There's an amphitheater, a place where a hundred of the stone walkways twine around to create space for a hundred thousand people to sit in close proximity, and someone is giving a lecture or a demonstration at the base of it, the seats closest to him filled with eager, tiny, bearded Dwarf-children.
And they spiral down, and down, and down, past waterfalls and egg-sized gemstones left half in the rock and halls of crystal. Everything grows gradually more ornate and more perfectly maintained and the clang of hammers fades behind them. "People say," her guide says, "that we only have a council instead of a single King because there were nine winners of the competition to design the throne so we couldn't just select one person to sit it." And they push open the doors to reveal, indeed, nine thrones so elaborate it would be hard to choose between them, and nine squat bearded people sitting them.
"We're here to solve problems that are difficult to solve through trade - like the defense of our people against enemies, investment in avenues of research that benefit no one presently alive, or, yes, the sharing of information that needs to be publicly known. Travel between realms might be our domain, or someone might think of a clever way to fix that with trade, in which case it'd be off our plates." He smiles.
"Sounds like a good idea to have people designated for those sorts of things. Well, I don't know if the accident that sent me here can be reliably replicated, but I'm planning to figure out how to go to and fro with passengers at will in the next fifty to two hundred years with sorcery."
So she starts with the galaxy. "According to Melian, the stars in your sky are actually fake because the Valar had trouble putting real stars together correctly by their deadline, but beyond that there are real stars of the same sort known to my realm, which are enormous spheres of burning material, so vast that they can continue to burn for billions of years. Most planets are spherical, and orbit suns at distances many times greater than the diameter of the planet. This particular planet is a cylinder, again because the Valar took too long to figure out something. This is a galaxy; most stars are in one because matter tends to cluster together on scales like this. My realm is here." She zooms way in, cheating on most of the intermediate detail, until she's got a scale model of the Asgardian solar system, then zooms in on the planet, which she can show in substantially fine grain. "It has a lot of knowledge of other realms and high technology, but for aesthetic and social reasons mostly pretends not to have the tech and not to have met the other realms; we're in regular contact with only a few. To get between them we use a magical artifice called the Bifrost," she zooms in and shows that, "which can send or bring a small party from other planets. I was going to travel to a place called Midgard," she dismisses the Bifrost, shows Midgard from space, "for a period of a few years, with a companion; instead, I landed on the ice -" She pulls out her map, highlights that, "with some Elves, who were crossing into this continent from Valinor." Are they following her so far?
"They didn't have any very palatable options, but, yes, the journey was not pleasant. Other ways of traveling between realms are in ships that can traverse the space between planets and stars; there's a wide range of those, ranging from ones that take a while just to get to a planet's own moon," she presents Midgard's moon, which is particularly striking, "to those which can cross significant fractions of the galaxy in hours or days. With sufficient magic, technology, or both, outright teleportation is possible; that's what I'm planning to do. There are techniques that work a little like the Bifrost without being anchored to a specific item, opening a path that circumvents conventional space to allow easy transit between chosen points A and B. There may be other classes of transit method I haven't heard of or am forgetting. Some of these methods might not behave well if implemented on a cylindrical planet which came to exist before its sun did and is under false stars, but the teleportation spell I'm working on should be fine."
"Depends on the realm. The most common sort of realm is one that hasn't been developed enough for anyone to bother inviting it to the broader stage. Midgard is one of those; occasionally things relevant to other realms happen there - a species my planet is at perpetual low-key war with built a base there, we went and drove them out, I could take a vacation there as long as I didn't disturb anything overmuch. There are realms like Asgard, which know about the galactic state of affairs but mostly reserve active contact for a handful of relatively like-minded or similarly-advanced realms - with exceptions for a few scholars or occasional diplomats. And there are various circles of outright galactic influence, which have all kinds of policies and habits as regards other realms, various interstellar squabbles, etcetera. It is not common to travel to other galaxies; my spell will be able to do it - it has to get to another reality - but it's hard to scale up and hard to see much about where you're going before you get there to know where might be a good place to land, so no significant contact is in place that I'm aware of."
"The regular people wouldn't make the cut for a typical galactic-scaled realm in search of new friends, probably. The Valar and Maiar, however, would - they'd get people wanting to talk to them and trade favors with them as soon as anyone noticed they could do things like construct cylindrical planets. The thing is interdimensional transit is not a solved problem, and Melian made it sound like this whole dimension was completely empty before Eru started making things; so nobody but me from my reality has had a chance to notice you."
"I've met several people who've met them and do not tell suspiciously inconsistent or suspiciously consistent stories about their properties," Loki says. "And met one Maia in person myself, which seems like broadly the same sort of thing and would serve to make my point about the appeal of this planet to onlookers even if that were it. Ulmo in particular apparently replies to questions, albeit not in a timely fashion, and someone is going to ask him something for me. That's the extent of my evidence, though, I haven't even confirmed the world's a cylinder myself because I don't see well enough to detect that by looking. I haven't met any Men yet, let alone interrogated them about religion, but it's on my to-do list."
"Hmm. In that case - I'm not at all sure that our interests would be served by trading between the Elf-gods and anyone who would desire to trade favors with them. It sounds like, unless someone stumbles across this world in the manner you did, that is unlikely until you solve cross-dimensional travel?"
"Not necessarily; it is unlikely that anyone from my dimension will show up thus - though that's one possible origin for Ungoliant, she could also be a Maia - but reportedly there are real stars which may have further inhabited planets of their own in this reality, and maybe somebody up there has invented space travel very, very fast and is already on their way for who knows what."
"Maybe. I'm not planning to personally import anyone I don't think I can manage and if necessary evict, but I can't do much about spaceships from your this-reality neighbors and may or may not succeed in controlling the information itself once I'm back in my reality."
"It may have been developed; it is not scaled up or systematically exploited. I wouldn't know about it if someone across the galaxy from me had invented a spell just like the one I'm working on and vacationed in thirty different dimensions at whim. I do know that there are no imports or immigrants advertised as such in the way that there are things from many planets. Anyway, I do have what is likely a genuinely unique advantage in spellcrafting."
"Low end fifty years, high end two hundred, if it takes me longer than that I may have a sufficiently fundamental problem that I have to stop actual spellcraft and instead spend a few decades doing physics experiments to compensate for the fact that here I can't just look things up in a sufficiently advanced library but I currently don't anticipate that unless Melian was lying to me."
"It depends a lot on who finds you, but if you get benign trading-inclined people in the first place - which seems to be the scenario you're most interested in preparing for and is probably the scenario you are best able to prepare for - the things that you'll be able to distribute that they'll want, without running yourselves out of natural resources they could get elsewhere, are intellectual property type things. Fiction, history, even recipes, it might be a workable scenario if a bunch of anthropologists got very protective of you and wouldn't let anybody else bother you because they wanted to study your culture in its untouched state - which might be patronizing but is otherwise pretty harmless."
"Then I will try not to tell any anthropologists you exist. I'm really not planning to deliberately open floodgates to unfiltered visitation, but I don't want to stay cut off from my original galaxy forever and also find it likely that the most efficient way to stop the Enemy is to import something to throw at him."
"We haven't really interacted with him at all or seen anything for which he is particularly responsible, save a few battles with the Elves in which both sides were disinclined to discuss terms. And we take Elf stories with some skepticism. But we would be interested in hearing the events that led you to also regard him as an enemy."
"Well, he kidnaps and tortures and mind-controls and forcibly breeds Elves to generate his orc troops, all of whom are in constant pain until I heal them and are forced as children to take unbreakable oaths - do Dwarves have those? - to serve him. I consider this behavior pretty inexcusable."
"The way it was described to me is that the species who can do oaths 'do not have free will' and are therefore just sort of... fating themselves to do what they swear to do. I haven't actually asked if death releases them; they supposedly have an afterlife, although a Vala-administered one of very dubious quality, from which they can return to life if the Vala in question lets them. Other than that they seem to be genuinely irrevocable and trying to break them causes extreme, devastating depression which can only be alleviated by taking up the sworn task again. And they work when little children speak them. It's... it's a serious flaw in the species design, the oaths thing. The saving grace for the orcs is that if they're caught alive and in a cooperative mood - healing helps with that - they can be convinced of redefinitions of a few words and from there reuse their coerced wording to mean something less inherently antagonistic."
"I rescued someone from Morgoth who needs a place to stay for a few years and would like to bring him here. And while I was not anticipating the nature of this trip, I have a general education in the advances of my culture, much of which is new to you and may be useful even in piecemeal form."
"Well, this one is one of the newcomer's crowd, which may help with the religion item; he's been good about keeping appointments with me of a kind where I tell him what day I'll be there and he's exactly where I expect him whenever during that day I happen to arrive; and I have never heard him sing and suspect he will not be in the mood."
"Thank you. And I have notes prepared on a couple of subjects, including metallurgy which interested the Menegroth Dwarves; and I can come up with similar exposition on other topics as may interest you. But I can't stay long this visit - maybe the lectures I have plus one more of comparable size. I'm due back across the continent soon. I should have longer when I come back with Maitimo."
"In brief, fiat currency is a system where it is customary to trade arbitrary things for various quantities of IOUs - usually not of favors; most places get this system off the ground by backing the currency in something concrete and scarce, but once it's underway it can actually be backed by nothing at all but the sheer momentum of the system and some anti-counterfeit measures."
"That's why you need anti-counterfeiting, and to be very careful with the sorts of institutions that may spring up to do arbitrage and lending and storage. The advantage of the system is that if one person has something another wants but the first person doesn't want anything the second has, the fiat currency is universally desirable and there's no need to run a series of errands trying to find something agreeable and comparable in value. They can just settle on a number."
"I'm sorry," the person who ended up organizing the bidding says to her when at last everyone has to disperse because it's both the middle of the night and the amphitheater is booked for something else, "that's the obvious way to do it but the problem had never arisen before so I didn't think about it. We didn't have a chance to settle in advance on how much of a fee I could take for organizing the bidding - does three percent strike you as fair?"
"I don't know where the other Dwarven kingdoms are," she points out when this is pitched to her. She's probably just going to give Maitimo the gold anyway for spending money - it seems like one might want to have spending money for an extended stay among Dwarves - so she isn't terribly picky beyond not needing the foreign withdrawal option.
"It seems like it might mean that if I'm ever going to sign more contracts here I'd better learn to wield a chisel, since not every disappearing signature is such a benign possibility." And she gamely attempts to scratch in "Loki". (Not going to include the matronym.)
"It's true that I physically resemble them more. However, I have free will, inferior senses, greater physical strength, round ears, and none of that fancy the-body-does-as-the-soul-commands stuff. And most of them are taller than me. My species is called 'Asgardians'."
She lands and holds out her hand. In exactly what scenario do you expect me to respond to such questions usefully? Anyway, I'm not going to fly all the way to the Dwarves once a week to get you back to 'merely very hungry' so maybe you need to work on eating things.
When he lands in her hand she heals him and puts him elf-shaped in one motion. "The Dwarves are very keen on the concept of trade! Once I figured it out it was pleasantly straightforward. I accidentally acquired some gold, which I have no particular use for so you can draw it out of the bank where I left it as spending money. It'll probably last a long time if you don't spend it on food except every few months, maybe not the full four years, you'll need to find some other way to earn gold if you run out and need to buy things. They do not think much of Quendi but think that the newcomers sound pleasanter on the whole than the locals. You may wish to make a good impression on behalf of your batch, they're considering opening trade lines."
"No, he was occupied with the drama. It was not conciliation-inspiring drama, but they didn't seem tense enough that I had to postpone the Dwarf visit. I did however teach Tyelcormo to fly, which development means Nolofinwë supposes you may as well overfly their camp but please don't get shot for obvious reasons." She pulls out drama-related transcripts.
Nod. "But if someone doesn't like it I might be a useful mediating influence. Anyway, I don't have a schedule plotted out for after that. No more orcs to heal twice weekly; I'll want to check on the colonists as they go south but they can get a little farther before I do that, might wind up ferrying palantirs around but that can wait, etcetera. When do you want to go to the Dwarves?"
"Hm, I did kind of imply I'd stay longer than I did last time when they next saw me - would this put me at risk of missing the trial, I don't know quite how long it'll take them to get there - and didn't you want to fly over your cousins? You can do that now and they're in the opposite direction."
"You can just show me where Tumunzahar is, presumably? I was interested in flying over Nolofinwë's host out of concern for their wellbeing and out of curiosity about whether you can simulate large numbers of people convincingly and to high resolution. Tumunzahar will satisfy the latter curiosity and give me a better avenue to pursue the former."
"I can just show you where it is but if I don't go with you you'll show up and be a bird," she points out. "The tunnels are pretty roomy considering how short everyone there is, but I wouldn't choose to maneuver there as a bird. Plus you said it seems to make you hungry faster."
"Right. Hmm. After the trial, then, if that's convenient for you and it doesn't end with anyone menacing anyone." He sighs. "I'd have told Father to try her here, sentence her to death, pardon her as the King of the Noldor, and send her home so Nolofinwë isn't even sure whether he should feel relieved or insulted and everyone in their host thinks of the incident as a embarrassment rather than a martyrdom."
"...I might not stay there for a whole week unless they all look about to go for each other's throats the minute I'm not looking judgmentally at them. Well, I guess I could get spellcrafting done. I will plan to be here in a week; it shouldn't matter for your purposes if I get bored and detour to visit the traveling orcs in the middle or something."
"I'm just glad I don't get bored flying - well, yet, it's still newish - or I'd have an awful time. I'd leave you some reading material just because thinking about you sitting here doing nothing for a week gives me sympathy boredom but I haven't got any you haven't seen. Maybe you can taxonomize the prairie grasses and make baskets out of them." She shakes her head. "Anything else to pass on?"
"Yes, but if that's true then he really exists and has more pressing worries than indulging me in testing how many complicated political schemes I can play out solely through distrusted third-party messenger while he thinks I'm disloyal and Findekáno thinks I'm dishonest, and I really would get bored if I couldn't play that game."
"I worked it out against Midgardians once, we're... fifty times slower than them, about, but we slow down dramatically past about eight hundred and loiter there for several thousand years before noticeably aging again. I don't know how Quendi age to compare."
"...Look, even in the scenario where I'm working for the Enemy I did think you'd concluded I was not literally the same individual you'd been dealing with previously, I had, what, different strengths from Thauron or something like that? I don't want to mess with whatever psychological grounding you're doing by periodically inserting this opinion but does it really have to be in the second person when you are referring to events that happened before I, be it in or out of the sole province of your mind, got ahold of you?"
"How would you like it? You go rescue somebody from horrific atrocities and you're having a civil conversation and maybe not everything's all better but at least they're not dangling from a cliff anymore and suddenly mid-chat they're talking about the time you did this or that horrific atrocity? I've got a good grip on reality, thankfully, I'm not going to lie awake at night going 'but what if he's right', but it gets old."
"My life isn't mine, in the unlikely scenario I'm somehow actually living it. If it were I wouldn't have announced my plans or been dissuaded from them. I think I am bothered less than you by being accused of crimes I didn't technically commit, because being a son of Fëanor rather inures one to that."
"I believe that people in general have the right to end their life if they so desire, but that people who have accepted commitments that put the safety and wellbeing of others in their hands do not if it can be avoided and an avenue to fulfill those commitments still exists. Is that a less objectionable phrasing? No talk of ownership."
"They're very into trade. They use gold as a basis now but I delivered a lecture on fiat currency, which may or may not take off - they're going to do a small scale experiment! Their ruling council is designed to handle only those problems particularly intractable to trade. The place is beautiful and they light it up for visitors, which is very thoughtful."
"I'm actually finding it much easier to imagine the Dwarves snorting and going, 'Elves. Hope they've learned their lesson,' and not bringing it up again, but admittedly I am basing this on less than one extremely charming day of exposure. I will have to ask them if they mind saying 'Quendi' next time I'm there."
"Your grace," she says, "I didn't do that."
"I am very glad to hear it. Why don't you come inside, rest, eat, and consider how you can help us demonstrate that."
"I'm perfectly comfortable sleeping in the air and I can fetch my own food from far enough afield not to interfere with your hunters and gatherers. I might come and go if the trial's proceeding slowly to see how the orcs are getting along. No need to worry about me."
"They were assigned. Someone else must have met her outside camp with the bow - which we were able to track the very apologetic maker of, he found the perfect wood for it and asked my nephew Aikanáro if it was worth it and Aikanáro said the guard platforms here could use it, and after making it he left it in the armory."
Loki hangs out near the outside of the building so Findekáno won't have to be prolongedly invisible past necessity and does spellwork. She's beginning to question the utility of attaching her notes to a physical notebook at all; it has finite pages which aren't exactly perfect onionskin thinness and it's not like she couldn't turn pages in a completely illusory notebook, she just wouldn't use her hands...
He sits down. "Blessed-be-Yavanna-the-maker-Oromë-the-h
"I appreciate the vote of confidence," he murmurs. "We had a flexible structure on the Ice, but almost every member of the house of Finwë could ask any favor of any of our people and expect it to be taken seriously. Maybe not something like this, but maybe. Certainly a favor like 'hide a bow outside camp', complicating the accomplice question. I also had a list drawn up of the people she travelled with, but -" He passes it around the table. Ten names, none known to Loki.
"And I spoke to them," says Turukáno, "and to their associates, and none seem to have been close with her either." He looks at his father. "You think she believed herself to be acting on the instructions of someone in this family."
"I do," he says.
"Obviously I wouldn't do something like that. I am content to go shout in the square 'anything the King wants done, the King will acknowledge wanting done!' It did not occur to me that this was a failure mode of sufficiently angry people. I didn't even know there was a word for it! There's precedent?"
"Normally people don't just make it up on their own. I'm calling it black ops because if this is what happened that's what it would have looked like to Sarpalarë. Black ops is - 'the rulers must appear to abide by certain principles, and keep their hands clean, and act like they are through and through noble and honorable and would never endorse thus and such, and they must be able to so act because they don't have to think about what the black ops people are doing with negligible oversight if whoever runs the organization thinks dirty work needs to be done; join us and you may never speak directly to the king, he won't know you exist, but you'll know, you'll be serving -'. Assassinations are frequently relegated to black ops like that."
"I believe you! But if someone is actually putting together a fake black ops brigade - which we are by no means sure of, it just came to mind - and they're doing it competently, then they will have said that admitting to wanting your brother dead or a war or whatever is exactly the sort of thing they're preventing you from having to openly do."
"You can't directly oversee it or acknowledge it in anyway. Traditionally you'd pick someone to work on it for you and then avoid discussing it unless something unprecedented happened and they needed guidance on how to work with whatever you were doing publicly."
He hesitates. "I can swear that I have not authorized anyone to organize trouble with anyone but the Enemy, that I would not do such a thing, and that anyone who thinks they're serving me but cannot tell me about it has been deceived. I would need at least several days to talk over the wording with enough people and think of all the ways it can go wrong, but that is an avenue available to us."
"I'm not sure it's likely enough that you've got a rogue black ops team that this is worth it, but it's your risk to take. Also, if there is one, it is not run by someone you authorized; they might be able to find like-minded people who don't need to think they're serving you."
"As you said earlier it may be a sufficient deterrent that the Fëanorians benefited from the process. I'm not sure you should be less than conservative about this unless something happens a second time and forms a pattern from which to draw more detailed conclusions than my wild guessing."
"I at one point considered it," Nolofinwë says. "If I challenged him I think he might accept. His message with the prisoners today was almost phrased to imply that. But it's unwise, we might need him and he seems to have gotten less reckless with one son's death, another's capture, and his own injuries."
"We're not having one, though," Nolofinwë says. "We're having a trial in which I assume that Sarpalarë is going to lie to us and claim to have hidden the bow in advance and then either we pretend to believe her and sentence her or reveal that we don't and then sentence her. I am dissatisfied, and want everyone to keep their eyes open, but don't see a better solution."
Well, that's repulsive, but she doesn't think she can profitably intervene. If nobody wants to ask her questions or get her to soundproof anything or say hi, she will just work and then sleep in the sky at the lowest speed she can maintain without active attention.
The audience seems to enjoy this.
They establish first that Sarpalarë left the camp on a scouting mission, that she feigned an injury in order to leave her group, that a large bow was built and at some point vanished, and with Fëanorian testimony that she showed up far inside their territory at an angle from which one could attack their camp with such a weapon. Everyone looks unhappy, except Sarpalarë who looks very serene.
Loki can make it look like her eyes are aimed steadily at Nolofinwë while her gaze flicks around to check for other incongruous expressions.
She came back to camp, realized that her hand wasn't that badly injured, and set out after her group again, grabbing the nearest weapon. Somehow she got lost, and was found close - but not that close, she couldn't have made the shot, the accusation is absurd - and explained to everyone she was lost and they refused to believe her.
It is a ridiculous story. Nolofinwë looks exasperated.
Loki stands up. "I spoke to Sarpalarë when she was in Fëanorian custody and asked her to show me where she had been when caught. Tyelcormo later showed me to that same location, and hit a one-inch target I left for him on a door inside the camp from there with the same bow."
"Between the shooting someone from behind kind of cowardly and the making someone else swear not to tell that you asked them to shoot someone from behind kind of cowardly? I guess it's a difference of degree. But a big one." Maitimo thought that Moringotto put him through whatever he put him through to get someone to imitate him?
"I commented 'suicide mission', Tyelcormo said 'it would have been' - but she didn't tell them anything besides her stupid, rehearsed story even when they took her alive, didn't tell me anything other than that, repeated it with a straight face all through today, I don't think she can tell you anything else."
"I spoke to her the first night," Nolofinwë says, "and she swore that to her knowledge they hadn't spoken in the last several months. Which settled it. Obviously. But -"
The Silmaril oath contains the line "and to the Everlasting Darkness damn us if in this deed we fail", which is unprecedented - you never commit yourself to actually succeed at something, even if it's something trivial, and certainly not if it's 'acquire the Silmarils'. That was incredibly stupid even by Fëanáro's standards. No one else would risk it.
This has somehow managed not to come up in my hearing before. But it is presumably beside the point. Sigh. I wish I knew the words of Sarpalarë's oath, if that's what it is - and it keeps looking likelier. I could help her find loopholes. Hard to do that guessing in the dark.
"Sarpalarë, can you tell us the wording of the last conversation you had before heading out to find your team again?"
"Yes, he's the one who came up with the way around - or through - the orcs' oath. Though that was given the wording of it. But it looks like she can tell you that she can't tell you things, which suggests imperfect information security... Can you tell us who you didn't think you were talking to when this plan was cooked up, Sarpalarë? List some people who it wasn't."
"Why send anyone today, when you seem thoroughly stuck and we had nothing to go off? Were they trying to make sure you obeyed? But if you have no choice, why bother? Were they worried the truth would come out some other way? Were they trying to see to it that a partial truth came out, that my cousin was implicated?"
"Well, the truth did come out some other way; even without figuring out all the details and noticing the shapeshifter we were sure something was going on and weren't satisfied with 'Sarpalarë did it'. If they have a source of information, knew that I was messing with things..."
"Me either. And if there's a Maia lurking around here I don't want to leave you alone; I'm probably," she flings illusion sparkles into the air, "the only person it definitely can't impersonate and probably stand the best chance in a fight. Though I might appreciate someone minding me while I sleep so they can wake me if something happens."
"I don't know them personally myself, but Tyelcormo was there partway, bird formed, and they wouldn't have had a chance to make a swap after he departed and I landed among them. I don't think a fake Tyelcormo could have been plausibly planted just so as to be turned into a bird and taught to fly, although maybe a shapeshifting Maia could do that part without help and something's befallen the real one."
"Well. We can force a confrontation right now, easily enough, if time is pressing. I can storm down to Artanis's and demand to know why she met with Sarpalarë before she left, and you three can look for faces in the crowd, and I can then ask everyone to arrest both doubles of anyone we see with doubles. It'll get people killed but I think it would end this."
I'm not crashing yet, but if I'm planning to sleep under guard where should I do that? she asks Irissë.
I'm well within range to hear Maitimo and I was worried, with all of this going on, so I told him about it, and to be careful, since he's alone and practically unarmed, and he was listening but not sending anything at all so then I just told him about the area, and the trial, and how if we'd just been more sensible in the first place we'd all know how to fight by now and we wouldn't be in so much danger, and he said, very - expressionlessly, which makes perfect sense - 'do you want another apology'? and I didn't say anything and he said 'don't do this again' and It think that's what I would have expected, if you'd asked me in advance. But.
In the morning the crowd assembles again.
Nolofinwë is done questioning Sarpalarë. There's a stage of trials in Valinor where the Valar speak and they've decided to at least have people speak on behalf of the relevant aspects - mercy, pity, justice, and so forth. The people taking on these vaguely blasphemous roles look awkward under all this attention.
And then in blue, on your left and on your far right, Irissë says.
And she speeds up.
And she wraps it in one-way illusion it can't see or hear out of, visibles herself so she can watch her own weapon and arms in motion and the archers know where not to aim, and puts Lævateinn through center mass and frosts it with spikes.
Fortunately, she's got a variable-reach weapon.
She vaults out of the path of a tentacle, plunges her blade down into the thing as she flips over its head, and lands, dragging a wound after her - then yanks and shortens the weapon to have another stab at it. It's hot; her armor's all-environments but this isn't quite an environment. Heal. Heal. Heal.
She keeps her grip on Lævateinn, shrinks it, with her other hand starts patting down her armor; maybe she'll need to ask Dwarves to patch it -
- her hand is blue.
She stops still, looking at her hand.
It is blue.
She makes herself a mirror.
Her face is her own, except -
"I think I'm adopted," she murmurs to no one in particular.
"Ciphering. Look, if the problem were that I'm sporting a different color scheme I could fix that," she says, and she does, holding up her hands side by side and turning one pale-pink again. "I am busy dealing with the fact that apparently I was kidnapped as a baby from a culture my own has been at war with since before I was born and nobody told me."
The blue's receding.
"Why the fuck would Odin have kidnapped a baby frost giant to pass off as her own child to everyone except presumably Frigg - for that matter if she adopted me to begin with why not chuck me back to Jötunheim after she noticed I wasn't Thor all over again like she wanted -"
"...no, you know what, there is an explanation, there is in fact an excellent explanation if you're Odin and think 'parenting' is another word for 'frowning'. She kidnapped a baby frost giant to raise as an Asgardian princess so she can conquer Jötunheim and install me as some kind of puppet ruler, because there's no way I'd have developed a personality at any point during the process, or take the revelation badly, or that Thor would freak out and the puppet rulership might not hold. Hell, I might be a frost giant princess to make that go smoother, she's occasionally canny about people's motivations if those people aren't her offspring. Her ostensible offspring. Fuck."
"...well," Findekáno says, "among our people that'd be an atrocity to mention alongside Alqualondë and Losgar, though I'm not sure how yours feel about kidnapping infant children. But it sounds like she's going to have a very hard time pulling it off and you also needn't ever see her again until you're more powerful than she is."
"I don't even know how powerful she is. She couldn't be a sorcerer, oh, no, not her, so instead she has this ridiculous mystery high-powered magic that she had to sacrifice an eye and unspecified less anatomical accessories to get because that's special and doesn't count and I was always way too curious about it and nobody would tell me anything. But I can certainly be prohibitively inconvenient to manage like that. Ugh, no wonder she didn't just declare in Thor's favor, she fully intended I inherit a throne and just didn't have one on hand yet..."
"Funnily enough I might have been delighted, but not in any way she can have been hoping for. I mean, if someone hands me the leverage to end a millennia-long war and then command a planetful of people, what do you think I'd do, run away and become a bard? I'm not as confident as I imagine she must have been that the frost giants would take to me just because I can apparently turn blue under some circumstances - and why am I so short, I'm even shorter than Thor is - but if that part went smoothly..."
She laughs. "About twice as tall as you are. I assume there's a range. Actually, for all I know I'm just female frost giant height, they don't send women to war and I've never met one in a peaceful circumstance. Which leads me to further question Odin's judgment, if there were farther to go."
