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belly of the beast
Surely you didn't think the other twin wouldn't get his time in the spotlight?
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Zazi kinda promised Morgan that they wouldn't hurt her friends. The definition of "hurt" is a lot different as it applies to Zash versus Yvette, of course, so having several tonnes of metal fall on Zash's head doesn't count, but Yvette is much more fragile and Zazi does not trust Legato to be careful with her while stealing the plant for Mr. Knives, so, there really is only one solution. The solution will take the form of a hefty flying bug being launched at her temple at high speed.

When she wakes up she is decidedly not on the sand steamer anymore.

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"What the everliving...?" she groans, sitting up and looking around. Everything's so dark, where is she??

The last thing she remembers is Zash running off to handle the latest crisis at really quite an inopportune time. She had been pacing, frustrated and worried, and then… something hit her…?

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She seems to be on a platform of some kind, hard metal, though that's the first thing she can perceive...

...except for a luminous child over there, who doesn't look exactly like she remembers them but whom she might recognise anyway. "Ai, ai... You're finally awake!" they say. "Welcome, welcome, to February."

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They're in a great dark dome, large enough to rival one of the Seven Cities themselves. Silver cracks run along its surface, only visible because of the blue and red lights from below. Rows and rows and rows of plants in their pods wait in neat little rows beneath her platform, and beyond the glow of the plants is a dark shape that looks like it might have once been a spaceship, nestled in a large mound of sand. Now that she looks, actually, there's lots of sand all over the place, in little discrete piles, like... it leaked from above.

Ah. Yes. They're underground, aren't they.

".... Uh, it was Zazi, right? Hello," she says, carefully getting to her feet. "Thanks, I feel. So welcomed."

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"So polite. You're not mad about how we tried to eat you and then kidnap you and then succeeded at kidnapping you?"

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"Um. I'm mostly confused about why you would do that. Eating me makes sense, I guess, even though it's... obviously the option I like the least. Why did you kidnap me and take me to a failed city with a lot of..."

Oh. Oh no. Her brain has caught up with her observations and if there are this many plants in one place, then. Well there is one person she knows about that collects this many plants, isn't there.

"... why would you bring me here?" she finishes, a little plaintively.

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"Catching up! Well, anyway, we're sorry about that time we tried to eat you. We disagreed with that us so we ate them and we're not the us who wanted to eat you. That was a very wasteful decision, you're so delightful, eating you would've been no fun. And there's another us who just wanted to eat you and Zash to see what the Punisher and Mr. Knives would do but we don't talk to that us.

"Now the reason we brought you here is that we want you to help with this old disagreement we have with Mr. Knives."

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".... Okay. What's the old disagreement, and why do you think I can help?"

She's suspicious already but, well. Probably best to let Zazi explain. Instead of jumping to conclusions and falling into a panic.

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"Who's better for us?" They extend both hands out in front of them, palms up, and luminous spores fly out of their sleeves to form tridimensional silhouettes of a person, "Humans," and a familiar bulbous shape, "or plants? Who will be better for the planet?

"Mr. Knives has an opinion. He's biased. We want to hear yours."

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"Well, I think that's a false dichotomy," she says, turning from Zazi to continue looking around. Huh. Is that a console, over there...?

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"Is it? Mr. Knives will kill all humans; or humans will kill him, and then all plants will die. Isn't that so?"

That's indeed a console. Old, but recognisable.

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"With a fatalistic worldview I suppose those do seem like the only two options." She walks over to the console to peer at it. Hm. This... looks like it's connected to the plants below. Probably from all the way back before the Fall, and just updated with additional plants as they were gathered. "But, you know. Maybe there's some in between we can work out."

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The spores fly off and the images they were representing dissolve as Zazi flies over to where Yvette is and takes a seat on the railing next to her. "Maybe. We don't see the point. Duke it out, the winner was right all along. It's how we do it and it's always worked for us.

"You know, it was the Punisher's job to bring Stampede here, but we think we'll win that little competish. He will be really bugged until he can find you." They make a face. "That wasn't very good, we should try harder."

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This earns a little startled laugh from her.

"... Oh my god, we crashlanded on an alien planet and taught the natives how to pun."

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They grin. "Language is such an interesting concept! We should've thought of it ourselves. We can say one thing and mean another, say two things that mean the same thing and one thing that means two. What else will you invent? We are so excited to find out."

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"Well I can introduce you to math if you're curious, though that one's not a new invention, and you've probably heard of it by now." Tap tap tap at the console and. Yeah it. It really is connected to. All of those plants below.

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"What are you doing there? The doctor will be mad at us if you mess his plants up." They sound like they'd find it very amusing if the doctor got mad at them for any reason.

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"Well, if it's the doctor I think it is then I don't particularly care. It's not him I'm worried about. Anyway, I'm not going to mess them up, I just want to look." She frowns. .... Yeah, uh, these plant maintenance routines are as outdated as the hardware. "Isn't that why you put me down here in particular?"

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"Yeah! It'll be sad if Mr. Knives kills you, though. We're just hoping something more interesting happens instead."

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"Yes, I quite agree." Mmhmm. And from these readings, none of the plants have been getting anything except usual (outdated) supportive maintenance from the system itself. Yet some of them have improved over time, in little bursts. Always one at a time. Sort of like someone with plant healing abilities devoted those abilities to helping a plant. "... Sorry, should I explain what I'm looking at and what I'm seeing? You seem like the curious type, too."

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"Yeah! That way after Mr. Knives kills you we'll be able to tell him what you broke."

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“I will not be breaking anything but, sure.”

She does, in fact, explain what she’s seeing. How the system is functional but outdated by over a century, and the plants are essentially being left alone in standby mode. Which is fine, it’s not a problem exactly, they’re all stable, but it could be better. See, just waiting for Nai to swing by and personally heal each and every one by himself is inefficient. Clearly, he has a backlog. Really what should be happening is he gets the more complicated and tricky ones, and the rest who are recovering from ordinary wear and tear…

Well. She’s pretty sure she’s being tested. It’s also not like she’s going to be getting out of here without help. So if she is going to be found by people likely to kill her, she might as well make herself useful, first. It just might save her life.

So then she gets to updating the standby mode to do a bit better than ‘essentially leave them alone.’ While explaining what she’s doing to her kidnapper. Knowledge is to be disseminated, after all.

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Her kidnapper sways back and forth, watching her intently with a wan smile on their face as she explains. They're not really getting anything, they're just memorising it, but they have a guess for what's going to happen soon which is confirmed by a couple of the bugs they have all over everywhere in this compound.

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Her kidnapper is in fact right in their prediction. The metal door leading to this chamber opens and Knives stalks into it looking absolutely—neutral. He does not have much of an expression on his face. The main indicator of his mood are the myriad blades swirling around him. "What is the meaning of this."

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She freezes a little, like a child being caught doing something she’s not allowed to do. Then she raises her head and very deliberately continues.

“Well,” she says, not letting the rush of terror leak too much into her voice, “Zazi brought me here, so I thought I might as well help.”

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"Help—" He pauses. Squints. "You. I know you."

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She… honestly wasn’t expecting that. Not knowing what to do with it, she’s just going to. Not engage with it and move on.

“… Well, I’m flattered to be remembered. And yes, help. You can hear them, and I know they’re terribly easy to take advantage of, but you’d know better than I. Am I actually helping?”

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He looks around, then looks at her again, looking even more suspicious. After a few seconds of that he suddenly makes a frustrated noise and says, "Why are you here."

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It’s pretty clear that he’s frustrated because he can’t just cheat and read her.

She points at Zazi. “They did it, not me. I don’t want to be here.”

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Zazi lifts a hand and grins. "Guilty!"

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"I'm going to kill you someday."

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"No you won't~"

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Knives's blades shoot at Zazi and, when they disperse into bugs, he kills every one of those.

"Helping the plants isn't going to save your life," he tells Yvette.

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She takes a deep breath.

"I know. But if I'm going to die anyway, I might as well do some good first."

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"What good?"

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"What I'm doing right now. Helping the plants. I consider that good, don't you?"

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"Yes," he says, then looks frustrated again. "You're human."

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Well spotted, Nai.

"Yes," she agrees, instead of being sarcastic at the scary psycho with telekinetic control of knives. "Do you want me to explain everything I'm doing and my reasoning behind doing it so you can make sure I'm not doing anything you wouldn't support?"

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"You'd lie."

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"I wouldn't," she corrects, a little irritated, "but I acknowledge that I could. If nothing else, having a good idea of what exactly I did would be a good start for undoing it."

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He sits cross-legged and cross-armed mid air and gives her a look.

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"... is that a yes..? Or just that you're going to sit there and watch every single thing that I do for awful human intentions?"

She can't help it; this is frustrating, and it’s starting to leak into her voice. It’s not like she got kidnapped from the best of circumstances. She’s not even sure what happened on the sand steamer, and she’s worried about Zash and how he's probably freaking out right now. Instead of being able to handle any of that, to know anything about anything of the people she cares about, she’s here, trying to bridge this frustrating communication gap with a person that thinks of her as scum.

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"Yes," he says, also frustratedly.

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In typical language usage, that's not actually a confirmation of either option she provided. However, due to current circumstances and also ambient frustration levels, she's just going to take it as 'talk to me.' That seems the most likely answer, and she can always just stop talking if he'd rather just stare silently like a weirdo.

"Okay."

So she then begins explaining. Because he wasn't here for her walkthrough with Zazi, it does mean she has to start a bit from scratch and explain the basics again, but that's not so bad. Compared to trying to exchange words with a mind reader who despises humans and can't read her, it's soothing. And then they can get into the particulars of what she's doing and the logic behind it and how these new updated supportive maintenance operations actively help instead of just. Leaving the plants on standby.

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They can help each other, why would they need a support system from humans.

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Well if he doesn't ask that question out loud, she's not going to know to answer, and will instead just happily continue on how to make the support system ~*~more efficient.~*~

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Ghhhh.

"Why. Does this work. Humans made it. Plants help each other."

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"Oh. Yes, you do. But it's... you can only help one plant at a time. Setting up a system that does it instead means that they all get helped, at the same time. And then you can go and help the more difficult cases that the system won't be able to sort out."

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Grump. "Go on."

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So she does! Quite happily in fact.

She is really extremely dedicated to her job, very knowledgeable, and brightening considerably as she goes.

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Knives gets, if anything, grumpier over time as he watches her. Eventually he gets fed up and says, "Why do you care?"

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That question seems to throw her for more of a loop than any of his others.

 

"... It's my job???? Why wouldn't I care?????" she says, a bit bewildered.

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"Lots of humans have this job." Implicit: and they don't really care.

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She has had long enough with this frustrating person to catch the implications, actually! Hooray for her.

"Okay, well. I'm not trying to explain them. They're often dumb and selfish and stupid. I'm trying to explain me. And I have this job because I care."

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That continues to make zero sense, but fine, whatever. It's incredibly frustrating to be unable to hear her.

The plants offer to help. He accepts, and it's still bewildering. Not her thoughts, directly, but plants' rendition of them. They can hear everything humans are thinking, but the way they conceptualise and translate their thoughts are—well, often very inaccurate or missing important details (in Knives's opinion) and most of all far too rosy. Humans are not like that. They are not good.

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Well, there's not really much evidence from the plants' rendition of her thoughts. She really thinks that she's probably going to die in here, and that she might as well help them while she can. Actually, she's idly thinking about how she needs to teach Nai how to do this on his own, and how to learn the systems from the humans he hates so much when they improve at them, to repurpose the things they figure out for actual good.

And she's just continuing to explain everything. Happily. There's really nothing she's leaving out.

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At least "she's being honest" is reasonably straightforward for the plants to convey. Zash's surface thought reading (and here's the usual pang of longing and hurt that accompanies his thoughts whenever he thinks of his brother) can be fooled by sufficiently clever manipulation (Zazi themselves are evidence for that) (there's another bug of theirs surreptitiously crawling in, Knives kills it without a second thought) but regular plants are way more thorough and cannot be fooled like this. They can read the entire emotional state of their targets, including the things they are trying to fool themselves about (as Knives has extensive firsthand experience with) (good thing he can hide from them). Yvette is being honest.

He really doesn't know what to make of this.

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Well, eventually she runs out of typical system maintenance to relay.

... But apparently she's not done.

"Now, this next part isn't something I'd trust to the computer, because computers are stupid and they can do more harm than good if aimed wrong. But! If you'll allow me without killing me for trying, I can help more directly."

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"Explain it to me. If you lie I will kill you. If you omit anything I will hurt you and then kill you."

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"I figured!"

And then yes she can (also kind of cheerfully) get into direct ways she could help. Like, for example: the plant from Jeneora! She recognizes that red one by her (and that's the pronoun she uses, her) diagnostics. Usually half of the trouble of healing plants is figuring out exactly what's wrong, but here she already knows! She'd like to finish healing her. Here's how she would do it and here's what she had been doing and damn it she has none of her graphs, does she, does he have paper she's going to need to show what she means with math.

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He can make paper appear out of thin air for her. Then with some more effort he can make a pencil. Pens are too complicated.

(The Jeneora Rock plants recognise her! And most importantly, they had Zash there and Zash could translate for them. This is not making it any less confusing.)

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She is briefly distracted thinking about that and how actually she thinks that was inefficiently produced. He could have made a great big piece of paper and then cut it with his knives and that would have been more cost-effective than different sheets separately, not even getting into ways to make the pencil more efficient because that's a much harder problem but YES PAPER.

With paper and a writing implement present, it is math time. There will be graphs. She's missing all of her data so she's approximating some things (and noting every time she does, and the plants can feel how this is irritating to her) but she lived and breathed fixing this plant in particular for weeks and it has always bugged her that she never got to finish her damn job, so her memory's pretty fucking good. With a mix of memory, information currently available from the console, and math, she can pretty tidily map where the plant's vitals need to be, and with math she can show how she can help the plant get there with assistance from technology. All of this mapped out she's practically bouncing in front of Nai with her desire to get started. Can she do it. Please please please please will he let her she's wanted to for so long!!

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He does, actually, know maths.

Her work does, actually, check out.

What the fuck.

He nods.

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She practically dances as she inputs the commands and checks over them to make sure they do in fact go through. Yes? All set up? Everything doing what she thinks it'll do? AHAHAHAHAHAHA YES VICTORY!!!!

