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Annie at the end of all things
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On September 13, 1987, a nice Norwegian-American couple have a home birth and welcome a screaming baby and call her Annabel. They have a few days at home, then try putting her in the car to see if that will get her to stop crying; nothing else will. They get on the highway. A truck capsizes directly onto the car. The parents are killed instantly; anyone looking at the scene would expect that the baby would be dead too.

The baby is covered in blood and her car seat is destroyed and her onesie is a writeoff but she is, when found by the rescue workers, miraculously unharmed. Not a scratch. There is minor press coverage.

There is a lot of demand among would-be adoptive parents for healthy white babies.

Annabel is not healthy. She's blind, turns out, usual culprit would be neonatal conjunctivitis but her eyes are uninfected; she's always, always crying, and it escalates to bloodcurdling screams at intervals no one can figure out; she hates being held and hates being swaddled and hates lullabies and whimpers even in her sleep. She spends a couple years institutionalized, in and out of bewildered hospitals. Talks startlingly early. She is too hot, she says; and indeed she calms down a lot if she buries herself in ice packs - she says singing hurts her; they toy with an autism diagnosis, at any rate mostly remember not to turn the radio on -

- she's missing somebody, she says, and they tell her that her parents are gone but they will try to find her new ones.

She says new ones won't fix it. She has no reason to doubt the supposed identity of the missing someone, but she knows new ones won't fix it.

They get her new ones anyway. With her mystery conditions manageable she is still not a healthy white baby, but she's a cute toddler, and some people enjoy collecting disadvantaged children. The George family takes her in as a foster kid. She's one of eleven, some internationally adopted, some rescued into the Georges' all-welcoming arms from abusers, a couple children of drug addicts, one brittle bone disorder case. Mrs. George can't have kids of her own and interpreted this as a command from the Lord to shelter those who need her. The Lord did not specify very much about the quality of the shelter.

The George family feels called to spread the word of the Lord in India. Off they go. Little blind fever-warm Annie objects to the weather; Mr. and Mrs. George do not have any interest in addressing this concern and when it is brought to their attention this is explained to her with a level of violence precisely described in one of Mr. George's favorite parenting books. She does not complain again about the weather. She learns the local languages so fast and without anyone knowing quite who's teaching her; she winds up translating a lot in the market. Her vocabulary mysteriously fails her when the Georges want to express anything complicated like the wisdom of God but she's only a little girl, so.

 

When Annie is six she tells the Georges that the Lord has given her a miraculous gift. They tell her that this is not how miracles work and spank her. She repeats herself: a miraculous gift from the Lord, honest, watch.

And she lays hands on the foster sibling with the brittle bones, who has not been doing particularly well in rural India, and -

 

The Georges build their ministry around their blind miracle healer. Annie mostly leaves the preaching to them; she just places her hand on whoever comes to her, holds it there, lets them go when they're cured of what ails them. She does express one or two theological opinions (she is negative on making joyful noise; disinclined to claim to be the Second Coming) but that's all.

Annie suggests that maybe the right place for her miraculous gift would be in some sort of large city with real hospitals. The Georges have fallen in love with the little village they first settled in, though, and Annie is kept there, healing villagers (they do keep getting cholera) and her foster siblings.

When Annie turns eighteen she turns out to have saved up kind of a lot of money in secret; a villager's been playing go-between for her and some translation work, bringing her printouts and then going and typing things up, and gets her her passport renewed at the consulate - she doesn't explain this to the Georges. She doesn't explain anything to the Georges. She has a plane ticket for her and her brittle-boned sister and the Georges find out when they see the note. (It has somehow never come to their attention that their blind fosterling could read anyway. They certainly never taught her. Fancy that.) The note doesn't say where they're going; it merely indicates that they have not been kidnapped.

 

They go to join the Peace Corps.

Annie figured out what the other half of being too warm all the time is. She's never had a mosquito bite in her life.

They go through Peace Corps volunteer training and fly to Sierra Leone. Annie has some empirical differences with the Corps and strikes off on her own, swinging by to fix up her sister's accumulated injuries every now and then. An Ebola outbreak turns out to have been a false alarm. The rates of yellow fever and malaria nosedive. Everyone who can afford it has a freezer or an air conditioner.

She's still missing someone and she remembers who it is now but this is not the place to find her.

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She spends seven hundred years putting her head back together and then the next thirty working for the CIA. She is quiet and diligent and deeply unhappy, enough so that it shows even though she is a disconcertingly gifted liar. She's missing someone and she never forgot who it is and when Africa turns out on the brink of curing several major diseases at once she does not hope - she doesn't do emotions, they're exhausting - but she does run a search of public records. 

 

And finds something, the minor news stories and the adoption records and the miracle healing -

 

Two days later someone shows up on the doorstep of the Georges. 

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One of the kids answers the door and is surprised to see a white person and blinks at her.

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"I'm here for Annabel where is she."

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"...She ran away with Marisol like a year ago."

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"Are you still in touch with either of them?"

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"Marisol sent a postcard to Lakeisha once..."

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"I need to talk with her right away please."

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"To Lakeisha?"

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"Yes."

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"I think she's at the church." He provides directions to the church.

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She goes to the church. She asks for Lakeisha.

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Lakeisha is busy.

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This is really urgent and have I mentioned I have a smile like I murdered several hundred thousand people.

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Lakeisha can be fetched.

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Oh, good.

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"... can I help you?" says someone who is apparently Lakeisha.

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"I urgently need to know where Annabel and Marisol are, do you have any ideas?"

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"I don't know about Annie. Marisol joined the Peace Corps."

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"Thank you."

...eighteen hours later Marisol's door is knocked on.

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Marisol answers the door and says something in Temne.

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"Do you speak English?" She wants to just read her mind to save time but that'd hurt Annie -

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"Yes."

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"I urgently need to know where Annabel is, do you have any idea."

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"She doesn't tell me where she goes. - what's going on, is she in trouble?"

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"Did she ever tell you she was missing someone?"

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"...sounds sort of familiar..."

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"I know some things about the source of her abilities and I am very sure she'll be happier the quicker I can track her down."

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"I don't know where she is. She just Jeeps off to random places. She should be back sometime this week to see me."

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"Sometime this week works. She doesn't have a phone, a way to contact her if you need her -"

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"Her phone got busted a while back, she doesn't have a new one yet."

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"Okay. I'll stay here."

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"Um, I don't actually have a guest room."

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"I don't need one I just need her to come within three hundred miles."

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"Three hundred? She's probably that close now - what does being three hundred miles away do -"

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Annabelline?

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what - Rirosseth? Are you here, how are you here - is it really you, how -

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The question is how you're here how are you alive you stopped sending messages and I thought - I thought you'd died -

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I did but I got - born - I thought it was the worldhopping artifact triggering again with a reincarnation thing, was it not that, how are you here?

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It might have been that, I have no idea how we'd check, when Mandos reembodied us no one wanted us back in Valinor so we came here instead -

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Where are you, how do I find you -

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At Marisol's, might be faster for me to come find you where are you -

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Bauya, do you know where that is -

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No but I can ask someone who does - I worked for the human government in the United States -

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I could be at Marisol's in four, five hours?

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Okay then I'll wait -

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I'll get there as fast as I can. Is this still Arda - it looks so much like my original world -

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Lírnith can explain what happened - it's sort of still Arda, there are Elves who didn't move at all and are now in Vienna or something, so in that sense -

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Are you okay, have you been okay -

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When did Mandos let you out, what happened?

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It's been thirty thousand years.

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I'll be there soon, I love you.

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I love you.

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Did Mandos keep you for thirty thousand years, when did you get out - how did you find me -

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Mandos kept me for thirty thousand years but honestly mostly because I wasn't exactly trying - got out seven hundred years ago - was looking into why disease rates were falling -

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I figured out my mystery benefit. Disintegrates bugs on contact.

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I guess that has applications. ...congratulations-

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I thought that the worldhopping thing reincarnated me in a new world when I died, I thought if I just kept going long enough eventually I might land in Arda again and I could find you, I didn't know it had already been so long -

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That makes more sense then what actually happened - I could be off by a thousand in either direction, wasn't keeping track -

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You said we, who else came -?

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My whole family, we're all here except Celebrendes and my father -

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Where are they now?

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Scattered? My youngest sisters can't go out in public much, they're with my mother in our castle in Canada, Lírnith is most of the pop stars of the last century - kills them off at the height of their fame - but you wouldn't listen to music of course, Curufin's a physics professor in Saskatchewan, Tyelcormë wanders, Morya's working on Wall Street -

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Where are Istarno and Celebrendes, I don't know where all the - continents went.

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Eru ate them. We'd given too many humans immortality - didn't get it to you in time, I guess - but it was very disruptive in Middle-earth and then Thauron got involved and she talked this modern industrial human kingdom into invading Valinor and Eru swallowed up everything -

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Then where are the people?

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Most Elves are still in Valinor, it's hidden. Dwarves're - we don't know.

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I hope the Dwarves are okay.

- Istarno and Celebrendes didn't want to come with you or didn't get the chance or -?

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I have no idea whether they were offered the chance. I am guessing not just because I expect they'd have taken it.

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Fucking Valar - I pretended for four hundred years and they bought it and they still -

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Yeah. I'm so sorry -

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Not your fault, not at all -

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It was, though, I didn't think, I could have stayed alive for you -

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They shouldn't have attacked you, you weren't hurting anyone -

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At the moment.

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They still didn't have to aim for the head, I could've saved you if -

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It happened, it's over, I'm so so sorry.

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I'll be there soon. You live in America?

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Did, I'm quitting my job so we can live wherever you'd like.

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I've just been driving to villages in Sierra Leone and doing one-time healing and long-term bug-disintegration.

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We can do that, we can try to figure out something with more reach, I don't care, I'm just not spending ten hours a day in an office in Virginia.

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Of course not. I love you. I may not technically be here legally, I came here with the Peace Corps and then sort of didn't do Peace Corps things once they'd got me here because I can do better than that.

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I could keep my job long enough to straighten that out if you'd like.

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That might be most convenient.

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Done, then. ...we've got a lot of money, if you've been itching to solve any problems money can usefully solve - 

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I can think of all kinds of things to do with money - are you not doing anything with it -?