"Well, I didn't actually question any of my opponents about their genders, maybe I just can't tell them apart, maybe they're a six-sexed species, we don't have much data on them except how to kill them. Conventional wisdom is that their soldiers are men and this is of course one of the many reasons they're abhorrent and all need to die." Loki shakes her head. "If she'd gotten a slightly different baby frost giant personality to stomp all over for a few hundred years I'd be contemplating suicide about now! How did she delude herself - that badly -"
"Yes! I - I don't even have a comparison to make, the obvious go-to is orcs but you've always acknowledged the kinship - the only reason Asgard hasn't gone total war and made a serious bid to render them extinct is that's hard to do with the low-tech aesthetic when you can't set foot on their planet without freezing - people tell each other that Asgardians are too honorable to resort to the strategies that would do it, not that there'd be anything to miss if they were all gone -"
After, a minute, cautiously, he sends a feeling he doesn't really have words for.
That horrible cascade of revelations where you have to revise centuries of memories and assumptions and interactions around something the other person knew all along, but you never did. And no matter how many memories you mark as tainted you're sure you haven't corrected enough for them. Slashing through your own happiest moments, through promises, through ambitions - knowing now that none of that was what it felt like, that all of it had been a careful manipulation -
I'm sorry.
Sure. No fea, no decisionmaking around conception itself, just safeguards she could take and pretend not to if she wanted him to think I was his. Theirs. The inconvenient part would be that she'd then have to either fake the pregnancy without being absolutely assured of turning up with a baby at the end of it, or she'd have to have hidden me somewhere for the duration. It'd be easier to make him go along with it than to convince some random person to hold a baby for her for that long and not ask any questions or spread any rumors.
"Thank you," Nolofinwë says, walking over and staring at the crater. "That would have been an interesting end to the trial and I expect we'd have lost a lot of people. Very impressive fighting."
"No one's ever killed a Balrog," Irissë says gleefully. "Fëanor's never killed a Balrog."
"I have absolutely no idea," he says. "It invites the interpretation that she thought she was following orders, and maybe we change focus to determining who thinks they got orders that they're now realizing might not have been from the person they thought. She still, unless there's a big piece of the picture we're missing, decided to go shoot someone, but I don't feel good about punishing her for it if she thinks I asked it of her."
"That's my understanding. I don't know how they're telling it, but." He shrugs. "Fëanor seems to have calmed down from the way he was in the immediate aftermath of his father's death, and I'm not particularly worried that a misinterpretation is going to have us at each others' throats. Unless another tragedy of that magnitude occurs."
"And now everyone knows to guard against it. Maybe you should have some kind of passphrase system rather than running down your supplies of personal facts every time someone has an off-day? Or rely on osanwë to a person-target instead of a that-guy-over-there target for sensitive communication."
Nod. "Things seem stable enough not to require ongoing supervision here. I think I'll go check on the orcs, then visit Fëanor and see if he wants to patch my armor or if I should go to the Dwarves about it." Pause. "I will do these things after actually eating lunch, I think I remember something being mentioned about lunch."
"Please do not agitate for war with the cousins. If you must agitate for war with the cousins, kindly do it in a manner that doesn't involve extracting an oath from a patsy and sending her on a likely suicide mission to assassinate Fëanor and being a disguised Balrog, which is what seems to have happened with this mess."
"I'm not saying you did anything. I'm saying someone looked like you to do something. We can't be sure exactly who the Balrog was impersonating to her, but you seem likely. If you have another guess by all means say so. We do know that whoever it was their name doesn't start with a consonant or the same sound as Irissë's name, that's as far as we got before the oath clamped down; and suspect personal connection, which you'd have had."
"Huh. Angaráto and Aikanáro's names both start with the same sound as mine, for the record, not that I'm sure it matters whether the thing impersonated me or one of them. I'm perfectly happy to make it known that I wouldn't ask people for an oath that would prevent them from revealing something I asked of them, and that they should never ever agree to that - though maybe she got in a little at a time. Like, the first time, you ask her to give an orc a better weapon and point them south, something like that. Then by the time the ask is 'shoot Fëanor' she's already very invested in this and has done several things that'd count as treason."
"In Valinor the Enemy tried first to become friends with Fëanor, then when he realized Fëanor has trust issues he tried with us, then when that didn't get him anywhere with anyone who could get him to them. That could be read as 'go for the most powerful people' or 'go for the people in the formal power structure', and now that those are different it'd be useful to have a sense of how he thinks."
"Well, presumably, this one was made, but I didn't make it and they're not standard-issue, it was just sort of lying around for Odin to give me when I killed something toothy enough that the accomplishment counted as coming of age. I could probably make a spell for it but it'd postpone the teleportation." She frowns at her weapon thoughtfully.
"I don't see a better solution," Nolofinwë says, "but it does sound like we're in a position of dearly hoping no one is maneuvered into doing something Fëanor can take as threatening, or that when they do he continues to be disinterested in riding down here with an army with weapons longer-ranged and more powerful than ours."
Tyelcormo sees her before she sees him, of course, and hurries towards her at bird speed. Loki. New policy; direct your response at Tyelcormo rather than at the bird flying at you. Other new policy is to start conversations with the words you ended the last one with, but we hadn't adopted that last time we spoke so I don't expect you remember.
Having no native osanwë I'm not actually sure how directional I can make it on fine distinctions like that, but I'll try; might be worth checking. I transcribe a lot of my conversations - which is a security risk if someone manages to be able to operate my illusions somehow, but will help me do the conversation-starter convention if they can't...
It's easy to test whether you can do the directional thing; I'll ask one or two of my brothers to stand behind a door and we can see if you can do 'Macalaurë' as distinct from 'person behind the door' when you do and when you don't know who's behind the door, and whether the person behind the door who you're not addressing yourself to hears it.
Fair enough. I'm not actually sure, I never branched into armor-crafting, but I'm reasonably sure it is not just shaped metal. It's a little enchanted, not heavily - that should all be intact - and probably has peculiar materials in it. The damage is superficial, but it's not going to take well to being heated up and pounded on, I think.
You're not? I mean, that's exactly what happened. Sarpalarë was very foolish and everyone is being warned against similar failure modes, but that is in fact the thing that happened and I am not sure why you'd find it implausible that it'd happen twice. Surely that's the response you'd want if the reverse were tried.
So, I spent the entire fight being not particularly outmatched but definitely very uncomfortably warm. And - to summarize a lot of inferences I then made based on things I don't think I've mentioned to you - when the Balrog exploded I then turned blue and concluded that I was kidnapped from the frost giants as an infant and my mother was probably planning to use me as a puppet ruler of their planet to end the otherwise interminable war; the remaining mysteries are why I'm so short even when blue and whether my father even knew she did this.
He has 'weapons that would give us a chance against Loki' in the priority queue? I don't know whether I'm insulted or flattered. I may be both. ...This is the second time you have opined that your dog could take me and this time you're saying it the same day I killed a Balrog, please explain.
And yeah, did you expect us to just indefinitely be okay with the fact you could get mind-controlled by Morgoth or deceived about something or just talked into it by the cousins and then, boom, maybe it's Mandos and maybe it's the Everlasting Darkness? People don't like being helpless, Loki.
Well, sure, but 'figure out how to defeat the friendly alien' seems like a strictly lesser priority than 'figure out how to defeat the evil Vala who is the primary means via which the friendly alien might be suborned', so I hope the plan wasn't to develop anything specialized versus me as opposed to 'sufficient to give us a chance against Loki' being a benchmark for general efficacy?
The only trouble with being invisible is that I can't turn my illusions invisible - that being sort of a contradiction with their continued existence - so I have to either hide them behind something and rely on my ability to color-match the sky, which I'm sure is inadequate, or have them follow me from underground, which makes me worry about accidentally losing them and not being able to find them again.
No one would exile a child over it. But I had to talk at Oromë for a couple hundred years before he agreed that there wasn't anything objectionable about Irissë riding with us, and he took me when I was only a child and practically useless. And my grandfather also had two daughters, one of them older than Nolofinwë, who didn't feature in the succession dispute because it just didn't occur to anyone.
Outperformed at popularity contests? Sure. Sorry if that doesn't move me much. The fate of the world's rather at stake here.
I don't think you can. His style of leadership is entirely about evaluating which projects need to happen and who can make them happen, which he can do very quickly, attracting the most capable people to those projects, and pushing himself on whichever element would otherwise be the one delaying a plan in coming together. It would be a very very unusual political arrangement that gave him the latitude he needs without amounting to 'he's King, someone else does the administrative tasks and the public relations'.
The distinction I'd draw is that a corporate officer fires people if they don't behave how he likes and a political leader has to tolerate them or punish them - the equivalent to firing is exile and that touches much more of a person's life even in the relevant sort of economy than what job they work. Not that being fired is not a punishment, especially with the kind of money people in the second tier of those companies can make, but it's not as - personal. I think I would very much like to set up your father as the executive of an galactic engineering concern, I think that would be great.
I wish we hadn't burned the ships. But it's easier to make calls like that in hindsight.
Sure. And best in a setting with no Enemy and mining which didn't take years and thousands of people defending the site to get crappy metal. I'm not arguing that the current setting is the best one for my father's talents, I am saying that Kingship is a thing he's good at and entirely capable of being great at, and what you're calling 'corporate officer' might be the only way to win the war, so it is fortunate that he has the political power to pursue it.
When we got to Araman the Valar spoke the Doom, and things were very tense. Father kept saying he wanted to leave now and they kept saying not yet and Maitimo was keeping all of us on shore as proof that we weren't about to sail off without them but no one could agree on which mixture of the hosts to have on the boats and Artanis - and a bunch of other people, I don't mean to pick on her, but she was the most powerful and the most visible - was saying that they were crossing only to avenge the theft of the boats and see my father destroyed for it.
And then word got out that Nolofinwë'd formally started calling himself King of the Noldor. I thought Father'd be angry but he just said 'all right, we're leaving now.' And we got on and left.
Those people do not deserve to be trapped in the Halls of Mandos indefinitely, either. No one is getting what they deserve, and defeating the Enemy as fast as possible has to come before fixing that.
Also, who do you think is likeliest to devise a way to get people out of Mandos, and how likely to happen do you think it is if he's dead? Well, now that you're here might happen anyway, but we couldn't have predicted that.
Not when half of them are pointed at each other. If they'd stayed home, and you'd come and talked with us and somehow found out about it and pressed me on whether it was the right thing to do, I'd have said 'I think so'. Wouldn't have known for sure until we win or lose, and maybe not even until we'd made it possible for anyone to leave Valinor, but I'd have said 'I think so'.
"At some point I need to interrogate somebody about how local, non-Maia non-Vala magic works. Maybe I can do something ludicrously hacky with it. All right, may as well take them now. Do you happen to have spares lying around to cover the same areas I could borrow?"
Right, now she has a few days to kill before Maitimo expects her. She hmms to herself, considering a trip to Brithombar versus Doriath versus just parking here or with the Nolofinwëans for the duration, spellcrafting.
"...If anybody has an opinion about where I should be for the next few days, I'm feeling indecisive."
Prolonged exposure to a Balrog wore off some of a spell that seems to have been keeping me in extremely convincing Asgardian form since I was, presumably, kidnapped as a baby. Under that I seem to be an unusually short frost giant. They have cool ice powers. I will try to figure out how to use them in some sort of controlled environment.
So what I think happened is Odin decided she wanted to end the entirely too prolonged war with the frost giants, and because to her mind 'parenting' is not a concept, she assumed that a foolproof plan for doing this would be to kidnap a frost giant baby - possibly even an authentic frost giant baby princess; actually, for all I know I could have originally been a prince - and raise it as her own. Then, because parenting is not a concept, it would be trivial to install this legitimate-by-blood ruler on a recently conquered Jötunheim and operate it as a puppet monarchy. Nothing could possibly go wrong. There is no danger that raising a baby frost giant to think that the galaxy would be a better place if frost giants were extinct could have unprecedented psychological consequences, it is no great setback if your adoptive child displays a temperament which does not seem suited to imposing Asgardian values on others, and of course there is no need to teach your secret frost giant baby anything about her future subjects except insofar as she learns - in the course of her perfectly normal Asgardian princess upbringing - to kill them. Isn't this a wonderful plan? The only question is whether Frigg knew about it or if Odin decided she'd like to spoof the ostensible father of her stolen baby frost giant. It's certainly not biologically impossible, just inconvenient.
You know, I'd have to look up the war crimes code, I know that normally killing infants is on there but I don't recall anything about adopting them. But we do have a lot of exceptions for frost giants, so she's probably in the clear about me. I'm going to have to be awfully careful when I tell Thor so she doesn't just decide to exterminate me on the spot for pretending to be her sister.
It might have taken more than competent parenting to turn me into who she was hoping to get, but yes, it could have been worse. Beat. Anyway, I could loiter around here or go back to your cousins or swing down to Brithombar or hang out in Doriath, I'm not meeting Maitimo for several days, we allowed a while for the trial.
And you'd be working on spell development either way? Stay here and save yourself the travel time, I know the locations you've been picking to meet Maitimo are relatively close. I'm sure Doriath is prettier but we now have sheet glass and working plumbing and other such delightful amenities, as part of my effort to persuade the Thindar to stick around.
It would technically be easiest but only in a fairly trivial sense; I don't forget to eat. I am accustomed to spellcrafting when I must remember not only to eat but to attend lessons, spend half an afternoon limiting the extent to which my prodigy sister beat the crap out of me in sparring matches, show up to public functions, and be ready to hide everything when the door creaks in case I'm recruited on an expedition to hunt owls for their feathers. Speaking of sparring, the Nolofinwëans want me to teach them to fight and I said I would consider it and extend a similar offer to you.
We have sixty thousand people. I could spare five thousand to start an intensive training program, right now everyone's in this area mining and farming and defending the miners and farmers and I don't have the resources to pull more off that even if you could train them. Everyone older than thirty can fire a bow. The people you'd be training can all wield a sword or an axe without injuring themself or their fellows, and carry a spear on horseback. We don't have anyone with serious training in melee fighting, and they've learned whatever they do know by practice fighting with each other. Valinor had a number of gymnastics disciplines that trained people in falling well and we've all practiced that.
Loki takes notes. My archery information is old and probably not a substantial improvement on what you've got. I've studied mounted combat but it's not often practiced, so similar situation there. Might get the most mileage out of just plain sword work. I don't think I can effectively manage five thousand people at once, at least not without delegating; maybe give me thirty and then give them some manageable number each while I'm off elsewhere and so on.
We can do magic swords that are deadly and magic armor that is protective, but other than that this is surprisingly hard to apply to leveling Angband."
"They typically protect their dwellings with what seems like a similar form, though they can't do the calculations and either go with a lot less precision, a lot shorter effect length, or using music to make the universe do the needed computation - it's said Creation was a song, and music is very powerful in these things."
"That's me doing an auditory illusion, yes, and those are mostly fiddles." She lifts a hand, illusions one into place on her chin, pretends to play it. "I don't really know how to play, but... Mostly I'm wondering if I can make the universe do a lot of computation without having to gather a choir."
"All right. So consider a project Curufinwë and I have been tossing ideas back and forth over - a spell for true seeing, that lets you see invisible people, lets you see everyone present in their real form, lets you see through illusions and possibly through hallucinations but we don't know how Moringotto does that so we won't be able to convince Maitimo that's happened anyway.
If he does it, it'd be in the form of a magical ring or necklace, and what the ring or necklace would do is have to - hmm, look at the raw material of creation, and decompile a second version of the raw material of creation from what the wearer is actually experiencing, and compare those, and find the differences, and stitch the 'truth' in for the lies in the wearers' experience. Curufinwë would need to do a great deal of difficult theoretical work to describe that last sentence sufficiently technically that a ring could be forged that would do it, and then the ring would work only with delays of hours and he would need an exhausting process of testing that involved simplifying the magic so it did only the needed parts of its work and did them faster and turned up less bizarre false positives.
If I did it, I would ask to hear the raw material of creation, and hear the world in front of me, and I'd sing a spell whose job it was to harmonize them and let the truth triumph. It would still take weeks to compose the song, but the computation involved in 'hear the raw material of creation' isn't needed at all; once I have the spell, I can just play for it."
"Why? And once the technical work was done what would - at what point and how, in the forging process, would the technical work interact with the ring-or-whatever? When I'm doing spell work and I finish a piece it 'snaps' into place in my head and I can't forget it, and casting's a mental action, it's all in my head to begin with, but how do you get your definition of truth into a ring?"
"It's pretty pointless. There's not nothing there but there isn't a mind there, just a sort of vague tedious resonance like the echo you hear when talking to a stone wall. Except if you have very very precisely defined what you want, you can know which thoughts to think to get the resonances that will do what you want. Thinking the wrong thought during the process disrupts it. It is absurdly difficult."
"Any Elf can. You're supposed to get there by meditation, but I picked it up by sheer force of will - there was music making the world reveal itself around me, and I wanted to hear it, and I - hmm, maybe it still is osanwë, but it feels different from the usual sort if so - you look at things moving around you and try very hard to listen for them. Over time it develops into a sense as strong as any other, if less precise and more mediated by your will and concentration."
"The most likely problem is that I can only produce illusions to the level of my ability to form a clear mental audition of the sound I want. I don't have to be able to, say, write it all out in harmonic dictation; but it has to be such that it would sound different to me if something were wrong. The other person I asked about this was Melian but she's a Maia - do you have the thing where you feel like you have a crisp memory of something but it turns out you can't count someone's freckles or, I suppose, in this case, how many voices there are in a chorus...?"
"What my illusions do is they produce a genuinely crisp image which would produce the same mental image I have. So it won't look blurry, because I would have remembered that; but any distinctions that don't affect my memory of the experience at all don't make it in, and any ambiguously memorized experiences could be distorted. However, once I've got an illusion I can treat it like an object without it having to go through my head; audio ones do this less, but I could still speed one way up, make it quieter or softer, 'store' it as two parts and put them together when I wanted to cast - it would have to be continually making noise, though I could wrap it in a buffer so nobody else could hear it."
"I can't think of a reason that wouldn't work. And as you must have picked up, the main advantage of Curufinwë's method over mine is that once completed it doesn't require action and time to activate. If making a building crumble with magic, which is something I can do, took a few seconds instead of an uninterrupted hour -"
It takes a minute. At first it's just a typically pretty Elven song, and then it does begin to feel like it is lifting them out of the air around them, and the globe is spinning about half as fast, and there's a feeling vaguely like swimming through a current. He stops after a minute. "I can technically keep it up all day."
It speeds up.
The speeded up spell makes the globe slow to a crawl.
"Not that many, especially since most of what I can do is even less useful. As far as useful things go. I can make people less tired. I can make anything that hits them hit less hard. I can amplify my voice. That's actually a very simple series that most people weave into other songs, but I don't know how you can do that. Playing both at one shouldn't work, if you have two people singing you generally get a competition for which effect takes."
"I'd expect it to be more situational than that - like, if Angband attacked and we were fighting alongside Nolofinwë's host, I'd expect anything I could do for them to work fine even if my personal feelings towards them were adversarial. If they attacked us, then no, shouldn't work, though I'd actually add in a theme specifically about repairing old wounds or about family turning enemy respectively to make it clear to the song."
"I don't mean your cousins, or at least I don't mean them right now, but something might come up, I do keep meeting all kinds of people. Hey, is there any reason I shouldn't just run this spell basically all the time? I can spellcraft at the speed of thought, I don't have to move."
"About eight times longer than you should have gone, your thoughts get foggy and you feel jittery like you're being sustained by external strings. As soon as you close your eyes at that point you will sleep for a few days, and if someone tries to wake you before then you will have something resembling a very bad hangover and also still be exhausted." A rueful smile. "The sample size is quite large, but all the tests were on me."
They all have associated physical effects, either chosen because they seemed thematically appropriate to me or because it was hard to design the song without them. Or some of them it's the point, like a song to knock people away from you."
"In particular I feel very awkward about giving you a skip-a-night-of-sleep-room and a speed-up-perception-room and not offering commensurate benefits to your cousins. I feel awkward about it anyway because your host is so much better able to leverage basically anything I offer, but still. I can dismiss illusions from existence remotely even though I can't usefully create them that way, anyway, if another Balrog gets dropped on their camp and commandeers their spell rooms as soon as I find out the room will cease to have special properties."
"No, it's working off mental images and persisting from there, I can't turn it into a video camera. I don't doubt that you're a particularly good source of magic songs and I really appreciate it and I wish I could just go around dispensing gifts to everyone indiscriminately but I am dealing with an awkward détente here. If my sister plummets out of the sky, finds out I'm a frost giant, and despises me for it, you may feel free to carefully equalize your distribution of things between the two of us, I won't be offended."
So he finds someone who does healing, and she plays a song - "most people do this with instruments, Lord Canafinwë was unusually determined to have his hands free -" and observes that range can be amplified and it should affect everyone in the range on either side - "It's not really meant for use on a battlefield" - and that Elven healing can't for example regrow limbs, though it can do a fair bit for wounds to the mind and soul.
Laughter. I doubt he's confident he can pull it off, but if he could be confident that any of this were real he'd be quite sure of it, and so am I. Though I can't think quite how. If I tell Father now he'll say 'I have expended enough effort on putting distance between us and them'. So I won't tell him now, because it'll pain me to hear that, and I'll tell him once the assassin drama has been settled and then his answer will just be that it would be very practically costly and difficult.
Within five years of arriving here we'll have fully modern living standards for everyone and regular meetings and a few arranged marriages with every local community that is interested in being part of a war effort or having the protection of groups so committed. And that's with no engineers helping at all because they are developing electricity and guns.
Having a society where the literate, highly capable, Aman-educated Noldor class mostly marries among each other and the nomadic tree-dwelling natives mostly marry among each other and we are in charge strikes me as more distasteful.
I'm not saying people shouldn't socialize. Or that you shouldn't give intersocietal couples a nice gift basket to celebrate their personally-motivated decisions and loudly tell everyone about that. Soft paternalism is fine, you have good reasons to encourage the habit. But 'let's you and him get married' rubs me the wrong way.
Sure. I can fly invisibly as long as I have my visible illusions following me at a considerable distance passing through the ground. If I ought to do this by default rather than just when particularly worried I'd like to know. I can do the spell without you having to borrow Macalaurë or line up a shot from inside a building, if you like.
Magic songs! If I listen to them I can 'record' them as illusions, store them in separate parts so they don't go off constantly, speed them way up, and stick them together for very quick on-demand casting. Or permanent ambient casting. I have one for accelerated perception and one for shorting sleep and a healing spell which is a little redundant but will work at range.
I wouldn't slow them down if I could. We may need them. Anyway, I'd need to ask the people involved - in Valinor copying someone else's composition without their leave, or sharing a copy you had with permission, was one of the most serious insults one could deliver, I'm not at all sure anyone will want to trade - and let you know.
Yeah, I imagine Macalaurë was much more being upset about his compositions being copied than about his cousins gaining strategically, and it's why I initially hesitated, but - he doesn't have much ground to stand on, and I assume he knows it. So we insulted him very seriously. He pulls out a jewelry box. We'll apologize when they do.
I don't think you have. He's Artanis's brother. He was pretty occupied on the Ice doing this full-time, and he went out to meet the local population as soon as we had established ourselves at all here.
I didn't know it was a thing! I had this problem with the Dwarves, too, the other way around, one wanted to trade for a look at my science notes and I thought then I wouldn't have them to trade later and he told me he wouldn't just go share my ideas and I told him I was used to assuming everybody in an entire population of Quendi could hear me and would be able to get the information later from one another even if they weren't paying attention. I'll apologize to Macalaurë. She shakes her head, writes down that she should do that, and then says, Introduce me to Findaráto?
It's also not currently necessary. There are a lot of applications of that sort of ability. I'm trying to think what the fairest way might be - people can come to you with songs and you'll give them a number of copies they request, in exchange for keeping one yourself? Or a number of copies according with how valuable the song is to you?
Oh, you'd want more than one copy yourself? Perhaps you could ask people if you can keep one copy to later distribute for each copy you make for them? I'm personally willing to have every pebble on the continent attached to a permanent heat-song but I wouldn't feel that way about the rest of my work or expect anyone else to.
That complicates things. Ugh, she REALLY owes Macalaurë an apology. They're still really useful to me as personal use but they have particular potential as trade goods, which I'm otherwise short on - I travel too much and I give away a lot of information just because I want people to have it. Copies-for-copies is potentially workable, though.
Yes, they clearly have enormous potential as trade goods, which is why no one will sing in your presence if they can't trust you not to trade their songs for your gains which they will never see. I - with tremendous respect for your abilities and the unique position they put you in here, a safe and reliable magical song takes Years of work to develop and refine, I think you may be underestimating that.
I would expect it to take longer than that but today I got some songs that speed me up and I'm very pleased about it. So you don't mind free distribution of the warmth song, what else have you got and under what conditions will you play it for me to record?
I can light fires, I can make people feel relaxed and safe and trusting, I can make a boat sail on a calm sea. That one has some effect on a person running and I'd expect to have interesting ones on a person flying. I am personally comfortable with giving you leave to make copies of everything and give them out as you please, but expect that that precedent will make it impossible for you to get anyone to share anything with you.
I don't have to acquire them all under the same license, whatever other people have done. ...I'm not sure I want the relaxed and safe and trusting one, that's kind of disturbing. And I'd have to hear it in the first place to take a copy just in case I came up with a situation where using it was better than not.
"Remarkable, Loki. Thank you."
"No," he says with a sigh. "We are temporarily safe and fed and there is no more construction this site can benefit from and we've scouted for appropriate locations to settle once everyone has recovered and is in good health again and there's nothing on my mind, which is a shame because I think I was doing better when there was. Any ideas for projects?"
"The ones from Macalaurë are about what I would have ordered up, although I could stand for them to have fewer side effects. I assume if anyone could teleport this would have been a substantial game-changer long before I arrived to tell anyone about potential destinations. Same with anything of particularly spectacular combat value; I was told that songs invented in Valinor tend not to have that as a focus."
"I could, there are so many - I've read books on nuclear physics, I'm sure you'd have a hell of a tense while after the fact if I had to involve Fëanor and I probably would but I could remember enough with that to teach him to build the wipe-Angband-off-the-map thing, I've read the books I just don't remember enough -"
The way to do retroactive memory would be sort of related to the way you make your illusions something that generates the right impression in your head, building from your memories a map of what could have generated that in your head and then checking it against reality and making reality available. It isn't impossible, but it would be quite a project."
"It's a sound that isn't happening in a certain sense. It can be heard and that is all; I can't make it loud enough to knock a building over, I can't resonate it just so to shatter a glass; I could make things sound normal underwater even though normally they wouldn't, I could make illusion sound in vacuum where normally it has nothing to propagate through. The general category of bombs - there's so many kinds, but the basic idea involves, were you paying attention to my chemistry lecture?"
"So, you take an atom, and you break it. Or you take two, and you force them to get real cozy and be one atom. And then you level Angband." Pause. "Depending on where I went to go Angband-leveling-items-shopping I might come back with antimatter instead, in some decorously small quantity that would only level Angband and not annihilate half the planet. Antimatter is like matter, but backwards, so if they touch both of them cease to exist very violently."
"Well, it probably means you can't construct them the way I've read about in the presence of a Silmaril but would be well advised to have one handy in case you had a lab accident. But the Silmarils are behind this fortress which is as yet tragically unleveled."
"For a while I wanted to never speak to him again, but it was always fairly obvious that if there's going to be coordination on facing the Enemy some of us are going to have to set grievances aside, and I have the mixed blessing of finding that very easy to do, so I never really thought it'd be 'never'."
Romantic love is a concept we - invented in Valinor is an exaggeration, but certainly the ways we conceived of it in relation to marriage were invented in Valinor. It doesn't surprise me that my cousins are delightedly throwing out every norm at whose roots they can identify a Vala.
I don't have a concept of what marriages are 'supposed to be like', and while I understand why Fëanáro wants them destroyed entirely I don't personally have strong feelings in any direction. Wars involve asking people to die for you. My uncle's style of war involves asking people to swear themselves to the everlasting darkness for you. Making two families into one seems like - as good a goal as any other, and the only objection that occurs to me is that the parties make a permanent commitment for an impermanent end, which is why it surprises me that you'd object even were that untrue.
Lúthien says that the mechanism by which marriage works is not so baked into the system, actually, that it's somehow expectation-based. I'm not sure how thoroughly informed she can possibly be considering she had to replace key moments in the process with the phrase "do you think anyone's told me", though.
I imagine Lúthien is unfamiliar with that sort of thing, yes.
...this is related to Lúthien? It'd be extremely convenient if she fell in love with someone but you disapprove of that style of alliance-building and there aren't really obvious candidates, and you would not be suggesting Ido it. Some grand announcement about the true nature of marriage that disrupts peoples' lives somehow?
