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every green tree is far more glorious
the war with sauron in velgarth starts several years earlier, and Green acquires some refugees
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As soon as Vanyel has been in contact with their Tayledras allies, and received confirmation that Haven was destroyed and is now occupied by an army carrying Vkandis' standard, Vanyel calls an urgent strategy meeting. 

Eighteen months ago, they won the war with Melkor, and Vanyel thought it was over. Now there's going to be another goddamned war, and Vanyel's pointless, petty thought is that it's really very rude of reality to spring this on them now. It's easier to dwell on this irritation than on the fact that nearly everyone he's ever known, including - almost certainly - his fourteen-year-old daughter, is dead. 

"I realize this is absolutely horrendous timing on multiple levels, but - we can't stay here and we can't risk Vinyamar either. We need to evacuate, now. To - I mean, obviously to somewhere that no one who was in Haven would know about. But where we can do Gates, because I think we're going to need that flexibility. We need to contact Leareth's organization and figure out what they know. ...We can't take Leareth with us. I was thinking we could evacuate noncombatants to Valinor, it's going to be somewhat safer, but -" 

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"- But the obvious problem is that Leareth is banned from Valinor. Unless Melody re-blocks all his Gifts." 

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"I don't want to do that to him. I - think it would be a huge setback, at this point, this is really godawful timing and - it's going to be bad enough, having to tell him that this is happening. Which, by the way, is that a job you're going to leave me saddled with?" 

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Sigh. "I'll tell him. I had been really, really hoping it...wasn't going to be this." 

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Stef glances around the table. "Do we have any alternatives. Er, Van, what about that - whatever it was you thought you'd found, when you were Gate-exploring...?" 

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"...Huh. I hadn't really thought of that, but - maybe." 

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The conversation with Leareth does not exactly go well. Vanyel feels terrible about it. Leareth is doing vastly better in so many ways, but he's still very reliant on their support, and 'immediately after finding out that Velgarth is in danger - and that all of them have been keeping a critical secret from him this whole time - is the worst moment to lose that. But he doesn't actually see that they have a choice. 

Melody will go with him. Vanyel is awfully tempted to send Stef with him - even Valinor doesn't feel safe enough for his lifebonded - but, as Stef points out, being in different worlds will be debilitating for both of them. 

He leaves Leareth to spend a few last precious candlemarks with Maitimo, and re-attacks the Gate exploration problem. He didn't pursue it further before, but he was pretty sure there was something there, a stable destination on the other side of the Void - 

 

There is, in fact, something there. His first test Gate appears in the middle of an ocean, but a couple of additional trials confirm that this is a planet, with life on it, and cities, albeit very strange ones. 

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Leareth is mostly past panic and deep into exhausted resignation. He asks to be asleep for the Gate transfer, because he's not sure that right now he's capable of making a conscious decision to say goodbye and possibly never see any of them again. 

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Vanyel does his best to drop the threshold of his final full-sized Gate in the midst of one of the cities, but his 'aim' is rather haphazard.

The Gate lands in the parking lot of a grocery store (not that Vanyel recognizes either of these things, per se). From the perspective of anyone watching, a glowing door-sized rectangle appears out of thin air, flashes brightly, and then shows the stone walls of Vanyel's Work Room (which are kind of absurdly covered in beautiful carved bas-relief images.) 

"All right, go," he says tightly. "I can't hold this for long."

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This is incredibly nerve-wracking! Melody is desperately wishing she could have had more than three candlemarks' of warning about this! Though it is, to be fair, significantly more warning than she had when she last left Valdemar. She had time to pack and everything. 

And if it's this uncomfortable for her, she can't even imagine how terrifying it would be for Leareth to face it on his own. 

Vanyel said there were people here, who at least looked human at a glance, and that he was going to try to drop them in an inhabited area so that she could ask the locals about their willingness to shelter a couple of refugees from another world. 

She shoulders her pack and walks through the Gate, and immediately extends her Thoughtsensing as well as looking around in all directions. 

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An old man carrying a bag full of fruit and bread and cheese, approaching his nyoom, is very startled by this eventuality! He doesn't drop the bag on the ground but it's a near thing, he swings it awkwardly into the nyoom's basket.

She has also startled two dogs, a crow carrying a grocery list, and a family of six, but the old man is closest.

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That's a crow carrying what? Melody blinks mildly at the scene in front of her for several seconds before she manages to find a semblance of composure. 

:I'm very sorry to bother you, but I'm from another world and there's a very dangerous war happening there. I need to know if - if it would be possible for me and, er, one other person to stay here for a while, so we're out of the way of it: She can explain all the complications related to the fact that the other person is Leareth later, once Vanyel isn't holding a Gate open. 

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"- you trying to tell me there's a war in space and it's coming here?" says the old man.

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It's just bizarre how agonizingly awkward and stressful this interaction is! ...Maybe not that inexplicable. It feels high stakes because it is, they - don't really have a fallback plan better than Valinor, which may or may not actually be safe anyway, and whatever Vanyel says, Melody feels very uncomfortable about the idea of getting dumped here without having first had some kind of conversation with one of the locals. Not that they've got much time for it. 

 

:No! Definitely not! The, er, parties responsible for the war have no way of knowing or caring that your world exists, so we'll be safe here, and for um complicated reasons that would take too long to explain, my - friend - can't evacuate to the usual place: 

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"You obviously know my world exists. Don't like the sound of reasons that would take too long to explain, either."

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Gaaaaaaah this is not going how Melody had hoped at all. Not that she's sure what she was expecting, exactly. Maybe she should have tried to start this conversation with literally anyone else. 

She doesn't want to make Vanyel exhaust himself by holding the Gate for half a candlemark, but what is she supposed to do with Leareth if Vanyel dumps him through the Gate here and now and leaves? One of Maitimo's staff is available to carry him across, but the ground is all stone or some kind of cement, she can't just plop him down there and she certainly can't carry him herself. 

:We do, but it wasn't of particular interest before: Because Vanyel hadn't picked up on any hint of magic, locally. :I expect it would be of even less interest to the enemy our world is facing, and that leaving the two of us here wouldn't make much difference either way, since there's no way to track our Gate or locate us once we're here. And - if something does come up we can leave again: 

In theory. Ish. It would require unblocking Leareth's mage-gift and trusting him to embark on more Gate research, which nobody is in any rush to do. 

Melody bites down the urge to snap 'well, if Vanyel leaves us here what are you going to do, kick us out.'  :Is there someone else I should talk to about this?: she says instead, calm and measured. 

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"You want I should phone the government?" asks the old man.

The mother of the family is taking pictures of the Gate; the rest of her group has left.

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This is the moment that Vanyel picks to stick his head through the Gate. :Melody is there a problem I really can't hold this much longer: 

He notices the mother taking pictures, and smiles and waves. 

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:I...don't think so? This place seems - organized: And notably wealthy, too, going off the sheer quantity of paved road and glass storefront windows and the bountiful food being carried out of the market. :Just - some understandable reluctance around a war potentially putting them in danger: 

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:Interworld Gates shouldn't be traceable, even if we weren't doing this behind shields: 

He makes eye contact with the mother again, since she looks - friendlier. :Excuse me. Is there anyplace sort of close by where we can put a sleeping person. It's complicated, Melody will explain after: 

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And Melody should probably stop ignoring the old man, even if he's mostly been unhelpful so far. She's understanding him at all only by dint of skimming the words in his surface thoughts and she still has no idea what a 'phone' is, though in context it's probably a mode of communication? 

:- Um, yes, I think so?: 

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"They'd think I was crazy," snorts the old man. "Heck*, maybe I am. Your process is terrible. Should've gone to the government to start out."

He boards his nyoom and nyooms away.

* Literally "burr" - the kind of seed that sticks to you.

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How is she supposed to go to the government to start with, she has no idea who or where the government of this place is– nevermind, not productive to get into an argument with the old man about it. 

Sigh. 

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Vanyel, now putting substantial effort into not falling over, repeats his question to the mother taking pictures, and then extends his Thoughtsensing further - is there anyone inside the market-looking building who going off surface thoughts seems to know what's going on or be in charge? 

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The market's coming up on closing time; there are a few workers there, none of whom seem very in charge of anything larger than the dairy counter.

"Uh," says the woman taking the pictures, "you... shouldn't put a sleeping person in the parking lot. There's a bench over there?" She points. There are a bunch of benches, actually.

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:Oh. Good. Thank you: Vanyel's vision is starting to go hazy and grey around the edges; he can't actually make out the benches. :Melody, can I leave this with you? I'm sorry about the awkwardness, just -: 

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:I am slightly starting to wish we'd gone with the plan of arriving in the wilderness and camping out for a while until we felt ready to contact the locals!: Leareth is going to find this place so overstimulating. Which does leave Melody very relieved that he asked not to be conscious for the travel over; this is daunting enough without also having to juggle Leareth's emotional state, and she honestly has very little idea how well or poorly he's going to cope. :- It's fine. I'll manage: 

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One of the Quendi on Maitimo's staff, who is very tall and, close up, visibly not-exactly human, marches through the Gate and follows Melody to the nearest of the benches pointed out, where he deposits a limp, sleeping Leareth before breaking into a run back to the Gate. 

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:Sorry: Vanyel manages, and ducks back across, and the Gate snaps down and vanishes. 

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Great. Now what. 

Melody...is maybe just going to sit down on this bench as well and wait to see if anyone approaches her and what they say. 

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The lady takes another picture. Taps on her phone a little bit, texting her husband.

"Do you... need an ambulance?" she asks, when she's done with that.

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Melody squints at her. :I have no idea what that is, sorry. I– right, I should explain. My name is Melody and this is Leareth and we - came here from a different world, using transport magic called a Gate - what you just saw - because there's a war there and it was too dangerous for him to stay. I think we should probably talk to someone from your local authorities but I confess we did this all in a massive rush and without really having a plan. ...Your world isn't at risk from the war, or, er, not more than it would have been either way, we aren't traceable to here: 

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"Uh. Okay. I'm going to go ahead and call an ambulance. In case you have the space flu."

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Melody is suddenly feeling very, very tired. :...All right. I appreciate your help. What...is going to happen once you do that. I still don't know what an 'ambulance' is: She could maybe get further if she were reading surface thoughts more thoroughly but she tries not to make a habit of that. 

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"They'll show up with a truck and paramedics and take you guys to a hospital. They'll have an iso room." She's typing to emergency services in the process.

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This continues to consist significantly of unfamiliar word-concepts flashing by in the woman's surface thoughts too quickly to parse, but Melody is making somewhat more sense of it now. :So like a - wagon? And trained Healers and they'll take us to your equivalent of a House of Healing. Um. Are there likely to be...loud noises involved. Or a lot of people at once. - I'm trying to decide if I should wake Leareth and explain the plan or if I should at all costs not let him wake up until we've arrived wherever it is and can be left in peace and quiet: 

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"Sometimes ambulances make loud noises, yeah, if the road's crowded. Is he allergic?"

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Is he what. That is also not entirely parsing. Melody frowns, trying to decide how much to say. 

:He, er, had a very bad time of it during the last war in our world, that was a couple of years ago, and he panics or gets scared about a lot of things, still. It's likely to come up for a lot of different things but noise and crowds seemed like obvious ones to check: 

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"I don't need his entire medical history, 'he's allergic to loud noises and crowds' is enough for calling an ambulance." She adds to the text.

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It turns out that Mindspeech is not an instant solution to speaking totally different languages because Melody still isn't following what that word means. Hopefully whatever is actually being communicated to the Healers responding is accurate and not totally misleading. 

She starts fidgeting with her sleeve, catches herself and tries to stop, and then finds herself instead smoothing down her robes across her lap and twisting the strap of her pack between her fingers and tugging absently at her ear. 

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The local considers giving Melody a spare fidget toy and then realizes that her least favorite is now the property of her second daughter. Oh well.

The ambulance, when it arrives, doesn't have its siren on, though it does have flashing lights. The paramedics have full face masks on, and gloves, and they set about putting Leareth on a stretcher.

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Melody stares at the ambulance in some amazement. Glances over at the woman, since she doesn't want to distract the Healers. :How...does it move...?: 

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Leareth was managing to sleep through someone talking nearby, but it's a lot harder to sleep through being TOUCHED and PICKED UP, which is also an extremely disorienting thing to wake up to, and he has no idea where he is - extending his Othersenses doesn't help with this, Melody is there but other than that everyone nearby is a stranger and there's absolutely no sign of wards or shielding or actually any kind of magic whatsoever, other than his own shield-talisman and Melody's - 

 

- right, he was expecting to wake up in unfamiliar surroundings, they had that entire conversation before he asked to be sung to sleep. Which means everything is...probably still going according to plan? And next up in the plan is that Melody will handle explaining things to the locals and he just needs to stay calm until something is sorted out. 

Leareth would still intensely prefer that things be going according to a different plan. This plan is stressful. He cannot really do 'stay calm' but he can at least manage holding still. In some sense, holding still is the easiest way to respond. He's not sure he could move even if he wanted to. 

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Oh, he's awake. Somewhat non-ideal. 

:Leareth, we're in the other world. Van dropped us off in a city. One of the locals - wanted to call in some Healers to take us somewhere and, er, I think make sure we're not carrying a disease from our world? Other than that, no problems. Would you rather be asleep until we get to wherever we're going?: 

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:...No: He is, instead, going to read everyone's mind (a lot more thoroughly than Melody has been doing) to try to form his own sense of what sort of place they're in and what the locals are thinking. 

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Woman who called the ambulance: tries for about a second to come up with a concise explanation of electric motors, decides to just fall back on "It goes by electricity," is now trying to recall exactly the circumstances under which she gave her daughter her least favorite fidget. It's not the same one that daughter's been coveting, that one she still has...

Paramedic 1: the iso seems like overkill but he broadly approves of "if somebody wants an ambulance they get an ambulance" as a policy and they did already have iso gear. These do not look like aliens though. They look like folks. Mnemonic for safely transferring onto a stretcher goes like...

Paramedic 2: Guy's not unconscious any more. Does look kind of out of it. Is this lady his wife or his friend or his sister or what? Is she going to come with in the - oh, right, she's supposedly an alien, that's what the iso gear is for. Oh, she should - "Ma'am," he says to the ambulance-caller, "if you think they might have something you should go straight home and hole up in an isolated room of your house, and then we can get you the quarantine reward to keep doing it if they turn out to have something."

Ambulance-caller nods. She can swap rooms with her brother-in-law who lives in the attic, he'd rather have hers anyway and his is inconvenient to get in and out of but ideal if you aren't going anywhere.

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So far everyone sounds calm and helpful? Though also it seems like maybe Melody has not, actually, explained very much of the situation to them. This is moderately stressful - what if they don't want to keep being helpful once they have context - but Leareth is not eager to be the one explaining. 

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Melody follows them into the ambulance. :Thank you so much for your help: she says to the woman who called the ambulance for them. And to the paramedics, :- er, I think I owe someone a more thorough explanation of why we're here and, um, some of the background, but I can wait until we get to wherever we're going, if that's easier: 

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"- whoa, you really are telepathic," breathes Paramedic 1.

"Give us the twelve second version?" says Paramedic 2, as the driver (who is mostly thinking about not hitting anything, and about the music he has on) pulls out of the grocery store parking lot.

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Twelve second version, right. :Er, there's a war in the world we're both from, called Velgarth, involving some very powerful gods. Leareth played a key part in winning the last war with a similar enemy, which we won a couple of years ago. So he's especially likely to be a target now, and he was - injured, in the last war, and isn't fully recovered. And for complicated reasons isn't allowed in the place where we're evacuating the rest of the noncombatants. We have magic that can transport people between worlds, and - we don't actually know very much about this one, just that it's inhabited and has cities, but staying here seemed like the safest option. We won't cause any trouble: 

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"Gosh," says Paramedic 1. "Uh, I guess we aren't exactly the people you'd go to about that but I'm still curious?"

Paramedic 2 has processed the implications of the telepathy and is now trying desperately not to think about sex and failing.

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(Leareth is still intently reading all the nearby minds, though he immediately stops reading Paramedic 2 at the first hint of thoughts about sex not being successfully squashed. He is pretty sure that this wouldn't have bothered him at all before, which makes it really quite irritating that it seems to be stressful now.) 

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:I don't mind answering questions while we're in transit anyway: Melody assures them. :Er, and it's not like I have the faintest idea who else to go to with this! What would your advice be?: 

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"I don't know, we don't get magical aliens every week! I guess I'd call the princess's office. I mean, it's mostly a ceremonial position but it winds up sort of being that, like, anything we have a process for gets formalized in the regular government, and the princess does figurehead things but also generally needs to know what's going on so she can make statements on demand? So she'd have the context and would have just as much zero-process-for-this as anybody else. But you could also try the premier."

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:The princess? Huh: Melody digs out some paper to write this down. :Of - er, what country is this, anyway? And what does the ‘premier’ do?:

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Melody clearly does not have much of a plan when it comes to asking questions about the new world. Leareth is going to have to figure out his OWN list of questions, isn’t he. Though right now he’s distracted by the fact that the moving ambulance is making him kind of motion-sick.

:Can we go around the corners slightly slower: he manages to say to Paramedic 1, without moving or opening his eyes.

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"Princess Onda, of Whister. The premier is elected and coordinates the departments of government... Uh, we're doing iso so I can't stick my head in the front compartment. You could telepath the driver and ask him? He's not going to read a text while he's driving. But no actually now that I think of it you shouldn't telepath him either, might be startling."

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:Ah. Thank you:

(Melody has mostly not even been trying to organize her questions to ask the locals! She’s too busy preparing answers to the questions she expects them to ask her. She’s going to have to explain some things about Leareth as a person, probably, which she is not looking forward to at all - she’s not sure if it’s wiser to go with a carefully sanitized version or if that just risks having it explode messily later, and she still has too-vivid memories of the last messy explosion and, as a result, Leareth is the last person she wants to ask for advice on this particular question.)

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Leareth is going to have so many questions about their system of government as soon as he can actually think! He wishes he had been able to bring more of his notes with them, since it sounds like they’re doing something with democracy, and - this world doesn’t as far as Vanyel knows have gods in it, so it could be a fascinating natural experiment in how things can go differently without that particular problem. unfortunately he mostly doesn’t have his notes, and doesn’t really trust his memory of things that he hasn’t has a chance to properly review. Which is most of the things.

:All right. How much longer?:

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"Looks like another block, and then the bridge, which means one more turn and we'll get out."

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:Oh. That is fine:

It’s kind of not fine, though mostly for reasons unrelated to carsickness. Leareth is trying to scan his surroundings with mage-sight and getting very little, which on the one hand could be taken as reassuring - no magical threats - but it makes him feel like he’s suspended in a void of nothingness. He desperately wants Melody to fully unblock his Gifts, even though they’ve been over all of the reasons why this is a bad idea right now. 

Privately to Melody, :can you look around and tell me what is happening:

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Leareth wanting to orient is in some sense a much better sign than Leareth refusing to engage with his surroundings but it’s also way more exhausting. 

:Here: Melody offers, folding away any sign of impatience, and shares her senses directly with him. Is there a window or anything she can look out through?

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There's windows on each side and the back, though they have blinds. If she peeks out she can see the buildings - mostly five stories, some just two or three, occasional tens or fifteens - whiz by, full of colorful windows and balconies with plants on them and ground-level shops with colorful advertisements she can't read. The ambulance climbs onto the bridge, and on the sides where the motor vehicles aren't welcome there's cart-pulling dogs and pedestrians. A crow flies by, going the opposite way from them, carrying a little bag dangling from one of its ankles.

The hospital is just on the other side of the bridge, and they pull up to it with one more left turn and come to a stop. The paramedics hop out to clear the way and roll Leareth in once there's nobody else between him and the iso room.

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She's so curious about the crows! And the dogs! Actually, Melody is increasingly thinking that she's going to like this place. She hopes they have tea. And that at some point soon there will be a non-awkward opportunity to request a cup. She's worried about Leareth, of course, but so far it seems like this is going as well as she could possibly expect. 

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Leareth is mostly not able to assess whether he likes the city because it turns out that attempting to borrow someone else's to catch a glimpse-through-blinds of a city while in a moving vehicle is really not a good combination with motion sickness. 

There is not really any good reason why being transferred from the ambulance to the room should be the most stressful experience of the entire past year, but nonetheless. Leareth is not managing to stay calm about it but he's mostly succeeding at holding still. 

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Here is the iso room! It is basically just a normal hospital room with a negative pressure situation, although mage-sight may or may not be able to notice that behind all the ventilation grates there's ultraviolet light. Most of the surfaces that can be are made of copper alloys of various kinds.

"Okay, here you are," says Paramedic 1. "Are either of you allergic to anything that is in this room right now?"

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Melody still hasn't quite pieced together what that concept means, here, it seems like a Healers' term but - used more broadly than just for physical health? It's intriguing. 

:No, I'm fine. Leareth?: 

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Leareth hates this room passionately because it's NEW and every single detail is a reminder of how unfamiliar and alien this place is. And also it doesn't have wards. And it smells strange, not in a bothersome way aside from how everything is bothersome just because it's unfamiliar. 

He unshields a bit and pushes his surface thoughts at Melody, rather than trying to formulate actual words. 

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Sigh. :Leareth finds unfamiliar places stressful but that's nothing about the room specifically. I think we're fine. Er, will be fine in a few minutes: 

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"Okay. Do you need anything urgently such as -" There's a checklist on the wall. "Food, water, device charger - do you even have those - anyone we should text for you, etcetera, anything like that in the next thirty minutes which is the longest amount of time it might reasonably take for an orderly to come in and see you?"

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:...We do not have those. Water would be good. Do you have tea here? Er, and are there extra blankets anywhere?: 

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They have wall checklists! Leareth is not fully following what the checklist is for, but just the fact that it exists is bizarrely reassuring. 

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"Tea exists," says Paramedic 1, while Paramedic 2 gets them water (there's disposable cups and a sink in the room).

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Melody carefully notes the location of said sink. :I could very much go for some tea, then.  But no rush, if you're very busy: She's still repeatedly rolling and unrolling her sleeve; it does make Leareth anxious when she fidgets excessively, but he's not even looking at her right now, and she's having such a day. 

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Leareth is lying very still and patiently waiting for there to be fewer strangers in the room so he can actually finish any of his thoughts. 

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"Orderly can do that if you don't need it in the next thirty minutes," says Paramedic 1.

They point out the call buttons - separate ones for various purposes, with pictograms as well as labels on them - and depart.

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Melody is not going to complain about how she wants tea NOW and in fact is used to being able to have tea within thirty seconds literally whenever it occurs to her. This is not the biggest problem with their situation. She thanks the paramedics warmly and then settles in to wait, amusing herself by examining all the various objects in the room. 

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Leareth hides under the blanket for a while, but actually calms down relatively quickly once the room is quiet and the only other person there is Melody. (He can of course sense every single other person in the building with Thoughtsensing; they don't have any shielding. Skimming surface thoughts is overwhelming, though, so he mostly doesn't.) 

Within a few minutes, he gets up and starts examining the ventilation grates, and trying to piece together the local alphabet by noting all the repeating letters in the signage on the walls. 

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Melody, busy sorting through her pack for her extra blank notetaking paper, gives him a mild look. "Managing all right?" 

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Shrug. "This...is probably better than being in Valinor with no Gifts. But - I hope the others are all right. It is very frustrating not to be able to help." 

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Nod. "I know." She tugs at her bun. "Want some paper to take notes on, er, whatever it is you're actually doing?" 

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"I am trying to figure out their writing system. - I realize this is not the efficient way to do that but it is distracting." 

 

Whenever someone does come to check on them or bring tea, Leareth is busy organizing a list of all the recognizable letters on the signs, ordered by frequency of use. 

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An orderly is by in about ten minutes with an iso mask on. The door is airlock style. "Hey!" he says. "I'm Kro, I'll be on duty for this room for the next four hours and then I'll hand you off. What are your names?"

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Leareth freezes. Hiding under the blanket again would be incredibly undignified and he is not going to do it but it's tempting. 

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Melody can handle all the social interactions for now. :I'm Melody and this is Leareth. Er, I don't know if– did you get the explanation on how we're from another world? I have some questions related to that but I don't know if now's a good time: 

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"- wow, you really are telepathic. Amazing. I'm just going to pretend that's not incredibly weird if that's all right with you, it'll make my job easier. Go ahead with the questions." He writes transliterations of their names on a whiteboard on the wall.

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This is pretty useful for the project of figuring out their alphabet! Unfortunately asking anything about it would require interacting and that is apparently not going to happen right now. Leareth continues to hold perfectly still and wait for Melody to handle this. 

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If this had happened even just six months ago he would probably be hiding under the stretcher by now, so this really could be going worse. She has a lot of sympathy for whatever Kro needs to do to make his job easier and less weird, and smiles at him. 

:Thank you. The first thing is - one of the people who brought us here said we should 'call' someone in authority here about, er, our situation. I don't actually know what 'call' means, since you appear not to have Mindspeech or other magic here: 

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"That means sending them a text, same way as somebody called your ambulance."

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:...I think you're maybe overestimating how much I know how anything works in your world! Could I possibly get some help figuring out how to do that? Or, er, for someone else who works here to do it, for now?: 

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"You'd need a phone. Uh, I can ask the desk folks to text someone once we work out who it should be, since you don't have a phone."

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:I don't! It's starting to seem like maybe we need to obtain one as a matter of urgency just to function here, it's - is it sort of like a replacement for having Mindspeech, but it's a technology? I wasn't entirely following: 

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Leareth is following substantially more, due to thorough mindreading, and that's such a fascinating concept! He manages to unfreeze himself enough to return and sit down on his gurney, and starts planning out questions to ask. 

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"Sure, it basically does that. And other things, you can get all kinds of stuff on phones, but that's the indispensable one. We don't have spares lying around but I think there's a charity that gives out refurbished phones."

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Leareth tenses up, and locks eyes with Melody. 

:We can offer to trade for goods we are requesting, right?: he sends privately. :If - if you unblocked my mage-gift, even temporarily, I could make them some artifacts - you could fix it again before I slept–: 

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See, this is one of the reasons why this is a DUBIOUS PLAN, because now Leareth feels responsible for making sure that first contact with yet another alien world goes well, and this is going to hit all of his sore spots around being 'useless'. And it would be better if Melody could reassure him that she's certain this will go well, but she isn't actually that sure of it. 

:Leareth, please don't worry about it. If we need something and they're not willing to provide it out of the goodness of their hearts, I am entirely capable of figuring this out. It's fine. This is not your responsibility right now: 

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Great, now Leareth is curled up looking miserable and Melody is pretty sure she could have handled that better somehow but does not, actually, have any sense of what she should have said or done differently. 

She smiles brightly at the orderly, hoping to distract from the sudden atmosphere. :That would be amazing. Though I don't think we're in any incredible rush. I was just working on the assumption that - well, if this were happening in our world, the King would want to know as soon as possible. I guess if you get alien visitors every other week maybe it's less exciting: 

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"I don't know if a phone will do you any good while you can't read, so yeah, I wasn't thinking there'd be a rush. We don't get alien visitors but for just that reason it's so weird nobody knows how to say it without sounding like they've started hallucinating, you see? Probably me and the paramedics and the lady who called your ambulance will all sign a message that'll go to the premier or somebody and then they'll figure it's worth sending someone to meet you."

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:Oh! That is unfortunate, and - makes sense. I really do apologize for all the inconvenience. ...Leareth, that didn't come up for you in Arda, did it?: 

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Does he HAVE to talk about this right now. 

:No. They thought I was a Maia– a local magical small-god. And we needed to sort out that confusion: Probably. He has not gone and CHECKED with the people he met first that the conversation he remembers having on arrival is one that actually happened in reality, and this is terrible. :I think Quendi are less prone to hallucinations, though. And they were familiar with magic existing in general so perhaps it seemed less strange: 

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"Arda?"

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This is the worst conversation imaginable and Leareth really does not want to be having it right now. 

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Fair enough. Melody can do all of the required conversation-ing, even though she isn't delighted about it either. 

:Sorry, this is where it gets slightly complicated. Leareth and I are both from a world called Velgarth, that has - magical telepathy, and various other Gifts, and also powerful but cryptic gods. Almost three years ago - if I'm getting my timelines right - Leareth was experimenting with Gates, the magic we used to come here, and discovered by accident that you could also get to other worlds that way. He ended up in a world called Arda, which a very short time later ended up at war with one of their local gods. The evil one: 

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"...and none of this is coming this way?"

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:We think that's very unlikely. There's nothing to set your world apart; one of our, er, researchers found it entirely by accident, didn't think it was that interesting to explore further at the time, and only followed up because when the war heated up again, we needed somewhere to go. The Gates aren't traceable, and also we did it from Arda and when the war started up again this time, it was in Velgarth. Where I think everyone is pretty thoroughly occupied. I...can't categorically promise that it's never going to spill across to your world, but I really highly doubt that the two of us being there is going to affect that one way or another, and we came here at all because it seemed like the chances were very very low: 

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"...okay.

Anyway, my job is to handle stuff you don't need medical training for, like bringing you stuff or scheduling stuff so you can sleep uninterrupted. You need anything?"

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Oh NO Leareth had completely not thought through the part where he is going to have to SLEEP in an unfamiliar place. Which doesn't have shields. And they have no way of putting shields on it. He shoots Melody a frantic, pleading look. 

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Melody might be telepathic but she has no magical ability to interpret pleading looks! That could be about so many different things? 

:Leareth, what?: she sends, privately. 

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Words. He can definitely do words about this. It takes a little while, though. 

:...What if I have nightmares and project at everyone: 

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Right. That. 

She turns back to Kro, grimacing. :Er, this isn't exactly a request, it's - I don't know what to do about it. Leareth sometimes has nightmares and, er, accidentally does telepathy at anyone within range. It might affect totally un-Gifted people less? And it attenuates pretty fast with distance although we haven't actually tested the range, back home we just have magical shields on his bedroom. But neither of us can make those ourselves: 

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"Uh. That does complicate having him sleep in a hospital. I can... ask if there are drugs that help with that, but they probably don't work perfectly and we will get incredibly compensationfined if people wake up with telepathy nightmares."

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:I'm really sorry about that! I should absolutely have thought of this sooner but it's been a pretty frazzling day: 

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:I could just not sleep tonight: Leareth offers, flatly. 

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:...Leareth: Melody says in a tone of patient exasperation. :Let's aim for a solution that isn't stupid: 

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"Did you guys come with any..... money. Or something you were expecting to sell. Everything I'm thinking of costs money."

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Sigh. :I don't know what your world uses for money. We have some gold but it's all in Valdemaran coinage - er, that's the country I'm from in Velgarth. Arda doesn't really use money at all. We - have some camping gear? I think we had sort of been assuming we would camp out somewhere as a backup option, but I thought it would be a good idea to, er, inform the authorities that we had showed up, to avoid trouble later: 

Maybe this was a BAD PLAN. It certainly seems to be causing an enormous hassle for Melody herself. 

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"I mean, gold is fine, we don't use it for money but people will buy it for money and if the coins are neat somebody might pay a markup for them as a collector's item. How much gold are we talking about?" Kro reaches a hand into a floppy part of his iso mask which, it turns out, allows him to scratch the corner of his eye without breaking containment.

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Melody goes digging in her pack again and eventually retrieves a leather purse with a drawstring neck. She opens it and shows him. They have fifty Valdemaran gold coins, which are decently large and probably weigh about four grams each. Also some miscellaneous silver and copper coins. 

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"Huh! Yeah, that'll fetch a chunk of change, I don't know how much but should be a fair bit. And that'd let you do things like cover the compensationfines or renting a place with more margin and taking housecalls. Do you want me to look up some kind of social work person who can help you with that?"

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Melody is still mostly not following the concept attached to 'social work person' but she nods and smiles. :Yes, please, I would really appreciate that. ...Also if it would be possible to get tea at some point, that would be amazing: 

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"Okay! Tea and a social worker, coming right up, and my call button's the one with the bowl-of-soup-and-a-pillow, icon, there." And he goes out through the airlock-thing.

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Melody relaxes a little, sagging back in her chair. 

:See, Leareth? That went completely fine. We'll get everything sorted out: 

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:Leareth are you all right?: 

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:I...will be. I think. Just– I hate not having a plan: The only thing worse than sleeping here tonight would be having to sleep somewhere ELSE that he hasn't even seen yet. 

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:I know: She wants to give him a hug, but Leareth is still iffy on hugs from anyone except Maitimo. :I'm sorry. We should have some peace and quiet for the next bit, at least?: 

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Leareth is starting to feel pretty exhausted, but he also absolutely does not want to risk falling asleep, so he goes back to intently examining all the signage and trying not to think about anything other than that. 

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Their names are up on the whiteboard, along with Kro's name. There's various checklists - over the bed, over the sink, on the door, next to the whiteboard, by the door to the bathroom. A screen that looks sort of like one of the phones - glass and black and rectangular - but it's turned off now. Ultraviolet in the vents, a radiator by the window, smooth tile floor, a windowshade currently admitting sunshine and a view of the river.

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The names give him several vowels and four different consonants, which is not a lot to go on. Leareth eventually sets aside his alphabet notes and goes into the bathroom to investigate the state of the local plumbing technology. 

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There's a toilet and a shower and another sink in there!

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Leareth is getting the sense that he's going to approve of this world! He spends a little while experimenting to figure out how to operate all the various amenities, and then slips out again and starts checking for any obvious levers or other controls for the the rectangular glass screen. 

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There are buttons on the bottom of it! Also a remote velcroed to the back.

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Huh. Leareth very much doesn't want to break anything, but probably they wouldn't put something in here that was very fragile? And he should be more worried about accidentally sending a gibberish message and inconveniencing someone. 

He will nonetheless very carefully and gently experiment with poking some of the buttons below the screen, and examining the remote for ways it can be interacted with. 

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When he turns the TV on the screen lights up! There is... text, on a background picture of the galaxy. The remote comes off pretty easily if he tugs on it and then he can push buttons there too, selecting a menu option at random and turning on a music video channel.

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That's really neat! Leareth isn't sure how you would do that even with all of his accumulated magical lore! He's honestly not sure a god could do that; as far as he knows Heartstones don't have the capacity to record moving pictures of scenes along with music and then play them back. 

This seems like plenty of experimenting for now, and he's starting to feel incredibly tired, so he sits down on his gurney again and watches. 

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Melody really likes this world! It just keeps getting better! 

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Music videos continue to play one after another. Kro is back halfway through the second one, with tea and also a social worker; they both gear up and Kro brings in a tray with six different teabags, two cups, and a mini kettle. "Didn't know what kind you like," he tells Melody, putting the tea tray down on the nearest convenient surface. He plugs in the mini kettle and demonstrates how to turn it on.

"Hello," says the social worker, "I'm Dree."

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Melody beams at Kro and watches intently while he demonstrates the kettle. It's a really neat concept and she has no idea how you would do that without magic!

She wants to point it out to Leareth but Leareth looks like he is maybe not having a great time right now? 

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It's too late to flee and hide in the bathroom without this being very obvious and thus in itself causing some kind of conflict. Leareth instead holds very still. 

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Melody thanks Kro for the tea selection and then turns and smiles brightly at Dree.

:I'm Melody. Er, did you already get the basic story from other people here or should I explain our situation again?: 

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"I'd like to hear it in your own words," says Dree, only a little startled.

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:...Right. Er, so - we're from another world. Actually, arguably two different worlds - we're both native to Velgarth, which is a world with much less technology than yours but a lot of people have Gifts, including the telepathy we both have but also lots of others. And some native gods, which are -mostly pretty mysterious but when they do things it's not great:

She pauses, frowns, and then tightens the Mindspeech link to exclude Leareth. 

:Anyway. We've been living in Arda, which is a different world that has, er, immortal natives called Quendi who look mostly human but have a different kind of telepathy and a different kind of magic and also a different set of gods. Leareth found that world accidentally about three years ago. Shortly later they ended up openly at war with one of their native gods, the evil one. No, I'm not sure why they had an evil god either. With help from Velgarth, they initially won that war, but Leareth was captured by the evil god and - had a bad time. It's been a couple of years since then, but - a few days ago a war started in Velgarth, and it looks like a Maia - a smaller god - related to Arda's evil god is involved, and working with the Velgarth gods. We expected Leareth would be a target, because of the role he played in the last war, and he - isn't in a good position to defend himself, right now, so we were kind of frantically looking for somewhere safe to go, and one of the other Velgarth mages had been doing some exploration and thought your world might be safe. So we're here: 

Another pause. 

:- Um, I've explained this a few times now, but we think it's very very unlikely your world would be in danger from this war, and also us coming here shouldn't affect that one way or another, interworld Gates aren't traceable and we did ours from Arda which isn't where the war is right now: 

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Dree takes notes while Melody goes over all that. "A god is...?"

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- oh, right, Vanyel thought they didn't have any in this world. Which means they won't even have the concept. This is - clearly better on multiple dimensions, but still frustrating right now, because how is she even supposed to explain this. 

 

:- Er, to start, I think Velgarth gods and Arda gods are different kinds of thing? What they have in common is that they're - beings that are mostly magical, as opposed to mostly physical? And - a lot more powerful and a lot smarter than humans, in most ways, but also fairly alien and - bad at understanding a lot of basic human things. The Velgarth ones seem to mostly see the world and act on it using Foresight - a magical power we have for seeing the future - and they don't communicate very much. The Arda ones are more humanlike in some ways but very...black-and-white. I don't know. I think I'm doing a bad job of explaining but I'm not sure how to do better. Questions?: 

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"So sort of like a - particularly powerful naturesoul? That being a general term for a concept in animist religions covering household-mascot-spirits and river spirits and so on?"

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Melody squints at her. :...Maybe. That actually sounds a lot like the Maiar in Arda - er, the smaller less powerful gods, there are millions of them, compared to only about a dozen of the big powerful gods. Apparently specific Maiar will sometimes be in charge of making sure a river flows the right way, things like that: 

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"That sounds like a naturesoul. All right - Kro, your orderly, told me there's a problem with - uncontrolled telepathy during nightmares?"

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:Right. That's a problem Leareth has. I'm not sure what the range is on it, we - haven't actually tested that. It's not every night or anything, lately, but it's - unusually likely to come up tonight, because the new war in Velgarth and then coming here are stressful for him. Kro had thought that there were maybe drugs that could help? ...Also I have something called Mindhealing Gift and I can do things that would help, but it would have to be temporary: 

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"Do you have a ballpark on what the range is - feet, blocks, miles -"

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Blink blink. :- Blocks as in the spaces between streets in a city? I think it's be closer to that than either feet or miles. His range is miles when he's awake but it's probably a lot less when he's not being deliberate about it: 

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"...okay. So you need to stay in an otherwise-empty farmhouse. You're not actually sick, right, just on iso protocol as a precaution because you're from a different universe?"

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:We're not physically sick, no. I'm fine. Leareth...has trouble with various things right now, because of what happened during the last war - honestly I probably need to explain that at some point but I've been holding off for privacy reasons until I know I'm definitely talking to the right person: 

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"The right person as in some kind of personal care assistant?"

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:I don't know what it'd be in your world, honestly. For Velgarth it would be - me, basically, but if you don't have magic at all then you probably don't have Mindhealers?: 

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"Not magical ones. There are people who specialize in the treatment of mental conditions. I wasn't sure if you were trying to say he needs more treatment than you can provide or if, in addition to treatment, he needs shorter-term support."

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Sigh. :I...don't know. I don't think he needs more treatment than I can provide, it's not like we had that option before either. I suspect I'm going to end up very stressed if I'm solely responsible for him for an extended period of time. I can think about what specifically would make that easier, but - honestly this whole evacuation plan was extremely rushed and we didn't know anything about your world beforehand and whether there would be better options available that 'we camp out in the wilderness for the next year': 

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"...I think you can improve on camping out in the wilderness for a year. Do you have - camping - gear?" says Dree.

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:That's a lot of what we packed! Food would have been the main problem if we had to do that. I'm really glad we can probably improve on it, even aside from all the other issues with it I personally hate camping: 

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"Okay. I'm going to look into places you might be able to transfer to. Do you have any other exceptional needs besides not being near neighbors?"

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:I am not sure I have a good sense of what would be exceptional here. I don't think so? It's better if it's quiet, but that probably comes along with not having neighbors: 

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There are STILL PEOPLE and this is terrible. 

:Do we have a plan yet?: Leareth asks Melody, not particularly trying to exclude Dree from his Mindspeech (which, given that she's not Gifted, means she sort of gets it but it's faint and garbled.) 

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"Well, it might have animals - sorry, did you say something?"

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:Sorry, I think he was asking me if we had a plan yet. Leareth, it's all right, we're working on it. ...Er, are they large animals?: 

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"Would that be a problem? If there were a rentable spare-house on a dairy farm or a horse ranch? I don't have anything specific in mind, yet, I'm getting a sense of the search space."

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:I think that would probably work?: Melody has no idea if Leareth is going to be freaked out by cows or horses. He doesn't seem to be scared of Yfandes but she is obviously not a normal horse. :I guess that would be one of the ways to find somewhere remote: 

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If Melody were willing to unblock his mage-gift for five minutes he could put basic shielding on the walls. Probably. Leareth is not entirely sure he could still manage this, after years of not using magic at all, but it's not like the technique is hard. Leareth doesn't say anything, though, just gives Melody a somewhat grumpy look. 

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"Okay. I'll see what's available." Dree helps herself to a seat and pokes her phone to see what there is to be had.

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Leareth takes a few deep breaths, steeling himself. 