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Using it to get more of it.

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Well, that's a reasonable default.

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Yes, but if you have anything better we're all ears.

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I'll think on it after I can sustain a train of thought that isn't about you for thirty seconds.

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Fair enough. I love you. I missed you so so much -

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I love you too I missed you I didn't get my memories back right away but before I knew who you even were I missed you -

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How did you get the memories back -

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They sort of - snuck in - I didn't reexperience them, they'd just turn out to be there when I wondered things or encountered things that were familiar for some reason. Mostly in order; I had most of my original-world memories before I was eight this time around, and some context on my magic powers, and I got Arda stuff later on, I'm not sure I got anything new between the ages of eight and eleven - I don't think I'm missing any time at this point but honestly Valinor was very samey and I could be down fifty years and barely notice.

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And not even for anything - I'm so sorry -

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She let you out eventually and I'm - here somehow - it's okay we'll be okay -

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Yes, we will, we have immortality now and we'll have forever to be okay, so long that thirty thousand years won't even seem like much -

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Yeah.

How are your mom and sisters doing -?

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Mostly okay. It's - did anyone ever tell you about how elves fade away outside Valinor-

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...no...

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We - stop being able to interact with the world. Very gradually, you can sort of oppose the drift with willpower, but over the course of thousands of years it adds up - that's why my youngest sisters can't leave home, they're partially transparent.

 

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...can it be fixed?

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Yes but that answer will delight you less than you are expecting.

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...why.

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The Silmarils fix it.

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Where did they even get to?

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The ones the Valar took are presumably still in Valinor on display somewhere. The third one we think is on the planet Venus.

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Venus?

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When Eru threw her tantrum it got moved. But it used to be a star in the sky and the astronomical body that moved the way the Silmaril once did is Venus.

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That's really weird. But if it takes thousands of years to fade there's probably enough time to get there. Will one do it?

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Yeah, one would be plenty. We're hoping to go get it within a century because it has other uses but we might be delayed by my mother and sister getting you immortality as quickly as possible.

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What other uses?

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The healing, my mother thinks given enough time she could use it to scale up various other magic...

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Well, I can do healing in the meanwhile when it needs doing.

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You can. 

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I've been doing a lot of it but I've been sort of constrained in scope. I told my foster parents it was a miracle and they let me use it a lot but they didn't want to go anywhere more densely populated or anything.

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Well, we can go wherever you want, though we might need to think how to manage the media attention.

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I'm kind of surprised I've managed this long without any.

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Well, I noticed you. There are still Elves - around, who never went to Valinor - it'll be a problem if they notice we're alive -

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After all this time?

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I don't know but I don't want to bet on it.

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...yeah.

Do you know what happened to all the orcs?

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No. If Mandos reembodied them it wasn't in Valinor or here, but it might have been somewhere.

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I hope they got to be alive again somewhere.

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Me too.

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I got them all, eventually.

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Of course you did. I love you. - what did you do after that -

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Read books. I read books while I was de-oathing them, too, it didn't take that much attention. Borrowed people's ears and listened to music, borrowed people's eyes and looked at scenery. Wrote things. I don't know what would've happened to all my notes, maybe your father still has them in Valinor wherever it's hiding.

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Probably. Oh, Annie, I thought I'd lost you forever -

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I'll be there soon. I try not to speed, weird sense is good enough for driving but it doesn't give me ideal reaction time.

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You being safe is far more important than you being here. But I'm glad you're coming here.

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I'm driving very safely, promise. Are you getting along with Marisol?

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I think I kind of alarmed her? I was a bit singleminded about finding you.

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Makes sense. She knows some stuff, not a lot, I took her with me when I ran off because she was kind of relying on me for healing and rural India is not a great place to be without that for somebody as easily injured as her.

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Easily injured?

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She's got a bone condition. I can't make the underlying condition go away - it seems not to work on most things present from birth or genetic or whatever - but I can fix fractures and stuff.

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Is she going to want to come with us if we start doing things elsewhere?

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Probably won't want to quit the Peace Corps, but if she gets into serious medical trouble they can send her somewhere with an actual hospital.

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Okay. Should we rescue the rest of your adoptive parents' children - I do not think I like them and I didn't even meet them -

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They technically never finished adopting me, actually. Some of the others fit in okay with them, some of them already left - might be worth getting Tirzah.

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Okay. 

 

Our kids lived long happy lives. Eliel's in Valinor now but she did a lot for Endorë first.

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That's good - I wasn't sure if you'd know, how much did you get a chance to look into before you got kicked here -

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Nothing at all, actually, they thought it'd be disruptive, we just woke up in Canada, but Lírnith knows most of what happened unless it happened in Valinor.

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Why Canada?

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The continent got moved around a lot in the reshaping of the world, it didn't have any Elves native to it - don't know if it has some who immigrated once humans rediscovered transoceanic travel.

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About how many Elves are there still around?

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Lírnith thinks more than fifty and less than five hundred.

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...So when I said this world looks a lot like my original I mean, like, eerily, the continents actually match and there's some weird cultural parallelism too.

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Huh. ...you don't think you're from the future -

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No, I don't. It's not exact - Noregrsk is just like Norwegian, they're not quite mutually intelligible, and there are other differences, like, in my world we never invented the cellphone and the landlines were headsets instead of things you had to hold, Christianity per se didn't exist and the nearest analogues were three things each less popular, and also artifacts had existed for a long time and here doesn't have them, and also when I got hit by the van it was the calendar year 1802.

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1802 since what -

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Some secular historical event in the Roman-Empire-like-thing, I forget what.

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...weird. I have no idea - why, or how, or any of that - no one we sent ever found a way back -

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I hope they're all right.

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I hope so too. We're not very close to having a way to check, but in principle maybe eventually -

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How?

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Humans made it to the Moon, I'm optimistic about the next millenium, and we have forever.

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That's a very encouraging thought.

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I know. The Moon landing was good for us. Long ago Manweë told my mother that she thought to escape her jurisdiction by going to Endorë but the Valar are the rulers of all of Arda. So when humans left Arda, we thought - well.

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The moon isn't technically Arda?

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Never heard the word used to describe anything except the planet. But we're going to a different star. Once we can.

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Awesome.

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It'll be lovely. Do you want to be in charge of our far-flung civilization because I don't want that sort of power anymore.

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It'll be a whole civilization? Who are we bringing? - and yes.

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Thought you might. And - we haven't decided who we're bringing but the whole point, all along, was to break loose of fate and Eru and the Valar and found our own nation on our own terms.

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It seems like it might be hard to get anyone out of Valinor. Would we be bringing humans?

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That was what we were assuming, yeah.

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Neat.

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Immortality takes a couple thousand person-hours each but we're working on scaling it.

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...that's a long time. How would it get condensed - or is it batched?

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Not batched, it'd get condensed by figuring out a non-osanwë way of doing it and from there a purely mechanical one. 

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Dwarves could do things without osanwë, couldn't they?

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Yeah, but their way takes even longer than ours and the actual solution initially employed both. My mother and Curufin are working it back out to get something without osanwë.

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It turned out the healing factor didn't do anything about aging at all. I lived to be what would've been about eighty if it weren't for Valinor.

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They got it done when you'd have been ninety-five if not for Valinor, I think.

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Would it have de-aged me or just stopped me where I was?

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Stopped, but then they could've developed de-aging. Is being old terribly unpleasant?

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I didn't find it too bad because I was a really healthy eighty, but it would've been nicer to be not eighty.

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Well, we can get you one within the year if you like your current age.

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My current age is pretty good but a few years' wait would be fine too. I don't really have a clear idea of what I looked like, do you have cosmetic opinions?

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You're the most beautiful woman in the world at any age.

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Giggle. Sure, but if it was by a greater margin at twenty-two than twenty...

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I don't actually - what age were you when we met -

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Eighteen. I'm nineteen now.

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And I'm thirty-four thousand. Okay. Well, I'd be happier just seeing you in the necklace all the time safe forever from dying of old age on me -

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I mean, we could also say I'm four hundred and fifty-something. I'll put it on as soon as it exists if you like.

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If that works for you. And - I wasn't going to worry myself over it - though I might have if I'd found you when you were younger -

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That might've been weird.

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Yeah. I don't know what I'd have - yes I do, I'd have whisked you right away to Canada and then told Lírnith to handle it and spent a decade fretting.

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I already missed you when I was little, I used to say I was missing somebody and kept getting told it was probably my birth parents, I think I might have noticed you were you if you whisked me...

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Well if you'd wanted me to stay then I'd have done that. But it would have been a little awkward.

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Yeah. Maybe it would have worked if you'd had the presence of mind to have Lírnith whisk me instead or something. You can see from way farther than I can sense so there's that.

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I wish I'd found you sooner.

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Yeah.

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But now I have.

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Almost there. Does your family know you found me -?

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Yes, I told them to get the necklace and to come find me if it was more than a year.

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...what would have kept you for more than a year?

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Dunno but if I died or something I thought you'd still want the necklace.

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Oh. Yeah. I have no idea whether to count on the reincarnation happening again if it needs it.

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Yeah. And Lírnith's smart enough to probably get it to you in a way that didn't make it obvious we were so close to seeing each other again -

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...yeah.

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So I wanted to make sure you still got it.

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I love you.

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I love you too. 

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(Marisol, meanwhile, has closed the door in Rirosseth's unresponsive face.)

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She barely notices. Anyway. Here I am not dead. I'll let them know not to worry eventually.

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You could call them now, probably easier than when I'm actually there.

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Wasn't going to call them, was just going to tell whoever was nearest whenever I was in range of them -

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Do you not have phones? Cell phones are great.

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My work monitors it.

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Oh.

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I don't know what they'd think if I made a flurry of calls in a language they've never heard of and then quit.

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I suppose that would be sort of ominous. What are they going to think of the quitting all by itself?

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Surprised, probably, I've been very reliable, but they also think I'm in my fifties, I think I'll say my elderly mother's ailing and had a stroke or something and I'm moving home to take care of her -

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How do you pass for being in your fifties?

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Makeup, I dye my hair grey -

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Still seems like it'd be a stretch. I guess if they've known you for long they're not going to guess otherwise.