He sighs and leans back. I really am not at all inconvenienced by this and am the best possible person for you to have talked to, but it still disturbs me slightly. Why would the Valar do that? Why not tell us it was something elaborate and formal that couldn't possibly happen by accident, or tell people that if they didn't do the customary one year engagement period without seeing each other then they couldn't end up married?
Well, I'm a princess, ostensibly, so it would be complicated for me, but Thor's friend Fandral can marry six men and invite number seven over for holidays informally if she ever wants to settle down that far, say. Sigyn could do likewise, although in his case I'd be inclined to predict three men four women two hard-to-categorize aliens and someone who insists on gender neutral pronouns. Monogamy is popular, it's not mandatory.
If you mean, do I have enough charming conversation in my life, I'm doing fine. I even have more people to talk to about the old forbidden subject of 'magic' and the new forbidden subject 'frost giant' here than I had at home. If you mean, do I live in hope that I will find certain conditions to obtain among Men, you are entirely correct.
I didn't realize that songs were a particularly proprietary sort of thing and reviewing the conversation through that lens it looks very much as it would if I'd been purposefully withholding the intention to distribute copies as largesse. Your cousins explained it to me. If you want me to I can dismiss their copies from here, it'd be awkward but I'd do it, they've got five each on jewelry kept in a soundproof box, I don't think that idea is proprietary and you may feel free to steal it. If you don't want me to make any more besides the one I'm carrying I can do that too. I have some from them that are under various sorts of license, I can share some of those.
The one I'm expecting to be most broadly popular when I can't talk people into turning them over for use at my discretion is copies for copies - I enchant whatever random objects they like with the song and I can make that many copies elsewhere. I've got one that I can use but not copy again.
Another song I have that seems of use to you is one that checks someone's impression of reality against the version they're describing and highlights discrepancies - accusing people of lying is a very serious insult, but of biasing a telling, intentionally or no, and it will catch lying, and it can do so in a way that's not visible to the speaker.
And lately I've been working on treating wood so it doesn't rot quickly, which is a bit more mundane but probably useful to everyone.
I'm currently working on moving large volumes of stone. It'll make construction faster. I have a fantasy of someday composing a symphony that lets me assemble a castle in a day just by standing at its center and singing.
No, of course not. Everyone knows what I can do, and I don't mind if they hum it under their breath either. It's reproducing someone else's artwork in full without their consent - if, in Asgard, I had a duplicator, and someone finished a painting or something and I took it, put it in the duplicator, and then started selling it on the street, would I have committed an offense?
Yes, but the offense would be couched entirely in terms of money and credit, maybe control of the artistic experience. No money was in play, I'd tell anyone who asked who composed the song, and there's no artistic value to the short versions, either, I squish them as far as they go before they stop working - so I didn't think it through.
I was actually wondering if you'd have more luck with the idea I gave Findekáno than he's likely to. If I had a retroactive eidetic memory I would be much less limited in what sorts of information I can dispense and I can probably just explain the concepts behind how to build something with which to level Angband.
I don't think so but I'll try. That's actually one to run by my father - music skips the computation but is subject to the same constraints on how much information you can actually get the song of Creation to cough up, and he might blink and say 'impossible' instantly even if he'd take forever to explain to me why. Or he'll say 'technically that doesn't violate any tenets of information theory but there's absolutely no precedent' which means 'I'll be disappointed if you don't have it in a month" and I'll have to drop everything else. He sighs.
Oh dear. Complicating factor: based on Melian's explanation of the nature of the universe I am probably from another dimension separated by something a bit less trivial than merely quintillions of miles or something like that. If it is necessary to consult the reality that contributed to my memories, it may be far away, not run on music, etcetera.
It'd also be reasonably useful to be able to level Angband even if Morgoth came out of it still standing. At that point perhaps we could just fight him. I mean, casualties would be horrifying, but - if we get the ability to end the sources of orcs, it'd be very hard to wait another century for the ability to take him personally.
And the irony is that that will be the only flaw in the straightforward happy story, at that point.
You're doomed, I have free will, if I take point on everything just enough maybe fate will ignore anybody standing in the shadow of my ability to do whatever I want. And then you will all be freed up to invent some ridiculous number of centuries' worth of things and develop the world to the point where Maitimo's reactions to it would be strategically worthless and then maybe he can be actually properly rescued. I have never improperly rescued someone before and I don't like it very much.
I was actually thinking, if they like Findekáno and are paying that much attention and would have somehow rendered him able to succeed - in what I'm assuming would be a lone approximately suicide mission, because how could he justify bringing any of his people along - why didn't they just fetch Maitimo, perhaps before he was condemned to believe that everything is a hallucination for way too damn long.
Tyelcormo told me that I should have told them, that I offered to pay you to heal him. I'm not sure I should have. I got him to agree not to tell Father. He hates being an instrument to other peoples' ends.
You've managed to tread just fine so far. Just - if you're going to resent the Valar for treating us like personally unimportant instruments of their pretty stories, keep in mind that everyone in the world sees him that way, and tolerates him or not basically depending on whether they think the pretty outputs are more common than the scary malfunctions, his own life obviously a rounding error in the calculations between those things. And to none of them is he a person. And that this makes perfect sense as an approach when the stakes are this high and also is horribly unpleasant to be on the receiving end of.
Fëanor says that retroactive perfect memory is theoretically impossible but the theory doesn't account for multiple universes existing in the first place and he could probably do it in a decade if she thinks it should be the priority.
It takes a special sort of mind to declare a thing theoretically impossible, acknowledge that it's actually even worse than that, and then estimate ten years. "That's faster than me learning to teleport even given my revised estimate with the perception speeder thing," she says, "and confers most of the benefits but at a remove - you'd still have to develop anything I told you how to make in a separate step and not currently having that sharp a memory I can't guess how long that will reasonably take but it will certainly involve things like mining for things of otherwise limited use and extremely high-precision very large facilities. I think it would be reasonable to prioritize it or not; you know more than I do about the opportunity cost."
"I'm pretty sure the Enemy wasn't impersonating him. I mean, there could be a reason for him to telepathically bother you but there wouldn't be a good reason for him to come up to me afterwards and say 'I did something stupid' -" She pulls the transcript of that conversation.
"The real Findekáno is fairly intelligent even by the high standards of our family and would probably notice the irony of reaching out remotely to someone who expects the Enemy can manipulate his experiences to warn that person that the Enemy is impersonating people and to be careful. Your version of my cousin isn't bad, but it does him too little credit."
"All right, but read your transcripts first, I don't want to try to camouflage them while we're flying. This stuff happened -" She pulls out the stuff that happened - "Then I killed a Balrog and discovered I was adopted, it was a fun time -" Post-combat conversations. "Checked on the orcs, visited your family and their new security protocols, cheated outrageously at magic and had a cultural misunderstanding -" She's really accumulated a lot of these. "Discovered said cultural misunderstanding with your cousins, went back and apologized, loitered, altered inventive trajectory for supposedly the next ten years, won't that be impressive - There, you've got something to read while I wander off a bit for safety and try to see if I have ice powers."
Wander wander. This is probably far enough, she never saw a giant shooting frost this far and she's not facing him.
C'monnnnn... frost.
And they are birds, and she leads the way to the Dwarves.
I'm going to auction off a forge heating song, your folks said I could do that without running down my copy permissions to fund your stay, so if you care to lead a life of indefinite indolence feel free. Did you get anywhere on eating things?
Frustration. No, and I was actually trying. I have mostly been able to manually undo all of the instincts that are unhelpful for this environment, even if it's slow and painful, but those ones won't just come under control - I'm worried they're too grounded in memories, and I am unwilling to get rid of those. In Quendi form I'll be fine for months anyway.
Ooh, I suppose that while its actual purpose cannot be demonstrated to your satisfaction the mechanism itself would make sense - She explains the shape of the thing. You could probably also run, like, a flour mill off one, purely mechanically, if you didn't want electricity.
I think my brothers prefer 'we are helpless in the face of Nelyo's machinations' to 'he's right, and has been right all along, and also we don't even have any ideas for a gesture meaningful enough to actually improve relations with the people we betrayed, so obviously we are going to end up going along with his.'
Yeah. Hmm, I wonder how many songs I will wind up selling to the Dwarves. I guess I should find out if they have controls against price-fixing; otherwise if I announce that I can sell an unlimited number of forge-songs until I have your room and board covered at negligible marginal cost they might all decide that they're willing to pay only that amount of gold divided by how many of them want one. I could avoid that by just auctioning one off and being unclear about supply but that might annoy them. I should ask one.
I still haven't. I really should've, I was loitering for days, I think I've developed the habit of mentioning a thing and then forgetting about it because otherwise I'd be actively waiting on dozens of things, I mentioned you'd suggested it the visit after you did and then he never brought it up.
By certain accountings of the best use of my resources I should park in Doriath being just friendly enough that they keep feeding me, working on teleportation constantly. I like working on teleportation but I'm not that patient. Also, this approach would have me slowed down in the long run because I wouldn't have your brother's delightful spells, or your father working on my eidetic memory.
I am very tempted to call Findekáno to help me build a city and fix what can be repaired of the relationships between our people but there seem a few ways in which it's unwise.
Well, I'm sure he'd find it very emotionally conflicting especially since I have not told him the thing, you I'm less sure about but I'm hardly sure you wouldn't be put through the wringer over it however much better at looking stoic you are, and it seems like it would be politically complicated, and I'm not aware of any strong comparative advantage he has in city-building that makes it worthwhile except that he seems to like to build things when he can't think of anything else to do.
...people who know, or have guessed, or are wondering, are going to be constantly looking for a way to determine which of us has the advantage of the other, it's this absurdly unshakeable assumption. It used to amuse me but now if we're going to be in contact again I need to make sure his people think it's him and my people think it's me and I actually don't find it amusing at all at this point, just exasperating.
It did not occur to me to worry that I'd feel complicated emotions. I do not think that's particularly likely. It's not really him and this is a delightfully interesting problem. If he thinks it'd be unhealthy for him he should not come.
Would your families seriously work themselves into a tizzy over who's on top. That's not their business! That's not anyone's business unless you're attending an orgy and even in those it's not customary to dwell on it as though it has great cosmic significance!
And more importantly and entirely independent of my personal life, which would be far, far worse than trying to eat to try to take up again anyway, I need everyone inclined to figure out whether Findekáno and I are manipulating each other for political advantage to come to three or four different conclusions about the answer to that question, depending who they are and what they know, and this is complicated anyway and way more complicated if he's already burned through political capital by making it clear he's very sad about me.
Macalaurë has more than that, including some that might be useful. My guess is that he hesitated to list them because he mostly used them for throwing wild parties that lasted a week, in Aman, and now he's my father's heir and trying not to have a reputation for throwing wild parties that last a week.
Any drawbacks to, 'hey, Macalaurë, in case you got the wrong impression from the fact that I avoid drinking when I can get away with it, I thought you should know that I have completely lost count of how many people I've slept with of either gender'? I'm just not sure how to present this information if it doesn't come up in conversation; he's never ambiguously had a boyfriend at me to make it salient.
Ha. Cozy. I don't know enough about frost giants to predict if I'll be able to finagle that fraction of Odin's plan, though, let alone to figure out whether they'd find the environment just like home. Jötunheim is, I think, farther from its sun, and has life on it besides them.
I still have to teleport if I want to get anywhere else. I suppose I could be enticed into doing something else first but I'm not planning to stay on one planet for however improbably few centuries it takes your father to invent the spaceship, discover the falsity of the stars, get around that, and go visit Eru's other pet projects.
We've been in a perpetual state of war for an exceedingly long time and I'm not sure anyone remembers how it started; everything's about more recent grievances acquired over the course of the perpetual state of war. I assume she invaded Jötunheim and managed to get into the palace - if I'm a princess or possibly prince-refitted-to-her-cultural-needs - or somebody's house, if I'm not. I don't know how her not-technically-sorcery magic works so she may have patched arbitrary flaws in her plan with it; she normally uses it seldom but I'm not sure if that's because she knows 'oh, it's not sorcery' is an extremely flimsy excuse or because there's a genuine usage limitation or if it takes more of the mysterious sacrifices she had to offer up to get it every time. I'm assuming it's her magic I'm under to make me usually not blue, age correctly, possibly not manifest frost powers, etcetera; my own spells are approached differently from conventional sorcery but the underlying mechanics are the same and something would have gone wrong with the first one I cast - which was on myself - if it had been sorcery and I'd been operating on the wrong understanding of my body plan. I think. She might have had no accomplices at all depending on how sure she was she'd be able to bring home a suitable baby, or could have told Frigg, or could have put me with some random person for the duration of a pretend Asgardian pregnancy in order to fool him. She may or may not have planned far enough in advance to collect intelligence on Jötunheim's neonatal population and its kidnappability; it's just within the realm of possibility that she was storming a palace and spotted me and had a flash of something I hesitate to call brilliance.
Don't know, I've never been there except for when I was too young to remember a thing. I don't even know if they actually have a monarchy. I could be the President's kid or a random orphan or the supposed reincarnation of a prophet or something. We're just supposed to know how to kill them. It'd be completely plausible that she'd kill a child, though, that's only against the honor code for non-frost giants, like so many other things.
...as we played in Valinor, that'd be rather like having one of your maneuvers be "go into a random village and slit everyone's throats", taking an infant from their parents is an unspeakable wrong. People usually tried not to commit any atrocities, unless you were playing as Moringotto. But yes, that's a permissible maneuver.
It's possible I did not have parents. She might have figured any frost giant baby would do and taken one who didn't belong to anybody; my princess hypothesis is that this would make it less harebrained to imagine she could later enthrone me. But how does the game actually work?
Say it's Cáno and I against Father and Curufinwë, that's alway fun. I'm the lead on my side, and I write four sets of orders; Father does the same. Then he gives his to Macalaurë, and I give mine to Curufinwë, and they modify them for the reliability of the subordinate in question - so if I gave a task to someone who's incompetent or untrustworthy, he has a lot of latitude to modify it, while if I gave it to someone good at their job he can't do much but pass it on. Then they trade - so now Macalaurë's carrying out the orders I wrote, adjusted for the competence of the people I delegated them to, and Curufinwë's doing the same thing for what Father wrote. Complicated plans take probability penalties. When orders conflict - we're both trying to bribe someone, or I'm arguing for a trade agreement and he's against - it's resolved by how many resources we'd committed to the scheme plus an element of chance.
To be any fun, you want to get convoluted. So usually the premise is something like 'the King's flying city launches in a year and you want to be appointed its governor' which was the original premise under which the game was popularized. 'Convince someone he's working for my enemy, order him to sabotage something, order someone else to catch him doing so, make sure they're too late to prevent the sabotage, collect the contract to fix it and make sure that the ties to your enemies come out at trial' is pretty ordinary as a turn goes, if you're having fun you could do things as complicated as the plan that you seem to have been at the center of.
You can use illusions to track things but I'm not sure I could play it without writing and I have no similar advantage. Usually you start by listing a bunch of situational advantages and complications - for example 'I'm married to the King's niece', 'the metalworking guild resents me over a trade dispute', 'I'm secretly involved with another man', 'I'm widely respected in my field', 'I'm out of money', '- and a bunch of possible subordinates, and you take turns taking one for yourself and handing one to your opponent, and then that's the roster of subordinates and situational considerations you start the game with.
You seem capable of handling it. I can invite Dwarves to play once I've established my upstandingness, trustworthiness, and value as a trading partner. Though no matter what I do they're going to end up with the odd impression that Elves hate eating, hate being surrounded, hate being touched, and hate enclosed spaces and then be very confused when they meet anyone else.
Fair enough. Let's see, things about frost giants. I don't know what they normally eat, or anything about the food chain on the planet; maybe they can just absorb sunlight or they're inherently self-sustainingly magical or something, but there's so little sun on Jötunheim and species that do that are rare. So I don't know what sort of supply lines I might or might not need into the Helcaraxë to support them. I have little information on their culture including game-relevant properties like susceptibility to bribery or structure of social influence, but I am not running imaginary Jötunheim, I'm running imaginary Helcaraxë, so I suppose as long as I don't assume they're all congenitally this or that the culture can be freely invented. I'll try to restrain my utopianism.
Oh, they've done all kinds of technical work that's impressive, but it matters what you're impressive at, and according to the context I got from Melian having to have Trees to light things up sounds like a patch job because they couldn't figure out real stars in a timely manner.
But they had to hack together such a kludge to do it! The gravity's all fucked! Please do not go play at the edges of the top of the cylinder, they have something set up so they can go rescue anyone who gets stuck in it and I feel like that would be bad all around. And the wasted space! All that surface area on the side and the bottom, far as Melian knows there's nothing there but general mountainousness!
Don't remember offhand. The gods are usually a little more small-time than Eru, too. I could convince some people I was a god if I wanted. I am actually not sure I didn't do that accidentally on Midgard, although I was just telling stories from home in the third person.
It's possible to do quite a lot of that without telling any lies.
Ironically, one thing he said was that eventually Men would design weapons that could rip cities apart and kill everyone in them. And now we are trying to do that. To be fair, he also said that Men would use the weapons against each other, and that we're not planning on, but as far as dangerousness was a concern that motivated us -
Morgoth found me amusingly naive.
I don't have overwhelmingly high standards for extremely traumatized people, admittedly. ...There's probably all kinds of reasons this won't work for you, but when I don't like how my brain's behaving I write it down so I can have a look at it from the outside and see if that makes it easier to approach.
No, that's fine. Being bitter or reserved is acceptable, I'm not going to be able to exude warmth and delight at life at them. At everyone else, maybe, but not at anyone who sees me that frequently. Just - not trapped most of the time inside my own head wrestling with things they don't even have words for, that wouldn't do at all.
Did you know that when I sleep, if we're within a couple hundred miles of Angband, I can hear Thauron, and he asks me every time if I want to wake up for real, in Angband? I'm not sure if it's osanwë or my own subconscious.
I've said no, obviously. A few times I was tempted, just because I don't think after I wake up from this one you'll - ah, my Enemy will - ever be able to convince me another one is real, and so this particular genre of game would be over. But this is nice and I haven't even explored it all and there are so many things happening, I don't really want it taken away just yet.
Laughter. You don't need to redact the things I said earlier from Findekáno, I'm not sure he should read them and they might make him sad but he is unlikely to set himself at once to inventing the cure, and it'll help him understand why he shouldn't talk to me at night and we shouldn't meet. Which he deserves to know. Also he might at last feel sufficiently sorry for me to accept my apology for the boats and for making him promises I couldn't keep.
And there ensues a lot of society design which is tremendous fun.
"It's a small thing," she says, "but the trick I have for making orcs stop working for Morgoth involves, of all things, convincing them that on this continent members of his species are called 'Quendi' and not 'Elves'. It hardly matters amongst yourselves but if any of you are likely to be in earshot of any orcs I'd appreciate the vocabulary swap."
"Allspeak," Loki says. "It can't do that trick in writing, but everybody hears me in their own native language unless I'm turning it off to amuse your father. In writing, though, I can actually control 'who I'm writing to' and get a specific single language that way. Do you understand them or should I write you a phrasebook?"
There are people who will do nothing but help them choose between proprietors of rooms, and also everyone reports their prices to a public record that can be found at such and such location and are generally very reliable about pricing as listed so if they're given any trouble they should make it known.
It's not common but there aren't rules against it. Giving out a new commodity without much knowledge of what price the market will bear for it is a common problem! For a commodity like this with a large possible demand and no marginal cost she might consider pricing it at a cost comparable to these other items, or she can do elaborate things that amount to efforts at price discrimination.
Ooh, benchmarks. She appreciates benchmarks. Are the comparable items such that she will be able to say that she was not flagrantly cheated and also such that she can give out lots of songs before it is no longer plausible that she's doing it to fund Maitimo?
It's hard to predict what Elves across the continent will consider being cheated, but the lowest proposed benchmark is about a fifth the price of the highest proposed benchmark. Maitimo observes that he can probably make use of lots of money if he's going to be building a city, which is what he's going to be doing.
Lovely. She picks one at near-random, which is to say based on speed of arrival and charmingness of presentation, and puts a song in his forge. (Her forge? Their forge? She can't actually tell. She's pretty sure she's never heard a Dwarf say 'she' about a Dwarf but her Allspeak instance does have a history of screwing up gender. She will wait until she is better friends with some specific Dwarf and inquire.)
She rents shorter-term accommodations for herself with some of the bidding-on-questions-from-her-lecture fund. She does not think Maitimo would appreciate a roommate.
She expects less interest in the other spells, detecting negligible wood, sailing, uncalm water, equestrianism, and need for wind anywhere down here. She suspects that they must have crops somewhere; she's not allowed to copy that song but she is allowed to use it if someone wants to make her an offer on one-time use...? Warmth spells, firestarters?
There'll be quite a market for healing. They're intrigued by everything else but there are no buyers except as novelties, though lots of people want novelties. They have suggestions for ones she should get in the future, though: spells for a sure grip, for extra strength, for clearer vision, for resistance to heat?
Maitimo also likes them, or is at least pretending; he spends the first day listening intently and then starts talking with people in line, about what they do and how they chose it and what its most satisfying bits are, and he turns out to have dozens of stories about mishaps in the forge as a young child and projects he'd completed but not quite to his satisfaction that perhaps they'd be just the talent for and the story of how in Valinor they'd clumsily advanced the art of metalworking and the story of how, and why, they'd begun forging swords.
Unfortunately, dinners are uninformative on the family structure point! After several dinners the known Dwarf family structures seem to be 'ten adults and no children', 'eight adults and two children' and 'four adults and no children' and the adults are not discernibly of different genders. Luckily by this point she's well enough acquainted with one of the Dwarves who invited her to dinner, a miner named Rathsvith who recently came back from an extended stay in Menegroth and who everyone else accordingly seems to think of as an expert on pink hairless types in general.
Why, gender is this set of social constructs that many cultures perch on top of biological clusters associated with reproductive role. Genders are very popular and most people have one, although she has some complaints with the social constructs that came with hers.
If only Loki's mother felt that way. This does seem to mean that one has to learn private personal information about one's acquaintances before one can get anywhere on the process of finding someone with whom to start a confusingly-grouped family of adorable bearded children, though; if she may ask, how does that work?
Maitimo is really enjoying this for some reason.
What a pleasantly broad-minded system. (Loki is so fond of Dwarves.) Would Rathsvith like an explanation of the nuclear family or did he (they? would Rathsvith prefer pronouns that do not specify a gender or ones that default to the one Dwarves in general visually resemble?) figure it out more or less from Menegroth?
Rathsvith thinks it's odd to use grammar that signifies that he can technically bear children and thinks it doesn't really matter which but one pronoun should be picked for all Dwarves. The Elf way seems to be that there's a party declaring that two people are going to have all of their children together, is that basically it?
That's not basically it. Variants on the nuclear family are common in many cultures and while they do typically involve a party and having all one's children together, other popular ingredients include exclusivity, romance, permanent cohabitation, and acquisition of one another's relatives by proxy. Elves also do a creepy soul thing! Most people do not do the creepy soul thing.
Lots of the things wrong with Elves can't really be characterized as their fault. For example, they have no good way to get coal, and it's really hard to work a forge without coal, and it makes sense that they'd mostly wander around living in trees and singing. Not what he'd do, but certainly comprehensible. Also, their gods are ridiculous but it seems they didn't make them up, so while he'd previously held it against them that they made up such bad gods, they turn out to be accurately reporting the story there.
He starts, at that, and seems almost to come back to life. "Sorry, Rathsvith, I should have explained earlier. One ability of the Enemy is to play hallucinations, so people think they've escaped and rejoined their families when they're really still in his power. I think he does this partially to gain from our minds information about the peoples who we left, and partially so if we really do escape we'll never be sure of it. So I decided a long time ago that if I escaped, I wouldn't go home and wouldn't let him use my mind and my reactions to get a map of my family home, or my family themselves."
"I don't know," Maitimo says, "but if it's under my volition at all I won't snap in the night, and if I do I am pretty confident of what I'd do and it wouldn't hurt anyone else."
It's only a bit more exhaustive than what she already got from Macalaurë - he presents a few of the algorithms and goes through the spell design process that would produce a ring which glows, the simplest case - and, as he ruefully concludes, perhaps of dubious use to Dwarves since they don't use osanwë. The questioning period makes it clear that their approach is similar in some important ways, though, and there's much excitement about some algorithm that seems relevant to what they do.
The first set of orders he hands to her for effectiveness-and-trustworthiness modification (she has a separate slip of paper that notes whether his people are reliable) are 'send a friendly emissary', 'give asylum to anyone dissatisfied who we can accommodate climate-wise', 'trade food', and 'research methods of warming the whole planet to the temperature of Tirion through amplifying the Sun etc'.
By the time they've been playing for an hour she has undersea tunnels of ice sloped to allow rapid sled-based retreat from the Helcaraxë, two complementary plots to have the favorite daughter of Maitimo's annoyingly competent secretary seduced, plans underway to invent the heat-seeking missile, a museum's worth of stolen artifacts, and the aftereffects of a bioweapon to contend with. This is so much fun.
"I'm from very far away. I heard you and other tribes like you were around here and came to see if you wanted any help with anything."
"It sounds different because it's so fast. The rock wouldn't stay warm all the time if it were slowed down, because it takes half the song to start working. I learned to make songs sing themselves. It's not very useful unless the song is magic, so I got some people to teach me magic songs."
Cool. She uses Daeron's numerals; it's that or Quenya, and while Doriath's less friendly Quenya's the language that has speakers willing to pick up the local languages as necessary. (Asgardian and whatever the Dwarves call their language are right out given alternatives closer to home and less private. She should've asked Rathsvith what the deal was with that. Next time she's there.) So, these are marks you can scratch in the dirt - this she does; they might be spooked by illusions and the only advantage here is convenience - and they will keep track of how many things there are! There are this many blades of grass; now there are this many; you don't want to have to memorize too many symbols, so here's how you go past that with the concept of multiplication as illustrated by a rectangle of dots poked in the ground.
She gets them as far as three-digit numbers (in twelves, this is 144 and up), mentions that you can keep going with more places of numbers as far as you like if you want to count a lot of something, and gives them a break at that point if they seem like they might be having trouble with retention.
It's... sort of weird how unprepared she is to, basically, uplift, a bunch of people with literally nothing to start with. Disturbing how tempting it is to outright lie to them because they don't have the concepts to understand the truth; she avoids that, simplifying but not to the point of falsehood, but the inclination's there. Loki has never liked the idea that new races are "children" relative to older ones. Childhood is an individual matter and she thinks you could take a bright Midgardian and plop them in a galactic hub and explain things on demand for a few weeks and wind up with somebody who at least sort of knew what they were doing.
But these people are - developmentally adults with a language pre-loaded, but they have no cultural history or context, no life experience that isn't wandering around gathering things, she can't build on anything because there is nothing -
Well. They'll be warm and they'll be able to treat injuries and maybe they'll get somewhere with the counting.
"I'll see if I can do anything about those demons who've been making trouble."
And if she has her way all of these folks are going to live long enough to try it.
She walks off. She didn't come here to be worshipped by people she doesn't even know how to help more than a little; she will wait until she's out of sight before she does overt magic.
"They're actually a species called Quendi or Elves. There's other tribes of them who are friendlier than those ones, but all the ones I've met are far away. These Quendi are really not interested in making friends and you should probably leave them alone. They implied you have trouble scaring off wild animals?"
She swoops around, sees nothing but clever stone-building Men, and finds a place to land and change hidden and pops out.
"I think we are," says one of the others, "so they aren't attacked by the demons, and so Melkor has more worshippers and is stronger and can protect us better."
And they awkwardly crowd around and begin singing a hymn of praise and strength to Melkor.
She'll interrupt if anybody is actually attacked by a demon where she can see, but if they're just prowling she flies around - marking wolves with dots, discreet-like - and constructs a map of the area (in a sky-blob) and waits until the wolves go home so she can see where home is.
"If your version of altering the plan involves werewolves savaging people I'm not sure we're going to find any common ground," says the rock. Maybe this is Thauron; he doesn't have Maitimo to play with anymore, could have branched out. He's fast for a Maia if he's already fucking with Men this comprehensively though.