:- How do those work? I realize you are maybe not the right person to ask and I should talk to a specialist, but - we have nothing like it in Velgarth, not even with magic, it is very impressive: 

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"I only know in the most general terms," says Dree absently, scrolling through listings. "It's got a battery, which I have to charge, and that runs everything else it does, and it communicates with the Internet via - possibly radio but I'm not actually sure if it's radio or some other band of signal - and it's got programs on it which are written in computer code... okay, here's something that might do, place up in the hills with pashminas, farm workers might come nearby during the day but not at night. Here's a picture." She turns her phone to display a somewhat disrepaired cute little cottage dug into a hillside, with stairs up to it. "Plumbing and electricity, wifi is listed as 'spotty' but that won't be a problem for you any time soon, apparently the heater is loud but it's warm enough you won't need to turn it on in the near future, what do you think?"

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Leareth is very intently reading her mind and he wants to know everything about the 'Internet' and 'wifi' and 'computer code' and - he can make a slightly better guess about what 'batteries' are, and 'radio' is almost comprehensible, but he still wants to sit down with someone for several candlemarks and ask a hundred questions. 

 

He doesn't ask any questions right now because talking to people is hard. He also mostly misses the part where she's showing them the house because he's distracted trying to guess what 'computer code' could be referring to.

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Melody is only half following the explanation, though she's pleased Leareth is engaging at all. 

:- Sorry, what? Oh. That looks fine, I think. How far away is it - do we need to walk there...?: 

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"It's a six mile drive, so substantially farther and windier than you would have gone to get here. I think anything really remote will be at least that far."

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:Right. I think Leareth wasn't delighted about the trip here but I'm not actually sure what the problem was, he just looked miserable and asked if we could go around corners more slowly. Probably it's fine if it's just one more trip?: 

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"It'd be just one more trip, you can arrange grocery delivery and so on once you've sold whatever it is you brought to sell, and then you can stay in the cottage as long as you can afford it. You can probably make money by giving interviews, or doing telepathic relay, or whatever other magic you have available, and the cottage is listed as rent-to-own optional, if you want to stay there for a long time."

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Nod. :I could use some more specific instructions on how to sell things here - is there a market? Is it only open on certain days? How do I get there?: 

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"Kro said you have gold? I can try to sell that for you if you want to trust me with it, it's not a standard social worker thing but we often have to be a little flexible about stuff like that. I'd sell it online, wider range of potential buyers, and it might want to wait until you've been more widely confirmed to be magical sliders* in case it turns out collectors like that more than commodities traders like gold for its metal value. I'm on retainer from the hospital but would expect a cut from the sale for that service among others - for example, I'm fronting you the money for the cottage out of my work budget. If you don't want to trust me with that you could take the bus - bit of a hike from the cottage to the nearest stop but not untenable - and try to figure it out yourself, but I'd expect it to be pretty hard."

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Melody has so far only been understanding Dree at all by reading her surface, and certainly hasn't seen anything there to indicate that she would cheat them on this - and Leareth is presumably reading her mind a lot more thoroughly, and currently looks calm and not at all freaking out, which is a good sign. 

:I trust you with that and I really do not want to figure it out on my own. I suppose it makes sense to wait a little while - er, how would people want us to confirm that we're from another world? I assume the Mindspeech is self-evident at this point; I suppose I don't mind demonstrating Mindhealing as well, but it's a lot more invasive and I don't make a habit of flinging it around without making very clear to people what it does and being certain they're all right with it: 

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"Mindspeech will do the trick. I'm thinking of contacting the office of the Premier's affiliated Committed of Truth* and get one of theirs to confirm, and then that'll get plenty of attention and most people will believe them. Can I take a picture of one of the gold coins?"

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Melody is mildly curious about the 'Committed of Truth' and the institution they work within - it sort of rhymes with what Heralds do, but also it must be very different? 

:Yes, of course. Go ahead: She plucks out one of the gold coins and holds it up between her thumb and forefinger. 

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Dree snaps a photo of the coin, both sides. "Can I take pictures of the two of you?"

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:....Sure, I think so? Unless there's some risk about having pictures of us taken that I don't know about: 

(Melody feels like it's deeply unlikely that there is any such risk, but Leareth would worry about it, and since the actual Leareth is currently in one of his not-interacting-at-all moods, she feels responsible for covering all of his usual worries. Which is maybe stupid but whatever.) 

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"It's not going to hurt you," Dree assures them, "some people just don't like pictures existing when they haven't had a chance to neaten up, or at all if they don't care for how they look." Pic, pic.

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Melody is definitely not feeling at her neatest right now! This doesn't seem like a good reason to avoid having her 'picture' taken, although...

:- Can I see the picture? Just, I have never had a portrait done and I am curious how I look in one: 

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"Of course." Dree turns the phone around again.

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Melody squints at the screen. :...Huh. Is that really what my chin looks like? I think I've gotten stouter than I realized. Anyway, are you going to send those to the Committed of Truth, or do something else with them?: 

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"I'm composing an email to the premier's Truth attaché, and I'm including the pictures because it's the sort of thing a prank would be less likely to produce."

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:Ah. Is that, um, a common problem - people doing pranks where they pretend to have met visitors from another world, I mean?: 

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"- no, not at all, but it's much more common than real sliders."

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Melody nods. Looks thoughtful. :Have you ever had visitors - sliders? - like us before?: 

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"No, never, which is why even a very weird prank would be more likely. Sliders are historically a strictly fictional concept."

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Leareth has been huddled silently on his gurney throughout this conversation. He badly wants to ask several dozen question, and he also desperately wants to be alone in a quiet room - and he misses Vanyel and he wants Maitimo to hold him and sing him to sleep - and the result of these conflicting desires is that he feels very stuck.

 

...That bit is fascinating, though. 

:You have it as a concept in fiction despite the fact that it has never actually happened before?: he jumps in, without actually moving or looking at them. 

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"- yes, why wouldn't we?" says Dree, who is rather thinking that if your fiction only contains things that have actually happened before you're confused about what fiction means.

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Velgarth's fiction, such as it is, has plenty of things that didn't happen, but - it's not actually very common to have things that couldn't in principle happen, except sometimes by accident - in ballads written by Bards who didn't especially understand the constraints of mage-gift, for instance. 

 

:It just seems very specific! And like it must be a rare coincidence, for it to match so closely with our situation. ...I suppose it might be less of a coincidence if you just have much more fiction than us. Your world seems wealthier and you do not have any gods who will try to assassinate people who attempt to introduce printing presses: 

Leareth's mindvoice is remarkably calm and level, given the fact that he is currently curling up and visibly trembling. 

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"- we sure don't! The printing press in its original form has been obsolete for hundreds of years now."

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:Because you replaced it with 'phones'? And the Internet? ...It is really very impressive: 

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"There were some intervening steps - physical books do still exist, also - but yes."

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Leareth still has questions, but also his head is buzzing and the walls of the room feel both too close and too far at the same time and he is rapidly running out of willpower or cope to push through any more of this. 

:Thank you: he says, and then dives under his blanket and hides there. 

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:- You didn't say anything wrong: Melody quickly clarifies. :He does that sometimes: 

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Dree nods and composes her email and gets a reply from the Committed of Truth. "A Committed is going to swing by here," she says. "And not come in the room, she's allergic to iso gear, but you can demonstrate the telepathy and she can see you through the door."

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Leareth will probably be very relieved about that. :Sure, sounds good. In how long, do you know? Leareth is going to start really needing a nap, at some point, and I need to decide if it's worth loading him up with Mindhealing blocks to avoid the nightmare problem, or if we should try to hold out until we get to the new accommodations: 

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"The map app," she is thinking here of the thing she has running on her phone now, showing a dot approaching them on a colorful map of the neighborhood, "thinks another five minutes."

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They have maps with realtime locations on where other people are???? Leareth really very badly wants to see this but unfortunately he is now hiding under a blanket and that is definitely not something he's going to be able to change until there stop being strangers in the same room as him. 

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:That's so neat! Five minutes seems fine, sure. Thank you for your help with everything: 

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"No problem." Dree hangs around till the Committed arrives.

The Committed is in a work uniform - long white dress, with bishop sleeves and a mandarin collar, and over that a deep royal blue vest as long as the dress is, worn open and decorated with little pins and badges. She has her hair in braided pigtails that go to the small of her back, and wears glasses. She stops outside the door and texts Dree, who says, "That's her, can you telepathy her?"

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That's a nice uniform. More distinctive and also a lot more flattering than Healers' robes. Melody approves. On reflection, everyone's clothing here is impressively high-quality; their technology must include something for weaving or sewing. If Leareth were fully functional he would probably have already thought to ask about that.

She reaches out with a Mindtouch. :Hello. I'm Melody and this is Leareth. Er, do you need any more of a demonstration than just me saying that to you?: 

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The Committed furrows her brow. :Can you hear this?: she replies.

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:Yep! You thought 'can you hear this' at me? ...I can also read your surface thoughts in more detail and tell you what I'm seeing there, if that would be useful information, but for ethical reasons I generally don't do that without asking: 

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:Does that go for your companion as well?:

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:Sorry, which part? ...Oh. Er, if it's about the Thoughtsensing, Leareth didn't agree to the standard rules for Healers that I did, and I think he does tend to read people's thoughts more often, especially when he's confused or scared. If he feels safe somewhere he's generally willing to not do that: 

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The Committed is taking notes. :I am prepared to represent to the Premier and any other inquirers that I experienced this conversation as telepathic, that you made those assertions about your ethical boundaries, and that both of you appear to exist as depicted by Dree. Are there other assertions you would like me to be prepared to make about you or on your behalf?:

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:Well, this isn't something I can directly prove, but it seems relevant to include that we traveled here deliberately from another world, using a kind of magic from Velgarth - our world of origin. And probably your Premier would want to know about the war with the evil god that caused us to decide to come here?: 

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:Please tell me about that. I would also like to see more demonstrations of magic that are safely convenient:

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:War, short version: Leareth and I are from Velgarth, where some people are born with Gifts, including Mindspeech which we both have. Also there are gods, I'm not a fan of Them, it's mostly not relevant except for it's slightly relevant that They hate Leareth personally. Leareth was experimenting with magical travel and accidentally ended up in Arda, a different world, which has its own native kind of magic - generally less flexible, but more powerful in some ways - and also its own native gods. Including a specific evil god, for SOME REASON, who likes torturing people. There was a war in their ancient history and he was imprisoned by the other gods but eventually released. Big surprise, he started another war, it came out openly shortly after Leareth arrived there and noticed in the first ten minutes of talking to someone about it that all their mysterious problems could be explained by an evil god scheming in the background. Leareth helped extensively in the war, including by bringing over another powerful mage - mage-gift is the most flexible and useful of our Gifts, I don't have it sadly - but he was captured by the evil god and only rescued at the end of the war. That was a couple of years ago. A few days ago we learned that the capital of my home country had been destroyed in a surprise attack, and it looks like one of the less powerful god-entities from Arda, one allied with the evil god, had managed to get across during the leadup to the last war ending, and allied with one of Velgarth's gods, and so now there's an entire war going on over there and we're not entirely sure that they don't have inter-world travel too so we figured we'd better bring Leareth somewhere that was definitively safe. ....We're quite sure that this doesn't put your world at any additional risk: 

 

Melody is running low on energy and, as usual for her, this means that she tends to talk more and use way more words than necessary. 

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The Committed takes notes very solemnly. She's transliterating "god". :Is there anything else?:

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:No, I think that’s all:

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:Are any demonstrations of other magical abilities safely convenient?:

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:I - can demonstrate Mindhealing if you want? It's not especially costly or inconvenient for me, or anything. It's more, just, I'm not as sure as I'd prefer that things I expect to be safe and easily reversible will still be that for people from another world: 

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:And your companion?:

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:He only has Mindspeech right now, which I've already demonstrated. If it would be helpful, I can have him Mindspeak you as well, I guess: 

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:Why does he only have Mindspeech right now?:

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:....It's complicated. Is it important that I explain it right now?: 

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:No, but I will mention omissions in my writeup:

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Sigh. :Sure, you can do that: 

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She finishes taking notes, exchanges some texts with Dree, and departs.

"Okay," says Dree, "we can get you hauled to the cottage now."

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Melody has been sipping and greatly enjoying one of the tea samples - the one from the teabag that smelled best - and she's not quite done but it seems silly to delay just for that. 

She tucks the remaining teabags into a pocket of her robes. :Right, of course. ...Er, can I take the hot-water-heating thing here or does that belong to the hospital? If the cottage already has one of its own then that's fine, I guess: 

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"The kettle belongs to the hospital. The cottage might have one and if it doesn't they're not expensive."

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:- Sure, that sounds fine, as long as someone is willing to walk me through how to buy a new one once we have money: 

Melody is a little cranky about going somewhere ELSE without a reliable source of tea, but she did sign up to go to another world, and 'not having tea' is a pretty minor problem relative to all the other problems here and elsewhere. 

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Dree calls them a taxi, which is shaped much like the ambulance with the driver in a separate compartment and the back open, but it just has benches instead of a miniature medical facility. There's a central ottoman-thing between the front- and rear-facing benches, which has, inside, bottled water and barf bags and three choices of air freshening spray and a stack of clean dry towels and the controls for the music, intercom to the driver, and window tint. Dree settles in the sliders and explains all these features while the taxi starts up.

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This is fascinating. Leareth nonetheless spends most of the time that it's being explained with his eyes tightly shut and his hands over his ears. He follows the explanation via mindreading, which is what he would have done anyway, he doesn't speak the language. 

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Melody tries to nudge Leareth to follow her into the 'taxi'. She listens attentively and then thanks Dree for her helpful explanation. 

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If Leareth is going to cover his eyes like that Dree can black the windows? In case that helps?

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Melody is a little concerned that this will do the opposite of help with whatever Leareth found distressing about being in a moving vehicle before, it had seemed a bit like he was getting seasick and she thought being able to see the horizon helped with that, but also Leareth does seem to immediately relax at least a little once the interior is darker. Probably it's fine. 

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(Leareth is multiplying prime numbers in his head to avoid having to notice his environment.) 

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Some people do get motion sick in cars, yeah.

The driver gets them to the cottage eventually, and Dree has gotten ahold of the code to let them in. It has a kitchen-and-dining area, a half-bath, and a sitting room on the ground floor, and upstairs there are three bedrooms and a full bathroom shared between them. There's a floorplan and things renting parties might need to know in a booklet on the kitchen counter. Dree checks, and it does have a kettle, though it hasn't been de-limescaled in a while. It also has a handful of things in the freezer - take and bake breakfast pastries they can leave out to rise overnight and stick in the oven in the morning, a flatbread thing, half a package of breaded chicken pieces. The pantry has a can of soup (tomato bean) and a mostly empty bottle of olive oil. "Do you want me to set up a grocery delivery for you?" Dree asks once she's assessed this.

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Melody is so distracted by utter fascination and amazement at the various foodstuffs available!

(A pastry that comes in a nonmagical freezing box and can be put in the over and baked? And chicken pieces in bread, is that like a pocket pie, Melody has had those with fruit and fish and beef but somehow never chicken and it sounds delicious? Oh and what are "cans"? -) 

 

Oh, right, she's being asked a question. 

:Er, yes, I would appreciate that since I have no idea how to do that myself! I'm not sure what to ask for, though, I'm really not much of a cook and also I don't recognize the foods here and the kitchen setup is weird - amazing, but weird. Can you maybe just call for a range of standard food things that an unskilled person can cook without messing up too disastrously? I can do pease porridge. ...Oh, and tea. I would really like more tea. The kind that wakes you up, not herb-tea that you take as medicine: 

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"Let me show you how to use the stove," says Dree, "and the kettle -" She does that while thinking aloud about what food to get. Bread and cold cuts, eggs, fruit, cheese, peanut butter, oatmeal, rice, lentils, frozen peas, packaged cakes, and a caffeinated tea assortment?

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Electric kettles are Melody's favorite thing about this world! They're almost as good as being a mage who can heat water just by thinking about it! Maybe better, actually, on the one hand you need the proper device with the whole rope that goes into the wall but on the other hand it doesn't make you personally more tired! 

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Leareth has headed straight to the sitting room and found a corner to sit in. He is, however, still reading Dree's mind at a distance in order to follow the conversation. 

 

:- Ask her for bread and cheese: he suggests to Melody. :And eggs: He's fairly sure those are being translated clearly. The mental concepts associated with 'peanut butter' and 'packaged cakes' also seem like they should be low-effort, but Leareth has never heard of those foods and is dubious; he also doesn't recognize whatever 'lentils' or 'rice' correspond to AND they're not coming across as clearly low-effort or hard to mess up while cooking. 

 

(Leareth suspects he was, at some point, a decently competent cook. At some past time that is not the present time, he was decently competent at most things. He really really doesn't feel like taking responsibility for causing edible food to happen here, though.) 

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Oh, right, foods are being suggested. Leareth's requests seem pretty reasonable? Except that Melody is not actually sure if she's competent to cook eggs and have them turn out edible, she really hasn't done a lot of cooking for herself in the last decade. 

:Er, if you have bread here, that doesn't require cooking at all and I can definitely handle it. And things that go on bread - in Velgarth we would have butter, and cheese and sometimes salted meat or salted fish -: 

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"That's what cold cuts are, yeah, meat and fish, and I can add butter to the list."

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:That would be great! And, er, maybe we should get some fruits or vegetables that are edible raw, in the meantime while I get around to actually learning how to cook on this stove, I feel like just eating bread and salted meat isn't a totally balanced diet: 

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"Of course. Fruits and veggies, which ones do you like - if you have humans you might conceivably have grapes, much like you apparently have tea -"

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:- I guess we have grapes but I don't love them just to eat raw?: 

(The strains of grapes grown in Valdemar and adapted to its climate are mostly turned into wine, and it's not even very good wine compared to the production from Iftel or Rethwellan.) 

:We have apples and cherries and blackberries?: Melody tries to push across as much extra context about what those fruits look and taste like as she can, though this is hard with a non-Mindspeaker and she doesn't want to disorient the poor social worker too much. 

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"- gosh that's weird. Okay, we have those, I can get some of those. For vegetables, uh, what's good raw - carrots? Broccoli? Snap peas? Cucumbers?"

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Melody doesn't make a habit of mindreading people who she doesn't share a language with; she's trying but not super following. 

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Leareth is so exhausted, and sort of gradually melting into the softest piece of furniture available in the living room, but he's still mindreading from a distance and he's more practiced at it.

:Carrots - good. Peas - we have peas, there was a modifier applied in her thoughts but it probably does not matter what exact substrain of peas. Cucumbers are fine. No idea what broccoli is: 

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That sounds exhausting to convey and also Melody doesn't even personally like carrots, especially not raw. Melody is perhaps not the most vegetable-favoring sort of person. She's mostly asking for Leareth's sake and because it seems vaguely healthy or virtuous. 

:Er, can you just pick some things that most people find inoffensive, or something?: 

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"- sure, most people are pickier than that but I suppose it's not a disaster if you wind up throwing some out." She fills up an online cart. Bread of the boringest sandwichest kind, butter, cheese, cold cuts, eggs, apples - hm what kind - well, this kind's cheapest, they're not going to know what kind they like - cherries, the ones closest to the same color as the mental image even though Dree likes the yellow ones herself - and blackberries, the new soft-seeded kind, that will plausibly be unfamiliar but like who wants blackberry seeds in their teeth - carrots and cukes and peas, and, let's see, if that was all that was in her kitchen what would she most be missing - lots of things honestly, but within the constraints - Six Sandwiches makes a nice range of stuff to put on bread and it's on sale, she'll throw in the chickpea salad one and the strawberry cream cheese one. And these people are so sad and need DESSERT but she'll make it ice cream in case they are going to be suspicious about it for weeks before they get around to it. And tea, five kinds is probably enough that Melody will like one - green black oolong white and white-with-raspberry - does she take it with sugar - eh she'll get a little squeeze bottle of honey, if she doesn't put it in the tea it's nice on bread. She clicks DELIVER.

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Leareth (who is still mindreading from a distance) thinks that he likes this person? Or, well. Would like her if he were in a mood where he could have preferences other than "wanting to be home" and failing that "wanting there to be no people he hasn't known for over a year within his considerable Thoughtsensing range". He can still notice that in the abstract she seems admirable. 

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Melody putters around the kitchen and waits for the kettle with water in it to boil and looks for cups to make tea in from her existing pocket-stash. Leareth is being very quiet over there but probably he's fine? 

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There are cups, two mugs that match and three that don't and a couple of tall glasses. Dree is now replying to an email about the gold coins.

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Melody is not even paying attention to which mugs match or don't. She eyeballs them and picks the biggest one and stares at the kettle until it boils, and then pours water on top of her tea "bag" (what a good concept!) and bobs it up and down on its string in the cup while, still, staring at it. Dree seems busy anyway so it's not like it's rude to ignore her, if anything it's more polite.  

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They're both distracted, maybe Leareth can slip away to one of the bedrooms upstairs without either of them noticing? He so badly wants a surface to lie flat on. 

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Melody, who has Thoughtsensing, obviously notices. She doesn't say anything. 

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Dree glances up when she hears footsteps but is hardly going to stop him from ascending the stairs.

The bedrooms have beds. One room is painted pale butter-yellow, one summersky blue, one with white walls but a lavender ceiling. The decor doesn't match well, it looks more like spares somebody put in here just for completeness rather than like anyone made purchases for the occasion, but there are blue sheets in the blue room and warm colors in the yellow one and mostly off-whites in the lavender one. The blue room is the only one that also contains a chair; the lavender one has a bookshelf, though, and a beanbag, and the yellow one has a window seat.

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Leareth barely has the energy to stay on his feet, at this point, but he does try to give all the rooms a quick survey. 

 

Having a bookshelf nearby seems more important than having a chair nearby, given how most of the time he only reads in bed anyway. He's not sure what the non-chair non-bed floor furniture item is but it looks sort of cozy? The color scheme is fine. 

Leareth flops onto the beanbag, just to see what it's like, and discovers that it also feels cozy, and stays there. 

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Melody has tea now, which is a good state of affairs! She leans back against the counter and waits to see if Dree has anything else to discuss with her. 

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Dree finishes catching up on case-related email and puts her phone away. "We should make a plan for when I should come back, assuming there's no emergency developments between now and then," she says. "Tonight? Tomorrow? It might be a good idea for me to stay until the groceries come, too, in case the deliveryperson gets lost, but I can wait outside if you prefer."

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:That seems like a good idea. Um, and I do want to have a way of contacting you if something comes up before your next planned visit, but I have fairly decent Mindspeech range, if you'll be within twenty or thirty miles I can reach you. I'm fine with you waiting inside - I think Leareth maybe wanted some space but he went upstairs so it shouldn't bother him if we're in the sitting room: 

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"Let me see how far my place is..." She checks. "Looks like less than five, actually, in a straight line. So that works, although normally if you had an emergency in the middle of the night one of my colleagues would pick your case up for the duration. Would you be able to do telepathy with someone I introduce to you over the phone?"

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:What a good question. Maybe? I haven't ever tried it before but - if I knew what someone looked like, and I'd heard their voice over the 'phone', and I knew approximately how far away they were and in what direction, that might be enough to go on? I think Leareth could–: go on way less in order to Gate somewhere, but actually the reasons why Leareth can't Gate right now are both private and not something Melody incredibly feels like getting into, so she won't. :- Nevermind, sorry. If she's also within that range, I'd be happy to get introduced tonight and test out whether I can also Mindspeak her while we're already talking on the 'phone':

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"All right, I'll stay till the groceries are here, leave you to settle in, and swing by once my nocturnal counterpart responds to a message and is able to be introduced." She composes that message now, it's asynchronous.

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:Sure, works for me: 

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The groceries take another twenty minutes to show up but then there they are in a couple plastic bags on the front porch. Dree brings them in and puts them away for Melody, who might not know which things belong in the fridge.

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Melody is not super familiar with 'fridges' but - there's a cold compartment and an even-colder compartment, it looks like? And if something would become less edible if left out in the snow to freeze, it should go in the less-cold of the cold compartments, is that about right? If there's some kind of organization schema more sophisticated than that, Melody has no idea. 

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"People have different ways of organizing their food - I like to put fruit in the fridge because I like to eat it cold but some people forget it's there if they do that, and it'll last longer in the fridge but if you abandon it there for weeks it's done for. The cold cuts have to be in the fridge, the spreads do too, the cheese does, ice cream in the freezer. Most people would fridge the butter too."

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:Huh! ...Valdemar doesn't have 'fridges' and we don't even really get mages to keep things cold - I guess we had cellars to store vegetables and fruit overwinter, and the idea is that it was colder underground...: 

Leareth set up some kind of magic to keep meat frozen for that with the Quendi in Arda, in preparation for the war, but that is yet another complication that Melody is not inclined to get into. 

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Once the groceries are away and Dree has located a yellowing old bag-accumulator mounted to the wall next to the door that already has a bunch of bags stuffed in it to which she adds these two, she bids Melody goodbye and departs to meet an electric pedicab she has summoned to pick her up.

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House! She is in a new house and she can now explore it freely! 

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- she will check on Leareth first. 

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Leareth is, to external appearances (and also to Thoughtsensing), fast asleep, sprawled diagonally across some sort of soft roundish giant cushion that Melody doesn't recognize. 

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...Ugh. She's not going to wake him up now but this isn't ideal. 

Melody goes around looking for ways to close curtains or turn off nonmagical mage-lights and otherwise make the room as dark as possible, which might at least buy her more time before Leareth inevitably wakes up from a nightmare. (Even if they've arranged it so that no one else is in range, it's still going to bother her.)

How dark can she make his room, given that the sun is still up outside?  

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The curtains aren't blackout but they're fairly thick. She can get it dim.

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Melody does that, and nudges the door mostly shut so that she won't disturb him by walking around but can hopefully still hear him if he wakes up, and then she can EXPLORE their new HOUSE. She is going to look in all the bedrooms and the bathroom and examine all the furniture and go around opening every closet and cupboard and cabinet and drawer to see what's inside. 

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She can turn up:

- most of a tube of cinnamon toothpaste
- a bottle of shampoo, vanilla coconut scented
- a plastic truck small enough to fit in her hand, yellow with red trim
- a silicone spoontula, a nylon turner, a metal ladle, and a chef's knife
- flatware, mostly spoons but also some forks and knives and a few grabby tong things and some disposable straws in assorted colors
- a big steel frying pan and a smallish steel pot
- three paperback books she can't read, one missing the cover and the other two bearing pictures of a) a huge dog with wings and their master b) a planet seen from space, mostly purple
- a plastic comb
- salt, MSG, red pepper flakes, and garlic powder, somewhat caked with neglect
- a bottle of cleaning vinegar under the kitchen sink
- a stash of paper towels and toilet paper and facial tissues, in a closet
- a handheld vacuum cleaner, charging in the same closet, and also a broom
- a dog bed under the blue bedroom's bed, somewhat chewed and bearing the hair of animal visitors past
- a square glass casserole dish
- plates and bowls, chipped and mostly mismatched
- an old flyer for a bagel shop
- half a pink crayon
- a stash of spare sheets and pillowcases

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This people are in some sense really absurdly wealthy! This is fascinating, even if at least a quarter of the objects are entirely mysterious to Melody. She squeezes some of the cinnamon toothpaste onto her fingertip and sniffs it and still doesn't have the faintest idea what it's for. The handheld vacuum cleaner is equally baffling. The tiny dollop of shampoo lathers between her fingertips, so it's...probably soap...but she's mystified as to why it smells like it should be edible. (She does not risk tasting it.) 

She does manage to figure out via trial and error that the crayon is for drawing or writing. The cookware seems entirely adequate, if somewhat random. Leareth's probably going to want the books, he can't read them either but Melody has no doubt he'll try to use them to learn the local alphabet and get started on properly learning to read. 

She selects the room with the windowseat and unpacks her things in it, and eats some bread with cheese and sliced meats on it, and then goes to investigate the bathing facilities. 

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It's not that different from what she was shown how to use in the hospital. The shower curtain has seahorses on it. The sink in this bathroom is deep enough that you could fit a toddler in it, but there's not a tub for adults, just the shower.

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That's too bad. Leareth likes baths and, while he's usually fairly independent with basic life tasks these days, when he's this exhausted he approximately just won't bathe unless coaxed through it. 

She uses the weird edible-smelling soap goo to wash herself and her hair, and then puts on her second spare pair of robes, and starts washing the first set in the sink. 

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Leareth wakes up while she's doing this, mostly because in the process of tossing and turning he managed to slide off the beanbag onto the floor. He instinctively checks the wards with his mage-sight while only a quarter of the way awake, and they AREN'T THERE and he can't remember where he is and he tries to osanwë Maitimo which takes less concentration than Mindspeaking and nothing happens and - 

 

Thoughtsensing - right, Melody's there - right, other world, though he's still disoriented about where he is specifically. 

:Melody?: 

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:Hey. It's okay. We're at the house they found for us somewhere remote. Nothing unexpected or bad is happening. I'll be right there: 

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He's on the floor and he would kind of prefer not to be but changing that state of affairs would require taking actions. 

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Melody is pretty sure that she's way worse at this than Vanyel, but she goes in, trying to move slowly and predictably, and opens the curtains to let in some light, and starts recounting a list of the groceries that have now arrived and her discoveries while inventorying the house, and eventually they can relocate downstairs so she can make Leareth a sandwich as well while they wait for the night-shift person to be available for introductions. 

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About twenty minutes past sunset Dree is back, this time on her own nyoom, a scooter. She knocks on the door.

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Melody goes to let her in, teacup in hand. :Thanks for coming back to do this, I appreciate it. ...And this house. It's really nice. Er, do you have any other updates for us, on selling our gold or anything else?: 

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"Apparently the Premier wants to send someone to visit you but is concerned about how telepathy might interact with classified information, so they're trying to hire a temp who'll just translate for you," says Dree. "There's some bidding on the gold, it's best to let that run for a few days so people who are interested have time to hear about it but it's already bid up high enough to cover your stay here and all the other incidentals that have accumulated so far once the sale's made. I'm glad you like the house. My colleague is awake now and ready to meet over the phone."

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:That's a reasonable worry! It's possible to use Mindspeech without actually getting any surface thoughts not deliberately sent, but it's admittedly a lot harder with non-Mindspeakers, you don't shield and you can't actively project. I'm fine to wait on the gold sale if it's acceptable to pay for those things after the fact. And I'd be delighted to meet your colleague over the phone!: 

Maybe they can go to the sitting area for this, and Leareth can decide if he wants to join them? :Leareth: she sends. :Do you want to meet the overnight 'social worker' too?: 

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Sure, he can come do that. 

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Dree puts her phone on the low table and stands it up on its case and calls her co-worker, who answers after a minute and appears on the screen eating a piece of toast and propping a baby on his shoulder. "Hi," he says. "I'm Nalu."

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Oh, there's even a picture! Melody smiles and waves. "Nalu," she repeats carefully; she's memorized enough word-sounds to guess that this is probably the name part. She points at herself. "Melody." 

:Dree, what direction and distance is he in, approximately?: 

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"Nalu, you live in the Amber Grove area, right?"

"A little downtown of it but yeah."

Dree closes her eyes to orient to a mental map and then gets up and turns and points. "That way, maybe three miles."

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This turns out to be a really hard way to do this! Three miles is technically within Melody's range but it's pushing it to reach someone un-Gifted at that distance, and she's going to have to jump past a lot of other minds that aren't Nalu. Heralds who do Mindspeech relay duties are probably a lot better at this, but Thoughtsensing in itself doesn't come with a search function. 

:Er, can you ask him to try to really loudly think my name? Might help me pick him out without needing to read random other people's surface thoughts so much: 

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:Do you want me to try?: Leareth offers. :I suspect I might have more practice at using Mindspeech in this way: 

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:...Sure, if you want, and then you could pull me into a link: Privately, :- and maybe try not to read random people's surface thoughts, they haven't agreed to that: 

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"Sure, I can try to think 'loudly'," says Nalu, and he does that as best he can.

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Melody keeps looking, but Leareth finds Nalu in less than thirty seconds, before she's made much headway. He's more experienced at distance-mindreading than her and he has a much stronger Thoughtsensing Gift in the first place. 

:Hello: he sends, and then pulls Melody in. 

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:Melody here!: Wow, that's harder than she expected. Projecting to an un-Gifted mind takes more energy to begin with and at that range she can just barely do it for a couple of words. Which is probably fine, if all she needs to do is alert them to an urgent problem? 

:Would Nalu be able to come over here if we need help with something?: she thinks to check with Dree. :It'd be pretty hard to have a whole conversation at this range - Leareth could do it fine but I should assume that a lot of the things that could come up involve Leareth not being up for that: 

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"Yes, he can come out if you need him," says Dree. "He often spends entire nights at home not having any social work emergencies but he's on retainer at the department anyway specifically so if one happens he can come out and help."

:Hello!: says Nalu. :Gosh, that's really something. Can I hang up now? If the baby wakes up she's going to be very interested in the phone:

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:I think that's all we needed: Melody smiles and waves again. :You've been so helpful, Dree, I really do appreciate it: 

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The screen goes dark.

"That's my job!" says Dree. "Is there anything else you need before tomorrow morning? The Premier will probably have a temp hired by then."

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:Er, let me think about that for a minute: Melody does this. :Does it get cold at night here? If so, I didn't see a fireplace - how does heating work here?: 

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"It doesn't get very cold, and if you do need to turn on the heater - the listing warned it was loud - you'll need to, hm -" Dree looks around and finds a little door in the back of the broom closet which conceals the controls for the climate system. "It's apparently seventy-three degrees* in here right now and the heater will kick in if it gets below sixty-five, which is cool but nothing you can't sleep through with blankets."

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:Then I think we're all good. Thank you: Hopefully it won't startle Leareth too badly if it does start going in the middle of the night. At least it's downstairs and far away from the bedrooms. 

Leareth still looks exhausted, and would probably be happy to just go to bed now. Which might have him waking up before dawn, in which case she too will have to wake up before dawn and that's not one of her favorite things, but keeping him awake now will just make both of them miserable. 

She prompts him through going to his room, decides not to fight the battle of convincing him to change before going to bed, and makes sure he has water and an extra blanket and pen and paper within reach.

Then she heads to her own room with a cup of tea (yes, caffeinated, and no, it doesn't especially keep her awake once she's decided to go to sleep, if anything it helps), and she settles herself in the windowseat to look out at the sky and listen to whatever ambient noises are there to be heard.  

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There are frogs and crickets and a surprisingly sparse-looking selection of stars despite the cloudless night.

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Huh. That's going to make Leareth sad once he notices. Melody wonders why. Surely it can't be that the planet just has fewer stars around it? Actually, on consideration, maybe it could be that, it's not like Melody is an expert on astronomy. 

The crickets are soothing, at least. Melody sits by the window for - honestly, a lot longer than she should, she should be in BED to ensure she gets as much sleep as possible before Leareth inevitably has a problem and needs her - but she was never any good at that when she had small children either. (Melody is glad that she had children, they're pretty neat once they get past age six and especially so once they're all grown up, but she really doesn't miss being a parent of toddlers.) 

She indulges in feeling stupidly homesick for a few minutes and then decides to stop that, and goes to bed. 

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Leareth, in a turn of events which is surprising to no one, wakes her up at three am by screaming like he's being murdered and projecting PANIC far enough to hit the entire house and a twenty-foot radius around it, though not any further than that. 

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Being awake from three am until dawn because Leareth starts panicking again whenever she makes a bid to leave the room and also seems really really averse to the thought of her putting blocks on him until he falls asleep again: incredibly not how Melody likes her life to go! She has to be calm and comforting and reassuring (and she's not actually good at "reassuring") and it's just unfair to have to be professional at three am. 

She makes him some herb-tea with the mild sedative effect; she doesn't want to give him anything stronger because then he'll just wake up confused and too out of it to be reassured by logical arguments. This does not appear to do anything. She wants tea TOO but she had to convince him to come downstairs with her before so she could use the kettle and it was an exhausting trial and she doesn't want tea badly enough to do that again. 

She doesn't call Nalu about this because it's not as though it's an emergency-emergency, it's just making her incredibly grumpy. 

 

...And then, of course, by dawn Leareth is tired enough to give in and ask her to put some blocks on him, but once the sun is up it's too late for Melody herself to get any more sleep. Maybe she can nap this afternoon. In the meantime she plonks herself in the kitchen and waits to hear something about the Premier's temp visiting and is in a ridiculously foul mood. 

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Dree drops by at a civilized hour which is to say after the sun has been up for four hours already, and knocks.

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(Leareth is still asleep, and with enough Mindhealing blocks in place that the knock doesn't even wake him.) 

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Melody, who eventually ran out of ways to entertain herself and started MENDING HER SOCKS even though she hates sewing, answers the door. 

:Good morning: She is trying so hard not to let it show like she's in a horrible mood, but mostly she does this by holding a deadpan poker face. 

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"Good morning!" says Dree. "The temp was right behind me, should be along any minute. How did you guys sleep?"

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:I have been awake since several candlemarks before the sun was up, if I'm short with you that's why, sorry. Leareth is asleep right now: 

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"Oh no, did the heater come on and wake you up?"

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:- Oh, no, heater was fine. Leareth just had a nightmare and by the time I convinced him to go back to sleep it was too light outside for me to manage that: 

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"Oh dear. Morning person?"

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:Generally, yes. I think I don't need as much sleep as a lot of people, even, just, however much I got last night was less than that: Shrug. :It's fine, I'll take a nap this afternoon or something: 

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"Okay. While we're waiting for the temp do you want to look at some clothes so you have something to change into?"

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:Oh! Sure? I did bring a change of clothes and I washed my other one yesterday: 

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"I don't know if what you have is going to hold up well in a washing machine," says Dree, "and you might want to go out without looking like you walked off a movie set, but if we do get interrupted by the temp it's good to know it's not urgent. Do you want to tell me what you normally like to wear or should I try for something sort of like what you have and otherwise maximally inoffensive?"

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:I don't normally think much about what I wear? These are the standard Healers' robes in Valdemar, so people know what I do - and also they're comfortable and easy, but since no one's going to recognize Healers' robes here anyway, I'm not very attached to them. I don't want anything tight, I saw some people wearing things like that but the whole world does not need to see my tummy in that much detail. I want pockets and I don't love close-fitting sleeves that don't roll up easily. Other than that I don't think I'm fussy or anything: 

Melody stops. Frowns. :...Also, er, what's a washing machine? I just washed mine in the sink with the weird soap stuff that smells like some sort of exotic dessert: 

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...Dree blinks. "Oh, I forgot to explain the washing machine. The place does have one but maybe it's not inside -" She heads for the backdoor and goes out. "Yeah, washer and dryer back here."

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Melody follows her. Does not look less confused once the washer and dryer are pointed out. 

 

:...This is probably a very silly question but what do you - do - with them?: She can't see an obvious way to get water in other than carrying buckets from inside (and there aren't any buckets she's found so far), and the ergonomics of trying to bend down and wash clothes in there seem not ideal. 

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"You put the clothes in here," she opens the washing machine up, "and you add one of these - don't squeeze them too hard, and if you do and they burst go wash the soap off right away, it's very strong stuff - and then you close it again and you push - let's see, this button here, looks like it's already on pretty gentle settings your clothes might make it through but some things do not get along well with washing machines - and then about an hour later you come back and move them to the dryer here and push that button and they'll dry, and you come back for them in another hour. Some things can take the washing machine and not the dryer, those you can hang. You could sell your clothes if you want more slack than the gold winds up giving you, they're exotic."

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:......That's incredible!: Melody's mindvoice is full of awe. 

(Leareth is going to have a dozen questions about how this works. Melody is mainly amazed at how much time and effort this must save for so many people. She was wealthy enough to afford a maid who handled laundry by the time she married and had babies, but her parents weren't, and she shudders to think what her mother's day must have looked like when she had babies in nappies. Babies are so very good at making messes.) 

:- Hmm. I might sell one pair? Seems like it might be a good idea to keep one familiar set of clothing in case I get desperately homesick and that helps. I bet Leareth would sell all of his, though, he switched over to Quendi fashion much more than I did - it's way prettier - and he's not sentimental about clothes at all: 

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"I can set up an auction for that with pictures of the clothes you want to sell, then. Meanwhile, in 'loose dresses' -" She has completed a Fashion Quiz on Melody's behalf and gotten directed to a line of cheap roomy dresses that come in forty-eight colors and patterns. "Are you a monochrome sort or feeling inclined to branch out from green?"

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That's also incredibly neat. The dresses look nice! She can't tell if they would also look nice on her personally but they seem to be the forgiving-fit sort of dress. 

:I'm not desperately attached to green or anything! It's convenient that it works with my hair, imagine if I'd been a Bard–  Er, for reference, Bards have a different standard uniform and it's scarlet - our friend Vanyel's husband is a Bard and a redhead and it clashes dreadfully. Though I can't claim to be much of an expert on color matching in fashion: 

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"I'll get you a green ombre one and a... cobalt, and this charcoal swirl-pattern one, and if you love them you can get more of the same and if you hate them you can send them back and if they're just okay you can rotate through them while you pick something else out. Do you know what Leareth will like or should I wait to ask him?"

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Gods. Does Leareth have preferences about clothing? It's somehow really hard to picture! 

:Um, I would say that you should probably just ask him but I think he finds it pretty stressful being asked about his preferences. I get the sense he used to always wear black, but I'm not sure if he liked it or if it was just helpful for the public image he wanted to convey. He seems happy to wear whatever our, er, Quendi friend back in Arda arranged for him, and I think that usually tended towards blues and purples, definitely not orange or yellow. But I'm wildly guessing here, I hadn't previously considered that question: 

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"Okay." Dree is in the middle of doing another Fashion Quiz when the temp shows up and knocks.