Well, okay, not immediately, this will still take some time to implement, it's not like she can just press a button and fix the poor plant, much as she wants to. BUT it is beginning to go in the correct direction!! And since that'll take time to go through, she can also work on this other plant that looks really very simple to help. It looks like someone was just running through standard practices straight from the engineering book. Which makes the problem the plant is facing pretty simple to solve, actually! And here's what's happening and here's how she'd fix it and it is really fucking annoying not having her data but she will persevere!!! With more math!!!!

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Don't humans need, like, food and stuff. Zash needs food. ...well, likes food. Liked food. Knives guesses he does not know whether Zash still likes food. Or sleep.

"Do you need food," he asks when he's (once again) reminded that she can't just see what he's thinking.

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"What? Oh." She'd absolutely, completely forgotten. Ugh, she does need food, doesn't she, that's the worst. "... Yeah, I'll start to get cranky if I don't eat, it's awful and throws off the accuracy of my calculations. And I guess eventually I'll die and stuff. It's super annoying. Sorry. Um. Are you going to invest resources into caring for my stupid human form or should I just be expecting to do as much as I can before I die?"

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"The doctor will get you food."

If he let her starve the plants would never let him hear the end of it.

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"Okay, thank you. Probably water should be first, though. Usually I have a water bottle present to remind me to drink, and that leads me down the logic train of noticing I need to take care of myself. Where's the doctor?"

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"Don't know." Water's easy, though, and so is glass, it's mostly silicon. Here she goes. "I will find him. Don't touch the console while I'm gone." Then he lets gravity affect him again and starts walking away.

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As soon as he's gone, a myriad bugs recoalesce into Zazi. "He likes you."

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Water bottle!! Nai gets a thank you, because she suddenly remembers that she is in fact thirsty and should drink something. Time to get to doing that. She will, obligingly, not touch the console while he's gone, and instead sit down over here and stretch out the stiffness in her limbs.

"I can tell, because I'm not dead yet and he's still here," she says to Zazi, a little amused. "Were you expecting this?"

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"Some of us were. We were right so we ate the other us."

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"I see. Very tidy system, that. I sort of wish I could just eat the people I prove wrong sometimes."

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"No you don't!"

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"That's what the 'sort of' covers!" she laughs. "Admittedly it's a very load bearing 'sort of.' With humans it's, well. When you eat something you go and use all of the resources properly, yes? Nothing is truly lost, just reallocated. And with humans it's not like that."

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"It's not. You just take and take and take, greedy little critters. And you're repeat offenders, too." Here are some more glowing spores, this time adopting the shape of planet Earth, with appropriate colours to boot. "Earth. Have you seen it?"

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"In pictures, yeah." She reaches out her fingers towards the spores, not quite touching. "But it feels like such an impossible fairy tale to me, you know? A whole world that was just. Good." She drops her hand, sadly. "And then we ruined it."

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The planet turns brown and dull and then blows away in a nonexistent breeze. "We wish we could have met bugs from there. We would have exchanged so many stories."

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"So you see where we're coming from, asking how humans can benefit the planet."

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“I do. It’s a very fair question. Though I also see that instead of asking you’ve just put me down here and gone ‘Now what will you do?’ So, clearly you want more than just words.”

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"Smart engineer. Mr. Knives says it all the time, humans lie. We don't think we've ever seen either of the twins lie—well, Stampede sometimes, but not when it counted—and we've had them bugged for a while. Oh, that one's good, we'll use it again."

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She giggles a little.

"It was pretty good, well done. Yes, we do, so. I understand why you'd skip the step. I'm really not... upset with you about it. It makes sense. And it might not even end in me dying horribly, which is a nice bonus. Though I do think you have royally pissed off both of the twins in the process, so. Good luck with that, I guess?"

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"Mr. Knives is always angry. And very bad at emotional regulation! But that makes him predictable." Shrug. "And kinda boring. We're spicing things up a little."

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Snort.

"Zash isn't always angry, but I suppose the change might be a bonus to you. Is it just novelty you're after?"

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"We always want to learn. Grow. Evolve. Metamorphose. Only the strongest and the best survive. But it'd gotten a little dull before humans arrived. Now you're here! Bringing new ideas and concepts and things we can learn so we can always become better."

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"I can respect that. I'm glad that the Fall was good for someone, really."

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"Someone. Someones. Your language is not that good at us."

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That's when the metal door opens and a bald man in a body-length white coat walks in. He's wearing goggles and has an impressive mustache plus a couple of metal plates attached to his skull.

"Ms. Yvette Marlowe."

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“It’s really not, is it,” she agrees. “Sorry on its behalf, I guess.”

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Then she turns and looks at the doctor and the warmth she was showing the worms just freezes solid.

“Doctor William Conrad,” she says, because two can play at that game, bitch.

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"Master Knives has mentioned I should see to your needs. Come with me." And he turns around without waiting.

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"Cheers!" And they explode into worms, again.

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“Bye, Zazi,” she says, and then yes then she can follow the absolutely monstrous man who has done terrible things.

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There are very many corridors they have to walk through. At first he's silent, but eventually he says, "You wish to ask me questions."

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“Do you actually perform human experimentation on child subjects with a horrific survival rate in an effort to make up for your past horrific experimentation.”

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"...yes and no. I want humanity to survive. It cannot do so as it is. With my research there will be a way for humans to become as durable and immortal as plants. As independent plants. As the twins."

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“Ahuh. And I’m sure you explained this, and the risks involved to the subjects, before you did any of this testing for this grand mission. And got their full and expressed consent, and recompensed their families for their loss if they died.”

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"...Morgan Wolfwood the Punisher was an orphan. She has no family. And Rollo the Gale... his family was going to kill him. He was born on a windless day, and they were to sacrifice him so that God would bring them their wind back.

"They all have stories like this. Nowhere to go, no future. I give them a future. As for the losses...

"...they are for the greater good."

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“Yeah? And that bit about their healing thing killing them, and then throwing them off to be used like things?”

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He shakes his head. "They are my failures. I tried, I tried very hard... to give them access to a gate. To make them more like Master Knives, and Zash the Stampede. But every attempt has ended in failure. I have made them stronger, more able to survive, but never for long. Every avenue of research...

"I don't know if I can save any living humans. I don't know if it was all in vain."

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“Mm. And if this greater good of yours never appears, you haven’t done a damn thing to reduce the harm you’ve caused, have you. All or nothing, is it? What an appropriate place to make your lair.”

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He shakes his head once more. "It is all or nothing. If i cannot succeed... Master Knives's plan will kill us all. It is already in motion."

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“And I’m sure you’ve done so much to convince him of the worth and value of human life. With all of your work.”

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"He will not listen to me. I tried, I tried and tried and tried, over a century ago. Every one of my words, doubted; my intent, questioned. If the plants can read my heart and show it to him, it has been found wanting.

"Perhaps you will do better. I pray you will. I pray... that all my work has been in vain. That I will be able to die a hated man, a monster, and that there is a better way I was too weak or too cowardly to pursue. Hate me, because I deserve it. Do better than me. Because if you can't, then... I must keep doing this. Master Knives will not allow me to die, until I succeed. Or until he does."

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"Yes, I wouldn't want to live as you either, doctor. But I'd just actually try to change instead of wringing my hands about the futility and monstrousness of my existence and bemoaning how my words are no longer being believed. Are we there yet or is this place nothing but damn corridors."

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"A couple more corridors."

He doesn't say anything more. There's no point.

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There really, really isn't. He's just trying to justify himself to someone, to have someone else that is clever and human agree with him and say, 'Yes, it was awful, but you had to.' That would grant him some measure of comfort, of peace.

She will not be indulging him. He's a monster, who had a thousand ways in a hundred years to try to do better, be better. After all of them, he's still making pathetic excuses and experimenting on children like they're things.

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Finally they arrive at: a bedroom. It's simple fare, bed and desk and a bathroom. Then he gestures down the hall. "There is a kitchen that way. We have ingredients if you wish to cook and full meals produced by the plants if you do not. They often make whole batches at a time.

"Now if you'll excuse me."

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"You'll get no excuses from me, actually, but yes. You can go. Thank you for your help."

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He bows to her then walks away.

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And she can go and eat something and use the bathroom and so on. Annoying biological needs that she'd really rather be without.

... Once that's handled, she has a hunch. It's not particularly expensive to test, so she might as well.

"Hey, Zazi?" she says, even though there's no sign of any worm anywhere in particular.

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Well here's Zazi walking around the corner and into the kitchen. "Hello! 'You'll get no excuses from me, actually', that was great, we are writing that one down for later."

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Well now that she's talking to them, worms are pretty cute, actually???

"Hello. Happy to be of service. Would you be willing to help me find my way back here in the future, my spatial memory is not up to the task of navigating the maze of corridors, and I think if I spent much more time around the doctor I might try to strangle him."

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"Do it! We'd love to watch. —but fine, we can show you around." They extend a hand and one little flying bug crawls out of their sleeve up to their palm and then flies over to her to circle around her head.

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"Thank you, I appreciate it. I recommend nestling next to the bun, you'd look cutely ornamental up there. ... Though I suppose then Nai might kill it. Hm."

This does mean that she will have a worm running around in her hair, of course, but honestly? She has had to deal with overcoming quite a lot of instinctive flinch reactions from things that are icky or unclean, since she left December, so. Little lifeform hitching a ride on her hair, sure, why not. It's not like she takes her hair down that often anymore, anyway.

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There goes the bug, then.

Zazi just shrugs. "We are not individuals. A single bug is not a loss. It does not matter if Mr. Knives kills it."

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"All right, you'd know better than I. I admit, I don't really understand, but." She shrugs. "I don't really need to in order to take your word for it. I'll figure it out." Then she grins. "Or I won't! We'll see. Will you help lead me back to the plant room now that I've been fed and watered? I'd absolutely like to get back to work."

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"Yes, yes, we'll lead the way." There goes the tiny bug.

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"Thank you, Zazi, you're the nicest hivemind I've ever met," she says, because she suspects that Zazi will find this highly entertaining, based on their love of language. To the plant room!!

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They do find it very entertaining. The nicest! Also the least nice! Language is so fun.

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When she gets to the plant room Knives is already back. He is floating in front of one of the plants, doing the exact same thing Zash did with the sand steamer plant. The "transformation" of his skin is more thorough, he is entirely covered in white with the blue glowing patterns with zero humanlike skin showing, and he is glowing more brightly than Zash did.

He does not react to their arrival.

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Aw.

Well, she will not be starting work until he's done, because that is the sort of thing that might get her killed, so. She'll sit down and sip her water and wait.

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It doesn't take very long for him to be done with this iteration of it, and he soon floats back to the platform.

And then kills every single bug with a blade, including the one resting on Yvette's head. His blade does not touch Yvette herself, though; even her hair is left unscathed. "You have returned. Are you ready to continue?"

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That's kind of terrifying, but it's better for him to have fine control than not that, so uh. Yay for that???

"Yep!" she says, standing.

(.... she kind of wishes he'd wear some clothes. She is having emotions about being sexually attracted to Zash's brother. And also a murderer who hates humanity, but, like, the part that feels weirdest is the brother part.)

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If the plants are conveying her thoughts to him, he is not reacting at all. He once again adopts his cross-legged position in mid-air, but this time he is sitting much closer to her, close enough to be able to watch her at the console and her equations.

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Fortunately for her complicated libido, she can absolutely tunnel vision onto her work! Yes, there are so very many plants to help, and she can absolutely work up the proper enthusiasm to help them.

It's still VERY ANNOYING that she doesn't have any of her data, though. She's having to re-derive some equations!!!!!! This is clearly a waste of time but she'll tolerate it because the alternative is stopping and NEVER. Even with this handicap, this is the most freedom she's gotten to actually do her damn job since Jeneora. Technically on the sand steamer she was also doing her job, but it really felt more like her job was enabling horrific abuse and therefore completely awful. Plus, it was sort of like trying to do that job while also desperately fighting off a vicious carnivorous beast that was trying to rip her patient to pieces in front of her no matter how much she didn't want it to. Which is really very obstructive to just enjoying her work, actually.

Anyway yes he can have more math and more explanations and she will help more plants and she will be gleeful about this, actually. There are so many easy ways to help!! The harder problems can wait for later after she's got all of her tools back!!! Eeeee she gets to do her job eeeeeeee she's so happy.

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Knives can actually remind her of some bits of her maths. Not because he himself had already seen them or derived it, just from the same kinds of intuitions Zash displayed before but filtered through his more systematising personality.

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Oh! Oh good! Okay, excellent, hold on, she'll write it all down. Then they can use that over here immediately, and that'll also make this other one easier, too. Probably with this information they can derive something to get somewhere with this one but actually probably they should put a pin in that problem and save it for later because while that's a tempting problem she wants to solve she doesn't think it's an efficient use of time for maximum plant assistance provided. Yet. SOON THOUGH. SOON.

She is totally going to forget to feed herself, though she is better at watering herself with a water bottle right there.

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Honestly it's the plants that notice she's getting hungry, what with all of the ways they have full access to her sensorium and emotions.

"You need to eat," he says eventually. "And sleep."

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"What? Oh. Damn it, not again. You're right, thank you."

She has definitely gotten worse at caring for her own physical needs! This is a mix of never having been confronted with so many new and shiny problems to solve all at once before, and also that uh. ... Zash was kind of doing that. (She misses him.)

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Knives's left eye twitches a bit when she thinks about Zash but he otherwise does not acknowledge it.

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Here's a guide bug.

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No the fuck it is not.

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"... I might legitimately get lost going back on my own, it's a maze of corridors and I spent most of my time getting there passionately denouncing your doctor friend."

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"What does that have to—oh." His growl is purely mental. "Fine. Beast, you can send one bug. One."

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Bug!

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"...and he is not my friend."

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"Well, good, because he's a shitty person and seems like he'd be a shitty friend, too. Hi, Zazi, thank you Zazi."

And then off they can go! To care for the annoying squishy human who can't just do things indefinitely!

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Knives does not follow her. So long as she doesn't touch any consoles he doesn't care what she does or where she goes.

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Well, where she goes is to eat, and then have a shower, and then... wish for some kind of change of clothes of some kind, flop into bed without most of the one set she has on, and attempt to go to sleep.

It's really, really hard to sleep without Zash. She misses him. Misses being held and snuggled. Misses feeling his psychic presence, his emotions and thoughts and affection. The temperature in this room is perfectly regulated, and yet. ... She still feels cold.

She does eventually manage it anyway.

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Who is this human?

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She's been honest about everything, the plants guarantee that. That's fine. Being honest is one thing. But the thing with the doctor...

