the family," he says. "My sister, Irimë; my sons Turukáno and Arakáno, and my granddaughter Itarillë." Can you also soundproof this building?

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Done. "Hello, all."

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He sits down. "Blessed-be-Yavanna-the-maker-Oromë-the-hunter-Vána-who-makes-things-ripen-Ulmo-who-makes-them-grow," he says, swiftly and not entirely happily, like it's a habit he'd abandon if no one present minded, and then "I'm very sure Sarpalarë thought she was acting with the approval of someone who commanded her. I can't tell if she's right about that."

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"It wasn't you. Who else might she have answered to?"

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"I appreciate the vote of confidence," he murmurs. "We had a flexible structure on the Ice, but almost every member of the house of Finwë could ask any favor of any of our people and expect it to be taken seriously. Maybe not something like this, but maybe. Certainly a favor like 'hide a bow outside camp', complicating the accomplice question. I also had a list drawn up of the people she travelled with, but -" He passes it around the table. Ten names, none known to Loki.

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Loki passes it on without comment.

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It's Nolofinwë's sister who speaks. "So in one sense everyone has a grievance with them, on the other, none of those strike me as remotely likely candidates."

"And I spoke to them," says Turukáno, "and to their associates, and none seem to have been close with her either." He looks at his father. "You think she believed herself to be acting on the instructions of someone in this family."

"I do," he says.
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"Would she have been likely to believe a secondhand report? 'The King says you should do this'."

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"From people who'd be in a position to claim that convincingly, yes. Or - not even 'the King says you should do this', 'the King wants this done and can't ask anyone to do it'."

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"Oh, that's so much worse. Do not have black ops. Do not enable the idea that you might endorse black ops. You are too small a political unit to have black ops."

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"Obviously I wouldn't do something like that. I am content to go shout in the square 'anything the King wants done, the King will acknowledge wanting done!' It did not occur to me that this was a failure mode of sufficiently angry people. I didn't even know there was a word for it! There's precedent?"

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"Normally people don't just make it up on their own. I'm calling it black ops because if this is what happened that's what it would have looked like to Sarpalarë. Black ops is - 'the rulers must appear to abide by certain principles, and keep their hands clean, and act like they are through and through noble and honorable and would never endorse thus and such, and they must be able to so act because they don't have to think about what the black ops people are doing with negligible oversight if whoever runs the organization thinks dirty work needs to be done; join us and you may never speak directly to the king, he won't know you exist, but you'll know, you'll be serving -'. Assassinations are frequently relegated to black ops like that."

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"What a horrifying and obvious failure mode. In hindsight. Anyhow, I believe that's what happened, which makes the urgent question who is telling that lie."

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"And how well they're telling it. Because of course the king has to say that he's never heard of such a thing, would never endorse it, insists that it disband immediately..."

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"How on earth could this possibly serve my interests? I don't want my brother dead! I don't want a war! I wouldn't mind if people went around autonomously doing what they thought I desired of them, if their concept of that were remotely sane."

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"I believe you! But if someone is actually putting together a fake black ops brigade - which we are by no means sure of, it just came to mind - and they're doing it competently, then they will have said that admitting to wanting your brother dead or a war or whatever is exactly the sort of thing they're preventing you from having to openly do."

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"Lovely."

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"...I'm glad this didn't occur to me while I was talking to the Fëanorians lest I think out loud, that would be a mess."

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"You think they'd have leapt to this conclusion? Or adopted the tactic themselves? It's more or less how they operate anyway, though usually the underlings are trying to do good their father won't admit to endorsing."

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"I think they'd have found the idea very concerning as something you might be doing and you'd never be able to convince them it wasn't happening. But your concerns have merit too."

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"What would it mean for me to be doing it? I thought the general idea was that I couldn't know about it and couldn't be taken seriously when saying it didn't serve my interests?"

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"You can't directly oversee it or acknowledge it in anyway. Traditionally you'd pick someone to work on it for you and then avoid discussing it unless something unprecedented happened and they needed guidance on how to work with whatever you were doing publicly."

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He hesitates. "I can swear that I have not authorized anyone to organize trouble with anyone but the Enemy, that I would not do such a thing, and that anyone who thinks they're serving me but cannot tell me about it has been deceived. I would need at least several days to talk over the wording with enough people and think of all the ways it can go wrong, but that is an avenue available to us."

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"I'm not sure it's likely enough that you've got a rogue black ops team that this is worth it, but it's your risk to take. Also, if there is one, it is not run by someone you authorized; they might be able to find like-minded people who don't need to think they're serving you."

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"I have one assassin who sincerely believes herself to be serving the interests of this family, either because someone in it told her she was or because someone not in it but close enough to one of us that she'd find it plausible told her that she was."

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"Yes. But you don't know how Sarpalarë was picked. She didn't have to be filtered for willingness to defy you, because the lie was plausible to her. If the lie becomes implausible you have inconvenienced whoever told her; but perhaps not prohibitively."

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"So absent a way to catch that person, how do I deter them?"

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"As you said earlier it may be a sufficient deterrent that the Fëanorians benefited from the process. I'm not sure you should be less than conservative about this unless something happens a second time and forms a pattern from which to draw more detailed conclusions than my wild guessing."

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"If I wanted my brother dead," Nolofinwë says, "and I didn't care at all for playing honorably, I can think of three different ways to do it. I'm not sure I can be less than conservative, but I am also not sure I'll have much latitude after a second try."

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"Well, you could consider an oath, if common knowledge of surety is more appealing than not swearing oaths," says Loki, "which like I said is your risk to take."

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"I'll consider it. I raised this mostly to hear if there were other options that aren't occurring to me."

The table is silent.

"You could just openly kill Fëanor," Turukáno says, but not very seriously.
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"I do not recommend that."

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"I at one point considered it," Nolofinwë says. "If I challenged him I think he might accept. His message with the prisoners today was almost phrased to imply that. But it's unwise, we might need him and he seems to have gotten less reckless with one son's death, another's capture, and his own injuries."

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...Loki didn't even know one of them was dead. Lot of sons, Fëanor must have really insistent Y-chromosomes.

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"Also, we don't have Maitimo," Nolofinwë's sister says. "It's really better that he stay alive."

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"Well, Maitimo is around but not in much condition to replace his father at this time."

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"And that was always the consideration that made stopping Fëanor most appealing. Less so now that Maitimo's declared himself anyway."

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"So please don't actually start sending assassins."
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Everyone at the table is appalled at the idea. Murdering Fëanor is only appealing in a fair duel, they assure her.

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"My culture shares this distinction but it's always been a bit lost on me."

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"In one case people are disrupted in their lives by the fear they'll be murdered; in the other they can entirely avoid the possibility by declining to participate in duels.The advantages seem fairly obvious."

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"If they can realistically decline to participate, sure."

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"Even if they can't it cuts down the window in which you need to be fearing for your life. And at least here, proposing it for any grievance short of mass murder would be horrifically inappropriate."

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"All right, perhaps duels-as-locally-practiced are a substantial improvement."

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"We're not having one, though," Nolofinwë says. "We're having a trial in which I assume that Sarpalarë is going to lie to us and claim to have hidden the bow in advance and then either we pretend to believe her and sentence her or reveal that we don't and then sentence her. I am dissatisfied, and want everyone to keep their eyes open, but don't see a better solution."

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Nod.

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This concludes the family dinner.

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"Soundproofing to stay up here too?"

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"Yes," he says, "if it's no effort for you."

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"Not a bit. You will need me if you want to get rid of it without substantially dismantling the building, though."

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"Doesn't seem likely. We can pretend it's good stonework. Thank you, Loki. Have a good evening." He pauses. "Please let me know if you'd like to speak to the prisoner before you do so; you can of course speak to anyone else."

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"I don't really have anything to say to her - wouldn't be worth it to go in just to say 'you idiot' - but I'll let you know if something comes to mind."

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He nods. "Then rest well."

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"Will do."

She sits outside, spellcrafting, until she gets tired.
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A few Elves watch her curiously, but most hurry anxiously by. The trial seems to be a source of stress. People also seem to be having long conversations about the contemptible nature of Feanorians within earshot of the Feanorians.

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Well, that's repulsive, but she doesn't think she can profitably intervene. If nobody wants to ask her questions or get her to soundproof anything or say hi, she will just work and then sleep in the sky at the lowest speed she can maintain without active attention.

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She'll do that; no one asks her to intervene.

The trial begins in the morning.
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When the sun's up she wakes and gets her bearings and zooms down into the camp again.

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Nolofinwë opens by explaining that his primary goal is to determine what happened, his secondary goal to ensure that actions that serve the Enemy like this are punished appropriately, and thirdly to establish for the benefit of the injured parties that putting people in fear of their lives is always and everywhere unacceptable and should never be overlooked.

The audience seems to enjoy this.
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Loki sits and watches.

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They establish first that Sarpalarë left the camp on a scouting mission, that she feigned an injury in order to leave her group, that a large bow was built and at some point vanished, and with Fëanorian testimony that she showed up far inside their territory at an angle from which one could attack their camp with such a weapon. Everyone looks unhappy, except Sarpalarë who looks very serene.

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The fuck is she thinking. ...someone would definitely have mentioned it by now if the Enemy had got her and let her go.

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Her history comes up around midday; she was unmarried, had a parent and a sibling die on the ice, nothing unusual. She has not been captured or released by the Enemy, that would definitely have been mentioned.

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What is up with the creepy serenity. She isn't rigged to explode, is she? Planning to get herself executed and go meet Parent and Sibling in the Halls of That Fuckhead?

Loki can make it look like her eyes are aimed steadily at Nolofinwë while her gaze flicks around to check for other incongruous expressions.
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Artanis looks unhappy. That's not very incongruous.

There are two identical twins on opposite ends of the crowd, identical down to the hair and clothes, one looking happy and the other carefully disinterested.

Findekáno looks unhappy for probably a different reason than Artanis.
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...Loki tucks images of the twins complete with facial expression into her illusion notebook. Might be nothing, but it's weird.

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And then Sarpalarë gets to explain what happened.

She came back to camp, realized that her hand wasn't that badly injured, and set out after her group again, grabbing the nearest weapon. Somehow she got lost, and was found close - but not that close, she couldn't have made the shot, the accusation is absurd - and explained to everyone she was lost and they refused to believe her.

It is a ridiculous story. Nolofinwë looks exasperated.
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If anybody looks like they want Loki to confirm that she saw the shot made from the very location Sarpalarë herself said she was caught, she will.

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Sure, that looks useful. Can she confirm it's possible to make a shot from that location?

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Loki stands up. "I spoke to Sarpalarë when she was in Fëanorian custody and asked her to show me where she had been when caught. Tyelcormo later showed me to that same location, and hit a one-inch target I left for him on a door inside the camp from there with the same bow."

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This causes a stir.

"Well, Tyelcormo," someone says loudly. "He could probably make a shot from anywhere on the mountain-"

Nolofinwë glares this person into silence.
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"I am told he's an exceptional shot, yes. But most vital organs are more than an inch in diameter, and recently shot people are not at their best advantage in getting out of the way of a second or third shot."

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Sarpalarë spends the rest of the afternoon steadfastly denying that she realized she was that close to the Feanorian host.

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Maybe she swore something to someone. Maybe she can't do other than what she's doing. Could be the calm of choicelessness.

Suspicious twins status?
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One still there. One not. Not everyone in the host is, though; some people have wandered off to guard duty.

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Hrm. She doesn't have anything to accuse them of besides creepily dressing alike, anyway.

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And maybe that's a trend among Quendi twins, because there's another pair, again quite a distance apart.

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...She collects pictures of these two. Is twinning common?

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She hadn't met any previously, but how many Quendi has she talked to? When evening comes Nolofinwë gets tired of asking Sarpalarë questions and declares an end to the day.

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Right, of him and Findekáno and Irissë who looks least stressed out?

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Irissë, probably. She is the only one eating.

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"Hey.




Why the fuck not just say it? 'I wanted to shoot Fëanor, so I took a bow and did it?' This way, we're all looking for accomplices, for crazy conspiracies, for someone keeping her silent. That way, half the crowd would be applauding."
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"I have been thinking about that all day." That and, is it customary for Quendi twins to wear matching outfits?

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"If she asked Father to understand I think he would. This helps no one." I thought Telufinwë was dead?

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Who? "I've wondered if she might be under oath."

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"That occurred to me. But taking an oath not to confess to something you did is honestly stupider than shooting my uncle." Fëanaro's youngest two sons are the only twins in all of Valinor. They did sometimes dress alike but Telufinwë is dead, so when would you have seen them both?

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I saw two different sets of twins here, today, watching. I have their pictures - She obscures the space around her notebook, passes it over. "It could be to protect her conspirator."

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"Her conspirator is a coward." Neither of those people have twins.

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Well, I wasn't making illusions of them walk around, so why would they be duplicated? "I'd draw a distinction but I don't know what distinction it would be."

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"Between the shooting someone from behind kind of cowardly and the making someone else swear not to tell that you asked them to shoot someone from behind kind of cowardly? I guess it's a difference of degree. But a big one." Maitimo thought that Moringotto put him through whatever he put him through to get someone to imitate him?

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That was one of his guesses.

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Oh good.

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How would I be the only person to notice an extra one of two different people? ...And if you think they're being impersonated their safety should be verified as soon as possible.

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Yeah I just asked Finno to check. You wouldn't be the only one to notice two people with doubles. You might be the only one to notice a single impersonater, frequently changing faces, because the rest of us would see a friend and think 'why'd he move that fast' not 'he has a twin'...

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Aha.

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I realize this is objectively bad news but I'm just enjoying that this was caused by Morgoth not someone I care about.

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Well, we'll need to know more to know exactly what he did or whether Sarpalarë's behavior is directly attributable. Who knew both of these people well enough to pass for them and was captured?

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Maitimo.

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He'd have a hell of a time getting here from where he was last I saw him and would have been a bird at the time he would have needed to talk to Sarpalarë; you think the Enemy got enough information to feed it to someone else?

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How long was he each of those people, a couple hours at a crowded public event? He'd need names and mannerisms. Hell, Moringotto may have known them well enough himself from Valinor to not need additional information at all.

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Isn't that a heartening thought.

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We have to talk to Sarpalarë again. Whoever she thinks ordered her to do this probably didn't.

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I wish I'd known twins were so uncommon, I might have told someone during the trial. Pause. Can you be sure, if you osanwë someone privately, that it gets to them and not someone else?

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If I think 'I'm going to talk to Findekáno', I am. If I see someone who looks like Findekáno and walk up to him and osanwë, no.

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Okay. Can you tell your father and definitely only your father that we want to talk to Sarpalarë, he wanted to be notified.

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Are you trusting I'm me because otherwise I wouldn't have told you twins are rare? And I just let him know.

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Have to start somewhere. But feel free to tell me something an impersonator wouldn't know.

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She stands. Shooting something for you might be easier. I'm not sure we've had any deep private conversations. And she nods to the guards and walks into the building containing Sarpalarë.

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Loki follows her. We could get Findekáno and your father, reduce the odds that you're all impostors.

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Sure, I'll ask them to come. ...Do you think you can fight a Maia?

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...I can beat a half-Maia arm-wrestling?

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Sometime I'm gonna ask you for that story. Okay. A minute later Nolofinwë walks in, frowning. A few seconds behind him, Findekáno. Sarpalarë still looks bored.

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You two caught up on the story?

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Yes, Nolofinwë thinks, someone can copy faces and Irissë thinks that's who gave Sarpalarë the orders she's refusing to admit to receiving.

And possibly also an oath, Irissë adds. We're here because Loki thinks it couldn't impersonate all of us.
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Well, there could be several of it, but there's less likely to be three than one; I didn't see any duplicates all at once.

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"Sarpalarë," Nolofinwë says, "did you help the Enemy infiltrate this camp or had he already done it when he talked with you?"

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...Loki does not think Sarpalarë is likely to answer that.

To Irissë: Why did you ask me if I can fight a Maia?
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Nothing else shapeshifts.

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Well, damn. Do they at least have the courtesy to see out of their eyes and hear out of their ears?

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I have no idea. They can see and hear in forms that have neither, but maybe while they're using them they can be deceived by the same things?

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I can cover them more thoroughly if I know not to localize it.

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Yeah, try that.

Loki,
says Nolofinwë, did you have anything you wanted to ask her?
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"I think she's probably sewn up via oath or just a truly impenetrable web of lies to the point where she's not a viable source of information. She wasn't meant to get away clean to begin with."

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"You think they expected my brother would kill her? Or his children, if she'd -"

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"I commented 'suicide mission', Tyelcormo said 'it would have been' - but she didn't tell them anything besides her stupid, rehearsed story even when they took her alive, didn't tell me anything other than that, repeated it with a straight face all through today, I don't think she can tell you anything else."

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"I would like to think that even if I have subjects who'd obey me if I asked them to kill my brother I have none who'd obey me if I asked them to swear to it."

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"Maybe the infiltrator wasn't pretending to be working for you. Maybe they drew on a personal connection of some kind, would she be an easy target that way?"

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They look at each other.

"You need to talk to Artanis again," Nolofinwë says.
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"Why?"

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"They would have studied archery together," Irissë says, "if she was good enough to make that shot at all. There's only one advanced women's program with Oromë a century - I wasn't in it, there wasn't anything they could teach me - and anyone'd believe it if she said she wanted Fëanáro dead."

"I spoke to her the first night," Nolofinwë says, "and she swore that to her knowledge they hadn't spoken in the last several months. Which settled it. Obviously. But -"
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"Swore, or - said?"

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"She offered, but I didn't insist - she's my niece -"

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"And of course everybody's identity is suspect anyway."

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"Rather complicating matters, yes."

"I'd hoped," Irissë says, "that once she realized there was an imposter trying to destroy us she'd have tried harder to find a way to help."
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"Artanis? Well, what exactly did you say to her?"

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"No, not her, our assassin. I haven't told Artanis anything, I was going to tell her to come here but it occurred to me that maybe we don't want everyone important in one building with an enemy in camp."

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"This one's already soundproofed and we have a reason to be in it."

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"If someone impersonated her to get the assassin to do it, they're presumably watching her extra carefully?"

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"Maybe. I could go up to her invisibly but I'm not sure what to ask."

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"I wanted to see Sarpalarë's reaction but I think we're currently getting a preview."

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She doesn't look exactly serene, but she's not talking either.

I'm tempted to tell her, Nolofinwë says, that if I have to kill her she can at least explain herself before she dies, it won't hurt for that long. I am not going to say that and I don't know if it's a reasonable thing to ask.
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What does happen to the oaths of the dead, anyway?

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Unless they're possessed with my brother's peculiar idiocy, they can't pursue them and currently aren't held by them, though they may complicate reembodiment.

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...what does your brother's peculiarity do?

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The Silmaril oath contains the line "and to the Everlasting Darkness damn us if in this deed we fail", which is unprecedented - you never commit yourself to actually succeed at something, even if it's something trivial, and certainly not if it's 'acquire the Silmarils'. That was incredibly stupid even by Fëanáro's standards. No one else would risk it.

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This has somehow managed not to come up in my hearing before. But it is presumably beside the point. Sigh. I wish I knew the words of Sarpalarë's oath, if that's what it is - and it keeps looking likelier. I could help her find loopholes. Hard to do that guessing in the dark.
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It was the moment at which I decided not to try making Fëanor work as a King. It's hard to describe how dangerous it was and is. But it's beside the point of all concerns except personal fondness for family, since it will only affect them after they die.

"Sarpalarë, can you tell us the wording of the last conversation you had before heading out to find your team again?"
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Loki waits, although she suspects that an oath with loopholes like that wouldn't've held.

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She shakes her head.

"Can you tell me why you can't tell me that?"

She shakes her head.

He sighs. "Fëanáro, by virtue of being even more reckless in this respect than her, would have some ideas."
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"Yes, he's the one who came up with the way around - or through - the orcs' oath. Though that was given the wording of it. But it looks like she can tell you that she can't tell you things, which suggests imperfect information security... Can you tell us who you didn't think you were talking to when this plan was cooked up, Sarpalarë? List some people who it wasn't."

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And now she looks genuinely conflicted.

"Wasn't you. Wasn't Fëanor."

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"Maybe you can list letters their name doesn't start with, even."

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She snorts. "Doesn't start with tinco, parma, calma, quesse..."

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Loki writes them down as the list goes by.

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The prisoner keeps listing letters. Everyone else is watching Loki, a little bewildered. "Oh, right," Irissë says, "you don't actually speak our language. Those are all the letters."

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"Oh. Well, that's unhelpful. Unless there's someone around who refuses to render their name in written form, or we're on the wrong track altogether."
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"No, just starts with a vowel, which we don't write. Could still be me." says Irissë.

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"Do you have names for the vowels, even if they aren't written?"

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"No. You can take your complaints up with my uncle."

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"I might." She pulls out her notes on Dorean's alphabet. Has it got vowels?

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It does. Sarpalarë is glaring at her disdainfully.

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"Oh, look at that, I had an alternate alphabet in my pocket. Here's how you spell Irissë's name in it - Artanis's -" She goes on with the rest of the vowel-beginning names she can think of. "Care to continue your list?"

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"It's not Irissë, or that sound."

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"...And?" There are more than two vowels.

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"Don't think - I think that counts, sorry."

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"Okay, so it starts with a vowel but not the same vowel as Irissë's," Loki puts the alphabet away. "Anybody else have ideas for how to distinguish people by process of elimination?"

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"I think someone impersonated Artanis," Irissë says, "and asked for an oath, and for some reason this complete idiot agreed, and then later that person sent her on the assassination attempt and tried to watch the trial today and the most mysterious part of that is the last bit."

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"...Feel free to call Irissë a fool or something," Loki says to Sarpalarë, "or conspicuously don't."

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She doesn't, though sullen silence has been enough of a pattern that it may not mean much.

"Why send anyone today, when you seem thoroughly stuck and we had nothing to go off? Were they trying to make sure you obeyed? But if you have no choice, why bother? Were they worried the truth would come out some other way? Were they trying to see to it that a partial truth came out, that my cousin was implicated?"
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"Well, the truth did come out some other way; even without figuring out all the details and noticing the shapeshifter we were sure something was going on and weren't satisfied with 'Sarpalarë did it'. If they have a source of information, knew that I was messing with things..."

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"The Enemy should have tried to kill you a long time ago," Findekáno says, "but doesn't seem especially advantaged by doing it in our camp. Unless he's trying to tease out your role, first? Or offer you a job?"

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"But golly, what are his policies on vacation days?"

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Irissë bites her tongue. Nolofinwë smiles. "I expect, by Asgardian standards, quite generous. He is a Vala and wouldn't miss you for several years at a time."

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"Anyway, maybe he didn't know how to expect my whereabouts except by arranging for something I'd want to attend to be going on."

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"Or at least decided to make the best of something you'd be certain to be present at, once the first plan failed. Or maybe the archer was supposed to shoot down a bird, who knows?

How likely is it that our shapechanger can kill you in your sleep, if they try it?"
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"Well, I'm no longer planning to sleep as a perfectly visible slow-flying bird. It depends a lot on their capabilities, though."

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Nolofinwë nods. "Well. There are too many moving pieces here and I'm not happy. I'd like to find and stab our shapeshifter, conclude our trial, and let your location be unpredictable again, but I don't know how fast I can do those things.".

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"Me either. And if there's a Maia lurking around here I don't want to leave you alone; I'm probably," she flings illusion sparkles into the air, "the only person it definitely can't impersonate and probably stand the best chance in a fight. Though I might appreciate someone minding me while I sleep so they can wake me if something happens."

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Everyone present except the prisoner immediately expresses willingness to do this. "If I tell everyone to sleep armed," Nolofinwë says, "they'll have a better chance in a fight. If I tell them not to, the impersonator can't jostle and unnerve us into killing our own."

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"You should ask Fëanor's representatives to osanwë their friends; this tactic in the Enemy's active repertoire is... troubling."

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"Good idea. Can someone head over there? I don't know them well enough to make sure they hear, and not someone who looks like them - you're quite sure that the people who arrived escorting her were Fëanor's?"

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"I don't know them personally myself, but Tyelcormo was there partway, bird formed, and they wouldn't have had a chance to make a swap after he departed and I landed among them. I don't think a fake Tyelcormo could have been plausibly planted just so as to be turned into a bird and taught to fly, although maybe a shapeshifting Maia could do that part without help and something's befallen the real one."

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"If he seemed in character, it was probably him. All right, I'll go over and tell them to tell Fëanor that Maitimo's paranoias may reflect actual enemy tactics."

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"...I'm worried about the orcs, now, too, but perhaps I oughtn't leave until this is resolved here. Can you also ask Fëanor's people to check in with anyone they know with the orc escort?"

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Nolofinwë nods. "Why oughtn't you leave? Because we're overmatched? So is everyone else; if you think you're needed elsewhere, go."

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"I don't know if the orcs have anything to worry about and there's a way to check without flying down to find them."

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"Well. We can force a confrontation right now, easily enough, if time is pressing. I can storm down to Artanis's and demand to know why she met with Sarpalarë before she left, and you three can look for faces in the crowd, and I can then ask everyone to arrest both doubles of anyone we see with doubles. It'll get people killed but I think it would end this."

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"Time may not be pressing. I have not seen more than one set of doubles at a time, nor do they have enough force to attempt to overwhelm instead of sowing haphazard discord. The orcs may be fine. I just want to ask."

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"All right," he says, and leaves the building.

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Loki goes out too. Scans for duplicates. Makes a note of where Artanis is.

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No duplicates visible at the moment. Artanis doesn't seem unusually tense. It's getting dark.

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Loki puts a dot of brown on the sole of (this) Artanis's shoe. Should look like a fleck of dirt apart from the fact that she'll be able to move it with her mind on demand.

I'm not crashing yet, but if I'm planning to sleep under guard where should I do that? she asks Irissë.
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Our place, probably.

These supposed-Feanorians say that the Feanorians have been notified, and that the orcs have been notified in turn, and that everyone is fine,
Findekáno reports a minute later.
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Well, that's strictly better than not that, Loki says dryly to Findekáno. And then she goes and parks outside the family home to sit and watch things and do spellwork.

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A minute later Findekáno comes to sit beside her. I did something stupid.

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What did you do?

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I'm well within range to hear Maitimo and I was worried, with all of this going on, so I told him about it, and to be careful, since he's alone and practically unarmed, and he was listening but not sending anything at all so then I just told him about the area, and the trial, and how if we'd just been more sensible in the first place we'd all know how to fight by now and we wouldn't be in so much danger, and he said, very - expressionlessly, which makes perfect sense - 'do you want another apology'? and I didn't say anything and he said 'don't do this again' and It think that's what I would have expected, if you'd asked me in advance. But.

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Sigh.

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If he's difficult with you next time as a result I apologize.

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I imagine there will be words exchanged about it somewhere between here and dropping him off with the Dwarves. I'll live.

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Is he going to treat all Dwarves as personal avatars of Morgoth? Because they'll, one assumes, get tired of that.

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I'll advise him against. I got him to agree to stop referring to the Enemy in the second person when referring to events before I got ahold of him, since he at least thinks I'm not Thauron nor personally Morgoth himself.

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You aren't. It's a personal style thing. Even when Morgoth was pretending to be nice I don't think I ever saw him bring out the best in anyone.

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He doesn't have any verifiable evidence of me pulling that off.

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What did you speak of, the last time you two talked?

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Dwarves. The mess with Sarpalarë and how this would prevent me from immediately escorting him thereto.

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Will he be happy there?

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Seems like a stretch, much as I like them myself. He'll have a more stimulating environment, anyway.

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Thanks.

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You're welcome.

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And they watch the camp for doubles, as inconspicuously as they can.

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Until:

"I need some sleep." My armor's more comfortable than it looks, though, I can sleep in it fine.
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"Night." I sleep so rarely lately it'd be suspicious if I claimed to intend to tonight. Sorry.

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Can't help but envy you that option; sleep's a waste of time. In she goes.

She sleeps invisible, armed, armored.
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Nothing disturbs her.

In the morning the crowd assembles again.

Nolofinwë is done questioning Sarpalarë. There's a stage of trials in Valinor where the Valar speak and they've decided to at least have people speak on behalf of the relevant aspects - mercy, pity, justice, and so forth. The people taking on these vaguely blasphemous roles look awkward under all this attention.

And then in blue, on your left and on your far right, Irissë says.
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Loki's eyes do not appear to move.

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Yep, two identical Elves in identical clothes. This Maia, if that's what they are, is rather careless.

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And Loki does not - to anyone who's not monitoring her for heat and ultraviolet - appear to move.

She circles around invisibly to the matching Elves, marks each with a different colored dot.
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I don't really want to surprise it in a packed crowd, says Nolofinwë, who is also saying other, unrelated things out loud at the same time.

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I don't want it to surprise me, either. I just want to be within reach.

She stops easy weapon-extension distance away. Lurks. Her illusion is bored-trying-to-look-attentive.
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It turns, shuffles into a crowd, and emerges with a different bland Elven face and outfit.

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But it's still got its dot. She dismisses the one on the non-shapeshifter.

I've got it marked.
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If we're confident there's only one, Findekáno says, I can get the attention of the people around it and tell them to be prepared to leave. If there might be two better not to chance that. Can we call a lunch soon, Father?

Sure.
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I marked Artanis yesterday too and will be able to identify 'whoever was appearing as Artanis at that time', in case she's a person of interest.

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Thank you, good idea.

Nolofinwë calls a lunch break and the crowd disperses, slightly, and the shapeshifter brushes past another crowd and suddenly isn't there. Except for the dot.
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Is the dot still moving?

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Yes, in the same direction as when it was visible.

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Shapeshifter can turn invisible. My dot on it stuck so it hasn't vanished.

She follows, invisible, inaudible.
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I want to attack it as soon as there aren't any bystanders around, Nolofinwë says. Can we be an asset in that, or are we just going to be in your way?

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She osanwës where the dot is and where it's going. I could use archers too far away to turn easily into collateral damage to provide suppressive fire but other than that just getting everybody else out of the way is the top priority.

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Done.

A couple of the people near her freeze up when, presumably, receiving a private osanwë emergency bulletin, but most of them keep moving naturally.
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Any sign of reaction from the dot when the people twitch?

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No, it's still moving.

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She continues following, updating relevant parties on its location as it goes.

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We have a couple dozen people who can shoot at it, aren't going to be able to get more into position very readily, Nolofinwë announces a minute later.

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I won't push the confrontation any earlier than necessary.

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And at walking pace the bystanders clear away.

I don't see any other doubles, Findekáno says.
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One shapeshifter always seemed likeliest.

Stalk stalk stalk. Where is it going? Is there anything interesting in this direction?
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At first it looks like it was just veering off out of camp, but now it seems to maybe be angling back towards its center.

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The fuck does it want? Maybe it was just avoiding lunchtime conversation.

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I don't really want to call the afternoon testimony and pull everyone back into one place, Nolofinwë says.

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I can jump it whenever the archers are ready?

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We're set, Irissë says. Though if you're going to be on top of it we're not going to be shooting.

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I'm not expecting it to stay Quendi-shaped if it can do otherwise, especially if it figures out it can shake visual illusions by changing abruptly in size. And if you hit me as long as it's not enough to knock me out of commission instantly I can self-heal. Do stop it from running away from me and towards anybody else even if you don't want to fire into melee, though.

And she speeds up.
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The shapeshifter doesn't.

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And when she can spear it, she says, On three - one - two -

And she wraps it in one-way illusion it can't see or hear out of, visibles herself so she can watch her own weapon and arms in motion and the archers know where not to aim, and puts Lævateinn through center mass and frosts it with spikes.
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And there's an ear-splitting shriek and everyone in the camp turns to watch and suddenly it's visible, ten times larger and made entirely out of fire.

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If it's too tough for spiky-Lævateinn to rip out of it Asgardian strength or no, she'll shorten the whole thing to strike again, but she re-illusions it and plants her feet and yanks.

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It does rip loose. The location of the injury is glowing white-hot and the skin at its edges is bubbling. There are arrows raining down on it. It raises several whip-like appendages and lashes out wildly.

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Loki rolls and tries to slice a couple off.

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She hits, but can't immediately slice through it; it races in the direction of whatever injured it, scorching the ground as it goes.

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Right, it'll be able to place her by figuring out weapon reach and angle, if it's smart.

Fortunately, she's got a variable-reach weapon.

She vaults out of the path of a tentacle, plunges her blade down into the thing as she flips over its head, and lands, dragging a wound after her - then yanks and shortens the weapon to have another stab at it. It's hot; her armor's all-environments but this isn't quite an environment. Heal. Heal. Heal.
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This seems to have successfully confused it into thinking it has multiple attackers, or one who's moving in a different direction. Several fire-lashes miss and leave deep smouldering scars in the ground.

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She does not like those fire-lashes one bit. She tries again to relieve it of some, trying to shave them off close to the body so it can't just wave them with the assault.

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A clean hit slices through one of them. It shrieks, again - and then again, even louder - and instead of charging her again starts racing for the center of camp.

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Shit.

Stab-spikes-yank, aiming to knock it off balance.

(It's too hot, it's too - heal heal heal -)
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It's now covered in superficial, white-hot scars everywhere - from stumps, from arrows, from two gaping wounds in its central body, and it stumbles and then changes course yet again, this time running to get out.

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I'm thinking I don't let it go, Loki sends. Does it want to try being decapitated? She thinks it should give it a whirl.

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Don't, Nolofinwë agrees. More arrows are flying.

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And an axe for its neck.

It's so hot. Fires aren't usually this hot, she's burned herself on campfires when she was younger and she's not even quite burning now, but it's so -
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It explodes.

A fireball rushes outwards, throws her back, lights several of the nearby buildings on fire, and burns out nearly as quickly, leaving a crater with some whitish ash.
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heal

She keeps her grip on Lævateinn, shrinks it, with her other hand starts patting down her armor; maybe she'll need to ask Dwarves to patch it -

- her hand is blue.

She stops still, looking at her hand.

It is blue.

She makes herself a mirror.

Her face is her own, except -

"I think I'm adopted," she murmurs to no one in particular.
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The Quendi seem to have deployed some people to put out the fires. Everyone else is milling around anxiously.

"Loki," says Findekáno, "is that you?"
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"Yes." She blinks red-scleraed eyes, touches her forehead - smooth as it looks, the frost giants must do a ritual scarification thing or - "But I'm too short to be a frost giant."

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"When we met, what mental analogy did you decide to use when you learned protecting your thoughts?"

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"Ciphering. Look, if the problem were that I'm sporting a different color scheme I could fix that," she says, and she does, holding up her hands side by side and turning one pale-pink again. "I am busy dealing with the fact that apparently I was kidnapped as a baby from a culture my own has been at war with since before I was born and nobody told me."

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"The problem is that a fight with a shapeshifter ended with something that looks vaguely but not exactly like an ally of ours who is now behaving uncharacteristically.


If that is what happened that sounds horrifying and you've been very terribly wronged and I'm sorry."
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"I don't have a characteristic way to behave on discovering that I'm secretly a frost giant!" exclaims Loki. "I can't even say 'well, this explains a lot' because it doesn't, the only thing it explains is why I was more comfortable than anyone else on the ice, and I'm too short to be a frost giant!" She dismisses the illusion from her hand, stares into the mirror again.

The blue's receding.
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He watches silently.

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She does too. Eventually it's gone, eyes back to normal, skin flushed and fair as ever.

"Why the fuck would Odin have kidnapped a baby frost giant to pass off as her own child to everyone except presumably Frigg - for that matter if she adopted me to begin with why not chuck me back to Jötunheim after she noticed I wasn't Thor all over again like she wanted -"
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There really isn't much to say to that.

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"...no, you know what, there is an explanation, there is in fact an excellent explanation if you're Odin and think 'parenting' is another word for 'frowning'. She kidnapped a baby frost giant to raise as an Asgardian princess so she can conquer Jötunheim and install me as some kind of puppet ruler, because there's no way I'd have developed a personality at any point during the process, or take the revelation badly, or that Thor would freak out and the puppet rulership might not hold. Hell, I might be a frost giant princess to make that go smoother, she's occasionally canny about people's motivations if those people aren't her offspring. Her ostensible offspring. Fuck."

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"...well," Findekáno says, "among our people that'd be an atrocity to mention alongside Alqualondë and Losgar, though I'm not sure how yours feel about kidnapping infant children. But it sounds like she's going to have a very hard time pulling it off and you also needn't ever see her again until you're more powerful than she is."

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"I don't even know how powerful she is. She couldn't be a sorcerer, oh, no, not her, so instead she has this ridiculous mystery high-powered magic that she had to sacrifice an eye and unspecified less anatomical accessories to get because that's special and doesn't count and I was always way too curious about it and nobody would tell me anything. But I can certainly be prohibitively inconvenient to manage like that. Ugh, no wonder she didn't just declare in Thor's favor, she fully intended I inherit a throne and just didn't have one on hand yet..."

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"She doesn't seem to have understood you very well, if she thought you'd be pleased if she conquered a country and put you in charge of it."

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"Funnily enough I might have been delighted, but not in any way she can have been hoping for. I mean, if someone hands me the leverage to end a millennia-long war and then command a planetful of people, what do you think I'd do, run away and become a bard? I'm not as confident as I imagine she must have been that the frost giants would take to me just because I can apparently turn blue under some circumstances - and why am I so short, I'm even shorter than Thor is - but if that part went smoothly..."

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He smiles. "Okay. Uh, maybe there's a different kind of Maia you need to fight after which you'll be Melian's height? How tall are frost giants?"

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She laughs. "About twice as tall as you are. I assume there's a range. Actually, for all I know I'm just female frost giant height, they don't send women to war and I've never met one in a peaceful circumstance. Which leads me to further question Odin's judgment, if there were farther to go."

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"Your people only send women to war, and frost giants only send men? That's - interesting."

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"Well, I didn't actually question any of my opponents about their genders, maybe I just can't tell them apart, maybe they're a six-sexed species, we don't have much data on them except how to kill them. Conventional wisdom is that their soldiers are men and this is of course one of the many reasons they're abhorrent and all need to die." Loki shakes her head. "If she'd gotten a slightly different baby frost giant personality to stomp all over for a few hundred years I'd be contemplating suicide about now! How did she delude herself - that badly -"

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"Being a frost giant is something most Asgardians would find upsetting? Over and beyond realizing they were kidnapped as an infant at all?"

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"Yes! I - I don't even have a comparison to make, the obvious go-to is orcs but you've always acknowledged the kinship - the only reason Asgard hasn't gone total war and made a serious bid to render them extinct is that's hard to do with the low-tech aesthetic when you can't set foot on their planet without freezing - people tell each other that Asgardians are too honorable to resort to the strategies that would do it, not that there'd be anything to miss if they were all gone -"

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"Oh dear."

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"...Odin may or may not have been interpreting large parts of my personality as lingering species partiality."

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He nods.

After, a minute, cautiously, he sends a feeling he doesn't really have words for.

That horrible cascade of revelations where you have to revise centuries of memories and assumptions and interactions around something the other person knew all along, but you never did. And no matter how many memories you mark as tainted you're sure you haven't corrected enough for them. Slashing through your own happiest moments, through promises, through ambitions - knowing now that none of that was what it felt like, that all of it had been a careful manipulation -

I'm sorry.
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Thank you.

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At least you already didn't like her much.

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Yes. But I can't quite decide if I think Frigg knew. It would certainly have been very inconvenient not to tell him, but it's just barely possible -

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Asgardians can deceive their partner about a pregnancy?

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Sure. No fea, no decisionmaking around conception itself, just safeguards she could take and pretend not to if she wanted him to think I was his. Theirs. The inconvenient part would be that she'd then have to either fake the pregnancy without being absolutely assured of turning up with a baby at the end of it, or she'd have to have hidden me somewhere for the duration. It'd be easier to make him go along with it than to convince some random person to hold a baby for her for that long and not ask any questions or spread any rumors.

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Understanding. And if he was involved, then you have to do the feelings-recalculation about someone you actually did trust and love. Eru, Loki, I'm sorry.

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Hardly your fault. Pause. I wonder if I have cool ice powers. That would be a nice consolation prize.

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Not my fault, but I know the feeling. How do you test for cool ice powers?

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No idea. I never used any such thing by accident, so either they're the sort of thing one has to know one has or they were suppressed by whatever is making me so short.

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Well. We can throw you at more Balrogs, if that might result in other powers manifesting.

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Oh? Do you have a bunch of them penned up somewhere?

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He laughs. If we had a way to pen them up, we'd be halfway through the problem. I bet Maitimo knows where to find them, if you're really tempted.

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I am a little. Apart from the unpleasant warmth it wasn't that hard to kill this one. I'd probably have trouble with two.

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Next time if you're twelve feet tall when you come by I'll try not to blink. It's a pretty cool look, really.

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Doesn't match my color scheme.

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Someone should have warned you when you were choosing a color scheme that it needed to go with frost giant coloration.


You doing okay?
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I'll be fine. Thank you. ...You're satisfied I'm myself now, right?

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Yes. We're checking with everyone else, too, though I can't imagine if there were two of them we wouldn't have noticed yet.

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Nod.

Sigh.

She gets up, resumes checking her armor. It held up pretty well.
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You can always ask my uncle to repair it for you. He's good at that.

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I was thinking Dwarves, but I could try him too.

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Can I tell everyone you're definitely Loki and all's well?

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Sure. She buffs a soot mark off a bit of plate.

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And then people start cheering.

"Thank you," Nolofinwë says, walking over and staring at the crater. "That would have been an interesting end to the trial and I expect we'd have lost a lot of people. Very impressive fighting."

"No one's ever killed a Balrog," Irissë says gleefully. "Fëanor's never killed a Balrog."
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"Someone must have, because I did hear they explode when they die," Loki says. "Thank you for the suppressive fire."

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"Not sure it did much, but any time. ...now that we've demonstrated we get along with the other host and aren't going to march off and shoot them, will you teach us to fight like that? It was awesome."

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Loki laughs. "Half of that was my cool magic weapon and the Balrog being blinded and deafened. But I'll consider it if you don't mind me making a similar offer to them."

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Everyone flinches and then sort of shrugs. "They'll need it too," Nolofinwë says after a moment.

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"And for that matter Brithombar. And the converted orcs when they've gotten where they're going."

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"Well, of course they should learn."

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"Good. So... what effect does this have on the trial, besides that it's no longer being viewed by a disguised Balrog?"

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"I have absolutely no idea," he says. "It invites the interpretation that she thought she was following orders, and maybe we change focus to determining who thinks they got orders that they're now realizing might not have been from the person they thought. She still, unless there's a big piece of the picture we're missing, decided to go shoot someone, but I don't feel good about punishing her for it if she thinks I asked it of her."

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"We still don't know the words of her oath. She has to be handled like a potential sleeper agent if we can't figure that out."

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"I can't let her go, no."

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Nod. "I assume the Fëanorian visitors are updating their host and I needn't?"

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"That's my understanding. I don't know how they're telling it, but." He shrugs. "Fëanor seems to have calmed down from the way he was in the immediate aftermath of his father's death, and I'm not particularly worried that a misinterpretation is going to have us at each others' throats. Unless another tragedy of that magnitude occurs."

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"And now everyone knows to guard against it. Maybe you should have some kind of passphrase system rather than running down your supplies of personal facts every time someone has an off-day? Or rely on osanwë to a person-target instead of a that-guy-over-there target for sensitive communication."

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"We'll consider our options."

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Nod. "Things seem stable enough not to require ongoing supervision here. I think I'll go check on the orcs, then visit Fëanor and see if he wants to patch my armor or if I should go to the Dwarves about it." Pause. "I will do these things after actually eating lunch, I think I remember something being mentioned about lunch."

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He smiles. "Over there, if there's anything left. Safe travels. I don't suppose you stumbled, in your efforts to find places for people who've been prisoners of the enemy, across anyone who'd be qualified to handle Sarpalarë?"

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"Brithombar apparently keeps ex-Enemy-captives as prisoners; some of the same principles might apply to her and she at least seems less suicidal."

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"Thank you. I'll keep that in mind."

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"Next time I'm down there I can ask for details."

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"We can hold her for now. She hasn't actually shown any impulses towards personal violence."

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"Did she get a look at the Balrog?"

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"Yep. I was trying to keep an eye on her - though you were a bit distracting - and she looked the same as everyone else - shocked, scared, awed."

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Spoken to Artanis yet about how plausibly impersonable she is?

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I was going to do that next.

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Worth me confirming that she's kept her dot since yesterday evening?

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Yes, let's be careful about that.

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So Loki goes with him and attempts to collect the dot from Artanis's foot.

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It's still there. She looks confused. "Are we doing more testimony?"

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"No, I'm just checking that you're still yourself."

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"They, uh, wouldn't need to replace me if they were trying to make people in this camp agitate for war with the cousins."

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"Please do not agitate for war with the cousins. If you must agitate for war with the cousins, kindly do it in a manner that doesn't involve extracting an oath from a patsy and sending her on a likely suicide mission to assassinate Fëanor and being a disguised Balrog, which is what seems to have happened with this mess."

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"I wouldn't have asked her for an oath, that's abhorrent."

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"She sure seems to be under one. It's not to your credit that the most plausible explanation for her situation is that she thought you'd do something abhorrent."

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"What do I have to do with this?"

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"I'm not saying you did anything. I'm saying someone looked like you to do something. We can't be sure exactly who the Balrog was impersonating to her, but you seem likely. If you have another guess by all means say so. We do know that whoever it was their name doesn't start with a consonant or the same sound as Irissë's name, that's as far as we got before the oath clamped down; and suspect personal connection, which you'd have had."

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"Huh. Angaráto and Aikanáro's names both start with the same sound as mine, for the record, not that I'm sure it matters whether the thing impersonated me or one of them. I'm perfectly happy to make it known that I wouldn't ask people for an oath that would prevent them from revealing something I asked of them, and that they should never ever agree to that - though maybe she got in a little at a time. Like, the first time, you ask her to give an orc a better weapon and point them south, something like that. Then by the time the ask is 'shoot Fëanor' she's already very invested in this and has done several things that'd count as treason."

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"Plausible. It's not obvious how long the Balrog was here; it may have had long enough to build up like that."

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"Though still seems smarter to go straight to their camp and straight for Fëanor. Unless the war was the primary aim, and killing him only the secondary one."

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"It's actually possible that getting ahold of me was an aim; it's sort of hard to know where I'm going to be far in advance without making sure something interesting is slated to happen in a particular place."

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She grins. "In that case, shoulda sent more than one."

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"Apparently."

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"In Valinor the Enemy tried first to become friends with Fëanor, then when he realized Fëanor has trust issues he tried with us, then when that didn't get him anywhere with anyone who could get him to them. That could be read as 'go for the most powerful people' or 'go for the people in the formal power structure', and now that those are different it'd be useful to have a sense of how he thinks."

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"Hmm, yeah. I'm definitely not in any local formal power structures."

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"Could also be 'go for the most unstable and violent people'," she muses, "in which case he'll ignore you entirely. Probably not that, though. Take care."

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"Will do. I hope the lesson he takes from this is that if he sends me a Balrog he does not get it back."

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She smiles. "Congrats on that, by the way. It was awesome."

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"Thanks."

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"Your weapon - can ones like it be made?"

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"Well, presumably, this one was made, but I didn't make it and they're not standard-issue, it was just sort of lying around for Odin to give me when I killed something toothy enough that the accomplishment counted as coming of age. I could probably make a spell for it but it'd postpone the teleportation." She frowns at her weapon thoughtfully.
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"We're going to need something better than arrows for those things," Irissë says, "but that's not on you."

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"I think I've explained the basic concept of a gun, but they do need a few iterations of development before they're an improvement on bows in any way except how quickly a person can learn to use them."

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"And everyone here knows how to use a bow. We can start development, though, if it'll be worth it eventually, once we have workshops and supplies and things. That's perhaps two years out."

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"Your cousins will probably have them first, and I'll explain them to the Dwarves too."

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"I don't see a better solution," Nolofinwë says, "but it does sound like we're in a position of dearly hoping no one is maneuvered into doing something Fëanor can take as threatening, or that when they do he continues to be disinterested in riding down here with an army with weapons longer-ranged and more powerful than ours."

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"I'd teach you to make bulletproof substances but I don't know how."

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"I don't blame you, I think you're making the right decisions given your knowledge and the situation."

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"Thank you, I really appreciate having that acknowledged."

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"Sometimes I consider just telling Fëanáro that the Kingship's his and everything's forgiven. It didn't work the last ten times, but -"

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"I don't think it'd go over well with your people time number eleven."

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"If it were the right thing I would figure out on what terms it could possibly be brought about. It's not the right thing. Being irreconcilably divided forever also probably isn't the right thing."

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"I can run the problem by Maitimo if you like."

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He grimaces. "He has more options at his disposal than I since unapologetic betrayal of people who trust him is on there."

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"...Well, I suppose he could propose it but he can't actually implement anything that I don't relay and whoever I relay it to doesn't okay, not from a distant Dwarven kingdom where he'll be in a week."

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"I am very curious what he'd do, so go ahead."

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"Will do." She makes a note. She is still getting used to not physically turning the pages of her illusion notebook; her hand goes through it before she remembers.

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"And if there's a way to feel out what Fëanáro wants and how he'd react to another orchestrated provocation, and how we can make that less of a problem, I'd appreciate that."

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"I'll do my best." Note, note.

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"Thank you, Loki."

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"You're welcome. If there's nothing else pressing - I'm going to get lunch."

She goes and scrounges up some lunch. Balrog-stabbing is hungry work.
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After lunch the trial resumes, and Nolofinwë explains to everyone what happened and how they concluded as much. He then suspends the trial for a discussion of security precautions to prevent it from happening again.

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Loki figures she'll collect that in summary later. She flies south to check on the orcs.

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It's evening by the time she reaches them; they're making good time. The Quendi are mostly not within sight of them, anxiously circling the surrounding area in threes.

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Loki lands by the orcs and says, loudly enough that she thinks their escorts will hear, "Hi. How are you guys doing? I killed a Balrog!"

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They look awed.

"Did Melkor help you?" Vár says. "How are you not dead from the -" she gestures - "when they're hurt?"
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"I had a long-reach weapon. And healing spells. And I didn't let it see or hear. And I am very good at fighting. I'm pretty sure that's all it took."

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Several of the orcs are kind of cowering. Vár cheerfully explains, though, that the trip is going fine, that they've found food along the way, that it's very nice to not be around Quendi all the time even if they're not Elves.

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"I'm glad you're doing well. Um, please don't be scared of me," Loki says to the cowering orcs, "I'm not going to hurt you."

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They all straighten up as if that's an order, but seem just as scared.

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Oh dear.

"...Uh, just wanted to check in. I didn't mean to alarm anybody with the Balrog story. I'll be on my way."
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"It was very good to see you and we are very proud you killed a Balrog," Vár assures her. "It's just that usually after great victories someone wants a reward and no one knows what you'd claim for it and not having anything you want is also a scary position to be in."

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"Oh, I didn't realize. I will be more considerate before bragging in the future."

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"Do you want a reward?"

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"My reward is that the Balrog didn't hurt anybody. That's plenty."

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"Okay. You're a very brave warrior, Loki."

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"Thank you. I may or may not have another chance to catch up to you before you get where you're going; safe travels."

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"May Melkor guide your path!"

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"...I appreciate the sentiment."

And she heads up and away.
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They keep walking.

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And she heads for Fëanor's.

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Tyelcormo sees her before she sees him, of course, and hurries towards her at bird speed. Loki. New policy; direct your response at Tyelcormo rather than at the bird flying at you. Other new policy is to start conversations with the words you ended the last one with, but we hadn't adopted that last time we spoke so I don't expect you remember.

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Having no native osanwë I'm not actually sure how directional I can make it on fine distinctions like that, but I'll try; might be worth checking. I transcribe a lot of my conversations - which is a security risk if someone manages to be able to operate my illusions somehow, but will help me do the conversation-starter convention if they can't...

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It's easy to test whether you can do the directional thing; I'll ask one or two of my brothers to stand behind a door and we can see if you can do 'Macalaurë' as distinct from 'person behind the door' when you do and when you don't know who's behind the door, and whether the person behind the door who you're not addressing yourself to hears it.

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Yeah, that works. I suppose we now know that my ability to change shape and turn invisible are not unique markers. Although I can't turn into a Balrog, so if something does that, please feel free to assume it isn't me.

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Bit late at that point, isn't it? The King thinks he's made some progress on the projectile weapons you described to us, thinks it's maybe a five-year project. It'd be faster if he weren't juggling so many.

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Does that mean I should bring my dinged armor to the Dwarves instead of him, then?

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No, that we're very fast at, comes up a lot. Also I think the forge-minded find things like that relaxing the way I find hunting relaxing.

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My armor is weird, though, she says.

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How so? Anyway, someone can probably tell you in five minutes how long it'd take.

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Fair enough. I'm not actually sure, I never branched into armor-crafting, but I'm reasonably sure it is not just shaped metal. It's a little enchanted, not heavily - that should all be intact - and probably has peculiar materials in it. The damage is superficial, but it's not going to take well to being heated up and pounded on, I think.

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Yeah, just ask Curvo or the King. So did that drama conclude the trial?

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Not exactly, but it made it fairly clear what had happened and I didn't feel the need to supervise the rest of it in person.

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And they're quite clear, I hope, that if it happens again we're not going to go 'oh, inconvenient how the Enemy keeps using Nolofinwë's people to try to kill us'?

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You're not? I mean, that's exactly what happened. Sarpalarë was very foolish and everyone is being warned against similar failure modes, but that is in fact the thing that happened and I am not sure why you'd find it implausible that it'd happen twice. Surely that's the response you'd want if the reverse were tried.

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We will. But I do not want any other foolish would-be assassins in Nolofinwë's camp who don't even require magical urging to go settle a score to anticipate that we will.

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I think Nolofinwë is making it clear that he won't stand for it.

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Good.

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Anyway, turns out I can kill Balrogs, so that's exciting.

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Congratulations. Was it a fun fight?

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Well, up until the end of it when I discovered in the stupidest way possible that I was secretly adopted.

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...huh?

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So, I spent the entire fight being not particularly outmatched but definitely very uncomfortably warm. And - to summarize a lot of inferences I then made based on things I don't think I've mentioned to you - when the Balrog exploded I then turned blue and concluded that I was kidnapped from the frost giants as an infant and my mother was probably planning to use me as a puppet ruler of their planet to end the otherwise interminable war; the remaining mysteries are why I'm so short even when blue and whether my father even knew she did this.

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I want to lock Maitimo and your mother in a room with the table game Governor - oh, you've probably never heard of it...

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I haven't.

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It's a strategy game for ridiculously convoluted political intrigue. That sounds like the sort of outcome it would produce. The Valar frowned on it because it occasionally ended in fistfights.

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Sounds like a fun game. Her strategy did lack the important component of 'remotely adequate parenting', let alone 'remotely adequate parenting for the prospective queen of the frost giants'.

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You strike me as a perfectly good prospective frost giant queen.

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Don't give her any credit for it. If I'd turned out like she wanted I'd have desired their extinction and likely contemplated suicide on discovering I was one.

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...you okay?

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I'm fine. Took some adjustment, but I'm fine. Also I may or may not have cool ice powers. I didn't think I could get any more contemptuous of Odin but clearly my imagination didn't suffice.

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And disinclined to drive any planetsful of people extinct?

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I am as ever inclined against.

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Good, he thinks, since you just fought a Balrog and the King keeps pushing 'weapons that would give us a chance against Loki' farther down the priority queue and Huan can't fly.

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He has 'weapons that would give us a chance against Loki' in the priority queue? I don't know whether I'm insulted or flattered. I may be both. ...This is the second time you have opined that your dog could take me and this time you're saying it the same day I killed a Balrog, please explain.

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Huan's a Maia. Follower of Oromë, we became close friends when I hunted with him. Technically that just makes him as powerful as a Balrog but there's also a prophecy that he will die at the hands of the greatest werewolf in the world and nothing else will seriously injure him, and you didn't learn today you're an adopted werewolf.

And yeah, did you expect us to just indefinitely be okay with the fact you could get mind-controlled by Morgoth or deceived about something or just talked into it by the cousins and then, boom, maybe it's Mandos and maybe it's the Everlasting Darkness? People don't like being helpless, Loki.
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Well, sure, but 'figure out how to defeat the friendly alien' seems like a strictly lesser priority than 'figure out how to defeat the evil Vala who is the primary means via which the friendly alien might be suborned', so I hope the plan wasn't to develop anything specialized versus me as opposed to 'sufficient to give us a chance against Loki' being a benchmark for general efficacy?

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Yeah, of course.

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Okay, then I can just be flattered.

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They're approaching camp. You should probably fly as an invisible bird more, that being the very very obvious way to take you down and Elves having so much better vision than you that we could be within archery range when you're not even in eyesight range.

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Yeah, good plan. Do you want to be invisible?

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These mountains have now been very thoroughly checked for trouble. We're safe here. I was thinking more generally.

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The only trouble with being invisible is that I can't turn my illusions invisible - that being sort of a contradiction with their continued existence - so I have to either hide them behind something and rely on my ability to color-match the sky, which I'm sure is inadequate, or have them follow me from underground, which makes me worry about accidentally losing them and not being able to find them again.

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You could illusion yourself as a different kind of bird, now that it's widely known you can only be one kind of bird? Or you can try color-matching the sky and I can tell you whether I'd make that shot.

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So Loki makes an illusion of the outside of her illusion notebook and then encircles it in sky blue.

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I'm also a bird right now, I'm not going to be able to tell. At worst you could have twenty little circles like that in the air around you when you fly, so anyone inclined to attempt it has bad odds and it'll be obvious if they tried.

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That works; thanks. She dismisses it. You can't tell while you're a bird if you could make a shot? I thought you kept your vision.

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For almost every relevant purpose, but for archery the distance between your eyes matters a lot, and swift eyes are not positioned for depth vision.

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Oh, I see, I should've thought of that.

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Most people don't look out at the world and think about what they could hit with an eight-foot-tall longbow.

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Yeah, but I did use to do serious archery before I fixed my clumsiness.

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I'm going to be a bit sour once they have the guns working. Just a bit, mind you, but -

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You might be able to transfer your accuracy to a sniper rifle. Make shots from a few miles off.

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That's a thing guns can do?

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Yep. Fire between heartbeats. You probably wouldn't even need a scope.

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We need saltpeter, do the Dwarves have opinions about where it can be found?

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I can ask.

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Aside from that the King thought it was mostly a precision problem. Perhaps you can discuss it with him.

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Maybe, but guns are pretty scarce on Asgard, I won't have much.

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There's nothing I'd love more than to visit Asgard and try all your weapons and monsters and enemies, except I can't because I'm not a girl. I wonder if this is how Irissë feels all the time.

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Sigyn gets to fight things. It's not as bad as being a girl who wants to do magic. And I don't think the bilgesnipes will know the difference. I didn't have the impression that the problem was nearly as bad for Quendi, anyway?

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No one would exile a child over it. But I had to talk at Oromë for a couple hundred years before he agreed that there wasn't anything objectionable about Irissë riding with us, and he took me when I was only a child and practically useless. And my grandfather also had two daughters, one of them older than Nolofinwë, who didn't feature in the succession dispute because it just didn't occur to anyone.

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Well, I'm not sure adding more participants to the dispute would have helped anything, but yes, that is a problem.

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That's among the reasons I didn't point this out to people. That and that politics is stupid and my aunts had the right idea.

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Well, Nolofinwë seems to do all right... and I think I am prepared to say of your father that at least on a typical day he probably makes a better king than a subject.

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Amusement. He'd have passed it on to Maitimo and managed to mostly be neither, if things hadn't all fallen apart at the worst possible minute.

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I'm much more prepared to say that he'd be vastly better at 'neither', but that does not seem to be in the cards in the immediate future.

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He is a quick learner and will grow into the best King our people have ever known. He's not as quick a learner with this kind of thing and didn't grow into it quite fast enough, but he's not Elf-paced about even his weaknesses.

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Unfortunately, politics is iterated. The best politician with a damning legacy can and will be outperformed by the mediocre one with no such handicap.

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Outperformed at what? Killing the Enemy? If it can be done with conventional means and they go ahead and do it, great, the Enemy being dead is more important than any of our legacies. If it can't, Father's the only one who can do it.

Outperformed at popularity contests? Sure. Sorry if that doesn't move me much. The fate of the world's rather at stake here.
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I am rather separating your father's roles as king and engineer, here.

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I don't think you can. His style of leadership is entirely about evaluating which projects need to happen and who can make them happen, which he can do very quickly, attracting the most capable people to those projects, and pushing himself on whichever element would otherwise be the one delaying a plan in coming together. It would be a very very unusual political arrangement that gave him the latitude he needs without amounting to 'he's King, someone else does the administrative tasks and the public relations'.

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He sounds more like a corporate leader than a political one, actually. Of the high-powered interstellar commerce type, not the Asgardian, but I've met the breed.

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The interesting kinds of leadership are vision and execution. Everything on top of that is just phrasing things delicately and looking wise.

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The distinction I'd draw is that a corporate officer fires people if they don't behave how he likes and a political leader has to tolerate them or punish them - the equivalent to firing is exile and that touches much more of a person's life even in the relevant sort of economy than what job they work. Not that being fired is not a punishment, especially with the kind of money people in the second tier of those companies can make, but it's not as - personal. I think I would very much like to set up your father as the executive of an galactic engineering concern, I think that would be great.

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Fair. Though we did a lot of tolerating up to the point where he decided it couldn't go further. Under less time pressure, most rulers would try people who are openly going around saying that they're only continuing on in a military campaign for the opportunity to hurt the King as badly as possible, which Artanis said several dozen times, often on a podium in front of a crowd.

I wish we hadn't burned the ships. But it's easier to make calls like that in hindsight.
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Tolerating has its drawbacks! I am not advocating universal toleration! I just think he'd work well in a setting where the sphere he controlled was more complete in precision and less so in life-consumingness.

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Sure. And best in a setting with no Enemy and mining which didn't take years and thousands of people defending the site to get crappy metal. I'm not arguing that the current setting is the best one for my father's talents, I am saying that Kingship is a thing he's good at and entirely capable of being great at, and what you're calling 'corporate officer' might be the only way to win the war, so it is fortunate that he has the political power to pursue it.

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Osanwë equivalent of a shrug.

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There are a lot of other kingdoms around. People can just leave, if they so desire. Instead they're joining us. Lots of the Thindar communities in the area have settled near us and might eventually move in, they're just hesitant.

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Oh good, I don't have to give you the open borders talk.

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..does it seem like one of my father's shortcomings is that he wants people to be around him even if they don't want to be there?

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No. But political units have a sort of stickiness to them.

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Having a war on complicated everything. I know what good leadership looked like in Valinor. If you were that lenient here - well, you get Artanis giving talks every day about how she wants the King dead, and then angry when he doesn't give her a ride over here to keep doing it.

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When was this? I don't have a clear timeline.

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The boats weren't good enough to make it all the way across from Alqualondë, or we weren't good enough at oceangoing boat navigation. We headed north again, half the host on the shore and half in the remaining ships. It was mostly our people in the ships, since we'd taken them in the first place, and all of the supplies were in the ships so everyone on the coast could move faster. We were going to head north to Araman on the edge of the Ice and then cross there. It's the shortest point - three hundred miles, perhaps? Not more than four - and we'd planned to make multiple trips.

When we got to Araman the Valar spoke the Doom, and things were very tense. Father kept saying he wanted to leave
now and they kept saying not yet and Maitimo was keeping all of us on shore as proof that we weren't about to sail off without them but no one could agree on which mixture of the hosts to have on the boats and Artanis - and a bunch of other people, I don't mean to pick on her, but she was the most powerful and the most visible - was saying that they were crossing only to avenge the theft of the boats and see my father destroyed for it.

And then word got out that Nolofinwë'd formally started calling himself King of the Noldor. I thought Father'd be angry but he just said 'all right, we're leaving now.' And we got on and left.
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Ah.

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It was the wrong call. He wouldn't have made it again, today. But it - when Maitimo begged to return the ships I actually wasn't sure which one of them was right.

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How did you come to be sure of which it was?

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They crossed. We thought they'd go home. Given that they were going to cross, it was obviously better that they cross in a way that didn't cause unimaginable suffering and pointless deaths.

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She is a bird, so she nods by osanwë.

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Also now they wouldn't hate us quite as much as they do but I promise that was my second thought.

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My first reason would probably sound like 'even Artanis does not deserve to be trapped with the Valar indefinitely'.

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Yeah, I know. Do you know where I was four days after we landed, which is when we'd have finished taking the ships back across the ocean and back? I was in Brithombar, which was close to being overrun.

Those people do not deserve to be trapped in the Halls of Mandos indefinitely, either. No one is getting what they deserve, and defeating the Enemy as fast as possible has to come before fixing that.

Also, who do you think is likeliest to devise a way to get people out of Mandos, and how likely to happen do you think it is if he's dead? Well, now that you're here might happen anyway, but we couldn't have predicted that.
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Brithombar remembers you fondly if unpronounceably. Believe me, I do appreciate - very thoroughly - that getting rid of the Enemy is probably not going to come down to having a specific quantity of swords on hand.

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Not when half of them are pointed at each other. If they'd stayed home, and you'd come and talked with us and somehow found out about it and pressed me on whether it was the right thing to do, I'd have said 'I think so'. Wouldn't have known for sure until we win or lose, and maybe not even until we'd made it possible for anyone to leave Valinor, but I'd have said 'I think so'.

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They've reached the camp.

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She lands. Outside the gate, as is polite.

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Can you debird me?

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Sure. She holds out her hand.

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He lands on it.

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And now he is a Quendi again. In she goes.

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The camp is more relaxed. There are people outside and everyone's stopped wearing armor.

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Well, that's good, because she wants to take some of hers off. "Where should I bring my damaged gear to see if it can be fixed here?"

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"Forge," Tyelcormo says, walking towards the workshop - they're adjacent.

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Follow follow. Into the forge she goes.

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Fëanor isn't there. Curufinwë is. "not lethally," he says to Tyelcormo.

"Only a little bit," Tyelcormo says back. "Loki wants to know if anyone here can fix her armor."
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"...What's not lethal?" Loki asks, taking off a bit of it that got too close to one of the lash things.

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"Last words we spoke to each other," Curufinwë says, taking it from her, "it's a falsifiable precaution but not trivially so. Hmm."

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"Oh right, that. I will have to get into different notetaking habits." She marks down the last bit of her conversation with Tyelcormo and puts it in a new section of notebook.

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"This is very nice, it would take me a year to make it. It would take a week to fix it, and I'd learn something from the effort, so I'm happy to do that at your convenience."

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"You're sure you can do that without - melting it in some way that will interfere with its various properties I don't understand?" she asks.

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"Enchanted metal is generally pretty resilient to reshaping, this is expertly done, and I can do most of the work myself with magic if that seems to be wise given how the metal is responding."

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"At some point I need to interrogate somebody about how local, non-Maia non-Vala magic works. Maybe I can do something ludicrously hacky with it. All right, may as well take them now. Do you happen to have spares lying around to cover the same areas I could borrow?"

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They do, and are happy to offer them.

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"Thank you."

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"You're a pleasure to work with, "Curufinwë says, but distractedly; he's already turning the armor over in his hands and making notes.

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Loki writes that down and leaves.

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Construction is underway on one of the rivers that feeds Lake Mithrim. The camp looks content and busy.

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Right, now she has a few days to kill before Maitimo expects her. She hmms to herself, considering a trip to Brithombar versus Doriath versus just parking here or with the Nolofinwëans for the duration, spellcrafting.

"...If anybody has an opinion about where I should be for the next few days, I'm feeling indecisive."
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Macalaurë emerges from the conference room. Undecided between which options?

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...Oh, and that reminds me I should make sure that I'm capable sans native osanwë of the distinguishing-between-people trick you're using for identity verification.

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I'll grab someone, there's an easy test of that - and he outlines one similar to what Tyelcormo had proposed.

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Loki nods and performs the test.

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She can target when using osanwë to communicate. Well, that's a relief. Macalaurë says. You have other ways to verify your own identity.

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Yes, although it shouldn't be "shapeshifting" or "becoming invisible", I suppose. Oh, and general identity confirmation measure: I may or may not now have cool ice powers and I mean to find out.

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How does one discover cool ice powers? Was it not previously the case that you either may or may not have had ice powers?

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Prolonged exposure to a Balrog wore off some of a spell that seems to have been keeping me in extremely convincing Asgardian form since I was, presumably, kidnapped as a baby. Under that I seem to be an unusually short frost giant. They have cool ice powers. I will try to figure out how to use them in some sort of controlled environment.

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That's horrifying, I'm sorry.

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Want the rest of my extrapolation? It's also horrifying but in a fascinatingly convoluted way!

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I'd be delighted.

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So what I think happened is Odin decided she wanted to end the entirely too prolonged war with the frost giants, and because to her mind 'parenting' is not a concept, she assumed that a foolproof plan for doing this would be to kidnap a frost giant baby - possibly even an authentic frost giant baby princess; actually, for all I know I could have originally been a prince - and raise it as her own. Then, because parenting is not a concept, it would be trivial to install this legitimate-by-blood ruler on a recently conquered Jötunheim and operate it as a puppet monarchy. Nothing could possibly go wrong. There is no danger that raising a baby frost giant to think that the galaxy would be a better place if frost giants were extinct could have unprecedented psychological consequences, it is no great setback if your adoptive child displays a temperament which does not seem suited to imposing Asgardian values on others, and of course there is no need to teach your secret frost giant baby anything about her future subjects except insofar as she learns - in the course of her perfectly normal Asgardian princess upbringing - to kill them. Isn't this a wonderful plan? The only question is whether Frigg knew about it or if Odin decided she'd like to spoof the ostensible father of her stolen baby frost giant. It's certainly not biologically impossible, just inconvenient.

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Is taking a child from its parents a crime even a Queen can be prosecuted for, in Asgard? Because it certainly would be here.

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You know, I'd have to look up the war crimes code, I know that normally killing infants is on there but I don't recall anything about adopting them. But we do have a lot of exceptions for frost giants, so she's probably in the clear about me. I'm going to have to be awfully careful when I tell Thor so she doesn't just decide to exterminate me on the spot for pretending to be her sister.

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Do you want a drink?
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Never been a fan of alcohol! I have no idea if that's a frost giant trait or not! But thank you for offering.

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I'm sorry that you had such a dreadful mother in so many respects. I'm glad she wasn't more competent in her dreadful parenting.

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It might have taken more than competent parenting to turn me into who she was hoping to get, but yes, it could have been worse. Beat. Anyway, I could loiter around here or go back to your cousins or swing down to Brithombar or hang out in Doriath, I'm not meeting Maitimo for several days, we allowed a while for the trial.

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And you'd be working on spell development either way? Stay here and save yourself the travel time, I know the locations you've been picking to meet Maitimo are relatively close. I'm sure Doriath is prettier but we now have sheet glass and working plumbing and other such delightful amenities, as part of my effort to persuade the Thindar to stick around.

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Ooh, plumbing. All right, I'll visit Lúthien on my way back from Dwarves, plumbing's very convincing. Any preferences where I should park?

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One of the most recently constructed buildings is housing for guests. He gestures. I can have meals brought to you there, if that's easiest.

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It would technically be easiest but only in a fairly trivial sense; I don't forget to eat. I am accustomed to spellcrafting when I must remember not only to eat but to attend lessons, spend half an afternoon limiting the extent to which my prodigy sister beat the crap out of me in sparring matches, show up to public functions, and be ready to hide everything when the door creaks in case I'm recruited on an expedition to hunt owls for their feathers. Speaking of sparring, the Nolofinwëans want me to teach them to fight and I said I would consider it and extend a similar offer to you.

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We accept, obviously. We were training illegally in Valinor but expertise matters a lot in every field and it sounds like this is Asgard's. He starts walking.The new building is dark grey stone with newly-planted vines trying to decide whether to grow across the exterior.

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Loki heads for the guest building. I can start thinking about a schedule and a regimen with a better idea of what everyone already knows how to do and about how many people you want trained up in what aspects of fighting.

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We have sixty thousand people. I could spare five thousand to start an intensive training program, right now everyone's in this area mining and farming and defending the miners and farmers and I don't have the resources to pull more off that even if you could train them. Everyone older than thirty can fire a bow. The people you'd be training can all wield a sword or an axe without injuring themself or their fellows, and carry a spear on horseback. We don't have anyone with serious training in melee fighting, and they've learned whatever they do know by practice fighting with each other. Valinor had a number of gymnastics disciplines that trained people in falling well and we've all practiced that.

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Do you have practice weapons or do I need to assume that everyone will be wielding a sharp edge?

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We have wood. It's not very helpful because balance is so different. We don't have enough swords to give people dulled ones.

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Loki takes notes. My archery information is old and probably not a substantial improvement on what you've got. I've studied mounted combat but it's not often practiced, so similar situation there. Might get the most mileage out of just plain sword work. I don't think I can effectively manage five thousand people at once, at least not without delegating; maybe give me thirty and then give them some manageable number each while I'm off elsewhere and so on.

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Certainly. That's easy. Thank you. He pushes open the door. The room is wood-paneled and has a definitely magical tapestry, so detailed it looks like staring through a window, hanging on one wall. Baths, bedrooms.

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"Thank you! Wow, is that a tapestry? That is an amazing tapestry."

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"My grandmother had a gift for it. She died before I was born, sadly. Most of her work was destroyed in the sack of Formenos the day my grandfather died. We have three of these left, and dresses for a daughter's wedding day if anyone in this family ever successfully has a daughter."

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"If I couldn't see how it was attached to the wall and didn't know the weather I'd think it was a window - if I didn't know your tech level I'd think it was a screen - can you make out the stitches?"

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"Yes, but only if I'm looking very hard. It's magic, obviously. She did every stitch in the piece but she had some way of making them so small." He's smiling. "I'm glad you like it."

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"Who should I be quizzing about local magic? It doesn't seem to be in use everywhere, so I assume it has some kind of serious limitation..."

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"Its limitation being that its wielders grew up in Valinor, and thought on Valinor's terms. Our magic is almost entirely very very slow to work - it can take hours, for some projects years - works in artifacts - I can do it with music, but that's far more flexible than most of it - and is almost entirely a specific ability to craft something in a way that makes it more its fundamental nature. The actual process is highly technical and we have a sophisticated mathematical language for describing what we're trying to do and designing the artifacts to actually do it. Most people would need a decade to work out a complicated project in the relevant technical level of detail.

We can do magic swords that are deadly and magic armor that is protective, but other than that this is surprisingly hard to apply to leveling Angband."
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"Maybe you need magic artillery for that. Do locals not practice it...?"

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"They typically protect their dwellings with what seems like a similar form, though they can't do the calculations and either go with a lot less precision, a lot shorter effect length, or using music to make the universe do the needed computation - it's said Creation was a song, and music is very powerful in these things."

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A few seconds of lilting strings fill the air.
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"Is that your magic? Which instruments are those?"

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"That's me doing an auditory illusion, yes, and those are mostly fiddles." She lifts a hand, illusions one into place on her chin, pretends to play it. "I don't really know how to play, but... Mostly I'm wondering if I can make the universe do a lot of computation without having to gather a choir."

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His eyes light up.