You have free will and don't seem interested in having this history play out according to Eru's terms. I thought I was going to have to wait for those -" he gestures broadly at the direction she came from - "to have any chance of knocking history off its intended rails but you have free will and seem as interested in that cause as I am."
That is what he promised in exchange for his parole, though the Valar did not tell the Elves because they hadn't admitted to the Elves in the first place that suffering could exist even within the Halls.
They don't suffer because it's necessary. They don't suffer because it serves our ends. They suffer because Eru wanted Melkor to be the embodiment of all evil in the world.
And now, Loki, do you see why I think you might accept my offer of a job?"
"Well, you've picked up an idea of the sort of compensation that might interest me, but if Melkor can't muster so much as a whim to stop being so darned evil all the time I'm not sure why I should expect him to hire me on as, what, Executive Orc De-Sufferer?"
"Well, until you sign on, we need Men to do anything other than play our designated part. This is more unbearable for us than for the Elves, because we know our fates to a much greater level of detail. We are still in a position of relying on armies to control territory, though hopefully not for much longer. The werewolves are a hobby of mine. They're transformed Men, so might be able to have interesting free will once they're powerful enough to actually change the course of the war."
"Maybe I should cultivate an aura of mystery next time I'm visiting a strange planet. But my question was more limited in scope. Endgame for this planet? Anybody who survives the continent-destroying warfare? Or is the plan scorched earth, take off into space?"
"If you made yourself useful enough I suppose I'd consider it. There are a thousand orcs for every Elf and Man, Loki, speaking only of already extant ones. And time passes faster in Angband; they reach adulthood in three or four years, they have ten children a year. If you side with the Elves and win this war all of them suffer, forever."
- here, I'll make it easy. I will tell my lord Melkor to fix it right now. You can verify on your way home that all of them are fine, though I suppose you can't verify that dead ones were suffering or now aren't. You can verify that our word is as inviolable as any Elf's, and then I'll swear to the truth of that alongside everything else. How long do you think you'll need to make your decision?"
"I swear to you, before Melkor, before Eru, before the powers of this earth, that there are thousands of times as many orcs as Elves and Men. That orcs will not suffer for the next six days. That, should you bring me Maitimo Nelyafinwë within that time, orcs will not suffer for the next ten years. That if you accept my job offer, orcs will not suffer for as long as you serve us. I swear this on all of my powers to act within Arda."
"So you don't mean, for example, that Melkor will lay off the tortuous mindreading, or that they will not be sent to die in droves on Elves' swords, or that they're all going to be upgraded from whatever presumably overcrowded quarters you have them sleeping in..."
"And proof I'm negotiating in good faith means hauling you Maitimo all the way here in six days. I actually can't think of a way to do that even if I were so inclined. It doesn't seem likely to help against the Valar at all, either, which mutual interest is much of the basis for this entire charade." She thinks Maitimo might notice if she turned up and spouted ridiculous lies about why he needed to be here, and she can't bodily kidnap him and fly at the same time, and also, um, no.
If you're inclined to offer me something of comparable cost to you, I'm listening."
"I'm not sure how your whole 'not having free will' deal works. Day to day, the species that don't have free will seem to work kinda like the ones that do unless somebody, oh, swears an oath. I buy that there's more going on there, and maybe it feels really different from the inside. I could contemplate becoming a collaborator of sorts. You seem reasonably good at targeted bribery, I could imagine finding positive-sum trades to make at least to the extent that you just really have it in for the Valar. But ultimately, there's a fundamental difference between things I do and things that happen. Things do not happen through me. And you didn't hold up two bundles of people and say, 'hey, Loki, which of these should I torture'. You want me to fetch you one. Which, again, I cannot actually - think of a way to do without his cooperation," she amends midsentence.
Maitimo didn't mention he was such a fucking smooth talker.
What is she going to tell Maitimo.
She takes off, notebook pacing her deep underground; and she thinks about that.
It's not such a long flight.
She stops, in the middle of the desert, when the sun's risen again; bakes in the heat to see if she turns blue, tries to freeze a cactus. She thinks she may have almost done something. She doesn't turn blue and the cactus survives the lack of experience.
She flies the rest of the way. She goes into the caves and rents the same hotel room she had before and flops facefirst into the designed-for-tall-surface-dwelling-types bed and shrouds herself in silence and screams.
And then she osanwës Maitimo and says, I have something extremely awful to say to you, I have no words for how much you will hate it, and if on this basis you would like me to not say it, I will leave.
She goes to a corner of his room and clonks her head on what looks like empty air overlooking a meadow.
Thauron is terrorizing the Men and I ran into him and we had a really interesting conversation which you may read and I am not going to kidnap you but oh stars there are so, there are so many orcs - and I don't know how you tick or what your probabilities of various things even are or - but if it was me I'd. There are so many of them. If it were me I'd wouldn't want - whoever was talking to Thauron on my behalf - to tell him to go fuck himself before inviting me to volunteer.
I don't really want you to! I want to flee from this room like a coward and probably never speak to you again and hope you never think it's hypothetically strategically relevant to mention to anybody that I even thought of it! She sits on the floor, head still buried in the corner of the room. She pulls the transcript, explodes it into its pages. The kerning's all fucked, I had to write it without looking and haven't fixed it.
If I had little to no strategic value yes. As things stand no, he can't have me in that or any capacity; I'd be trading you for the decade, not for time to actually think. I don't know your actual strategic value and it does not, here, belong to me to compute. I don't know what your city is worth, I don't know how hard it would be to string your father along for a decade saying I hadn't happened to visit you until he gets me my eidetic memory and has no choice but to take every science book I can throw at him, I don't know how much you care about orcs who would presumably continue to spend the duration of their painless time trying to kill everyone you love. I don't know if I should have asked you. But I would have wanted to be asked. So I did.
If it's reality I don't know enough about you. If you really think you can win this in thirty years then reconciliation with my cousins doesn't feature in any important calculus, that is not going to be decisive, and I don't have skillsets relevant to building either impossible memory artifacts or city-destroying bombs either faster or with greater certainty. If it's reality the question is 'can you lie to my father for long enough' and I don't know you.
It's a lot of ifs. Ten years for the eidetic memory and that's if singing to reality can grab information lost to my mind but present in another reality not habitually sung to, if his estimate's right, if he lives that long, he was dying when I got here and something could get him more thoroughly next time. From there it's things like - can they find a uranium mine, or whatever it turns out they need which might not be a uranium mine because I don't remember. Would a nuke so much as inconvenience a Vala, they can build cylindrical planets, they can manufacture tardy suns, maybe tanking that kind of energy is easy. I'm not putting all my bets on it. It would work fastest if it works. There are a dozen reasons it could simply not.
Plan B is learn to teleport, go back to my galaxy, buy destruction off the shelf until something sticks and everybody in the business wants to know what I'm trying to kill, maybe if I'm really desperate go grab the Tesseract in my bare fucking hand again because that would sure as fuck do it if the thing felt cooperative a second time. If their hatred takes the form of making it inconvenient for me to do that, yes, otherwise no it would just make me sad and I can pare down the resulting fits of distress into a rounding error timing-wise.
I also don't think I can volunteer but we can probably get around that.
I can make observations about the course I'd pursue if I thought this were real and wasn't bound not to give in to that kind of pressure. And since I don't think this is real, I'm not impeded from agreeing with you. And you could fix this entirely by promising that if I did this you'd return the Silmarils or something. But I don't think if he'd asked me, and I believed it was a real choice, I'd be free to make it.
...do I have the full story on the deal with the Silmarils? I mean, I don't have any particular use for the Silmarils myself so I'm not going to hang onto them should they fall into my possession, but I'm pretty optimistic that their purpose can be substituted so I have no independent reason to prioritize ferrying them anywhere...
We're committed to retrieving them. Mostly because my father needs costlier signals of trust when he's under more pressure and the destruction of our home and death of our grandfather was a ton of pressure. But partially because he's less optimistic than you that their purpose can be substituted, and we are desperate to someday live outside the Valar's power. Anyway, it's rarely relevant because I have full freedom of action on anything that helps the war effort. It only matters here because this pretty clearly hurts the war effort by a hard-to-discern amount in exchange for helping orcs.
I'm not confident that is what is going on, but it's possible.
...we should also expect that what he'll do, if we do this, is go to my family and swear he's being truthful and then share the contents of your previous conversation and whichever one you have when you hand me over.
He'd just show up like that? I was assuming there was probably a reason that the heavy hitters didn't just routinely waltz into key settlements and obliterate them and I was assuming it was enough reason that he didn't have effective free communication lines to your family.
Coaxing them into communicating would be easier, especially if I'd just died under mysterious circumstances. In general my family knows enough that they'd stop listening the instant he opened his mouth, but I have some reckless stupid relatives.
Maiar vary from 'forest spirit that gives this spring minor healing powers' to, well, Thauron. Or Ossë or Uinen. Melian's up there. You might be able to pick a fight with him and live, but I don't think you'd win it. Also, at a guess, werewolves being ridiculously easy to kill and then obediently leading you to him suggests more that he wanted to spend a few werewolves getting your guard down than that they're actually useless. Challenging him in his home territory does not strike me as wise.
The question isn't is he good at them, it's is he fast at them, enough that I shouldn't assume he's been lying in wait building up power for a few hundred years in the future birthplace of Men, who are by the way very weird to talk to at age three weeks appearance Midgardian young adult.
Okay. So it's his turf but it's not longstandingly his turf. He didn't indicate if he could or couldn't tell where I was standing; he was willing enough to address the rock I flung and didn't make meaningful eye contact or anything, but I have to assume that could be fake and he might be able to see right through anything I can fling up...
Werewolves and possibly other things I heard descriptions of but didn't get a look at attack them sometimes, and then a friendly Thauron walks up and suggests building a temple to Melkor and singing a mediocre hymn and these things are effective wards against werewolves et al. I got the song and stuck it in a werewolf's ear, didn't actually drive it away, so they're doing something more sophisticated than what it could have been.
He'll have told the werewolves to avoid the people who've built temples, probably, and the ones singing.
I have twelve days and it would be that to walk but not to fly. I don't know how often he's going to check on your whereabouts or the resolution of his information. I think you can take overnight. He probably knows I sleep every night by default. She stands up. I'm sorry, I'm so sorry.
Well, now she's crying, but she never took the silence off so she doesn't have to stop for the sake of her neighbors.
She clears the cipher away. She works sleeplessly on teleporting, perception sped to drag out her stalling until she thinks she might be able to get a few winks.
She does.
'Want'. It's probably a good idea, you think of things I don't. ...The wyvern poison hurts like fuck for about twelve hours and then it kills you absent medical attention, if you're an Asgardian, I don't know what it'd do to you. My spell will work on it fine and I have no idea what Thauron might or might not be able to do about it.
'the orcs won't start experiencing constant pain in the agreed-upon sense again until you take action indicating breach of our agreement or until ten years have passed'. I don't like that. It does not leave me confident you get all ten years.
The Oath is deceptive in some way we're not thinking of: possibly, but it doesn't need to be, because this genuinely costs them very little. It'd under other circumstances be the perfect element for a trade: it matters tremendously to us and not at all to them, and they can fix it for almost nothing. With leverage that perfect I'm not sure why he'd risk derailing the deal with something clever.
They're going to take true-but-partial information to my family in some manner in order to derail cooperation between you and my father. Counterargument: do they know about the memory project or that he gave a ten-year estimate? If he's being truthful about his sources of information he shouldn't have had any means to learn about it.
He thinks what I'm doing matters and he wants me stopped. Unlikely. An allied front of the free peoples of Middle-earth, which I do think given time I could achieve, isn't going to win this war and may not even buy us all that much time.
And if he has intelligence as good as he's implying, he could have recaptured me sooner.
This is a step in a larger play to convince my family you work for the Enemy - I don't know what the other steps would be, or how we'll see them coming, and beyond withdrawing their cooperation I don't think my family has the means to harm you even if they decided to. They could attempt to kill you the next time you're materialized in their presence?
He doesn't think any of this has any strategic relevance and is mostly doing it to mess with your head. That - requires a model of you that's almost good enough but not quite. You said you don't think sadness will delay you developing teleportation and buying up a galaxy's worth of destructive tech to throw at him. Do you think someone observing you could have predicted that?
He genuinely thinks that if he keeps offering you deals like these, and you keep making them, then eventually it won't feel so outrageous to work for him. That would happen to some people, particularly if it's already broadly believed that they're working for the Enemy. I don't see it happening to you, though if you're deceiving me about some part of your personality because it'll distract from my recovery now would be the time to mention it.
There could be a prophecy we don't know about.
It almost feels unsporting to mention the most obvious candidate, 'this is your graceful end to your very clever game, which you probably got more information from than I would have hoped'. But. For the record, that's what I consider likeliest.
I don't know how easy I am to predict by observation like that. I did go from learning an unfortunate fact about my family background to making sarcastic remarks awfully quickly but that was after the Balrog was dead and I haven't otherwise been operating under particularly extreme stress.
I became less, not more, vaguely hopeful that there was some exchange to be made I'd see as all-around positive over the course of the conversation Thauron and I had and don't think increased exposure will make me friendlier to his plans or more interested in a job. If nothing else I imagine he or Morgoth would eventually want to resort to some or other use of mind-affecting magic I couldn't tolerate; I don't even let Lúthien sing around me.
I have not come up with any clever ways to convince you that I'm real - or more to the point that I'm not already working for the Enemy; I suppose you think I exist in some sense if only as a recurring character - so of course you think so but I do appreciate your willingness to, what should I even call it, play with other scenarios for my benefit.
Mandos can read you like a book, go through your whole history and string out how you feel about if it he likes. Moringotto can't do that or I am reasonably sure he already would have. He can, obviously, torture and disorient you badly enough that the distinction between public and private thoughts becomes hard to maintain...what have you told me that you wouldn't want the Enemy to know?
Well, I want the Enemy to exist in a total information vacuum or not exist at all, but in general - where I go and who I talk to, what I'm working on, what your father's working on, how guns work, all kinds of interesting personal buttons he could try to push and might be better at pushing than I expect, limitations of my powers - If he can extract specific information out of minds but only at great cost he could take my sorcery alphabet if he knew about that and got hold of me. I still don't know if it will work for anyone else. I should - try to teach Lúthien a healing spell or something, that would be safe.
Another possibility is that he is just doing this so you'll return, alone and in secret, to a location of his choosing at a time of his choosing where there'll be fifteen Balrogs in addition to him and his werewolves. I was wondering if his conditions were met if I flew over myself, but no, you very much have to deliver me.
And you think the werewolves were just easy to kill because he wanted them to lead me to him, that he knew I was there. I wasn't being particularly stealthy before, I suppose. She considers. I might be able to do fifteen Balrogs, assuming they're all about like the one I saw and there's nothing in place to return their senses when I've taken them. I'm more maneuverable than them and fifteen's too many to effectively surround with anyway, you lose that advantage at their size versus mine with three or maybe four. I might be able to do fifteen Balrogs and a bunch of squishy werewolves, even if they're usually faster or smarter than they seemed - I doubt he modified how much force it takes to cut through their spines. I almost certainly cannot do fifteen Balrogs, a bunch of werewolves, and Thauron, even with no clear picture of what he would do in the course of fighting me.
I don't know. Maybe he'd legitimately rather offer you a job and will only attack once he's convinced you won't take it. Maybe he wasn't ready. Maybe he thought you'd take the deal and he'd get the added bonus of taking me prisoner again and if you survived the ambush having the leverage to break apart your alliances. D'you'think Elu'd react well to that transcript if it came to his attention?
I wasn't imagining they were exactly happy with Mandos, but it's possible they are not in that particular variety of torment. She shakes her head. I should have thought this through more before I even asked you, trying to outmaneuver him here is a terrible idea, he has too much informational advantage and too many ways to play anything we try against us, we should turn around and I can either not go at all, count myself lucky I got the orcs two weeks - or weigh the risk that he'll get some advantage over the Men and go early when he only has four Balrogs ready or something -
One of the things the Elves were supposed to do, the reason Eru was supposedly annoyed that the Valar took us to Valinor, is help Men get started. Protect them and feed them when their crops fail and teach them what they'll need to know, that sort of thing. Leaving them for Thauron to toy with seems like a recipe for disaster.
My people were, even by Cuivienen, the ones who wouldn't stop inventing words and testing inventions. Not all of us accepted the invitation to come to Valinor but if you met some of the ones who stayed, they wouldn't be warily living in trees. That's the third host, Elu's people.
I do think you can't swear falsely. I'm not positive that you couldn't cause me to experience hearing you swear falsely. It's also possible you're genuinely an Asgardian. I believe you that there are civilizations around other stars, and you have presented me with some evidence that you're not of this world.
Well, if it would ever amuse you to hear me swear things feel free to let me know. Although if it had been that simple all along I would have kicked myself for taking so long to think of it. Anyway. So I suppose I'll drop you off at the Dwarves, replace your wallpaper if you want it back, go bring Elu dire news of Thauron messing with the brand new Men and see what he says - go from there. Twelve days is a while if I don't have to carry somebody over the mountains.
More or less what I said anyway. I'd have tried to figure out whether this was the right thing to do, and concluded it wasn't, and tried to persuade you of that. If you were being unpersuadable for some reason I suppose I might have tried to move you emotionally, but I'm not entirely sure that would work and also I'm not very effective in a state of paralyzing terror, it was six hours last night before I was able to start thinking clearly at all and that was when you'd said you wouldn't do it.
That sounds like the opposite of what I'd expect, actually; usually they can be absurdly resilient to changes to their form and heal accordingly, but take a long time to change forms. Perhaps there's a tradeoff between the two and stealth agents focus on the second. It's also possible Thauron didn't have a physical form in the first place when he was talking to you, or had a more dangerous one, and was showing you an illusion and then using magic to hold the rock in place.
It duplicated the shapes of various people in the camp, down to their clothes, and when I caught it changing visibly it was quite seamless; and then it turned invisible and as soon as I had cover fire set up and bystanders away from it I covered it in disabling illusion and attacked it and then it turned quite promptly into a Balrog. That last change at least was definitely physical and not visual because it broke my illusions and I had to replace them.
Nolofinwë's people you can probably just share the strategically relevant bits. If you did share the whole thing I expect their reaction would be 'well, Thauron's probably lying to you and Maitimo's also probably lying to you'. Except Findekáno, who I'm actually having a bit of trouble predicting. I am not at all sure he'd be okay.
And I suppose they could say they don't believe me about the limits on my illusions. I have to actively monitor something that's going to look like a person or even an animal, if I'm not paying direct attention all it can do is loops of preplanned behavior. You might have noticed the clouds on your ceiling repeating, they had long enough to do that. And they're not tactile and I can't do heat or ultraviolet. I don't know what it'd look like with Thauron helping, I suppose.
It will be obvious to them that it wasn't worth it, but that's because they care more about me than about all of the orcs in the world combined, and they know you disagree with them there.
There are so many of them, she says. But your points about the strategic upshot are well taken. I would have volunteered if all I were volunteering were - me, in a vacuum, not likely to accomplish anything more important by my presence or destroy anything more important by my absence. I imagine you won't find the song any more reassuring than having me swear things but I'll let you ask me questions while it plays if you like.
I can spread them out for you, I store them compressed for the effects but I can slow them down again. I'm willing to take your word for it on how the song works so it's only worth it if being initially twitchy when your family questions me will be a problem.
Yes, it's too soon for them to be informative to me. I know about how much Macalaurë can compose in ten years, though, and how to recognize something he wrote and performed, and when I've heard that much music of his that's new to me I'll know it's been ten years. This is useful since it sounds like the engineers have turned their energies toward projects I'm not qualified to evaluate.
She lands, she leaves her wyvern-tail dagger under a rock, she steps in. Lúthien, I'm visiting from the opposite direction I usually fly in from and there's none of my flowers, can I get directions?
They're three-week-old adults without any prior culture. They came with language skills and enough other procedural knowledge to move around and feed themselves, but they're still pretty weird to talk to. Other than that I think my guess that they're Midgardians without the soul animals was very close indeed. I taught some of them to count. I gave some of them magic rocks; I discovered that there's more to magic songs and that they work all right in illusion form, so now some groups of Men will be warm at night and have healing if something happens to them.
I have a crop one, and they didn't have any actual cultivation I could apply it to, and in order to have an illusion of the other I'd have to listen to it. I'll give you a copy of the healing one attached to something if you like, though. And it occurred to me that I should probably find out if I can transfer my sorcery information and the safest way to do that is probably to try to teach you a healing spell.
Well, it'll take a long time to go through the entire spell, but let's see if you can even get anything out of a 'letter'... And Loki attempts to compose in transferable osanwë form the irreducible Tesseract-granted concept of the "first" symbol, the one she assigned to the number one back when she was developing a way to write in her new schema.
Okay. Well, that does tell me something, anyway, I knew other sorcerers didn't have indelible memories for their spells but I was never sure if it was because they weren't working from the ground up or because that's a separate ability the Tesseract gave me. You might still be able to use some of my magic but it would be very hard and depend heavily on your unassisted memory for quality and function.
So, when I was by the Men, I saw some of them building stone buildings, and I thought, oh, how clever, three weeks and they've already figured out stone construction, go, Men!, and I went and asked them what it was for and they said someone had come by and suggested building a temple to Melkor.
Yep. The temple, and a hymn that they willingly demonstrated for me, are both supposed to protect them from "demons". Their concept of demons is a little confused - they think there are demons in a forest full of Nandor nearby, who don't like Men and try to scare them away but disclaim involvement in the reported eviscerations; and they also classify werewolves, which I saw, and some other creatures, which I did not see, as demons.
The hymn did not seem to be directly magic - it had no visible effect, anyway, and when the werewolves started swarming all over the Men's settlements I stuck a copy of the song in one's ear and it didn't turn away. It seems likeliest that the fellow managing the werewolves is just telling them to turn away from temples and hymn-singing Men.
Some werewolves savaged some Men, I killed them and healed the Men, and then a bunch of the werewolves all ran off home past some sort of invisibility curtain. I threw a rock at it. It stopped at the curtain and a fellow walked out with it in his hand and we had a... conversation. It was Thauron.
Hug. I kept him talking for a while. He wanted to bribe me. Offer came with a free sample. It's the orcs. He offered to stop them hurting all the time. I talked the free sample from six days up to twelve but I'd have to give him stuff to get further increments and I'm not going to. But leaving the Men there being ignored by their Nandor neighbors and courted by Thauron seems like a bad idea, which is why I came here; they'd be your father's people too, wouldn't they?
We could invite the Men to come to Beleriand, tell them there's no werewolves here. I don't know We aren't much like Men, I don't think we'd be very good at guiding them. They're not meant to live in trees, for one thing, and they don't sing themselves the things they need and couldn't rely on us...
...Well, I can't say it's not ingenious but it still sounds like a terrible idea. If you go sufficiently stir-crazy to do something like that and you mysteriously turn up in one of the newcomers' camps rather than the Enemy's I'm going to be teaching them, though.
My spells aren't direct damage types either. I wanted things I could use in the conditions I was in, like you. I've got a song that sets things on fire but somehow I don't think defeating Thauron will involve something as straightforward as setting him on fire. Or shooting frost beams at him, if I ever figure that out, I discovered recently I'm not the species I thought I was but I can't seem to make use of the information productively.
Well, normally, yes! However, when I fought the Balrog it seemed to somehow wear through what seems to have been powerful non-sorcery magic causing me to look like an Asgardian when actually I am a frost giant with stunted growth or something! My hypothesis is that Odin kidnapped me from Jötunheim as a baby intending to raise me with Asgardian values, conquer the frost giants once and for all, and install me as a puppet ruler, isn't that lovely?
I won't turn one down but I am actually okay about this one, it won't be relevant to my life except possibly in a nifty ice powers way until I figure out how to go home, find out if my sister will hate me, find out if my father knew about it, etcetera etcetera.
Thor would never have considered it remotely possible that she could have a sister who was a frost giant. The species aren't related in any way. She might decide that I am adopted, therefore not her sister, therefore just a frost giant, possibly 'a frost giant pretending to be her sister'.
...The mental image has some appeal but I am not sure it will work very well for a number of practical reasons, starting with "she's significantly stronger than I am" and proceeding all the way through "it is extremely difficult to cause sense to enter Thor by talking or any other means".
I'm not sure yet how she's adjusted to the magic revelation. She didn't hate me but wasn't fully informed about the extent of it and hadn't quite decided how to come fully to terms with even what she did know. Certainly she'd consider it an underhanded tactic. And yes, I would, do you even have a sense-putting song?
I don't know. I came here because I thought it might be a good place to get songs and to ask your father about the Nandor near the Men in case he had input on what they need to hear - I should still do that, although I'd appreciate your help with the phrasing, as ever. After this maybe the newcomers, see if they have anything they'll break out for this that hasn't seemed necessary before.
Loki de-baffles the healing song, puts it together. "I listen to someone playing a magic song, and make an illusion of it as it goes by, and form the illusion into a loop so the moment it ends it begins again. Then I speed it up until it won't work any more if I continue, break the loop into two half-loops, so it doesn't go off all the time, and wrap it up in silence, so I'm not constantly followed by competing music. I can attach the looping song onto an object or put it in a place. I'm given to understand that copying songs is a little fraught; some of the most useful I can use freely or almost so but a few I only received permission to place a limited number of copies or none at all but the one I bring with me."
"For escaped prisoners of Angband. They're - a bit of a wreck, you know, and also everyone else is frightened of them, and we have healing but it doesn't do anything about that, and the idea was to make the memories less vivid and stop the panic attacks and help them work around missing memories and so forth, but then the King adopted the policy about none of them in Doriath and so I dropped work on it."
"Well, I probably shouldn't actually do it for the same reason I shouldn't make the whole place silent, but yes, until the Enemy did something about it I certainly could. I'd probably want to put it in a silence baffle, get quite far away, and dismiss the baffle from a distance."
"I tested with Melian; if she doesn't want an illusion of mine in place in Doriath, she can shut it down and it takes concentration to oppose her. The benefit I'd want from the silence would need the illusion effortlessly sustained to achieve, and it would also draw attention I probably can't handle."
"I'm generally uncomfortable with mind-affecting magic and I do have to listen to each song myself at least once to copy it; the one for escaped prisoners is an exception since not applying mind affecting magic to them seems to do them so few favors. There might be demand for the others - I don't know how many composers you have who can make magic songs or how long they take."
The song for children was learned before we found Elu and Melian, when we'd be trying to stay quiet to flee from orcs and your other choice was to strangle them. It doesn't have an effect on people over five."
"Mother says she'll talk with you now," Lúthien says. "Sorry, that is not the answer I was expecting and I thought you two'd have time to copy useful songs or suggest ideas for them first...she sounds very worried about you, by the way, I ended up promising her you were all right even though I'm not sure if that's even true."
"Thank you. After some thought and some consultation I came to the conclusion that he has far too much informational advantage for it to be plausible to outmaneuver him and come out ahead. I let him think I might consider the errand he wanted for proof of good faith and thereby talked him up to a two-week free sample of the bribe, but I am not planning to do anything sufficient to keep up the charade for further increments, distressing though it is."
"Not as such. I believe I've probably attracted a substantial fraction of Enemy attention; I don't know if Lúthien mentioned that earlier there was a servant of the Enemy in one of the newcomers' camps and it was there for some time, impersonating various people, before it was discovered and turned into a Balrog and I killed it. It seems to have had other goals than merely accessing me, but it did deliver Gorthaur intelligence on my disposition. The Enemy's likely to consider it unacceptable for me to be alive and yet unsuborned."
Okay, what's a good way to handle people who think they're entitled to order her around and it would be unthinkable to disobey them?
Act like it's unthinkable to disobey them because it's unthinkable that, whatever words just came out of their mouths, it would be anything you'd have cause to object to.
"I would appreciate very much the option of having this fiction to retreat to should it seem prudent. It seems best combined with some distribution of newcomer inventions called palantiri which enable the transmission of messages; my planned next stop was with the people who possess them."
"I've been coming up blank on ways to safely drive him from the area or even evacuate it of Men, but the situation will not improve if he is given longer than a few weeks to more thoroughly claim the area. The Men are only three weeks old, remind me very much of a perfectly functional cluster of civilizations I visited once, and deserve better than to be written off in their collective infancy; they do, I am told, have free will, and I thought this would make any rumored destiny of theirs suspect in the extreme."
