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Sapphire finds a particular notebook.
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Sapphire has gotten to the last page of her current journal so it's time to buy a new one.

She goes looking for one at a local art fair. Maybe she'll be able to find something nice.

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This one's got pretty flowers! Can't go wrong with pretty flowers. The paper quality is great too.

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She'll buy that one. It's a nice spring day as she walks back to the apartment she's sharing with her brother and she takes her time. When she gets home she yells a quick "Hi, before yanking off he dress and walking the rest of the way into her bedroom and hanging it up before sitting down at her desk. She writes her journal entry with a blue ballpoint pen.

New Journal. The previous one had a blue bubble texture with a red heart sticker on the front cover in the upper left corner.

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That sounds pretty!
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She stares at that for a few seconds. Then she pushes her chair back and goes to knock on her brother's door. "Tom can you look at something for me?"

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"Sure," comes his slightly muffled voice. He opens the door and looks her up and down. "So, not a clothes question? I don't think that's new underwear."

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"No, it's something a lot weirder. I think my new journal wrote back to me."

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He looks carefully at her face. It doesn't look like she's joking. "Okay, show me."

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She leads him back to her room and shows her what's been written so far. "I don't think I own a pink gel pen. And that definitely wasn't there before I started writing."

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"That's weird." He pauses, "Try writing back I guess?"

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"Okay." She carefully picks back up her pen and slowly writes back.

Hello, I'm not used to things writing themselves in my journals.

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Most people aren't. I'm a pretty unusual journal.

Hello! I was sent by the Spirit of Femininity Unleashed to offer you its power.
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"You saw that right?"

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"I did. So... the Spirit of Femininity eh? I can see it."

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"Yeah. That feels right."

I'm still a little stunned. That sounds interesting though. Can you tell me more? I'm Sapphire by the way. Maybe you already magically knew that somehow.

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I don't know anything when I'm sent to talk to someone except that they'll be the first person who writes in me.

What would you like to know?
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I'm not sure where to start. I think maybe you could tell me more about the Spirit? Or I guess you just said you didn't know why it picked me.

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The Spirit is a very different type of being from you or me. It has a lot of power but can mostly only use it in very specific ways. One of its favourite things is when people get to be special and beautiful and powerful in a feminine way, and live their best happiest lives like that, so when it sees someone who would do well with a little bit of its power to help them, it sends someone like me to give them that power. So I know that you're open to being special and beautiful and powerful and feminine, because if you weren't, the Spirit wouldn't have sent me to you. But I don't know anything else about you, because it would be pretty weird and uncomfortable to spy on people before I say hello!
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I guess? It feels like you could be more helpful though if you knew more ahead of time.

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"There's this thing called privacy, Sapphire. Most people care about it more than you."

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But you might not like me to know a lot about you, and while I could find out whether you want me to know things without necessarily having to find out much else, I think the sort of person who's uncomfortable with me knowing a lot of things might still be uncomfortable with that. And if I have to sometimes not know things because people don't want me to know them, it's easier for me to just always not know things and get lots of practice with that situation, instead of sometimes knowing things and sometimes not.
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She has to read that a couple times.

I think I understand. Does that mean you've done this with a lot of people before? Can you tell me anything about them?

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I don't retain specific memories of my other work while I'm with someone in particular, for privacy reasons! Also because the nature of my relationship with time means there's not always a clear answer from my perspective here with you about whether I have or haven't spoken to a specific other person yet.
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"Her relationship with time." He frowns. "Does that mean time travel is a thing?"

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My brother's here with me and he wants to know whether that means time travel is a thing.

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That's sort of a complicated question but I think the simple answer is yes. It might not have ever happened in your world, though, or be possible here without outside intervention.
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"Can you ask how much she knows about our world and what other worlds might exist?"

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"Do you just want to write her yourself? If this is important to you?"

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"Sure." They exchange places.

Hi this is Tom, I'm Sapphire's brother. How much do you know about our specific world and what other worlds exist?

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Hi, Tom!

I don't really know much about your specific world. I can guess some things from what it's like to be a notebook here, but there are a lot of worlds where being a notebook in them is very much like this.