"All right. So consider a project Curufinwë and I have been tossing ideas back and forth over - a spell for true seeing, that lets you see invisible people, lets you see everyone present in their real form, lets you see through illusions and possibly through hallucinations but we don't know how Moringotto does that so we won't be able to convince Maitimo that's happened anyway.

If he does it, it'd be in the form of a magical ring or necklace, and what the ring or necklace would do is have to - hmm, look at the raw material of creation, and decompile a second version of the raw material of creation from what the wearer is actually experiencing, and compare those, and find the differences, and stitch the 'truth' in for the lies in the wearers' experience. Curufinwë would need to do a great deal of difficult theoretical work to describe that last sentence sufficiently technically that a ring could be forged that would do it, and then the ring would work only with delays of hours and he would need an exhausting process of testing that involved simplifying the magic so it did only the needed parts of its work and did them faster and turned up less bizarre false positives.

If I did it, I would ask to hear the raw material of creation, and hear the world in front of me, and I'd sing a spell whose job it was to harmonize them and let the truth triumph. It would still take weeks to compose the song, but the computation involved in 'hear the raw material of creation' isn't needed at all; once I have the spell, I can just play for it."
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...This is interesting and Loki writes it all down. "Why a magical ring or necklace in particular?"

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"Needs to be a single continuous piece of metal, should ideally be in direct contact with the skin."

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"Why? And once the technical work was done what would - at what point and how, in the forging process, would the technical work interact with the ring-or-whatever? When I'm doing spell work and I finish a piece it 'snaps' into place in my head and I can't forget it, and casting's a mental action, it's all in my head to begin with, but how do you get your definition of truth into a ring?"

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"You'd have to ask Curufinwë or my father for a proper explanation, but on the very small projects I attempted in the forge, magic was a step in the process of treating the metal, and the work starts working if it works when the metal was made continuous."

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"...None of the mental images I'm coming up with make sense, I'm assuming you don't burn a written copy of the definitions involved or sternly inform the metal that it is to contain thus and such..."

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"Have you ever tried osanwë with an inanimate object?"

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"...No. Is that a thing?"

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"It's pretty pointless. There's not nothing there but there isn't a mind there, just a sort of vague tedious resonance like the echo you hear when talking to a stone wall. Except if you have very very precisely defined what you want, you can know which thoughts to think to get the resonances that will do what you want. Thinking the wrong thought during the process disrupts it. It is absurdly difficult."

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"Okay. I probably can't do that part because I don't actually have osanwë, I'm just interacting with yours. Is there a cheap simple test I can try to make sure that objects don't 'have' enough osanwë of their own...?"

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"When I was young the first lesson my father started me on was making a ring that produced its own light, I think that's a standard simplest case. It still took a month. If you cheated and received exactly the series of resonances, you might be able to tell in three days."

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"Well, that's a fairly brief test, I will consider it as a disposition of my time here - but more overview first - can you go into more detail on your version? How do you hear the raw material of creation, can anyone do that?"

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"Any Elf can. You're supposed to get there by meditation, but I picked it up by sheer force of will - there was music making the world reveal itself around me, and I wanted to hear it, and I - hmm, maybe it still is osanwë, but it feels different from the usual sort if so - you look at things moving around you and try very hard to listen for them. Over time it develops into a sense as strong as any other, if less precise and more mediated by your will and concentration."

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"Sounds much costlier for me to test, but it's the music thing I may be able to cheat at..."

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"I don't know how much of an advantage being able to produce any sound at will grants you. I am rarely limited by ability to produce a sound I require, and while carrying an instrument into combat is a very real disadvantage you can eventually learn to achieve most effects vocally."

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"I was actually wondering if the universe cares what tempo it's at."

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That
would grant you a combat advantage."
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"The most likely problem is that I can only produce illusions to the level of my ability to form a clear mental audition of the sound I want. I don't have to be able to, say, write it all out in harmonic dictation; but it has to be such that it would sound different to me if something were wrong. The other person I asked about this was Melian but she's a Maia - do you have the thing where you feel like you have a crisp memory of something but it turns out you can't count someone's freckles or, I suppose, in this case, how many voices there are in a chorus...?"

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"Yes, we do."

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"What my illusions do is they produce a genuinely crisp image which would produce the same mental image I have. So it won't look blurry, because I would have remembered that; but any distinctions that don't affect my memory of the experience at all don't make it in, and any ambiguously memorized experiences could be distorted. However, once I've got an illusion I can treat it like an object without it having to go through my head; audio ones do this less, but I could still speed one way up, make it quieter or softer, 'store' it as two parts and put them together when I wanted to cast - it would have to be continually making noise, though I could wrap it in a buffer so nobody else could hear it."

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"I can't think of a reason that wouldn't work. And as you must have picked up, the main advantage of Curufinwë's method over mine is that once completed it doesn't require action and time to activate. If making a building crumble with magic, which is something I can do, took a few seconds instead of an uninterrupted hour -"

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"I'd still have to compose the music or get it composed, but if I could be around while someone sang it to 'record' it and it really is pure sound and not anything I can't perceive..."

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"Composing music is rather where my share of our parents' genius seems to have made its appearance. I can do that for you easily."

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"What's a good test for that, then, some relatively brief song that doesn't collapse any buildings that you could demonstrate and I could capture and try in illusion form...?"

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"Like everyone else, I have a until-recently combat-useless repertoire because Valinor priorities. Faster perception? The world seems to move a little slower around you, it doesn't affect how quickly you can move..."

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"Ooh, I like that idea."

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He smiles again. "You should have something in motion nearby, or we should go outside, so you can notice it's working."

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She makes a gently spinning image of the globe of Midgard.

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And he starts singing.

It takes a minute. At first it's just a typically pretty Elven song, and then it does begin to feel like it is lifting them out of the air around them, and the globe is spinning about half as fast, and there's a feeling vaguely like swimming through a current. He stops after a minute. "I can technically keep it up all day."
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She records the song, quiet, piecemeal, insulating some of it from some more of it. "If it just repeats indefinitely will it keep working or does it need to proceed through a series of themes to keep working...?"

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"I can repeat it, but I'm never repeating precisely because the voice isn't precise, and there's an urge to suit the page and notes to the moment. I don't know what a perfect repetition will do."

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"Let's find out."

And she snaps the bits of illusion together.
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And it plays, and at the same point in the song the globe slows in its spinning. Macalaurë looks delighted. "How many can you usefully have on hand? Also, I cannot do healing for the obvious reason but we have people here who can, in case you can think of a use for that."

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"...No reason seems obvious to me. Seems redundant, but I should be able to have an unlimited number as long as I can keep track of them. And spell-pieces wrapped in sound buffer don't have the conspicuousness problem of visual illusions, unless someone happens to stick their ear in the exact middle of the buffer. Let's see if this still works if I speed it up."

It speeds up.
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"Can't heal and fight. We're not sure if it's a part of our nature or a cultural thing but if the latter every group of Quendi has it. The more blood you spill - and orcs certainly count - the more resistance you encounter trying to do a heal spell. Only with my kind of magic, my father's style doesn't involve force of will at all."

The speeded up spell makes the globe slow to a crawl.
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"...I don't have that problem. Anyway, I could deploy a song spell at range, which I can't do with my usual set; unless there are so many items on the menu here that I'm not going to be able to keep them straight might as well listen to one."

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"Not that many, especially since most of what I can do is even less useful. As far as useful things go. I can make people less tired. I can make anything that hits them hit less hard. I can amplify my voice. That's actually a very simple series that most people weave into other songs, but I don't know how you can do that. Playing both at one shouldn't work, if you have two people singing you generally get a competition for which effect takes."

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"I can amplify the songs without a song for it, unless there's something special about increased volume from magic-derived sources."

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He shakes his head. "No, that's just so I have more range. They work on everyone friendly who can hear them. Probably everyone friendly to the singer, not the source."

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"So I should go test the healing spells on your cousins."
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"I'd expect it to be more situational than that - like, if Angband attacked and we were fighting alongside Nolofinwë's host, I'd expect anything I could do for them to work fine even if my personal feelings towards them were adversarial. If they attacked us, then no, shouldn't work, though I'd actually add in a theme specifically about repairing old wounds or about family turning enemy respectively to make it clear to the song."

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"So I should go catch an orc, test the spell on it, and convert it only after that?"

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"At that point would I still consider it an adversary? You could bring two orcs, one of which you've converted and one which you have not, so that my inclination would be to still regard neither as friendly, and see if the song affects either of them."

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"Is the distinction in fact friendly or is it more like allied or appropriate healing target or what?"

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"I can design a better targeted version. It's friendly, but in the sense of 'if we met in this battle we wouldn't raise weapons against each other' rather than 'we trust each other' or 'we'd spend an afternoon together'."

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"I suppose I do have a purely at-will backup if I want to heal somebody you would feel inclined to stab."

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"I told you before that I have no grievances with my cousins. And you can ask Findaráto for songs, too, I know he has them."

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"I don't mean your cousins, or at least I don't mean them right now, but something might come up, I do keep meeting all kinds of people. Hey, is there any reason I shouldn't just run this spell basically all the time? I can spellcraft at the speed of thought, I don't have to move."

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"No one's tried it before, if it has side effects we wouldn't know what they are. Anyone in my family would try it anyway and find it useful information if they sank into a week of dreamless sleep after a year of doing it, but I don't know your risk-tolerance."

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"Well, what amount of use is known to be safe, and would you like a time-acceleration room set up so people who are less linchpin-y than I am can play with it?"
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"I've done it for a week at festivals with only brief breaks and no sleep - I have another song for not needing to sleep, that one catches up with us after about three weeks. And yes, let's set that up."

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"I want your no-sleep song. I want it very much."

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"It's a sleep-twice-a-week spell unless you're my father, and even for him it's a sleep-every-two-weeks spell. You can go longer, obviously, but when it catches up with you it really catches up with you."

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"And I assume I'll need more sleep than you, but still, I'd already have the ability to do without sleep altogether if I could have covertly used it in Asgard. How abruptly?"

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"About eight times longer than you should have gone, your thoughts get foggy and you feel jittery like you're being sustained by external strings. As soon as you close your eyes at that point you will sleep for a few days, and if someone tries to wake you before then you will have something resembling a very bad hangover and also still be exhausted." A rueful smile. "The sample size is quite large, but all the tests were on me."

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"But I could skip a night to get somewhere distant faster?"

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"You can skip a night regularly just to have more time to work in. You could skip a week to get somewhere faster - or, at least, we could."

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"Lovely. I want it."

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He smiles again, leans back, starts singing. The air seems to grow slightly colder. After a minute it feels as if there are snowflakes landing on their faces.

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Record record record. She will ask when he's done if the snowflake thing is essential.

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It takes around half an hour. "Which is why I don't do it for Father every day," he says, concluding. "If it still works sped-up, we'd rather like having copies as well."

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"As with everything I will be more generally disseminating these things, but sure. What's with the snowflake thing?"

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"I'm not sure how I feel about everyone having copies. I don't know what the Enemy could do with this, but probably not nothing. This style of magic is common among the Eldar and I'm certain that everyone already has access to it in the form with more drawbacks but fewer unknowns.

They all have associated physical effects, either chosen because they seemed thematically appropriate to me or because it was hard to design the song without them. Or some of them it's the point, like a song to knock people away from you."
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"In particular I feel very awkward about giving you a skip-a-night-of-sleep-room and a speed-up-perception-room and not offering commensurate benefits to your cousins. I feel awkward about it anyway because your host is so much better able to leverage basically anything I offer, but still. I can dismiss illusions from existence remotely even though I can't usefully create them that way, anyway, if another Balrog gets dropped on their camp and commandeers their spell rooms as soon as I find out the room will cease to have special properties."

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"You have a skip-a-night-of-sleep song and a speed-up-perception song because I sang them for you. As I recall when we had need of your magic you asked quite a price for it. Can you carry an illusion of the contents of the room with you, so you can observe whether it's been commandeered?"

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"No, it's working off mental images and persisting from there, I can't turn it into a video camera. I don't doubt that you're a particularly good source of magic songs and I really appreciate it and I wish I could just go around dispensing gifts to everyone indiscriminately but I am dealing with an awkward détente here. If my sister plummets out of the sky, finds out I'm a frost giant, and despises me for it, you may feel free to carefully equalize your distribution of things between the two of us, I won't be offended."

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"Understood." He stands. "Should I find an appropriate room for the perception-heightening and sleep-skipping?"

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"Should probably be different rooms, people might want to hang out in the one and just visit the other."

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He nods. "I'll send someone when we've settled on them."

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"Thank you for the songs."

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"I enjoy discussing magic and have not had the occasion to do so in a while."

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"Anytime."

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And he leaves.

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And she plays with accelerating the perception-speedup spell. How fast will it go?

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There's a point at which it stops working, but nothing obvious about that point - it's not the place where the notes stop being distinct.

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She backs it off from there. Makes sure she can split it up into bits for separate storage still. Puts it back together.

And spellcrafts.
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Quite a bit of subjective time later, someone knocks on the door to tell her that buildings have been selected for this purpose and she can set them up at her convenience.

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She disassembles and baffles the spell, puts away her work, and goes to make the installations.

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The person supervising the installation explains that Macalaurë asked them to spend the next while in subjective time and see if this had any negative effects - "which we'll tell you about as soon as we know about them."

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"Thanks!"

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And then no one has any more requests of Loki.

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Does anybody have more songs for her? Or should she use her sleepless night to go tell a presumably also not sleeping Findekáno about the hack?

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"I don't have anything else I'm comfortable sharing," Macalaurë says bluntly, "which isn't distrust in you but a reluctance to trust everyone you trust and everyone they trust. Healing we can get you, if you'd like."

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"Yes please."

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So he finds someone who does healing, and she plays a song - "most people do this with instruments, Lord Canafinwë was unusually determined to have his hands free -" and observes that range can be amplified and it should affect everyone in the range on either side - "It's not really meant for use on a battlefield" - and that Elven healing can't for example regrow limbs, though it can do a fair bit for wounds to the mind and soul.

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"My primary use case is keeping somebody alive until I can get to touch range, so not being able to regrow limbs isn't a prohibitive drawback," Loki says.

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"That it should do."

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"Thank you very much."

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A nod. "We've been trying to write something that would help orcs with the constant pain, but none of them could describe it helpfully. That may be something better suited to artifacts."

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"I don't have a useful cheat in mind for artifacts, unfortunately."

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"The accelerated perception might make their crafting faster, though it's still on the scale of years."

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Nod.

And: I almost forgot - who wants the latest, not-very-much-content Maitimo update from the other day?
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Go ahead, Macalaurë says.

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So she osanwës him the relevant parts of transcript including the remark about what Maitimo wants for his birthday.

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Thank you. A sigh. Moving is going to be a great deal of effort and a setback of years.

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You're going to do it? Because he wants it for his birthday?

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Hmm? No. I have absolutely no intention of doing it. But if he's decided he wants it, watch, somehow events will transpire such that suddenly we are.

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Your phrasing tripped me up. I will be enthralled to watch events of that nature considering the bottlenecks he has to work through.

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Laughter. I doubt he's confident he can pull it off, but if he could be confident that any of this were real he'd be quite sure of it, and so am I. Though I can't think quite how. If I tell Father now he'll say 'I have expended enough effort on putting distance between us and them'. So I won't tell him now, because it'll pain me to hear that, and I'll tell him once the assassin drama has been settled and then his answer will just be that it would be very practically costly and difficult.

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But it'd put you closer to those trade-happy Dwarves that Maitimo is going to charm for you?

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There is that. I don't think that's itself sufficient. I could just ask him what the rest of the play is but I think it'd distress him if we start talking in his head, and he also might not tell me because it'll spoil the fun, or because I'd react in a way that's not useful to him if I knew.

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Do you want me to redact this when I next talk to him?

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No, of course not. Why?

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Just making sure.

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You must have gotten something of his reputation from our cousins.

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Yes.

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Holding Valinorean politics together for as long as he did wasn't good for him, or for anyone else who played a major role in it, but it did give them interesting sets of strengths.

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And now you have plumbing. Hurrah.

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Within five years of arriving here we'll have fully modern living standards for everyone and regular meetings and a few arranged marriages with every local community that is interested in being part of a war effort or having the protection of groups so committed. And that's with no engineers helping at all because they are developing electricity and guns.

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How hard would it be to talk you out of the arranged marriages?
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You object?

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I find the idea sort of distasteful even when there's no war-related pressure and the process doesn't involve permanent soul alteration in what appears to be a totally monogamous society. None of those things are helping.

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Huh. By Cuivienen that was the primary thing marriage was for, that and parenting; you pursued love and companionship and so forth through other avenues. I can communicate your distaste but I'm not sure it'll move people.

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Avoiding this distasteful thing is not a demand or anything as long as everybody has a way to gracefully back out should they be disinclined. A way which isn't "hastily marry elsewhere", preferably. But it seemed to bear mentioning.

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Marrying someone else as a way of breaking off an engagement is unheard of.

Having a society where the literate, highly capable, Aman-educated Noldor class mostly marries among each other and the nomadic tree-dwelling natives mostly marry among each other and we are in charge strikes me as more distasteful.
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I'm not saying people shouldn't socialize. Or that you shouldn't give intersocietal couples a nice gift basket to celebrate their personally-motivated decisions and loudly tell everyone about that. Soft paternalism is fine, you have good reasons to encourage the habit. But 'let's you and him get married' rubs me the wrong way.

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I assure you I'm not giving orders.

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If I thought you were this conversation would be different. There's degrees.

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I'll let people know they should talk to you if they have reservations, you have a creative approach to problem-solving and lots of leverage to help them find the right solution.

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Thanks.

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He sighs. Any time.

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That seems to be that.

Oh - Tyelcormo - you were going to see if you could hit a sky-colored target. Erm - She fumbles through her notes and repeats the last couple lines from the last time they spoke.
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He answers with his. Right. Put one up for me?

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She puts one. Moves it through the air at lazy flight speed, not a hundred miles an hour.

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An arrow flies through it.

I'm not sure I'd notice it if I didn't know to expect it. But once I can keep an eye on it, yeah, not a hard shot, not when your speed is constant.
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What if I were going top speed?

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Nope, he says without even firing. I mean, I'm happy to try, but my eye can't even track the patch that's slightly wrong, and if I guessed -

He fires and misses by about six inches.
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Okay. So maybe - especially now I have the skip-a-night-of-sleep spell should I be in a hurry - I should avoid sleeping in the air.

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And if you have to for some reason, make twenty of those bubbles and something that'll wake you if one gets shot at.

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Not immediately sure how to rig up an alarm like that.

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Hmm. Can the bubbles contain sound illusions, and if they're physically disrupted start playing the sound?

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The closest thing I have to a contingency like that is illusions attached to real objects which detach if the object's destroyed. When I'm flying the only physical object I've got is me.

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Then yeah, don't sleep on the move if you can avoid it. When you're awake, though, unless Oromë comes over here and personally wants you dead you're fine.

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Well, I wouldn't exactly be stunned...

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...if the Valar decide they want you dead enough to get off their metaphysical asses you are dead, did you not realize that? On the other hand, they haven't been moved to try even for Melkor so I don't think they will.

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Oh, I realize it, just because I can duel a flaming Maia doesn't mean I can take down one let alone several Valar, but, well, they may have heard I exist and have opinions, neither of which activities I'm planning on toning down, so.

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Oromë's arrows go where he wants them to. He could in principle fire them from Valinor. The Valar are very slow to do anything, ever. Right now I think that's in our favor.

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Yep. Especially since I just sped up.

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...I bet I could make the fast-bird shot with Macalaurë doing the perception thing.

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Do you want a target to try it out?

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Would it be useful information to you?

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Sure. I can fly invisibly as long as I have my visible illusions following me at a considerable distance passing through the ground. If I ought to do this by default rather than just when particularly worried I'd like to know. I can do the spell without you having to borrow Macalaurë or line up a shot from inside a building, if you like.

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Sure. And you'd only need to do it by default around people who have that spell.

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Yeah. Where are you?

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New river-wheel. You should tell Nelyo that if he wants us on the other side he'd better plan on building his own river wheel, this is a difficult project.

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I will mention it. To the river wheel she goes.

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"Hey! Difficult project." he says when she arrives.

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"I'd apologize but it's not like I made you build one." She de-baffles and concatenates the accelerated perception spell, then produces a swift-in-a-hurry target.

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He spends a while watching it without firing. "My reflexes aren't changed, and I'm not sure how they interact. This is an entertaining series of experiments but it goes very much against my instincts to take shots I'm not entirely confident I'll make."

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"Even shots against nothing in the sky? You're not going to cripple a deer or something if you're off."

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"I don't usually take shots against nothing in the sky." Another long minute watching it, and then he fires.

He is not off.

"Sorry. Guess the twenty-bubbles solution still works since by day you'd notice if something was shooting at you."
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"Is twenty a random number or does it just strike you as a right inflection point between 'probably won't hit me' and 'less conspicuous than a flock of a thousand'?"

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"The latter. If I saw twenty I wouldn't even try, and there aren't five archers that good on any side of this thing so you wouldn't even run a particularly high risk of a bunch of people assembling to give it a try."

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"Okay. Thanks for the tests and numerical recommendation."

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"Any time." He returns to assembling the water wheel.

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And while plumbing's enticing, she wants to go to the other host to see if they've got any more songs for her and want spell rooms.

Twenty blobs zoom away.
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The other host is having some kind of organized weapons practice in the center of their camp.

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Lovely. Are all her usual people among them?

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They are.

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Then she can land somewhere and supervise and take note of how good everybody is for a couple minutes, and if nobody breaks off to say hi in that time she can concatenate her accelerator and work. Fast.

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No one interrupts her immediately.

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That's okay. Work work work work.

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After a while Findekáno says Loki. We weren't expecting to see you back.

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She puts away her spell and symbols. I wasn't expecting to come back either but I found an exciting magical cheat! Which your cousins are already taking advantage of, so I thought I'd come offer it to you too.

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At that he's interested. Oh?

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Magic songs! If I listen to them I can 'record' them as illusions, store them in separate parts so they don't go off constantly, speed them way up, and stick them together for very quick on-demand casting. Or permanent ambient casting. I have one for accelerated perception and one for shorting sleep and a healing spell which is a little redundant but will work at range.

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He grins. Clever. ...these are Macalaurë's? Is he sharing?

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Well, he didn't load me up on any more than that - the healing one as provided by a third party - because he's reluctant to 'trust everyone I trust'. But I like the ones I came away with very well.

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Fair enough. And the idea is to attach them to objects, so you can get artifacts without all of the difficulty in making artifacts?

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I guess that would work too; I have them set up with rooms they can step into if they want to skip a night of sleep or speed up for a while. I'm carrying them around in pieces behind a sound baffle.

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We'll take that too if Macalaurë isn't going to resent it for several centuries. Or, actually, even if he is.

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I figured. Where do you want them? Any songs I can collect here?

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Lots of songs that keep people warm, which I doubt frost giants have much need for. We haven't designed any for fighting yet. I was working on a find-Maitimo song before you found Maitimo.

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...I'm not sure I can't freeze but I'm sure it takes more than ordinary environmental conditions to do it, that's for sure. I'll set up the ones I've got wherever's convenient.

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Can you put them on a piece of jewelry? Then we can carry them.

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Sure, but they do have to run continuously so you won't be able to handle them without being affected.

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We can presumably wrap them in some kind of muffling fabric.

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If you don't want them loud, sure, that'll work.

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Let's not have them loud for now.

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All right, bring me something and you can pick your volume. Oh, I suppose you could have a sound-baffle box?

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Even better! You can just turn a jewelry box into a sound-baffle and the things within it into carriers for whichever songs you have. He starts walking.

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She follows him. I'm starting to think about a combat training regimen. I told your cousins to give me thirty who can then pass on what I teach them when I'm not around; you're welcome to match.

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Thank you. Cáno has a song that makes it hard to lie, doesn't he? Can we copy that one for talking with Sarpalarë?

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He didn't mention it. Do you think it'd be competitive with her oath or that she's legitimately inclined under that to be uncooperative?

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I think she is, under that, terrified. I can't imagine she couldn't be any more communicative if she wanted to be. And - hmm, if we're trading songs, we have things we could offer Macalaurë for that one. It'd advantage them far more than it'd advantage us, but I think that horse is out of the barn.

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I don't have any good solutions to the fact that they are better able to make use of things, in general, than you are. But if you'd like to make a trade I'll orchestrate it, especially if I get a song. I want songs.

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I wouldn't slow them down if I could. We may need them. Anyway, I'd need to ask the people involved - in Valinor copying someone else's composition without their leave, or sharing a copy you had with permission, was one of the most serious insults one could deliver, I'm not at all sure anyone will want to trade - and let you know.

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Oh dear, I didn't realize I'd trod on a cultural problem. I mean, the fast versions are probably impossible to usefully decompose into playable songs, they're only good for the effects, but still...

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Yeah, I imagine Macalaurë was much more being upset about his compositions being copied than about his cousins gaining strategically, and it's why I initially hesitated, but - he doesn't have much ground to stand on, and I assume he knows it. So we insulted him very seriously. He pulls out a jewelry box. We'll apologize when they do.

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Well, I'll apologize, at any rate, and make it clear that nobody's getting the pretty version, just the compressed kind. Which things do you want to do which effect?

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Can we have five of each?

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As long as I'm offending him anyway. And she puts spells to jewels and sorts them into the sides of the box and baffles it.

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Thank you. It's a very intelligent use of your abilities. Findaráto says he'd be happy to give you a few more to try, if you're interested. Starting a fire and moving a boat, I think particularly, and he's wondering if the boat one could have effects on a flying bird.

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I would love to have them. Is he going to mind if I give fast unaesthetic copies to people who would benefit from the functionality?

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I explained that bit, and he still sounded interested, maybe discuss it with him further? If you say that even Macalaurë went along I am sure he will, but it might be nicer to just persuade him it's a good thing in itself.

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Also looking back on the interaction I don't think Macalaurë would have been so enthusiastic about helping me hack spells if he'd known I was going to do this beforehand. Where is he? Have we even been introduced?

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Oh, you listened to Macalaurë sing and then told him you'd be making and distributing copies for anyone who wanted one? He shakes his head. I wouldn't have recommended that but I suppose they want to be on your good side as much as anyone else.

I don't think you have. He's Artanis's brother. He was pretty occupied on the Ice doing this full-time, and he went out to meet the local population as soon as we had established ourselves at all here.
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I didn't know it was a thing! I had this problem with the Dwarves, too, the other way around, one wanted to trade for a look at my science notes and I thought then I wouldn't have them to trade later and he told me he wouldn't just go share my ideas and I told him I was used to assuming everybody in an entire population of Quendi could hear me and would be able to get the information later from one another even if they weren't paying attention. I'll apologize to Macalaurë. She shakes her head, writes down that she should do that, and then says, Introduce me to Findaráto?

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He's on his way.

Here already, actually,
says another voice, and someone opens the door. He is blond, too thin, wearing a lot of jewelry, smiling broadly. Loki. I regret that I haven't had the pleasure of meeting you earlier.
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Hello, pleased to meet you.

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Findekáno says - actually, Finno, perhaps you can say it again? I got a bit lost in a few places. He sits down. He's carrying a small stringed instrument.

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I can 'record' sounds I hear. And then loop them so they keep playing without my attention, and take them apart and put them back together, and affect their volume and location and speed. Turns out it works on musical spells.

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So we could give everyone a personal heat source.

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Making that many would be a bit of a chore, but yes, if you give me a song that'll do it.

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It's also not currently necessary. There are a lot of applications of that sort of ability. I'm trying to think what the fairest way might be - people can come to you with songs and you'll give them a number of copies they request, in exchange for keeping one yourself? Or a number of copies according with how valuable the song is to you?

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Are we assuming here that I can then copy the song elsewhere, too, or just that I can have it for my own use?

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Oh, you'd want more than one copy yourself? Perhaps you could ask people if you can keep one copy to later distribute for each copy you make for them? I'm personally willing to have every pebble on the continent attached to a permanent heat-song but I wouldn't feel that way about the rest of my work or expect anyone else to.

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That complicates things. Ugh, she REALLY owes Macalaurë an apology. They're still really useful to me as personal use but they have particular potential as trade goods, which I'm otherwise short on - I travel too much and I give away a lot of information just because I want people to have it. Copies-for-copies is potentially workable, though.

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Yes, they clearly have enormous potential as trade goods, which is why no one will sing in your presence if they can't trust you not to trade their songs for your gains which they will never see. I - with tremendous respect for your abilities and the unique position they put you in here, a safe and reliable magical song takes Years of work to develop and refine, I think you may be underestimating that.

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It makes sense, I just hadn't previously run into intellectual property as a concept anywhere here but among Dwarves.

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Song is communal. You just need leave to copy it. One might even say that song can be communal because you need leave to copy it, because you can share your work without feeling as if in any sense you're surrendering it.

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I suppose it doesn't help much that I'd only carry a fast copy, barely recognizable as music, compressed just to the point where if it were any shorter and less aesthetic it would actually stop working?

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As I said, I'll give the whole world the means to stay warm. I am sure there are things that people would develop knowing that you'd share them with whoever you pleased.

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Yeah. Well, I'd rather have a song for my own use only than not have it all, and I'd rather have limited copy permission than no copies.

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Copies for copies strikes me as a fair approach that will assuage peoples' discomfort while giving you things to trade. Perhaps we can call a conference to negotiate some sort of universal rights for the war effort.

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...That would be very interesting. And I would expect it to occur on a very Quendi schedule.

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Fifty years, at a guess. People don't like feeling rushed on issues of this importance.

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Yeah, by then I may well have figured out how to get home and obliterate Morgoth with something pocket-sized, loud, and moderately expensive.

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We all very much desire that you do.

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I would expect it to take longer than that but today I got some songs that speed me up and I'm very pleased about it. So you don't mind free distribution of the warmth song, what else have you got and under what conditions will you play it for me to record?

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I can light fires, I can make people feel relaxed and safe and trusting, I can make a boat sail on a calm sea. That one has some effect on a person running and I'd expect to have interesting ones on a person flying. I am personally comfortable with giving you leave to make copies of everything and give them out as you please, but expect that that precedent will make it impossible for you to get anyone to share anything with you.

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I don't have to acquire them all under the same license, whatever other people have done. ...I'm not sure I want the relaxed and safe and trusting one, that's kind of disturbing. And I'd have to hear it in the first place to take a copy just in case I came up with a situation where using it was better than not.

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We could pick different agreements, so people know there's a variety available.

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I'm not sure I need extant examples of a possible agreement to offer it to future songwriters... How is the fire song targeted?

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Will, he says, a bit proudly. You think of the target and if it's the sort of thing that would catch fire if you held something that was on fire to it, it does.

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...the singer does?

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Oh, hmm. I would expect that if the singer has no opinion but there's a listener who does, it'd work for them. We might need to try it.

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Or maybe you could produce an opinion sufficiently generic that it'll work based on specific behavior of an object, or if I intersect the sound source with whatever I want to ignite. Any of the others have this potential problem?

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The sailing one works if the song is happening on an object that's distinct from its environment and can move forward by pushing backwards against it. I can't imagine that'd be a problem.

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Yeah, that's fine.

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The deescalation one is area-effect and affects everyone but you said you'd prefer not to use it.

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I'm uncomfortable with mind-affecting magic.

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He nods. Then we can do the ones which certainly work and with which you're comfortable, and think about how to do the fire.

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Sounds great.

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Findekáno departs to get back to restless construction projects, probably, and Findaráto sings and she makes recordings, and they check for complications. The fire spell will light an obvious candidate if there is one near the source, and otherwise do nothing, which they both agree is good enough.

"Remarkable, Loki. Thank you."
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"Thank you. Do you want any of these stuck to things for yourself?"

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"I'd be delighted to have ten copies of each," he says, "and I suppose something to keep them in. Can I just go find appropriate pebbles?"

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"Sure, that'd work fine."

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Word spreads; she has a few people interested in getting song-copies that afternoon. One that helps crops grow, one that calms waters, one that makes it nearly impossible to fall off a horse.

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Yay! And under what licenses do these people care to offer the songs?

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Someone wants to control all copies; someone is fine with a copy-for-copy deal; someone is fine with her giving it to anyone who isn't with the Feanorian host.

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...will the first person at least let her have a loop of it running in her personal song entourage for use, or do they just want a favor?

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Yes, that's fine, she can keep it for herself, just not hand out copies.

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And that third person, are they budging?

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No work of his is keeping that host comfortable at night.

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Well, she supposes she'll take it anyway. She will even smile politely.

She dutifully writes down all the songs she has and their license conditions.
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There are murmurs of potential interest, but nothing else specific, and it's late in the evening.

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She's not sleeping. If everybody else is sleeping, she'll sit up doing spellwork. She doesn't accelerate herself; no data on prolonged exposure yet and she doesn't have another task to break it up with overnight.

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Findekáno, who is also not sleeping, stops by occasionally to watch her at work. He doesn't say anything.

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The first time she doesn't look up.

Second time -

"Something on your mind?"
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"No," he says with a sigh. "We are temporarily safe and fed and there is no more construction this site can benefit from and we've scouted for appropriate locations to settle once everyone has recovered and is in good health again and there's nothing on my mind, which is a shame because I think I was doing better when there was. Any ideas for projects?"

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"Nothing comes particularly to mind; I have lots to do but I can't so much delegate it. What do you usually do to fill time when you're insomniac and nothing's pressing?"

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Maitimo, he doesn't answer.

"Is there a song-spell that'd be unusually useful?"
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"The ones from Macalaurë are about what I would have ordered up, although I could stand for them to have fewer side effects. I assume if anyone could teleport this would have been a substantial game-changer long before I arrived to tell anyone about potential destinations. Same with anything of particularly spectacular combat value; I was told that songs invented in Valinor tend not to have that as a focus."

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"There seemed rather little need. I don't think teleportation is the sort of thing our style of magic does, it's all very local in effects. I think people are working now on things to make arrows fly straighter, make one move faster, that sort of thing."

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"Physical speed could be handy too in case I ever have to kill multiple Balrogs at once or something. I suggested magic artillery at the other camp, don't know if the suggestion landed."

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"At a guess, it did. Though if they didn't already have it in the works I'd be surprised. I imagine Fëanáro started listing ideas the minute he saw that Angband has walls."

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"Sounds about right. ...A spell that gave me retroactive eidetic memory would, uh, override my discomfort with mind magic. Dunno if it's possible. But I've read so many books -"

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"...I could try. Not inherently outside the scope of our magic, though sounds very difficult."

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"I could, there are so many - I've read books on nuclear physics, I'm sure you'd have a hell of a tense while after the fact if I had to involve Fëanor and I probably would but I could remember enough with that to teach him to build the wipe-Angband-off-the-map thing, I've read the books I just don't remember enough -"

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"You know, I actually think that having weapons that could wipe Angband off the map would make him easier to deal with. He lashes out when he's hurt, not when he's strong. It's why I'm more comfortable with the realization they're positioned to learn so fast and so much."

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"Great. So all we have to do is make him the sole nuclear power on the planet and all will be well."

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"I didn't say that."

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"Having lots of those things around is a recipe for everybody setting theirs up to automatically retaliate if they are wiped off the map so nobody twitches first. Sometimes somebody twitches."

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"Right. Hmm.

The way to do retroactive memory would be sort of related to the way you make your illusions something that generates the right impression in your head, building from your memories a map of what could have generated that in your head and then checking it against reality and making reality available. It isn't impossible, but it would be quite a project."
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"And reality about the contents of books I read ages ago is most probably in another reality altogether, assuming Melian's right that it was very definitely empty here when Eru started his project. Not a very local effect."

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He frowns. "No. Though even if only worked for people in this reality, it'd be a useful song to have. Has Macalaurë looked at something that'd let you see through hallucinations?"

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"He mentioned a true seeing spell in the works, nothing for hallucinations, I'm not sure how that would help unless someone knew it had been cast on them before they were captured anyway."

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"That's who it'd help. If we did it for everyone the Enemy couldn't pull off that specific thing ever again."

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"Yeah. If it lasted long enough. I'd have to put it on either a thing or the person themselves and if the former the thing could be broken and if the latter they'd have to listen to it all the time."

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"No, the Enemy couldn't fake the sound because the sound is the effect. Once they'd heard it enough to know it, then once it was played they'd know they weren't hallucinating."

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"I thought he had general sensory input control? He can't fake a sound that isn't happening? I mean, if nothing else he can time-dilate, right, if I speed them up too much they stop working."

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"Isn't your illusion faking a sound that isn't happening? I'm not sure there's a way to cause someone to hear a sound without the sound existing in the relevant sense. The time thing is a problem.


What do you remember about bombs that could level Angband?"
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"It's a sound that isn't happening in a certain sense. It can be heard and that is all; I can't make it loud enough to knock a building over, I can't resonate it just so to shatter a glass; I could make things sound normal underwater even though normally they wouldn't, I could make illusion sound in vacuum where normally it has nothing to propagate through. The general category of bombs - there's so many kinds, but the basic idea involves, were you paying attention to my chemistry lecture?"

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"Yes."

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"So, you take an atom, and you break it. Or you take two, and you force them to get real cozy and be one atom. And then you level Angband." Pause. "Depending on where I went to go Angband-leveling-items-shopping I might come back with antimatter instead, in some decorously small quantity that would only level Angband and not annihilate half the planet. Antimatter is like matter, but backwards, so if they touch both of them cease to exist very violently."

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"... I actually would entirely trust my dear uncle with that. It is not his style to use that kind of thing in random anger."

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"He might be able to get somewhere with just what I could tell him now but it requires a lot of things I don't remember, including metals that are, let's call it poisonous, to be near."

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"...that's a thing the Silmarils can do. Poisonous metals, I mean, they were present even in Valinor and Aulë would teach advanced students of geology about them and in the presence of the Silmarils they don't do the thing that makes them poisonous. I don't know what that means for your bombs."

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"Well, it probably means you can't construct them the way I've read about in the presence of a Silmaril but would be well advised to have one handy in case you had a lab accident. But the Silmarils are behind this fortress which is as yet tragically unleveled."

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"I mean, would the bomb go off in their presence?"

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"The smushing-atoms-together kind might, the taking-one-apart kind probably not. Actually, I'm not sure you need any of the poisonous metals for the smushing variety, I could be misremembering, but there's some reason they're harder to invent."

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"Morgoth is wearing them on his head, last I heard. So."

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"Yeah. I could more readily answer the questions of whether poisonous metals must actively poison in order to serve as this sort of weapon if I remembered all the books I've ever read."

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"I'll give it a try. And if we could give people back memories this way that have been tampered with -"

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"...He's missing things," she nods.

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"Does he know which things? Does he want them back secondhand?"

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"Didn't specify either way; I can ask."

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"Thank you."

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"You're welcome. Reports will be more seldom once he's out by the Dwarves..."

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"Yeah, I know. I was planning not to talk to him for a few centuries anyway, when all this started, so somehow I'm sure I'll cope."

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"Quendi," she snorts.

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"I do try not to harp on about it, but left us to die. I think my reaction was appropriate."

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"I wouldn't have said 'Quendi' if you said you were planning to never speak to him again, but you said 'a few centuries' as an explanation for how you'll cope with the downgrade from twice-weekly updates."

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"For a while I wanted to never speak to him again, but it was always fairly obvious that if there's going to be coordination on facing the Enemy some of us are going to have to set grievances aside, and I have the mixed blessing of finding that very easy to do, so I never really thought it'd be 'never'."

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"Fair enough."

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And I'd probably have obsessed over news about him. He'd have gotten married for political reasons or something and I'd have silently thrown a tantrum for weeks. ...I was really never going to be very good at it.
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Apparently the other host is considering some arranged vaguely-political marriages with locals. I objected. Not particularly forcefully, but I objected.

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Is that unacceptable where you're from?

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No, not really. I'm pretty sure my parents are married because Vanaheim really wanted Odin to go away and leave them alone and it was somehow implied that a pretty husband would make that happen more smoothly.

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It should have occurred to me that overexposure can engender concerns as much as underexposure.

Romantic love is a concept we - invented in Valinor is an exaggeration, but certainly the ways we conceived of it in relation to marriage were invented in Valinor. It doesn't surprise me that my cousins are delightedly throwing out every norm at whose roots they can identify a Vala.
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If you could get all the right answers by finding people who were very bad at finding the right ones and doing the opposite of what they suggested, it'd be a lot easier than it actually is.

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I do not disagree.

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I said, what was it - She rifles through her notes, pulls out her remark about how none of the factors differing between here and her mental prototype were improving the matter.

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At a guess, 'end marriage' is high enough on my uncle's list of priorities that they're being more nonchalant about it than they should.

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Maybe. I don't think that excuses it; I mean, I object even among non-immortal populations.

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Really? Why?

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I'm sufficiently confused about why you asked that question that I don't know how to construct an informative answer.
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I don't have a concept of what marriages are 'supposed to be like', and while I understand why Fëanáro wants them destroyed entirely I don't personally have strong feelings in any direction. Wars involve asking people to die for you. My uncle's style of war involves asking people to swear themselves to the everlasting darkness for you. Making two families into one seems like - as good a goal as any other, and the only objection that occurs to me is that the parties make a permanent commitment for an impermanent end, which is why it surprises me that you'd object even were that untrue.

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It's permanent for them.

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Men here are supposed to get something after they die, I don't know what. Eru doesn't just destroy them when they die.

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And he did such a great job last time he picked out someone to run an afterlife, so I shouldn't be worried? Has an excellent track record with understanding the concept of marriage in a way that's palatable to me?

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Granted. Mind, if I saw it that way I'd be tempted to just forbid marriage, it doesn't seem like choosing someone because you desperately want to sleep with them gets better results a millennium down the road than choosing someone because it'll promote ties between your people.

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Lúthien says that the mechanism by which marriage works is not so baked into the system, actually, that it's somehow expectation-based. I'm not sure how thoroughly informed she can possibly be considering she had to replace key moments in the process with the phrase "do you think anyone's told me", though.

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Huh.


That would be interesting, if true. Also worrying.
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She blamed the Valar for telling the Quendi who went to Valinor that it worked that way because that would make it so. Well, 'blamed'. Implies a more judgmental attitude than she has.

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That is very inconvenient. Well, we can tell people here something better, but if people know it's expectation-controlled - he sighs.

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...then? And, mind, I have this from a girl who has been so sheltered I'm not sure she could identify rain...

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Well, for example. I have lived my whole life in the comfortable certainty that my activities, being unacceptable and against Eru's will and so forth, cannot get me accidentally married. Now I know that being against Eru's will doesn't inherently make something not the sort of thing that can get you married - so, now, could I? And if that got out, would everyone in that position end up in the same situation? It's probably wiser to categorically maintain that you can't, because that means it's true and I really don't want lots of people in socially disapproved unintended marriages. Especially since some people pursue that kind of thing specifically so they won't end up married.

I imagine Lúthien is unfamiliar with that sort of thing, yes.
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I assume the idea I just had is terrible for at least, oh, six reasons...
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What idea did you just have?

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I am fairly confident that at least one of the six reasons is prohibitive and you have more than enough information to guess.

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...this is related to Lúthien? It'd be extremely convenient if she fell in love with someone but you disapprove of that style of alliance-building and there aren't really obvious candidates, and you would not be suggesting Ido it. Some grand announcement about the true nature of marriage that disrupts peoples' lives somehow?

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No, it is not related to Lúthien, and she's reportedly forbidden to get married anyway, and your reasons for caution about an announcement are reasonable.

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He sighs and leans back. I really am not at all inconvenienced by this and am the best possible person for you to have talked to, but it still disturbs me slightly. Why would the Valar do that? Why not tell us it was something elaborate and formal that couldn't possibly happen by accident, or tell people that if they didn't do the customary one year engagement period without seeing each other then they couldn't end up married?

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I don't know! I can figure out why Odin would have kidnapped a baby frost giant but the motives of the Valar are far more bewildering. Lúthien could be wrong, though.

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Let's assume that for the time being, but not spread any information that could result in extra marriages, just in case. Did you know, it used to bother me that I couldn't marry?

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I can't claim to be surprised. On a lot of planets you could, just not in the soul-renovation fashion.

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Well, I should be very very glad I was on this one, as it turns out.

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AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAUGHHHHHHHHHHHHH

On even more planets than that you could get divorced.
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Eru, I petition to dissolve this marriage on the grounds that I no longer believe my partner meant his vows, or anything else he ever said to me.

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AAAAAUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUGH

Generally you don't have to interface with a deity. Some places you don't need a reason either.
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Asgard?

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Asgard has no deity interfacing. You have to present a reason for the record but nobody cares if it's real, there's a joke about one's husband moving the soap to the wrong side of the sink one too many times.

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And can you marry anyone?

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Well, I'm a princess, ostensibly, so it would be complicated for me, but Thor's friend Fandral can marry six men and invite number seven over for holidays informally if she ever wants to settle down that far, say. Sigyn could do likewise, although in his case I'd be inclined to predict three men four women two hard-to-categorize aliens and someone who insists on gender neutral pronouns. Monogamy is popular, it's not mandatory.

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I see.

You - must be lonely.
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If you mean, do I have enough charming conversation in my life, I'm doing fine. I even have more people to talk to about the old forbidden subject of 'magic' and the new forbidden subject 'frost giant' here than I had at home. If you mean, do I live in hope that I will find certain conditions to obtain among Men, you are entirely correct.
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The conventional suggestion is to try liking girls, but as someone who never had much success with it -

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I like girls a little. I tend not to like the same girl more than once, which isn't so bad when I can just explain that in advance and avoid misunderstandings. But if you think I know how to navigate the mores of Quendi lesbians...

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I don't know any. If I did I'm not sure I'd feel comfortable telling you, either, it really is a serious fault that people won't want known.

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I feel like that sentence needed the word 'considered' in it.

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I can live with believing I actually have vices, you know.

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I didn't say you couldn't; I don't care for the implied insult against me, my best friend, and a decent fraction of both our bedmates.

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He sighs, leans back. No insult was intended.

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I took it for thoughtless, not intentional.

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I apologize.

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Apology accepted.

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He stands up and walks away. I think best moving. I'll let you know in a week if the song is the sort of thing I could do even in principle.

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Thank you.

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The rest of the night goes by quietly.

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She gets a lot done.

If nothing happens in the morning either she will head back to the Fëanorians to apologize to Macalaurë.
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The morning is also uneventful.

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Zoom, then. Her and nineteen decoys.

Land outside the gate, walk in, look up last conversation and open with that osawnëing Macalaurë in particular followed by Are you busy? I need to apologize.
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I can spare a moment.

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I didn't realize that songs were a particularly proprietary sort of thing and reviewing the conversation through that lens it looks very much as it would if I'd been purposefully withholding the intention to distribute copies as largesse. Your cousins explained it to me. If you want me to I can dismiss their copies from here, it'd be awkward but I'd do it, they've got five each on jewelry kept in a soundproof box, I don't think that idea is proprietary and you may feel free to steal it. If you don't want me to make any more besides the one I'm carrying I can do that too. I have some from them that are under various sorts of license, I can share some of those.

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... thank you. That is how I'd interpreted your intentions. I don't think my cousins would have taken them if they hadn't thought they were getting one up on us, and they're very useful spells, and there is a war on, so you need not dismiss them. What kind of sharing agreements are conventional?

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The one I'm expecting to be most broadly popular when I can't talk people into turning them over for use at my discretion is copies for copies - I enchant whatever random objects they like with the song and I can make that many copies elsewhere. I've got one that I can use but not copy again.

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That sounds reasonable. The jewelry-box approach is a wise one but we are sadly bereft of jewelry; our possessions were mostly destroyed in the sack of Formenos, and he went for everything my father had created or inherited in particular. Perhaps we'll just do it with polished rocks from the lake.

Another song I have that seems of use to you is one that checks someone's impression of reality against the version they're describing and highlights discrepancies - accusing people of lying is a very serious insult, but of biasing a telling, intentionally or no, and it will catch lying, and it can do so in a way that's not visible to the speaker.

And lately I've been working on treating wood so it doesn't rot quickly, which is a bit more mundane but probably useful to everyone.
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They wanted the lying one for interviewing Sarpalarë; I don't think they'd need their own copy for that if you wanted to let me have one but not copies. Would the wood thing work on paper or is the going plan still to reverse engineer my notebook page?

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That's what it was developed for; doesn't work. We aren't sure why, or I'd be trying to refine it.

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Huh. Just doesn't work at all or partially works or what?

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The paper gets brittle and less useful as paper. The spell just tells it to hold its form longer, I wouldn't have expected that problem.

I'm currently working on moving large volumes of stone. It'll make construction faster. I have a fantasy of someday composing a symphony that lets me assemble a castle in a day just by standing at its center and singing.
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Findekáno wanted a project and asked what songs would be most useful to me. Are ideas for songs also proprietary?

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No, of course not. Everyone knows what I can do, and I don't mind if they hum it under their breath either. It's reproducing someone else's artwork in full without their consent - if, in Asgard, I had a duplicator, and someone finished a painting or something and I took it, put it in the duplicator, and then started selling it on the street, would I have committed an offense?

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Yes, but the offense would be couched entirely in terms of money and credit, maybe control of the artistic experience. No money was in play, I'd tell anyone who asked who composed the song, and there's no artistic value to the short versions, either, I squish them as far as they go before they stop working - so I didn't think it through.

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I'm not annoyed. My reference class for people much more powerful than I who can do as they please contains entirely people far, far worse than you, and that was true an hour ago as well. I am happy and surprised my cousins had qualms. I'll happily share future song ideas.

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I was actually wondering if you'd have more luck with the idea I gave Findekáno than he's likely to. If I had a retroactive eidetic memory I would be much less limited in what sorts of information I can dispense and I can probably just explain the concepts behind how to build something with which to level Angband.

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I don't think so but I'll try. That's actually one to run by my father - music skips the computation but is subject to the same constraints on how much information you can actually get the song of Creation to cough up, and he might blink and say 'impossible' instantly even if he'd take forever to explain to me why. Or he'll say 'technically that doesn't violate any tenets of information theory but there's absolutely no precedent' which means 'I'll be disappointed if you don't have it in a month" and I'll have to drop everything else.
He sighs.
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Oh dear. Complicating factor: based on Melian's explanation of the nature of the universe I am probably from another dimension separated by something a bit less trivial than merely quintillions of miles or something like that. If it is necessary to consult the reality that contributed to my memories, it may be far away, not run on music, etcetera.

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Hmm.

Way harder and less exciting than making stone flow into a castle around me, but you did say 'level Angband' so I will pursue every avenue that seems available.
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Findekáno says that the sorts of metal that radiate poisonousness don't do that thing around Silmarils, which might interfere with some of the things I'm thinking of, but probably not all of them.

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The Silmarils prevent decay, and the poisonousness of metals is actually a form of decay.

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Ah, that explains it. I don't remember how essential that property is to the functioning of the explosion, but I am sure I have ever looked at a book saying one way or the other.

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It'd also be reasonably useful to be able to level Angband even if Morgoth came out of it still standing. At that point perhaps we could just fight him. I mean, casualties would be horrifying, but - if we get the ability to end the sources of orcs, it'd be very hard to wait another century for the ability to take him personally.

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Yeah.

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If we help you remember everything from your world and build a weapon that levels Angband and then fight him and win, Maitimo's going to be so irritated with me. He'll insist that the real Macalaurë would not have signed his name to such a ridiculous, straightforward, happy story, not when we were all fated to horrible suffering.

And the irony is that that will be the only flaw in the straightforward happy story, at that point.
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You're doomed, I have free will, if I take point on everything just enough maybe fate will ignore anybody standing in the shadow of my ability to do whatever I want. And then you will all be freed up to invent some ridiculous number of centuries' worth of things and develop the world to the point where Maitimo's reactions to it would be strategically worthless and then maybe he can be actually properly rescued. I have never improperly rescued someone before and I don't like it very much.

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I am fairly sure it won't even take two centuries. And as far as improper rescues - none of us even got that far.

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It would have been silly for you to. It was likely silly for me to, it just - looked easy. For me. I mean, Maitimo's the one who told me that it was silly and I don't think he's currently objective on the value of his life, but still.

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I mean, if nothing else, if you hadn't Findekáno would have attempted it.

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Oh dear. Yes, he'd be wandering around looking for a project and - I can see it.

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Not while he still had obligations to his people, they really never were each others' primary loyalty, but the minute he could justify it to himself he'd have been off. So objectively it was worth the risk just to prevent that. Though he might have succeeded, I suppose. The Valar like him.

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If the Valar are paying that much attention...

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Why haven't they killed you? I'm genuinely not sure. I do not understand them well at all. I think they're quicker to token aid than righteous vengeance, but I do worry about it.

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I was actually thinking, if they like Findekáno and are paying that much attention and would have somehow rendered him able to succeed - in what I'm assuming would be a lone approximately suicide mission, because how could he justify bringing any of his people along - why didn't they just fetch Maitimo, perhaps before he was condemned to believe that everything is a hallucination for way too damn long.

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...they don't like us. 'and on the house of Fëanor the wrath of the Valar lies from the west to the uttermost East,,,', you did hear it, right? Findekáno showing admirable mercy to someone who he ought to feel wronged by is a thing they'd help with. None of it would be for Maitimo.

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I'm not sure I have it written down. But if the Valar were paying attention they wouldn't have to wait for Findekáno to go in person to know it would be a nice thing to do for him.

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It's not 'Findekáno is good and therefore ought not to suffer loss', it's 'Findekáno rescuing Maitimo would be doing something heroic and therefore ought to be caused to succeed in the heroism'.

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Oh, so it's just more, 'people are interesting toys'.

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Yes. Interesting stories, really, but yes. When we rebelled and left, the Valar told us they were weeping not for Moringotto's marring of Aman but for his marring of my father, for all the beautiful things my father would have created and now wouldn't because he'd rebelled against them and went to his death.

Tyelcormo told me that I should have told them, that I offered to pay you to heal him. I'm not sure I should have. I got him to agree not to tell Father. He
hates being an instrument to other peoples' ends.
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I'll avoid bringing it up with him, then.

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The funny thing is that I think he believes he needs to create things to deserve to be alive just as firmly as the Valar see him as a broken font of pretty things. He still resents being reminded that everyone else does.

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I'm not sure what to make of that.

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You've managed to tread just fine so far. Just - if you're going to resent the Valar for treating us like personally unimportant instruments of their pretty stories, keep in mind that everyone in the world sees him that way, and tolerates him or not basically depending on whether they think the pretty outputs are more common than the scary malfunctions, his own life obviously a rounding error in the calculations between those things. And to none of them is he a person. And that this makes perfect sense as an approach when the stakes are this high and also is horribly unpleasant to be on the receiving end of.

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Most of my personal impression of him still revolves around him constructing silly Asgardian sentences.
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But - rounding error, right?

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Only for now.

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I have people to meet with. Can you entertain yourself?

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Yes. Thank you.

And she goes to the guest room with the beautiful tapestry and songs her brain up up up and works.
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No one interrupts her for a long time, subjective time or otherwise. Someone brings her a meal at sunset.

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That's nice of them.

She thinks she'll just crash here until it's time to go meet Maitimo. She will acquire songs if Macalaurë offers them under whatever licensure and attach songs to things as requested per their own appropriate agreements.
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A few uneventful days means a lot of progress. The Fëanorians do end up accepting the songs-in-soundproofed-boxes, though they ask for a box for each pebble for easier distribution. The engineers are delighted. "There are songs to make a forge burn hotter," Curufinwë explains, "which we desperately need, but the problem is that musicians as a rule hate sitting in the corner of forges singing and we hate them distracting us. This is going to be very helpful." Loki picks up the forge-heating song, the lie-detecting song, a wood-treating song and a song to summon wind, with thirty copy rights for everything and as many copy rights as needed to pay for Maitimo to go live among Dwarves.

Fëanor says that retroactive perfect memory is theoretically impossible but the theory doesn't account for multiple universes existing in the first place and he could probably do it in a decade if she thinks it should be the priority.
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Loki clarifies licensing for the first two songs, too ("anyone involved in the war effort" turns out to mean "anyone who's showing up more than those indolent Doriath folks and better able to protect their things than random Men")

It takes a special sort of mind to declare a thing theoretically impossible, acknowledge that it's actually even worse than that, and then estimate ten years. "That's faster than me learning to teleport even given my revised estimate with the perception speeder thing," she says, "and confers most of the benefits but at a remove - you'd still have to develop anything I told you how to make in a separate step and not currently having that sharp a memory I can't guess how long that will reasonably take but it will certainly involve things like mining for things of otherwise limited use and extremely high-precision very large facilities. I think it would be reasonable to prioritize it or not; you know more than I do about the opportunity cost."
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"I'll do it," he says, "lots of things I'd work on would make us more comfortable but none would end the war that soon, and anyway it's an interesting problem."

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"Thank you."

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He makes a shooing motion in her direction and starts writing.

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She laughs and shoos.

And on the morning of the day she's supposed to meet Maitimo, she bundles up all her song pieces and she and nineteen decoy blobs of sky-blue head his way.
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He is sitting at the base of a tree carving little wooden figurines.

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She lands. "Hello. That was an exciting week, but apparently Findekáno couldn't keep his brain to himself so you already know about some of it?"

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"It was not an accident. I have been told that the Enemy is impersonating people, though not very effectively."

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"I'm pretty sure the Enemy wasn't impersonating him. I mean, there could be a reason for him to telepathically bother you but there wouldn't be a good reason for him to come up to me afterwards and say 'I did something stupid' -" She pulls the transcript of that conversation.

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"The real Findekáno is fairly intelligent even by the high standards of our family and would probably notice the irony of reaching out remotely to someone who expects the Enemy can manipulate his experiences to warn that person that the Enemy is impersonating people and to be careful. Your version of my cousin isn't bad, but it does him too little credit."

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"What do you want me to do, upgrade him in the next patch? Apparently he sometimes does silly things under emotional stress. I would've advised him against if he'd asked but he didn't."

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"No, it's fine. No one's going to be able to reach me across the continent anyway."

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"All right, but read your transcripts first, I don't want to try to camouflage them while we're flying. This stuff happened -" She pulls out the stuff that happened - "Then I killed a Balrog and discovered I was adopted, it was a fun time -" Post-combat conversations. "Checked on the orcs, visited your family and their new security protocols, cheated outrageously at magic and had a cultural misunderstanding -" She's really accumulated a lot of these. "Discovered said cultural misunderstanding with your cousins, went back and apologized, loitered, altered inventive trajectory for supposedly the next ten years, won't that be impressive - There, you've got something to read while I wander off a bit for safety and try to see if I have ice powers."

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He reads. You are actually from a different foreign planet the Valar didn't know existed, and your natural form is a twelve-foot blue thing? That's an elaborate excuse to tell me you're going to start using some new abilities, I'd be fine with just hearing that you learned them.

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I might not even have them and I am clearly not twelve feet tall, wasn't even when I was blue. I didn't actually have this personal revelation about my family life for your benefit, you know.

Wander wander. This is probably far enough, she never saw a giant shooting frost this far and she's not facing him.

C'monnnnn... frost.
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Yes, that had been a little unfair. Having Findekáno start talking in his head, and then having this many Findekáno transcripts that touch so directly on him, is a little unfair of her, though. He rereads, commits to memory, watches her standing there.

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She notices, eventually, having produced no frost powers. "You ready to go? I can do this another time. Might only work if I get up close and personal with another Balrog first and do it while I'm still blue or something."

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"I am."

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She holds out her hand.

And they are birds, and she leads the way to the Dwarves.

I'm going to auction off a forge heating song, your folks said I could do that without running down my copy permissions to fund your stay, so if you care to lead a life of indefinite indolence feel free. Did you get anywhere on eating things?
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Frustration. No, and I was actually trying. I have mostly been able to manually undo all of the instincts that are unhelpful for this environment, even if it's slow and painful, but those ones won't just come under control - I'm worried they're too grounded in memories, and I am unwilling to get rid of those. In Quendi form I'll be fine for months anyway.

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Would the healing song I have be any more effective for starvation than my sorcery spell? I can give you one of those, it can just run all the time if you want.

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It might delay it, I suppose. Thank you.

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You want it on you or on an object once we land?

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What's the lowest volume it works at? If anyone else can hear it, probably better to do on an object.

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Haven't extensively tested that; it was all objects and soundproof boxes. If I place the source so it's actually intersecting with you somewhere it'll be muffled to the outside but might still work on you, we can try that when we land?

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Sure.

How do I build a river-wheel?
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Ooh, I suppose that while its actual purpose cannot be demonstrated to your satisfaction the mechanism itself would make sense - She explains the shape of the thing. You could probably also run, like, a flour mill off one, purely mechanically, if you didn't want electricity.

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He considers for a second. Thank you.

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You're welcome. Planning to build the Dwarves one or something?

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I am planning to figure out how I can be useful to the Dwarves, build up as much credit with them as I possibly can, and then entreat them to help me build a city. Ideally four or five cities, but one to start with. So my family can't complain it'd be practically inconvenient to move.

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I approve of this plan. That's not nearly as manipulative as Macalaurë made it sound.

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I think my brothers prefer 'we are helpless in the face of Nelyo's machinations' to 'he's right, and has been right all along, and also we don't even have any ideas for a gesture meaningful enough to actually improve relations with the people we betrayed, so obviously we are going to end up going along with his.'

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Even with that face-saving explanation in mind I don't think I would have guessed this one. It's very me, actually. Giving people stuff so they can give other people stuff and so on.

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Competent people with the same goal will probably employ many of the same strategies.

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Yeah. Hmm, I wonder how many songs I will wind up selling to the Dwarves. I guess I should find out if they have controls against price-fixing; otherwise if I announce that I can sell an unlimited number of forge-songs until I have your room and board covered at negligible marginal cost they might all decide that they're willing to pay only that amount of gold divided by how many of them want one. I could avoid that by just auctioning one off and being unclear about supply but that might annoy them. I should ask one.

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If there are other considerations you don't need to sell forge-songs for my expenses; I am fairly certain I will be able to find valuable work.

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Hey, Dwarves who are paying for your upkeep are my only excuse to copy more than thirty of certain songs, Loki says. I'd like to be able to tell your family I drove a fair bargain and was not flagrantly cheated by a smith's cartel, is all.

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You still haven't talked to Moryo. I'm sure that the field has a theoretical solution that's proven to be superior given various constraints. He projects something like laughter. And everyone ridiculed economics for being an absurdly impractical field of study.

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I still haven't. I really should've, I was loitering for days, I think I've developed the habit of mentioning a thing and then forgetting about it because otherwise I'd be actively waiting on dozens of things, I mentioned you'd suggested it the visit after you did and then he never brought it up.

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They're also not all at Mithrim all the time, a lot of the mining concerns are rather far afield. Unless you ask for something to reach everyone's ears, I wouldn't assume that it has.

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...I can't remember if he was in the room when I said it. Oops. Another time. After I have dropped you off and then gone looking for Men.

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It's not urgent. It sounds like my family has quite a lot on their plates.

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Yeah, lots going on.

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It is annoying because it means making my city nicer than theirs is going to require a lot of work. It is reassuring because it means they are all well.

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Well, when you're done at least you'll have a really nice city. What are you going to call it?

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I don't speak the local language yet. There's a love song, back home, with the line 'I built you a castle of promises, when you stepped there it turned into smoke', and I am terribly tempted to name it after the castle from that song but that would amuse no one but me and help nothing at all.

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Oh dear. The Dwarves do speak Quendi languages - I'm not sure if they've got Quenya in particular - and seem to have hangups about other people learning their own. They put up with me since they can apparently tell that Allspeak is magic, though.

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I am sure I'll pick up whatever they're speaking to me in.

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I can give you a phrasebook if you turn out not to be mutually intelligible enough.

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I still have a hard time understanding how this is a good use of your resources.

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By certain accountings of the best use of my resources I should park in Doriath being just friendly enough that they keep feeding me, working on teleportation constantly. I like working on teleportation but I'm not that patient. Also, this approach would have me slowed down in the long run because I wouldn't have your brother's delightful spells, or your father working on my eidetic memory.

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I forget that not everyone enjoys working on a single task without rest for decades on end. That's not even a Quendi thing, it's just my parents and most of their children.

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Anyway, I do see some benefit into you charming and/or bribing Dwarves into building a city, that sounds awesome.

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You will be welcome there.

If Macalaurë does come up with a song for assembling lots of stone quickly, tell him I'll tolerate a visit.
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...Okay.

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...something I'm missing?

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No, I'm just not sure that's as much of an unambiguous bribe as a city is. Findekáno would come when called but I don't have as good a read on Macalaurë.

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And I'm not going to volunteer one, since, you know, I wouldn't particularly sit down and explain it to Moringotto. If you're real, you have the real Macalaurë and can convey the message and your read on him needn't matter.

I am very tempted to call Findekáno to help me build a city and fix what can be repaired of the relationships between our people but there seem a few ways in which it's unwise.
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A few, yes.

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Amusement. Which ones come to your mind?

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Well, I'm sure he'd find it very emotionally conflicting especially since I have not told him the thing, you I'm less sure about but I'm hardly sure you wouldn't be put through the wringer over it however much better at looking stoic you are, and it seems like it would be politically complicated, and I'm not aware of any strong comparative advantage he has in city-building that makes it worthwhile except that he seems to like to build things when he can't think of anything else to do.

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He's very good at it, but 'knows all of the carpentry and stonework skills involved in building cities, works very quickly' isn't an advantage on the same scale as 'may be able to sing them into place', no. The politics is the main thing I was considering. I would like Findekáno not to expend all the credibility he has with his people by caring about me far more than his information warrants. But it sounds like he's doing that anyway and quite publicly. In which case inviting him here would at least be possible to pass off as the two of them settling our differences in a way that ends to the benefit of his host.

...people who know, or have guessed, or are wondering, are going to be constantly looking for a way to determine which of us has the advantage of the other, it's this absurdly unshakeable assumption. It used to amuse me but now if we're going to be in contact again I need to make sure his people think it's him and my people think it's me and I actually don't find it amusing at all at this point, just exasperating.

It did not occur to me to worry that I'd feel complicated emotions. I do not think that's particularly likely. It's not really him and this is a delightfully interesting problem. If
he thinks it'd be unhealthy for him he should not come.
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Has the adv-? Okay, for one thing I'm not sure how public it is, he talks to me about you a lot but I'm the one who can relay messages, I think he may well just look vaguely maudlin to everyone else, and for another is that what I think it is.

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It's not public. That we were as close as brothers in Valinor is known to everyone and sufficient explanation for his being bothered that I've been tortured into insanity. I don't know what you think what is.

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Would your families seriously work themselves into a tizzy over who's on top. That's not their business! That's not anyone's business unless you're attending an orgy and even in those it's not customary to dwell on it as though it has great cosmic significance!

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Ohhh. ...there is a cultural assumption that there are power dynamics associated.

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At home even folks who recreationally pretend there are power dynamics involved in their sex and/or relationships because it makes their weekends more interesting don't rigidly adhere to an assumption about what acts that implies. Not as a group, anyway.

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That's lovely for Asgard. When you have enough cultural assumptions about what things mean, there's a sense in which they actually do mean those things.

And more importantly and entirely independent of my personal life, which would be far, far worse than trying to eat to try to take up again anyway, I need everyone inclined to figure out whether Findekáno and I are manipulating each other for political advantage to come to three or four different conclusions about the answer to that question, depending who they are and what they know, and this is complicated anyway and way more complicated if he's already burned through political capital by making it clear he's very sad about me.
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I'd say there's a sense in which it communicates the thing rather than a sense in which it means it but that's semantics and semantic arguments through Allspeak are a headache.

No comment on his personal life except that ugh that's so sad.
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I have more urgent concerns.

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Yeah.

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The spell that might make us fly faster, have you tried it out?

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Not yet. Want to give it a whirl?

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I would.

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So she pulls that song out and puts it together.

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It does, in fact, make them go faster, like a strong tailwind.

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Wheeeeee!

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He also does a fair bit of swooping around, though he does not express enjoyment.

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I am such a fan of song spells. I wonder how many more there are scattered around that people will let me have.

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Macalaurë has more than that, including some that might be useful. My guess is that he hesitated to list them because he mostly used them for throwing wild parties that lasted a week, in Aman, and now he's my father's heir and trying not to have a reputation for throwing wild parties that last a week.

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Do I need to tell him how disreputable I am, will that help?

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It might change the impression he presumably formed when he offered you a drink over the realization you were kidnapped as an infant and you explained you don't drink.

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In a useful way? I like my brain how it works all by itself; I have fewer concerns about anything non-mind-altering.

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I didn't drink much either, back when 'my brain, working as it does by itself' was a meaningful concept. It is predictive of being generally disinclined to wild partying, though, so if you want him to think you're a wild partier you should probably clarify.

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Any drawbacks to, 'hey, Macalaurë, in case you got the wrong impression from the fact that I avoid drinking when I can get away with it, I thought you should know that I have completely lost count of how many people I've slept with of either gender'? I'm just not sure how to present this information if it doesn't come up in conversation; he's never ambiguously had a boyfriend at me to make it salient.

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He does not have a boyfriend. Among musicians it'd be less surprising, though, they're supposed to have every vice imaginable. I imagine you could just say that I said Asgard's sufficiently different from here that he's going to do poorly at predicting what is embarrassing.

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Actually, not drinking was frequently embarrassing; I learned to tolerate it in modest quantities and spill things and pretend to be drunker than I was.

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There's definitely a song for making oneself sober.

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The part of my healing magic that does poison clears it right up, but that would have been terrible to be caught doing at home.

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Are you going to go back? If we win this war and seem capable of getting along afterwards?

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I want to find out what happened to Sigyn. And find out if my sister will hate me. And if my father knew. I suppose I don't really see myself living on Asgard again.

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....no one's likely to claim the Helcaraxe, if you want a frost giant kingdom here.

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Ha. Cozy. I don't know enough about frost giants to predict if I'll be able to finagle that fraction of Odin's plan, though, let alone to figure out whether they'd find the environment just like home. Jötunheim is, I think, farther from its sun, and has life on it besides them.

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You seem sufficiently unlike the Eldar that I don't think the kind of civilization we intend to build once we win would suit your temperament. Nonethless, I'm sure we'd be happy to aid you in any way we can.

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Well, I'm not sure I'm like anybody. I may not know much about frost giants, so I can't be sure, but I don't think they're a whole society of Lokis. It would... look very different.

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They would rule the galaxy. Benevolently.

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Yes, exactly. And frost giants do not do that. They're less of a galactic force than Asgard is, and less by aesthetic self-handicap. I have no idea what their deal is. But I plan to find out.

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So will you still be working full-time on teleportation, even though it's no longer the fastest avenue to a victory here?

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I still have to teleport if I want to get anywhere else. I suppose I could be enticed into doing something else first but I'm not planning to stay on one planet for however improbably few centuries it takes your father to invent the spaceship, discover the falsity of the stars, get around that, and go visit Eru's other pet projects.

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Without time pressure I think even he would take a few millennia to get around to that. Ruling this world is actually going to present all sorts of challenges, and then there's breaking everyone out of the Halls of Mandos...

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And all sorts of local goals are much simplified if I can just stroll into some galactic commerce hub with shiny magical trade goods and come home with whatever is convenient to speed that up.

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Yes, I suppose they are.

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And hire people! I could hire people with galactic-standard equipment to do things! It'd be easier to build cities that way, for sure.

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I expect that Dwarves are very good at building cities and that I can hire a lot of them. This is probably much worse than galactic-standard equipment but it'll be very beautiful and built to endure for the lifetime of Arda, I can do that.

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Fair enough.

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I'd like to hear more about the frost giant thing, if it's not a painful topic.

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What about it?

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Why are Asgard and Jotunheim in a perpetual state of war? How would Asgard's ruler have had the opportunity to pull something like this off? How much planning would it have required, and who would she have delegated it to?

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We've been in a perpetual state of war for an exceedingly long time and I'm not sure anyone remembers how it started; everything's about more recent grievances acquired over the course of the perpetual state of war. I assume she invaded Jötunheim and managed to get into the palace - if I'm a princess or possibly prince-refitted-to-her-cultural-needs - or somebody's house, if I'm not. I don't know how her not-technically-sorcery magic works so she may have patched arbitrary flaws in her plan with it; she normally uses it seldom but I'm not sure if that's because she knows 'oh, it's not sorcery' is an extremely flimsy excuse or because there's a genuine usage limitation or if it takes more of the mysterious sacrifices she had to offer up to get it every time. I'm assuming it's her magic I'm under to make me usually not blue, age correctly, possibly not manifest frost powers, etcetera; my own spells are approached differently from conventional sorcery but the underlying mechanics are the same and something would have gone wrong with the first one I cast - which was on myself - if it had been sorcery and I'd been operating on the wrong understanding of my body plan. I think. She might have had no accomplices at all depending on how sure she was she'd be able to bring home a suitable baby, or could have told Frigg, or could have put me with some random person for the duration of a pretend Asgardian pregnancy in order to fool him. She may or may not have planned far enough in advance to collect intelligence on Jötunheim's neonatal population and its kidnappability; it's just within the realm of possibility that she was storming a palace and spotted me and had a flash of something I hesitate to call brilliance.

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How many palaces has Jotunheim? How many princes or princesses, do they know you were stolen or would they consider it plausible that Odin killed a child?

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Don't know, I've never been there except for when I was too young to remember a thing. I don't even know if they actually have a monarchy. I could be the President's kid or a random orphan or the supposed reincarnation of a prophet or something. We're just supposed to know how to kill them. It'd be completely plausible that she'd kill a child, though, that's only against the honor code for non-frost giants, like so many other things.

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I see. Odin sounds - charming.

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It was suggested that you and she should play a game called Governor.

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He projects the sensation of laughter, again. If I were in charge of a country I don't think I'd do things convoluted enough to warrant my reputation for Governor. All my convoluted behavior is a consequence of not actually being in charge.

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How's it played? Can you actually execute maneuvers like 'kidnap and raise a baby frost giant'?

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...as we played in Valinor, that'd be rather like having one of your maneuvers be "go into a random village and slit everyone's throats", taking an infant from their parents is an unspeakable wrong. People usually tried not to commit any atrocities, unless you were playing as Moringotto. But yes, that's a permissible maneuver.

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It's possible I did not have parents. She might have figured any frost giant baby would do and taken one who didn't belong to anybody; my princess hypothesis is that this would make it less harebrained to imagine she could later enthrone me. But how does the game actually work?

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It's typically played in teams of two, but if everyone's playing in good faith you can play with two. It's turn-based; you play by writing orders to your subordinates. They start out with dubious reliability, one thing you can do with orders is tease out who is loyal and competent.

Say it's Cáno and I against Father and Curufinwë, that's alway fun. I'm the lead on my side, and I write four sets of orders; Father does the same. Then he gives his to Macalaurë, and I give mine to Curufinwë, and they modify them for the reliability of the subordinate in question - so if I gave a task to someone who's incompetent or untrustworthy, he has a lot of latitude to modify it, while if I gave it to someone good at their job he can't do much but pass it on. Then they trade - so now Macalaurë's carrying out the orders I wrote, adjusted for the competence of the people I delegated them to, and Curufinwë's doing the same thing for what Father wrote. Complicated plans take probability penalties. When orders conflict - we're both trying to bribe someone, or I'm arguing for a trade agreement and he's against - it's resolved by how many resources we'd committed to the scheme plus an element of chance.