"The casualties would be devastating, though, and the more motivatingly large a force the newcomers send the more vulnerable their home ground is to, say, another Balrog or two, of which I assume he has several and with whom I strongly suspect he can communicate with over great distances."
Thingol nods. "We would be delighted to see our borders defended by weapons made by Finwë's children in Valinor; we will eagerly await the first such shipment. That delight is tempered by our knowledge of their violent nature, but perhaps it's suited to the violence of these times. Send our regards."
There are orcs on the continent. They are more closely related to you than I am. Even the Men were created as part of the same plan, on the same planet. I have not been assuming that the taboo on kinslaying would apply to me if anyone had a serious problem with me.
No I am not. I look like it. But I don't even look like this, this is a seeming Odin placed on me; under it I'm blue and I have red eyes and I may or may not have ice magic that I can't get to work and I'm probably supposed to be twice this tall but that didn't come off even in the presence of a Balrog. My species is from a place more like the Ice the newcomers crossed than the caves where the Dwarves live, let alone a forest. Even Asgard, which is more like places that would be familiar and comfortable to Quendi, none of the history comes to a point with yours. We did not branch off from any of Eru's creations, and your mother is confident that you would have to traverse more than just space to get to where I grew up, you'd have to go to a completely other reality. The Dwarves do not look much like you and they have different customs and interests but they are more kin than I am. If the factor is kin, and not personhood, not common goals, then I will stop being close enough to kin the moment someone wants me dead and cannot consider me kin at the same time.
It's possible. I have considered parking here for extended periods of time for similar reasons. But it would be a terrible pity if someone decided that was not my decision to make and in so doing deprived me of my only refuge; it would not have the desired effect.
I'm not satisfied by the lack of solution to the - abandonment of the Men. They are three weeks old. He's setting the tone for their entire civilization, their other neighbors have no interest in presenting an alternative example, these helpless people have been deposited in hostile terrain without anything they'd need to fight off werewolves or see through misinformation, your mother is the only non-evil Power I'm aware of who shows up to work on this continent and she's heavily invested here not there - and they deserve better, and he's not going to get any easier to pry loose.
They're limited in the sense that there were a certain number of Maiar in the beginning, and a smaller number that sided with Melkor, and Maiar can't have children. Mother's an exception and I think she personally pleaded with Eru for it. They're not limited in the sense that the Enemy was gravely weakened when you killed one. I am sure you could tell Gorthaur where you are and pick a fight, though he'd be silly to send one of them.
"I swear that, if you are on your way with the proof that you're willing to negotiate, the orcs won't start experiencing constant pain in the agreed-upon sense again until you take action indicating breach of our agreement or until ten years have passed."
Wow, he's - that's playing very very seriously. Yikes. Um, doesn't sound to me like they get two weeks no matter what.
They have free will. He could have been lying about what he wanted from me, but it is not an insane thing to want. And they are three weeks old and have no culture to build from! No one seems smart in that situation! They don't seem inherently less cunning than Midgardians, based on which prior experience I expect them to be impressive - if differently - within a generation or two. And generations can be fast. Midgardians take nine months to go from conception to birth and can function as adults in sixteen years, give or take.
You prioritized for the life you had. I did the same thing, remember? If I'd prioritized for effective combat instead of for participating in my culture and various contingencies and wanting to fly maybe I'd have the kind of firepower I'm planning on learning to teleport to fetch, stamped into my brain forever.
Loki goes in, does some spellwork while the speedup song loops for her - experiments with song combinations. They're not supposed to work but maybe they can work if the songs can't "hear each other"? She can shape baffles so she can hear one in each ear and the sound doesn't go anywhere else...
And of the spells that can be safely tried in a Doriath guest room one of them is the warmth song and why didn't she fucking think of that now she's blue again -
She concentrates. She breathes into her palms.
Her hands are full of frostflowers.
Ha.
The blue fades and the frost melts, when she puts the song away. She'll try the bigger blasts she knows the giants can do when she's not in Doriath. But this is good.
And she pulls transcripts. Slightly redacted flight conversation, personal distress excised without comment and preparations for the game of Governor pulled with [irrelevant game discussion omitted for brevity] in its place.
Conversations with Men [some similar conversations omitted for brevity], Nandor - Thauron.
And Maitimo.
And Lúthien and Melian.
"I threw a rock at his invisibility curtain. I communicated to him exclusively by projecting audio illusions from that rock while he held it, was invisible the whole time, and used no visual illusions. I gave him nothing written, although I haven't checked for the presence of my physical notebook since then so I suppose it's conceivable he pickpocketed me of it. No osanwë in either direction, no objects other than the rock."
"He was on his way back to, and within your sight of, the gate to Tumunzahar, the last time I personally confirmed his whereabouts, and I have no reason to expect he didn't continue there. The Enemy knew where he'd been staying and I don't have a confident assessment of the place's defensibility and he has an easy method of suicide if he wants it; other than that I don't think he's in present danger."
"I redacted some lines at his own request which in my estimation are genuinely irrelevant to this topic, and have not presented you with the instruction records from our game of Governor or a detailed assessment of his facial expressions and tone, and except for the former I'm willing to provide them if you want them."
Huan also says you should probably just fight him, that'll be the fastest way for you two to get a sense of each others' capabilities."
"Will silencing the area prevent him from using music, assuming I can keep it up against counterpressure? What is the range on 'magical weapons'? And that sounds like a great idea but I don't know how much to pull my punches if we're going to go fight Thauron afterwards - my healing spell works on humanoids and birds."
"Silencing the area works against music magic," Macalaurë says, "though I expect he'll oppose the silence since it costs a smaller share of his concentration to do so than it does of yours. If the Enemy has magical weapons they'd have no greater range than ordinary ones, or else be something like the Bow of Oromë that literally always hits its target, in which case we'd probably have noticed already. Magical bows less powerful than that would be able to do things like find an invisible target within normal archery range, or kill whatever they hit, or allow the archer to rematerialize at the place where they hit - naming projects we've personally vetted as possible-but-hard."
"...Is seeing souls seeing, qua seeing, or something else? I can't make illusions of heat or ultraviolet but my invisibility is proof against those senses because the illusion is of nothing-being-present, not of countering all the wavelengths I am giving off."
"Hit him with ice, apparently, I'll want to test that outdoors in case control has to be learned. Hit him with Lævateinn, that being my primary weapon. Self-heal whenever he hits me. Depending on how fast he is, tactical shapeshifting - I'm not as durable in bird form and wouldn't want to linger in it except if booking a retreat outright but I can go from any position to any overlapping position whenever I switch. Silence his music, or overpower it with a stupidly loud song of my own, both at concentration penalties."
"Well, at the point where you're having one, you've both called up a tremendous amount of power and you're more - siphoning from it for intended effects, or trying to wrench it in your direction, than doing something as specific as the little songs I gave you. It's generally done by weaving pieces of music that have controllable effects you know into a larger, improvised, composition that inherently, because composing is hard, can't do more than push on the general flow of power, so you can get specific effects and gradually get more access to the source. Generally a Maia would always win at that, because extra attention, but if one was sufficiently prepared and equipped for it maybe you could get somewhere."
"It's more a problem of timing. He's going to know within a day or two that you and Maitimo aren't headed in the appropriate direction, and he could be lying about how he knows that. I like the idea of trying to lure him out to the desert for a fight, and am more comfortable making Maitimo endure a few days of contact with us for the greater good than with handing him over for decades of torture for that same good, but I don't see how we can be there in time."
"All right," Fëanor says. "I propose that you, Macalaurë, Tyelcormo, and any number of people you think would be useful to have around to die protecting you and Huan, learn to fly this afternoon, develop a strategy on the way to Tumunzahar, and if you still think this can be done once you've arrived there and spoken with Maitimo, head out with him by tomorrow night. Any later will probably be too late. Keep everyone else invisible the whole time. If he has an agent in this camp, we can have a conversation to the effect that you came by wanting to ask whether Maiar oaths were really binding, complaining of an inability to get straight answers out of Melian."
"Tyelcormo and anyone capable of throwing birds can do the actual teaching while I spar with Huan, I just need to transform people in the first place. In this tactical situation I don't know how much cover to solicit, especially on the implied expectation of a suicide mission; I will be distracted by dying allies and don't know what compensatory benefit is on offer."
The only other reason to have foot soldiers is to engage the werewolves, who it sounds like they can handle and who we don't really want Huan fighting."
"The werewolves may have been throwing the fights to lure me, but it was a convincing throw if so. There's a few dozen; if Thauron was being honest that they are made from Men they're very inexperienced. I think Melian could prevent me from silencing a place in her turf, particularly if I were fighting simultaneously, but I don't know how she in Doriath stacks up against Thauron in the desert. I will not be too distracted to move and strike but it might make a difference if I'm concentrating on illusion simultaneously."
He nods. "All right. Information security is going to pose a challenge for informed consent for the people we're sending. Canafinwë, Turkafinwë, each of you individually reach out to and ask ten people, leave camp with them on a convincing pretext, meet here -" he sends an osanwë image - "Loki, leave camp after we've confirmed for you that the Ainur can make oaths, wrap around and meet them. Huan goes with Turkafinwë everywhere so no one will find his absence suspect. If you succeed you should continue across the mountains, deal with the werewolves, and help the Men, but I'd appreciate it if someone communicated the outcome and casualties to us as quickly as possible."
Her audience is appreciative, too. Macalaurë is smiling widely. I have a generalized 'do the thing you're doing, but with more power' song if you'd like that one for ice powers, he says. It's not much use for regular sword-swinging until one's had a lot of practice with it, tends to overbalance you.
I would like that, although I may not be able to use it in this case if it'll make it hard to swing a weapon around. Although if the problem is overbalancing per se - She takes Lævateinn from her belt. Turns it into a greatsword twice her height, slims it down into a rapier. I might be better able to compensate for that than most people.
And there's a feeling like electricity gathering on her skin and a voice in her head that makes her eyes water and earsplittingly commands all her attention: This is going to be very dangerous.
Yes, Tyelcormo murmurs, brimming with affection.
Euagh. That's really unpleasant. ...Maybe she can freeze her eyes. She tries that, blowing cold air up against her face. It feels weird but she doesn't think she's going to have to heal herself for trying it and they stop producing tears. Is there some learnable defense against that, like with regular osanwë picking up private thoughts?
Limited application; I've got particularly strong memories and ability to mentally handle spell stuff. A lot of illusion-handling doesn't go straight through spell concepts once established - although I might be able to do song amplification like that, and definitely healing, my primary hope is that pulling that off even once will make it look like it might be a waste of his time.
She manages to reshape Lævateinn in her hand, but the effect is sluggish. The perception song in her ear is outside her silence, but it doesn't compensate. It's not quite a tossup versus not silencing him at all and having that attention to spare, but it's close.
The osanwë thing is a severe impairment but not completely incapacitating. The ice is useful, it works at greater range than Lævateinn and is harder to deprive me of, I should definitely take point if there are any Balrogs present and see what it does to those. I am not sure if we can hope to actually kill Thauron, though.
I have mixed feelings about discrediting him in front of the Men, since he certainly has less gentle methods of subversion available than the 'demons' con, and anyway only a limited number of them could supervise. Depriving him of whatever vague resource Maiar run on while he defends himself may be worthwhile in some hard to quantify way.
This is going to look rather awful from the perspective of thinking it's a hallucination. I don't kidnap him to go see Thauron so as to remain in-character, and then shortly afterward here are me and relatives he doesn't want to talk to with a more compelling reason to go see Thauron!
My point is that, once he becomes persuaded that all this is real, his opinion about past events is going to be dominated by wishing he'd used his avenues for influence better, not by being angry that you knew what he went through and were prepared to see it done again a hundred times over. He has the rest of us to care about his wellbeing, he doesn't do it himself.
I spent a century in Valimar studying music alone. I learned a lot of music. I - tended to forget that anyone else in the world had internal experiences, or existed at all. Tyelcormo's good for that, but he'll go off hunting with Huan for decades and cease to have any ambitions broader than 'see beautiful places, kill fast-moving things'. Father's ambitions are enough to sustain us all but when he didn't have us he very nearly killed himself.
I'm scared and unhappy at someone I love suffering, not angry or particularly concerned by what the choices you made reveal about you.
"Father says as follows: 'Loki's productivity might be unaffected by whether you're being tortured, but mine isn't, and you don't have leave to turn yourself over to the Enemy no matter what good you think it achieves. I didn't say this sooner because now you're probably even more inclined to mislead us about how well you're doing, but now it seems necessary so now you have it. We're going after Thauron. You're to join the party, since Thauron claims he can track you; you needn't speak to or acknowledge them. Stay out of the fighting but if there are no survivors notify someone who can notify me."
"I'm sorry, first of all. Again. Since you threatened to go catatonic if anybody from your family spoke to you I've got a recorded message from Macalaurë which I took down and will play with my Allspeak off." She soundproofs the place, detranslates herself, unbaffles the loop and scoots it back to the beginning.
"Sure, I'd take a lot longer to cross the continent if I had to go around," Loki says. She's not a great actress, but the intended audience knows she's faking, even if they don't know what she's faking. "Nothing to eat up there so I don't think the actual birds tend to go but we can."
Best case scenario, it's much less precise than he indicated and he's just hoping you'll show. If that's true, we may need to get in touch with him to lure him out. Worst case scenario, he can see everything, in which case if he can also see invisibility we're in trouble and if he can't he'll still find it suspect that you're not carrying a prisoner.
Well, she doesn't want to go all frosty when Thauron likely doesn't even know she can do that, let alone that she's got the hang of it. And an illusion sunshade wouldn't even work. She heals away the symptoms of sunburn and heat exhaustion every now and then. Tromp. Tromp.
And she finds somewhere to park to pretend she's having an attack of conscience. This is not particularly hard. She de-birds everyone except her decoy (so he can be a decoy) and Maitimo (so he can flee as soon as his purpose as bait is served). And then she sits.
Coming to me and then trying to let him run away seems...the least wise, of all of the courses available to you."
He's using illusion. Her illusions will respond to ambient light - real light - and to each other, but possibly not to his own illusions. Huan, do you know where he is or should I try to tag him, might not work? "I could've probably thought of something less wise to do."
He's about twenty feet back of that, Huan says.
And then the bird is an Elf, and then the Elf is dead. "Maitimo," Thauron says wonderingly. "I'm disappointed in you. That was cowardly."
She's not sure that keeping him talking is the best idea at this point but he'll see her coming if she moves first, and if she can draw him closer -
He - doesn't start singing, exactly, but the sounds around him resolve themselves into music. The feeling is a little bit like standing in a fast-moving river. "This isn't your last chance, Loki, because I'll give you one more before I kill you, but it's your friends' last chance, I don't need them. You are underestimating us. You're going to die here."
She wraps it around her hands, flicking through a healing spell whenever the power of a strike threatens something in a shoulder or the line of her spine; the thing can warp to turn as needed. If he's going to be a lousy fencer she can spare the brain to keep the outlines in place so the others can handle the wolves, so she can - silence - the - song -
Which would matter a lot if she were letting it play but she's not having any of that rrrrrrrrrgh. If he's going to maneuver like that she'll just have a long double-sided polearm suitable for spinning, or thrusting behind her under her arm. Cheek might be nothing might be poison, healing spells work either way, there they go, stab.
Having fun? Thauron says a minute later, and it's louder than Huan, more distracting, not eye-watering because she knows how to counter that - I could have opened that beneath your feet, I can stop letting you see me, your friends are still alive and this is a good moment to notice you're losing - and a barrage of attacks, with more force behind them -
She fights. He wants her attention, does he, he can have it right to the ribcage in serrations. She hasn't even been desperate enough to reveal the frost yet.
And she claps her palms to either side of him and pours ice, so much ice, she has to heal herself again after a moment because she's probably biologically relying on containing all that ice but it needs to be in him instead - she screams ice into his face, and her hands are each shaking with the blast going through him -
The song stops and the crevasse claps closed and the sky goes back to normal, and the dagger drops the rest of the distance to the ground like an ordinary dagger, and for a second that's all, and then a violent wrenching force knocks her thirty feet back and Thauron staggers to his feet again and with osanwë screams.
I don't think he was trying to, Macalaurë says, though maybe he would have been trying if he'd estimated you rightly. He didn't kill the bird until he was sure it wasn't Maitimo - he very well might value capable people enough he'd rather have them alive and as enemies, if his ambitious are as grand as he claims.
I was mostly not serious. If Huan comes back and says Thauron's retreated to Angband it's worth it to go give them more to work with than unhelpful neighbors and their preinstalled language so they aren't so staggeringly vulnerable to suggestion. And I want to check on Vár. But I'm going to have to be a bit paranoid going forward.
The Men are a longer-term project. - Mopping up the werewolves maybe sooner than later. I would love help with it but it's not just a little while as long as we happen to be in the neighborhood, they don't have nearly enough foundation that I can give them the accumulated science lectures and send them on their way, they need way more work than that.
And in spite of all her stressing out she did not lose track of her notebook sliding along after her underground; it comes up when she fetches it. She steps back in. Have the werewolves gone anywhere?
"So here's the deal," she says. "Thauron's in a bad way. He's been manipulating you towards ends which through no particular fault of your own you knew nothing about, so he has to go; but you didn't know any better so I have no quarrel with you unless you go around biting people who don't in full knowledge of the results want to be bitten. I have some errands to take care of but I will be back in a couple of days. I'm at least as good a healer as Thauron, probably better, haven't made a direct comparison, and I can teach you stuff, and while it sounds like he didn't make that much of a nuisance of himself directly to you I can guarantee you wouldn't be thrilled to hear how most people working for his faction are treated. I think this is a step up for you. Do any of you have any questions, comments, or complaints about this change of management?"
"If my guess about how quickly you shrivel is correct, I will be able to fetch you all a solution to that before any of you outright dies of old age," she says. "I'm from a place of incredible marvels well beyond anything Thauron may have shown you, and I'm well on my way to figure out how to get back there and fetch whatever's required and whatever experts can make it work for you. Failing that I will invent a way to do it myself. You should definitely worry more about other sources of death in the near term."
And she departs.
Would you like to go tell the Nandor what's going on while I talk to the Men? Faster that way.
She heads for the Nandor first; she'd like to give the Men an up to date report on what the forest demons are going to do.
"Hey," she says to the forest demons. "Thauron, or Gorthaur, whichever, was building up a base of operations very near here, turning the Men into shock troops. Did you know that?"
"This isn't a werewolf and he won't hurt you," Loki says. "He was in a fight with the person who was making the werewolves attack." ... she is tempted to scratch Huan behind the ears but just because he chooses to present himself as a dog does not mean she can suggest such familiarity.
"I have to fly the entire triangle either way, so it doesn't save me any time to go change Maitimo back first or you, but you can probably do more of what you'd be doing anyway while you're birds than he can," she says. "Preferences for which stop I make first?"
"As far as an ordering of things that are bad for my mental health, two days of Thauron talking in my head is sufficiently worse than interacting with you, and I don't think a conversation now is likely to harm me further. In general I do persist in preferring company which doesn't hold my fate in their hands."
Lúthien, thought you ought to know that the newcomers gave me backup, we ambushed Thauron, and he's stuck in Angband recovering for at least five years so I'm going to move in with the Men and help them as much as I can in that time.
Maybe she'll ask Macalaurë about that. She dismisses the extra, makes do with one. Eventually lurches into the camp dead on her feet, not having gotten desperate enough to try two sleep skippers in a row in uncontrolled conditions. Her guest room still open?
"He said he wouldn't talk to me, but actually, about eight hours after he said that Thauron was within osanwë-range, he said to me 'tell my father that he owes me a favor and is moving to eastern Beleriand' and I told Father as soon as we came back and he said 'set up everything I'll need there so I don't waste any time, and fine'. So we're working on that."
"I mean flipping through it and making illusions on each page and then taking the illusions with me. I can copy those once I've made them if you want dupes, although for anyone but me to turn pages I'll have to attach each to paper and that'll be mildly tedious."
"I should probably ask Curufinwë, a means of making copies of books is on his to-do list somewhere anyway and I'm sure he's thought about the economic complications, or asked Moryo to think about it. Do you want to spend the next few years alone out there, or would you rather we ask for people interested in being ambassadors to Men?"
"You don't have to give me one, it just came to mind. ...I don't remember anything about how radio works or I'd just give a lecture on radio. It's a wavelength a ways past infrared, I don't know how to generate or receive it even in vague science lecture terms. Why is mind-control even a thing palantiri can do?"
"You're going to be less impressed with our inventive productivity with Father working on that project of yours. When he said 'ten years', he meant 'if I am obliged to spend less than cumulatively ten days doing other things', that's how he does major projects. Books when convenient for you; for now I'll just have book-copying by mandate of the King and patch the problems that will inevitably cause."
"I serve the House of Fëanor. I serve Moringotto." True, false.
"I serve the House of Fëanor. I serve Moringotto." True, false.
And then someone turns into a Balrog, and blasts away the people nearest her.
"It's not okay. It's just not fixable right now. I will work on it as fast as I can." She shakes her head. "I'm going to be far away and not able to visit regularly, too, I wish there were more of me to go around but I think you'll manage on your own better than the Men will. Do you have an internal social structure that makes sense without Vár?"
Good Quendi. They can stay with the orcs until the orcs are on sustainable terms with Brithombar and have some kind of smallish government-like thing set up, shouldn't take long by Quendi standards. For this population direct democracy might even work - she explains the concept briefly - and if there's no Vár and Loki's far away that definitely cuts into their ability to increase the size of their settlement. At what time do they expect to be where they're going? She can dismiss the orcs' Quendi illusions on a schedule, assuming they don't want to just keep them.
"They told you the truth. The difference is that I'm not an idiot and I knew Melkor wouldn't tolerate this once he'd learned of it and that he had to eventually learn of it and so when you came with an excuse for taking Vár away alone I knew. I didn't have any way to warn her without getting killed myself, without getting all of us killed, because he'd have been happy to kill all of us. I'm not sure why he didn't."
"I'm not going to kill you. Not everyone has as a realistic option 'stab evil Maiar', and while I'm suspicious of your motives even if they were pure as the driven snow that wouldn't make you able to stab evil Maiar so I can hardly expect it as a display. I'm debating whether to send you on with them or get a Quendi to act as an intermediary to teach you to fly so I can bring you where I'm going and keep an eye on you."
Dropped Maitimo off with Dwarves, who are great. Went up to check out Men. Men are very new which makes them awkward conversationalists, and have aggressively unhelpful Nandor neighbors, and some of them were turned into werewolves by Thauron who had moved in nearby and was fucking around with them to no good end and with the complete ignorance of the aggressively unhelpful Nandor neighbors. Ran into Thauron. Got offered a job, bribed with cessation of orc suffering. You're going to hate this part - he wanted Maitimo as a show of good faith to extend the free sample into a less free sample. I would've wanted to be asked if I were Maitimo and I don't get how he ticks so that was the best predictor I had; I asked. He shed some light on the situation, convinced me it was a bad idea, I went to Doriath and may or may not be able to freely leave Doriath in the future, went to your cousins, Macalaurë and Tyelcormo and twenty others and Huan went with me to pick up Maitimo as bait to lure Thauron off his ground and have a fight. I gave Huan a head start, Huan did the rest. During the fight Thauron quoted Vár, so after everyone was dropped off where they belonged and had opposable thumbs again I checked on the orcs. One of their escorts was a Balrog, probably inserted into the party when somebody impersonated me and made off with Vár and I am not fucking equipped to go and get her back -
There isn't. Proximity to Dwarves over there, I guess, which is more use for them than you. It's going to set them back a while. As far as I know they're taking a loss because Maitimo asked for a favor at a moment when he was really well-positioned to extract them and he wants the two factions not so near each other and your cousins can take the move better. Do you want to ask me while I run Macalaurë's lie-detection song?
I told them. They quizzed me under lie detection afterwards. I don't assume I was privy to the entire decisionmaking process; I delivered a message with Allspeak off so I know I wasn't hearing everything they said to him either. Well, except literally hearing it.
So she osanwës him the whole blow by blow, visuals and darkened stars and the crevasse and Huan's assistance and his lousy fencing becoming increasingly redundant with everything else that was going on and her disarmament and the ice and the scream and the retreat.
He nods. Lots of the Quendi are isolationist. The Vanyar, in Valinor, the Nandor here, Elwë's people to a lesser degree - not so much the Noldor, because we're fatally adventurous. When my uncle was persuading us all to leave Valinor he said "let the cowards keep this city! but if I have the measure of my people rightly, then if only the cowards stay, grass will grow in the streets."
Being able to pick up the Men's language quickly. Anybody who's annoyed that Fëanor got to inventing a Quenya alphabet first can have a shot at this one. Patience with other cultures, because the Men are not going to turn into Quendi with any amount of acculturation, you're designed around different constraints - they're going to be faster and presumably have different sexual mores and fret about dying of old age until I can fix that and so on. Teaching ability, particularly of basic infrastructure things - I made off with copies of a bunch of books from your cousins, but actually knowing how things work is often useful in being able to make sense of written references. I don't want anybody who would be too tempted by the possibility of being worshiped or has a short temper.
I'd rather not be managing a lot of interpersonal friction. I want to be able to spend most of my time on accelerated perception - cousins have had somebody in their room for three weeks no ill effects, by the way, if you were as curious as I about dose - doing spellwork.
He comes back about two hours later with thirty names. I can vouch for their competence, tendency to get things done without close supervision, reasonableness. I don't think anyone is trying to raise Men as if they've Elven children. I could get you better people with more time, but probably not much better.
She changes half of them, has the other half fling them in the air, provides instruction, swaps who's a bird and who isn't and lets the first batch teach the second while she gets a little work in.
And she lets everybody be an elf for overnight, gets everybody's face and name in her notebook, suggests that because she has such a problem in her life with Balrog impersonators she could put a dot on everybody who's coming with her and make sure it moves when she wants it to? and sleeps.
She checks everybody's dots and when they have said necessary goodbyes she turns them all into invisible swifts and leads the way, insofar as it's leading when you're invisible and just osanwëing directions. Zoom song should get them there before nightfall.
A minute of silence, and then, told in four overlapping narratives by different hysterical people - "No one went and got food, because we were scared, and then there was a fight and then a lot of people turned into wolves and then the fight got really bad so they went to run around outside and the people outside threw rocks and someone ran into the forest and got shot and is dead."
"Shit. Okay. Don't go into the forest, the people in the forest are jerks. I am going to try to cause them to be less jerks but it might take a stupidly long time or not work at all. Do you eat the same things you did before you turned into werewolves? What exactly determines when you are and are not wolves?"
Good, good. Okay, you can feed the werewolves and talk to them, try to figure out which ones are smartest and if there's anything else I need to know that they know, thanks, rest of us let's fly over to the Men and figure out a good starting pitch, the colonizers can all then camp out nearish the tower with some of you Quendi who like barely need sleep on watch, and then Loki's spreading out and you can osanwë the farther-flung Men the good news before they've had more than five weeks to wander to hostile corners of the map. Sound like a plan?
Objectives for pitching the entire concept of "Loki runs the place now" to Men: it does not result in worship, it does not result in werewolf pogroms, it is made clear that this is entirely a matter of Loki wanting to teach them stuff so they can do things more interesting than wander around looking for food and getting chomped on by every predator in the vicinity and has nothing to do with them being unqualified in any way other than being brand new, the Men after hearing this pitch feel encouraged to ask questions and make comments and express interests that can help shape a how-to-civilization curriculum.
Side objective: to what extent is she going to have to give these people the sex talk, find that out.
This mostly goes very well, except that eight different people tell her that the Men haven't been told yet that homosexuality isn't acceptable and sex means you're married, and the Valar didn't tell the Elves about that until we got to Valinor so it's perfectly understandable and hopefully Eru won't be too angry with Men for doing it wrong.
"I'm pretty sure that Men don't have the sex means you're married thing. Most people don't. I was not planning to suggest that homosexuality isn't acceptable either, especially since I don't know how to invent them birth control. Is there going to be a problem?"
One side holds that not telling Men what the Valar say seems like a really bad idea, because the Valar know more about these things, are in any event powerful and dangerous to have as enemies, and probably have such strong opinions about those specific topics because Eru cares a lot about them and Eru and the Valar are very much needed. And besides it's wrong.
The other side holds that the Valar, if they want to explain things, are going to have to send someone, and didn't, and accidental children are a much much greater evil so it's worth allowing Men to engage in lesser evils for the sake of preventing greater ones.
