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Eventually Annie goes home for the day. Her mother lives a long but doable walk from campus, but Annie makes the trip by tricycle for speed and safety, or bus when the ice is too bad to allow riding. This is a trike day.

She tells her mother as straightforwardly as she can what has happened.

Her mother wants to meet the boy, but accepts that this should probably wait until the situation with Zevaia changes one way or another.

A few hours after Annie gets home, she gets a call from the Dean's office. There are results in; she can go hear them at the office. Apparently they're not supposed to release them over the phone for some obscure reason of policy.

Coat goes back on Annie, Annie goes back on trike, trike goes back on campus.
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Aldaras is already there and waiting. He's trying not to pace. Again. He's outside of the Dean's office, and he smiles a little when he sees Annie.

"Hey."
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"Hi. Did they tell you anything?"

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"Not over the phone. I've been waiting for you, so I didn't get guilt tripped. Because this is obviously important information."

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"Wow, I didn't even think of that - that applies even if I'm on my way?"

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He nods. "If I'm not making the best effort I can to tell you - yup."

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"So basically you'd have to go running flat-out hoping to catch me a minute sooner. Artifacts. Dang." She shakes her head and goes inside with him.

The receptionist recognizes them when they enter. "Aldaras, Annabelline, hello. The Dean's looked over the necklace - I'm afraid we don't know yet if it will restore someone who is already cut. What we do know now is that it does not choose people at random - it uses some compatibility measure. The details were too fuzzy to produce anything more about that."

"That's all?" asks Annie.

"I'm afraid it's a very time-consuming process. If you've learned anything more about the effects yourselves he'll be able to skip to more useful information sooner."
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"... We should get me within ten feet of a mindreader. It obviously blocks the knife, I'm wondering if it blocks people from hearing my head, too."

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"How miserable are you going to be if I decline to be anywhere near the mindreader when you find that out?"
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"Depends, are you going to be in the same room so I can immediately tell you, while you're still outside of the mindreader's range? Because that would work fine."

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"They make me nervous enough that I'd rather be farther away than that if you aren't going to be guilt-tripped about it."

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"Okay." His voice softens, a little. "Then you don't have to be there, I just need to know where you'll be so I can tell you."

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"I could wait by a phone."

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"Do you want to be in an entirely different building from the mindreader?"

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"For preference, yes. I know the safe radius, there's just a part of my brain that's always afraid they'll chase me and I can't really run."

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"You can be in an entirely different building," he says, soothingly.

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"Your apartment's closer than my house, I could park there," she suggests.

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"Sure. And I know my own phone number and it'll take a bit to get a mindreader - somewhere anyway."

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"Sure. Do you want to walk me there or do you have a spare key so I can trike over myself?"

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Aldaras searches through his pockets, and produces a spare key. Annie-ward, it goes. If she wanted to steal from him, he's pretty sure she's got an easier method already. Considering the circumstances.

"No throwing parties while I'm gone," he deadpans.
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"There go all my plans," she smirks, and she pockets the key and trikes off to his place.

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There it is, his place! The apartment is in the same condition it was before.

If she wants, she can probably snoop a bit.
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She doesn't go snooping, just flops onto the nearest thing-to-sit-on to the phone and pulls out her book.

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And soon enough:

Ring, ring.
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She picks up. "Salutations."

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"Completely immune to mind-reading. Also, salutations."

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"That," she says, "is a nice artifact effect."

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"Yes, yes it is."

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"Any other experiments that don't have to wait on the Dean waking up tomorrow? Should I go home?"

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"We're also going to see if I can see through invisibility, but none of the others are really testable with such a defensive artifact."

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"Do you want me to wait for the invisible person to show up, or will that take a while?"

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"It'll probably take a while, they're less on-hand than the mindreader was. They're actually a bit freaked out about my immunity to the mindreader, too, it's kind of funny."

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"I hope they aren't going to do anything unfortunate just because they can't keep mental tabs on you."

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"No. I'm putting out an ad for volunteers that want to take care of the knife, they legally have no grounds to confiscate the necklace. And there's not much else they can do with me."

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"Okay. I'll just go home then unless there's a reason for me to stick around. I'll leave my phone number by your phone for you in case you wake up in the middle of the night and have to tell me something."