To be any fun, you want to get convoluted. So usually the premise is something like 'the King's flying city launches in a year and you want to be appointed its governor' which was the original premise under which the game was popularized. 'Convince someone he's working for my enemy, order him to sabotage something, order someone else to catch him doing so, make sure they're too late to prevent the sabotage, collect the contract to fix it and make sure that the ties to your enemies come out at trial' is pretty ordinary as a turn goes, if you're having fun you could do things as complicated as the plan that you seem to have been at the center of.
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That sounds like an amazing game, but I'm not sure I can play it in my head or I'd suggest it for passing the time in flight. How are initial rosters of subordinates assigned?

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You can use illusions to track things but I'm not sure I could play it without writing and I have no similar advantage. Usually you start by listing a bunch of situational advantages and complications - for example 'I'm married to the King's niece', 'the metalworking guild resents me over a trade dispute', 'I'm secretly involved with another man', 'I'm widely respected in my field', 'I'm out of money', '- and a bunch of possible subordinates, and you take turns taking one for yourself and handing one to your opponent, and then that's the roster of subordinates and situational considerations you start the game with.

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This sounds like so much fun. My governance tutor would love it.

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Almost no one was ever willing to play with me.

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How long do these games tend to take?

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You can play it in an evening, you can have sprawling games that go on remotely for months. I once assassinated someone on the first turn.

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Did they demand a rematch?

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It was Tyelcormo and the next day he shot me in real life, walking home from work. Foam arrowhead, obviously. I thought that was fair enough.

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Osanwë giggles. I'd play you. Although we'd have to spread it out if it was a long one.

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Deal. Though if we involve any Dwarves they're going to assume that the Eldar are violent, dishonest, and constantly intriguing against each other, and there are some of us for whom those are entirely untrue.

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Well, you said it can be played by two.

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It can, you just have to keep track of the things you wouldn't know within the game.

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Up to you whether involving Dwarves would be worth it.

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You seem capable of handling it. I can invite Dwarves to play once I've established my upstandingness, trustworthiness, and value as a trading partner. Though no matter what I do they're going to end up with the odd impression that Elves hate eating, hate being surrounded, hate being touched, and hate enclosed spaces and then be very confused when they meet anyone else.

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Do you have the impression that Asgardians love magic, avoid alcohol, find it inconvenient that wars involve death, and love meddling in other cultures?

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I would expect Asgardians to be generally implausible, good in fights, oddly unhorrified by kinslaying, impressed by my father's best achievements but not by our civilization generally, and very confused by our sexual norms.

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Yes, that's about right. ...The tapestry in the guest room they put me in was really amazing, though.

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Which one?

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She sends him an image.

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It is very pretty, isn't it? There used to be dozens of them, Morgoth destroyed most and the war took most of the rest.

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I heard about that when I exclaimed over it. Gratuitous thing to do.

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I don't think so, actually. I think he wanted my father to come after him, and wanted my father as desperate and furious and therefore undiplomatic and politically isolated as possible when he did.

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Oh. I guess that's one way to do it. I don't suppose tapestries go to the Halls of Mandos? Maybe when that gets handled as a thing he can be repurposed as an art curator.

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They don't. When that gets handled perhaps my grandmother will desire to return to the making of them.

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Maybe.

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We can't start playing yet but we could draft an advantages and complications list, for Governor. What sort of setting would you enjoy?

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I'm sort of tempted to have a frost giant kingdom on the Helcaraxë, but I'd be making up everything about frost giants except what they look like and that at least some of them have cool ice powers I don't know how to operate.

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I don't find that particularly objectionable. If you knew all about them we'd be on uneven footing.

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How do we adjudicate things hinging on their properties, then?

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Establish as much as we can in advance, present the question in general terms to the other person when you want to do something that requires an answer, some people appoint a mediator but that seems like taking it a bit far.

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Fair enough. Let's see, things about frost giants. I don't know what they normally eat, or anything about the food chain on the planet; maybe they can just absorb sunlight or they're inherently self-sustainingly magical or something, but there's so little sun on Jötunheim and species that do that are rare. So I don't know what sort of supply lines I might or might not need into the Helcaraxë to support them. I have little information on their culture including game-relevant properties like susceptibility to bribery or structure of social influence, but I am not running imaginary Jötunheim, I'm running imaginary Helcaraxë, so I suppose as long as I don't assume they're all congenitally this or that the culture can be freely invented. I'll try to restrain my utopianism.

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Fair. Are we assuming Valinor is a non-entity, having made their mountains higher and their border chillier, unless someone does the sort of thing that'd definitely attract their attention?

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Well, if we assume Valinor's in play then we'd be on uneven footing, all I know is unflattering hearsay. And one and a half flattering hearsays.

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No Valinor, then.

I can think of some flattering things, should you require them. The Trees were an impressive work of magical engineering.
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Oh, they've done all kinds of technical work that's impressive, but it matters what you're impressive at, and according to the context I got from Melian having to have Trees to light things up sounds like a patch job because they couldn't figure out real stars in a timely manner.

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In a timely manner? The Ages of the world before the Elves awoke were a thousand times the length of the present Ages, and there were hundreds of them.

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And yet. Melian says there are real stars but they are not in the locations indicated by the night sky; those are fakes they slapped up there. The sun is new, I know, I was there; that would also ordinarily be a star. The planet's supposed to be spherical.

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He laughs for a while, that time. You and I could do so much better with a fraction of the power.

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I mean, I'm not sure I wouldn't have naively made a flat planet too, on my first try, without having known what I was doing from having seen examples; but once it collapsed without magic...

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You wouldn't have tried to use magic to make it stay, you'd have checked what actually worked? Maybe the problem is that they're too powerful, such that 'make it stay' was actually an option.

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But they had to hack together such a kludge to do it! The gravity's all fucked! Please do not go play at the edges of the top of the cylinder, they have something set up so they can go rescue anyone who gets stuck in it and I feel like that would be bad all around. And the wasted space! All that surface area on the side and the bottom, far as Melian knows there's nothing there but general mountainousness!

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Don't tell my father, I am reasonably sure he'll decide to build something there just on principle.

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Oh, I won't, I told Melian I wouldn't tell anybody who seemed likely to go poke it.

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I'll probably go poke it, but not until I am very prepared for the consequences.
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If nothing else, once I can teleport I ought to be able to go rescue you before the Valar and Maiar minding the alarm notice anything.

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Without intending any insult, I don't really want to put myself in the position of needing your rescue again either.

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Wouldn't blame you. Wait until you have artificial gravity or something.

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By the end of the Age it would astonish me if my father isn't more-or-less caught up on whatever the galactic standard is and working out how he can use it to overthrow Eru.

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That'll be messy.

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Vows are held by Eru. Taking down the Valar wouldn't be sufficient to free orcs.

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I didn't say it'd be unwarranted.

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What's the record for the speed at which a civilization has ascended from forging their first sword to destroying their gods?

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Don't remember offhand. The gods are usually a little more small-time than Eru, too. I could convince some people I was a god if I wanted. I am actually not sure I didn't do that accidentally on Midgard, although I was just telling stories from home in the third person.

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You're going to go see the Men over the mountains, right? Flying, healing, illusions, older than the Sun and Moon - it's going to be their default assumption. I could probably do it and Macalaurë definitely could.

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I'm not sure the right question isn't just 'what do you mean by god'. But surely most of the Men must be older than the Sun and Moon. They're, like, a few weeks old. Or did the Men appear as adults?

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When I said I'd run into Men I didn't mean I'd found a grassy lawn filled with infants. They had tribes and were looking for food and so forth. The Elves appeared as adults. I've been assuming that's what happened with them as well.

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Huh. I will have to ask them about that. It sounds disorienting.

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The Unbegotten describe not having internal - voices, at first, because they didn't yet have language. I find it hard to imagine.

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Did you notice if the Men had a language? If they don't I'm not sure how far I can get without badgering them all into learning Asgardian, which is not the most useful language they could pick up here but the only one I actually know.

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They did. One of the things Melkor said of Men was that they can't learn language as adults, so it makes sense that Eru had this batch born knowing it.

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...Why was Melkor dispensing Man trivia?

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Melkor lived in Valinor for a hundred Valian years before things came to a head and he was exposed and then the war began. He started out just doing menial work, then he started expounding - truthfully, he was sworn to it - on any subject people cared to ask him about. In hindsight everything he said was aimed at convincing us that it'd be awful for the Elves still living here for Men to become the things he said they were destined to become. Feeding our desire to leave Valinor with the fear that our homeland was being overrun by fast-breeding, less intelligent, less competent, vicious, cruel and miserable creatures.

It's possible to do quite a lot of that without telling any lies.
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Oh dear.

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Ironically, one thing he said was that eventually Men would design weapons that could rip cities apart and kill everyone in them. And now we are trying to do that. To be fair, he also said that Men would use the weapons against each other, and that we're not planning on, but as far as dangerousness was a concern that motivated us -

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Quendi have an unusually low background level of intraspecies conflict. I'm not sure why, because there seems to be a perfectly normal range of reactions to its presence once it's instigated.

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Maybe immortality makes people less inclined to risk their lives on killing other people. Maybe growing up in genuine absolute safety has benefits that almost make up for all the drawbacks of Valinor.

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Can't be immortality, there's other realms that have or have achieved that. Growing up in safety wouldn't explain why the Quendi who didn't go to Valinor are peaceful among each other too.

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Then I really don't know. I have to say, being one of the only murderers in the history of your people isn't fun but I wouldn't want to fix it by having more of them.

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But imagine if you could bottle the underlying peaceful nature. 'Dump this in the water supply and watch your violent crime rate evaporate unless a god spends hundreds of years sowing dissent!'

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What is the violent crime rate in normal societies?

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Varies a lot, don't remember much about the numbers. And my standard of a normal society has a very dense population, so if I say there's a murder a day in a big city you have to remember that a big city can have six million people in it.

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Still. We never had a murder, or an attempt, before Alqualondë.

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Yep. That's what confuses me. Did you have the concept?

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We had - we knew what the Enemy'd done. My father did at one point memorably draw a sword on Nolofinwë and was I think aware that if he stabbed him enough with the sword he'd stop moving. We played games where if you were playing as evil you'd be willing to do it. But in the same way that if you were playing as evil you'd be willing to kidnap small children and raise them as princesses, it wasn't conceivable.

Morgoth found me amusingly naive.
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There are things we didn't have a concept of. Things we wouldn't do even as a move in an evil game of Governor, wouldn't even name, things we wouldn't even have accused the Enemy of, because we had no idea...that might be true of any realm, though.

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There's a story which may or may not be apocryphal about a world which lacked a concept of suicide and had a very serious problem when someone noticed that and explained it.

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i'm inclined to say they'd had a problem before and no way of solving it.

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The story is not told in a way to imply that they acted out of actual suicidality, just a complete lack of memetic immunity, but that's possible.

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He spirals a bit lower. Hmmm. Anyway, I have no idea if Morgoth would also have found Asgardians amusingly naive or if all the horrors of the world have already been independently reinvented. We were missing a lot of concepts. Not sure if I should try to remedy that.

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I don't know and I'm not sure if I want to find out.

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I promise I wasn't going to start throwing things at you.

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Didn't think you were.

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If my purported rescuer had been one of my people, I wouldn't have said as much. It was unfair to raise it with you as frequently as I did.

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I'm pretty resilient.

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I don't think I am. It's a serious shortcoming, I'm annoyed with myself for not noticing it much earlier in my life.

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I mean, I don't know how you're doing internally but you're functioning pretty well for an extremely traumatized person who has every reason to believe he's in a malicious hallucination.

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You weren't present but I spent a day curled up in a ball before I could even retrain my brain that blades of grass weren't a reason to collapse into a puddle. I've had nearly three weeks to work on it and I cannot eat or drink.

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I don't have overwhelmingly high standards for extremely traumatized people, admittedly. ...There's probably all kinds of reasons this won't work for you, but when I don't like how my brain's behaving I write it down so I can have a look at it from the outside and see if that makes it easier to approach.

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I am really not willing to put much of this to paper.

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Yeah, I didn't think so. I invented a cipher so my sister wouldn't read my notes. Don't know if that helps.

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Amusement. We also have not invented words for much of it.

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I had to make some up.

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I'm not sure I want my language to have words for some things.

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I can sort of understand the sentiment but I'm not sure it's one to put into practice, if having the words would serve you.

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Can you not share any of this conversation with my family?

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Starting from where?

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Morgoth thought I was naive.

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Consider it stricken. I'll go back and edit the notes when I can look at them instead of adding to them under my feathers.

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It would upset them pointlessly and also some of them would feel a burning need to go learn what it was they didn't know, if not from me than from some other survivor. And I need them to think that I, aside from being in a position of disbelieving they exist, am entirely fine.
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Should I stop referring to you as 'depressing'?

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No, that's fine. Being bitter or reserved is acceptable, I'm not going to be able to exude warmth and delight at life at them. At everyone else, maybe, but not at anyone who sees me that frequently. Just - not trapped most of the time inside my own head wrestling with things they don't even have words for, that wouldn't do at all.

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Right.

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And they'd merrily set to inventing some and I love my family but I don't actually want their obsessive delight for problems and problem-solving turned on putting me back together. I don't think there are enough pieces left and I cannot let something that's probably the Enemy decide how I ought to be shaped anyway.

Did you know that when I sleep, if we're within a couple hundred miles of Angband, I can hear Thauron, and he asks me every time if I want to wake up for real, in Angband? I'm not sure if it's osanwë or my own subconscious.
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Eugh. Well. The Dwarves are far away from Angband, so if it's distance limited you should be okay there.

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If it bothered me I'd have asked for a meeting place farther away. I actually find it a little bit grounding.

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I guess that's one word for it.

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I've said no, obviously. A few times I was tempted, just because I don't think after I wake up from this one you'll - ah, my Enemy will - ever be able to convince me another one is real, and so this particular genre of game would be over. But this is nice and I haven't even explored it all and there are so many things happening, I don't really want it taken away just yet.

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Alas, I can't take the credit for the scenery or for more than, oh, eighty percent of the things happening.

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Laughter. You don't need to redact the things I said earlier from Findekáno, I'm not sure he should read them and they might make him sad but he is unlikely to set himself at once to inventing the cure, and it'll help him understand why he shouldn't talk to me at night and we shouldn't meet. Which he deserves to know. Also he might at last feel sufficiently sorry for me to accept my apology for the boats and for making him promises I couldn't keep.

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If you say so. Can we go back to designing my Helcaraxë in sufficient detail to play with it?

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But of course! How many frost giants are there? Are they in cities?

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Good question! Let's say yes to cities. Is a million a good number? I think a million's a good number if I go with the 'magical sustenance' model. Alternately, I can assume a supply line of mystery frost giant food from Jötunheim for you to undoubtedly sabotage.

And there ensues a lot of society design which is tremendous fun.
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Flying with magic assistance all day and all night, it is actually not very far to Tumunzahar.

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Which interrupts the society design, but it was almost wrapped up anyway. Loki takes a moment to make sure all her transcribed-and-not-read notes are where they should be in her illusion notebook, and then knocks.

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The Dwarf at the door isn't familiar, but was at her lecture and will tell them to light everything up for Loki, returning with her Elf.

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"It's a small thing," she says, "but the trick I have for making orcs stop working for Morgoth involves, of all things, convincing them that on this continent members of his species are called 'Quendi' and not 'Elves'. It hardly matters amongst yourselves but if any of you are likely to be in earshot of any orcs I'd appreciate the vocabulary swap."

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They all express firm intentions to keep out of earshot of orcs but will be careful if they ever are. Maitimo's frowning. "You're not speaking the same language to them as they're speaking back, and I can understand you but wouldn't expect them to actually understand Quenya."

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"Allspeak," Loki says. "It can't do that trick in writing, but everybody hears me in their own native language unless I'm turning it off to amuse your father. In writing, though, I can actually control 'who I'm writing to' and get a specific single language that way. Do you understand them or should I write you a phrasebook?"

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"There were slaves in Angband who spoke a variant on what they're speaking. I am not fluent but don't expect to need a phrasebook. Where do we stay, or is that yet to be acquired?"

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"To be determined." To the Dwarf, "Can you tell me how I go about purchasing or renting quarters for Maitimo here?"

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There are people who will do nothing but help them choose between proprietors of rooms, and also everyone reports their prices to a public record that can be found at such and such location and are generally very reliable about pricing as listed so if they're given any trouble they should make it known.

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Lovely. "Your brothers are funding this at no marginal cost," she murmurs illusorily in Maitimo's ear, "spare no expense if you see someplace you like."

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Regrettably most underground lodgings have in common the features that make them mildly stressful to me. But thank you.

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"I can wallpaper it in illusion, no extra charge? Can't do a breeze, but I can do a day cycle and scenery."

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"Sure. I'm not particularly attached to the lights in the sky, it's more the feeling of not being in a dungeon."

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"I can customize it. Treelights, if you want to osanwë me what those look like. Or stars."

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They find a place. Spacious and overlooking, with a guardrail, a steep drop. Maitimo's eyes light up when he sees it. "This one."

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"...I'm not sure I'd meet with approval if I wallpaper the pit for you, there's probably other apartments overlooking it. But sure."

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"No, leave that. Just the ceiling and opposite wall."

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"Sure."

And she puts up a splash of stars on darkness, clouds drifting across them occasionally in a slow program, and a view of, oh, how about a meadow, forest and river off in the distance? "Like that?"
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"Thank you."

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"You're welcome. I've got enough already banked to book the place for the first interval, I'll see about the songs to cover future rent payments."

Fussing with money fuss fuss fuss. She finds somebody to ask about price fixing.
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It's not common but there aren't rules against it. Giving out a new commodity without much knowledge of what price the market will bear for it is a common problem! For a commodity like this with a large possible demand and no marginal cost she might consider pricing it at a cost comparable to these other items, or she can do elaborate things that amount to efforts at price discrimination.

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Ooh, benchmarks. She appreciates benchmarks. Are the comparable items such that she will be able to say that she was not flagrantly cheated and also such that she can give out lots of songs before it is no longer plausible that she's doing it to fund Maitimo?

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It's hard to predict what Elves across the continent will consider being cheated, but the lowest proposed benchmark is about a fifth the price of the highest proposed benchmark. Maitimo observes that he can probably make use of lots of money if he's going to be building a city, which is what he's going to be doing.

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Well, if Maitimo says so.

She picks something midrange and inquires about how to advertise.
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For a new product the usual thing is to give it away to a few people who publish reviews of such things and wait for their reviews. For a new product for forges you'd give it to people who are renowned for their forge work.

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All right, where does she find a smith-cum-critic to give a free sample?

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Those turn out to pop out of the woodwork quite readily.

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Lovely. She picks one at near-random, which is to say based on speed of arrival and charmingness of presentation, and puts a song in his forge. (Her forge? Their forge? She can't actually tell. She's pretty sure she's never heard a Dwarf say 'she' about a Dwarf but her Allspeak instance does have a history of screwing up gender. She will wait until she is better friends with some specific Dwarf and inquire.)

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The Dwarf assures her that if it's any good word will spread within a few days.

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Well, she doesn't need to be anywhere else specific.

She rents shorter-term accommodations for herself with some of the bidding-on-questions-from-her-lecture fund. She does not think Maitimo would appreciate a roommate.

She expects less interest in the other spells, detecting negligible wood, sailing, uncalm water, equestrianism, and need for wind anywhere down here. She suspects that they must have crops somewhere; she's not allowed to copy that song but she is allowed to use it if someone wants to make her an offer on one-time use...? Warmth spells, firestarters?
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There'll be quite a market for healing. They're intrigued by everything else but there are no buyers except as novelties, though lots of people want novelties. They have suggestions for ones she should get in the future, though: spells for a sure grip, for extra strength, for clearer vision, for resistance to heat?

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She writes down the suggestions in case she finds anyone short of projects. Healing she can do her way one-time if anybody needs it right now, and also copy infinite songs for; she's abstractly curious what the market will make of these options.

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A secondary market will spring up for waiting in line for healing songs.

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Ha! Dwarves are great.

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Maitimo also likes them, or is at least pretending; he spends the first day listening intently and then starts talking with people in line, about what they do and how they chose it and what its most satisfying bits are, and he turns out to have dozens of stories about mishaps in the forge as a young child and projects he'd completed but not quite to his satisfaction that perhaps they'd be just the talent for and the story of how in Valinor they'd clumsily advanced the art of metalworking and the story of how, and why, they'd begun forging swords.

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...Awwww. Aww, this is nice. She doesn't have a clue if he's happy but he's active, he is not going to stare at his Double Plus Fake Stars and mope, that is good.

How goes Loki's quest for a specific individual Dwarf to befriend?
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Everyone's friendly. She has been invited to several peoples' homes for dinner.

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That is lovely. She will go to dinners. Maybe she can make guesses about the family structure like that.

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Unfortunately, dinners are uninformative on the family structure point! After several dinners the known Dwarf family structures seem to be 'ten adults and no children', 'eight adults and two children' and 'four adults and no children' and the adults are not discernibly of different genders. Luckily by this point she's well enough acquainted with one of the Dwarves who invited her to dinner, a miner named Rathsvith who recently came back from an extended stay in Menegroth and who everyone else accordingly seems to think of as an expert on pink hairless types in general.

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So Loki tells Rathsvith the funny story about when she was vacationing on Midgard and her translation magic glitched on gendered words, ha ha ha.

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Rathsvith is confused about what a gender is.

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Why, gender is this set of social constructs that many cultures perch on top of biological clusters associated with reproductive role. Genders are very popular and most people have one, although she has some complaints with the social constructs that came with hers.

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Ah! That explains why some Elves persistently wear different clothing and hairstyles than other Elves! He'd thought it was a guild affiliation thing before he realized Elves didn't work and probably didn't have guilds.

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Nope! It's this other thing! Did they figure out the pronouns all right or is this like her Allspeak glitch?

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They didn't really talk to the Elves much and had not noticed that there was grammar associated with the guilds and can't reliably enough identify the guild on sight to make much use of the information, but still, that's all right. It's rare they're talking to Elves about other Elves anyway.

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Fair enough. So Dwarves just don't do this thing at all, huh? Well, it seems to work for them and is probably saving them a lot of hassle, good job Dwarves.

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Yeah, having a group identity is very nice but guilds seem like a much better way to do it, being voluntary and not related to private personal information.

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If only Loki's mother felt that way. This does seem to mean that one has to learn private personal information about one's acquaintances before one can get anywhere on the process of finding someone with whom to start a confusingly-grouped family of adorable bearded children, though; if she may ask, how does that work?

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Oh, children are a decades-long project and you'd definitely know someone much better than the level relevant for private personal information by the time you two would decide to parent children together. And if one really wanted to parent children it was perfectly reasonable to put out an announcement to that effect and explaining why you thought you'd do well at it and then know you were talking only to people with whom you could do that. Anyway, even if someone had the relevant biology, wouldn't Elves and so forth have to determine whether the person wanted children? It really didn't seem like flagging biology saved you very much time on the process.

Maitimo is really enjoying this for some reason.
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A pleased Maitimo is a good thing.

So what exactly is the relationship between these large groups of adults she's been having dinner with and their adorable bearded children?
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So children take two, but are very tiring for two and it's typical to have more people agree to roles in the children's life, and then either parent could have more partners, and often all of these people would live nearby for convenience.

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What a pleasantly broad-minded system. (Loki is so fond of Dwarves.) Would Rathsvith like an explanation of the nuclear family or did he (they? would Rathsvith prefer pronouns that do not specify a gender or ones that default to the one Dwarves in general visually resemble?) figure it out more or less from Menegroth?

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Rathsvith thinks it's odd to use grammar that signifies that he can technically bear children and thinks it doesn't really matter which but one pronoun should be picked for all Dwarves. The Elf way seems to be that there's a party declaring that two people are going to have all of their children together, is that basically it?

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That's not basically it. Variants on the nuclear family are common in many cultures and while they do typically involve a party and having all one's children together, other popular ingredients include exclusivity, romance, permanent cohabitation, and acquisition of one another's relatives by proxy. Elves also do a creepy soul thing! Most people do not do the creepy soul thing.

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He is politely fascinated. He does in fact know some people who are exclusive, have romances, had all of their children together and permanently live together, and it seems like a very reasonable arrangement. The creepy soul thing seems unreasonable.

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Loki's not a fan either. It is not the Elves' fault, though.

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Lots of the things wrong with Elves can't really be characterized as their fault. For example, they have no good way to get coal, and it's really hard to work a forge without coal, and it makes sense that they'd mostly wander around living in trees and singing. Not what he'd do, but certainly comprehensible. Also, their gods are ridiculous but it seems they didn't make them up, so while he'd previously held it against them that they made up such bad gods, they turn out to be accurately reporting the story there.

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Also some of the singing is magic!

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Yes, he has one of the heat-forge-songs! The Elf who invented a heat-forge-song deserves commendations. That is using the fact one is stuck as an Elf to its best advantage.

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...She will tell the composer of Rathsvith's remark. Look, there she goes, writing it down, almost succeeding at not laughing.

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Can Elves read? He was under the impression that they didn't really bother.

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The newcomers can! Maitimo's father invented an alphabet. Someone in Doriath has also separately invented an alphabet. Loki's confident that these inventions will catch on, since writing is great.

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Writing is great, but she's counting on Elves to notice this. He's pleased to hear that the newcomers can write, though, that'll make trading with them far simpler, they have to keep so many people on hand in Menegroth just because of complications with verbal contracts!

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That sounds frustrating. She's mostly expecting it to catch on because most societies pick it up eventually, but she admittedly doesn't know how long it will take. Elves are slooooow. Except, like, Maitimo's immediate family.

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He nods fervently. "I don't think death is a blessing or anything, but Elves sure make it clear why some people think so."

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"Oh, I intend to live forever myself and it doesn't have this effect on me."

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"In that case I have no idea what their problem is."

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"I'm not sure either. Maybe one day someone will discover it and patent a cure."

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He laughs. Then, quietly, glancing at the Elf in the corner, "if it's not a sensitive subject, why won't Maitimo's kin take him back?"

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"They would," Loki says. "They're building somewhere to put him; he'll probably only be here for a few years. Also he can probably hear you. It's complicated; Maitimo, how sensitive do you consider this subject?"

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He starts, at that, and seems almost to come back to life. "Sorry, Rathsvith, I should have explained earlier. One ability of the Enemy is to play hallucinations, so people think they've escaped and rejoined their families when they're really still in his power. I think he does this partially to gain from our minds information about the peoples who we left, and partially so if we really do escape we'll never be sure of it. So I decided a long time ago that if I escaped, I wouldn't go home and wouldn't let him use my mind and my reactions to get a map of my family home, or my family themselves."

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"So, yeah, he's slightly awkward company sometimes," Loki says. "I promise I really rescued him and you are not a hallucination, Rathsvith. I'm very glad there's a place for him here."

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"If you weren't an Elf," he says, "the Enemy wouldn't be able to do that, because Dwarves cannot be targeted with mind controlling magic."

"I am very glad of that," Maitimo says.
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"I like a lot of things about Dwarves but that is probably one of the best things," Loki says. "If you think of a way for me to copy it, I want it."

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"I can't think how you'd copy someone's head," he says.

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Loki makes an illusion of Rathsvith's head, briefly. Then shoos it. "Yeah, me either."

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Another laugh. "I know former prisoners of the Enemy sometimes snap in the night and kill everyone," he says, "everyone knows that. We figured how far would he get, he's an Elf. But are they really losing it, or are they just tired of not being sure?"

"I don't know," Maitimo says, "but if it's under my volition at all I won't snap in the night, and if I do I am pretty confident of what I'd do and it wouldn't hurt anyone else."
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"And he wasn't released when the Enemy was done with him, he was rescued when I happened to spot him," Loki says, "which I suspect is a protective factor too."

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He nods. "As far as I'm concerned he's all right for an Elf, and no one has any grounds for complaints when you're paying your way."

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"I appreciate that."

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They retire shortly afterwards. Dwarves are early risers.

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Hardly makes a difference to her underground. Zzzz.

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In the morning she finds Maitimo in the amphitheater explaining the theoretical framework that Elves use for enchanted weaponry.

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Hooray! Cultural exchange! She sits in.

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It's only a bit more exhaustive than what she already got from Macalaurë - he presents a few of the algorithms and goes through the spell design process that would produce a ring which glows, the simplest case - and, as he ruefully concludes, perhaps of dubious use to Dwarves since they don't use osanwë. The questioning period makes it clear that their approach is similar in some important ways, though, and there's much excitement about some algorithm that seems relevant to what they do.

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Eeeeee.

Loki's pretty much out of things she wanted to do here. Except play Governor. She will stay one more evening and see about setting that up.
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He finds her after the talk and gives a quite relaxed smile. "Loki."

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"Maitimo. Like it here? I can wander off tomorrow morning without being perpetually concerned you will swan-dive off your balcony?"

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"Were you worried? I have obligations if this is real and nothing to look forward to if it isn't. I will be able to achieve my goals here."

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"It crossed my mind when you picked the only apartment with a view into certain death, but you've been carrying around a knife for a while so not that worried. Want to start our game tonight?"

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"I find it tremendously soothing that if I need to I can. Without even leaving a mess for anyone else. But I'm going to build a city, my people need to apologize and I think they will need a very nice city to be prompted to do it. I would love to start the game tonight."

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So off they go to his (roomier) quarters to start. She has inferior paper for the purpose.

She has never played this game before but she can plagiarize ruthlessly from every head of state she's ever heard of.
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The first set of orders he hands to her for effectiveness-and-trustworthiness modification (she has a separate slip of paper that notes whether his people are reliable) are 'send a friendly emissary', 'give asylum to anyone dissatisfied who we can accommodate climate-wise', 'trade food', and 'research methods of warming the whole planet to the temperature of Tirion through amplifying the Sun etc'.

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Loki wonders to what extent her information on the scientific inadvisability of amplifying the Sun should play into his ultimate results on that. ("And who wins if you do it anyway and cook the planet?")

By the time they've been playing for an hour she has undersea tunnels of ice sloped to allow rapid sled-based retreat from the Helcaraxë, two complementary plots to have the favorite daughter of Maitimo's annoyingly competent secretary seduced, plans underway to invent the heat-seeking missile, a museum's worth of stolen artifacts, and the aftereffects of a bioweapon to contend with. This is so much fun.
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He has been smiling for the last half-hour. It's not the relaxed smile that's on his face around the Dwarves, but it seems somehow more sincere for that. "If you're leaving in the morning I should let you sleep."

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"Yeah, probably. This is great, though."

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"We can pick it up when you return. Thank you for everything. Travel safely." Somewhere in the middle the smile changes to the one he's been wearing for the last several days.

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...she's going to want to ask somebody about that. "You're welcome. Good night."

And she goes to sleep and in the morning she's on her way to go bother some Men.
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On the other side of the mountains is a desert; it's evening before it stops being mostly desert in favor of rocky plains. Her vision takes longer than Maitimo's would have to notice a tribe of Men.

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She flies low over the Men to see what they are up to.

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Not much. Some of them are winding through the brush gathering some kind of grain. Some of them are sleeping.

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Are they gathering in groups or singly? Also, are they pretty much just soul-animal-less Midgardians?

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Yep, soul-animal-less Midgardians is a very good description. This group contains ten people, but the gatherers are mostly working alone.

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Okay then.

Loki finds a place from which to approach a gatherer without obviously appearing from nowhere, and then does that.
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She looks startled and confused to see her, but not angry.

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"Good afternoon. I'm Loki." She's just. Not even gonna with the matronymic now. "What's your name?"

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"...hello. Checheg."

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"Pleased to meet you. Do you want some help with the grain or have you got that covered?"

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"Help - picking it up? If you're going to want to eat you should pick some things up."

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"I'm not hungry," she doesn't mention this is because she's gotten quite used to curbing the insect population, "I just wanted to know if you wanted me to help pick some things up for you. I don't know how much you're meaning to get."

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"Oh. Enough to eat. It doesn't usually take all day."

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"Makes sense. What do you do with the rest of the day?"

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"Rest. Explore. Look out for trouble."

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"Is there a lot of trouble around here?"

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"Sometimes we run into other people and then we go away, or they go away, because there's not enough food. Or there are wild animals."

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Nod, nod. "I heard someone say you appeared a little while ago; do you remember that?"

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"Appeared?"

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"You were here one day and weren't here the day before? The person I heard this from could be wrong; that's why I'm asking you."

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She looks confused."We came here from over there."

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"When?"

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"Couple nights ago, because there wasn't anything left to pick over there."

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"Before you were over there where were you?"

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"...farther?"

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"How long have you been moving around picking food?"

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"We've always done that."

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"How many days, about?"

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She looks bewildered again. "'how many' doesn't go that high."

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"How high does it go?"

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She gestures around at the people around her. "That high but we don't have that many words."

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"Okay... how many times would you run out of numbers if you tried to count the days that way and started the numbers over again whenever you ran out?"

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"All the days? Ever?"

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Oh well. Loki doesn't want to run it into the ground. ...She's going to have to leave the Men alone w.r.t. her secondary purpose for at least a few years, she could probably make do without literacy but a literal inability to count past ten is pushing it.

"I'm from very far away. I heard you and other tribes like you were around here and came to see if you wanted any help with anything."
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"Help is nice. With what? Wild animals? Things to stay warm?'

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"I can do things to stay warm! A friend taught me how to do it with magic."

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"Okay. How?"

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"I just need something that you want to be warm, and then I attach some magic to it and it'll be warm all the time for you. A rock is fine."

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She finds a rock and hands it to her.

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And Loki puts a warmth song in the rock and hands it back.

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"Why is it making that noise, is there a demon in it?"

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"No, the noise is doing the magic. It's just a song sung very fast."

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"Who's singing the song? It doesn't sound like a song."

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"It sounds different because it's so fast. The rock wouldn't stay warm all the time if it were slowed down, because it takes half the song to start working. I learned to make songs sing themselves. It's not very useful unless the song is magic, so I got some people to teach me magic songs."

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"Okay," she says, and holds the magic rock close. "Thank you."

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"You're welcome! Do you want more warm rocks or is one enough?"

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"More would be good, but they might make people nervous. And if they are demons then they might escape and kill us all."

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"There are no demons in the rock. Just songs. Do you meet demons, when you're wandering around?"

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"No. We would be dead. I know stories, though."

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"Where'd you hear the stories?"

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"From other people we run into. They say 'don't go that way, there are demons'."

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"Which way is it that there are demons? Maybe I can make the demons go away for you."

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"Across the hills," she says, "by the big lake, and in the forest. All very far away."

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"Thank you. Would you like a singing rock that does healing, in case any of them ever wander this way and you get hurt?"

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They would love one of those.

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So she makes them one! They... probably couldn't use any other kinds of singing rocks, let alone defend them. Would any of them like a math lesson? Covering the concept of "counting past ten"?

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They're all rather intrigued by now, and happy to sit around and give it a try.

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Cool. She uses Daeron's numerals; it's that or Quenya, and while Doriath's less friendly Quenya's the language that has speakers willing to pick up the local languages as necessary. (Asgardian and whatever the Dwarves call their language are right out given alternatives closer to home and less private. She should've asked Rathsvith what the deal was with that. Next time she's there.) So, these are marks you can scratch in the dirt - this she does; they might be spooked by illusions and the only advantage here is convenience - and they will keep track of how many things there are! There are this many blades of grass; now there are this many; you don't want to have to memorize too many symbols, so here's how you go past that with the concept of multiplication as illustrated by a rectangle of dots poked in the ground.

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It's not clear if it'll all stick, but they're certainly impressed.

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She gets them as far as three-digit numbers (in twelves, this is 144 and up), mentions that you can keep going with more places of numbers as far as you like if you want to count a lot of something, and gives them a break at that point if they seem like they might be having trouble with retention.

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They look unused to sitting still or learning things. They're very complimentary about the idea, though. Very clever of her.

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"It wasn't my idea. I learned all these symbols from somebody far away who made them up."

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Still. Very clever.

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"I hope its useful!"

It's... sort of weird how unprepared she is to, basically, uplift, a bunch of people with literally nothing to start with. Disturbing how tempting it is to outright lie to them because they don't have the concepts to understand the truth; she avoids that, simplifying but not to the point of falsehood, but the inclination's there. Loki has never liked the idea that new races are "children" relative to older ones. Childhood is an individual matter and she thinks you could take a bright Midgardian and plop them in a galactic hub and explain things on demand for a few weeks and wind up with somebody who at least sort of knew what they were doing.

But these people are - developmentally adults with a language pre-loaded, but they have no cultural history or context, no life experience that isn't wandering around gathering things, she can't build on anything because there is nothing -

Well. They'll be warm and they'll be able to treat injuries and maybe they'll get somewhere with the counting.

"I'll see if I can do anything about those demons who've been making trouble."

And if she has her way all of these folks are going to live long enough to try it.

She walks off. She didn't come here to be worshipped by people she doesn't even know how to help more than a little; she will wait until she's out of sight before she does overt magic.
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They cheerfully wish her well.

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At least they are not terrified of her or something! That would have been bad!

She goes over a rise and flies off. Big lake? Hello big lake?
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There is, indeed, a big lake over the next set of tall hills or short mountains. There are people living beside it. There's an old forest.

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Men-type people? ...Spider forest?

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Men-type people indeed. The forest looks healthy and totally devoid of spiders, though the Men all avoid it.

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Loki goes and visits these Men in much the same way as the last bunch: hello, I'm Loki, do you want any help with things, how about a warm singing rock or a healing singing rock or both. What's up with the forest.

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There are demons in the forest, if you go too near you'll never be seen again, or be gruesomely eviscerated.

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What do the demons look like, or does nobody survive seeing one?

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She gets a dozen conflicting stories.

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...Do they add up in any suggestive way?

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Not especially. Some people might just be inventing stories for attention. The consensus is that if you go into the forest you'll see terrible things but probably come back out, and that the demons can really strike anyone.

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Loki thanks them, sees if anybody wants the math lesson, delivers a math lesson...

...and wanders into the forest.
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The trees creak around her, and there's a strangled howling in the distance. The forest looks perfectly nice and healthy, though.

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Gosh. Howling. Somehow lacks the panache of a chittering giant spider, though, this forest could take notes from the other.

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A branch crashes to the ground in front of her. Then an osanwë-vision of trees clawing their way towards her, though they're doing nothing of the sort.

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"If this forest or someone who claims it wants me to leave they could maybe just say so," she says, stepping over the branch.

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You speak our language?

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"Translation magic. What gives with the creepy forest vibe?"

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Men are not welcome here. They have short memories and do not obey agreements. It is simpler to frighten them.

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"Well, they're very new at - everything. I'm not one, although you could be pardoned for making the mistake. Who are you?"

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We are the Nandor, the peoples of these trees and this land. They are new at everything; they will learn. They will learn somewhere other than in our homes.

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"Nice to meet you, I'm Loki. Are you guys Elves or yet another sort of thing? And are you just scaring them off or are you also behind the stories of eviscerations?"

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The peoples of Valinor and of Beleriand are our kin, yes. We would not harm children of Eru. The Men may tell each other false stories.

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"They may! That's why I asked. Last two times I walked into unfamiliar forests that prefer to avoid visitors things tried to kill me, so I wasn't sure. I appreciate how you're not eviscerating anyone."

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We have done none of them any harm, just frightened them into departing.

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"How long have they been around? I just taught them to count but I haven't gotten anywhere on 'so, now that you can count, how long have you existed'. I assume you'd remember when you first noticed them."

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They awoke when the Sun first rose.

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"Makes sense. Is this how you prefer to have this conversation? I don't really mind, but for a telepathic species I've noticed Elves do a lot of face-to-face chatting and I'm wondering why not you. Or are you hoping I'll go away, or what?"

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We are not like the other Elves. We prefer to communicate like this.

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Is it preferable if I reply in kind?

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As you like.

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"What do Men do if they wander into the forest that's so objectionable?"

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They're loud, smell dreadful, try cutting down the trees. If we sing they get fascinated and try to find us, and we like singing and need it to keep the forest healthy and our homes warm.

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"Well, I'm not sure what they had in mind for the trees, but if they wanted them as fuel that should calm down presently, I gave them some magic warm rocks. I guess they'd need actual fire to cook food on but I'm not sure if they've invented that yet."

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I think they burn them to scare off wild animals.

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"That'd explain it too. I don't have anything to give them that will scare off wild animals, unfortunately."

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They know by now not to come in the forest.

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"That solves your problem but not their problem. What do you do about wild animals?"

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We live in the trees where they cannot reach us.

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"I guess that works as long as nothing you want to avoid can climb trees. I was hoping you had a song for it or something."

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No. You can't control animals with song, not hostile ones. It would work too slowly.

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"What if you could sing really fast?"

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Then perhaps you could stop a charging animal in time.

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"If someone will sing me a song to calm down an animal which would work on hostile ones if it were sung fast, I can make sped-up copies of it that sing themselves and attach these copies to objects. Would that be useful to you?"

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We don't have such a song, because it wouldn't be useful. I suppose now someone could compose one.

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"Do you have any other songs which would be useful like that?"

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No. We have what we need, and it suits us.

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"Would you be willing to let me copy some of them anyway?"

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No. We do not want outsiders here and we will not aid you.

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Well, these folks are kind of aggressively unhelpful. "I'm sorry to hear that."

And she walks out of the forest back towards the Men.
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The Men are a bit astonished to see her walk out of the forest unfrightened and unharmed.

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"The people in there really don't like visitors," she comments.

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"They're demons," someone explains to her once again.

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"They're actually a species called Quendi or Elves. There's other tribes of them who are friendlier than those ones, but all the ones I've met are far away. These Quendi are really not interested in making friends and you should probably leave them alone. They implied you have trouble scaring off wild animals?"

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"And demons."

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"...Demons besides the Quendi in the trees?" she clarifies. "Are there other kinds who don't live in the forest?"

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There are all kinds! The ones that creep across the waters, the ones that scream and sound like people you know, the ones that take human form and then come close and melt into something else.

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...okay, she cannot quite explain all of that as tree-dwelling Elves. What do the shapeshifting demons turn into once they aren't humans anymore? What do the water-creepers look like?

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They turn into wolves, sometimes, and drag you off, or into shining powerful demonforms and drag you off. The water-creepers only come at night and it's easier to hear than see them.

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Loki did not discover she's an adopted werewolf, but she did hear that those were a thing.

Do the demons come from any direction, or only some directions?
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They haven't yet invented directions but they'll tell her where they remember seeing demons. They are mostly pointing towards the same hilly area across the lake.

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Loki thanks them and wanders somewhere out of sight and then flies invisibly across the lake. She wishes to be cautious here; the illusion notes are underground and she is properly invisible, not just sky-shrouded. She does not play the speed song.

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Past the hills there are more Men. These ones are working, building a stone building of some kind. It's not visible from the lakeside.

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Oh, good for them! They came up with stone buildings already, look at them go! Anything else around here more demonic-looking than that?

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Nothing looks demonic. The ground looks like there might have been a wildfire a few weeks ago.

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Well, that would certainly scare people but it wouldn't explain the observations she heard. It's a little early for Men to have already invented and forgotten that they invented a bunch of mythology that they then report as fact.

She swoops around, sees nothing but clever stone-building Men, and finds a place to land and change hidden and pops out.
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They see her and start warily. "Hello."

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"Hello! I'm Loki. How are you doing?"

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"We're nearly done."

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"I can see that! It's a nice building, what's it going to be, a house or something else?"

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"It's a temple to Melkor."

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These aren't orcs.

What the fuck.

"Where'd you get the idea of building one of those?"
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"Man came from over the hills, said the demons that come and kill us fear Melkor and if we worship him he'll protect us."

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"How's that working out so far?"

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"Well, we're not done with the temple yet, but nothing's attacked us while we're singing songs to Melkor."

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"How do those go?"

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"He taught it to us. I'm not sure if we're supposed to teach it to other people -"

"I think we are," says one of the others, "so they aren't attacked by the demons, and so Melkor has more worshippers and is stronger and can protect us better."

And they awkwardly crowd around and begin singing a hymn of praise and strength to Melkor.
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Loki records it, in case it turns out that the best she can offer the other Men is a demon-repelling song that lasts until Melkor catches on.

"Thank you for sharing that with me," she says.
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They are happy to have done so, and invite her to return once the temple is finished. They've been told that if they sleep in it they'll be perfectly safe, as the demons can't enter.

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That's good, she is glad they have a way to be safe from the demons, the demons sound like bad news. Can they point out where their informative benefactor came from?

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They gesture vaguely in the direction she travelled to reach them. "He's going around teaching everyone how to protect themselves."

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Hmmmmm.

"Thank you," she says, and she walks thatawayish and instead flies further in the direction she went to reach the temple.
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There are quite a lot of Men, all scattered in small groups of ten or so, at a population density that hunter-gatherers probably could not actually sustain. There are three other groups of Men building temples. They have the same story.

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Do they all point in different directions when she asks who told them to build the temples?

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Yep.

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Ah-huh.

She goes up up up. Anything irregular-looking hereish?
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The mysterious benefactor doesn't seem to be presently active, though some groups saw him in the last few days. No demons to see either, though the sun's setting and they have been said to mostly come out at night.

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Maybe she'll just have to find some of those and follow them home, then.

She listens through an iteration of her sleep-skipper and flies lower, listening, watching.
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Demons come in the night, as she's been promised. They walk up in the form of Men, but the Men know better by now, and are wary. And then they turn into wolves.

Everyone who has been building a temple to Melkor is not attacked.
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Does the song work, if she slips it into the wolves' ears?

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The song doesn't seem to do anything.

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Maybe the Men just only sing in the daytime or something.

She'll interrupt if anybody is actually attacked by a demon where she can see, but if they're just prowling she flies around - marking wolves with dots, discreet-like - and constructs a map of the area (in a sky-blob) and waits until the wolves go home so she can see where home is.
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It takes until halfway through the night, but eventually they do attack. In three different places across the area.

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Simultaneously? Ugh. No fire song, tempting as it is, they might just like being on fire fine and set off a blaze in the flora. She tries blinding and deafening them all.

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That's obviously very bad for them, but the Men are utterly unprepared to fight them off, and they're still managing to find them by smell.

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Fuck. She can't be in three places at once. She dives for one, aims for a quick clean separation of head from body.

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Dead. They aren't that tough.

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Next.

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Is in the process of dragging someone off.

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Now it is not, and the person it was dragging off is whole and well, and next.

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The last one is running.

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She flings healing songs at anybody left injured in its wake and chases it.

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Others, the ones that didn't attack, join it, and the pack heads back over the hills at a run.

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She'll let them as long as they don't stop to attack anyone. She wants to know where they're going.

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They round another hilltop and then vanish entirely; she can see them flicker out of existence at a certain point.

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The fuck.

She lands short of that and throws a rock at the place.
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It halts in midair.

The air ripples and a man walks out, plucks it out of the air, examines it. He looks like an Elf.
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She was already holding Lævateinn but now she's holding it tighter. She was already invisible but now she's inaudible too.

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"We meet at last," he says, still looking at the rock. "I didn't think it would be long but I didn't particularly expect it to be here.

This world runs according to a divine plan. You're rather making a mess of it."
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"That would matter if I liked the plan," says her voice. From the rock. This probably isn't Morgoth because he is not in Angband wearing shiny rocks on his head.

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"I hate the plan," he says, "and find that your alterations nonetheless matter to me.


What are you in this for? What do you hope to achieve?"
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"If your version of altering the plan involves werewolves savaging people I'm not sure we're going to find any common ground," says the rock. Maybe this is Thauron; he doesn't have Maitimo to play with anymore, could have branched out. He's fast for a Maia if he's already fucking with Men this comprehensively though.

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"Only very occasionally. Keeps them motivated. I expect we have the common ground that we are interested in ways for you to walk away from here alive, tonight, if nothing else, and I've found that is often quite enough to start laying the foundations of a deeper friendship."

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"You've correctly divined one of my interests, not that I give you much credit for the guess. Why might it be among yours?"

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"You have free will.

You have free will and don't seem interested in having this history play out according to Eru's terms. I thought I was going to have to wait for those -" he gestures broadly at the direction she came from - "to have any chance of knocking history off its intended rails but you have free will and seem as interested in that cause as I am."
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"Eru's a neglectful hack of a designer with no personnel management skills and you won't find me defending him, but if all it took to get the right answers was disagreeing with fools it'd be easier to do."

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"We really don't need to want the same things more broadly just to collaborate on the cause of averting the tragiheroic arc of Arda's history."

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"See, you say that, but I can't help but think you have an informational advantage which in any sustained collaboration would wind up trending in favor of your preferences. Which seem to involve werewolves savaging people."

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"I do and it will, unless you're smarter than I think you are. The alternative is that I kill you and then things definitely trend in favor of my preferences, if I am also accordingly far more constrained by the strings of fate."

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"And how smart do you think I am?"

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"I think that you think of yourself as too smart to agree to this. I think, but am less sure of it, that you are not smart enough to have already pieced together why the Valar pardoned Melkor and why I am offering you a job and why those questions ought to have the same answer."

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"Many behaviors of the Valar bewilder me," she acknowledges.

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"There are more orcs than Elves and Men combined. There are a thousand times as many orcs as Elves and Men combined. And all of them - even in the Halls of Mandos, to his horror and frustration - are suffering. And this is a consequence of their nature, and Melkor could change it on a whim.

That is what he promised in exchange for his parole, though the Valar did not tell the Elves because they hadn't admitted to the Elves in the first place that suffering could exist even within the Halls.

They don't suffer because it's necessary. They don't suffer because it serves our ends. They suffer because Eru wanted Melkor to be the embodiment of all evil in the world.

And now, Loki, do you see why I think you might accept my offer of a job?"
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"Well, you've picked up an idea of the sort of compensation that might interest me, but if Melkor can't muster so much as a whim to stop being so darned evil all the time I'm not sure why I should expect him to hire me on as, what, Executive Orc De-Sufferer?"

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"Because we want what you have to offer far more than we care about that. Or do you mean that you wouldn't be able to trust us? I am prepared to swear, Loki, and my master is prepared to swear, that for as long as you serve us no orc suffers."

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"I've never actually had it verified by a disinterested party that swearing works the same way for anybody other than Elves and orcs. And you're being very vague about my proposed job description."

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"You're welcome to go verify that; the offer is not temporally limited, and no doubt our paths will cross again. Our goal is to kill the Valar. The job description is mostly to play as much role as possible in our instrumental planning so that where needed it can deviate from script."

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"Oh, so that will work, I had wondered. If you want to kill the Valar why all this fucking around with armies of orcs and packs of werewolves?"

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"Well, until you sign on, we need Men to do anything other than play our designated part. This is more unbearable for us than for the Elves, because we know our fates to a much greater level of detail. We are still in a position of relying on armies to control territory, though hopefully not for much longer. The werewolves are a hobby of mine. They're transformed Men, so might be able to have interesting free will once they're powerful enough to actually change the course of the war."

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"And the territory control matters because of that thing where you dig in and build up magical oomph?"

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"Yes."

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She hopes that being off its turf wasn't the only reason why the Balrog was an easy target. "What's the endgame? Dig in, hope the Valar aren't bracing themselves too hard, vast continent-destroying warfare, suppose you win, then what?"

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"Eru has a lot of pet projects like this one. Shall we split them fifty-fifty? You can have a share of the galaxy as a performance bonus if you end up being instrumental to our victory."

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"Who has been giving you such detailed personality assessments of me? That carrot implies a long string of successes much greater than killing the local Valar, though."

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"I have a high opinion of you and think, were you dedicated to the task, we could achieve it together. And my agent in Nolofinwë's camp was not competent but had good hearing and was there for a long time, which was really all that was required to understand what motivates you."

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"Maybe I should cultivate an aura of mystery next time I'm visiting a strange planet. But my question was more limited in scope. Endgame for this planet? Anybody who survives the continent-destroying warfare? Or is the plan scorched earth, take off into space?"

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"A thriving society of happy and productive orcs, with the most capable ones recruited for our new priorities. None of them in pain, if you join on."

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"And everybody else gets to go extinct, I presume, or are you planning to offer me an evacuation plan?"

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"If you made yourself useful enough I suppose I'd consider it. There are a thousand orcs for every Elf and Man, Loki, speaking only of already extant ones. And time passes faster in Angband; they reach adulthood in three or four years, they have ten children a year. If you side with the Elves and win this war all of them suffer, forever."

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"Oh, I'd thought you'd had better intel than that."

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"You think you can fix all the children? I can't see you doing that for eternity. I suppose you could sterilize them."

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"Regardless, all is a strong word indeed."

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"I apologize. The one already dead are beyond your reach, and if you don't take drastic measures the vast majority of them are and always will be, but if you side with the Elves and win you can spend the rest of the lifespan of this universe trying to protect some of them. Or -

- here, I'll make it easy. I will tell my lord Melkor to fix it right now. You can verify on your way home that all of them are fine, though I suppose you can't verify that dead ones were suffering or now aren't. You can verify that our word is as inviolable as any Elf's, and then I'll swear to the truth of that alongside everything else. How long do you think you'll need to make your decision?"
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"I don't know if your agent would have heard my joke about vacation days, but rumor has it a few years are nothing to you?"

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"Clever. No. Time matters to you and you have probably already decided. Six days."

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"That's not very long to get to the various far-flung people I might want to consult about your claims, catch and interrogate samples of orcs, contemplate going to Valinor and vainly filing a complaint even more than I have already contemplated that..."

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"In six days if you want the offer to remain open you can bring me proof you're considering it, and from then you have two years."

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"How do you prefer to receive proof about my considerations?"

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"You stole something of mine. I'd like it back."

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"I did?" she says blankly.
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"Six days to figure that out, then, too. If you aren't intelligent enough to put it together the offer's withdrawn on those grounds."

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"...Wait, do you mean the prisoners? I don't even know where to find them." Just one of them.

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"Six days."

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"Is the concept of caring about time so alien that you can't actually figure out how people who do it schedule anything, I'm honestly curious."

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"I swear to you, before Melkor, before Eru, before the powers of this earth, that there are thousands of times as many orcs as Elves and Men. That orcs will not suffer for the next six days. That, should you bring me Maitimo Nelyafinwë within that time, orcs will not suffer for the next ten years. That if you accept my job offer, orcs will not suffer for as long as you serve us. I swear this on all of my powers to act within Arda."

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"I'm told intent matters. Define suffer."

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"The orcs exist in constant torment. Your touch heals it. Every orc in the world now feels as they would had you healed them."

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"So you don't mean, for example, that Melkor will lay off the tortuous mindreading, or that they will not be sent to die in droves on Elves' swords, or that they're all going to be upgraded from whatever presumably overcrowded quarters you have them sleeping in..."

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"I don't mean any of those things, but I am willing to consider any and all of them once you bring me proof you are negotiating in good faith."

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"And proof I'm negotiating in good faith means hauling you Maitimo all the way here in six days. I actually can't think of a way to do that even if I were so inclined. It doesn't seem likely to help against the Valar at all, either, which mutual interest is much of the basis for this entire charade." She thinks Maitimo might notice if she turned up and spouted ridiculous lies about why he needed to be here, and she can't bodily kidnap him and fly at the same time, and also, um, no.

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"It's something that costs you. I'm offering you something that benefits you tremendously. If you won't take ten years of no orcs suffering in exchange for one Elf, then your priorities are too incomprehensible to me for future negotiations to be possible.

If you're inclined to offer me something of comparable cost to you, I'm listening."
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"The way you phrased that makes me unsure if you are actually clear on what it would cost me."

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"By all means explain."

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"I'm not sure how your whole 'not having free will' deal works. Day to day, the species that don't have free will seem to work kinda like the ones that do unless somebody, oh, swears an oath. I buy that there's more going on there, and maybe it feels really different from the inside. I could contemplate becoming a collaborator of sorts. You seem reasonably good at targeted bribery, I could imagine finding positive-sum trades to make at least to the extent that you just really have it in for the Valar. But ultimately, there's a fundamental difference between things I do and things that happen. Things do not happen through me. And you didn't hold up two bundles of people and say, 'hey, Loki, which of these should I torture'. You want me to fetch you one. Which, again, I cannot actually - think of a way to do without his cooperation," she amends midsentence.

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"Turn him into a bird, walk out of the Dwarf city and here. It is not a six day walk."

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"No, more like twice that! How fast do you think I walk?"

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"...twelve days, if I verify you're on your way."

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"Verify how?"

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"People who know each other intimately can hear each other's thoughts at a great distance. I will be able to determine where Maitimo is even if he doesn't answer me."

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"Well, that's real fucking creepy," she says. "And the orcs get the extra six days, because this entire scheduling problem is based on you not knowing how legs work."

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"I swear that, if you are on your way with the proof that you're willing to negotiate, the orcs won't start experiencing constant pain in the agreed-upon sense again until you take action indicating breach of our agreement or until ten years have passed."

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"Do you not have to swear on things? That was just showboating before?"

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"You should probably ask that question of someone other than me. Maitimo will know, though I'd ask him before mentioning my conditions."

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"But imagine how silly I'd feel if I find that you do in fact have to swear on things, were in fact showboating, and I didn't even get a straightfaced lie out of you about it."

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"I can lie. I can't swear falsely, even without naming a Power. Ask him."

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"Thank you."

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"Oh, it's been a pleasure. Twelve days." And he drops the rock, turns around, vanishes like he's stepping through a curtain.

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Okay it is now time for her inaudible heart to calm the FUCK down. Any minute now. ...Okay. Shit. Twelve days. That's not nothing.

Maitimo didn't mention he was such a fucking smooth talker.

What is she going to tell Maitimo.

She takes off, notebook pacing her deep underground; and she thinks about that.
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The Men are sleeping, or pacing anxiously in the dark, and of course do not notice her passage.

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It'd be a long walk; there are mountains.

It's not such a long flight.

She stops, in the middle of the desert, when the sun's risen again; bakes in the heat to see if she turns blue, tries to freeze a cactus. She thinks she may have almost done something. She doesn't turn blue and the cactus survives the lack of experience.

She flies the rest of the way. She goes into the caves and rents the same hotel room she had before and flops facefirst into the designed-for-tall-surface-dwelling-types bed and shrouds herself in silence and screams.

And then she osanwës Maitimo and says, I have something extremely awful to say to you, I have no words for how much you will hate it, and if on this basis you would like me to not say it, I will leave.
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Come on over, he says. I am not that fragile.

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So she goes.

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He's changed into something in the Dwarven style, if a little awkwardly sized, and has a book next to his bed. Hello.

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Hello. I don't know where to start. Hi, Maitimo, found some Men. Hi, Maitimo, werewolves are pushovers, I don't know how one's supposed to take down your brother's pet Maia. Hi, Maitimo, remember those career choices you think I made, I hope you think I am getting paid really fucking well because if you don't you're underestimating how they construct the pitches for these things.

She goes to a corner of his room and clonks her head on what looks like empty air overlooking a meadow.
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He watches, amused. Your boss demanding results?

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Thauron is terrorizing the Men and I ran into him and we had a really interesting conversation which you may read and I am not going to kidnap you but oh stars there are so, there are so many orcs - and I don't know how you tick or what your probabilities of various things even are or - but if it was me I'd. There are so many of them. If it were me I'd wouldn't want - whoever was talking to Thauron on my behalf - to tell him to go fuck himself before inviting me to volunteer.

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What do you want me to read?

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I don't really want you to! I want to flee from this room like a coward and probably never speak to you again and hope you never think it's hypothetically strategically relevant to mention to anybody that I even thought of it! She sits on the floor, head still buried in the corner of the room. She pulls the transcript, explodes it into its pages. The kerning's all fucked, I had to write it without looking and haven't fixed it.

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He leans forward and starts reading.

And goes very very still.

If I try to jump right now will you stop me?
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No. I'd advise against it because I'm not in fact going to kidnap you, this is exactly what I said it was, and I think this place is probably nicer than the Halls, but no.

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He's trying to make sure my father doesn't work with you.

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Makes sense. Didn't think of it. Should've.

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Everything so far, if events occurred as you've characterized them to me, made it seem easy. Like the Enemy was incompetent. You weren't prepared for him to be a real adversary. I made a similar mistake at a much higher cost.

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Your father told me he wasn't that smart. Maybe he's not, but Thauron is. If I seem relaxed in the dialogue mind I was speaking entirely out of illusions emanating from a rock he was holding and my capacity for sarcasm is one of the last things to go.

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Would you volunteer?

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If I had little to no strategic value yes. As things stand no, he can't have me in that or any capacity; I'd be trading you for the decade, not for time to actually think. I don't know your actual strategic value and it does not, here, belong to me to compute. I don't know what your city is worth, I don't know how hard it would be to string your father along for a decade saying I hadn't happened to visit you until he gets me my eidetic memory and has no choice but to take every science book I can throw at him, I don't know how much you care about orcs who would presumably continue to spend the duration of their painless time trying to kill everyone you love. I don't know if I should have asked you. But I would have wanted to be asked. So I did.

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I do not regret having more information. If my answer of 'yes' is a consequence of believing all this is a game anyway, and that this is the game's most satisfying resolution for me given that it's certainly going to end with more torture anyway, what does that change?

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If you tell me you wouldn't go if this were reality I won't take you there. I know better. I am sure you can lie to me convincingly if you decide you want to do that, of course.

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If it's reality I don't know enough about you. If you really think you can win this in thirty years then reconciliation with my cousins doesn't feature in any important calculus, that is not going to be decisive, and I don't have skillsets relevant to building either impossible memory artifacts or city-destroying bombs either faster or with greater certainty. If it's reality the question is 'can you lie to my father for long enough' and I don't know you.

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It's a lot of ifs. Ten years for the eidetic memory and that's if singing to reality can grab information lost to my mind but present in another reality not habitually sung to, if his estimate's right, if he lives that long, he was dying when I got here and something could get him more thoroughly next time. From there it's things like - can they find a uranium mine, or whatever it turns out they need which might not be a uranium mine because I don't remember. Would a nuke so much as inconvenience a Vala, they can build cylindrical planets, they can manufacture tardy suns, maybe tanking that kind of energy is easy. I'm not putting all my bets on it. It would work fastest if it works. There are a dozen reasons it could simply not.

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Do your other plans suffer significant costs from my family irretrievably hating you?

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Plan B is learn to teleport, go back to my galaxy, buy destruction off the shelf until something sticks and everybody in the business wants to know what I'm trying to kill, maybe if I'm really desperate go grab the Tesseract in my bare fucking hand again because that would sure as fuck do it if the thing felt cooperative a second time. If their hatred takes the form of making it inconvenient for me to do that, yes, otherwise no it would just make me sad and I can pare down the resulting fits of distress into a rounding error timing-wise.

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...I would very tentatively expect that if they learned somehow that Thauron offered you something in exchange for me, and you made the trade, they'd not only try to make it inconvenient but would consider stopping you a top priority. That's obviously the bet he's making, but he doesn't have perfect information either.

I also don't think I can volunteer but we can probably get around that.
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I'm not going to kidnap you.

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No, I mean, I'm not sure but I expect the Oath prevents us from sacrificing ourselves to the Enemy in fits of tragic heroism. If I think it's detrimental to the war effort and I know it will render me in the future unable to pursue my goals, I actually cannot do it. I'm pretty sure if I tried to go surrender to Thauron because it was the right thing to do I'd find my feet unable to move for reasons unrelated to trauma.

I can make observations about the course I'd pursue if I thought this were real and wasn't bound not to give in to that kind of pressure. And since I don't think this is real, I'm not impeded from agreeing with you. And you could fix this entirely by promising that if I did this you'd return the Silmarils or something. But I don't think if he'd asked me, and I believed it was a real choice, I'd be free to make it.
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...do I have the full story on the deal with the Silmarils? I mean, I don't have any particular use for the Silmarils myself so I'm not going to hang onto them should they fall into my possession, but I'm pretty optimistic that their purpose can be substituted so I have no independent reason to prioritize ferrying them anywhere...

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We're committed to retrieving them. Mostly because my father needs costlier signals of trust when he's under more pressure and the destruction of our home and death of our grandfather was a ton of pressure. But partially because he's less optimistic than you that their purpose can be substituted, and we are desperate to someday live outside the Valar's power. Anyway, it's rarely relevant because I have full freedom of action on anything that helps the war effort. It only matters here because this pretty clearly hurts the war effort by a hard-to-discern amount in exchange for helping orcs.

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Come to think of it I don't know what this will do to my ability to suborn them.

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That would explain why he'd make the offer. If your credibility in dealing with them comes from the healing, they may have decided it's in their interests to lessen the endless pain anyway - especially if as Thauron claimed it serves no strategic purpose.

I'm not confident that is what is going on, but it's possible.

...we should also expect that what he'll do, if we do this, is go to my family and swear he's being truthful and then share the contents of your previous conversation and whichever one you have when you hand me over.
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He'd just show up like that? I was assuming there was probably a reason that the heavy hitters didn't just routinely waltz into key settlements and obliterate them and I was assuming it was enough reason that he didn't have effective free communication lines to your family.

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The reason is that they don't handle massed combat well and have limited mobility in that kind of fight and ten thousand people would die but so would his current physical form, we would make damn sure of that, and I expect he doesn't want to be sidelined for the next few centuries.

Coaxing them into communicating would be easier, especially if I'd just died under mysterious circumstances. In general my family knows enough that they'd stop listening the instant he opened his mouth, but I have some reckless stupid relatives.
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Ugh. I was told nobody had ever killed a Balrog, either. They're both Maiar, I don't know how much Maiar vary, can I just go kill the fucker - still can't get any frost powers working but I've got my usual and songs -

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Maiar vary from 'forest spirit that gives this spring minor healing powers' to, well, Thauron. Or Ossë or Uinen. Melian's up there. You might be able to pick a fight with him and live, but I don't think you'd win it. Also, at a guess, werewolves being ridiculously easy to kill and then obediently leading you to him suggests more that he wanted to spend a few werewolves getting your guard down than that they're actually useless. Challenging him in his home territory does not strike me as wise.

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Would he have known where the Men were going to show up and been waiting for them?

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I have no idea.


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He did have a weird invisibility curtain thing set up but I don't know how long that would take.

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He's very good at illusions. I was only able to tell this wasn't one of his because of your temperament, it's not one he'd play.

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The question isn't is he good at them, it's is he fast at them, enough that I shouldn't assume he's been lying in wait building up power for a few hundred years in the future birthplace of Men, who are by the way very weird to talk to at age three weeks appearance Midgardian young adult.

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He's fast enough and I don't think he's been there for a few hundred years because at least recently he was spending most of his time in Angband.

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Okay. So it's his turf but it's not longstandingly his turf. He didn't indicate if he could or couldn't tell where I was standing; he was willing enough to address the rock I flung and didn't make meaningful eye contact or anything, but I have to assume that could be fake and he might be able to see right through anything I can fling up...

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We could try to lure him off of it.

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With what? I mean, I could not show up to the meeting and he'll probably chase me down elsewhere but if he's not really dug in there I'm not sure it's advantageous to give up the chance to pick my time and know who's on hand as collateral damage.

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Show up to the meeting, let me fly away? I expect he can keep pace with a swift but we're off his territory at that point.

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You don't think he could stop you? Swat you out of the air?

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He could certainly kill me. This is a lot of effort to go to if he wants that.

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He might rather it than you getting away, though, especially if he can stroll into your family's camp and tell elegantly chosen truths about it.

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And we don't want to pick a fight near the Men anyway. What was he doing with them, exactly?

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Werewolves and possibly other things I heard descriptions of but didn't get a look at attack them sometimes, and then a friendly Thauron walks up and suggests building a temple to Melkor and singing a mediocre hymn and these things are effective wards against werewolves et al. I got the song and stuck it in a werewolf's ear, didn't actually drive it away, so they're doing something more sophisticated than what it could have been.

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You'll probably have to ask Macalaurë to look at the particular song, and I don't even know if Men can sing well enough to do magic, but in general hymns to the Valar strengthen that Vala and their home domain.

He'll have told the werewolves to avoid the people who've built temples, probably, and the ones singing.
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It didn't seem magic, although I'm storing it in pieces anyway as a matter of habit.

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Fine mess.

If you take me to Thauron and I've been poisoned in some way we're reasonably sure he can't reverse, does that count as meeting the conditions of the agreement?
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The ostensible spirit of it, not the letter; costs me something, doesn't get him back 'what I stole'. I have no idea how good he is at reversing poisons but my wyvern tail should still be good.

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Spirit not the letter is not what we're going for.

He buries his head in his hands. He is trembling. Do we need to make this decision tonight? I'm - I think I need a break, but if it'll be too late in the morning then we can start moving, turn back if we later change our minds...
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I have twelve days and it would be that to walk but not to fly. I don't know how often he's going to check on your whereabouts or the resolution of his information. I think you can take overnight. He probably knows I sleep every night by default. She stands up. I'm sorry, I'm so sorry.

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I'm not worse off than if you'd done nothing.













You should go.
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She goes, collecting transcript pages into a bundle as she steps from his room.

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He walks over to the precipice and sits there and -

would you dismiss your illusions that I'm outside and there are stars?
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They're gone.

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- and sits there and does not stop shaking.

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She goes to her hotel room. She screams silently a little more. She writes, cipher pacing across the air of the space until she feels like she's breathing it, and it doesn't help as much as it should. She wanted to hug Maitimo and it would be a terrible idea. She wants Sigyn. Sigyn's not here. She wants Thor. Thor might hate her forever but she might take it out on a target that looks less like her little sister who she taught to dance and hold a sword, miraculous prodigy Thor with her hammer that calls her worthy -

Well, now she's crying, but she never took the silence off so she doesn't have to stop for the sake of her neighbors.

She clears the cipher away. She works sleeplessly on teleporting, perception sped to drag out her stalling until she thinks she might be able to get a few winks.

She does.
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He doesn't.

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And she wakes up and has no stomach for room service thank you and is not the first to bring up the topic in the morning.

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I think we should start walking.

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Okay.

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Do you want to keep discussing this?

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'Want'. It's probably a good idea, you think of things I don't. ...The wyvern poison hurts like fuck for about twelve hours and then it kills you absent medical attention, if you're an Asgardian, I don't know what it'd do to you. My spell will work on it fine and I have no idea what Thauron might or might not be able to do about it.

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That's too long. There should be things that'll act much faster, I expect he'll be distracted with you but that, were it his priority, he could fix something like that. Honestly, I could fix something like that, we mostly cannot be poisoned because we can consciously manage our reactions.

'the orcs won't start experiencing constant pain in the agreed-upon sense again until you take action indicating breach of our agreement or until ten years have passed'. I don't like that. It does not leave me confident you get all ten years.
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Possibilities: they're going to change how they manage orcs anyway, because they're worried about your little orc insurrection and believe that stopping the chronic pain will make it harder for you to convert anyone. Counterargument: they can just make all the orcs swear again - checking with osanwë for the proper intent - once adults, and have presumably started doing that now that they know you're doing the orc thing.

The Oath is deceptive in some way we're not thinking of: possibly, but it doesn't need to be, because this genuinely costs them very little. It'd under other circumstances be the perfect element for a trade: it matters tremendously to us and not at all to them, and they can fix it for almost nothing. With leverage that perfect I'm not sure why he'd risk derailing the deal with something clever.

They're going to take true-but-partial information to my family in some manner in order to derail cooperation between you and my father. Counterargument: do they know about the memory project or that he gave a ten-year estimate? If he's being truthful about his sources of information he shouldn't have had any means to learn about it.

He thinks what I'm doing matters and he wants me stopped. Unlikely. An allied front of the free peoples of Middle-earth, which I do think given time I could achieve, isn't going to win this war and may not even buy us all that much time.
And if he has intelligence as good as he's implying, he could have recaptured me sooner.

This is a step in a larger play to convince my family you work for the Enemy - I don't know what the other steps would be, or how we'll see them coming, and beyond withdrawing their cooperation I don't think my family has the means to harm you even if they decided to. They could attempt to kill you the next time you're materialized in their presence?

He doesn't think any of this has any strategic relevance and is mostly doing it to mess with your head. That - requires a model of you that's almost good enough but not quite. You said you don't think sadness will delay you developing teleportation and buying up a galaxy's worth of destructive tech to throw at him. Do you think someone observing you could have predicted that?

He genuinely thinks that if he keeps offering you deals like these, and you keep making them, then eventually it won't feel so outrageous to work for him. That would happen to some people, particularly if it's already broadly believed that they're working for the Enemy. I don't see it happening to you, though if you're deceiving me about some part of your personality because it'll distract from my recovery now would be the time to mention it.

There could be a prophecy we don't know about.

It almost feels unsporting to mention the most obvious candidate, 'this is your graceful end to your very clever game, which you probably got more information from than I would have hoped'. But. For the record, that's what I consider likeliest.
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He could actually want you as an information source. You don't tell me much; I tell you things all the time and he probably hasn't snuck a Balrog into every site I visit. I don't know how thorough the mindreading setup they have is - I don't think you do either or you'd probably either talk to me more or tell me it isn't that good - I'm not sure he could have recaptured you sooner. People know loosely how far I have to go to get to and from where we were meeting but you spent much of the time invisible or in flight and the only one who had more exact information was Findekáno, told by osanwë. If Balrogs can read minds the one I killed threw the fight.

I don't know how easy I am to predict by observation like that. I did go from learning an unfortunate fact about my family background to making sarcastic remarks awfully quickly but that was after the Balrog was dead and I haven't otherwise been operating under particularly extreme stress.

I became less, not more, vaguely hopeful that there was some exchange to be made I'd see as all-around positive over the course of the conversation Thauron and I had and don't think increased exposure will make me friendlier to his plans or more interested in a job. If nothing else I imagine he or Morgoth would eventually want to resort to some or other use of mind-affecting magic I couldn't tolerate; I don't even let Lúthien sing around me.

I have not come up with any clever ways to convince you that I'm real - or more to the point that I'm not already working for the Enemy; I suppose you think I exist in some sense if only as a recurring character - so of course you think so but I do appreciate your willingness to, what should I even call it, play with other scenarios for my benefit.
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Mandos can read you like a book, go through your whole history and string out how you feel about if it he likes. Moringotto can't do that or I am reasonably sure he already would have. He can, obviously, torture and disorient you badly enough that the distinction between public and private thoughts becomes hard to maintain...what have you told me that you wouldn't want the Enemy to know?

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Well, I want the Enemy to exist in a total information vacuum or not exist at all, but in general - where I go and who I talk to, what I'm working on, what your father's working on, how guns work, all kinds of interesting personal buttons he could try to push and might be better at pushing than I expect, limitations of my powers - If he can extract specific information out of minds but only at great cost he could take my sorcery alphabet if he knew about that and got hold of me. I still don't know if it will work for anyone else. I should - try to teach Lúthien a healing spell or something, that would be safe.

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The time distortion makes it hard - I could probably keep those things from him for a few years. Not forever, but for that long. But he could still know them tomorrow.


Loki, can I read the transcripts again?
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Yesterday's or the others? she asks, flipping to the relevant section in her book.

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Thauron's deal.

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She pulls it out.

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Another possibility is that he is just doing this so you'll return, alone and in secret, to a location of his choosing at a time of his choosing where there'll be fifteen Balrogs in addition to him and his werewolves. I was wondering if his conditions were met if I flew over myself, but no, you very much have to deliver me.

