As of this moment she is up to her specialization in shines. Write write write.
Avedan. Avedan, shut up, she's married you three times now, and she's kissing you back.
He realizes this fact, and promptly tells his head to shut up so he can just focus on kissing.
"No," he says. "Sorry, I neglected to put it back. This one's better," he motions to another book that is making up the book fort: Golems: An Expert Engineer's Guide, "that one's more theory instead of instruction."
He doesn't look at her notebook, he's already back to reading his own books - there are three of them that are open. He's switching between them and taking notes on each. Verifying things from multiple sources, maybe? Or something else entirely. Either way, he's apparently busy.
"Well, you're likely to figure out whatever you need for your secret golem project anyway, it might just take longer, and if I'm helpful and it turns out that your secret golem project is 'construct an army to take over the world' I have a much better chance of convincing you to not do that," says Aydanci lightly.
Aly laughs again. "And I could be imprisoned for my mind-control crimes - I mean, quarantined - in the comfort of my own home and therefore have much less temptation to break quarantine and infect people with my sinister ideals, since little self-cleaning golems would bring me groceries through the window?"
"He - I don't know how much you remember or from when, I'll just sort of - you were big into public health, before you even met Aly but especially after she died." Lu shudders a little. "Uh, and - sarcastic but terrible at lying - and you were a servantmaker, are you still? I am again, three for three now - um - and you were - he was -" She wrings her hands. "We were -" She stops.
"Okay, go ahead and do that. Predictably, I have paper, and this is a nice big shine, so I can write it some instructions longhand and they'll work just fine." She flips to a fresh notebook page and writes a short program that will fit within the shine's area, and walks him through each line in it, and then puts the program down where he can move the shine onto it.
"Anyway - unlike golems, which you can't puppet again once you start them, you can turn a shine back into a puppet any time, if it's yours or the person who made it lets you. So you can stop it from going around in a circle whenever, but it'll remember this program and you can nudge it back into it until it gets a new program."
Sometimes it's too hard not to sob, or to try to draw enough breath to do it. Even though she knows it'll wake him up. Even though she knows he's almost as tired as she is, and pushing to do more than he ought to be able. Even though he can't help and it'll hurt him to fail.
Sometimes she makes a noise.
"Love..." He murmurs. In the early days he'd caress her face, or brush her hair out of the way, or - or something, but now he doesn't dare. The lesion on her face is getting worse, and he doesn't want to upset the poultice on it for a few hours yet.
But he has a look. It's a very distinct look. It screams, 'I love you, I love you, I love you, tell me if there's anything I can do to help, I'll do it twice, please, I love you, it's no trouble.' He's wearing it, right now.
"No, no, Aly, please, no. Breathe, love, there's - I can't lose you, I - come back, please!"
Moving her causes her agony, even with all the drugs. Even with her dancing towards overdose on all of them. But she can't breathe, he can't just -
Gently, ever so gently, he tilts her head back, just a tad, staying away from her jaw. This is a better angle for breathing, right? Isn't it? Damnation, all the work in - in medical everything and he can't help his fucking wife breathe!
"Don't go."
"How much I feel like my past lives seems to vary from - minute to minute. Right after waking up it's all really fresh, and then it settles into being decades ago, fuzzier than - than things that happened the most recent time I was six. But if I'm reading my old notes or every now and then if something familiar that I haven't been exposed to much yet this time around pops up, all of a sudden I'm one of them again for a moment."
"It sort of does. I'm not worried about Next Time Around Me having my thoughts, because - there's really nothing they could do with them that could affect me? And it would be someone that's essentially me, just - with a different life, so it's not like they're going to do anything nefarious with any of it anyway. There's a privacy issue, and it does kind of bug me that I get all of the... Er, private moments, but it's annoying and a bit embarrassing, not life changing."