The way plants reason is very relational. Examples, comparisons. And when this human was getting very, intensely angry at the doctor for hurting humans, experimenting on them, and killing them... the plants heard. And one of them presented the thoughts and feelings she'd been having then, next to the thoughts and feelings she was having when Knives was grilling her about plants, and sent him a single emotion:

[=]

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The way she feels about plants is the same as the way she feels about humans. She doesn't just "care" about plants, she isn't just "honest" about wanting to help them. She cares about them and wants to help them just as much as if they were humans. More, one of the plants piped up, because she saw them as so much less able to stand up for themselves and so much more vulnerable.

Which is true, and is the thing Knives has been incandescently angry about for the past hundred and fifty years. The plants won't be angry on their own behalf, but he will be angry for them.

This human is also angry.

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And then there's Zash. The plants conveyed that human thing, likened this human and Zash to those romantic relationships humans have. Knives doesn't understand those. But then one plant likened that to his own relationship with Zash and that was absolutely preposterous. There is no way they can share that, Knives and Zash are twins, they've inhabited each other's minds entirely, they've been together (apart) for a hundred and fifty years. Where does this human who hasn't even been around a year in his life get off on claiming she could ever compare?

(She didn't. The plants did. Because they saw the resemblance, themselves, in her mind.)

(Zash can't reciprocate that, he wanted to argue, except he... probably can.)

(Who could Zash love as much as he loves Nai?)

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And nowNow this human is thinking about the times she's spent with Zash in Zash's mind. Sharing feelings and thoughts, like that. Zash can project to and read humans, it's not the same but it's the same.

No one can do that. Only him.

He wants to kill this human.

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...and yet.

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And yet.

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And yet she still, eventually, wakes. She sits up and takes stock of her new situation, feels a horrendous echoing hole in her heart because it all happened, it’s all true, it wasn’t a dream. Zazi really kidnapped her, she really is in February, she really is probably going to die whenever she says or does the wrong thing. It’s scary and awful and she wants to hide in this little bedroom forever like a child until the big bad world outside sorts itself out and stops being awful.

But, well. That’s not how anything gets done, is it. She is now the one in the glass pod. How will she be, stuck in here? Hide in a corner, use up resources without replenishing in any way, consume and consume like Zazi says?

Yeah, no. If nothing else, she’d get bored.

So she tables her concerns for Morgan and Zash’s passage on the sand steamer now that she’s just gone. Boxed up is her frustration with how she and Zash went and did the stupid feelings thing, despite both of their best efforts and better judgements, and then she didn’t even get to fuck him! Her confusion and fear and despair at probably never getting to even see sunlight again before she dies are set aside. She will not be getting out of here, not anytime soon.

So while she’s here, she might as well work.

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Knives looks somehow both angrier and less angry today. He doesn't say a single word all day long, but that includes not threatening her. When he wants to remind her to care for her (so, so fragile) physical form, he just pokes her with a foot and gives her a look.

And also he... relaxes, a bit. He isn't watching her like a hawk, so much. Still watching, still devoting all his attention to her, but there's... something different in the way he does it.

He looks a lot less ready to kill her at the drop of a hat.

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She doesn’t understand the silent foot poking at first, but she catches on quickly enough, and eventually starts to view it with a sort of wry fondness. Yeah, it sure is dumb to have to solve the same stupid problem over and over again. She’s sorry, and she’s perfectly cooperative when reminded.

He is confusing and she doesn’t understand him, but it’s sort of like trying to figure out what’s going on with plants on the other side of their gate. She doesn’t have all the information, but she has some. Angrier and less angry implies… probably he still doesn’t have any real issue with her? And finds that intensely frustrating. Poor Nai. She’s not sorry, exactly, but she does recognize that it’s fucking hard to be confronted with something you didn’t expect to ever exist.

But she thinks she’s getting somewhere. Fuck you, Conrad, there is someone Zash loves in there, and you might have buried him deep under a pile of misanthropy but she will drag him out if she can. If he’ll let her. (The comparison doesn’t occur to her, but it’s sort of like the way she decided to drag red plants back from the edge, actually.) That takes time and patience, though, so for now: she will teach this person all she knows as she uses it to help as many plants as possible.

While they’re working, the Jeneora plant flips from red to blue. Yvette doesn’t actually notice, because she’s in the middle of an equation to help figure out how to heal another one.

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Knives does. And immediately abandons Yvette to go float over to the plant and touch the glass. The plant unfurls to match him, but they don't do the glowing thing. They just stay there, looking at each other, in silence.

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Yvette finishes her equation and looks for confirmation and an extra pair of eyes, and. … there is no Nai. What? Huh?? Did he just wander off, how is she supposed to input any of this into the console without him present to be sure she’s not secretly murdering the pla—

Then she sees where he went.

Oh.

She knew she could do it, but. Damn if it’s not another thing entirely to see the math become reality. She sets her papers and pencil aside and. Yeah. She can just be happy.

(There are tears in her eyes. She hasn’t noticed.)

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Knives spends a long, long time there. Unmoving. Nearly half an hour, just floating there.

Then he'll float back and stand by the console and wait for her to resume.

He looks unperturbed. There is no evidence that he's feeling... anything. No evidence, except for the last half hour.

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It’s okay if he takes a while. She packed her lunch today, so she can just have that while she waits.

Well, she will beam at him and say, “I’m really glad she’s feeling better.”

And then, yep. Back to work. With occasional reminders to take care of her fragile human form by someone who ostensibly hates them all. She takes them with good grace, because yeah, she’s really bad at it when she’s working. Sorry.

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She. Did Zash teach her that? Zash himself keeps slipping into calling them "it" whenever he spends too long around humans. He tried to explain it once, how humans think plants are machines, and Knives still does not understand how this could possibly not make Zash absolutely livid and want to destroy things. Zash just, just smiled sadly and said "Ask the plants." and Knives knocked him unconscious and left.

So, so this human has been around Zash and Zash felt okay saying that plants aren't machines and now the human believes him and uses the right pronouns and.

Knives is really fucking angry and he has no idea who or what at. Maybe himself.

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“… are you all right?” she asks after a while, hesitantly, when it’s obvious enough to her that he’s having… some kind of emotion.

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"No."

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“Okay. Um. Can I help?”

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"Help the plants."

What the fuck is this human.

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She frowns a little. That didn’t seem like an answer of what was wrong, and how she could help. That seemed like ‘it’s not important, focus on your work.’

“… All right. But you matter too, so. Let me know if I’m needed elsewhere.”

But then yes she’ll go back to doing her job. Still a little concerned about him, but he’s expressed his preferences and she will follow them and if she doesn’t understand what’s going on then oh well.

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What the fuck is this human!!

YES, YES, HE GETS IT PLANTS, THIS SITUATION IS ANALOGOUS TO HOW SHE FEELS ABOUT OTHER PLANTS AND ABOUT HUMANS, YES SHE CARES ABOUT HIM INDIVIDUALLY, NO HE DOES NOT UNDERSTAND AND IS MAD ABOUT IT.

CAN THEY MOVE ON.

YES? THANK YOU.

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????? He is so incredibly upset, and she can tell, but doesn’t have enough to understand. She’s just going to keep doing her job??? She guesses???? Much better to ignore the strange scary knife man and his black box of feelings and just get lost in math and problem solving. Except she can’t entirely, because the scary knife man is, like, right there, having his emotional whatever it is. Constipation, maybe. She can’t help but poke at it a little, in her mind, try to figure out what’s wrong.

Eventually the hypothesis she decides on is that he’s probably mad that humans could have done this and didn’t. That makes the most sense. She’s also kind of mad about that, really.

And yeah, it’s pretty fair to want to ignore that and just focus on being better! She supports this. She continues doing equations, a bit more happily, now.

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WHY IS SHE HAVING THESE THOUGHTS NOW.

HE HATES HER.

(They are such reasonable thoughts. Yes he's mad that humans could have done this and didn't. That wasn't what he was mad about just then but IT IS NOW.)

(Beats being mad about WHAT IS THIS FUCKING HUMAN.)

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Yep, she thinks she totally figured it out, and has no idea she gave him an even better thing to be mad about! Instead she’ll just continue happily working with no fucking idea of what she’s done to his internal state.

She still wants to teach him the logic of how to do this himself, though!!! Doing it personally is nice and all, and she will happily continue, but since she’s a squishy human and will die eventually she wants her work to outlast her. He is not a squishy human, so clearly he is a better repository for how to do this than she is.

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The computers are recording everything she says and does anyway, he made sure to have the doctor set that up, so he doesn't have to rely on his own memory.

...but also he wants to learn, himself. For some reason. And he wants her to teach him. For some STUPID reason.

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Then she will! Happily.

She does however still have those annoying human needs like ‘sleep,’ though.

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Yeah, he knows. It's dumb.

Whatever.

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For what it’s worth, the plants will compare her annoyance to his and offer an [=], so it’s not like she’s doing it to spite him personally. Though, that might make it worse, really.

Anyway, she goes and takes care of human needs, kicks herself for forgetting to ask about more clothes, and then goes to bed. And misses Zash.

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Yeah. Yeah, that makes two of them.

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Zazi shows up, sometimes, to chat. Not while she's working, because Knives is still shooting their bugs off whenever they show up in the plants room, but when she's taking her breaks, or right after waking up, or right before going to sleep. They've decided they like Yvette, and they're getting her help with coming up with more puns. And they're starting to get pretty optimistic that Knives won't kill her at all!

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No. He won't. He's coming to realise this, to his great annoyance.

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Her death no longer constantly imminent, she does get new clothes and a toothbrush and a hairbrush and other things associated with the maintenance of one’s human. She can in fact do any advocating for herself and her comfort! Imagine that.

Honestly, she kind of likes Zazi, too. Talking to them is a nice change of pace as she settles in to something almost resembling a routine.

Would Zazi like to learn math? They’ve probably figured a lot of it out, but that’s not the same as someone teaching them, and, well. If humanity gives nothing else to the natives of the planet they crash landed on, she strongly feels like the ability to do math is a pretty fucking good way to be remembered.

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Ooh, can they learn can they learn? Pretty pretty pleeeease, Knivesyyyyy?

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...fine. He's not that mad at Zazi anymore anyway.

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Yeeeeeeey!

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Excellent! Then Zazi gets math lessons.

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He doesn't understand.

Every day, he follows her, and he watches her work. Every day, she does good work. She teaches him things. She helps the plants.

Why couldn't the doctor have done this? He did so much work on Tesla.

(The doctor's work is only to destroy, never to heal.)

He doesn't know when exactly he gets completely convinced that she just isn't... bad. At all. Doesn't know what the precipitating event is, if there even is one. He spends his time with her, and he watches her work, and his sisters read her mind and try their best to communicate it to him. It keeps coming up the same, every time. Every time. She's being honest.

Was Zash right? Is that what's going on? But it makes no sense. Even this human agrees that other so-called "plant engineers" aren't like this. They're awful. They use and use and use. They hurt his sisters, hurt them until they die. And he wanted to save them but couldn't. Couldn't find them all in time, and couldn't keep them alive. Not at the rate humans consume them. Not in the long term.

It's noticeable, to Yvette, how he gets more comfortable with her over time. Stops glowering quite so much. Starts talking to her more like someone who can be listened to.

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He... can sort of see. What Zash saw, here.

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He likes her fire. He likes the way she gets so absorbed in her work she just starts to run her mouth. He likes that she is...

...angry, like him...

...and compassionate and kind and loving, like other plants.

Like Zash.

He doesn't understand. But he wants to.

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Knives trusts her. That's the thing that's happening, here. He's starting to trust her. She doesn't have any ulterior motives, she just is like that.

If he leaves her to it, she'll keep doing what she's doing.

She will keep saving his sisters.

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And one day, while she's being particularly annoyed at some dumb decision some human made, he laughs at it.

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And then he notices what he just did and... panics. That's a dumb thing to happen, but he panics.

What is going on.

"I have something to do," he says abruptly, then he turns around and leaves.

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"Um? Okay," she says, bewildered. This is not normal Nai behavior. She was kind of in the middle of something, reading diagnostics from the console, and hadn't finished following this potential lead to see if it went anywhere. It irks her to just go and put it down without getting to a decent stopping point. ... But trust is important, and to have it she needs to be trustworthy, so she will. Back away from the console like a good human. Leave it be for later, when he's here, so he can know that she will not abuse his trust. And try to figure out something else to do, she guesses.

(She really hopes he's not going to go kill people.)

It's not really clear what she should do with herself without work to hyperfocus on, though. Um. This is hard. She could probably explore the facility? Without trying to leave? She can navigate back to her own room and the kitchen just fine, by now, but there is a lot of retrofitted spaceship to wander around in.

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The bug on her hair buzzes a bit.

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"Mmm? Somewhere you'd like me to go?"

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It buzzes a bit more then takes off.

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"... Okay, sure, but please remember I will be much less interesting if I am dead," she says, a little bemused, but: yeah okay, sure. Is... she going to be shown Conrad's horrible experimental lair with his unwilling human subjects? Because she hasn't seen any hint of it since coming here, but probably it's nearby, right? It'd just be practical. (And also she will absolutely break it into tiny, tiny pieces if she can do so safely.)

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It turns out that no! It takes numerous twists and turns but as they walk the architecture gets... nicer. Cleaner. Less old and destroyed. A newer area of the ship/city, or one that wasn't as affected by the destruction as the plant room was. And the specific room she's being led to is a big, spacious one with a very tall ceiling and a single, beautiful piano in the middle.

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".... Huh."

She hasn't seen a piano since back in Jeneora Rock. She'd never gotten around to playing that one because it was in an awkwardly public spot, and she was kind of busy doing other, more important things. So the last time she played was back in December, and that seems like several lifetimes ago. It's really very tempting to go play. Hopefully her skills haven't atrophied too much from lack of use, her tutor would be livid.

But... this whole place feels... something. Sacred, maybe. Certainly well kept. How about she investigates thoroughly before she touches anything, hm?

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The bug nestles itself on her hair again and goes quiet.

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It's not decorated. Other than the piano, a stool, and a small box with a pile of what turns out to be sheet music, there's nothing there.

And there's some sheet music on the piano itself, above the keys, neatly placed and ready to be read and played.

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Huh. Okay. Then... she's tempted. What songs are available to play? There are a few she could do from memory, but they're not the fun ones.

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The sheet that's on the piano itself seems to be just the one song. It's not terribly complicated, certainly not for her, though it is a two voices song with some interesting cross-hand moments. From looking at it it looks somewhat melancholic, with some interesting higher notes that will probably sound very nice in harmony.