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And you think the werewolves were just easy to kill because he wanted them to lead me to him, that he knew I was there. I wasn't being particularly stealthy before, I suppose. She considers. I might be able to do fifteen Balrogs, assuming they're all about like the one I saw and there's nothing in place to return their senses when I've taken them. I'm more maneuverable than them and fifteen's too many to effectively surround with anyway, you lose that advantage at their size versus mine with three or maybe four. I might be able to do fifteen Balrogs and a bunch of squishy werewolves, even if they're usually faster or smarter than they seemed - I doubt he modified how much force it takes to cut through their spines. I almost certainly cannot do fifteen Balrogs, a bunch of werewolves, and Thauron, even with no clear picture of what he would do in the course of fighting me.

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I assume that my family told you that this is essentially how I was captured in the first place? A deal with terms we wouldn't accept but were inclined to play along with, a rendezvous that he selected and at which we were vastly overmatched. You're stronger than us. You are not strong enough.

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No, actually, they didn't mention it. What were you trying to deal for?

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We take a Silmaril, he offers us a free hand to evacuate the continent on the condition that we do that and not come back, he digs in here and Beleriand is probably destroyed whenever he does fight the other Valar, but without any collateral damage.

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Where were you going to go? Are there other continents besides here and Valinor?

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Yeah, one east of here and one south. We were going to accept the Silmaril and the civilian evacuation time. We didn't expect him to keep his end either, but we still showed up to talk, and it turns out that was all he'd wanted.

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He could've attacked me then. You think he wasn't ready?

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I don't know. Maybe he'd legitimately rather offer you a job and will only attack once he's convinced you won't take it. Maybe he wasn't ready. Maybe he thought you'd take the deal and he'd get the added bonus of taking me prisoner again and if you survived the ambush having the leverage to break apart your alliances. D'you'think Elu'd react well to that transcript if it came to his attention?

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I don't tell Elu lots of things. And it might be harder for Thauron to deliver a credible message to Doriath. But no.

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He can talk directly to Melian. Presumably she is smart enough not to listen. Exhausted frustration. The only other thing of note I came up with last night was that he claims orcs suffer even after they die, but didn't swear to that.



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I wasn't imagining they were exactly happy with Mandos, but it's possible they are not in that particular variety of torment. She shakes her head. I should have thought this through more before I even asked you, trying to outmaneuver him here is a terrible idea, he has too much informational advantage and too many ways to play anything we try against us, we should turn around and I can either not go at all, count myself lucky I got the orcs two weeks - or weigh the risk that he'll get some advantage over the Men and go early when he only has four Balrogs ready or something -

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I agree. I'm not sure how you'd have productively thought this through without asking me, though. That seems like it was the right choice.

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Thanks.

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One of the things the Elves were supposed to do, the reason Eru was supposedly annoyed that the Valar took us to Valinor, is help Men get started. Protect them and feed them when their crops fail and teach them what they'll need to know, that sort of thing. Leaving them for Thauron to toy with seems like a recipe for disaster.

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I taught some of them some math, gave them the songs that would make any sense to them. But the Elves who live near them don't like them and scare them out of their forest.

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Thauron's probably been playing them, too, whether they know it or not.

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Maybe I should go talk to them again and warn them about that. They were aggressively unhelpful but unlike the last two hostile-to-outsiders forests I ventured into did not actually try to kill me, so that's something.

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Or ask Elu about it, he probably knows their leadership. Most of the populations scattered east of here are his host. You could probably tell they weren't the Noldor.

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I didn't get a look at them, but they called themselves Nandor.

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There were three tribes beside Cuivienen. You haven't met any of the Vanyar, because they are intensely communal, all agreed to accept the invitation to Valinor, and move very slowly even by the standards of our people - it's typical to not do anything until a thousand years of discussion have passed.

My people were, even by Cuivienen, the ones who wouldn't stop inventing words and testing inventions. Not all of us accepted the invitation to come to Valinor but if you met some of the ones who stayed, they wouldn't be warily living in trees. That's the third host, Elu's people.
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If you think I'm a Maia, she says suddenly, do you think I can't swear falsely either, can I just swear I'm not a Maia?
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I do think you can't swear falsely. I'm not positive that you couldn't cause me to experience hearing you swear falsely. It's also possible you're genuinely an Asgardian. I believe you that there are civilizations around other stars, and you have presented me with some evidence that you're not of this world.

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Well, if it would ever amuse you to hear me swear things feel free to let me know. Although if it had been that simple all along I would have kicked myself for taking so long to think of it. Anyway. So I suppose I'll drop you off at the Dwarves, replace your wallpaper if you want it back, go bring Elu dire news of Thauron messing with the brand new Men and see what he says - go from there. Twelve days is a while if I don't have to carry somebody over the mountains.

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A while even if you were doing that. We'd be having quite an interesting conversation for twelve days, you don't have a way to block me.

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Oh dear. And what telepathic assaults would I have been bombarded with on this least pleasant of hikes?

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More or less what I said anyway. I'd have tried to figure out whether this was the right thing to do, and concluded it wasn't, and tried to persuade you of that. If you were being unpersuadable for some reason I suppose I might have tried to move you emotionally, but I'm not entirely sure that would work and also I'm not very effective in a state of paralyzing terror, it was six hours last night before I was able to start thinking clearly at all and that was when you'd said you wouldn't do it.

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I'm sorry.

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For my shortcomings?

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For your distress; for not having been able to present the situation in a less awful way. I suppose I'm not well calibrated enough to know if I should be disappointed that it was six and not two or proud that it was six and not ten.

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I'd really like to spend no time unable to think about anything other than ways I could stop existing entirely. I should have tried fixing that before eating; I could have identified all of the relevant considerations immediately last night and saved you a day of time wasted considering it.

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Shrug. I did some spellwork, I got some sleep, the time wasn't swallowed by a giant spider.

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I also should have warned you about Thauron. I didn't because I assumed you knew him; it's not really fair to engage with you as if you're real while giving you information as if you aren't.

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...yes, that would have been nice. I mean, you did mention he existed but that's close to all of what I knew. I wasn't even sure it was him until a ways into the conversation.

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How did you figure it out?

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I was sure once it was clear that you were 'a thing I stole from him' and that he wasn't personally Morgoth. Before that it was just my best guess on the hypothesis he was someone I'd heard of at all.

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Moringotto doesn't leave Angband, to my knowledge, and you'd know you were in his presence because the immediate presence of a Vala is very obvious - you feel as if the atmospheric pressure changes, like you're moving through water, like you're staring at the Sun.
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All of them do this? Can't even turn it off for stealth? That sounds unpleasant.

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They can turn it down but no, not off. At least, not to my knowledge. The Maiar can be as unassuming as they like. As you know, having met Huan.

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I was so confused the first time Tyelcormo said his dog could take me but I thought it might have seemed threatening to contradict him.

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Laughter. He probably felt obliged to give you fair notice and would have been perfectly happy for you to discard it.

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He did concede later that Huan can't fly. ...Can Thauron fly?

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He can stop having a physical form. I don't think he can fly while humanoid.

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Does it take long for them to switch in and out of having a physical form? The Balrog shapechanged pretty quickly but wasn't able to use this ability to heal itself mid-battle or anything, is that a standard limit?

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That sounds like the opposite of what I'd expect, actually; usually they can be absurdly resilient to changes to their form and heal accordingly, but take a long time to change forms. Perhaps there's a tradeoff between the two and stealth agents focus on the second. It's also possible Thauron didn't have a physical form in the first place when he was talking to you, or had a more dangerous one, and was showing you an illusion and then using magic to hold the rock in place.

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It duplicated the shapes of various people in the camp, down to their clothes, and when I caught it changing visibly it was quite seamless; and then it turned invisible and as soon as I had cover fire set up and bystanders away from it I covered it in disabling illusion and attacked it and then it turned quite promptly into a Balrog. That last change at least was definitely physical and not visual because it broke my illusions and I had to replace them.

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One of Moringotto's interests back in Valinor when he was pretending at friendliness was artifact magic that could make the Maiar more like Elves. It struck everyone as a legitimate concern; it'd be nice if they could walk down the street costlessly.

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Did he seem to get anywhere? Or - would he have been able to hide the results, if he did? I don't suppose you could derive anything from seeing what Thauron looked like.

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I can tell you whether it's a form I've seen him use before. I don't think that gets you much of anything.

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Not really.

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I'm trying to decide what you should tell my family about all of this.
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Let me know if you figure it out because I haven't the slightest idea and you'd know better anyway.

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Lying to my father would be disastrous if he finds out. I take it you've been usually giving them the transcripts, so if you say 'Thauron offered me a job, I declined, I'm worried about the Men' they might ask for those. I don't think, reading the transcripts, they'll fear he's suborned you. I do think they'd probably demand - or go out to find - proof that you didn't do it and that I'm alive.

Nolofinwë's people you can probably just share the strategically relevant bits. If you did share the whole thing I expect their reaction would be 'well, Thauron's probably lying to you and Maitimo's also probably lying to you'. Except Findekáno, who I'm actually having a bit of trouble predicting. I am not at all sure he'd be okay.
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What kind of proof would they want that I didn't turn you in?

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I don't know. I can't talk to them. They know why I can't talk to them. You must by now have a better appreciation of why I can't talk to them, given that you know I think the Enemy can observe and use all of this.

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Abundantly clear, yes. I suppose Tyelcormo could fly out and ask some Dwarves if you're all right, or something.

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You can do illusions. If you were really committed to this lie you could - and I'm sure Thauron'd help you - have someone looking like me sitting in a Dwarven hotel room.

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And I suppose they could say they don't believe me about the limits on my illusions. I have to actively monitor something that's going to look like a person or even an animal, if I'm not paying direct attention all it can do is loops of preplanned behavior. You might have noticed the clouds on your ceiling repeating, they had long enough to do that. And they're not tactile and I can't do heat or ultraviolet. I don't know what it'd look like with Thauron helping, I suppose.

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I'm sure they'd check, and, having checked, be more inclined to trust you, but they wouldn't be sure and I'm not sure that they ought to be. You were after all discussing whether you thought you could lie to my father for the necessary decade, when we thought this might be worth it.

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She vents a sigh. But it wasn't, I'd hope the reasoning on that was clear - ugh. Doesn't it count for anything that even if I'd given you over it would have been with you cooperating and not by force?

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If I'd thought that you were probably going to take me either way, I'd have agreed to cooperate and then tried to talk you out of it, on the assumption that you'd be likelier to listen to a cooperative ally than a desperate prisoner. It did cross my mind to do exactly that.

It will be obvious to them that it wasn't worth it, but that's because they care more about me than about all of the orcs in the world combined, and they know you disagree with them there.
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More and longer sigh. All right, how invasive is Macalaurë's lie-detection song, will I notice everything I need to know about whether I can put up with it if I play it at myself alone in my hotel room, and will that suffice.

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...maybe. What would be your criteria for being able to put up with it? It makes lies apparent, it doesn't make it impossible to say them.

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I do not mind if all it does is reveal whether I am lying or not. Since I'm not planning to lie, in this case I don't even mind if it would produce the truth if I did. I mind if it extracts any other information from my head, or puts anything there.

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...you would have volunteered? In my place?


And I don't think it does any of those things.
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There are so many of them, she says. But your points about the strategic upshot are well taken. I would have volunteered if all I were volunteering were - me, in a vacuum, not likely to accomplish anything more important by my presence or destroy anything more important by my absence. I imagine you won't find the song any more reassuring than having me swear things but I'll let you ask me questions while it plays if you like.

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I'm not even persuaded that doing that kind of thing with songs should work, and you could fake all the effects. I'll ask you questions if that's helpful to you. I do want to eventually hear all of Macalaurë's compositions, I don't know if the Enemy could fake them.

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I can spread them out for you, I store them compressed for the effects but I can slow them down again. I'm willing to take your word for it on how the song works so it's only worth it if being initially twitchy when your family questions me will be a problem.

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I don't think they'd read too much into it, knowing that you care a lot about mind control.

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All right. Is it just Macalaurë's songs you want to hear or would Findaráto's help too?

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Both would be of interest. I'm mostly using them to develop a bound on how much time has passed, so two people aren't better than one for that purpose, but more information doesn't hurt.

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I don't know how old any of the songs are, for my non-you purposes it doesn't matter if they were all invented in Valinor.

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Yes, it's too soon for them to be informative to me. I know about how much Macalaurë can compose in ten years, though, and how to recognize something he wrote and performed, and when I've heard that much music of his that's new to me I'll know it's been ten years. This is useful since it sounds like the engineers have turned their energies toward projects I'm not qualified to evaluate.

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All right. Although it might be awkward to play you his stone-assembling one in a Dwarf hotel.

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He's going to help me build my city once he has a stone-assembling song.

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Yeah, I guess that one you can just hear then.

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Do you think if he'd made a better offer you'd have taken it?

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If he'd made me an offer that implied that my background knowledge about him was misleading I would have thought about it a lot harder, but he'd have had a lot of evidence to surmount.
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I wish you'd didn't have the power to hand me back to him, even though you have just not done it despite extremely good reason. There's security in feeling like I could at least fight.

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...well, I'd say 'sorry' but I don't actually think I'm sorry that I am more powerful than most things I meet here, I think it's preferable to the other way around, and most forms of power generalize pretty well.

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I know.

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Your company is not, now that the company of other people is an option, good for my mental health. Is it strategically important?

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No. I was planning to visit you less anyway once I had you set up somewhere. You can decide how much less or hire a Dwarf intermediary for whenever I drop by with songs and news or whatever. Would you rather go back the rest of the way alone?

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I would. Thank you for your assistance.

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Thank you for the - consult.

And she turns into a bird and tucks her notebook underground and becomes invisible and flies to Doriath.
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The weather's nice. Approached from this side, Doriath stands out more against the plains.

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Which she'd notice if she were paying attention to the scenery beyond the line she drew between herself and her headache-inducing destination.

She lands, she leaves her wyvern-tail dagger under a rock, she steps in. Lúthien, I'm visiting from the opposite direction I usually fly in from and there's none of my flowers, can I get directions?
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And someone finds her a minute later and accompanies her in.

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She thanks them politely.

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Lúthien is at the gate of Menegroth, surrounded by small children, and she waves and darts away between them. "Hello.


Are you okay?"
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"...I have had an unpleasant couple of days and I'm not sure what to do."

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"I'm sorry. Hug? Want to come in and talk about it?"

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Nod. Hug.

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Lúthien does not let go of her for a long time, then takes her hand and starts walking. "Let's go somewhere quiet and get some food."

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"Sounds good."

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They go back to Lúthien's rooms; one of them has some very soft couches, and someone brings bowls of fruit and nuts.

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I went up to check out the Men, Loki says, a few fruits into the refreshments.

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Oh! What are they like! All we have is the things the Maiar remember from the fate of the world.

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They're three-week-old adults without any prior culture. They came with language skills and enough other procedural knowledge to move around and feed themselves, but they're still pretty weird to talk to. Other than that I think my guess that they're Midgardians without the soul animals was very close indeed. I taught some of them to count. I gave some of them magic rocks; I discovered that there's more to magic songs and that they work all right in illusion form, so now some groups of Men will be warm at night and have healing if something happens to them.

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That's good of you. ...wait, can you send them mine? For crops growing and being happy and energized, I can't do healing yet.

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I have a crop one, and they didn't have any actual cultivation I could apply it to, and in order to have an illusion of the other I'd have to listen to it. I'll give you a copy of the healing one attached to something if you like, though. And it occurred to me that I should probably find out if I can transfer my sorcery information and the safest way to do that is probably to try to teach you a healing spell.

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She beams. I'd like that.

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Well, it'll take a long time to go through the entire spell, but let's see if you can even get anything out of a 'letter'... And Loki attempts to compose in transferable osanwë form the irreducible Tesseract-granted concept of the "first" symbol, the one she assigned to the number one back when she was developing a way to write in her new schema.

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She gets the symbol, but it is not magically imprinted on her mind as the Tesseract did it.

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Okay. Well, that does tell me something, anyway, I knew other sorcerers didn't have indelible memories for their spells but I was never sure if it was because they weren't working from the ground up or because that's a separate ability the Tesseract gave me. You might still be able to use some of my magic but it would be very hard and depend heavily on your unassisted memory for quality and function.

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Okay. I'd be happy to try it sometime, but if it'll be hard and take a very long time then we needn't start this minute. I'm also working on learning to heal by dancing.


You sure you're doing okay? When you saw me you looked so exhausted and so lost -
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So, when I was by the Men, I saw some of them building stone buildings, and I thought, oh, how clever, three weeks and they've already figured out stone construction, go, Men!, and I went and asked them what it was for and they said someone had come by and suggested building a temple to Melkor.

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Oh no.

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Yep. The temple, and a hymn that they willingly demonstrated for me, are both supposed to protect them from "demons". Their concept of demons is a little confused - they think there are demons in a forest full of Nandor nearby, who don't like Men and try to scare them away but disclaim involvement in the reported eviscerations; and they also classify werewolves, which I saw, and some other creatures, which I did not see, as demons.

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Is the hymn magic? Are the temples?

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The hymn did not seem to be directly magic - it had no visible effect, anyway, and when the werewolves started swarming all over the Men's settlements I stuck a copy of the song in one's ear and it didn't turn away. It seems likeliest that the fellow managing the werewolves is just telling them to turn away from temples and hymn-singing Men.

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The fellow managing the werewolves?

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Some werewolves savaged some Men, I killed them and healed the Men, and then a bunch of the werewolves all ran off home past some sort of invisibility curtain. I threw a rock at it. It stopped at the curtain and a fellow walked out with it in his hand and we had a... conversation. It was Thauron.

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Oh.

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Yeah. He wants to hire me.

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You poor thing. Do you want another hug?

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Yes please.

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So she hops over to sit closer to her and gives her a hug that would probably be too forceful for an Elf. I'm glad you're safe.

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Hug. I kept him talking for a while. He wanted to bribe me. Offer came with a free sample. It's the orcs. He offered to stop them hurting all the time. I talked the free sample from six days up to twelve but I'd have to give him stuff to get further increments and I'm not going to. But leaving the Men there being ignored by their Nandor neighbors and courted by Thauron seems like a bad idea, which is why I came here; they'd be your father's people too, wouldn't they?

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Yes and no. They mostly don't believe in kings. They're his kin, certainly. They can't adopt responsibility for a bunch of Men, and they're defenseless too if Thauron's around. Oh no.

Have you considered taking anyone with you who'd be helpful and just trying to kill him?
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Well, I killed a Balrog but Thauron seems likely to be out of my league and I'm not sure who else would be helpful and would come.

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Mom. But I don't think she would - feel she had the right to take that risk.

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I'm not sure I have the right to take that risk without some kind of ace in the hole.

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We could invite the Men to come to Beleriand, tell them there's no werewolves here. I don't know We aren't much like Men, I don't think we'd be very good at guiding them. They're not meant to live in trees, for one thing, and they don't sing themselves the things they need and couldn't rely on us...

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And I'd have to go tell them that and Thauron expects me back to continue employment negotiations in eleven days and may be laying an ambush if my first words aren't "so when do I start".

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You said he wanted something. Something we could fake?

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One of the people I rescued from Angband. Not fakeable.

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Leaving Men alone for the Enemy to toy with isn't acceptable. Going and warning them might get you killed, going and fighting will probably get you killed. Asking the newcomer Elves to go and fight?

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It's a long trip if you're not a bird, and I'm not sure how much support they can provide against a Maia. The suppressive fire some of the newcomers' archers provided when I fought the Balrog barely annoyed it.

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Ugh.


This would be a really useful time for the Valar to step in.
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Yep.

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We'll ask. I wouldn't count on it.



This is horrible and I don't have any idea what to do.
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Yep.

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I wish I knew how to fight things.

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I probably cannot train you to be good at it in eleven days minus travel time.

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How long would it take?

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Depends on your aptitude. Thor's a prodigy, I'm good, plenty of people can work for years and not be much better where they started percentile-wise.

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Maybe I can ask the Enemy if he'll teach me, if I"m interested in a job.

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That sounds like a terrible idea. Why would you do that.

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Because then my mother'd fight him, and if she thought the army of Doriath would be useful at all in the fight they would too.

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...Well, I can't say it's not ingenious but it still sounds like a terrible idea. If you go sufficiently stir-crazy to do something like that and you mysteriously turn up in one of the newcomers' camps rather than the Enemy's I'm going to be teaching them, though.

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I'm not going to do it. It's grating to be responsible when I have no responsibilities, but I will be responsible. I just - if I were as good as fighting as you are, I could hear about horrible things and think 'what can I do' rather than 'well I hope someone does something about that'.

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If you have any songs besides the crop one and the happy-and-energized one I could potentially use those, if not necessarily for combat applications.

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They're all things you'd object to. Making people feel safe, making people more charitably inclined towards each other. Making food taste better.

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I don't really object to making food taste better, actually, but I'm not sure there's that much demand for it. Maybe Brithombar would gain a new appreciation for lobsters?

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Well, I very much wish I could have instead spent my childhood working on a 'kill someone' song, but it didn't occur to me.

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My spells aren't direct damage types either. I wanted things I could use in the conditions I was in, like you. I've got a song that sets things on fire but somehow I don't think defeating Thauron will involve something as straightforward as setting him on fire. Or shooting frost beams at him, if I ever figure that out, I discovered recently I'm not the species I thought I was but I can't seem to make use of the information productively.

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My stuff all definitely affects Maiar, I wanted things I could show Mom. I could easily have something that, for example, is very distracting to Maiar specifically, calls on their attention in fifty different directions while no one else even notices it's doing anything. But I don't have it now.

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Alas.

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How are you not the species you thought you were? Isn't that - something one would know?

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Well, normally, yes! However, when I fought the Balrog it seemed to somehow wear through what seems to have been powerful non-sorcery magic causing me to look like an Asgardian when actually I am a frost giant with stunted growth or something! My hypothesis is that Odin kidnapped me from Jötunheim as a baby intending to raise me with Asgardian values, conquer the frost giants once and for all, and install me as a puppet ruler, isn't that lovely?

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Another hug? I would offer something a little bit more helpful, but -

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I won't turn one down but I am actually okay about this one, it won't be relevant to my life except possibly in a nifty ice powers way until I figure out how to go home, find out if my sister will hate me, find out if my father knew about it, etcetera etcetera.

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She nods. I'm sure your sister won't hate you.

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I'm not. We were not brought up to like frost giants.

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We raise our children to have nightmares about orcs. We kill them on sight. We think it's a kindness. If I found out I had a sister who was an orc I'd tear the world apart to make sure she didn't have to hurt me, and then I'd figure out how to fix her. And that's if I'd never met her.

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Thor would never have considered it remotely possible that she could have a sister who was a frost giant. The species aren't related in any way. She might decide that I am adopted, therefore not her sister, therefore just a frost giant, possibly 'a frost giant pretending to be her sister'.

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Well. In that case we can go back to Asgard together and restrain your sister and talk some sense into her if she's being silly.

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...The mental image has some appeal but I am not sure it will work very well for a number of practical reasons, starting with "she's significantly stronger than I am" and proceeding all the way through "it is extremely difficult to cause sense to enter Thor by talking or any other means".

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Oh, and she'd be really annoyed if restrained with magic? And you'd object if I sang some sense into her.

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I'm not sure yet how she's adjusted to the magic revelation. She didn't hate me but wasn't fully informed about the extent of it and hadn't quite decided how to come fully to terms with even what she did know. Certainly she'd consider it an underhanded tactic. And yes, I would, do you even have a sense-putting song?

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The one that makes people more charitably inclined towards each other. I promise not to use magic on your sister without her consent unless she's attacking me or attacking you or something.

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Thank you.

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If the Enemy wants back a prisoner you rescued, that must mean it was really good you rescued them, right?

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He may have wanted him for other reasons, but that does seem likely.

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Good for you. You've done a lot. That's why they're scared of you.

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The ostensible reason Thauron wants to hire me is to place my free will at the helm of some projects. This is probably also what he has in mind for the Men.

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Projects you'd be okay with doing, if your supervisors weren't evil?

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He didn't enumerate many. Did mention the fight they're preparing for against the Valar, though.

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They'll lose.

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If only the Valar would help them with that.

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What're you going to do? What do you want to do?
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I don't know. I came here because I thought it might be a good place to get songs and to ask your father about the Nandor near the Men in case he had input on what they need to hear - I should still do that, although I'd appreciate your help with the phrasing, as ever. After this maybe the newcomers, see if they have anything they'll break out for this that hasn't seemed necessary before.

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Okay. I'll ask Daeron to come here right now for the songs thing, and we can ask my father about the Nandor and my mother about Gorthaur.

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Gorthaur?

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'Thauron' is Quenya. I know a lot of the Maiar by the names the Amanyar use for them, because Mother does, but anyone here will know him as Gorthaur.

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Oh, I see. Anyway, thank you.

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Daeron arrives a few minutes later. "Lúthien! Loki!"

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"Hello, Daeron. Several groups of Men now count using your numerals, if they remember them from the other day."

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He is flattered and delighted, she's too kind, he'd love the whole story.

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He can have it, more or less as Lúthien has it up to the point where she investigated the demons and found that not all of them were un-neighborly Elves.

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"You were giving them songs? How does that work?"

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Loki de-baffles the healing song, puts it together. "I listen to someone playing a magic song, and make an illusion of it as it goes by, and form the illusion into a loop so the moment it ends it begins again. Then I speed it up until it won't work any more if I continue, break the loop into two half-loops, so it doesn't go off all the time, and wrap it up in silence, so I'm not constantly followed by competing music. I can attach the looping song onto an object or put it in a place. I'm given to understand that copying songs is a little fraught; some of the most useful I can use freely or almost so but a few I only received permission to place a limited number of copies or none at all but the one I bring with me."

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"Huh," he says. "That's clever. I wonder if our soldiers would be interested in songs for sustenance, good aim, and good fortune; I should ask the King."

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"If you write them and let me use them I'll happily copy them for you too."

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"Very fair. There's one that, now that this is an option, I acutely regret not having had the chance to finish. Perhaps I'll return to it."

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"What was it?"

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"For escaped prisoners of Angband. They're - a bit of a wreck, you know, and also everyone else is frightened of them, and we have healing but it doesn't do anything about that, and the idea was to make the memories less vivid and stop the panic attacks and help them work around missing memories and so forth, but then the King adopted the policy about none of them in Doriath and so I dropped work on it."

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"Well, I only know where to find one of those but I imagine there are likely more."

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"There are. The Enemy is terrible indeed."

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"I wonder what would happen if I stuck that song in Angband."

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He raises an eyebrow. "You can do that? Hmm. I expect they'd just deafen the prisoners, but it's a clever idea."

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"Well, I probably shouldn't actually do it for the same reason I shouldn't make the whole place silent, but yes, until the Enemy did something about it I certainly could. I'd probably want to put it in a silence baffle, get quite far away, and dismiss the baffle from a distance."

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"Why shouldn't you make the whole place silent?"

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"I tested with Melian; if she doesn't want an illusion of mine in place in Doriath, she can shut it down and it takes concentration to oppose her. The benefit I'd want from the silence would need the illusion effortlessly sustained to achieve, and it would also draw attention I probably can't handle."

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He nods. "Fair enough. Songs - move effortlessly through trees? Clean a poisoned river? Comfort a crying child?"

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"I'm generally uncomfortable with mind-affecting magic and I do have to listen to each song myself at least once to copy it; the one for escaped prisoners is an exception since not applying mind affecting magic to them seems to do them so few favors. There might be demand for the others - I don't know how many composers you have who can make magic songs or how long they take."

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"It's not really considered appropriate to pick a desired effect and write a song about it, you're supposed to compose from the heart and then improve the song for results. It takes around a year, usually, though it doesn't need to.

The song for children was learned before we found Elu and Melian, when we'd be trying to stay quiet to flee from orcs and your other choice was to strangle them. It doesn't have an effect on people over five."
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"The song itself didn't attract orc attention?"

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"It's designed so you can sing it as osanwë."

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"Ooh, I probably can't take advantage of that since I don't actually have osanwë but that's cool."

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"The interactions between the spellwork of our world and that of yours are fascinating. Making songs work through osanwë's significantly harder, though, and we couldn't deploy it over Angband long-term."

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"It seems sheer luck that illusory songs work, it could have gone the other way."

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"Well, it's past time fortune did something to favor us."

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"Agreed."

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"Mother says she'll talk with you now," Lúthien says. "Sorry, that is not the answer I was expecting and I thought you two'd have time to copy useful songs or suggest ideas for them first...she sounds very worried about you, by the way, I ended up promising her you were all right even though I'm not sure if that's even true."

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"I'm fine, just shaken up," Loki says, and she grabs a last handful of nuts and eats them as she heads to the throne room.

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Melian's attention is fully present, perhaps more fully present than Loki has ever seen it; her face is more expressive, her eyes wide with concern, and her eyes shine with a frightening intensity. "Daughter," she greets Loki. "It is good to see you well."

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"Thank you," says Loki, inclining her head politely, although wow does she ever have mixed feelings about random demigods addressing her as "daughter".

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And the room goes suddenly quiet around them. "Lúthien says you encountered the Enemy."

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"Gorthaur, not Morgoth himself, but yes."

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"I should have warned you to be more careful. I feel lucky to be hearing this from you rather than from whoever the Enemy would have cared to make it known to if he'd killed you."

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"He did not choose to attack me at that time."

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"Lúthien said that also. May I ask what he offered you?"

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"A respite to the suffering of orcs. All of them."

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"It ...speaks very highly of you, that that's the bribe he'd reach for. He would not be offering if he didn't expect your agreement to somehow make things much worse."

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"Thank you. After some thought and some consultation I came to the conclusion that he has far too much informational advantage for it to be plausible to outmaneuver him and come out ahead. I let him think I might consider the errand he wanted for proof of good faith and thereby talked him up to a two-week free sample of the bribe, but I am not planning to do anything sufficient to keep up the charade for further increments, distressing though it is."

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"That's the right assessment, and I commend you on reaching it. I imagine it is very distressing indeed."

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Nod.

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"What did he want in order to maintain the charade?"

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"The return of one of the two prisoners I took from Angband."

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"I see. You know already, I assume, that we are capable of deceit and that the Enemy's servants revel in it."

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"He produced some oaths over the course of the conversation, although I am not satisfied that their wording would have been exact enough even if I did wish to treat with him."

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"It sounds like you handled the situation wisely and survived it, each of those alone being more than I'd expect from anyone. Do you have a plan to ensure such a situation doesn't arise again?"

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"Not as such. I believe I've probably attracted a substantial fraction of Enemy attention; I don't know if Lúthien mentioned that earlier there was a servant of the Enemy in one of the newcomers' camps and it was there for some time, impersonating various people, before it was discovered and turned into a Balrog and I killed it. It seems to have had other goals than merely accessing me, but it did deliver Gorthaur intelligence on my disposition. The Enemy's likely to consider it unacceptable for me to be alive and yet unsuborned."

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"I agree. And outside Doriath, it seems he has a great deal of latitude to strike at you."

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"To the extent he knows where to expect me to be, yes."

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"It seems he can also generate situations that are sufficiently interesting you're inclined to be there."

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"I do not regret being available to kill the Balrog and mediate the conflict it was attempting to stir up."

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"Of course not. But if next time he decides to attract your attention by, say, taking a few hundred people hostage? Or injuring-but-not-quite-killing people important to you?"

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"I am aware of the strategic considerations suggesting that one should not respond to such threats, but if he makes them anyway then I have already failed to present a sufficiently impassive front for that strategy to protect anyone."

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"My proposal was that we make it known that we've decided to keep you in Doriath. My husband is notoriously stubborn and wouldn't let you out even for such a situation, should it arise; it may therefore be less likely to. Obviously if it does you can then go handle it as you see fit."

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Okay, what's a good way to handle people who think they're entitled to order her around and it would be unthinkable to disobey them?

Act like it's unthinkable to disobey them because it's unthinkable that, whatever words just came out of their mouths, it would be anything you'd have cause to object to.

"I would appreciate very much the option of having this fiction to retreat to should it seem prudent. It seems best combined with some distribution of newcomer inventions called palantiri which enable the transmission of messages; my planned next stop was with the people who possess them."
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"Those seem like something else that would be best kept among those who can protect them."

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"Yes, distribution was always intended to be limited."

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"If this distribution allows you to maintain contact with your friends and concerns while not traveling predictably to places where the Enemy can find you, we are eager to enable it."

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"This does leave open the problem of what to do about the Men that Thauron is manipulating and terrorizing."

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"Yes. Perhaps that's why Men are destined to be such a bloodthirsty, violent, dangerous species. What do you think should be done?"

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"I've been coming up blank on ways to safely drive him from the area or even evacuate it of Men, but the situation will not improve if he is given longer than a few weeks to more thoroughly claim the area. The Men are only three weeks old, remind me very much of a perfectly functional cluster of civilizations I visited once, and deserve better than to be written off in their collective infancy; they do, I am told, have free will, and I thought this would make any rumored destiny of theirs suspect in the extreme."

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"I agree that it's a terrible situation. Perhaps the newcomers should make themselves useful and send an army."

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"Arrows barely annoyed a Balrog. Will they even annoy Gorthaur? I am persistently confused about the logistics of opposing powerful magical beings with swords, but perhaps it is more doable than I have been able to imagine."

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"They can force us to expend energy that I imagine Gorthaur is expending on more harmful things, and he will eventually grow tired and choose to depart rather than continually so expending his energy."

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"The casualties would be devastating, though, and the more motivatingly large a force the newcomers send the more vulnerable their home ground is to, say, another Balrog or two, of which I assume he has several and with whom I strongly suspect he can communicate with over great distances."

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"Then I cannot think what can be done about Men."

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"Perhaps the Valar would be motivated to hear that the Men are being so poorly treated and so badly misdirected, this early in their lives?"

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"I will certainly make it known to them, and I hope they will send us aid."

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Yeah, in like four hundred years maybe. "I will discuss the problem with the newcomers when I make my visit there tomorrow; they may have ideas, or be less averse to the idea of sending an army than I imagine."

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She nods. "Very well."

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Okay, good, they're not trying to stop her from leaving yet. "Is there more to say on this topic or would the two of you like to hear the message from last time I was with the newcomers?"

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Melian sits back, frowning. "We'll hear the newcomers," Thingol says.

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And so Loki digs up the diplomatic phrasing that the Fëanorians acceded to and reads it for them, Finwë being the only king of their people, gifts, ornamental flourishes.

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Thingol nods. "We would be delighted to see our borders defended by weapons made by Finwë's children in Valinor; we will eagerly await the first such shipment. That delight is tempered by our knowledge of their violent nature, but perhaps it's suited to the violence of these times. Send our regards."

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Loki nods and writes that down.

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"I wish you would reconsider racing about the continent, though," he says. "I fear that you'll invite retaliation on peoples who aren't prepared for it."

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"I have been planning to decrease my racing about," she says. "It was called for in the first weeks of my time here."

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"We are glad to hear that. You have our leave to go, with the understanding that it may be wiser to remain."

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"Thank you."

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"Is there anything else you'd hear from us today?"

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"I believe that is all, your majesties."

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"Safe travels, child."

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"Thank you."

And she leaves the throne room and does not drop her fixed smile until she is a ways away.
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Lúthien reaches out to her a while later, offering a picnic dinner outside Menegroth's gates.

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Sounds like fun. Loki appears there.

So, in your estimation, if I ever come back after I leave tomorrow, how likely are they to try to keep me prisoner?
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My parents?

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Yes.

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They wouldn't do that. They exile people for serious crimes. They think you should stay here, and they might not give you leave to go if they thought you were going off to do something silly, but if you left anyway they'd hardly stop you.

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So what, practically, does it mean if I do or do not have leave to go?

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When my father gives someone leave to do something, he doesn't mean 'I'll have you shot if you do otherwise.' We're not kinslayers. He means that that's what he asks of you as the King of Beleriand, and his assessment of you would be affected if you did things all the time without leave.

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I'm not kin, Loki points out.

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He doesn't just rule our people, he rules this continent.

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There are orcs on the continent. They are more closely related to you than I am. Even the Men were created as part of the same plan, on the same planet. I have not been assuming that the taboo on kinslaying would apply to me if anyone had a serious problem with me.

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No. It wouldn't.

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So. He's not a kinslayer. But if I find it necessary to do things without his leave...

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He doesn't even usually kill Dwarves, and you're much closer to kin than they are.

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No I am not. I look like it. But I don't even look like this, this is a seeming Odin placed on me; under it I'm blue and I have red eyes and I may or may not have ice magic that I can't get to work and I'm probably supposed to be twice this tall but that didn't come off even in the presence of a Balrog. My species is from a place more like the Ice the newcomers crossed than the caves where the Dwarves live, let alone a forest. Even Asgard, which is more like places that would be familiar and comfortable to Quendi, none of the history comes to a point with yours. We did not branch off from any of Eru's creations, and your mother is confident that you would have to traverse more than just space to get to where I grew up, you'd have to go to a completely other reality. The Dwarves do not look much like you and they have different customs and interests but they are more kin than I am. If the factor is kin, and not personhood, not common goals, then I will stop being close enough to kin the moment someone wants me dead and cannot consider me kin at the same time.

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Did Gorthaur say this to you?

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No, my heritage didn't come up with him at all except for his interest in my possession of free will. Since I found out I was blue after I killed his Balrog he probably doesn't even know I'm a kidnapped frost giant.

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I don't mean that bit, I mean did he tell you that you needed to be afraid we'd kill you if you disobeyed my father.

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No, that didn't come up either. I'm not strongly paranoid about this, but I do not think I can rely on a taboo with the word 'kin' in it.

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I don't want you to leave Doriath and not come back.

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I'm not thrilled about the prospect either. It's nice to have somewhere safe to go. It's not safe if I can't leave.

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I'll ask my father for his word that he won't ever hurt you unless you're attacking people.

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You don't need to do that, and it's not an attack I'm worried about so much as strategic protective custody without my cooperation.

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They're terrified you're going to get captured. Or killed. Or a better offer. But I don't think they can take you into custody without your cooperation and I really really don't think they'd be willing to have other people get hurt over it.

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I don't think they can keep me, but if I have to actually escape, I can't very well come back.

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So you can not worry about it and keeping coming back until it gets to that point, at least, and I don't think it will.

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Yes, I suppose.

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Is it possible that they're right? That you're safer here and should stay here, and will make anywhere else you go into a target for the Enemy?

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It's possible. I have considered parking here for extended periods of time for similar reasons. But it would be a terrible pity if someone decided that was not my decision to make and in so doing deprived me of my only refuge; it would not have the desired effect.

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I'll talk to my father.

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Thank you.

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Are you feeling any better? I can't even imagine -

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I'm not satisfied by the lack of solution to the - abandonment of the Men. They are three weeks old. He's setting the tone for their entire civilization, their other neighbors have no interest in presenting an alternative example, these helpless people have been deposited in hostile terrain without anything they'd need to fight off werewolves or see through misinformation, your mother is the only non-evil Power I'm aware of who shows up to work on this continent and she's heavily invested here not there - and they deserve better, and he's not going to get any easier to pry loose.

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And there's nothing at all anyone who isn't a Power can do.

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A Power or me.

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You might die. You might not die. You wouldn't win.

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Yes, that's the problem.

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I'm sorry whatever it is you were hoping for with your magic didn't happen.

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I may yet get it. Might require further proximity to Balrogs. Are Balrogs in limited supply? Can I go pick a fight with those somehow, work off some frustration?

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They're limited in the sense that there were a certain number of Maiar in the beginning, and a smaller number that sided with Melkor, and Maiar can't have children. Mother's an exception and I think she personally pleaded with Eru for it. They're not limited in the sense that the Enemy was gravely weakened when you killed one. I am sure you could tell Gorthaur where you are and pick a fight, though he'd be silly to send one of them.

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Yeah, that is not a preferred way of fighting Balrogs.

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The Enemy generally sends them out with armies, so they can wreak havoc without much risk.

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Last time I encountered an army it was all orcs.

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The Enemy hasn't launched any offensives since before the newcomers arrived. We think it's because everything he has is much weaker in sunlight and he's probably scrambling to adjust them.

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The newcomers did encounter several thousand orcs, but maybe they were on a retreat path and their Balrog escort went on ahead or something.

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When the newcomers arrived the orcs were besieging the whole continent. The newcomers picked the fight, not the other way around. I don't know if there were Balrogs, I suppose you would have to ask them.

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Well, I was there, I didn't see any Balrogs, and the orcs ran when they suddenly couldn't see or hear.

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Oh, we're thinking of different fights - the one I'm thinking of is when the first batch of newcomers arrived, before the rising of the Sun and Moon. I didn't know there was another attack later. Perhaps there was a Balrog, and that's when he slipped in and joined their host?

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...Can't rule it out.

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In any event if Gorthaur's waiting on your job answer, he's probably not going to attack anyone right now.

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Probably, although he might determine that I'm not moving his requested ex-prisoner, whose location he claims to be able to discern, and derive my answer from that.

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And then start hurting orcs again early? She grimaces. Eventually we'll kill him.

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I think I'm solid on two weeks for the orcs.

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Did you tell my mother the exact wording? She's good at noticing loopholes and lies and tricks.

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Didn't come up. Do you want to hear it?

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Yes.

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So Loki pulls it out and reads it to her.

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"I swear to you, before Melkor, before Eru, before the powers of this earth, that there are thousands of times as many orcs as Elves and Men. That orcs will not suffer for the next six days. That, should you bring me Maitimo Nelyafinwë within that time, orcs will not suffer for the next ten years. That if you accept my job offer, orcs will not suffer for as long as you serve us. I swear this on all of my powers to act within Arda."

"I swear that, if you are on your way with the proof that you're willing to negotiate, the orcs won't start experiencing constant pain in the agreed-upon sense again until you take action indicating breach of our agreement or until ten years have passed."

Wow, he's - that's playing very very seriously. Yikes. Um, doesn't sound to me like they get two weeks no matter what.
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Six days, then.

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It's probably risky for you to play along for any longer.

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Yep.

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If you had allies to take Gorthaur, and you could get them to the right place in time - there's a desert between the mountains and the Men, right?

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Yes. I stopped there for a while to see if being uncomfortably warm in general makes me go frosty; didn't help. Why?

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If it looks like you're complying until you get there, and then suddenly you stay there and stop moving, I bet he either stops by or sends someone. And there's a fight that can't kill any bystanders and isn't on his turf. It probably still isn't worth it.

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I'd have to bring the person he wants, too.

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I wish I could leave Doriath. That I'm really good at.

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...you're really good at what, impersonating an ex-prisoner of Angband?

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No, talking with them. Daeron was working on a spell and it wasn't complete and the ones I have weren't innately suited but I spent a lot of time with them and could help them feel a lot more - in possession of their own heads.

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Ah. Well, he seems to be settling in all right at Tumunzahar, at least as well as can be expected.

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But you don't think he'd agree to walk out to the desert to set a trap for Gorthaur, even if you otherwise had the firepower to do it?

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If I had the firepower, maybe.

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I'll ask Mother again but I think her answer will be that if Beleriand lost you both in one day the war would be over and lost.

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Then it was lost before I came, wasn't it? I'd be on Midgard, pretending that my soul was a bobcat, and he'd be dangling from a cliff, and the war would be lost?

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Yes. I told you that I was considering dying so I could plead with Mandos personally, it really was that hopeless.

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Then letting him have the Men seems even stupider. It's hardly guaranteed that even if I hide in Doriath the Enemy won't decide I'm enough of a priority to make some intensely costly assault on the place!

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Men live very short lives and aren't very smart and can't do magic. It's a horrible cost to let him have them, but I don't know that it's a strategic error.

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They have free will. He could have been lying about what he wanted from me, but it is not an insane thing to want. And they are three weeks old and have no culture to build from! No one seems smart in that situation! They don't seem inherently less cunning than Midgardians, based on which prior experience I expect them to be impressive - if differently - within a generation or two. And generations can be fast. Midgardians take nine months to go from conception to birth and can function as adults in sixteen years, give or take.

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Orcs also have children very quickly; as far as foot soldiers he already has more resources than us. The free will thing is more worrying.


I really don't have any idea what to do.
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The orcs aren't being allowed to build a culture of their own except for my batch, which is a little different; Thauron seems to be aiming to warp the Men, not suppress them.

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My mother's not going to travel across the continent to start a fight with Gorthaur even if it might actually be worth it. She wouldn't abandon us all, and nearly all her strength is vested in Doriath anyway. If he comes for you here, she will fight him.

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No idea if I should expect him to do that.

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It's not fair that it all falls on her and you. There should be others helping.

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Yes. The newcomers are here to try, but the best chance is that they will invent something; and that takes time.

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Well, the Enemy's plan takes time, too.

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Time and the childhood of a species.

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I'm sorry.

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It's hardly your fault. You're just a convenient audience for my thoughts running in circles.

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If I'd prioritized better I could go help you fight him.

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You prioritized for the life you had. I did the same thing, remember? If I'd prioritized for effective combat instead of for participating in my culture and various contingencies and wanting to fly maybe I'd have the kind of firepower I'm planning on learning to teleport to fetch, stamped into my brain forever.

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Yeah.


Beleriand is lucky to have you, Loki. The Men and the orcs and the Elves and Dwarves alike. It's okay if you can't win this one.
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Thank you.

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She lies down in the grass and stares up at the trees overhead and frowns.

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Loki picks at the rest of the picnic. What?

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Nothing. I can't think of anything. If I did I'd tell you.

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It's all right, I'm coming up pretty blank myself.

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And they sit there until the hundred guards Lúthien is required to have whenever she leaves the palace start milling awkwardly around. I should go in, she says, it's late.

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Yeah.

Loki goes in, does some spellwork while the speedup song loops for her - experiments with song combinations. They're not supposed to work but maybe they can work if the songs can't "hear each other"? She can shape baffles so she can hear one in each ear and the sound doesn't go anywhere else...
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That works! She can get the benefits from two songs simutaneously, that way.

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And of the spells that can be safely tried in a Doriath guest room one of them is the warmth song and why didn't she fucking think of that now she's blue again -

She concentrates. She breathes into her palms.

Her hands are full of frostflowers.

Ha.

The blue fades and the frost melts, when she puts the song away. She'll try the bigger blasts she knows the giants can do when she's not in Doriath. But this is good.
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The night passes uneventfully.

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And in the morning she bids Lúthien goodbye and tromps out and flies to the Fëanorians, fastfastfast with the zooming song.

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The camp is full of people in motion. The waterwheel is turning.

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She walks in and then says, "I have unpleasant and substantial news, who's on deck for that."

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"Is everyone we know alive?" Macalaurë says. Come on in and make the conference room quiet, please.

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"Yes, only people you don't know have died recently that I know of." She comes to the conference room, wraps it up.

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"Please do expand on that."

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"After I've told you what's going on I'm willing to sit through a lie detection song and confirm or deny relevant things if you don't care for the look of things," she says, "so bear that in mind."

And she pulls transcripts. Slightly redacted flight conversation, personal distress excised without comment and preparations for the game of Governor pulled with [irrelevant game discussion omitted for brevity] in its place.

Conversations with Men [some similar conversations omitted for brevity], Nandor - Thauron.

And Maitimo.

And Lúthien and Melian.
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He takes a long time to read through it all.

"I should get my father."
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"I suppose if you want to be really thorough you'll want to sing the lie detection song the long way around and someone else will have to quiz me. Oh, also, I can get two songs to work at once, could probably get it to work on wearable earpieces too."

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"Yes, though that's not the primary reason I'm getting him. I'm glad to hear that, making two songs go well together is a difficult composition problem and not as fun as inventing them. I'm actually going to ask everyone to come here, are you going to feel threatened?"

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"Assuming you plan to ask me questions and find my stated motivations satisfactory-if-confirmed? No."

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"I am planning to hold a council of war and decide what if anything we can do about Thauron. I'd like it if you'd stop asking my not-quite-sane-and-in-intense-psychological-torment brother if he'll sacrifice himself for the greater good but if that's what happened it's not going to be a problem."

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"I'm not planning to bother him again. I'll leave him transcripts attached to paper with a Dwarf messenger, when I'm down that way."

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"You and I talked about this with respect to my father. We're people, even people you like, but we're rounding errors in the games you're playing. At least my father is in a position to resent you for it if he likes, or forgive it if he shares your goals. Maitimo isn't in a position to do either."

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"I would have wanted to be asked," she says softly.

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"Are you glad Thauron made you the offer in the first place?"

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"It was very informative."

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The door opens, and the rest of the family files in. "I didn't explain," Macalaurë says. "You just need to read this."

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Loki works on her spell quietly while they do that. No acceleration.

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"All right," Fëanor says after a moment. "There are some things I would like to confirm before we decide how to handle Thauron and the Men. You're willing to answer questions that are verified for honesty?"

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"Yes, assuming the spell is noninvasive as Maitimo described."

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"It doesn't make you honest," Macalaurë says, "it means I'll notice."

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"Then that's fine."

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He starts singing, very quietly.

"Have you, to your knowledge, had conversations with the Enemy other than this one?" Fëanor says.
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"The Balrog was in the Nolofinwëan's camp for an unknown period of time and could conceivably have spoken to me in disguise and certainly overheard me talking; various orcs all of whom you know about to the extent they count; otherwise no."

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"Were there interactions in this conversation which were not communicated in the transcript? Some examples, not exhaustive: osanwë, use of your illusions to communicate, exchange of written material, exchange of any objects?"

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"I threw a rock at his invisibility curtain. I communicated to him exclusively by projecting audio illusions from that rock while he held it, was invisible the whole time, and used no visual illusions. I gave him nothing written, although I haven't checked for the presence of my physical notebook since then so I suppose it's conceivable he pickpocketed me of it. No osanwë in either direction, no objects other than the rock."

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"Is Maitimo safe?"

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"He was on his way back to, and within your sight of, the gate to Tumunzahar, the last time I personally confirmed his whereabouts, and I have no reason to expect he didn't continue there. The Enemy knew where he'd been staying and I don't have a confident assessment of the place's defensibility and he has an easy method of suicide if he wants it; other than that I don't think he's in present danger."

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"Is there information about Thauron you're withholding from us?"

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"What I know is what's there. I could show you what he looked like when we spoke, if you want; that's the only thing that comes to mind that I know which isn't in the transcript."

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"Is there information about Maitimo you're withholding from us?"

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"I redacted some lines at his own request which in my estimation are genuinely irrelevant to this topic, and have not presented you with the instruction records from our game of Governor or a detailed assessment of his facial expressions and tone, and except for the former I'm willing to provide them if you want them."

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"All right," he says, and Macalaurë stops singing. "It sounds like we need to confront Thauron."

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"...how did you come to this conclusion?"

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"Do you disagree? He seems to regard the Enemy's ability to leverage free will somehow to be important, I'm inclined to believe that it is, and he either works quickly enough we should be alarmed or has been planning it for long enough we should assume it was a major priority."

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"It would be perfectly lovely to go slash him to ribbons, but it is reasonably likely that committed resources won't come back."

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"We came here to fight this war."

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"Fair enough. So - what, spend a few weeks with me intensively training your forces as best I can in between trying to figure out my ice powers and then march over there?"

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"Unless you think you and Huan can do it alone, yes."

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"He does have werewolves. Huan cannot presume he's prophesied invincible in this context."

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"He is definitely going to fight," Tyelcormo says.

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"All right, apart from prophesied invincibility since that doesn't factor in, what does Huan bring to the table and what can be guessed about Thauron's tactics and resources by comparison? - I've got ice powers, but not practice with them yet."

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"Huan says Thauron can work music on a much larger scale than any of us, specifically moving a lot more mass," Tyelcormo says, "he can do large-scale convincing illusions, he can use osanwë the way all of the Valar do which when you think about it is quite weaponizable, he will be very very hard to damage at all, he can probably exert a lot of force in a very large radius at will rather than using weapons, he might have magical weapons.

Huan also says you should probably just fight him, that'll be the fastest way for you two to get a sense of each others' capabilities."
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"Will silencing the area prevent him from using music, assuming I can keep it up against counterpressure? What is the range on 'magical weapons'? And that sounds like a great idea but I don't know how much to pull my punches if we're going to go fight Thauron afterwards - my healing spell works on humanoids and birds."

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"We'll presumably have several days' transit for him to patch himself up as needed."

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"And that's enough?"

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"Yes."

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"And I'm not a werewolf so if I have miscalibrated ice blasts at least he won't die, all right. My other questions?"

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"Silencing the area works against music magic," Macalaurë says, "though I expect he'll oppose the silence since it costs a smaller share of his concentration to do so than it does of yours. If the Enemy has magical weapons they'd have no greater range than ordinary ones, or else be something like the Bow of Oromë that literally always hits its target, in which case we'd probably have noticed already. Magical bows less powerful than that would be able to do things like find an invisible target within normal archery range, or kill whatever they hit, or allow the archer to rematerialize at the place where they hit - naming projects we've personally vetted as possible-but-hard."

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"How long would these projects take, should I assume he may have something specialized against me in particular like the invisible target one...?"

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"Years and no. Though he can probably see through your invisibility because the more powerful Ainur can see souls."

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"Are we sure I have a soul in the conventional local sense."

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"I'm sure Melian can see them and would probably have been less trusting of you if she'd noticed you don't have one. Tyelcormo, does -'

"That's not something Huan does, no."
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"...Is seeing souls seeing, qua seeing, or something else? I can't make illusions of heat or ultraviolet but my invisibility is proof against those senses because the illusion is of nothing-being-present, not of countering all the wavelengths I am giving off."

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The house of Fëanor has a heated debate over this which lasts five minutes, very obviously could have lasted five years, and ends only when Fëanor sets his hand on the table and says "...we don't know and don't have the means to find out."

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"I suppose I could go ask Melian but I'm reluctant to enter Doriath again unless I'm willing for it to be the last time I visit, especially if I go in asking questions that will make it fairly obvious I'm contemplating going and attacking Thauron."

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"If he can see through invisibility, what can you do in a fight with him?"

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"Hit him with ice, apparently, I'll want to test that outdoors in case control has to be learned. Hit him with Lævateinn, that being my primary weapon. Self-heal whenever he hits me. Depending on how fast he is, tactical shapeshifting - I'm not as durable in bird form and wouldn't want to linger in it except if booking a retreat outright but I can go from any position to any overlapping position whenever I switch. Silence his music, or overpower it with a stupidly loud song of my own, both at concentration penalties."

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"Volume isn't how to win a song duel," Macalaurë says, "though the fact that you're using illusions he can probably contest complicates things."

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"How do you win a song duel?"

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"Well, at the point where you're having one, you've both called up a tremendous amount of power and you're more - siphoning from it for intended effects, or trying to wrench it in your direction, than doing something as specific as the little songs I gave you. It's generally done by weaving pieces of music that have controllable effects you know into a larger, improvised, composition that inherently, because composing is hard, can't do more than push on the general flow of power, so you can get specific effects and gradually get more access to the source. Generally a Maia would always win at that, because extra attention, but if one was sufficiently prepared and equipped for it maybe you could get somewhere."

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"I definitely can't improvise musically or learn how to do it effectively in ten days."

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"Can you amplify me if I'm doing it? The reason I wouldn't get into a song duel with Thauron is because he could stab me with one fragment of the attention he's not using on a song; if I were far away with people covering me I could probably play him even."

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"Yes, I can amplify sounds I can hear. Requires active attention in a way that silencing normally doesn't, but I don't know how that washes out if someone's opposing me."

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"He might not bother opposing the silencing if having sound on the field doesn't obviously advantage him." He frowns. "Father, how long for a helm that amplifies my voice - "

"I'm working on Loki's memory," Fëanor says. "It would be a month, but I don't think it's worth it."
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"He might be able to oppose my amplification too," she points out.

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"Yeah. Does he know that you have access to copied, sped-up songs? If not, it might be best just to use them for the personal advantages and not try using your sound illusions at all, lest he contest and cancel all of them."

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"Had the idea after I killed the Balrog, so unless he has a second mole there, one here, one in Tumunzahar, one in Doriath, or was paying any attention to the conversations I had with the Men, no, he has no idea, but that's rather a lot of ifs."

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"It'd be very very convenient not to have this fight on his chosen ground," Fëanor says.

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"Well, I don't think you like what is known to be potential bait."

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"It's more a problem of timing. He's going to know within a day or two that you and Maitimo aren't headed in the appropriate direction, and he could be lying about how he knows that. I like the idea of trying to lure him out to the desert for a fight, and am more comfortable making Maitimo endure a few days of contact with us for the greater good than with handing him over for decades of torture for that same good, but I don't see how we can be there in time."

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"I can teach more people to fly."

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"All right," Fëanor says. "I propose that you, Macalaurë, Tyelcormo, and any number of people you think would be useful to have around to die protecting you and Huan, learn to fly this afternoon, develop a strategy on the way to Tumunzahar, and if you still think this can be done once you've arrived there and spoken with Maitimo, head out with him by tomorrow night. Any later will probably be too late. Keep everyone else invisible the whole time. If he has an agent in this camp, we can have a conversation to the effect that you came by wanting to ask whether Maiar oaths were really binding, complaining of an inability to get straight answers out of Melian."

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"Tyelcormo and anyone capable of throwing birds can do the actual teaching while I spar with Huan, I just need to transform people in the first place. In this tactical situation I don't know how much cover to solicit, especially on the implied expectation of a suicide mission; I will be distracted by dying allies and don't know what compensatory benefit is on offer."

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"The main benefit would be keeping people off Macalaurë," he says, "in case you end up needing him to sing and can't put him on a faraway mountaintop."

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"I can't hear from a faraway mountaintop and that is a necessary condition, alas."

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"I don't know how much you'll be distracted, but typically I would send twenty people assigned to that specific task - not all at once, obviously, but to step in as others fall - so he can work while the fighting is happening. If you think you can keep the battlefield silent then none of that's necessary. Teach them to fly and take them with you and weigh the tradeoffs as you go.

The only other reason to have foot soldiers is to engage the werewolves, who it sounds like they can handle and who we don't really want Huan fighting."
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"The werewolves may have been throwing the fights to lure me, but it was a convincing throw if so. There's a few dozen; if Thauron was being honest that they are made from Men they're very inexperienced. I think Melian could prevent me from silencing a place in her turf, particularly if I were fighting simultaneously, but I don't know how she in Doriath stacks up against Thauron in the desert. I will not be too distracted to move and strike but it might make a difference if I'm concentrating on illusion simultaneously."

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"Anyone we lose we're going to get back someday," he says. "We're going to win this war and find a way to break the dead out of Mandos. I don't know if that will help your concentration."

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"It does a bit, yes."

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"Do you want to attempt this?"

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"On balance, if you're optimistic, yes."

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He nods. "All right. Information security is going to pose a challenge for informed consent for the people we're sending. Canafinwë, Turkafinwë, each of you individually reach out to and ask ten people, leave camp with them on a convincing pretext, meet here -" he sends an osanwë image - "Loki, leave camp after we've confirmed for you that the Ainur can make oaths, wrap around and meet them. Huan goes with Turkafinwë everywhere so no one will find his absence suspect. If you succeed you should continue across the mountains, deal with the werewolves, and help the Men, but I'd appreciate it if someone communicated the outcome and casualties to us as quickly as possible."

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He stands. Looks at his sons, for a moment, expressionless, then walks out.

"I told you a while ago," Tyelcormo says, "I think he's a damn good King."

And they all leave.
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So does Loki.

Fake conversation happens. She flies away, goes to wait at the meeting place.
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They trickle in a short time later. Twenty people. I'm teaching birds to fly, you're sparring with Huan? Tyelcormo says.

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Yep. She holds out her hand for him and half the twenty extras; the other half can toss.

She pauses consideringly on her way to a more open part of the field, aims her hand at a rock, and -

- now the rock is shattered ice pieces. Nice.
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Her audience is appreciative, too. Macalaurë is smiling widely. I have a generalized 'do the thing you're doing, but with more power' song if you'd like that one for ice powers, he says. It's not much use for regular sword-swinging until one's had a lot of practice with it, tends to overbalance you.

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I would like that, although I may not be able to use it in this case if it'll make it hard to swing a weapon around. Although if the problem is overbalancing per se - She takes Lævateinn from her belt. Turns it into a greatsword twice her height, slims it down into a rapier. I might be better able to compensate for that than most people.

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He laughs delightedly. I can sing and throw birds in the air; want to take a copy now, practice with Huan, see if you're able to adjust sufficiently quickly?

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Sounds great.

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So he sings while Tyelcormo flutters above them projecting the motor skills of swifts to their learning audience.

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And she copies, and sticks that one in one ear and the perception spell in the other, and does a little drill to see how her grace and control over the weight and shape of her weapon compensate for the song's oomph.

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It takes some practice, but certainly won't take months of it; after a little while she's moving Lævateinn with a great deal of power and only a little clumsily.

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...She wasn't expecting to ever have to do this, but she tries casting her grace spell on herself again.

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Macalaurë's watching sympathetically. Most people try it once and then ask me not to do it because they can't expect me to be singing it right when they're fighting. I should have proposed it sooner.

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It's not making me nearly as clumsy as I was when I was little, but it's also not responding to the same solution. I can maybe turn it on and off depending on whether I'm going for power versus maneuvering. Or just skip sleep on the trip to practice.

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We can all safely skip sleep from now to the fight, if we're prepared to be very tired afterwards.

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You can, I'm not a Quendi. Keeling over mid-combat because I had the poor sense to blink seems like a worst case scenario.

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Right. Ah, if we're walking from Tumunzahar for realism's sake, we can carry you while you sleep for that part.

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Sounds fun.

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In bird form, unless swifts can't sleep if they aren't flying.

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They don't launch into the air immediately upon hatching, so I assume it's biologically possible. - I forgot to ask for my repaired armor pieces.

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I'll ask someone to go bring them, they're done.

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Thanks. Any other songs I should have? I won't be able to record from midflight osanwë.

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You don't like mind-altering stuff, right? There's ones for euphoria we used at concerts in Valinor...

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I do not like mind-altering stuff. Which is my sole objection to alcohol, incidentally.

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Doesn't have many combat applications anyway.

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Not especially. Anything else?

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All in that vein...visual illusions you already have, less sleep you have...less tiredness? It's not useful except if you're on your feet for hours...

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Which I typically am not. After the fight, perhaps.

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Well, if I'm alive. Maybe if we rest a bit on the way you can record it, just in case.

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Yeah.

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You're Asgardian, aren't you more accustomed to this than we are?

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I've seen few actual engagements against sapient forces, and tended to have heavier-duty backup available and knew more of what to expect about my opponents' and allies' effectiveness.

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You'd better be prepared to get out if you need to.

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Assuming I don't think flying away leaves him an opening worse than what he has, yes. Although I wouldn't relish reporting that in.

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My father knows what he's asking us to risk.

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Nod.

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And he goes back to helping the birds practice.

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She drills a little more, freezes another couple rocks - then turns to Huan.

So do you talk to anyone except Tyelcormo?
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He can, Tyelcormo answers, but finds it super annoying. He'll probably talk to you during the fight if there's a need. Come to think of it, there's a need now, Huan, she doesn't know how you could weaponize osanwë -

And there's a feeling like electricity gathering on her skin and a voice in her head that makes her eyes water and earsplittingly commands all her attention: This is going to be very dangerous.

Yes,
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Euagh. That's really unpleasant. ...Maybe she can freeze her eyes. She tries that, blowing cold air up against her face. It feels weird but she doesn't think she's going to have to heal herself for trying it and they stop producing tears. Is there some learnable defense against that, like with regular osanwë picking up private thoughts?

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You can get accustomed to it, Tyelcormo says. It's really really hard to shut osanwë out.

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Hang on, give me another hit when I say go, I want to try something. Spells are indelible, she might be able to think about them even while she can't think about anything else. Still puts her at a disadvantage but might make it look less like it does.
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This time is louder, more forceful. Pay attention to me.

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She pays attention to him, but she also turns into a bird and back.

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Huh! Tyelcormo says. Cool.

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Limited application; I've got particularly strong memories and ability to mentally handle spell stuff. A lot of illusion-handling doesn't go straight through spell concepts once established - although I might be able to do song amplification like that, and definitely healing, my primary hope is that pulling that off even once will make it look like it might be a waste of his time.

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He may keep doing it even if he thinks it's very likely wasted on you, Huan says. It costs him very little.

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Well, then this is going to be difficult and unpleasant. But at least I can go around with frozen eyeballs and not compromise my vision in the process.

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He shakes himself and gives a sharp bark that seems to communicate agreement.

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I'm told you'll get back up again from whatever I hit you with? Real blade, full-blast ice, et al?

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You cannot seriously injure me.

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Right then. Lævateinn goes long glaive. Whenever you're ready.

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And he leaps at her with astonishing speed, twisting sideways out of the way of the blade.

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She ducks and breathes ice in his face, grows the blade longer into his path.

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He rolls again in midair so he hits it sideways with an astonishing amount of force, howls at the ice so it whirls through the air in all directions.

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The blade switches angles as soon as he strikes it, and she yanks to press the advantage. Her every exhalation is frost, now.

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He rolls off the blade, a gaping wound in his side closing near-instantly, shaking his head furiously to keep it clear of frost, and charges her again.

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She transfers her weapon to her right hand only, aims her other at him, blasts. The ice moves as quickly as she can point.

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He's very very fast, not quite fast enough to avoid it, not quite loud enough to divert it. He does keep moving.

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And she sets a spear against his approach, finds it oddly easy to plant her feet in the frosted grass.

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He jumps The jump isn't just impossible-given-his-momentum it's impossible altogether, leaping instantly twenty feet up in the air and wheeling as he flies back down to bite and claw at her.

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She's a bird, she's above him and zooming down to fall faster than he does and meet him with a blade at the ground.

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A chuff of delight, a last desperate twist in midair so the blade only grazes him, and then the attention-demanding roar in her head as he finds his footing.

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Yeagh. That noise, is it essential - silence -

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The osanwë-communication is still attention-demanding when there's no accompanying sound, but the effect does seem suddenly lessened. She can feel him start pushing back against the silence and throw himself at her sword arm at the same time.

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She manages to reshape Lævateinn in her hand, but the effect is sluggish. The perception song in her ear is outside her silence, but it doesn't compensate. It's not quite a tossup versus not silencing him at all and having that attention to spare, but it's close.

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He dives straight into Lævateinn at that point, in exchange for at last being close enough to bite down on her arm.

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She bleeds cold, and with her other arm, while he's occupied, she blasts it.

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That crushes him, blasts him sideways and backwards, is impossible to avoid. He doesn't let go of her arm.

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Well, her arm hurts in a numb frozen sort of way, but she can fix it when it's no longer doing her the convenience of keeping him in one place. She grows Lævateinn to her off hand, transfers it, swipes sword against dog.

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And he lets go, rolls away, lands on his feet thirty meters away. Take a break?

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She fixes her arm. Sure. That was fun.

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He huffs in agreement.

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She goes back to practicing with the oomph spell. She likes the oomph spell, on balance, it'll just take a little more work. When the birds are ready she swaps which people are currently turned into them.

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And after a few more hours everyone can fly.

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And it is time to go.

Zoom.
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Orders were to think on the way about whether we can do this, and if so, how, Macalaurë says. Any thoughts, now that you have a little more information about the Maiar?

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The osanwë thing is a severe impairment but not completely incapacitating. The ice is useful, it works at greater range than Lævateinn and is harder to deprive me of, I should definitely take point if there are any Balrogs present and see what it does to those. I am not sure if we can hope to actually kill Thauron, though.

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Is that the only objective worth taking this risk for? What else might be productive?

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I have mixed feelings about discrediting him in front of the Men, since he certainly has less gentle methods of subversion available than the 'demons' con, and anyway only a limited number of them could supervise. Depriving him of whatever vague resource Maiar run on while he defends himself may be worthwhile in some hard to quantify way.

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Injuring or exhausting him thoroughly enough would probably force him to retreat to Angband.

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For how long?

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Frustration. With the Silmarils in enemy hands? Not very long.

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How long is not very long?

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A year? Not a decade, certainly not a century.

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Well, that's probably enough time for me to get the Men a more robust culture if I live there a while. Maybe if I'm lucky the Nandor will be impressed and help.

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I don't think we can permanently commit resources that far away from the actual fight. Supply lines would be a problem. A settlement large enough to protect itself against Thauron would be using people we need much closer to Angband.

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Maitimo does want you east, but not all the way among the Men east, and he was going to build a city first.

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If there's a way to make the transition without Father losing years of his time, it might be worth it.

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Haven't been presented with an idea for that one. How are you going to interface with your brother, anyway, he doesn't want to talk to me or you, are you going to send one of the twenty?

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Father has orders for him that I should convey personally. He needn't respond to them or acknowledge them, and after that he can ignore us. Do you think he'll react badly?

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I don't know. He only intermittently makes sense to me.

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That's worrying. How so?

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You've seen the transcripts. He'll seem functional and then - cease abruptly and I can't reliably predict it. He was smiling while we were playing Governor, then he was - still smiling, but -

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I'll be able to reach him probably as soon as we're in eastern Beleriand. Is it better to contact him then, or wait until we're at Tumunzahar?

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I cannot guarantee he will not just leap off his balcony as soon as he hears you. I don't know.

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In that case I suppose we should go in and find him.

If he had all relevant information he'd agree to this, and not just out of suicidal self-loathing and despair. That's not good enough for me, but -
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This is going to look rather awful from the perspective of thinking it's a hallucination. I don't kidnap him to go see Thauron so as to remain in-character, and then shortly afterward here are me and relatives he doesn't want to talk to with a more compelling reason to go see Thauron!

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Yes. I don't see how we can do it without him, though.

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More compelling reason, as I said.

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He committed a while ago to lie down and stop responding if any of us tried to interact with him. If he does that, will you carry him?

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I remain highly averse to kidnapping. Why is it you need to deliver your father's orders directly?

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Information security. If you really think it's going to be a disaster for him, we can do it, but the more people who know something the more of a problem - if Thauron takes anyone alive in the fighting -

Also, everyone here is someone he knows fairly well.
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I'm trying to come up with something involving a letter with dismissible obscuring illusion on it so a Dwarf can deliver it - or me strategically turning off Allspeak or something.

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Worth a try. Can someone be invisibly present to stop him if he tries to kill himself?

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He asked me, the other day, if I'd stop him if he jumped -

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And you wouldn't, which is commendable given the situation. I would, because I can't let my brother die like that.

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Sigh. I can turn someone who can hear the message invisible, ask him via Dwarf if he'll see me, record without understanding a message, replay it without understanding it.

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Thank you.

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Eventually he is going to notice that the strategic situation he's being invited to react to would be pointless as an exercise if false -

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And we're not asking for a strategic reaction. We're asking for his assent to walk a few hundred miles with us. It's fine if he refuses to comment on what we're doing.

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Yes, I'm now instead dwelling on what he's going to think of all this in retrospect upon realizing it happened.

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He's going to regret not being more likable towards you since you're obviously a valuable resource and it'd be good if you liked and trusted him.

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I like him fine. I understand why he's as he is.

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My point is that, once he becomes persuaded that all this is real, his opinion about past events is going to be dominated by wishing he'd used his avenues for influence better, not by being angry that you knew what he went through and were prepared to see it done again a hundred times over. He has the rest of us to care about his wellbeing, he doesn't do it himself.

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Ah.

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There's a lot of, ah, outsourcing essential parts of being a functional person in this family. It works well as long as we can all be there.

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If you say so.

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It's not like otherwise we would individually be functional people.

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Hard to say, if you've never tried it.

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I spent a century in Valimar studying music alone. I learned a lot of music. I - tended to forget that anyone else in the world had internal experiences, or existed at all. Tyelcormo's good for that, but he'll go off hunting with Huan for decades and cease to have any ambitions broader than 'see beautiful places, kill fast-moving things'. Father's ambitions are enough to sustain us all but when he didn't have us he very nearly killed himself.

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I meant 'tried to be a functional individual', not 'tried to do without your support system'. The former wouldn't look like a century studying music alone.

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Why not? I won a lot of contests, I was thought very highly of.

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Which you couldn't appreciate unless that was the exception to your forgetting that people existed.

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It was not. I mean, I did think that winning contests was related to the general quality of my work, and I was pleased to receive indications that I was improving.

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So I think my point stands.

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In what respect is a century spent pursing a highly successful career not 'trying' to be a functional person? What do you think trying would look like?

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You're the one who pointed out an enormous gap in that century and asserts that your family fills in for each other in such respects.

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We do. Because we have attempted doing otherwise, and it doesn't tend to serve us.

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And it sounds to me like you tried 'just not filling in the gaps' and not 'developing mechanisms to compensate for those areas of lesser talent without this crutch'."

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It's not a crutch. Any of us are fine alone, unless in Maitimo's case you ask him to trade his wellbeing against something else and the only mechanism he has for making a choice like that is 'am I emotionally strong enough to do it'.

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Well, I wish I'd known that before I had to default to 'what would I want in his place'.

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Thauron knows my brother pretty well by now and had a good sense of exactly how to torture him without ever getting near him. I understand why you asked. Maybe you actually really are the sort of person who can't be made worse off by being told about options you shouldn't take. Maybe he was also that sort of person, before whatever the last few years have done to him.




I'm scared and unhappy at someone I love suffering, not angry or particularly concerned by what the choices you made reveal about you.
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Thank you.

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By nightfall they're over the spider forest.

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I'll skip a sleep; this would be a terrible place to stop even if we weren't in something of a hurry. Anybody else want?

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We can skip a few nights even without a song. But go ahead.

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So she plays it loud enough for a general audience, then resumes the zoom song.

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And by sunrise they're nearing Tumunzahar.

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Should I bother turning off Allspeak and recording a message before finding out if he'll talk to me?

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What are you going to do if he refuses?

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Turn it over to you. The point of involving me in this process at all is to minimize his distress to the reduced extent I can.

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Then I suppose go ahead and reach out to him first.

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So Loki goes in and finds a Dwarf who will ask Maitimo if he is willing to receive her for some of what's left of her various bidding war proceeds.

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The message comes a few minutes later. "He says 'yes'. Scowled something fierce, but, well, Elves."

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"Elves," Loki agrees blandly. "Thank you."

And she goes to Macalaurë and says, "Wave your hand or something when you're done with the part I'm not supposed to understand and I can loop and baffle it." And turns her Allspeak off.
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"Father says as follows: 'Loki's productivity might be unaffected by whether you're being tortured, but mine isn't, and you don't have leave to turn yourself over to the Enemy no matter what good you think it achieves. I didn't say this sooner because now you're probably even more inclined to mislead us about how well you're doing, but now it seems necessary so now you have it. We're going after Thauron. You're to join the party, since Thauron claims he can track you; you needn't speak to or acknowledge them. Stay out of the fighting but if there are no survivors notify someone who can notify me."

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And when he waves at her Loki loops-and-baffles and turns her translation back on. "Here goes," she sighs, and she heads for his place.

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"Thank you. Ah, you should probably assume there are spies here, and if Maitimo agrees you should take him out in a way that doesn't see suspicious."

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"I can soundproof his apartment and then have a conversation about going for a fly which could plausibly segue after that into kidnapping," she suggests.

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"That sounds good, yes."

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In she proceeds.

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He's sitting in the corner of the room, pressed tightly against the wall. "Yes?"

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"I'm sorry, first of all. Again. Since you threatened to go catatonic if anybody from your family spoke to you I've got a recorded message from Macalaurë which I took down and will play with my Allspeak off." She soundproofs the place, detranslates herself, unbaffles the loop and scoots it back to the beginning.