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"Sure. Thank you, Annie. You're a delight."

He sounds like he's got the affectionate, lovey look in his eyes again. Just from his voice.
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"You're welcome. See you next time the Dean has news to dispense."

And she hangs up the phone and scribbles down her number - and goes and trikes home.
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A few hours later, there's a call at her home phone.

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Since Annie is in the shower, someone else picks up.

"Salutations."
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"Salutations. Is Annie there? There is a thing I need to tell her."

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"You must be Aldaras. She's in the shower - is it important enough that I should barge in? I don't know how this works..."

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"I am! We can probably manage you yelling it. Yell that I don't see invisible people, please?"

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"All right. Annie! Aldaras says he doesn't see invisible people!" Pause. "I think I heard her say 'okay'."

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"Mmm. Tentative pass. I'll try not to think about it too much. Anyway, sorry about that. Artifacts do strange things."

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"I'll make sure she heard when she comes out, anyway. Call back if you need to."

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"Thank you very much, ma'am."

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"Call me Rinty, dear."

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"Sure. You're Annie's mom, I take it?"

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"That's right!"

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"It's nice to - well, this isn't exactly meeting you, but talk to you."

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"Likewise, I'm sure. Annie had nice things to say about you."

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"... Did she?"

He sounds delighted by this fact. Not fishing for compliments, just - genuinely happy that Annie has nice things to say about him.
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"She did! Not terribly detailed things, but nice ones."

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"Aww. I'm flattered, I hope I live up to them."

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"Annie's sharp as a tack, I think she has your number."

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"She is," he agrees, "pretty wonderful."

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"Are you likely to be visiting her here at all? Should I be taking note of your food preferences?"

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"If she wants me to?"

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"Well, just in case, then - allergies, aversions?"

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"None, I'm pretty easy to cook for."

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"How convenient."

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"I try. If all else fails and it turns out to be unfavorably comparable to charcoal, I can always just cook something for myself later."

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"My cooking has never been compared to charcoal before."

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"See, there you are, we'll get along just fine."

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"Certainly more convenient than the alte- Annie! Did you hear what I shouted?"

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"Yeah, can't see invisible people, I'm informed," Annie confirms.

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"Oh, good."

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"You were okay in the interval?" She appears to have claimed the phone from her mother.

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"Yup, perfectly fine."

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"Cool. Anything else?"

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"Nothing that comes to mind! Thank you."

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"You're welcome - oh, um. If my mother hadn't been home when you'd called would it have been a disaster?"

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"Not a disaster, but I would have probably found a few creative ways to make sure that you would get the message eventually."

And then wait for her to call back while he was writhing in guilt because he didn't get up and try to find her house and tell her himself. Details.
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"Maybe in the future you should call me before you learn things? And make sure I'll be around to hear them after you have learned them."

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"Yeah, I - really should have. Sorry."

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"I'm not the one who would've suffered for it. Please don't hurt yourself."

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"I'll try. I'd rather not - constantly interrupt your life, though."

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"Well - yeah, and I appreciate that, it would be pretty inconvenient if I couldn't take showers unless Rinty was by the phone, but I do not want to torture you to avoid experiencing an extra phone call."

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"Realistically it will probably happen at some point in time, eventually. You - understand that you're not responsible for the artifact induced guilt, right? You're not torturing me, if I choose to go through it instead of doing the most efficient thing to tell you whatever the information or secret is, that's on me."
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"I know I'm not torturing you, but - I don't want you to be tortured. I would like there to be very few obstacles between you and avoiding torture."

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"Thanks. It's all right, though, I'm pretty good at managing it."

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"Are you doing that stoicism thing?"

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"... A little?"

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"Please don't overdo that. Torture: bad. I do not approve of it."

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"Thanks, but - I think I have a bit more of a cavalier attitude about it than you do? I knew what I was getting into when I signed up. I don't want to constantly interrupt the lives of those around me."

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"It's not constant if you call me twice instead of once to make sure I'm not in the shower."

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"I know. This particular example isn't - the right one, you're absolutely right, I should have called first."

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"Okay. I mean - don't steal somebody's car to break traffic laws on the way to my house to tell me things if I don't answer the phone, but - take reasonable precautions and please don't be afraid to talk to me."

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"Agreed."

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"Anyway, I'm going to bed. Please try not to learn important secrets overnight."