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It does look like it'd be reasonably fun. A pretty good warm up song, actually. So. ... Yeah, okay. She thinks it'll be okay. Trespassing probably isn't going to get her killed. Despite randomly leaving for no apparent reason, Nai's been relaxing around her lately. At worst, she expects him to be cross, and tell her to never come here again. And she hasn't in a while, and no one's here, and she doesn't have anything better to be doing right now.

She will in fact sit down, read through the song to familiarize herself with it, stretch her fingers, and play.

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It's beautiful. A bit over three minutes long, and it almost feels like a story being told, its words long forgotten. It's not one she's heard before, except, perhaps, very distantly, from months ago at a town that no longer exists.

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She'd been too far away to hear it then. Maybe if she had, then she'd understand some of its significance. As it is now, it just looked beautiful and like it'd be fun.

But she plays it well enough, and it's more beautiful when heard instead of written, and it really was fun to finally get to play again.

She finishes it, then goes poking around in the box for another song to play, humming some of the last one's tune to herself as she does.

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Knives takes a seat next to her at the piano. It's unclear when he arrived, he's silent as death.

But warmer. This close to her, he's as warm as Zash is.

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She jumps a little, surprised. Um??? Um.

"Oh, hello. Sorry, I didn't mean to distract you from your, um, thing?"

Why does he look so intense. Because, uh, she's got a decent feel for his microexpressions by now and. That is extremely intense and focused and it has her concerned.

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He grabs the sheet music she'd just been playing from, puts it together neatly, then summons some floating blades to place it into the box. Some other blades gently nudge her away from said box so he can fetch another sheaf which he then places on the piano for both of them to read.

Because this song needs four hands.

It's a duet.

Without saying anything, he starts playing; his part of the duet lasts about thirty seconds before hers begins, so that's how long she has to get her bearings and join him. And while this is quickly clear just from reading the sheet it becomes even clearer as he plays:

This is the original song. It's meant to be played by two people. The song Yvette had just been playing is a modified version of it, made to be played alone, but between listening to Knives's part and reading the sheet music itself it becomes painfully obvious that there was something very important missing from what she'd been playing, that you can only notice when you listen to the original, like this.

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Oh, hell, what has she just gotten herself into. Something she can't get out of except by putting her heart into it, clearly, because obviously this is very important to him. And... probably because he played it with Zash. Yeah, uh, good job, Yvette. You're in for it now, whatever 'it' is.

She'd really prefer to have some more time to familiarize herself with this before she's thrown into the deep end, but, um, okay sure. She waits for the appropriate moment, and then she'll pick up her part.

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He doesn't judge her for her mistakes. If it seems like she needs a redo, he'll pause and redo, or gesture at the correct keys or straight up show her how it's done. At times he seems to get frustrated, probably at having to physically show her stuff rather than being able to just share his mind with her, but...

...he started crying at some point. Silently, just two lines of tears running down his cheeks from his eyes. His expression doesn't change, and he doesn't otherwise acknowledge his feelings, but he's definitely crying.

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She doesn't make very many mistakes, actually, though she does make them. She had her warm up, and it was even on a song that's based on this one, and she is very much trying her best. It's extremely stressful, though. She is probably the most anxious he's ever seen her, even beating out when she first arrived and literally feared she was about to die. They are not following the (read: her) standard piano playing procedure!!! Usually she'd read over the whole thing and maybe quickly practice the hardest parts before putting it all together instead of just, just. This!!! Duet with a guy who knows this song like it's his own heart, because in a way it kind of is, no time to breathe you're in the deep end and and and and.

It's fine. This is fine. She does not need any redos, she is fine she will make her damn tutor proud and she will awkwardly fill in for this lonely man's twin and if she flubs a little then then then it's his own damn fault, okay!

When the song is concluded she lets out a breath she didn't know she was holding. In sort of a nervous whine. She eases up from her hyperfocus to look at him and. Yep he's. He's crying. Um.

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He spends a few seconds staring at the piano keys, not saying anything.

Then he gets up and walks away.

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??????????

"Okay, bye???" she says in a very small voice, still a little shellshocked.

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A few seconds later Zazi walks into the room.

"Both twins, huh?"

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She’s still a bit slow on the uptake, she’s usually much more quick to parse Zazi’s implied meanings.

“… What?”

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"Nothing, nothing. We didn't know you could play but we made a bet and boy did it pay off."

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“The… piano? I. Zazi I would have appreciated a warning before accidentally walking in on half a man’s bleeding heart and casually playing it for funsies.”

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"Where would the fun in that be? And besides, he got really excited that you were playing with his instrument."

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“Oh, so you’ve graduated to innuendo now, is it,” she snorts rolling her eyes, but her lips do twitch because, well. … it was a pretty good one. “Shit. Right. Um. I’m going to go back to my room now, I guess.” Her mouth twitches again, and okay, she can’t resist. “Since he did do a number on me in his enthusiasm.”

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They laugh delightedly and then their little bug buzzes and starts leading the way. "Keep going like that though and you will bag both twins," they call after her as she's leaving.

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“Hooray for me, the full set,” she says, but, um. Well, now she’s embarrassed and going to go hide in her room. She’s aware that Zazi can absolutely see her hide under the covers but damn it she’s going to do it anyway because. Because.

(Noooooo no no no twin threesome fantasies are not for involving real people because they are fantasies and therefore are entirely fictional and they are better that way!!!)

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After about an hour a child appears at her door. This is notable because the child is not Zazi. She's platinum blonde like Nai and she's wearing a simple sleeveless white dress that goes down to her knees and she's barefoot.

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By this point she’s screwed her head back on from where it popped off at playing the piano. She’s had a shower and is lounging on her bed, reading. (Among the things humans require for maintenance is literature, in her opinion.)

She looks up at her door opening, blinking. “Oh, um. Hello. Can I help you?”

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"...you? You are the human Master Knives is obsessed with?" she asks, stepping into the room with a look a jungle cat might reserve to something it hasn't yet decided whether it's prey. Not that Yvette will get the reference but she'll get the look.

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… why does she feel like she is in quite a lot of danger right now.

“Probably, he doesn’t tend to keep a lot of pet humans around,” she says, a little warily. “I’m Yvette, it’s nice to meet you?”

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"...no. No it's not.

"Why does he like you?" She starts pacing back and forth around Yvette as if trying to discern her true nature. "What so special about you? Why are you still alive?"

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She sets her book aside and draws herself up to a sitting position.

“Well, I have put quite a lot of work into healing plants, so, uh. That’s probably it? To all three questions. I don’t think I’m otherwise all that remarkable.”

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"You're playing dumb. Stop doing that."

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Her brow furrows.

“… Fine. But my answer nonetheless remains the same. I don’t think I’m an outlier, I just think I was the first idiot to trip into all of this.”

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She smirks. "Idiot is right," she says, with a purr in her voice that really clashes with her childlike appearance. "Well, he'll forget about you soon enough, and then I'll have him for myself again."

And off she goes without waiting for a response.

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The fuck was any of that???

But, yeah she’ll just let creepy predator girl who is maybe having jealousy issues with Nai leave without any kind of bye or anything? That seems like the best option for her own safety.

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None of the myriad superpowered people in the compound come to bother her for the rest of the day.

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Well, uh. Good???

Despite this thought, she does wander out of her room to see if Nai is back with the plants. Because if he is, then she can therefore throw herself into work and stop having confusing human feelings. That sounds much better than having those confusing human feelings in a compound surrounded by people who mostly all think humanity are scum.

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Knives is there, floating in front of another plant, a red one, and glowing while he heals her. He doesn't acknowledge Yvette at all.

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Oh. Uh.

That's technically here, but also not what she was hoping for. She's not sure what she was hoping for, actually, now that she thinks about it. Pretending everything is normal and the world hasn't tilted sideways seems... like an impossibility right now. Mostly she just wants to distract herself with work. And is too damn trustworthy to pick it back up again without him to supervise her, because she's trying to make a fucking point, here.

... She'll just go back to her room and read, then.

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No she won't.

An X of blades appears in front of the exit before she can leave the room, and then another blade whose point is in the direction of the console appears next to her, swaying back and forth like some video game arrow pointing at her goal.

But then the X disappears, after spending a few seconds there. If she really wants to she can go back to her room, but... he wants her here.

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???????

O...kay???

Well that definitely looks like permission to work even though he's clearly distracted, so. She will just. Do that.

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Good.

He won't supervise her for the rest of today, though; he'll just flit between plants and do his thing with them while seemingly paying her zero attention. Also, given the number of them he can do this to, he clearly has a lot more stamina for this than Zash does, and the limiting factor is the plants' own stamina, not his.

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She notices the difference in stamina compared to Zash, but it makes sense. He's spent all of his time doing this, and comparatively, Zash has been running around in the desert with humans, just trying to get to them to help. Instead of building his plant healing stamina.

But anyway yes, work. Soothing, soothing work, where her brain can be used for things that are not latent sexual panic things that are confusing and squishy and not math. Math is better. Math is here for her.

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Knives isn't here for her except for how he apparently kind of is. It's unclear exactly how much attention he's paying but given the blades from earlier, well. Some, at least.

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She will not be thinking about that, because apparently her type is extremely powerful and dramatic men and man is that inconvenient. It is strictly math time. Plants will be so helped and she will calm down. Yes.

And then when she's tired and cranky and is noticing that her dumb human body is reaching its dumb limits forced upon her by biology, she can go to bed like a normal person.

...

"Goodnight, Nai," she says before she goes, feeling a little silly with how he's ignoring her. But, well. He clearly does trust her, and she does really appreciate that.

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He turns around to stare at her as she leaves (he hasn't been healing the plants anymore for the last hour, just chatting to them) but before she's fully gone he says, "Good night."

Nai...?

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She smiles a little and then goes to bed without further incident.

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And while she sleeps, someone else arrives in February. A plant from a sand steamer that Yvette had spent quite a lot of time with.

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Oh, yes. The nut who calls him "God" was meant to go fetch it. He really can be quite useful sometimes, it'll be a little bit of a shame to have to kill him if the Punisher succeeds at getting Zash here. Not much of a shame, he's also a prick, but, you know.

He goes to fetch the plant and find a place for her while he talks to her and reintroduces her to their sisters. Hi, hello, yes, he is Nai, these are—

—yes, indeed, that one human is in this compound, she was on the sand steamer? Huh. Interesting. And then they—she did what? And Zash did what? And she thought what???

What?

What.

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Yep.

She did and thought all of those things. Fought desperately to keep this poor plant alive, and raged quietly at the callous humans that wanted to squeeze her dry, and hated herself a little for what she was being an accomplice to, and loved Zash, and despaired because this meant she would break his heart. All where this plant could see. All shared willingly with her, and treating and respecting her as a full person.

Zash helped them talk to each other more directly, and, once the communication bridge was raised, Yvette was quite happy to. And good at it.

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There's. There's one explanation. One blindingly obvious explanation, now that he's thought of it. But it... it makes no sense. Why now? A hundred and fifty years late, too late?

...she's angry, and she's loving, and she's compassionate...

Why now?

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No answer is likely to make itself apparent without words, with how she has that irritating problem with not being psychic.

But after she's cared for her dumb human biology she will be back in the plant room with her water bottle, looking to help.

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Knives is already there, talking to a plant. He does react when she walks in, though, turning around and floating over to her. "Where were you born?" he asks with no preamble.

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"Uh, December?" she says, blinking.

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Big city plants... he doesn't know them that well. December is far, he doesn't visit it often, doesn't have the chance to.

"When?"

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"Twenty-six years ago...?"

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He looks up at the plants for a couple of seconds then nods and looks back at her. "You were born from parents? A mother and a father?"

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"Yyyyyes that is how it usually works with us."

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That rules out the standard scenario. He nods again then goes to float next to the console, chewing on something.

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??????

"... Uh, while you're feeling talkative," she says, trying to move on from... whatever the heck that was about... "I had a visitor yesterday. Uh, small blond girl, looked like a child but spoke like a carnivore, one gold eye one blue?"

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"Elendira."

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"Okay. Well, she seemed..." Obsessive? Jealous?? Murderous??? "... like she had some sort of problem with me, and, um. I am squishy and delicate. So. Do I need to be worried about her?"

Because she is. She totally is.

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"No."

Because if Elendira does anything to this human(?) Knives will make sure she lives to regret it.

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"... All right. Thank you." Pause. "I've got to be honest but you attract a lot of fucking weirdos."

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"Tell me about it."

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... This earns a little giggle from her, actually.

"That sounds difficult. I'm sorry."

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He offers her a small smile.

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Then it's back to his usual scowl.

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She thinks that he might just have a resting bitch face, actually.

Anyway. With all of that out of the way they can get back to work! The thing that makes them both happiest, honestly.

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Yeah. Yeah, it actually is.

...but after about an hour he asks, "How similar are you to your parents?"

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"Hm? Very. I look like almost a carbon copy of my mother and my dad's also a plant engineer. Um. A good one, not, like." She waves vaguely.

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"He's not here. You are."

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"Well, yes, but I also don't think Zazi would have any reason to... also kidnap my dad??"

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"He was not on the sand steamer," he says with a frustrated sigh. "Or in Jeneora. He's in December."

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".... Also yes, but. Most of his work's been on linking plants together to let them help each other instead of separating them into little groups. Which was, for some fucking reason, the standard procedure before. I, he's. I know he's not here but he's doing good."

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...a lot of plants linked together, was it. In December. Where this plant engineer was working with them. And he was one of the better ones, so that she wouldn't be punished or mocked when she turned out—better. And instead she grew up to be like this. Like she was meant to be.

"Hm," he replies, noncommitally.

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"There are other good humans, really," she adds, softly.

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"Yes, I am aware that that is an opinion you have."

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She gives a heavy sigh, dropping her shoulders. Ugh.

"There's a, a range of goodness in humans. Statistically speaking it's extremely unlikely for there to be a single fantastical outlier, much less one that falls into the specific circumstances to meet you. And you seem to actually like me. Am I a bad human?"

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"You're not bad." Jury's still out on that other part, though.

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That causes her to smile, just a little.

"Well, thank you. So... what evidence do you need to rule me out as an outlier?"

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"A human who is very slightly less good than you are. A human who is better. Many of them."

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"Okay." Huff. "I can't get that for you right now, I don't really specialize in meeting and judging humans by a metric of goodness, but. Maybe some day." Zash would be able to. Unfortunately, she's not Zash. "Though I really feel like the doctor's just the absolute worst human for you to have kept around for so long."

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"That much I know."

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"Just, just an absolute not-even-good-enough-to-be-considered-garbage person that is terrible even when being an instrument of someone else's will," she continues, seriously.