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He listens impassively. After a moment his fingers flutter to indicate it has stopped playing.

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She dismisses it and resumes Allspeak.

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"Very clever. And, yes, fine."

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"We're supposed to have a conversation that makes it look to any local espionage that I'm convincing you to go out for a recreational flight so that I can switch to kidnapping later once we're out of your room, which I had soundproofed."

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"I see. If they can't hear us, why bother?"

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"...Beg pardon?"

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"If the room is soundproofed, what conversation do we need to fake?"

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"We are going to leave your room and then fake the conversation on the way out."

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"Okay.


Can I have a minute?"
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"Yes."

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"There's no reason to refuse you this, you don't learn anything from it and if it's real it'd be worthwhile. No reason at all except I desperately don't want to do it, and that's cowardly."

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"I'm sorry."

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For a minute he is perfectly still. Then he stands up, easily, gracefully, and pulls the door open. "I haven't tried flying over the mountains, swifts can handle that much altitude?"

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"Sure, I'd take a lot longer to cross the continent if I had to go around," Loki says. She's not a great actress, but the intended audience knows she's faking, even if they don't know what she's faking. "Nothing to eat up there so I don't think the actual birds tend to go but we can."

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"I need to be back by this evening, I was giving another talk on rare metals mining in Valinor."

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"I bet they're looking forward to that. I thought nothing was rare in Valinor?" Walk, walk, walk, aaaaaaaugh.

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"Right. Rare here, mined for in Valinor. Did someone patch your armor?"

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"Yep, your brother gave back the finished pieces the other day. Good as new as far as I can tell."

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"They're good at that. I really want to introduce them to the Dwarves. My insistence that Quendi can be good at metalworking is going to ring a little hollow as long as I can't show them anyone who actually is."

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"I think they would get along splendidly with Dwarves," she agrees. "Dwarves are great."

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"I'm really enjoying it here. Thank you for arranging that."

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"You're welcome."

Oh look the exit.
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Macalaurë said I do not need to acknowledge or interact with them. I do not intend to.

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Okay.

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And they walk out of Tumunzahar, and Maitimo smiles at her and takes her hand.

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She turns him into a bird.

She follows suit but doesn't crowd him.
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He heads for the mountains. Silently.

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She goes back to the rest of the party and resumes her customary form there. She points at Maitimo.

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Great, Macalaurë says. And he doesn't want us talking-to him?

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Does not intend to acknowledge or interact with you.

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You look a little out of sorts, was he angry at the idea?

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Just upset. I really did mean to leave him in Tumunzahar undisturbed, when I brought him here.

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I believe you. If this is an end worth trading peoples' lives for it's one worth trading his peace of mind for.

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I know. That doesn't mean that afterwards there won't be dead people and unpeaceful minds.

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If Thauron can see through your invisibility we have a greater disadvantage than the tactical one; he'll also see everyone approaching.

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Yes. Is there a way around that?

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I've been trying to work out a song for 'uninteresting', it's the opposite of one I already have. A few more days, maybe.

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Might be in time, depending on how his intel works.

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Best case scenario, it's much less precise than he indicated and he's just hoping you'll show. If that's true, we may need to get in touch with him to lure him out. Worst case scenario, he can see everything, in which case if he can also see invisibility we're in trouble and if he can't he'll still find it suspect that you're not carrying a prisoner.

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Swifts all look the same, but that's a hell of a thing to ask for a volunteer for.

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Can you turn anything into a swift, or just people?

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Just people.

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Then I think when we're over the mountains I will ask for a volunteer. It seems plausible that he'd approach you invisibly to check that you're on your way, and he has better eyesight than any of us. I don't suppose we can catch a real swift.

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I haven't even seen any since I've been here.

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Let's go.

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So they go.

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By evening they're over the mountains. Should you walk from here? Practice more with the power spell?

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Sounds like a good idea.

She lands. She hikes. She swings Lævateinn around while the song hisses in her ear. Eventually she has to sleep.
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We'll let you know if anything comes up, Macalaurë says, and decide who you should be carrying.

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I'll need to sleep eventually.

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We can keep an eye out while you do.

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Hike hike hike.

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Maitimo's been completely silent.

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That does not surprise her.

She gets better at using the oomph spell; eventually she switches to spellwork.
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Everyone else does combat practice, too, except Macalaurë who's working on a song to make people uninteresting.

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Loki eventually switches to giving people a few pointers on their combat practice.

And then she sleeps.
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When she wakes up Maitimo says Thauron is within a few hundred miles.

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Can you tell if he's moving?

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No. If he can tell that about me he's using some ability I'm not familiar with.

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Thank you. And then, assuming Maitimo didn't do it, she relays this exchange to the others.

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She's correct that Maitimo hadn't done this. Have a bird, Macalaurë says, and let's be careful.

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She accepts a bird. She hikes. She can do spellwork without needing her hands free.

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The desert is fairly unbearable in the midday sun.

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Well, she doesn't want to go all frosty when Thauron likely doesn't even know she can do that, let alone that she's got the hang of it. And an illusion sunshade wouldn't even work. She heals away the symptoms of sunburn and heat exhaustion every now and then. Tromp. Tromp.

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In the evening Macalaurë announces I think I can make people uninteresting, if you try making them visible quickly. I don't know if it's worth testing.

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It'll only work on people?

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Should work on anything. I suppose I can try making this desert uninteresting but it already is.

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You could try making my spellwork uninteresting, I have a perfectly good excuse to have that out.

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And suddenly her spellwork is - still there, but like a dust speck she's grown accustomed to overlooking.

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Nice. I would like to record it.
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Done. And he sings it for her.

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And presently she adds it to her entourage of songs. Want this on everyone in the party besides me and decoy bird?

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Yes, please.

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She spins off copies, attaches them where they need to be.

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The sun sets.

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This makes it pleasanter to hike; she doesn't stop for the night right away. If she has even a few second's warning that Thauron is coming she can do a sleep-skipper then.

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Huan says something checked on us, Tyelcormo says, A little while ago, from a great distance, and not carefully.

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Any idea what the something was?

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No.

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Should I tell Maitimo?

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Yeah, probably.

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So she does.

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Why are you expecting him to come out here? If we're heading where he asked, and there's a trap there - or even if there isn't - he'll just wait.


You should have orcs so you can check whether he thinks we've violated the agreement.
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Well, I don't have any. It might seem in character for me to just stop and stall partway there, then he might come out.

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All right.

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She bounces this exchange to the others when she remembers they exist.

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And they keep walking.

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And she sleeps. Decoy bird kinda has to be tied up for this part. Sorry, decoy bird.

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Not a problem.

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Zzzzz.

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When she wakes it's because the sun is making the sand unbearably warm.

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Delightful. She gets up, she unties the decoy bird, she proceeds.

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Mid-afternoon Macalaurë announces that he has a better version of the uninteresting song.

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How uninteresting. (She copies it, replaces the extant instances with it.)

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How many more days to Thauron's deadline? Tyelcormo asks.

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This is day six.

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Where are you waiting for him, if you're waiting for him?

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Not sure. I've only been through the desert once. I suppose I could stay here, or I could go a little farther to the edge of where the Men range - the first ones I met hadn't seen any 'demons' in person.

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I'm entirely in favor of getting out of this stupid desert, but not sure we want to have a fight close enough for Men to see. If he wins and they saw anything he didn't want, he'll just kill them, and if we win we can go spread the word afterwards.

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I could cool you off but that tips my hand. I don't suppose the warming song backwards will help.

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Reversing effects isn't that easy. I asked Cáno but he's still obsessively refining unnoticeability, which I guess is a higher priority, the heat isn't going to kill us.

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Yeah. I'm not sure exactly how close the Men get to the desert, they may not have ventured as far as the edge of it...

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Don't think it's worth sending someone ahead to check.

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Yeah, probably not. I don't think the heat's going to kill me, either, although whether it would sans healing spells I don't know.

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Thauron probably doesn't know anything about incarnate limitations and genuinely didn't think of it as a barrier to his demand. Powers. I'm not sure if the Valar realized that crossing the Ice would kill anyone who tried it and therefore didn't count as having an escape route from the country.

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I could live there just fine, turns out, although I'd get hungry. Maybe I could hug the coast and fish.

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What did Nolofinwë's people do?

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The ones who were alive when I got there all lived. Spells work on starvation, if not comfortably.

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Thanks.
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You're welcome.

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And they keep walking. Decoy bird is coping badly with the heat and frequently requires healing.

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She provides. She is tempted to breathe a little chill on him but Thauron may be watching. Creeper.

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On the eleventh day Thauron gave her, they reach the edge of the desert. The grass gets taller and crunchier and, eventually, actually green. Macalaurë has a better unnoticeability song.

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She copies it, she applies it.

And she finds somewhere to park to pretend she's having an attack of conscience. This is not particularly hard. She de-birds everyone except her decoy (so he can be a decoy) and Maitimo (so he can flee as soon as his purpose as bait is served). And then she sits.
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The sun sets. Can we have faster perception as well as uninterestingness? Tyelcormo says.

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Sure. Attaching things while you're invisible and uninteresting is hard; maybe come by and cling to that rock one at a time.

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So they do. They then fan back out. You're going to have to cancel the uninteresting on me if you need me to sing, Macalaurë says.

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Yeah. Say when.

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And they wait.

And, in the middle of the night - Here, Huan says sharply.
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She already ran a sleep skipper in the hopes this would work; if he couldn't be lured she could have caught a nap before going on. She sits upright like she heard a noise, hand on Lævateinn.

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And this time a rock comes flying out of the darkness at her, stops in the air a few feet from her face.

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She winces like she's just finished having her attack of conscience. She flings her decoy bird into the air.

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And something swats it to the ground at her feet. Not with enough force to kill it.

"Mixed feelings, Loki?" he says, sounding vaguely disappointed, his voice coming from nowhere in particular.
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She flings the bird a healing song wrapped in baffle.

"Were you not expecting that?" she asks, getting to her feet.
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"I was expecting you to have intensely mixed feelings. I was expecting that by the time you reached the point of no return you would have settled them. And presumably he's long since exhausted everything he has to say.

Coming to me and then trying to let him run away seems...the least wise, of all of the courses available to you."
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He's using illusion. Her illusions will respond to ambient light - real light - and to each other, but possibly not to his own illusions. Huan, do you know where he is or should I try to tag him, might not work? "I could've probably thought of something less wise to do."

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He is around a hundred feet away, directly in front of you. I am concerned that he was able to knock down the bird from that distance.

"Well, now that decision is made for you; he is not getting away. Where do we stand on the larger ones? What goals do we share?"
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Loki continues to look at the rock presented to her as a target, same way he did.

"I'm more concerned about our methodologies than our goals per se."
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"I do see a methodological difference. We hurt people, and you tell yourself that there's nothing you can do about it. Very different approaches to life."

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"What do you tell yourself about it?" she wonders. Can you broadcast me his location well enough for me to use it to fight or should I try to wrap him up in my illusions?

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A mental map of the area, with Thauron identified and a number of creatures prowling around him.

"That Eru wrote everything I've ever done into the song, because tragedy is beautiful. And he will be horrified by what he created as soon as it escapes the confines he created it for."
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"He didn't make me. I can tell myself no such thing."

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"I don't want to kill you, Loki. I will, and if you make it an interesting fight I will even do it cleanly. But I will be so disappointed. What do you want, and do you really think the best way to get it is brandishing a pointy stick at me?"

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"I like my pointy stick. Only good present my mother ever got me. As for what I want, that seems like a really personal question from someone planning on killing me."

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"You brought me Nelyafinwë. Badly, but you did it, and I can be tolerant of mistakes under circumstances like these. Turn him back, and let's think about arrangements that are less of a waste of your potential."

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"Does it have to be in that order?"

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"Is he going to be distracting? I actually don't think he will.... I'm going to be annoyed and disappointed if he's just spent the last week begging you to kill him. I was expecting him to try something more interesting than that."

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"There's something really perverse about you being disappointed in him."

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"I was thinking we're still more 'people who can agree to mutually beneficial trades' than colleagues, but if you're ready to take the leap you can take him back to Angband with me. Patch him up whenever you'd like and so forth. I don't think he'll thank you."

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"Wouldn't expect it, no."

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"Change him back."

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"What, can't you do it? Is he useless to you bird-shaped? Maybe I should leave him a bird forever and you'll have to write him off if you ever do kill me."

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And the bird is dragged across the grass, abruptly, towards a man who seems to step down out of the sky, a few yards in front of her, to stoop and pick it up.

He's about twenty feet back of that, Huan says.

And then the bird is an Elf, and then the Elf is dead. "Maitimo," Thauron says wonderingly. "I'm disappointed in you. That was cowardly."
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Fuck. (She kills the healing song that was supposed to let the decoy fly, if there was ever another chance -)

"If you're trying to engender virtue in your guests I have very little respect for your competence," she says softly.
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"You've made it apparent that you don't, yes. Loki, there's a galaxy at stake here, and you are choosing a heroic death over the chance to live to influence it."

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"Maybe I don't think you'll get that far."

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"Do you know anything about the distribution of intelligence in populations? Fëanor is the most gifted of the Elves. Orcs have the same average intelligence as Elves, and there are a thousand times as many of them."

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"I'd be eager to subscribe to the many scientific journals I'm sure they're producing under their current conditions, especially since apparently they have such a gifted population statistics teacher," she says, gesturing at Thauron's illusion.

She's not sure that keeping him talking is the best idea at this point but he'll see her coming if she moves first, and if she can draw him closer -
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He - doesn't start singing, exactly, but the sounds around him resolve themselves into music. The feeling is a little bit like standing in a fast-moving river. "This isn't your last chance, Loki, because I'll give you one more before I kill you, but it's your friends' last chance, I don't need them. You are underestimating us. You're going to die here."

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"Have my options clarified into 'join or die', then?"

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And he imitates her own voice, impassioned and unhappy and dangerous, from a few weeks ago, the first conversation with Vár: "I am asking you to think. You know what I want from you and you know I'm strong enough to get it. Can you think of any way for you to get anything you want given that?"

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Shit - Vár, is she -

"I can think of a way to get something I want," Loki says. "I want to say go fuck yourself." Huan -
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Huan sends her a location. The visible Thauron vanishes. The song rushes up around her and makes the sky even darker, the stars invisible.

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She turns invisible, fights the song with silence, looks around like she's trying to find a visual clue to where he is. Steps in a wrong direction with her weapon ready to shoot out in the right one.

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He contests the silence at least as forcefully as Melian contested darkness in Doriath, and then from Huan she gets a fleeting warning that something is moving, very fast, towards her.

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Lævateinn shoots out, forked, thin-puncture-wound extensions ready to explode in barbs if she hits something. She doesn't need all her attention to do this, she practiced, she practiced so much, only good present her mother ever -

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It hits him. The force is staggering. For a second he's visible, still in the form of a handsome Elf, and so are a dozen werewolves around him, and they are faster-moving than last time, and then they're invisible again, though he isn't, and he conjures up a blade to meet hers.

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She skids, but only a little; she tags the wolves and Thauron too with their outlines; and then she makes the ugliest exit wound she can so she's ready to parry and pick off any wolves that come too close.

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Go kill the others, Thauron instructs the wolves instead, peaceably, singing this time to make the ground buck beneath their feet like they're on the deck of a storm-tossed ship, and slashing at her with no particular finesse but such force that he nearly knocks Lævateinn out of her hands.

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She wraps it around her hands, flicking through a healing spell whenever the power of a strike threatens something in a shoulder or the line of her spine; the thing can warp to turn as needed. If he's going to be a lousy fencer she can spare the brain to keep the outlines in place so the others can handle the wolves, so she can - silence - the - song -

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Huan does not seem particularly close to meeting his fated death by werewolves; they have been enhanced since two weeks ago, or weren't trying then, but they're still overmatched here.

Thauron picks up the pace.
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He's not as good as Thor. A little stronger, maybe, but not as good. And she can hold her own against Thor without even taking the blink of an eye she needs to soothe her joints. She'd make a smart remark but she's a little scattered.

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And out of the corner of her vision the werewolves writhe and change and grow to three times the size, and the tide of that fight changes, they're ripping people apart -

Illusion, Huan says forcefully before she can act.
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Thanks.

She focuses on her fencing and fighting Thauron's songs. Doesn't have the attention to spare to try to blind him, but she's got plenty of body memory for killing things and she would like. Him. To. Die.
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Instead he starts jumping around the battlefield, behind her as soon as she shifts her weight into a swing, out of reach, back in reach to leave a superficial cut on her cheek - the song is now trying to slow down her reflexes, make the air thick and viscous and hard to move through -

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Which would matter a lot if she were letting it play but she's not having any of that rrrrrrrrrgh. If he's going to maneuver like that she'll just have a long double-sided polearm suitable for spinning, or thrusting behind her under her arm. Cheek might be nothing might be poison, healing spells work either way, there they go, stab.

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She's landing a lot of hits. It's not obvious if they're doing anything. He steps back, claps his hands, opens a gaping crevasse in the ground, restricts his rematerializing to one side of her.

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Real? she asks Huan.

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Yes.

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Well, fuck, she'll have to not fall into that, then. And stab Thauron. As long as he's fighting her he isn't backing up his werewolves, even if she's not making progress per se.

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Having fun? Thauron says a minute later, and it's louder than Huan, more distracting, not eye-watering because she knows how to counter that - I could have opened that beneath your feet, I can stop letting you see me, your friends are still alive and this is a good moment to notice you're losing - and a barrage of attacks, with more force behind them -

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Oh it's just like home, she manages. She's not turning into a bird but if he does open a ravine under her feet it's an option, just not one she loves considering what he did to decoy bird.

She fights. He wants her attention, does he, he can have it right to the ribcage in serrations. She hasn't even been desperate enough to reveal the frost yet.
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Werewolves streaming from the fight with her allies towards her - Illusion, Huan says.

The crevasse widening - Real.

The sky going black above them - illusion, obviously, not that it much helps -
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She ignores the werewolves, continues not falling into the hole in the ground, makes sure Thauron is covered in enough light that she can see him and anything close enough to matter. Easier to focus on a few things than a flood of light.

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What was the plan, may I ask? Stab me until I get bored?

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I'd tell you all about it but I'm a little busy.

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And he drops the sword, lets it vanish on its way to the ground, waves a hand and projects a crushing wall of force like a giant hand sweeping out of the sky. Reaches out barehanded for the sharp end of Lævateinn, wretches at it while she's off-balance -

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- it breaks her hand, going, and she can fix her hand but she can't call it back.

She pulls her wyvern tail.
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He steps towards her, not within range of the dagger but not far outside it, not even looking interested in it. "Last words? I think this is the occasion to ask for last words."

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She lunges at him with the dagger, expecting him to rip it out of her hand, hoping that's all he thinks she was going to do.

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The dagger flies out of her hand and through the air and flutters to the ground behind them lazily, like a leaf.

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And she claps her palms to either side of him and pours ice, so much ice, she has to heal herself again after a moment because she's probably biologically relying on containing all that ice but it needs to be in him instead - she screams ice into his face, and her hands are each shaking with the blast going through him -

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The song stops and the crevasse claps closed and the sky goes back to normal, and the dagger drops the rest of the distance to the ground like an ordinary dagger, and for a second that's all, and then a violent wrenching force knocks her thirty feet back and Thauron staggers to his feet again and with osanwë screams.

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it is time to get the fuck out of here she suggests, and she runs for Lævateinn and scoops it up and gets into the air to skim over surviving Quendi and bird them all as she passes.

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Huan lunges for Thauron. Everyone else flies.

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She turns birds invisible, counting them as she does. Pauses oomph song, replaces with zoom song. Looks like the only casualty was decoy bird. Poor decoy bird. Huan knows what he's doing? she asks Tyelcormo.

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Yeah. I wanted him to go help you, earlier, but he thought you knew what you were doing. Which you did.

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Well, sort of. I think Thauron and I both underestimated each other and my revised estimate is that if he hadn't done that he would've killed me.

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I don't think he was trying to, Macalaurë says, though maybe he would have been trying if he'd estimated you rightly. He didn't kill the bird until he was sure it wasn't Maitimo - he very well might value capable people enough he'd rather have them alive and as enemies, if his ambitious are as grand as he claims.

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So you think he's going to try to aim me without actually employing me.

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At a guess, yes.

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Great. Maybe I should park in Doriath and do nothing but spellcraft until my eidetic memory's ready.

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Weren't we going to try to do something about the Men?

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I was mostly not serious. If Huan comes back and says Thauron's retreated to Angband it's worth it to go give them more to work with than unhelpful neighbors and their preinstalled language so they aren't so staggeringly vulnerable to suggestion. And I want to check on Vár. But I'm going to have to be a bit paranoid going forward.

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I'm not even sure it's a good idea, Tyelcormo says, but is anyone going to check on Maitimo?

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Sigh. I'll need to turn him back at Tumunzahar anyway. Will you be too inconvenienced if I do that first before turning you all back at your own camp?

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If we have the opening I'd rather go on to the Men before you send us home and turn us back. Whatever you want to accomplish will go twenty times as fast with twenty people.

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The Men are a longer-term project. - Mopping up the werewolves maybe sooner than later. I would love help with it but it's not just a little while as long as we happen to be in the neighborhood, they don't have nearly enough foundation that I can give them the accumulated science lectures and send them on their way, they need way more work than that.

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And we can't commit to the next few years out here, we're needed pretty badly at home.

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Yep. So we can go address werewolves and then I can bring Maitimo back to the Dwarves and then meet you there?

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Sure. Uh, can you? Where is Maitimo?

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I could turn him visible but I'm reluctant to do that middle of enemy territory, hang on -

Maitimo? We're going to go mop up stray werewolves among the Men but then I can escort you back to Tumunzahar.
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Understood.

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If you want to go on ahead I can meet you at the gate but I don't know how long this'll take.

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I will be at the gate when you arrive.

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That seems to be that. She relays this plan to his brothers and wheels Menward, osanwëing the course.

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The Elves are singing. Over osanwë it's not magic, but it's still beautiful and compelling and in this case deeply sad. We don't need to direct it at you, Macalaurë says, if it bothers you.

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I'm fine.

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So they sing the whole rest of the flight. The associated memories are mostly blazing gold and silver and set in Valinor. The ones towards the end, set in sunlight, seem weak and watery by contrast.

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And here are Men. Are there also werewolves? Is the invisibility curtain still there?

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No werewolves are apparent, but it's now morning. The area where the invisibility curtain was looks like a deserted valley.

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And if she throws a rock at it?

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Vanishes, this time, in approximately the place where it stopped moving last time.

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This is probably not a great place to wander in uninvited; Tyelcormo, can Huan confirm from here that Thauron's still occupied?

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They are both still very much occupied.

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All right, then it might be a trap but it's probably just werewolves manning it.

She steps in.
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It's a tower.

Well, the foundations of a tower, three stone stories in progress underground and stone piled for the aboveground work once the foundations are done. The werewolves are in the form of Men, and peaceably working on it; at the sight of her they freeze in terror.
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Werewolves, tower, not even a trap. "Hi," she says. "Your boss is having a real bad day. This'd be a swell time to defect if you were considering it."

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They remain frozen in terror.

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"You," she says, pointing at the nearest, "what's your name?"

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He starts trembling even more violently, looks inclined to shrink into the ground. He doesn't turn into a wolf. "Burilgi."

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"Hi, Burilgi. I'm Loki. Tell me why you're working for Thauron."

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"I don't think I'm supposed to," he says. "You killed - people I know. They're dead. They don't exist forever."

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"The werewolves I killed were attacking people," Loki says. "You're not attacking anyone right now, good for you."

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"Eru made it so we're all going to wither and die and then we're dead forever. Our Master says he can fix it but he needs us."

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"I can fix it too," she says. "And all I need is time. Time which keeps getting eaten up by having to protect people from even more untimely deaths because, oh, werewolves attack them."

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"We don't kill them. We bring them back here so they can help us. It hurts when we bite them but not for long, and it makes them stronger and tougher, they are less likely to get hurt again."

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"Oh, is that how that works. Well, if people wanted to turn into werewolves and that's all it does that sounds fine as long as you don't attack them in the night and have them working for Thauron."

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"Okay," he says.

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"I'm glad we understand each other. What's this tower for?"

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"To live in and store food in, and protect ourselves from trouble."

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"Does Thauron usually live here when he is not busy having a very bad day?"

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"Yes. He's been teaching us how to build things and making us stronger and fixing us if we're not well, or if we get hurt."

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"All admirable activities; unfortunately his long-term large-scale plans are not so. I may have to replace his useful functions. I'm going to consult my friends. Don't go anywhere."

And she steps back out.
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Well? Tyelcormo says.

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Werewolves. They're scared of me. Been building a tower, which does not seem rigged to explode if visited. Being a werewolf is contagious. Thauron's been fairly decent to them.

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...what happens if all Men end up being werewolves?

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Well, then they can all turn into wolves, possibly not at will I'm unclear on that, and apparently they're stronger and tougher, and for all I know it sterilizes them or something.

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Well, that's a mess. What was Eru thinking? Dump a bunch of ignorant, helpless innocents into a war zone, hope the Enemy doesn't leap at the chance to acquire an edge -

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Believe me, this goes on my list of things to complain about if I ever secure an audience. If Thauron's driven back to Angband after this fight I may just take over his functions-as-described-to-me here.

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Sounds fun. We'll send emissaries as soon as you have something such that it makes any sense for you to receive emissaries.

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Neat. Do you think we should wait here for Huan and Thauron to be done - in case Thauron's not weakened enough to have to retreat - or go and I'll just come back later?

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Not positive, Tyelcormo says, but I think they're fighting over how long Thauron's going to have to retreat, not whether.

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That's promising. I hope my initial assault wasn't pointless there, however much briefer I kept on with it.

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We'll have to ask Huan, but I very very much don't think it was pointless. I've never seen a Maia hurt that badly.

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Excellent. Be right back, unless any of you want to meet the werewolves.

And in spite of all her stressing out she did not lose track of her notebook sliding along after her underground; it comes up when she fetches it. She steps back in. Have the werewolves gone anywhere?
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They have not. They've stopped working and gathered in the basement.

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"So here's the deal," she says. "Thauron's in a bad way. He's been manipulating you towards ends which through no particular fault of your own you knew nothing about, so he has to go; but you didn't know any better so I have no quarrel with you unless you go around biting people who don't in full knowledge of the results want to be bitten. I have some errands to take care of but I will be back in a couple of days. I'm at least as good a healer as Thauron, probably better, haven't made a direct comparison, and I can teach you stuff, and while it sounds like he didn't make that much of a nuisance of himself directly to you I can guarantee you wouldn't be thrilled to hear how most people working for his faction are treated. I think this is a step up for you. Do any of you have any questions, comments, or complaints about this change of management?"

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"People don't know what being a werewolf is like," someone complains, "but they also don't know what being a person who shrivels and dies is like. They don't get a choice with full knowledge either way. And being a werewolf is safer."

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"If my guess about how quickly you shrivel is correct, I will be able to fetch you all a solution to that before any of you outright dies of old age," she says. "I'm from a place of incredible marvels well beyond anything Thauron may have shown you, and I'm well on my way to figure out how to get back there and fetch whatever's required and whatever experts can make it work for you. Failing that I will invent a way to do it myself. You should definitely worry more about other sources of death in the near term."

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They nod silently.

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"Anything else before I go notify some of the non-werewolf Men and the people in the forest of this eventuality?"

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Silence. They're still mostly cowering.

"Can you bring back the people you killed?"
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"Not yet."

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"If we're very obedient, and finish the whole tower?"

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"It's not a matter of how obedient you are, or the tower - frankly I am not sure I want a tower - but it takes me awhile to develop new magical powers. But resurrection's on my list. Tell me your dead friends' names. I will remember them."

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So they do.

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She transliterates into Asgardian because the Men don't have writing yet. She takes them all down. "Thank you. I'm sorry. I will be back in a few days. Behave while I'm away."

And she departs.

Would you like to go tell the Nandor what's going on while I talk to the Men? Faster that way.
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Happy to, but we're not gonna speak their language.

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Oh, right, that. I'll do it, then.

She heads for the Nandor first; she'd like to give the Men an up to date report on what the forest demons are going to do.

"Hey," she says to the forest demons. "Thauron, or Gorthaur, whichever, was building up a base of operations very near here, turning the Men into shock troops. Did you know that?"
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They did not know that. They are horrified.

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"Thauron is currently having a very bad day. He is likely to be absentee from here for at least a while. I am planning to move in, educate the Men so they're less vulnerable targets. I could use local help."

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"Keeping Men out of the forest is a fine goal."

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"That is not what I asked for."

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"The Men are very new, we don't meddle in the affairs of Powers, you are very strange. We will consider what to do."

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"I'll be back in a few days to see how your consideration's going," she says. And she steps out.

Where are those Men she visited earlier, how are they doing?
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They're mostly the same; gathering things, wandering. They recognize her, and wave, and demonstrate that they remember many of the numbers.

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Good for them! She is delighted. She will be moving into the area in a few days to teach them more things. Also, they should definitely let her know when she's back if there are any werewolf attacks. She is trying to make those stop.

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Huan catches up with her while she's doing this, and they make dismayed sounds about wolves, and attacks. He looks terrifying. There's - something, not blood, but shreds of something that looks like it should not be shredded - in his claws.

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"This isn't a werewolf and he won't hurt you," Loki says. "He was in a fight with the person who was making the werewolves attack." ... she is tempted to scratch Huan behind the ears but just because he chooses to present himself as a dog does not mean she can suggest such familiarity.

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You did well, he says, and starts licking his paws.

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Thanks. "So now that the fight is over the werewolves may stop, but if they don't I definitely want to know about it," she reiterates to the Men.

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They nod obediently.

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And Loki - presumably with Huan - rejoins the non-forest-demon Elves.

"I have to fly the entire triangle either way, so it doesn't save me any time to go change Maitimo back first or you, but you can probably do more of what you'd be doing anyway while you're birds than he can," she says. "Preferences for which stop I make first?"
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Let's get him back first, Tyelcormo says. Because I don't get the sense he was coping super well. Can I go Elf so I can give Huan a hug?

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She bops him.

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And Huan bounds into his arms and licks his face. He laughs delightedly and hugs him and starts running his hands through fur that is very clearly recently regrown.

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Awwww.

Estimate on how long I have before Thauron's back and pissed off?
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Tyelcormo answers. "Five years. Maybe ten. Won't be at full power for even longer than that."

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"I can work with that. All right, say when."

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He looks exceedingly reluctant, and Huan is clearly not done licking him, but after a minute he holds out his hand. "Go ahead."

Huan whines.

"We'll be home in two days," he says encouragingly, "it's okay."
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Loki rebirds him. She gives them a zoom song.

And she goes to Tumunzahar.
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There's a swift circling at the door.

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She lands. She holds out her hand.

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He lands on it.

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And she re-elfs him.

"Sorry," she murmurs.
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"Why are you apologizing to me?"

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"Dragged you away from here," she shrugs. "I can stop compulsively apologizing to you for things if you want. If we ever meet again and it comes up."

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"If any of this is real, I did other people a great wrong today. You didn't."

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She blinks, confused about what he thinks he could have done, but doesn't quite feel she's entitled to ask.

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"Someone volunteered for me."

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"Ah."

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"This was obviously the right strategic decision, since he may possibly have wanted me specifically, and is also something I would never ever have permitted had I been thinking clearly. But I didn't want you to tie me up. So I didn't say anything."

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"Well, I'm sorry I didn't save him, too."
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"Thauron probably wouldn't have killed me. He wanted me alive."

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"I'm not actually sure that's an improvement, although without a firsthand review of the conditions in the Halls of Mandos I can't be sure."

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"It's much much worse. But you won - I am assuming that you won, that is, because you're here - so no one would have died, had I done the right thing."

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"I bolted. Huan won. I think I gave Huan a reasonable head start."

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"If Huan won, you did something unspeakably impressive. Huan could not in general take Thauron."

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"Do you actually want a blow-by-blow or should I leave you be?"

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"As far as an ordering of things that are bad for my mental health, two days of Thauron talking in my head is sufficiently worse than interacting with you, and I don't think a conversation now is likely to harm me further. In general I do persist in preferring company which doesn't hold my fate in their hands."

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She shivers, a little. "I'll leave you be."

And she turns into a bird and flies away.
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They've had a substantial head start and she's not going to catch up with them when they're both benefiting from zoom songs. She cuts past Doriath.

Lúthien, thought you ought to know that the newcomers gave me backup, we ambushed Thauron, and he's stuck in Angband recovering for at least five years so I'm going to move in with the Men and help them as much as I can in that time.
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Um. Wow. Good. Thank you for not telling me in advance you were doing that, I'd have told you you'd die.

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He underestimated me; I wouldn't want to try it again without way more help; but this was a critical moment and I did not in fact die. I probably won't have a lot of time to visit for a while.

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Okay. I'll miss you. Stay safe.

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I'll miss you too. Thank you.

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Next time you'll have more backup.

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Here's hoping.

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I have a few years. You will.

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What are you thinking, Lúthien?

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That I am going to pick up combat magic and if there's not anyone in Doriath who will help me I will teach it to myself.

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...Well, good luck. And be careful. Thing I could have most used was a counter for the Maiar osanwë scream thing, that was awful.

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I can definitely do that. I mean, I don't know. I haven't tried before. I should be able to.

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Luck.

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You'll need it more.

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If I thought I could decrement my luck supply by offering some to you I would be more conservative.

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She giggles. Gods keep you, Loki.

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Thank you for the sentiment.

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It's been a very long day.

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Yeah. She pushes on till she gets to the Fëanorians; she wants to crash someplace secure with guards. Zoom, song, zoom. Does it work better if she runs two at once?

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It seems like the two are interfering with each other; sometimes she goes twice as fast and sometimes they cancel out.

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Maybe she'll ask Macalaurë about that. She dismisses the extra, makes do with one. Eventually lurches into the camp dead on her feet, not having gotten desperate enough to try two sleep skippers in a row in uncontrolled conditions. Her guest room still open?

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It is. No one bursts into cheers at her arrival, but then no one had been told what she'd set out to do.

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She can brag in the morning.

Zzzzzzz.
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In the morning all the Elves are singing. The same song they were singing earlier, or a variant.

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She can also not brag, since they're occupied. Where are birds to change back?

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They are all waiting outside, on the fence, or in one case on Huan's head.

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Taptaptap Sorry for not stopping to do this last night, I was just shy of exhausted enough to try two sleep-skippers in a row.

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"We figured," Tyelcormo says. He has immediately started cuddling Huan again. "Thank you for everything. Seriously."

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"You're welcome. And thank you, all of you."

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"For watching? The disadvantage to the unnoticeability was that we couldn't do much else unless you wanted us to, but it was hard to watch."

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"For being available," she says.

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"Huan says you were amazing."

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"Thank you, Huan."

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Huan is definitely still not done licking every inch of himself and Tyelcormo, but he does flash her what looks like an approving nod.

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"I tried using two zoom songs at once insulated from each other and I got erratic results, sometimes one worked and sometimes neither did," she tells Macalaurë.

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"Area-effect spells should work less well with two at once than person-affecting ones," he says.

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"Yeah. I might not even bring it up if it hadn't intermittently doubled the effect; makes me wonder if they could be tweaked to stack somehow. Do you want two loops at different speeds to line up various ways and investigate?"

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"I'd be delighted. Oh, and I imagine you'd want to know- we've now had someone in the enhanced-perception room for nearly three weeks with no ill effects yet."

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"Ooh. I'll be less conservative with my dosage." She makes him two off-sync zoom song loops and a box for them. "Copy permissions on the oomph song?"

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"Let's keep that one close to home for now? I'm alarmed by how much information the Enemy already knew."

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"Yeah, me too." Sigh. "I want to go check on Vár et al - he repeated part of my first conversation with her to me, and I don't know when or how he got it. And then I'll go give your cousins a heads up that I'm going to be all the way thataway."

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"Tell them also that we're headed partway thataway, as soon as logistically feasible."

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"Sure. And you'll manage the delivery of objects without me breathing down your necks, I trust."

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"We can just leave them here at Mithrim for them, unless they want things sooner than we're moving."

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"Oh, you're all picking up and migrating. ...Like Maitimo wanted. Before he even builds you a city."

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"He said he wouldn't talk to me, but actually, about eight hours after he said that Thauron was within osanwë-range, he said to me 'tell my father that he owes me a favor and is moving to eastern Beleriand' and I told Father as soon as we came back and he said 'set up everything I'll need there so I don't waste any time, and fine'. So we're working on that."

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"Oh. Well, all right, I'll tell your cousins; when should they expect to move in?"

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"Five years?" At the look on her face he laughs. "They'll go 'that fast?'. I'm sure of it."

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"...Right. I'll tell them five years."

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"I could probably push for fifty, honestly. And I'm tempted because we're making local alliances but those proceed slowly and won't be settled in five. But it's probably better not to be living near each other any longer than needed."

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"Yeah. If Sarpalarë is an ongoing concern there can they have a lie detection?"

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"Yes."

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"Anything else before we probably don't see each other for years unless there's an emergency on my end?"

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"I don't see most people more than every few years. Enjoy yourself. If you can teach Men to read we can provide books with all the material that took us from nomadic tribes to a society with indoor plumbing and magic weapons and such niceties."

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"I would love a chance to run off copies of those before I go, although I'll have to translate them for the Men once I convince them to invent writing, I don't actually know enough Quenya to just teach them that."

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"...copying a book takes about a year even if we had good paper for it, and I think the engineers got distracted by electricity and haven't finished paper as a project. Or do you mean making a detailed illusion?"

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"I mean flipping through it and making illusions on each page and then taking the illusions with me. I can copy those once I've made them if you want dupes, although for anyone but me to turn pages I'll have to attach each to paper and that'll be mildly tedious."

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"I expect people'd be inclined to trade enough for copies of books that it might be worth your while. This is another thing where new options will upset people - in Aman you could copy anyone's book and it'd be regarded as a compliment, but that was because copying was so laborious."

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"...Do you need a little while to work that out such that I should go check on the orcs and your cousins and then stop back here on my way to my new home?"

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"I should probably ask Curufinwë, a means of making copies of books is on his to-do list somewhere anyway and I'm sure he's thought about the economic complications, or asked Moryo to think about it. Do you want to spend the next few years alone out there, or would you rather we ask for people interested in being ambassadors to Men?"

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"I'd love to receive ambassadors," she says. "Actually, I may just want a palantir, they're not that big, I could keep it on my person."

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He flinches. "If you lose it the Enemy can use all of them not just for information but to mind-control people who use it."

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"You don't have to give me one, it just came to mind. ...I don't remember anything about how radio works or I'd just give a lecture on radio. It's a wavelength a ways past infrared, I don't know how to generate or receive it even in vague science lecture terms. Why is mind-control even a thing palantiri can do?"

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"Palantiri make it like you're in the place where the other palantir is when you use it, mind-control is a thing the Enemy can do to people in his vicinity."

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"Oh. Well, radio's safer. I will be extremely impressed if that comes together based on 'it's a wavelength past infrared'. I'll wait for ambassadors and if I need something in a hurry I'll fly out. Books now, books when I've turned around...?"

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"You're going to be less impressed with our inventive productivity with Father working on that project of yours. When he said 'ten years', he meant 'if I am obliged to spend less than cumulatively ten days doing other things', that's how he does major projects. Books when convenient for you; for now I'll just have book-copying by mandate of the King and patch the problems that will inevitably cause."

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"Now's convenient; where are the books?"

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"Conference room. We have about a hundred. Melkor destroyed our library when he destroyed everything else."

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"Few hours to turn all the pages, longer if you want illusion-text copies."

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"Once we have good paper."

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"...so in a few years." She heads to the library. She turns all the pages. Soon her notebook has lots of company.

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The Elves are still singing their sad song; the conference room is empty.

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Elves sing a whole fuck of a lot. At least they're good at it and not caterwauling.

She takes her copies. She goes to catch up to orcs.
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The orcs are trudging south. Their guards are all present. She doesn't see Vár.

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She osanwës a guard.

Where's Vár?
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With you, he says.

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No. No she is not. When did she go off with 'me'?

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Last time you came by here, couple weeks ago.

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That wasn't me. Did the person pretending to be me say why they wanted her? Or say anything else? Or take anyone else?

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Yes, they said that they'd stopped a band of orcs north of here and healed them and wanted her to come and convert them, so we'd have more for the colony, and that the rest of us should proceed south, the new band might not catch up until we reached the shore but that was fine.

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Didn't happen. Enemy impersonator. And now he's got Vár. Didn't you do anything to verify their identity -?

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She turned from a bird into you. Most of the Maiar can't do that, even Balrogs I don't think can usually do that...

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Thauron's very good at illusions. And he's been taking a personal interest.

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I'm sorry. Though. Um. If that's what this was, and we'd argued, we'd all just be dead.

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Probably, she acknowledges. You're sure taking Vár was all he did? Didn't replace one of you, didn't plant an extra orc in the collection -?

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Not sure. I can verify that now?

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Please do. And she sends a summary to all the other guards too in case this particular guard was replaced.

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A minute later, nervously, we don't have a system for this and I'd really really hate to accuse anyone falsely. But.

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But?

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People are arguing. A couple people didn't answer questions that I'd have expected they'd know and then one accused the other of being an imposter and then everyone's panicked.

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All right. Call a stop, I'm coming down, ask me whatever you like and I'll play Macalaurë's lie detection song.

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He sounds relieved. Thank you.

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You're welcome.

She lands.
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And the guards gather around warily, some of them with weapons out.

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"Anybody want to verify I'm me or should we skip ahead? Have we got a linguistics nerd in the troupe? Anybody want to be themselves turned into a bird, that'd be harder to fake."

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Someone volunteers, though she looks terrified.

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Loki turns her into a bird, briefly, and back.

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And with Loki's identity verified they can check everyone else.

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Song: go.

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"I serve the House of Fëanor," the first one says. "I serve Moringotto." The first rings true, the second false.

"I serve the House of Fëanor. I serve Moringotto." True, false.

"I serve the House of Fëanor. I serve Moringotto." True, false.

And then someone turns into a Balrog, and blasts away the people nearest her.
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...Those things explode. "Get clear so I can fucking kill this thing," she tells everyone else, placing healing songs on everybody blasted, shaking Lævateinn out into a spear and charging the Balrog. She's already blue.

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It races for the orcs.

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"Get clear," she yells to them too, and she stabs the Balrog and does the spikes trick and yanks. Maybe with the oomph song she can haul it over her head and slam it on the ground to the other side of her.

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Even with the oomph song she can't quite do that, but it stops its charge and turns around to lash at her, and the orcs clamber out of the way.

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She yanks the barbed weapon out, jumps out of the way, blinds it, deafens it, gives it another jab - everybody out of the way yet?

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They're still running, but they're farther away then she remembers the last fireball consuming, no one's going to be caught in an explosion but her -

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- and she made it through the last one fine.

ICE TO THE FUCKING FACE.
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The fireball scorches ten yards of the ground, leaves a crater at the center, throws her backwards. No more Balrog.

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She heals herself, rolls, kips up on her feet.

"Does anybody ELSE want to turn out to be a Balrog? I dueled THAURON yesterday and I'm in a REALLY BAD MOOD, BALROGS CAN LINE THE FUCK UP."
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No one else wants to turn out to be a Balrog.

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"Everybody stand nice and far away from everybody else while we run through the rest of the quiz," she snaps, "so I can skip straight to icing anybody who is having second thoughts about being a Balrog right about now."

Interrogations interrogations.
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No additional servants of the Enemy, unless they've found a way to beat lie detection.

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"Any idea what happened to the fellow the Balrog was impersonating?"

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Everyone is very worried but doesn't have any more information about the situation than she does.

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Eugh. "Can any of you osanwë your camp from here to report in?"

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They're just barely within range, and it takes some time and concentration, but someone tells a sister what's happened and the sister runs to fetch someone to report it to.

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"Right. Be careful."

She turns to the orcs. The last of the blue's fading.

"Vár's long gone. I am not strong enough to go get her," she says softly. "I'm sorry."
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They watch her and shuffle their feet and scowl. "It's okay," someone offers hesitantly after a little while.

And the orc who knew this was all a lie raises an eyebrow and stays silent.
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"It's not okay. It's just not fixable right now. I will work on it as fast as I can." She shakes her head. "I'm going to be far away and not able to visit regularly, too, I wish there were more of me to go around but I think you'll manage on your own better than the Men will. Do you have an internal social structure that makes sense without Vár?"

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They know who's good at different things. They don't have anyone to tell them what to do but maybe the Quendi can stay and do that? Or everyone can try it and then whoever gives good orders can stay in charge.

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Do the Quendi want to stay and do that?

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The Quendi are a bit traumatized but feel responsible for having let this happen and are happy to help set it right.

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Good Quendi. They can stay with the orcs until the orcs are on sustainable terms with Brithombar and have some kind of smallish government-like thing set up, shouldn't take long by Quendi standards. For this population direct democracy might even work - she explains the concept briefly - and if there's no Vár and Loki's far away that definitely cuts into their ability to increase the size of their settlement. At what time do they expect to be where they're going? She can dismiss the orcs' Quendi illusions on a schedule, assuming they don't want to just keep them.

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Another week, and they're eager to go back to being orcs. It's in their oaths.

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Okay. In a week.

Anything else anybody wants to say?
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Nobody wants to say anything to the person who just blasted a Balrog, not really.

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Well, she'd like to talk to Tyr. Privately.
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He's visibly terrified, but comes with her.

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When they are out of Quendi earshot:

Lie detection song.

"Did you know?"
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"Yes.

What would you have had me do?"
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"Tell me what happened."

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"They told you the truth. The difference is that I'm not an idiot and I knew Melkor wouldn't tolerate this once he'd learned of it and that he had to eventually learn of it and so when you came with an excuse for taking Vár away alone I knew. I didn't have any way to warn her without getting killed myself, without getting all of us killed, because he'd have been happy to kill all of us. I'm not sure why he didn't."

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"Intel, probably, from the Balrog. Or as a show of good faith if I'd accepted his job offer."

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He nods. "Will you make it quick?"

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"I'm not going to kill you. Not everyone has as a realistic option 'stab evil Maiar', and while I'm suspicious of your motives even if they were pure as the driven snow that wouldn't make you able to stab evil Maiar so I can hardly expect it as a display. I'm debating whether to send you on with them or get a Quendi to act as an intermediary to teach you to fly so I can bring you where I'm going and keep an eye on you."

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Carefully neutral expression. "My people need me."

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"To do what?"

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"Notice when their true-believer rationalizations are going to collide with reality and prevent such a collision from occurring."

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"All right. Don't fuck it up. I won't be breathing down your neck but I will be looking in every now and then."

Song goes back in its pieces. They go back to the group.
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Everyone looks mildly surprised. He nods to her and walks off to join them.

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"Isn't anybody going to make sure we weren't replaced while we were gone?"
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"What would we do about it?" someone ventures, but they then ask Tyr some verifying questions which he answers to everyone's satisfaction.

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And Loki will turn anyone who volunteers into a bird and back, again.

And then she flies to the Nolofinwëans.
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The valley has improvements! Irrigated areas by the riverbank, a small flock of mountain goats on a nearby hillside. Findekáno is improving walls.

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She lands near him. "Hi. Verify my identity, there's a case of impersonation going around, I'm up to two Balrogs now. I haven't been here in a couple weeks, right?"

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You haven't. We've been using osanwë for that.

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Good. Oh what a fucking two weeks. You want the long version or the short version?

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...short version first.

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Dropped Maitimo off with Dwarves, who are great. Went up to check out Men. Men are very new which makes them awkward conversationalists, and have aggressively unhelpful Nandor neighbors, and some of them were turned into werewolves by Thauron who had moved in nearby and was fucking around with them to no good end and with the complete ignorance of the aggressively unhelpful Nandor neighbors. Ran into Thauron. Got offered a job, bribed with cessation of orc suffering. You're going to hate this part - he wanted Maitimo as a show of good faith to extend the free sample into a less free sample. I would've wanted to be asked if I were Maitimo and I don't get how he ticks so that was the best predictor I had; I asked. He shed some light on the situation, convinced me it was a bad idea, I went to Doriath and may or may not be able to freely leave Doriath in the future, went to your cousins, Macalaurë and Tyelcormo and twenty others and Huan went with me to pick up Maitimo as bait to lure Thauron off his ground and have a fight. I gave Huan a head start, Huan did the rest. During the fight Thauron quoted Vár, so after everyone was dropped off where they belonged and had opposable thumbs again I checked on the orcs. One of their escorts was a Balrog, probably inserted into the party when somebody impersonated me and made off with Vár and I am not fucking equipped to go and get her back -

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Yeah.





Wow. Are my cousins okay? Were they injured in the fighting?
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One of the twenty volunteered to be a decoy bird; Maitimo had to be nearby to fool Thauron but I didn't have to actually carry him there. That one's dead. Everyone else made it out.

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Okay.

I'm inclined to say that was a bad idea but I'd probably have done the same thing if I had even the barest hope I'd stand a chance, so I don't really blame you.
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Thanks. Pause. Ice powers work now.

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Well, that's useful.

I'm sure you've already had time to turn it over in your head, but - they're not going to make it easy to rescue a prisoner a second time.
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Yeah, I know. Vár's pretty much going to have to wait until I can teleport.

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Weren't you thinking you might have Angband-levelling bombs before then?

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Yep. And then Mandos will have her, but when I can teleport I can justify switching gears and getting resurrection working.

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He looks very sober. That sounds like a good plan.

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Yep. Already promised the Men. Well, the werewolves, who are basically Men.

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What exactly do you think is going to be left to resurrect after fifty years in Angband, he doesn't say.

Okay. Congratulations on fighting Sauron and discovering Men.
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Thanks.

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If you guys really ripped into him he'll probably not be doing things like that again. The Maiar can run out of access to whatever divine energy they draw on in the first place.

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Huan estimated minimum five years before he leaves Angband. I cut him up and when he got close enough I surprised him with a ton of ice. He and Huan were going for a while after that.

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He smiles, a little bit. Five years means we can scout for permanent settlement sites undisturbed, maybe send out some emissaries.

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There's still Balrogs and orcs to contend with, I assume they move independently. Oh, and a permanent settlement - your cousins are moving, they're leaving you the Mithrim camp with all your stuff in it, estimate for that is also five years.

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Wait, really?

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Yep.

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Is the other side of the continent much safer? Nicer? More defensible? More mining?

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Closer to where I'll be - I'm going to take over Thauron's manage-Men's-racial-infancy project. And Maitimo wanted them to.

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Hmmm. Well, I don't think we'll try racing them to it. I should ask my father.

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I recommend just taking over their camp. It's perfectly nice.

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And clearly there's something on the other side nice enough to motivate them to abandon it, or something up here that makes it not so nice.

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There isn't. Proximity to Dwarves over there, I guess, which is more use for them than you. It's going to set them back a while. As far as I know they're taking a loss because Maitimo asked for a favor at a moment when he was really well-positioned to extract them and he wants the two factions not so near each other and your cousins can take the move better. Do you want to ask me while I run Macalaurë's lie-detection song?

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I absolutely trust that that's the reason Maitimo gave you.

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Well, I'm not aware of any other features making the eastern corridor desirable besides those I've mentioned, I've seen the place, and I don't think you ought to start drama or look a gift horse in the mouth. Calm down.

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We're obviously not going to provoke a confrontation, don't worry.

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I'm not going to be popping back and forth between your camps once or twice a week any more and you're making me worry!

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The entire of our political history is 'they do something confrontational or awful, we ignore it'. The only exception turned out to be quite literally Sauron! You can't drop news like that and expect us to go 'how generous, they must feel guilty', but that doesn't mean we are going to pick a fight.

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Loki rolls her eyes. I will be so disappointed if I fly by in half a year and everything is on fire, you have no idea.

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They'd also crush us. There won't be a fight.

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Metaphorical fire.

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The ships were not lit on metaphorical fire, and are we seeking vengeance for our dead loved ones? No. Have they apologized? No. Will they? No. Has it caused any problems, and will it? No.

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I'm not worried enough to abandon the Men and babysit you, but I register concern.

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Concern registered. Did you tell my cousins that you asked Maitimo whether you should hand him back over? Did they care at all? Did they hesitate to use him as bait?

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I told them. They quizzed me under lie detection afterwards. I don't assume I was privy to the entire decisionmaking process; I delivered a message with Allspeak off so I know I wasn't hearing everything they said to him either. Well, except literally hearing it.

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So no.

Thank you, Loki. I'm sorry. It sounds like you've had a painful and unpleasant few days.
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It's been a ride.

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I know it doesn't feel like much of anything, but taking Sauron off the table even for a few years is a major accomplishment.

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I got to tell him to go fuck himself, too.

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He does smile, at that. Was it satisfying? How did he react?

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Oh, that's when the fight started.

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I wasn't imagining the fight lasted more than a few seconds. What happened?

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You want the whole thing?

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Yes, definitely!

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So she osanwës him the whole blow by blow, visuals and darkened stars and the crevasse and Huan's assistance and his lousy fencing becoming increasingly redundant with everything else that was going on and her disarmament and the ice and the scream and the retreat.

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That's amazing. By which I mean both that you are amazing and that I'm amazed you survived.

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Some combination of he wasn't actually trying to kill me and he didn't know I was all frosty. I wouldn't try it twice without picking up more backup or powers or both.

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And Angband's going to be even worse.



I'm glad you're safe, we'll be careful, we won't pick any fights or be misled into them or let them escalate or fight back in them. Really. If that's the assurance you came here for before whatever you're doing, we're committed to it.
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I mostly came to deliver news, she shrugs. Let you know I'm going to be around less.

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Okay. We're managing fine. We'll move south in a few years, I guess, if that's how they've decided this happens.

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And I have the lie detection song now, if you want to run it on Sarpalarë.

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Sure, worth a shot, though I don't think it'll get us anywhere. Sauron. He shakes his head.

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Yep.

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He takes a ring off his finger. Song copy?

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The ring sings.

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Thank you.

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You're welcome. Anything else to cover before I fly off and try to more or less parent a baby species?

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Good luck with that. Need any help?

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I'd love some, do you think somebody wants to come along?

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I'm sure you'd have dozens of volunteers. Findaráto will probably follow you if I don't invite him, he's been dying to meet Men. I'd like to myself, but I have obligations here.

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If you can spare the people I'll teach 'em to fly and bring 'em out. The Nandor are unlikely to be a source of personnel.

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He nods. Lots of the Quendi are isolationist. The Vanyar, in Valinor, the Nandor here, Elwë's people to a lesser degree - not so much the Noldor, because we're fatally adventurous. When my uncle was persuading us all to leave Valinor he said "let the cowards keep this city! but if I have the measure of my people rightly, then if only the cowards stay, grass will grow in the streets."

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Does he write all his own speeches?

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Back home he was as known for rhetoric as for craftsmanship.

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Anyway, do you want to ask around and see who wants to be a bird juggling ball for a few hours and go live among Men?

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Assuming, as I expect, I have far more volunteers than you have need of them, what should I be selecting for?

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Being able to pick up the Men's language quickly. Anybody who's annoyed that Fëanor got to inventing a Quenya alphabet first can have a shot at this one. Patience with other cultures, because the Men are not going to turn into Quendi with any amount of acculturation, you're designed around different constraints - they're going to be faster and presumably have different sexual mores and fret about dying of old age until I can fix that and so on. Teaching ability, particularly of basic infrastructure things - I made off with copies of a bunch of books from your cousins, but actually knowing how things work is often useful in being able to make sense of written references. I don't want anybody who would be too tempted by the possibility of being worshiped or has a short temper.

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He nods. I'll start spreading the word.

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Thanks, it might not have even occurred to me to ask.

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The words the Valar have for us and for Men mean 'firstborn' and 'secondborn'. Like siblings. You don't really understand them but you protect them with your life and you tease them and you teach them and before you know it they're grown, and have something to teach you.

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Awww.

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How many people do you want?

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I am skeptical of my ability to effectively manage more than thirty, but if they come in convenient subgroups I could take a few more.

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I can do like twenty under Findaráto and twenty under someone of my house, though I'm not sure those command structures give us more in use than they cost us in interpersonal friction.

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I'd rather not be managing a lot of interpersonal friction. I want to be able to spend most of my time on accelerated perception - cousins have had somebody in their room for three weeks no ill effects, by the way, if you were as curious as I about dose - doing spellwork.

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Yeah. I'll find you people who don't need much oversight.

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Thanks.

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He comes back about two hours later with thirty names. I can vouch for their competence, tendency to get things done without close supervision, reasonableness. I don't think anyone is trying to raise Men as if they've Elven children. I could get you better people with more time, but probably not much better.

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Time's a bit of the essence. I'm not sure the werewolves are really going to behave if I'm not back in a timely manner. Did you make sure everybody's who they seem to be?

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Yes.

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Cool. I'll go get them started on learning to fly. We'll leave in the morning.

She changes half of them, has the other half fling them in the air, provides instruction, swaps who's a bird and who isn't and lets the first batch teach the second while she gets a little work in.
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And it's nightfall again.

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And she lets everybody be an elf for overnight, gets everybody's face and name in her notebook, suggests that because she has such a problem in her life with Balrog impersonators she could put a dot on everybody who's coming with her and make sure it moves when she wants it to? and sleeps.

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Everyone agrees the dots are a great idea. In the morning there's singing, of course, and a farewell breakfast thrown by the whole camp.

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Mm, breakfast.

She checks everybody's dots and when they have said necessary goodbyes she turns them all into invisible swifts and leads the way, insofar as it's leading when you're invisible and just osanwëing directions. Zoom song should get them there before nightfall.
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Across the whole of northern Beleriand, across the eastern plains, across the mountains, across the desert. Night hasn't fallen, but only because this world is flat.

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Well, not having to adjust for time zones will be handy if somebody invents radio.

She descends upon the area of the werewolf tower first, debirds everybody, and barges in.
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Panic and freezing and cowering, again.

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"Hello. How have you been while I've been gone?"

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A minute of silence, and then, told in four overlapping narratives by different hysterical people - "No one went and got food, because we were scared, and then there was a fight and then a lot of people turned into wolves and then the fight got really bad so they went to run around outside and the people outside threw rocks and someone ran into the forest and got shot and is dead."

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"Shit. Okay. Don't go into the forest, the people in the forest are jerks. I am going to try to cause them to be less jerks but it might take a stupidly long time or not work at all. Do you eat the same things you did before you turned into werewolves? What exactly determines when you are and are not wolves?"
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"He was still teaching us that."

"We eat the same things."

"Not if we're wolves. Then meat tastes best."

"Meat tastes best all the time."

"I can turn into a wolf whenever I want."

"I do it at night."

"I do it when the Moon is out."
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"No turning anybody into werewolves at all until we know more about how that works," she says. "I brought some people with me to help me manage this place now that Thauron's gone. Are you calm enough to be introduced? They're less scary than I am."
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They are calm enough to be introduced.

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So Loki leads them out and introduces Noldor to werewolves and solicits a volunteer to go get the poor werewolves who she did not mean to scare that badly something to eat. She dots all the werewolves and writes down their names.

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And someone is back not too much longer with deer and rabbit and the news that there are wild pigs here.

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Good, good. Okay, you can feed the werewolves and talk to them, try to figure out which ones are smartest and if there's anything else I need to know that they know, thanks, rest of us let's fly over to the Men and figure out a good starting pitch, the colonizers can all then camp out nearish the tower with some of you Quendi who like barely need sleep on watch, and then Loki's spreading out and you can osanwë the farther-flung Men the good news before they've had more than five weeks to wander to hostile corners of the map. Sound like a plan?

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It sounds like a plan, and everyone is happy to participate.

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Splendid. This is a good way to work through her shitty mood over Vár and bajillions of other orcs who have worn out their stay of torment.

Objectives for pitching the entire concept of "Loki runs the place now" to Men: it does not result in worship, it does not result in werewolf pogroms, it is made clear that this is entirely a matter of Loki wanting to teach them stuff so they can do things more interesting than wander around looking for food and getting chomped on by every predator in the vicinity and has nothing to do with them being unqualified in any way other than being brand new, the Men after hearing this pitch feel encouraged to ask questions and make comments and express interests that can help shape a how-to-civilization curriculum.

Side objective: to what extent is she going to have to give these people the sex talk, find that out.
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This mostly goes very well, except that eight different people tell her that the Men haven't been told yet that homosexuality isn't acceptable and sex means you're married, and the Valar didn't tell the Elves about that until we got to Valinor so it's perfectly understandable and hopefully Eru won't be too angry with Men for doing it wrong.

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"I'm pretty sure that Men don't have the sex means you're married thing. Most people don't. I was not planning to suggest that homosexuality isn't acceptable either, especially since I don't know how to invent them birth control. Is there going to be a problem?"
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There is going to be a debate.

One side holds that not telling Men what the Valar say seems like a really bad idea, because the Valar know more about these things, are in any event powerful and dangerous to have as enemies, and probably have such strong opinions about those specific topics because Eru cares a lot about them and Eru and the Valar are very much needed. And besides it's wrong.

The other side holds that the Valar, if they want to explain things, are going to have to send someone, and didn't, and accidental children are a much much greater evil so it's worth allowing Men to engage in lesser evils for the sake of preventing greater ones.

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"If the Men are independently curious about the Valar's opinions on their sex lives, or Eru's opinion as understood through the Valar who did not even know that planets are supposed to be round, for some unfathomable reason, I have no reason to withhold the information. I see no reason for this to interest them without any Valar on hand and the one closest to hand being the one who sent somebody to turn some of them into werewolves and pick them off as part of a program of Bonsai Men. My opinion on homosexuality is that depending on the person it ranges from uninteresting through an evening's entertainment all the way to essential for fulfillment and happiness and is not any disapproving third party's business unless someone wants me to officiate a gay wedding, which I will delightedly do. The Men may occupy any number of possible distributions over this spectrum, and the accidental children thing is a real problem - especially since childbirth is frequently fatal among Midgardians, whom Men mostly resemble. Continue not being homosexuals on your own time. I wanted you filtered for not being prissy about other cultures, prove you were good picks."

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Everyone agrees not to encourage Men in activities that result in accidental children.

"Well," someone says to her afterwards, "Findekáno wasn't going to ask 'and homosexuality? how do you feel about that?' of potential recruits."
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"No, I imagine he wasn't that specific. Deal with it anyway. You know, Dwarves don't even have genders?"

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They did not know that. They are fascinated and horrified and much speculation about Aulë's personal life ensues.

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Well, that's funny.

Guards: assigned. Wake enough people to handle anything that comes up.

Zzzzzz.
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Nothing comes up. It's a full moon; this doesn't seem to do anything special for werewolves.

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Good good, she does like the occasional full night of sleep.

Okay, morning time, she would like a survey of potentially croppable plants hereabouts - food, fiber, maybe quick trees so they can have some wood without having to bug the aggressively unhelpful Nandor about that. She has a crop song, how well do those work?

Somebody get going on learning the Men's language so she doesn't have to translate everything, osanwë should help, be nice about not reading private thoughts and teach them to shield smart quick as soon as you have that level of communication but Loki's not going to stress that much about the private thoughts of people who've had five weeks to generate any when there's a language barrier to deal with. Figure out an alphabet that works for the sounds they make, teach it to whoever seems to have retained numerals - they're using Doriath numerals, here's those, it won't be the first mixed alphabet/numeral system in the multiverse.

And she's going to go bother the Nandor.

"Hello again," she says to the Nandor.
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They do not seem pleased to see her. Hello.

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"I have told the werewolves that they should stay out of the forest, but please don't shoot them, they're basically just Men who can shapeshift and I thought you avoided killing Eru's creations. How's your consideration going?"

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We have not yet had enough time to consider. We will let you know once we've reached a conclusion.

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"I brought some other Elves with me out here. Will you let one or two of them come learn your language so I'm not the only person who can talk to you?"

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Yes.

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"Thank you."

So she goes and puts somebody on that - with all parties familiar with osanwë it shouldn't require such delicacy as establishing lines of communication with Men.

She goes and susses out the tower to see if she wants to live in it. It's a little inaccessible but it's a building and stuff.
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It looks like it was designed to have elaborate dungeons, which she doesn't really have much use for. But. There's also something satisfying about living in Thauron's tower.

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There is. It's just so darned far away and it has that invisibility curtain, which she would rather do herself if she decides she wants something like it. (Although she'd have a hard time doing it exactly this way.) She'll camp out in it until it seems like a reasonable priority to build her a house somewhere closer to the center of activity.

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Soon there is activity everywhere. Men are being taught to read, farm, hunt, sew clothes. They are asking a lot of questions about the Valar, probably because the Elves explain themselves as coming from 'the paradise of the Valar' and sing a lot of hymns to the Valar.

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Loki explains the Valar as she understands them: they are powerful beings waaaaay west of here who should not be reasonably expected to show up anytime soon or do anything much, plus there's Thauron's boss (a huge asshole), with whom the rest don't get along, and there are junior Valar-type things called the Maiar, like Thauron (or the one who helped her beat up Thauron; some Maiar are chill). Quendi as a group have mixed opinions on Valar but the ones Loki hired appear to be fans, if not fanatics (the fanatics are still back in Valinor, not out here helping Men with anything).

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No one contradicts her about anything, but they do share a lot of stories about heroic deeds of the Valar in the first war with Melkor, and about things the Valar did for them growing up.

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That's fine. If the Men turn into huge Valar partisans based on entirely true information that's their prerogative.

Has there been any opportunity yet to get to a point where it's not massively creepy to figure out from some Man what their preinstalled knowledge on reproduction and related activities is?
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The Elves are probably not the people to go to, having collectively apparently decided that Men will behave if given good enough examples. There are Men she's perfectly friendly with, after a few weeks, and their society does not yet seem to have any taboos except against demons.

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Okay. She makes it clear to her friendly Men that she is substantially guessing based on comparable species, because there haven't been Men long enough to be sure about them in particular, but based on this guess if they have been certain sorts of friendly with one another some of them may already be incubating very small Men.

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This causes mostly fascination. How can they tell? What will the new Men be like? How do they fit?

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...well, Midgardians tell like so; has anybody been bleeding from the crotch mysteriously? If so, that may be a signal Men can use too. Failing that you might have to wait until you're visibly bulgy. New Men are like whoever friendlied it up to make them, but not exactly, there's lots of room for them to be totally different; and they start very small and completely helpless and will need to learn to talk and walk and do everything. Breastfeeding: exists. The abdomen expands to accommodate the kiddos.

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Now they're a little horrified. The Elves seem torn between feeling bad they left this job to Loki and being appalled by the accidental-children thing. Several of them are preaching that Men should just be separated by gender so accidental children can't happen.

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"Then where would you get intentional children from?"

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Well, if they want to get married, that could be arranged. Or they could just not have children! They're five weeks old! It's horrifying!

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Well, yes, there's a reason Loki isn't sleeping with any of them (she doesn't say that part), but they are all five week old adults don't be such cryptogenocidal prudes. If they wait until they're twenty and they age like Midgardians they'll be old enough to have serious fertility problems! And none of them have known each other for more than five weeks and it would be an awfully hasty marriage, especially if they weren't allowed to associate across gender barriers.

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Obviously the Elves would teach them about the one year engagement period before getting married to make sure one didn't end up having children with a badly suited partner!

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Ain't no Man got time for that.

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The Elves start telling Men stories - which are, Loki could piece together pretty quickly were she paying attention - about how by Cuivienen the Elves woke next to their designated mates but definitely waited fifty years before touching because it's more meaningful that way.

This doesn't have much effect.

She'd be more annoyed with them if they weren't tremendously helpful on crops, music, building, manual chores, literacy, poetry.
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...Well, she isn't sure poetry is a huge priority but as long as it doesn't cut into the other stuff. The Men will figure something out. As long as they are clear that sex makes babies. ...Oh and rape is RIGHT OUT definitely none of that.

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Men are definitely more violently inclined than Elves. There are fights over prey or over insults or over, apparently, spare energy for fighting. The Elves tend to cluck their tongues a bit but be quick to break these up.

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Loki teaches them wrestling. If they're gonna do it anyway...

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Wrestling is a popular sport. They're inventing other ones, too - swimming, kicking inflated pig bladders around -

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Sure, whatever floats their boat. Just no depriving each other of teeth, please, she has other things to do than heal everybody all day every day, if you can't settle it by talking have a nice rules-protected match of somethingorother.

How are the wolves reintegrating whence they came? What can be learned about how the heck they work?
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No one can figure out when the werewolves turn into werewolves. Some of them have voluntary control, some don't, some have triggering conditions, Elves reading off the experience of voluntary transformation to other werewolves who can't voluntarily transform helps some but not all of them.

The dominant theories are that it's either expectation-controlled or that Thauron was experimenting.

Werewolves in human form are healthier, faster, and stronger. There aren't any other differences noticeable yet.
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Do there seem to be strains - are werewolves who were bitten by particular progenitors "families"? Did those people who were bitten then healed by her spell that night turn into werewolves?

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The people who were bitten and healed by her are not werewolves. No one can keep track of who bit who, though they're happy to go test it for Loki if she'll let them make more werewolves.

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Do the ones who were made directly by Thauron and not bitten remember anything about the process?

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Yes, he came and talked with them and then demons came from over the water and he called on the heavens to send the demons away and they vanished, and then he offered to help them protect themselves from the demons, and brought them away one at a time and had them lie still while he did magic. Not everyone he took away came back, he said the others had been sent east to protect other Men and spread the news.

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The water demons, Loki increasingly suspects, were illusions of his; she still hasn't spotted any. Okay, what's the distribution of werewolf traits in the original batch?

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The ones made by Thauron are most of them; eight who shift voluntarily, three who shift somewhat voluntarily with occasional unwanted shifts, nine who shift at night, seven who shift when they're hungry, two who are wolves most of the time but sometimes wake up as Men.

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And none of these people remember who they gnawed on?

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Most people who they bit got bitten several times by different wolves, is the complication, they were supposed to try to get a couple nips in to make it likelier they'd change without needing Thauron's intervention.

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Bleah.

Okay. Loki does not know what-all turning into a werewolf does, or how to ensure that one is a convenient and not an inconvenient kind, it might make it impossible to have children or shorten lifespan or give Thauron a backdoor into your brain or something, but if anyone is super-not-risk-averse and wants to give it a try under controlled conditions -
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The werewolves are overjoyed. There are some volunteers.

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...Why are the werewolves so happy about this.

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Being a werewolf is better than being a person, it means you're tough and strong and don't die! And they were supposed to recruit lots of friends, before Thauron went away and Loki came, and it's good that now they can.

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Before anybody bites anybody there is going to be a lecture about how Thauron was bad and wanted bad things and is guilty of murder/torture/generally being an asshole and if being a werewolf is nice this is pretty much a coincidence and they are not to be sketchy in any way about recruitment just because he encouraged it, especially if there are side effects or no way to control convenience of werewolfhood in new subjects.
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Murder they agree is really bad. They don't have much reference for the other things. They want to recruit werewolves because being a werewolf is great, not because he said to. They promise.

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Okay.

Things she will tentatively accept volunteers for: being bit (once) by convenient werewolves and then healed by either of her available methods, or not; repeated exposure by the same werewolfhood donor under the same conditions if that doesn't take; designing further experiments can wait until results are in on that.
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Being bit once and then healed by Loki makes you not a werewolf. Being bit once and then not healed usually makes you not a werewolf. Being repeatedly bitten will eventually make you a werewolf. Werewolves don't seem to have any particular affinity, beyond friendliness, with their werewolfhood donor.

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...Is the friendliness suspicious.

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She could ask an Elf to read their minds. Men tend to be demonstrative and childlike in their attachments anyway, it's hard to tell what suspicion would look like.

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Well, if it's not specific to the individual wolf who bit them - and it mostly doesn't seem to be - and it's not disproportionate to acquiring an ingroup affiliation - then that's not an enormous red flag. She does ask her staff to keep an eye out for any weird osanwë wobbles or changes between being a Man and being a werewolf but nothing intrusive.

She keeps the experimenting slow-paced and heavily disclaimed, because she'll really be quite surprised if werewolves - at least female ones - can reproduce and isn't confident that the Men are making informed choices about that, but every now and then authorizes another chomp arranged in some informative way on an enthusiastic volunteer.
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And shortly after this, the world sees its first snowfall and first winter since the rising of the Sun.

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Cozy.

Loki builds an igloo.

Hopefully they've got enough food socked away?
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Without a warning from Loki, who is the only person present who's dealt with suns and seasons, they'd have been caught rather flat-footed. As it is, they've filled up the basement of the tower with food, which Thauron had told them to do.

The Elves are Not Happy about the existence of winter, and gather food a little obsessively.
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Even in winter they should be able to fish the lake and hunt (though they'll want to wrap up warm or carry singing rocks) and get some roots and certain berries.

Hey, Nandor, do you need any help with this unfamiliar phenomenon?
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They do not, thank you. If it's still going on in a few years they may need to migrate, but until then they are fine.

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It should take about a quarter of a year, assuming that people have not been wrong about how long years are and the sun was installed with that calendar in mind.

Loki likes her igloo. And building it is nice fine control practice.
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Everyone is suitably awed by her abilities. The Elves ask if they can live in the tower and panel every inch of it with heating songs.

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Fine by her. And the Men get all the warm rocks they need too.

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Some orcs arrive around midwinter. They seem unbothered by the snow - they're walking atop it - and find the nearest Men and ask for Loki.

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She goes.

But she goes invisible, frozen to ambient temperature, masking her footprints, and sends an illusion of herself, blue-skinned and red-eyed, tromping through the snow to meet them.

Orcs see heat. They don't see ultraviolet.

And who's to say she ought to have any heat to see?
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They look appropriately terrified at the blue-skinned red-eyed thing. They look terrified in general; they are trembling violently. If they can see the real Loki, they give no indication.

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"You wanted to see me?" says the illusion.

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"We have a message for you. If you're Loki. We have orders to deliver the message, we can't not, please -"

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"I'm Loki. In winter plumage."

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The spokesperson nods, still trembling. "Okay. The message is that someone's asking for you. The actual specific message is 'she doesn't remember her own name, anymore, but she remembers yours. She thinks you'll come for her. I'd be delighted if you would.'"

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this could easily be a lie this could totally be a lie even if the orcs swore they wouldn't necessarily know liar liar liar LIAR -

The illusion doesn't flinch.

"What are your other instructions?"
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"To go home, once we've told you."

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"Is that what you want to do?"

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"We have orders. Can't disobey orders."

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"Okay, so that's what you want to try to do. Is that what you want to succeed at doing?"

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"I expect that you're going to kill us. I said that when they told us to do this. They didn't care."

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"I haven't decided yet." She spins up a lie detector. "What do you know about the person who has reportedly forgotten her name?"

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The orc looks around, bewildered, for the source of the sound. Then controls its movements, looks at the ground. "One of the prisoners. She's an orc, not an Elf. I don't know when they brought her in. I know Sauron hates her particularly."

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"But you don't know why?"

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"No."

All of this rings true, as far as the song can tell.
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"Do you remember a while back, a while when the hurting stopped?"
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They all nod.

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"I can do that for you again. No strings attached. It'll just make the rest of this conversation more pleasant for both of us. But first you all need to say you're orcs because sometimes people turn out to be Balrogs and those have a tendency to explode around me."