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It's probably Melody's hostly duty to go answer that? She's weirdly nervous about meeting the Premier's representative, she is so incredibly not a diplomat, but there's no reason to expect this to go badly? And definitely no reason to expect it to go the same way as her past interactions with the King and the Senior Circle in Valdemar. 

She heads over and opens the door and smiles. 

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"Hi," says the temp, a man in his fifties. "I'm Zare, nice to meet you - Melody?"

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:Yes, that's me! Pleased to meet you: Smile. Hopefully it's not obviously horrifyingly fake. :Come on in - would you like tea -?:

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"Oh, no thank you. Sorry it took me so long to get here, I got turned around once I got into the hills. I'm just here so you can talk to Secretary Balane, from the Premier's office, without him getting mind-read. If you mind-read me all you'll find is spoilers for my webcomic and probably intrusive thoughts about my girlfriend. Is now a good time to set that up?"

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Melody had not been expecting him at a particular time so it's not like she would have any opinions on his lateness! 

:Er, yes, this is a fine time. - Maybe try to talk quietly, Leareth is still asleep and he really needs it:

She ushers him toward the sitting room.

:I am pretty sure I will not mindread you by accident and if I do then I doubt it could be any weirder than what I've seen as a Mindhealer. ....Though I am suddenly really curious about your 'webcomic'? I don't even know what that is? I - I'm trying not to read your thoughts in depth other than the ones you're trying to send at me but I somehow doubt that's the problem, I think maybe Velgarth just doesn't have 'webcomics'. It sounds like - sort of a mix between a ballad and a theatre show? But somehow similar to those paintings that are depicting dramatic battles?: 

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"A webcomic is an illustrated serial storytelling medium published on the internet. I can show you if you want once the meeting's over, but you can't read our language, right?"

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:I can't, it's inconvenient! I guess that's not the top priority anyway. Let's go have that meeting as a start: 

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"Mm-hm!"

Zare sets up his phone in the sitting room and starts the call; it takes a while for the person on the far end to pick up but when the call connects it's a man about Zare's age, squinting into his camera. "Hello, I'm Secretary Belare," he says.

"Do I need to repeat what he's saying or can you just - hear me understanding it?" Zare asks.

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:- I could manage just piggybacking on you understanding it, but I wasn't trying to do that? And it would require reading your thoughts more closely in general, which I think most people don't like:

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"All right, I'll repeat what he says. 'Hello, I'm Secretary Belare'."

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Melody smiles back at the not-illusion of the political leader's face. "Secretary Belare," she repeats out loud - she's pretty sure that some of that is a title and some of it is a personal name and she's not quite sure she knows which syllables are which. Moving on. She points at herself. "Melody." 

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"It's good to meet you, Melody. The office's Committed of Truth say you're telepathic and they don't say that sort of thing lightly. Can you tell me - I assume you've been through this story before, but nevertheless - where you're from and what brings you here?"

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This is such a reasonable request and also it's TERRIBLE how she has to go through all of that again. For like the fifth time. After a night of at most four candlemarks of sleep (even if that was entirely due to her own choices, she could have gone to sleep as soon as Leareth did -) 

Melody nods and does her best to smile in a pleasantly neutral sort of way. 

:I am originally from a world called Velgarth, specifically from a country called Valdemar. Velgarth has inherited magical Gifts of various types. Mage-gift is the broadest of them, but Mindspeech - what you're calling 'telepathy' - is a specific Gift, and I have an additional Gift called Mindhealing which I can get into later if you want. Leareth was the leader of a large organization in Velgarth, north of Valdemar, and he was experimenting with magical transportation and accidentally ended up in a different world, Arda: 

Pause. 

:- Is that making sense so far? Any questions?: 

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He's taking notes on a separate device. "Arda isn't your word for here, right?"

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:...No. I don't actually have a word for your world yet. Arda is a third different place. It - also had magic, and gods, like Velgarth - and which you apparently don't have at all here - but both were pretty different. Also I think Arda isn't even a planet. It's apparently flat, whatever that even means, and it didn't even have a sun until recently. Supposedly their version of sunlight used to come from these two enormous magical trees - sorry, if that's weird and confusing to you, I don't have a better explanation and I never saw them - but, er, the trees were eaten by their evil god? That happened at the start of the full-on war between their evil god and the faction that Leareth was working with at the time: 

Melody feels like she could probably explain this so much better if she'd had more than four candlemarks of sleep last night. 

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"That's... worrying... I'm more interested in the state of things now than in how they got that way, to be clear."

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:Right. Current state of things is hard to explain without that background plus some more background, but I'll try to be concise. We won the war in Arda against the evil god, that was a couple of years ago. Leareth was captured and badly injured in the process, but he'd managed to bring in help from Velgarth before that. We'd thought it was all over. But it seems like one of the small-gods that worked for the evil god in Arda had managed to escape into Velgarth in the confusion. A few days ago, the capital city in Valdemar, my home country, was destroyed. We don't know all the details. It seemed like a good idea to get Leareth out of that whole situation, given that he's both a target because of his role in the last war and also still not in great shape to defend himself. One of our allies from Velgarth - Herald Vanyel, of Valdemar - had been exploring with the magic-transportation spell for unrelated reasons. He thought this world was a safer option for us than staying in Arda: 

Pause. 

:....I've definitely already said this to lots of people, but there's no reason to think the evil small-god would target your world or that he even knows it exists, and we're even more sure that us Gating here shouldn't have been detectable to him or anyone else and so shouldn't change the risk there: 

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"And you're here as Leareth's - caretaker?"

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:More or less? That wasn't exactly my role before all of this, but–: Melody makes a face. Thinks for a moment.

:So the default safe place they were evacuating noncombatants to was Valinor. Which is under the control of Arda's gods, and - I could have gone, but I sort of have a grudge against gods. And Leareth is banned from going there at all. Anyway, we clearly needed an alternative for Leareth, and it would clearly have been a disaster to send Leareth alone, and I was available and - among the people who Leareth already trusts, I'm the least useful one in a fight, right, and separately I considered it a positive that I'd get to see a whole other world. It's complicated but I think that covers all the main points?: 

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"Why is Leareth banned from Valinor?"

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This is the WORST conversation to be trying to have on four candlemarks of sleep but it seems like it would be bad to look evasive and even worse to lie? 

:Er, during the period after he was captured by the evil god in the last war, he– so, the evil god, Melkor, could control people's sensory experiences, give them arbitrary hallucinations, and edit their memories. Melkor had only captured one Velgarth mage and he.clearly wanted to have Leareth's capabilities and he tried very hard using all of that to trick Leareth into doing magic for him. I don't think this was his fault in any meaningful way but the other gods in Arda were scared and so they banned him from Valinor: 

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"Regardless of whether it was his fault, is he currently hazardous?"

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:No. His ability to use magic other than Mindspeech - the telepathy we're using to communicate - is blocked, and we're not planning to change that anytime soon: 

Melody HATES HER LIFE but she can't deny that the Premier's representative is asking very reasonable questions. King Randale would have the same sort of questions and - actually she's been in a pretty analogous situation, with Randi, and she was upset and frustrated but she couldn't really judge him for it. 

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"The report I got said you're planning to sell some personal effects to fund your stay here. Do you expect that to last until someone - comes to pick you up?"

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:Probably not? But I have some useful skills that I'd be happy to provide and get paid for, and Leareth has a lot more although I don't want to ask it of him until he's ready, and if we can't earn our keep here then our backup plan is to camp in the wilderness and we do actually have all the supplies we'd need for that: 

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"What skills are those?"

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:I'm a Mindhealer. This is one of the Gifts we have in Velgarth but it's also a skillset, and I'm pretty experienced and - if I can say so myself - pretty good at it. I can help people to cope with their emotional difficulties or traumatic experiences - that's not an exhaustive list or anything, it covers more than that: 

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"So like a therapist?"

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Melody obviously doesn't recognize the word! If she looks in a little closer and deeper at Zare's surface thoughts, to try to get more of the underlying concept, what is that concept? Does it sound similar to what a Mindhealer does? 

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Zare's trying to actually parse the conversation and not just repeat the sounds but he's imperfect at this. His associations on "therapist", such as they are, is that you go to them if a) you have a mental condition that makes you wash your hands 5,000 times in a row or hear voices or try to kill yourself, or b) you don't have one of those but for some reason have no friends to talk to and are paying one to listen to you instead.

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The a) cluster mostly fits? Well, Melody is weirded out by the whole "washing your hands 5000 times in a row" concept, she's never had a patient who did that specifically and it's definitely not 1/3 of her patient load, but the other two fit, ish?

....She is so mystified at the idea that anyone would pay a Mindhealer to talk to them because they don't have friends? Mindhealers are annoying. Or maybe it's just her, but this sure does seem to be the consensus with her patients. Also there are five Mindhealers in the entire country of Valdemar. It sounds like this world has a better ratio, which maybe makes sense given that they don't have magic at all, and once you already don't have magic at all, it must seem like a better idea to just train un-Gifted people in helping other people with their emotional problems. Melody has been advocating for this for years. 

 

:- Er, yes, I think roughly that? Not exactly but there are enough cultural differences here that nothing's going to match up exactly. - And I do have a Gift for it, I can - hmm, so for example if someone tends to get into a guilt-spiral about being fundamentally inadequate every time they see something that reminds them of their parents: that must be generic enough right, :I can go in and directly add a different redirect. It's a shortcut, obviously, and you can't fix everything that way, but it's really useful: 

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"That does sound useful. It seems like it might be hard to apply existing malpractice law to."

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:....I don't know what that means?: 

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"I'm observing that therapists, and the pharmacists they work with who prescribe drugs to the patients, are covered by a set of laws governing how they're supposed to do that, and none of that law or how it's usually enforced covers magical therapy which no one else can directly observe. - that doesn't mean you can't practice, it means you have to get patients to agree to waive certain rights."

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:Oh!: Melody's eyes light up. :That - I think I follow what you mean - that's such a good idea! Valdemar has laws around the allowed ethical using of Healing - that's a different magical Gift that can treat physical illness or injury - and I've really wanted there to be an equivalent for Mindhealers but there just haven't been enough of us, it's lower priority because it just affects fewer people and even if it were a priority none of us had time to write up some kind of official standards and then argue about them. But I really want to see your version! ...Not sure it matters that much whether you can directly observe Mindhealing, it must be even harder to directly observe the effects of a therapist having talked to someone: 

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"The patients are allowed to record their sessions secretly if they wish."

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:Record as in - take notes?: Melody would have thought it would be hard to take notes in a secret invisible way! :Or, wait, it's probably a technology thing like phones, isn't it–: 

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This is the point at which Leareth - who is still asleep - starts projecting DESPAIR at his immediate surroundings. 

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This is so awkward! It's maybe not quite as awkward as her argument with Randi about putting Vanyel under Truth Spell right after the whole stupid drama with Leareth's grand reveal and Yfandes running off, but it's close! 

 

:Ummmm sorrysorrysorry I should probably go - deal with that - just give me a minute -: Melody sprints upstairs. 

 

(She put some pretty serious blocks on him! How is he even doing this?) 

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Well, that leaves Zare suddenly sobbing for no reason and trying to explain to the Secretary about that.

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Melody would have put a shield on Zare but, given her lack of mage-gift and of any special training for that, she only knows how to share her own mind-shields with someone else to cover them if she's touching them, and it seems like she more urgently needs to go solve the source of this problem.

Halfway up the stairs, she reaches ahead and Mindtouches Leareth. :Wake up. It's Melody. You're with me in the other world. Wake up, everything's fine -:

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Leareth wakes up. Stops projecting. Does not stop crying. He's yet again so confused about where he is and also for some reason he's very groggy and can't quite finish his thoughts and also - 

 

:- Is Vanyel dead?: Leareth is very sure he just saw Vanyel die! The exact circumstances are unclear and also now he's confused about everything to do with his epistemic state but he saw it. 

(Leareth isn't deliberately trying to include Zare in the link, but he's also not trying for directional Mindspeech and he's projecting kind of loudly; from Zare's perspective, this will probably come across as the telepathy equivalent of someone screaming not-quite-comprehensible words from a long way off.) 

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It would be really great if Melody had any way of confirming that Vanyel is definitely not dead! Leareth is probably asking for reasons related to whatever nightmare he just had, as opposed to actual events in the real world. But there's a war on and she cannot, actually, give him any certainty that Vanyel is alive. 

:I doubt it? I haven't heard anything indicating that he's dead and when we last spoke yesterday it didn't sound like the war situation was that dire and also Maitimo would absolutely sit on him and stop him from doing anything stupid: 

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Leareth is kind of mostly following that, but he's maybe just going to lie here crying for the next day or so anyway. 

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Melody undoes some of the blocks, after explaining what she's doing and then doing it a second time more slowly in case Leareth didn't follow. 

 

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He is a ways up the hill from them, sitting on the ground and shredding a piece of grass in his hands and mostly succeeding at stopping crying.

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:Hey. Melody here. I am really incredibly sorry about that! ....Um, I had been sort of assuming you got the background on why we're staying in the house in the middle of nowhere, but if not, it's because Leareth has nightmares and does that sometimes. Anyway, er, I think we're fine now, but it would be really reasonable on your part if you did not want to finish our conversation right now: 

Also Leareth is still quietly sobbing next to her, and Melody is REALLY BAD at this and could desperately use some help but she's not sure it's something she could get local backup on even in theory. 

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Zare takes a couple deep breaths and heads back down the hill. "It's only when he's asleep? And he's up now?"

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:It's only when he's asleep, he's not going to do it again by accident while awake, and I think he's pretty done with sleeping now? ...I'm not sure if you'd also wanted to talk to him directly while you were visiting anyway: Frown at Leareth. :I think he'd want to talk to you, if that's the case, but now is possibly not the best moment for it: 

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"It's not really about whether I want to talk to him, but if the Secretary does." He shakes himself a little and goes back in the house to set up the call again.

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Melody really wishes she could personally do the thing that Maitimo can do where he hugs Leareth and this fixes things! She cannot do this. Leareth freaks out if she touches him.

She sits nearby and Mindspeaks with him and eventually it seems like probably nothing disastrous will happen if she leaves the room and goes back downstairs to resume the conversation. 

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Leareth wants to know what's going on but it would be nice if this didn't require moving or taking any actions. 

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....On reflection, it might have been more loadbearing than Melody realized that Quendi need like a quarter as much sleep as humans do. She is so much better at handling things gracefully when she hasn't been up half the night. 

She heads downstairs and makes herself another cup of tea, fidgeting incessantly with her hair and collar and sleeves while she waits for the kettle to boil, and then she rejoins Zare. 

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Zare calls the Secretary back and apologizes, explaining that Leareth had a nightmare and did a telepathy thing about it.

"Well, that's why we're doing this through an intermediary - I'll credit a bonus to the job - anyway, where were we. Feasibility of therapy practice, right, you'll need to make it clear to people that you would be very hard to enforce a malpractice suit against but I'd expect you'd get business. You will need to be familiar with the laws that apply to a profession before you start."

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If the Secretary is just going to continue like none of the recent awkward disaster happened, Melody will go along with this.

:That makes sense! I personally wouldn't feel comfortable doing this at all if I wasn't familiar with the relevant laws!: 

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"Glad to hear we're on the same page about that. You're assigned to social worker Dree Mistyview? She'll be able to help you with that, and also with picking up at least literacy in Kayshu, that being our language."

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:Yes, I think we're with Dree: Whatever that means, Melody doesn't feel like she entirely gets their processes here. :Learning the language is a great idea! If there's some kind of standard literacy training we should arrange that for Leareth, probably, he'll pick it up five times as fast as I can and if we don't do anything he'll just try to teach himself your alphabet from the random books we found in this house: 

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"There are plenty of options, I recommend you talk it over with Dree.

The rest of what I want to talk about has to do with what we can expect when people come to pick you up - what's the range of possible dates for that, where will they land, what if anything will they want with us besides to collect you."

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:...Oh. Right. That: 

Melody has, possibly, been trying not to think about that! It involves trying to make guesses about how the war might go and that's stressful

 

:I don't think we have an exact range of dates and it's possible it could be never, if they lose the war over there or even just if Vanyel gets killed– er, he's the only one who can currently do the interworld Gate spell and find us here again. Um, to be clear, if that happens then we're not going to be demanding your hospitality forever, I think it'll be at most five years before Leareth is stable enough that I can unblock his mage-gift, and it could be a lot sooner than that. I...would be pretty surprised if it were less than a month but that's the best case scenario, and Vanyel's plan had been to Gate somewhere remote and Mindspeak me or Leareth to check if there was anything he needed to know before just showing up: 

Shrug. :Last war took six months. The last war in Velgarth lasted four years but it could've been a lot shorter, I reckon it'd have been over in a year if we'd been more ruthless about it. So I suppose that's my best guess - six months to a year. But it's really, really guessing: 

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"If this war involves telepaths, and Vanyel knows where you are, is it possible he could be induced to provide that information to hostiles?"

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:...In theory, I guess? But it's a lot harder to use Thoughtsensing that way against someone who also has that Gift, and Vanyel has it very strongly. And has - some other defenses which are complicated to explain:

(Melody doesn't feel like getting into the whole Companions of Valdemar thing right now.)

:It's not impossible - Leareth could have done it - but it would take a fight, and we don't think the Arda small-god involved in this is especially adept at Velgarth magic, and have no reason to expect they have allies as impressive as Leareth. Also, er, a fact about mages in Velgarth is that they can - well, instantly commit suicide and make a very large explosion. And I am certain that Vanyel wouldn't hesitate to do that, if the alternative meant putting Leareth in danger: 

She has mixed feelings about this fact being true, but she's very very sure it's true. 

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"Can Leareth create a large explosion?"

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:No. His mage-gift is blocked and it requires that. Only mages can do it, I couldn't even though I have other Gifts: 

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"All right. So assuming both sides of the war are equally likely to prevail it's probably most likely that you will not be picked up and leave under your own power in several years - how long are your years - and nearly as likely that you will be collected before that time, though probably not for months, and there is a minority possibility that through Vanyel or some other avenue that we're unable to predict from here hostiles trace you here, which, if it's going to happen, could happen at any time. Is that right?"

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:...Yes, approximately. To be clear, even if the Enemy does capture Vanyel alive it's not clear that coming after us would be the best use of a captive Vanyel, I'm uninteresting and Leareth isn't currently a threat: 

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"I understand, but how we plan to receive potential visitors depends a lot on whether we're very confident they aren't here to attack or merely expect they probably are not. Is there a particular remote area Vanyel is likely to appear in or is that somehow both undetermined yet within your telepathic range?"

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:Um. He had somewhere specific in mind but I'm - not actually sure where it is - we didn't have a lot of time to plan this out. It's within 500 miles of here, which is in his Mindspeech range, and it's probably the first place he found when he was scoping this world out: 

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"- how was your landing place chosen?"

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:Er, I think he looked around a bit with tiny Gates, or maybe stuck his head through one and cast a scrying spell, and it was the first spot he found that where there were definitely people?: 

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Sigh. "I see. In the unlikely event that you, say, catch some kind of local flu and both die, and therefore he can't find you, what do you expect him to do?"

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Melody frowns. :I mean, if he went in and couldn't find either of us in Mindspeech range, he wouldn't necessarily assume we were dead, since we might've just moved to the opposite side of the planet. He...would probably at that point go make contact with people in the nearest city himself? Or more likely he'd send Maitimo in– Maitimo is our Quendi ally from Arda and he's much more interested in, um, the whole talking to people thing. Anyway I think he would ask about us and if he found out we'd died of the local flu he wouldn't blame you or anything. He's be devastated but he wouldn't blame you: 

...He would instead go looking for Leareth's next incarnation in Velgarth, but that's a whole new bucket of manure that Melody hasn't even lifted the lid on yet. 

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"Not all locations within five hundred miles of here are part of this country, is that likely to be an issue at all?"

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:....Um, probably not? Might matter if you're on good terms with the neighboring countries such that they'd pass on diplomatic queries or whatnot, but in any case Vanyel knows where he left us, he'd try for someone in this city first. It...could maybe get more complicated if Vanyel ends up dead or incapacitated and someone else re-derives the Gate routing to find us again? But I would expect that to take years if not decades, probably Leareth would be able to transport us himself before that point: 

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The Secretary nods. "Will Leareth gain any other abilities he doesn't currently have in the course of becoming able to do that?"

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:Um. If I unblock his mage-gift he'll regain all the capabilities he has with that, including I guess the ability to explode at will although I would definitely not do the unblocking if I thought he might do that at random. But I can't do it selectively or anything. I can try to draw up a list of all the mage-abilities I know Leareth has, if you want? And I'm - willing to defer to your government on whether it's a good idea to let him have all his Gifts again: 

She is technically willing but definitely not happy about the prospect, but what else is new. 

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"I have no reason to think we're qualified to evaluate that compared to his mindreading therapist, it's just the sort of thing that has to go in the security report."

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Melody honestly does not feel all that qualified to assess this either! She's probably more qualified than a random other world's local government and she's glad they're not going to argue about that with her but still

:Noted: 

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"I'm going to go ahead and authorize Dree to handle you as permanent immigrants, in case that winds up being the case. This is an unusual situation and you shouldn't assume that if the portal opens and there are a million war refugees to resettle that we'd be able to handle all of those."

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:That makes sense. I don't think anyone was assuming that: 

If something happens to Valinor then– well, if that happens then it's because the war is basically lost already, and it's hard to imagine anyone on the other end having the capacity to even try to evacuate. Melody is just going to not think about that any further. 

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"Do you have any other questions for me?"

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:...Not right now? Probably there are things I should be asking about but I was awake half the night and I'm not thinking at my best right now. I guess Leareth might. - Er, did you want to talk to Leareth directly? He hasn't asked to but I think he would be up for it, if you want: 

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(Leareth has been listening in on the conversation via Melody-relay and feeling stressed about possibly getting kicked out of this world for being too risky! Oddly, though, it's not the sort of stress that makes him panic. He is doing his best to reason through all of the concerns that the local government might have and how to address them.)

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"If he could confirm that you speak for him on everything we've discussed that would be helpful."

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A few moments later, Leareth emerges from his room, wearing the duvet from his bed over his shoulders, and shuffles downstairs. He does not exactly make eye contact with the Secretary on the other side of the call, but he arranges to be visible from that direction. There are dark circles under his eyes and he hasn't fixed his braid since arriving here, so it's coming out in wisps. 

:I confirm that Melody speaks for me: He may not be happy about all of how she's presenting things but he certainly couldn't do better and trying sounds terrifying. :I - did want to say - I hope to share my knowledge with your world, and learn about your technology, and - find ways that it could perhaps combine usefully with mage-gift. If the war lasts for a long time or our side loses then I will be here for the indefinite future, and if our side wins quickly, and our magic seems of value to you, then Velgarth would likely be willing to send representatives with other Gifts: 

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"- well, it's magic, it would be pretty hard for it not to be of value."

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:It might not be very scalable with only the two of us, and I cannot actually make any mage-artifacts for you at this time. I - do have a Mindspeech range of over a hundred miles, theoretically, if instantaneous long-distance telepathic communication were valuable: Frown. :I - can locate people very easily, in terms of searching for the presence of a mind, and this does not necessarily require reading all of their thoughts. It is good for finding lost travelers and - and people who do not wish to be found: 

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"- interesting. We have communication that's not literally instantaneous but it's close enough for any destination on the planet, but sometimes people do come up missing."

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:I will keep thinking about other ways that Mindspeech or Thoughtsensing could be useful - though, yes, for long distance communication it seems redundant. ...Healers can sometimes use Thoughtsensing to communicate with patients who are unable to speak or write, or - assess the seriousness of a stroke or head injury and whether someone is likely to recover. Unfortunately neither I nor Melody have Healing Gift, which is one of the most common and widely-used Gifts in Velgarth: 

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"That does sound useful, and if you send my office a report we'll prep for the possibility of Healers on loan appearing at an unpredictable point in the future."

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Sending a report is mysteriously terrifying! ...Maybe not so mysteriously. It's very much an action taken with the deliberate intention of affecting the world on a larger scale, and Leareth can think about things like that at all now but he has to do a lot of careful steering around all the stupid traps and pitfalls in his head. 

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"Is there anything else I should know? I'm going to send Dree the information she'll need to forward anything less immediate-term to me."

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Melody knows that face. Leareth is a lot subtler about it now but she's practiced at reading him. 

:I used to work closely with the Healers. I can do a report on how they work. I don't think I have anything else urgent, as long as I can pass anything else I think of later to Dree:  

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"All right. Thank you very much for your time, and welcome to Aldikay."

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:Thank you for coming out! And for helping us get set up here: 

Melody smiles and shows Zare out. 

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Off Zare goes.

Dree swings by about half an hour later to see if they need anything. She has brought them a loaner laptop to share and can set them up with a language learning program! It's got a lot of settings, and while it's not originally intended for people who speak alien languages, if you turn on enough settings intended for preliterate children and learners who only speak obscure dialects of half-dead languages you can make it kind of work for that.

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Leareth is instantly captivated! He absorbs Dree's explanation with rapt attention and, once he's figured out how to use the mouse interface - the keyboard is less useful while he doesn't know the letters yet - he dives into exploring all of the various programs on the laptop, and makes a surprising amount of progress via pure trial and error. 

He is basically completely ignoring Dree. 

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It's really cute when Leareth gets so interested in something; it doesn't happen that often, still.

Melody herself is way too sleep deprived to try to learn a new language right now. She's on her eighth or ninth cup of tea and she's still yawning - and fidgeting incessantly, it's harder to avoid doing that when she's tired. 

:We could maybe finish sorting out getting other clothes?: she offers. :Oh, and - um - I'm not actually sure this is something you could help with even in theory, but I am starting to worry that I'll get incredibly sleep deprived if Leareth keeps having trouble at night. I think it - mattered a lot, actually, that Quendi need much less sleep than humans, and that more than one person was around: 

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"Your clothes are already on the way," says Dree, "they'll be delivered like the groceries were sometime tomorrow. What is it that Leareth needs when he has trouble at night?"

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:Er, mainly someone to gently wake him when he's having a nightmare, and stay in the room until he's okay being alone, and - remind him where he is and what's going on and things, I could probably turn that into a script. And it would be really nice if there were literally anyone here he would accept hugs from, but he's prickly about being touched, and I'm not a very huggy sort of person which makes that not work: Sigh. :All of which seems pretty hard to get a stranger to do! He - probably needs less complicated support during the day, but I'm not sure I could handle being nocturnal: 

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"- I mean, there are people who can be hired to do that, but they are expensive, especially if you need them overnight, yes. It might have to wait till you can set up a practice, or get a loan against your expectation of doing that."

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Sigh. :Figured as much, and that's leaving aside that Leareth has to trust them, which seems tricky. Er, is there any chance your world has decent drugs that work as sleep aids without having awkward side effects or being addictive?: 

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"Nothing that works perfectly on everyone but there are some things to try. I can ask a pharmacist for you." She grabs her phone to email a pharmacist.

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:I would really appreciate that! Our world just doesn't really have good options, so it seems worth trying. In the meantime, I - will do my best to handle it like I handled having babies, though I'm really too old for that now: 

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"Did you not have any coparents?"

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:Hmm? Er, no, we weren't desperately poor or anything but we couldn't afford a wet nurse, and my parents weren't really around to help: Because her husband drank and gambled away half of her stipend from the House of Healing. :Some husbands are better with the very little ones, but mine was really only interested once they could talk: At which point he was a surprisingly sweet father to their children, but given how often he was drunk, she would have been loathe to trust him with changing nappies anyway. 

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"That sounds rough, I'm sorry. - pharmacist is sending over some first-line options, they'll be here in the next four hours."

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Melody ducks her head. :Thank you. And, that's amazing! I don't even have to go anywhere for it?:  

She had it better than most women in Valdemar, really; she never worried for her children's next meal, or their new winter clothing. The Quendi would have been horrified, of course, but their lives were different in so many ways. Relatedly, she never told any of them about it. 

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"- having pharmacy delivery is arguably even more important than having grocery delivery, sometimes medications are extremely urgent! These aren't but the deliverypeople still exist even when no one's had their refrigerator break and ruin all their insulin."

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:Their what? Er, never mind if you don't feel like getting into it right now: 

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"Insulin is a hormone some people have trouble producing correctly and need to take exogenously instead."

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Those are a lot of concepts that are foreign and new to Melody! She can't quite follow it but it sounds incredible. Shavri would be ecstatic and have so many questions. 

:Wow. Anyway, I think that's all? I don't want to keep you too late: 

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"- this is my job, if you need me for something please ask sooner than later."

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Nod. :I appreciate it. I'm sure more things will come up and I won't hesitate to Mindspeak you, but - you've been wonderful, so far. I can't believe how smooth everything has been: 

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"I'm glad! I'll drop by tomorrow morning if I don't hear from you before then?"

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:Works for me!: 

Leareth is still enthralled with the laptop. Melody makes another sandwich and puts it next to him, but other than that she figures she can leave him to it until the pharmacy deliveryperson gets here. Maybe she can take a NAP in the living room. 

She's not normally good at napping in the daytime, but it's been a really exhausting morning and Melody passes out within five minutes. 

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The language program teaches him basic vocabulary (dog, cat, bird; man, woman, girl, boy; computer, paper, pen, pencil; nyoom, walk, ride, drive; see, hear, touch, taste...) and simple clause construction and productive affixes for Kayshu.

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A number of the new words are for things he wouldn't have recognized a day ago! Most of them he's encountered since, but all of the new concepts are kind of buzzing around in his head. 

Leareth had really not expected that the random other inhabited world Vanyel had found would be substantially higher tech, or just how exciting this would be. (If he had been thinking through all of the ramifications of not having gods, it might have been obvious, but Leareth is not as good at thinking through all the ramifications of things in general as he was once.) 

He manages almost three hours straight of language practice before ending up exhausted enough that he's considering lying down on the dining room floor. Instead of doing this, he drags his blanket behind him to the living room and takes the other sofa. 

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Melody half-opens her eyes, decides this is probably fine - the pharmacy deliverperson will probably knock, right? - and goes back to sleep. 

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The pharmacy deliveryperson knocks and leaves the drugs on the doorstep almost immediately afterwards.

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This is long enough for Leareth, who was uncomfortably half-dozing (the second couch is not actually long enough for him to stretch out) to startle half-awake and flail out with his Othersenses, and then decide not to panic because Melody is already groggily reassuring him that everything is fine. 

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It takes Melody somewhat longer than that to stagger to her feet and over to the door to unlock it and look around. 

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Deliveryperson looks over her shoulder and waves and gets back on her horse and trots off.

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Ooh, horse! It feels - nice to see. A soothing reminder of home. Melody doesn't even like riding horses, the non-magical powered carriage vehicles are just objectively better, but still. She waves back and smiles, and then collects the delivery bag to go unpack on the dining table and examine. 

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There are seven little packages. Each has different pills in it - three each - and some text in Kayshu.

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....Great. In hindsight this was an expected problem. She could ask Leareth to have a go at deciphering the letters, but almost certainly his vocabulary hasn't gotten as far as to cover drugs for sleep. 

She stretches out her Thoughtsensing to look for Dree. 

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Dree is with a different client now, checking in about how he's coping with the restraining order his ex has on him and talking about his options if he wants to move to a different city to make that easier.

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Seems like an awkward time! Melody will try again in half a candlemark. 

In the meantime, maybe she can convince Leareth to make his way upstairs and, like, take a shower? 

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Leareth is not exactly enthusiastic but he gamely heads upstairs and tells Melody that he can figure it out himself. (It's not complicated plumbing, and he's fine with Maitimo or even Vanyel helping him bathe, but Melody never has before and it feels weird, he sort of has the sense that she isn't very comfortable with random nudity.) 

He gets undressed and tentatively steps into the shower and tries the knob - 

 

 

 

 

- and the water comes out COLD and also with more water pressure than he was expecting and for some mysterious unknown reason that he can't even immediately connect to a horrible torturememory, this is the WORST THING IMAGINABLE, and he tries to dive to the floor and instead manages to hit his head very hard on the wall of the shower cubicle. 

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That....didn't sound reassuring. 

"Leareth?" Melody calls, knocking at the door. "Leareth, can I come in?" 

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No answer. 

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:Leareth? If you don't confirm that you're all right I'm coming in to check on you: 

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Leareth is for some reason in a really uncomfortable position and also really cold and his head hurts quite a lot and he's not sure how he got here, and all of these seem like extremely strong convincing reasons why it's not safe to reason about the situation or have beliefs or preferences about it and definitely not safe to take actions. 

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:Right, I'm coming in now: 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Hellfires. That definitely looks like a problem! 

Melody reaches out again, and this time actually Mindtouches Dree. 

:Dree? I'm so sorry to interrupt but we sort of have an emergency here: 

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"- excuse me a moment," Dree tells her client, and she nips into an empty office. :What is it?:

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:I'm not exactly sure I didn't see what happened but Leareth is on the floor in the shower bleeding and not responding to me - I think he hit his head -:

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:I'll send you an ambulance: Dree says, getting out her phone to do that.

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Wow that sure has the potential to make the situation EVEN WORSE if, in fact, Leareth isn't badly hurt and is just predictably unresponsive because he always does that when he panics hard enough, but also Melody doesn't have Healing-Sight! And has no way of telling from the outside if Leareth has a serious head injury if he won't talk to her! 

:Thank you: she sends tersely. 

Also she doesn't know if he's safe to move but she can't exactly leave him sprawled naked in the shower. How...is she supposed to get a fully grown adult man who is completely limp and uncooperative, and also nude and wet and slippery, and ALSO has a lot of touch-related trauma and might still be aware of his surroundings and just unable to engage, out of a shower which is STILL ON and FREEZING COLD? She can't even reach to turn the stupid shower off without, like, stepping on him. 

 

She will do her best to awkwardly maneuver Leareth out of the shower without moving or jarring his neck too much, and get him on the floor with a blanket over him and a folded towel under his head, and then - try to stop the bleeding? He's not actually bleeding all that much, it's maybe already clotted on its own. 

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Leareth spends this time lying on the floor and does not interact in any way and tries very hard not to have thoughts. (Which Melody can't observe directly because he's still shielding.) 

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Melody sits beside him and talks soothingly to him throughout and then, when she hears the knock, gets up and sprints for the stairs, and almost trips on her robes and falls flat on her face which would, you know, really be exactly the addition this situation needs. She catches herself, though, and makes it down without incident, and opens the door. :Upstairs: she says shortly. 

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They flinch a little at the telepathy but were apparently warned. Up they go to assess Leareth. How bad is it?

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Well, he's lying on the floor and not responding to anything! He's also shivering, probably because he's still pretty damp. (Melody did not want to touch him more than necessary in order to properly towel him off.) There's a some blood in his hair and on the towel under his head, but not, like, a huge lake of blood or anything. He's breathing normally. He looks kind of pale but it could just be that he's cold. 

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Melody tries to prod him with Mindspeech again, is unsurprised at the lack of response, and then hovers and picks at her sleeve. 

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They confer with Melody about how much of this is normal, and shine a light in his eyes, and dry him off and take some vitals.

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:It...could be? Sometimes he has really bad panic attacks and mostly doesn't respond to anything for a while. It's been six months since the last time it happened for more than five or ten minutes but he's under a lot of stress and, er, managed to turn the shower on cold, which might have really thrown him. I probably should not have let him do it unsupervised but standing there watching would have made him stressed too. And I can't tell if he's additionally actually hurt: 

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Leareth's pupils react normally. His pulse and blood pressure are both pretty high. 

(Leareth is not especially parsing what's happening around him, his head hurts really quite a lot now, but both unexpected bright lights and complete strangers touching him are both PROBABLY BAD. He tries not to react but he's shaking more now.) 

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"The text said it was probably a bad idea to take him to the hospital if we could avoid it. He doesn't seem to be actively deteriorating, it might make sense for us to hang around for another ten or twenty minutes and see if he perks up."

"You should get him a dog," remarks the other one, draping a fresh towel over him to keep him warm.

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:I was kind of thinking that! Yes, I would appreciate if you could stick around a while longer and see. ...A - dog? Why?: 

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They scoot back from Leareth to give him a little more space. "The panic attacks? Some dogs are really good for that. And it's not like being supervised and it's not like being alone, having a dog with you."

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:Huh! Well, appreciate the recommendation, I'll keep that in mind. I can maybe ask our social worker about it: 

Melody is going to flick off the bathroom lights so they're not shining directly in Leareth's eyes, and sing to him quietly. She's a mediocre singer and has always been too self-conscious to do it where Quendi could possibly hear her, which given their senses is everywhere in Tol Eressea, and she certainly isn't good enough to make any of the magic songs work, but she does know some of the other popular songs and familiarity is probably good? 

Damn it but she wishes Vanyel was here. Vanyel is exactly the person who most can't be spared to be here but, on top of the difference it would make to Leareth, she personally misses him too. 

She keeps Mindtouching Leareth, explaining over and over where they are and what's happened in the last day and that they're not in danger here, there are people but they're Healers and they're here to help and they won't do anything he doesn't want them to do, and she knows he's probably in pain but he just hit his head and he's going to be fine. 

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Leareth is in less pain with the lights off and he's still kind of uncomfortable but at least he's warm enough and eventually Melody's monologue starts to get through. He - doesn't answer her, exactly, but he holds his end of the link. 

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Oh, phew. 

:That's really good: she tells Leareth, and then adds privately to the paramedics, :- he's a little more responsive? If he can manage actual words to tell us how he's feeling in a bit, is that good enough to not take him to the hospital?: 

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:Assuming the way he's feeling isn't hospitalworthy, sure:

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:Right, of course: 

She will just go on being reassuring in Mindspeech while singing, then, and adding in every minute or so that Leareth can tell her how he's feeling whenever he feels able to but it's not a rush or anything. She doesn't want to make him stressed about that, it would just be counterproductive. 

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Eventually, Leareth is capable of both stringing words together, and putting them in Mindspeech. (He would have been able to manage public thoughts a lot sooner, and in fact was doing that, but it doesn't exactly work with Melody, the usual way he does it is different from just 'unshielding'. 

 

:Head hurts: he sends, fairly clearly. 

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:I know. I think you slipped and fell in the shower and hurt yourself. How badly does it hurt?: 

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It's still kind of hard to assess that. :Not...the worst I have felt? I think: 

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Melody turns back to the paramedics. :He's talking to me. Said his head hurts, but that it's not the 'worst' he's experienced. ....Though, er, that does not set the bar where it would for most people. Are there other questions I should ask him: 

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They have a standard inventory for head injuries they can go through, yeah.

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Leareth knows where he is, if only because Melody just told him twenty times. He doesn't know the date but this is mostly because he has no idea of the local calendar; he can give the approximate date in Arda. He can feel all of his extremities and doesn't have numbness or tingling. (He can also move everything, it just takes him substantially longer to work up the will to do this.) He's pretty dizzy and feels nauseated when he tries turning his head and he thinks he probably could stand up but he would really prefer not to do any things. 

(It takes, like, five minutes to get all of this, because sometimes Leareth takes a while to answer a question.) 

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They do not feel this is urgent-hospitalization-level, but they will leave their ambulance parked outside where it is till they get another dispatch, in case. They will go sit in it rather than hovering though.

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Melody is really grateful for their help! She thinks she feels qualified to stay with Leareth and make sure his condition isn't worsening, now that he's communicative - she did work with Healers - but if they've got any advice she would like to hear it. 

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They produce some advice this margin is too medically untrained to contain and go sit in their ambulance. The one with the dog suggestion reiterates it.

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:It seems like a good idea! I'm going to ask Dree for more information about dogs when it's a good time for non-emergency discussions: 

Melody kind of feels like Leareth would be more comfortable not on the goddamned bathroom floor, but if he doesn't want to move then he doesn't have to move. She Mindspeaks the paramedics again to ask if it's safe to give him water. 

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Yup, he can have water, though he should be careful especially if he's not ready to sit up that he doesn't wind up with it in his nose.

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Leareth does not really want to sit up all the way, but he's willing to be eased slowly into a more and more propped position with additional pillows, and also this planet has the incredible technology of plastic straws, which makes drinking in weird positions much easier. 

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Melody helps him with that, and then Thoughtsenses Dree again to check if it's a bad time to interrupt. 

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Now Dree is having her lunch break.

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:Hey, it's Melody. I think we're fine here, Leareth just panicked about the shower accidentally being cold and then made it worse by hitting his head but the ambulance people don't think he's seriously hurt. They said I should get him a dog? Because some dogs are good for panic attacks? I thought you'd be the person to ask about that: 

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:Some dogs are bred for support with issues like that, yes. They do require onboarding, has he trained dogs before?:

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:I have no idea but he's done enough things in his life that I wouldn't be surprised! Is there guidance on how to do it, or textbooks or anything?: 

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:Well, yes, but you can't read Kayshu:

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:Not yet but he's working hard at it! He was on the computer tutorial for ages today: 

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:It would probably take quite a while of working on the language to be able to read a dog training manual but I can look into it and see how complicated it is and how much you can outsource it:

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:Right. I figured it might also be cheaper to get someone to 'read' a book to Leareth in Mindspeech, have it double as language practice, rather than paying a specialized dog trainer? ...Er, also, before I forgot, quick question. I - can't actually read the labels on the sample meds that were sent over: 

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:Oh, of course, I'll come by in an hour and read those for you and look into dog breeds:

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:Great! Sounds good: 

Melody settles herself as comfortably as she can against the landing beside the bathroom door - sometimes Leareth prefers if people are nearby but not actually in line of site - and sings quietly, and intermittently checks if he needs anything and if he's willing to try getting up and relocating to his much more comfortable bed. 