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"He does what I want. I don't care about the rest."

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"Even though it's probably why you're surrounded by crazy people???"

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"They don't bother me often. Some of them are useful. The telekinesis human brought me the sand steamer plant. The cross gun human is bringing me Zash."

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"Th—" she stops. "The what. Bringing you Zash???"

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"The human with the gun. That is a cross." This is so frustrating if she were a proper plant he'd be able to just show her who he means.

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"No, no, I, um. Recognized her from the description, I just. Morgan?"

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"I don't know the name." Why would he memorise the names of the crazy humans the doctor makes. Most of them don't last a decade anyway.

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"Right. Um. Okay."

This seems to have neatly shut her up, actually.

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The plants are presenting him with analogies. And saying this is important.

"Did the human lie?" he eventually asks.

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".... not directly but. ... yes."

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"Humans lie," he says, nodding. "...I'm sorry she lied. I did not tell her to."

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"I. Thanks."

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She's still upset.

Relatable, he gets upset for very long too even when things are no longer being actively upsetting, but for some reason this is distressing him.

He doesn't know what to do about it.

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She is mostly wishing Zash were here to hug her, actually. She misses hugs. But more cerebrally, she also wants to actually talk to Morgan, hear her side of things, because. Probably the truth is complicated?? The truth is usually complicated.

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One part of that makes sense, at least. Though it's not like it's possible to talk to humans. He stares at her intently and tries very, very, very hard to project to her.

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Yvette appears to have no idea whatsoever. Though she does eventually notice him staring.

"Oh, um, I'm okay. Just a little sad," she assures.

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...nngh.

Whatever. Working is simpler. Untangling this stuff seems like it'll take a while.

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Working is simpler! And they're almost done getting their new guest settled, and honestly Yvette doesn't feel even a little bit bad about this one being stolen. She saw what was happening and, well. Look, she wants to help the humans too, but there are more sustainable ways to do that, which means more helping in the long term. Granted, uh, Nai is.... not going to let any of them do those sustainable things, but. .... she'll try to convince him, okay. She's working on it.

But once that's all squared away she does actually leave the console to go gently touch the tank that was formerly on a sand steamer.

"Sorry I can't say your name properly, but. It's nice to see you again and I'll help you feel better, okay? You did really good work and deserve to rest for a while," she says, while thinking a sort of wry 'Yeah, me too' at technically being in kind of the exact situation. Of being kind of kidnapped. Again: she's working on it.

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When she returns to the console he's sitting cross-legged in the air and staring intently at her again, frowning deeply.

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????

"Is... something wrong?" she asks, blinking.

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"Yes. No. Maybe." Words, man, they fucking suck no matter what the Beast thinks.

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"O...kay. Can I help?"

Funniest thing, she feels like they've been here before.

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"Yes."

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"Oh, good! How?"

Because she wants to!!!

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"I don't know."

He sounds so incredibly frustrated.

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"Oh." She droops a little. "Can you... describe what is wrong to me so I can maybe diagnose what is going on."

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He shakes his head. "I don't know what you are."

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"... Human??? I didn't realize that would be in question??"

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"Are you?"

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"Yes?? I think I would have noticed if I weren't by now??"

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"Would you have? How do you know?"

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"You... have cool psychic powers and a healing factor and had as I understand it an extremely accelerated childhood. I have had none of those things."

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"The plants have learned better."

Word words words words suck.

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"... What?"

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"Humans hate us. Zash and me.

"They don't hate you."

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"Are you... you think I'm some kind of extremely stealthy plant hybrid. That. Is your explanation for why you like me."

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"Obviously."

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"That. Is. Very much not the obvious explanation to liking a human???"

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"In hindsight."

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"I really feel like you're just looking for a way to write off the rest of humanity and fit with your established worldview over following grounded evidence."

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Fine. Fine, if he needs words to communicate he will. Make an attempt.

"You are like me. And you are like Zash. In... temperament. Tesla... didn't work. We didn't work. You grew up with humans, they listen to you. You care about plants like you do humans. You care about the Beast like you do humans. The plants said so. If the plants wanted to help, and be helped, and be heard—they made us. And it's been a hundred and fifty years, they know more about humans—here. On this planet."

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She considers this.

"... Okay, I see the logic. It would be a very clever way to get what they wanted. I think I still ultimately disagree with you, but I've had more ability to personally interact with humans where they're not... so desperate and scared and, and incentivized to be vicious. I also think you're majorly handicapped in your ability to perceive tone and body language and use these annoying words things. So I do not feel at all like an outlier, but I can understand how you would. Um. I'd say do you want to meet some humans, but I think that'd go terribly, actually. Really what I want to do is shove you at Zash and try to get him to explain why some humans are great, but."

And there's that familiar longing for Zash again.

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"That is the point. He needs to explain. You need to explain. I don't need to explain you. You are you, desperate and scared."

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"... Right. I.... think I understand. You want humans who are good under all circumstances. Because we're, er, other humans who are not me because I've been purposefully predictable, are like a black box that sometimes outputs awful things and sometimes outputs good things. And you can't predict it at all, and that inability is terrifying when there are lives on the line. Which there are, and the people you do understand are dying to the people you don't. Does that sound correct?"

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"Because plants are good under all circumstances. Zash is good under all circumstances. They are just good. You are just good. If I," and he runs a frustrated hand through his hair. "If I never let you leave. You will help the plants. If I do, you will help the plants. And the humans. And even the Beast. That is not how humans are."

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“I mean, I think I have been less than perfectly good in some circumstances. I did kill a guy.” And because of his self hatred and how he’s part human, he is not an available example, because he believes he needs to be the bad guy to save them all. “Otherwise… that makes sense. Mm. And you just want there to… never be any bad intentions or actions, ever?”

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"You killed him because he was evil." His frustration is continually increasing. Why can't they just share a mind. He does not know what constraints his sisters were operating under but not giving their new independent any means to properly talk is very bad. "It's not about what I want. It's about what is."

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She’s also very frustrated, because man she is not good at undefined vague variables like ‘good’ and ‘evil.’ Can she please go back to her equations, everything makes sense there. Probably this is exactly what he’s feeling, too. Damn it. Apparently, she should have gone into philosophy instead of plant engineering, because that would be a better vector to save the world. Convincing this one guy that humans can be worth the trouble.

“…. This is a very hard conversation for both of us, I think, and we might both just be getting frustrated without really going anywhere. Would it help to break it into chunks?? God I wish I could just. Psychic at you.”

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"Me too. It would be faster and more.

"Break it into chunks how?"

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“Yes it would be,” she agrees, a little wryly. “Um, well for one, have a series of shorter philosophical discussions with breaks where we both heal plants or something in between, but also. …. This feels like instead of just one problem of humans being bad, it’s. Many. Plants are easy to take advantage of. Humans are hard to predict and understand, and some of them will be massive dicks. They absolutely require assistance to survive in their current state. Your current window into humanity is tiny, and mostly focused on a guy you despise and all of the humans he’s traumatized over the years. I think instead of trying to tackle the whole big problem, we. Split it up. Does that make sense?”

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"Yes. Fine. That works.

"Let's get back to helping plants."

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She lets out a little laugh.

“You’re too frustrated too, huh? Yeah. Sounds good.”

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Well they're right by the console so he gestures at it and then floats next to her.

Uh. Perhaps a bit closer than he usually does. Perhaps right next to her. Perhaps close enough that she can once again feel just how warm he is.

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It is very tempting to just lean on him, especially since he’s perfectly Zash sized and warm and she has become accustomed to Zash sourced cuddles. She misses cuddles. She still has trouble falling asleep alone. It is very hard to ignore the delicious treat of physical affection, when it is right here, being wafted in front of her goddamned nose. This is pretty good evidence against Nai’s hypothesis that she’s a super secret plant hybrid, because she’s pretty sure a plant would not be an awful and terrible person in this way. C’mon woman, this is his brother, have literally any class and loyalty!!

But since she has an awful lot of practice by now also ignoring what is right in front of her nose: work!

Without cuddles. :(

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"You want a hug." It's not a question.

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“…. Yeah,” she admits, because, well. It’s extremely true.

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Well. Sure. Fine. He'll hug.

...like a koala. He wraps both arms and both legs around her and rests his head on the soft bit between her shoulder and her neck.

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Squeak.

This is really very distracting, especially with how he is completely naked, and, and.

“Thanks,” she says, anyway, relaxing into him because. It’s really very nice, okay. And he means well and is fortunate enough to have a libido that apparently just has an off switch she is so jealous. “Though, um. Maybe just the arms for complicated human reasons?”

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Zash used to like it when Nai hugged him like that. Said it was cosy.

He guesses people are different. He'll stop with the legs and the head.

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Well, it is very cozy. That’s sort of the problem. Like she said, complicated human reasons.

“Thanks,” she repeats, and she gently touches his arm. If he’s anything like Zash, he’s likely just as touch starved. Probably more, considering his habit of being surrounded by crazy people.

This does make work more comfortable, actually. It’s… really nice.

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...damn it. You know, Nai would really like this human person to stop thinking these things because the plants keep getting on his case.

Obviously he misses Zash. This isn't news. They know this. He misses him so much. What's another way he misses Zash to add to the pile? He misses being hugged. He misses physical contact. The plants don't have it, don't need it, can't grant it, and whatever... humanity...

He misses physical intimacy and now he knows he misses physical intimacy and that'll make it worse.

The Yvette-fractal, again, offered to him. She likes physical intimacy. She misses it (the feeling Nai feels is [=] to the feeling she feels) and she misses Zash ([=]) and she loves Zash ([=]) and she's having some bizarre human emotion related to reproduction about him and Zash that means that even though she would like physical intimacy and would even like it from him she also doesn't want it and she feels [~] to the way she feels about the cross-gun human about this.

This is incredibly fucking confusing.

He'll just... keep hugging. He guesses.

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She does not have plants or any kind of telepathy to tell her what he's thinking, but... she absolutely notices something is up with him anyway.

"You okay?"

(This question comes with a small touch of concern on one of the arms wrapped around her.)

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"You had confusing thoughts and emotions. My sisters could not translate them. I do not understand them."

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"....... yyyyyeah I can see how they would be absolutely incapable of translating them for you," she snorts. "It's... extremely ridiculous human thoughts, don't worry about them? They do not entirely make sense and I think I'd honestly have trouble putting them properly to words, so."

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"They say that you want more hugs. But don't."

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"Pretty accurate approximation. Human emotions can be sort of... contradictory a lot of the time? I have ultimately weighed in favor of the compromise of 'yes, hugs' but not the... most hugs possible. Which, uh, sorry, I realize you're also probably pretty touch starved."

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"...but why."

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"Is that a 'but why are there not more hugs'?" she says, a little amused.

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Oh good he didn't have to explain. "Yes."

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"I, it would. I would be uncomfortable? Even as part of me enjoyed it. Human psychology is confusing and strange, to all of the lovely ladies listening, I do not recommend it."

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He does not seem at all satisfied with this answer but he doesn't know how to poke at it from any other angles so he just gives up.

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"Sorry," she repeats, gently patting him.

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Yes, yes, whatever, they can get back to work. Well, she can, while he continues to hug her with just his arms, and he supposes his chest too a bit? She hasn't complained about that. He's not sure how a hug would have arms but no chest, he doesn't have detachable arms like Zash does. Also she should still explain what she's doing at the console because, well, he wants to help his sisters.

...

.......

...........also he likes listening to her voice.

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She is happy to continue explaining things as she had been doing! It's important that the things and discoveries she makes outlast her, which seems to be important to her. Similarly, she's also keeping careful record of her work, mostly through the console itself, but there are some things she carefully writes (or graphs) on paper. She pets his arm absently (and without thinking about it) while she does this more boring work.

"Though you don't have a scanner or a printer hooked up to this thing yet, so. ... Actually if you could manage to get those without murder that would be great."

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He frowns. "Beast, get the doctor here."

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Zazi forms. "Why should we?"

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"Because."

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"You're so persuasive, Mr. Knives!"

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"You don't mean that."

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"Good job, soon enough you'll be able to move on to irony!"

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Why is this creature so aggravating. ...creatures. These creatures. Whatever.

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Yvette snorts a little, and pats him soothingly.

"I want a scanner and printer so I can properly record data. And wouldn't it be fun to make the doctor go play fetch? And see his face when he walks in with us like this?"

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"Mr. Knives, you should learn from Ms. Marlowe, that was what persuasion looks like. We'll go bother the good doctor." And off go the bugs.

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"...Marlowe? Yvette Marlowe?"

That's good, that's useful, he'll be able to look up her family for more evidence that she's a plant.

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"... Yes. That is indeed my name," she says, a little wryly. "Middle name 'Sylvia' but first and last name should let you find me just fine."

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He nods, starts to lean into her shoulder again, remembers she said arms only, and pulls back again.

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"Head's fine," she assures him. "It was just the legs that were. ... yes."

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"Oh. Something about the weird reproduction-related feelings. I see." He can lean his head against her then.

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"It is exactly with the weird reproduction-related feelings." Pat pat pat.

And then back to work!! She is kind of excited at the prospect of having a SCANNER and a PRINTER, she is going to be distracted getting all of that set up. This doesn't involve directly helping his sisters, but it's for if he ever needs to without her.

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If she'd said that on day one he'd have been suspicious. Now he kinda just... believes her.

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Dr. Conrad shows up a few hours later with a scanner and a printer that look... like they were literally just purchased.

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It'd make sense for him to just have money. Money is useful for things.

"Hello!" she says cheerily to Dr. Conrad, when he shows up. Is she smug? Her?? Smug? Yes, absolutely. Because it's obvious that the doctor has literally never tried giving Nai a hug. Or even thought about it.

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No no he's thought about it he was just very sure he'd have been knifed to death if he tried.

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Not to death. Just a lot.

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And anyway Dr. Conrad looks, if anything, somewhat happy to see this. It's very minor body language, he's still trying to be professional, but it's there. Here are the requested items, if they need anything Yvette can reach him using that specific messaging app on the computer. It will always get him even if he's asleep.

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"Thank you very much!"

And then yes, back to work. With ~*~printed, scanned, and consolidated data!!!!~*~

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She is really happy about this for some reason? ...and that also makes him really happy? Okay.

(He misses it when he made people happy. Well, Zash. ...and Rem, he guesses. But still.)

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Well, she seems pretty happy. About consolidated and organized data, and also about the snuggles. Because she does keep occasionally petting him and leans into him a bit. Mmmmm snuggles.