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"I'm an orc," the spokesperson says, and then all the others chime in, nervously.

They are all orcs.
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And her illusion closes its eyes and her real self tromps around in concealed footprints to brush just close enough to each to heal them.

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They shudder. They keep standing there.

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The illusion opens its eyes.

"By any chance," she says, "have you had to swear your loyalty oath more than once in your lives?"
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They have. There was a spectacular eight-day festival a few months ago where everyone had delicious food and gifts and weapons and epic songs of battles with Elves were sung and they all reswore the loyalty oaths, with Melkor present so they could direct it personally at him and Elves present so they could direct their hatred personally at them.

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Of fucking course.

"Well," she says, "that means that my previous way to make it possible for orcs to coexist with anybody else won't work. Any of you good at brainstorming?"
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"We just want to go back to Angband," the spokesperson says uncertainly, "we aren't trying to coexist with anybody."

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"Yes, but if you go back to Angband you'll continue trying to exterminate Elves rather than taking up knitting, I assume, and your boss will draw conclusions I don't want him to draw."

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"I did say I knew you were going to kill us."

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"I'll probably have to. But the last time I caught some orcs I didn't kill any of them. And most of them are, to the best of my knowledge, settled elsewhere on the continent forming a colony. He's cut off the solution I had, but maybe there's more than one."

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"We have orders to return to Angband. We'll start doing that, and then you'll kill us. I don't see - I don't see what else there is."

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"Last time I caught some orcs," Loki says, "it turned out they'd only sworn their oath once, when they were little, when they barely knew what the words meant. They could re-swear with different definitions. And then they made perfectly nice neighbors and they didn't want to go around slaughtering people. I can't do that with you. But I don't object to you being alive. I don't object to you being orcs. I object that you're going to go work for him. I didn't think of the first solution on my own and I don't know if there is another, let alone one I can think up. If you prefer to be alive, though, you could help me think about how to disentangle you being alive from you being his servants."

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"He said, if you said that, to say that if you agree to work for him, then all the orcs could work for you."

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"Oh, I bet he said that. But then you'd still be his servants at one remove. This does not solve my fundamental problem."

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She shrugs helplessly.

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"Any more contingent messages like that?"

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"Um. If you express any interest in rescuing your friend we're supposed to invite you to make an offer."

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"Any hints for what sorts of offers he'd take?"

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"Your magic sword, or a copy of all the notes you take, or kill one person of your choice in Doriath."

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"Likes the sword, does he. I wonder what Melian would say if I brought one of you there and asked permission to execute you there instead of here. Probably wouldn't go over well and anyway he can't very well swear to follow through operating through messengers like this, can he."

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"He said if you questioned whether he'd follow through to point out that he is really being extremely conciliatory towards you and could as easily have sent some people to slit the throats of most of your Men in the night."

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"That doesn't change the underlying fact that he can't swear under these conditions."

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"No. Um. He says that the person who doesn't remember her name thinks very highly of your creativity when you really want something to happen."

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"Her name is Vár."
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"Sauron is not very good to his prisoners."

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"I know."

Creativity. Fuck.

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Please send me a conveniently available werewolf.
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The werewolves like the snow. One of them comes bounding over, in wolf form, a short time later.

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"I've had an idea," says Loki. "It's not going to be particularly pleasant. If it works you get to live. If you try to hurt this wolf or run off I will stop you. Is that clear?"

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They look around at each other. None of them move.

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"I'm making an exception to the voluntary turning rule because these people here are inhibited in their ability to volunteer things," Loki's illusion says to the wolf. "Please go ahead and gently attempt to turn that orc." She picks one and points.

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And the wolf bites him, as gently as can be managed, and the orc shudders violently and remains standing there. It usually takes some time to tell whether it worked.

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Loki waits.

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Nothing. Which isn't uncommon, even with Men.

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"Give him a few more bites."

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The orc is trembling and shaking. One of the other orcs puts a hand on his shoulder. The werewolf bites him three more times.

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Waiting, waiting.

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And a wolf! The first transformation is always involuntary and doesn't seem particularly predictive of future ones. The other orcs watch nervously.

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"Apart from being quadrupedal, feel any different?" Loki asks the new orcwolf.

Boy isn't Thauron going to feel like a moron if he left her transmissible free will.
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Wolves can't talk, and it might take him a while to turn back from the first time.

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"You could nod or shake your head."

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The wolf nods. But then, one would expect to feel different when turned into a wolf.

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"Enough that you can guess why I tried that?"

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If a wolf can look confused, it looks confused.

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Probably didn't work.

She waits.
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The helpful werewolf bounces back to human. "What are these?"

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"They're orcs. The Enemy's principal troops. They brought me a message from Thauron - nothing to do with you guys, it was about something else - and now I am trying to figure out how I can avoid having to kill them. If I let them go without figuring something out they'll spend the rest of their lives trying to kill Quendi."

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"You can't kill them," he says, distressed. "That's really bad! I don't think Thauron wants that.


Have they disobeyed you?"
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"Thauron must have expected it, or he wouldn't have sent them. I used to have a way to make it so I wouldn't have to kill orcs I found, but he cut it off, doesn't work any more. They've been very cooperative so far, but that's because they're afraid of me; they are actually incapable of changing allegiances - unless what you just did worked."

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"Oh.


I can switch back and bite the others. If that helps save them from dying, that's kind of our job, it's what we're for."
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"I will ask you to do that if it worked."

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And then the wolf is an orc again. He's smiling slightly. "Ow. That hurts but it's nice."

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"Did it by any chance," she says, "infect you with free will?"

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"Yes."

The song says otherwise.
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"Liar."

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"I'm not even sure what you'd mean, or how I'd tell," the orc backtracks.

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"If you have free will your oath wouldn't bind you," she says. "I'm sure you could think of proof."

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"None of you are Elves. But I can go be friendly to Elves. I don't have any problems with Elves." The last sentence is false.

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"I can tell when you are lying."

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"I can go be friendly to Elves," he says. "I can go run around as a wolf in the snow. I'll do whatever you want." None of that is false.

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"I cannot afford to keep an eye on you all the time, intimidating you into good behavior, and this settlement would be poorly served to feed you if you can't be trusted to work without supervision - without specifically my supervision, moreover."

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"You could let us go. We haven't done anything."

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"Oh, did he specifically send me fresh orcs with clean hands?" To the werewolf, "Thank you for your help. You should go."

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He looks hesitant, but walks off.

The orcs are cowering unhappily.
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"So that was my idea. I might think of another one eventually but I cannot stand around all day trying to think of ways to save you. Anybody have another thing to try?"

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"Those are Men, not Elves. We can live with Men."

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"There are Elves around. Getting rid of them would involve leaving you unsupervised and there would still be other Elves around."

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"We don't have weapons. There's not much we could do to Elves."

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"Somehow this does not reassure me."

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"There isn't anything," the initial spokesperson says, after a minute. "I am sure he sent us as much because he's curious if you'd kill us as to deliver the message, and they won't miss us, and you won't let us leave. There isn't any other way. Your friend was very silly to think you'd rescue her."

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Loki sighs. (The illusion doesn't.)

"Then you," she says, "like every orc who hasn't been promoted to my personal attention, like every Elf who has died and hasn't met with Mandos's approval - will have to wait until I've got more resources at my disposal. Last requests or words or anything?"
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"If I asked you to get a message to my mother, you wouldn't do it, would you?"

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"I'd write it down. If I encountered your mother in a conversation-amenable context I'd tell her. I can no more go looking for her than I can go rescue Vár."

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"And if you encountered my mother in a conversation-amenable context it'd be right before you killed her. No messages." Her voice is steady for how much she's trembling.

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"I expect it doesn't matter that I'm sorry."

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"If you were me, how would you feel?"

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"If I were you my opinions on the subject would be pretty thoroughly oath-warped. That's the problem."

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"The oath changes what I have to do, not what I want. All I want is to go home and see if my little brother's big enough to walk yet. I don't think the oath has anything to do with that."

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"I'll flip your question, then: if you were me, what would you do?"

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"Leave us alone. Let us go home. Your enemy having five more soldiers doesn't matter to him, doesn't matter to you. The only people we matter to are us."

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The illusion shakes its head.

"He'll notice if you come back or not. That matters."
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"Which way does it matter? How do you know that it's not sending us back that gives him the wrong piece of information, and killing us that confirms whatever he wanted? And - we're people, we're not - pieces of evidence about you, you can't say 'killing people: what does this communicate to Thauron' like it's 'smoke signals: what does that communicate to Thauron'. And if you send us back you can send us with any message you want."

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"I know you're people. All orcs are people, and you didn't get personier because you happened to be sent to me with a message and others did not. I know what causes orcs to attack Elves, I know that you are thus afflicted and that I cannot repair you, and the fact that I am on hand right now to make sure you don't attack any Elves does not change that. You could circle back while I'm asleep and attack the Men or local Elves. You might have contingent orders to do exactly that if I let you go which you didn't tell me about. Or you'll just go live quiet lives doing internal Angband things for a few years and then go out and kidnap Elves to be tortured into insanity because that's next on the mission list. And if you had those orders you'd follow them because you are under oath. I cannot supervise you. I have work to do and when I have done enough of it maybe I will be able to pry you out of Mandos's claws and fix the problem at the root but I don't currently have that luxury. I'm just thanking my luck that he can't send me adorable orc children with his next message because they can't have doubly sworn effectively."

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"I'm sure it must be very hard to be you."

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"Oh, being you's worse, I have no doubt about that. But here we are."

Illusion draws its sword.
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She doesn't run. She doesn't fight.

"The bit about being tortured by the Elf gods after we die, do you know if that's true?"
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"Inconsistent with what I've heard from everyone except other orcs and Thauron. Possible that the usual torment of being an orc persists, possible it doesn't, but you're healed now. If there's a difference to be made I hope it makes it."

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"So then what does happen? Do we just - stop? Like falling asleep?"

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"I don't know. But I'm not planning to leave you there if I can help it," says Loki. "Small consolation though that likely is."

She can get them all in one ice blast. They won't see it coming.
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It's a pretty day. Sun shining. She probably shouldn't let the Men see the bodies.

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Yep.

She turns Lævateinn into a hook and turns the bodies invisible and drags them off, away, and makes a firebreak and burns them.
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By the end of the winter some of the Men are definitely expecting baby Men, to the horror of the Elves and the morbid fascination of most of the Men themselves. Werewolves do not seem to have baby Men and some people who really do not think having baby Men appeals have asked to become werewolves.

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Okay. Irreversible sterilization is not the birth control method she would have picked, but if it works...

Everybody expecting gets a healing object to carry in case something happens and Loki herself cannot be fetched immediately.

She increases the guard. Some Elves, some Men. It should not be easy to sneak in and slit everyone's throats.
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He does not, in any event, try that next. Instead he sends an Elf.

The Men come running for her. They've been told to do that. There's someone horribly disfigured and very thin and in very poor condition at the edge of the desert, Loki, do something.
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Loki goes.

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Her channels of communication are at least adequate. There is someone horribly disfigured and emaciated at the edge of the desert, and he has no eyes with which to see her and does not otherwise react to her approach.

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Well, there's nobody else around, if he turns out to be a Balrog.

She approaches. She fixes him.
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He still doesn't move. Then - "you're Loki?"

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"Yes. Are you here to tell me that people whose well-being I value are being tortured in case I had forgotten or is it something else?"

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"Please just kill me."

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Lie detector song.

"Are you being coerced or are you just suicidal?"
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"I don't know what you mean. I don't even really know who you are. Please just kill me."

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There but for the grace of Maitimo's extremely dysfunctional familial relationships -

She makes it fast.
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Nice weather again. Maybe he'll only send her presents when it's nice weather. Maybe she can relax whenever it's raining.

They're teaching Men how to plant crops.
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Yay, crops.

Loki works. And works. And works.
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And the werewolves start having nightmares.

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...Well, that's not good. If it were Thauron doing his creepy long distance osanwë thing she'd have expected it to start up earlier. Is it all of them or just the ones he knew personally?

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It's all of them, though all of them are absolutely terrified to admit it to her.

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Okay. No more turning people into werewolves, otherwise wait-and-see.

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Everyone agrees that this is reasonable. The werewolves start avoiding her as much as they can.

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Would a nice nonthreatening Elf please find out what the deal with that is.
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A nice nonthreatening Elf reports a little while later that all of the werewolves are having the same vivid dream in which they cower before Loki and she explains that she is going to kill them and that she feels sorry about it. Sometimes the dream takes place at the edge of the desert, sometimes in the snow; sometimes she burns the bodies, sometimes just turns them invisible. The dreams have told the werewolves where to go to look for bones.

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Would this nice nonthreatening Elf please go find that werewolf who met the orcs, and explain how oaths work.
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That werewolf is nowhere to be found.

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Is anybody else missing?

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No one can think of anyone else who's missing.

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How long has he been gone and why didn't anyone notice before? Any Elves know him well enough to osanwë him from however far he's got to?

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No one has any comment on why they didn't notice he was missing. A few Elves try, without results.

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Okay. Will the Elf please explain to some other levelheaded representative how oaths work and in particular how orc oaths work?

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So it is explained. This doesn't really serve to calm everyone down much, but Loki hasn't executed any of them yet, except possible one missing werewolf, and gradually they relax a bit.

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She has no idea where the missing werewolf is, suspects Thauron or possibly him just running off because the nightmares scared him, and definitely did not kill him.

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Spring turns into summer. There's organized wrestling contests now. If Men have children on the same schedule as Midgardians a few of them are going to be due soon.

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Everybody pregnant had better be carrying their healing songs.

Loki is mostly just working and not mingling, though. Why aren't there more Maiar around who want to be somebody's dog, she could use one to tell when she's being spied on.
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The next time he sends orcs he sends a hundred of them, unarmed, with orders to walk up to the Men and introduce themselves. He's taught them the language the Men speak. Some of them are, in fact, carrying their young children. They get stopped by the guards and assure the guards that, yes, the thing about the oaths is true, but their orders are to meet the Men and say hello, they swear they don't mean any Men or any werewolves any harm, and have you met a baby? This is what a baby looks like. Yours might be a little different.

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Well.

Would one of the orcs like to come talk to her? Pick one at random, please, some Elf she can osanwë from here.
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So one of the Elves brings her one of the orcs.

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"I imagine you've figured out the bind I'm in," she tells the orc.

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"He sort of explained. He said you feel obliged to kill us all because you hate him and you like Elves, but that you also like us and wouldn't murder us all if we didn't work for him. He said you probably won't kill the children, and we said that it'd be awful for the children to watch us all die, and he said that then we should convince you not to do that, and we could, because you find it kind of distracting to kill us and would like to not do it. Then he showed us all the other orcs you've talked with and what you're like."

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"All the other orcs I've talked with?"
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"Um, there's an orc you met in the mountains who you learned about our oaths from, and we watched you talk with her. She's back now so we can look at the things she remembers. And she also remembers when you were in the Elf camp and talked with more orcs there, and killed the disobedient ones, and tricked the others. And then the last orcs he sent out to say hello to you out here, when you were blue and scary. He thinks that's all the orcs you've talked to. If there are others we didn't see that."

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"How exactly is he showing you these things without access to the orcs in question?"

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"He sends someone out to be a hundred miles away and watch through our minds with osanwë. He can't go personally because he can't maintain a physical form right now. But they can read everything we're thinking so they know what we say and they know when we die, and they can take the whole thing back to him to learn from."

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"That's good to know." She sighs. Holds out her hand. "Lemme heal you."

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She holds out her hand. "I have orders to be helpful so that's why I told you all that but I sort of wish I hadn't, it means you'll kill us faster so he learns less. Are you going to spare the children? Do you know how to take care of them?"

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"I'm not a Man, I have seen babies before." Heal. "Are there special baby orc care and feeding guidelines to worry about?"

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She flexes her hand like it's unfamiliar. "Huh. Thank you. They don't eat solid things until they're this big, usually," - she gestures - "they drink from our breasts, but I suppose it'd be better to give them solid food than let them starve. Or if you have animals, the milk animals produce for their babies works. Not as well, but it works."

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"Those features are not unique to orcs."

Loki thinks.

She stands up.

"Will the adults hand the babies over voluntarily? I may or may not have an idea for not killing you, but just in case I want the adults separate."
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"If you swear to spare - oh, no, I suppose you can't. If you seem inclined not to kill our children, since that's the best we're going to get, I expect most people will give them to you if only so the children don't have to watch."

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"They've sworn no oaths. I'm sure their parenting situation will be astonishingly awkward either way, but killing them is uncalled for."

And she goes out. And she heals all of the orcs - paying close attention to whether the babies react to this treatment or not. And she has them hand over the babies to any Men who want to practice holding babies and if that's not enough to go around she enlists Elves.

And then she inquires of the orcs under lie detection if their current orders allow them to change tactics, and if their current communication situation allows them to receive order updates.
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There are lots of Men who want to practice holding babies. The orcs are cheered to learn that the babies will be spared. They want to personally advise the Men on holding babies better, this is really important, and also teach them nursery rhymes to sing the babies.

Their orders do allow them to change tactics, except their specific current orders include 'don't fight back or hurt anyone even if you think it's the best way to achieve your goals' so they can't change that tactic. They can be communicated new orders via osanwë.
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All right. She does not want them to be communicated any new orders. So all the orc adults are going to go over there in that circle, see, and they're going to confirm that none of them are Balrogs please, and then she is going to turn Lævateinn into a ladder and stab it into the ground and climb up it and make an ice wall around them. It is too slippery and tall to climb but they can sing nursery rhymes over it if so inclined.

Need an Elf's eyes up in the sky with me.
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The Elves are super stressed by this situation and happy to help.

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She turns one into a bird. She turns them invisible.

Can you see a hundred miles or is this going to take a while?
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We can see that far. It'll still take a while to look carefully.

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Right, but none of the time will have to be search-transit time. Here's the deal. I'm sure whoever Thauron's got out there mindreading the orcs is invisible. Only makes sense. I have an idea that might work to find them. Then I can go increment my Balrog tally and as long as somebody's always up in flight to notice and give a warning if something else enters the vicinity we can leave the orcs alive in some hacked-together social disaster. My illusions have no range limit. They react to real light; and they react to each other; my guess is they will completely ignore whether or not someone is differently invisible. I'm going to flood the entire radius and then some with color and you're going to tell me if you spot a shadow.

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Your commitment to not killing orcs is admirable, but at that point why not just send them back? At some point he communicates an order to them and then we have a lot of hostiles in our camp.

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I'm considering it. But then he can just keep sending them at no cost and they loiter around, maybe surround us. I don't think he can afford to lose Balrogs the way he can afford to lose orcs, either.

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All right. Will it be apparent to the observer that you've illusioned the place?

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Yeah, I can't help that, that's why the orcs are in an ice wall. You ready?

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Yes.

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She gets high, high up.

And for miles and miles around it is blue.
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More miles. And more miles.

Effective osanwë range is very large, the Elf says unhappily.
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No shadows?

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Nothing yet. Keep going.

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Blue blue blue blue

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Yep. Uh, closer to two hundred miles. Northwest of here.

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Zoom. Don't let it out of your sight.

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It's moving.

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I bet it is. Is it moving fast enough to get away? Zoom song zoom. She dismisses blue that is not in the place the Elf indicated.

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Depends on how fast it can call allies, probably. It's not outrunning us.

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Thank you.

Chase chase chase.
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There's a body of water ahead of it. Looks like it might be going for that.

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Lake or sea?

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Lake.

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Can you get me really precise osanwë of the shadow so I can try to spot and tag it? I'd rather not freeze a whole lake solid if I don't have to.

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And she gets his vision of it, still fifty miles out from them, a shadow on the plains -

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She squints. She tries making herself a telescope; the illusions react to real light -

She has to fiddle with the telescope, but eventually she's got a splash of color attached to the shadow.
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In the water, the Elf reports a short time later.

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Lovely.

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Wonder if it gave the orcs any new orders. It might be out of range for that now.

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We'll find out when we go back.

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You know that all of this is pretty clearly an effort to waste your time?

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I could abandon the Men, hermit in Doriath for a few decades. Do you think I ought to? He doesn't just want me, he wants them, too.

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No, I don't think you ought to. I think this project is worthy. I think it might be best to have archers stationed to shoot all orcs on sight and certainly before they're in range to introduce themselves.

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Maybe.

The babies never swore anything.
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Children shouldn't be born in wartime.

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That's not their fault.

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No, it isn't. It's a horrible complication and I have no idea what to do about it. Since they haven't sworn any Oaths or committed any wrongs Mandos would probably sort them out quickly.

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Do you want to kill baby orcs on that probability?

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It is what I'd do, yes.

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They're at the water.

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Where's her tag?

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Not visible from the surface.

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What if it starts glowing?

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Now it is. Fairly deep underwater.

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She turns the water invisible.

She shifts midair, invisibly too; and she blasts at it, forming a column of ice in the lake; and she catches herself before she hits the surface.
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Well.

There's no explosion, but that does not necessarily mean failure. The glowing spot hasn't moved.
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The column will probably float eventually.

(She dismisses the shadow-tracking blue.)
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The column does float eventually. There's someone trapped in it. Human-shaped, not Balrog-shaped.

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She lands on the ice. Cracks it open with Lævateinn.

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And finds a woman staring at her. "Astonishing," the woman says.

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"Who the fuck are you."

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"My name is Thuringwethil."

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Loki spins up a lie detection song. "What are you?"

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She opposes the song-illusion. "You know, that's very rude."

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"Hadn't been informed. Look, I don't really want to have a social conversation, I just want to learn some things and expect them to be facts. I can freeze you again if you don't like this plan."

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"I am a Maia. Sometimes my interests align with Melkor's and insofar as they do I do him favors. This favor was to supervise diplomatic contact between a hundred orc civilians and the madwoman of the East, a title you wholly deserve; this form isn't my preferred one and you won't inconvenience me much by ripping it up, but if you find it cathartic you can do that."

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"If you don't like the song and you aren't going to produce any oaths that seems like the least timewasting option, honestly."

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"I swear that everything I have said in this conversation has been true."

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"Cool. And the rest of the conversation, or should it end?"

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"I am willing to swear periodically that my comments up to that point have been truthful. Swearing oneself to a future course of conduct is idiotic and very dangerous."

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"Well, that sounds like a recipe that has us hanging out in this lake for hours dubiously productively," says Loki. She lifts a hand.

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"Go ahead. If you get off on this I can stop by regularly," she says.

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"That would make an interesting tactical change," remarks Loki dryly, and she blasts and flies away.

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When she gets back it's to a bunch of very nervous Men with Orc babies, a bunch of equally nervous Elves, and Orcs giving them both instructions by yelling over an ice wall.

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Loki lands on the ice wall.

"I found," she says, "the person who was reading the orcs' minds and could have updated their instructions. I don't know her range, I don't think I managed to kill her, and while these orcs are probably perfectly nice people, I cannot make them safe neighbors, and if they are sent home they'll be the Enemy's soldiers. The babies don't have that problem. Please take the babies somewhere they don't have to watch."
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The Elves start moving.

The Men don't.

"Don't kill them," someone says a little unsteadily. "That's not fair. They haven't done anything."
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"I know it's not fair," Loki says. "If I could make them like you, and make it so they could choose what to do, I would do it. That's what I tried last time there were orcs here, I checked to see if they could turn into werewolves and get free will that way. Without it their innocence is not theirs to keep, they can be turned in the Enemy's hand at any moment. It is not fair. I would never have made a species that way, I would never abuse this trait that way if I were bringing up a child of a species with this problem, but they are here now, not when I could have saved them. There's a colony of orcs, southwest of here, who I caught before the Enemy changed how he did things, and I got them out from under their oath. These ones, I can't do that."

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They mill around uncertainly. The Elves are firmly guiding off anyone holding a child.

"It's just," the same person says even more hesitantly, "we haven't seen the Enemy. Maybe he's so bad that killing lots of innocent people to stop him is right. But if he is - what if killing all of us somehow stops him?"
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She soundproofs the orcs in the ice wall. ...And the baby orcs being carried off just in case. She jumps down.

"I've seen Thauron. So have the earlier werewolves, although he was putting on a show for them. I've seen his victims, not just the orcs but Elves he's taken. I'll tell you horror stories, so will the Elves, if that will help.

"You have free will. You can never be made as indelibly dangerous as these orcs are. You would have to make choices to get there, choices they don't have. The reason I'm here is so that you can have your first while existing as a species without Thauron whispering in your ears; but even if I weren't here and all you knew was what he told you, there would always be the possibility that you could change your minds later. I think the orcs would if I knew a way to let them. I wish I knew a way to let them. I don't."
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No one's arguing with her.

No one looks happy, either.

"This," someone says, "would sound kind of like a horror story, if someone told it to your enemies."
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"If they left out the right parts, yes. What parts do you imagine I could fold in to a description of mutilated prisoners dangling from a cliff face by one arm, only two of many clinging to life, to make that sound like the Enemy had no choice? I remember it quite clearly, I can make an illusion if words don't cut it. I cannot keep the orcs prisoner, I cannot let them go, but I am not torturing them. Orcs are born in constant pain and I fixed it."

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"I think there are lots of people who'd rather be hung from a cliff for a while than lose their babies forever."

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They don't really have very good imaginations, do they.

"I imagine the orcs would rather their babies not go to the Elves-and-orcs afterlife with them, but I can ask, if that would make you feel better."
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It doesn't, not really, but she gets a wary nod.

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She climbs up again. Desoundproofs the orcs.

"Would you prefer to bring your children to Mandos with you or leave them here?"
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"Please don't kill them."

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She amplifies this for the benefit of the Men.

"That's what I thought."

She jumps down again, replaces the soundproofing.
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None of the Men look inclined to intervene in orc slaughter. They still mostly look confused and deeply unhappy.

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You'll understand when you're older, she doesn't say.

"If any of you come up with anything to get around the oath problem, please, tell me. I needed help to think of my last solution, too. I don't know everything. But the problem is real and right now I have nothing. One day - one day I am going to invent a resurrection spell, figure out something to release them, but I can't do it today. They'll keep. Not the way they ought to, but that wasn't something I took from them."
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Some people walk away. Some people keep watching.

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The ice is kind of cloudy. It's not opaque.

"Do you really want to watch?" she asks. "I can cope. I wouldn't ask this of you."
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"If you're telling the truth and this is the right thing, then it doesn't need to be a secret. If you're lying and this is a horrible evil, then it's better that it be witnessed."

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"It's not a secret. It's just not pretty."

She climbs up.

She apologizes to the orcs. She tells them what she told the last batch about her expectations of Mandos for them. She asks if any of them would like to name their babies.
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They would. They do. There is a lot of crying.

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She writes down the names and figures out how to connect names to the correct babies and apologizes again and ices them all.

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A week later there is a human baby to join the orc babies. Someone asks her if the human baby can be named Loki.

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...That's fine with her, if that's what they want to call the baby.

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There is a human baby named Loki and orc babies named by dead orc parents and much of life in the settlement revolves around taking care of them. Crops are ready by midsummer with the crop songs, and the Elves think there'll be time for two harvests.

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That's good.

Are the werewolves still having nightmares?
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Lots of people are having nightmares. Not the werewolves specifically.

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That's probably just normal nightmares, then. The Elves would've mentioned if they had a song for that, right?

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The Elves don't have a song for nightmares. They have a song for very deep sleep which might work, if they're just ordinary nightmares.

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Well, heck, let's try that.

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That works, which resolves at least that they are merely ordinary nightmares.

Around midsummer someone knocks at night on the window of her tower.
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...The window?

She goes and looks at the window.
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It's the Maia she ice-blasted a few months ago. Hovering. "Hello," she says. "You didn't mention whether you in fact find ice blasting me satisfying, so I thought I'd drop by, talk if you want, cathartic rage of destruction if that's more your kind of thing."

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"Balrogs do this cool exploding and then not being alive thing, I don't think you're gonna top that. Will you go away if I say please?"

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"Yeah, definitely."

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"Please go away."

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And she leaves.

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...Loki skips a sleep and goes patrolling the settlement.

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Quiet, peaceful, undisturbed. Everyone alive. She eventually finds Thuringwethil sitting at the edge of a lake, skipping rocks.

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"Substantially farther away," Loki says, "please."

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"I wasn't trying to fuck with you, this spring. 'send friendly orcs over to meet Men' seemed pretty harmless." She stands, starts walking toward the desert.

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Loki sits up, outside, working, peering through a telescope now and then to watch her go.

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She walks for a few miles, then turns into a bat and flies from there.

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...Seems like a dumb choice of alternate form, if you ask Loki.

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Summer turns into fall. The second harvest is ready. A Dwarven expedition makes contact, is pleased to meet some Men, would like to know if Men are interested in trading.

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Men haven't got much but if the Dwarves see anything they like - or, these aren't Tumunzahar Dwarves, would they like some song objects? - then that sounds good.

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Song objects are popular. The Dwarves suggest Men try mining coal. It's aboveground work, not too hard, Dwarves pay very well for it.

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Loki has ever heard of a coal mine and recommends that coal miners just sort of constantly wear a healing song object as though they were pregnant and come to her every now and then, but otherwise doesn't object.

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And so Men start mining. They're also going to have houses done for this winter. They're going to be way more prepared for this winter.

Just after the first snowfall Thauron sends her Vár.
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Loki goes out to meet her.
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She recognizes her. She's injured, but Loki's seen worse. Her eyes light up in recognition, and then in miserable confusion, and then - "my orders are to somehow get you to kill me," she says, and she collapses crying at Loki's feet.

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Loki heals her. "How did - how did he get you to - the oath revision, what did he do -"

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"He made me forget. He did a lot of things and all of them hurt and I was so scared but I couldn't get Melkor's attention and then he played around in my head and he made me forget meeting you, forget everything, and then he asked me to swear my vows again to the false Melkor and with the false Elves and I did because I didn't remember and I didn't know and then he put the memories back and I'd sworn two different things and I hurt so badly I couldn't think and I couldn't move and they wouldn't kill me and I kept begging them to except I"m not even sure they could understand me because it hurt so much I couldn't hear my own voice and then he said it was okay, because both Melkors wanted the same thing from me, both of them had the same orders for me, and so it'd be really bad if they ever disagreed but right now they didn't. Right now they agreed. They both wanted me to trust Loki.

And it took me a long time to - to start having thoughts that didn't get interrupted partway through by everything hurting, but eventually I did, and then he showed me some people he sent you to ask you to come get me back, and they died, and he said I could go around and apologize to their families, so I did that, and it took a while. And then he said that you were killing orcs now, you had to, but both Melkors wanted me to go back to you, so I had to do that. And eventually the Melkors were going to disagree on something so I had to tell you to kill me.

And I said that I didn't want to be dead, I might have said that when everything hurt but I didn't really mean it. And he said that I'd sworn to obey and my orders were to get you to kill me. He didn't say right away so I think I'm allowed to tell you everything first. And maybe help the other orcs, if they're still out there and scared."
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"There's babies, here. Only babies. And the colony, if he left it alone after I killed the Balrog that was hiding among the escorts." Loki drops to her knees and hugs Vár. "I don't know how to untangle all that, I don't, I don't have a way to make you forget again, or - anything. I had one stupid oath trick and now it's gone and I haven't thought of anything else, anything that worked."

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"Babies? Can I see them? Are they okay?"

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"The babies are all right. They were too young to have possibly sworn anything and some of the Men are bringing them up. I think your mind is probably being read and anything I show you will be seen -"

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"Oh. Then I shouldn't go see them, in case he decides to attack them and get them back or something. I don't think he's scared of there being orcs who know about the true Melkor, though. I think he actually just took me because he's mad at you."

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"That's what I thought too. And I'd already used up my way to get prisoners out. I fought him but I had help and he still didn't die."

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"He told me the same thing, except it was you he said didn't die. I was glad."

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Hug.

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"You don't have to kill me right away but you probably don't have very long. I can't disobey orders and my orders are to convince you and even if the other Melkor gave me different orders that'd just mean everything hurt."

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"I don't want you to hurt. I could try to make convincing me impossible but then whoever's reading your mind could just update your orders. Is there anything else I should know?"

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She bites her lip. "Not sure. It was a long walk, I might have forgotten - oh, Sauron says to tell you that you can still make any of the trades he offered before, and he'll update the orders so I can go."

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"I can't do that. I can't trust him unless he's swearing and then I only mostly can't trust him, he'd still be able to tell you anything he liked about what Melkor said."

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"I figured it was something like that when you killed everyone. I figured you wouldn't have done that if you could've done something else."

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"I tried turning an orc into a werewolf in case it would grant free will. No such luck. Long shot to begin with."

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"Can I have something to eat? I feel kind of weird in the head and I think I might just be hungry."

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What has Loki got on her - little dried fruit in her pockets, okay. She gives Vár dried fruit, and makes her a little bit of ice to suck on in lieu of having water on hand.

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"Where'd you get ice powers?"

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"Picked them up a while ago. I'd tell you how but I'm not sure he knows, yet. They're neat though."

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"Yeah.


Last time when you couldn't think of anything you asked the Quendi."
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"There's only a few of those here. I asked. I asked the Men too. Nobody's thought of anything. I think if Fëanor had had a better idea he'd have mentioned it back when I first brought you there. But in the long run he has every intention of breaking open Mandos and freeing everybody in it and so have I."

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"Is that why the false Melkor's been giving everyone orders not to follow the call of the Elf-gods when they die?"

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"Probably. But I mean to have resurrection that would work even on Men."
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She sucks on her ice. "I don't want to die. I know that's the wrong thing to say to persuade you but it sounds like I don't even need to persuade you so I think I can say it."

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Hug. "I don't want you to die either. And I have no intention of leaving you that way. And unless I think of something searingly brilliant -"

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"I'm not searingly brilliant. And if there are people who are searingly brilliant and would think of something, he probably knows that, and he's probably hoping you'll ask them to save me instead of do whatever more important things need searing brilliance. I still don't want to die. It doesn't feel like dying protecting people in battle. It just feels bad and lonely and pointless and there are so many things I want to do that I keep thinking of now I don't have time for them -"

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Loki does not freeze her eyes when they water, this time.

"Did he tell you not to go to Mandos, too?"
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"Yeah. Supposed to come right back to him."

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"How does that work?"
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"I'm not exactly sure; he said it like once I was dead I would know. I know that you hear the call to the halls of the Elf-god, and most everyone goes there, because everyone they know is there and it's not like it hurts less anywhere else. And you don't have to accept the call to the halls of the Elf-god but then your soul is just kind of wandering and Melkor or anyone else who can see and manipulate souls can grab it. And now I guess we go straight back so Melkor can take it first."

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"If the Melkors disagree, do you just get to decide?"
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"If the Melkors disagree everything hurts," she says. "But maybe if I could think past the hurting, yeah."

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"Thauron wants," says Loki, "for me to think about you in Angband subject to whatever evil he thinks up, all the time, so that I can't get the work done that I need to do. But it's possible Mandos can fix the oaths for you and it's possible Mandos is on the ball enough to do that and it is likely he won't make anything worse than you would be any time the oaths conflict anyway and Thauron is by no means above using that option to hurt you if he has you. Do you understand?"

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She swallows. "You think - you think the Melkors disagree."

And she tenses, and her eyes squeeze shut, and she cries out in pain.
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"Go to Mandos. Go to Mandos and ask for help and if he can't or won't help you wait and I will get you out." And Loki squeezes her and kisses her forehead and it is a lance of ice through the brain.

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Winter comes. It's a mild one.

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She makes an igloo anyway. Snow-skittish ice-crossed Elves can have the tower.

Vár burns, just like home, if orcs have funereal customs she doesn't know them.

She will work faster.
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The orc children grow up fast. They can talk, now, and walk; they play games in the snow.

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They're cute.

She tries not to scare them.

At least it turns out orcs are apparently recyclable and she can start just turning around any more who come by.
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After she's done this a couple times he stops sending them. Periodic checks for invisible creatures lurking on her lands will reveal none. The snow melts early.

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When her igloo is no longer structurally stable she swaps the Elves for the tower again. And works and works and works.

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No one interrupts her.

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She doesn't work literally constantly, although at this point she's sometimes putting in multiple consecutive days. She goes out, she talks to people, she applies songs to things to accommodate the growing population and takes careful notes of how many of her limited copying entitlements she's spending down for trade with Dwarves. She makes page-turnable copies of books, and she translates and churns out such copies of books on plumbing-and-such, when she needs to just stop doing what she's doing for an hour. She generally remembers to eat well enough that no one need feel tempted to fetch her a tray.

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The Elves are flabbergasted by the idea of this many books and tell the Men earnestly that they are the wealthiest civilization on earth.

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The Elves know she got these from the Fëanorians, right?

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They do, but even the Feanorians don't casually make copies of books.

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Maybe she should explain the printing press again to this audience.

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They like the idea, but lack the means to make much use of it. They don't have forges or tools for metalworking yet. Perhaps next trade with the Dwarves.

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You could use wooden type if you wanted.

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That they can give a go. The clumsy first efforts at a printing press begin.

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Yay.

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The baby orcs are now big enough to help plant crops, big enough to read books, and hearing complicated stories from all ends about who and what they are.

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Do any baby orcs want to hear it from her?
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Yeah. That'd probably be best.

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Because does she ever have a story for them.

"You're all adopted," she says. "I was adopted too. My birth parents' race are called Jötun and my adoptive parents' race are called Asgardians and the two of them are in a long, long, long war, that started before I was born. And one day my adoptive mother Odin scooped me up and took me home and told everybody I was her daughter, and made me look like an Asgardian, which I still do now except on special occasions; and I had an Asgardian father, too, and an Asgardian sister. And nobody told me I was really a Jötun."
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They nod, wide-eyed.

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"That's not going to happen to you. You get to know what you are from the start. You're orcs; your birth parents were orcs; somewhere some generations back you have Elf ancestors, because that's where orcs came from, sort of how werewolves are made from Men."

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More nods.

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"As far as I know Asgard and Jötunheim are fighting for no reason at all. That could be just because no one told me there's a reason, or it could be just a very stupid war. But you might have picked up that most orcs are fighting most everybody else."

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"The Elves say orcs fight them. Everyone else says we just kill orcs if they come and aren't babies."

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"Elves and orcs have a trait which means that they can promise to do things, and then can't break their promise," Loki says. "It's just the same in both species, but the difference is that Elves almost never swear any promises like that, so they can do what seems right to them, day to day; and all the orcs except you and another orc colony southwest of here live under the Enemy. And he makes them promise, and that still works, and then they're all out of choices about anything he makes them swear, forever. You all need to be very careful not to swear things. This is extremely, extremely important, because if you do it, you can't take it back, no matter how much of a bad idea is or if you fumbled the words and they came out not what you meant or if something changes to make you not want to do the thing anymore."

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The Elves have already impressed this upon them. Never ever swear anything until you are much older and know what you're doing and have consulted with them and had lots of time to think it over.

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"Good.

But the orcs the Enemy has don't get that lecture. They just get told to repeat certain words, and then the Enemy can use them however he wants. He can make them do anything. He can do it from hundreds of miles away, if a Maia's around to deliver the orders with osanwë. Sometimes he tricks Elves into making oaths, too, I've seen that happen once - well, I saw the aftermath."
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No oaths. What if we swear never to make any further oaths?

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"Don't try it. I know why it might seem like a good idea, but don't try it. Ideally the Enemy will never be personally interested in you and you'll never even be very tempted to make an oath. If he ever is, though, any oath you've ever made before he can make you forget, and then he can make you make another oath on top of that which contradicts it, and then your life is ruined forever. He's done it. He did it to my friend Vár."

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Now she has a bunch of very scared little kids.

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She pats one on the shoulder. "It's horrible. The Enemy is very horrible. And the best advice I can give you to deal with that is to not make any oaths even about not making oaths. One day I'm going to figure out how to kill him and then the world will be much safer."

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It is, all things considered, a pretty good 'you're adopted' talk. Orcs, when not raised by Morgoth, seem to have temperaments much like those of Men.

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Good.

She hugs all the little orcs and sends them off to play.
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The routine checks for invisible Maiar turn up one two hundred miles to the south.

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Greaaaaaat.

Off she goes.
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She tags the thing which is leaving an illusion-shadow, but it hasn't moved anyway.

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"Are you whatsherface who turns into a bat or somebody else?" asks illusion sound near the shadow, while Loki's still up in the air invisible.

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The shadow turns around in what at least resembles confusion.

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"Hello?"

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Did you color the land? That's not wise or good for the plants. You should stop.

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It helps me find invisible people. Sometimes they mean harm to my people. Who are you?

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I haven't picked a name incarnates can speak, I don't spend much time around them. This is my river, and I wander it from source to ocean making sure that it is thriving.

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It's a very nice river.

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Thank you.

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Is the color inconveniencing the river? I could make it a different color, or line it up more carefully with the river bottom; all it needs to do is catch shadows so the Enemy's people don't sneak up on my settlement.

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It sends a projection of the way the color falls on the river, and the ways this affects fish and plants, then flickers through a hundred possible colors or alignments, searching for something that affects the river less -

- this one will do.
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Thanks for the clear mental image, that will make it easy.

And Loki implements it.
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Thank you. It'd be better not to do it at all; rivers aren't meant to be colored.

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I regret the necessity very much.

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Thuringwethil calls you the madwoman of the east but I think you seem rather sensible.

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Ah, that's turns-into-a-bat's name, I'd forgotten it. We didn't meet under very good circumstances; she was working for the Enemy. I'm not sure if it's her full-time job.

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She does not strike me as likely to have a full-time job.

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Entirely possible.

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And what is yours?

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I manage a settlement of mostly Men, who appeared without very much idea of how to go on from there and were previously being interfered with by Thauron. And I develop magic.

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Don't redirect the rivers, please.

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I'll pass that along. I don't think any of them have plans to do so.

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They have very short memories.

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Well, I introduced them to reading, so they can write it down for later.

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They are also very impulsive.

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They might decide later they have a compelling reason to divert a river. Rivers eventually change course anyway; perhaps they could just ask you to put it where they want it, and then they wouldn't be tempted to try damming or anything like that?

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Yes, good. If they desire to change the river they should ask me and I will evaluate whether it can be done and how to minimize harm.

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Lovely. Where should they find you?

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I walk up and down the river from the source to the ocean.

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Maybe they could put a message in a bottle? Would you notice that; do you read? Men are in a hurry all the time; they have to be, they don't live very long.

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I would certainly notice someone putting a message in a bottle in my river. They had better not do it often.

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How often is often?

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I can fish Men's things out of the river once each time it freezes. More than that will be very distracting.

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Okay, so up to once annually they can send you river-related requests, which you will consider?

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Yes.

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Thank you. Would you like to make up a name so they have something to call you other than 'river Maia'?

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I will think on it. Names are very serious things.

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All right. How should they expect replies?

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If I agree with what they want to do I will do it.

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And if you don't?

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I won't do it, and they shouldn't either.

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But perhaps you could tell them what the problem is, and then they'd be able to think of other ways to get what they need and propose a revision the following year.

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Talking with incarnates is very hard. You're all right. Most of them don't understand me at all.

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Who else have you tried talking to?

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Elves. Dwarves. Cats. Deer.

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...Will you in fact be able to read the Men's language when they send messages?

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Thuringwethil can, I will owe her a favor.

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And when did Thuringwethil pick it up. And what kind of favor. I could try teaching you now, if you like. She was around when the written language was invented and can probably get through basic vocabulary with only intermittent Allspeak use.

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Can you explain things in terms of water movement? Things that are sort of analogous to water movement are easy to learn, everything else is very hard.

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...I can try.

Okay, so, Men communicate in sounds, and in the same way water will make certain sounds when moving in certain patterns (clunk if you drop a rock in, hiss if you force it through a narrow aperture under pressure, etc.), some shapes of mark represent sounds. This will not do the river Maia that much good since she's not familiar with the spoken language, but that's the underlying idea. Here are example written sentences all of which are themed around water/rivers/lakes/rain/waterfalls/snow/ice/mist/steam/etc. Here is a map: it has rivers on it. If one day the Men wanted the river to adopt a certain flooding pattern, or go around some area they hoped to use for something else, or move slower or faster here or there for safety or industry, they might ask like so and accompany it with drawings.
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Okay. I can try responding like so - and she turns a leaf in her hand into a marvelously detailed moving map, showing problems with the land if the river moves.

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Maybe highlight the problems in red; the map is gorgeous but it's not necessarily obvious to Men which changes are problems and which are just changes. Other than that, seems great.

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Parts of the map get highlighted. All right. Thank you for advising the Men not to do silly things.

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You're welcome.

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I don't think you're mad at all, Eru just gave you a very hard job.

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I appreciate that.

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Would you like to go swimming? It's lovely. The river goes underground through these caverns and gets so deep.

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I have to breathe, so I'm not sure I can best appreciate the caverns without equipment I don't have, but I'm sure they're lovely.

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Oh. In theory I could fix that but I've never tried. Sorry. I'll practice and let you know if I ever get it down.

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Thanks. I'll go tell the Men to mind the river.

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Have fun!

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Bye!

And Loki flies back and says it seems to have been a benign river Maia and they can float messages in the river for her if they need something river-related but keep it down to once a year at most and she will respond with pictorial maps.
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The Men are rather delighted by the idea of a benign river Maia and the Elves teach them songs to sing at the river.

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Oh, and do not mess with the river without permission, it's the Maia's and she wouldn't like it. Also you know how Elves are kinda... slow? Maiar are like that too and they might have to be patient. But she seems nice.

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They'll treat the river with appropriate deference. Summer comes, and first harvest.

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And Loki settles back in to her routine.

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There is a lunar eclipse. Everyone, even the Elves, is fairly panicked.

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Loki gives an astronomy lecture, with the usual disclaimer that what she knows is planets in general and not this weird planet's weird astronomy; but she did see an eclipse or two on Midgard and it was like that.

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Astronomy is interesting and lots of people kind of want to take it up. A shame about this weird planet's weird astronomy.

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Loki can attach illusion telescopes to sticks! They will not get you as far as Elf vision but they should help. Note: stars are less starlike than they appear.

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And the seasons change, and the orcs are half-grown, and the Enemy does not bother them.

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That is very nice. She likes not being bothered by the Enemy.

She's starting to be a little deadline-conscious. Huan said five years. Could be longer; could just really be five. She apprises people of this deadline: she is not sure what will happen or when, but she does not want it to be a complete surprise.
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This makes people nervous. What can they do to prepare? The Elves suggest building enchanted walls, but you can't actually build them over a space as expansive as this one.

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...Can she get a bird Elf to go see if there is by any chance a city being assembled via music hereish, and if there is not continuing west to ask about that at the Fëanorian camp?

Also: would those Dwarves they have a relationship with be willing to be a fallback position for fleeing persons?
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The Dwarves will try but wow this is a lot of Men and orcs and they have, like, thirty beds for full-sized people? More notice would have been nice.

A bird Elf returns to confirm that there's a stone Noldorin city in the shape of an eight-pointed star in eastern Beleriand, though it seems to be being assembled by a work crew of several thousand Dwarves rather than by music.
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Loki apologizes for not bringing it up earlier.

The city may be interesting - and if it looks far enough along and accessible enough maybe it can be a fallback point too - but if it's being built by Dwarves Macalaurë probably doesn't have that one song done yet.

Maybe Loki should've had a conversation with turns-into-a-bat. She's not sure to what extent it is possible to intermittently work for the Enemy, but maybe turns-into-a-bat (why is her name so hard to remember) has pulled it off.

Loki goes looking for the river Maia. Not with color beyond the shadow-detecting radius, but by zooming along the river calling out occasionally.
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And she finds the river-Maia far south. Hello!

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Hi! How are you and your river doing?

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Lovely! It hasn't had much time to do anything different, I just saw you.

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I came by because I'm trying to get ready for the possibility that the Enemy's going to attack my settlement soon. It's been relatively quiet because Thauron hasn't been able to keep a physical form for the last few years, but he may regain that power soon, in one to ten years' time, and while it's possible his attention will turn elsewhere it seems likely he'll come after the Men, since that's where he was when he was driven away. I'm not a Maia, and I'm not as strong as he is, and I'm worried.

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I'm sorry. If he bothered my river I'd be very scared and angry.

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I don't know if he's likely to bother the river. I'm wondering if you could tell if he's coming - in case he has a way to beat my shadow catcher? I met a Maia who could tell me where Thauron was from a certain range, even when I couldn't see him, I don't know if it's a general ability.

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I would know when he was around my river. But if you two have a feud, and I help you, he'll be angry and probably destroy the river.

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You think he could tell if you told me where he was?

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He would know someone told you, and then he'd check who was around.

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Makes sense. Do you know any other local Maiar?

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Thuringwethil's around sometimes. Melian has a forest.

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Melian's definitely not leaving her forest and probably wouldn't let my people all come barging in there. I'm not at all sure what to make of Thuringwethil but maybe I'll see her.

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She likes you. She talked about you at me for days and sounded very annoyed and she doesn't usually get annoyed that easily.

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She likes me? Really?

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You don't think so?

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It wasn't my first guess. I didn't actually talk to her very long because I assumed based on past experience that the Enemy probably sent her to do some sort of injury to my psychological stability or schedule or both.

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Oh. You could ask her if she was on a contract for Melkor the second time she went to see you but I don't think she was.

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Well, I don't know where to find her now.

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You don't want to go visit her? I don't go visit her, the river doesn't go there. She'll probably come say hello to you again in a few decades.

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Where would I go visit her?

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She gestures, sends a mental image, of a mountain range a way west. Where she lives, probably?

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I didn't know where she lived. Thanks for the directions.

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Tell her I said hello!

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Will do!

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The mountain is a volcanic one, but not currently active; plants have grown around the rocks from whenever it last erupted.

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Hey Thuringwethil.

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And she appears on one of the rocks. She's in almost the same form as before, but she has metal wings that are jointed like a bat's. Oh, hello.

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Hi. River Maia says hi too, and says you may not in fact have been sent by Morgoth and/or Thauron to do injury to my psychology and/or schedule.

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First time he asked me to escort a hundred orcs over to meet the Men. Unarmed, with babies. Their orders were to not hurt anyone even if attacked but I could change their orders if the situation suited. He might have done that to hurt your feelings or waste your time, might've done it to resettle some orcs because they were short on food, hard to say.

You turned the entire continent blue to find me, chase me down, murder me with ice, and then kill them all except the children. That was not what I was expecting you to do. So the second time I just stopped by to say hi.
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I can see how the mission might have been presented in an innocuous light if he were disposed to frame it that way. Also it was not the entire continent.

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It was pretty impressive. Anyway, he makes generous deals and sometimes I take them. If you know how to play the game you can definitely come out ahead.

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He's got an informational advantage I don't like in my hostile negotiating partners and the last time I was playing along with a possible deal it turned out he'd kidnapped my friend and then went on to torture her for years. What does he bribe you with?

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Yeah, if you don't know how to play the game it can really fuck you over. I have some places and some people I care about, he leaves them and me alone and in exchange occasionally he can call in a not-particularly-evil favor. If there's enough at stake maybe an evil favor.

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So I should be parsing you as a largely amoral bribeable independent, here.

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I literally told you that the minute we met.

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Well, before I met you the Maiar I encountered were, one, Melian, two, shapeshifted Balrogs infiltrating groups I had interests in not having infiltrated, three, Thauron, four, the one who I helped chase Thauron back into Angband. I didn't have a good category for you and you were invisible, probably reading a bunch of orcs' minds, and in context definitely working for Thauron, of whom I have a distinctly negative opinion.

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He goes by Sauron, you know. It's just the one stupid group of Elves who call him Thauron and he doesn't like it. I'm not saying you should have had everything figured out, you're clearly pulling ridiculous leverage on the resources you have and if that means sometimes being an asshole, well. She leans back. I'm not currently working for him, except insofar as he made it super widely known that anyone who kills you will suffer for it.

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I call him that because that's what the person I first talked about him with calls him; it may be entirely to piss him off, which I can hardly fault someone he tortured that much for doing. Is not wanting people to kill me because he wants to kill me himself or something or does he just want me alive?

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Didn't say, but wanting to kill you himself would be unusually stupid for him. Or stupid in a way he doesn't tend to be. I think -

- I think he actually wants to win. And if things go according to fate, he loses. And he almost certainly loses a hell of a lot faster and harder with you around, but with you around it's not destined. He's terrified of you and he's terrified of losing you. Also he's super pissed off because he can't hold a physical form without it shattering into ice crystals randomly, there's that.
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Ooh, is that what happens if he tries? That's funny.

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You fucked him up good. I was curious if that'd happen to me, but doesn't seem to. She stretches out her wings. The Elves don't know their fate, not with any detail, but we do. The war is about as gloriously painful and terrible as if Sauron'd written it himself. Most people'd be happy just to bring that about. But no, he wants to win.

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I hit him harder than I hit you. And that wasn't the beginning or the end of the engagement. What do you want?

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I mean, I thought the fated version was fucking hilarious. I didn't really think I had a choice about it, though. Now I'm not really sure. At the time it seemed reasonable to just - not give a shit - if nothing I did changed anything anyway. But here were are, here it does, and it'd be convenient to remember what I wanted back before I learned what's fated.

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Not having free will sounds like a raw deal.

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I die in four hundred fifty two years. And now here you are, and you can just do whatever the hell you want, and you could kill me today if you really put your heart into it.

So yeah. Betcha he wants you alive.
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How does having a slated death date even work? Like, in what way could you not decide to go dive into a more lively volcano or whatever if you were not satisfied with this schedule and wanted to flip it off, I'm not suggesting it I just don't understand how this affects your object-level decisionmaking.

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Some of the Maiar did that. Now they're dead and as far as we remember the plan, that was the plan.

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Okay, but you remember the plan having you dead in four hundred fifty two years. Do you have spooky time-travel effects on the plan when you do things or something?

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I don't think so. If I were the kind of person to kill myself to fuck the plan, my plan would have been killing myself to fuck the plan. Since I'm not, my plan is to keep hanging out here doing what I do and then at the right moment Sauron will call in a favor and the circumstances will be such that I don't refuse, or I do refuse and that's what triggers it - we don't have all the details about our own choices -

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But if the plan is that somebody kills themselves to fuck the plan, then them killing themselves does not in fact fuck the plan!

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Why do you think Melkor flipped out and decided to literally torture everything? Because there's no way to fuck the plan! That's what he wanted and he tried all sorts of shit and then more of the plan would be revealed to us and that was in it, and he went farther and farther batshit and the plan rolled out and there it was, and eventually he settled for just being as awful as he conceivably could.

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I mean, that does sound really frustrating, but at some point didn't you guys have advance notice on the Men, if not me?

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It takes a lot to drag a fate as great as Melkor's off the tracks. Sauron might have stood a chance, and he threw everything he had at it.

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I'm really not sure why this isn't as simple as hiring a Man to make the occasional decision for you and then doing whatever the Man says. It doesn't seem like it ought to require turning them into werewolves or anything fucked up like that.

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There isn't really a set of small decisions that could change the way Arda's history is fated to go. And Eru can and occasionally does intervene directly. It'd take - it'd take someone thinking big enough, and someone powerful enough. The Men might eventually grow into the sort of things that can change the story. But asking one of them "do we attack the Elves with Balrogs or not" wouldn't do it.

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But free will seems like such a - a miscible ingredient - maybe I shouldn't speculate on this any more, you are after all fated to owe Thauron a favor.

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You can't get out of it by making decisions with coin flips either. It's not like that. I don't have a great explanation. And I'm fated to owe him a favor in four hundred fifty years, weren't you planning to have this war over long before that?

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Yes, but for all I know I've already fucked the plan.

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The eldest son of Fëanor being rescued was in the plan. Lúthien of Doriath deciding to acquire combat skills was in the plan. If you vanished today I think fate would get itself back on track.

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Huh. ...You talk to Lúthien?

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No, but you do, and she's the one who's fated to kill me, so I try to stay as apprised of her as one can when she doesn't leave her forest and I'm not allowed in.

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...she's fated to...? Okay, but how did you know that in particular?

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I don't think you've offered me a job. Or even promised you won't try to kill me as soon as we're done talking.

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I actually don't kill people for recreational purposes! Loki says. I don't like it nearly as much as it must look like!

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Individual orcs can't really be said to advantage Melkor at all, he barely notices them. You were still killing them. Or are you like the Elves, who regard it as a mercy? Anyway, I think I'll keep my secrets. Lúthien's safe. She'll be safe for another four and a half centuries, when she will fall in love with someone - fate is flexible as to who - and her father will disapprove of him.

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I stopped killing them. They turned out to be recyclable.

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I probably shouldn't tell you this, because I approve of you not killing unarmed orcs who are barely out of childhood, good lord, but no, they're not. Melkor can collect their souls but he's not Mandos and can't do anything with them.

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Oh.

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It still barely costs him anything. He has, what, a million by now? He honestly might be sending you ones he's inclined to dispose of anyway. Or he might be trying to turn Mandos against you, Mandos might eventually get unamused with your death toll. Though he cares more about Elves than Orcs. And isn't going to do anything for five centuries anyway.

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Five centuries is plenty of time.

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You gonna try overthrowing the Valar? If that's what you want, why not make nice with Sauron? He has all the cards but you have all the leverage.

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I might have considered it but he's just so darned determinedly evil and the Valar are merely incompetent assholes and therefore a lesser priority.

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He is, isn't he? The plan says something like 'the shadow of torment was forever in Nelyafinwë's eyes' and he goes 'okay how inventive can I get with this'. And I'm sorry. About your friend.

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Not to rub it in or whatever but 'rescue someone from Angband' is a thing I can do. Once.

And oaths to serve someone are voided if that someone is dead, and unless she had a crush on you I can't think what fault Mandos would find with her, so no later than when Melkor's shredded she'll be fine.
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...I don't think she had a crush on me. And that's - well, partial solution, but the most important part.

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Fucking stupid to use Elves as the building block for a subservient warrior race, isn't it? They're just too good-natured for it.

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Vár's a sweetie.

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Melian wanted you to stay in Doriath and be impossible for Sauron to get any information to, right? She's a myopic prissy creep but she didn't suggest that to annoy you, she suggested it because this was obviously gonna be Sauron's next play and sure enough.

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Yes. But I think he already had Vár, when she said that.

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If you change your mind about deals with Sauron, you and I can talk, I can go get an oath with agreed-upon wording from him, I can come back and swear to the wording I heard.

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If he wants to stop being so fucking evil then it's Valar-in-general who get to lose faster and harder because I'm on hand. Maybe he'd go for it. But if he wants to win and he wants to win under the banner of Being Really Really Evil then it's not gonna work out.

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Doubt he's wedded to the banner. I can ask.


I think you're gonna win and take over the world. What do you want, such that when that happens I get to live alone in peace and do my thing?
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Don't be evil, that's step one.

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Not in the habit of torturing people. Don't even do a lot of fucking with them. Your settlement's not really very well protected against anyone who has a small animal form.

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Suggestions? And why a bat?

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Echolocation is great. I bet everyone's looking into bat forms now that they've got Miss Invisibility on the playing field.

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Does inaudibility counter it or does it work the same way my shadow catcher works?

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No comment, sweetheart. Anyway, you either need walled cities or caves, there's a reason the Elves end up always going for one or the two.

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Wouldn't you fly right over a wall?

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The Elves had the enchantment for that even in the old days. Have they forgotten it? That'd be hilarious. I'd be happy to teach someone.

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Is it in song form?

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Nah, then you'd need someone to keep singing it. She gestures at the ground and it resolves itself into a brick; she draws some symbol on the brick with her fingernail, which briefly glows red-hot. Boom. A Power has to contest it to get past it, and contesting every brick in a wall takes forever, more than long enough for the little guys to run.

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Loki takes an illusion copy. So, how tall does a wall have to be to work at all?

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I mean, they usually also build them tall enough to keep orcs away. If you don't have many bricks, doesn't take that long to contest, but other than that there's no limit.

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Does anything need to happen besides this symbol being in the wall? Does it have to be engraved? Does anything besides engraving have to happen? Is there anything to be gained from multiple symbols per brick?

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Do I look like an Elf? Or an architect?

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None of those told me about this in the first place!

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You're not a Maia, so they wouldn't work on you! Or maybe the Elves who remembered what the last war was like didn't come to fight this one, sensibly so, and somehow in Valinor the knowledge of how to keep Maiar out with your walls didn't get passed down. Or perhaps Melkor spread misinformation about it, actually, that's a thing he'd do.

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So you don't know the answers to my questions?

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I've never built such a wall, never played around with it too much, all I know is what the wild Elves had back beside Cuivienen. It was enough to warn them so they could flee, it was the first magic they learned. Perhaps someone kindhearted told them. They were fucked enough as it was and it could have been even worse.

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What do you want to test walls for me?

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Super tempted to say 'get Lúthien to swear that she won't kill me specifically in four hundred fifty two years, she can kill me some other time if she sees fit' but I don't know that you could and also if you're still in the game fate might just lose anyway.




Stop killing the orcs. Keep sending them back. He doesn't give a shit, but someone should, and I kind of do. They were all excited when I took them out. Like it was a fucking field trip. Putting flowers in their kids' hair.
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He hasn't sent me any in a while, but if he sends me unarmed orcs and they go home when told I will tell them to go home.

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Then I'd be happy to pop by and test your walls. When?

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Well, one of the tests I want to make is whether I can just wallpaper the place in the symbol and have that work or if you can just walk through it by contesting the illusion and not the symbol. We could try that here.

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Hit me.

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So Loki makes a wall of the symbol, patterned prettily in midair.

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She walks through it. Damn. Nah, don't even have to contest the illusion. I think the engraving-in-brick thing must be doing some of the magical work.

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Okay... Loki breathes ice into her hands, winds up with something vaguely bricky, etches the symbol into that to see if it spontaneously melts or anything.

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It doesn't spontaneously melt. I could contest it by melting the ice instead of by contesting the symbol, though, betcha.

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Be my guest. Loki places the ice brick.

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She focuses, and starts melting a thin line to connect parts of the symbol. I'd be incovenienced by a thousand of those, but someone with heat as an ability wouldn't especially.

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All right, so it wouldn't help if a Balrog comes to call. Loki grabs a rock, turns Lævateinn into something etchy, etches.

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That's the version I'm familiar with. She goes bat, tries to flutter over it; the symbol glows and the bat flaps in midair and she concentrates for several seconds before it stops glowing and the bat flutters forwards and immediately back into a woman.

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Is the symbol used up permanently now or would you have to do that again to cross again?

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Nah, I'd have to keep doing it. I could try eroding away the stone like I did the ice, in which case it's permanently done with, but stone takes way longer than ice to erode.

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Loki etches a second instance.

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They both glow when she tries crossing. They take longer, but not twice as long. Mind, another thing I could do and am not doing is just throw the stone around, or open up a crack in the ground and swallow it. This is excellent for making sure nothing gets through without you knowing, and for slowing things down. It's not very good for making sure nothing gets through period.

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Yeah. Pity I can't just do the illusion cheat, I love being able to cheat at things. If it was underground it wouldn't work?

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You can definitely build a wall where the bottom layer of bricks are inscribed and are underground. If they were underground and covered by dirt I'm not sure. I don't know how incarnates do magic, really.

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Loki looks for some dirt to bury her brick under.

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Thuringwethil lazily raises a hand and digs a trench for her. You have more range than me. Can you only do, like, super specific shit?

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Kinda. In goes rock. I can do whatever, but I have to learn how and I have only learned how to do a certain number of things.

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Bat, fly, is stopped in midair, contests the symbol. It doesn't take quite as long. Easier to tell it to fuck off, but I definitely still feel it.

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Loki tries drawing the symbol directly on the ground, three times in a row.

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Nope. Dirt-drawing doesn't count as engraving. The Elves should really know this shit, she says, de-bat-ing, it's their stuff.

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I mean, it's possible they do and it just never came up. Brithombar has walls. The other strategies I've seen are "be Doriath" and "try to make it really inconvenient for a Balrog to be among you, maybe fail at that".

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Brithombar is folks who never went to Valinor. It's the newbies who I'm wondering if straight-up forgot, because, yeah.

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I will have to pass it on.

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Whoopie-doo. This doesn't solve your Sauron problem. He will show up, blast the wall - maybe it takes him several hours, okay, that's time for you to tell the Men to run - and then have the rematch that he's itching for, and he at least seems under the impression that he can definitely kill you and might be able to take you alive depending whether there's any magic that works against ice powers.

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Yeah. Do you know how to solve my Sauron problem?

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I solved mine by agreeing to work with him when he had stuff that wasn't gratuitous torture for kicks. You could also try moving all the Men into a city defended by people who are actually willing to throw thousands of their own into pinning him there - you can put those things on armor, inhibits our freedom of movement - until you can come and icy blast. Or you could try going to the ocean and going "Ulmo, for fucks fucking sake" and hoping he takes pity on you.

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I'm not sure the ice is decisive. He managed to get me off him while I was doing it and kept fighting for a while afterwards.

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And three years later he goes all ice crystals whenever he wants a physical form. We can - draw our essence dry, in dire need. It's just a really bad idea.

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I think we both went into that fight underestimating each other and my revised assumption is that he could take me until I make my next breakthrough. After that all bets are off.

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Just be glad you didn't run into him before the ice powers - I'm assuming those were recently acquired? There's occasions I'd have expected you to use them if you had them - because if you had, you'd be in Angband now.

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Recently mastered.

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Well. Don't keep gambling, someday you'll lose.

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If only I knew how to withdraw more of my stakes from the table.

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Tell Sauron that you're having a great time and you're sure he is too, but you're both much more able to hurt each other than defend your own interests and that's the worst kind of war to fight, and you want to broadly discuss terms for an oath that he goes nowhere near the Men for a hundred years and doesn't send anyone or anything to harm them, and he'd better ask something of you that hurts the Valar instead of just being evil because you're not gonna just be evil, not your style.

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Do you think that'd work?

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I think he'd name you a price.

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His previous ideas of a price for a thing include 'give him my magic sword'. Which is not the evilest thing I could do, it's great but it's not that great, but it still betrays an interest in carving off resources from me instead of aiming at mutual anything.

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I don't think there's anything actionable in your shared interests at the moment. You don't know how to bring back the dead, which is the first thing that will really put you at odds with the Valar. Didn't he also suggest giving him information? That's sort of a mutual-interest thing. You could offer to hand him the Elf he wants with strong welfare conditions. You could suggest something yourself.

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He cannot have the Elf he wants. Information will presumably be turned directly to miscellaneous evil. I'm honestly not sure what he might want in between 'evil' and 'fucking over the Valar' with the timescale of the first and the acceptability of the latter.

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What is it about that one specific Elf? You're pretty good at making the right hard calls even when that involves killing friends of yours who trust you and so forth. Um. She runs a hand through her hair. It gets about a foot longer. She starts knotting it in her fingers. You could suggest to him that he start a new division of Angband in which everyone who works there takes an oath not to use anything they develop on any continent save Valinor, and then teach that division things you know.

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Various things are about that specific Elf. That leaves the option of espionage from the main division of Angband, and I have nothing against the Elven residents of Valinor either.

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You don't actually want a deal with Sauron, you just want him to leave you alone.

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That's about the size of it. He talks a good game about defeating the Valar and splitting the galaxy with me and blah blah blah but he actually spends all his time doing unconscionable things.

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What he was doing with the Men wasn't particularly unconscionable.

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He wasn't there very long before I iced his ass, and in that time he did have terrible ethical standards for his werewolf experiments.

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So no mutually beneficial agreements. Anything you'd be willing to trade for ten years' time that isn't mutually beneficial, just worth it?

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...I'm sure there is but I don't know what.

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Well, you're not telling me what makes 'Elves' an unacceptable trade, that's his favorite evil currency, you're not happy about the sword, information is a 'no' - grand gestures? Tell all the Elves you've switched sides, while he illusions some atrocity you needn't actually commit?

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That's out too. Reasons.

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I would like to make an agreement with someone. I will not give them anything that furthers their ends, and I will not give them anything that entertains them without furthering their ends because their favorite form of entertainment is inconveniently torture. I in fact will not propose a single thing I would give them. Is there a way to reach an agreement here?

You could offer to go to Angband.
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Look, if he wanted me to go yell rude things at a beach we might be able to manage, although I'd probably want to check how Ulmo answered a question he may have gotten around to answering by now first. I feel like Angband would be an extremely unhealthy environment for me to get anything done in.

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I do not think he'd be satisfied with rude yelling at a beach. Though you should do it anyway, maybe not rudely, on the off chance Ulmo will help you, he has been known to do that.

Could offer to work from Angband but insist they stop the torture? I think he mostly does that for fun, not for strategic reasons, so he might be amenable. Or would being surrounded by dead-eyed suicidal broken Quendi who aren't actively being tortured still mess with your psychological - wait, that wasn't actually a rhetorical question when I started asking it but by the end of the sentence it totally was.
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I mean, I know they're there. Could be a tossup in how it affects my work, honestly. But proximity allows mindfuckery and that's a problem, potentially an irrecoverable one.

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I mean, the Oaths for this would need to be airtight. I'd spend several weeks writing them and go over them with a dozen different people. But you would definitely include 'no mind-affecting magic'.

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It'd have to cover absolutely everyone capable of it in the place and a locally broad definition of 'mind-affecting magic' - I was horrified the first time I learned osanwë existed at all, for instance, I can live with communicative telepathy but that's it. And I wouldn't care to stay there literally all the time, I'm not an Elf and I miss people if I don't see them for five years. But merely being physically located in Angband is not necessarily intolerable even if occasionally I have to look at suicidal people.

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I'll tell Sauron you said so.

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Thanks. I think. There may be some reason this would still be a horrible idea, it just hasn't come to mind.

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I'm not trying to fuck you over. I've gotten attached to the idea of being alive in four hundred sixty years, and for fate to get back on track after all this adventure would just feel so disappointing.

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Thank you.

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The Elf you're unwilling to hand over to Sauron is fated to a hopeless campaign to fulfill his word that starts to look increasingly like repeated attempts at suicide-by-other-Elves, massacring his way across the continent until the name of his house is synonymous with crimes we thought only Melkor could dream of, until at last he's free of the oath that restrains him from ending his life. Don't hand him over to fate either.

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I'm not planning on handing anyone over to fate. It just depends on what shiny things I need to pick up in my galaxy to bludgeon this universe into behaving.

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Well. Thanks for dropping by. When you're empress of the galaxy and deciding whether to shred me for various horrible things that I really probably did do, keep in mind that I'm also by far the most helpful neutral party on the continent.

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Who are you competing with, there?

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Did Melian tell you she's good? Because she might be lying to herself rather than to you, but she's crossed lines I would balk at.

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She's helpful. In a very stationary way.

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I don't fuck people who are too entranced with me to remember their own names. But if I did, I'd let them out within three hundred years, and if I didn't do that, at least they wouldn't end up bonded to me for eternity.

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I didn't say she was a real stand-up gal whose decisions I will unhesitatingly defend, I'm saying I'm not sure you have her beat on helpfulness. ...Do Maiar who are not her have anything resembling sex lives, as long as we're on the subject?

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Most people haven't gone to the trouble of assembling a full biological body, and if you just went for something with the look and texture you wouldn't get anything out of it. The reason anyone does go to all that trouble is that having your senses wired through incarnate neurology is an experience like nothing else.

Which is to say yes, we do, most of us who aren't literally the Enemy with
consenting parties. I've been needling she sends the impression of a wordless soaring sound , who you're calling river-Maia, to figure out how to biological for three or four Ages.
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Awww.

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I fucked Sauron. It was interesting.

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Aaaand there goes my temptation to proposition you.

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He wasn't actually evil back then, unless he was doing an exceptionally good job hiding it, but yeah, figured you'd find that a dealbreaker. I'll get over my broken heart.

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I would've broken it anyway, I keep turning out to only like men.

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I can do that. Haven't, but could.

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Noted.

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Go run your city, Loki, I'm getting bored.

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Can I get one of those truth verifications on this conversation?

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"I swear that nothing I've said to you today has been untrue."

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Cool. Good chat. Later.

And Loki flies home and explains the runey brick thing and sends an elfbird to go tell whoever's building that eight-pointed city, and their host, and their cousins' host.
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The Elves are angry and feel stupid; every book in the libraries of Tirion had a slightly modified version of the rune, and they'd used it to no effect and concluded it didn't work, but Melkor must have gone through and altered that in the early years of his campaign to make trouble.

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Oh, is that what happened. Man, what a dick that guy is. Well, she has the functional version, she saw it glow and everything. Come on, folks, let's get a perimeter up so nothing can sneak by. Except you, messenger elfbird, you're going to go make sure the good news gets where it's going.

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The Men are sprawled across a very large distance, but there are also a lot of them; with everyone working there's a brick perimeter in not too much time.

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That works as warning but not as deterrent and not as orc repellent. She recommends they build it higher, but they do have other things on their minds and realistically it's not going to be a twenty foot wall up in a year.

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It's a few months later when the guards come racing to tell her that the bricks briefly stopped a bat from flying by. Said bat arrives on her windowsill a minute later.

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"The bat is - probably - the same Maia who taught me how to do the bricks," Loki says. "Thank you for letting me know."

And she goes to say hi.

"I keep forgetting your name," she tells the bat. "I don't know why, it just slides right out of my head."
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"Lots of people came up with new names so the Incarnates could say theirs. I can be Batgirl if it makes you happy. Sauron says you can have five years' truce if you come work in Angband, with the hopes that once you see each others' projects you can discover whether there are others on which you have ground in common, and if you name your terms more specifically he'll send proposed drafts for the wording of an oath. He also says that he's enjoyed the last few years tremendously. He also says that, realistically, if you can't think of a way to find common ground in five years, he's at that point going to kill you, albeit regretfully."

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"Well, in that case it seems like a bad idea to plan on being somewhere he can get at me in five years' time."

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"So insist on a wording that lets you be well away from Angband when time expires. Otherwise he tries to kill you now. And at that point your choices are 'run for Doriath' or 'run for Valinor', honestly."

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"Does he seem to be envisioning that I will be socializing with him much in Angband? That would probably be more of a drain than the suicidal Quendi because he can manage 'interesting conversationalist' and has demonstrated mastery of getting under my skin."

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"He's trying to leverage you for free will, I expect he'll want to talk, yeah."

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"I should probably consult with a bunch of people on this one. Last time I thought about making a deal with him somebody else noticed flaws I didn't. But thank you for conveying the message."

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"This is honestly way more excitement than this side of the continent normally sees. Probably gonna get me killed but you know what it's not going to do? Get me killed in four hundred fifty two years. See you." She leaps out the window.

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"See you."

And she goes and tells the Elves what she is considering.
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Negotiating with Sauron is a terrible idea. They are unanimous.

...not negotiating is also probably a terrible idea. But still. Uh. Stall for time, plead with Ulmo?
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...She thinks somebody else might have better luck with Ulmo than her, but if somebody wants to be birded and sent to plead with Ulmo she can spare them.

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Someone goes off to plead with Ulmo.

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And whenever the other bird is back from telling newcomers about the correct Maia-repelling sigil they can turn right around to get advice from the same places on this negotiation, please.

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The responses from that come a little later, in the form of letters.

From Nolofinwë:

Might have some suggestions with respect to Ulmo, disinclined to put them to text. I'd move the Men somewhere defensible with the time you have. I do not think it particularly likely that you'll leave an opening in the wording, but I'd expect that to happen even given extraordinary caution perhaps one time in ten, with an Enemy with these resources, and the best of possible failure modes if it fails is that you die. We have the resources to hold him off, now. Not well, not without horrifying casualties, but five years won't make that situation much better and he may be bluffing on how quickly he's able to act again anyway. It's entirely possible that it's still five years before he's recovered and he's 'offering' nothing at all.