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That too. I was going to need to quit soon anyway.

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What led you to work there in particular?

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Someone needed to know how to cover for all our changing identities.

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Is it going to be inconvenient if you quit?

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I was going to need to in a few years anyway.

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Yeah, but if you were planning to wait until you were all in fresh identities or something and currently aren't.

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Lírnith can just not kill her current pop star, and everyone else can stay another decade.

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Okay.

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It is going to get harder, though, as computers get better.

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I'd imagine. Is there a plan for dealing with that?

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We've debated coming forward, we've debated announcing immortality if not that we were immortal to start with -

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Some people are surprisingly negative on immortality, I've noticed.

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I bet it's because there aren't immortals around obviously still having meaning and joy in their lives. Not that I'm the person to-

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...I've mostly encountered religious objections, but that too.

Aulë literally told me that Eru had a plan for me which did not involve the Valar making me immortal and this did not cause me to have religious objections to immortality so I don't know know why flimsier commandments are so compelling to some people, but.

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Well, you have more sense than almost everybody.

 

...this is Eru's plan for us?

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I don't know. It could still be the artifact and her plan could have been for me to stay dead. Can't exactly ask the Dean of Analysis back in Drofnfjord.

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I do know what happened to me - what I did - was Eru's plan. Mandos said.

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The fuck.

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Well, at least she was kind enough to give me you?

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I don't know that that was her - although if this is Arda maybe worlds can look like this and still have Eru managing them...

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Or she stopped after the invasion of Valinor, which would maybe make it worth it after all.

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The...?

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Thauron talked a human kingdom into invading Valinor. For the life extension, and also she told them that the Valar could make them all immortal if they pleased, and also there were various other things going on, but - anyway, that's when Eru ate some continents.

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...Eru and the Valar do not have a very well developed sense of moral responsibility, do they.

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They really don't.

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Thauron's - out of the picture now, right -

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Dead. 

 

Given the premise that this isn't a hallucination.

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Good.

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Yep. It was kind of a ridiculous series of events, but - as long as it worked.

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Ridiculous how?

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Thauron seduced Celebrendes under an alias and suggested to her they work together on ways to be more powerful than a Vala. Ended up forging magic rings for it. She sabotaged the project, though, so the Vala powers she was handing out secretly made one vulnerable to her mind-control. Celebrendes figured it out, hid the notes and what could be salvaged of the project, Thauron sacked the continent and tortured her to death trying to get the locations, Thauron carried on unimpeded for two thousand years culminating in the sinking of the continents, and was working on becoming a Vala via some abuse of aforementioned rings - basically, she poured all of her magic into it. Then there's a battle in which everyone is being trivially slaughtered, and someone manages to cut her ring finger off and she abruptly loses all her power and vanishes.

 

And then the ring exerts its mind-control on the victor to not get thrown away, and exchanges hands for three thousand years while Thauron slowly regains power, and then ends up in the hands of someone who could resist the mind-control far enough to get to the brink of destroying it, whereupon the mind-control dominated, but then there was a scuffle and the ring went over anyway and Thauron died.

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...oh - poor Celebrendes - what kind of ultimate power leaves you vulnerable to having it chopped off? - who'd you wind up hearing this from, was Lírnith still around at the time - what wound up happening to her anyway -

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She was still around when the continents got eaten, was on one of the eaten ones. And I have no idea what kind of ultimate power works that way, except a vague sneaking suspicion the answer is "Eru's plan".

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I would really like a look at this plan.

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Yep.

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And matches for some light editing.

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I love you.

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I love you too.

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We can at least escape entirely. I think.

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Hope so.

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And it sort of feels like the story's done.

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What do you mean?

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It's been thirty thousand years, the Enemy's in custody -

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For real this time?

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They promised never to pardon him, at least.

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That's good.

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Yep. Oh, Annie...

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What?

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I missed you so badly and I thought it'd just be - forever -

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Almost there, I'll be there in an hour and immortal in a year and you never have to let me out of your sight if you don't want.

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I don't want.

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I love you.

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I've just been standing here. Your sister closed the door on me.

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Well, if you're planning to kiss me that's just as well, she's kind of squeamishly conservative.

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I'm very planning to kiss you. Thirty thousand years and society couldn't move past that, huh.

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Well, I think the reasoning is refreshed or at least repainted occasionally. She's nicer than our foster parents but they did get her some religion.

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I will not kiss you in front of your sister. ...that may mean we can't spend much time around your sister.

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That's okay. I don't actually have a place, though, I just sleep in the Jeep...

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I can look around for some cozy trees to sleep in. Did that sometimes in Valinor, though there things were friendlier.

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I meant I don't have a discreet kissing location, although it is separately true that I don't have a good place to put you up.

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I have an hour to find discreet locations, then, right?

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Yeah.

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Good to know.

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Giggle. I suppose there's always 'get a hotel room'.

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Are there some near here?

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Probably but not so I could give you directions from Marisol's...

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Well, I'll look. Any thoughts on what you do want to do next?

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I'm not attached to Sierra Leone in particular - I want to go back to Canada with you and have a, a honeymoon sort of thing I guess, and see Lírnith and meet the rest of your family, and then figure out how to be more efficient at doing things than driving around to miscellaneous villages leaving people capable of disintegrating mosquitoes on contact.

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Sounds good. We can do that. 

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Good. - Or, presumably you don't actually live in Canada, you said you worked for the American government, is there in fact a "back to Canada" which would be convenient for a family reunion or what.

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The castle's in Canada. I work in Virginia but I don't really think of it as home, I haven't been there very long. 

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You built a castle?

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Morya built a castle. I was kind of - out of it.

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I meant you collectively but - yeah -

- but you got to a point where you could do stuff at least eventually -

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Yeah. It took about seven hundred years. I was functional. I was going to keep being functional.

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Seven hundred -

- I wish I'd lasted just a bit longer, I wish -

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Not your fault, not your fault at all.

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I didn't even try asking if they could do more than a factor of ten even if they wouldn't do outright immortality, I should have tried that.

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You're here now, it's okay - and we might not ever have gotten to leave Valinor, to help anyone -

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In thirty thousand years I bet we could have thought of a way to leave Valinor if we'd both been in adequate form.

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Okay, probably true.

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I'm pretty bright. ...I have a weirdly spotty education, though, my foster parents didn't notice I could read and telling them would only have gotten me Bible study and the only time I've spent with consistent Internet access was when I was in Peace Corps training.

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I'm sure we can arrange for you to learn whatever you're interested in learning. I got a degree but it was thirty years ago, was thinking of going back sometime.

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At some point if we manage not to be prohibitively distracting to each other we can go to college together, that would be cute. What did you get your degree in?

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Political science and math - Valinor wasn't actually all that far behind the modern world at math -

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I noticed that, I read a whole lot of random books while I was tapping orcs.

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Anyway, we could go to school somewhere pretty and cold and sufficiently liberal -

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Canada's cold, right?

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It is! We can spend the time when we are too distracted to try education up there.

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I looooove you.

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I love you too. I thought I'd never be whole again.

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I'm almost there, I just saw a sign for Freetown.

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I am finding a hotel. 

 

 

Not very well. She tries a little harder to focus on the world around her.

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Freetown has hotels.

If you need me to tell you how to ask for directions -?

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If people aren't going to speak English, yeah, probably -

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Plenty of people do but Krio's maybe a better bet. Annie supplies phrases and translates the replies Rirosseth gets.

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And a hotel is acquired.

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As Annie approaches she keeps Rirosseth updates on where she is - passing Marisol's, hanging a left at this intersection, found a parking spot -

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And she goes outside and sees her first, of course, Elf eyesight -

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- there's Annie, nineteen again and stepping carefully out of a yellow Jeep -

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She races over to her. "Annie Annie Annie -"

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Annie does not break into a run because that would not end well but she walks as briskly as she dares, as soon as she can orient on Rirosseth by weird sense.

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And Annie is swept up into a bone-breakingly tight hug and Rirosseth is crying -

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Marisol would be having a medical emergency; Annie merely squeaks.

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And she lets go immediately - "aaahsosorry -" and then hugs her with nice human-level strength, still crying -

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"It's okay -" Snuggly leaning, not hugging back in any way that would threaten Rirosseth's freedom of movement.

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Annie Annie Annie Annie - are you okay can you be happy -

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I am so happy right now.

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Good. She bends down slightly and picks her up and carries her off to the recently acquired hotel room.

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Annie giggles. The hotel proprietor raises an eyebrow but since they are women cannot actually call the cops on suspicion of illegality. They arrive at their hotel room with no mishaps.

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And she presses herself very tightly against her and kisses her.

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I love you I love you I love you

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I love you I love you I love you - Annie is too hot all the time, Annie should be wearing less clothes - no clothes, really -

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Giggle. Annie can help with that. Begone, tank top and giant straw hat and khaki cargo shorts.

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You're so beautiful, you're my whole world, I missed you so badly - 

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Is there a mirror in here can I look at you -

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There is a mirror! Annie can borrow her eyes, she can undress as well -

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Eeeeeeeeeee. You're so gorgeous, aaaaaah.

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Loved you, missed you, want you -

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I'm all yours.

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She pulls her onto the bed. She kisses her more thoroughly. Forever and ever -

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Always always always.

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She is going to hold every inch of her, she is going to kiss every inch of her, she's had more than enough time to put her head in order and it's been eternity - 

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...this is a new development but none of the noises Annie is making sound like complaints.

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Good. Not hurting Annie is the most important thing in the world but this is definitely the second most.

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Annie is not hurt at all. (Annie is however very loud. She can't hear herself.)

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Are they possibly breaking local laws or something because if so Annie could be notified of this but if not it is really very satisfying and she is not inclined to suggest Annie change a thing.

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Possibly there could be noise complaints? Only male homosexuality is illegal in Sierra Leone!

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Well, fuck Sierra Leone but they'll worry about that some other time. 

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Yup.

So is Rirosseth just going to keep Annie making ridiculous overloud noises until Annie falls asleep on her or will Annie at some point get to catch her breath and ask if there is anything else she should be doing?

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No how about she just makes Annie ridiculously happy until she falls asleep that sounds like a good solution.

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Eventually she has a sleeping Annie mumbling words happily into her shoulder.

