It was cold. It was so cold, and Imliss was gone, and she was so tired...
She closed her eyes.
She hadn't been expecting to open them again.
Something weird is up with these other humans and it seems to be different from the weird thing that's up with them, if this isn't an afterlife, but there doesn't seem to be a practical way to deal with it. Aside from going on being a good influence, she supposes.
She doesn't really feel like trying to explain the complexity that is Her Life So Far so she's going to pretend to invent the bow and arrow instead of admitting she knows how to make them already.
...Or she would if she had anything to fletch arrows with or make a bowstring out of. Hmm, snares have the same problem as bowstrings...what kind of animals are present?
Wolves don't generally attack humans on purpose! ...This fact was learned in a world where humans had been around for long enough that it's entirely possible it only applies when the wolves have any experience with humans. Is there anywhere more defensible than 'literally random patches of ground' for humans to sleep.
So are wolves not native to here, or was that the wrong timbre for natural wolf voices, or has the Enemy done things with wolves before to make this recognizeable...? I didn't pick up the private thoughts distinction out of the aether, I'm way more complicated than I look.
She explains that there are people in this forest who are a different kind of people and can talk mind-to-mind and explained things to her and the bad news is that they don't want their kind of person in the forest and the worse news is that there is apparently a really, really nasty demon in the area.
No survivors. They can't afford for their ice-generating abilities to be discovered.
Their reflexes aren't perfect. They manage to not die, but both have some truly nasty wounds when they're done.
They grab the supplies, burn the immediate area to the ground as cover for how the wolves died, and flee as quickly as their injuries allow.
Their injuries are pretty bad.
They find somewhere they're unlikely to be found by anyone not actively looking for them and half-collapse. Idaia has a stomach wound. Imliss is kind of panicking.
She hadn't thought she even could fall asleep that night, let alone doing it by accident while trying to keep watch. And yet.
Well then. This is--a lot, but they're not dead. They can deal with the implications later.
They return to human form, fashion makeshift saddlebags for their supplies, and trek to the edge of the desert.
They wait until nightfall.
They shift.
Normal wolves and horses both run faster and longer than humans can. As wolves the size of horses, they eat up the ground. They rest during the day while it's hot, one keeping watch and maintaining dreamshaped shade, and they find cacti and cut them open for the water.
That night Idaia curls up, in complete material security and on an actual fucking mattress for the first time in a very long time indeed and lets herself dwell.
She misses her husband very badly. And--she doesn't know that it was only a short time between dying and waking up, who knows how long it was--
What if he died--
What if he didn't and he's conscious and--maybe if she just reaches out--
I was so cold--you can't understand it, I don't want you to, you can't without having been there--and then I had no idea where I was or what was going on and then there was a servant of the Enemy and then--the wolves--one of them got me in the abdomen, I probably would have died again if we hadn't turned and it hurt so much and the last time I saw you you were lying insensate with a dent in your skull and there was so much blood--
And where did they get these prophecies? The Enemy tried selectively disseminating prophecies about Men in Valinor, before he started overtly fucking shit up. By the way, they've been to Valinor, long story, they're originally from another world, this place is ruled by Elwe, right, Finwe remembered him fondly until the day he died.
So then finally they make it through the pass in the mountains and can see the lake shining under the sun below, with the two camps of Elves on either side.
She doesn't have Elf-sensitive vision, she can't make out anyone in particular, but she can send her mental image and ask, where are you?
She's exhausted. The adrenaline and triumph that had carried her the last of the way hadn't drained right out of her when she had been informed that they didn't have a good enough way to tell she wasn't a trap, so she couldn't actually come home yet. She's tired emotionally and physically and lifting so much as her arm feels like too much work.
And then he steps out and she's on her feet and her arms are around him as fast as her abused muscles can make it.
"I mean, I'm not saying that means it's safe. I don't think we came to his attention--or more relevantly his probably-a-Maia servant's--so I don't think we're a deliberate trap for you but that doesn't mean it's impossible that werewolves have a hijacking function just in case and they wouldn't gleefully use it if they found out later that there were wolves in the Feanorian camp."
When you tried to convince me that the problem with the Ice was that the Nolofinweans crossed instead of that the boats burned I felt like you only cared that I had been hurt if it was convenient for you. I know it's untrue and unfair but that's how it felt. And I--don't want to argue with you about the Ice, ever, because you can make all the logical, reasonable arguments you want and I can't, not because I'm so in the wrong that there don't exist any but because I can't think of them over the memory of the roaring wind and screams of the dying and the all-encompassing bone-deep cold. So not only is it unpleasant in and of itself it feels like you're taking advantage of my impaired ability to formulate arguments.
I'm not trying to? I'm sorry. I love you. I wasn't--trying to hurt you with that, just--do you need to argue with us about this? We're here, aren't we? We're here because we want to be because we love you, disagreeing about the boats doesn't change that, I'm not saying you have to agree that we're right just because we're hurting...
It's been bothering me. I said to drop it at the time and you did but I wasn't sure you wouldn't bring it up again or that you got why that was a bad idea, and I just wanted to--pre-empt that--I'm not trying to make who's hurting more into a contest but I am in fact hurting a not insignificant fraction of the time and I don't want pain to be something we have to hide from each other either...
She sighs. I'm sorry. I don't--I don't know how to handle this--I just--I don't--I don't want a rule, just--I don't even know. I'm sorry.
I just don't want to hurt any more than I have to. I--I can't not bring it up, I have nightmares about it...
I don't think very clearly about this subject I don't want you hurt too I'm sorry--
If she just wants to sit here for a little while and be miserable can he just--hold her--and not try to tell her that things are okay or she shouldn't be sad, not try to comfort her or otherwise interfere with her sad except arguably just by holding her, please, she needs to decompress and part of that means not having to be okay right now.
If you want to look on the bright side the stamina boost to dreamshaping might be legitimately vital to winning the war considering that our best chances were always "foreign magic" and "your dad invents something," and, um. One of those options is no longer on the table.
And she resumes bipedality and throws her arms around his neck and kisses him.
(Turning into a wolf does not preserve one's wardrobe. She's gotten into the habit of covering herself in dream-worked clothing as soon as she stops being a wolf. This time she doesn't bother.)
And I don't think the other humans could dreamwork--not a single one had any dream stuff happen while we were there, that's statistically extraordinary for a group of people that size over that period of time when not a one is a trained dreamshaper, not if they have the ability, and none of the prophecies had any dreamwork in them--and no one in my original world could do music magic or create magic items the way you do it or the way the Dwarves do it or any way at all...
Maybe Orome told the others about me and they checked out my original world and saw that it was populated by humans and lit like so and decided that since this way of lighting things worked for humans they should copy it? ...Melkor's prophecies had a sun in them, but he only gave them after we'd been in Valinor a little while...