From Macalaurë:

The rest of this letter is not written in Quenya but with a cypher we developed for the purpose of communicating with you and then wrote a lot of material in, none of which ever left our hands, so that Allspeak might have enough content to work from. We don't know enough about Allspeak to tell whether this will work; if not, send a messenger with instructions on how it can be done or come yourself.
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...Fëanorians.

How many letters are in the alphabet, can she brute force it by trying various installations or would that take all week?
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Sixteen letters, she can try them in an afternoon but this doesn't get her anywhere.

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Okay. So she'll come herself. Hold down the fort, Elves/Men/werewolves/teenage orcs.

Zoom.
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Across the desert, across the mountains, across eastern Beleriand, of the star-shaped city which now has thick external walls.

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Good for the star-shaped city. The Fëanorians haven't moved in yet, right?

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Maitimo's presumably there, but the others are still where she left them at Lake Mithrim.

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Right. There she goes, then, zoom zoom zoom.

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Across the foothills, across the spider forest, across the mountains, Lake Mithrim. A thousand miles. With the zoom song, it's barely a good day's flying.

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And she lands and waves at the guards, do they remember her after all this time?

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Not only do they remember her, but they don't act as if it has been a long time. "Hello, Loki. Good to see you, everyone's well here, can you turn someone into a bird and back before you go in, please, even though we've dug up all the stones and sigiled them."

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"Sure. You volunteering?" She holds out her hand.

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He takes it.

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And he is a bird for a moment and then back.

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He wishes her well. "Looking to talk to anyone in particular?"

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"Macalaurë."

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He walks her there.

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Whereupon Loki explains that if Allspeak worked that way, her sister would be able to read her diary.

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"Fine. Silence the area, please, if you have other things to check for invisible beings do those, what if we invented and spoke a language? How many samples does Allspeak need?"

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Loki silences and colorfloods.

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"Overlapping area-effect songs do stack if you're sufficiently clever with them. Thank you for catching that. We figured out how to stack the cognition one further. After about two months with high-speed cognition it becomes hard to move out of it; there's a few hours' withdrawal in which motor reflexes are retarded and subjects report dizziness, confusion, bad headaches that healing can't fix, and an inability to process sound normally. After about a year these effects persist for a day or so when leaving compressed time. They get worse if you keep doing it. My father weighed the risks and decided to spend most of his time with high-speed cognition. I'm ruling in his name. This is known to only about ten people."

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"...Do you want to see if I can fix the headaches?"

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"That'd be lovely, but isn't the priority. We've been communicating asynchronously and the last letter I left him I told him what your messenger said; if he thinks it's worth rejoining the world he'll do so. Distractions cost him weeks, not hours, now, and time is at a very dear premium. I think I need more context on what you're trying to do and why."

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"So I've got a fair ways on the Men's settlement but I am sort of expecting that as soon as Thauron doesn't shatter into pieces of ice whenever he tries to adopt physical form," smirk, "he can steamroll right over it. I was thinking to buy time for them, but if Fëanor's running accelerated by that much I might not need it - I might just start running accelerated, although I need occasional breaks to an extent I think he doesn't."

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"It's been three years. I don't think we'll have even prototypes for another three, and it could easily still be seven. Five years' reprieve would be very well timed now, but you being unable to pursue your projects is a high cost for it. You'd need to be somewhere very very safe to attempt what he's currently doing. If anything did attack him he'd be helpless. And we know the side effects for beings like us, not like you."

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"I would expect to be able to get some work done, although it would slow me down."

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"And you expect to be able to draw it up in a way that doesn't get you killed or worse?"

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"That part I'm much less sure about, hence the consultation. Nolofinwë doesn't think I'd better."

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"Airtight wording is possible. It'd be nice to have Melian as a resource but at a guess she'll attempt to stop you from doing it. You sure we couldn't take Thauron again?"

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"Maybe if I had tactical teleportation by then. Dicey. But I've been working faster than my original estimate accounted for on several fronts and my original times were for the whole shebang. 'Get somewhere else on top of this bloody cylinder' is easier."
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"Then the best choices seem to be to go to Doriath, work on teleportation at as much acceleration as you safely can, stall on the negotiations, and anticipate that Thauron will probably carry out or order a massacre and send you pictures, or evacuate the Men, lose the advantage of space to stall, hope we can drive him off with casualties in the thousands and not the tens of thousands, or find a wording that you think is airtight and waltz into Angband with a really effective way of killing yourself if you're wrong."

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"Yes, that would seem to be the approximate options. I'm not thinking he'll let me stall very long. Didn't work last time, I only get so much time by relying on an intermediary messenger."

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"If he lets you stall it's probably because he's not ready, not because he doesn't recognize the tactic. We build our cities into mountainsides, we enchant them from the ground up, and we don't expect to be able to hold out against Thauron without massive losses. The Men are not in a defensible position and their position cannot be made defensible even were were prepared to deploy significant resources there. Which we're also not prepared to do, because it's entirely possible that truce made with you, Thauron comes here."

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"Yeah, that occurred to me too."

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"Have you run this by Maitimo?"

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"Uh," she says, "no. You think this is reason enough to go bother him?"

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"When last you spoke his mental health was the operative constraint on his achieving his objectives. Judging by the city, I think he's now like the rest of us in the realm of being constrained mostly by the speed at which stone can be moved and enchanted. I could be wrong. He's not speaking to me.

All of that aside if you're at all inclined towards the five-year plan it'd be idiocy to go ahead with it without running things by him."
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"Okay. I'll stop on my way home."

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"Shall we spend a few hours drafting wordings? I can spare the time, you've been dropping by less frequently."

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...Elves. "Yes, please."

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So they spend a few hours on it. Someone brings food, an elaborate array of Valinor delicacies that they didn't have when she'd left because the crops weren't all established yet.

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Yummy.

She would be happy to leave him any more de-synchronized song copies that would be useful to figuring out how to consistently stack songs. Can he tell her how to stack zooms? She doesn't have intraplanetary teleportation yet.
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He shows her how to stack zooms. He sings for the rest of the evening; stone-moving is in fact coming along quite well and more than past the point to be useful to Maitimo's city building - "but I can't leave Tyelcormo as regent, he'd both hate it and be bad at it."

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"Is he the next candidate because of primogeniture or because he'd actually hate and be bad at the job less than the other options?"

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"We adopted strict primogeniture because Maitimo's most qualified and I'm probably next most qualified and announcing a different ordering would have been silly and divisive back in Valinor when none of us were realistically ever going to inherit. And endorsing that approach helped Father politically in the obvious ways. I realize that now there's a war on and none of the old considerations matter, but as a consequence of that ancient assumption, we're the only ones who met the relevant people and cultivated the relevant skills. I am sure that any of my brothers would rise to the occasion in desperate need but me wanting to go sing stone into cities isn't desperate need."

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"Fair enough. I will be happy to bring him a copy. I don't suppose you can sing those Maia-repelling sigils into stones."

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"...probably could, given time. Time would be a few months, though, and I can't drop everything else or speed up my head."

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"You could do it one song's worth intermittently like I do, can't you?"

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"It doesn't help much with composition. One needs to actually play notes to feel if you're getting the effect."

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"Ah, inconvenient." Sigh. "Think Maitimo will let the Men and a few adolescent un-oathed orcs and some werewolves move into his city?"

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"Will this annoy Thauron?"

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"Well, when you put it that way..."

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He smiles. Not exactly happily.

"You know, I knew I was going to watch my whole family die. Not thought it, not predicted it, knew it, like you know where your hands are in the dark. We get that clear a glimpse of our fates, sometimes. And here you are. And we don't know anymore. And -



- Thauron sent us messengers, when he had Maitimo. I expect he'll do the same thing to you. Father told us to shoot everyone on sight and not tell him anything they said or even about the fact they were sent, and the Enemy stopped sending them."
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"I've been getting little presents. That strategy has - has merit, but I think I'm actually benefiting from something resembling closure about Vár, and there's some orc kids who grew up free, and - I've started telling the orcs to go home instead of killing them, which did slow it way down."

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"Do orc kids get Elf-like, if they grow up loved?"

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"They still look like orcs. Temperamentally remind me of Men more than Elves, really, although that could be because the Men did most of the bringing them up. - and I think the ones in Angband grow up loved. Abominably acculturated but loved."

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"I have a lot of work to do. That my father is in any sense indisposed is very much a secret. I had to trade with the Nolofinweans for a few tracks of my own heightened-cognition song so I think Findekáno suspects what we're doing, but it's really important that it not reach the Enemy. As things seem to have an alarming tendency to do. May you have the skills to make your fortune fairer."

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"Likewise," she says. And she bundles up her notes and out she goes. "If anybody else wants to talk to me before I fly away again for an indeterminate period of time this is when."

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Safe travels, see you later! comes a cheerful chorus of osanwë voices.

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Okay then.

She heads for the Nolofinwëans as long as she's nearby and they didn't want to commit some things to messenger bird.
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Their walls have also been recently disassembled and engraved. They're doing the same to the buildings, and to rows of stone planted every few feet.

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Hey, Findekáno, what's the state of the art in identity verification around here.

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We're paving the place with go-away-Powers, I think we're fine. Hi. How're the Men?

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They are fine, some of them are werewolves, some of them are raising small orcs Thauron sent with an entourage of parents specifically to fuck with me. She lands. They are mostly not absorbing their Elvish assistants' prissy opinions about this-and-that. And I am concerned that when Thauron stops disintegrating into ice fragments upon trying to take physical form, that is still fucking hilarious, he's going to massacre them; I am considering strategies.

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We got your letter. My brother's been petitioning Ulmo for a while anyway. Ulmo says if he builds a secret city he'll protect it at least for as long as anything in Beleriand can be protected, but you'd be ensuring they die last, not that they live.

How many Men are there?
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Ten thousand and change.

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Oh, that's not too bad. They have children in wartime, though, don't they? In a couple centuries they're going to outnumber us, we can't just build a city for thirty thousand and expect it to work out.

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They have some children, yes, although I managed to give them the sex talk with minimal prissy interference and they're being more careful than they possibly could have figured out on their own to start out. I don't need to buy that much time, though. I'm working very fast on teleportation. 'In a couple centuries' is barely on my radar here.

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In that case keeping Men behind Elven armies and Elven walls is probably the solution.

You're teaching Men Asgardian values about sex, we're teaching Men Eldarin ones. I don't think anyone has the high ground there.
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I'm not teaching them Asgardian values. Asgardians have birth control and idiot gender roles, that would be insane.

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Just your personal values, then? What do gender roles have to do with sex?

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Sigyn gets way more crap for sleeping around than I do. And it's not just because he does more of it. Asgardian girls are supposed to flirt first and make all other relevant decisions and if their partners are boys they pretty much get various flavors of indirection or the seldom-taken-well outright 'back off' as their steering options. I'm trying to figure out something more egalitarian for the Men and it's working out okay insofar as I can tell this early.

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Huh. Those are failure modes I wouldn't even have thought of. Anyhow, we can sustainably support Men for a century at minimum, if you think you'll have a plan by then.

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I think I'll have teleportation and by extension a galaxy at my disposal by then. Okay, this eliminates most of the temptation to play ball with Thauron for a few years of delay.

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I mean, we don't have such a city and they aren't built overnight. We can start working on it. Turukáno's scouting for a location.

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There's one in progress shaped like an eight-pointed star much more accessible to the Men's location; I'm planning to ask there. Oh, and Macalaurë says you may have the draft of his hauling-rocks-around-song.

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Maitimo's city.

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Yes. I was going to not bother him, at least not in person, but Macalaurë said 'would it piss off Thauron' and I said 'well, when you put it like that'...

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He's written letters. Detailed surveys of eastern Beleriand, expansions on Enemy capabilities. He at least claims that he's moving his family out there as a first payment on the debt they owe us. All the letters have been addressed to my father.

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Oh, I didn't know that. Well, the city exists, if you were concerned it might be imaginary. Swarming with Dwarf construction workers. I'm afraid I only learned about the sigil thing recently and they may have to backtrack to incorporate it.

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It's the people he values who he's moving to the city, I am sure that it is very secure and well-designed.

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Oh you maudlin gay Elf, Loki does not say.

I hope it has room for my charges too.
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Ten thousand's not really too many. Are you saying 'Thauron' to signal the political affiliations that'll make Maitimo more inclined to help you?

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I am saying 'Thauron' because everybody on this stupid cylindrical planet has too many names, that's the one I heard first, I can remember three to recognize them when I hear them but cannot be bothered to do so for remembering in which context I'm supposed to use which reliably over gaps of years, and there is a vague possibility that it would slightly annoy the monster who tortures people specifically to upset me, but I'll switch if you prefer.

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I don't care at all. Among our people keeping thule signals affiliation with the house of Fëanor; I was wondering whether you were doing that deliberately, not expressing a complaint if you were or a demand you change if you're not.

He tortures people specifically to upset you?
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He took Vár. He took her and he taunted me about her and then when he'd got her tangled up in mostly contradictory oaths and ran out of anything else to do with her he sent her to me with orders to get me to kill her and I did.

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I'm sorry, he says after a minute. I know the feeling, for whatever that's worth.
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I know.

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Would you like a hug?

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Sure.

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He hugs her. There were freed prisoners of the Enemy in Valinor. They were happy most of the time. They had people who loved them, they had good lives. It took a very long time, but we have a very long time. Forever, if we need it.

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Hug. I am hoping not to take that long.

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Yeah. Have you been to Mithrim?

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That's where I got the draft of the rock-hauling song to share with you, she points out.

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They're in a bit of a hurry.

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I feel like more people on this stupid cylindrical planet could stand to be in a bit of a hurry.

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To do what, exactly? March off to Angband? We can do that tomorrow. We've discussed it. We'd lose.

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No, not to march off to Angband. To prepare, to invent, to think, to communicate and coordinate.

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Inventing things the ways we do it takes a very long time. You can hurry at it but your pace still won't look hurried.

My cousins are in Doriath. Headed down to introduce themselves a year ago, came back six months later to say they were staying for the time being.

We actually looked into sending you people, communications, etcetera, but that desert is not safe to cross for those of us who can't turn into birds.
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It's a stupid desert. I can try to be in touch more if you like.

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My cousin who doesn't think any of us exist and who left us all to die writes every few months; you could aim for that.

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YOU MAUDLIN GAY ELF

Sure.
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And if you end up relocating to Maitimo's city we can visit regularly - or, rather, the barriers are political and not geographic.

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Sounds like a plan.

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Lūthien also sends her regards, in case you visited us before you next saw her, and says she's working with her mother on a nice song that will help her mother fall asleep. I assume you're able to read more into that than I can.

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...Possibly.

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And your orcs are doing well. Did Macalaurë already mention that? Probably not, that side of the family has a bad case of single-track minds.

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He didn't mention it. I wonder if I should go visit them.

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Probably. Orcs breed like rabbits, three or four years is a long time to them.

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...Well, I hope these ones haven't been breeding like rabbits, but I'll go visit. How many rock-hauling song things do you want?

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As many as you can manage, honestly, we'll send them out to the mines and quarries.

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So she attaches a bunch on whatever's handy. Anything else before I fly away?

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Don't work yourself to death, it doesn't save anyone.

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Behold how I am alive.

And she says hi to Irissë and Nolofinwë, and if they don't have anything else to say either, she flies south to orcs.
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Brithombar looks the same as she remembers it.

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Orcs first. They should be over there, right?

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Arveirnen looks deserted on a flyover.

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Okay, Brithombar, then. Land at gate. "Hello."
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"Hello." They look disconcerted. "Can we help you?"

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"Hello. I'm looking for my orc colony. Did they go to the island?"

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"They did. Still out there, as far as we know. Someone checks in on them occasionally."

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"Cool. As long as I'm here anyone I should talk to or hear about?"

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They clearly do not know who she is. "...no?"

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...she's gotten used to everyone knowing who she is on sight. "...I'm Loki, the weird alien with the science lecture."

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"Okay. We don't need any science lectures at the moment."

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"Okay. Have a nice day." She turns into a bird and flies out to the island.

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It's certainly large enough for the numbers they have. There's a dock. There are orcs fishing. There are, in fact, orc children.

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Not too many?

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Twenty or so.

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...that's kind of more than she had in mind, but not out of her actual capacity.

She lands.
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Someone sees her and runs off, presumably to spread the news.

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She waits.

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And soon everyone is crowding around. "Loki!"

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"Hi. How are the children?" (The ones in her camp were briefly in Angband.) "Do I need to heal them?"

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"We're not sure," someone says, "none of us would have said we were hurting all the time, before you stopped it -"

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"Okay, round 'em up."

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The children, it transpires, are born in pain.

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Well. She fixes that. (She should have come sooner -)

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"We were worried you'd died. We were worried you'd gone after Vár or something."

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"No... I'm sorry. I should have visited sooner. It makes me nervous to be away from the Men since I'm looking after them but I should have been looking after you too."

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"We're okay. The Quendi helped us get settled and taught us how to fish and their god said it was fine if we were here as long as we didn't poison the waters or anything."

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"That's good, good for Ulmo. It looks like you're doing really well."

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They beam. "We are!"

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"Do you need anything? I have some songs I can attach to stuff - would you like telescopes? -" She runs down a list of things she can provide.

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They are happy to have all of the things. Telescopes get handed around eagerly.

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She can make a pretty arbitrary number of telescopes. Warm songs and healing songs and ugh she shouldn't have left them alone this long the Elves are rubbing off on her or something.

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Soon everyone who wants a telescope has one. Do the healing songs do anything about baby orc pain?

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She doesn't think so. She will check next time she meets an orc she hasn't healed yet, though, she's not sure.

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Everyone disperses happily. Tyr's avoided her. The children are laughing and playing with their new toys.

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She has no reason to talk to Tyr right now as far as she knows. Okay, if that's everything... on she goes.

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They wave and shout goodbyes as she flies off.

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"Bye!" her voice calls back.

All right, eight pointed city and then home. Probably.
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With a swift's speed and the improved zoom song, she's approaching eight pointed city by early afternoon.

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Hello eight pointed city.

She's learned to knock. She looks for a likely knocking location, lands.
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The walls are thirty feet high. There's a steel gate.

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Hello gate. Anybody manning it?

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No one is apparent, but as she approaches it some of the bars move so a face can be seen behind the gate. It's a Dwarf. "Hello. Identify yourself, please."

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"I'm Loki. I can turn somebody into a bird and back to prove it if you like. You may have gotten my messenger about Maiar-repelling sigils recently."

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"We did. You can approach and turn someone into a bird, if you can do that through the bars, but in future we'd like you to have an illusion on the inside of this wall which you can dismiss at need."

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"Oh, sure, what of?" she asks, reaching between the bars.

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He takes her hand. "Supposedly small, looping illusions aren't continual effort for you? They are for the Enemy. I think the Elf has a design in mind."

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Bird, unbird. "Sure thing. Actually, large looping illusions aren't continual effort for me either, once I set 'em up they just go on like that."

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The doors unbar and open outwards. The city is paved; the cobblestones are sigiled. The buildings are three or four stories tall, and their elaborate decorations don't quite obscure that it's very very thick stone, but the streets are wide enough that it doesn't yet feel crowded. Maybe when it's populated.

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"Where's Maitimo? I assume he's not too reluctant to talk to me if he's planning to tell me his proposed illusion design."

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The Dwarf falls comfortably into step beside her. "The palace. It's not far from here. He's a very strange Elf, in a different way than the other Elves."

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"Yeah."

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The streets have steel gates that close one section of the city off from another. There are markings in the metal, so tiny she can barely see them. There are Dwarves doing paving and stonework and installation.

And then they round a corner and there's what has to be the palace. It's beautiful, sort of, though again constrained by the very thick stone. It's windowless. There's another gate; this one opens for them.
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Windowless. Well, that's depressing and not in the way she expects from Nelyafinwë "I like having a view of something I could jump off" Maitimo. Or whichever order those names go.

She follows Dwarves.
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The inside is much nicer; the whole place is wood-paneled, and on the walls where windows should have been there are blocks of translucent stone with some light source behind them so it looks as if sunlight is streaming in. They go down a long, wide, marble staircase to an underground river, tamed and zigzagging across the ground. Maitimo's there. "Hello, Loki," he says.

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"Hi. I brought you a draft of the rock song. And I need someplace to put ten thousand Men, some werewolves, and some adopted orc kids before Thauron stops shattering into ice bits" (maybe he'll think that's as funny as she does) "whenever he tries to take physical form. Both I and the Nolofinwëans who have been helping me out are optional."

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"Conveniently I have a city."

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"Should I be making conversation or trying to keep this short?"
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And his face changes in a way that's hard to describe. "I'm sorry, Loki, I am being rude. I thought you'd come visit eventually and meant to meet you at the gates when you did. We've been moving rather frantically here ever since we got your messenger, but that's no excuse. By all means sit down. I am not particularly surprised that you've acquired werewolves and adopted orc kids, but do tell me the whole story."

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"Iiiii'm just going to take that at face value," she says after a moment, and she sits. "Uh, Thauron turned some Men into werewolves while he was there, they seem to be basically infertile shapeshifting Men, I stopped letting them turn volunteers after they all had weird nightmares but that's been the extent of worrisome werewolf-related anything. I've been getting parties of orcs as, let's say presents, one group brought their babies. The babies are half grown now. Got to give a 'you're adopted just like me' talk. - Vár's dead." I might have tactical teleportation before he gets out of Angband and that might let me beat him on my own, but I might not.

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"That's good," he says. "My condolences anyway." You think the Enemy can hear us here?

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Doubt it very much, but the information's sensitive and you're telepathic. "Yeah. I met a let's-say-neutral Maia called - I can't ever remember her name, hang on -" She looks it up in her notes. "Thuringwethil. Turns into a bat. She's the one who told me about the sigil. She works intermittently for Thauron, I caught her reading the party of orcs with the babies from a ways off, it wasn't a very good first impression but then I met a river Maia who told me where she lived and we had a friendlier conversation."

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"Vampire bat," he says. "Specifically. If it's important. In general one can trust the Maiar about as far as you can throw them, but you're getting quite capable at throwing. What did she have to say?"

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"Complaints about fate, mostly, the sigil thing, I'll show you the transcript if you like, she swore she hadn't lied to me at the end of it."

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"I'm all right, thank you. So you want to move Men into Beleriand where there's at least some hope of defending them against Thauron? Yourself and the Nolofinweans optional? Where are you planning to go?"

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Shrug. "The Nolofinwëans can go back to their host. I could go with them, or park in Doriath, or move in with the orc colony, or see if Brithombar would let me move in, I'm not short of favorably disposed people."

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"The Men have some kind of system of governance and dispute resolution?"

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"It's, well, new, since they are... and involves a fair amount of sport wrestling for lower-level disputes... but yeah, I've been very carefully placing myself as protector-and-dispenser-of-supernatural-goodies, not queen, and the Elf helpers as consultants, not nobility. If nothing were going to attack them I'd expect we could all disappear and they'd be confused but not fall apart."

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"All right. If you have the means to get them here we can have a quarter of the city for them. I don't know how the needs of Men differ from the needs of Elves, and this city is built to the aesthetic sensibilities of neither, but it will keep them safe. There's as much below ground as above it, and the Dwarves think that earthquakes wouldn't topple these buildings."

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"If necessary I can just have a flock of ten thousand birds show up. Possibly bring them in batches. Oh, about the identity verification measure, Maiar can just contest my illusions if I'm not propping them up; I'm happy to make one if you want it for some other reason or if you're going to combine it with Maiar-repellent, but dismissing it won't serve to guarantee I'm me."

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"I was actually hoping you'd be willing to illusion the city for the sake of its populace. I asked the Dwarves what was safest and made absolutely no concessions to other concerns in construction. But my people will be very reluctant to live in a place like this, and I don't know about the Men. If you're willing to, I have drawn up how I'd have designed this city had I set myself the task in Valinor. Windows and such delights. And a palace that people find inspiring rather than intimidating."

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"It is kind of severe, albeit in a very elegant way. I'm happy to pretty the place up, although I'd worry that if I make things on the interiors that look like windows they, well, won't be, and people would mistake the view for the actual exterior."

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"In this building I just have windowlike things with light, no view. Probably someday there'll be a business in customizing them." He stands, walks over to a table, pulls out sheets of paper with detailed sketches. "This is what I'd like the exterior to look like, if it's no trouble."

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She looks it over to get a firm mental picture.

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"I earned most of the money I spent on the city, but rush labor is very expensive and I decided to insist on it. The Dwarves won't let me take out loans on my name or on my word." He's smiling. "If you happen to have more of Cáno's songs to sell them at some point I would appreciate it."

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"I've got the rock song, which you can have as many of as you like. Otherwise nothing new, but I assume I'm still allowed to fund your projects with further sales of the songs thus designated." And I have the 'oomph song', which I am supposed to play pretty close to the chest, but if you can think of a discreet place to sell... and some songs can double if they're synced and insulated right.

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Thauron seems to find the Dwarves beneath his attention. Maybe it's just that they have too grounded a sense of what good deals look like. "I assume so, yes. And Tumunzahar trades with other Dwarven kingdoms. It's not urgent. As you can see I'm nearly finished. Do you need to walk through the city to illusion it?"

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That and the immunity to mind control. "To illusion it in a way that matches up with the real locations of anything, yes. Oh, do you want a shadowcatcher? I've got a ways around my settlement stained blue so if something invisible that I didn't make invisible walks over it, it casts a shadow on the blue."

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"If it doesn't trouble crops, yes. Let's tour the city." He starts walking up the stairs.

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"It doesn't interfere with real light, only perceived light, so plants don't know any different, although I didn't explain that to the river Maia who wanted the illusion that intersected with her river tweaked." Follow follow.

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If I were Thauron I'd wait until you had ten thousand birds and then try to kill those.

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Possible. I wouldn't send them all at once. Maybe a couple hundred at a time. And I don't think he's out yet.

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The Enemy has other agents.


Are you doing all right?
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It's hard but I'm pretty good at psychological self-maintenance.

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I regret asking you not to speak to me unless it was strategically necessary. Clear channels of communication even outside times of dire need are strategically necessary, there's trust and mutual knowledge that cannot be reestablished the minute that they're needed. It was good for my sanity. It probably wasn't worth it.

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I've been bad about keeping in touch with everyone, actually, Findekáno scolded me about it.

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Did he? What did he say?

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She pulls up the transcript.

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When the war is over I'm going to take him to a planet far away from here and far away from both our families and figure out how to set things right.

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There are in fact entire planets that specialize in being nice vacation destinations as their principal industry.

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Oh? Well, in your abundant free time, scout out one that caters to Elven sensibilities, in one of the progressively-minded cultures, and I'll figure out how to pay for it.

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Vacation planets have to be progressively-minded. People do not go there to be tutted at about their choice of vacation companions. I'm hoping magic songs work in my world, I'd make a mint, but they might not, the place is not habitually sung to.

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What would universes run on, if not music? Your magic works here, it seems only fair that ours would work there.

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Well, I'd hope, it'd sure be convenient, but my universe runs on... y'know, physics.

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Which is made out of music. At least, it is here.

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I'm pretty sure in my world that's not even a coherent concept, physics running on music. And there are a lot of civilizations and physics is pretty commonly studied.

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Well, this universe supposedly has other planets. If needed I shall terraform one of them into a progressively-minded vacation destination myself.

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Loki laughs.

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I wouldn't have given my father city-melting weapons just so I could do absolutely as I pleased without people talking and hurting everyone I care about, but given that this is a predictable consequence of him getting city-melting weapons and that there are lots of reasons to give him them -

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Soon. Well, by Quendi standards, soon.

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Five hundred years as measured by Macalaurë's compositions. I don't want to see Findekáno again while I don't believe he's real, even though he wouldn't be able to tell. In five hundred years either this is real or the situation has changed enough there's no strategically interesting insight to get from me.

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...one of my more 'desperate emergency' responses to finally getting out of this dimension to go on errands, if the shorter-term plans don't cut it, involves taking a risk which if I'm going to take it anyway I might as well just outright install free will on all the orcs and Elves there are. That wouldn't do it either?

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...you think you might be able to do that? I - that'd be fascinating, and if I could make an oath and break it that would confirm you'd done it, but I would be reluctant to make and break an oath on your assurances, to put it mildly. You should do it anyway if you can.

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The thing that gave me my sorcery alphabet's part of a set. All the individual things in the set are so stupidly powerful that mostly you can do any given medium-sized thing with whichever you have on hand. And handling them is a risky proposition anyway. It's dangerous to even keep two of them on the same planet for long periods of time, I think this is half of why Asgard has possession of one. But the Tesseract is 'space' and it has a sibling that does 'soul'.

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You really need to prioritize not letting the Enemy get his hands on you more than you currently are.

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I actually think I have a nonremovable method of suicide.

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Not, I take it, one you can share with other people?

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Nah. I wind up feeling like I'd better heal myself when I'm really pouring ice. I could just not do that.

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...this is a cruel thing to say to someone. But. If Thauron captured you at this point I think he'd go to every conceivable length to make sure you did not realize you were in Angband.

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I also think I'd notice if I were able to subjectively act freely and my mind started behaving unusually in some way.

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He nods. "Living on the plains and then moving to a dense city was quite a transition for the Eldar. Are there things we can prepare here to make it easier for Men?"

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"They're not accustomed to living this densely either, mostly for infrastructure reasons. They know cities are a thing, though, and they're pretty sociable, I think they'll like it when they've had a week or two to get accustomed." Illusions illusions. She consults the blueprints she's carrying now and then for a refresher. "What sorts of local ordinances and whatnot will they have to adapt to?"

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"They can't leave without permission - or, really, can't enter without permission that I won't be inclined to grant without a lot of screening and delay to people who sneak out. We'll do drills for evacuation and for hide-underground and if people don't want to participate that's their lookout but if they inconvenience anyone else there'll be a problem. They can handle their own laws among their own people and we'll handle ours and if complaints arise between Elves and Men often enough I suppose we'll have to decide how those are mediated.

Letting them handle everything internally only works if there aren't, for example, children being neglected or starved or people coming to me in desperation because their own people delivered an unjust judgment against them. If things like that happen frequently then we'll have to have them handle disputes under our system, which is very much not equipped for the sport of problems I imagine Men have." He sighs. "Among my people I'd prohibit children."
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"They're managing parenting very well considering the whole lot of nothing Eru gave them and how little time I had to teach them. The species would very likely outright die out if they waited for optimal childrearing conditions, as near as I can tell they're precisely Midgardians without the soul animals. Oh - they have their own language, I can phrasebook it for you?"

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"Thank you. I'll tell my people to learn it, they should all be able to do so within a few months. And I wouldn't prohibit childrearing on the general principle about wartime, I'd prohibit it because it's going to delay evacuation by probably a factor of ten, give the Enemy leverage, and would keep every Elda in the city awake except I imagine you can soundproof buildings."

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"Sure. All of them? Unidirectionally?"

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"Yes and yes, people need to be able to hear announcements."

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"Okay, I'll do that from the air so I can be sure I get every building exactly once. What do you want in your phrasebook?"

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He starts listing phrases. "You could also stay here with them for a while, help them acclimate."

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"If that wouldn't bother you." She writes the phrases side by side in between prettifying buildings. "My Quendi assistants too or just me?"

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"They're also quite welcome. They probably do not think very highly of me."

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"Well, I'll pitch the idea and I can escort any who can't live with it politely back to their host."

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"If I expected to be hosting Nolofinweans I wouldn't have made it in the shape of my family's symbol, that's a little obnoxious. I expected I'd just be persuading my father to come and live in it."

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"Well, they've seen it overflown and didn't snark about it enough that I actually knew that was why the eight pointed star."

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"It's also useful for cover fire from multiple directions, and earthquake-stability considerations. But yes. It's on our banners and our armor and so forth. I suppose you haven't seen us march off to an ordinary battle, the only ones were before you arrived."

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"Yeah, wouldn't have come up."

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They've more or less walked the perimeter of the city. "I'll start importing food for your Men. Send someone ahead with notice of when they're arriving, please."

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"Sure. They'll be able to bring some non-bulky cargo if they're traveling, is there anything besides their magic stuff and personal possessions I should load them up with?"

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"Nothing comes to mind. Supplies will be a problem once fighting starts but isn't at the moment."

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"Okay. I will probably try to aim for before this winter."

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"We will be prepared. What conditions do you work best in, if we're hoping you'll get a teleport spell fast enough?"

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"I can put in a couple full days in a row but not routinely; I need other things to do now and then. I can occupy myself but don't mind running other helpful errands as they come up. I don't forget to eat but I do like not having to worry about cooking. And in the wintertime I have developed a fondness for living in an igloo but I will understand if there is no convenient place for me to put one."

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Since you can create the ice for it, it might be doable somewhere next to the underground river. The river - or, rather, our reliance on it - is a secret, otherwise he'd probably poison it or something.

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Is it the same river that has a Maia of its own?

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I wish. No, this is just part of the Gelion that happens to run underground in this area. No friendly Maiar here. I don't think Thuringwethil will visit you either.

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I know where she lives if I want to talk to her, but I decided against propositioning her so I don't currently have any specific anticipations of wishing to do that.

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He raises an eyebrow. Lonely, huh?

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Not lonely enough to be one person away from Thauron on a map of who's slept with whom, but oh stars yes.

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His face goes oddly rigid. Yes, I suppose people wouldn't want that.

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I - oh - fuck, it probably doesn't even help if I go into an extended account of the distinctions between consensual s- I am so fucking sorry I said that.
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I wholeheartedly approve of you not sleeping with Thuringwethil whatever your reasons.
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Yeah. I'd say 'maybe when the Men are a little more grown up' but I've gone and finagled myself a position of pretty heavy power over all of them and that'd be somewhere between weird and unconscionable even if they were chronologically old enough to be adults for their species. Mostly I just wish Sigyn were here. Sigyn would probably even be better at all the social crap I'm mishandling, he's weird at social skills but differently.

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You really aren't mishandling things. My family thinks highly of you and they're not always easy to impress; Nolofinwe thinks highly of you and has good diplomatic instincts; you talked an orc colony into existence pretty quickly. If the Men are self-governing four years after coming into existence that's an impressive achievement.

Findekáno likes you. Does he share your judgement about Thauron's partners?
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I didn't mention considering propositioning Thuringwethil or why I stopped considering it to Findekáno and if - okay here comes the rant on the distinction between consensual sex and rape. For the purpose I was being flippant about? If somebody has, not even necessarily kidnapped and tortured and mind-scrambled one, if they have just gotten one really drunk - or if they run into one while one is already really drunk - or if they have, I don't know, taken one out on a boat ride and there is substantial implication that one will not be getting back to shore without putting out, something like that, if something is going on besides at least moderately sober and unfettered decisionmaking, then for the purpose I was making my stupid regrettable joke about, doesn't count. Different category of thing. If it would make you feel better for me to find an excuse to discuss this exciting cultural convention with Findekáno at some point in the next few decades or something I will hunt such an excuse down.

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Much larger and more significant betrayals sit between us, I think. I will obviously at some point tell him, and tell him that by Asgard's norms I did nothing wrong if that seems relevant.

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This is not exciting local Asgardian cultural color commentary! By civilized galactic standards - like, 'not literally a planet of interplanetary criminal hideouts and stuff' - Asgard's way too permissive, especially on how drunk is too drunk, female perpetrators, and whether it's polite to call the circumstances of my parents' marriage incredibly sketchy.

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The Eldar - die, if someone tries to marry us and we don't want to. So if you're not dead it is hard to explain the claim that you didn't - but we don't acknowledge other things as sex at all -

What were the circumstances of your parents' marriage?
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Vanaheim and Asgard were having some scuffle, I do not know the fine details but I believe it was heavily implied that Odin would leave them alone if she got a pretty husband and some other concessions, and while I may be a kidnapped frost giant I thoroughly doubt Thor is.

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Macalaurë said you felt strongly about that sort of thing.

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Somebody says 'arranged marriage' about a species which gets married by having sex, I kind of freak out! At least most people can put off that part as long as they want! On high-tech enough planets they can skip it even if they want kids!

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Marriage is an oath, and coercing someone into an oath is the greatest evil we have a name for. Separately from that we don't have a concept of coercing someone into bed, though, and we probably should.

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Well, if the Asgardian word declined to translate there you go. Tweak the sound to fit as you like.

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The sentiment you expressed makes more sense to me as - disgust at touching something tainted, than as losing interest in someone because they possessed bad judgment.

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No. No, of course not. - Sigyn, he's been raped before, I'm pretty sure he'd be okay with me mentioning it in context -

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But it's not something he chose. Doesn't enter into my filtration at all.

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I had no right to confront you on your personal preferences anyway.

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They aren't especially private to me.

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Perhaps before I shop for nice galactic vacation spots I can find nice galactic counselors from some culture familiar enough with various atrocities that they have narratives about how one should respond to them.

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Yep, counselors exist. Asgard's not a good place for finding them, but they're a thing.

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There are a couple Valar who do it. I have quite literally no idea what they would say to me.

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Well, Ulmo proved decent enough to let the orc colony go be on an island, so I won't get anywhere speculating based on the model of 'the Valar basically always suck except in comparison to the Enemy'; maybe the counselor-Valar are the less judgmental ones, I'd expect that to be a job requirement.

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They could make me forget it. But I've already forgotten so many things that that doesn't particularly appeal. I don't know what else about me they'd regard as in need of correcting, or whether that's even in their power to fix, or whether it wouldn't be for the best - all of this being an absurd hypothetical, since the last time we spoke they Doomed us to suffer, 'by weapon and torment and grief'.

They've finished their walk through the city; they're back at the palace. It's a very delicately beautiful-looking palace now.
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You never did tell me if you wanted secondhand accounts of the gaps in your memory from Findekáno.

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Don't trust you. Maybe someday.

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Okay.

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Are you staying here tonight, or are you going to try to make it back? If the latter, you should probably leave now.

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If it's convenient for me to stay here that's preferable. I can probably make it if it's inconvenient.

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It's no trouble at all. I'll have someone set up a guest room and bring us dinner. I don't want to decorate my father's throne room with illusions; it seems like terrible symbolism.

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It kind of does, doesn't it.

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I could make it very like the one in Valinor, or according to my own aesthetic sensibilities which are - at least currently, I'm not sure any of my sensibilities are stable - far more ascetic. Or I could leave it to him to do himself. I'm mildly worried that if he arrives and finds me puttering around a lovely throne room in a lovely palace in a city under my command he'll worry I'm pulling the world's softest coup. Which I am. But it'll be less useful if he worries about it.

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My model of your father doesn't actually involve him spending much time on decorating or I'd suggest leaving it for him to furnish.

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He'd spend five minutes on it, but it'd be five minutes that left a definite effect.

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Fair enough.

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They walk through a dining room that could seat a hundred into a much smaller one. There's already food. Maitimo sits down. The workshop and forge I got perfect, that he'd spend time on and it'd be time he'd have preferred to spend working.

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I'm really impressed with the city.

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Tell me that after Thauron's attacked it. Or after we've gone enough years of safety that we can guess it's deterred him, I suppose. 'imposing' is easy. 'safe' is hard.

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I was actually thinking along the lines of 'quickly assembled, enticing to potential residents'.

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Also easy, given the resources I had to work with. But thank you.

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You're welcome. The Men's settlements look like so - She makes an illusion spread out on the floor. I'm not sure how sentimental they are about the place, actually.

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They can return there once the war is over and it's safe. They have houses, that's not bad given where they were starting from. What are you going to do if some of them refuse to leave?

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Well, that depends if it's because they like their houses or because Thauron sends somebody to fry the first batch of birds. First case gentle lecturing, latter case honestly I'd let them stay if that seemed like an informed decision.

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Do baby Men turn into full-grown birds? Can they even learn to fly?

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They should turn into full-grown birds just because of the design of the spell, I didn't make the swifts vary based on target characteristics at all. It will work on pregnant people, it didn't seem out of the question I'd want to be pregnant one day in the distant future. The babies will probably have a hard time learning to fly, though, I may send the families with infants to the Dwarves, it's an easier land route and the Dwarves have some capacity but not enough for everyone. There aren't that many babies.

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Tumunzahar can escort your Men if you're worried about the birds, but I don't want to put my city up as collateral and military operations are really expensive.

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How firm are they on 'no loans on one's word'? Or maybe I could just call in an IOU for the science lecture.

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Apparently their council themselves can't make loans on their word. I explained that I literally can't break mine and they said that was appalling and they certainly wouldn't consider it a reason to extend me credit.

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I will try the IOU then. Maybe they have a use for soundproofing or telescopes or something.

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I'm annoyed with Macalaurë, a partial stone-song shouldn't have taken him nearly four years. Then we'd have more to trade.

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I've been terrible about keeping in touch, he may have had the draft a while ago.

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I am not really annoyed with him. The nice thing about my family is that none of us have ever given any of the others cause to doubt we're stretching everything we have as far as we can towards our common goals. Macalaurë probably made the calculation I could earn the money for the city anyway, and he was correct, and once I hear whatever he spent the time on I won't be annoyed. But right now it's frustrating not to have the resources I need to realize my objectives.

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This wasn't all on the budget I netted you with songs, I assume, what did you wind up doing?

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Aman had a very very developed theory of - it's called theoretical engineering because of the stigma around math - solving problems that involve having vast amounts of computing power and vast amounts of data, I suppose, ones that require lots of calculations. It's how our magic works, if you want something more permanent than music and haven't a sufficiently high-fidelity means of copying music.

The Dwarves were doing something different but obviously within the same constraints and I worked for a while on a lecture series about areas for collaboration and managed to hash some out and then teach them. And learn theirs and find some ways it could be used to save time in parts of our engineering process and help develop a system that lets engineers use parts of each where they're most suited to the problem. Within six months I'd convinced people that this was going to bear fruit, and then I had the money to build the city while I watered said fruits. By now the field has probably leapt past me; my only advantage was being the only person present who knew the alternate system. I am not technically inclined.
He raises an eyebrow as if realizing that sounds implausible. Not by the standards of the House of Fëanor.
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I wonder if I've been suggesting projects to your family in the wrong order. They managed a lightbulb, maybe they could have gotten very far on computers and be commensurately faster at all kinds of other things.

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Computers?

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I think I explained computers to you in brief when you were talking about simulation complexity? You can actually get the basic components to work purely mechanically, hang on, let me reverse-engineer some logic gates - She frowns at an illusion until she has an imaginary system of weights and strings and hooks that result in several kinds of logic gate to illustratively tug on. But to get any serious work out of them you have to run them on electricity and make them very very small so you can have zillions of these all working in concert, otherwise it's just a curiosity. You arrange the gates in such a way that they do basic math, and then you convert basic math into simple operations like storing characters or representing a small dot of a large image, then you build in a correspondence between something vaguely resembling language and those operators and you teach it how to move around and manipulate data in that languagey thing. You can get many layers deep depending on the interface clunkiness you can tolerate and the complexity of the task.

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That sounds like a win condition, yes. If there were a way to do all of the hard algorithmic work of designing magic items mechanically, you could create them in years instead of decades - or, if you're my father, in months instead of years.

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Yeah. But lightbulbs are simple - however badly I explained them, however impressed I am that they had them finagled in three days - and really good computers are complicated, good programming languages and good programs are complicated even if you can get the computer off the shelf. I suppose if you can keep them cool by magic and you only need them for R&D and not for any more domestic purposes you could just build them gigantic, that might shave off some dev time.

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We don't have enough time, he says.


It was agony at Alqualondë, we'd at that point been working for half of a Valian Year to get everyone moving and when Olwë said 'we won't teach you to build ships, we think that when your hearts have cooled you'll realize this is folly' I wanted to shake him, yes of course it was folly and the only thing that could make it not folly was being fast enough.
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I think your entire family is kind of poorly suited to living with other Quendi instead of faster-paced persons. Dwarves are great, but there's Dwarves being great and then there's people who have invented computers being great. I'm looking forward to seeing what you'll do when you can go literally anywhere else.

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Father, definitely. Macalaurë, maybe, though if music isn't magic anywhere else I expect he'll stay here. I liked the pace of Valinor fine. Diplomacy done in a matter of weeks is - well, there's a reason Thauron gave you two. It's about winning by information asymmetry instead of by relentlessly and everywhere having reality on your side. I can build a city in three years. I could probably seduce a man in a night. Instead I took two hundred years, and they were very very worth it, and I look forward to the luxury of such time and the space to so approach it.

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There's probably magic that interacts with music in some way practiced somewhere in my galaxy, but I'd be very surprised if it worked according to the system here.

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It seems unlikely that no one would have noticed.

Tyelcormo will visit every world in your galaxy but tire of all of them eventually. Carnistir will be very excited by the 'intergalactic corporation' proposal and will end up managing it. Pityo I don't think will do much until we've broken Mandos open and gotten Telvo back and then the two of them will go off somewhere no one knows our names and make us new ones.
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Well, there's more galaxies if he gets bored of that one. Telvo?

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He died before you arrived.

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Ah.

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They were twins.

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I suppose once the war is over your father and I can race to see who manages resurrection first. Maybe the soul gem can do that too if I wind up risking it, wouldn't surprise me. I might have to do something dramatic like literally move your entire galaxy to my dimension with the Tesseract so Eru doesn't get in my way, first, I am not well calibrated on infinity gem versus Eru. This would have unfortunate musical side effects, possibly, but...

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Macalaurë will probably eventually stop sulking about music not working if that turns out to be the only way to end oaths and save everyone currently dead. Actually, he'll keep sulking forever. But just because it suits him aesthetically. Being robbed of his powers by the dramatic ripping of literally everyone out of the universe would be very satisfactory in some ways. Better so if he got to cinematically sacrifice them, but.

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I mean, I'm sort of tempted to let various persons here of my acquaintance do the honors if I go the 'infinity gems' route and not 'sketchy weapons dealer' route, but the only reason I even sort of think this might work is because the Tesseract might like me.

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It would be ridiculous to let any consideration but odds of success drive that. I don't have any particular desire to kill Thauron, just to see him dead.

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Yeah. It could've killed me when I touched it as a child - this is in fact one of the safer things that can happen if you go fucking with infinity gems - and instead it gave me secret arcane knowledge. They're supposed to be sentient, although I'm not clear on their psychology to the point where I can be sure it "likes me" as opposed to having some other reason.

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And you want to go and touch it again?

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Well, the first time was awesome. I will probably stand there talking to it and asking it nicely not to kill me, first, and this is the 'horrendous emergency' alternative to the sketchy weapons dealer plan. I might also be able to wield it without touching it, maybe - could embed it in Lævateinn or something, wave it around - they don't have a very well-defined user interface, it'd depend on what mood it was in or something unclear like that. Most of the people who manage to use them to do anything desperately underuse them, if there were a systematic series of attempts to catalog How To Infinity Gem I'd be on more confident footing. When I was reading up on them because I wanted to know what the heck I'd grabbed I found a story about someone who was directly animated as a person by an infinity gem through complicated shenanigans, and he used it to shoot lasers as a mediocre midrange weapon. Like, he had other powers from it, but nothing that compensated for the incredible stupidity of using it as a mediocre laser gun.

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He laughs. I don't know what a laser is but I will take your word for it that this was an absurd waste of an infinity stone. We're all doomed, so probably shouldn't wield temperamental horrors.

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Yeah, I'll do it. The Tesseract alone would probably be sufficient to kill anyone who needs killing - maybe not, like, Eru, if he decides to show up and need killing, but I find myself skeptical that Morgoth could come back from no two fragments of him sharing a cubic parsec. It would also be the stone of choice for turning your stupid cylindrical planet into a sphere, although I'd want to establish non-waving-the-thing-around-based communication before I was confident it could do that really really gently.

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What is objectionable about the shape of our planet?

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You're only using a fraction of the surface area for useful planet functions, the edges have that gravity problem I told you about, and it's just incredibly dumb. The more I think about what it would look like from space being all stupid and cylindrical the more annoyed I am.

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The Valar will certainly object.

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The Valar should have made it a sphere in the first place like Eru supposedly meant for them to and provided incredibly bad documentation about. Melian says it's one of the things he deigned to scold them about.

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He stops fake-amusement and is really amused, at that. The lie isn't obvious until the truth briefly lights up his face. They did not mention that to us.

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His control over his facial expressions is amazing. I think Maiar might be considering me a sort of honorary Power and behaving a little loosely about what I may be told.

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And if there are things they agreed not to tell Elves specifically, they're not bound by that when it comes to you.

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Sure, though I specifically asked Melian what I shouldn't tell other people and she didn't actually constrain me hardly at all.

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I'm sure insofar as her nature permits it Melian is fed up with the Valar by now.

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Seems reasonable.

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Though she could have communicated to someone that she had Elu entranced in the forest, saved us a manhunt and my grandfather years of anguish.

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Yeah, that whole incident is sketchy on multiple levels. Batgirl judges her for it.

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I have to admit to not seeing the appeal of - it'd be like one of us seducing a mortal with magical love songs, even if you had no principles there's also no challenge to it and not a particularly exciting prize.

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There are magical love songs?

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You can send emotions through osanwë, yes? If you're experienced with osanwë, you'd never confuse a communicated emotion with a innate one, you're hearing one and experiencing the other. If you're inexperienced with osanwë, it's more of a problem - by convention we don't send emotions to children except very sparingly, or while saying "I'm sending you what being angry feels like".

Love songs communicate love, they don't induce it. But they communicate it very intensely and viscerally, and if someone is not sufficiently familiar - the difference between the Maiar and us is as large as the difference between us and Men, and we're overwhelmed - overwritten, even - should they desire to overwhelm us. I do think Melian wronged Elu, though not intentionally.
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Well that's horrifying and I'm glad I was introduced to osanwë by benign persons.

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I keep thinking what would have happened if you'd landed in Angband.

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...Depends a whole lot on what strategy they took with me. Wouldn't've had my nonremovable suicide method figured out.

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Could've taught you to distinguish osanwë. Couldn't have taught you anything about ice powers.

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I mean, if I were introduced to a Balrog at some point I'd have figured it out, but if Morgoth decided to go straight for the heavy mindfuckery no guarantee that would happen soon enough.

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As a rule I think they do conventional torture first. I always thought it was considerate of them; if you get sent back and all you can say is 'he gave me hallucinations' no one will understand, but they can look at scars and missing limbs and missing - and then you don't have to explain the really bad parts, you can let the things that weren't really so bad cover for them -

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- I actually don't know how unpleasant I'd find being conventionally tortured, what with the ability to heal myself multiple times a second if that's what I need to be doing. Uh, should I apologize about your scars...?

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I think the political advantages to being visibly recovering from torture are outweighed by the advantages of having full mobility and a not-alarming face and a body that will work properly once I have the time to correct my instincts surrounding it.

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Okay. I originally considered making an option in the spell to leave scars in case I ever acquired some battle injury that would definitely scar and I was witnessed doing it, but I didn't, it just seemed like a stupid feature for a healing spell.

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If I wanted scars I could give them to myself.

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...suppose you could, yes.

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I don't think I'd have the slightest trouble killing myself but cutting myself superficially would be difficult. Luckily as far as things to unlearn that one is far down the list of priorities.

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I'd hope so.

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Eating took about three months. I really expect I'll have my head all sorted in a decade, then it's just waiting for sufficient evidence that real time has passed.

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Nod.

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My family's going to want to hug me when they move in and I'm going to be perfectly able to do it.

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...I'd say 'that's good' but 'able' is not the standard I actually apply when assigning goodness to family hugs.

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I need them to be able to convince themselves I'm fine.

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On the subverbal level, or are you planning to tell them you think they're real, too?

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Case-by-case basis.

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How do you case-by-case that? They'll talk to each other.

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No one's going to ask me 'do you think I'm a hallucination?' Well. Moryo will and I'll tell him 'I give it around an 80% chance', Tyelcormo will and I'll tell him 'I thought that even before Angband'. Everyone else will try to feel it out and they'll stop poking once they feel safe.

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Ah.

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My father probably won't even do that. It's not actionable information for him. What is actionable information is whether I'll defy him the next time we're at odds, and what he's terrified of is that I'll hate him, or be angry with him, or hold him in contempt - that's what he'll be looking for.

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I don't have nearly such confident reads on my family. I don't know whether Frigg lied to me my whole life or genuinely didn't know I'm a frost giant; Thor I'm certain didn't know but I don't know how she'll react on a spectrum from 'now I despise you forever and may try to kill you' versus 'okay but you're culturally Asgardian tell me again about the giant spiders let's go kill some'.

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Bet I can meet them and make accurate predictions within an hour of doing so.

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I bet you could, it's spooky.

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There isn't a trait for 'giftedness', it doesn't make sense that Valinor's greatest linguist and engineer marrying her greatest artist and metalsmith would produce a diplomat, a musician, someone who can talk with animals and has a Maia as a personal companion, an economist, another version of our father, and two of the kind of person who, tossed a world, change it. Maybe we were all driven by fear of inadequacy in our father's eyes, but if so, it drove us much farther than it drives anyone else and it's a common insecurity.

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...There kind of is a trait for giftedness if you get a lot of statistics and shake well, but admittedly the distribution of types in your family is weird.

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People used to say, in Tirion, that I couldn't possibly be my father's son. I see similarities, but perhaps I'm motivated to find them.

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Well - I think I'd be inclined to put it as 'I'm not sure who else's son you could more realistically be'. Out of people I've met, anyway.

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He laughs. The Eldar can't be mistaken about paternity. I suppose if I were an adopted frost giant there'd be no way to tell.

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Yeah, I didn't think there was an actual question about the matter, but if there had been that would be how I'd describe my opinion on it.

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If there were I imagine people would have been more hesitant to say it. There were more jokes about Findekáno and I once we started being more careful and there was less basis.

Do your Men have an economy? How do they provide for the unwell and unable to work? They die, don't they? Are any of them doing that already?
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One of the werewolves went missing, a while ago, but so far nobody's retirement age or anything, and, uh, I'm around. I made sure the pregnant ones just kind of constantly wear healing songs because that can be a very hazardous condition, sometimes suddenly. We've been lucky that nobody's gotten all the way drowned or bled out before someone could get them stable and fetch me.

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It sounds like it would be useful to have you stay.

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If you like, sure. Economy-wise I've been more focused on making sure there's plenty over making sure it's allocated intelligently but I've introduced the concept of money - Dwarves helped, when they came by - and as they've learned more things to do and found and honed talents, they're specializing more and having more use for the idea. For lack of anything convenient to base a physical currency on I have them trading in time - I can do clocks with looped illusions, there's clocks all over the place. This'll break down when the value of a person's time starts to be less similar but it's doing all right for them so far including for a few things that aren't literally spending time on favors for one another.

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Clever. Brilliant, actually.



If you're only going to do strategically useful things if I'm convincing about enjoying your company, I will be, but it'll be annoying. My impression is that your presence here will ease their transition, do you disagree?
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No, I agree. I don't mind staying here with them and you don't have to pretend to like me personally or anything. Gave up on ever finishing that game years ago, etcetera.

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The game was helpful to me, good practice at a few things I subsequently needed. I don't dislike you, you just know too much for me to properly keep you at arm's length and I can't trust you enough to enjoy having you close.

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Okay. Well, I am extremely poorly equipped to manage that for you if it involves taking your various remarks at anything other than face value, so I advise you don't invite me to dinner if you don't want to have dinner with me, but I'm not going to make a fuss over being snubbed.

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I have never asked you for things I don't actually want you to do. I am less confident if you break down 'wanting' - I think I'm giving my stability appropriate weight in my evaluations of what I want, but if I'm erring, it's by caring too much about it.

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If you say so.

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How have your Quendi helpers been? That's - an important job and one I think the Valar did poorly, with us.

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Prissy about sexual mores, which the Men are happily mostly ignoring them about. Other than that they've been doing very well and very helpfully and I've been delighted to have them.

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...unless it happens to occur to my father independently to announce that the old rules are lies the Valar spun us, I have very little latitude there. We won't enforce our laws with them, of course.

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I am pretty sure they have concluded that Quendi are just weird. There's Dwarves and there's me for countervailing perspectives. As long as no one is going to bother Tep and Riaz if they hold hands walking down the street with their adopted orc, we're fine.

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Bother them, no. Ask me to look after the welfare of the child, probably.

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The child is fine; Tep's had him continuously since the little orcs came by and there's no stepmother drama.

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If the Valar ever do find out they're going to explain to them how Eru sees it.

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You know, I'm not entirely sure on this, but I think if the Valar were paying really close attention when Eru told them how he sees things the planet would be a sphere. But, you know, if Eru does have an opinion on Tep and Riaz I really don't care, I like them more than I like him.

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A smile. Might be genuine. Hard to say. They are welcome here.

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Good.

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I don't have the latitude to raise it with my father but if there are problems, and you end up doing so, I expect he'll say that anyone wasting time on teaching Men that has appalling priorities and that you're welcome to tell them in his name to stop.

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Ha. That'll do.

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Not with the Nolofinweans, but otherwise, yes.

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The Nolofinwëans in question did not attend the wedding but have restrained themselves from bothering the happy couple. Any of the happy couples.

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There's multiple ones?

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Tep and Riaz were the only ones who really wanted me to personally officiate their wedding, but there are others who were married by the same people who witness transactions of hours and take notes on official business, and some who are not married but coupled up, yes, these people have no birth control that isn't 'turning into a werewolf for lifelong sterility' and I did not let the Quendi preach at them very much and there are ten thousand of them!

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How hard a problem is birth control?

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I expect it to be trivial once I can go find some charitably inclined galactic medic and bring them to have a look at the Men with various devices that go beep, but I don't know how to do it and even if I wanted to dig my implant out since I'm sure as hell not using it I doubt it could be usefully reverse-engineered on the time scale the Men need to be developing their foundational norms.

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He frowns. And it's not really a defensible use of our time. Still.


If sexual boredom is a serious problem for you you
should pick a fight with my father over homosexuality, lots of pretty Quendi girls will probably come out of the woodwork.
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I will make sure if I fight with your father about homosexuality I do it very loudly. Although I'm not sure that even thusly inclined Quendi are not a little scarily monogamous; I'd have to have some interesting conversations.

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Tyelcormo strongly prefers girls but doesn't want to get married, ergo mostly has ridiculously short and ill-fated flings with men. I think that's a type, if not the most common type.

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Short and ill-fated is definitely me and girls, although I usually try to go for 'amicably brief' over 'ill-fated' per se. It'd definitely be a step up from nothing.

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And a step up from unaligned Ainur who only work for the Enemy part-time. The next one might not be so friendly with Thauron, and I'd rather you have other reasons not to go for it.

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I wasn't all set to pounce on her before she said that or anything, I'd have to be reasonably confident that I didn't want to be armed and alert in her presence at all times and so on. Well, more armed than I am by being a frost giant.

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I'm not questioning your judgment, just trying to think what resources we have to keep you happy and productive. And I'm lonely myself and perhaps empathize too much.

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I'm coping. Productively, even. I will even visit a sketchy arms dealer or an infinity gem before I track down Sigyn once I have the spell managed. I am not a slave to my sex drive.

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I expect that regaling your friends with tales of the stupid cylindrical planet and how you shredded its leadership will be more fun once all the fighting is over, anyway.

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Well, if I'm going to tell them all the details I have to tell them what species I am, so I will probably start with friend, singular. But yes.

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You don't expect 'I commanded the infinity stones, shredded some major deities because they had pissed me off, reshaped a planet, brought back the dead, and am a frost giant' to get a hostile reaction, surely? Are Asgardians stupid?

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Well, Asgardians are in many respects noninterventionist. They'd think the first bit would be a splendid story but they would have considered it reasonable if I'd just left well enough alone. It's not going to compensate as well as it should, not for everyone. I'm not even sure on Thor, who I'd most like to be sure of. Frigg I am at least sure either knew all along or will know to lay the blame at Odin's feet and not mine. Miscellaneous acquaintances - yes, a lot of them are stupid, or act like it to fit in.

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I meant more that reacting with hostility to deity-slayers is stupid whatever you may think of them. And I'm sorry. That sounds like an unpleasant environment to grow up in.

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I managed. I had books. Eventually I had Sigyn. I had, in its peculiar way, the Tesseract. I suppose people might be frightened of me but they could also just think I was lying, if it came to that, unless I was holding an infinity stone while telling the story, which seems like a dumb thing to do.

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Or unless you brought some curious Quendi along. Though if you expect a bad reaction, might be wise not to do that.

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I would expect to see a bad reaction coming early enough to teleport away. I know Lúthien wants to see Asgard. Tyelcormo mentioned it too, I intend to take him on a bilgesnipe hunt.

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I have no idea what a bilgesnipe is but am sure he'll love that. Hey, give us all free will and he can date girls.

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If you mean he can do this on Asgard, Sigyn can help him find the ones who don't think boys knowing how to shoot things is a turn-off!

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If he just makes it known that he's only interested in girls who can take him in a fight, will this successfully filter for the ones he wants? Because that's his policy here and serves well enough, but Asgard has frankly bizarre ideas about sex and gender.

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That will filter, yes, with some talk in the background he can ignore; anyone who doesn't want to fight a boy will rule him out. Unless he pulls Sigyn-like shenanigans which seem unlike him.

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What are Sigyn-like shenanigans?

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First time I met Sigyn he infiltrated the practice hall pretending to be a girl. He wanted a chance to fight Thor. When we got him to show his face Fandral was very alarmed about where she recognized him from.

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Can't see Tyelcormo pretending to be a girl, or having a particular desire to fight your sister. He hesitates, no, that's not true, he probably would, but if she has a policy of not fighting boys I expect he'd just prod Irissë into doing it for him.

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He fought Fandral first, beat her, Thor said she'd fight him if he told us his name, and then it turned out he was a boy; and she was concerned it would hardly be fair, and I said I'd fight him too if that would spread around the embarrassment enough to suit her; she agreed and she beat him and I lost to him.

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Are Asgardian men physically weaker? Slower reflexes?

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No. Well, controlling for training.

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Then I don't think I understand why it'd be unfair to fight a man, but not unfair to fight a self-trained woman.

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I don't think I claimed there was any logic to Thor's position.

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Our norms are very demanding and sometimes misguided but can hardly be accused of being unfair or - arbitrary - in the way yours seem to be.

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...yes they can.

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He raises an eyebrow. There are gendered differences in aptitude and inclination but not in what's permitted to you.

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Do tell.

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Hmm. Women are statistically likelier to be healers, less likely to hunt, likelier to do precision craft work like magic items or decorative art. Men usually cook, except lembas, which one of the Valier taught us and which come out better with a woman baking them. None of these tendencies are strong enough that you'd feel surprise at meeting someone in a profession not associated with them. Except that every advance in mathematics has been made by a woman and it is surprising to meet men who are good at math. Men don't tend to get anywhere on math proper but often make contributions in theoretical engineering. I can't imagine anyone saying it'd be unfair to have a contest because of the gender of the participants.

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I do not think you have done the rigorous experiments necessary to show that these differences are innate. It is especially bizarre that there is a food that comes out better if a woman bakes it. That's just weird.

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Those experiments would require Father to be more authoritarian than he's generally inclined. I suppose eventually he might be willing to do it for the sake of knowledge. The Valar's personal magic can work as they please and if a Vala decides that hers works better for women then it does.

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Oh, well, if the Valar are doing it on purpose that's another matter, I suppose. What a waste of being a Vala.

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He smiles. They also built a paradise. It's quite nice there. Anyway, if you told people that all of those tendencies aren't innate I think they'd say 'oh, all right' and go on with their lives, they don't have tremendous cultural weight.

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Perhaps. I mean, there are races with enormous mental sexual dimorphism but Quendi do not manifest it in any customary way. More study needed, where by needed I mean pretty thoroughly optional as long as nobody's actually refusing to teach little boys math.

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Of course not. And our sexual norms are entirely symmetric, if inconvenient.

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Well, symmetric by gender. They are hardly fair to people who have no luck cultivating the accepted preferences.

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It's perfectly fine not to marry. It's that sex is not a recreational activity but Eru's gift for the purpose of marriage and strengthening the bonds between people who will create and raise children together. Having sex for fun is rather - disrespectful - I think is the concept.

And using romance and desire not for the purpose of building a bond with a spouse so you can build a family together, but just to make someone yours because you want them,
is rather obviously wrong, not that I particularly lost sleep over it...
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I'm sure by now you can imagine what this all sounds like to me.

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Like the Valar are silly and we should really have thought it through and concluded better by now but you'll admit that we've had more important priorities and tolerate us as long as we're only doing this to ourselves, presumably.

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Yes. Actually I was thinking that if Eru didn't want gay people he could have just not made any. There's species where it simply doesn't happen for one reason or another, it's not impossible in principle.

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We may not fall in love often enough for the Asgardian categories to make sense of us. I am not of some intrinsic orientation towards men; I am in love with one specifically. If Findekáno were a girl maybe I'd still like him, though I obviously would not have pursued him.

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Well, there are still species where they don't fall in love with the same sex, whatever vocabulary is preferred for the sorting of the population.

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Maybe Eru was aiming for that and erred slightly. I get the sense that there were some communication failures in Creation.

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Like the stupid cylindrical planet! But people he's supposed to have made directly, yes? Even the Dwarves he had to ensoul or something?

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Maitimo shrugs. I think the difference between us is smaller than we think; I am happy to declare the divine plan good and righteous and then not care for being good, while you're inclined to claim 'goodness' for something less arbitrary than the whims of gods and then plant your flag there. We both do as we please, and it mostly pleases us for people to have space for the lives they want, and all that's incomparably overshadowed by killing Moringotho as quickly as possible, so it comes down to an aesthetic difference in most respects.

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It seems more than aesthetic to me, but I take your point.

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Maybe the gods really do know more than we and there's a deep sense in which they're right. Maybe they just are so much more than us, experience so much more than us, that our suffering ought to matter to them the way plants matter to us, and their whims are worth more than our whole lives. I'm happy to concede all of that and then defy them anyway.

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If that works for you.

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If you learned that that were true, would you switch sides? Go 'huh, I guess the satisfaction Moringotho gets from his games actually is of more moral weight than any experience any of these beings have'? It was a popular philosophical problem in Valinor; it's an obvious consequence of there being things thousands of times more complex and powerful than others and believing that not all minds have equal moral weight.

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I don't know what it would look like to 'learn that it was true'. I draw one threshold and it's low enough on the scale that I got nervous about hunting for dinner when I heard there was someone who could talk to animals around - I could learn that the threshold should be lower, or that I mis-estimated something's place on it, but I hold things above that threshold to a moral standard and the Enemy's forfeited his right to be considered as an end in himself as anything other than a distant last priority. If bigger entities are more valuable it is because they can do more, not because they have magical experiential properties that make everyone else plants by comparison.

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I suppose that's one approach. I don't draw a threshold - torturing a bird is wrong but less wrong than torturing a dog and that's less wrong than torturing a man - and it does follow that some things could matter far more than we do. You know, in general doing morality with thresholds gets you all kinds of absurd results - you'd torture an infinite number of puppies who are three months old rather than one who's three months and a day old, if their thought processes happen to change that day in the way that makes them cross your line - I wouldn't expect personhood to be a conveniently discrete category, or a static one.

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Well, I also don't torture things, in general.

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I torture trees all the time, and call it carpentry.

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You don't chop them down before you cut them up? Anyway, if you're about to tell me plants feel pain here I will be thoroughly astonished.

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No, they don't. But I'm sure as far as Moringotho's concerned, nor do we, not really, not in the interesting sense in which real beings have experiences.

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I'm sure this stupid cylindrical planet has a completely different history of organisms, complete with spontaneously appearing sapients, but in my galaxy, living things - which bear striking resemblances in many cases to local examples - typically arise via a prolonged winnowing and random iteration process generation after generation. They don't keep anything they don't need. Plants couldn't react to pain if they had it, it wouldn't do them any good; they can't flinch or run away or be steered clear of unhealthy habits of self-harm they'd be hard-pressed to take up or trained not to bite their tongues off; so they don't have it.

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By that argument animals should suffer more intensely than we do, because they only have pain and pleasure to govern their choices, while we can also be motivated by reason and need be less intensely incentivized by suffering.

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Not particularly; they also can't necessarily proceed through pain to do something they've been persuaded is important, not having the ability to be persuaded. And your people may have woken up by a lake one day in their modern form, but mine are presumably descended recently enough on the applicable time scale from some sort of bizarre ice creature to not have worked out all the advantageous changes to the machinery. Once intelligence sufficient to build on itself is present it works a lot faster than sitting around waiting for anything with the wrong pain threshold to fail to reproduce.

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You can persuade even rats to proceed through pain, at least Tyelcormo can. I don't know how intensely their suffering compares to ours. I could ask him that, too, I suppose, but it's a harder question.

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I am a bit unclear on the Tyelcormo-related implications for animal moral value. I would probably not eat anything he'd talked to for long.

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Or anyone they talked to? I don't know if more Elf-like patterns of thinking are contagious such that if animals who have them interact with other animals everyone gets more Elf-like.

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That hadn't even occurred to me, oh dear.

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I'd idly wondered for centuries but I don't particularly care about whether something's thinking is Elf-like so it didn't seem a matter of much gravity.

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I was abruptly concerned about whether animals minded being hunted as much as I would mind it, when I was three hundred something. Read a lot of books on animal cognition. Stopped eating a certain imported cephalopod on the rare occasions it came up. Other than that didn't find anything that seemed worth continuing to eat a lot of bread and be teased by my sister over.

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This might be one of the sensibilities that will turn out not to be stable but I have a hard time thinking abruptly killing someone is wronging them. Causing pain, yes.

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Please keep this sentiment far away from me if I am ever particularly abruptly killable near you.

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That'd be wronging the whole world. And obviously living in fear of abrupt death is a wrong.

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I continue to object in principle even if you do it after I have obsoleted myself as particularly useful to others and without the slightest warning.

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I'm happy to swear never to kill you, save if you have a Silmaril etcetera etcetera, if you're really nervous about it. Not thinking something is wrong doesn't mean one goes around doing it to people who disagree.

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I'm not nervous about it, certainly not enough to ask an oath. Also I will not have obsoleted myself as useful to others until I've already handed out free will, so that would be particularly dumb. Does the Silmarils thing mean I cannot even, like, deliver them, if I happen to be near them to scoop them up? I have to tell one of you lot where they are and say come and get 'em?

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No, the Oath commits us to pursuing someone who hides or claims or keeps them, you're quite welcome to drop them off and considering how much they'll compound our capabilities it'd be much appreciated.

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Good, that would've been really inconvenient if nobody was allowed to help you because they'd have to touch them or something and then you'd have to run them through.

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Father was in a very very dangerous place intellectually and emotionally but he was not that reckless. Technically it's only while someone's withholding it that we're bound to pursue them anyway; if we can retrieve the Silmaril with no running-through they're no longer withholding it and we're no longer obliged to bear them any enmity.

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The fact that oaths can enforce things like 'bearing people enmity' - or 'hatred' as for the orcs - is possibly the worst thing about them. I mean, they'd be horrible if they could only compel action under threat of excruciating suffering, but...

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Oh, no, I was speaking loosely. That effect is horrifying indeed and not present here. The wording is that we'll kill them; we could do so while bearing them no ill-will at all, though I'd personally be very annoyed with anyone who stole them and refused to name any price at which they'd give them back, knowing what we're bound to.

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Ah. Well, still, the orcs have it, it's a thing oaths can do.

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Yes. It's a very very double-edged blade. I approve of you ending our nature for the orcs' sake; I'm not sure how I feel about it on a personal level.

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...I mean, I assume the soul gem could be more specific if it were cooperating with me at all, sorting people into those who like their horrifying oath feature and those who don't would just be time-consuming.

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We'll ask our father. I don't know what his answer will be.

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Couldn't begin to tell you. This assumes that I either need infinity gems to kill the bastard in the first place, or that orc free will is very urgent even with him dead and no longer available to be served and me having teleportation in shape to put obligatorily warring races on different planets; versus that I take a more leisurely pace to read up on possible free will installation mechanisms and find one less dangerous than the gem or a way to make the gem less dangerous. Former case is more likely me trying to get as much done as possible before I have to drop the thing like a hot potato and commensurately more likely to involve giving free will to people who don't want it just because it's less complicated than taking a poll.

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And if that's what happens we will cope. He might be all right with it anyway. I could also plausibly maneuver to make him all right with it, though at some cost, because the Oath is currently really useful to me.

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It is?

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I have really obvious incentives to effectively seize power from my father, could do it, and am doing lots of things that would be useful steps to doing it. I defied him publicly on something very important and haven't apologized, I disobeyed direct orders during combat, he's still moving to my city. Why is he moving to my city? Because I sold him my soul when he needed it, without any expectation that we'd ever fulfill the Oath or that oaths would ever stop functioning as they do.

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Ah.

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There are a lot more than eight souls at stake in this fight. It was obviously worth it.

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I confess I don't get why the Silmarils in particular. I suppose other avenues for not fading away weren't on the radar at the time...

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My father doesn't conclude lightly that something cannot be done no matter how much time. He has concluded it in this case. Maybe now that we have interdimensional transport and perhaps infinity gems, the fate of the Elves to be confined to Arda has other avenues of approach, but if it was going to be just us in this fight, we needed to believe we could reach for the stars if the war ever ended.

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The real stars and not the fake Valar-suck-at-their-jobs stars. Yes, I see the reasoning, sort of.

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The Valar asked my father to give them the Silmarils. Well, the nicer ones asked, some of them turned up their Vala-powers and declared that the Silmarils, being made from materials in their paradise, were rightly their property anyway. A Vala who has decided to use their presence to be convincing is a scary thing. Father - likes to retaliate, when people have that kind of power over him, by setting himself irrevocably on his current path.

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- why did they even want them?

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They could restore the Trees and the full bliss of Valinor.

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Didn't they make the Trees in the first place? Why couldn't they just... make... more trees?

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The Trees were a one-time thing, the sort of creation that cannot be repeated. There are a lot of those. The Silmarils themselves. They're a sufficiently large part of fate that they get very deeply threaded in it, I've heard said, though that's not a very constructive explanation. Sufficient to say that the Valar could not make the Trees again, deeply desired to, and asked my father to give them the Silmarils to heal the old trees.

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Couldn't they have borrowed them?

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They were going to destroy them in the process, as I understand it.

Father thought that they didn't really like the idea the Silmarils represented, of us living outside Valinor, in the first place.
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Wouldn't surprise me.

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Anyway, the Valar regard the Silmarils as their property, but probably are unwilling to damn us forever by taking them; the Enemy could be creative and use the Oath against us but luckily hasn't so far, and I personally benefit tremendously from having my fate irrevocably tied to my family's, at least until that fate catches up with us.

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Well, the free will thing would be a postwar project, if possibly immediately postwar.

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At that point I don't think I'd benefit as much. I still won't willingly revoke it without my father's leave. I decided a while ago which parts of me are signed over to him and that certainly is.

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Noted. If it is feasible I will not free-will anybody who doesn't want it whose lack of free will is less obnoxious to others than the orcs' is.

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It's getting late, he says, though they're underground and the building windowless and one wouldn't really be able to tell. Conversations with you are reliably fascinating, Loki. I think it is good that you're staying to help your Men settle.