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Good.

She clings to her and cries quietly.

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Zzzzsnugglezzzzzz.

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She watches her, enchanted, all night.

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And in the morning Annie wakes up and beams and nuzzles her.

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I love you so much.

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I love you too. That was - wow. I love you. What time is it.

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Mid-morning. We should get breakfast or something.

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Probably. Sigh. Snuggle.

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I love you.

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I love you too.

Should I have, like, an updated list of what I need to know about how to be in a bed with you, because what I know seems to be maybe out of date.

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I had all those years in Mandos with nothing to do but try to bend my head into shape- and I thought you'd still be alive and I could go join you once I was - I was very motivated -

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Nuzzle.

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Yeah.

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...isn't technically an answer to my question though.

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We can do that all the time and I will have a lovely time and no flashbacks. I still don't like having my movement constrained and I - we have forever, I will probably eventually be okay with you touching me, but right now this makes me happier and is much less scary.

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Okay. I don't want to scare you. Annie presses a kiss to the nearest bit of Rirosseth and then yawns and stretches.

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Now Annie is wearing clothes again. If Rirosseth also puts on clothes they could go get breakfast.

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Right, that's how this works, isn't it.

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It is! Annie knows a place with nice food. Here it is.

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The food is delicious. Annie is alive. 

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Annie is alive! Annie is eating rice and fried plantains! Annie is not-technically-gazing adoringly at Rirosseth!

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...she'll do the sign language for "I love you" so Annie can see her.

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Eeeeeeeeeeeeee Annie signs it right back.

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"Should you tell Marisol what's going on at some point?"

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"Yeah. Well, at least that I'm going to Canada."

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"Right."

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"I'll probably leave out most of the explanation. She's used to me being weird."

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"As long as she's happy and we're off to somewhere cold where you'll be happy and can see my family."

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"She'll be fine."

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"Good. And not very surprised if she sees you on the news in twenty years announcing immortality?"

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"Probably not! It seems like the sort of thing I would do!"

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"I wish I could say 'that's why I love you' but. Well. I love that about you."

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"I know what you mean."

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"Have we done enough food."

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"I think so."

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"Then we should go back to our room."

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Annie giggles and follows her back to the hotel.

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Oh good because she really really missed Annie and wants to show it.

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Annie missed her too and is 100% on board with this method of reunion.

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It is very rewarding to be relevantly functional.

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Good!

 


Eventually they will probably manage to get plane tickets to Canada and a little while for Annie to tell Marisol she's leaving, email me at my old address if you need something, you want to keep speaking-in-tongues on right, yes this is my missing person she found me.

And then they can be on a plane to Canada.

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And they can snuggle on the plane if they aren't too obnoxious about it.

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Yaaaaaaaaaay~

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I love you so much -

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I love you too, I'm so glad you found me, it was so hard not to drive recklessly getting back to Freetown.

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I am very glad you drove safely.

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So am I but it was so hard!

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I wish I had a bunch of notebooks to give you but I didn't keep anything I wrote when I was a kid and was living really frugally in Sierra Leone so I conserved paper and it's all inscrutable little scribbles just sufficiently made of letters that I can see it. I emailed myself stuff when I was in training, you can read that when we have Internet.

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Thank you. I love the way you think. But I'll get lots of chances anyway, we'll be doing lots of interesting things -

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Mm-hm. Tell me about your sisters, I only know up to when you all left Valinor from Istarno...

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I mean, everything after that was just being at war. They all worked really hard to run kingdoms well and buy enough time we could invent a way to stop the Enemy, and we failed.

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You probably still know things your dad didn't know even if the timing isn't why.

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True. Hmm. Tyelcormë - uh, dislikes authority in every conceivable form and is basically perpetually disgusted with people for being so - small. She's been wandering the continent and occasionally working in national parks and things. She died in the war in Doriath. She lost Huan in the war and isn't really okay at all.

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Small?

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In their goals, in the degree to which they actually try to accomplish their goals, in their empathy, in their ability to recognize when the consensus around them is wrong -

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I find that frustrating too sometimes. Although it does make them a little more predictable so I can wade through them while comparatively enormous.

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I expect she won't find you that way, yeah.

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Nuzzle.

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Morya married a Dwarf, way back - she can't hold her tongue to save her life and at first they offended each other tremendously but eventually they hit it off - she's working on Wall Street and I think also wallowing in contempt for people but she's very very good at what she does and the reason we have billions to throw around - this world has completely bizarre gender roles, it's been annoying her -

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I eventually picked up on the gender roles, in Valinor - it sort of didn't come up in the fortress or with the Dwarves. My world was more like this one but Noregr in particular was pretty egalitarian.

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Well, Valinor couldn't be that, it'd make too much sense. If there are going to be silly gender roles I'd rather be assumed competent and dangerous.

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Yeah, it's annoying sometimes - I find being assumed harmless useful sometimes but the whole thing didn't do me any favors with the foster family - of course they were doing Christianity on top of general societal stuff -

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I am actually not familiar with the Christian take on it, beyond 'worse, presumably' -

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Oh, there's all this baggage about the Garden of Eden and so on - different sects do it differently, my biggest problem with it in reality was being expected to dress very modestly but if I hadn't been nearly five centuries old and pretending to be illiterate and convincing them I had miraculous divine powers and stuff I would have had a problem with the 'expected to take a subordinate role' thing.

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Well. You never ever have to deal with them again.

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Yup. Want to hear about how I got me and Marisol out?

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Love to.

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So Annie tells her. The weird sense is good for picking locks and got her into the file cabinet to get their passports! The nice fellow who ferried her things to translate for money was so helpful! She did get in trouble for disappearing long enough to renew her passport - Marisol's was just within date! The Peace Corps thing was Marisol's idea, meant they didn't blow through their savings before they had something else lined up, and they breezed through a lot of the training with the language power!

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You're so clever and I love you.

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I am and I love you too.

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Curufin went to MIT and then to CalTech and teaches physics now, she's - pretty much okay, I think, now that our mom's not dead...

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Good.

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Yeah. And my youngest sisters are - one of them died in the burning of the boats, she was trying to sneak one back across and no one knew there was someone on it -

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- oh no.

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Yeah.

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Should I never bring that up, or - what.

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She and my mother've - talked. I think they're okay now.

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Okay.

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My mother built her a sort of hoverboard to zip around Canada with, which is how my mother apologizes for things, and she uses it all the time.

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A hoverboard? That's awesome.

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Doesn't work for humans, yet, Elves've better reflexes and my sister's really light because she's half-faded, but it should be refinable into a more widely-usable hoverboard.

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Well, I couldn't really stay on a hoverboard anyway even if most humans could, but it's still cool.

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Did they never get you a ring for grace in Valinor?

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They did. I liked it. If I was going to leave an artifact that would've been it. But I don't have it now.

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Yes, but we can make you a new one.

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That would be great. I'm not sure it'd get me up to hoverboarding level but it'd be great.

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Consider it done. Kiss.

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I love youuuuuu.

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I love you too. I am never ever letting you go.

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I'm all yours.

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Now that it's not likely to spiral should we have a 'what will make a relationship fulfilling for you' talk?

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Maybe? I haven't given it a lot of thought though.

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Okay. Just - let me know if you do -

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Of course.

What about you?

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Same as when we first discussed this - I need the world to be better because I lived in it - only now that might actually be achievable -

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We'll make it happen.

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Yeah.

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How much does your family know about me?

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That you got the oath cleared but it has a magic love side effect so I'm magically in love with a dead mortal.

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...okay.

Do you suppose they're going to want to be de-oathed?

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Probably not, what if they were magically in love with someone they'd never see again?

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Yeah, that'd be the risk. I suppose as long as the Silmarils are respectively inaccessible or on Venus it's okay.

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Yeah.

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Hey, if this is Arda why isn't there magic around? Songs should work even though humans don't have osanwë...

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I think it's related to the fading. Songs work but - not as well, we're stronger than humans but - not by nearly as much....

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Why don't the humans have magic songs, though?

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Not sure. Maybe because they take decades to compose if you want anything more than fiddly incidental effects, and all the ones composed in the Eldar days got forgotten?

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I guess that could do it.

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Lírnith tones it down, when she sings, lest people realize she can't possibly be human.

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I'm looking forward to borrowing people's ears for music again.

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As often as you want.

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Snuggle.

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Annie sleeps on the plane.

Eventually they will reach Canada.

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And then it is a very long drive to their remote castle.

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Annie borrows Rirosseth's eyes to look at the scenery. "Who's there now?"

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"Mom and my youngest sisters, Curufin's coming up in a week and Lírnith week after that."

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"How big a castle is it?"

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"Pretty small. Otherwise we'd have to spend all our time cleaning it."

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"You know, in retrospect it's weird that I never ran into any mention of a song to clean things."

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"There are some. People just don't sing them around you."

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"Yeah, but I heard of a lot of songs. I guess maybe that one isn't the sort of thing one bothers mentioning in books or showing off at concerts-attended-by-people-sharing-their-ears."

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"Oh, you mean in Valinor? There it just doesn't come up much, because everything's magically convenient. And also they're not concert-suitable, but mostly that - in Valinor you needn't dust, in Valinor you needn't do repairs..."

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"Yeah, that'd explain it. Is the castle pretty soundproof or am I going to be chasing people out of it whenever they want to sing...?"

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"Pretty soundproof and my mother's not a very sing-y person."

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"For an Elf or at all?"

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"Well, for an Elf."

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Giggle.

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"It never struck me as annoying at all until someone with a music allergy fell on our heads!"

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"It wouldn't bother me a bit if I didn't have the allergy. I do like music when it's just being music."

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"And at least you can grant us that we're good at it."

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"You are!"

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"My mother's going to want the language thing. The first words out of her mouth will be 'I want the language thing'."

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"I can give her the language thing. It's a pretty good language thing."

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"I bet it's popular back in your home world."

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"Well, after thirty thousand years it's hard to imagine what all may have happened since I left, but I bet it enjoyed a lot of popularity at least for a long while."

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"Yeah." Sigh.

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"My world's probably doing all kinds of stuff by now, it had nearly here-and-now technology when I left..."

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"I'm jealous."

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"Maybe one day we'll have controlled worldhopping."