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He snorts. "I'll do my best. Good night, Annie."

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"G'night, Aldaras."



The next morning Annie has classes all day. Hopefully Aldaras will be able to wait on learning the Dean's snippet of information for the day and it won't turn out to be time-critical details about saving his sister. She trikes to school and attends Literature Survey, World History (she eats her bag lunch during this one), Statistics, and Jaillais.
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Aldaras doesn't have any classes - he's still technically on break for his tracking expedition. There's - really nothing to do. He paces. He worries about his sister. He gets a call from the Dean's assistants saying that the Dean's discovered new things about his necklace. Because of his tracker status, they won't be telling him until his earliest convenience, for obvious reasons. He checks on where Annie is - class. The answer is class. He can't go learn new information without her easily accessible. There are curse words for this sort of thing, but he is polite enough to not say them over the phone.

He thanks the caller and hangs up, and then he paces some more. When he inevitably gets bored of that, he sits down and writes a letter. To Zevaia. She's unlikely to ever read it, but if he happens to die while still managing to free her, it's good to have a contingency. It's rewritten four times and then finally scrapped entirely. He doesn't know what to say, except for, 'I'm sorry, I'll do everything I can to save you.'

The apartment is getting tiresome, so he goes outside to check on the ad. There aren't any takers yet. He'll probably need to get something signed from the Dean himself for people to believe his assurances about an artifact that protects against the knife's mind control. Aldaras jots down some ideas for improving the ad, but without more information he can't really get people to jump on board with touching a strange artifact. Not yet, anyway. To mix it up a little, he does some more pacing. He realizes hours late that he's hungry, and has a light lunch, just a sandwich. He's not that hungry.

His only other option is brooding about Annie. He'd prefer not to, he's already put her in a precarious enough position and if he dwells on her too much he's bound to do something he'll regret. He decides that he's sick of waiting for her to be out of class, sick of being so completely bereft of projects. Sick of having nothing to do while his sister's slowly dying, while he tries desperately to not overstep bounds with the woman he accidentally fell in love with. Quite calmly, he decides to do something stupid. He'll be systematic and orderly about it, but it's still stupid.

He finds out which class Annie is in. Then he goes to the Dean's office, and he asks them very nicely for the information they've found out about his necklace.
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No one at the Dean's office is likely to imagine that he would be this stupid.

"The Dean has found that it will tend inevitably towards reciprocal relationships - for example, if Annie touches it, at least while you're still alive, her object of affection will be you and not anyone else."
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This is not the information that Aldaras wanted.

His first reaction is not thinking of how Annie really genuinely deserves to know this information, but: "... Is there any way you can steer it towards whether it can fix the cut or not? Please?"
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"We can ask him, but except for him being able not to retread ground he doesn't have perfect fine control over what he learns. I'm sorry."

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"Thanks, anyway," he sighs. "I need to go, for obvious reasons."

He waves, and turns to exit the office.

Annie is still in class. Aldaras - genuinely doesn't want to interrupt. Not because he was stupid and impatient. He finds out where exactly her class is - briskly as is possible, to assuage the impending guilt. And then, quite deliberately, he sits outside instead of barging in.

He is a terrible person he should be telling her this information right this second-

(No, he shouldn't, it's not important enough to actually interrupt her over.)

She needs to know right now, right now, why is he so callous, he can go fix it and she can know things that are important, and this is very important-

(It is important. He's not denying it. But he was the idiot that learned about it on purpose before her class was over. She had nothing to do with it, she shouldn't have her life interrupted over it.)

He is an abomination upon the world.

(He sits. He stays sitting, head buried in his hands. He focuses on breathing. Breathing is good. Breathing is a thing he needs to keep doing while his artifact's effect is currently waging war on his head.)
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The door opens!

It's not Annie; it's one of her classmates nipping out to go to the bathroom. He looks quizzically at Aldaras but doesn't address him.
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Aldaras doesn't notice him. He's kind of busy right now.

It's amazing, how horrible guilt can feel. So bad that he'd almost want to do anything to make it stop. Except he wants to be better than that, better than some idiot animal ruled by emotions that aren't even his.

Quite frankly, fuck the guilt, he has made up his mind and he is sticking to it.
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About twenty minutes later, the class actually lets out.