"If the Men are independently curious about the Valar's opinions on their sex lives, or Eru's opinion as understood through the Valar who did not even know that planets are supposed to be round, for some unfathomable reason, I have no reason to withhold the information. I see no reason for this to interest them without any Valar on hand and the one closest to hand being the one who sent somebody to turn some of them into werewolves and pick them off as part of a program of Bonsai Men. My opinion on homosexuality is that depending on the person it ranges from uninteresting through an evening's entertainment all the way to essential for fulfillment and happiness and is not any disapproving third party's business unless someone wants me to officiate a gay wedding, which I will delightedly do. The Men may occupy any number of possible distributions over this spectrum, and the accidental children thing is a real problem - especially since childbirth is frequently fatal among Midgardians, whom Men mostly resemble. Continue not being homosexuals on your own time. I wanted you filtered for not being prissy about other cultures, prove you were good picks."
Okay, morning time, she would like a survey of potentially croppable plants hereabouts - food, fiber, maybe quick trees so they can have some wood without having to bug the aggressively unhelpful Nandor about that. She has a crop song, how well do those work?
Somebody get going on learning the Men's language so she doesn't have to translate everything, osanwë should help, be nice about not reading private thoughts and teach them to shield smart quick as soon as you have that level of communication but Loki's not going to stress that much about the private thoughts of people who've had five weeks to generate any when there's a language barrier to deal with. Figure out an alphabet that works for the sounds they make, teach it to whoever seems to have retained numerals - they're using Doriath numerals, here's those, it won't be the first mixed alphabet/numeral system in the multiverse.
And she's going to go bother the Nandor.
"Hello again," she says to the Nandor.
So she goes and puts somebody on that - with all parties familiar with osanwë it shouldn't require such delicacy as establishing lines of communication with Men.
She goes and susses out the tower to see if she wants to live in it. It's a little inaccessible but it's a building and stuff.
There is. It's just so darned far away and it has that invisibility curtain, which she would rather do herself if she decides she wants something like it. (Although she'd have a hard time doing it exactly this way.) She'll camp out in it until it seems like a reasonable priority to build her a house somewhere closer to the center of activity.
Loki explains the Valar as she understands them: they are powerful beings waaaaay west of here who should not be reasonably expected to show up anytime soon or do anything much, plus there's Thauron's boss (a huge asshole), with whom the rest don't get along, and there are junior Valar-type things called the Maiar, like Thauron (or the one who helped her beat up Thauron; some Maiar are chill). Quendi as a group have mixed opinions on Valar but the ones Loki hired appear to be fans, if not fanatics (the fanatics are still back in Valinor, not out here helping Men with anything).
Has there been any opportunity yet to get to a point where it's not massively creepy to figure out from some Man what their preinstalled knowledge on reproduction and related activities is?
Okay. She makes it clear to her friendly Men that she is substantially guessing based on comparable species, because there haven't been Men long enough to be sure about them in particular, but based on this guess if they have been certain sorts of friendly with one another some of them may already be incubating very small Men.
...well, Midgardians tell like so; has anybody been bleeding from the crotch mysteriously? If so, that may be a signal Men can use too. Failing that you might have to wait until you're visibly bulgy. New Men are like whoever friendlied it up to make them, but not exactly, there's lots of room for them to be totally different; and they start very small and completely helpless and will need to learn to talk and walk and do everything. Breastfeeding: exists. The abdomen expands to accommodate the kiddos.
Well, yes, there's a reason Loki isn't sleeping with any of them (she doesn't say that part), but they are all five week old adults don't be such cryptogenocidal prudes. If they wait until they're twenty and they age like Midgardians they'll be old enough to have serious fertility problems! And none of them have known each other for more than five weeks and it would be an awfully hasty marriage, especially if they weren't allowed to associate across gender barriers.
This doesn't have much effect.
She'd be more annoyed with them if they weren't tremendously helpful on crops, music, building, manual chores, literacy, poetry.
How are the wolves reintegrating whence they came? What can be learned about how the heck they work?
The dominant theories are that it's either expectation-controlled or that Thauron was experimenting.
Werewolves in human form are healthier, faster, and stronger. There aren't any other differences noticeable yet.
Yes, he came and talked with them and then demons came from over the water and he called on the heavens to send the demons away and they vanished, and then he offered to help them protect themselves from the demons, and brought them away one at a time and had them lie still while he did magic. Not everyone he took away came back, he said the others had been sent east to protect other Men and spread the news.
Okay. Loki does not know what-all turning into a werewolf does, or how to ensure that one is a convenient and not an inconvenient kind, it might make it impossible to have children or shorten lifespan or give Thauron a backdoor into your brain or something, but if anyone is super-not-risk-averse and wants to give it a try under controlled conditions -
Before anybody bites anybody there is going to be a lecture about how Thauron was bad and wanted bad things and is guilty of murder/torture/generally being an asshole and if being a werewolf is nice this is pretty much a coincidence and they are not to be sketchy in any way about recruitment just because he encouraged it, especially if there are side effects or no way to control convenience of werewolfhood in new subjects.
Things she will tentatively accept volunteers for: being bit (once) by convenient werewolves and then healed by either of her available methods, or not; repeated exposure by the same werewolfhood donor under the same conditions if that doesn't take; designing further experiments can wait until results are in on that.
Being bit once and then healed by Loki makes you not a werewolf. Being bit once and then not healed usually makes you not a werewolf. Being repeatedly bitten will eventually make you a werewolf. Werewolves don't seem to have any particular affinity, beyond friendliness, with their werewolfhood donor.
She keeps the experimenting slow-paced and heavily disclaimed, because she'll really be quite surprised if werewolves - at least female ones - can reproduce and isn't confident that the Men are making informed choices about that, but every now and then authorizes another chomp arranged in some informative way on an enthusiastic volunteer.
The Elves are Not Happy about the existence of winter, and gather food a little obsessively.
But she goes invisible, frozen to ambient temperature, masking her footprints, and sends an illusion of herself, blue-skinned and red-eyed, tromping through the snow to meet them.
Orcs see heat. They don't see ultraviolet.
And who's to say she ought to have any heat to see?
"I can do that for you again. No strings attached. It'll just make the rest of this conversation more pleasant for both of us. But first you all need to say you're orcs because sometimes people turn out to be Balrogs and those have a tendency to explode around me."
They have. There was a spectacular eight-day festival a few months ago where everyone had delicious food and gifts and weapons and epic songs of battles with Elves were sung and they all reswore the loyalty oaths, with Melkor present so they could direct it personally at him and Elves present so they could direct their hatred personally at them.
"I'll probably have to. But the last time I caught some orcs I didn't kill any of them. And most of them are, to the best of my knowledge, settled elsewhere on the continent forming a colony. He's cut off the solution I had, but maybe there's more than one."
"Last time I caught some orcs," Loki says, "it turned out they'd only sworn their oath once, when they were little, when they barely knew what the words meant. They could re-swear with different definitions. And then they made perfectly nice neighbors and they didn't want to go around slaughtering people. I can't do that with you. But I don't object to you being alive. I don't object to you being orcs. I object that you're going to go work for him. I didn't think of the first solution on my own and I don't know if there is another, let alone one I can think up. If you prefer to be alive, though, you could help me think about how to disentangle you being alive from you being his servants."
"Likes the sword, does he. I wonder what Melian would say if I brought one of you there and asked permission to execute you there instead of here. Probably wouldn't go over well and anyway he can't very well swear to follow through operating through messengers like this, can he."
"They're orcs. The Enemy's principal troops. They brought me a message from Thauron - nothing to do with you guys, it was about something else - and now I am trying to figure out how I can avoid having to kill them. If I let them go without figuring something out they'll spend the rest of their lives trying to kill Quendi."
"Thauron must have expected it, or he wouldn't have sent them. I used to have a way to make it so I wouldn't have to kill orcs I found, but he cut it off, doesn't work any more. They've been very cooperative so far, but that's because they're afraid of me; they are actually incapable of changing allegiances - unless what you just did worked."
"Then you," she says, "like every orc who hasn't been promoted to my personal attention, like every Elf who has died and hasn't met with Mandos's approval - will have to wait until I've got more resources at my disposal. Last requests or words or anything?"
"Which way does it matter? How do you know that it's not sending us back that gives him the wrong piece of information, and killing us that confirms whatever he wanted? And - we're people, we're not - pieces of evidence about you, you can't say 'killing people: what does this communicate to Thauron' like it's 'smoke signals: what does that communicate to Thauron'. And if you send us back you can send us with any message you want."
"I know you're people. All orcs are people, and you didn't get personier because you happened to be sent to me with a message and others did not. I know what causes orcs to attack Elves, I know that you are thus afflicted and that I cannot repair you, and the fact that I am on hand right now to make sure you don't attack any Elves does not change that. You could circle back while I'm asleep and attack the Men or local Elves. You might have contingent orders to do exactly that if I let you go which you didn't tell me about. Or you'll just go live quiet lives doing internal Angband things for a few years and then go out and kidnap Elves to be tortured into insanity because that's next on the mission list. And if you had those orders you'd follow them because you are under oath. I cannot supervise you. I have work to do and when I have done enough of it maybe I will be able to pry you out of Mandos's claws and fix the problem at the root but I don't currently have that luxury. I'm just thanking my luck that he can't send me adorable orc children with his next message because they can't have doubly sworn effectively."
Everybody expecting gets a healing object to carry in case something happens and Loki herself cannot be fetched immediately.
She increases the guard. Some Elves, some Men. It should not be easy to sneak in and slit everyone's throats.
A nice nonthreatening Elf reports a little while later that all of the werewolves are having the same vivid dream in which they cower before Loki and she explains that she is going to kill them and that she feels sorry about it. Sometimes the dream takes place at the edge of the desert, sometimes in the snow; sometimes she burns the bodies, sometimes just turns them invisible. The dreams have told the werewolves where to go to look for bones.
The next time he sends orcs he sends a hundred of them, unarmed, with orders to walk up to the Men and introduce themselves. He's taught them the language the Men speak. Some of them are, in fact, carrying their young children. They get stopped by the guards and assure the guards that, yes, the thing about the oaths is true, but their orders are to meet the Men and say hello, they swear they don't mean any Men or any werewolves any harm, and have you met a baby? This is what a baby looks like. Yours might be a little different.
"He sort of explained. He said you feel obliged to kill us all because you hate him and you like Elves, but that you also like us and wouldn't murder us all if we didn't work for him. He said you probably won't kill the children, and we said that it'd be awful for the children to watch us all die, and he said that then we should convince you not to do that, and we could, because you find it kind of distracting to kill us and would like to not do it. Then he showed us all the other orcs you've talked with and what you're like."
"Um, there's an orc you met in the mountains who you learned about our oaths from, and we watched you talk with her. She's back now so we can look at the things she remembers. And she also remembers when you were in the Elf camp and talked with more orcs there, and killed the disobedient ones, and tricked the others. And then the last orcs he sent out to say hello to you out here, when you were blue and scary. He thinks that's all the orcs you've talked to. If there are others we didn't see that."
"He sends someone out to be a hundred miles away and watch through our minds with osanwë. He can't go personally because he can't maintain a physical form right now. But they can read everything we're thinking so they know what we say and they know when we die, and they can take the whole thing back to him to learn from."
She flexes her hand like it's unfamiliar. "Huh. Thank you. They don't eat solid things until they're this big, usually," - she gestures - "they drink from our breasts, but I suppose it'd be better to give them solid food than let them starve. Or if you have animals, the milk animals produce for their babies works. Not as well, but it works."
And she goes out. And she heals all of the orcs - paying close attention to whether the babies react to this treatment or not. And she has them hand over the babies to any Men who want to practice holding babies and if that's not enough to go around she enlists Elves.
And then she inquires of the orcs under lie detection if their current orders allow them to change tactics, and if their current communication situation allows them to receive order updates.
Their orders do allow them to change tactics, except their specific current orders include 'don't fight back or hurt anyone even if you think it's the best way to achieve your goals' so they can't change that tactic. They can be communicated new orders via osanwë.
Need an Elf's eyes up in the sky with me.
Right, but none of the time will have to be search-transit time. Here's the deal. I'm sure whoever Thauron's got out there mindreading the orcs is invisible. Only makes sense. I have an idea that might work to find them. Then I can go increment my Balrog tally and as long as somebody's always up in flight to notice and give a warning if something else enters the vicinity we can leave the orcs alive in some hacked-together social disaster. My illusions have no range limit. They react to real light; and they react to each other; my guess is they will completely ignore whether or not someone is differently invisible. I'm going to flood the entire radius and then some with color and you're going to tell me if you spot a shadow.
"I am a Maia. Sometimes my interests align with Melkor's and insofar as they do I do him favors. This favor was to supervise diplomatic contact between a hundred orc civilians and the madwoman of the East, a title you wholly deserve; this form isn't my preferred one and you won't inconvenience me much by ripping it up, but if you find it cathartic you can do that."
"I found," she says, "the person who was reading the orcs' minds and could have updated their instructions. I don't know her range, I don't think I managed to kill her, and while these orcs are probably perfectly nice people, I cannot make them safe neighbors, and if they are sent home they'll be the Enemy's soldiers. The babies don't have that problem. Please take the babies somewhere they don't have to watch."
"I know it's not fair," Loki says. "If I could make them like you, and make it so they could choose what to do, I would do it. That's what I tried last time there were orcs here, I checked to see if they could turn into werewolves and get free will that way. Without it their innocence is not theirs to keep, they can be turned in the Enemy's hand at any moment. It is not fair. I would never have made a species that way, I would never abuse this trait that way if I were bringing up a child of a species with this problem, but they are here now, not when I could have saved them. There's a colony of orcs, southwest of here, who I caught before the Enemy changed how he did things, and I got them out from under their oath. These ones, I can't do that."
"It's just," the same person says even more hesitantly, "we haven't seen the Enemy. Maybe he's so bad that killing lots of innocent people to stop him is right. But if he is - what if killing all of us somehow stops him?"
"I've seen Thauron. So have the earlier werewolves, although he was putting on a show for them. I've seen his victims, not just the orcs but Elves he's taken. I'll tell you horror stories, so will the Elves, if that will help.
"You have free will. You can never be made as indelibly dangerous as these orcs are. You would have to make choices to get there, choices they don't have. The reason I'm here is so that you can have your first while existing as a species without Thauron whispering in your ears; but even if I weren't here and all you knew was what he told you, there would always be the possibility that you could change your minds later. I think the orcs would if I knew a way to let them. I wish I knew a way to let them. I don't."
"If they left out the right parts, yes. What parts do you imagine I could fold in to a description of mutilated prisoners dangling from a cliff face by one arm, only two of many clinging to life, to make that sound like the Enemy had no choice? I remember it quite clearly, I can make an illusion if words don't cut it. I cannot keep the orcs prisoner, I cannot let them go, but I am not torturing them. Orcs are born in constant pain and I fixed it."
"If any of you come up with anything to get around the oath problem, please, tell me. I needed help to think of my last solution, too. I don't know everything. But the problem is real and right now I have nothing. One day - one day I am going to invent a resurrection spell, figure out something to release them, but I can't do it today. They'll keep. Not the way they ought to, but that wasn't something I took from them."
And it took me a long time to - to start having thoughts that didn't get interrupted partway through by everything hurting, but eventually I did, and then he showed me some people he sent you to ask you to come get me back, and they died, and he said I could go around and apologize to their families, so I did that, and it took a while. And then he said that you were killing orcs now, you had to, but both Melkors wanted me to go back to you, so I had to do that. And eventually the Melkors were going to disagree on something so I had to tell you to kill me.
And I said that I didn't want to be dead, I might have said that when everything hurt but I didn't really mean it. And he said that I'd sworn to obey and my orders were to get you to kill me. He didn't say right away so I think I'm allowed to tell you everything first. And maybe help the other orcs, if they're still out there and scared."
"There's babies, here. Only babies. And the colony, if he left it alone after I killed the Balrog that was hiding among the escorts." Loki drops to her knees and hugs Vár. "I don't know how to untangle all that, I don't, I don't have a way to make you forget again, or - anything. I had one stupid oath trick and now it's gone and I haven't thought of anything else, anything that worked."
"There's only a few of those here. I asked. I asked the Men too. Nobody's thought of anything. I think if Fëanor had had a better idea he'd have mentioned it back when I first brought you there. But in the long run he has every intention of breaking open Mandos and freeing everybody in it and so have I."
"I'm not searingly brilliant. And if there are people who are searingly brilliant and would think of something, he probably knows that, and he's probably hoping you'll ask them to save me instead of do whatever more important things need searing brilliance. I still don't want to die. It doesn't feel like dying protecting people in battle. It just feels bad and lonely and pointless and there are so many things I want to do that I keep thinking of now I don't have time for them -"
"I'm not exactly sure; he said it like once I was dead I would know. I know that you hear the call to the halls of the Elf-god, and most everyone goes there, because everyone they know is there and it's not like it hurts less anywhere else. And you don't have to accept the call to the halls of the Elf-god but then your soul is just kind of wandering and Melkor or anyone else who can see and manipulate souls can grab it. And now I guess we go straight back so Melkor can take it first."
"Thauron wants," says Loki, "for me to think about you in Angband subject to whatever evil he thinks up, all the time, so that I can't get the work done that I need to do. But it's possible Mandos can fix the oaths for you and it's possible Mandos is on the ball enough to do that and it is likely he won't make anything worse than you would be any time the oaths conflict anyway and Thauron is by no means above using that option to hurt you if he has you. Do you understand?"
She doesn't work literally constantly, although at this point she's sometimes putting in multiple consecutive days. She goes out, she talks to people, she applies songs to things to accommodate the growing population and takes careful notes of how many of her limited copying entitlements she's spending down for trade with Dwarves. She makes page-turnable copies of books, and she translates and churns out such copies of books on plumbing-and-such, when she needs to just stop doing what she's doing for an hour. She generally remembers to eat well enough that no one need feel tempted to fetch her a tray.
"You're all adopted," she says. "I was adopted too. My birth parents' race are called Jötun and my adoptive parents' race are called Asgardians and the two of them are in a long, long, long war, that started before I was born. And one day my adoptive mother Odin scooped me up and took me home and told everybody I was her daughter, and made me look like an Asgardian, which I still do now except on special occasions; and I had an Asgardian father, too, and an Asgardian sister. And nobody told me I was really a Jötun."
"That's not going to happen to you. You get to know what you are from the start. You're orcs; your birth parents were orcs; somewhere some generations back you have Elf ancestors, because that's where orcs came from, sort of how werewolves are made from Men."
"Elves and orcs have a trait which means that they can promise to do things, and then can't break their promise," Loki says. "It's just the same in both species, but the difference is that Elves almost never swear any promises like that, so they can do what seems right to them, day to day; and all the orcs except you and another orc colony southwest of here live under the Enemy. And he makes them promise, and that still works, and then they're all out of choices about anything he makes them swear, forever. You all need to be very careful not to swear things. This is extremely, extremely important, because if you do it, you can't take it back, no matter how much of a bad idea is or if you fumbled the words and they came out not what you meant or if something changes to make you not want to do the thing anymore."
But the orcs the Enemy has don't get that lecture. They just get told to repeat certain words, and then the Enemy can use them however he wants. He can make them do anything. He can do it from hundreds of miles away, if a Maia's around to deliver the orders with osanwë. Sometimes he tricks Elves into making oaths, too, I've seen that happen once - well, I saw the aftermath."
"Don't try it. I know why it might seem like a good idea, but don't try it. Ideally the Enemy will never be personally interested in you and you'll never even be very tempted to make an oath. If he ever is, though, any oath you've ever made before he can make you forget, and then he can make you make another oath on top of that which contradicts it, and then your life is ruined forever. He's done it. He did it to my friend Vár."
She pats one on the shoulder. "It's horrible. The Enemy is very horrible. And the best advice I can give you to deal with that is to not make any oaths even about not making oaths. One day I'm going to figure out how to kill him and then the world will be much safer."
Okay, so, Men communicate in sounds, and in the same way water will make certain sounds when moving in certain patterns (clunk if you drop a rock in, hiss if you force it through a narrow aperture under pressure, etc.), some shapes of mark represent sounds. This will not do the river Maia that much good since she's not familiar with the spoken language, but that's the underlying idea. Here are example written sentences all of which are themed around water/rivers/lakes/rain/waterfalls/snow/i
She's starting to be a little deadline-conscious. Huan said five years. Could be longer; could just really be five. She apprises people of this deadline: she is not sure what will happen or when, but she does not want it to be a complete surprise.
Also: would those Dwarves they have a relationship with be willing to be a fallback position for fleeing persons?
A bird Elf returns to confirm that there's a stone Noldorin city in the shape of an eight-pointed star in eastern Beleriand, though it seems to be being assembled by a work crew of several thousand Dwarves rather than by music.
The city may be interesting - and if it looks far enough along and accessible enough maybe it can be a fallback point too - but if it's being built by Dwarves Macalaurë probably doesn't have that one song done yet.
Maybe Loki should've had a conversation with turns-into-a-bat. She's not sure to what extent it is possible to intermittently work for the Enemy, but maybe turns-into-a-bat (why is her name so hard to remember) has pulled it off.
Loki goes looking for the river Maia. Not with color beyond the shadow-detecting radius, but by zooming along the river calling out occasionally.
I came by because I'm trying to get ready for the possibility that the Enemy's going to attack my settlement soon. It's been relatively quiet because Thauron hasn't been able to keep a physical form for the last few years, but he may regain that power soon, in one to ten years' time, and while it's possible his attention will turn elsewhere it seems likely he'll come after the Men, since that's where he was when he was driven away. I'm not a Maia, and I'm not as strong as he is, and I'm worried.
I don't know if he's likely to bother the river. I'm wondering if you could tell if he's coming - in case he has a way to beat my shadow catcher? I met a Maia who could tell me where Thauron was from a certain range, even when I couldn't see him, I don't know if it's a general ability.
You turned the entire continent blue to find me, chase me down, murder me with ice, and then kill them all except the children. That was not what I was expecting you to do. So the second time I just stopped by to say hi.
Well, before I met you the Maiar I encountered were, one, Melian, two, shapeshifted Balrogs infiltrating groups I had interests in not having infiltrated, three, Thauron, four, the one who I helped chase Thauron back into Angband. I didn't have a good category for you and you were invisible, probably reading a bunch of orcs' minds, and in context definitely working for Thauron, of whom I have a distinctly negative opinion.
He goes by Sauron, you know. It's just the one stupid group of Elves who call him Thauron and he doesn't like it. I'm not saying you should have had everything figured out, you're clearly pulling ridiculous leverage on the resources you have and if that means sometimes being an asshole, well. She leans back. I'm not currently working for him, except insofar as he made it super widely known that anyone who kills you will suffer for it.
I call him that because that's what the person I first talked about him with calls him; it may be entirely to piss him off, which I can hardly fault someone he tortured that much for doing. Is not wanting people to kill me because he wants to kill me himself or something or does he just want me alive?
- I think he actually wants to win. And if things go according to fate, he loses. And he almost certainly loses a hell of a lot faster and harder with you around, but with you around it's not destined. He's terrified of you and he's terrified of losing you. Also he's super pissed off because he can't hold a physical form without it shattering into ice crystals randomly, there's that.
You fucked him up good. I was curious if that'd happen to me, but doesn't seem to. She stretches out her wings. The Elves don't know their fate, not with any detail, but we do. The war is about as gloriously painful and terrible as if Sauron'd written it himself. Most people'd be happy just to bring that about. But no, he wants to win.
I mean, I thought the fated version was fucking hilarious. I didn't really think I had a choice about it, though. Now I'm not really sure. At the time it seemed reasonable to just - not give a shit - if nothing I did changed anything anyway. But here were are, here it does, and it'd be convenient to remember what I wanted back before I learned what's fated.
How does having a slated death date even work? Like, in what way could you not decide to go dive into a more lively volcano or whatever if you were not satisfied with this schedule and wanted to flip it off, I'm not suggesting it I just don't understand how this affects your object-level decisionmaking.
I don't think so. If I were the kind of person to kill myself to fuck the plan, my plan would have been killing myself to fuck the plan. Since I'm not, my plan is to keep hanging out here doing what I do and then at the right moment Sauron will call in a favor and the circumstances will be such that I don't refuse, or I do refuse and that's what triggers it - we don't have all the details about our own choices -
Why do you think Melkor flipped out and decided to literally torture everything? Because there's no way to fuck the plan! That's what he wanted and he tried all sorts of shit and then more of the plan would be revealed to us and that was in it, and he went farther and farther batshit and the plan rolled out and there it was, and eventually he settled for just being as awful as he conceivably could.
There isn't really a set of small decisions that could change the way Arda's history is fated to go. And Eru can and occasionally does intervene directly. It'd take - it'd take someone thinking big enough, and someone powerful enough. The Men might eventually grow into the sort of things that can change the story. But asking one of them "do we attack the Elves with Balrogs or not" wouldn't do it.
Individual orcs can't really be said to advantage Melkor at all, he barely notices them. You were still killing them. Or are you like the Elves, who regard it as a mercy? Anyway, I think I'll keep my secrets. Lúthien's safe. She'll be safe for another four and a half centuries, when she will fall in love with someone - fate is flexible as to who - and her father will disapprove of him.
It still barely costs him anything. He has, what, a million by now? He honestly might be sending you ones he's inclined to dispose of anyway. Or he might be trying to turn Mandos against you, Mandos might eventually get unamused with your death toll. Though he cares more about Elves than Orcs. And isn't going to do anything for five centuries anyway.
If he wants to stop being so fucking evil then it's Valar-in-general who get to lose faster and harder because I'm on hand. Maybe he'd go for it. But if he wants to win and he wants to win under the banner of Being Really Really Evil then it's not gonna work out.
Nah, then you'd need someone to keep singing it. She gestures at the ground and it resolves itself into a brick; she draws some symbol on the brick with her fingernail, which briefly glows red-hot. Boom. A Power has to contest it to get past it, and contesting every brick in a wall takes forever, more than long enough for the little guys to run.
You're not a Maia, so they wouldn't work on you! Or maybe the Elves who remembered what the last war was like didn't come to fight this one, sensibly so, and somehow in Valinor the knowledge of how to keep Maiar out with your walls didn't get passed down. Or perhaps Melkor spread misinformation about it, actually, that's a thing he'd do.
I've never built such a wall, never played around with it too much, all I know is what the wild Elves had back beside Cuivienen. It was enough to warn them so they could flee, it was the first magic they learned. Perhaps someone kindhearted told them. They were fucked enough as it was and it could have been even worse.
Stop killing the orcs. Keep sending them back. He doesn't give a shit, but someone should, and I kind of do. They were all excited when I took them out. Like it was a fucking field trip. Putting flowers in their kids' hair.
They both glow when she tries crossing. They take longer, but not twice as long. Mind, another thing I could do and am not doing is just throw the stone around, or open up a crack in the ground and swallow it. This is excellent for making sure nothing gets through without you knowing, and for slowing things down. It's not very good for making sure nothing gets through period.
Whoopie-doo. This doesn't solve your Sauron problem. He will show up, blast the wall - maybe it takes him several hours, okay, that's time for you to tell the Men to run - and then have the rematch that he's itching for, and he at least seems under the impression that he can definitely kill you and might be able to take you alive depending whether there's any magic that works against ice powers.
I solved mine by agreeing to work with him when he had stuff that wasn't gratuitous torture for kicks. You could also try moving all the Men into a city defended by people who are actually willing to throw thousands of their own into pinning him there - you can put those things on armor, inhibits our freedom of movement - until you can come and icy blast. Or you could try going to the ocean and going "Ulmo, for fucks fucking sake" and hoping he takes pity on you.
Tell Sauron that you're having a great time and you're sure he is too, but you're both much more able to hurt each other than defend your own interests and that's the worst kind of war to fight, and you want to broadly discuss terms for an oath that he goes nowhere near the Men for a hundred years and doesn't send anyone or anything to harm them, and he'd better ask something of you that hurts the Valar instead of just being evil because you're not gonna just be evil, not your style.
His previous ideas of a price for a thing include 'give him my magic sword'. Which is not the evilest thing I could do, it's great but it's not that great, but it still betrays an interest in carving off resources from me instead of aiming at mutual anything.