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"Forever's a long time, I bet we can figure it out eventually."

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"Helps that we know it's conceptually possible. ...I wonder if I might have actually left an artifact. I probably didn't, but it'd depend on whether people who leave them have to be in or from my world... I hope I didn't surprise your dad with an artifact."

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"I wish we had any way at all to check."

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"Yeah. Valinor's a complete informational black hole, huh?"

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"Yyyup. Mandos didn't even tell me you'd died, had to guess."

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"Ugh."

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"Might've thought she was doing me a favor."

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"Was she?"

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"I mean, I was certainly happier believing you were alive, but you weren't in fact alive, I don't want to incorrectly think things are okay - or, well, wouldn't want that, except I can't totally think around the magic -"

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"Yeah. I hope the orcs are okay, it wound up being about ten percent of them that got hit with the thing - always reciprocal -"

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"That's good to know. And - I suppose you weren't talking with them enough to get personality assessments -"

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"Yeah, I only even knew how many of them got hit with the side effect because Mandos told me."

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"I'm really curious how it filters. Or I guess it could be random -"

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"It could but ten percent seems like a weird figure for that, I would much more expect it to be triggered by something. It wouldn't have to be a remotely useful thing, if you'd been the first person I ran into when I landed I'd assume it was 'first person you perceive' - but it would be a strange artifact that confers a genuinely random ten percent chance of a thing."

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"How many people did you perceive before me -"

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"Maybe forty or fifty after I landed? But it wouldn't have to be anyone from then, it could have been anyone I'd ever met in my life, that's what happened to the first orc who got the side effect, they were stuck on somebody who wasn't there."

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"They were at least in the same dimension, though -"

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"That's true, but that would mean it should've reasonably taken me ages to meet somebody who triggered it if the chance is ten percent in a population of orcs who've encountered thousands of people in their lives."

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"...fair point. Shame there's no ethical way to experiment - I suppose maybe some people would be excited about the idea of soulmate matching -"

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"They might well, but if their soulmates weren't..."

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"Then they'd want what's best for them too much to harass them about it but they'd just quietly be miserable forever."

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"Yep."

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Sigh. Squeeze. "I'm glad I'm in love with you even though it made for a very long empty thirty thousand years."

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"It's very cozy when it matches both ways and we are both alive."

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"And not horribly traumatized, that is an important ingredient. You'd think 'and not a mass murderer' but I guess it clears that right up."

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Pat pat.

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"It does bother me. To think that you're in love with someone you really wouldn't like otherwise. It's easier on my end because I'd definitely date you anyway, if I'd been in fewer pieces -"

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"There's so many confounding factors - I might have liked you anyway but so much would have been different it's hard to imagine how it would've gone."

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"I'm glad I have you, anyway."

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"You do. All yours."

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And they drive to the castle.

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"It's lovely."

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"She did a good job. I was still barely able to open my eyes."

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"Was coming back to life in itself awful or -?"

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"Sort of - sensory overload? And I could almost stop having experiences, in Mandos. It was the next best thing to not existing."

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"Oh."

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"Of course, existing when you're alive is even better."

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"I love you."

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"Love you more. Want to come meet my family?"

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"Yes. How can you possibly imagine you love me more."

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Instead of answering that she just sends being-in-love-with-Annie at her full force.

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"...okay but I still love you just as much."

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"I have had thirty thousand years to appreciate you in."

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"Still."

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"I am a very competitive person and I love you most."

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"Well, if it would make you happy to win this silly argument..."

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"Now, there's a terrible dilemma." She kisses her. She opens the door.

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Mmmmkiss.

Anybody home?

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Nobody immediately runs up to them. She sighs. "My mother will surface when she surfaces. My sisters are probably out."

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"Okay. Want to show me around?"

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"Love to!" She shows her around.

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What a nice castle. She notes Fëanaré's location when it's in range. Is there food, it's been a long trip.

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There is totally food!

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Annie gets some of it. Nom. "It's so nice and cool here."

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"I'm glad that worked out. I'd have insisted on farther north if I'd expected -"

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"I know you would. It's nice here, I'm toasty not baking."

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"Good."

And after a while Annie can sense Fëanáre approaching.

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"Your mom's coming."

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"Hello, Mother!"

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"Hello - you can give me the ability to speak every single language?"

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"Yes." Annie holds out her hand.

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She takes it.

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Language thing!

"The drawback for that one is pretty mild."

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"I can speak all the languages! I think I'd even take the music allergy, to get that one."

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"Well, fortunately you don't have to."

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"Even better. I love cheating. Nice to meet you, I'm Fëanáre."

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"I'm Annie. It's nice to meet you too."

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"I'd stay to chat but I'm working on your necklace." She takes some food.

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"I appreciate that."

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"But of course."

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"Eru says that making her immortal isn't in the divine plan."

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"In that case I think I'm in all the more of a hurry."

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"To be exact she said the Valar making me immortal wasn't. I'm not sure if that means 'reincarnation was preferable for some reason' or if that just happened without divine intervention at all, it could be one of the artifacts."

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"And either way me making you immortal doesn't go against divine decree." Sigh. "Reincarnation seems pretty not preferable, does it have redeeming features?"

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"...well, when I went into Valinor they told me I wouldn't be allowed to leave later, and here I am not in Valinor. Otherwise not really."

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"I suppose that's something." She leaves.

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"And now you've met my mother."

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"Yep. She did say hi before asking about the language thing!"

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"Character growth!"

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Giggle.

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...food has been consumed and Rirosseth has a room.

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Gosh.

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She might carry Annie off again.

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That's because Rirosseth is great.

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Annie is the loveliest person in the entire world.

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Annie is so profoundly in love and grinning so hard her face hurts and still can't hear herself make non-speech noises.

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If that were a problem Annie could borrow her ears but it doesn't actually seem like a problem, really.

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Annie hasn't even noticed it! She is too gloriously distracted!

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Very satisfying, that.

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Lots of satisfaction to go around.

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And then cuddles?

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All the cuddles.

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That's good. She's so happy.

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Good.

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Her youngest sisters come in a while later.

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Annie tells Rirosseth, in case they weren't audible.

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Could go say hi now, could wait. No hurry.

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Could just lie here snuggling for ever and ever.

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Yes!! We could!!

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I love you so much.

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We have forever. Everything'll be okay forever.

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Mm-hm. Kiss.

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Shortly after that the presence of her siblings has totally slipped her mind.

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What forgettable siblings Rirosseth has.

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Aren't they just.

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If they forget about the siblings long enough this is going to wind up with a cuddly sleepy Annie again.

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Sounds good. They can sleep.

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Zzzz.

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Eventually Annie wakes up.

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She is awake and staring at her adoringly.

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"G'morning."

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"Morning. We should go get food or something."

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"Yeah, that'd be a good idea. And introduce me to your sisters."

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"That too."

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So Annie puts her hair back up - "I got accustomed to people having their hair up after long enough in Valinor, is your family accustomed to people wearing clothes after long enough here?"

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"Yes, but they still wouldn't flinch if you didn't, if you're overwarm -"

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"Mm - compromise option," decides Annie, and she goes with yes shorts and bra, no shirt, barefoot.

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This attracts no attention when they go down for breakfast! "Hi, Annie!" says a red-haired girl who is shimmery and only half-visible. "Amras, nice to meet you, how are you liking the place?"

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"It's nice and cold here! Good to meet you too." The half-there thing is also texturally weird to the weird sense.

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"Sheer luck, on that, Mandos could've put us in Peru. Unless she knew -"

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"If she knew she could've told me."

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"She didn't even tell you when I died. Anyway, even if this is where you were put you did decide to stay here instead of going somewhere else."

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"We did! It's such a pretty area, and not many humans around."

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"Especially seven hundred years ago."

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She shudders and looks down.

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"- um?"

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"Oh. Uh. There were a fair number of humans seven hundred years ago. They all died off five hundred ago, all of them, whole communities with no survivors - we might've been able to do something if we'd seen it coming -"

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"Oh. I'd just sort of been modeling Canada as very sparsely populated until much more recently than that."

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"We ventured a fair bit around here - distance wasn't much of a problem - and sparse compared to modern societies, yes, but - there were still thousands, it was still awful -"

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Nod. "What happened?"

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"Smallpox. We didn't learn that until rather recently."

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Nod.

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"I'm sorry, I didn't mean to ruin the mood. To me it was quite recent."

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"It's all right. Did Rirosseth say where she found me?"

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"Africa somewhere."

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"Sierra Leone distributing an artifact effect that disintegrates bugs on contact."

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She beams at her. "Oh, excellent." And to Rirosseth, "count me not at all surprised. There's a betting pool on how long until you two're running a world."

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"I don't trust myself like that anymore."

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"She asked me if I wanted to be in charge of our far-flung civilization, did anyone bet on that?"

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"No. That'll work, though. I'm glad she got someone who'd want to."

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"It sounds like it may suit me."

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"It's still a ways out."

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"Yeah, I know. Which is just as well because I was raised in rural India by Christian fundamentalists who thought I was illiterate and should catch up on some things."

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"Oh, yikes. Well, here's a good place to catch up on things, Mom's picky about the internet and it's really really fast and we've got roomsful of computers downstairs."

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"Awesome."

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"Glad you two found each other."

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Fervent nodding.

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She shakes her head. "Well. Rirosseth gave us a talk about music, let me know if there's anything else."

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"That's the only one that might suddenly cause problems. If she didn't mention, the thing I do that isn't seeing goes through stuff, if that's ever relevant."

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"Huh. Wonder if you can use it to scan rockets for microscopic defects or something."

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"I don't think so; it doesn't go quite that fine. I can distinguish between very similar materials by texture if there's enough of them but I don't notice, like, one grain of salt on the counter."

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"Can I see?"

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"Sure." Annie holds out her hand.

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She takes it.

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Sense thing! Hundred yards and then some in all directions.

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Way worse than Elven vision, but sort of interesting. "Thanks. Huh. I'll probably want it off by tonight but I'll play around with it a bit first if that's okay."

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If you're going to keep it that long you might also want the language thing so you can talk and read around it.

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Oh, good idea, thanks.

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Tap.

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Cool.

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"That's a good one."