Annie's in a knot of other students and doesn't spot him right away.
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He doesn't spot her either. Guilt, guilt, guilt. (Screw the guilt, screw the torture, he is responsible for his own actions, this is his fault. He knew what he was getting into and he has made up his mind.)

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"Hey, mister, you okay?" asks someone, and then Annie looks.

A moment later she's on her knees next to Aldaras. "What - what - just tell me, get it over with, it can't be that bad - is it too private to say in front of people, do we need to go somewhere else?"
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Oh. Annie's here. Okay then, he's - proud of himself, he guesses. (Ow.)

"S'fine. The necklace's effect," he says tightly, "is reciprocal if touched by the - object of affection. As in, it's symmetrical."

And then the crushing guilt and urge to die are gone, and he has room to do more than breathe.
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"Why did they tell you that?"
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"Because, I was going stir-crazy and asked them to tell me."

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"And they didn't think you'd be this st- - how long have you been sitting here?"

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"I have," he laughs, "no idea."

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"Why ask them, why didn't you just read a book or - or audit a lecture or bake cookies or something to pass the time - or realize that you'd been an idiot and lean into the classroom so I could pop out for the fifteen seconds it would take to tell me - or otherwise do something that didn't involve parking outside my Jaillais class and being miserable? I didn't even know you were there! Are you trying to make me feel like I need to follow you around twenty-four hours a day lest you hurt yourself?"

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"No. I'm - nothing I could do would have been productive. I'm not usually this stupid, but my sister's slowly dying. And I have nothing productive to do to solve this problem. I'm waiting on the Dean."

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"If you can't be productive the least you can do is not be destructive."

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"I'm not being destructive towards anyone else," he points out.

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"Oh, I look happy and carefree to you?" Annie snaps.

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"No," he sighs. "I'm sorry."
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Annie sighs and sits on the floor, thunking her head against the wall softly.

"Don't. Okay?"
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"Okay."

Is that actual guilt? That isn't influenced by a magical artifact? Yes. Yes it is.

"... I won't do it again."
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"Thank you. Believe it or not, being the only person who can help you with the secrecy safety valve for your crippling artifact-induced emotional issues imbues in me a sense of responsibility and I do not like it when my attempts to be responsible are thwarted. Stupidly."

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Aldaras sighs. "I can understand that. Sorry."

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She sighs.

"Is there anything else I should know?"
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"... I'm an idiot occasionally?"

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"I figured that one out without help."

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"Yeah," he sighs.

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"I'm inclined to ask you if you want a hug but I'm concerned that what with the necklace being operative this will cause you to self-harm so you look sad and huggable again in the future."
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Aldaras stares at her.

"What in the world would possess me to do that?!"
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"An hour ago I didn't imagine anything would possess you to go to the Dean's office for important necklace information when I was in class and then decline to interrupt me," she points out.

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"That's - because I decided that suffering from guilt for an hour was better than spending one more minute in my room trying not to freak out about - things. Not me deciding to emotionally manipulate you for my own selfish desires."

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"Do you want a hug?"
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"If you want to genuinely give me one out of more than just responsibility," he eventually decides.
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"I don't think 'you look all sad and huggable' is a responsibility thing," she says, and she holds out her arms.

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He hugs her, gently. There is a teensy bit of clinging, involved, but he is still quite gentle.

"Sorry for accidentally dragging you into this mess," sighs Aldaras.
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Hug. Pat pat.

"I'll be fine."
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"I'm sorry, regardless."

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Pat pat.

She lets him go and hauls herself to her feet, faltering a little but catching herself on the wall.
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He looks up at her, worried about the faltering.

"Are you all right?"
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"Yes? Do I not look it?"

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"- You stumbled a bit there."

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"Oh. I'm really, really klutzy. That's all."

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Aldaras nods, trying to disguise - vague worry.

"Okay," he says, standing. "Well. Now that this - wonderful drama is completed..."
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"I don't think there's anything else, is there? I'm just going to go home and do homework. I'll answer the phone if you need me. Call if you need me, okay?"

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"I will." He hesitates, and then says carefully, "... I'm sort of wondering about your reaction to the new information about the necklace. If you don't want to tell me, though, that is entirely fine."