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Thank you. Where am I crashing for the night?

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We have guest suites that are for diplomatic reasons not elegantly emblazoned with the regalia of my house. No hot running water yet, unfortunately, though that's happening in the next month. One of the diplomatic guest suites opens onto my rooms but I shall put you in one of the other ones.

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...and is that for the other maudlin gay elf as a just in case someday thing, or what, she doesn't ask. I will be fine without hot running water. Up she gets.

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He is watching her expression closely anyway and smirks when she does not ask. Someday I'll tell him that I built it in and that will be meaningful to him even though he'll probably never visit here.

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I do not have nearly your control over my facial expressions, she grumbles. I want credit for not asking.

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Why should I mind if you ask? There isn't anyone else who I can tell.

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Fair enough, I suppose. Chalk it up to me not knowing how you tick.

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I like talking about Findekáno and virtually never have the chance to do it.

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I will find you a lovely vacation planet when you're ready.

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Back before I had more important problems it was a continual source of annoyance that one of my most satisfying achievements was one I couldn't tell anyone about, and that concealing it from everyone else was actually a major achievement in its own right which I also couldn't mention.

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Yeah, I had that problem. And then Sigyn got himself just about killed and nobody was watching and - She spreads her hands. He didn't tell.

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It makes all the difference having someone, doesn't it?

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Yes.

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The guest room he shows her to is furnished, if sparsely. The ones for the Nolofinweans have fur rugs and several fireplaces and so forth. I decided they'd probably debate it and decide to consider it an offensive gesture but I'd rather they be warm.

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Yeah, my helpers take over the tower for the winter as soon as it's cold enough that an igloo won't melt. It occurs to me that I kind of have no idea how cold it actually was. Haven't had the nerve to ask for an osanwë of it.

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The Eldar do not die easily and a lot of them died. It is infuriating that the only meaningful thing I can do is as indirect and inadequate as building a city to cause a different city to be vacated for them to live in safely.

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My one consolation is that they won't give me any credit for it, so at least the mismatch between what I've done and what I'm credited with is in my favor even if both are far, far less than I ought to do.

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Findekáno was so suspicious when I told him he could expect to move his host into the Mithrim camp.

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Findekáno has presumably by this point concluded that I was playing him for a long time, maybe even that I decided to seduce him in the first place in order to keep tensions in our family manageable, maybe even that I did it on my father's orders. The way I operate is very deeply grounded in trust I usually spend centuries building. When I tell my brothers to do something, they believe me that I have their interests in mind and am not using them. Without that trust, people feel dragged around. I have thought about asking Findekáno here so I can restore his trust in me, but -

- I don't think this is real. To play him like that when I think he's likelier than not an automata of your making would be genuinely unfair.
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...unfair to what, the automaton, or the possibility that he's real?

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The latter. I don't care about being unfair to figments of my imagination.

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Is the eighty percent figure you're planning on giving Moryo genuine?

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Yes. This is sophisticated even for the Enemy, and there are obvious ways he could have gotten more from it and hasn't, and when I've proposed a test you've always risen to it - and there's the evidence of the passage of significant time - eighty feels about right. It's not going to fall very quickly from that, though.

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Fair enough.

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The larger point is that if I invited him here it'd be entirely artifice. I don't like being touched, I expect that knowing what it most likely really is I could barely find it tolerable, I know exactly what would fix things between us but it'd be a very elaborate, painful and unpleasant performance on my part that I spent months recovering from afterwards. That's not very fair to him. He'd never find out, but still.

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Yeah, don't do that, the pair of you are way more than tragic enough already.

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I was prepared to if it was necessary but it doesn't look like it will be, no one is starting a civil war.

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Thank goodness.

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I'm not sure if it's you we have to thank for that, but if so, thank you. I really was worried that is what it would have come to.

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I don't know either, but I like to think I was contributory because I have a very large ego.

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In one of the 'rescues' Thauron played me through before this one, the first one, when it didn't even occur to me to wonder whether it was real, Findekáno rescued me and the hosts were warring and he wasn't sure if he had me as a hostage or an ex-lover or what else and it had only been a few days, I was still utterly shattered and struggling to put myself together, but I figured it out and started moving the pieces and Findekáno melted into Thauron in my arms.

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Shiver.

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Being toyed with isn't really the outcome I'm afraid of. Thauron doesn't learn anything from that. It should be a chance I am willing to take if the benefits should this world be real are good enough. I'm just not quite disciplined enough to actually keep taking it except in dire need.

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I cannot be sorry that you're playing conservatively with your sanity. Nothing's riding on you adding extra, secret tragedy to the you-and-Findekáno drama.

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No, he says with satisfaction, it's not. I appreciate your role in that whatever it may be.

And I suppose I needn't worry whether you'll stay warm. Good night, Loki.
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Good night.

And she goes to sleep.

She has not soundproofed the buildings of the city, yet; he might hear her murmuring random nouns.
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If he does, he doesn't comment. In the morning a Dwarf brings breakfast.

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She thanks the Dwarf, eats the breakfast, heads out at a leisurely enough pace that Maitimo could catch her if he thought of something else he wanted to say, and then flies around doing soundproofings.

When she's done she doublezooms all the way home.
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The Enemy did not exploit her absence, at least not in an obvious way; the camp is still standing, and everyone greets her with relief.

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She says hello to everybody and tells them that this place isn't defensible. In anticipation of Thauron coming out and being a huge jerk, they will be falling back to other locations: families with babies too small to learn to fly can scurry south to the Dwarves who said they could take some people, they should be able to get there in plenty of time and before winter sets in. Everybody else is gonna learn to fly and go in batches to the eight-pointed city, which has graciously set aside space for them under the following generous parameters. The Quendi are going to be really perfectly polite about that, right?

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The Quendi are at least going to voice their objections privately.

"The help of Fëanáro's firstborn always comes with strings - not just attached, but woven in rather thoroughly," someone says to her once they get a minute alone. "And he's not trustworthy, and he's a Feanorian. And the city itself is a Feanorian city that's arranging for you to owe it a favor, not a place for Men. And Men shouldn't be around Feanorians anyway."

And so on in that vein.
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"Well, you don't have to come if you don't want to, I can make an extra trip to escort you back to your host, but I'm sure the Men would miss you. What's your alternate plan? Overwhelm the Dwarves with refugees? Park here and hope really hard?"

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No, it's definitely better to go with the Men, and there's not a good plan, but that's classic prince we-don't-say-his-name-you-know, leaving you with no better options than running into his arms.

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"It's not his fault I didn't beat the asshole into tiny enough ice fragments to give us time and wherewithal to build our own defensible city," Loki says. "Look, does it help that he owes me his not being in Angband to begin with? This is a big favor, but he can only offer anybody favors because I hauled him out of there."

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That does help. The opinion is voiced that Loki should have leveraged this to get the Feanorians to apologize and yield the crown, not that they'd have done that even in exchange for his rescue.

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"Well, I didn't do that, it's not my style, and now I need a place to put a bunch of Men and Maitimo has one."

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"Maitimo is quite charming, isn't he?" The grumbling mostly quiets as they help the Men pack and prepare.

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Loki makes sure everyone knows how much birds can "carry". The illusions on the singing objects and the telescopes and the mirrors and the clocks are actually not going to survive the trip - if the physical substrates are hidden away and the illusions stop playing she'll have to replace them anyway - so don't pack those unless you're going to the Dwarves; she'll make replacements there for any such things needed. Messenger bird, go tell the Dwarves how many are coming and when, ask if they'd be willing to provide escort for some feasible consideration. Maybe they want clocks, she hasn't offered them clocks yet. Rest of you Quendi are on osanwë flight-teaching duty. She would like the first batch - call it two hundred, all adults, none of the werewolves, no essential personnel - ready to move quite soon. She wants everybody where they're going before the first snowfall.

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Everyone's sad, distressed, anxious, but ready to work hard. Two hundred Men learn to be birds.

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She promises the city is very lovely. She illusioned it that way herself.

She zooms out to toss Maitimo a, Hey, I'm going to bring a batch of two hundred soon as I get home from here. Larger batches from there if they don't meet mishap.
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We have finished defending the walls, and will expect you.

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Back in a bit.

And she turns right around and collects the two hundred and zooms them all invisibly cityward along with a couple of elves for midflight osanwë if something that needs more than unidirectional audio illusion communication comes up.
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Nothing disturbs them.

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Here we are. What's intake protocol? Loki asks when they're there.

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Land outside, play the song, ask everyone individually to confirm that they're a Man or an Elf or whatever and that they intend to abide by the laws of this city or leave it if they decide they cannot.

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Sure. Loki announces this to her flock, and then she touches down at the gate and holds out her hand to be deluged in birds.

Song! Quiz!
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Everyone present is not a Balrog and is willing to abide by the laws of the city or leave! Some of the Elves confirm this with a lot of emphasis on the 'or leave'! Maitimo comes outside in armor, eight pointed star on his chest, hair braided very elaborately, and the Elves' eyes narrow and he greets them by name. He does not ask after their families, but he gives the impression he could do that by name too.

Hello, he says to everyone. I am Nelyafinwë Maitimo; I built this city and govern it. It was built for Elves and Men are very different, and it took Elves long ages to come to love living in cities, but I hope you will find happiness here regardless. The northwest corridor of the city is yours to live in; you can make and enforce your own laws, if they are just ones, and if problems arise we will navigate them later. I understand it there are many more of you coming, so you can come in and start looking at how to arrange things for the rest of them.
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Loki decides to send the narrow-eyed Elves home to tell everybody they're fine. She will be along the next day at the latest to turn them back into Elves. She's going to help these Men get settled in and make a plan for helping everybody else settle in.

While she's ushering people in, Is knowing everybody's name your thing? Should I introduce people?
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I got most of them already, he says, but certainly - or family units, other things I should know -

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...You got them how? I didn't bring you a census. Do you want a census, I have one.

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Yes, I'd love one. I listened to everyone's thoughts during the identity-verification.

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That was creepy. I know you only have a phrasebook of the language and you can lean on the telepathy if you have to get past the language barrier but I'm right here now, how was that necessary? Also I could have sworn my helpers told me they'd explained how to sort out private thoughts -

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I wouldn't have done it if I thought they hadn't.

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And they mostly happened to be thinking their names in public?

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No, thinking about the person currently verifying their identity. Most people are less concerned than you with privacy and have lots of their thoughts public.

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Ugh. Fine. Creepy but I'll get off your case. So Loki identifies for him the married and the close-enough and the - well, not technically siblings, but there's that cluster she thinks of that way they're so close - and she didn't put any kids in this batch but that one thinks she's pregnant. No really elaborate dynasties here, there has hardly been time. She attached a census to a few paper scraps for him. It has pictures and occupations and marriages and (if applicable) children and werewolf status.

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Thank you. Are the Nolofinweans inclined to tolerate me? I was planning to invite them to a committee on planning how the city can generate a surplus fast enough to send apology resources west, but it isn't immediately obvious to me that I have enough goodwill even for that.

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They weren't happy that I was accepting such a large favor from you even though they didn't have any better ideas, although they seemed marginally happier about it when I reminded them that I'm why you can offer anybody favors at the moment. I can try to sound them out on the committee.

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Just tell them that since I'm a generally dishonorable scoundrel you can ignore me if I ever try to call the favor in.

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I will rephrase that.

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Their grievance is entirely legitimate; I am not taking it lightly.

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But the Men have not inherited it and shouldn't be encouraged to.

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And hopefully won't, because I'll spend the next few days showing them how indoor heating and plumbing work in my pretty city, and talking governance with whoever I should be discussing that with, and giving people presents and so forth.

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Of these the one best equipped to take point on internal-to-Men matters is Julit but you'll probably intimidate Oen or Pral less. Their singing rocks etcetera didn't make the trip; are there random things around for me to enchant or should I just stick a song to the pregnant one's shoe and bring a bag of rocks next batch?

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I'll have someone bring us a couple thousand matching stones right away; I have all sorts of things like that around for decorating. I'm not intimidating when I'm not trying to be. I made a calculated decision that I'd rather have the Nolofinweans go home muttering 'how arrogant he is, what a blatant play for Feanorian pride' than 'he seemed apologetic what's his real scheme'.

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Fair enough, but Julit has already seen you, being all intimidating, and she's generally nervous about new people - which looked like she was just generally timid until she was about six months old and knew everybody in passing, and then it looked like she'd outgrown it, and then Dwarves came by. I'm sure you can charm her if you try, of course.

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Trying to charm specific Men honestly feels a bit unfair. How many batches are you expecting to need to bring them all over?

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This batch is small and filtered oddly; the rest will come across five hundred or more at a time, should have them all out in a couple weeks.

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Filtered to be people you could afford to lose, if the Enemy figured this out?

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Yes, although please don't tell them that in so many words. And I left the werewolves behind because they're nontrivially defensively valuable there and more redundant here.

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Of course I wouldn't tell them. Werewolves turn into birds with no problems?

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Starting from Man form, yes. The ones who are usually wolves I will have to fit in with a batch whenever I can catch them bipedal.

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I was more worried they could wolf in midair.

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I did various werewolf-related experiments when I first moved in and was deciding whether to let them make more werewolves. They do not spontaneously turn into anything when birded over the course of a few days at least.

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The rule on making Elves into werewolves in this city is going to be 'no'.

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I will make that clear. The rule is actually 'no' for Men now, even, since the nightmares, the only exception was the orc I had turned in case that worked.

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If Thauron had that kind of power he'd have free will by now himself. Or at least some powerful orc lieutenants with it, and with family members and loved ones who did not have it and who they wouldn't want to chance.

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It seemed worth a try. Of course it didn't work.

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You did the right thing.

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Thank you.

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And they get the Men settled and show them how running water works and someone brings hundreds of polished stones for Loki's songs to be attached to.

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And Loki attaches songs. Color-coded. (And mirrors and clocks and one telescope that somebody specifically asks for, he wants to see if the stars are different here.)

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It doesn't take too long to situate Men in the apartments, which are all identical but perfectly pleasantly laid out.

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Loki doesn't stay the night; everything looks pretty well in hand here and she doesn't want to leave those two Quendi birds for too long. She finishes songing rocks and tells Maitimo she'll be back with more people soon.

By a week in, she's got the settlement about half evacuated. She fits the kids who aren't small enough to be going by land route into the second and fourth batches - she doesn't want to leave them till it's more obvious or cluster them in some obvious pattern. Werewolves are last; she tells them why. Land route travelers have an escort secured; Tumunzahar remembers her generous infodump from a while ago (and her transmission of a message across the continent).

She sounds the Quendi helpers out on the committee Maitimo mentioned.
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There is a fair bit of scowling. "Maitimo runs things by committee," someone explains to her, "only in the sense that he has committees, and also he runs things. If he's decided to do this he will, but he's not offering influence. Also I'm not sure why he's being conciliatory when all the cards are really in their hands. Are they weaker then they look?"

There are nonetheless a few committee volunteers in the end.

And she gets back from one batch to find Thuringwethil pacing irritably outside her settlement. "Your guards shot me," she says, "which would have been unwise if I were in fact here to cause trouble."
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"What are you here to do?" inquires Loki.

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"Warn you that he knows what's up, has made it known that actually anyone who brings you to him dead or alive has a very generous reward waiting for them, and is still not capable of taking physical form, unless he was tricking me about that."

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"And are you in the competition for this generous reward?"

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"Would I have told you about it first?"

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"I don't know, would you?"

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"If I wanted you dead - alive is one fuck of a tall order - I'd hang out in bat form in range to erode some bricks - it'd take days, but you're gone for days at a time sometimes - come in while you're out, take you down when you walk into your tower. I would not hang around the entrance in broad daylight and then tell you there's a price on your head.

It's the same as the price on the Elf-king's head, if that entertains you."
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"I didn't realize it was quantifiable. Which Elf-king? Who's 'anyone', besides you?"

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"The Elf-king who actually makes them nervous, not Melian's toy one. There are a fair number of Maiar who are, if not in the Enemy's service, at least not vocally against the concept, and I assume he's talking to us. The orcs have been told, but not ordered out here, I assume because even if there were a hundred thousand you'd just kill them all. Though possibly he's ordering them out here while you're on one of the trips."

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"Thank you for the warning. What would it take to get you to, in some suitably trustworthy fashion, help me keep an eye on the Men and alert me to people trying to take advantage of this deal?"

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"Promise not to kill me when you take over the world."

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"...What, really, that's it?"

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"I mean, if you were one of us, I'd spell it out so there weren't clever loopholes. But this is on your honor anyway. So. Yeah. I picked my side, I'm along for the ride, I want to see how the universe goes once fate doesn't have anywhere to sink its hooks in."

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"Okay. If you help me out in running my errands and looking after my people, I will not kill you after I take over the world. If you are really objectionable in some way that I need to address I will find a way to do so nonlethally."

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"Done. I can unbird people, I think, if that's helpful with your errands."

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"Really? How do you do that?"

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"Sauron did it, didn't he? I have shapeshifting, I should have 'put this back the way it's supposed to be' in the skillset somewhere."

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"Huh. Well, yes, it'll help, if you can do it a bunch of times in a row."

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"Give me a bird and I'll give it a go."

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"Gimme some suitably worded swearing that you're not fucking with me?"

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"I swear that I have never fucked you and don't expect to ever have the oppor- oh, relax, Loki, live a little - I swear that nothing I have said in this conversation has been untrue."

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Loki laughs. She calls somebody over to test debirding. She tells people with shooting-stuff capacity please to not shoot at Thuringwethil, at least not if they're pretty sure it's actually Thuringwethil, Maiar are tricksy.

Bird. Debird?
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It takes her a minute. Then - debird. "Huh. I think I can do it faster next time."

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"Okay. That'll make getting everybody remaining taught to fly and into the city faster. Can you sense other Maiar even if they're invisible or whatever?"

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"Yeah."

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"Anybody likely to mob me or is it liable to be individuals if any?"

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"You've got a reputation, kiddo, I don't think anyone would try it alone."

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"Guesses on who and what they'd try tactically?"

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"What I told you I'd try. Or come by as you, when you're out flying people. Or ring the whole area in fire and have something prepared to take birds down when they start taking off."

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"Anybody around right now?"

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"I wouldn't have come by to make a deal if they were. I'm not up for a fight with Sauron, not in the mood he's gonna be in once he's got some feet."

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"How good's your range on that?"

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"Not as good as the range on your turn-the-continent-purple trick, but I can see people in animal forms."

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"Okay. Any obvious flaws in teaching everybody remaining here to fly right now and booking it for safety?"

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"Sounds like a plan. I'm gonna have to part ways with you once you're over the mountains, though, at a guess Maitimo is not my biggest fan and wouldn't let me in his city."

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"Well, that obviates the use of you being able to de-bird people so we can get through the lot of them at the gates faster. I don't require you to enter the city; you think he'd make a fuss about you being near it in a way I couldn't defuse in time?"

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"Hard to guess, we haven't exactly had a conversation, Thauron doesn't keep his psychological profiles in a folder on his desk, all I know is you and you seem pretty defusing-things inclined."

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"By the way, this plan involves you turning into a bird too, assuming that works on Maiar, which it should as long as you're humanoid at the time. Swifts're faster than bats."

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"And I can drop back if there's a fight. Yeah, that part's fine."

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"Okay. So I'll go turn twenty five hundred people into birds and we will talk details on how close you're willing to get to the city."

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"Sure. I can't help with that bit, I could turn people into birds but then they'd just be birds, with bird-sized brains, as far as I can think."

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"Well, certainly don't do that. Just holler if there's a Maia gunning for us."

And Loki rounds up literally everybody and sleepskips them all and turns half of them into birds and puts all the Elves on osanwë-teaching-to-fly duty and all the nonbird Men on bird flinging duty.
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Thuringwethil does not holler. She heads back to the pond and skips rocks and watches the proceedings with amusement.

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"Yes, yes, I know, swifts have a very undignified learning curve. I didn't pick the form for this purpose in particular." As soon as anyone gets the hang of flying she swaps them for another person; hopefully they can do this on rotation and not leave too many behind if they have to flee suddenly.

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"Betcha I can do it on the first try."

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"You already know how to fly with a different kinda wings, no bet."

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"What'd you offer Elfboy to let him stash ten thousand useless noncombatants in his rather aggressively military-focused city?"

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"I asked nicely."

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"Oh, right, he owes you a big one."

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"That didn't come up explicitly in the conversation."

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"You killed the one Sauron sent you. Why not that one?"

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"That seems like a personal question and it doesn't sound like you're on personal questions terms with Maitimo to me."

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"Just making conversation." She stands. "Want to bird me so I can confirm I can fly, confirm everything else still works fine while I do, and so forth?"

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"Sure." Bird. (Debird, bird, debird, bird, various Men.)

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She can fly, everything works, no Maiar are immediately approaching.

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Good, good.

Tedious bird flinging and shapechanging ensue. Thank goodness the usually-wolf werewolves are already out.

Once everybody has finally learned to fly and has picked up their luggage and is an invisible airborne bird - she's been encouraging everyone to be continually packed to go on minutes' notice if that - Okay, let's get out of here.

Double zoom go.
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No one near, Thuringwethil reports every once in a while. The song that works while flying is clever, the Elves give that to you?

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Who else?

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You could sing yourself.

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Not very musical.

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And they make good time across the desert and the mountains.

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And when they approach the city, Maitimo, there's a price on my head to match your dad's, I brought everybody else in one big batch and got Thuringwethil to play escort Maiar-sensor. She doesn't have to come in but she can help me de-bird people at the gate if that's tolerable.

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Do you trust her? Also, I'm not sure what combination of dangerous-to-kill and the-Enemy-is-scared-of puts the two of you on the same - I guess your assassin would be likelier to survive the attempt, maybe that's it.

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She's the one who warned me. I traded her a promise that after I take over the world I won't kill her for the help past that. She could be playing around with wording, but she did swear to having been truthful about relevant things.

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So you're in the clear to kill her now?

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If that seemed wise, it would not technically violate my promise, which is the regular breakable kind anyway.

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She can help you with birds outside the city gates. Verify everyone after she's gone.

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Okay. Loki bounces this protocol to Thuringwethil.

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You've got him wrapped around your finger, she says. Anyway, fair enough. I'll debird and then skip town, if you don't need anything else.

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Personally I'd find it really handy to have a full time Maiar detector but I think you'd upset Maitimo.

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He's got one anyway, doesn't he, his little brother?

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There is that.

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I'm surprised the Valar didn't whistle for their dog back when they cursed the family to high hell.

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Maybe they did. He seems pretty attached to his Elf.

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Sauron's been working up an extremely large, extremely lethal werewolf form to shapeshift into the next time they cross paths.

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Of fucking course he has.

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You lot seem to be under the cute impression you're the only side of this fight doing any work in their downtime.

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I do not assume that, but that doesn't mean I'm ecstatic to hear how well it's coming along.

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She sends a mental image of a terrifying and powerful werewolf taking a step forward and cracking like a glass sculpture. Not too well.

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Giggle. That's really gratifying.

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He's probably learned his lesson about not just squishing mortals he can't afford to have on the other side.

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That's less gratifying.

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In the fated version of history, he becomes a prisoner of a King of Men, talks his way to his side and into his bed, persuades him to invade Valinor so Men can be immortal like the Elves.

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How is fate supposed to govern Kings of Men?

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In very broad strokes - we don't know which King, for instance, just that it happens eventually, and we only know that much because it's the last great cataclysmic event of history, the attempted invasion of Valinor and the response of the Valar.

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Well, I suppose I could warn all the Men, but I'm not sure the story would survive usefully and I hope to have the necessity obviated by then.

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Yeah, I think at minimum this is three thousand years out.

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Yeah, that's probably not gonna avoid happening in a way I can avert by telling the Men something. It will have to avoid happening in some other way.

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The Valar trap the invading army by leveling the mountains over them. Not on them, over them - so they're alive, and now undying as they desired, but entombed there forever. Then they sink the continent the invading army originated on.

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That is intensely fucked up.

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I told you, the original history is ugly enough most people in Sauron's place should be satisfied.

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I wouldn't be if I were him, admittedly.

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I noticed.

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That obvious?

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It's pretty cute, really.

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Thanks, I think.

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They're at the city.

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All clear?

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Yes.

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So down she goes, and she is accordingly buried in birds, but she at least doesn't have to do all five thousand of them herself.

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And everyone is swiftly debirded, or as swiftly as this can be done.

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Thank you very much, Loki tells Thuringwethil.

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Don't get yourself stomped, that'd be really disappointing.

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I'll try.

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And she turns into a bat and flies off.

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And Loki spins up the lie detector and verifies everybody for their entrance. This takes a real fucking long time.

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Maitimo meets them all at the gates to deliver the same speech, with the addition that they are probably tired and hungry by now and there's been food brought to their quarter of the city for an arrival feast, and that they'll all be shown to the city's ampitheatre tomorrow for announcements and a welcome concert.

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Thanks.

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A pleasure. Getting everyone moved in may take us a while. I'm sharing this with your Elves as well - and he broadcasts a map of their segment of the city, people per apartment, apartments per building, strategic considerations, have someone in each building who can report to me, have someone in each building who can handle distribution of necessities -


Are you assigning apartments based on whatever the Men consider a family structure?
one of the Elves asks. A man and two women together, two men raising a child -


The customs of Men are utterly uninteresting to me,
he says, I'm assigning apartments to get all of the Men into apartments, and hardly condone by housing them whatever they get up to there. That's your concern.

And Men are assigned apartments.
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Thanks, Loki repeats when he abdicates concern for irregular Mannish family structures.

And to the Nolofinwëans: Now that we're all here do you want to stay or go?
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They are definitely not leaving all of the Men - who they mostly know quite well, and care for deeply - in Feanorian hands. Or alone in a new and confusing environment in general, this is going to be quite an adjustment and it'd be better to remain.

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Okay. Be good guests, please.

Maitimo, when do you send couriers? Can I stick letters in with the next mailing?
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Next one is in three weeks and yes. Do you want me to demand my family relocate early? They're going to do it all at once, rather than split their resources between defending two places, and this city might stand as it is but I'd be much happier with a hundred thousand people who are under my command rather than a thousand being paid to do carpentry.

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I have no opinions on their schedule; Findekáno just suggested I should write.

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Ah, so they don't throw away my letters because I can't be trusted. Nolofinwë's replies are quite courteous but never actually reference anything I say and I was never positive he was genuinely reading it.

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I don't actually know if they're being read, it didn't occur to me that they might not be; but Findekáno is aware that you're writing.

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I don't think Nolofinwe will throw them away. If I were him I think I might, at least the content that's not literally surveys of the land and dry descriptions of Angband's defenses. I can run circles around him and he knows it, so why give me an opening? Most people should probably throw away letters from Thauron.

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You'd think that having this reputation would decrease your effectiveness.

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Before the ships went up in flames this was not my reputation.

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I'm just observing that you're still getting a lot done, although I don't know how much of it is via letter to Nolofinwë.

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Nolofinwe will forgive me when I fall to my knees and plead with him for pardon personally, but that's going to have to wait a few years because I can't imagine we'll be in the same place any sooner. And until then he's inconveniently going to regard me as more of a menace than my father, because I have a skillset he's equipped to evaluate.

And then he'll unforgive me again when I whisk his son off to a vacation planet, which is why I haven't addressed any letters to Findekáno.
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I can presumably address letters to Findekáno nonsuspiciously but I don't know if they will go unshared, given how he reacted back when I asked if he could keep a secret.

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When was that? And what did he say?

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She rummages through her transcripts, is about to fling one to him when a small orc runs out and hugs her leg, hugs the small orc back and sends him back in to his moms, and then separates out and offers him the page. Strategic value, trust my father with anything you can trust me with, etcetera.

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Aaargh. Well, I'll write something. If he chooses he can share it. Are your charges all settled? I thought I'd invite all the Elves to what will probably be the world's most awkward dinner at the palace.

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They seem to be situated, yeah. I should probably pick an apartment near them rather than cluttering your guest rooms.

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As you please. You're welcome to join us for dinners, though. I am not particularly worried that I should require a bodyguard but if they like you and trust you it may make conversations more productive.

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All right, I'll be there.

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They're in the spacious dining hall that seats a hundred, this time, gathered around one end of it while Elven attendants - Macalaurë sent me people, finally - bring out food.

"Loki," he says when she arrives, and stands, and goes over to meet her. "You must be exhausted even if magic is no more tiring than counting."
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"Magic isn't; tedium is. I was avoiding batches of people that big before for more than one reason. Lucky we made it here without incident, so I can count it worthwhile."

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"Staying out ahead of the Enemy is clearly the way to manage this," he says. "I am in fact inclined to ask my family to relocate immediately, but I wanted to discuss it with you and with the people who have been your allies in aiding the Men first."

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"I see no obvious reason to delay them. Even if they can walk on the snow. It is incredibly unfair that you can walk on snow and I can't, by the way."

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"You seem to have gotten compensating advantages in strength," he says, "from watching the fight with Thauron. That was extraordinary." He sits back down. "I trust the rest of you, but I can't trust you'll set aside a grievance that I wouldn't have forgiven in your place. If my family relocates here, it'll be so we can hold these walls, and while I am quite sure that we will hesitate to admit as much, I think everyone would be honored to reearn your trust by risking our lives in your defense. What problems do you anticipate if our host arrives here in a few weeks?"

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Loki sits. The question doesn't seem to be addressed to her and she doesn't have anything spectacularly insightful to say about it.

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There are a lot of objections raised. Maitimo answers them. By the time desserts rolls around half the room is sulking silently and half the room is sulking suspiciously but agreement has been reached. Maitimo eats a melted chocolate thing and licks his fingers and looks very satisfied.

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Mmmmm, melted chocolate thing!

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And then Maitimo shows everyone personally to their guest rooms and does not let any sign of exhaustion show until all of them have closed their doors and then leans against the wall for a few seconds in silence.

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You look like you need sleep. And a few days off.

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There were a few minor disputes among the Men last time you were out - I left notes in your room but I will have them delivered to your new one, wherever it is - the sort of problems you'd expect from people not accustomed to such close quarters, complaints about leaving uneaten food in hallways, things like that. I haven't learned all the names and I meant to do that by the time they were all here. I should send a courier to Macalaurë now rather than in three weeks, in case the Enemy is prompted by our haste to his own.

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I'll address the disputes if they haven't been sorted out already. They will not expect you to know all their names; I have a census in my notes because I can't reliably remember all their names. I am not going to write a letter tonight but I think your family is less offended by irregular communication than your cousins, or at least Findekáno.

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I actually find the idea of not knowing peoples' names very alarming. It was one of the first things I learned as a child, everyone knew my name and I didn't know theirs and I felt at some sort of desperate disadvantage.

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Oh. Well, I hope the census helps.

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It has been of tremendous value to me, yes, I've been committing it to memory whenever I have a spare moment.

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Your memory is very impressive.

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People are easy.

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The only thing my memory is that good on is spell pieces, which are engraved indelibly in my head via Tesseract-given supernatural power - I tried osanwëing a letter to Lúthien and she received it but it didn't click.

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Inconvenient. Next time you can ask the Tesseract to give you transmissible superpowers.

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Somebody could maybe use one of my spells if they could at least mostly memorize several thousands of pages of otherwise contentless-to-them information. It's no wonder that regular sorcerers work in lower-fidelity chunks, nothing else would be tractable.

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Father could do it.

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Would it be worth his time? Or for that matter mine?

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Depends very much on how much time we have. Probably not, unless there are unexpected barriers to interdimensional teleportation and once he's finished your memory device - oh, your memory device might also make spells perfectly memorable.

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It might, and then it'd just be a question of transmission time. ...In spite of everything I'm a little hesitant to open that can of worms.

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You don't want us to have your abilities?

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I'd give out, say, the healing spells without hesitation - but I am pretty sure that if I spend long enough picking at it I can make a spell to do absolutely anything and I can't be sure that I wouldn't pass that along too, if someone else had the alphabet and remembered and understood it the way I do.

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Well. There are a lot of very very monumental tasks ahead of us, and you may not be able to do them all yourself and may be less of a target if destroying you does not put them permanently outside reach.

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Yeah. I'm not guaranteeing it will never look like the best plan, just - way scarier than teaching people how to build nukes.

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I can imagine my father doing terrible wrongs with nukes. I do not think it's likely and I plan to make it impossible but I can imagine it. I actually cannot conceive of him ever doing those sort of wrongs with phenomenal cosmic powers.

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My powers are not cosmic at this time. They'll take a while to get that way.

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Dead Men aren't in Mandos. We need to get them back. Dead Elves and orcs are in Mandos and he will object to a rescue. The orcs will still be sworn to enmity with us. Eru might have other pet projects like this, might have thousands of them. My father would have a decided tendency to put all of those on his personal priorities list and not even consider whether any of them could be done in parallel, but some of them we only get one shot at and I've always thought of that tendency as one of his profound weaknesses.

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I know. Believe me, I know. I offered to try teaching Sigyn once, though without the probably necessary benefit of telepathy - but the threshold of trust is astronomical -

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We have a convenient mechanism for trust. I am now even more reluctant to have you destroy it.

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You don't have a mechanism for trust in the way I mean. You have a mechanism for - nondistrust.

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If I so desired I could commit myself to want everything you want, and nothing else.

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And that would be intensely fucking horrifying and you'd spend the rest of your time without free will wishing you hadn't done that!

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Only if you wanted me to wish that! Horrifying I will grant you.

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You didn't say 'wanting everything I want you to want', you said 'wanting everything I want', and I would want you to not have done that!

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I would sooner die. Well. I'd sooner die than do lots of things, that perhaps carries too little force. I can barely conceive of circumstances under which I would do it, and it would require tremendous discipline to do even then. But if you think our words can only be used to build nondistrust you are underestimating it.

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All right, yes, oaths can also overwrite personalities into revised versions that are by design trustworthy.

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And this is among the things we should end, and you may not actually have time to hit your priorities one at a time before Eru decides to delete this experiment.

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Is that a serious risk? I do think I can yank the entire place to my dimension if I get the Tesseract.

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That would solve it, probably. I have no idea how to evaluate risk with respect to Eru.

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Me either.

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'want whatever Loki wants for a certain number of Ages' would be tolerable, were it necessary.

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No it wouldn't because you're still phrasing it in such a way that would guarantee you'd wish you hadn't done that!

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He waves a hand wearily. I am trying to think of alternatives to 'you're the only person in the universe with the power to fix our world'. I assure you I wouldn't speak one that was worded incautiously.

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The Bifrost managed to land me here without me knowing anything about how to teleport at all and I am confident that sufficient inter-realm transit would fix the problem by itself, it's just that at the moment inter-realm transit comes solely in the form of me. That's not a limitation in principle, just a limitation in happenstance.

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But the limitations on 'fight Eru, end Oaths' are not actually known, and might be pretty serious.

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Yes.

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I'd appreciate it a lot if you thought about under what circumstances you could trust us.

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It is sort of unsettling being on the receiving end of this, however plain the rationale.

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I am happy to interact only as far as needed for my city to run smoothly and defend your people well. If you want to interact with me more than that I am going to have a bit of a hard time trying not to have any goals.

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I'm not saying you should stop or even that it's not worth the conversation - although as aforementioned if you want me to go away, I will do so - just that I'm beginning to see why you might suspect someone who didn't think very highly of your goals would not read your letters.

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I don't want you to go away, but you did mention being tired and this is a discussion that can wait at a minimum the years until my father has the memory solution, if it even works.

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All right. Good night. Sleep well.

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Likewise.

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And she goes to bed.

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In the morning there is the promised talk in an elaborate amphitheater with acoustics so exquisite that Maitimo need barely raise his voice to be heard, even to the ears of Men, in its back rows as clearly as if he were standing beside them. They go over evacuation drills. The city's laws, as far as Maitimo are concerned, are 'don't make it harder for us to run a war'. He does tell Men who to escalate complaints to. He smiles frequently. He laughs frequently. He is intimidating only in the sense that confidence is.

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The Men are less generally nervous after this. It is a good speech.

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Afterward he wades through them to join her, tossing out errands like largesse as he goes - "Bayan, right? It's a pleasure to meet you, Loki says you were genius putting together homes for the Men, the Dwarves are finishing up building in the southeast corridor and are very good at explaining their work, should you like to go and join them and get a sense of how all these buildings are made - Yeke, I was very impressed with how quickly you got everyone settled, are they all doing all right? Want to head north a few blocks and do the same thing again today?"

I wrote home. They should arrive in a few weeks if they decide to come at all.
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That's good. (She nods at Yeke when he looks at her. Bayan does not look; he just grins and runs off.)

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Yes. What else is it looking like the Men will need?

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No obvious deficiencies yet, but they want to know if they can go up on the roofs to have a little more space to spread out during the day.

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Yes. I assume they're not so clumsy they'll fall and die, or that the ones who are will be accordingly cautious?

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The ones who'd fall and die wouldn't wait for permission, by and large.

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He smiles. They can go on the roof. Do you need anything in order to work faster? We're rather hoping that your capabilities will scale up with the Enemy's, I take it.

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Nothing specific. I'm working whenever nothing else demands my attention, so I suppose you could arrange for fewer things to come to my attention.

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Done. And apparently considering himself one such thing, he heads off.
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Okay then. She goes back to her place. She tells the Men they may climb on the roofs but to please be careful. She works.

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The Men settle into the city mostly uneventfully. Construction projects near completion. Maitimo does not bother her.

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She has other social outlets, when she needs breaks. She writes a letter to Findekáno summarizing her move to the city and newsy little items about the Men; bits of it are replaced with [redacted, ask when we meet in person] for the delivery version.

And she works. She's so close to tactical teleportation - so close so close, she can borrow the concept of "position" from the bird spell and repurpose half of "location" from the illusion and come on come on -
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The host following the House of Fëanor arrives. Trumpets are blown and banners are waved and the King takes up his throne and Maitimo hugs his family and the Men are rather awed. The city has ten times the inhabitants overnight.

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She swings by when they've had a day to settle in to say hello and see if there's any recent news.

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Fëanor is just about to sink back out of normal pacing again. "Hello, Loki. Time with the Men productive?"

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"Got them all here safely, have them with something culture-shaped, it's possible I should have been more heavily prioritizing making their settlement defensible but they're settling in all right here."

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"I'm not sure it could have been done," he says, "building cities from scratch isn't a skillset I'd expect you could have easily imported. And they don't have the numbers. Memory is going to be much more difficult than I thought. I'm aiming for four more years."

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"That's not far off from your original estimate all told."

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"With the speed, though, it's subjectively twice as long. I have eidetic memory already. I think it'll be retroactive within this world by the end of the next year. I'm at this point nearly certain that won't work for you, the information access is going to be different."

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"I mean, I'd be delighted to take it anyway, but it is not the principal goal."

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"Making each of them takes about a month, even maximally speeded, so I think I'll just make one as a proof of concept and then use it personally. I can leave the instructions for Curufinwë to make more if that turns out to be a good use of his time."

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"Sure."

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"I can give you one for non-retroactive eidetic memory." It's a necklace.

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"Thanks." She puts it on.

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"Maitimo says this- " he indicates his own necklace - "means you could teach us your spells, but you won't because there's a chance I could derive from having your healing spell the broader principles of how it functions."

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"...That is not an especially charitable summary but it's the approximate current state of my thinking, yes. It'd be much more unbalancing in the long run than nukes."

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"I don't have time to make hundreds of these necklaces, but when I do have that time you could teach healing to the people who are going to be dying in defense of this city, with an oath from them they won't share it with anyone who could learn anything else from it."

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"I consider it reasonably likely that in fifty years everybody's going to have free will," she points out.

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He raises an eyebrow. "Fifty years?"

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"If the orcs' oaths are still a problem when I have interdimensional teleportation I may go fetch an object that can solve it. The object is extremely dangerous, and it's possible I'll be able to do one conceptually simple thing with it but not hold onto it long enough to be selective about who actually wants free will and who doesn't."

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"All right. Maybe kill Moringotho first, save extremely dangerous manipulations of our fundamental nature for after that."

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"Yeah, that's the planned order of operations."

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He pulls some notes across his desk. "Is there anything else?"

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"No, just wanted to stop in. Later."

She tucks the necklace under her armor and heads back to work.
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The new population density is causing stress, but not any particular problems. There's a serious blizzard and everyone is delighted that there's running hot water.

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Running hot water is pretty nice, even for Loki! She sticks with her apartment rather than moving into an underground igloo; she prefers to be accessible to the population and at the last settlement the igloo was closer to the center of population, not farther.

Doesn't this city have a name yet?
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The city's name is Himring, in Thindarin. The Elves offered to work out what it'd be in the Mannish tongue as well.

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The Men have all those sounds, they just stumble over the consonant cluster. Himing? Hiring? Whatever.

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In the middle of the winter the couriers return from the Nolofinweans. Findekáno is with them. He contacts her as soon as he's in range - I'm not sure I'll be allowed into the city, but I want to talk if you have a moment. Thank you for writing.

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I have a moment. How are you? I can come out if you like.

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Well enough. We moved in. And I'm going to try coming in with the courier, unless you think that's a bad idea, in which case yes, meet me outside.

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If they let you in I see no reason you shouldn't let them let you; I assume if you were supposed to be kept out they'd have instructions to that effect.

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They could do kept in.

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Well. They've given me no reason to cooperate with keeping you prisoner, does that help?

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Yes, actually.

A minute later. There were no problems. I'm in a guest room in the palace but can come find you. This is a very nice city.
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It doesn't actually look like this, I spruced it up.

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Laughter. Well done. Are the Men all right? I am among other things here to meet my people, commend them if you think their help merits commending...

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They're all well, and feel entirely free to dispense commendations, they've been overwhelmingly helpful.

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Thank you. Will Maitimo prefer it if I ask to see him, or if I don't?

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- his preferences are complicated and many-layered things. I think my advice is that you at most express a willingness, through an intermediary.

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Okay. What did you redact from your letters to me, and is now a good time to discuss it?

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Nothing earthshaking, just things I wouldn't want intercepted about my progress and some help I got moving the Men, now's fine.

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I have been pointed in the direction of your apartment and am heading over there. Feanorians are avoiding me left and right, it's a little gratifying.

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Sounds awkward to me.

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If they're not going to admit wrongdoing, acting awkwardly around people they've wronged is better than acting like nothing happened. Also when you're outnumbered as much as I currently am it's reassuring for people to be nervous around you.

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Fair enough.

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How are you doing?

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I'm all right. I might have tactical teleportation in months.

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Wow. So, closer to the fifty-year end of the fifty to two hundred years for dimension-hopping?

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I'm not sure how hard that part will be, but it's certainly not bad news for the full version. I'm ripping large parts of it off from existing spells, I won't be able to do any of that for the rest of the pieces.

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Still. Good news. And he knocks on her door.

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Which she opens. "Hi."

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"Hi. I'd have more confidently recommended relocation if I'd known you'd have this, this is great."

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"I dunno, this time last year I had a really keen igloo."

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He shudders.

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"When I wasn't in the tower your people could have it and they were more comfortable that way," she explains. "Come in, come in."

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He does. "We're establishing normalized diplomatic relations. Same as with Elwë or Círdan. It seemed the sanest way to go."

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"Good, good, I do not have to be horribly disappointed."

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"Were you expecting to be? After Fëanáro told my father to stop talking or expect to die my father apologized to him."

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"You were so suspicious when I said you could expect to move to Mithrim!"

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"You've met Maitimo, right? How could I not be?"

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"We have met, we have talked, we have an unfinished game of Governor, and the suspicion still didn't bode well."

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"I can't figure out if Maitimo wishes I'd have died. He left me to, and now he professes sincere regret, and I'm just genuinely unsure. Doesn't change what's best for the war."

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"I don't think he wishes that."

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"I suppose if I had he'd have less leverage with my father. I have letters for you -" and he hands them to her.

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"Thanks. Should I read them right now...?"

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"I can give you summaries. We're fine, Elwë's fine, Elwë hit it off with his grandniece and grandnephews, there's no chance of talking Elwë into fighting any kind of offensive."

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"Yeah, didn't think so. On the one hand that's very frustrating, on the other hand it's sort of nice to have a standing invitation to go work there if being somewhere that doesn't have an absolutely defensively committed Maia minding it becomes - indefensible."

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"Yep. Though, mind, if you are bringing the Enemy down on them I am not positive they'll be willing to have their people die for you."

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"I suppose the invitation might not last. Although I think Lúthien would argue for it as best she could."

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"Well, that's something." He sighs. How is Maitimo?

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I think he's trying to avoid distracting me so I haven't been seeing him too frequently even since I moved in, but he's functional, which I think is the most important thing to him.

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Yes, it definitely is. I asked Macalaurë to communicate to him that I'd see him but I have no idea whether it's a good idea.

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I don't know either. I just take everything he says about whether he'd rather have me around or not at face value, I can't keep up with anything else. Although whenever we do start talking we tend to continue doing it for a long time considering how often he disclaims that he can't trust me and therefore would rather not pretend to enjoy my company and how willing I am to be dismissed if he'd rather be rid of me.

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He smiles slightly. If you're real you're very valuable. He must be so torn. He did a good job with the city. And you did a lovely one with the illusions.

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They were based off his blueprints of a hypothetical city-designed-more-for-aesthetics.

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He's not even an architect. I suppose perhaps he flattered one, or hired them, in Tumunzahar.

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Dwarves were heavily involved.

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The Feanorians were shipping food south to Círdan's along the Sirion. We're pretty low on supplies but we decided to keep that up.

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They will presumably be delighted to have things that aren't lobsters to eat.

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They have communicated as much. I like lobsters but I always used to eat them in Alqualondë and now it's hard to get them down.

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That's unfortunate.

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Next time I should consider what it'll do to my food preferences before I murder innocent people.

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That's definitely what I meant and I do not feel at all misunderstood.

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I know you have a very forgiving outlook on that particular crime of ours, and that you did not mean any particular criticism. I find your outlook tempting to adopt and therefore tend to forcefully reject it. It'd be a bit self-serving of me to agree with you on that one anyway.

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I am glad the last time I murdered innocent people it didn't cause me to see reminders whenever I encounter lobsters! That wouldn't help at all!

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He looks very very confused.

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I told you about Vár. There were others. They're dead. You'll see a handful of orc children adopted by the Men and their birth parents are all dead. The important thing is not that I log a certain number of hours of guilt, the important thing is that I fix it.

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Yes, he says. Right. I have no idea how to fix Alqualondë even with the sort of abilities that you all clearly expect you'll soon be wielding. Mandos has probably already restored the dead. We can't change what they remember.

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Well, logging a certain number of hours of guilt still won't help.

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Is there anything I can do to be useful here? In a capacity other than diplomatic, my time's already quite booked for that.

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I confess I don't have a good general picture of your skills. The Men don't require more wrangling than the people you sent can provide with occasional looks in from me...

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Most people aren't as - specific in skillsets - as my cousins. He's smiling. Well, I'll be here a week, drop in if anything comes to mind.

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Will do.

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He leaves. Macalaurë says Maitimo says he will see you. He walks back to the palace and admires its illusory beauty.

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Loki gets back to work.

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Maitimo's conference room is in its own wing of the palace and has its own entrances and exits so he doesn't have to see his family too much. Though it went fine, meeting his family. Everyone hugged him and wept and he hugged them and was silently annoyed with himself for not figuring out how to cry on command, and since then they'd taken their cues and their workloads and avoided him.

Macalaurë shows Findekáno in and looks between them with profound uncertainty and apparently decides they aren't going to kill each other and everything else is not within the scope of his duties and leaves. He closes the door behind him.

"I'm so sorry," Maitimo says, as soon as the door closes. Perhaps he should have said it sooner, so it did not seem that he was reluctant to express guilty publicly, but he was transfixed by Findekáno, Findekáno, standing right here with his hair braided and his freckles all in place and his expression angry and the Enemy did a very very good job this time.

"For what, exactly."

"For making promises I couldn't keep. For earning trust I was going to end up not deserving. For everyone you lost and everything you suffered because of us, for not yet having done more to set it right - Findekáno, I've had this conversation five times, forgive me if I treat some of its features as rather persistent -"

"What do you mean?"

"I mean that I have seen you for the first time after escaping Angband, and had a conversation with you, five times that I remember."

"So you want to skip the part where you apologize?"

"I don't want to skip it. I will happily spend the rest of the year doing it. I want you to have some context for it, because I couldimitate the feelings I had while doing it the first time but I am trying as much as I can not to lie to you -"

"That's a change."

"Yes, it is. I don't think you're really my cousin and I find it terrifying to be alone with you and I don't actually remember much of my life and particularly little of the time we spent together and is that enough truth? Can I get back to apologizing?"

He opens the door. "Why didn't you mention that? We can do this in public - you could have told me to leave -"

"You might be real," Maitimo says, "and I really don't think we can do this in public."
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Why not? We don't have to speak out loud - it's not a secret that we were once friends - let's go up to one of those lovely spacious conference rooms you have and glare at each other silently from across the table, it is not exactly as if I came here to melt into your arms - he reads Maitimo's reaction. Is that what you thought I wanted?



And then, is that what I wanted the last five times?

Yes.
Maitimo says.

Well. I, it happens, am actually your cousin and not the Enemy and am pretty angry with you and gather you have some issues and also I don't really believe you that you're done telling me lies. And I am perfectly happy to conduct this entire conversation in public somewhere and even if we conduct it here have no intention of being seduced.

Maitimo stands very still. It's convenient, how now when surprised he mostly forgets how to move; it lets him avoid betraying anything else. Findekáno stands at the open door staring at him. We can always reschedule?

I'm fine,
Maitimo says. Now is fine.

He decides not to point out that it hasn't even been five minutes since Maitimo claimed he was going to try not lying, and 'I'm fine' is - Great. Okay. Are you doing this because it's really inconvenient for the Nolofinwean host to hate and mistrust you, or because you feel a debt to me personally, or because there's some kind of plan that requires me to jump when you tell me to -

All of those.

Okay.

And I love you and I let you down and I hate the thought that you hate me for it.

I don't. I tried, for a while. It wasn't really worth it.


Maitimo still isn't moving.

I don't actually believe you that you love me, Findekáno says. Or maybe better to say that I believe you'd say it anyway.

I don't think I would. Not unless it were more necessary than it seems to be in the current situation.

Ah. So. The less useful I am to you the more I can trust you.

I never really considered what dreadful incentives my management style created.

I don't expect that if I stopped being angry with you that would change any of our current strategic position. Everyone's getting along tidily. Is that - new? In the conversations you remember?

It wasn't typical of them. It is also not very realistic, though.
He still hasn't moved.

Maitimo, did you want to go somewhere public or not?

Not, I think. My father would disapprove if I threw myself at your feet and begged your pardon and I'd like to feel like if I'm deciding whether to do that you're the only audience I have to consider.

Should I close the door?

As you like.

If the Enemy hadn't gotten to it first I would probably slap you.

You can do that if you'd like. I think you'll have a hard time anticipating which actions of yours hurt me and how much. There are lots of perfectly innocuous comments and gestures that will scare or hurt me a lot more than that, and yet I prefer talking to you to not talking to you...

It's more that having you actually in danger made me realize that I was actually repulsed by the idea of hurting people in vengeance. But okay. Are there conversation topics you want to warn me about?

No.

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He closes the door. Walks back over. Sits down. I wanted to ask you to tell me all of the times you lied to me, what your goal at the time was, and how you felt about it, and how I could have known, if there was any way at all. But that's going to be a tall order.

I barely remember most of the interactions I had with you. I don't think I was in the habit of lying. I don't know. You could tell me things that happened and I could tell you what I think I might have been thinking.

Oh. If you barely remember most of the interactions you had with me, what do you mean when you say you love me?

There's a difference between memories of events and memories of the way the world is. Remembering a fact and remembering how you learned it. I don't remember how I learned I love you. I'm sorry. I do want it back.

Your father has necklaces for memory.

I don't believe that any of this is real, and I don't want to install fake ones.

Right.

I don't remember ever lying to you.

Do you remember burning the ships?

I remember being present for it.

But not doing it?

I do not remember doing it.

Why would the Enemy take that from you?

Perhaps he was in a merciful mood.

Do you want to know the names of everyone who died on the Ice?

Yes,
Maitimo says. Yes. I do.
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So he tells him. Maitimo commits them to memory with his usual intensity. It is - it is not exactly cathartic. It is just exhausting. Loki seems under the impression, he says when he concludes, that soon we'll be able to bring back the dead.

Yes.

If you can do that, then it would be possible to forgive you.

I personally probably cannot do that.

Your father.

He might be able to contribute. Would that make you forgive me?

Yes, I think so. I'm upset that people died and suffered much more than I'm upset that you left us to die and suffer. If somehow we'd crossed the ice without casualties I would find it easier to forgive you. It'd be a personal grievance, instead of a wrong that's really beyond my capacity to forgive because it wasn't primarily against me. You leaving me to die is for me to decide how I feel about. You leaving everyone to die isn't.

I think you can still decide how you feel about it. You perhaps can't absolve me, but I was not looking for absolution.

And how the hell would anyone absolve you of a crime you don't remember?

I'm not actually sure that has anything to do with it. Whatever steps would make it right haven't changed. People might hold me less culpable if they knew more about what I've experienced, but only in the sense that they'd think of me as less of a person.

Would they? Would I?

Yes.

I really doubt that.

Because you don't have a good enough imagination. I didn't either.

Do you want to talk about it?

I don't mind.

Do you want to talk about it because i"ll pity you and be more forgiving and this will help your goals, or because it'll help you to talk about it, or because you think I'd benefit from knowing -

You would not benefit from knowing.

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A couple hours later Findekáno closes the door behind him and leans against it for a moment. Loki?

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Mm?

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I could use a hug and I can't ask anyone here, do you have a minute free?

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Yeah. Where are you?

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Palace. Leaving in a minute, probably.

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I'll meet you at the door.

She's there by the time he's out.
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He hugs her.

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And she hugs him back. What happened?

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We talked. I'm glad that we did. I'm not sure if I left him better off, but I think maybe. He's much much farther from okay than I realized. He told me he loved me at least ten times and I didn't say anything because I honestly have no idea who he really is. And I'm scared that he doesn't either.

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Hug.

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He was surprised by the most absurd things. He was surprised that I didn't want to sleep with him. He thinks I'm the Enemy and being around him is like a constant reminder of exactly how appalling the Enemy is and I wish I'd been here sooner and I have no idea if I had any right to come at all.

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I don't think I know better than he does if it was a good idea for him to talk to you, and he chose to talk to you.

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I told you when we first met that he was a very good liar and not just with words, and that it was impossible to know him without trying to save him, and I didn't even know at the time what he'd been through but I think I had the right measure of him at least that far.

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Well, I do intend to try to save him but it's part of a more general project.

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We talked about that a little bit. It's a good project. Good luck with it.

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Thanks.

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Should I leave you to it? My cousins when they work do nothing else, but that's not how most people are productive.

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I take breaks. This one is neither essential nor damaging.

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I can head with you back there, at least.

I hope that when you destroy the Enemy it is really really really satisfying.
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I get some interim satisfaction out of the exact manner in which Sauron's been indisposed.

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Technically Sauron's salvageable once Melkor is dead but I really really do not want to offer him clemency.

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How would he be salvaged...?

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He's not stupid. Bet you that if you kill Melkor first he offers any oath you want.

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Eugh.

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Would you feel obliged to entertain that? If you haven't had to give us all free will, I mean?

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I'm not sure I'd feel obliged to leave him alive long enough to have the conversation. If for some reason I was having the conversation, if it were safe to have the conversation - I'm dangerous when I'm frightened but not when I'm merely angry.

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He nods. I'm both angry and frightened. More angry at the moment but that's because we're here behind these lovely walls and I just spent several hours talking with Maitimo.

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Nod.

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Did he really discuss plans with you to take me on a vacation once the war is over?

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Yes. He told you about that?

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We had sort of a fight - well, the whole thing was sort of a fight - but most of it was about politics and this was personal - and I told him that I was sure what he'd say to his father, if his father found out, wasn't 'I love him' but 'yes, I thought it was useful to have Nolofinwë's son following me around like a besotted puppy dog, and I found it amusing to take him, and I didn't really think you'd care' and he admitted that was more or less exactly what he'd say, but that I should say the exact corresponding thing if it came up with anyone I needed, and he said that once the war was over he planned to tell his father that he was going somewhere he could get married and then finding us a planet and then I was a little speechless.

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He did not actually mention to me that he found the prospect of universal marriage rights that appealing, he just seemed to like the sound of planets that economically specialize in vacationing tourists.

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Just in case you are wondering how much of his personality was changed by the Enemy - uh, the rough edges, definitely, but most of it's the same.

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Good to know. So were you speechless because you like the idea of marrying him or because you don't?

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Of course I like the idea, it's just that he's a lot crazier than he pretends most of the time and says things mostly for reasons that have nothing to do with wanting them and does things mostly for reasons that have nothing to do with wanting them and we'd been having an argument over the fact that his fallback if we're discovered is to declare quite proudly that he's using me and he gives me headaches and I really need the Enemy dead before I even think about anything else.

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Fair enough.

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And he didn't say 'if you'd like' or anything, he said when the war was over he was telling his father that he was going to a planet where he could get married. I feel as if I should be annoyed by that.

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Well, very few planets will let him marry you while you are in absentia or kicking and screaming, but yes, that could have been put better.

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Thank you for rescuing him.

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You're welcome.

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I talked with my people and commended them and they're all terribly paralyzed about having all the Men in the world in Feanorian custody but otherwise very proud of the role they played.

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The Fëanorians aren't bothering the Men. Although I'm told that if somebody hassles certain couples I can then have a loud argument about homosexuality and then be approached by Quendi girls.

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A loud argument about homosexuality with who?

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In the original hypothetical, Fëanor. For purposes of setting policy that's probably one of a shortlist; for purposes of Quendi girls perhaps not so much.

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He hated the Valar's marriage customs ever since his father's remarriage, I don't expect he'd care at all. I can't think who on their side you'd have a screaming fight with - Macalaurë's a musician, Tyelcormo is Tyelcormo...

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Then maybe I will not have any screaming fights. I will survive.

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Could ask Maitimo to stage one. I expect he could wax very self-righteous.

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But I might burst out laughing.

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He does think he's wronging me, he just doesn't particularly care about doing what's right. I think it's wrong but I don't think he's wronging me, exactly. He shakes his head.

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Bah.

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You think we're both ridiculous. He mentioned as much. I would like it noted that I spend ninety eight percent of my time on the war and the time I spend sulking about Maitimo I sometimes still spend productively.

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Noted. What does this have to do with your opinions and their silliness?

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It'd be much wronger if it were wasting needed time. They've reached Loki's house. As I suppose it's doing now. Good luck with everything.

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Thanks.

In she goes.
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No one interrupts her. There are diplomatic meetings and councils and committees all week, and then Findekáno departs.

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Loki works and works and takes regular meals and works and is summoned to deal with a messy baby delivery that the healing song doesn't quite seem to cut it for and works and sleeps and spends half an hour on a snowball fight and works and works -

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No one attacks them all winter.

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Mid-spring:

Hey Maitimo, is this a good time?
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Sure. Is everything all right?

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Mm-hm, where are you?

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Basement conference room.

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Pop.

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He smiles broadly. Congratulations! What's the range? Just you, for now?

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Just me, same cargo limit as turning into a bird - I'm cribbing so much from that spell - and I am confined to the surface and nearby environs of the stupid cylindrical planet's top.

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Still. That is a lot of range. You could pop down to the south continent, see if it's habitable in case we end up wrecking this one. You could pop in and out of Angband, though that'd be unwise.

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Don't plan to visit Angband. I can check out the continent, though, do you know how far away it is?

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A thousand miles southeast would have you there for sure.

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Cool.

Pop.
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She is in the middle of a desert. A warmer one than the one that separates the Men from the Elves.

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She teleports up a few hundred feet, turns into a bird, goes for a surveying zoom.

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No signs of human or Elven or Dwarven habitation. A very pretty continent once she gets out of the desert.

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She makes a little illusion of a reasonably-sized surveyed area and pops back to Himring. Looks habitable. Mix of climates. Very discreetly if at all inhabited.

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Good to know. If you want to pop over to Mithrim and tell them the good news I was about to ask for another courier.

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Sure, load me up. Messenger bird is back.

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He smiles, hands over a dozen letters. And one for Findekáno if you get a chance to pass it on discreetly, please.

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She pockets them. What standard of discretion are we talking here?

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'I'd prefer Nolofinwë not wonder why it's eight pages long', not 'it'll be a disaster if anyone sees you hand it to him'.

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Okay. Seven pages of the letter become invisible. Consider it done.

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Thank you. Will we be seeing more of you now that that's straightened out, or are you going straight for the full thing now?

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Full thing will probably still take longer than nukes-based-on-eidetic-memory, I'm not going to drop work but you should feel freer to interrupt me.

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We're managing fine here, really. Considering building more cities.

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Ooh.

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Unwise to have all our eggs in one basket, he explains.

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I agree.

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I'm impressed with how quickly you pulled it together.

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It's kind of a hack job, honestly, but it works.

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Every engineer I know says that about nearly every project of theirs. Macalaurë says it about songs.

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My other spells are things of beauty! I wasn't in a rush with them! This one is patchwork and it'd be much prettier if I hadn't needed it in such a hurry.

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Well, congratulations. You can do a prettier version later. If you end up finding a way to deny us free will, you can even tell me someday what you mean by pretty. I think it will be an enormous advantage next fight.

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I can do spells even when being osanwë-screamed-at. He will not be able to swat me around or disarm me for more than a moment.

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And if you are losing, you can get out.

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Yep.

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He stares at her for a second like he's thinking about saying something and then thinks better of it.

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Do I want to know?
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If I had something like that I think I might stop constantly wanting to die.

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There' s a reason I didn't say it in the first place. Have fun. There's a continent east of here, too, if you want to check that one out. Cuivienen itself is supposed to be maybe fifteen hundred miles.

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I will keep these destinations in mind. And, y'know, credit for not saying it till I asked.

She waves.

She appears at the gate to Mithrim.
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They are startled to see her, but not that startled, because they knew she had invisibility. They would like to verify that she's Loki.

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She is Loki! She can turn somebody into a bird, voila. All clear to come in?

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All clear!

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She does not teleport in. Sometimes there are Balrogs about. She walks; she goes looking for the addressees of her letters.

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Most of them are for Nolofinwë. A few of them are for names she does not recognize. Findekáno's is of course for him.

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She gives the unrecognized names to Nolofinwë too on the assumption he'll pass them on. "Hi. Brought you some letters."

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"Hello. Thank you."

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"You're welcome." Findekáno?

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Loki!

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Hello. Brought you a letter.

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Thank you. How is everything?

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Everything's great! Where are you?

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Eastern shore of the lake, we're trying to figure out their generator.

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She flies out. I'm sure they developed it way past the point I explained it and past the point where I understand electricity, but I could make vague guesses. Here, have a letter. Nolofinwë is not watching; when he's got it in his hand the other seven pages appear.

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He raises an eyebrow, smiles slightly. Thank you. They don't have all the engineering talent among the Noldor, we're figuring it out.

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Also, guess what I can do.

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...turn twelve feet tall?

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Ha. No.

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Beat my cousin at Governor. Remember things that you read and forgot.

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Have not picked up the game. No.

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Melt the crystals that were once Sauron into a puddle and piss in it. Did you find a girl, finally? I'm out of guesses.

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I didn't fly here.

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Oh! Congratulations! You are really and lastingly safe then. That's very good news.

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Well, not necessarily, if something kills me before I notice I'm under attack that's that, but it's still pretty great.

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Safety from death isn't really what I was thinking of.

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Oh, that too, yes.

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It's a bit how hard to describe how deeply ingrained in us it is. Death Mandos can fix, that not so much. Anyhow, congratulations, in Tirion we'd throw a party in your honor. Can you make it to Valinor?

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Presumably, but that seems like just as bad an idea as it was when I would have had to fly there.

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Having a way out is a big advantage. I don't think it's particularly wise, though.

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I'd rather first encounter the Valar with overwhelming force on my side.

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He raises an eyebrow. You're, like, my cousins but functional. It makes me feel better that that level of jawdropping ambition is actually compatible with good manners and good priorities.

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...Wow, I'm intensely flattered!

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What's the plan now?

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Wait until Sauron comes out and tries to kill me and then kill him instead.

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Great planning, I approve.

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Thanks.

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Shall we throw a party for you, or does that risk Sauron finding out?

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I'd like to keep it a little low-key - I popped over here, but I don't think I'd better make a grand tour of everywhere it interests me to be all in one day.

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That makes sense.

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I did scout the south continent, though, it looks continental and everything, didn't see anybody on it.

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Huh. Well, that's good to know, if things here get bad enough.

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I can't take passengers yet. I wonder if I should add that next instead of gunning straight for interdimensionality.

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It has a lot of applications. How long do you think passengers would take?

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Eennh - if I flung myself at it like I was working on tactical personal - I could maybe hack together allowing living 'cargo' and then I could carry a small number of birds in two, three years - substantial numbers of person shaped people five to eight - and I would normally not work that fast, although I can sustain it if I ought to.

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I don't think the Enemy's going to be able to change gears nearly that fast.

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There are some advantages to fighting a war populated by slow people.

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Another smile. When you get back to your world they're not going to know what hit them.

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Nor are our relatives across the sea, for that matter. They're going to be like "last holiday season Fëanor was forging swords to fight Melkor and now the gods are dead and the stars are other worlds to go travel to."

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No, the stars are fake. The Valar were on a deadline to have Quendi wake up under starlight and hadn't figured out real stars so they slapped pretend ones up there. The planet is also not supposed to be cylindrical!

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But there are real stars, right?

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Yeah, you've just never seen 'em. These ones look convincing to me, they're probably even good enough facsimiles to your eyes, I wouldn't have known if Melian hadn't said.

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He shakes his head. Have you told Fëanor that? It's the sort of thing that would delight him.

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No, hasn't come up. I'll keep it in mind.

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Congratulations, Loki.

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Thanks!

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Sauron's going to be a puddle soon enough.

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Maybe an ice sculpture. Maybe I'll hit him hard enough he won't even melt.

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He sends amusing mental Sauron-images.

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She giggles.

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How is my uncle doing on his time-sensitive project?

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Coming in pieces like mine. May be a while.

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Well, now we can hold out for a while.

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How are you liking the camp? Did you find it suitably un-booby-trapped?

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The parts of Maitimo that are there are sincere. I didn't expect it to be booby-trapped. And yes, it's nice, would have taken us a while. The generator we wouldn't have thought of.

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They went from a crappy half-remembered paragraph about electricity to a lightbulb in three days, it was amazing.

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I wish you'd met us all back in Valinor.

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What, so I could have yelled at the Valar on day six?

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Yes. It'd have been marvelous.

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Ha. Well, I could have just turned everyone who wanted to leave into a bird and you could have been on your way in a day, no boats necessary.

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He winces. And we'd all be calling my uncle the King. That would be interesting.

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Shrug.

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Getting fond of him?

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I walked in and said I had healing powers and he was dying and he wanted to hear me speak Asgardian with the Allspeak off and he was just - playing, with the sentences, rearranging the words - it was cute. On a personal level he hasn't improved on that, but it was a high starting point.

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He nods. I'd be rather the world's biggest hypocrite if I complained about people harboring more affection for Feanorians than they actually warrant.

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Little bit.

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He starts reading his letter.

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I'm gonna guess there's decent odds this is not a letter you want to read with company, she says. Later.

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He doesn't look up. Yeah.

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Pop.

Letters delivered.
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Thanks, Maitimo says. Stay for dinner? I can manufacture a reason for a party and have it really be in your honor.

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Sure, why not.

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The manufactured reason for the party is the trade deal he's been working on. No one seems to think that a party for a trade deal is extremely unreasonable. There is minimal alcohol -it's your party and lots of songs by Macalaurë none of which are the 'fun' ones with mental effects - it's your party - and lots of dancing. Maitimo begs out the dancing.

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Loki dances, though! Dancing was the first thing she learned when she was pretending to grow out of her clumsiness and she has a soft spot for it. She is happy to learn local styles.

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There is a lot of dancing! Late in the evening when Maitimo has left there are a number of giggly Quendi girls finding her for dancing.

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Gosh. How could that have happened. She dances with giggly Quendi girls but is very restrained on the flirting absent clearer signals than dancing.

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There are not clearer signals. Eventually Tyelcormo finds her for a dance. "You ask people if they want to climb onto the roof and stargaze," he says. "If you were wondering."

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"Oh, is that how it's done. Do I then tell them the funny story about how you have pretend stars or would that be a moodkiller?"

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"...we have pretend stars?"

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So she tells him the funny story about how they have pretend stars.

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"I don't think that'd be a moodkiller, not in this host. Not when the Valar say that two women doesn't even count, not when -" he shrugs, shakes his head - "they can't even get the stars right. That's amazing."

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"The planet is also not supposed to be cylindrical!"

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"Cylindrical? Isn't it flat?"

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"It is flat on this side. Cylinders do have flat sides."

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"What's on the other side?"

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"Mountains and irregular gravity, reportedly."

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"I'm going to check that out."

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"Please wait until some opportune time. There is a system set up to rescue people who investigate the irregular gravity in a hazardous fashion and activating it seems like a bad time all around. Also during the conversation when I learned this it did not occur to me to ask whether the rest of the planet has atmosphere."

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"I'd take Huan and, yeah, not do it while the Enemy is still around. 'responsible' is a thing I can fake for centuries on end, really."

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"Should be more than enough."

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"Congratulations. By the way."

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"Thank you!"

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"Hella impressive, must be super fun."

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"It's kind of hacked together compared to my others but I am pleased."

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"Desperate times call for some aesthetic compromises. Though try convincing an Elf of that."

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"Does it count as an aesthetic compromise that the city's less attractive under the illusions?"

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"Is it? I was wondering how the Halls Maitimo'd pulled all this off in three years. Well, there's my answer. He cheated. I should go scowl at him or something but I promised him I'd leave tonight with a boy so anyone wondering where a bunch of Feanorian girls got the idea they should hit on you would have an obvious candidate."

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"I was wondering how thoroughly orchestrated the flock of them were."

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"Maitimo is very methodical. I promise he didn't tell anyone to hit on you, just that if they tried it it might work."

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"Anybody going to have hard feelings if I invite somebody who is not her to stargaze first?"

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"Have you met Nelyo?"

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"...Yes? This is last-minute enough that I'm not sure he devoted the full force of his personality to making sure exactly the most unjealous amenable girls appeared to giggle fetchingly at me."

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"He was on something of a tear. I was actually a bit worried about him for a little bit, he had this look in his eyes and when he said he was just arranging you a party I wasn't sure that was what was up."

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"But now you think that what was up was that I don't have to worry that if I pick up the brunette the blonde won't take me up on an offer later."

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"No. I do think that they'll be fine, and expect the sentiment was communicated, but I think whatever was going on in his head was something else that only incidentally made him more exacting about party-throwing."

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"...Huh."

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"He told me he was okay, when we moved in, cool as a breeze, made fun of me for wondering, but Huan didn't lick him and I asked why not and Huan said he didn't like being touched."

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"Yeah."

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"He could've said so."

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"Apparently not. It's better or at least more - tractable - than it used to be, he worked on it for a few days before he could close the distance to let me turn him into a bird on his own, I wasn't going to reach out and seize him."

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"Thanks."

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"You're welcome."

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"Maybe I'll go find him later, ask what it is he thinks we'd overreact to."

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"I don't have a head for disentangling layers of pretense so I just take him at face value, which leaves him in fairly basic control of the interaction without having to manage my reaction more than one deep, but I can see why you wouldn't want to do that."

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"Maitimo eventually gets too removed from things if you don't yell at him. Or at least he used to."

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"Removed from things...?"

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"Forgets that, like, at the end of the day the fact he has preferences isn't problem-solving constraint, they're not something to work around, he can actually just have them..."

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"Ah. Yeah, I could see that building up."

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"Yelling at him works. Or worked back in Valinor. If there are other approaches I don't know them."

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"Does it work by bringing to the fore a preference not to be yelled at or in some more sophisticated way?"

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"Not really sure. It's not like I did it strategically, growing up.

I love my parents but both of them were as distractible as a wild colt and anyway seven is a lot. Nelyo basically raised us."
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Nod.

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"This is more than enough dancing together for two people who want it known they're leaving tonight with someone of the same gender. Catch you later?"

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"Later."

And Loki dances a little more.

And then she asks the brunette if she wants to go stargaze.
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She does! She hasn't been up to the roof of a palace before, but she supposes it's unlikely the King has security on the roof.

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...It is unlikely that the King has security on the roof tonight, anyway.

Is there actually roof access for people who can't fly and/or teleport?
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Elves are good at climbing! In trees, mostly, but this transfers to buildings.

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Loki could probably climb it, but she flies up instead.

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There is a lovely view of the stars. Loki's companion very cautiously reaches for Loki's hair.

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Loki leans in. Although she then says, "My home planet doesn't have the hair thing so all actually I know about it is to avoid it under most circumstances."

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"What does your home planet have? And it's not a big deal except among, like, royalty. You really shouldn't lean on them too much to get a sense of how Quendi work altogether."

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"Good to know. For various reasons I haven't run across anything which I can confirm is a thing of the relevant sort on my planet but not here. I assume you have, oh, kissing."

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They confirm that their respective worlds have similar concepts of kissing.

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End of dry spell ahoy. Loki is so pleased.

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So of course this is the moment when the walls shudder and something osanwë-wails and Maitimo cuts through it - well, he can't talk over a Maia, he can definitely make himself heard while one is talking - with orders for a cover drill that is not a drill.

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"Oh nine realms in a singularity," mutters Loki. She didn't even wear armor to the party. "Can you get down from here okay?"
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"Yes."

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"Okay. Of all the rotten timing -"

And she teleports to her apartment and changes as fast as she can.
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Walls are rattling, wind is howling, several different people are singing, civilians are rushing for cover and everyone else is rushing into position.

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Loki is not going to be spending this fight keeping her new trick in reserve, but she doesn't yet know where to land. Huan? If I go out now can you tell me where he is?

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No answer. Huan does not spend much time in a city heavily warded against Maiar, though Tyelcormo was here tonight so he has to be somewhere nearby. Maitimo is sending troop movements and the view over the walls but all of that could easily be an illusion.

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She was hoping Huan was within osanwë range, but no such luck. Tyelcormo where's Huan.

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On his way. He roams the whole area whenever I'm stuck in the city for a few days - could've gone to Doriath - he thinks he's ten minutes out -

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She doesn't have person targeting installed yet and if she did she couldn't go get him because she doesn't have passengers yet. She paces. She waits. Can everything hold that long? I can't see through Thauron's illusions -

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The city was meant to hold out even without either of you, Maitimo says. Though with grievous losses. We can certainly do ten minutes. He keeps projecting information - no serious attempts to breach the walls, yet, just a rising tide of magical power -

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Loki goes out to just inside the wall; if anybody falls off it injured she can at least help there.

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Thauron is singing. Thauron is singing of some war of the Valar and Melkor early in history, of meadows and valleys and rivers swallowed by sudden fire -

- countered with rock hardening and tides washing it and birds landing on it, flowers sprouting through the rock -

- countered with darkness, that countered with an overpowering impression of light -

The sky goes darker and lighter, the walls shake more or hold steady.

Here, Huan says.
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Where is he, show me.

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An outline on a map -