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"Yeah, I might keep it. Mom'll love it."

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"It's probably a little more inconvenient if you can see but Marisol - my foster sister, she keeps it on too - just memorizes people's wardrobes and hairdos and voices."

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"I bet I could go off voices. Or get good enough at noticing-minds-are-there without reading them to distinguish people off that."

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"Huh, I didn't actually realize it was that finely graded."

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"It generally doesn't come up, among Elves, people'll usually put 'I'm here' in public thoughts if they want it to be there, with humans it's trivial but not getting anything more than what you're looking for isn't trivial. I'm careful, promise."

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"I appreciate that."

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"I'm not actually even around humans much." She gestures at the transparency.

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"I can see how that would present an obstacle, yes."

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"I also interfere with electronics, it's inconvenient."

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"It probably won't help, but do you want to try the healing power just in case?"

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"Sure."

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Tap.

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It does not help.

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Oh well. Annie yoinks it back.

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"Thanks anyway."

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"You're welcome."

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"I'm gonna get back to work. I'm not like mom, you can interrupt me if you need anything. Nice meeting you."

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"Nice to meet you too."

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She acquires them some food.

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Mmmm food.

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Mmmm Annie.

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Kisses are admittedly more delicious than food.

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Then they might be too distracted to eat much.

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Oh no.

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....they can take food up to her room with them so in the future they don't need to interrupt themselves for meals.

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What a brilliant idea.

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She's so good at problem solving.

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It is a wonderful and useful skill.

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After a week it's break at Curufin's school and she comes home as well.

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Well, anybody's guess whether at that moment Annie is... occupied.

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They have in fact been occupied most of the time!

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But occasionally Annie does have to pause to eat things or whatever, and - "Somebody else has shown up."

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"Oh, I think it's about fall break at U of S."

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"We should go say hi."

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"Yeah."

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So Annie puts on some clothes but not very many of them and presents her hair for braiding because a) Rirosseth is better at it than her and b) awwwww.

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Rirosseth loves braiding her hair even if at least half the time she gets so distracted by it that they end up not going downstairs after all.

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Well, which half is it this time?

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Her sister is home! They can probably make it downstairs.

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And then the new arrival will be greeted. "Hi!"

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"Hello! You must be Annie - languages -"

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Annie laughs and hands over the language thing.

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"Thank you! You have excellent magic. Nice to meet you, if for the moment only because it means my sister won't be wallowing in misery forever."

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"I'm pretty glad about her not wallowing in misery forever too."

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"It was hard to witness. You get used to it but that's not great either."

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Nod.

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"Anyway, aside from a reason for my sister to not wallow in despair, what are you like, what are you working on?"

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"When she found me I was in Sierra Leone sort of ambiguously mostly no longer with the Peace Corps distributing the artifact effect that kills bugs on contact. And healing, but I'd take that off after a few minutes, didn't leave it."

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Nod. "Are you going to keep doing that?"

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"I bet there's a more efficient way, but it still seems worth doing."

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"Can you push the ability to give out the artifact?"

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"Technically, yes, but I don't know if it works when the person with the ability has not in fact literally touched any artifacts and only has borrowed effects, and the drawback of that one is disappearing to another world."

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"That is a pretty substantial drawback," she agrees. "Hmm. I suppose if you give it to everyone for one generation all the mosquitos die out and then you don't have to do it continually."

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"Yeah. I can't do literally everyone, even if everything's maximally centralized and efficient, but I could do big chunks of Africa."

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"At some point you'll get noticed even by people less observant than Nelya."

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"Yeah, I would like a way to handle that which isn't 'be whisked away to a laboratory'. I might feel differently if a laboratory would find anything, but."

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Nod. "We weren't planning to go public with magic until we have scalable immortality but that's fifty years out. We could do it sooner."

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"Where's the fifty year estimate coming from?"

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"I have a bunch of secret labs working on it, and they've more or less pieced together how the Dwarven magic for immortality would work, and they're separately making headway on assembly-line manufacture of Dwarf-style magic items, but it requires some higher-precision tools than we've yet been able to attain and materials costs are extraordinary. I can give you a whole writeup on what the complications are."

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"I probably lack the technical background but I'd be curious anyway."

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"Nelya stays on top of the reports and she has no technical background at all. How do I get them to you most conveniently, email?"

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"Yeah -" Annie supplies her address.

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"Great!" And she heads off to join her mother in her workshop.

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Giggle.

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"Lot of one-track minds in the family."

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"I noticed."

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"During the war I practically had to remind her to eat."

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"Does it just take longer for Elves to get hungry or do you actually get less hungry?"

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"Just takes longer but she was fairly consumed by grief, she kept burning her fingertips for the same reason -"

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"Burning her fingertips -?"

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"To distract herself."

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"...oh."

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"Slowly losing a war against an evil god is very upsetting."

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Nod. Sigh.

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Hug.

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Snuggle.

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They can go back upstairs now if they'd like.

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What a concept!

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She doesn't remember having been happy like this in a really long time.

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It's very important and good that Rirosseth be happy.

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And that Annie be happy. But the two go together.

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They dooooooo.

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It's very convenient.

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This is such a nice honeymoonlike thing.

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It really is. A nice long one, too.

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Until someone has an idea for a really efficient lifesaving use of artifact effect powers there's nowhere else they need to be!

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They could sell miracle cures to rich people, but then they run the publicity problem; they could assembly-line-mosquito-repellant without attracting too much attention but there are some consent issues there; anything really efficient involves going public.

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And figuring out how to do that requires more knowledge of the world than Annie has or has managed to put together yet. (She does manage the occasional foray onto the internet between being ensconced in Rirosseth's room but it's not very systematic.)

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Rirosseth's thinking about it. If there are still Elves, they probably still remember and hate her and her sisters; Annie might be a better public face of magic existing, even if the Elves'll think it's odd when magic songs and jewelry are among the things she's teaching.

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"I mean, I could tell the truth about reincarnating and having lived with Dwarves and then in Valinor for four hundred years and stuff."

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"And just leave Fëanorians out of the story? That might work."

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"Yeah. Landed in Sirion, did not die there, omit mention of time between then and Khazad-Dûm, joined up with the host of the Valar and went to de-oath orcs, let them assume I learned to do jewelry and songs then... the music allergy complicates this."

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"Complicates teaching the songs? You could release them over the internet..."

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"I mean my story looks weird if I claim to have been acting alone to anyone who then finds out about how prohibitively difficult that would make the songs part."

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"It'd be safe enough to say you knew Eliel."

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"I suppose. Do people not know who raised her?"

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"They do, but they might not think too hard about timelines and they don't hold the association against her, as I understand it."

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Nod.

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Hug. "You can renounce me as much as is practical, I won't have hurt feelings."

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"I'm not sure I actually can. I can barely shut up when other people talk like that about you, let alone participate."

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Squeeze. "Does it bother you when I do it?"

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"Sometimes."

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"You should've said something, I'll stop."

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Nuzzle. "If it helps you process it or something you shouldn't have to stop, but - I love you and you aren't made entirely of the out-of-control consequences of a stupid oath."

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Hug.

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Snuggle.

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"It just sort of feels - wrong to let myself get over it."

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"Ever?"

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"Until it's fixed."

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Nod.

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"How would you - if it were you -"

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"...it's... hard to imagine myself as the sort of person who can make oaths, let alone does, and I do think it's meaningfully different from if you'd done all those things because they seemed like good ideas at the time."

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"I think so too. But I don't have a good how-to-feel-about-committing-atrocities-that-are-only-sort-of-your-fault -"

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"...yeah, it's strange."

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Hugs. "And like I said it's tied in with how I feel about you - "

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"How's that?"

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"I would really really like to be the kind of person you'd fall in love with without mind-altering magic?"

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"...well, there's what you're actually like and then there's timing and they're sort of mixed up here."

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"That I'll grant you."

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"I don't think it's unlikely that if I'd met you earlier even sans artifact it could've worked."

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"Yeah. I would have wanted you very badly and had the resources to be very cute about it."

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"You're very cute when you're being cute."

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"Am I."

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"Uh-huh."

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"I love you."

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"I love you too."

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"So do you want to go public? If so, how are you going to do a demonstration?"

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"Inconveniently I don't have anything really flashy - except irrevocably shooing people into random worlds - but putting a healing song online or something might be a start? I could write up the other magic there is and solicit ideas and anybody who tries the song and notices it works can read the rest of it with more reason to believe me."

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"That should work. Possibly some of the weather songs are more obviously magic than healing is."

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"Yeah, but if a bunch of people all play those at once..."

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"True. Well, I can ask Lírnith for an accounting of what all we have and you can pick out something that works well."

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Nod.

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And she sends, by email, a long list of songs that still have noticeable effects. 

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Annie still thinks the healing song is the best bet after looking this over.

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Then they can put it up on a website.

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Annie learns to make a website, and does so, with one of those farcical FAQs in spite of having been asked zero questions.

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Annie is adorable.

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It's true!

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And do they catch any public attention with their magic website with a magic song you can play for yourself any time?

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SEO is sort of difficult here and a lot of the initial attention is unfortunately in the form of "people's chain-mail-sending aunts who believe in crystals too".

Then it catches overnight.

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Well. She almost regrets leaving her job; she could spy and figure out if there are other Elves learning the news and reacting.

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Annie is suddenly busy adding actual frequently asked questions to her website. She fields a lot of invitations to come do in-person magic in places; they vary in apparent legitimacy and convenience and she's holding out for something with a good vantage point from which to convince people she's for real. She has to say she hired somebody to sing the song, since she's being up front about the music allergy.

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Doesn't have to say who, though.

 

 

 

And eventually there's a question in Sindarin sent to her Q&A setup. It asks 'how can we communicate more directly?'

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They can have a proper email address.

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Then she will get an email. It asks 'is the public story an accurate representation of how you got this information?'

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The public story says that Annie's from a world with artifacts and one landed her here and she lived with Dwarves and then moved to Valinor to de-oath orcs and has since reincarnated for unclear possibly artifactual reasons, so it's not even a lie to say "yes" (although it would be if they asked about the public story of how she got the song recording).

On second thought make that, "Yes, why?"