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"I'd need to think about it more to go into much detail about how I feel about it - but it's better news than its opposite would be because it means I can evaluate a specific possible - necklace-target - instead of gambling."
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"Fair," he agrees. Aldaras hesitates again, and then fixes her with a very serious, sort of intense look. "If you're worried - even with this information I will never try to force or manipulate you into touching the necklace. Actually, quite frankly I think I'd rather die." Pause. "I don't want to die. If you're wondering."

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"That's because you object to coercion, not because the idea of me touching the necklace regardless of why I might do it is abhorrent, right?"

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He smiles, slightly. "Correct."

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"How would you feel about me touching the necklace because I happened to feel like it?" she inquires.

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"I'd have to know why, to properly voice my feelings of it. But at the baseline of not knowing your reasons - glad you were safe from the mind-reading you hate and the knife that's nightmares incarnate. Worried about the why, I'd be hoping you thought it through. Concerned about the moral implications of - any sort of relationship, because in this situation you didn't get to talk to me about it before the love thing." He trails off, and then a stab of guilt tells him he's not saying everything.

He grimaces at the guilt, and then sighs, "Also - to my shame, happy. Because then you'd - feel the same way about me."

Aldaras looks genuinely upset with himself about this fact.
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"Unless I feel the knife calling and there's nothing for it but to touch the necklace and it's right there, I would probably only do it unless I was already in love with you, and I haven't even determined if that would hypothetically be ethical, yet, let alone actually done it."
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"Oh." There's a little faint smile on his face. "That - makes me feel much better about the entire affair. I don't know if I can comment on if it's ethical or not - I certainly wouldn't mind."

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"What's not clear is what you'd think about it from a - more clear-headed perspective. Come on, let's not stand around in the hall, if we're going to have this conversation we might as well go to your place."

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"Sure," he agrees. "And - it's completely fine for you to ask whatever questions about this topic without compromising my privacy. I'm fine with talking about this."

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"Okay, but - the fact that you have to tell me that is - a thing. There is no balanced way to maintain information flow, it's either me pretending as hard as I can to be uncurious and waiting for you to spontaneously volunteer things, or me seizing control of what you tell me almost entirely. I mean, yes, demonstrably you can sit in the hall not opening the door for stupidly long periods of time, but I doubt you could do that forever. You are in general spectacularly vulnerable," she says. "I mean, that creative writing teacher who was fired amid scandal and the gnashing of teeth last year, for sleeping with a student? The only power imbalance was that he could have screwed with her grades in one class."

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"I am," he sighs, "rather spectacularly vulnerable. I don't know how to even that out. I'm fairly certain that if necessary I can run to the hills and play brokenhearted hermit, if that helps."

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"I mean - I don't want you to have to do that, that does not qualify as a good outcome."

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Another little smile. "I don't think it's a good outcome, either, but the fact that it exists is - somewhat nice? I am probably not ever going to get my head back to where it was, but I'm certainly not entirely in your power." Pause. "Also, I trust you. You're not going to abuse it."
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"I'm not going to try to, but I've already screwed up a few times asking questions I didn't really want to force you to answer and not noticing before I'd obviously started to ask a question." She shakes her head. "Even if I got to be perfect at walking the tightrope - I mean, what if we dated and then for whatever reason it wasn't working for me - would breaking up be worse than just never starting?"

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"I'm - not sure. My guess is yes and no. I would have a specific reason for being unhappy, but I would knw why it didn't work out for - whatever reason. And that's preferable, I think. It's - with my dad we got to the point where I was genuinely fine answering any question he'd ask, the same's probably going to be true with you, I just need time to get used to you."

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"And how does - investigating that avenue compare with the possibility that there's some other artifact that can un-touch you?"

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"I think that searching for an artifact that can manage that would waste valuable time and - genuinely not be worth the effort and the side-effect that would go along with it. Maybe I'd be proven wrong, maybe we'll find something that can manage it, but it's - I think I'd prefer trying the other avenue over working for ages just to rearrange my head again."

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"And - the necklace itself is the most promising avenue for undoing mental effects, anyway - okay," sighs Annie. "So - I don't need to squish any attempts my brain makes to develop a crush on you? Is I think the conclusion?"

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"You don't," he agrees. "... How would you squish attempts to develop a crush on me?"