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About 45 minutes later, Leareth can be coaxed to get up and make his slightly unsteady way down the hall to his bed, where he immediately curls up, and then very quietly asks if he can have something warm to drink. 

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Melody brings him some tea and then sits at the top of the stairs to sip her own tea and wait for Dree. 

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Dree shows up in an hour as expected and knocks!

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Melody Mindtouches Leareth to let him know that she's going downstairs to talk to Dree, and then heads down to let her in. :Thanks for coming back. Sorry we've been taking up so much of your time today: 

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"It's okay! This is my job, and I'm actually no longer taking new clients for now because you seem likely to be high-support-need for a while." She can read the medicine packets - they have names on them and there's a separate instruction sheet indicating which ones to try in what order depending on effect profiles. It says that most people won't need all these pills but they're packaged together to make it easy to find what works. They can go to more expensive options if the trial doesn't turn up anything worth sticking to, and here is how you order more of whatever you want more of.

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It's so helpful! Melody takes her own notes on a separate 'instruction sheet' and just copies over the first three letter shapes of each drug name, which she cannot read. She thanks Dree for the information. 

:Are there any that definitely shouldn't be combined, even just pairwise? In case I try one and it turns out not to work very much and he still can't sleep tonight: 

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The instruction sheet includes that information! The first three are all safe together and some people apparently take all of them in a combined pill.

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Huh! Well, she's not going to assume that Leareth will react exactly the same way that the local humans do, so she'll be cautious. 

:And - dog breeds? I've been mulling it over and I think it's a really good idea. Even apart from the support, he'd probably benefit a lot from an animal he could pet. I'm worried he's going to get really touch starved - which, I mean, he was before any of the war things happened, and was apparently fine, but it seems less fine now: 

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"Well, let me find a good dog quiz." She gets online and finds a dog quiz! Dog purposes: emotional support, snuggles, anything else?

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Wow, she's not sure! Melody has never had dogs! In Velgarth people use them for...hunting, or defending their homes against thieves, or herding their livestock. Presumably none of these apply? Well, Leareth might find it reassuring to have a guard-dog, but Melody once had a neighbor with one and she does NOT want to be randomly woken up by the dog working up a midnight rage at random ducks, and that seems bad for Leareth too. 

What else do dogs do here? 

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...guardian dogs that wake people up over ducks would be terrible and Dree plans to get a dog that isn't terrible. She can check "guardian".

Dogs can do various errands and chores, turn soil, pull carts or carry bags, take care of other animals, compensate for missing senses, track scents, learn acrobatic tricks, race, and do certain diagnostics.

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That's really neat! Plausibly it would be good for Leareth to have a dog that could help carry things and do errands? Actually, for in-the-house errands in particular it would be really good, probably - Leareth needs food brought to him, for example, or he mostly won't eat. 

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Okay, so they want a generalist dog, emphasis on the chores and emotional support. Next questions on the quiz are - drool tolerance? Energy level (and corresponding exercise requirements)? General disposition? Size?

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Melody thinks dog drool is disgusting but it's not her dog, she's sure Leareth would be fine with it. She would incidentally also prefer a dog that does less hair-shedding everywhere; it doesn't make her sneeze like it does some people, it's just gross. Probably they want a very calm dog that doesn't react a lot to non-dangerous things? Exercise requirements: she thinks it would be good for Leareth to get outside for a walk a couple of times a day, though he might have to work up to it, she doesn't mind doing some of the dog-taking-out in the meantime. She vaguely suspects he would like a bigger dog if it's also calm and non-scary. (She's thinking of Huan.) 

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Okay! The dog quiz has some suggestions now, each with a selection of photos with objects for scale. Large chill dogs that don't shed too much for generalist mostly-indoor purposes: there's this curly black kind, this bearish one that comes in brown and white splodges, this gray kind, this kind with barely any fur that's red with a cream belly.

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Ooh, the bearish one and the very-short-haired one are both cute! They should probably show Leareth the options, though. 

:Leareth? Do you think you're up for looking at pictures of dogs?: 

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Why does she– oh, right, Melody did explain the dog thing to him, Leareth just wasn't parsing things very well at the time. 

:I suppose so. Can she come up here and show me?: 

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:Leareth says he's up for looking at dog pictures but he would rather not get up, we can go upstairs: Melody tells Dree. 

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Then Dree can take her laptop up to him!

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Leareth is sitting in a nest of blankets with his knees pulled up to his chest; he's not really making eye contact and there's a visible bruise on his temple, but he otherwise doesn't look vastly worse than before. He will accept a laptop and look at dog pictures. 

:I like the black fluffy one, I think? If they are otherwise approximately equivalent. ...I have done animal training before, though not with dogs recently, Melody said that is relevant?: 

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"Normally you'd train your own dog yourself, but you can get it done professionally, or with professional support. That just costs money."

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Nod. :I think I can probably–: Leareth stops. Thinks about it. :I could definitely handle it myself if I were more consistently functional. If it requires being very consistent at doing things every day, which I think animal training generally does, it could be hard: 

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"I'm a cat person, personally, but I think the basics are the same - you get one that's old enough to already be clicker trained, if you want it to work soon instead of after it grows up a bit more, and then you keep the clicker on your wrist or your belt and have a list of what behaviors you're trying to shape. You don't have to work on it every single day actively as long as you can reward what you want it to do if it does it on its own, which it should since they're bred for this."

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Nod. :Your world must be very advanced at purely non-magical breeding techniques! You can do things like that in Velgarth but it is much easier if magic is involved: 

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"Huh! You don't have - herding dogs that if you try getting them for some other purpose will try to herd your kids?"

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:We have herding dogs and hunting dogs, but all of those are breeds that have been worked out over centuries if not millennia, and I think many attempts to use nonmagical breeding to get a new specialized breed do not succeed? There was a popular period of breeding small lapdogs among the ladies at court in on of the kingdoms of Velgarth, and they were never able to get them to stop barking incessantly or trying to eat shoes even though these were highly undesirable qualities in lapdogs: 

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"Huh. I don't think of it as being very complicated but I don't personally breed animals so perhaps it's surprisingly complicated somehow." There are recommended breeders of Ebony Curlies, that being the black kind he likes; Dree opens five tabs of ones that include their area in their service zone, looking for the ones that come with the most pretraining.

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Leareth watches this over her shoulder for a little while and then, running out of energy, burrows under his blanket and hides. 

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Melody nudges Dree with a private Mindtouch. :We should maybe go downstairs again. Also, er - I should check how much the dog costs, is this going to be an issue with our current money situation?:

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"I have some budget set aside for this from the government since you talked to the Secretary, it'll cover getting a dog. Though once you've had a couple of weeks to settle in you should probably look into getting an income of your own."

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:Yes, definitely. It'll be a lot easier once I'm getting enough sleep, which hopefully will happen one way or another:

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"Mm-hm! I'm going to write to this breeder and see if they have a working-age young dog that might be a good fit."

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:Sounds good, thank you! Er, is there any preparation we need to do for having a dog in the house? Obviously it'll need food and all but - do we need to hide or lock up potentially dangerous things like you would for a toddler?: 

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"I'll ask about that, I think breeds vary."

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Melody thanks her and goes to make more tea. 

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Dree has an answer from the breeder half an hour later. "They have a return - one they sold as a puppy but it didn't work out and the dog was given back for a refund - and they're pretty sure there's nothing actually wrong with the dog, just a bad fit with the human, and have been training it themselves since then. They'll take it back from you too if it doesn't work out. They have a recommendation for another breeder with dogs a bit younger if you'd rather have one that wasn't returned, but those will require more training here from you guys."

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:No, I think that should work fine, if they're thinking it was a one-off issue. Um, what kinds of things usually come up that make a dog a bad fit for someone once they've already done all the careful selection to choose a dog to get?: 

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"Apparently they turned out not to like the way the dog smelled and weren't as tolerant of being licked as they thought."

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:Mmm. All right, I'm definitely not very worried about Leareth having that issue: And if it turns out that she hates being licked by a dog, well, this isn't about her, is it. 

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"Okay! They can bring the dog over to be introduced - tomorrow morning, does that sound good?"

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:Sure! Maybe better if it's not too early, in case Leareth ends up needing to sleep in again: 

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"How early is too early? I can ask that they come after noon instead."

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:Noon or a bit before noon is probably fine? Leareth was awake by then today, and that's after he was up half the night, which I'm hoping won't happen again now that he's a little more used to the space and we have the new drugs to try: 

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"Okay." She writes back, and gets a reply quicker this time. "There we go."

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:Thank you! Er, are you going to come in too - or is the dog person already aware of the situation and that we'll need to communicate by telepathy and Leareth might read their mind?: 

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"I'll be there too, and I'm going to clarify about the telepathy situation before the appointment."

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:Sounds good. I don't think I have any more questions or requests now: 

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"Okay. Do you want me to hang out here in case something comes up or give you guys some space?"

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:Probably give us some space?: Leareth may or may not be bothered by someone else in their house, but Melody is having a hard time switching off the part of herself that feels that she's being a very bad host if she just wants to drink her tea in peace and not interact.

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"Okay. I'll see you tomorrow a little before the dog appointment if nothing comes up before then."

And off Dree goes.

The clothing delivery shows up later that afternoon.

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Clothes! Exciting! 

Leareth is still in bed, though he was convinced to eat some late lunch and is now back at the language exercises on their laptop, so Melody separates out his clothes in the delivery, leaves them folded beside his door, and immediately tries on all of her new outfits in front of the bathroom mirror. 

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They don't fit her as well as tailored ones would, but they're comfortable and the stitching is so small!

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Well, she went for a roomy style anyway, the fit is pretty forgiving. Which is probably good, because she's likely to get much less exercise here than she did in Tol Eressea when she was trooping back and forth across the island between Leareth and her other patients most days. 

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Leareth does language practice until Melody comes to coax him out for dinner, and then he tries on his own new clothes. 

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His are in various dark colors and sort of robey, like the Elf clothes.

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Leareth likes them. He spends a while examining the cloth and stitching and design in minute detail, marveling at the fineness and precision, wondering what technology must have been put to use. The threads are so thin as to be hard to make out unless he's holding the cloth right up to his face. 

He would sort of like to be clean before getting changed, but he has apparently acquired a deep terror of the shower and absolutely does not want to go in there again. He ends up making do with an awkward sink birdbath, and puts on one of the robey outfits, and joins Melody in the living room to do some more language tutorial practice, though it turns out that after forty-five minutes he's yawning and his concentration is slipping. 

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The language learning program will be there for him when he is ready to do more. It is infinitely patient.

Nobody bothers them the rest of the day.

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It's just barely past dusk, but Melody isn't going to keep Leareth up just in hopes that she can sleep in later. She brings him one of the sleeping pills from the first three, tucks the other two in her pocket so she'll have them available if he wakes up in the middle of the night, and then cajoles him up the stairs to his bedroom, tucks him in with water and his notes within reach, and sits with him until he's asleep. 

She's tired, but not sleepy; it turns out that long midday naps are perhaps a bad idea for sleep regularity. She goes to bed anyway, lies awake for a while thinking about their various problems, and eventually sleeps. 

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The new drugs do seem to help! Leareth only wakes up once, and he doesn't project or even yell especially loudly; Melody only actually wakes up when he Mindtouches her plaintively, at which point she gives him the second drug as well. He dozes off again without too much trouble and, though he half-wakes a few more times, he's drowsy enough to drift back under the surface. 

He does still sleep in quite late; when he sort of wakes up a little after dawn, he's still very groggy and has no impetus or desire to get up. 

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She slept the WHOLE NIGHT this is great! 

Melody has a pleasant morning to herself, drinking tea in the sun by the window and doing some language tutorial practice of her own. (She's very far behind where Leareth is on it.) 

By the time the dog-owner arrives for their greeting visit, she has Leareth up and sitting downstairs, though he's still yawning and too fuzzy-headed to focus on the language practice. She should maybe either try a different drug combination tonight, or else make sure to give him both early enough in the evening that it's not still in the process of wearing off at noon the next day.

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Dree shows up before the dog person and lets them know she's there but waits outside.

And then there is an old man with a dog on the back of his nyoom! Even not quite all the way grown up this dog is pretty big, and comes up to the man's hip. It follows very docilely and sits when told at the doorstep, and then Dree knocks.

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Melody lets them in. :Wow! That is a big dog. Come on in, I'm Melody - Leareth is just inside: 

Nyooms are also an excellent technology. Once they have an income source and also Leareth is more settled and in a state where he might ever want to leave the house and immediate surroundings, Melody should think about obtaining one for him, it would make errands a lot less tiring. 

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"Hello!" says the man with the dog. "This is 448 - we don't give them names ourselves, don't want anyone to feel awkward about changing it."

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:Fair enough! Leareth is just this way: 

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Leareth goes very still as soon as the dog enters the room along with the old man, holding his face expressionless, but Melody is used to reading him and she doesn't think he's scared, just - adjusting to the situation. 

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"Do you want me to send her over to you or not yet?" the man asks.

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Leareth shoots a look at Melody. 

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:Maybe in a couple of minutes?: And Melody is going to go sit in the mismatched armchair all the way over HERE, nice and far away from possible dog drool. 

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The man takes a seat at the dining table and 448 sits by him, looking around, tail occasionally going thump.

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The dog, for all her hefty size, is oddly nonthreatening and friendly. 

:You can send her over now: Leareth says after about a minute, most of which time he actually spent nudging his mind into being willing to Mindtouch the old man, rather than anything about the dog per se. 

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The old man snaps his fingers and 448 looks up at him. He points at Leareth and says, "Go make friends," and 448 gets up and trots over to Leareth and sniffs a few times and then plops her chin in his lap.

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This is mildly startling but Leareth has petted Huan before and so he already has an expectation that 'pet dog' is soothing and not stressful. He isn't sure if dogs all like being petted in the same way, and especially not if dogs bred in this world for support and errands will like the same kind of petting as a Maia. He tries scratching behind her ears and in the thick ruff of fur around her neck, which it turns out is oddly comforting to bury his whole hand in. 

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Wagwagwagwag!

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Leareth sort of wants to put his entire face on 448's fur but she might not like that. Instead he pets and scritches for a while and then looks over at the dog owner. :Is there anything in particular that should be doing to make friends?: 

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"I brought a bag of treats," (448's ear twitches), "and you can put her through her standard commands and click-and-treat her for them."

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:What are the standard commands?: They will presumably be in the local language but Leareth is amassing a decent vocabulary of very common words, though his grasp on the grammar is much more incomplete. 

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"Uh - well, if I say them, she'll do them, can I give you a written list -"

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:You can do that, it will be good for later reference, but I am not very competent at reading yet. You - could think them at me loudly without speaking out loud?:

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Sure, the man can attempt to silently loudly read his checklist. 448 knows:

- attention (look at handler, be ready for further instructions)
- here (come to handler)
- give space (back off from anyone she's currently touching)
- leave it (stop investigating an object)
- drop it (put down an object)
- freeze (hold totally still, useful for vet visits)
- sit
- lie down
- wait
- up
- follow
- bring (with a noun to follow, or pointing)
- circle (patrol an area around the handler, or circle a building, and bark at anything suspicious - ideally she'd be familiar with the area around the house first or she'll find too many things suspicious)
- go time (a euphemistic command for it being appropriate to relieve herself in a particular location)

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That’s actually really impressive! Leareth had expected a not-fully-trained dog to be arriving with way less existing training than that; he suspects most Velgarth dog breeds literally can’t learn to follow anywhere near that many specific and sometimes fairly complex commands. And this is presumably just the beginning! 

He writes down the commands phonetically using the Rethwellani alphabet (shared with all the other languages in the nearby region), and curiously tests out all of them except the last two, which would require him to stand up and take 448 outside. She can get a treat for everything she does correctly! 

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By the end of it 448 basically WORSHIPS him. "We usually distribute the training between a bunch of different folks," explains the old man, "so they don't get too attached to anyone - this one I was a little worried, she did seem attached to her last owner, but looks like she's taking to you."

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:Apparently!: There is something weird, and that should maybe be discomfiting, about being so instantly the subject of adoration, but it's hard to feel anything other than pleased about it. 

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This continues to be one of the cutest things that Melody has ever seen in her entire life. You could sell tickets to it. 

:I did have some questions about further training: Melody says while Leareth is distracted scritching 448's neck fur again. :In particular, apparently this breed of dog can be useful at - being supportive with panic attacks and things like that? I'm not sure what that looks like and I'm extra not sure how you try to train it: 

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"She'll figure out how to tell if a panic attack is coming on on her own, the trick is that you have to decide what you want her to do, train that as a behavior set, then assign it a temporary command till she learns to go ahead and perform the behavior on the cue of the attack itself. It can be a hand sign if it's the kind where it's hard to talk."

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:That makes sense. Leareth and I will think about what would be a good behavior to train, I guess. I think most of the time he can still manage a hand sign at least, but sometimes he goes totally uncommunicative for a while - in that case, would it work if I gave the command? ...Though I guess what we actually might want is for her to come get me, before doing anything else, I wouldn't want him to be alone even with her but it'd make me feel more comfortable not checking on him so often. And we probably actually need a couple of different responses, depending on if he's outside and further from the house at the time...: 

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This conversation is bizarrely easier to have while petting a dog! 

:I might want her to bring me a blanket to hide under? It helps for some reason and it would be easier than if I needed to move myself to where the blanket is:

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"Bringing a blanket's a good one," nods the old man, "and getting a person, and it should work fine if someone else cues her."

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:Mmm: Petpetpet. :I am thinking about what other things might be helpful. Sometimes I get...stuck, I will be trying to go into a room or get food or something and - it is not exactly that I am scared or panicking, just, sometimes being able to make decisions is broken. I am not sure if there is anything that helps consistently every time, but having some kind of gentle prompt often is helpful: 

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"You might be able to train her to guess what you want and go ahead of you to it?"

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:That could probably help: 

Leareth is starting to feel very tired now, and he even more intensely wants to put his entire face in 448's soft fluffy fur. Probably she won't mind, now that he's given her plenty of treats and she's gotten to know him? He flomps forward and does this. 

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How does he keep being so ADORABLE??? 

:I'm hoping to get to the point where I can leave him alone in the house with her and expect a low chance of anything disastrous happening that can't be managed by Mindspeaking him from a distance: Melody explains. :It's going to be pretty hard to take patients otherwise as a source of income: 

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448 does not mind! She does lick Leareth's ear.

"Some people like telepresence appointments but if your magical range is short that might not work," Dree agrees.

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This is moderately startling but Leareth is relaxed enough that it's not startling in a bad way. He makes a surprised noise but stays where he is. 

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:It's pretty short! For Mindhealing at least, I really have to be in the same room. ...Though I was thinking a first step might be talking to some of your local non-magical equivalent of Mindhealers, to get a sense of what their usual practices are and where I can do things unusually easily or effectively or just quickly - a lot of the magical Mindhealing ends up in practice being sort of a shortcut for shifting thought-patterns or whatnot where it would be possible to do with repetition but would take months. And then by the time Leareth is settled enough to be here alone during the day, I can hopefully already have a plan for how I can slot in and get patients referred to me - maybe just for one-off sessions, once their existing not-Mindhealer has a clear idea of what they think I could do?: 

Honestly, Melody's ulterior motive here isn't just about earning their keep here; if she has to go much longer with only one patient she is going to end up SO BORED. New world and all. 

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"All right, I have some therapist contacts, I can put you in touch with a couple."

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:I appreciate it: She glances over at Leareth, who does not look especially inclined to let go of 448 anytime soon. :I, er - was the plan for today just to be an introductory visit or for 448 to stay with us now? Realized I'm not sure: 

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"You can keep her if you want her," says the old man. "If you buy her, that is."

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:I think we probably want to buy her, though I'll confirm with Leareth! - Er, and: glance at Dree, :- assuming we can work something out with an advance loan on the gold sale: 

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"You're covered," says Dree.

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:Perfect. Leareth?: 

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:I think I want to keep her: Leareth says, face still buried in 448's fur. :I - should think of a name: 

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"If you want her parents' names - some people like to be thematic - I can get you those," says the old man.

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:Sure. Why not: 

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:Well, excellent - that turned out not to be complicated at all! Dree, I suppose that means we need to get food for her, can we order that? And does she need anything to sleep on? I'm thinking it would be a good idea for her to sleep in Leareth's room, if that sounds fine to you, so she's right there if he has a hard time at night. - The drugs you ordered for us helped, by the way, though I think one of them had a longer-lasting effect than ideal and I should either make sure he takes it a lot earlier in the evening or try the other options and see if any combination is better: 

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"She's from Beetle by Whisper," the old man says. "Ideal to get her a bed if you don't want her in yours. This place doesn't have one?"

"You still have the notes on how to iterate, right?"

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:I do! We ended up trying two of the set you can combine last night, the first one seemed to help him fall asleep but it didn't keep him from waking up and needing to call me over, which was a lot of the goal. It was still definitely much better than not having them but it seems worth iterating through the list to find if there's anything much better:

To the old man, :- oh, hmm, that might be what the weird cushion thingy under one of the beds was for? I wasn't sure: 

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"Seems likely," he says.

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:Neat, then I guess we're covered on that. And it sounds like we have a plan on the initial basic training, and at this rate Leareth will be able to puzzle through reading books by next week, so if he had questions at that point we could maybe make do with the manual: She ducks her head. :Thank you so much for everything:

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"You're welcome. Enjoy your dog," says the old man, and he gets up and gets back on his nyoom without her. She picks up her head a bit to watch him go but mostly stays cuddled up to Leareth.

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Melody sits down. A safe distance from the dog spit. She smiles at Dree. :I think that went well: 

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Instead of thinking about anything stressful, Leareth can think about plans for training his dog! He hadn't expected it to be this, well, soothing - but apparently it makes a difference that as far as he can tell none of his torturememories involve dogs. 

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When the old man is gone 448 plops her head back down on Leareth's lap more firmly.

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Leareth is trying to think of dog names. This is surprisingly hard! Maybe the language tutorial will give him some inspiration later. 

:Can we order food for her online?: he asks Dree, sitting up but still keeping his hands tangled in 448's fur. :If you can walk me through the steps to do that on my laptop, I cannot actually read all that fluently yet but I am getting comfortable with memorizing the order of steps for something once I figure it out: And it would feel very good to be self-sufficient, if only for this one small thing. 

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"Yeah, grocery stores have dog food. I'm trying to figure out if this breed needs a special formulation but it looks like no." She will show him how to order dog food.

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Leareth is pretty good at navigating to the website for ordering dog food with only minimal instruction; he can't exactly read yet, but he has the alphabet fully memorized, and the system is designed to be a lot more user-friendly than any of the previous magical artifacts he worked with. 

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That's very impressive and Melody isn't even going to try to keep up. 

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The grocery delivery website cares so much about being user friendly, as though much of its operational lifespan is spent with consumers having the ability to charge them a dollar in exchange for producing a rant about the inadequacies of its organization and algorithm. "Anything else we should order or are you two still good on food?" Dree asks.

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:We're fine on quantity but could probably go for more variety? Is there a way for Leareth to sort of browse around and look at what's available, the way you could in a normal store? If there are pictures it won't even matter that he can't read all the words yet, and he can pick out things he likes: 

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See, that would require making DECISIONS, which is terrifying. It's clearly not going to cause anything terrible to happen if he orders the wrong food, but STILL. 

Leareth puts down the laptop and flomps his face on 448's neck again, in hopes that this will prevent him from pointlessly spiraling into panic about the concept of ordering groceries, which is incredibly stupid. 

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:...Or I could have a look: Melody offers. 

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The website is browseable by recipe link, category, food group, brand, packaging color, assorted user tags, and purchasing history. (This account, attached to Dree's case budget, has only the purchasing history of their last order.) The options are pretty overwhelming but if you start with "category" you get a fairly manageable number of top-level options to drill down into, albeit with some overlap between them (produce, convenience food, shelf stable, animal supply, kitchen and household supply, frozen, dessert, imported...)

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This is amazing and it's probably good Melody isn't making Leareth do this, it's overwhelming even for her. (She does need quite a lot more handholding from Dree in order to make sense of the menus and options and figure out how to navigate from category and drill down to more specific things.) 

'Convenience food' is also just a neat concept! What sort of convenient foods exist here? 

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The broad categories are things that you microwave or toast or fry but don't have to do anything else to, things that you pour boiling water onto, things that you buy already made and can eat as-is cold, and snacks and sweets that are intended to be eaten at room temperature.

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Melody is very intrigued about 'things you can pour boiling water on' to turn into food! She's going to start missing soup, she's just solidly not a good enough cook to want to attempt it from scratch (and is also lazy). 

She also wants to browse for snacks that can be stored and eaten at room temperature, in case there are any good options for food that Leareth can keep in his room, if he doesn't want to get out of bed and she's out of the house or something. Once she's gotten to the relevant screen, with lots of prompting from Dree, she shows Leareth. 

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Leareth can handle looking at even a kind of overwhelming number of food options if he's also petting a dog at the same time! 

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She can get instant soup that she just has to pour boiling water onto in a dizzying number of kinds!

Snack categories include nuts/seeds, chips/crackers/popcorn, dried fruit, various "bars", candy/cookies/cakes, and a catchall category with stuff like jerky and granola and mixes of various different things. There are... so many kinds. So ludicrously many kinds. Currently highlighted as on sale are peanut butter and fig bars, a particular brand of lentil chip with lime and red pepper, candied pecans, chocolate covered cranberries, a kind of custard-stuffed cake available in lots of flavor combinations (the cake comes in vanilla, chocolate, almond, and coconut, and the custard comes in plain, chocolate, raspberry, and caramel; they are out of double chocolate and almond-plain but expect to have more in tomorrow), freeze dried pineapple, spicy herb-coated peas, and hazelnut nougat.

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That's so many things! This world is so incredibly wealthy and Leareth is in awe. 

 

 

Also, looking at pages and pages of options for just one subcategory of food continues to be really overwhelming and stressful, but it's maybe good practice for that, just because it's so hard to imagine any bad consequences coming of it, especially with Melody and Dree as final checks. 

He has to take breaks a few times, but he ends up selecting some of the nuts that come with flavorings, the spicy peas, peanut butter fig bars whatever those are, a different kind of 'bar' that claims to be a balanced meal replacement and has a lot of kinds of seeds in it, and a couple of flavors of 'popcorn' – which he thinks is made of actual corn similar to the corn in Velgarth, according to the pictures he saw earlier in his language tutorial. 

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Melody's waistline is not going to thank her for the number of cake/custard flavor combinations she orders, but whatever, her new dresses have room. 

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There they are, in the virtual basket! If he's all done Dree can check them out now.

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Aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah! 

 

 

 

 

:Can you check that none of them are somehow an incredibly bad idea? I realize this is a strange and pointless request to make but: 

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"It's a lot of flavors of popcorn? But I assumed you just don't know what kind you like. Nothing really weird."

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Leareth is having to tell himself very firmly that Dree is not going to be angry with him for ordering too many flavors of popcorn, which is plausibly an indication that he was being stubborn and kept trying to do the stressful thing for too long. Fortunately he has a DOG right there to put his entire face on, which helps. 

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:Go ahead: Melody says to Dree. :Thank you: 

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Groceries: ordered. "You're welcome!"

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Leareth was looking forward to training 448 to find the nearest blanket (step one in training her to bring him a blanket in response to a hand signal), but actually maybe he needs to lie down for a while first, this was enough things in a row to be tiring. Even if it's kind of silly for 'meeting a dog' and 'ordering snacks' to be so exhausting. 

Does 448 follow him up the stairs or does he need to prompt her to do that? 

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When he tries to get up she lifts her head to let him, and watches him and takes one step and stops.

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Oh no he's forgotten the command for this! Leareth freezes for several seconds and then thinks to dig out his list and check. 

"'Here'?" he says, enunciating carefully in Kayshu. 

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Trot trot trot! Here she is, wagging!

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He bends to scratch her head and then continues to the top of the stairs, repeating 'come' as needed, and once they've reached his room he offers her another treat from the bag still in his pocket, before half-collapsing into bed. 

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Melody sighs. :I'll go track down the dog bed and move it to his room: It's sometimes hard to tell when Leareth is pushing himself too hard until afterward, which is inconvenient and frustrating for Melody but it's hardly his fault. 

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448 makes a querying whine, putting her nose but no other parts of herself up on the bed.

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Leareth is having trouble summoning the energy to say words at this point, but he pats the bed in a reassuring sort of way and halfheartedly makes a beckoning gesture. 

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Paw on bed?

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Paw on bed is fine! Leareth reaches over and tiredly scratches her ears while he tries to figure out if he wants a dog literally in his bed, which seems to be what she's trying to 'ask' about. He vaguely wishes he had Animal Mindspeech. It would simplify this. 

"Come," he murmurs after about thirty seconds. 

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Up goes 448 and now a dog is snuggling him.

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Leareth sort of half flops an arm over her and closes his eyes, and is soon the most relaxed that he's been since hearing the news about the war. 

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Melody knocks softly on the doorframe before carrying in the dog bed. 

 

 

....Awwwwwwwwwwwwww. She'll just quietly leave this in the corner and duck out, then. Leaving the door ajar so 448 can slip out if she needs to take care of business 

Melody goes back downstairs. :I think the dog was a good idea: she says to Dree. 

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"Oh good! I'm glad it's helping."

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:I wasn't expecting it to help nearly this quickly! I guess maybe it really is just a lot easier for him to relax and trust an animal: Melody heads for the kettle. :Anyway, were there other things you were planning to do here today?: 

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"Nope, if you don't need me for anything else I'll leave you be."

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:Can't think of anything else for right now. I'd better spend some time on language practice, I'll need at least some proficiency if I want to work as a Mindhealer here and I'm already way behind Leareth: 

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"Do you? If you can just do telepathy instead?"

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:I would feel weird about it? And some people might prefer I not risk picking up any of the content of their thoughts - er, Mindhealing Sight is different, it only sees structure. - Also if I want to consult with other specialists here and don't want to go to them myself or ask them to come here, I can't use Mindspeech to do the remote calling thing: Shrug. :And it'll really tiring if I'm having conversations all day with un-Gifted people. So I guess it doesn't completely rule out seeing any patients as a Mindhealer, but we're likely to be a while, I should really just get it together to learn your language: 

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"Okay. Well, I guess you can fall back on telepathy if your accent is difficult - nobody's going to be familiar with it even from TV."

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:Right: Melody looks thoughtful. :Can you watch 'TV' on a laptop? I'm pretty curious about it, even though I don't expect to particularly understand anything yet: 

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"You can!" Dree shows her Everyshow, an aggregator that pulls together all the various streaming services into a nice UI package. "What kinds of stories do you like - or would you rather nonfiction -"

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It's clearly meant to be usable by small children and Melody is slightly embarrassed by how confused she still is. :Honestly, I like romances? Really soppy ones. With happy endings. And some nonfiction about things happening in your world... Ooh, actually, if there's nonfiction or realistic fiction about your Mindhealer-equivalent, I might be able to start picking up some things that way, once I have a bit of the language: 

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Dree types in some tags in two separate search panes and comes up with a shortlist of top romance movies and another list with therapy procedurals and a biopic about a famous psychologist and a documentary about a psychiatric pharmacy.

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:Thank you!: Melody beams at her. :This is all so impressive: 

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"I don't know much about what you're comparing it to!"

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:I mean, we have magic! It's sort of hard to compare though, this is still - it's not the same as Bards. I guess even if the actors were Bards - I saw a stage-play once that'd managed to get half the cast as Bardic students, it was incredibly - it still wouldn't work at a distance through a moving picture. And the Quendi were impressive in different ways. But it's very neat! And it doesn't even need magic!: 

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"It doesn't!" agrees Dree. "I hope you like the actual stories, I don't know how much culture shock to expect."

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:We'll see. I think it'll be useful, though? If anything is particularly weird or confusing to me, I'll know what to ask you about!: 

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"Sounds like a plan!" And Dree departs.

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Melody spends about half a candlemark on the language software tutorial, using Mindhealing to eke out more practice-oomph per minute, but she's slower at it than Leareth and half a candlemark is the limit of her patience for it. She moves on to watching one of the romances. 

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She can't understand the dialogue, which proves to be very important for knowing what the heck is going on, but there's a man and a woman and the woman's relative-of-some-kind and the man's best-friend-presumably-not-related-because-he-is-a-different-color and also a small child who is around for some reason. The woman pines after the man, acting very silly around her relative of some kind about it, watching him from afar, having what are probably some kind of fantasy sequences about an imagined future with him that are cut into the movie with a transitional convention to mark where they start and end; meanwhile the man is mostly focused on trying to stabilize himself in his career, which has something to do with computers and possibly also the manufacture of crayons. The child who is around for some reason is a crayon product tester, although it seems like she might also separately live in the woman's house. Eventually for reasons that probably make sense if you can understand more words of dialogue than "hello" and "thank you", the woman is in the crayon factory where the child tests the crayon related products, and the child draws her silhouette around her by standing on chairs, using hundreds of experimental shades of metallic-looking crayons to do it, while the woman laughs and tries to hold still for this process. The man shows up with another batch of crayons and there is a slow-motion shot of the woman laughing and he is quite clearly thunderstruck by the way it transforms her face. He drops the crayons and runs away. The best friend and the relative - and also the child, whose presence in this meeting is only revealed halfway through the scene - contrive to get them to stand near each other in line for a fairground ride and then the best friend yells at them - something presumably aimed at getting them to kiss, since that's what they do. There is then another extended fantasy sequence about their future together, but this time it turns out to be the child narrating while she draws on the crayon testing surfaces; the non-fantasy couple are just going for a walk and do not in fact have three children or a horse yet.

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It's exquisitely well done! Melody is delighted! The emotional arc would probably be a lot more meaningful if she understood any of the dialogue, sure, but possibly her complete lack of any idea what's going on makes it even funnier than it would be otherwise. The scene with the crayon-silhouette-drawing and the man's reaction to it practically has her rolling around on the floor. 

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Leareth manages to sleep for a couple of candlemarks. He half-wakes a couple of times, disoriented, but it's much harder to get upset about this when he's waking up snuggled against a warm fluffy dog. He does toss and turn and make unhappy noises in his sleep quite a lot. 

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Eventually by this process 448 winds up kind of on top of him and licks his forehead a lot. He will wind up with some of his hair quite plastered to his face by dog spit.

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Leareth eventually drags himself fully awake, nudges 448 off himself, and notices the hair situation. He's not very bothered about it but it's not ideal; he can already predict that Melody will be bothered, and want him to wash it, and he's going to have to get over his terror of the shower at some point but he would really rather not deal with that today.

He sighs and gets up, coaxing 448 to follow him by repeating 'come'. Maybe there's a website that has a list of dog names. He's almost to the point of sufficient fluency to use the search engine, another session of practice will probably get him there. 

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Melody is watching some kind of moving picture on the laptop and laughing uproariously; it takes her a minute to notice Leareth is there. She fumbles to pause the movie. Makes a face about his hair and them diplomatically refrains from comment. 

"You hungry? I'll get you some food. And I'm guessing you're going to want the laptop back?" 

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He does but it seems unfair to interrupt Melody in the middle of her using it. "I can wait. I need to do some training with 448 anyway." 

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"If you're sure."

Melody makes Leareth another sandwich and then goes back to her movie. 

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...Oh right, locally they have the clever system of using clickers for animal training. Leareth isn't sure if 448's owner actually left one for them to use, though. He asks Melody if any dog effects were left behind with them. 

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Yup, they have a clicker and the bag of treats and a collar and leash.

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Amazing. Leareth will try to clicker-direct 448 to the fuzzy blanket on one of the sofas, and reward her with a treat if she gets there. 

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448 is very excited to be doing clicker training and once she realizes that's what they're doing her first step is to turn in a circle to see what direction she's supposed to go! This gets her to the blanket pretty quick.

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Leareth is so delighted and pleased with her! He gives her a treat and pets her. 

 

It turns out that Leareth has the stamina for about half a candlemark of focused attempts at training, during which he tries to chain 'going to the blanket' with 'picking it up in her mouth' and then 'bringing it to him', and tries to get her to repeat this sequence with other blankets in the house, and then gets in a few minutes on trying to associate this sequence with the hand signal he picked. 

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448 is a quick study. She doesn't have the hand signal down by the end and just keeps heaping blankets on him but once he stops clickering she will settle down with him and his huge pile of blankets.

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....Yeah, okay, he's actually very tired again and will maybe just lie here in his huge pile of blankets and pet his dog. Who is very good. 

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Melody, after finishing her movie and grabbing herself a snack, comes looking for him. "....Leareth? Are you all right?" 

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"Yes. Fine. - Are you finished with the laptop now, I was going to do more language practice." 

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"Er, yes, I'm finished the moving picture story. It was so good. I mostly didn't know what was happening but it was still so good. ...Um. Are you going to just - stay there?" 

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Apparently yes. Leareth feels reasonably capable of language tutorial practice but not especially capable of moving again. 

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Sure, okay, he can have the laptop for a bit while lying on the living room floor along with what looks like every single blanket in the house. In the meantime, she paces and waits for groceries and dog food deliveries to arrive. 

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They appear after not too long!

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She puts them away, including a stash of nonperishable snacks in Leareth's room, and then she sits down at the table with a fresh cup of tea to sample one of the custard-filled-cake flavor variants. 

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It's yummy! They do not fuck around with food yumminess here.

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Wow! That's really delicious! 

Melody is maaaaaybe going to eat three of them before she manages to stop.

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Leareth manages almost two candlemarks of language practice before his concentration starts to waver; it's surprising how easy it feels to just keep doing this for long periods of time. (The tutorial is very well designed, moreso than almost any learning experience Leareth has ever had.) 

Eventually, after ten minutes of half falling asleep in his blanket nest, he manages to drag himself over to the sofa and tries to navigate to the search engine and painstakingly type in 'dog names'. 

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Apparently the broad categories are "people names", "nouns and adjectives", "book references" (this has substantial overlap with "people names"), and just things that sound neat. Apparently the most common dog names are "Sidekick", "Robot", "Flower", and "Un-un-dog*", but the website indicates that it's compiling these facts so you can avoid those names.

*This is a double application of a negation transform applied to the vowels in the word for "dog", which in this case means that the dog is not a dog-themed fantasy creature that is itself an "undog".

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Ooh, what's a 'robot', Leareth has not encountered this word yet and can't guess based on similarity to other words. He painstakingly goes back to the search screen and re-types 'robot'. 

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A robot is a machine that does things it is programmed to do automatically! The most common kinds of robots around here are vacuums and mops, on the consumer end, but there are lots of industrial robots and the field is very popular.

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Leareth slowly and effortfully puzzles through the explanation, recognizing or having good guesses for the meaning of about three-quarteres of the words, and then: what????????? 

 

...On reflection that's maybe an obvious related field to whatever not-magic makes the 'laptop' work. Which Leareth is suddenly desperately curious about! 

Through some further poking at menus and effortfully deciphering the text for various options, he manages to figure out the copy and paste function, and how to open additional tabs of the search field, and he starts copying in every word he doesn't recognize. What does 'programmed' mean? (He can mostly guess from context but he wants implementation details.)

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Here is "PROGRAMMING: DEMYSTIFIED" if he would like to read that! It explains the basic underlying concepts of programming and how they connect to the functions a lay computer user encounters.

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This is full of words he doesn't know and Leareth rapidly ends up with a really unwieldy number of additional tabs open with words he doesn't recognize pasted into search, but he is nonetheless utterly captivated! 

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When Melody eventually comes to prod him about eating dinner, he's puzzled his way through the explainer and managed to find a very basic programming tutorial and is attempting - with much less success, and mounting frustration - to follow the instructions provided on how to 'download' 'software' and obtain a 'code editor'. The tutorial has pictures included, which helps, but he's definitely struggling well past the limits of both his language comprehension and computer-use skills. 

He does not even slightly notice Melody approaching. 

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Melody blinks. Waves her hand in front of him and fails to get a response. Sighs, and peers over his shoulder. 

:Gods! What are you doing?: 

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:I am trying to learn how to do 'programming'! It is what makes this laptop work and do all the things it does. Also you can use it to make animated mops and machines that do work in factories and things like that: 

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Melody can't help smiling. :Of course you are. How did you even manage to figure out that was a thing? Was it in the language tutorial?: 

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:No! I was looking at dog names: 

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:.......Please tell me you're not going to name your dog 'programming': 

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- oh, right, speaking of his dog, Leareth has been completely neglecting and ignoring 448 for candlemarks. Does she seem all right? 

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She is asleep on his feet.

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"We should feed her if the dog food is here," Leareth says tiredly. "And let her outside to relieve herself before she does it in the house. ...Can you do it, I am sort of busy with this." 

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Melody rolls her eyes. She tries to do it discreetly even though Leareth is way too occupied looking at the laptop screen to notice. "Actually, you need to eat dinner. Also you seem pretty frustrated so it's maybe a good time to take a break and come back to it?" 

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"If I take a break now I am going to forget where I left off! I can come in ten minutes." 

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This is a stupid argument. "Fine. I'll go make us something to eat. Soup made with boiling water sound good to you?" 

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Leareth makes a mmhmm noise in acknowledgement and keeps trying to hunt down where his 'installer' 'package' went after he clicked the button to 'download' it. 

 

 

 

 

 

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SEE this is why Leareth should LISTEN to his MINDHEALER about when he clearly needs to take a BREAK.

Melody allows herself five seconds of frustration about this, and then sighs and moves the laptop so she can sit down next to him and try to untangle what he's upset about. 

 

 

- wow! She has no idea how to fix that! 