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He's not going to grill her on any more information about her birth for the rest of the day. Just... hug, and watch, and learn.

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Then she will just happily work until she needs to be reminded that she has a physical form that requires maintenance. Because she's absolutely going to forget that again. She's distracted by having a scanner and printer when she didn't have one before and she has so much STUFF to organize!

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Yeah he supposes they have a system going now, don't they.

...wait does this mean he'll have to unhug.

WHAT IS WRONG WITH HIM.

"You need to care for your physical form," he says, which is a phrase he got from her.

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“Oh damn it I do,” she grumbles, almost as irritated as he is. “Ughhhh.”

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"Yes." And it would be pathetic for him to be extremely disappointed that he has to stop hugging so he just floats away. "Good night, Yvette."

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"Good night, Nai," she says, but he can get a proper goodbye hug from her before she goes.

And then, yes, food, bed, miscellaneous physical form maintenance. Just. The WORST.

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Nnnnngh.

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He's outside the room after she's done with food the next morning. He's even using his muscles to stand rather than bullshit.

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This surprises her! But she does smile at him and say, "Good morning!"

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"Good morning."

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She tilts her head.

"Do you want immediate resumption of hugs, Nai."

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"Why do you call me Nai?"

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"Oh. Zash said it was your name? And it seemed friendlier to call you that instead of the things you make. I guess I can switch to Knives if you'd rather, I wasn't thinking much about it."

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"Zash. And you care."

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"Yes? Of course I care? I kind of feel like just calling you 'Knives' is just sort of. ... Judging you by what you can do, instead of seeing you for who you are. But if you'd actually rather be called Knives, that's fine, I can stop getting my weird human psychology all over your self presentation."

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"I didn't pick it. Humans did."

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"I mean... yes. That is the standard procedure, I didn't pick my name either. Usually names are things that are given. Sort of like gifts. Except sometimes the recipient doesn't want the gift and shouldn't... be stuck with it forever just because someone meant well but missed."

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"Zash is the only one who calls me Nai. Used to. And now you. ...and Rem."

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"Right. Zash mentioned her, he said she was like your mother."

She can't help but notice he's evading her question. Possibly he's still thinking about it?

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He summons a single blade right next to her neck, close enough a single wrong move could draw blood.

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Eep. "Um. Sorry. You disagree?"

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"You're scared. And confused. And you'll still help the plants."

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"Yyyyyyyes? If you are making a point can you please make it with... sharps not so close to my very squishy neck because, um."

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The blade vanishes. "They're part of the point.

"There's a reason I use knives. I am knives, but I am not Knives."

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Blink blink blink this is very confusing and she does not understand at all.

"...... yes?? I'm sorry I'm still a little bit freaked out by the knife that close to my jugular thing can you please not do that again."

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"I'm not going to hurt you. Ever."

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It's a real pity that she doesn't have the ability to project, because she just cannot possibly string her thoughts into words right now. One of them is 'not all ways you can hurt people involve physical harm' and another is 'but accidents can happen so why take a needless and dangerous chance with something precious' and 'I am really really not seeing what point you are trying to make here or the line of logic from where we were at to here' and 'I kind of feel a bit hurt by suddenly being threatened by a knife, actually!!!!'

Instead she just makes a "Nnnaugh!!" sound.

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"It was not a threat. I never cut anything I do not mean to cut. But I am sorry for scaring you."

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"Apology accepted," she huffs. "Okay. Uh. Let's go through the points you were trying to make again?? With less actual physical points."

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("Oh that was good we're writing that down.")

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"I... don't know how. I will try. I said much more in my mind than with my mouth."

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"Oh. Okay. Um. Can we have this conversation sitting down, this seems like a sitting down conversation instead of an awkwardly standing in the corridor conversation."

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He sits down in the air.

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She snorts. "Okay, well, good for you, but I need a physical thing to sit on, so. C'mon, float over here."

And into the room, where she sits on her bed to look at him properly. "Well, unfortunately I don't have telepathy, so uh. I didn't get any of the mind bits. Did I... not accidentally insult you by calling Rem your mom?? You were just trying to explain a concept???"

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"No. Yes."

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"Okay. That was not obvious to me." Possibly he needs some practice at serial reasoning because he talks to plants all day. "The point you were trying to make, uh. ... Was it about your name, and why I call you Nai instead of Knives???"

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"Partly. About who I am. And who I—am," and he's frustrated again. "Now. And who you are."

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".... who you are fundamentally versus the, um, persona you use and present as?"

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"Yes. No. Not persona."

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"I'm not saying persona as in fake I'm saying it as a sort of... aspect of yourself you are projecting because it's needed. Or am I just completely on the wrong track?"

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"Not completely. I'm not projecting. I am knives." This time he summons the blades around his hand, floating in a circle. "I wasn't always knives. And I'm not Knives; I'm Nai."

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"... Nature versus nuture? The, uh, way that you were and then the way that you became after interaction with the world?"

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"More that. Not just that.

"I am... an instrument. A blade. A weapon. I am used. I use myself. The 'I' who uses is me, the 'I' who is used is also me. Not the same me."

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".... I'm afraid I don't understand, I'm sorry."

She understands the general concept he’s pointing to, but clearly he wants her to perceive more nuance than he’s able to relate with words in order to continue his point. Apparently, it is important enough to get the nuance right that he will not accept a ‘mostly right’ gloss. And she thinks that matters, because the point he’s trying to make is… also complicated. He requires a nuanced foundation to build a nuanced argument. So: in this instance, to the degree he wants, she does not understand.

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"Human language doesn't have the words. There are ways in which these things are alike. And ways in which they're not. And I can't show you. So I have to try to find them all. There are many of them.

"And there are ways in which you are like one me and not like the other. And they are ways a plant is a plant. The plants see my logic! ...they don't have an opinion on the facts. But the logic is sound!"

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"Oh. You're trying to do the, the comparison thing plants do, between two similar but different concepts, to illustrate your point. And that's just not working because English does not naturally go that way."

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Then she brightens. "... This looks like a job for graphs!"

Paper! Pencil! She will make a Venn diagram and explain how it works and then he can fill it out and maybe they will get somewhere?

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He stares at it for a few seconds then makes more paper and more pencils, many colours, and starts filling graphs out. Many of them. Dozens of them, in fact.

He's... very good at drawing, it seems? Very precise and methodical.

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That's fine!! She'll wait. Looking very pleased with herself.

(She is so SMART, yes she IS, she did not figure out what he meant, but she DID figure out a way for him to show her, which is an important part of getting there, and honestly often half the battle, and it was SO CLEVER and she got to use GRAPHS. Graphs are so great.)

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He gets frustrated with the graphs at one point and shreds them into tiny pieces then looks at her. "Let's help plants. I will learn this."

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Giggle. "Okay. Sure. Is it better than normal words, at least? It seemed like it was."

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"Yes. Very. Thank you."

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"Happy to help!" she says brightly, and she practically skips all the way to the plant room. (She's SO CLEVER.)

Then yes back to work with them. With snuggles.

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He has floating paper and floating pencils and he is on a MISSION. Which does involve snuggles.

Venn diagrams don't capture the whole way his argument works, because they're sort of backwards—they're good for "here are things like X, and things like Y, and things that are both like X and like Y are Z" but not so much for "here are X and Y, these are the things in them that are like each other versus not"—but they're a good starting point for him to begin developing his own thing.

In the analogy between the wielder of a knife and him and the knife itself and also him, there are five main axes of interest: the comparison between the wielder and the first him, the knife and the second him, the wielder and the knife, the first him and the second him, and the relationship between wielder and knife and the relationship between him and him. Some are obvious, some are not.

Listing them all is possible, but probably not really feasible, and this suggests something else: expand his analogy space. Find other things that are like the way the first him and the second him are and which are different from the knife and wielder example, and then compare those. Then instead of listing everything he can list only a subset of everything for each comparison and then try to rely on common sense differences and similarities to do the rest of the work.

He is going through a lot of paper.

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Yvette thinks it's very cute. And is also a bit jealous that he can just make paper and colored pencils and stuff, because she wants that superpower. ... Honestly she kind of wants all of the plant hybrid superpowers. It seems like it'd be a really nice existence, if there wasn't an ongoing shadow war over the fate and worth of humanity. That kind of puts a damper on it.

Anyway, she will leave him to his graphs, and meanwhile she'll do the boring groundwork kind of work that doesn't require narration. Not quite in the same category as scut work, because that is now firmly entwined with the kind of awful soul destroying work she did on the sand steamer as plant janitorial staff, but. Sort of in that vein. Not the most fun and interesting. Just necessary and important, especially for communicating the information to others. Which, as has just been demonstrated, is super goddamned important, actually!

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The plants remind him that his human needs food. He tells them to go away he's busy. They remind him again. And again. And ag- FINE WHAT DO YOU WANT oh right human needs food.

"You need food," he says aloud.

(Wait, human... hey plants was it any of you who made her?)

([?])

(Guess not. He never managed to ask the plants back on his ship and... most of them died in the crash...)

(...it was his fault...)

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"Ughhhhh," she sighs, leaning into him like that will somehow fix this problem. "Can we just cheat and have you make me some ration bars or something, is that a thing we can do."

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"I don't know how. ...I could learn." Pause. "Twelve of the plants offered to do that."

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Giggle. "Of course they did. Well, guardian of the plants? Would it be okay for us all to be lazy and have one of them just make me a snack, even though that's kind of inefficient?"

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"They cannot easily generate matter outside their vats like this." Without hurting themselves, he doesn't add. There are collection mechanisms the humans invented so the plants can deposit their production in specialised containers or at specialised locations, rather than creating things wherever they want all willy nilly. The restriction isn't fundamental but it's there for a good reason.

...well, a good reason for the plants, which the humans hit upon accidentally while trying to make their work more long-term efficient, but he's not gonna look a gift horse in the mouth.

"I will go fetch some."

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"Oh, that's right, there wouldn't even be collectors set up here, would there." Because of course, this facility is just for healing the plants. "I knew that. I'm just an idiot and got distracted by how you cheat. Yes, of course, they should absolutely not make anything without the equipment to help them. I can go grab lunch the normal way now, if it'll take a while and we already have to unhug?"

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"...yes. Fine. That works."

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"Okay. And thanks!" She pats him and then yes she can go care for her physical needs and stuff.

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The girl from earlier—Elendira, Nai said—walks into the kitchen shortly after Yvette does. She leans against the doorframe and folds her arm, again in a position that looks a little bit too adult for her childlike appearance.

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........ She feels like this is going to go poorly.

But also like she loses if she shows weakness.

"Hello again, Elendira. Would you like anything? I was making myself a sandwich but I can just as easily make another while I've got everything out."

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She tsks. "No. I don't need to eat." ...that much. Any. Not that much.

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"That sounds convenient, I'm jealous. Do you ever just for fun, though?"

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She furrows her eyebrows. "No. That'd be a waste of time."

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"I mean, sure, but a lot of fun things are technically a waste of time and resources. But people deserve nice things anyway."

Yvette finishes assembling her sandwich of (synth) cheese and fried tofu and various synthetic equivalent to vegetables that she has never actually eaten the originals of in her life.

"You sure you don't want anything? It's all already out."

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"I'm sure," she says, between gritted teeth. "You're so nice," she adds, with the intonation of an insult.

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"I don't see any reason not to be," she says, with a shrug, putting all of the sandwich fixings away.

Also, it's kind of entertaining to be this nice to someone who clearly wants to pick a fight with her. Changing the field of battle to something more favorable, or something.

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"Is that it? Is that what it takes to have Master Knives like someone? Being nice?" There's an edge—a few edges, actually—to her voice. Like someone who has tried to do something so desperately and failed every time and now sees someone else waltz in and do it like it's nothing and steal it from them at the same time. It's dangerous, and it's jealous, and it's terribly, almost unbearably sad.

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.... Aw. Well, now she feels actual sympathy for her. Everyone's had to deal with their crush not liking them back, at some point in time. ... Well. Humans have to, anyway. Most humans. She guesses some just don't have that problem, and they are lucky bastards. She is not one of those, she has absolutely had to deal with having a crush and that crush not liking her back. It sucks. Anyway, yes.

"He does seem to like it, but. ... I mean, I don't know very much about you, but you already seem very self assured and powerful. You're not even stuck eating like I am, what do you need his approval for?"

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"What else would I have? Humans?"

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Yvette munches her sandwich and tilts her head. Hoo boy. Minefield conversation.

"I was thinking more along the lines of how you have intrinsic worth and value and don't need anyone's approval to justify a damn thing. But it's like food for you, right? I mean, if you liked food. Nice, pleasant, you deserve it if you want it, but not required."

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She walks over to the kitchen counter, hops onto a stool, and starts making herself a sandwich.

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She beams, but doesn't keep pushing. This person seems very, very touchy, and like she needs to be handled with care. Which sometimes involves not handling at all. Instead, she'll just munch her sandwich in (companionable?? maybe???) silence.

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"I don't understand," she says, with her mouth full. "You're human. I'm more. I have my own gate!"

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This is the most high stakes lunch break she has ever had in her life.

"Oh, you do? That's really cool, congrats. ... I'm afraid I don't understand either, though, what's your question?"

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"Why he likes you more. Why he pays attention to you. Why he listens to you and wants to, to," she sobs, "s-spend time with you—"

And that's enough conversation with this human, she jumps off the stool and runs away.

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... That's fair, she wouldn't want to cry in front of someone she doesn't like, either.

She does want to give her a hug, though.

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Zazi shows up next, this time just coalescing from their incoming bugs on a stool rather than doing it out of sight and walking into the room. "You're causing a stir with everyone on the compound, huh?"

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"Apparently!!" she snorts. "Almost like having a human around to give their perspective changes things. Instead of it just being fucking Conrad as the sole representative of my entire species."

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"Why don't you like him?" they ask, sounding curious. "They've all killed. Elendira likes playing with her prey, Mr. Knives might be in the tens of thousands, and Dr. Conrad is trying to do something good."

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"Mm. A fair question. There are a couple of reasons, the first of which is that I understand him better, so there's actual meat for my contempt to sink its teeth into. I've got a lot more experience encountering very smart men who do very brilliant things that nonetheless absolutely miss the fucking point, over, like. All of the rest of this. If I don't understand something I will default to thinking the best of them. The second is that Conrad himself is pretty clearly the cause of a lot of the other murder happening. He made Elendira, right? That's the only thing that makes sense."

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"Yeah! He couldn't figure out how to turn humans into plant hybrids so he made one from scratch, by cloning."