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"Paying attention, mostly. I do a fair amount of conscious management of my thoughts."

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"Oh. That's - useful and also kind of impressive."

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"It is useful! Most people just think it's weird."

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"I categorize things into numbers and make extremely complex algorithms to sort my opinions of people and how useful they are," he shrugs. "The only thing that worries me about policing your own thoughts is - accidentally changing who you are. And I like who you are now, you changing that would be distressing."

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"Ceasing to have the ability to change who I am would be a bigger change than any I'm likely to make," she remarks. "It wouldn't happen accidentally, anyway. How does the math version work?"

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"Well, for one, I can't change my head," he says. "But I'm pretty good at weighing how important I consider things, and - organizing the results of that. Into number forms so they're easy to compare to one another - I spend ages calculating how important something is to me, get the number from that, and then I compare that to other things on the same scale."

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"What's the scale like?"

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"In what way? Do you mean in - what's my range on the scale, what makes up my method for figuring it out...?"

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"Both."

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"Hmmm... Absolute highest single number was a sixty-seven point three. It's for making the knife go away. The average person tends to rate a seven. It becomes harder and harder to get higher numbers as you get up the scale. I weigh things I find important and how important it is that they be attended to or not, or - how much they matter to me. One point is how much I care about a person who has zero personal qualities aside from being sentient. Er - you also broke my scale, I have no idea how to even begin at figuring out what number you are."

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"Is the rest of it still functioning even with me leaning on it like that?"

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"Oh, yeah, it's working out fine. You're just - sort of my mental number equivalent of 999999, I'm sort of working around it because it's rather bewildering."

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"I guess that makes sense. I don't do it with numbers like that. Just - rankings, relative ones, felt out rather than calculated."

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"I'm sort of - obsessively accurate. So."

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"What's next, after me and getting rid of the knife?"

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"Saving my sister."

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"Yeah, that makes sense."
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"I do try to make sense," he agrees, softly.

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"Any responses to your ad about knife-hunting yet?"

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"None, yet," he sighs. "I think I need the Dean to give me more information for them to be willing to risk touching a strange artifact. Even to get rid of the knife."

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"Maybe he'll come up with enough to go on tomorrow."

If he doesn't, the odds that Zevaia won't have died of dehydration start to go way, way down.
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"Maybe," agrees Aldaras softly.

He knows the odds.
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Annie pauses in their walk to hug him.

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Hug.

"It has a vested interest in keeping her alive. We know it makes them drink rain water...."
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"And it has been raining. But - yeah." Hug.

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"Yeah."

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"I hope somebody answers the ad soon."

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"Me, too," he sighs. "I - think she should have been the one to find the necklace, honestly. She's better at the sort of crisis that involves hitting things. I'm - not."

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Pat pat.

Annie resumes walking.
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Aldaras does, too, looking pensive.

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"There's not really anything useful I can do, is there?"

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"I - don't know, do you have some method to convince people to help?"

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"No. People skills aren't really my strongest suit."

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"Do you want to help gather supplies for when we head out? Useful things that we can bring, or - something?"
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"Uh - sure, but I don't know what people on - wilderness adventures need. Food, I guess?"

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"Food, water, a tent, compass - you genuinely don't have to do anything, but I can find you things to do if you want to do them."

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"It's sounding like you'd probably have an easier time not worrying about occupying me," she remarks. "I can occupy myself, it's okay."

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"I - okay. I'm sorry," he sighs.

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"You have nothing to be sorry for."

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"Well, yes, but I'm sorry that there's not an - easy fix-it solution."

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"Yeah, me too. 'Ring bell for customer service and/or to fix everything in the entire universe.'."

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"That'd be great," he says wistfully. "Though honestly I might not trust customer service to do it right, I'd make them hand over mythical powers so I could do it properly."

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"Any mythical power currently in circulation is not being adequately handled," agrees Annie.

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"It really isn't! It's so frustrating, but it's really hard to get my hands on an artifact that can manage the sort of large-scale stuff I'd like to do."

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"Is there one you've been tempted to sneak in to get ahold of?" she wonders.

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"No," he sighs. "Not any of the ones at this university, anyway. I just want a - 'here have some magic that's useful for infrastructure instead of just personal gain.'"

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"Controlling the weather," she suggests.