It feels like a really annoying thing to bother Dree about, but Melody can't think of any other options. She reaches out with a Mindtouch, effortfully given the distance. :Dree? Is now a fine time to interrupt?: 

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Dree is herself having dinner but she can telepathy and eat dinner at the same time! :What's up?:

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:Um. Leareth is really upset because - I'm probably going to explain this wrong, sorry, he's not being very clear and I have no idea what any of the words mean - he was trying to do a 'programming tutorial' and 'downloaded' some 'software' and then was trying to, er, 'import a library' - what does that even mean - and he thinks he did a different thing instead and now the 'code editor' isn't working. I do not have the faintest idea how to fix this problem but it's causing him a lot of distress: 

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:...I think the usual advice for that is to stop trying to program for a while, and come back to it when you're feeling calmer, and maybe get someone who knows how it works to help:

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:That's good advice but I told him to stop it ten minutes ago and he didn't listen! ...Er, do you know anyone who would know how it works and might be willing to come here tomorrow and untangle it for him? I'm worried it would take him ten hours to figure out what went wrong and how to fix it because he barely reads your language and I am honestly not sure how he managed to do this much: 

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:I can look around, but I don't already know any programmers, it's, uh, a high-frustration occupation and a lot of people aren't cut out for it:

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:Huh. I'm now more surprised Leareth managed to get this far before having a meltdown about it, presumably most people learning it here are not horribly traumatized and also can read fluently. I guess he's also extremely stubborn. Anyway, he would probably enjoy talking to someone who does it, he seems really engaged and excited about it: 

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:I'll see if I can find somebody!:

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:Thank you!: 

Melody drops the connection and reassures Leareth that Dree is going to try to find someone who can help him figure out what happened and fix it tomorrow or at least soon, and in the meantime, programming is known to be very frustrating and the standard advice is to take a break and calm down. And also their soup is going to get cold. 

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On reflection, Leareth's head does feel gluey with exhaustion and all the concepts and instructions he was trying to follow are swimming. This is also not a state that makes him feel much like eating dinner, but Melody is just going to keep nagging him until he does, so he pets 448 for a couple of minutes and then drags himself up and joins her in the dining room. 

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Melody has put some of the dog food in a bowl and set it on the floor. (She can't read the label on the bag or anything but the large picture of a dog on the side makes it pretty clear.) 

There is soup! Melody also cannot read the soup packet ingredients lists so she grabbed one of them at random. She's pretty curious what it'll be like and whether it comes out any good. 

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Leareth sits and starts unenthusiastically consuming soup. 

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448 goes NOMF NOMF.

The soup has freeze dried vegetables and tiny pasta granules and lots of spices in it.

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It's not as delicious as the cakes and Melody should probably make sure Leareth gets more protein than this at most meals, but it's easily on par with anything the Palace cooks in Haven put out, if not with the best of Quendi food. She is pleased. 

Leareth seems about ready to collapse and is half falling asleep propped against the table, so Melody takes care of getting 448 a bowl of water as well and then taking her out into the yard to do her business. 

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448 will respond with considerable relief to "go time".

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Wow, she's such an impressively well-trained dog! All of the (few) dogs Melody has interacted with (that were allowed indoors at all) would just have yapped at the door if they needed to go. She makes a mental note to ensure that they let her out more often tomorrow. 

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Leareth is swaying on his feet with sheer exhaustion and needs considerable coaxing, and Melody's arm to lean on, just to get up the stairs to his bed. Maybe tomorrow he should do his programming in bed so he can nap immediately afterward. 

He does remember to call 'come' so that 448 will follow him. 

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Sigh. "You should take your sleeping pill. I know you're half asleep already but we're testing if it keeps you from waking up at night." She gets him the next one to try per the instructions, and water. "If you wake up hungry I put snacks in that drawer." 

Melody grimaces. "Also, Leareth, if you want to sleep with your dog literally in bed with you, you're going to have to shower tomorrow." 

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That sounds like a tomorrow problem for tomorrow Leareth. Tonight-Leareth is going to fall asleep snuggling his warm soft fluffy dog. 

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Snuggles!!! 448 is a happy dog.

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Some combination of the new sleeping pill and having a SNUGGLY DOG lets Leareth sleep almost through the night. His dreams seem to be less vivid, and less subjectively stressful than he would usually expect given the content. 

It does, at one point closer to the morning, make it very hard to wake up fully enough to actually stop having the current nightmare even once he's fairly sure that he's dreaming and is quite tired of the repetitive montage. He struggles through gluey blankets of sleep-haze and makes quiet unhappy noises and gets slightly closer to awakeness, but the main result is that he is pretty sure he's in his bed but there are still dream orcs having some kind of stupid argument with Sauron around him. 

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...lick lick lick?

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That is very unexpected! It doesn't fit in with the orcs at all! Leareth squirms and confusedly drags himself fully awake. It's still dark. He's pretty sure that he knows where he is but he's still foggy enough not to be entirely sure, and he tries to make a mage-light and this predictably does not work, but does produce a jolt of panic.

Which at least has the upside of waking him up a little more, enough that he can trace back his surprisingly-hazy memories of where he went to sleep. Reminding himself that the other world they're in and the house specifically are safe does not actually feel very reassuring, though.

The thing that actually helps him calm down is that 448 is there, and would presumably be raising an alarm if there were any real danger, and is separately warm and huggable. Leareth rolls over and wraps his arms around her and tries, with eventual success, to relax enough to go back to sleep. 

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In the morning, when it gets light enough outside that the sun filtering through his curtains wakes him, Leareth is mostly non-groggy. He's also not at all motivated to move or get out of bed, but this happens regularly. Melody will probably come nag him eventually, and in the meantime he has water and snacks right there. Investigating the snacks is also an action, and takes a few minutes to work up to, but eventually he manages to retrieve and open one of the bags of flavored popcorn and sample it. 

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Sniff sniff sniff?

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Is it safe for dogs to eat popcorn? Probably. If it's just made of corn then Leareth can't see what the problem is. 448 can have one of the exploded kernels. (Which are also covered in flavorful powdery stuff that clings to Leareth's fingers and threatens to make a mess in his bed.) 

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Nomf! Wag wag.

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Melody, meanwhile, has been up for a while and is grabbing her opportunity to force her way through some more language tutorial before Leareth wakes up and inevitably wants the laptop back. (Fortunately, he doesn't appear to have broken anything except his 'code editor', the tutorial program works fine.) 

She is grumpy about this, but it's just going to get more and more embarrassing how far behind Leareth she is. She is cheating heavily with Mindhealing and rewarding herself for each twenty minutes of practice with another of the custard cakes. Probably she should eventually go check on Leareth, but if he's not calling for her them he's presumably not in distress, and she kind of desperately wants a little more peace and quiet this morning. 

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Leareth eventually finishes the entire bag of popcorn (though probably a quarter of it went to 448.) 448 also keeps trying to lick the powdery flavor stuff off his fingers and anywhere else he spills it, which mostly results in everything being very sticky. 

The popcorn is salty; the impetus that finally drives him out of bed is that he's thirsty and out of water. Leareth goes to the bathroom, rinses some of the dog spit off his hands and fills his cup and drinks all of it in one go. He glares at the shower and wonders if 448 would be willing to go in with him and if that would help. Melody will probably veto this plan on the grounds of 'wet dog smell' though. 

Eventually he makes his way downstairs.

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Melody has finally given up on any more language practice and is staring wistfully at the laptop, wishing she could remember the process to find more 'movies' - she sort of wants to watch the ones about therapy, now that she has a chance of understanding one word in two. 

"Morning! Sleep well?" 

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"Better, I think. There was one side effect I was not delighted about, it made it - hard to wake up all the way? I am not sure if that is normal. But 448 helped. I should take her outside probably?" 

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"Probably. I'll make you some breakfast." Breakfast for herself is probably obviated by the three custard cakes she already ate. "I can ask Dree if that's normal? I should probably check back about finding someone who can help with - the thing," she's forgotten the word Leareth used for it, "and I don't think she had plans to drop in today? ...You really need to change into clean clothes. What did you get on them?" 

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"It turns out the 'popcorn' food is messy. I might need to wash the bedsheets as well." 

Leareth takes 448 out into the yard. 

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448 likes being in the yard! She sniffs things.

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In that case Leareth is happy to stay outside with her for a bit and wander around. It's quiet and peaceful and the sun is pleasant on his face. 

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He's barefoot and he totally does have shoes but Melody just sighs and doesn't interrupt. She drains the last of her tea and - it's probably late enough that Dree is at work? - reaches out with a Mindtouch. :Good time?: 

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Dree is actually still in bed, but she's awake. :Try me in half an hour?:

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Oops. :Yes, of course: She should learn how to read the local timekeeping devices and find out what Dree's actual hours of availability are, but that can wait until it's a good time to ask Dree questions. 

In the meantime, she puts more dog food in the bowl on the floor and then makes toast with cheese on it for Leareth. 

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Leareth is back in a few minutes later, looking relaxed and happy. And also kind of muddy. He's leaving footprints. 

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"Gods! Stop there, I'll grab a towel or something. 448 too, I don't want her tracking mud around either. Can you please wear shoes next time you want to go on an entire walk outside." 

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- Leareth flinches and goes very still. 

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Wow she is not having a socially graceful morning. "Leareth, it's all right. I'm not angry. I just don't want there to be mud on the floor. It's all right." 

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Leareth KNOWS THAT, his mind is just being stupid. He nods, a bit shakily, and tries to remember the command he wants. "Sit," he tells 448. 

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She sits! She is looking a little anxiously between Melody and Leareth.

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Oh no. Poor 448. 

Leareth sits down next to her and pets her as reassuringly as he can manage while his heart is still racing. 

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Melody is back shortly with a towel. She wets one side of it in the sink and comes over to squat beside Leareth. "I'm sorry I raised my voice. Feet, please?" 

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A minute of petting his fluffy dog has Leareth most of the way to calm again. He offers his feet, then asks 448 to 'hold still' so he can lift her paws one at a time for Melody's attention. 

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448 cooperates with this once she figures out what's up.

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And then they can both have breakfast while Melody makes more tea!

Maybe Leareth can help her figure out how to find the 'streaming service' again and point out one of the therapy-related movies? "I mean, I'm guessing you'll want the laptop again after this, but I'd still like to be able to find it later." 

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"You can have it if you want. I am probably still stuck on whatever I broke with the code editor and I can update my notes in the meantime, or do more training with 448." 

Despite not having even been present for the earlier explanation, Leareth successfully finds the page and navigates to one of the 'therapy procedurals' in less than five minutes. 

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Neat! 

Once he's gone off to work on getting 448 to recognize a hand signal and associate it with the blanket-fetching, Melody tries for Dree again. 

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Dree is now having breakfast! :I can come over as soon as I'm done eating. Apparently the House of Truth has been getting lots of questions about you and I posted that Leareth wants a programming tutor, so I'm going to go by a respondent's place to show them the way to your house for that on my way:

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:Wow! That's amazing, I wasn't expecting a response anywhere near this fast. Leareth will appreciate it, and he seems to be having a good day. I've got some other questions but it can wait until you're here: 

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:Well, you're very exciting, seeing as you're sliders! I'll be by in an hour tops:

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The virtuous course of action would be to spend that hour on language practice, but Melody is sick of the stupid tutorial and it seems like prooobably watching something in the local language counts as some kind of practice? She will watch the therapy procedural. With subtitles on, because Leareth was poking at all the interactive bits and bobs and figured out how to activate them. 

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Leareth has more energy today, maybe because of his nearly-uninterrupted night of sleep, and manages to spend nearly the entire hour on dog training. Can he get 448 to the point of reliably recognizing a hand signal and bringing him blankets in response to it and only then? 

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(Melody does not comment even though she is definitely going to, again, end up being the one who has to put all of those back in their proper places later.) 

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448 remembers the hand signal from yesterday! Time to bring him every blanket in the entire house!

The therapy procedural's first episode is about a new graduate from a training program for psychologists showing up at the practice that's given her an office and meeting her new colleagues - a psychiatric pharmacist, the office manager, another couple therapists, a retiring counselor who is opening up the spot for her, and the office cat. They all have color coded outfit preferences and quirks, and the subtitles helpfully repeat their names whenever the speaker changes. The show ends with her first patient, who is seeking help for her skin-picking and hair-pulling habits, and eventually walks out with recommendations for fidget toys and lotions and a referral to the pharmacist.

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That's such a helpful character-tracking convention! Melody is still not entirely following the conversations, even after she figures out how to pause and restart so she has more time to slowly puzzle through reading the subtitles. 

 

Melody is slightly confused at this being a sufficiently typical sort of problem to see a therapist about that it would be the first example shown; she doesn't think she's ever treated a patient for that? She's tried Mindhealing herself into not fidgeting and it does sort of work but didn't seem worth it because it mostly displaces the urge-to-fidget into an entirely mental phenomenon and then she can't maintain focus on what she's thinking about.

Her main takeaway is that apparently you can get TOYS for FIDGETING??? Melody is amazed. She wants one so badly now. Unfortunately she is not savvy enough on the laptop to find the search bar that Leareth was using and she's already forgotten how to spell the word for 'fidget'. She'll ask Leareth later once he is no longer buried under every blanket in the house. 

(She can hear him laughing occasionally, which is bizarrely heartwarming.)

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Leareth gives 448 a treat for successful blanket-delivery, and then spreads the blankets out again (randomly and all on the main floor, rather than going upstairs), and then starts testing whether he can turn this into 'deliver one blanket and stay' by interrupting using the 'here' or 'wait' command. Though he's not sure he really minds the 'every single blanket' thing. It's actually very comforting to suddenly be in possession of a nest. 

He's probably going to still be at it when Dree arrives. 

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448 can be interrupted from blanketing him with "wait"!

Dree knocks, and she has the programmer respondent she picked out right behind her.

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Leareth scrambles up from his blanket-nest and then finds, inconveniently, that he seems to be stuck on the action of 'approaching and unlocking the door.' 

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Melody is not even slightly surprised. She pauses the next episode of the therapy show and gets it. :Morning! Thank you for coming: She smiles at the new arrival. :I'm Melody! You must be the person who can help Leareth with, er, the programming thing?: 

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"Yeah! I'm Shory," she smiles. Fistbump? (Melody has seen this done on TV.)

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Fistbump! :Thank you for offering to come! Apparently programming has a reputation for being incredibly frustrating, and I'm already miles behind Leareth on everything related to using the laptop Dree gave us, I definitely won't be able to help him with weird problems. Though hopefully it'll turn out to be a really boring problem mostly caused by the fact that he started learning Kayshu two days ago and probably misunderstood something in the instructions he was following. Anyway. Come on in!: 

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Leareth is currently watching while hovering mostly out of sight half-behind the door into the living room, like a particularly skittish cat. 

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"Hi Leareth! I'm Shory."

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:Thank you for coming to help: Leareth says. He is still not moving out from behind the corner of the wall. It seems like it should be very easy to do this but movement is not happening. 

...Right, he was going to try to figure out a way that 448 could help with this problem and then train her to do that. Unfortunately he has neither figured out a reliably helpful action nor trained it. He doesn't even have a prelearned command for 'go over there' that would let him just follow her, which might work. 

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:Great, let's go to the kitchen!: Melody says cheerfully. :Tea, either of you?: 

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For some reason he can do that

"Follow," he tells 448, and heads over to join Melody in the kitchen. 

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448 is at his heels!

"What kinds do you have?" asks Shory.

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Melody has no idea what any of the teas are called and still cannot really read the labels but she points out the row of little tea boxes on the counter beside the kettle, which she takes and fills. (Electric kettles are a glorious invention and she loves theirs very much.) 

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Leareth sits down and pets 448 until he feels steadier and then slides the laptop over, minimizes and hides Melody's show without closing it and losing her spot, and tracks down his tab of instructions and his currently-mysteriously-nonfunctional code editor. 

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Shory picks out a teabag and leans over. "Ooh, huh. Do you want me to just fix it or do you want to know exactly what happened insofar as I can figure it out from here?"

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Leareth's spoken comprehension is lagging significantly behind his reading comprehension; he gets less than half of the words, and has to resort to reading surface thoughts anyway. 

:I would like you to explain what you think might have happened. It is probably something very stupid. I think the last thing I was trying to do was import a library - here, in the instructions - and then it did something odd that was not what the instructions said it would do, so I tried to undo it but I think I do not actually know how to go back and undo things in this program...: 

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"Yeah, okay, so first you can undo like this -" she does a keyboard command, "but I think what happened is -" And she walks him through her diagnostic process.

Meanwhile, did Melody have something she wanted to bring up with Dree?

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She did! 

:Hmm, so the first thing is that Leareth complained about a side effect from the sleeping pill we tried last night - it's this one on the instructions, the third in order - and wanted to know if it's normal. I don't know how to look that up but I'm kind of hoping it's normal and expected to go away after a bit, it worked really well other than that. He said it - made it hard to wake up? In context I'm guessing he meant he was having a nightmare but couldn't fully wake himself up out of it even once he realized he was dreaming: 

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"Well, let me look - hm, that's on the uncommon side effects list and people sometimes compensate for it with a supplement that isn't in this packet, but I can pick some up the next time I'm by the pharmacy or get it delivered depending on how much that particular option otherwise worked? If you'd rather just try the next thing and see if any of them work well and uncomplicatedly that's also fine."

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:It worked a lot better than anything else ever has before! I think we might as well try the next ones and see if any of the other three are just straightforwardly better but I'll keep in mind that if not we could go back to this one and try your idea. Other things... Still not urgent, I continue to be way behind Leareth on learning Kayshu, but I was wondering if you had any leads on therapists who might be interested in talking to me? I started watching one of the movies about it, too, it was more useful than I expected, but I would still get a lot more from a conversation with someone: 

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"I can probably find one of those the same way I found Shory, but do you have an idea of a specialty or background that you'd find most useful so I can narrow it down?"

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:I'm going to be a bit unsure on that until I know more about what's hard for nonmagical therapists to work with - and I suppose what things there are good drugs for, I think that came up a tiny bit in the movie but I didn't follow the details because of the language barrier - but, er, Mindhealing is pretty good with anything where the main issue is traumatic associations, or - intrusive thoughts, excessive guilt or shame, generally poorly-regulated emotions. It can be pretty good for helping people who are generally very anxious, or scared of specific situations or objects or animals, and it's tolerable at the sort of madness where people hear voices or end up convinced they're the reincarnation of King Valdemar. It's not very good at helping people whose main problem is that they have trouble concentrating, or find themselves constantly avoiding tasks even though they're important and shouldn't be hard, and I'm hard-pressed to think what I would do about the example patient in the movie who had a problem with pulling out her hair and they gave her a toy for fidgeting with: 

Pause. 

:On a totally different note, now I really want a toy for fidgeting with. It's brilliant: 

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"Oh, sure, I can get you a few - any particular sort you like the look of -"

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:The one they showed that was a sort of wheel inside another wheel where you could spin both at different speeds was neat. And they showed one that was squishy. I'm guessing there are more kinds because there are a thousand kinds of soup here - I considered trying to find somewhere to look at the options but I'm not good enough at the laptop to find things reliably and Leareth was busy: 

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"I'll get you a few to try," says Dree, writing this down. "And pull a therapist out of the House of Truth comments."

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:Thank you. Er, I think that's the main things I wanted to cover: 

Leareth is still apparently engrossed in his conversation with Shory. He looks so animated and focused and is now, with great concentration, pecking out some new baffling nonword into his code editor. Melody can't help but grin about it. 

:I can't believe he managed to pick what's apparently an incredibly frustrating pastime and - just, this is the most I've seen him try to do things since the war. It seems really good for him: 

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"Some people really like programming, as long as they don't have too offputting an experience with it while they're learning! Makes good money, too, though probably he'll make better money doing the magic stuff."

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Leareth is delightedly listening to Shory's explanation of some of the next instructions in the tutorial, which he had found very confusing before for vocabulary reasons. It's pretty clear to Shory that he's grasping the concepts involved in programming very quickly.

It is probably also kind of painful for her to watch him laboriously hunt for each letter on the keyboard as he tries to type. 

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Yuuup she is going to recommend a typing game for him. Or he could try speech to text but that's not necessarily much faster if the errors won't jump out at you visually.

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This world has really good pedagogy practices! Leareth is so impressed. He will definitely do the typing-practice game. 

...Also what is 'speech to text', if he's understanding the concept correctly then that's incredible. How does it work? 

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In Shory's experience not well! You have to speak very distinctly, the computer's bad at guessing from context - and none of its training data will have his specific accent. But she can find a simple app for it and install it on the loaner laptop so he can play with it.

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Leareth will definitely play with it! And also try to find documentation of how it was built!

...Later. Right now he wants to make the best use he can of Shory's presumably-limited time, and get her to explain standard programming concepts (it's a lot easier to follow an in-person explanation when he can use Thoughtsensing to make up for the language gap), and maybe she could suggest some other tutorials he could look at next, or simple projects he could try in order to get practice at this?

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Yup, Shory is full of opinions on this. Apparently she has a part time job teaching teenagers to code.

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Leareth writes down all of her suggestions and takes lots of notes! He does this on a piece of paper from Melody's note-paper stash that she packed - it's noticeable different from local mass-produced paper - and mostly in Rethwellani, which obviously uses a completely unrecognizable alphabet. (It's still much easier and lower-friction for him than either translating his thoughts into Kayshu or using the laptop keyboard interface.) 

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"Maybe you should get a linguist to come over when you're ready," Shory says, peering at the notes.

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:Oh - are they going to be interested in the languages from Velgarth? I do also speak the local language from Arda but I am not as fluent in their writing system so I do not use it for note-taking:

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"I don't see why they wouldn't be interested in all of 'em."

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:I will keep that in mind: It sounds tiring and stressful, though. Unlike programming, which is AMAZING. 

...Leareth is only now consciously noticing that, when it comes to programming, he - seems to not be having any problems related to taking actions on purpose being scary? This is actually really surprising? Just yesterday he was scared about ordering groceries, and now he is considering following a tutorial to make his own simple 'app' and this is really a much stronger example of doing something that will affect the world on purpose, and yet it's fine? 

He can try to figure out what's going on there later. Right now it seems much more interesting to listen to Shory explaining conditional if-else statements. 

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Shory is excited to help with that! What does he want his app to do? Most people start with a simple game or to-do list of some kind.

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He'll make a to-do list one! Presumably it will be worse than just using someone else's program for to-do lists, but he will have made it himself, which is oddly appealing. 

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Yup! You can make it look and act however you want if you learn how! It's very motivating.

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It's so motivating!

It also turns out that making an 'app' involves a whole lot of steps! Leareth is soon back in the position of having a dozen tabs open with search queries on all the various things he was curious about or needed clarification on. 

Some of the websites have advertisements on them. (Their loaner laptop does not have an ad blocker installed). They're mostly very polite and unobtrusive ads; there are some videos but they don't autoplay. 

At some point Leareth is trying to look up documentation on a particular additional library that he could import and which would provide lots of neat features for easily making a pretty visual layout, and there is an advertisement banner on the sidebar for some sort of fictional media that's apparently like a novel but mainly in pictures (thoughts and dialogue are included in text, set in bubbles linked to the character in question). It's an adventure story and the scene depicted in the ad involves the characters, several of which do not look especially human, exploring a beautifully-drawn bleak stone fortress of some kind and trying to get through a locked door. 

Any resemblance to the architecture of Angband is presumably a coincidence and entirely by accident, but Leareth is nonetheless now frozen to the spot and kind of panicking. 

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Shory doesn't notice at all and goes on nattering about what programming language she thinks he should pick up after he's gotten reasonably fluent in this beginner's one.

448 picks up her head and whines and licks his elbow.

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Leareth is at this point barely aware of his surroundings. He...feels like there's something he's supposed to do? Probably? 

Doing literally anything feels impossible, right now, but after what feels like an eternity (it's actually about ten seconds), 448's licking manages to penetrate the haze of panic. Leareth is very glad that he had settled on a hand signal rather than a verbal command for the blankets thing, because he sort of feels like he can't breathe, and talking is out of the question. 

He manages to make the signal - then has to do it a second time because it needs to actually be in 448's line of sight - and then puts his head down on the table beside the laptop. 

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Blanket pile! 448 is ON IT. Shory has noticed by this point and scooted her chair away to give him some space and is exchanging concerned looks with Dree.

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Seeing 448 tear off to the living room for the nearest blanket is a pretty good hint that something is wrong! Melody puts down her teacup. 

:Leareth?: 

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No response. 

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:Shory, do you have any idea what upset him? What were you doing just before this?: 

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"I was saying that after he's comfortable with Blox he should pick up Niftyline next because it would suit his coding style!"

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:...Yeah, no, I can't think of how that could possibly be something that would scare him! Er, it's not your fault, he gets panicky about a lot of random things. Let's just give him a couple of minutes: 

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Leareth has not yet managed to find the wherewithal to interrupt 448's blanket-gathering mission, which is arguably an indication that he does not yet have the correct number of blankets piled on him. 

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Blankets blankets blankets! Here's the last one!

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It's probably very socially ungraceful to hide under the table with his enormous nest of every blanket in the house and then put his entire face on 448's fluff, but Leareth is going to do this anyway! 

:Sorry: he manages thirty seconds later. 

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:You don't owe us an apology: Melody says on automatic. :Though, er, do you think you can manage to tell me what upset you, so we can avoid it?: 

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Can he? This seems very hard. 

:Picture: Leareth manages after another thirty seconds of hiding. 

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Melody has no idea what that could be referring to! Does Shory have any guesses? They should definitely get rid of the offending picture, whatever it was. 

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"- there's an ad for a webcomic on here?" Shory says, peering at his screen. "With a picture. Of a castle?"

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Melody tiptoes over and peers at it. :...Oh. I get why that would remind him of unpleasant past experiences. Er, is there a way to look at whatever those instructions are without also seeing the picture?: 

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"Yeah, give me a minute." A minute later she has installed a browser extension that will replace images with their names or descriptions and allow you to click them to display them if you suspect them of containing something you want.

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Neat! Shory is very good at laptop-related things and Melody is suitably impressed and grateful. 

After a few moments, she sits down on the floor so that she can actually see Leareth. :Hey. Is there anything I can get for you that would help?: 

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Leareth is mostly hidden under blankets and still has his face buried in 448's neck ruff. :I think I will be all right in a few minutes: he tells them, shakily. :Sorry: 

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:It's all right. Shory figured out how to hide pictures, so hopefully you won't run into more startling things: 

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:Thank you: 

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Melody will sit across from him until he's calm enough to emerge, at which point she goes to make him a cup of tea. 

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Leareth tries to focus on the laptop screen again but he has absolutely no recollection of what he was doing when he left off. 

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Shory can remind him insofar as they were on the same page to begin with.

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Oh right. Leareth does not especially feel able to concentrate enough to experiment with this library, even though it is very neat. 

:You can tell me more about Niftyline if you want: he says to Shory. 

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So Shory will explain again why she thinks Niftyline will better support his programmatic instincts, of which he has a surprising number for someone from a preindustrial fantasy world.

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Leareth appreciates the compliment! (Yeah, he is...not going to get into the reasons why he has a number of instincts that seem to be surprisingly relevant and useful here.) He asks some clarifying questions about Niftyline, and then asks whether there are different schools of programming that teach different styles, and if so what the range is. He's still noticeably shaky and scattered for a few minutes, but eventually calms down and seems fully engaged again. 

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Lots of people have different and sometimes very strongly held opinions! Shory tries not to get too many into her pedagogy, though she does have some.

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People's strongly held opinions on matters of craft are always fascinating and often very informative about a field! The range of opinions here sounds a lot like how mindsets vary between different schools of magic, in Velgarth. 

(Leareth can talk about magic, and doesn't subjectively feel upset, but his body language is a LOT more tense when he's on that topic rather than just talking about programming.) 

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Shory doesn't notice at all - she's mostly looking at the computer screens, hers and his - but 448 licks him more when he's anxious.

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Melody notices, but it doesn't seem worth intervening about, especially when Leareth has his very good emotional support dog right there. 

:- Would there be any way to get a second laptop at some point?: she asks Dree. :I am starting to get the sense that Leareth is going to be glued to this one from now on: 

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"Sure," says Dree, "I can pick up a second one like this."

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:That would be great, then I can do language practice and learn things about therapy here without having to compete with Leareth. - Oh, another thing I forgot to ask about earlier: can you show me how timekeeping works here? Then you can tell me what your actual workday availability is and I won't interrupt you in bed again: 

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"Sure!" Dree can - now that Melody has at least been exposed to all twelve digits - explain how to read the computer clock and the one on the wall in the kitchen, and gives her hours (when she's awake enough to be up for telepathy, and when she's out and about for the day and can actually come over).

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Melody writes all of this down! 

:Er, is it all right with you if I go grab a shower while you're here? If Leareth needs something you can come bang on the door for me or whatever, but hopefully he'll be nice and occupied with Shory: 

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"Sure, go ahead!"

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Then Melody is going to go enjoy a very long hot shower! Where she does some strategizing about how to get Leareth into the shower after his last bad experience with that. 

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Leareth learns a number of new programming concepts via Shory's explanations, and makes significantly more progress on his app, including eventually managing to import that one library and giving it a cute visual interface. He's starting to get tired, though, and eventually he mistypes something in a for loop which, when he test-runs that bit of code, causes it to get stuck infinitely looping with no end condition. He spends a few seconds looking at it in blank confusion, and then finds himself sort of crying again for no sensible reason. 

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"Whoa, hey there, we can interrupt that," says Shory, tapping a couple keys on his computer. "See, all better."

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Leareth tries to say something to thank her, or maybe apologize for overreacting to a very minor problem, but saying words seems to have stopped working. He hates it when that happens - and, of course, being frustrated about it is inevitably making the problem worse. He puts his head down on the table again. 

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448 is going to try to lick this problem away starting with any of it that was on his ankle.

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Awww. 448 is a very good dog. Leareth dangles his hand so she can lick that as well. 

:Sorry: he manages to Shory. :I suspect I am getting tired: 

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Licklicklicklick.

"Sure, no problem, go ahead and kick back - I don't know what you do to relax but a lot of people need to do a lot of that after working real hard on code."

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:I am not sure what I do to relax: Being relaxed is hard. And not something he had especially found the need to prioritize pre-Angband. If he were in Arda he would maybe ask Vanyel or Maitimo to sing to him, but he isn't in Arda and he might never see either of them again...

:- Does your world have music?: he asks Shory.

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"- of course we have music!" Shory says. "What kind do you - hm, I guess you don't know our genres - do you want to try an adaptive radio station -"

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:All right. What - do those words mean in that combination? I know what radio is but what does it mean for it to be a station and also adaptive?: 

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"Oh, it's not actually done with radio. Used to be a lot of music was sent over radio, and what frequency you tuned in at determined which songs you got and those were 'stations', and then people started using the internet and still called particular programs of music 'radio stations', and now it's usually not even a program and you can tell it if you like songs or not while it goes and it'll try to guess what you like, so, adaptive." Shory makes him an account on DecorateTime and ticks and unticks various settings on his behalf and starts it up; strings come in, building up layers of harmonic depth. "This button's for 'hate this song', this button's for 'love this song', this button's for 'more variety', this button's for 'start a new adaptive station seeded with this song' - like if you want your first one to be all dreamy ethereal crooning and then something comes on that's a total bop but not ethereal at all, you kick it to a new station, you can name each one like so - and it'll suggest ad categories you might want to allow, down here, I usually just get notified if a good concert's coming to town but you can enable other stuff."

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Their world is so good at things! Leareth thanks Shory, and then decides to carry his laptop over to the living room where he can curl up on the sofa, and hand-signals 448 to bring him the blankets again, since this is easier than attempting to carry them all himself. He will snuggle with his dog and poke buttons. It turns out that he mostly likes melodically complicated instrumental-only songs, though there are a few with a capella voices in many-layered harmony that he approves of, and creates a new 'station' for.

It's nice. He wishes he could show Vanyel, and it's upsetting to remember all of the reasons why he can't do that, but it's still nice. 

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Melody eventually re-emerges, wet-haired and wearing another of her new roomy dresses. Awwww. Leareth is being adorable again. 

:Did he decide he was done with programming for today?: she asks Shory. 

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"Yup. I set him up with a music thing," says Shory. "I hope his taste doesn't drive you nuts!"

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:I don't think I'm fussy about music, should be fine. Anyway, thank you so much for coming over! Did he make some progress? I couldn't really follow what you were working on: 

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"Oh yeah! He's really talented!"

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:Huh! Well, trust Leareth to be instantly good at a complicated frustrating discipline he only found out existed yesterday! I think he'd studied a lot of math things before, maybe that transfers somewhat: 

Or maybe it's the building-a-god plan. The building-a-god plan seems like the sort of thing that might conceivably have required a lot of skills that would end up transferring to the not-magic that makes the totally magic-seeming devices here work. Melody has not actually explained that part of Leareth's history to anyone here, though, and at this point it's tempting to just literally never bring it up. She also hasn't actually mentioned Leareth's age or immortality, which seems more likely to end up being relevant somehow to something, just additionally really, really awkward. 

:- It sounded like programming is a pretty in-demand skill here? I hadn't particularly been counting on Leareth being up for doing productive work to earn money, but it might mean a lot to him to be able to do that, if there are options to do it flexibly and not too many hours per day: 

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"I mean, yeah, good programmers make good money," says Shory. "It's probably not his comparative advantage since he's, uh, magical? But yeah, you can freelance it."

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:Oh, sure, I don't expect it to be his comparative advantage in the long run. Just, in the short run I think he has a lot more trauma related to doing magic, and doing - things, just, in general - I'm wondering if it helps that programming is a completely new thing that doesn't have any pre-existing associations for him: 

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"Maybe! I'm not a psychologist but that sounds like it approximately holds together."

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Shrug. :Anyway, I'm assuming you don't want to just keep hanging around here if Leareth is done doing programming for the day. Should we make plans for you to come back another time, or - is there a way for him to contact you? ...I guess he can probably just Mindspeak you if he runs into problems, now that you've met. I don't know where you live but he has a lot of range: 

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"Wow, no need for that, I have an email address." She writes it down.

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:....How does email work?: 

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"I can explain email," says Dree, from where she's been reading in the corner.

"Off I nyoom!" chirps Shory, "bye, it was fun!", and she lets herself out.

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:Goodbye!: Melody turns to Leareth. :Hey, Leareth, if you stop your music for a few minutes Dree can show us how to do emails?: 

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Leareth is substantially more tired than he had realized, and has been half falling asleep on the sofa, but he nods and sits up straighter and pauses the adaptive radio station. 

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Dree helps Leareth sign up for an email address ("leareth" is not taken but she adds some numbers for security anyway; they can be hidden most of the time) and another for Melody (does she want her name transliterated or translated?)

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Leareth is very droopy and noticeably struggling to concentrate, but he manages to follow what Dree is doing well enough that he expects he'll remember how to access his 'email' later. 

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Melody is not following the process as well as that! She's also not sure what distinction Dree is trying to draw when asking about how she wants her name written. 

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"- I don't know if this is a side effect of telepathy or what but your name means something, right? 'Melody'? Do you want me to put in the name the way you say it or the way you mean it except in Kayshu?"

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:Huh! I guess it does. I think I want it transliterated the way I say it, I'm not in the habit of thinking of my name as a word that way, if people address me with the Kayshu word that means the same thing I'll just get really confused: Her lips twitch. :You know, Leareth's name means something too. In a dead language, though, maybe that's why it doesn't come across: 

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"Maybe! He can change his email address later if he likes." She transliterates "Melody".

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:What do people normally use their 'email' for? Is it like sending letters to your friends except you do it through the laptop and not on paper?:

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"Sort of! And they don't have to be your friends, a lot of people post theirs publicly. They're uniquely identifying so they're also good for signing up for websites that require accounts."

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:Huh. So, for example, I could use 'email' to talk to other therapists and ask questions? Once I can read and write better in Kayshu, I mean: 

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"Yep!"

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:That's really neat! I bet Leareth would be willing to have people email him if they have magic questions, I am getting the sense that he finds doing almost anything on the laptop nonstressful whereas having to meet with people he doesn't know face to face is generally pretty stressful: 

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"He's remarkably quick with the language based on how far he was able to get with programming before Shory showed up, so maybe in a week he can post a temporary alias - uh, not his actual email address, just something that will work like it for a period of time so he doesn't keep getting messages for months from the same posting - and take some questions!"

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:That's probably a good plan: Leareth is going to be very motivated to answer people's questions, but it also seems predictable and inevitable that 'questions about magic' will run into a lot of the things that still upset him, and Melody feels much less doomy at the prospect if he can deal with inquiries in writing from the safety and privacy of their house. :And, yes - I think Leareth is just pretty good at learning things in general, when he puts his mind to it? Also he says your world is really good at pedagogy. I think most of the things he's studied in the past did not make it nearly so easy and fun to learn: 

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"Well, it's important! Having good educational experiences instead of bad ones set people up for success."

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:This world is really amazing in a lot of ways, you know: 

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(Leareth, deprived of both laptop and music, has now flopped back down on the sofa and is in the process of dozing off.) 

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...Melody does not feel like having an argument about how he should go to his actual bed. 

:You may not want to be around if he's taking a nap: she warns Dree. :Given how he sometimes projects horrible nightmares at everyone in the house: 

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"Yup. Off I go. Here's my email if you need anything -" She adds herself to Melody's contacts. "And I'll preprogram a couple eoms* for you - this one is 'please come over earliest convenience', this one's 'is this a good time for a telepathy chat' -" And then she heads out and nyooms away.

*A message sent with a single click, translated here as "eom" for "End Of Message" because the subject line and content are the same.

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Melody thanks her, and then nabs the opportunity for some (grumpy, resentful) language tutorial practice. Just because it's a much better teaching tool than she's ever experienced before doesn't mean she likes it. 

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Leareth does, predictably, start shrieking in terror in his sleep about a candlemark later, though thankfully not actually projecting. 

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Melody sighs and gets up and starts trotting over to the living room, though she's hoping Leareth's support dog will do something about this before she has to. 

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448, roused out of her own nap, rushes over to see if this problem can be solved by licking Leareth's face!!!

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It's very fortunate that Leareth does not currently have an active mage-gift, because he has no idea where he is or what's happening and it would have been very easy to reflexively fireball whatever is touching him!

By the time Melody gets there, though, he's most of the way awake and no longer screaming, just looking confusedly at the ceiling. 

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Melody sighs and sits down on the other sofa and starts quietly reminding him in Mindspeech where they are and what's happened over the last few days. 

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Leareth is kind of listening, but also he has a DOG who is SOFT and WARM to snuggle up against and keeps licking him. 

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Melody is not making any comments about the dog spit. She is trying so hard not to make any comments about it. If Leareth finds it reassuring to be covered in slimy dog drool then that's his prerogative. 

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448 is so good at her job. She will cover him with all the dog spit he could possibly want.

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...It's now candlemarks past noon, and Melody is realizing that she completely forgot to cause lunch to happen. 

:I'll get you something to eat: she tells Leareth once he seems calmer. :And then you have to shower. I'm sorry, I know it's going to be stressful: But it's getting to the point where she would feel kind of embarrassed about having anyone over tomorrow if Leareth is still wearing the same clothes and hasn't bathed. Not that she's about to say that out loud. 

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:I know. I think it'll be better once you've done it once and nothing bad happened? I'm thinking that I can run the water first to get the temperature right, and you can sit on the floor so there's no risk of slipping, and I can be right there the whole time. ....And I guess if you really really want and you think it'll help, you can have your dog there. Assuming she puts up with it: 

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Melody proooobably has a point about how he just needs to prove to himself that he can do it once and nothing bad will happen. And also he is starting to feel kind of gross in a way that bothers him. 

Nonetheless, Leareth is going to be completely incapable of eating lunch while distracting by the stress of his pending mandatory shower experience. He stares miserable at his sandwich and halfheartedly pokes it and does not eat it. 

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448 doesn't have anything she knows how to do that might solve this problem. She doesn't beg for the sandwich though, she knows better.

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Leareth pets her absently. :Melody, can we please just do it now and get it over with: 

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:...I am feeling a bit more unsure of this being in any way a good idea to push right now. I - think probably it makes sense to do all the setup for it and decide at that point if you're up for it. - Oh, you know what I should do, I should throw a bunch of our towels in the clothes drying machine. It makes clothes come out nice and warm. And it doesn't have to be a long or thorough wash this time, if all you can manage is thirty seconds of sitting under the water, that's at least a start: And will get the DOG SPIT out of his hair. 

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Leareth takes a few deep breaths. :All right: 

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This is quickly becoming one of the more awkward interactions of Melody's life! But she persists anyway! She finds all the towels she can and plops them in the dryer out back for five minutes, and in the meantime she coaxes Leareth upstairs and starts running the water in the shower, sticking her arm through the barely-ajar door to gauge the temperature while hopefully avoiding a wet mess. Her sleeve is getting soaked but that seems unavoidable. 

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Leareth calls for 448 to follow him upstairs. He sits on the floor of the bathroom and very very slowly manages to take his clothes off, with frequent pauses for petting and putting his entire face on her. He wonders how incredibly confused 448 is about what's going on here. If he were a dog he's pretty sure he would be confused about this. 

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Is the point of this exercise... that now she can lick more of him? She will experiment by licking his ribs.

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Leareth does not especially like this! He tenses up and spends several seconds trying to remember if he knows a command for 'stop doing that' - she knows 'give space' but he doesn't actually want her to go away just to not do that thing in particular... 

"Sit," he tries, while gently pushing her nose away from his torso. 

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Melody leaves the water running at what seems to her to be a sensible temperature, and runs downstairs and out back to collect warm towels. 

