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so far there's always an age gap
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Kib wakes up first. This has always been the case. He kisses his sleeping husband and gets up, prompting Charp to start making breakfast and boiling a kettle so Aydanci can have tea whenever he's up. Kib finished a book yesterday, so he picks up a new one. He should make some more storks if he can't think of anything useful to do with the day; the world can always use more storks.

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Aydanci wakes up earlier than usual today, but that's really not saying very much. He yawns and grouches in an undertone about creaking bones and stiff muscles and shuffles his way out of bed. Tea? Tea. Good Charp.

"Good morning, love," he says, when he is somewhat more coherent.
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"Morning honey. How'd you sleep?"

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He shrugs and makes a noncommittal sound. Sleep's become more of a chore than something to be enjoyed, at this age.

"You?"
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"I slept fine. I'm thinking of making more storks today."

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"That'd be useful. I can help, if you want it."

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"As if I'd kick you out of the workshop. But you just do the puppeting from a comfy chair, okay? I don't want your joints getting worse trying to fiddle with the chassis or interrupt the automata."

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"Yes, Kib," he agrees, amused. "Comfortable chair puppeting only."

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Kiss. "I can't just build you a golem to carry your brain around. Won't work."

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Kiss! "Pity, it would be so convenient."

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"It would! I could decorate you with little flowers," teases Kib.

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"Would they be carved onto my golem body's surface, or painted on? I need to know if I would be colorful."

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"Colorful paint. With sequins attached," Kib declares.

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"Truly, the world is lesser for the lack of colorful paint and sequins. Though maybe we could decorate Charp..."

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"Charp I think would benefit from ribbons tied in elaborate bows."

"Whatever milord suggests, of course," says Charp in complete deadpan.
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Snicker. "You will be the prettiest of golems."

He finishes his tea and breakfast. "To the workshop, then?"
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"To fill the sky with additional storks, since I'm not feeling creative today," agrees Kib, getting up. He offers Aydanci a hand.

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Aydanci takes it, and stands, smiling.



Halfway to the workshop he slows, his breathing quicker than usual.
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"Honey?"
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"I... Believe I should sit down," says Aydanci, faintly.
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Kib snaps his fingers a couple of times and his chair comes running. "Here. What's wrong?"

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"Bit of trouble breathing." He sits. "And a spell of dizziness. It should pass."

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"Charp, get a glass of water."

"Yes milord," replies Charp from the kitchen. It is along presently with a glass of water.
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Aydanci takes the offered glass, and sips at it a bit. After two mouthfuls he puts it down on a nearby table.

... He is sort of wheezing. Strange, he hasn't done anything strenuous.
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"Do you need a doctor? I can take you to a doctor."

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He considers this.

"Yes," he decides.
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"Okay. Better to have Charp carry you -" Charp picks Aydanci up; Kib can pilot the chair faster and Charp's got a quick smooth gait when it wants. Out they go. "This is sudden? You felt all right when you woke up?"

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"Mhm," he says, leaning on Charp a bit. Breathing: continues to be hard! Well. Actually the breathing itself isn't hard, he's doing quite a lot of it, but it still feels so much like he's not getting enough air.

"... Feeling lightheaded and my fingers are tingly," he pronounces, because telling symptoms is important.
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"That's - not good -" The chair is already going as fast as it can. "... Charp, run on ahead, tell the doctors anything he can't, I'll catch up."

"Yes milord." It lengthens its stride. The chair jogs doggedly after it.
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Aydanci doesn't have anything useful to offer, so he decides to conserve energy and lean on Charp. And carefully keeps breathing. He will focus on that. That seems important. In, out, in, out. It's not really helping, but he doesn't know what else to do.

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Charp brings him to the hospital. He is put in a hospital bed and a nurse gives him a general-purpose soothing herb to chew on. A doctor will be with him momentarily, but he's not unconscious or contagious and his golem can shout if something changes and there are some kids threatening to bleed out from a cart accident. Triage doesn't favor the old guy with a dizzy spell.