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Aldaras smiles. "That'd be a good one. I'd probably want to sneak in and grab that, as long as the side effect wasn't terrible."

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"How terrible a side effect would you put up for really good weather control?"

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"Pretty terrible, actually. Even the teleportation side-effect. I wouldn't take it if it made me incapable of figuring out how to use it properly, though. But if it's a fear of shoelaces, I wouldn't complain."

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"I'm pretty sure the teleportation side effect would make me incapable of thinking straight. I might be able to follow some plan I made ahead of time, if the power were straightforward to use."

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Aldaras winces. "That... sentence has the interesting effect of making me want to screech, scoop you up into a protective hug, and volunteer to touch the artifact in your place so you never ever have to do that."
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"Uh... sorry about that. I'm not planning to. You can hug me again if you want."

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Well, she did just give him permission to. He scoops her up into a very - snuggly and protective hug. With gentle hair pets.

"Good," he murmurs. "It's okay, it took me by surprise, too. I just - please. Don't ever touch the teleportation artifact."
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"I don't need to teleport nearly that badly." Hug.

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Aldaras nods. "Yeah. Good, I'm - I don't ever want to see you in that kind of pain," he says fiercely. "Never."

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"Believe me, it doesn't appeal on this end either."

Snuggle.
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Protective snuggles. No horrific artifact that gives Annie a fate worse than death. Ever.

"Taking care of the knife is up to the seventies now, that's an interesting side effect."
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"I'm not sure how that works."

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"It's a little bewildering and I'm not sure how to explain it. Basically I realized abruptly that the knife is really, excessively dangerous to you and I want to make it go away more."

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"I hope you can."

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"Yeah. Me, too."

Slightly more protective snuggling.
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Snuggle. This is nice, except for the panic-fueled part.

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"If you'd like me to let go, I will, I'm just - I really, really want you to be safe."
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"If the knife wanders onto campus you have my permission to pick me up and lock me in a closet."

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"Thank you." He pauses. ".... If it were to randomly wander onto campus and - and get you, can I - the necklace, I'm - I don't want you to be forced or - but I - do you prefer that over -" He makes a little unhappy sound and curls around her more. "What do I do in that situation?"

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"I would rather be necklaced than cut."
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"Okay," he whimpers, obviously rather distressed. "But I don't want either option. Okay? I will go with locking you in a closet before any of those options and - and I don't know, I would rather grab teleportation than let the knife near you."

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"I understand."

Hug.
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Hug. Extra snuggly hug.

"I need to make the knife go away," he growls, a little desperately.
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"Yes. I know. The only thing you can do right now is wait for the dean." Hug.

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He nods, a little. "They should have - multiple people touched with the harp, it's not efficient."

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"It's not, but they want a monopoly on identification."

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Aldaras quietly mutters some very impolite obscenities about them and their stupid power games getting people killed.
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"I'm not sure if they're really turning away a lot of volunteers at the door," Annie points out quietly.

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"Probably not," he sighs. "Ugh."

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"The side effect isn't strictly unpleasant, but I don't think he has time to do anything but eat and work, when he's awake. If he were more efficient - if I thought I could get ahold of the damn thing without having to give the university all my privacy and undying loyalty and complete control over my care - if artifacts needing identification turned up often enough that he had a backlog - then I'd consider it. But none of those things are true."

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"Same here. I'm just - upset. Sorry, I'm mildly taking it out on you..."

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"It's okay."

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He looks down at her, moves a hand to adjust a lock of her hair, but abruptly stops midway there. Aldaras makes a complicated face, and then touches her cheek with a thumb and carefully pulls out of the protective snuggles.

"Still, sorry. The - extreme reaction to you being - not safe caught me by surprise. I knew it was important to keep you safe but I hadn't though about what would happen if you weren't." He shudders, a bit.
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"Well - don't dwell on it? It doesn't seem helpful."

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"Yeah," he agrees. "Lesson learned."

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Annie takes his hand and squeezes it.

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He smiles a little at her. "Thanks."

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"You're welcome."

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Oh look. It's the return of the adoring gaze. What a surprise.

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Annie giggles.

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"I'm doing it again, aren't I?" he snorts.
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"The gazing thing? Yes. You are."

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"Sorry, I'll stop."

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"I don't mind."

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"Oh. Well. Okay then."