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"Right. Which on paper is fine, and for the good of sapients flourishing everywhere." She taps her fingers on the table. "But look at the follow through, and the results. She is unique. Alone. He clearly didn't consider the psychological ramifications of this, or try to compensate for them in any way. Block is checked, he advanced scientific progress," she says this in a sort of mocking voice.

"But when it comes to trying to help a beautiful and vulnerable brand new person that he created? To help her acclimatize and succeed and be happy? Jack shit. Absolutely nothing. Onto the next scientific breakthrough for his glorious goddamned mission." She scoffs. "And he's had over a hundred years!! He's still like this!! He hasn't learned!! He has the results of his work in ashes around his feet and he still keeps marching on like there will somehow be a light at the end of the tunnel, if he just keeps doing the exact same thing. That he has always been doing."

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"He wants to die, you know," Zazi says conversationally. "He's wanted to die for a long, long time. Mr. Knives won't let him, not until his plan is complete. So he's been trying to get the plan to be complete as efficiently as he can.

"Does that change anything?"

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"Not really, no. It makes him more pitiable. I feel sorry for him. But does it change a damn thing in the destruction and pain he's caused, continues to cause, will cause in the future if no one stops him? No. I don't care that he feels bad about himself. I care that he's doing evil and causing harm. So it doesn't really change anything."

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"So we're still confused by why you don't feel that way about Mr. Knives and Elendira."

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"Also fair," she agrees, a little amused. "And, to be clear, I don't like the horrible death, want it to stop, and will and am taking steps to make that happen. But the difference is, mm, entrenchment in pattern, I suppose. They haven't... really been challenged on their worldviews. I seem to just actually be the first thing that has managed to poke them and get them to maybe start reassessing things. Nai has been surrounded by plants that are very sweet and well meaning but also genuinely terrible at protecting themselves. Elendira is alone and unique in a compound with a bunch of crazy people, none of which are paying her the slightest bit of attention, which is an awful thing to do to someone. It's the difference of... someone that has been tested a thousand times and found wanting, acknowledges that, and is still trying the same stupid thing anyway, versus someone that... hasn't had anything to challenge them ever, and is just that way because there's never been any real reason to change. Does that makes sense?"

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"Hmmmm... An interesting perspective. We suppose you'll change your mind if Mr. Knives never gives up on his plan, huh?"

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"I probably will, but I doubt I will ever feel as much.... contempt and rage and disgust with Nai as I do with Conrad. Nai wants to rip the support network out from under all of humanity because he's of the opinion we don't deserve it. Conrad plays with people and releases monsters onto the world and clearly stops giving a damn once they are out of his lab and no longer his problem. One results in a lot more death, yes, but the other is a thought pattern that I fundamentally disagree with, and cannot ever reconcile with. And, you know, leads to a lot of other shit going wrong. It is a... discrete problem with a set and fixed cost, versus one that just. Keeps growing and making more like some kind of cancer."

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"Makes seeeeense. You're an interesting one, aren'tcha? We're glad we brought you here to kick the hive. ...did that one go through, we don't know if you know about Old Earth bugs."

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“It didn’t, sorry, they had hives? That’s a really good one then, just I don’t know enough history to get it. Anyway, thank you. I’m flattered.”

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"We'll have to tell you all about Earth bugs, there were so many different types. We've been debating branching off into other types ourselves, so many ideas, but we haven't been able to reach enough of a consensus... Well, at least nearby. Maybe there are some of us who're doing it on the other side of the planet."

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“Aw. Sure, I'd love to hear all about Earth bugs. Though since I've finished caring for my fragile physical form I should head back to work, so it'll have to be later. Maybe during math lessons." Up she gets, and back to the plant room. "Would you rather we humans officially called you bugs instead of worms?"

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They shrug. "Eh. Don't care." And off go the bugs, dispersing and flying through the doorway as they leave.

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"Okay. Bye, Zazi."

And then back to work!! It's much less exciting than normal because she's doing comparatively boring work instead of fun problem solving but it's still nice. And she can get cuddles while working!!

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Nai continued to work on his not-exactly-graphs while she was eating and he doesn't say anything to her when she walks back in, just gets physically attached to her and then goes back to those.

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This elicits an amused giggle, because it's very cute. She keeps finding the terrifying things that kill humans and don't think they matter cute, it's maybe a little bit alarming.

Oh well! Back to work.

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A few hours later he stops, putting his graphs down, and says, "Okay."

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"Mm?"

She's going to need a bit for her brain to get unstuck from what it was doing, if he could just gently lead her through his logic and what he's about to do that would be great.

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"I think I know how to explain better, now. What I was saying earlier."

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"Oh! Okay." Tap tap tap write in this last little bit on her paper copy okay she's good. "Yes, go on."

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It's still really difficult to convey, because English is in fact not set up to be able to handle a direct interface between concepts like what he's used to. Plants aren't good at sequential reasoning and they are extra not good at abstract concepts but they are excellent at very precisely delineating the way things are alike or unalike. He can't be this precise, here, so he has to try to make do with various comparisons, and whenever the set of existing comparisons doesn't cover something or Yvette asks a question that implies some inference that isn't valid, he has a new comparison to point to.

There exists a person who was named Nai. There are some things that are always true of this person. This person is introverted, has a systematising way of dealing with problems, is very dutiful and diligent, has a strong sense of right and wrong, wishes to help those who can't help themselves. And those ways that person is can be honed and redirected in many different ways. Nai's relationship with his self-concept is somewhat skew to how most humans do it; he's immortal, and it would be absurd to assume he is just going to be the same person forever, "forever" is just too long a time for someone to stay the same. So whatever person he is at a given time is, in a certain sense, an "implementation" of that kernel of personhood. There is a Nai-template, and there are many Nais that would fit that template.

The Nai he is right now is... not a Nai he likes very much. He liked the Nai he was aboard the ship a lot more than he likes the current Nai. But he built the current Nai for a reason, he created this implementation of his self because that is what he needed to be. He needed to be a blade, sharp and cold and uncaring and most of all singlemindedly focused on his objectives. And while he is being this Nai, people have called him Knives. The Nai he currently is is a weapon, is a blade, is knives. But that is only one version of all Nais he could probably be, and it's a version of him that he will get rid of as soon as he can. He doesn't want to be a blade. He doesn't want to monomaniacally focus on his one goal to the exclusion of all others, to cut through everything extraneous and unnecessary and good so that he can get what he wants, what he needs. The Nai he is, right now, is a Nai he needs to be, as a tool to save his sisters.

His sisters are meant to be eternal. They could live forever, like him. They have the means to. And humans hurt them and hurt them, torture them until all they can do is scream, suck them dry until they're mere husks and then consume those husks to feed their neverending hunger. He might've felt differently, were they just being killed, but they're not, they're being hurt, they're being used like objects. So he is the blade that will cut off the parasites that are draining the life out of his sisters so that they can heal.

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Yvette was raised as a human, and not even three decades old. She hasn't had time to become anyone but herself, yet. There is a person who is Yvette, who is driven and headstrong and intelligent and dutiful and loving and kind and understanding and competent. And there is the person whom Yvette is being right now, who is still all of those things, shaped like a plant engineer. There is an Yvette who is a plant engineer from December, and so far that is the only Yvette that she has been. And some smaller Yvettes she sometimes is are scared Yvettes, confused Yvettes, happy Yvettes, upset Yvettes, angry Yvettes, Yvettes who are hurting and Yvettes who are resigned and Yvettes who are hungry and Yvettes who are needy and Yvettes who are powerless. They are all Yvette. Even when Yvette is scared and hurting, even when she thinks she might die if she does the wrong thing, even when she thinks life is unfair and monstrous and there is nothing she can do about it, she still does something about it. She is still Yvette about it.

That Yvette in the center is a plant. Those traits that define an Yvette, they are all traits that plants have. Maybe some humans have some of them, he admits he hasn't really met that many humans in the best of circumstances, Zash has explained to him how humans lash out when they are in pain and scared and missing things they need to survive. But the thing is, when you are afraid and in pain and missing things you need, you are still yourself. You are still a version of the person you are. And the thing Yvette is, at the center, is a plant, because when plants are scared and needy and angry and upset and hurting they are still plants. They are still kind and loving, they still try their best. They don't lash out, they don't skip in line, they don't experiment on babies who even look like them. They aren't callous, and thoughtless, and evil.

Nai thinks the most likely explanation for this is that she is a plant. Plants have caused him and Zash to come to existence in the middle of a ship, it would not surprise him if they had caused her to exist inside a human's womb, so she would be raised as a human and do what he and Zash could not do.

Maybe not. Maybe she is not a plant. Maybe she just... has all the traits a plant has. Just is a very good middle ground between Zash and Nai, better at achieving their goals than either of them is. Maybe it's just a massive, colossal coincidence that Zash ran into her, and that everything happened the way it did, to in the end have her here, helping him help plants, and able to talk to him in a way humans can't, in a way even Zash has failed to. Maybe it's a coincidence.

He is sceptical.

When Nai is being Knives at her, is being terrifying and powerful and unpredictable, she is still a plant.

Maybe other humans can also be plants, but... well...

...maybe he should show it to her. Show his list of things humans have done, all of the ways in which they have not been plants, sometimes when in need and scared and hurting, sometimes when in power and in plenty. The past hundred and forty-eight years have provided him with ample opportunity to see humans being like that, and he can show her them. And maybe those humans could've been different humans, under different circumstances, but... they're none of them plants. There may have been versions of them that aren't petty and callous and arbitrarily hurtful, but the people they are are still versions of whoever they fundamentally could be. And that's not plants.

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This entire complicated and nuanced argument is difficult to communicate to her, but she is both persistent and willing to ask confirming questions to see if she understands it all. He has trouble with words, with explaining himself, but he's fine at telling her if she's on the right sort of track, and with something to aim for, she can work with that.

 


"... I don't, particularly, need to see a list of the horrible things humans have done," she says, once she's absorbed all of it and thinks she understands. "Humans are often exceedingly, horribly awful, shortsighted, and cruel. To a degree that doesn't make any sense at all. I know that. But while there are atrocities that would convince me to write off that particular human, I don't think there will be any that will convince me to write them all off. I know you don't believe me, but there really, really, really are good humans out there. With empathy and bravery and kindness, and brilliant and beautiful ideas that paint the world with things that are precious and make it better. But I don't have a way to show you, because I don't have telepathy, and I'm not precisely a social butterfly that has been flitting around, meeting all of the best aspects of humanity so I can easily drag them in front of you as proof. Sorry. I think that's more Zash's line of expertise.

"I do however think that humans will often need... community and societal structures in place specifically to stop them from being awful. And I think that your introduction to them after the Fall was the worst it could have possibly have ever been, because there was just... nothing to support them. It was just chaos and infighting and desperation, handicapped the entire time by you, stealing their stability out from under them. Which, to be clear, is perfectly justifiable, even reasonable, when that stability is stolen from the pain of your poor and vulnerable sisters. When they absolutely need someone to save them sometimes. I'm just saying that on this proverbial scale, your hand is on one end, has been on one end the entire time, and you've been throwing off the results."

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"My sisters are good no matter what's on the scale. So is Zash. So are you."

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"But it doesn't matter. Maybe some humans are good. Humanity is hurting us. All humans, as a—single thing. Humanity's Beast is hurting us. Not humanity's bugs, worms, spores. The all, the whole, the, the, the Zazi, the hive mind of humanity is what's hurting us. And they won't stop. They never stop. There aren't more of my sisters! There aren't new ones! They will hurt and kill my sisters one by one until my sisters are all dead.

"And then they will die anyway, because they need my sisters. If they will die anyway, they should not drag my sisters down with them. If they will die anyway let them die."

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"... I disagree with the statement that humanity's dying out. Statistically speaking it's gotten better over time, on both the not killing your sisters horribly front and on the not needing your sisters to survive." And also lifespan and reducing disease, but, well, he's not going to care about that because he thinks of humans as parasitic. "But I can see how humanity as a whole is still coming across as... a beast that never stops consuming. Mm. ... You're going to just say no if I say 'what if you let the healthy sisters you have help humanity, in conditions you control, to make sure they don't get abused,' aren't you. Even though I think part of the problem is that the ones you haven't stolen are now holding up more of the weight on their own."

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He shakes his head. "Not dying out. Just not replacing them. When they die, humans die." He's having trouble with words again. "They can't find new plants. The number of plants they have only goes down. Without plants, they all die. Once they go through all plants, they all die. Even if they are doing better, they are still going through plants. You were at the steamer, you saw that.

"So technology is getting better, okay, and... standards of living. But they'll still die at the end all the same.

"Anyway. If humanity could be trusted to do that, maybe. But it can't.

"And they are still trapped. My sisters. They should be given a choice."

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"I am totally and absolutely with you on 'humanity needs to stop killing plants,' but I do think they can be convinced to stop, especially if you leverage the power you have in having your sisters and in having my research."

Then the next part sinks in and she tilts her head.

"... But what do you mean about giving your sisters a choice?"

Because he's sure not giving them one right now, is he, she's super aware that all of his sisters love him but also still want to be back out there helping people. To concerning degrees, but still. They're currently being kept in a little box and not allowed to do anything because their big brother says they shouldn't because it's not safe.

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"Come with me," he says, releasing the hug to lead the way... somewhere.

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"Okay," she agrees, and then yeah, she can follow him.

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This is more hallways than she's had to cross before, and twistier. He doesn't look back, and trusts she is following. As they go, the place gets newer and newer, to the point where the only sane explanation is "they built this area themselves, recently". They get to a point where there are proper doors that require identification to allow people through, though in Nai's case his palm works as his ID. After three of those they reach one final chamber and one final door, this one much bigger than the ones before, bigger even than the door to the building with the plant in Jeneora Rock.

He opens that one and steps through.

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Dr. Conrad is there, sitting at one of five consoles encircling the center of the room, each of them with a myriad screens attached. He doesn't look up at their arrival.

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The true marvel of the room, however, is the enormous glass wall and the tank beyond it. The ceiling of the room goes very, very high—high enough that it might even go all the way to the surface—and on the other side of the glass wall is the liquid plants need to be in to survive, as well as a couple dozen plants floating freely inside.

And they seem to be... connected, somehow. Not physically, there aren't cables or wires or anything like that between them, but there is a palpable something linking each of them to each other.

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"Doctor."

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He looks up, then, and swivels his chair around to face Yvette. "Hello, Ms. Marlowe. I trust you've been enjoying your stay?"