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'I am a member of an Elven community that has persisted since the days you speak of. It is surprising to hear those ancient memories come to life. I would be interested in meeting you if you are interested, or in learning news of Valinor depending when you left it.'

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Annie informs Rirosseth of this development.

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"Well. Okay."

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"Do you think it's a good idea to meet them?"

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"...no, not especially, I can't think what you'd gain from it and what if it's somehow a trick - but I might be overprotective -"

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"Well, probably, but it really doesn't have a ton of upside compared to emailing..."

She writes back that she wasn't involved in current events very much in Valinor with all the orc de-oathing and this was thirty thousand years ago but might have information on some things, what is it they want to know?

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What year did she die?

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400ish in the Second Age.

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In that case they might be able to help her? They managed to talk the Valar into letting a bunch of malcontents leave a few centuries into the Fourth Age.

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Oh, where are they?

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They've got a place in Michigan and one in Europe.

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What were they malcontented about?

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They preferred living outside Valinor. They'd never gone there in the first place, mostly ended up there by dying.

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Do these malcontents have email addresses of their own by any chance?

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There are dozens of them; does she have anyone in particular in mind?

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Anybody who'd be willing to be emailed? She doesn't know who over the course of an additional couple Ages might have conceived a desire to move out and doesn't particularly expect anyone she knew before, but it would be nice to be in touch with more people who knew Arda before it was this thing it is now.

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She gets a list of email addresses and short biographies

- born in Middle-earth in the late Second Age, died in the middle of the Third, reembodied in time to help petition to leave again -

- born in Middle-earth in Doriath just before it was destroyed, died in the war against Sauron at the end of the Second Age -

- born in Valinor in the late Second Age -

- travelled to Valinor in the early fourth age, begged permission to leave again -

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Any of this sound particularly promising to Rirosseth?

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Probably not the people who survived or died in the sack of Doriath. In fact, given the presence of those people, if her father is among them he's probably assumed a new identity.

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Well, presumably if she sends them all links to the magic song website anyone who knew Annie will recognize the story.

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True. She should do that.

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So she does.

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It takes him a while to get around to reading it. 

 


When he does, though, he emails back at once. Annie? I'm so glad you're all right. Where are you?

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...does Istarno's family want him to know where they are?

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Yeah, of - course? Well, not of course, but. Yeah. 

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"Seemed worth checking. Should we ask the others...?"

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"We should probably warn my mother. I have - no idea - how that'll go."

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"Me either. You'd know more about how to phrase it than I would."

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"Yeah. I might think about it for a little."

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"Fortunately Elves aren't impatient and your dad is one."

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"Whereas my poor mother is obviously a Dwarf soul stuck in a slow-maturing Elf body."

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Giggle. "Or something."

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"Something that might react unpredictably to her estranged husband - they had a very bitter fight when we left -"

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Nod. "I want to see him but I can just go to him instead of telling him where here is if that's better."

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"Let me at least see how my mother takes it."

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"Of course."

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She raises it the next time she sees her.

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"He left?"

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"Apparently."

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"Interesting."

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"I wanted to invite him over."

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"Did you."

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"Mother."

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"You can have whatever visitors you want."

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...well. That's technically the thing it needs to be.

Istarno receives directions to the castle and is informed of which of his family members are there at the moment and Annie and Rirosseth could just meet him somewhere nearer the airport if that would be less awkward or something.

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Do you prefer that? It would certainly be less awkward.

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I don't really know how to predict how unpleasantly awkward it will be if you come here. We could meet you and then bring you back if that seems like a good idea at the time?

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That works for me.

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So out go Annie and Rirosseth.

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He waves at them and tilts his head at his daughter before hugging Annie. "I'm so glad you're all right."

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"Me too. It's really good to see you again. - I didn't wind up leaving an artifact, did I, I was worried I might have surprised you with one -"

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"No, you didn't -" Squeeze. "How -"

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"I'm as mystified by the reincarnation as I sound online, honest, it could be an artifact or Eru or some other thing..."

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Sigh. "Well. I'm very glad of it, however it occurred. 

 

- Rirosseth?"

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"Yeah."

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"You doing all right?"

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"Annie's alive."

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He considers her for a minute. Then he hugs her. 

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Aww.

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She starts crying. "I'm so sorry, I'm so sorry, I'm so sorry - I never wanted to hurt anyone -"

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"I don't know what to do and I don't trust myself to figure it out - it might just be that way forever, that what I am is -"

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"...it was very stupid," he says, "and very wrong, and I am very disappointed in you, and I think most inferences about your character I try to draw from it would be wildly mistaken, both because you are - and were, by the time you killed people - very different from the person who made that oath and because - it was all fated, you were set up -"

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She clings to him and cries.

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Annie shivers and doesn't intrude.

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"...anyway," he says after a minute. "I'm glad you two found each other. What are you doing?"

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"Going public about magic, as you saw."

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Nod. "What've you been up to?"

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"Not much. The Elves I returned from Valinor with have a landscaping company and do video game art."

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"Sounds appropriate. When Rirosseth found me I was in Sierra Leone - I found out what my mystery benefit is, it disintegrates bugs on contact, I guess bugs didn't land on me much in Arda. So a bunch of people in Sierra Leone have that now and will not get mosquito-related diseases but I think it's possible to be more efficient."

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"Oh, excellent. ...and yes, probably. Do you have ideas or are you thinking the public attention will ensure someone with a good idea shares it?"

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"If nothing else more centralized mosquito-killing and healing distribution - once people believe in magic and I can have more structure around it - would be an improvement over driving alone to random villages and convincing people individually that I have powers. I can't scale up the power-sharing, though, so the songs will probably have more total impact..."

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"I don't think Macalaurië was optimizing for human humanitarian concerns, maybe she can compose some that work well for recordings and well for modern problems."

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"That'd be good. When figuring out which song to deploy first I decided against weather because a lot of people messing with those at once would probably be a major disaster of some meteorologically unpredictable kind, maybe there are ways to develop songs that do things that would have that problem in such a way that they instead don't."

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"Probably. The problem is that song development's slow."

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"Yeah. I do sort of wonder if there's a way to automate any of it, not so much because I know anything about the state of automated music production as because if there were a way to do that it wouldn't have been discovered already."

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"We can ask Macalaurië."

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Nod. "She hasn't come up here yet."

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"She's touring."

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"I know, I've seen her. I was not sure it was wise to say hello."

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Sigh.

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"You all right?"

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"I'm fine, just - that must've been hard."

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"Watching them all go off to die and then sitting around waiting for the news they'd predictably died was hard. Watching my daughter sing will always be a pleasure."

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...nod.

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"Mum didn't say you couldn't come home with us but she made it clear it'd be awkward."

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"Whatever you two think is wise."

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"I really don't know what to think," sighs Annie.

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"Can I provide useful input?"

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"You probably know more than I do about how awkward it would be and whether that would be enough to make you regret coming. I've barely spoken to Fëanárë and that was mostly about the language thing and her plan to make me immortal."

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"Sounds like she hasn't changed at all."

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"She hasn't."

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"Mind, I do really appreciate the planning to make me immortal thing especially having tried the other option."

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"I do not mean it as unqualified criticism."

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"It's probably possible you could visit the castle and just not run into her if you didn't want to."

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"I do not think that option appeals to me. I can go talk to my wife, or I can not do that, but I don't really want to skulk around avoiding each other."

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"Fair enough. I don't really feel qualified to have an opinion on which you should do."

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"Neither of you need to worry about it."

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"Okay. ...I'm glad you're here, I was expecting it to be prohibitively difficult to ever see you again if you were still in Valinor."

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"Yes, I expect it would have been. The Valar haven't gotten more open to visitors. ...when Eru rounded the world he did make a place for orcs. And Mandos finally reembodied them."

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"Oh good - where are they?"

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"I don't think it's any more reachable from here than Valinor is."

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"I don't really get how these hidden continents aren't having more of an effect on anything."

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"I think they're - farther away than 'continent' suggests."

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"Other planets? On the moon?"

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"I really don't know. That's closer."

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"Well, I'm glad the orcs are okay."

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"Yeah."

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"Did I miss anything much in Valinor between when I died and you left, besides the orcs getting a home?"

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"Kind of a lot. I'm not sure where to start, actually."

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"...chronological order?"

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They started reembodying some of the dead Noldor. Not those loyal to your house. They stopped travel to Númenor because it was exacerbating destabilizing tendencies, or something. Humans tried to invade Valinor. The Valar made them all immortal as they'd wanted - not just 'don't age', 'don't die' - and then trapped them under several miles of rock. 

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People tried talking with them about it. People tried digging them out, too. 

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Are they magically impossible to dig out or something - miles is a lot of rock but it's been so long -

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The Valar collapsed a mountain range on them, we didn't even know where exactly we were digging for, and we weren't really optimistic that once they were out the Valar'd be like 'oh, all right, you can go now'. But I left four thousand years later, it's possible they've gotten them out since. 

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Nod.

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Anyhow, after that they decided they should act less directly against evils, so they sent five Maia volunteers with their powers dramatically restricted to go serve as advisors of the free peoples of the world in the war with Sauron.

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That... sounds... inadequate.

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I mean, it was superior to both 'nothing' and 'genocide', the two solutions they'd been seen to employ up to that point.

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I will give it that.

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And it worked, Sauron got killed and the victors of the war came home to Valinor to reunite with the loved ones they'd lost during the war. I met Eliel. And then one of the famous war heroes of that age petitioned to be allowed to leave again, and she was graceful about it and got it, and some came along. I went.

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Do the people you went with know who you are?

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Some have probably guessed.

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Nod.

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They shouldn't meet you. To Rirosseth.

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I know.

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Annie leans her head on Rirosseth's shoulder and sighs.

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Are you two doing okay?

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Yeah.

I didn't realize till she found me this was still Arda, again, I thought the worldhopping artifact had a double trigger and kicked in when I died and reincarnated me - somewhere - and that I'd have to do my life over a billion times to get back to her -

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I'm glad you don't have to do that.

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It would have gotten very wearing.

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One imagines. 

 

All right, I think I will come home with you.

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Okay.

Car's this way.

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He is quiet for the ride.

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That's okay. Annie finds herself short on things to say too. She writes down the news from Valinor.