I don't think there's anything actionable in your shared interests at the moment. You don't know how to bring back the dead, which is the first thing that will really put you at odds with the Valar. Didn't he also suggest giving him information? That's sort of a mutual-interest thing. You could offer to hand him the Elf he wants with strong welfare conditions. You could suggest something yourself.
He cannot have the Elf he wants. Information will presumably be turned directly to miscellaneous evil. I'm honestly not sure what he might want in between 'evil' and 'fucking over the Valar' with the timescale of the first and the acceptability of the latter.
What is it about that one specific Elf? You're pretty good at making the right hard calls even when that involves killing friends of yours who trust you and so forth. Um. She runs a hand through her hair. It gets about a foot longer. She starts knotting it in her fingers. You could suggest to him that he start a new division of Angband in which everyone who works there takes an oath not to use anything they develop on any continent save Valinor, and then teach that division things you know.
You could offer to go to Angband.
Look, if he wanted me to go yell rude things at a beach we might be able to manage, although I'd probably want to check how Ulmo answered a question he may have gotten around to answering by now first. I feel like Angband would be an extremely unhealthy environment for me to get anything done in.
Could offer to work from Angband but insist they stop the torture? I think he mostly does that for fun, not for strategic reasons, so he might be amenable. Or would being surrounded by dead-eyed suicidal broken Quendi who aren't actively being tortured still mess with your psychological - wait, that wasn't actually a rhetorical question when I started asking it but by the end of the sentence it totally was.
It'd have to cover absolutely everyone capable of it in the place and a locally broad definition of 'mind-affecting magic' - I was horrified the first time I learned osanwë existed at all, for instance, I can live with communicative telepathy but that's it. And I wouldn't care to stay there literally all the time, I'm not an Elf and I miss people if I don't see them for five years. But merely being physically located in Angband is not necessarily intolerable even if occasionally I have to look at suicidal people.
The Elf you're unwilling to hand over to Sauron is fated to a hopeless campaign to fulfill his word that starts to look increasingly like repeated attempts at suicide-by-other-Elves, massacring his way across the continent until the name of his house is synonymous with crimes we thought only Melkor could dream of, until at last he's free of the oath that restrains him from ending his life. Don't hand him over to fate either.
Which is to say yes, we do, most of us who aren't literally the Enemy with consenting parties. I've been needling she sends the impression of a wordless soaring sound , who you're calling river-Maia, to figure out how to biological for three or four Ages.
Oh, is that what happened. Man, what a dick that guy is. Well, she has the functional version, she saw it glow and everything. Come on, folks, let's get a perimeter up so nothing can sneak by. Except you, messenger elfbird, you're going to go make sure the good news gets where it's going.
"Lots of people came up with new names so the Incarnates could say theirs. I can be Batgirl if it makes you happy. Sauron says you can have five years' truce if you come work in Angband, with the hopes that once you see each others' projects you can discover whether there are others on which you have ground in common, and if you name your terms more specifically he'll send proposed drafts for the wording of an oath. He also says that he's enjoyed the last few years tremendously. He also says that, realistically, if you can't think of a way to find common ground in five years, he's at that point going to kill you, albeit regretfully."
"Does he seem to be envisioning that I will be socializing with him much in Angband? That would probably be more of a drain than the suicidal Quendi because he can manage 'interesting conversationalist' and has demonstrated mastery of getting under my skin."
From Nolofinwë:
Might have some suggestions with respect to Ulmo, disinclined to put them to text. I'd move the Men somewhere defensible with the time you have. I do not think it particularly likely that you'll leave an opening in the wording, but I'd expect that to happen even given extraordinary caution perhaps one time in ten, with an Enemy with these resources, and the best of possible failure modes if it fails is that you die. We have the resources to hold him off, now. Not well, not without horrifying casualties, but five years won't make that situation much better and he may be bluffing on how quickly he's able to act again anyway. It's entirely possible that it's still five years before he's recovered and he's 'offering' nothing at all.
From Macalaurë:
The rest of this letter is not written in Quenya but with a cypher we developed for the purpose of communicating with you and then wrote a lot of material in, none of which ever left our hands, so that Allspeak might have enough content to work from. We don't know enough about Allspeak to tell whether this will work; if not, send a messenger with instructions on how it can be done or come yourself.
"Overlapping area-effect songs do stack if you're sufficiently clever with them. Thank you for catching that. We figured out how to stack the cognition one further. After about two months with high-speed cognition it becomes hard to move out of it; there's a few hours' withdrawal in which motor reflexes are retarded and subjects report dizziness, confusion, bad headaches that healing can't fix, and an inability to process sound normally. After about a year these effects persist for a day or so when leaving compressed time. They get worse if you keep doing it. My father weighed the risks and decided to spend most of his time with high-speed cognition. I'm ruling in his name. This is known to only about ten people."
"That'd be lovely, but isn't the priority. We've been communicating asynchronously and the last letter I left him I told him what your messenger said; if he thinks it's worth rejoining the world he'll do so. Distractions cost him weeks, not hours, now, and time is at a very dear premium. I think I need more context on what you're trying to do and why."
"So I've got a fair ways on the Men's settlement but I am sort of expecting that as soon as Thauron doesn't shatter into pieces of ice whenever he tries to adopt physical form," smirk, "he can steamroll right over it. I was thinking to buy time for them, but if Fëanor's running accelerated by that much I might not need it - I might just start running accelerated, although I need occasional breaks to an extent I think he doesn't."
"It's been three years. I don't think we'll have even prototypes for another three, and it could easily still be seven. Five years' reprieve would be very well timed now, but you being unable to pursue your projects is a high cost for it. You'd need to be somewhere very very safe to attempt what he's currently doing. If anything did attack him he'd be helpless. And we know the side effects for beings like us, not like you."
"Then the best choices seem to be to go to Doriath, work on teleportation at as much acceleration as you safely can, stall on the negotiations, and anticipate that Thauron will probably carry out or order a massacre and send you pictures, or evacuate the Men, lose the advantage of space to stall, hope we can drive him off with casualties in the thousands and not the tens of thousands, or find a wording that you think is airtight and waltz into Angband with a really effective way of killing yourself if you're wrong."
"If he lets you stall it's probably because he's not ready, not because he doesn't recognize the tactic. We build our cities into mountainsides, we enchant them from the ground up, and we don't expect to be able to hold out against Thauron without massive losses. The Men are not in a defensible position and their position cannot be made defensible even were were prepared to deploy significant resources there. Which we're also not prepared to do, because it's entirely possible that truce made with you, Thauron comes here."
All of that aside if you're at all inclined towards the five-year plan it'd be idiocy to go ahead with it without running things by him."
"We adopted strict primogeniture because Maitimo's most qualified and I'm probably next most qualified and announcing a different ordering would have been silly and divisive back in Valinor when none of us were realistically ever going to inherit. And endorsing that approach helped Father politically in the obvious ways. I realize that now there's a war on and none of the old considerations matter, but as a consequence of that ancient assumption, we're the only ones who met the relevant people and cultivated the relevant skills. I am sure that any of my brothers would rise to the occasion in desperate need but me wanting to go sing stone into cities isn't desperate need."
"You know, I knew I was going to watch my whole family die. Not thought it, not predicted it, knew it, like you know where your hands are in the dark. We get that clear a glimpse of our fates, sometimes. And here you are. And we don't know anymore. And -
- Thauron sent us messengers, when he had Maitimo. I expect he'll do the same thing to you. Father told us to shoot everyone on sight and not tell him anything they said or even about the fact they were sent, and the Enemy stopped sending them."
"I've been getting little presents. That strategy has - has merit, but I think I'm actually benefiting from something resembling closure about Vár, and there's some orc kids who grew up free, and - I've started telling the orcs to go home instead of killing them, which did slow it way down."
"I have a lot of work to do. That my father is in any sense indisposed is very much a secret. I had to trade with the Nolofinweans for a few tracks of my own heightened-cognition song so I think Findekáno suspects what we're doing, but it's really important that it not reach the Enemy. As things seem to have an alarming tendency to do. May you have the skills to make your fortune fairer."
He stands.
They are fine, some of them are werewolves, some of them are raising small orcs Thauron sent with an entourage of parents specifically to fuck with me. She lands. They are mostly not absorbing their Elvish assistants' prissy opinions about this-and-that. And I am concerned that when Thauron stops disintegrating into ice fragments upon trying to take physical form, that is still fucking hilarious, he's going to massacre them; I am considering strategies.
They have some children, yes, although I managed to give them the sex talk with minimal prissy interference and they're being more careful than they possibly could have figured out on their own to start out. I don't need to buy that much time, though. I'm working very fast on teleportation. 'In a couple centuries' is barely on my radar here.
Sigyn gets way more crap for sleeping around than I do. And it's not just because he does more of it. Asgardian girls are supposed to flirt first and make all other relevant decisions and if their partners are boys they pretty much get various flavors of indirection or the seldom-taken-well outright 'back off' as their steering options. I'm trying to figure out something more egalitarian for the Men and it's working out okay insofar as I can tell this early.
I am saying 'Thauron' because everybody on this stupid cylindrical planet has too many names, that's the one I heard first, I can remember three to recognize them when I hear them but cannot be bothered to do so for remembering in which context I'm supposed to use which reliably over gaps of years, and there is a vague possibility that it would slightly annoy the monster who tortures people specifically to upset me, but I'll switch if you prefer.
My cousins are in Doriath. Headed down to introduce themselves a year ago, came back six months later to say they were staying for the time being.
We actually looked into sending you people, communications, etcetera, but that desert is not safe to cross for those of us who can't turn into birds.
The doors unbar and open outwards. The city is paved; the cobblestones are sigiled. The buildings are three or four stories tall, and their elaborate decorations don't quite obscure that it's very very thick stone, but the streets are wide enough that it doesn't yet feel crowded. Maybe when it's populated.
And then they round a corner and there's what has to be the palace. It's beautiful, sort of, though again constrained by the very thick stone. It's windowless. There's another gate; this one opens for them.
The inside is much nicer; the whole place is wood-paneled, and on the walls where windows should have been there are blocks of translucent stone with some light source behind them so it looks as if sunlight is streaming in. They go down a long, wide, marble staircase to an underground river, tamed and zigzagging across the ground. Maitimo's there. "Hello, Loki," he says.
"Hi. I brought you a draft of the rock song. And I need someplace to put ten thousand Men, some werewolves, and some adopted orc kids before Thauron stops shattering into ice bits" (maybe he'll think that's as funny as she does) "whenever he tries to take physical form. Both I and the Nolofinwëans who have been helping me out are optional."
And his face changes in a way that's hard to describe. "I'm sorry, Loki, I am being rude. I thought you'd come visit eventually and meant to meet you at the gates when you did. We've been moving rather frantically here ever since we got your messenger, but that's no excuse. By all means sit down. I am not particularly surprised that you've acquired werewolves and adopted orc kids, but do tell me the whole story."
"Iiiii'm just going to take that at face value," she says after a moment, and she sits. "Uh, Thauron turned some Men into werewolves while he was there, they seem to be basically infertile shapeshifting Men, I stopped letting them turn volunteers after they all had weird nightmares but that's been the extent of worrisome werewolf-related anything. I've been getting parties of orcs as, let's say presents, one group brought their babies. The babies are half grown now. Got to give a 'you're adopted just like me' talk. - Vár's dead." I might have tactical teleportation before he gets out of Angband and that might let me beat him on my own, but I might not.
Doubt it very much, but the information's sensitive and you're telepathic. "Yeah. I met a let's-say-neutral Maia called - I can't ever remember her name, hang on -" She looks it up in her notes. "Thuringwethil. Turns into a bat. She's the one who told me about the sigil. She works intermittently for Thauron, I caught her reading the party of orcs with the babies from a ways off, it wasn't a very good first impression but then I met a river Maia who told me where she lived and we had a friendlier conversation."
"It's, well, new, since they are... and involves a fair amount of sport wrestling for lower-level disputes... but yeah, I've been very carefully placing myself as protector-and-dispenser-of-supernatural-g
"All right. If you have the means to get them here we can have a quarter of the city for them. I don't know how the needs of Men differ from the needs of Elves, and this city is built to the aesthetic sensibilities of neither, but it will keep them safe. There's as much below ground as above it, and the Dwarves think that earthquakes wouldn't topple these buildings."
"If necessary I can just have a flock of ten thousand birds show up. Possibly bring them in batches. Oh, about the identity verification measure, Maiar can just contest my illusions if I'm not propping them up; I'm happy to make one if you want it for some other reason or if you're going to combine it with Maiar-repellent, but dismissing it won't serve to guarantee I'm me."
"I was actually hoping you'd be willing to illusion the city for the sake of its populace. I asked the Dwarves what was safest and made absolutely no concessions to other concerns in construction. But my people will be very reluctant to live in a place like this, and I don't know about the Men. If you're willing to, I have drawn up how I'd have designed this city had I set myself the task in Valinor. Windows and such delights. And a palace that people find inspiring rather than intimidating."
"I've got the rock song, which you can have as many of as you like. Otherwise nothing new, but I assume I'm still allowed to fund your projects with further sales of the songs thus designated." And I have the 'oomph song', which I am supposed to play pretty close to the chest, but if you can think of a discreet place to sell... and some songs can double if they're synced and insulated right.
Thauron seems to find the Dwarves beneath his attention. Maybe it's just that they have too grounded a sense of what good deals look like. "I assume so, yes. And Tumunzahar trades with other Dwarven kingdoms. It's not urgent. As you can see I'm nearly finished. Do you need to walk through the city to illusion it?"
That and the immunity to mind control. "To illusion it in a way that matches up with the real locations of anything, yes. Oh, do you want a shadowcatcher? I've got a ways around my settlement stained blue so if something invisible that I didn't make invisible walks over it, it casts a shadow on the blue."
I regret asking you not to speak to me unless it was strategically necessary. Clear channels of communication even outside times of dire need are strategically necessary, there's trust and mutual knowledge that cannot be reestablished the minute that they're needed. It was good for my sanity. It probably wasn't worth it.
Five hundred years as measured by Macalaurë's compositions. I don't want to see Findekáno again while I don't believe he's real, even though he wouldn't be able to tell. In five hundred years either this is real or the situation has changed enough there's no strategically interesting insight to get from me.
...one of my more 'desperate emergency' responses to finally getting out of this dimension to go on errands, if the shorter-term plans don't cut it, involves taking a risk which if I'm going to take it anyway I might as well just outright install free will on all the orcs and Elves there are. That wouldn't do it either?
The thing that gave me my sorcery alphabet's part of a set. All the individual things in the set are so stupidly powerful that mostly you can do any given medium-sized thing with whichever you have on hand. And handling them is a risky proposition anyway. It's dangerous to even keep two of them on the same planet for long periods of time, I think this is half of why Asgard has possession of one. But the Tesseract is 'space' and it has a sibling that does 'soul'.
"They're not accustomed to living this densely either, mostly for infrastructure reasons. They know cities are a thing, though, and they're pretty sociable, I think they'll like it when they've had a week or two to get accustomed." Illusions illusions. She consults the blueprints she's carrying now and then for a refresher. "What sorts of local ordinances and whatnot will they have to adapt to?"
Letting them handle everything internally only works if there aren't, for example, children being neglected or starved or people coming to me in desperation because their own people delivered an unjust judgment against them. If things like that happen frequently then we'll have to have them handle disputes under our system, which is very much not equipped for the sport of problems I imagine Men have." He sighs. "Among my people I'd prohibit children."
"They're managing parenting very well considering the whole lot of nothing Eru gave them and how little time I had to teach them. The species would very likely outright die out if they waited for optimal childrearing conditions, as near as I can tell they're precisely Midgardians without the soul animals. Oh - they have their own language, I can phrasebook it for you?"
"Thank you. I'll tell my people to learn it, they should all be able to do so within a few months. And I wouldn't prohibit childrearing on the general principle about wartime, I'd prohibit it because it's going to delay evacuation by probably a factor of ten, give the Enemy leverage, and would keep every Elda in the city awake except I imagine you can soundproof buildings."
"I can put in a couple full days in a row but not routinely; I need other things to do now and then. I can occupy myself but don't mind running other helpful errands as they come up. I don't forget to eat but I do like not having to worry about cooking. And in the wintertime I have developed a fondness for living in an igloo but I will understand if there is no convenient place for me to put one."
Yeah. I'd say 'maybe when the Men are a little more grown up' but I've gone and finagled myself a position of pretty heavy power over all of them and that'd be somewhere between weird and unconscionable even if they were chronologically old enough to be adults for their species. Mostly I just wish Sigyn were here. Sigyn would probably even be better at all the social crap I'm mishandling, he's weird at social skills but differently.
Findekáno likes you. Does he share your judgement about Thauron's partners?
I didn't mention considering propositioning Thuringwethil or why I stopped considering it to Findekáno and if - okay here comes the rant on the distinction between consensual sex and rape. For the purpose I was being flippant about? If somebody has, not even necessarily kidnapped and tortured and mind-scrambled one, if they have just gotten one really drunk - or if they run into one while one is already really drunk - or if they have, I don't know, taken one out on a boat ride and there is substantial implication that one will not be getting back to shore without putting out, something like that, if something is going on besides at least moderately sober and unfettered decisionmaking, then for the purpose I was making my stupid regrettable joke about, doesn't count. Different category of thing. If it would make you feel better for me to find an excuse to discuss this exciting cultural convention with Findekáno at some point in the next few decades or something I will hunt such an excuse down.
This is not exciting local Asgardian cultural color commentary! By civilized galactic standards - like, 'not literally a planet of interplanetary criminal hideouts and stuff' - Asgard's way too permissive, especially on how drunk is too drunk, female perpetrators, and whether it's polite to call the circumstances of my parents' marriage incredibly sketchy.
Vanaheim and Asgard were having some scuffle, I do not know the fine details but I believe it was heavily implied that Odin would leave them alone if she got a pretty husband and some other concessions, and while I may be a kidnapped frost giant I thoroughly doubt Thor is.
Well, Ulmo proved decent enough to let the orc colony go be on an island, so I won't get anywhere speculating based on the model of 'the Valar basically always suck except in comparison to the Enemy'; maybe the counselor-Valar are the less judgmental ones, I'd expect that to be a job requirement.
They've finished their walk through the city; they're back at the palace. It's a very delicately beautiful-looking palace now.
I could make it very like the one in Valinor, or according to my own aesthetic sensibilities which are - at least currently, I'm not sure any of my sensibilities are stable - far more ascetic. Or I could leave it to him to do himself. I'm mildly worried that if he arrives and finds me puttering around a lovely throne room in a lovely palace in a city under my command he'll worry I'm pulling the world's softest coup. Which I am. But it'll be less useful if he worries about it.
They should turn into full-grown birds just because of the design of the spell, I didn't make the swifts vary based on target characteristics at all. It will work on pregnant people, it didn't seem out of the question I'd want to be pregnant one day in the distant future. The babies will probably have a hard time learning to fly, though, I may send the families with infants to the Dwarves, it's an easier land route and the Dwarves have some capacity but not enough for everyone. There aren't that many babies.
I am not really annoyed with him. The nice thing about my family is that none of us have ever given any of the others cause to doubt we're stretching everything we have as far as we can towards our common goals. Macalaurë probably made the calculation I could earn the money for the city anyway, and he was correct, and once I hear whatever he spent the time on I won't be annoyed. But right now it's frustrating not to have the resources I need to realize my objectives.
The Dwarves were doing something different but obviously within the same constraints and I worked for a while on a lecture series about areas for collaboration and managed to hash some out and then teach them. And learn theirs and find some ways it could be used to save time in parts of our engineering process and help develop a system that lets engineers use parts of each where they're most suited to the problem. Within six months I'd convinced people that this was going to bear fruit, and then I had the money to build the city while I watered said fruits. By now the field has probably leapt past me; my only advantage was being the only person present who knew the alternate system. I am not technically inclined. He raises an eyebrow as if realizing that sounds implausible. Not by the standards of the House of Fëanor.
I think I explained computers to you in brief when you were talking about simulation complexity? You can actually get the basic components to work purely mechanically, hang on, let me reverse-engineer some logic gates - She frowns at an illusion until she has an imaginary system of weights and strings and hooks that result in several kinds of logic gate to illustratively tug on. But to get any serious work out of them you have to run them on electricity and make them very very small so you can have zillions of these all working in concert, otherwise it's just a curiosity. You arrange the gates in such a way that they do basic math, and then you convert basic math into simple operations like storing characters or representing a small dot of a large image, then you build in a correspondence between something vaguely resembling language and those operators and you teach it how to move around and manipulate data in that languagey thing. You can get many layers deep depending on the interface clunkiness you can tolerate and the complexity of the task.
Yeah. But lightbulbs are simple - however badly I explained them, however impressed I am that they had them finagled in three days - and really good computers are complicated, good programming languages and good programs are complicated even if you can get the computer off the shelf. I suppose if you can keep them cool by magic and you only need them for R&D and not for any more domestic purposes you could just build them gigantic, that might shave off some dev time.
It was agony at Alqualondë, we'd at that point been working for half of a Valian Year to get everyone moving and when Olwë said 'we won't teach you to build ships, we think that when your hearts have cooled you'll realize this is folly' I wanted to shake him, yes of course it was folly and the only thing that could make it not folly was being fast enough.
I think your entire family is kind of poorly suited to living with other Quendi instead of faster-paced persons. Dwarves are great, but there's Dwarves being great and then there's people who have invented computers being great. I'm looking forward to seeing what you'll do when you can go literally anywhere else.
Father, definitely. Macalaurë, maybe, though if music isn't magic anywhere else I expect he'll stay here. I liked the pace of Valinor fine. Diplomacy done in a matter of weeks is - well, there's a reason Thauron gave you two. It's about winning by information asymmetry instead of by relentlessly and everywhere having reality on your side. I can build a city in three years. I could probably seduce a man in a night. Instead I took two hundred years, and they were very very worth it, and I look forward to the luxury of such time and the space to so approach it.
Tyelcormo will visit every world in your galaxy but tire of all of them eventually. Carnistir will be very excited by the 'intergalactic corporation' proposal and will end up managing it. Pityo I don't think will do much until we've broken Mandos open and gotten Telvo back and then the two of them will go off somewhere no one knows our names and make us new ones.
I suppose once the war is over your father and I can race to see who manages resurrection first. Maybe the soul gem can do that too if I wind up risking it, wouldn't surprise me. I might have to do something dramatic like literally move your entire galaxy to my dimension with the Tesseract so Eru doesn't get in my way, first, I am not well calibrated on infinity gem versus Eru. This would have unfortunate musical side effects, possibly, but...
Macalaurë will probably eventually stop sulking about music not working if that turns out to be the only way to end oaths and save everyone currently dead. Actually, he'll keep sulking forever. But just because it suits him aesthetically. Being robbed of his powers by the dramatic ripping of literally everyone out of the universe would be very satisfactory in some ways. Better so if he got to cinematically sacrifice them, but.
I mean, I'm sort of tempted to let various persons here of my acquaintance do the honors if I go the 'infinity gems' route and not 'sketchy weapons dealer' route, but the only reason I even sort of think this might work is because the Tesseract might like me.
Yeah. It could've killed me when I touched it as a child - this is in fact one of the safer things that can happen if you go fucking with infinity gems - and instead it gave me secret arcane knowledge. They're supposed to be sentient, although I'm not clear on their psychology to the point where I can be sure it "likes me" as opposed to having some other reason.
Well, the first time was awesome. I will probably stand there talking to it and asking it nicely not to kill me, first, and this is the 'horrendous emergency' alternative to the sketchy weapons dealer plan. I might also be able to wield it without touching it, maybe - could embed it in Lævateinn or something, wave it around - they don't have a very well-defined user interface, it'd depend on what mood it was in or something unclear like that. Most of the people who manage to use them to do anything desperately underuse them, if there were a systematic series of attempts to catalog How To Infinity Gem I'd be on more confident footing. When I was reading up on them because I wanted to know what the heck I'd grabbed I found a story about someone who was directly animated as a person by an infinity gem through complicated shenanigans, and he used it to shoot lasers as a mediocre midrange weapon. Like, he had other powers from it, but nothing that compensated for the incredible stupidity of using it as a mediocre laser gun.
Yeah, I'll do it. The Tesseract alone would probably be sufficient to kill anyone who needs killing - maybe not, like, Eru, if he decides to show up and need killing, but I find myself skeptical that Morgoth could come back from no two fragments of him sharing a cubic parsec. It would also be the stone of choice for turning your stupid cylindrical planet into a sphere, although I'd want to establish non-waving-the-thing-around-based communication before I was confident it could do that really really gently.
You're only using a fraction of the surface area for useful planet functions, the edges have that gravity problem I told you about, and it's just incredibly dumb. The more I think about what it would look like from space being all stupid and cylindrical the more annoyed I am.
Love songs communicate love, they don't induce it. But they communicate it very intensely and viscerally, and if someone is not sufficiently familiar - the difference between the Maiar and us is as large as the difference between us and Men, and we're overwhelmed - overwritten, even - should they desire to overwhelm us. I do think Melian wronged Elu, though not intentionally.
As a rule I think they do conventional torture first. I always thought it was considerate of them; if you get sent back and all you can say is 'he gave me hallucinations' no one will understand, but they can look at scars and missing limbs and missing - and then you don't have to explain the really bad parts, you can let the things that weren't really so bad cover for them -
I don't have nearly such confident reads on my family. I don't know whether Frigg lied to me my whole life or genuinely didn't know I'm a frost giant; Thor I'm certain didn't know but I don't know how she'll react on a spectrum from 'now I despise you forever and may try to kill you' versus 'okay but you're culturally Asgardian tell me again about the giant spiders let's go kill some'.
There isn't a trait for 'giftedness', it doesn't make sense that Valinor's greatest linguist and engineer marrying her greatest artist and metalsmith would produce a diplomat, a musician, someone who can talk with animals and has a Maia as a personal companion, an economist, another version of our father, and two of the kind of person who, tossed a world, change it. Maybe we were all driven by fear of inadequacy in our father's eyes, but if so, it drove us much farther than it drives anyone else and it's a common insecurity.
Do your Men have an economy? How do they provide for the unwell and unable to work? They die, don't they? Are any of them doing that already?
One of the werewolves went missing, a while ago, but so far nobody's retirement age or anything, and, uh, I'm around. I made sure the pregnant ones just kind of constantly wear healing songs because that can be a very hazardous condition, sometimes suddenly. We've been lucky that nobody's gotten all the way drowned or bled out before someone could get them stable and fetch me.
If you like, sure. Economy-wise I've been more focused on making sure there's plenty over making sure it's allocated intelligently but I've introduced the concept of money - Dwarves helped, when they came by - and as they've learned more things to do and found and honed talents, they're specializing more and having more use for the idea. For lack of anything convenient to base a physical currency on I have them trading in time - I can do clocks with looped illusions, there's clocks all over the place. This'll break down when the value of a person's time starts to be less similar but it's doing all right for them so far including for a few things that aren't literally spending time on favors for one another.
Okay. Well, I am extremely poorly equipped to manage that for you if it involves taking your various remarks at anything other than face value, so I advise you don't invite me to dinner if you don't want to have dinner with me, but I'm not going to make a fuss over being snubbed.
I am pretty sure they have concluded that Quendi are just weird. There's Dwarves and there's me for countervailing perspectives. As long as no one is going to bother Tep and Riaz if they hold hands walking down the street with their adopted orc, we're fine.
You know, I'm not entirely sure on this, but I think if the Valar were paying really close attention when Eru told them how he sees things the planet would be a sphere. But, you know, if Eru does have an opinion on Tep and Riaz I really don't care, I like them more than I like him.
Tep and Riaz were the only ones who really wanted me to personally officiate their wedding, but there are others who were married by the same people who witness transactions of hours and take notes on official business, and some who are not married but coupled up, yes, these people have no birth control that isn't 'turning into a werewolf for lifelong sterility' and I did not let the Quendi preach at them very much and there are ten thousand of them!
I expect it to be trivial once I can go find some charitably inclined galactic medic and bring them to have a look at the Men with various devices that go beep, but I don't know how to do it and even if I wanted to dig my implant out since I'm sure as hell not using it I doubt it could be usefully reverse-engineered on the time scale the Men need to be developing their foundational norms.