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There might or might not be something 448 could do in principle to make this less awful? Leareth isn't thinking of it, though, and even if he could think of something, he hasn't trained her to do it in advance. Probably this is just doomed to be very awful. 

:All right can we just do it and get it over with now: 

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:...Fine. If you stop responding to me I'll turn the water off: Which will probably involve getting soaked herself in the process, but Melody is super not going to take her clothes off too, it will scare Leareth and also offend every single professionalism bone in her body. 

She nudges the shower door open wide enough for Leareth to scoot himself in. 

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Leareth will slide himself under the water and then sit there quietly panicking about it! 

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448 sits when told, and stays there, watching him undertake this strange and wet adventure.

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The water keeps getting in his face and his eyes. It's not actually impairing Leareth's breathing especially but it feels like it is. He tries to cup his hands over his forehead to keep the water off and this only sort of works. 

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:Leareth? Are you all right? Talk to me: 

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He's shivering even though the water is, this time, a completely reasonable pleasant temperature. :I cannot say I am enjoying this experience: 

 

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:I know. You're doing really well. I'm proud of you for trying it: 

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That is a very stupid thing for her to be proud of him about. 

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Thirty seconds under running water is not going to be nearly enough to actually get his hair clean - and his hair is still mostly-sort-of in a braid anyway - but Melody is not feeling inclined to push it further today. :That's enough. Do you think you can turn the water off or should I do it?: 

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Leareth cannot currently see anything because he has water in his eyes and is also covering his face with his hands. :Can you do it please: 

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Melody will get herself somewhat wetter in the process of doing this, and then pile some towels on Leareth without bothering to ask him to move. The floor just outside the shower is now almost as wet as inside, anyway. 

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Leareth would really like his dog to be within snuggling range now! "Here," he manages shakily after a few seconds. 

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Dog is here now! Dog is putting her forehead on Leareth's hip. Her fur sticks to him because he's damp.

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Leareth is shivering despite being thoroughly piled with warm towels, and not managing to take any actions to dry himself properly or move off the uncomfortable wet tiled shower-interior, and trying to figure out why his brain is so loudly confident that everything is terrible and he's in danger. Presumably it's linking to some sort of very bad memory, but his torture memories are not in order and there are a really absurd number of them and they are very much not catalogued neatly. 

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...Yeah that did not go as well as Melody might have hoped. She sighs, and gets Leareth dried off, and then with considerable effort and gentle coaxing, persuades him to relocate to his bedroom. She unpacks one of his Quendi sleeping robes for him; it seems worth giving him that familiarity. 

She perches bedside him on the bed. :Want to talk about it?: 

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Leareth pets 448 and does not make eye contact. :I have no idea why it is so upsetting. It is probably because of a torture memory but I am not finding which one: 

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:That makes sense. I can maybe try to help you trace it down later, but right now I think you should just try to relax and calm down. I'll get you the laptop and you can listen to music?: 

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Sure, that sounds fine and like it does not really require taking any actions. 

:It might go better if I try first thing in the morning? I think I am more reactive and easily upset if I am already tired, and especially if I have already been startled and needed to calm down a number of times: 

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Melody gets him the laptop. (His hair is in even worse condition than before, somehow, and it's making her sad, but she should at this point probably just help him brush it. Which will be an ordeal. Maybe this world has hair products that make brushing tangled hair easier? They've certainly got 5000 of everything else.) 

:That's fair, but I don't really want to push you harder on this. You're very traumatized and it's to be expected that some things that seem innocuous to most people will be awful for you, and I think we should actually just avoid things that remind you of being tortured. I'm going to think about other workarounds. We could probably wash your hair in the sink - doesn't sound comfortable, but it might be more neutral for you: 

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Leareth HATES THIS. He wants to be able to just DO WHAT MAKES SENSE and not have a thousand stupid pointless emotional tripwires in his brain. 

It's never productive to dwell on this, though, so he just restarts his instrumental music station, and closes his eyes and pets 448 and tries to stay in the here-and-now. 

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Melody would go look on the internet for bathing-related products and/or email Dree, which is presumably less disruptive than Mindspeaking her, but 1) Leareth is using the laptop and she doesn't have her own yet, and 2) she is not actually very competent to navigate search engines yet. 

She sighs and goes downstairs to make herself another cup of tea. And check what time it is, to make sure it's still during Dree's usual work hours. 

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It is still during Dree's work hours!

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A long Mindspeech conversation at this range will be exhausting, but probably she can manage a short one? Melody reaches and stretches out with her Gift. :Good time to interrupt?: 

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:Sure, what's up?:

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:Leareth is terrified of the shower. I hoped it was just because he had a bad initial experience and it'd get easier if we could push through anyway, but I'm pretty sure it actually just reminds him of being tortured by the evil torture god. I don't want to keep subjecting him to that but I'm not sure what the alternatives are. Can you just - buy bathtubs?: 

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:Uh - you can buy bathtubs but you can't install them in rental houses, it'd involve ripping up a lot of the wall to get the plumbing connected. There might be a plastic kind you can put in the shower cubicle? Or some kind of outdoor hot tub situation you can fill with the hose that'll heat itself up. I'll look:

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:I would really appreciate that! Thought I might look for non-bath ways of staying clean once I have the laptop back, since your world seems to have hundreds of options for sale on the internet for everything I could imagine existing and a lot of things I couldn't. I bet your world has amazing hair care options and I should look into them later: 

Not just for Leareth's sake, either. Melody isn't that vain of a woman, but it would be neat to get her hair to behave more nicely. 

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:There's probably a quiz for it! I can help you find one next time I'm over:

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:Thanks!: Aaaaand that is pretty much the limit for using her Gift at range. :Talk later: 

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Sure. Melody will try to summon 448 to follow her downstairs with the 'follow' command (which Leareth has to remind her of). She is going to wear shoes for this. And make sure a towel is right by the back door for later paw-wiping if necessary. 

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448 is very grateful that it is go time at long last.

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Yep, they clearly need some kind of reminder system for this! Melody is not used to being a dog owner, and Leareth is only inconsistently functional. 

The house isn't dirty exactly, but the floor is definitely making it known that various people have been in and out of here over the last few days. It's still too early for dinner, so after returning Leareth's dog to him, Melody is going to investigate the 'vacuum cleaner' and find out how good it is at cleaning. (The language tutorial has clarified for her what it is and what it's for.) 

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The vacuum cleaner is very good at cleaning!

It is also loud. 448 flees to Leareth's side.

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Poor 448! Leareth will let her come under the blanket with her and snuggle her tightly. (Leareth himself is not especially startled by the vacuum cleaner sound, Melody warned him first and it's predictable sort of loud noise, a steady low roar that doesn't especially remind him of anything bad.) 

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Melody LOVES her vacuum cleaner! She was expecting to end up at least slightly resentful about not having servants or staff to help keep the house clean, on top of not having food cooked for them, but the vacuum cleaner is almost BETTER.

She sings to herself, badly, and vacuums the entire downstairs. Upstairs is probably fine for now, it's seen less foot traffic, and she doesn't want to bother Leareth. She will, however, track down every single cleaning-related object or product in the house and have a go at the bathroom. 

It's weird. She hasn't cleaned her own house since she had small children, and she didn't think she missed it, but here in another world, with only one person she knows - who is also a two thousand year old immortal mage who is arguably a mass murderer, and until a couple of years ago the greatest threat to her kingdom's future - it's oddly soothing to just immerse herself in cleaning a house. 

(Probably a significant contribution to this is that Melody is somewhat under-occupied right now, and bored, and she does not handle boredom well.) 

 

Eventually things are clean to her satisfaction and she makes them more boiling-water-soup for dinner, a different flavor this time. 448 can have dog food in her bowl. 

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This soup is chicken flavored rice with carrots and celery and corn and lentils.

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Leareth eats his soup and thinks about naming 448. 

The problem is that he's now really used to her name being '448'? Which he was initially parsing more as sounds than as the number, since he got comfortable recognizing and using the written number system well before he had any good sense of the phonetic pronunciation. Also 448 is presumably used to her current temporary-not-really-name, and it might be easier to transition if he finds something similar? 

He eats his soup and hunts around with the search engine and eventually manages to find some sort of internet dictionary of words that start with the same sound as the spoken pronunciation of the number 4. 

 

...Ooh, that might be a good one. 

"I think maybe I want to call her 'Forgiver'," he tells Melody. "It - seems appropriate? She does not care that I have done terrible things before, and she is endlessly patient even when I am not very good at having a dog..." 

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"Hmm." Melody has so few opinions on dog-naming. "It sounds nice? I hadn't learned that word yet." 

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"Neither had I, until now." 

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"Well, if you like it then that works for me! Not sure how much she even cares about what her name is. I'm also not sure how to convey to her that she has a new name now? I guess maybe just say it a lot when you're calling for her or want her to do something." 

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Leareth will try doing that, then! He thinks he has the energy for a bit more dog-training before getting ready for bed, so he's going to work on clicker-training Forgiver to 'go find Melody and bring her to me', which Melody cheerfully participates in by hiding in various other rooms of the house, and he can use her new name a lot when praising her and giving her treats. 

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Forgiver is game to learn this new task. It's not clear how much she's acclimating to the new name.

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Well, it'll probably take a while. Leareth isn't in a huge rush, it's not like it seems to be bothering Forgiver not knowing her name. He runs out of energy after half an hour or so anyway, and goes up to bed. 

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Melody repossesses the laptop and laboriously tries to find the search page and type in 'hair care'. 

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Would she like FIVE HUNDRED PRODUCT ADVERTISEMENTS none of which she can see clearly because they have images that the extension is blocking?

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That's kind of inconvenient! Melody starts out squinting at the written descriptions to decide what she wants to click on to see the image, and then eventually gives up and just clicks on everything. What sort of things do people here do to their hair? 

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Lots of things, apparently. There are so many kinds of shampoo, and conditioner, and more exotic substances.

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Ooooh what is 'conditioner'? If there are videos then Melody is absolutely going to click until she figures out how to watch the videos. 

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There are videos! Advertising videos where people wash their hair on screen, or wash other people's hair on screen, and put stuff in it, and then show it when it's dried!

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.....Wow it's a good thing there are no Quendi present here to observe the content of these videos! Melody, however, is captivated. Advertising videos are weirdly compelling. She is possibly going to stay up ill-advisedly late on a wild and wonderful journey of clicking on related videos, eventually ending up quite far from 'hair products' specifically. 

(It's language practice and also local cultural acclimatization, right?) 

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Hair fastening products! Hair braiding services! Theme dressup events! History sketch comedy!

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The themed dressup clothes are AMAZING and the history sketch comedy is hysterically funny even though Melody is only half following what's going on. (Though, unlike Leareth, she's making much faster progress on understanding spoken audio than at reading.) 

She is still awake when Leareth starts yelling in his sleep and projecting TERROR and PANIC at the entire house and immediate surroundings. Which is the point at which she remembers that she absolutely forgot to give him the next sleeping pill they were going to try. She looks around and spots the package on the counter and grabs it and sprints upstairs. 

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Forgiver is on the case! With licking and being on top of him and having fur!

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In hindsight it's not at all surprising that, after the whole shower experience, Leareth had a nightmare about Sauron threatening to slowly drown him while he was tied down and unable to move. This is a predictable thing to happen. 

Arguably an advantage of not having taken the sleeping drugs is that Leareth wakes up quickly to being licked, and he's disoriented and panicky but not especially groggy or confused. By the time Melody makes it upstairs, he's hugging Forgiver and already in the process of trying to calm down. 

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Melody sits by him and goes through her whole repetitive Mindspeech script of reminding him where he is and what's happened recently, and once he's calmer she offers him some water to take the new drug with. It's after midnight, so if this one takes a long time to wear off he's inevitably going to sleep in late and be groggy all morning, but that's fine. 

(She needs a REMINDER SYSEM. Melody hasn't generally thought of herself as someone who forgets things constantly, but in hindsight she was relying a lot on having a routine and structure around her and getting cues from that. Leareth was apparently working on a to-do list 'app', maybe she can get something like that? Or just put notes on the fridge for herself. She's sure this world has something for this use case.)

Does Leareth want her to sing to him? Or, better yet since she's not actually a very good singer, does he want her to leave the laptop nearby playing music for him until he falls asleep again? 

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Asking for something that would help is too much like taking actions that affect the world to feel at all possible right now, but saying yes to Melody's question is less action-like. So, yes, that would be very nice. 

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Melody retrieves the laptop, closes all her tabs of advertisement videos on the grounds that probably some of them are going to be randomly triggering for Leareth, and then manages to find his music page and restart the soothing instrumental music. 

Once it looks like Leareth is probably fine, she goes to bed. 

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Leareth falls asleep again before he can summon up the will to pause the music, so it's going to keep playing all night unless the laptop runs out of charge during that period. 

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The laptop runs out of charge close to dawn.

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Leareth is at this point sleeping like a rock, and does not notice this at all. 

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Melody sleeps in later than she usually would, thanks to staying up late, but her curtains are not actually very blackout-y and she can't manage to sleep through once the sunlight is shining directly into her window. She gets up, yawning, and very very carefully tiptoes into Leareth's room to retrieve the laptop. 

If Forgiver is awake or wakes up to this, Melody will also try to whisperedly coax her downstairs so she can do her business outside. 

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Forgiver does wake up and will follow Melody outside for go time.

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Oh good! And it doesn’t wake Leareth up, even better! Leareth might be upset if he wakes up and Forgiver isn’t there, but he looks very thoroughly out, so after plugging in the laptop to recharge, Melody risks filling the bowl with dog food and giving Forgiver her breakfast.

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Nomfnomfnomf.

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After Forgiver is done eating and Melody is done with her first cup of tea for the day, she whisper-coaxes Forgiver back upstairs to Leareth's room - leaving the door ajar in case the dog would rather wander than sit there for candlemarks until he wakes up - and then tries to turn the laptop back on and re-find her email so she can check it. 

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Dree has sent her an email! It says: 12:30 therapist visit: good or bad?

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Well, what time is it now? 

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Eight-fifteen!

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Melody laboriously pecks out a reply that 12:30 fine probably. Hopefully Leareth won't sleep in that late. 

She's very tempted to go watch more history sketch comedy videos, but instead she makes more tea and slogs through 45 minutes of language tutorial practice and then hunts down the streaming service and starts where she left off, a few minutes into the second episode of the therapy procedural show. 

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Leareth is still so incredibly asleep. 

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Second episode of the procedural has a guy come in with treatment-resistant depression. He arrives in his pajamas, on a horse. The horse has been trained to follow computer directions from a device that projects a path for it on the ground ahead; the patient apparently just has to let his brother drag him out to the stable and sit on the horse and then he will arrive at his destination. His brother is very sick of having to do this for him and would like the therapist to fix it please. The therapist takes a comically elaborate history of things that have been tried before and what was wrong with them, and then furrows her brow at her notes and says, "Did you try -" followed by a drug name, and apparently him not having tried this before is pretty ridiculous. She sends him to the pharmacist to check for contraindications and then goes to get her lunch and discovers that it is missing. Who could have stolen her lunch? The episode does not resolve this mystery; instead she orders in a burrito and another patient comes in. This one wants to complain about all of her friends. The cast of characters gets very elaborate and a diagram appears and becomes more complicated every time she says anything in the background of the shot, partially obscured by the two actors, representing the therapist's attempt to keep track. Several of the friends have inconveniently similar names.

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Melody still has to pause very frequently to look up words (she's now figured out the 'go back 10 seconds and replay' feature on the controls, which helps a lot), so it takes her multiple hours to finish the episode, but it's fascinating! Including in ways that don't have that much to do with therapy per se. She's so impressed that you can train a horse to do that! Not even a Companion, just a normal horse! They must be as smart as Shin'a'in horses, which were bred partly by magic. 

The complicated diagram of friend-complaints has Melody in stitches again. She hopes her shrieks of laughter aren't going to wake Leareth upstairs. 

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They don't. Leareth continues to sleep like a rock. 

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Oh good. 

It's still only 11:30 when she finally finishes the episode, so she makes herself a late breakfast/early lunch, does a little bit more language tutorial, checks her email again, and then goes to the search engine page to look up the drug for treating depression. Valdemar has exactly one (1) of those available and it's not that good and she's so curious. 

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There are a lot of options! Some of them are safe and work all right for most people and then you can get progressively more drastic. Some people get antidepressant effects from exercise or sunshine or doing weird stuff with their sleep schedule or hormone balance or eating chocolate or other stuff, and that's safe if trying it works for your lifestyle at all.

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Melody gets the gist for most of this, but reading in Kayshu is still very slow and tiring compared to watching things, and she gives up after a few minutes and just scribbles down some questions to ask the visiting therapist once they arrive. 

At 12:15, Leareth is still asleep. 

Melody is...not sure whether to be worried? It's been, like, nearly twelve hours now since she gave him the sleeping drug, and he had already slept for a couple of hours before that, AND he took a nap during the day. 

She cautiously tiptoes upstairs and pokes her head into his room to check on him. 

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Still apparently asleep, looking very comfortable and peaceful. He's at least changed position since the last time she checked. 

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Melody makes a note to herself that drug #4 works possibly too well. And that if they're going to try it again, she should make sure he gets it at like 8 pm. And maybe half the dose. It's probably true that Leareth is chronically somewhat sleep-deprived, and it's been an especially intense few days, so maybe he genuinely needs fourteen hours of sleep, but it still seems kind of excessive. 

She's ready at 12:30 to let the visiting therapist in. 

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Here is Dree escorting the visiting therapist! "Hi!" says the therapist. "My name is Kelta, you must be Melody."

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:Hi! Yes, that's me. I'm very pleased to meet you - thank you for coming out here! Come on in - do you want tea, we have a lot of kinds -?: 

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"Oh, no thanks, too hot for tea. Your social worker told me you wanted to talk about local psychological therapeutic practice and how you could do magic that complements it?"

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Melody is understanding about two-thirds of the words Kelta is saying, and feels like she's getting close to the point where she won't have to mindread at all, but her word-finding is still very slow for keeping up in a conversation out loud. Of course, the only solution to that is going to be practice. 

"Yes please," she says, haltingly and with a very odd accent. :- Sorry, I'm trying to practice your language, but I'm not all the way there yet. Er, I've been watching a - movie? A show? I'm not clear on the difference - that Dree recommended for me, about therapy practices here, and I'm learning quite a lot from that but unsurprisingly it's confusing a lot of the time! I'm mostly curious what the existing areas of specialty are, because Dree made it sound like there are different areas people choose to focus on - also I'm very curious about all the things you have drugs to treat, we barely have that at all in either of the worlds I'm from...: 

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"What's the show - usually television isn't exactly right, screenwriters don't like doing research and if they do they sometimes ignore it so they can make a better story -"

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:I don't remember what it's called - here, I can just show you: Melody leads her to the kitchen table, finds the streaming service again, and points at the laptop screen. 

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"Oh, that one. I didn't like it at all, but as far as I know it's not unusually bad on the accuracy front, just kind of cherrypicked and skipping the boring parts. Anyway, I'm not a drug specialist, is there reason to expect your magic would interact much with pharmaceuticals? I'm sure your social worker could find you a pharmacist."

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:I don't actually know how it would or wouldn't interact! In my admittedly very limited past experience - there's exactly one herb we recently discovered that seems to help with depression - it didn't have a big effect on what I could or couldn't do in addition, it just helped with things that had been very hard for me to work on directly. ...Mindhealing doesn't do that well for directly affecting mood? I can do a lot with distorted thoughts and inappropriate guilt and stuff, and I can help people have healthier responses to negative moods and emotions, but if someone is just sad all the time for no real reason I can't really address that: 

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"Huh. So better at - traumagenic conditions? Maybe abuse victims particularly? Or learned helplessness downstream of normal depression."

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:That sounds right. I - a lot of what I've done with depression in the past involved basically helping them form habits around doing the things that tended to help with mood for them, like exercise or remembering to eat or going outside, because it turns out that inconveniently being depressed makes people much worse at consistently doing something until it's a habit and doesn't feel as hard:

Melody frowns. Considers. :Oh, and Mindhealing, especially with my particular Sight-metaphor, is pretty good at doing fine-grained interventions on things like intrusive thoughts? I don't know if people in your world ever get the problem where they're incredibly anxious that, I don't know, a bad thing will happen to their toddler, and so they're checking on them fifty times an hour and they're miserable and not able to get things done. Or we had one of the Healers who had that, but it was about whether she'd given the wrong drug or dose to a patient by accident, and she wouldn't be able to stop fretting about it even though she knew on a rational level that she hadn't made a mistake: 

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"Sight-metaphor?"

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:Oh, right, I haven't explained that, have I. So, hmm - Velgarth Gifts generally come with a receptive or sensory component, and an active component. For the telepathy, Mindspeech is the projective part and Thoughtsensing is the sensory one - for me it feels more like hearing than like seeing, but it's not exactly like either, also it varies between people. Same for mage-gift, or Healing, a Healer can directly see what's going on in a patient's body and learn to interpret what it means. Mindhealing is interesting because our sensory component is a sort of metaphorical representation of someone's mind-structure, and we all seem to end up with different primary metaphors. Mine is tapestries, and it means I'm relatively good at doing fiddly precise work with individual 'threads', which usually represent specific habitual thought-paths or thought-grooves, or associations to memories, although the metaphor is not perfect and I'm pretty sure not all 'threads' are the same kind of thing. We don't actually have much good scholarship around Mindhealing, not like Healing, because the Gift is so rare and there just aren't enough of us to form an academy. I wanted to change that but I kind of got interrupted by the whole war in Arda and I ended up there treating all the rescued prisoners of the evil god: 

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"- you know, you might be more valuable in research than in clinical practice."

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:Huh! I...confess I don't know anything about doing research. Especially not how it's done in your world, but it's hard in Velgarth - Healers can try things on mice before they try them on humans, I can't do that: 

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"Not necessarily experimental research? Observational research, like, are the people who one thing works on systematically different in some way from the people who that thing doesn't work for."

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:Ah. I...guess I can see that I might have an easier time observing what's going on with people than someone without magic! I'd never thought about it before. Honestly it seems really hard to do therapy when you can't see what's going on in someone's head!: 

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"It's hard! You have to take a lot of data and do a lot of big studies and ask people for details on all their experiences and it's a slog."

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:Neat! Do you do a lot of that in your world - really big studies where you collect information about a lot of people like that, I mean? I bet Leareth is going to be so curious about it. I wouldn't be surprised if he's tried to do similar things in Velgarth, actually, but I think it's a lot harder since we don't have computers: 

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"I don't think computers are strictly necessary but they sure help. We do a lot of studies, yeah, not just psychology but in other things too."

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:That's really neat. Hmm, I'm trying to think what sorts of things I'm good at seeing. The difficulty for a lot of things is that Sight only shows structure, not content of thoughts, and for anything subtle I have to spend a long time looking and also just get to know someone and what they're experiencing from the inside before I can interpret it well. ...It's very obvious at a glance if someone is having the sort of breakdown where they start hearing voices and believing absurd things. And I can often make a relatively quick guess that someone is chronically very depressed or very anxious: 

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"Have you seen enough examples to know if there are different kinds you can distinguish?"

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:Maybe? I never really had time to sit down and go through all my records to categorize them that way. There are only five Mindhealers in the entire kingdom - er, population is something over half a million but less than a million - so I usually only saw people if they were very badly off, or else I only saw them once and never got any real kind of followup. I do remember noticing that some people who are depressed have a lot of very big mood swings and intense negative emotions that are hard for them to handle in non-self-destructive ways, and some people are less intensely sad and more just tired all the time and not very motivated. And those do look different to Sight as well as just from observing the patient and asking about their life. I'm much better at doing things for the first kind but that might be a thing about Mindhealing rather than a thing about how badly off the patients are: 

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"Interesting! Yeah, it's not currently a settled question if those are definitely different things or not. How fast can you tell this sort of thing - you want thousands of data points for a big study -"

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Melody frowns. :If someone comes in with a summary of what they feel is wrong with them and what's bothering them the most, I think I can usually get a sense within twenty minutes of looking at them with my Sight. It takes longer if getting them to answer questions is like pulling teeth. Which is unfortunately true of kind of a lot of patients in my world. But if the patients already have a therapist and a pharmacist and you have existing notes on what's wrong with them and what you've already done for them, I think that would help a lot: 

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"Yeah, your big advantage here definitely wouldn't be taking a history! Assuming that cuts it down by, say, half, I guess you could check over a few dozen people in a day, which is - pretty good but it'd definitely take you a while to referee a big set of data points even not taking into account travel time."

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:That sounds about right. I expect I could get a lot faster if I had a bunch of practice with one particular kind of patient? Since it sounds like you already have a system of figuring out what problem someone has that's much more sophisticated than we had. Anyway, I wouldn't mind doing that if it seemed especially valuable, but I'm worried I would get incredibly bored after a few weeks of just seeing a dozen people every day with the same problem: 

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"Maybe you could do some kind of spot-check for big data sets - just the ones who happen to be able to make it to this city, say - and switch types periodically, look at eating disorders one month and psychosis the next and anxiety after that. Ooh, you could evaluate nootropic effects, I bet, that would be much easier to get a data set for locally - I'm assuming you don't want to fly all over the planet because you have a patient here and who likes planes, right -"

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Melody is staring at her. 

:I - sorry - I have so many questions! What are 'planes'? What's an 'eating disorders', it sounds like it's a different thing from how some depressed people lose their appetite and have trouble eating enough? What are 'nootropic' effects?:  

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"- eating disorders are a whole category! There's not eating enough, but there's also eating too much, or eating weirdly specific things well beyond normal allergies and preferences - the classic example is eating only bread till you die of scurvy but I think that only happened just that way one time, a lot of people with this are still okay with taking supplements for their vitamins insofar as that works. Some people classify having a fear that everything you have to eat is contaminated as an eating disorder, I think it's more like a paranoid delusion, I guess now you're here and you could check! Nootropics are drugs that help people think better, but for most of them it's really hard to get a scientifically convincing result out of them."

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:Wow! That's such a good idea! I would be delighted to help with research for that. - The eating disorder thing sounds fascinating, I had no idea that would be a thing - I mean, apart from the thing where sometimes people who nearly starved once get very weird about food later, but your world doesn't seem like the kind of place that still has famines. Anyway, I wonder how much the different kinds would look similar to me: 

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"I wonder that too! Maybe you should tour a research hospital. Or an emergency vacation place."

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This is the point at which Leareth wakes to murmured voices in the distance.

He feels...really good, actually? At least mentally. Physically, his mouth is weirdly dry and he's slightly dizzy and he has to pee ferociously. Getting to the bathroom is really not helped by the 'slightly dizzy' and he stumbles a bit into the wall on his way. 

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Melody doesn't immediately interrupt the conversation when she hears his footsteps, but does lift a hand when she hears a mysterious thump. 

:Sorry. Sounds like Leareth is finally awake. I should go make sure he's all right: 

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Leareth is guzzling water directly from the bathroom tap, but he straightens up when he hears her coming. :Good morning: 

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"It's not strictly speaking the 'morning' anymore," Melody says dryly. "Are you all right?" 

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"Yes? Why would I not be all right?" 

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"Well, you did just sleep for about fifteen hours! I guess if you're feeling fine then maybe you did just need it." 

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"I am a little dizzy?" Leareth acknowledges. "If I was asleep for that long it is probably just because I have not been eating or drinking anything." 

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"Could be. Well, come down as soon as you're ready and I'll get you some breakfast." 

She heads back downstairs and apologizes to Kelta for disappearing on her. :And I've got to make Leareth something for breakfast. Do you want anything?: 

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"I brought a sandwich, I have really annoying allergies, but thanks!"

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:That sounds inconvenient but much less inconvenient in this world than it would be anywhere else I've lived!: 

She starts making toast for Leareth. :Anyway, sorry, where were we - oh, right, emergency vacation places. What are those? It sounds nice!: 

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"Well, it's not nice to need one but it's nice that they're there if you do! If you need a break from - everything, pretty much - you go to one and it's basically a hotel but with much more consumer-focused service, onsite pharmacy, intercept services if people are trying to pester you. Normal hotels are usually convenient to other things and emergency vacation places usually aren't, so they can have nice naturey stuff and you can go lounge in a hammock and do nothing and catch up on sleep and get some distance from whatever's wrong with you. They're a good tool if you're surprised by a mental health emergency and aren't totally discombobulated by being away from home at all, but of course it's better to see crises coming."

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:...Huh. Wow. That seems like a really good idea! I can think of a dozen times I could really badly have used that being available as a place to send one of my patients: 

K'Treva Vale sort of served that purpose for Vanyel, of course - and had the advantage of also, kind of, being home for him - but it wasn't somewhere free of all social obligations. She finds herself trying to remember if Vanyel even had an opportunity, during the hurried months after the war, to actually visit. 

If not, it might be too late now. They weren't sure yet, at the point when she and Leareth were dropped off, which side the Tayledras and their Goddess would take in the war. 

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Leareth meanders down a few minutes later. He's changed into a clean outfit and splashed water on his face, but his hair is at this point even more of a matted disaster. 

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This is kind of embarrassing. They have a guest! What if their guest judges Melody about this? 

She makes no comment, though, just gives Leareth his plate of toast with cheese on it. 

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It would be nice at some point to get slightly more variety in his meals, but Leareth doesn't feel like asking for it while Melody is still the one doing all the work to cause meals to happen at all.

He sort of edges past Kelta, his expression very neutral and not really making eye contact. :Melody, can I use the laptop now or did you need it?: 

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:You can use it: Melody smiles at Kelta. :This is Leareth. He's decided to learn programming now that we're here and is apparently quite talented at it: 

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"Cool! I would not have guessed that preindustrial visitors would be talented programmers."

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:It's surprising! ...Well, I mean, I wasn't all that surprised, but that's mainly because I got all of my surprise about the entire way Leareth is as a person out of the way earlier. He's probably the best at magic out of everyone in Velgarth, but right now he can't– it's complicated. I'm actually not sure how much is just public about our situation or how much Dree explained to you when you agreed to come: 

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"She mostly explained about you, since I'm here to talk to you."

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:Ah. Well, he doesn't mind me explaining to people, so, short version is: there was a previous war, he played a big part in winning it but was captured and spent a few subjective years as a prisoner and had some very traumatic experiences. I think he's going to be fine eventually, but he has his projective mage-gift blocked for safety reasons. Also he might panic about something and hide under the table. And he's not trying to be rude, he's just likely to ignore you because strangers are stressful: 

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"That's fine," says Kelta. "I didn't particularly notice he was ignoring me, I'm here for you and your magic therapy powers, those are cool as heck."

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:They're really cool! I think I got the coolest Gift! Although I didn't know what it was for the longest time - I grew up in a small town and they don't have good testing for Mindhealers since we're so rare - and in hindsight I could easily have really screwed up. Fortunately I guess I got lucky: 

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"You need testing for it?"

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:It's the best way to confirm! But only mages can do it for any kind of Gift, and they need to be trained in it. To be clear, I knew I had a Gift at all, it was pretty damned obvious, but the Healer who assessed me had only ever heard stories about Mindhealers, so she decided I probably just had extremely powerful Projective Empathy. She hadn't worked with an Empath before either, so I was trying to teach myself out of books. Later on it suddenly made a lot more sense why the books were so unhelpful!: 

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"What does Empathy do?"

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:Emotions, roughly, though if someone has it very strong they can sometimes pick up or send images - it starts to overlap with Mindspeech that way, which tends to happen with the similar Mind-Gifts, someone with strong enough Thoughtsensing can start to pick up or send emotions a little. It's an interesting case because for whatever reason, we see the receptive side occurring in isolation much more than with other Gifts. I've read about cases of Thoughtsensing without projective Mindspeech but there've been none in living memory, but it's actually quite common for regular Healers to have only receptive Empathy without the ability to project. ...I have a bit of both, myself, but it's my weakest Gift by far: 

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"Gosh. I would think that what you're saying about your Mindhealing would be really hard to confuse for something that just did emotions, but maybe I'm visualizing it wrong."

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:I mean, the book didn't really specify what sensing emotions was supposed to feel like! And it does vary between people, and a lot of Receptive Empaths don't experience it as much like their own emotions, more like - colors, or smells. Though I do think I should have been more confused about the fact that I could make people hallucinate, which is not strictly speaking an emotion: 

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"- it is not! Are these fun hallucinations or not so much?"

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:They're not inherently scary or anything but I think whether they're fun depends if someone has advance warning and wants to experience it! It's mostly visual distortions and - synesthesia, is that something people ever get here? The thing where you can taste colors and see sounds or whatnot. For whatever reason it's extremely easy to do this by accident when you don't know how to use the Gift yet. I used to do it for fun with my best friend - you can do it on yourself too - but my student accidentally did it to one of my patients once, when her Gift first activated, and he was very displeased: 

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"People do sometimes have more or less synaesthesia of various kinds here, yes. If you were hurting for ways to make money you could probably sell synaesthesia trips but as it is I doubt that's the best use of your time."

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:Probably not! It has the advantage of being fast, but it's still tiring to do a whole lot, and also I have to go back and undo it once they've had enough, I don't know if it would wear off eventually by itself but nobody's ever waited long enough to check: 

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"Oh, hm, how does your stamina for this compare with stamina for doing work at all, are you likely to run out of the former before the latter?"

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:I haven't usually had that issue in the past? At least, not since I was in my twenties. And up in the night with babies, I do love them but they're monsters when they're small -:

Melody is going to stop thinking about her children right now. Because Valdemar is at war, and while none of her kids were settled in Haven or anywhere especially nearby, she doesn't actually know that they're safe. 

:Anyway, lack of sleep is bad for energy reserves, which is what you need to work with Gifts, and when it runs low you get tired. It's possible to give yourself a reaction-headache if you push it hard enough, but that mostly happens to mages, I've had it, oh, half a dozen times since I turned thirty, mostly during the war Valdemar had with a neighboring kingdom seven or eight years back, and it wasn't even all that bad. I probably had less in reserves when the little ones were disrupting my sleep. You learn to be more efficient with experience, too, do the same thing with less effort. Then again, I was usually spending a candlemark or two with each patient, and half or more of that on getting the history and planning out what I needed to do:

She frowns and tugs at her ear, thinking. :It sounds like here it'd make sense to go in really hard on getting other people to do that and prioritize which patients I see so I can treat more of them, in which case I might end up getting too tired to keep going after only seven or eight hours. But right now I wouldn't be entirely comfortable leaving Leareth alone that long anyway, and I'm not sure if it's a good idea to send patients over here: 

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"Okay, so a little longer than a standard shift," nods Keltra, "but not quite a one-and-a-half."

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Melody blinks at her. :What, really? How long is a standard shift?: 

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"- six hours? But people who are trying very hard to save money or really like their job often do an extra half or even a double, and sometimes people don't have to be actively working their whole shift and are on standby, that's common to do as a double."

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:Huh. That's - pretty nice, I guess. I think our candlemarks are pretty close in length to your hours - we did not have good enough timekeeping in Velgarth for me to be sure one way or another, especially since I didn't prioritize packing any time-candles - but anyway the Healers all did twelve-candlemark shifts, one for day and one overnight. I didn't generally need to work nights but there was always a lot to do - I eventually started planning gaps in my scheduling so that I could fit in emergency patients without ending up there for sixteen hours a day, I can do sixteen hours once if I must but I start getting very cranky and that makes it hard to be professional. I was really hoping I could eventually get together more of a proper Mindhealers' Collegium in Haven, and have literally anyone else to trade off with me and cover overnight emergencies, but that didn't happen before I got pulled away: 

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"- wow. All that and you were taking your own histories?"

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:...I mean, that's why I needed at least a candlemark with each patient, and eventually I learned to block in two for anyone complicated because when I didn't do that it would inevitably go over anyway. And of course during the stupid war practically everyone I saw was in some way complicated. So if I was doing twelve hours a day that was still only eight or nine patients. That also included time to catch up on notes, although not very much so I mostly got very good at taking notes during a session without being awkward about it: 

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"There were only five of you in the entire country! You should have had assistants! Taking your histories for you and putting them in a nice convenient format that would only take you ten minutes to skim."

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:I know, that would have made things so much easier! The Healers have un-Gifted clerks, although they need a lot of special training and I think mostly they just get trainee students to do the prep. I guess the problem for us was always that there were only five of us, and before the war with Karse we were all on circuit - that means riding around between villages within a certain area, because most patients from small towns or farms couldn't afford to travel to Haven and be away from their families for weeks. I'd been thinking it was a good idea and I did finally manage to get a clerk who could handle scheduling patients, and do at least the very basics of asking them what was bothering them most and then putting it into one of five rough categories for me. ...The Quendi were really quite good about this, to be fair, but I was the only Mindhealer there and responsible for almost fifty patients who had all been tortured a lot by an evil god, so I spent most of the first year entirely running around responding to emergency requests: 

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"And what would any of these people have done if you had needed an emergency vacation?? Riding around between villages is a nice idea, don't get me wrong, but it spends a lot of your incredibly scarce time on transit, and it just doesn't sound very efficient, people who are mentally ill in a city aren't less mentally ill..."

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:There aren't that many big cities in Valdemar? Even if you'd stuck one of us in each of the top five, that's still - it can't be covering more than one-fifth of the whole population. So instead we'd cover an area, and spend two or three weeks in each town and usually a day or two at most riding to the next town, it wasn't like most of my time was spent on the road. We'd have a planned arrival date so the mayor could put out the word to the nearby smallholders. We think nine-tenths of the people in Valdemar live within a day's walk of the nearest town, and most farmers can afford travel and be away for a couple of days, if they must, but they can't leave their farms for weeks to get to a city: 

Shrug. :It wasn't a great system? Eventually the war with Karse happened and I spent four years in one place and nothing seemed to collapse, so once the war ended I set myself up in Haven. I think that was better - meant that my colleagues on circuit could send any really serious patients who could afford it to stay in Haven for a few months, get more followup. But - I don't think it was a stupid system, given our constraints. Valdemar...is a lot poorer than your world: 

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"I guess it must be. Though I think when I was practicing I - I specialized in executive dysfunction conditions, I don't think anybody I was seeing would have been able to make an appointment if they had to walk a day to get to me within a few weeks."

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:I think a lot of people didn't make it to see us. Sometimes their families brought them, or - came themselves and begged me to make an extra stop on my way out. I did it when I could but it wasn't as good, right, I couldn't justify sticking around for days at some lonely farmstead so they'd get at best two sessions and then no followup. And I...think most people who were doing poorly but mostly getting by didn't bother: 

She looks curiously at Kelta. :What are 'executive function' disorders? I - I'm getting something off the concept in your thoughts, but I'm not sure we have a word for that in Valdemaran: 

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"It's a family of problems where someone will know what they should be doing, and want to do it, and just mysteriously fail to make progress. This happens to most people now and then but some people have it real bad. I made housecalls."

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:Huh. That's - definitely a useful word to have, but - is that something you see in isolation? I've definitely seen patients who get it sometimes, and it's something I can help with a little though honestly it's hard to get at directly with Mindhealing especially with my particular Sight-metaphor, it's - very pervasive? Not local to a specific negative thought-pattern? I don't know, I usually see it in patients who are depressed, especially the second kind that's less being sad and more being tired. ...And sometimes people who are traumatized enough will have behaviors that look similar on the outside but it tends to look somewhat different to my Sight and it's actually easier to help with, it just takes a long time. I don't think I've ever had a patient come to me with just that problem, with it not obviously downstream of something else: 

Shrug. :Maybe all the Valdemarans with that problem don't make it off their farm to see me. And we don't have a word for it so maybe their families just think they're lazy and don't see it as a Mindhealer sort of problem: 

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"It's sometimes something I see in - not quite isolation, but I think that's because everyone has plenty going on if you spend enough time looking for it? It is often the only thing that rises to the level of clinical significance."

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:That's really interesting. I wonder what the difference is - whether it's mostly that we're not catching and treating those patients in Valdemar, or...something else, where we genuinely have fewer of them: Melody fidgets with her sleeve. :Hmm. Is it - do people tend to have this problem worse if the thing they know they should be doing is more complicated, or involves a lot of small decisions and judgement calls? Because it occurs to me that a lot of people from Velgarth would find your world very very overwhelming. And if the thing you need to do is till your fields or nurse your babies, and you know that if you don't do it your family will die, maybe that's simpler: 

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"Huh. That is one hypothesis about the prevalence of executive dysfunction, that it's about our world becoming more complicated over time, though until just now I never thought it was very credible. I mean, there are plenty of things we can treat now that did just kill people in the past, like, oh, premature birth. It seems plausible that when more people were farmers executive dysfunction was just one of those things."

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Nod. :I...would've thought being reckless was more likely to kill a kid than just - not tending to do the things they needed to do. But I guess even if someone in that position grew up, they might be less likely to be marriageable, and if they did marry they might not support their family very well. ....I'm suddenly wondering how many of the beggars in Haven have -: 

Her mindvoice catches. 

:- had: she corrects herself, :this problem. I probably wouldn't have known. The House of Healing treats anyone in Haven, regardless of whether they can pay, but - they have to know they can go there, right, and expect to be welcome and expect it'll even help

 Great, now she's sad about that. And also about how they're all dead. But, oddly, more sad about the fact that she might have at some point in the past had an opening to help, and failed to see it. 

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"Huh, where do you get your funding to do that?"