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And they pull into view of the house. "You did very nicely."

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"Thanks."

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He goes inside.

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She shows him to a guest room. 

 

And - Mom? Dad's home.

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Is he. Is he doing anything?

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Just settling in, I think.

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Don't interrupt my work unless it's urgent, please.

 

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Sigh. She gets herself and Annie a snack.

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Snacks are good things to have. Annie tells Istarno where to find his other applicable offspring.

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Eventually he comes down for snacks.

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And she comes up.

 

They stare at each other.

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"I forgive you for what you did to our children," he says.

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"I forgive you for abandoning them to it."

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"I'd find it tremendously reassuring to hear that you have a failure analysis on the project."

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"A consequence analysis, maybe. If you try to fight fate you die. If you accept it, you live comfortably. I'm going to keep fighting it anyway."

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"Without any more oaths."

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"Yes, that assumed a level of confidence in peoples' rationality and capacity to respond to incentives which was in hindsight wildly optimistic."

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"Fëanáre -"

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"I have no idea why you're here and am going to be on edge until you enlighten me, care to?"

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"I would like to get to know you."

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"I'm busy." She takes a sandwich and leaves.

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Well that was... awkward isn't even the word, it was too sharp to be awkward.

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Let's go back to bed, dear.

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Okay.

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They'll work it out, they'll just be very Elf-paced about it.

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I hope so.

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I wasn't sure this morning but I'm sure now.

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You're the expert.

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My dad's the expert. I got it all from him - well, not really, I think I got the ambition from my mother.

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Well, you're sufficiently expert that I'll trust your expectation instead of fretting about it.

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Good. I disapprove of you fretting.

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Nuzzle. I bet even if I were inclined to do it anyway you could distract me.

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Could I now.

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I bet.

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She will try it.

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Annie was right. Rirosseth is in fact very capable of distracting her.

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Oh, good.

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It is. It is good.

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The next time they go downstairs her mother is diagramming something in the kitchen and absently eating.

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"He's outside."

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"We were looking for food, actually, is that in here?"

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"Yes."

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Annie does like being able to scan the kitchen for food without having to open all the cupboards. She finds some edibles and assembles them.

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Sandwiches are good. "He loves you, you know."

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"At one point we made the mistake of letting you mediate for us and it was unfair to you and we are both of us determined not to do it."

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"But see, now I'm older than either of you and have no innocence to ruin."

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"Older than me I'll grant, but -"

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"Mass murder for Elves is like excessive sun exposure for mortals, it ages you prematurely."

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...do Elves not sunburn? She's never asked. The question is not important enough to be promoted to conversational attention right now. Annie writes it down.

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"We don't need a mediator."

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"Then perhaps your relationship is so strong as to be resilient to meddling."

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"It's amazing anyone ever liked you."

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She flinches.

 

"They didn't stop when they should have. And no one who loved you stopped either."

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She leaves.

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...Annie swallows her bite of sandwich and nuzzles Rirosseth's shoulder.

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Nuzzle. Sigh. They're going to be fine.

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She shouldn't have said that to you, it was completely uncalled for.

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Yes, I know. There are two ways to have a good relationship with my mother and one of them is to agree with her and the other one is to let it slide when she does that. It's frustrating. 

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Why does she do that?

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She needs to know that people love her and 'will forgive her when she hurts them' is occasionally the only accessible way of checking that she has. She realizes it's counterproductive but finds it intolerable to be in a state of uncertainty about whether people love her and would prefer 'I get angry and leave her' to 'she is uncertain whether I would'.

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It's really frustrating. She's also been working really hard for the last several centuries to get scalable immortality and the other engineering things we'll need to take a human society to the stars, so. Complicated.

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...would she stop if people called her on being vicious to them, or...?

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No, of course not. All it'd damage was my relationship with her, but since I respect her - uh, at low resolution, if not at high resolution - I don't want to damage that.

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I'm mostly wondering how firmly I have to clamp down on impulses to defend you.

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You do not need to worry that anything important will fall apart if you defend me, but you probably shouldn't be too optimistic she'll improve.

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It would not be a rational, constructive sort of impulse particularly.

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Hug. It's okay. I understand her well enough that I'm mostly sad for her when she lashes out.

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Snuggle. Okay.

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My father was good at getting her to - not do that - but it'll be a while before they're at that place with each other. ...I bet my mother'd do really well with the love thing if only we could be sure how it'd target. 

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If only we knew where the orcs were we could ask them.

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That'd be nice.

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Sigh. Well. Maybe it will turn out that some of them have been secretly living in New Guinea all along and one of them will email me eventually. Failing that...

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Not worth the risk.

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Is there risk inherent to trying to find them?

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Probably not but not definitely not, I don't want to get the attention of the Valar again.

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Yeah. Sigh, lean.

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Hug. I love you. 

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I love you too.

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I'm glad everything you did for the orcs - counted.

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Me too. Didn't earn me enough credit with the Valar but at least it worked out for the orcs. I hope they're happy.

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Valar would've come around if we'd just gotten you immortality in time -

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What do you mean we, you were dead.

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I should have done more to make it happen sooner while I was alive.

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...like what?

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Been one of the technical geniuses of the family. Ordered resources devoted to it the first time I met a human.

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Those don't seem like predictable mistakes.

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Maybe not.

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Not that it wouldn't have been great if you'd anticipated wanting immortal humans down the line but you were kind of swamped.

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Not like focusing on the war did any good -

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You couldn't have known that.

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No, I couldn't have.

 

Kiss.

Let's go check the repercussions of your magic revelations.

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Okay.

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Back upstairs to read the internet firestorm!

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Somebody has used the magic song to claim the Randi Prize and wants to give Annie half the money. A nurse has been fired for singing it to his patients (if his story is to be believed) and it didn't work anyway for some reason. An excited music theory nerd has written 18 pages on the characteristics of the song. Somebody's trying to set up a clinical trial, does Annie know if there's a way to blind the study so people don't know if they're getting the real song or not if they're unable to get ahold of people who've definitely never heard it?

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"None of that's too bad - release some other ones, you think?"

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"Maybe - which next, though - and is there a way to blind that study - and what bank account should I have our half of the prize sent to or should I just turn it down, I don't know if we're rich enough that half a million dollars is nothing -" She forwards the music theory nerd's email to Lírnith, recommends to the nurse that it's not guaranteed to work if reproduced by an amateur singer but should work consistently off the recording.

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"We can ask Laurië to sing something that's close but wrong and not magic, half a million dollars isn't much but it's rather telling that it's not -"

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"I could come up with another reason to turn it down, I could say I don't want to give out my bank account information or that since it was their idea to try for the prize it's all theirs or something."

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"As someone who worked for the government for a while it's possible to accept half a million untraceably but not easy."

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Nod. "And I'm not pretending to be somebody who'd know how to do that particularly."

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"So maybe tell 'em to give it to charity."

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"That works too." She rummages around and picks a nice charity. Marisol would tell her to give it to the Peace Corps but there's probably something better, personal connection or no.

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Annie has such good priorities. She scrolls through the internet reactions some more and considers what other songs to give out - sleep might be safe enough -

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Annie can think of ways it could be used unsafely (coming up next on Radio You Listen To While Driving!) but honestly that's true of most of them. What's the duration and onset time?

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Varies, it's one of those with a bunch of variants.

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So maybe one that takes a while to kick in and doesn't last too long and if nothing horrible happens with that they can maybe release heavier-duty versions.

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She solicits one that meets these criteria from her sister.

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And when it's ready up it goes.

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"This is so much fun."

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"It is."

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"I love you so much."

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"I love you too."

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Curufinwë emails them a state-of-the-immortality-research and asks if they think it's worthwhile to spread more widely now that magic's out of the bag.

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Well, how much could it be reasonably crowdsourced?

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Not crowdsourced, but if a lot of physics and engineering labs suddenly took interest that'd be a boost.

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They could directly contact some of those? She's worried that general hype will lead to people freaking out and wanting it faster in ways they can't meaningfully help with and other people having, like, religious objections or something.

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Curufin agrees that that sounds reasonable.

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She is willing to interface with labs if there's a reason for her to be the face of that project too but she's probably not best suited.

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Curufin has a physics-professor identity, finally, so she's happy to handle it.

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"The 'finally' is because she tried in the seventies and got stonewalled and ended up intensely frustrated with humans."

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"Sexism or something else?"

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"I think mostly that? The gender roles here are just really weird, she didn't have a clue how to navigate them."

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"I got to skip some of it by being miraculous and blind, which together got me out of having to do things like learn to sew even though my foster parents are very gender-roles-y."

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"I can sew, but I can also strip a tree into a longbow and forge a sword. Valinor was useful for some things, and those ones weren't gendered back then."

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"I have nothing specifically against sewing but it doesn't interest me and all of the non-blind non-miraculous girls in the house had to learn it."

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"I am really upset by your adoptive parents."

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"Technically never adopted me. They asked me once if I wanted them to finish up the paperwork on that and I made up some bullshit about God being my father and they bought it."

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"Why -"

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"Well, I had pretty decent parents the first time around and I assume they're dead now but they managed to get me as far as adulthood first, subsequent events notwithstanding, so I didn't feel the need to acknowledge surrogates. Bad surrogates."

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Hug. "We could do something about them -"

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"I think they're done adopting kids now and the youngest'll be eighteen next March."

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"I will defer to your judgment."

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"I'm not even sure they're unusually bad. Lots of humans are very religious. Lots of kids grow up in rural India."

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"I consider most things about modern Earth totally unacceptable. But most parents raising their kids in rural India also don't have a choice about it."

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"There is that. But there's not necessarily more to be gained by attacking the vetting procedure for American foster parents than by giving actual Indians more options."

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"Yeah. Which we can do. With our outrageous sums of money, if not directly with magic."

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"Money is not to be underestimated as a way of doing things!"

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"How would you apply money to the problem of rural India?"

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"I only saw the one village, is this hypothetical enough that I can lazily generalize?"

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"I wasn't planning to go drop a hundred million dollars out of a helicopter today."

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Giggle. "Okay, if you assume all villages in India are the same in the relevant features -" Here are Annie's accumulated ideas for where money could go.

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They can totally look into those.

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Yay.

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Yeah.