There's a total lunar eclipse two weeks later, the first one since January 2001. That semiquarter and most of the next pass without much more noise. Jackson is occasionally sad because of his dom's electric toy, and he's occasionally more stripey than he wishes to be, but there's not a whole lot Sadde can do about that. Against his hopes, Mason doesn't dump Jackson, and nothing gives.
Sadde continues socializing with people, but no one new. And as the semiquarter approaches its end and summer break gets closer, Sadde receives an email from Tobias, saying that he fully expects his daughter to come home and tell everyone all about her first half year at magic school.
The email tells Sadde to behave.
Sadde is not in a good place.
"There's some things, but mostly things I can sort of aim at just over the course of thinking in general. Like, I'm stopping formally concentrating on eidetic memory once I have it going forward; but I can still try a little bit harder to force memories to the surface when I remember earlier events, and eventually it might stretch to cover that. I can try to think faster and more clearly, whenever I'm thinking about things. I don't want to fall into the trap of self-optimizing so hard that I can't do anything anyone else can verify in a decade."
"My lovely. I know this is going to be horrible and difficult and I wish I didn't have to tell you this. But you're my most precious possession and my best, my only, tool for keeping you safe and bringing you back to me. I need you to do that. Pretend, for two weeks pretend, for me, that you're who he thinks you are, because - because he deserves so much less than the real you and he'll prove it if he gets anything outside of his expectations, and because you are mine and I want you returned in excellent condition, on time. Do what you have to do to come back to me, pet."
She kisses his forehead, and then his lips.
"Understood?"
"Okay." Pet pet pet. "Went to Six Flags with Alex and a couple of his friends. Made the mistake of wearing jeans on the log flume, it chafed all day, they don't sell pants at the souvenir stands. Alex started camp counselor training towards the end of the break, he's going to teach little kids to make gimp bracelets and sing cheesy songs and toast marshmallows, he's excited about it. Renée taught us to make lemon meringue pie, which I'm sure will come up routinely in my life - it was delicious though. I tagged along to a meeting of her book club because I'd read the book but it was really boring and I wound up not saying anything and thinking about magic the entire time."
"...I—" He breathes deeply, then exhales slowly, and thinks. "I don't know. Pr—probably not. He'd—I'd—he'd have made me—I wouldn't—have come back. I think. He kept—praising me, for what a good girl I was being, how well-behaved I was, and I felt good when he did, damn it."
He clears his throat and tries again. "I said I don't think I'll forget me. It may—if I spend too long, like that. It may take a while. For me to—remember. But it's—I guess—it was an experiment. I—" He shakes his head against her legs. "I know I can survive it, now. I think."
She butters him some of the complimentary bread. "One slice. I mean it about four desserts, you ought to have something nice today."
She pets him - she does not actually remove her hand from him at any point during the trip back to her room except when she needs to grab the handrail for exiting the bus - and then there they are in their dorm and she takes the desserts and puts them in her minifridge and hops up on her bed and pats her lap.
"Yeah. He was... nice to me, for the first time in my life. He let me interact with my half-siblings—well, Sarah, Jonathan has unfortunately inherited his tendency to think subs aren't quite human. Sarah's nice, she wants to be a doctor when she grows up and she has a crush on this dom at her school named, funnily enough, Dominic. I tried to give her some tips on flirting, I hope they help."
"That was at the start. But it... wore on. Tobias made the occasional remark about girl doms and boy subs, hiding them in ways you don't really notice until you think about it for a second. And I couldn't say anything, I kept remembering what you said, I had to come back to you."
"Stuff like, like he'd be talking about a famous person and then say something bad about them and subtly imply it was because of their misaligned role, I don't even know anymore, I stopped paying attention by the end, it was just noise. But I can deal with that, that's pretty normal, it's just, every time he did I felt like I was betraying myself a little, for not speaking up."
"But then there was the thing I said, about how he kinda makes you like him, he's so agreeable when he's not—that. So there's that thing I said, how I—liked it. When he praised me. And I focused more and more on the thing I promised you I'd do, because without that, and without my resistance, he'd—subsume me."
"Sure, just don't walk out with it," says the shop person.
She clips it back on. "Let's make sure you don't trip me," she says, and she tugs him down the aisle.
Isabella pulls and tries, in sequence, a chain one that more closely matches the collar and jingles; a woven one that she ultimately decides "bears a little too much resemblance to a dog leash"; braided cord which comes in a variety of colors; and a different style of leather.