Kib catches up. He goes in, he finds his husband. He sits on the bed. "Any better?"
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"... Worse," he pronounces, wincing. "S'ry."

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Kib takes his hand. "Sh, it's okay, not your fault. Unless it is and then I'll be very annoyed, you know. Deep breaths. You're still dizzy even lying down?"

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That coaxes a smile out of him. "Mhm. Sort of, not all here, either." He waves a hand vaguely.

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"Not all here?" Hand squeeze. "Multitasking even when sick, are you, honey?"

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"Workaholic. Habitual by now," he snorts. "But, harder to think."

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"Well, then instead of thinking just - breathe." Kib swallows. "Keep breathing, honey."

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"Have been," he agrees. Breathing. Breathing. Breathing.

... He closes his eyes. But he continues breathing. Very quickly, but he is.
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A doctor is freed up to have a look at him. Kib recites symptoms so Aydanci doesn't have to. The doctor listens to and looks at various parts of the patient.

"It seems to be your heart," he says. "There aren't any reliable interventions. It may pass on its own."

"Or?" says Kib.

"...Or it may not. How old did you say your husband is?"

"Eighty-eight."

"...I'm sorry, sir. We can keep him comfortable."
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Well isn't that just the most fantastic news ever.

"Your unfalling optimism," he says, breathe breathe, "fills me with," breathe breathe, "hope and glee."
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"It may pass. Are you in pain? We can get you an analgesic," says the doctor.

"Honey," murmurs Kib.
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"Nnrgh. Shoo." He waves a hand at the doctor. Shoo, doctor.

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The doctor shoos.

"Honey," says Kib, "hypocritical as it is for me to say this: do not die on me."
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"Trying." He clutches a hand at his chest, somewhat clumsily. "Really. Breathing."

Breathing! Breathing breathing breathing.
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"And if you can't manage that," says Kib. "If you can't, then you come back to me."
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"How," he whimpers. "Don't know how, I, I would, how...?"
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"I don't know either do it anyway do not leave me alone I didn't leave you alone, okay, come back anyway."

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"'l try..."

Breathing breathing breathing it's not working, he's surprised that he doesn't feel pain but he doesn't, it's more like he is fading away.
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"Come back," begs Kib.

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"'f can't," he says, "If I can't, you - please, happy..."
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"If you want me to be happy you'd better check on me and make sure, I am not promising to be all right without you, honey, I will fucking be miserable for ten lifetimes missing you if it suits me, see if I don't, come back, come back, come back -"

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Whimper. "Please?"

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"I'll be as happy as you were when I died. Until. You. Come. Back," hisses Kib.

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He makes a wordless sound, and leans into Kib.




...
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"Honey?" breathes Kib.
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...

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"Oh no honey no I wasn't ready I'm not ready, no no honey," whispers Kib, going from handholding to cradling his husband in his arms instead. "Honey, honey give me a few scares before the real thing, please, not like this, be alive, it's only fair - honey -"

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Avedan makes a slightly strangled noise and twitches awake.
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Sylvi is snoozing beside him.

"Albatross."
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Well, he's very happy for her, but he requires cuddles right now. Glomp.

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"Mmf?"

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"S'rry. Dream. Aydanci's death." Snuggle.

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Snuggle. "Y'okay?"

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"Nnnnh. Cuddles. Then yes."

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Squeeze.

"Did - it hurt? I was worried it hurt."
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"Not exactly hurt, I mean, a bit, but... like when your arm falls asleep. Except everywhere. And then it stopped."

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Snuggle.

"You came back. It's okay."
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"I did," he agrees. Snuggle!

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"We'll just keep doing that until we figure out how to stop dying and we'll be fine."

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"Yeah. 'S nice."

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"Yeah." Nuzzle.

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Hooray!

"'m going to sleep more now. Thanks." Nuzzle. "Love you."
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"Love you."

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Good, good.

Zzzzzzzzz...