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:...You know, I am not actually sure? I would guess taxes, same as the Heralds. And most of our patients do pay whatever they can, and the wealthy ones sometimes give extra out of gratitude. And it doesn't cost that much to run Healers' - they were able to use the same building for our quarters for four hundred years, and the Palace kitchens for food, and once we're all getting room and board we don't need to be paid that much in coin on top of that. ...When I was on circuit the town major would do a collection of some kind and I'd get handed a pouch of coin, which could be wildly varying amounts, but they'd give me a place to stay and food while I was in town, so it didn't matter hugely if they'd had a bad year and hadn't brought in much silver for it. I'm not actually sure who designed that system, it's not how things work anywhere else: 

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"...huh. I wonder if some places used to work like that here."

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:...Do you not know? Valdemar has records for the whole past 800 years: 

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"Oh, I assume someone does but I don't read much history."

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:You know, that's fair. Anyway. I think we got on a digression from - what was it - right, we were talking about my Gift-stamina. I probably cannot give people fun hallucinations at top speed for even six hours, that particular technique requires zero finesse and takes five seconds but requires a good chunk of power. Since I really doubt it's a good use of my time to give people hallucinations, and basically everything useful we do takes more time and care and less power, I'm not especially worried about my Gift-stamina being a limitation. ....Also I'm now very curious if your 'nootropics' can increase that. We know that better diets and sleep quality help, but maybe there are things that help more even once someone is basically healthy: 

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"Maybe! Do stimulants help? You're going through that tea."

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Melody looks down at her teacup, which is empty again. :Oh. Hmm. Tea definitely helps with something but I'm not sure if it's Gift-reserves, or more just the ability to be patient and calm and reassuring with my patients even when they're frustrating. ...I don't think I'm a very patient person by nature. It's one of my character flaws. And honestly I'm not that good at being soothing even with tea but I fake it as best I can: 

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"Huh, I don't think most people find caffeine calming. Maybe you have an executive dysfunction and you're self-medicating."

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Melody stares at her, surprised.

:- I don't think I particularly have a problem where I know what I should be doing and mysteriously can't do it? I definitely have some amount of problem where I get bored more easily than would really be ideal for my job, which is often very repetitive. And if I'm underslept or I haven't had enough tea then I get really cranky about it and sometimes don't manage to keep paying attention even when I'm in the middle of listening to my patient tell me a very sad story about something important that happened to them. I....sort of feel like my main problem here is not being empathetic enough or something: 

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"- yeah, that's classified here as a member of the executive dysfunction family even though that's not its primary symptom in everyone. Although everyone gets cranky when they're underslept, self-medicating with caffeine about it suggests that your problem isn't empathy! Caffeine doesn't affect empathy!"

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:Wow, really? How do you know that? ....I have not done a study on looking at people's minds with or without caffeine so I guess I really have no idea: 

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"Well, I can add it to the list of things we could line up for you to look at!" chirps Kelta. "If you'd like I can read a study on caffeine, uh, to you?"

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:I would definitely understand more of it if you did that, but I'm not sure if it's a good use of your time? Since I can in fact read at all, and Leareth can read much better than me and would probably also be interested. And I'm trying to get more practice reading and writing so that I eventually get more comfortable with it. ...Oh, right, that's also something you can do with Mindhealing, is cheating at learning things like languages faster. It's easier to do on myself but I can in theory do it for other people too: 

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"- wow, that's amazing. Okay, my preliminary guess on how you should make money is that you should have a day job of refereeing studies, and also auction off a slot per day or something for rich people to bid ridiculous amounts so they can have you help them learn Lozan or snap them out of a psychotic episode or something."

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:Wow! Are there a lot of rich people in your world who would pay for things like that?: 

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"Probably not that many per capita but there's ten billion people in the world and some of them would be willing to get on a plane for this!"

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:....Sorry wait what there's how many people in your world???: 

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"...ten billion? About."

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:That's so many! How do you fit that many people? Where do they live? How do you feed them? I mean I assume you're better at farming than Valdemar, but - eight in ten people in Valdemar are farmers and that's lower than Hardorn and Karse although to be fair it's higher than Rethwellan - but I don't know how you'd fit all the farms you'd need, wouldn't you run out of good soil....?: 

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"I assume our farms are a lot more productive than yours? And global trade means that places with especially good agricultural conditions can feed the colder places. And you can fit a lot of people in a neighborhood if the buildings are mostly five or six stories and there's a few extra tall ones."

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:Wow!: 

She kind of wants to tell Leareth immediately, just to see the awe in his face. But also he might just jump straight to the implications for his horrible murderspree god-powering project. Though Melody is pretty sure he's not going to be defaulting to that plan now, and wouldn't be able to implement it for decades anyway? It's not like they've exactly talked about it. 

 

 

:...I guess it makes sense that if you've got that many people, some of them would want to pay for neat Mindhealing things. Maybe I should write up something on all the neat Mindhealing things I can do?: 

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"That would be great, if you've picked up enough Kayshu in, what, half a week, that you can do that!"

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:I mean, I don't think I'm quite at the point where I can write it up yet? Leareth could, he's gone way harder on language practice and also he seems to be picking up the reading and writing much faster than the speaking, which is the opposite of where I'm at. Between the two of us we could probably manage to write something up now, but I was also more thinking I could do it next week: 

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"Sounds good. I'll brainstorm some things - I should give you my email -"

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:That's a good idea. Or I could just give you mine, it's -: damn it she's forgotten the transliteration now. :...Nevermind, it's somewhere on the laptop but Leareth's using that right now. If you tell me yours I can write it down on paper?: 

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"Sure." Her work email is just her name and some numbers.

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That's very straightforward for Melody to write down, even at her current limited skill level! 

:...Anyway, er, before you go - are there 'stimulants' other than the thing that's in tea? I think I'd be interested in learning more about the options, if so. So far your world seems to just be way better at all kinds of drugs than Velgarth: 

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"Yeah, there are! I bet your social worker has a pharmacist contact for you -"

"Yeah, I can get a stim sampler ordered like the sleep sampler Leareth's using," says Dree.

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:Great!: Melody beams at Dree. And then remembers to switch to private Mindspeech. 

:Meant to ask you - we tried #4 on the sleep sampler list for Leareth last night and he slept possibly the best he ever has in the past two years, and seems to be doing well so far today, but also he slept for twelve hours straight? And that's after I gave it to him at 1 am or so because I'd forgotten when he actually went to bed multiple hours before that, so I think he actually slept for more like fifteen hours total. Right now I'm not sure if it's a side effect or if he was just actually that tired but it'd be good to know what's normal there?: 

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:Oh - uh, well, you could try another of the same kind tonight and see if he sleeps for a less ridiculous amount of time now that he's more caught up? Or snap it in half, if you want to try a smaller dose:

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:Sure, that's mostly what I'd been thinking already, I just want to double-check things with you while we're still getting our bearings: She smiles slightly, shaking her head. :Honestly, I appreciated the chance to sleep in - though it's mostly my fault I needed to. I discovered advertisement videos for conditioner and then I could keep clicking on advertisement videos for other things and I stayed up much later than I should have: 

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:- Oh, sorry: Melody adds to Kelta. :Private conversation, but - I was just mentioning to Dree how I discovered last night that your world is incredibly good at advertisement videos. And then I watched them for too many hours and stayed up later than I really should have. They were very pretty! Once I have money I think I want to order at least five kinds of 'conditioner' and see if they make my hair that pretty: 

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"Ha! Once I got sucked into ads for board games and the next week I had a stack of six of them and nobody wanted to play them with me."

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:...Ooh. What kind of board games do you have here? - Um, I want to ask but also I maybe don't want to ask if it's going to cause me to have six of them next week and no one to play them with: 

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"How about if you want me to come over again I can bring a couple and we can play them when we're done with shop talk?"

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:Sure!: ...And I'm definitely going to try the 'stimulant pack' - I know I said I wasn't sure if tea did anything for magic reserves, but I'm not sure I would really be able to tell, given how throughout my entire adult life I've always drunk more tea to the extent I was doing more exhausting magic work. If it turns out that 'stimulants' give me extra magic reserves after all, I'm going to be so delighted about that!: 

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"It'd be very exciting! My wife is positively buzzing about trade with a magical alternate dimension, and if you guys can do more magic with stimulants we can ship you so much the better."

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Awww. 

...Also. Her - wife -? Are they, as an entire civilization, just as comfortable with same-sex relationships as the Tayledras? That would be really neat. Melody isn't going to ask Kelta about it because it seems potentially awkward. 

:I think it's very exciting! If we want genuine interdimensional trade that'll have to wait on them winning the war over there. Or on Leareth being able to do magic again and checking what's going on, if we don't hear anything for years or whatever. But still: 

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"Yup. That'll give the international trade types time to square things away and be ready for it, at least!"

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Nod. :Hopefully! Anyway, I may not be comfortable enough with the language yet to write up a whole explanation of Mindhealing, but I should be able to send you an email if I have questions. As long as you're willing to forgive my dubious grammar and spelling: 

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"Do you want me to write in a few eoms for you?"

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:- That's the, er, prewritten email thing? I think Dree did some for me before. I would probably appreciate it but I don't want to interrupt Leareth while he's using the laptop: 

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"Makes sense."

"Sorry, I don't have another yet, the office is out of loaners and the new ones will be in tomorrow," says Dree.

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:That's fine, I understand. I've lived my whole life up until now without a laptop, it's not a big deal! Though it does seem like a lot of things in your world rely on having one. I guess it's sort of a replacement for Mindspeech and also all the other Gifts, but better since everyone can have one?: 

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"I think I wouldn't give up the Internet for Mindspeech," says Dree thoughtfully.

"I would but not if everybody got to, it'd lose the comparative advantage," says Kelta. "And I have to admit in this scenario I imagine relying on my housemates to tell me what's going on online."

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Melody nods along.

:What does 'comparative advantage' mean? Just, it sounds like the sort of thing Leareth would talk about, but I don't think it's a thing he's specifically talked about with me before or anything: 

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"Oh, it's an econ concept," says Kelta. "I don't remember the formal definition, in casual conversation it just means whatever it's most efficient for you to be doing on the assumption that other people are also more or less doing what's efficient for them to be doing."

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Melody also isn't sure what it means for something to be an 'econ' concept but now is maybe not the time to pursue that, since Kelta seems to be hinting that she wants to head out soon. 

:Oh, huh. I think that makes sense but I feel like I should think about it more! Thank you for explaining: 

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"No problem! What's your email, for future reference -"

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Aaaaaaaah Melody continues to be so bad at things. :Dree, do you remember how my name was spelled in my email address? I'm not sure: 

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Dree provides the email and Kelta writes it down. "Okay, I'm gonna go home - it's been lovely but I hate all your chairs, next time I can bring one of mine."

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:Of course! ...Er, what's wrong with our chairs? Just, now I'm curious if I can buy better chairs once I have money to do that and all. I think they're perfectly adequate by Velgarth standards but your world is better than Velgarth standards at everything I've cared to check so far: 

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"I'm just really picky about chairs. If we have a fantastic time playing board games next time I come I can direct you to the ones I have."

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:Sounds good!: 

Melody ushers her out. 

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And off nyooms Kelta!

"I don't have a laptop but I do have a selection of fidgets," Dree says once she's gone.

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:Ooh!: Melody is so excited to have a look. 

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Dree got the kinds she asked for - a squishy ball in mottled green like malachite, a wheel within a wheel - and also a water wiggle full of glitter, and a fist-sized grabbable object that can be held in various configurations to enable access to the various buttons and switches and dials on its surface, and also a wiggly alien-plant-looking thing in bright red silicone. "This one is not strictly speaking a fidget toy but it was in the same section and if you don't want it I'll give it to my nephew," says Dree, "it's a chocolate obstacle. You dip it in chocolate - or another thing that has a sufficiently compatible texture - and then you eat the chocolate off it. It's more interesting than just biting directly into a candy bar and unlike buying chocolate covered caramels and then peeling them all with your teeth you aren't left with a bunch of caramel you didn't especially want in the first place."

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:....That's really neat but also I feel like it leaves me with several more questions than what I started out with! What are chocolate covered caramels and why do people buy them to peel them with their teeth when they don't want the caramel - that's edible too, right -?: 

She is already squishing the squishy mottled green ball. It's SO SATISFYING. 

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"- do you have caramel? You can get them covered in - chocolate - do you have chocolate - anyway, people sometimes just really prefer eating certain foods if they can do something more complicated than biting it, like peeling it off something else. Which is fine if you want to also eat the caramel, but if you don't, you get one of these." She waves the chocolate obstacle.

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:I am not obviously recognizing either of those concepts! Though it's tricky in Mindspeech when you don't share a language and also come from entirely different worlds with different foods. Your world does seem to also have tea which is fairly recognizable as tea, but I wouldn't be all that surprised if Velgarth doesn't have 'chocolate' or 'caramel'. I'd have to taste them for sure. ...I guess I might have already, the custard-filled cakes came in all those flavor combinations, but I mostly couldn't read the packaging at the time: 

Melody has never actually heard of people preferring to eat foods if they could peel them off other things with their teeth, either, but possibly they've just never...checked...? 

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"Well, can I see the packages? Caramel is a thing you get if you cook sugar in the right way, I'd be a little surprised if you didn't have it in any form, but chocolate's from a specific plant."

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:- Oh! Is it like fudge?: Melody tries to push across as much of her sense of 'fudge' as she can, appearance and flavor. She has very little idea how it's made but she thinks it's made from sugar. :We have fudge: 

 

She can try to track down the packaging. It's mostly piled on the counter because she wasn't sure what else to do with it. 

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"We have fudge too! It is not totally unlike caramel, I guess! - the trash can is here under the sink, but at least now I don't have to dig through it." She reads off the flavors.

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Several of them contained chocolate! One of them had caramel in the custard.

Melody ate most of these yesterday or earlier and was not maximally paying attention at the time, but she's pretty sure she didn't recognize the chocolate flavor. So probably either Velgarth doesn't have it, or else they do but it's not available in Valdemar? Lots of things aren't available in Valdemar. There's the one herb that grows in Seejay and mysteriously helps a lot with depression and they only learned about it because of Vanyel's trip down south for– ...for reasons. 

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"I wonder if we have that one! Kelta might know, or be able to find out, if you could draw her a picture or something."

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:I can do that. ...Huh, I somehow feel like it would be weird if our worlds had all the same plants, even though I've already noticed that you have bread which I would guess is made of wheat, and more importantly your world has humans that seem very similar to Velgarth humans except for the whole not having Gifts. ....Arda also has humans now but their gods made them from scratch. We're not sure why. Possibly they just got artistic inspiration from the Velgarth humans showing up, though there were maybe prophecies about it that predated all of that: 

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"Yeah, that's really weird and I don't know what to make of it," says Dree, sweeping the wrappers into the trash.

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:A lot of things about Arda are really baffling! Their world is flat apparently, not a planet at all - and they didn't used to have a sun, one continent had these two enormous trees that made sunlight and everywhere else it was dark, but then the evil god ate the trees - or something? it was confusing - so it was dark everywhere. After the war ended their other gods made a sun and a moon, it really startled a lot of people, but as far as I know they're still flat: 

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:...Sorry, that's probably going to be more interesting to someone who studies how planets and suns and things work: 

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"...honestly I kind of expect an astronomer to mostly be really annoyed that a world works like that in real life."

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:I think Leareth was annoyed about it! He didn't exactly have a lot of time to investigate it during the war but - he's studied astronomy in Velgarth, he had opinions on how planets and suns work, and apparently none of that holds in Arda and we still don't know why: 

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"Well, if the naturesouls are doing it with magic that explains it but not really elegantly."

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:Not really, no–:

There is a noise from the other room. 

:- Oh, sorry, I should go check on Leareth: 

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Leareth is pointlessly crying again because he just tried something three times in a row and it failed in three different equally confusing and unhelpful ways! 

...He is also, while still crying, trying very hard to navigate to his email account and start writing an email to Shory to ask her what to do about this. 

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....Melody is maybe going to just hover at a distance and observe, since Leareth is apparently trying to do reasonable things about this and doesn't seem in excessive distress, and also he has his support dog right there. 

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Forgiver is licking his elbow diligently.

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Leareth pets her a few times but mostly his hands are busy. (He fit in some typing-game practice before diving into programming today, and he's still really quite bad at typing on a keyboard but he is so diligently practicing doing it with both hands in the approximately correct positions anyway.) 

He manages to send Shory an email attempting to describe his problem. It is horrendously badly spelled but will maybe hopefully convey his problem and the question he's asking? 

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Melody is so proud of Leareth about this.

 

She eases herself back out of the room and looks over at Dree. :Sorry. Er, was there anything else you'd wanted to cover today?: 

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"Is there any other profession you want me to source one of to bring here?"

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:It sounded like it might be helpful to talk to a pharmacist? Since in your world that's an entirely different specialty, even for purely mental health things, and also really effective: 

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"Sure. Do you want me to pick one out for theoretical shop talk or to talk about your stimulant and sleeping pill situations?"

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:Oh, hmm. I had more been thinking of the first one just now, but probably it would be good to get actual in-person advice about the second thing as well. I guess neither one is very urgent. Probably the second one is a higher priority from our perspective, but if pharmacists in your world want to know more about Mindhealing and find out how I can help with their research or whatnot, I'm happy to do that: 

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"I'll mention both and see if there's anyone with conveniently both skillsets."

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:Sounds good!:

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"Anything else for today?"

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:I don't think so? ...I am admittedly at a bit of a loss for what to do with myself while we only have one laptop, since Leareth wants to use it most of the time and I'm generally giving him first priority on it, but I don't expect that's something you can necessarily solve for me: 

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"Well, if everything goes according to plan you'll have another tomorrow."

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Nod. :I think that's everything, then. It's been pretty good language practice just having you both here today - I'm getting close to being able to understand the language without using Thoughtsensing at all. Thank you for arranging for Kelta to come over: 

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"No problem. Next, pharmacist." And Dree departs.

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Melody should perhaps theoretically be doing something productive, but Leareth is in possession of the only laptop, so instead she sits herself at the kitchen table and PLAYS with her FIDGET TOYS. 

The squishy ball is so squish! The 'water wiggle' is gorgeous, but also very mysterious, and at one point she squeezes it too hard and shoots it across the room. The wheel-in-a-wheel is fun to spin. The grabbable object with dials looks like something her granddaughter would adore, but Melody is not too proud to poke it and hold it in weird positions. At least while no one is watching. 

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Leareth tries one more time to get his code to work and a different mysterious thing that wasn't the thing he wanted happens! So instead he does more language practice and intermittently checks his email to see if Shory has a suggestion. 

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Shory's reply explains how to take a screenshot and asks him to send some of the thing he's trying and the result.

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Wow, you can do that? That's so clever! 

Leareth is going to send her such a thoroughly documented story-in-screenshots of what he was trying! He screenshots the page of instructions he was originally following, and what happened in the code editor, and then the instructions he found when attempting to search for troubleshooting suggestions for that error, and what happened when he tried that, and in short he ends up with a dozen screenshots attached to his reply. 

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Shory gets back to him five minutes later with a screenshot edited to circle the problem in red and explains what he should do there instead.

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This time it works! Leareth is very pleased with himself. He emails back to confirm it worked and thank her, and then keeps going. Eventually manages to extract himself from the work enough to go to the bathroom, and remembers to take Forgiver out into the backyard as well. (With shoes, this time.) 

He's barely paying attention to his surroundings because his head is completely full of programming. 

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Melody keeps an eye on him through the window while she plays with the squishy water tube thing. 

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Forgiver is pleased that it is go time! It could stand to be go time somewhat more often, in her opinion.

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Leareth should definitely figure out how to get better at remembering to let her out regularly! And probably he should be making sure she gets more exercise. Maybe for now he can take her on a walk around the house a few times, while he mulls on what he would need to look up to figure out how to add reminders to his half-finished to-do list app. 

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Forgiver is fascinated to go around the house! She wants to look at things and smell them!

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It's...nice. Following Forgiver around as she explores and inspects and sniffs reminds Leareth to pay attention to the here-and-now, to his body and senses. He still has a tendency to flinch away from that, but - this is a good moment. Practically the opposite of being tortured. It's peaceful. 

What sorts of things are there to see and smell in the vicinity of the house?

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There are plants! There are animal burrows! There are the laundry machines, and the hose, and the patio table and chairs, and a storage bench, and a couple pieces of litter that have blown here, and lots of dirt, and a garter snake that is more scared of Forgiver than she is of it.

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Leareth investigates the laundry machines and the hose and the storage bench, and makes a mental note about the table and chairs - maybe he and Melody can eat out here, sometimes, when the weather is nice. 

He nearly steps on the garter snake while in the process of trying to figure out what's bothering Forgiver. 

 

 

 

 

- Leareth's snake-related experiences in recent years were often VERY BAD. He makes a strangled sound that doesn't have quite enough air behind it to count as a scream, and tries to dive away from the snake and ends up facedown in the dirt and completely unable to move or respond in any way. 

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Forgiver tries to nudge him over onto his back with her nose, licking him a lot in the process and whimpering.

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Leareth is vaguely aware that something is happening to him, but it seems to be coming from a long way off, and sort of blended into the indiscriminate awfulness that he expects the past, present, and future to contain - 

 

- no, that isn't right - 

 

Leareth does not especially respond to being licked or nudged. 

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Forgiver goes back to the door, but can't open it, and comes around again to lick Leareth more.

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Still not responding in any way. 

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Melody doesn't look over at the right time to see Forgiver approaching the door, but after a couple of minutes she starts to notice that she hasn't spotted Leareth or his dog at all for a while? 

:Leareth: she sends. 

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Yeah okay fine she's going out there to check on him. And detouring by the living room to grab one of the fuzzy blankets off the sofa first, because the most obvious reason for Leareth to be ignoring her is because something out there scared him and he's too panicked to respond. 

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Oh, a blanket! Forgiver will snatch it from her and put it on Leareth.

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Melody has never more intensely wished for the Gift of Animal Mindspeech, so she could ask Forgiver what in all hells happened out here. (The snake is at this point long gone, and unable to provide hints.) 

She sits down next to Leareth and carefully doesn't touch him. Forgiver seems to have him plenty covered in the licking department. :Hey. I'm here. I don't know what happened that was scary, but I don't see any sign you're in danger: 

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Melody tiredly starts going through her script for re-orienting a panicky Leareth. 

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Somewhat to her surprise, he actually interrupts her three sentences in. 

:I know. ...There was a snake. It startled me: 

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:Ah. It makes sense that you were scared. I'm sorry: Melody is also quietly wishing she'd grabbed one of her fidget toys on the way out. 

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:...I think it also startled Forgiver first and I was trying to help but then it startled me more: 

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Leareth with his dog is VERY CUTE. 

:That makes sense. Do you think you'd be up for walking inside soon? I think that you'll feel safer there and be able to relax more: And unfortunately Melody lacks the Quendi advantage of being stronger than humans and able to just pick him up and carry him inside. 

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Leareth considers this. 

:...I think so?:

It then takes him several minutes to prove this right, but he does manage to sit up and then stand up and then also take steps in a direction, even though this is a really unreasonable level of required effort and complexity. He wears the blanket over his shoulders like a cape and calls for Forgiver to follow him. 

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Forgiver will do that, heeling quite close.

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His dog is very good! Leareth makes it as far as the sofa where his laptop is and then half-collapses there. 

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Melody should probably go make him tea or something soon, but for now she doesn't want to go too far away. 

:So I think we should give Forgiver a way to get my attention if I'm inside and you need help outside - maybe a bell on the door? - and train her to call for me right away: 

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That's probably a good idea but it sounds very tiring to think about. 

:I was thinking that I should add some kind of reminder function to my app I am building so that I can use that to remember to let her outside more often: Leareth says back, even though this is probably a complete non-sequitur. 

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:Oh. Hmm. That does seem like a good idea: 

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Answering this also sounds hard, so Leareth is just going to dangle his hand for licking. 

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Forgiver is on it. She will lick that hand real good.

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Ughhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh when are they going to get the bathtub problem sorted out. Now on top of everything else, Leareth has yard dirt and some bits of grass in his hair. 

He seems calmer, though, so Melody will go make him some tea and a snack. 

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After really not very many minutes, Leareth is able to sit up, get back up to speed on what he was doing when he left off with the app-in-progress, and then tap out an email to Shory asking for advice on how to make it remind him of things because he keeps forgetting to let his dog out often enough and Melody forgets as well. 

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Shory suggests that for the time being he use an app that already exists, like this one, and then he can use that for inspiration on how he wants his to work. He can also read the source code if he wants!

Dree sends Melody an email later in the afternoon with a link to a product that appears to be an inflatable bathtub with a heater-circulator that they could put in the yard.

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Melody doesn't actually see this until dinnertime, when she drags Leareth away from the laptop in order to eat yet another instant soup. And then she needs to get Leareth's help to actually decipher it. 

"That seems like a good idea, if you're fine taking baths outside in the yard? I guess we're pretty remote so it's unlikely to bother anyone, but it might be cold when you're getting out afterward." 

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Shrug. "It is still an improvement over the shower." 

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Melody, with some further help from Leareth, replies to the email and says that sounds good, how does she actually buy said product? 

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Dree will order it if she likes the look of it!

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Is there a way to send it back later if it looks good in the picture but turns out not to work for them for some reason (Melody effortfully replies)? 

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Yup, if she explains the problem it can be returned for a full refund.

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In that case Melody is happy to order it and see how it turns out! 

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(Leareth types this reply for her because he's now spent some time practicing the typing game that Shory recommended, and is finding it painful to watch Melody pluck out each letter one by one.) 

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The next day Dree comes by with:

- a second loaner laptop
- a stim sampler
- a hairbrush for Leareth because it is starting to look to her like he maybe forgot to pack one
- a retired psychiatric pharmacist who introduces himself as Idrial

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(Melody remembers to give Leareth his sleeping drug that night, at a sensible time even. She tries #5 in the sampler since they might as well, and she's also nervous about trying to break the previous one for a half-dose, what if she somehow does it wrong.) 

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It doesn't work as thoroughly as #4, Leareth still has nightmares that wake him several times during the night and on one occasion he wakes Melody as well, but he manages to get back to sleep without too much difficulty, and he wakes up at a reasonable time in the morning. 

When Dree gets in the next day, he's at the kitchen table with their current loaner laptop, poking around at the source code of the reminder app that Shory suggested he use for now and try to take inspiration from. The reminders were a good idea; he's managed to remember to let Forgiver outside every 4 hours like clockwork since setting that up. 

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Forgiver appreciates this very much. She chases bugs and finds a Good Stick.

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They are very adorable but the stick is still not allowed inside. 

Melody goes over to answer the door and let Dree and the visiting pharmacist in.

(She did not, in fact, pack a hairbrush for Leareth due to space limitations and the fact that Leareth cared more about dedicating that space to his notes for later review; she has a comb, which takes less space, but Leareth has just given her a very tired look on the handful of occasions she asked if he could maybe fix his hair. She's kind of embarrassed about this but hasn't yet felt like pressing him on it or doing it for him, he doesn't really like it when she touches him and also she has maybe, perhaps, slightly absorbed the Quendi attitudes about hair being kind of private.) 

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Well, now he has a hairbrush and if that doesn't work Dree will have to consider further escalatory steps.

Idrial the retired pharmacist can go over the stimulant pack with Melody!

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Melody has many questions! What are the differences between the six of them and what makes them different from just having lots of tea? 

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Tea's good, and she can go on drinking as much as she likes, but this one here is a caffeine pill, a little more straightforward and convenient - and there's extended release, and some people rotate different stimulants so they don't build up a tolerance for any one, and of course everybody tolerates different side effects -

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This is really interesting! Melody is aware that the one herb that helps for depression in Velgarth has some weird side effects, and she's quickly becoming familiarized with the random side effects of different sleeping drugs here, but she hadn't actually considered whether or not tea (or caffeine, she supposes) had side effects in the same way? She knows some people don't like it but she's always thought of it more like the thing where some people don't like particular foods. But it sounds like they've done actual scholarship on this topic here! Dree offered to read her a treatise on it the other day, which seemed like a dubious use of Dree's time but Melody would appreciate a summary!

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Idrial can sure give her one of those. Though he does consult a website about it.

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Melody is fine with that and it's arguably even better because she can ask which website and then have it to refer to later! Probably in a few weeks she'll be comfortable reading the language, but right now it's still really valuable even if literally all he's doing is reading a website to her. 

:- Also, this is a bit less topical and more general curiosity, but I'm curious what the range is of, er, things your world has drugs for, that are well studied and definitely work. For physical illnesses as well, not just the kind of problems you go to a Mindhealer about. Velgarth does have a lot of herbs, but only some of them definitely work, and Gifted Healers are almost always better: 

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Idrial apparently used to run a blog about his favorite drugs! Drugs make it onto the blog for definitely working and being particularly dramatic improvements over their absence. They have painkillers and stimulants and sleep aids and anaesthesia and antibiotics and SSRIs and birth control and vaccines!

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Melody recognizes some of those, at least as general categories, but others she doesn’t recognize at all! Velgarth does have painkillers although the really effective ones are generally dangerous or addictive or both. She thinks she’s following what ‘birth control’ means; if she’s right and it means a drug that prevents women from conceiving children, Valdemar does have access to a herb for it but it is very much not reliable, and not widely available to villages and smallholdings. Heralds who get pregnant by accident will generally be interacting with Healers enough that someone will notice it early, within the first three or four weeks, which is also early enough that a Healer can safely end the pregnancy.

She’s not sure she’s following what anesthesia means - the concept coming across sounds like it’s to do with making people sleep, but different from normal sleep aids? - and she has absolutely no recognition of what antibiotics or vaccines could be.

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Antibiotics kill infections and vaccines prevent them! Anaesthesia makes someone totally unconscious if you have to do major surgery on them.

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That’s INCREDIBLE! Melody is appropriately awed!

(And noticing how much Shavri would have wanted to know everything about this right away - and then deciding not to think about that just now because she doesn’t want to explain to Idrial why she’s sad -)

Velgarth doesn’t have a way to directly treat infections other than Gifted Healers burning them out, which can be hard on the patient since Healing inevitably uses their life-energy as well as the Healer’s reserves, and also it takes a lot of skill and precision to only hit the infection and none of the patient’s living tissues and organs. As far as she knows there’s no way to prevent infections, except for obvious measures like quarantining sick people and thoroughly cleaning wounds.

Healers can knock patients out and it’s fairly safe for short periods? Sometimes you can use surgery to save patients but usually by the time they’re badly off enough to leave that as the best option, they’re pretty unlikely to survive it. 

Melody can technically also keep people unconscious with Mindhealing, and this is physically safer than the Healing-Gift version? It is generally not a good use of her time even in Velgarth, though, since it needs her ongoing attention and there aren’t many Mindhealers.

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It sounds like she can do a whole lot of really cool things which would be great if there were ten thousand of her and not so much if there's just one.

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That sounds about right! It would be kind of amazing if something that their world has at some point studied and come to understand would somehow let them copy Velgarth Gifts or give them to people as adults, but Melody isn't really expecting this to work or anything. 

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There's obviously no prior art on it, since they don't have magic, but maybe!

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Nod. 

:- Oh, right, and I didn't actually manage to ask about 'SSRIs'? I don't think Velgarth has a word for that whatever it is. I vaguely have the sense that it's related to - depression, or other mental problems - but I didn't get much more than that?: 

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Idrial can explain SSRIs*.

*No, they don't actually call them "SSRIs".

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:That’s really neat! It sounds like they’re a little like the herb from Seejay that helps with depression, but - there are multiple kinds and you can make as much as you want? The herb we found is hard to grow in our climate…:

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:- Are there drugs here that help people who have to the problem where they’re very jumpy and panic easily and find it hard to calm down again?:

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"Yup!" Some SSRIs work for that and there are other things too; he can find his old blog posts on his favorites.

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Melody is paying such close attention! 

(She doesn’t say anything out loud, obviously, but it would be really great if there were a treatment to help Leareth be less twitchy and emotionally reactive and easily driven to panic. It would be good for Leareth - she knows he hates how the predictable after-effects of his time in Angband make it harder for him to accomplish things - and it would also be convenient for Melody, who is doing her best but is not exactly qualified or well-placed for what Leareth needs.)  

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Idrial is happy to natter on about pharmaceuticals for a while.

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Melody takes detailed notes (in Valdemaran, on the notepaper she brought.) 

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Leareth, still mid-programming-attempt, stares at his laptop screen and, after several seconds, starts quietly crying. 

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He was fine last time. Melody does not try to intervene. 

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Forgiver knows what her job is (licking. her job is licking.)

Dree does say, "Leareth, do you need anything?"

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Leareth takes several seconds to respond to that. 

:I - think I am all right? It would be nice if computers were somehow less frustrating but I am not really expecting that is a problem you can fix: 

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"They're very frustrating," says Dree sympathetically. "I'm sure if someone had a way to make them not frustrating they'd be very rich, but here we are."

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Someday Leareth will be better at doing things and can probably fix whatever logistical or infrastructure problems are upstream of computers being frustrating? ...Someday is not now. Trying to take actions aimed at fixing this problem sounds kind of terrifying. Leareth is trying not to think about this too hard. 

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This continues to seem like a situation where her intervention won't help. 

:I'm curious what sorts of problems - physical or mental or anything else - your world doesn't have any good drugs or other treatments for?: 

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Idrial, being a pharmacist, mostly knows about drugs that do exist and not ones that don't. Cancer is really hard to deal with?

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:...Damn. Cancer is also pretty hard for Healers to deal with! I think there are a lot of kinds of cancer, but - my sense is that, for the most part, if the cancer has spread outside of its capsule, there's nothing a Healer can do that reliably works. If the tumor is localized then a Healer can try to burn it out without hurting the patient too much, but if it's already spread then basically all the Healer can do is try to boost the patient's own body's defenses: 

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"Yeah, it's really a problem that cancer is made out of the same stuff as the rest of you and very few things will target only that and not other random stuff."

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:….Huh. That’s a really good way of putting it! I mean, that sounds like a good description of what we’ve observed in Velgarth but I don’t think the Healers had been conceptualizing it that way? - Does your world have any scholarship on how cancers happen at all? I think our Healers don’t feel that they really understand it:  

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They're getting out of his expertise but here is a blog he likes by a guy who interviews specialist medical people and writes up lay explanations of stuff. He has a sequence on cancer.

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Melody mostly can’t read it yet but she’s grateful for the suggestion! 

:My sense so far is that Mindhealing - considering just the projective aspect, the sensory aspect is separate and maybe more useful - but active Mindhealing is maybe relatively better at helping people whose problems involves distorted or or unendorsed thoughts and feelings? Mindhealing can intervene quite precisely on that. But it’d be good to know if there are drugs here that help with those sorts of problems:

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"It depends on the kind! Depression and anxiety and compulsive-family disorders and psychosis can all do that and respond to different stuff -" He can natter on about the different stuff.

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Melody listens to his nattering. Nods along. 

:- What sorts of things fall under 'compulsive-family' disorders? I don't think we have a word for that category in Velgarth: 

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"- oh, the classic presentations are things like cleaning themselves or their things obsessively, or caring a lot about things being symmetrical, or tics?"

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:Are those in the same category? That's interesting. I mean, I can see it, I just wouldn't necessarily have thought to lump them together before:

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"Well, maybe they aren't! We talk about them as a group but a lot of the groupings are very much made up."

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:I suppose that's true, though psychosis and depression and anxiety feel like more natural clusters to me... I admit there seems to be a lot of overlap with depression and anxiety, a lot of my patients who have one problem will also have the other problem, but it still seems like they're differently-shaped problems even if they correlate: 

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"Honestly almost all psychological problems are comorbid with all of the others."

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:Which is interesting! I guess some physical problems are correlated too, someone with a bad heart is more likely to get very ill if they catch pneumonia, but, I mean, you can have health problems from being too fat or too thin and those are complete opposites: 

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"It's sort of of a piece with there being a lethal dose of anything, even water."

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:Anyway, so far my impression is that - since there's only one of me - I might be most helpful contributing to research, rather than just seeing patients. Do you know about any ongoing research about which drugs are effective? In particular, if there are drugs that seem to work for some patients and not others, but your world can't reliably distinguish why, I might be able to help since I can look at their minds directly and see what's going on: 

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"There are a ton of drugs that work for some patients and not others. Or have bothersome side effects for some and not others but I imagine that would be less obvious to you - well, maybe some of them you could see - I wonder what brain zaps look like -"

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:What are 'brain zaps'? They sound unpleasant!: 

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"They are, I hear! I've never had them -" He can go read her an article about them.

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:Weird! I - don't think I've ever heard of anyone having that problem in Velgarth. I guess maybe we just don't have the drugs where it's a side effect...: Shrug. :I expect I'd be able to see them - I'm nearly sure that at least one out of me or a Healer could see them, depending on whether it's more of a low-level physical phenomenon or a higher-level mental one. Though the distinction isn't always that clear cut, hmm... Do people get dazzle-headaches here? The very horrible kind of headache that makes you sensitive to light and comes with nausea, and some people get weird hallucinations from it too. It's something that shows up to both Healers and Mindhealers, while it's happening - and I think susceptibility to them shows up to me even if the patient isn't actively having one, though I never really saw enough cases to be sure: 

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"People do get those, yes! Can you cure them?"

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:Healers can sometimes interrupt one in progress, if it's just barely started. I...might be able to do something to change the susceptibility, for someone who has a very strong pathway where stress will trigger a dazzle-headache? I don't know exactly how I'd do it, though, I remember musing about this in the past but I never had the time to experiment with it. Or a volunteer to experiment on: 

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"There are some migraine drugs, which work for some people and not for others, maybe you can help figure out why and what could be done to develop better ones."

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:Plausibly! I definitely feel a lot better about getting involved in obscure research if my role is just looking and not actively doing Mindhealing to people. I mean, it's still definitely something where I'd want the patients to understand what they were opting into, since it's invasive of their privacy, but it doesn't have the risk of my making a mistake: 

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"I think migraines are one of those things that can make people really desperate. Oh, or suicide headaches, those are worse."

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Melody looks very concerned! :What...are 'suicide headaches'? It sounds very bad!: 

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"They are! Some people just get headaches much much worse than migraines out of absolutely nowhere!"

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:Yeeeesh! I...don't know if I'd be able to help with those, but I'd be pretty motivated to try! Especially if there are any existing studies with drugs that might help. - Oh, er, a question I should ask is whether there's a good way to search for scholarship that's in progress, other than just - hopefully typing words in the normal search thing?: 

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"Hm, there's a good way to search for published studies but I'm not sure there's one about stuff still in progress..." He pokes around. "Oh, this wasn't around when I was practicing - here you go, preregistration site."

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:Neat! Yes, I think that's roughly what I was wanting:

Melody will carefully write down the directions for how to get there (with pen and paper, in Valdemaran except for a couple of spelled-out Kayshu words). 

:Er, was there anything you'd especially wanted to ask me about?: 

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"I'm really curious about your world, or, uh, worlds, but not in a professional capacity really -"

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:Fair enough to be curious, though! I don't have a burning need to do anything right after this, so I can tell you a few things, though I guess I should really at some point answer questions for someone who can write up an explanation of them, so I'm not going over the same things eighteen times. Or I could wait until I'm good at writing, but I expect I'll be comfortable speaking the language and answering emails a long time before I feel ready to write a whole treatise in it. Anyway. What sorts of things are you curious about - our magic, our countries and governments, our history, our non-magical scholarship, other things...?: 

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"I was thinking the animals and the state of education."

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:Ooh, animals. We have dogs and horses too. We also have lots of kinds of birds, including - I think it was a crow I saw before carrying something? There are some pigeons that you can train to carry messages, but I'm going to guess they're not as smart as your birds. Er, we have cattle and sheep and goats and pigs and chickens, as the most common farm livestock. There are also some magically-altered species that are much smarter - the Tayledras are a people who live in small clans in a region called the Pelagirs, where the land is badly damaged and dangerous, and they have birds which have a bit of Mindspeech and can also form minor soulbonds with scouts, I say 'minor' because I don't think it's too traumatic for the scout when their bondbird dies. And there are created races which are even smarter than that, comparable to humans - hertasi were created from lizards, gryphons were created from - several composite species, I think, presumably including a bird and a mammal of some kind. We thought until recently that they might be extinct but apparently they aren't -: 

A flash of pain. Grief. When Vanyel's Tayledras allies scried Haven, there were gryphons stationed in the ruins, bearing Iftel's standard. And even despite the awful circumstances, she suspects Vanyel was a little bit relieved, to learn that their species had survived the Mage Wars. 

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"...soulbonds?"

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:Huh. I hadn't thought of them as magic exactly, but I guess it makes sense that you don't have them - and the most interesting effects involve Mind-Gifts. There are a few different ways that people - or not-exactly-people in the birds case - can bond to someone. Companions are intelligent magic horses that we think were created as a direct miracle by a god, it's a long story, but anyway they Choose and bond to humans and that's how the government of Valdemar is selected. Lifebonds are another one, they're - deeper, and usually romantic, and neither party generally has much of a choice about it, it's just - some sort of soul-compatibility. We think they happen when the gods are meddling directly. People generally don't survive losing their Companion, though it's been known to happen. We know of exactly one person who's ever survived losing a lifebonded partner, and it's probably only because a Companion chose him right after it happened: 

Melody is trying to speak neutrally on the topic, but there's still a hint of distaste, even slow-simmering anger, in her mindvoice. 

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"That's... well, that's pretty fucked up, it's all romantic to put it in a novel but..."

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:No, no, I think you're absolutely right:

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"You can't unpick them from your tapestry thing?"

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:....Huh. For some reason I'd never considered that. I really doubt I could do anything about a lifebond - I don't seem to be able to do all that much about a broken one. Possibly I could break a Companion-bond if I tried really hard, they're - less fundamental, and the Companions themselves can choose to undo them. I doubt it would be very good for the subjects: 

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"Ugh. I was maybe imagining more - surgical precision, but I suppose you can't necessarily take all the time in the world before it's all over the mind, can you."