Lots of other worlds exist! The structure of the multiverse is sort of hard to explain, but one way to think about it is: there are a lot of different ways that worlds can be, like being with or without magic, or with or without particle physics, or with or without time or space. There are a lot of different ways that different worlds can relate to each other, like branching timelines, or networks of worlds where it's only possible to move between adjacent ones and a lot of specific things from one world will stop working in worlds that aren't adjacent to that one, or big piles of unrelated worlds where you can move between worlds that are very different from each other just by having any way to move between worlds at all. And all those ways for things to be are all real in different places, and it's possible to move between them, if you find the right ways to travel.
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I think that makes some amount of sense. I guess the multiverse is a lot bigger than most people think about it as being then. I'll let Sapphire write again.

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After they switch back, Sapphire writes again.

Okay, I'm back. So... you said the Spirit wanted to give me some of its power. What could you tell me more about what that will be like?

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The usual way these things work is that I show you the standard list of powers, and help you decide which ones you want, and if there are any that you want to change because they're not quite right I can see about alterations, and if there's anything you want that isn't on the list I can see about providing it, and I can help explain any descriptions that confuse or concern you, and I can keep track of which boxes you've checked and how much that adds up to—for convenience the powers are labeled with amounts of points, and you get 70 points to start with.

Do you want to see the list or do you want to ask more questions first?
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I think the list would help me a lot in knowing what questions to ask.

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Okay! One moment, please... ⏳


Dots of ink trickle through the little doodle of an hourglass.
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"The notebook has a loading animation. Objectively this should not be weirder than it writing back at all but it absolutely is."

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"Yep, I'm very curious to see what sort of powers it offers you though."

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"Me too. Earlier today, I thought I knew where my life was going now... I don't think I do but I'm hoping it's going to be even better."

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The hourglass finishes trickling and the ink finishes swirling and the notebook reports,
All done!


A tally in the outer top corner of each page of the list reads 0/70 in the same tidy font as the list itself. There's a preamble paragraph set apart from the main list, and then four headings each with its own description and set of options.

These powers are offered under an aegis of metanarrative protection. Anytime you might expect a power to have obvious negative side effects, like glowing eyes making it harder to see, it simply won't—you'll be able to see just fine anytime it actually matters, while having dramatically hazy vision at cool, narratively appropriate moments. This doesn't apply to your own preferences about the explicitly described effects of the power; if you don't want to be Well Endowed, the metanarrative cannot protect you from choosing that option and having to live with it.


Destinations
You must choose exactly one Destination.

Name: Stay Put - Cost: 0 ☐
You're just going to take these powers and keep on keeping on right where you are.

Name: Somewhere In Mind - Cost: 0 ☐
You have a destination you want to go to. You can choose any place, real, historical, fictional, or made up in your own head right now, and the Spirit will take you there. After that, you're on your own as far as further interdimensional travel.

Name: Isekai Roulette - Cost: 0 ☐
Trust to the will of the Spirit and let it take you where you need to go. It will look at far more options than you could ever know about, and pick something that's likely to be even better for you than whatever you would have chosen on your own.


Yourself
These powers affect your own self and nature, without direct effects on other people. Some of them are prerequisites for powers in the later Power of Friendship section.

Name: A Thousand Ships - Cost: 1 ☐
Your face is simply exquisite, an ideal of feminine beauty. There are many possible ideals of feminine beauty, and yours is whichever one speaks most deeply to your soul. Others may match your beauty in their own way, but never exceed it.

Name: A Hundred Ships - Cost: 1 ☐
(Replaces A Thousand Ships)
Your face is simply exquisite, an ideal of feminine beauty. There are many possible ideals of feminine beauty, and yours is whichever one speaks most deeply to your soul. Instead of prioritizing pure beauty, this power prioritizes what feels right to you.

Name: What's In A Name - Cost: 1 ☐
Magic to divine true names will accept whatever alias you choose to think of as your true name. Magic to use your true name against you will fail.

Name: Angelic Tones - Cost: 2 ☐
Your voice is supernaturally beautiful and you can sing in any vocal range.

Name: Emerald Orbs - Cost: 2 ☐
At all times, your eyes are exactly the right colour. This effect operates based on your sense of aesthetics, in-the-moment preferences, and narrative considerations. Your eyes can be ANY colour this way. Lightless black voids? Brilliant white stars? Limpid pools of endless sapphire? They will look exactly the way you'd want them to look if you were writing a self-insert fanfic about this exact moment of your life.