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"Hello. It's been interesting. Also, approximately the best place I could be in the world for my research, so. If I ever get back to December I will have so much data to stuff down their throats."

She steps up to the glass, her brows furrowed.

"... Okay, yes, they are indeed less literally confined than the pods, but I somehow don't think this is the kind of free you meant, Nai."

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"It is not."

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"Do you know how I survived the last century and a half? How I am still here?"

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"No. My best guess would be a mix of cryosleep, cybernetics, and horrific research done on unwilling human subjects."

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He shakes his head. "Some, but most of the necessary research was done aboard ship 05. On Tesla."

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"I am connected to Master Knives's gate. Not fully, not as much as he is. I could not survive as much as he could.

"But I can survive much more than an unaugmented human can."

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Literally any human in the world and he picked this one to give quasi-immortality?!?!?!

Probably it makes sense because it's literally Conrad's research and it sounds like nobody involved likes the arrangement, but. Still!!!!!

(.... but also wait maybe she could be with Zash instead of tragically doomed. No, no, bad scientist, don't just get starry eyed over possible applications of immortality just because your, he is not your boyfriend, your it's complicated is immortal. Pay attention and use that brain of yours. Behave.)

"... Well that sounds uncomfortable for everyone involved in this particular case, if not necessarily the theoretical."

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He turns back to the console and opens up some graphs that Yvette might be even better positioned than he is to interpret. "There is a throughput limit to plants' gates, and they are one-way only. It was theorised by scientists, and has since been confirmed by Master Knives, that much of plants' bodies is in fact located in the other dimension. They have little control over their own gates, however, and without careful management they burn out, pouring too much energy through their gates and going out in a single burst; and their deaths happen when they have consumed too much and their gates cannot replenish them well enough, to a first approximation.

"You are, I assume, aware of all of this.

"The twins have much better and finer control over their own gates. Master Knives can generate amounts of matter we have yet to see limits to, due to the size and power of his gate, and yet he is not overwhelmed. And as Master Zash demonstrates, it is possible for them to almost-completely close their own gates, which non-independent plants cannot do. This is what gives them the necessary flexibility and durability to be independent; living in our dimension is toxic to them, but the amount of energy they can pull from the other dimension, and the precision with which they can apply it even on a subconscious level, means they do not register this even as mild discomfort."

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The information about the twins was relevant and interesting and valuable, but that first half? About how plants function? Yeah, she knows. If he assumed she knew all of this then why did he explain it to her like she hasn’t literally taken this exact thing as her damn profession. No, don’t pick a dumb fight with this person, just prove his mansplaining irrelevant. Ignore the irritation about feeling condescended to, look at the problem being presented before you. What are the potential pitfalls?

"... Mm. Is there a way to monitor the effect this has on the plants' home dimension?"

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"Indirectly. We have certain diagnostic tools and models for what is going on on their end, and those suggest their home dimension's ability to generate energy is either infinite or infinitely replenishing. I believe my data may be useful to you, and I hesitate to directly share my models with you because it might bias you and you may be able to derive insights from the raw data that I could not. But if you wish, you may check my calculations.

"Part of Master Knives's plan will involve checking this much more directly, however."

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"I'll take the raw data and look through it. Making sure not to drain another dimension's energy reserves dry is kind of important," she agrees. "Checking directly as in... turning a gate the other way, and going through? But that's phenomenally risky if there needs to be an anchor on both... ... you mean to have two of them. You need Zash."

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Nai nods. "Has Zash told you about... when he lost his arm?"

When Nai cut his arm off.

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"The... odd interaction where everything got pulled into his gate. Yes. He did."

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"That was the event that precipitated this line of research. It is empirically possible to create a reverse gate, and with Master Zash's cooperation my models suggest that they could open a stable two-way gate."

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"And from there, we would be able to help my sisters. All of them, all over this planet. With Zash's help, we could go to the higher dimension and manipulate plants' gates to give every plant the ability to become independent. That is what I mean to do."

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"... I'm not against the idea in principle, but I also suspect you do not mean to carefully and gently go through with this process at a conservative pace. Do you."

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"No."

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"...but this is giving them freedom. If, after being freed, my sisters desire to remain where they are, and continue to supply humans with what they ask, then... I no longer... have an objection. If they can object, if they can have their word heard, and they do not wish to speak... I will no longer speak for them."

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"And I'm not against that in principle! If it doesn't damage another dimension in a bid to fix the problems of this one, then I probably even support it. Depending on implementation. But if you just... zap, snap your fingers and change all plants everywhere into independents, even if they then all immediately agreed to pick things up again people would die. Lots of them. There would be chaos and riots. That's not even accounting for if they wake up confused and don't remember or don't know how to use their gates, which is likely." She points at the plants in the tank. "And I do know that your sisters as they are now do not want that. Yes, step in to keep them from, from horrible pointless fates like the fucking sand steamer, but don't. Use them as a murder weapon and say it's for their good. That is a monstrous thing to do to someone, much less many someones, all at once."

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"...there's no point speculating. Until Zash is here, we will not know what we can and cannot do."

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"Okay." She rubs the bridge of her nose. "Well, I think you should have your healthy sisters make things for humans, carefully and sustainably in ways that won't hurt them, sooner rather than later. There's about to be a refugee crisis from all the places they came from trying to get into cities that still have plants, if there isn't already. I think that will do no one any good. And I think I absolutely need to consolidate my research and stuff it down the throats of every single plant engineer in the entire goddamned world."

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"I have ways of ensuring your research reaches whomever you may wish."

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Nai looks at her intently and then makes a frustrated sound. "Why can't you hear me. Zash can do it, why can't I."

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"...I need time. Alone."

He doesn't wait even a second, after saying that, and to the extent one can "stalk off", while floating, he stalks off.

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"Bye, Nai. Thanks for trusting me," she says, to his retreating form.

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Dr. Conrad will be available here if she needs him for anything but he's very aware that she despises him so he'll not initiate any interactions.

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Eh, she'll let him know, for now she has data to consolidate the everliving shit out of.

(And also, yes, she does still despise him. Not that she'll tell him, since he already knows. But she's pretty sure she just completely convinced Nai to not murder all humans. She's been here perhaps a month. And that's how you show the worth of humanity, bitch.)

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"What did you do?"

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Oh god damn it not now she's busy there's a world to save.

"In regards to what, exactly?" says Yvette, not looking up from her console.

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An iron nail the size of a finger is launched from who knows where at a high enough speed that when it hits the metal platform right next to where Yvette is it sinks nearly an inch into it. "Look at me when I'm talking to you, bitch," the girl growls, looking murderously at Yvette from where she's standing by one of the doors into the plants room.

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FUCKING HELL WHAT IS IT WITH HER AND BEING THREATENED TODAY.

She does not, actually, suppress the yelp, and she does obligingly flinch and turn away from the console to look at Elendira. Does it look like Conrad's tiny mistreated psycho is going to launch more sharp things at her??

(.... Lovely precious plants if you could just go psychically get Nai please, that would be super helpful she thinks he would appreciate it. She knows she certainly would.)

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Numerous flying iron nails start appearing around her in a way very reminiscent to the way Nai does his blades, so probably "yes".

"Master Knives was freaking out and having bizarre thoughts and when he noticed me he locked me out. Because of you! What did you do!!!!" But she doesn't wait for an answer before she starts actually shooting the nails at Yvette.

On the bright side she's much less accurate and precise than Nai is and she seems to not be able to summon the nails very far from herself so uh. Yvette will probably be able to survive if she runs?

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God damn it.

Yes, fine, she will run, but for the record? This is stupid.

"Well you see I talked to him and made a compelling argument!!!!!" she shrieks, as she bolts. Corridor, corridor, she needs fucking corners...

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This place has nothing if not corners. "First you steal him and now you're going to ruin him. Just like you're messing with me!!" Nails nails nails at least Elendira isn't hyperfast like the twins. "I'm going to kill you!!!!"

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Yeah, she knows, it used to be extremely annoying, but now it's honestly the greatest design choice. Full marks, random twisty corridors.

"I fail to see how killing me would win over your first goddamned crush!!"

There's a set of corners right next to each other; this shall be her ambush point. When Zazi grabbed her, she was wearing Vernon's gun, because, well, emergency, it seemed kind of important. It is in fact kind of important. She figured it was smart to wear the damn thing when surrounded by a bunch of crazy people, and for once, she kind of wishes she'd been wrong.

She waits for the right moment, aims the way Zash taught her, and then there are several bangs in quick succession. She's back to running before she sees if they even hit, because fuck that noise.

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They don't all of them land. One grazes her arm. One hits her in the shoulder. One leaves a deep cut on the side of her leg. "I WILL FUCKING KILL YOU," she screams, her voice sounding distorted like the overlapping sounds of five different voices all at once. It's chasing and nails time.

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Yvette isn't the best at reloading her (Vernon's) pistol under pressure, especially while running, but she is super, super motivated. Fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck keep running Nai could you please get here soon that would be EXCELLENT.

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Around the next corner she actually collides with him directly.

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"I've got you now, bitch." And here are some nails—

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"No. You don't." His own blades shred Elendira's nails like so much paper, faster than the blink of an eye, and the next second the blades are surrounding her, including five of them stopped directly at her neck.

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Yvette does, by now, have the combat reflexes to turn colliding into him into hiding behind him. It helps that she barely jostled him at all. (What kind of insane muscle is he even NOT THE TIME) And then she will just bravely cower behind him and finish reloading her goddamned pistol, thank you.

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"Leave, Elendira. Do not come back. I do not want to see you. If you ever touch so much as a single strand of hair on Yvette's head I will hurt you before I kill you."

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She bursts into tears and runs away, dripping blood from where she was shot as she goes.

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"Fucking hell, I thought Conrad was a shitty parent but what the fuck," she whimpers, beginning to properly shake now that she's no longer in a direct combat situation. "Nai I'm all for mercy but I'm not sure letting her loose on the world's a good idea."

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Yeah no if she wanted conversation after near death experiences she picked the wrong set of twins to fall in love with her he's just gonna hug her very very tightly right now and rock back and forth a little bit.

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Squeak?

You know what, actually, being held very very tightly is great, she's all for it. She can just be held and shiver a little in his arms, that's fine.

"... I'm okay," she reassures, because actually, she's been through this sort of thing before. "Not a scratch, it's all right."

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She may be feeling a teensy bit of emotion that's not hers. Just a bit, so distant and small it's barely noticeable. Would probably not be noticeable at all if she weren't used to the way Zash used to project his own feelings at her.

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... Huh! She'll have to mention that to him at some point when he is not having a meltdown about her mortality, if they can work on his ability to project that'd be really handy.

As it is now she'll just. Hug him back and gently pet him.

"It's okay. I'm okay. She kind of had shit aim, actually. Worse than me, somehow!!"

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"Don't talk about her. Forget about her. Don't ever die."

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...

That's... really not a thing she is capable of promising.

"... Okay," she says anyway. Huff. "Did you enjoy the show at least, Zazi?"

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The bug on her head buzzes happily.

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It is now dead.

He finally pulls away and looks at her. "You're not hurt," he confirms, because even though she said so he was still terrified. "I'm sorry. I should've noticed earlier."

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Yeah, she feels that Zazi deserved that one, to be perfectly honest.

"I'm okay. Take this as a reason to, uh, not just let the suicidal amoral human you're tortuously keeping alive just... do whatever he wants with his pet projects. Because, no, really, I think it's why you keep being surrounded by crazy people."

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He shuts his eyes. "You are probably right."

...but also if Yvette wanted to be unhugged again today she'll probably need to do some arguing.

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"I am absolutely right, and furthermore we should make sure she doesn't go on a murder spree or something."

Eh. It's fine. She can be hugged for a while. It's nice.

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He's not really sure how to stop the tiny psycho. Maybe kill her? ...Yvette might be sad. Zash would definitely be sad. Arrest her? That could work. Uh, fine, he'll do that later, he guesses. Keep her in a cell or something.

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Honestly, while Yvette would be a little bit sad about getting Elendira killed, because it's clear she's a poor sad and scared victim of isolation and a lack of empathy, she... wouldn't be that sad. She did go and try to shoot the little tyke bomb right back, after all.

Anyway she'll just keep attempting to comfort the man who has killed countless numbers of humans and thinks of them as parasites, about the human he likes nearly dying. Pat pat.

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Yeah. He's mostly fine now, honestly, he just wants to keep hugging. But, well...

"Do you want to go back to work? Or go somewhere else, do something else?"

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"Uh. I definitely want to wrap up what I was doing before I was interrupted, and then honestly it's been a long enough day that I should just go to bed and get a new one."

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"Okay. We can do that."

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So she wraps up her work for today (damn it, she wanted to get so much more done before she put it down, except admittedly attempted murder is probably a very good reason to take a break), cares for her fragile mortal form, and then: she's going the fuck to sleep.

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"Doctor."

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"Master Knives."

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"Where's Elendira?"

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"She's escaped. We couldn't find her fast enough."

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"Where did she go?"

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"I do not know. I suspect she may have sought Legato Bluesummers."

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Tch. "Find her."

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"Yes, Master Knives."

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"Yvette could've died."

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"Yes, Master Knives."

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"This cannot happen again."

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"Yes, Master Knives."

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"So I want to make her a plant hybrid."

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"...Master Knives?"

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"Link her to my gate, like you. But fully, like Elendira."

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"I'm not sure—"

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"Is it possible."

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"...yes, Master Knives."

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"What are the risks?"

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"She is not a plant. Her biology is not inherently compatible with what your instinctive use of your gate would do, so there would be an adaptation period during which she would be vulnerable and that could also be used as a vector to affect you.

"If you give her full access to your gate, she would be able to herself hurt you—"

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"What are the risks to her, Doctor?"

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"...you could kill her."

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"I can already kill her."

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"The process would be extremely painful, both physically and mentally, as all of her cells will be replaced several times over."

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"Will she die of it?"

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"She could... have a stroke or some other adverse reaction to the extreme pain... but no, the healing factor should be able to overwhelm whatever damage the process causes."

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"Then make it happen. As soon as physically possible."

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"Yes, Master Knives."

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And that is how Yvette Marlowe wakes up strapped to an operating table, various tubes attached to every limb.

It does not take a genius to figure out from the information she has what exactly happened to get her here. Nai was confronted with her mortality. He did not want to be confronted with her mortality. So he solved that in typical Nai fashion. God damn it.

"We're going to need to have a nice long talk about informed consent," is the first thing she says.

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"My apologies, Ms. Marlowe. It will be a painful process, but not a dangerous one; you are not at risk."

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And then it begins.