Well, Asgardians are in many respects noninterventionist. They'd think the first bit would be a splendid story but they would have considered it reasonable if I'd just left well enough alone. It's not going to compensate as well as it should, not for everyone. I'm not even sure on Thor, who I'd most like to be sure of. Frigg I am at least sure either knew all along or will know to lay the blame at Odin's feet and not mine. Miscellaneous acquaintances - yes, a lot of them are stupid, or act like it to fit in.
I managed. I had books. Eventually I had Sigyn. I had, in its peculiar way, the Tesseract. I suppose people might be frightened of me but they could also just think I was lying, if it came to that, unless I was holding an infinity stone while telling the story, which seems like a dumb thing to do.
He fought Fandral first, beat her, Thor said she'd fight him if he told us his name, and then it turned out he was a boy; and she was concerned it would hardly be fair, and I said I'd fight him too if that would spread around the embarrassment enough to suit her; she agreed and she beat him and I lost to him.
Hmm. Women are statistically likelier to be healers, less likely to hunt, likelier to do precision craft work like magic items or decorative art. Men usually cook, except lembas, which one of the Valier taught us and which come out better with a woman baking them. None of these tendencies are strong enough that you'd feel surprise at meeting someone in a profession not associated with them. Except that every advance in mathematics has been made by a woman and it is surprising to meet men who are good at math. Men don't tend to get anywhere on math proper but often make contributions in theoretical engineering. I can't imagine anyone saying it'd be unfair to have a contest because of the gender of the participants.
Perhaps. I mean, there are races with enormous mental sexual dimorphism but Quendi do not manifest it in any customary way. More study needed, where by needed I mean pretty thoroughly optional as long as nobody's actually refusing to teach little boys math.
And using romance and desire not for the purpose of building a bond with a spouse so you can build a family together, but just to make someone yours because you want them, is rather obviously wrong, not that I particularly lost sleep over it...
Maitimo shrugs. I think the difference between us is smaller than we think; I am happy to declare the divine plan good and righteous and then not care for being good, while you're inclined to claim 'goodness' for something less arbitrary than the whims of gods and then plant your flag there. We both do as we please, and it mostly pleases us for people to have space for the lives they want, and all that's incomparably overshadowed by killing Moringotho as quickly as possible, so it comes down to an aesthetic difference in most respects.
Maybe the gods really do know more than we and there's a deep sense in which they're right. Maybe they just are so much more than us, experience so much more than us, that our suffering ought to matter to them the way plants matter to us, and their whims are worth more than our whole lives. I'm happy to concede all of that and then defy them anyway.
If you learned that that were true, would you switch sides? Go 'huh, I guess the satisfaction Moringotho gets from his games actually is of more moral weight than any experience any of these beings have'? It was a popular philosophical problem in Valinor; it's an obvious consequence of there being things thousands of times more complex and powerful than others and believing that not all minds have equal moral weight.
I don't know what it would look like to 'learn that it was true'. I draw one threshold and it's low enough on the scale that I got nervous about hunting for dinner when I heard there was someone who could talk to animals around - I could learn that the threshold should be lower, or that I mis-estimated something's place on it, but I hold things above that threshold to a moral standard and the Enemy's forfeited his right to be considered as an end in himself as anything other than a distant last priority. If bigger entities are more valuable it is because they can do more, not because they have magical experiential properties that make everyone else plants by comparison.
I suppose that's one approach. I don't draw a threshold - torturing a bird is wrong but less wrong than torturing a dog and that's less wrong than torturing a man - and it does follow that some things could matter far more than we do. You know, in general doing morality with thresholds gets you all kinds of absurd results - you'd torture an infinite number of puppies who are three months old rather than one who's three months and a day old, if their thought processes happen to change that day in the way that makes them cross your line - I wouldn't expect personhood to be a conveniently discrete category, or a static one.
I'm sure this stupid cylindrical planet has a completely different history of organisms, complete with spontaneously appearing sapients, but in my galaxy, living things - which bear striking resemblances in many cases to local examples - typically arise via a prolonged winnowing and random iteration process generation after generation. They don't keep anything they don't need. Plants couldn't react to pain if they had it, it wouldn't do them any good; they can't flinch or run away or be steered clear of unhealthy habits of self-harm they'd be hard-pressed to take up or trained not to bite their tongues off; so they don't have it.
Not particularly; they also can't necessarily proceed through pain to do something they've been persuaded is important, not having the ability to be persuaded. And your people may have woken up by a lake one day in their modern form, but mine are presumably descended recently enough on the applicable time scale from some sort of bizarre ice creature to not have worked out all the advantageous changes to the machinery. Once intelligence sufficient to build on itself is present it works a lot faster than sitting around waiting for anything with the wrong pain threshold to fail to reproduce.
I was abruptly concerned about whether animals minded being hunted as much as I would mind it, when I was three hundred something. Read a lot of books on animal cognition. Stopped eating a certain imported cephalopod on the rare occasions it came up. Other than that didn't find anything that seemed worth continuing to eat a lot of bread and be teased by my sister over.
I'm not nervous about it, certainly not enough to ask an oath. Also I will not have obsoleted myself as useful to others until I've already handed out free will, so that would be particularly dumb. Does the Silmarils thing mean I cannot even, like, deliver them, if I happen to be near them to scoop them up? I have to tell one of you lot where they are and say come and get 'em?
Father was in a very very dangerous place intellectually and emotionally but he was not that reckless. Technically it's only while someone's withholding it that we're bound to pursue them anyway; if we can retrieve the Silmaril with no running-through they're no longer withholding it and we're no longer obliged to bear them any enmity.
Oh, no, I was speaking loosely. That effect is horrifying indeed and not present here. The wording is that we'll kill them; we could do so while bearing them no ill-will at all, though I'd personally be very annoyed with anyone who stole them and refused to name any price at which they'd give them back, knowing what we're bound to.
Couldn't begin to tell you. This assumes that I either need infinity gems to kill the bastard in the first place, or that orc free will is very urgent even with him dead and no longer available to be served and me having teleportation in shape to put obligatorily warring races on different planets; versus that I take a more leisurely pace to read up on possible free will installation mechanisms and find one less dangerous than the gem or a way to make the gem less dangerous. Former case is more likely me trying to get as much done as possible before I have to drop the thing like a hot potato and commensurately more likely to involve giving free will to people who don't want it just because it's less complicated than taking a poll.
I have really obvious incentives to effectively seize power from my father, could do it, and am doing lots of things that would be useful steps to doing it. I defied him publicly on something very important and haven't apologized, I disobeyed direct orders during combat, he's still moving to my city. Why is he moving to my city? Because I sold him my soul when he needed it, without any expectation that we'd ever fulfill the Oath or that oaths would ever stop functioning as they do.
My father doesn't conclude lightly that something cannot be done no matter how much time. He has concluded it in this case. Maybe now that we have interdimensional transport and perhaps infinity gems, the fate of the Elves to be confined to Arda has other avenues of approach, but if it was going to be just us in this fight, we needed to believe we could reach for the stars if the war ever ended.
The Valar asked my father to give them the Silmarils. Well, the nicer ones asked, some of them turned up their Vala-powers and declared that the Silmarils, being made from materials in their paradise, were rightly their property anyway. A Vala who has decided to use their presence to be convincing is a scary thing. Father - likes to retaliate, when people have that kind of power over him, by setting himself irrevocably on his current path.
The Trees were a one-time thing, the sort of creation that cannot be repeated. There are a lot of those. The Silmarils themselves. They're a sufficiently large part of fate that they get very deeply threaded in it, I've heard said, though that's not a very constructive explanation. Sufficient to say that the Valar could not make the Trees again, deeply desired to, and asked my father to give them the Silmarils to heal the old trees.
Anyway, the Valar regard the Silmarils as their property, but probably are unwilling to damn us forever by taking them; the Enemy could be creative and use the Oath against us but luckily hasn't so far, and I personally benefit tremendously from having my fate irrevocably tied to my family's, at least until that fate catches up with us.
- I don't think this is real. To play him like that when I think he's likelier than not an automata of your making would be genuinely unfair.
Yes. This is sophisticated even for the Enemy, and there are obvious ways he could have gotten more from it and hasn't, and when I've proposed a test you've always risen to it - and there's the evidence of the passage of significant time - eighty feels about right. It's not going to fall very quickly from that, though.
The larger point is that if I invited him here it'd be entirely artifice. I don't like being touched, I expect that knowing what it most likely really is I could barely find it tolerable, I know exactly what would fix things between us but it'd be a very elaborate, painful and unpleasant performance on my part that I spent months recovering from afterwards. That's not very fair to him. He'd never find out, but still.
In one of the 'rescues' Thauron played me through before this one, the first one, when it didn't even occur to me to wonder whether it was real, Findekáno rescued me and the hosts were warring and he wasn't sure if he had me as a hostage or an ex-lover or what else and it had only been a few days, I was still utterly shattered and struggling to put myself together, but I figured it out and started moving the pieces and Findekáno melted into Thauron in my arms.
She says hello to everybody and tells them that this place isn't defensible. In anticipation of Thauron coming out and being a huge jerk, they will be falling back to other locations: families with babies too small to learn to fly can scurry south to the Dwarves who said they could take some people, they should be able to get there in plenty of time and before winter sets in. Everybody else is gonna learn to fly and go in batches to the eight-pointed city, which has graciously set aside space for them under the following generous parameters. The Quendi are going to be really perfectly polite about that, right?
"The help of Fëanáro's firstborn always comes with strings - not just attached, but woven in rather thoroughly," someone says to her once they get a minute alone. "And he's not trustworthy, and he's a Feanorian. And the city itself is a Feanorian city that's arranging for you to owe it a favor, not a place for Men. And Men shouldn't be around Feanorians anyway."
And so on in that vein.
"It's not his fault I didn't beat the asshole into tiny enough ice fragments to give us time and wherewithal to build our own defensible city," Loki says. "Look, does it help that he owes me his not being in Angband to begin with? This is a big favor, but he can only offer anybody favors because I hauled him out of there."
Loki makes sure everyone knows how much birds can "carry". The illusions on the singing objects and the telescopes and the mirrors and the clocks are actually not going to survive the trip - if the physical substrates are hidden away and the illusions stop playing she'll have to replace them anyway - so don't pack those unless you're going to the Dwarves; she'll make replacements there for any such things needed. Messenger bird, go tell the Dwarves how many are coming and when, ask if they'd be willing to provide escort for some feasible consideration. Maybe they want clocks, she hasn't offered them clocks yet. Rest of you Quendi are on osanwë flight-teaching duty. She would like the first batch - call it two hundred, all adults, none of the werewolves, no essential personnel - ready to move quite soon. She wants everybody where they're going before the first snowfall.
Hello, he says to everyone. I am Nelyafinwë Maitimo; I built this city and govern it. It was built for Elves and Men are very different, and it took Elves long ages to come to love living in cities, but I hope you will find happiness here regardless. The northwest corridor of the city is yours to live in; you can make and enforce your own laws, if they are just ones, and if problems arise we will navigate them later. I understand it there are many more of you coming, so you can come in and start looking at how to arrange things for the rest of them.
While she's ushering people in, Is knowing everybody's name your thing? Should I introduce people?
That was creepy. I know you only have a phrasebook of the language and you can lean on the telepathy if you have to get past the language barrier but I'm right here now, how was that necessary? Also I could have sworn my helpers told me they'd explained how to sort out private thoughts -
Ugh. Fine. Creepy but I'll get off your case. So Loki identifies for him the married and the close-enough and the - well, not technically siblings, but there's that cluster she thinks of that way they're so close - and she didn't put any kids in this batch but that one thinks she's pregnant. No really elaborate dynasties here, there has hardly been time. She attached a census to a few paper scraps for him. It has pictures and occupations and marriages and (if applicable) children and werewolf status.
They weren't happy that I was accepting such a large favor from you even though they didn't have any better ideas, although they seemed marginally happier about it when I reminded them that I'm why you can offer anybody favors at the moment. I can try to sound them out on the committee.
Of these the one best equipped to take point on internal-to-Men matters is Julit but you'll probably intimidate Oen or Pral less. Their singing rocks etcetera didn't make the trip; are there random things around for me to enchant or should I just stick a song to the pregnant one's shoe and bring a bag of rocks next batch?
I'll have someone bring us a couple thousand matching stones right away; I have all sorts of things like that around for decorating. I'm not intimidating when I'm not trying to be. I made a calculated decision that I'd rather have the Nolofinweans go home muttering 'how arrogant he is, what a blatant play for Feanorian pride' than 'he seemed apologetic what's his real scheme'.
Fair enough, but Julit has already seen you, being all intimidating, and she's generally nervous about new people - which looked like she was just generally timid until she was about six months old and knew everybody in passing, and then it looked like she'd outgrown it, and then Dwarves came by. I'm sure you can charm her if you try, of course.
By a week in, she's got the settlement about half evacuated. She fits the kids who aren't small enough to be going by land route into the second and fourth batches - she doesn't want to leave them till it's more obvious or cluster them in some obvious pattern. Werewolves are last; she tells them why. Land route travelers have an escort secured; Tumunzahar remembers her generous infodump from a while ago (and her transmission of a message across the continent).
She sounds the Quendi helpers out on the committee Maitimo mentioned.
There are nonetheless a few committee volunteers in the end.
And she gets back from one batch to find Thuringwethil pacing irritably outside her settlement. "Your guards shot me," she says, "which would have been unwise if I were in fact here to cause trouble."
It's the same as the price on the Elf-king's head, if that entertains you."
"The Elf-king who actually makes them nervous, not Melian's toy one. There are a fair number of Maiar who are, if not in the Enemy's service, at least not vocally against the concept, and I assume he's talking to us. The orcs have been told, but not ordered out here, I assume because even if there were a hundred thousand you'd just kill them all. Though possibly he's ordering them out here while you're on one of the trips."
And Loki rounds up literally everybody and sleepskips them all and turns half of them into birds and puts all the Elves on osanwë-teaching-to-fly duty and all the nonbird Men on bird flinging duty.
"Yes, yes, I know, swifts have a very undignified learning curve. I didn't pick the form for this purpose in particular." As soon as anyone gets the hang of flying she swaps them for another person; hopefully they can do this on rotation and not leave too many behind if they have to flee suddenly.
Tedious bird flinging and shapechanging ensue. Thank goodness the usually-wolf werewolves are already out.
Once everybody has finally learned to fly and has picked up their luggage and is an invisible airborne bird - she's been encouraging everyone to be continually packed to go on minutes' notice if that - Okay, let's get out of here.
Double zoom go.
And when they approach the city, Maitimo, there's a price on my head to match your dad's, I brought everybody else in one big batch and got Thuringwethil to play escort Maiar-sensor. She doesn't have to come in but she can help me de-bird people at the gate if that's tolerable.
Maitimo meets them all at the gates to deliver the same speech, with the addition that they are probably tired and hungry by now and there's been food brought to their quarter of the city for an arrival feast, and that they'll all be shown to the city's ampitheatre tomorrow for announcements and a welcome concert.
Are you assigning apartments based on whatever the Men consider a family structure? one of the Elves asks. A man and two women together, two men raising a child -
The customs of Men are utterly uninteresting to me, he says, I'm assigning apartments to get all of the Men into apartments, and hardly condone by housing them whatever they get up to there. That's your concern.
And Men are assigned apartments.
Next one is in three weeks and yes. Do you want me to demand my family relocate early? They're going to do it all at once, rather than split their resources between defending two places, and this city might stand as it is but I'd be much happier with a hundred thousand people who are under my command rather than a thousand being paid to do carpentry.
I don't think Nolofinwe will throw them away. If I were him I think I might, at least the content that's not literally surveys of the land and dry descriptions of Angband's defenses. I can run circles around him and he knows it, so why give me an opening? Most people should probably throw away letters from Thauron.
And then he'll unforgive me again when I whisk his son off to a vacation planet, which is why I haven't addressed any letters to Findekáno.
She rummages through her transcripts, is about to fling one to him when a small orc runs out and hugs her leg, hugs the small orc back and sends him back in to his moms, and then separates out and offers him the page. Strategic value, trust my father with anything you can trust me with, etcetera.
"Loki," he says when she arrives, and stands, and goes over to meet her. "You must be exhausted even if magic is no more tiring than counting."
"You seem to have gotten compensating advantages in strength," he says, "from watching the fight with Thauron. That was extraordinary." He sits back down. "I trust the rest of you, but I can't trust you'll set aside a grievance that I wouldn't have forgiven in your place. If my family relocates here, it'll be so we can hold these walls, and while I am quite sure that we will hesitate to admit as much, I think everyone would be honored to reearn your trust by risking our lives in your defense. What problems do you anticipate if our host arrives here in a few weeks?"
There were a few minor disputes among the Men last time you were out - I left notes in your room but I will have them delivered to your new one, wherever it is - the sort of problems you'd expect from people not accustomed to such close quarters, complaints about leaving uneaten food in hallways, things like that. I haven't learned all the names and I meant to do that by the time they were all here. I should send a courier to Macalaurë now rather than in three weeks, in case the Enemy is prompted by our haste to his own.
I'll address the disputes if they haven't been sorted out already. They will not expect you to know all their names; I have a census in my notes because I can't reliably remember all their names. I am not going to write a letter tonight but I think your family is less offended by irregular communication than your cousins, or at least Findekáno.
I'd give out, say, the healing spells without hesitation - but I am pretty sure that if I spend long enough picking at it I can make a spell to do absolutely anything and I can't be sure that I wouldn't pass that along too, if someone else had the alphabet and remembered and understood it the way I do.
Dead Men aren't in Mandos. We need to get them back. Dead Elves and orcs are in Mandos and he will object to a rescue. The orcs will still be sworn to enmity with us. Eru might have other pet projects like this, might have thousands of them. My father would have a decided tendency to put all of those on his personal priorities list and not even consider whether any of them could be done in parallel, but some of them we only get one shot at and I've always thought of that tendency as one of his profound weaknesses.
I would sooner die. Well. I'd sooner die than do lots of things, that perhaps carries too little force. I can barely conceive of circumstances under which I would do it, and it would require tremendous discipline to do even then. But if you think our words can only be used to build nondistrust you are underestimating it.
The Bifrost managed to land me here without me knowing anything about how to teleport at all and I am confident that sufficient inter-realm transit would fix the problem by itself, it's just that at the moment inter-realm transit comes solely in the form of me. That's not a limitation in principle, just a limitation in happenstance.
I'm not saying you should stop or even that it's not worth the conversation - although as aforementioned if you want me to go away, I will do so - just that I'm beginning to see why you might suspect someone who didn't think very highly of your goals would not read your letters.
In the morning there is the promised talk in an elaborate amphitheater with acoustics so exquisite that Maitimo need barely raise his voice to be heard, even to the ears of Men, in its back rows as clearly as if he were standing beside them. They go over evacuation drills. The city's laws, as far as Maitimo are concerned, are 'don't make it harder for us to run a war'. He does tell Men who to escalate complaints to. He smiles frequently. He laughs frequently. He is intimidating only in the sense that confidence is.
I wrote home. They should arrive in a few weeks if they decide to come at all.
And she works. She's so close to tactical teleportation - so close so close, she can borrow the concept of "position" from the bird spell and repurpose half of "location" from the illusion and come on come on -
"If the orcs' oaths are still a problem when I have interdimensional teleportation I may go fetch an object that can solve it. The object is extremely dangerous, and it's possible I'll be able to do one conceptually simple thing with it but not hold onto it long enough to be selective about who actually wants free will and who doesn't."
Doesn't this city have a name yet?
"Yeah, didn't think so. On the one hand that's very frustrating, on the other hand it's sort of nice to have a standing invitation to go work there if being somewhere that doesn't have an absolutely defensively committed Maia minding it becomes - indefensible."
I don't know either. I just take everything he says about whether he'd rather have me around or not at face value, I can't keep up with anything else. Although whenever we do start talking we tend to continue doing it for a long time considering how often he disclaims that he can't trust me and therefore would rather not pretend to enjoy my company and how willing I am to be dismissed if he'd rather be rid of me.
I told you about Vár. There were others. They're dead. You'll see a handful of orc children adopted by the Men and their birth parents are all dead. The important thing is not that I log a certain number of hours of guilt, the important thing is that I fix it.
Macalaurë shows Findekáno in and looks between them with profound uncertainty and apparently decides they aren't going to kill each other and everything else is not within the scope of his duties and leaves. He closes the door behind him.
"I'm so sorry," Maitimo says, as soon as the door closes. Perhaps he should have said it sooner, so it did not seem that he was reluctant to express guilty publicly, but he was transfixed by Findekáno, Findekáno, standing right here with his hair braided and his freckles all in place and his expression angry and the Enemy did a very very good job this time.
"For what, exactly."
"For making promises I couldn't keep. For earning trust I was going to end up not deserving. For everyone you lost and everything you suffered because of us, for not yet having done more to set it right - Findekáno, I've had this conversation five times, forgive me if I treat some of its features as rather persistent -"
"What do you mean?"
"I mean that I have seen you for the first time after escaping Angband, and had a conversation with you, five times that I remember."
"So you want to skip the part where you apologize?"
"I don't want to skip it. I will happily spend the rest of the year doing it. I want you to have some context for it, because I couldimitate the feelings I had while doing it the first time but I am trying as much as I can not to lie to you -"
"That's a change."
"Yes, it is. I don't think you're really my cousin and I find it terrifying to be alone with you and I don't actually remember much of my life and particularly little of the time we spent together and is that enough truth? Can I get back to apologizing?"
He opens the door. "Why didn't you mention that? We can do this in public - you could have told me to leave -"
"You might be real," Maitimo says, "and I really don't think we can do this in public."
And then, is that what I wanted the last five times?
Yes. Maitimo says.
Well. I, it happens, am actually your cousin and not the Enemy and am pretty angry with you and gather you have some issues and also I don't really believe you that you're done telling me lies. And I am perfectly happy to conduct this entire conversation in public somewhere and even if we conduct it here have no intention of being seduced.
Maitimo stands very still. It's convenient, how now when surprised he mostly forgets how to move; it lets him avoid betraying anything else. Findekáno stands at the open door staring at him. We can always reschedule?
I'm fine, Maitimo says. Now is fine.
He decides not to point out that it hasn't even been five minutes since Maitimo claimed he was going to try not lying, and 'I'm fine' is - Great. Okay. Are you doing this because it's really inconvenient for the Nolofinwean host to hate and mistrust you, or because you feel a debt to me personally, or because there's some kind of plan that requires me to jump when you tell me to -
All of those.
Okay.
And I love you and I let you down and I hate the thought that you hate me for it.
I don't. I tried, for a while. It wasn't really worth it.
Maitimo still isn't moving.
I don't actually believe you that you love me, Findekáno says. Or maybe better to say that I believe you'd say it anyway.
I don't think I would. Not unless it were more necessary than it seems to be in the current situation.
Ah. So. The less useful I am to you the more I can trust you.
I never really considered what dreadful incentives my management style created.
I don't expect that if I stopped being angry with you that would change any of our current strategic position. Everyone's getting along tidily. Is that - new? In the conversations you remember?
It wasn't typical of them. It is also not very realistic, though. He still hasn't moved.
Maitimo, did you want to go somewhere public or not?
Not, I think. My father would disapprove if I threw myself at your feet and begged your pardon and I'd like to feel like if I'm deciding whether to do that you're the only audience I have to consider.
Should I close the door?
As you like.
If the Enemy hadn't gotten to it first I would probably slap you.
You can do that if you'd like. I think you'll have a hard time anticipating which actions of yours hurt me and how much. There are lots of perfectly innocuous comments and gestures that will scare or hurt me a lot more than that, and yet I prefer talking to you to not talking to you...
It's more that having you actually in danger made me realize that I was actually repulsed by the idea of hurting people in vengeance. But okay. Are there conversation topics you want to warn me about?
No.
I barely remember most of the interactions I had with you. I don't think I was in the habit of lying. I don't know. You could tell me things that happened and I could tell you what I think I might have been thinking.
Oh. If you barely remember most of the interactions you had with me, what do you mean when you say you love me?
There's a difference between memories of events and memories of the way the world is. Remembering a fact and remembering how you learned it. I don't remember how I learned I love you. I'm sorry. I do want it back.
Your father has necklaces for memory.
I don't believe that any of this is real, and I don't want to install fake ones.
Right.
I don't remember ever lying to you.
Do you remember burning the ships?
I remember being present for it.
But not doing it?
I do not remember doing it.
Why would the Enemy take that from you?
Perhaps he was in a merciful mood.
Do you want to know the names of everyone who died on the Ice?
Yes, Maitimo says. Yes. I do.
Yes.
If you can do that, then it would be possible to forgive you.
I personally probably cannot do that.
Your father.
He might be able to contribute. Would that make you forgive me?
Yes, I think so. I'm upset that people died and suffered much more than I'm upset that you left us to die and suffer. If somehow we'd crossed the ice without casualties I would find it easier to forgive you. It'd be a personal grievance, instead of a wrong that's really beyond my capacity to forgive because it wasn't primarily against me. You leaving me to die is for me to decide how I feel about. You leaving everyone to die isn't.
I think you can still decide how you feel about it. You perhaps can't absolve me, but I was not looking for absolution.
And how the hell would anyone absolve you of a crime you don't remember?
I'm not actually sure that has anything to do with it. Whatever steps would make it right haven't changed. People might hold me less culpable if they knew more about what I've experienced, but only in the sense that they'd think of me as less of a person.
Would they? Would I?
Yes.
I really doubt that.
Because you don't have a good enough imagination. I didn't either.
Do you want to talk about it?
I don't mind.
Do you want to talk about it because i"ll pity you and be more forgiving and this will help your goals, or because it'll help you to talk about it, or because you think I'd benefit from knowing -
You would not benefit from knowing.
Okay.
We had sort of a fight - well, the whole thing was sort of a fight - but most of it was about politics and this was personal - and I told him that I was sure what he'd say to his father, if his father found out, wasn't 'I love him' but 'yes, I thought it was useful to have Nolofinwë's son following me around like a besotted puppy dog, and I found it amusing to take him, and I didn't really think you'd care' and he admitted that was more or less exactly what he'd say, but that I should say the exact corresponding thing if it came up with anyone I needed, and he said that once the war was over he planned to tell his father that he was going somewhere he could get married and then finding us a planet and then I was a little speechless.
Of course I like the idea, it's just that he's a lot crazier than he pretends most of the time and says things mostly for reasons that have nothing to do with wanting them and does things mostly for reasons that have nothing to do with wanting them and we'd been having an argument over the fact that his fallback if we're discovered is to declare quite proudly that he's using me and he gives me headaches and I really need the Enemy dead before I even think about anything else.
She flies out. I'm sure they developed it way past the point I explained it and past the point where I understand electricity, but I could make vague guesses. Here, have a letter. Nolofinwë is not watching; when he's got it in his hand the other seven pages appear.
Eennh - if I flung myself at it like I was working on tactical personal - I could maybe hack together allowing living 'cargo' and then I could carry a small number of birds in two, three years - substantial numbers of person shaped people five to eight - and I would normally not work that fast, although I can sustain it if I ought to.
I walked in and said I had healing powers and he was dying and he wanted to hear me speak Asgardian with the Allspeak off and he was just - playing, with the sentences, rearranging the words - it was cute. On a personal level he hasn't improved on that, but it was a high starting point.
The manufactured reason for the party is the trade deal he's been working on. No one seems to think that a party for a trade deal is extremely unreasonable. There is minimal alcohol -it's your party and lots of songs by Macalaurë none of which are the 'fun' ones with mental effects - it's your party - and lots of dancing. Maitimo begs out the dancing.
"Please wait until some opportune time. There is a system set up to rescue people who investigate the irregular gravity in a hazardous fashion and activating it seems like a bad time all around. Also during the conversation when I learned this it did not occur to me to ask whether the rest of the planet has atmosphere."
"Is it? I was wondering how the Halls Maitimo'd pulled all this off in three years. Well, there's my answer. He cheated. I should go scowl at him or something but I promised him I'd leave tonight with a boy so anyone wondering where a bunch of Feanorian girls got the idea they should hit on you would have an obvious candidate."
"I don't have a head for disentangling layers of pretense so I just take him at face value, which leaves him in fairly basic control of the interaction without having to manage my reaction more than one deep, but I can see why you wouldn't want to do that."
- countered with rock hardening and tides washing it and birds landing on it, flowers sprouting through the rock -
- countered with darkness, that countered with an overpowering impression of light -
The sky goes darker and lighter, the walls shake more or hold steady.
Here, Huan says.