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:I can do more precision on smaller things than that. Or anything that's not - self-correcting, where everything between the starting state and the goal is stable. I don't think half-bonds stay that way, I think they try to snap back to a full bond. And then at some point probably just...snap: 

She shakes her head. :Also, the main limitation as a Mindhealer is my own skill and finesse. I bet there are all kinds of things that I could do with the Gift, if there were an established technique, but we don't have much in the way of research into it, and - for the obvious reason, experimenting with it is fraught: 

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"I bet. You could probably get some volunteers who had terminal illnesses? If they weren't the sort to be signed up for cryonics."

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:.....Signed up for what?: Melody is not even slightly making sense of the thought-concept behind that unfamiliar word. 

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"Oh, uh, the thing where when you die you get dunked in liquid nitrogen - it's more complicated than that - and stashed in a basement in case in a hundred years they know how to fix you. From whatever killed you and also being in liquid nitrogen, which is also not good for you but at least keeps you basically the same for as long as somebody's topping off the tank."

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Leareth is pretty hard to distract when he's programming, but Idrial picked a moment when he wasn't especially in flow - he's just emailed another question to Shory - and their world has WHAT NOW???? 

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:That's.... Wow. Just. WOW. I - who even thought of that idea? I would never have thought of that idea! I guess I wouldn't expect it to necessarily work in Velgarth because what if their soul got reincarnated in the meantime -:

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Joining a conversation in another room that he was sort of eavesdropping on one side of is, apparently, SCARY, but Leareth is going to mindread the retired pharmacist instead. 

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The retired pharmacist is signed up because his wife insisted as a condition of marrying him! He doesn't really think it will work but it's a nice idea, and less ridiculous than buying a lottery ticket. His son toured the facility once, but said it was very boring to look at, mostly just opaque vats.

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This is fascinating and incredible and - and it says something about this world and its people, right, that someone thought that was a gamble worth making, that someone built that facility at what, even for a world of such vast wealth, must still have been a significant expense. 

Leareth desperately wants to know more, wants to know everything about the history here, but for one the visiting pharmacist may well not know - he's not an expert himself, he only signed up because a loved one asked - and also interacting with him is just. definitely. not going to happen. Apparently it's easier to set aside his code and start painstakingly entering in search queries, guessing wildly at how you spell 'cryonics' in Kayshu. 

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:Anyway. I'm pretty impressed that your world has that, even if it might not work! It's just - what a thing to try. ...Anyway. Where were we? You'd asked about animals in Velgarth and - something else, but I forgot it: 

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"Education! I bounced off the first five things I tried for getting professionally useful amounts of education and it's an interest of mine."

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:Hmm. I would have said that our education is sort of all right, definitely not amazing, but I've also never heard of that happening! I guess a lot of our education system is aimed at people with particular Gifts, and if you were chosen by a Companion, or if you have the Healing or Bardic Gift, you can't exactly choose to stop! Also it's expensive to send children to school, and costly on top of that for families to give up their children to school once they're old enough to work, so parents aren't likely to send their children at all unless they're likely to succeed. Most children from rural areas and villages just go to lessons at the nearest temple until age twelve or so, learn how to read and write and do basic figuring but not a lot more, and the really clever ones can get scholarships to study at the new merit-based Collegium in Haven, and learn to be artificers or architects or other skilled occupations. Though twenty years ago, much fewer of them had that, our current King -:

- and her mindvoice catches because Randi is almost certainly dead and it doesn't matter what their recent personal disagreements were, he was a good man and a good King and it shouldn't have happened, and Melody is too tired to be angry so the sense of wrongness, of a universe pushed suddenly out of balance, has nowhere to go. 

:...Er, anyway. I think the children of nobles are maybe more likely to fail out of the Collegium, maybe because their parents send them regardless of whether they want to go? But still not very likely, it's notable when it happens. I know most of the teachers and they're decent. The training for Gifts is - mostly better on average than neighboring kingdoms, except for mage-gift specifically where I think Rethwellan has an advantage due to sheer number of mages and different competing schools. And of course that's for common Gifts. Training for Mindhealing doesn't really exist. I was trying to fix that, but I got pulled away by other circumstances: 

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"- you can't choose to stop attending school if you have one of those situations? Why are the temples the ones doing education if they can't get most people past reading and writing and arithmetic by the time they're twelve?"

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:- You can technically drop out of the Bardic or Healers' Collegium but then it's much harder to make a living with your Gift, people...rely on the Collegia a lot for trust, they're also the bodies that enforce the laws around ethical Gift-use. And I - don't think we have the temples providing schooling because they're amazing at it, they were just the closest thing to existing infrastructure that King Randale could build on. I expect Valdemar to be much better at this in a few decades, once the teachers get more teaching experience - and once the generation that learned to read and write themselves starts having children, because they'll know the value of it. I think it's hard sometimes for illiterate parents to see why it should matter: 

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"...that's so hard to imagine."

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:For me too! But I had a privileged childhood in a lot of ways: If not all ways. :I...am getting the sense that hereabouts, most people generally keep going to school after they're twelve? - I guess you'd have to, it seems like literally everything here involves needing to read and write and use a computer: 

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"I mean, people can do that when they're twelve! Even if they don't attend school at all! Maybe there's just a lot of malnourishment where you're from?"

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:Wait, do most children just have computers when they're small? I...suspect actually a lot of the problem in Valdemar is that most families don't have books at home. And the temples in smaller towns will have some, but not necessarily the sorts of books that will be incredibly exciting to six-year-olds: 

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"...yes, most people have computers when they're small. Sometimes ones that don't work very well, handmedowns from adults in their lives who upgraded, but computers. There's some poorer areas? But I've never been to one and I'd be surprised if most people in them couldn't even read."

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:I think Valdemar is...poorer. By a lot. And a lot of people - don't have very many options: 

Which is a whole bucket of feelings in itself, because she's spent a lot of the last year helping Leareth slowly unpack and examine all his complicated emotions about gods, and his related ambivalence about returning to Velgarth. The world that once played a role in breaking almost beyond repair, mostly though very little fault of his own, and that he's spent the last two thousand years trying and failing to fix. 

Tantara wasn't poor. She knows, now, why no country since then has ever reached the same heights of prosperity, and - it's not, or not only, because of Ma'ar's war with Urtho. 

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"Well. Hopefully by the time more comprehensive contact is established we'll be able to send you stuff, probably trading for magic mostly."

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:I hope so: 

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Leareth is only half listening to this conversation, because he's also trying to look at websites about cryonics, and Melody is directionally shielding her Mindspeech to avoid disturbing him, so he can't even follow what she's saying. 

He can guess, though. He knows Valdemar is far worse off than this world - was still worse off even after the initial contact with Arda, and now it looks like that contact will end up horrifically net-negative for Velgarth.

He can't regret it, exactly, that he accidentally found his way to Arda when he did. It would have gone so much worse for them, otherwise. Vanyel won the war, when he...couldn't, anymore. Just, he didn't win it thoroughly enough, and this feels utterly predictable because nothing ever works and Leareth has mostly tried not to think about this too hard, it won't help, but now he's suddenly crying again and he really hopes Dree doesn't ask him why because he doesn't have the faintest idea what he would say. 

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Forgiver is going to hop up with her forepaws on his lap so she can lick his tears off. That will help, right? A less teary Leareth is a less sad Leareth.

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Leareth puts down the laptop, he can't read the screen anyway, and leans forward and hugs Forgiver and shivers. He is not really crying any less. Possibly he's crying more. He is trying very hard not to make any noise and interrupt Melody's conversation, but it's hard

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Idrial is kind of distracted by the crying man being licked by the dog over there, yeah.

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:Sorry, I should probably go check what's going on: Melody sighs and hauls herself to her feet so she can cross the room and go sit next to Leareth, though carefully at the opposite end of the couch and nowhere close to touching him. 

:Hey. Should you email Shory to ask for help?: 

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:I really doubt that is going to help: 

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Melody blinks in confusion for a moment, and then - since Leareth does not seem like he's going to elaborate further - glances at his laptop screen. 

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That's super not his code editor! Or even a website with programming instructions. It's an explanation of cryonics. 

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Reading Kayshu is still pretty laborious and non-instinctive for Melody, so it takes her a minute to decipher this. 

She would be surprised if Leareth were this upset about the concept? Velgarth arguably has better options for solving the problem where people die. The Quendi don't have that problem at all and they immediately offered to help, to build on all of Leareth's previous work. 

Though, of course, that isn't exactly going according to plan...

 

:Leareth, can you please tell me what's wrong?: 

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Can he? ....No! Apparently he cannot! 

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This is frustrating! Melody is doing her very best not to let that show. It would mostly not be frustrating, she's used to Leareth being very easily upset and often being unable to communicate while upset, but they have people over and it would be great if she could give them an explanation and maybe advice on whether they should leave to give Leareth space or wait around because he'll be fine again in two minutes!

 

 

- oh, right. Leareth must have overheard the bit of their conversation where Idrial was explaining cryonics, in order to have known to search it. Which means he's been listening in. Which means maybe he heard the latest bit as well - well, Idrial's half, Melody herself was using private Mindspeech. But he could still have followed all the same inferences she did, and ended up in the same place... 

She has absolutely no idea what to say that would be helpful! She wants to tell him that it wasn't his fault, but since he isn't communicating what he's feeling, there's an even chance it just makes things worse. So instead she is going to sit here awkwardly, looking indecisive. 

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Leareth is oblivious to this, because he's hugging his dog and sobbing and also kind of edging toward a panic attack. 

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....Yeah this is incredibly awkward. 

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...Idrial decides to start figuring out what kinds of pharmaceuticals might conceivably help Crying Man.

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Probably he should at some point try to communicate? 

 

:I need to get back to Velgarth: 

Leareth is not particularly succeeding at directional shielding or keeping his Mindspeech quiet, so it's going to reach Dree and Idrial as well. 

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:- Leareth, that is really not the thing you need to be prioritizing right now: 

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He doesn't know how else to explain it. 

:People are dying - people who matter to Vanyel are already dead - and if I cannot help yet I should at least be prioritizing getting to the point where I can but I am not even doing that, I am only doing completely unrelated things: 

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It will NOT HELP to tell him that he's sounding like Vanyel on a bad day.

 

 

It will also not help to suggest that he table the question for now and they can talk about it later once they no longer have company over. Melody...is surprisingly unsure what will help, actually. 

:It makes sense to be upset about it. It's a bad situation and I'm upset and angry about it too. I - don't think that programming is unrelated, actually, it seemed like it might be actively helpful for your recovery and - getting back to being able to do things. I'm sorry that something happened to make you feel time-pressured and I desperately wish it hadn't happened, I think it's - predictable that it's going to make everything ten times harder. I think it would have been wronging you more to avoid telling you, even if that were possible, but.....: Helpless shrug. :I'm sorry: 

And she kind of feels like crying as well but that's the last thing Leareth needs to see. 

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Leareth is sufficiently upset that he's having trouble breathing, let alone Mindspeaking an answer. 

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This...is probably a healthier sign than if his main response were scared? Melody is a little surprised, actually, that Leareth apparently isn't dedicating much mental energy to being terrified of the remote but real possibility that the war will follow them here and they won't be able to keep him safe. (She's not worried about it, it sounds - genuinely unlikely, both for it to be possible to trace them and for that to be the Enemy's top priority, and it's not like they can do anything to act on the risk, so it's not worth dwelling on. But she would have expected Leareth to be less than entirely rational about this subject.)

And - up until now, she's had the impression that Leareth was still...not very able to care about all the problems he was unable to fix? He shredded the part of him that wanted to be able to steer, to shape the broader future of a world, because it was too dangerous for that to be a lever that Melkor could use. It seemed like it was a lot harder to rebuild than the parts of him that can be curious - which he was remarkably bad at suppressing - and even the ability to want good experiences and seek those out. 

These seems like very much not the ideal circumstances for Leareth to be trying to process all of that, on the path of putting himself back together. She feels, actually quite strongly, that he's not ready. But it is what it is. It's certainly not on her to tell him he can't or shouldn't. 

 

 

 

...She should probably explain something to their guests. 

:Dree, sorry, I - Leareth is upset because he can't help with the war and so our side is less likely to win and more people will die. I - he was used to being someone who could do something if a situation was bad. I'm going to try to calm him down but - I don't actually know if I can be reassuring, the situation is in fact very bad: 

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"- is this the sort of thing where it would help to find him something to do or something where purely emotional reassurance is the only way even if it's frustrating?" murmurs Dree.

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:I definitely think it'd be better if we can find him a distraction so he doesn't spend the next six hours stewing about this. He might not be very receptive right now, he's not really responding to me. - Oh, I should ask if he wants music, that's seemed like a helpful distraction before: 

To Leareth, :- should I put on the music on your laptop?: 

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It seems like that won't change anything about the situation, so how could it help. Also, answering would require Mindspeech, which is impossible. 

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:Leareth, I'm going to put on your music because I expect it won't make things worse and might help, I'll leave it up to you to tell me if you want me to stop it: 

She does this. 

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Idrial is slightly annoyed about this because he was having fun talking to Melody and now it will be harder to think but this is the kind of annoyance he runs into thirty times a day and usually for less good reasons so it's not a big deal.

Forgiver is still attempting to lick Leareth better.

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The music does not really result in Leareth being less upset, due to not changing the larger situation at all, but it's - maybe a little easier to think around the edges of it. 

:I should go to my room so I am not bothering you: he manages after a couple of minutes, including Dree as well. 

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:That's probably a good idea, just so that you can be more comfortable? I don't especially want to leave you alone right now, though: 

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:Forgiver would be there. I - you - were doing things -: 

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:I was having a conversation which isn't urgent on the scale of minutes or hours and I think we covered the key points already. But let's get you upstairs, and then we can figure out what makes sense from there: 

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The problem is that this plan requires moving, which Leareth is observing himself not doing. 

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:Leareth, is it all right if–: No, she shouldn't be asking him questions when he's this overwhelmed. :Leareth, I'm going to take your hand and help you get upstairs. Tell me if you don't want me to do that: And she moves very slowly and non-startlingly in his direction. 

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Leareth has no opinion one way or another on Melody doing this. There's no room for it to be a salient feature of the situation. He wants fifty things and they're all tangled together in his head - he wants Maitimo here he wants Vanyel to be safe he wants Haven to be intact he wants there not to be a war at all he wants to roll back everything that happened in the last decade and maybe everything that's happened in the last 1800 years but he can't want that because then he wouldn't have been there to steer Arda onto a less horrific path and that's important and there's a desperate tension there that he can't resolve - 

He is not really cooperating per se with being pulled to his feet, but he eventually does it as the path of least resistance. Hopefully Forgiver will follow him of her own accord because is incredibly not capable of saying words right now. 

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It takes a while and doesn't feel like the safest procedure, Leareth is definitely not looking where he's putting his feet, but Melody gets him up the stairs. 

:Dree, can you get his laptop for me: she Mindspeaks down. It's still on the sofa playing music, she didn't exactly have a free hand. 

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Forgiver keeps up, though uncertainly at a bit of a distance.

Dree brings up Leareth's laptop.

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The music being nearby again helps, a little. Weirdly, Dree being nearby or at least in the house helps as well? He doesn't want Melody to be alone. The situation is very bad for her as well - maybe worse, she knew people in Haven, they were her colleagues, her patients, her friends - 

Leareth eventually manages to make the hand sign to Forgiver to request blankets. 

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Forgiver is away like a shot! He will be BLANKETED.

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(Most of the blankets in the house are downstairs thanks to past blanket trips, but they're easily retrievable.) 

 

Being blanketed also does not fix the underlying awfulness of the situation but it helps with the problem where Leareth is finding it hard to breathe, which is a very stupid problem to be having at all so he's glad something is working. Maybe he will also be licked and snuggled? He thinks that would help as well but he can't manage to ask for it other than by sort of vaguely reaching out. 

Eventually he can at least shift back to crying silently, which is not any more comfortable but might bother people less. 

:You do not have to stay right here: he says to Melody. :....Please stay in the house though: 

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As though she would possibly consider leaving the house when Leareth is like this! 

:All right: she says, and goes back downstairs. She sits down at the kitchen table and puts her head in her hands. 

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"Do you want me to see if I can set up - respite care of some kind," says Dree, "or would it be necessary to share a language or have native telepathy or -?"

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:Don't know. He speaks the language some now?: Melody presses her hands more firmly against her closed eyes. :...Actually can you ask me in five minutes, I have to do some Mindhealing on myself because we really do not need both of us having a breakdown about this at the same time: 

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"- okay," says Dree.

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Melody is quiet and still for the next four minutes or so, and then sits up. She feels very numb and sort of like nothing in the room is real, she really shouldn't leave her head like this for too long, but at least she's no longer about to burst into tears. 

:Sorry, where were we? I'm not actually going to be very worried unless he's still this upset tonight, in which case I will be pretty worried and it would also be nice if you could find someone willing to be here overnight? It would be fine if they had to come get me, I would just feel more comfortable going to sleep at all if I knew someone would come get me, and I can cope with one day like this but probably not two especially if I haven't had any sleep: 

Her mindvoice is very crisp and level and sort of robotic. 

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"I can try to find a nighttime respite person," says Dree, looking worried. "The nightmare telepathy issue might make it harder but I can probably find someone..."

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:I can look up which of the sleeping drugs we trialed made him sleep for fourteen hours straight, seems less likely he would project then though obviously I can't be sure of that. I might be able to figure out how to stabilize a shield on someone else if I have all afternoon to practice? I think maybe some Heralds who aren't mages can do that: 

Melody is not having any thoughts or feelings about Heralds right now. 

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"I'll mention that, but it's not a guarantee..." Taptaptap her phone. "Also the kind of person who takes a job as night respite probably isn't awake yet, so whether this comes through won't be obvious till around dinnertime."

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:I understand. Thank you for trying:

She looks over at Idrial. Does a smile sort of motion with her face; it comes out as perhaps the least convincing smile seen in human history. :I'm sorry about the timing. I probably won't be very useful at having conversations right now because I did Mindhealing to myself so I would stop having emotions: Melody is also not particularly able to model whether that's a weird thing to say because she has no emotions about it. 

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"Is that... wise?"

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:I mean I'm not planning to leave it like that permanently. I can put it back to normal later: 

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"All right, you're the expert in your own - magical powers... Let me give you my email address and then I'll get out of your way, shall I?" says Idrial.

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:Thank you:

Melody gets the second loaner laptop. It's not especially set up yet, since it arrived at the same time as Idrial. She looks blankly at the screen, trying to figure out what to do about the problem where she knows how to find her email once it's set up but doesn't remember how to do the setup part. 

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Dree can help her while Idrial's writing down his email and letting himself out.

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Melody thanks her. :...You don't really have to stay if you'd rather not. I guess it feels safer having you easily reachable in case something else happens somehow but I'm not sure what thing would happen: 

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"I can sit here for the rest of the day if that would help you feel better."

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:All right. I'm going to go check on Leareth and see if he needs anything. Other than 'there not being a war in Velgarth with evil god's minions' which I can't help with: 

Melody goes upstairs. 

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Forgiver is doing her job as hard as she can!

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Leareth is not really any less distressed by the situation, but he's run out of stamina for crying. He's lying on his back, one arm on Forgiver's fur while she licks him, staring dully at the ceiling. 

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:Leareth. Can I get you some water or something?: 

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:No: He's busy. He's trying to think. It's very very hard, but it's also very very very very important, so he has to. 

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:Leareth, I'm going to look at you with Mindhealing Sight because I'm worried about you and I want to know how I can help: 

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:All right: 

His mind is - well, he's definitely doing something with it. The sketchily rewoven bits of scaffolding that he's slowly and effortfully rewoven over the past eighteen months have some new sections, that look recent. But still fragile, and he's putting a lot of weight on it now, and there - isn't, really, enough there to hold together. Leareth has clearly been flinging around attempts at reinforcement, but it's messy and not really reducing the strain.

More than anything else, it looks the way that Melody, having seen his mind after the incident where Maitimo was too upset to speak to him for days, can extrapolate that it might have looked during. 

Leareth is very effortfully trying to piece together words. 

:Can you help me figure out how to do things if they are important. I can do things if they are not important so I, I do not understand why it is not working–: 

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:In the long run, of course. In the short run - no, I think you need to stop trying to do that: 

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:I have to: 

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:No. You don't have to. You never have to do something that isn't going to work, and it - just look: She bounces her Sight to him. :You're - hurting yourself, by trying to do it in this order: 

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Frustration in Leareth's mindvoice. :What are you expecting me to do instead? Only do things which are not important?: 

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:No! I want you to recover and be okay and I think that's very important. I think that - trying to skip ahead to the part where you're already recovered enough to go personally win a war is not only not going to work, it's - probably going to make things worse and make it even harder. Can you please just trust me on that?: 

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Leareth feels like he's run out of ways to try to say in different words that it doesn't matter, he has to find a way where it works. It's incredibly frustrating. He feels like crying again but he's too tired. 

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This conversation is going nowhere and Melody should know what to say, to break out of this stupid impasse, but she doesn't. Mostly because it's hard to think about anything related to the war head-on, thanks to the blocks she put on herself, but if she undoes that it's not going to make things better because she will instead be crying. And, in hindsight, she...probably should have prioritized doing her own processing of the situation before this happened. There were times when Leareth was asleep. She should have asked Dree for respite care sooner so that she could get a handle on her own feelings before Leareth desperately needed her to be sane and reasonable and to know what to do to help. 

(All of this sort of feels like an observation that some disembodied presence which isn't exactly Melody is making.) 

 

:Leareth. I think I should put some temporary blocks on you, so you can calm down and feel less overwhelmed, and then we can talk about what makes sense. All right?: 

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:No: It's NOT all right and Leareth is looking at Melody with betrayal in his eyes, and something too resigned to be fear. :I– no. Please: If she does that then he won't be able to care about the important thing and he has to has to find a way to care enough that he can remember how to put together the part of him that's broken. 

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Gods. 

She can't think, but she doesn't need to have any original thoughts to notice exactly how bad it would be for Leareth's ability to trust her if she ignored that. 

 

Melody takes a deep breath, and lifts both hands, palms out. :Then I won't. Leareth, I'm never going to do Mindhealing to you that you don't agree to. I'm...going to go think about what I can do instead to help. Unless you don't want to be alone in which case I can stay: 

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Trying to hold a conversation is exhausting and it's not even productive. :You can go: 

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She probably shouldn't be leaving him alone right now, but at least he has his dog who will hopefully come alert them in some way if Leareth tries to do something stupid, and Melody REALLY CAN'T do this right now. 

She goes downstairs and starts making herself tea. Her hands are shaking for some reason, which is odd because she doesn't feel stressed. She doesn't feel anything in particular. 

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"- Melody, I'm worried you're going to spill, do you want me to make the tea for you -" says Dree.

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:Thank you: Melody steps away from the kettle. She...should probably try to explain to Dree but it's still very hard to even think about what's wrong and needs explaining, so she just picks up her squishy ball fidget toy from the kitchen table and squishes it while she paces back and forth across the kitchen. 

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Dree makes her tea and gives her a not very full cup of it.

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Melody thanks her again and sits down and sips the tea. It makes her feel slightly less like everything is very far away. 

:- Sorry, I should - explain. Leareth is - I don't know. Not listening to me. That hasn't come up before. I think he's - too upset to take in what I'm saying, but he doesn't want me to do anything that would help with that, so I'm sort of low on options here. - Separately I think I'm failing to think of obvious things because I blocked my emotions about the thing he's really upset about, but if I undo that I'm going to be sad about how most of my friends are probably dead and I do not see that being a useful addition to the situation. - Normally if I were this personally affected by something my patient needed I would call in another Mindhealer, I think I can't actually be professional, but in this case it's not like I can just leave: 

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"I mean, you can leave. You're not the one with nightmare telepathy," says Dree. "I don't know that we'll do as good a job with him as you, we don't have context or anything, but you shouldn't have to be on call twenty-four hours a day six days a week."

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:...Honestly I should probably try to give at least one person more of the context but I was worried before that it would just result in people being angry and then Leareth would be really scared: 

Melody is also not sure if that was a good idea to say, and it's probably incredibly confusing. 

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"- angry? With who?"

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:With Leareth. He - I - this is directly related to how he was someone who could end up in another world by accident and immediately notice they were about to have a war with an evil god and then play an instrumental role in winning it, but - he was planning a very ruthless operation in Velgarth and he's done a lot of things that most people would find morally objectionable: 

There she is just going to wait and see how Dree responds to that before digging herself any deeper into a hole, if hole-digging turns out to be the thing that's happening. 

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"- well, I could try to get someone with prison experience, I guess?"

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That sounds like they're not especially at risk of being KICKED OUT OF THEIR HOUSE over it? Probably? Melody is finding it hard to gauge how Dree is reacting because, surprise, it turns out that having a lot of her emotions blocked is bad for the ability to have normal social interactions. 

:If you can find someone with prison experience and experience with - very traumatized people - I can try to explain some background to them and then I think it seems like less of a disastrous plan for me to leave until I can get my head together and be professional again. ...Also it occurred to me that I could in theory try to convince Leareth to let me re-block the projective element of his Mindspeech, that would solve the nightmare telepathy issue, but it would also take away a lot of his ability to communicate so I think it's only worth it if you can't find anyone willing to risk a one in ten chance of getting hit with nightmare telepathy - probably that's high but I'm being pessimistic -: 

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"At this point I'm applying a lot of filters to the candidate pool but I'll see what I can do."

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:I understand: Sigh. :I'm going to fix the Mindhealing I did on myself and hopefully then I'll be able to think about this better. I'm going to try my best not to cry but if I do start crying it's not your fault and I don't need anything: 

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"Okay."

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Melody does this, slowly over about ten minutes, while watching shampoo advertisements again because they're soothing and distracting, fidgeting with her fidget toys and finishing her tea. 

She doesn't cry. She's - not less sad than she'd expected, exactly, but it's a duller sadness. She can put it alongside all the other pointless tragedies of the last two decades, and it's not all right and will never be all right but it's not less of a blight on the world than the pointless bloody waste of the Karsite war. 

She's - kind of scared. Of screwing this up, mainly; of explaining Leareth's past in a way that alienates all of their tentative allies on this planet, and then what are they supposed to do. It's not like they could leave even if they wanted to. 

She is really incredibly frustrated, which seems like the most urgent thing to troubleshoot. 

 

:Can I think out loud at you for a bit?: she checks with Dree. 

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:Um. I...think I'm going to be all right. About the - being sad that the city where all my former colleagues live got destroyed, and the war. I'm not there yet and it's going to be a lot easier to - get there - if I I'm not trying to sneakily do all my emotional processing in the same house where Leareth is and hoping he won't notice. Separately I think you're right and it's not sustainable for me to be on call all the time, and I'm doing worse by him because I don't have any off-time. For example, right now I'm actually kind of mad at him? Because - wow this sounds really stupid now that I try to say it - because he's picked right now to have a lot of feelings, and I'm tired and it's inconvenient for me. I realize he's not doing it at me, just...: 

Helpless shrug. :I definitely shouldn't try to interact with him until I'm either not mad or can really thoroughly hide it, the other day I slightly raised my voice at him about a minor thing and he spent the next ten minutes having a panic attack about it. Er, if you don't know what to say, probably the thing I want most right now is just for you to agree that it sounds frustrating and that I am trying very hard here?: 

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"If I were stuck in a foreign universe with a dependent nobody else was fully qualified to give me a break from that would be incredibly stressful!" nods Dree.

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:- Also this is even stupider and I'm embarrassed by how incredibly stupid it is, but I'm frustrated at him for not brushing his goddamned hair or being capable of taking a goddamned shower and then I feel like it makes me look bad when we have guests. ...I realize I could just be the grownup about it and help but he doesn't like being touched and he cooperates but looks miserable about it the whole time and I realize that 'it makes it unpleasant for me' is really not the biggest problem with that but it does: 

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"Why is his hair still long if he has trouble keeping it brushed?"

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:...Quendi cultural thing, mostly? They are extremely weird about hair - it's, like, a sex thing? I have never learned all the details because getting them to talk about straightforwardly is like getting twelve-year-old boys to talk about sex - but anyway they find short hair distressing, it would stand out a lot, and Leareth - kind of went native with it. Also he was fine with Vanyel helping, just not me, probably partly because I separately feel weird about it for me-related reasons and he can tell - but Vanyel's not here. I really really badly wish Vanyel were here instead of fighting a goddamned war: 

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"...I could probably find a person with a monkey trained to do hairdressing who would make a house call. With enough looking."

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:He'd probably do fine with it himself with prompting at the right times? Which I should theoretically be capable of doing but my routine is all thrown off and apparently it makes me incapable of reliably remembering to do anything on a schedule. I swear I'm normally better at that kind of thing: 

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"I believe you, routine's really load-bearing for a lot of people. And being in familiar circumstances."

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:I hadn't really expected it because I was fine when I ran off to Arda on literally two minutes' notice because Vanyel stepped through a Gate and said it was important. In hindsight a lot of that was because the King's eldest son is some sort of superhuman genius at paying attention to everyone's needs and making sure everything social goes perfectly smoothly all the time. Vanyel was the happiest I'd ever seen him when I got there, and that was despite the fact that they'd spent the last six months having a war! Also Leareth would accept hugs from him for some reason that I still cannot really fathom: 

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"Unfortunately I don't think we have one of those."

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:...Mmm. I'm not sure anywhere does. He's one of the most impressive people I've ever met, on the things he's good at: She ducks her head, stares hard down at her hands. :I really hope he's all right. Really hope they all are. I hate not knowing: 

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Sigh. :I'm kind of stressed about having to explain the relevant context on Leareth's life to someone, and - I realize it's stupid to be embarrassed about it but I sort of am. And maybe a tiny bit worried that it'll - result in all of you being less willing to help us, just because...I mean, we're showing up and making our bizarre complicated problem your problem, I think you've been going really above and beyond even just given that: 

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"- you're the only aliens we have. And if you start requiring something new and weird on the level of a monkey hairdresser every week it'll add up but a rental cottage and some outfits and an inflatable bathtub is pretty crumbs-and-smears compared to the government's budget."

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Nod. :I hope we can make it worth your while. - On the bright side, if I can get some Leareth coverage, I would at this point be utterly delighted to go spend eight candlemarks a day treating patients with a wide range of normal problems which are in no way related to my friends being dead. ...Feels kind of silly to say I'm bored but I am, a little, I do better with more variety than this: 

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"I will see if I can figure out how to make that happen!"

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Nod. :I should go explain the plan to Leareth. And take his dog out in the backyard. And then if you don’t mind, while you’re here I would really like the opportunity to take a shower:

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One week later, Melody is out on her day off in a shopping complex with Kelta, who feels that it's hard to truly appreciate the wealth of the world without shopping in person even if in principle browsing Malldiamond is just as impressive. Leareth is back at the rental house with Dree, and their respite worker will be there in the evening to swap in.

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Dree is a heroic person and you know what is amazing: LEAVING her HOUSE! And being a different place that is not her house! And is much more interesting!

(Today is hopefully not going to be too stressful for Dree; Leareth wasn't having a good day when she headed out, exactly, but it was mostly the kind of bad day where it's hard to convince him to do any things, and he bathed yesterday, it's not the end of the world if today he doesn't succeed at getting out of bed.) 

She is, overall, feeling a lot more positive about things. Not about Leareth's wellbeing specifically, she's still worried - he's been incredibly up and down depending on the day - but she's made a start on carving out some structure and routine, Forgiver is now trained to bring Leareth packaged snacks if he misses a meal, and both of them are growingly fluent in Kayshu - Leareth continuing to pull ahead of her on reading and writing, and Melody still has a slight edge for speaking comfortably but he's catching up. She's been reading all sorts of articles and studies about therapy and pharmaceuticals and has sent emails to some researchers who had interesting studies on the pre-registration site. Leareth was functional enough to do programming three days out of the past week, which is always a sign that Melody will have a pleasant and mostly-peaceful day. She's even convinced him to let her do some Mindhealing work with him to help with things like frustration tolerance. 

They have not actually told the respite worker Dree found about Leareth's horrifying backstory, yet, although Melody did reluctantly explain some of the key facts about Angband. Leareth was very stressed when she floated the plan with him, and it's not great that she's still the only one with huge swathes of context - what if she gets hit by a car or something on a day out - but it's not an emergency. Mainly she just gave the respite worker her standard script for re-orienting a Leareth who has just woken up distressed and confused, and then she stays at the house just in case she's needed but puts earplugs in to sleep. So far she hasn't been disturbed at all on her nights "off". Leareth hasn't been projecting accidentally at all since they found a good sleeping drugs regimen; he does wake up screaming like a banshee at least once most nights, but apparently earplugs plus the official license to consider it Not Her Problem is enough that Melody basically sleeps through it, or at least falls back to sleep fast enough not to remember it in the morning. 

She's discovered STIMULANTS that WORK REALLY WELL. Also she has a nice day planner that she bought online.

She tells Kelta that she's interested in looking at other organizational aids if there's a store here that sells them, but mostly she's staring around in awe. 

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The mall has a store called Desk Yay, which is for things that might go on or around desks and provoke yay; it's a very alluring display of crisp notebooks and fifty kinds of folder in five hundred colors and desktop fidgets and shelf-drawer-things and lamps and pens and device accessories and attractively encased power strips and more.

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That's a really adorable concept for a store! Melody can't imagine it existing in Velgarth. She can imagine some of the things being sold existing in Arda, but Quendi don't do mass-produced goods so much. 

"What does you even do with five hundred folder colors?" Melody asks Kelta, as usual practicing by speaking out loud; she's only a little hesitant at this point, and she's been training herself to try to reduce the accent. 

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"You find your favorite one!" says Kelta. "Or your favorite thirty and then you color-code what you put in them."

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"Okay, I getting it!" She shakes her head a little. "No, getting - them? Some? And color-code Leareth's notes." What oh what are the color options here...? 

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"You want 'okay, I'm getting some!'"

There are lots of kinds of folders, structurally speaking - number and type of flaps and whether they have holes in them for insertion into certain hole-based organizational structures and what they're made of and how big they are. Once she's settled on a kind, it has basically every solid color she could think of, two-tone gradients between most pairs of them, and also:

- rainbow (tie dye)
- rainbow (ombre stripes)
- rainbow (pastel) (tie dye)
- rainbow (pastel) (ombre stripes)
- fourteen different ones intended to look like various kinds of rock
- another five that are trying to look like metals
- six kinds of pretend wood
- peacock feathers
- seven variations on "butterflies"
- three variations on "sheet music"
- 28 different photos of landscapes, spacescapes, seascapes, cloudscapes, etc.
- four attempting to imitate various fabrics
- three that're trying to look like leather (in buckskin, black, and brown)
- 15 plant motif closeups
- and a few dozen more - geometric, marbled, heathered, splattered, star-shapes, scribbles, brush-strokes, ones that look embossed or carved or inlaid or tooled or lacy or iridescent...
- AND you can also buy a voucher for a custom printed one to be redeemed online, recommended if you're buying gifts and the giftee's favorite isn't here.

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This is a much better shopping experience than it would be online! Melody can pick the folders up and turn them in the light and hold them up next to each other to see how visually distinct they are. 

She is pretty sure Leareth would only get the starscape ones if he were shopping for them himself, but they're similar enough to be easy to confuse with each other, and also he is NOT the one shopping, Melody is and she has that power! 

He can get one in rainbow tie-dye and one with butterflies and one that looks like a very sparkly rock and one that's metallic gold and a couple of gorgeous sunsetscape photos, one over sea and one over rolling meadows and the iridescent one.

And he can have ONE spacescape photo, the prettiest of them. It's going to be empty for now, because Melody wants to save it for once they're ready to start piecing back together the 'core memory' that he corrupted on purpose, and still isn't really able or willing to talk about. But she's pretty sure stars are involved. 

"These for Leareth?" She shows Kelta. "Do you think he– he'll like?" 

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"Does he like butterflies? Some people don't like them because they're bugs."

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"There have– no, there are, butterflies on the island we lived in Arda? I think he like, no, likes them. I know he likes sunsets. We were there when the first sunrise ever in Arda." 

Melody is at the stage of language-learning where she has little redirects in place for nearly all of her initial common grammatical errors, but they tend to kick in a fraction of a second after she says the ungrammatical version, so she's doing a lot of backing up and redoing her sentences. She actually has no idea if Leareth is bothered by other bugs? It's hard to imagine. If he is then it's almost certainly Melkor's fault but surely Melkor can't have gotten around to everything even with the stupid time dilation effect. 

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"Then it looks like a - well, it doesn't cohere, but if the goal is to be easily able to tell them apart I think you're set."

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"Easy to tell apart is what I want! And - cheerful? If he picking them they would be all dark and not cheerful." 

She is now perusing the sheet music theme. "- Maybe I get this for Vanyel? If I see him again, it be– no, it could be a surprise." 

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"Would he recognize it? I suppose he might learn to, if he likes music and wants to pick up ours."

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"Ours is - not the same but this look more like it than like writing? I think yours is better. Also this one have a picture of a lute. So a hint." It's not a picture exactly, so much a a sort of stenciled-in outline in pastel blue against the off-white background, with the music notes overtop. Melody thinks it's quite well done. 

She glances around. "Maybe I get one for me? But there are so many. Which one your favorite?" 

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"Of these? I guess the iridescent one, but if I were in the market for a folder I'd probably just go online and get them custom with birds on them."

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Melody grins. "I would maybe get it custom with a picture of a shampoo ad! They are very pretty. But if Quendi ever see it they would be -" she does not know that word, and switches briefly to Mindspeech, :- scandalized?:  "How do you say that?" 

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"Scandalized. Your fascination with shampoo commercials is really funny - I bet you could get bubbles, though."

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"Oh! I like that. - I like all your commercials, they are - interesting? And pretty. And short, so not so bad if interrupted."

SOMEDAY it will be less the case that looking after Leareth is like caring for a toddler. She's still managing to make it through TV shows - she's found a different therapy one that's more interesting and that Internet reviews claim is 'reasonably' accurate - but it takes much longer, she has a habit of pausing it to deal with something and then forgetting she was in the middle of it. 

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"Well, if you like them I'm glad they're there for you to enjoy." Ooh pencils made from naturalistic looking twigs.

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Melody doesn't think she wants pencils that look like twigs, she would forget they were pencils! She will examine lamps. Maybe she can get Leareth a cute little lamp to go beside his bed, so he can reach it without moving very far. Ideally not one that's breakable. Bonus points if the switch can be operated by a dog, then they can train Forgiver to turn it on if Leareth is upset in the middle of the night; it's one of the gentler ways to wake him from a nightmare if he's not quite managing it on his own. 

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There are ones with rocker switches or pushbuttons that a dog could operate, yup.

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Neat! Anything particularly stars-themed, or else vaguely reminiscent of Quendi crafts or architecture? 

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This one lets you fiddle with it so instead of being a lamp it projects a simple starscape onto the wall or ceiling! That one looks like a daffodil! This one can clamp onto a vertical piece of furniture and gooseneck about and it has a gold and a silver and a copper three-bulb situation!

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Okay that is one of the coolest things she has ever seen in her entire life, Melody is ABSOLUTELY getting Leareth a lamp that projects a starscape onto his ceiling! 

She eagerly shows it to Kelta. "This is amazing! Your world have so many things people make! How do people have time to make this, just - one lamp out of tens of lamps - and that only in this store?" 

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"- well, I'm pretty sure that's mass-produced? It doesn't look fancy enough to be handmade, I doubt anything in this store is completely handmade, there are probably several thousand of them scattered around in warehouses and shops all over the continent."

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"Right, I - said wrong word. I mean - the person who drew it that way? So it would be produced? Like– oh. Forgot the word for - people who draw houses and then other people build?" 

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"Oh, the designer. Or architect if it's buildings. Well, that part's fun, right? Some people really like coming up with ways lamps could be."

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"I guess!" 

Melody is going to look at desk ornaments even though, does she really need an ornament that doesn't do anything in particular, no she does not. But they're pretty. 

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Tiny globes and orreries. Magnetic desk toys. Sculptures. Itsy bitsy fountains. Bonsais, mostly fake but also one real lilac.

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Tiny fountain! Melody absolutely wants a tiny fountain! She can put it in her bedroom where Forgiver definitely won't get at it. 

"You probably stop me before I buy many things I don't need," she says to Kelta. 

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"Well, stop at one fountain, but you can have a fountain," Kelta laughs.

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"I will stop at one fountain! ...And not buy twenty other things for Leareth. I want to but - more stuff probably won't make him less sad." 

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"Probably not. You can always come back next week if you're still itching to get something in particular then."

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Grin. "Good! I get the fountain and nothing else but I can still look! Are there clothes you try on even if you don't buy them?" 

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"Sure! Sometimes I try something on and I look at the price tag and then have to pretend I never saw it!"

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Melody giggles. "I keep that in mind! Let's go try on clothes?" 

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There are a lot of clothes available. They all come in lots of colors and they're almost all ludicrously soft.

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In Melody's opinion, half of the point of trying on clothes that you don't intend to buy is to take the opportunity to try things that are completely ridiculous. If they look terrible on her then at least she'll have learned something! So: what are the most over-the-top brightly colored or fancy clothes that she can find? 

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Would she like fluffy ruffly rainbow tie-dye everything? If she would, Kelta will take pictures!

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She will try on the fluffy ruffly rainbow tie-dye! "But if it looks silly you can't show anyone!" 

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"That's totally fair!" promises Kelta.