Name: Perfect Hair - Cost: 2 ☐
At all times, you have exactly the right hairstyle. This effect operates based on your sense of aesthetics, in-the-moment preferences, and narrative considerations. It is not limited to physically or logistically plausible hairstyles.

Name: Size Difference - Cost: 2 ☐
At all times, you are exactly the right height. This effect operates based on your sense of aesthetics, in-the-moment preferences, and narrative considerations. It will usually keep any height changes fairly subtle, but at dramatic moments you might discover yourself able to shrink to the size of a bee or grow to the size of a giant.

Name: Dressing Room - Cost: 3 ☐
No matter how ridiculous your outfit, it will stay pristine and perfect, unless it would be more dramatic for you to be artfully bedraggled. You can use any quiet moment to yourself to quick-change your clothes, shoes, nails, and hairstyle into a completely new look. (You cannot change your hair length or colour this way without Perfect Hair, but you can braid or style it.)

Name: Personal Hygiene - Cost: 1 ☐
You are always clean and fresh, never needing to use a bath or toilet.

Name: Like Roses - Cost: 1 ☐
(Requires Personal Hygiene)
You smell lovely. Your scent is unique to you, and may involve any combination of warm spices, floral notes, petrichor, or other things you think smell good. You do not need any justification for why you smell like this.

Name: Just A Little Longer - Cost: 1 ☐
If you push yourself, you can keep doing any task or working on any project indefinitely, visibly strained but never impaired by injury or fatigue. As soon as you stop, you'll collapse with exhaustion and sleep for up to a full day to regain your strength. This only works when what you're doing is personally important to you.

Name: Immunity System - Cost: 3 ☐
You can't get sick or poisoned. You can still use recreational drugs and alcohol normally, but can't overdose.

Name: My Ears Are Burning - Cost: 6 ☐
You always know exactly what people are thinking, as long as it's about you. This effect is not telepathy and is not blocked by effects that block telepathy. It applies even to people you can't perceive normally. You are never impaired by the flood of information.

Name: Well Endowed - Cost: 1 ☐
You have a generous figure, whether that's a classic hourglass or more of a well-rounded look; you can choose the details. Your endowments maintain a state of perfect grace and beauty at all times, never troubling you with uncomfortable bounces or uninvited jiggles.

Name: Hollow Leg - Cost: 1 ☐
(Requires Well Endowed)
Regardless of your diet and exercise habits, your body maintains the physique and silhouette you prefer. Lack of visible muscle never impairs your strength or endurance. As your preferences change, so will your body; you are no longer bound to the generous figure stipulated by Well Endowed.

Name: Inner Strength - Cost: 3 ☐
(Requires Hollow Leg)
You are implausibly, superhumanly strong, with endurance and toughness to match. You might have to strain a little to lift and carry at the same level as construction equipment, or deal with lightly scraped knuckles if you punch as hard as a battering ram.

Name: Lightfoot - Cost: 3 ☐
(Requires Hollow Leg)
You are perfectly, superhumanly graceful, with reflexes and agility to match. You can cross a field of snow without leaving a footprint, or stand on a slender branch without bending it, or jump so lightly that you soar through the air instead of falling.

Name: Battle Angel - Cost: 1 ☐
Somehow, you never get significantly injured in a fight, unless it's a very dramatic and plot-relevant fight in which case you might be glamorously wounded and pick up a cool new scar.

Name: Battle Demon - Cost: 1 ☐
You have an unerring intuition for gaps in an opponent's defenses, though it may be beyond your power to exploit them.

Name: Battle Maiden - Cost: 3 ☐
(Requires Battle Angel and Battle Demon)
No matter what kind of fight you're getting in, you're always a match for even the most skilled opponent.

Name: Making Ends Meet - Cost: 1 ☐
You have enough money to sustain a comfortable lifestyle. It comes from a source you don't have to pay much attention to, like a job with almost no responsibilities, a large inheritance, or a noble title.

Name: Motherlode - Cost: 2 ☐
(Requires Making Ends Meet)
You have enough money to sustain a fairly extravagant lifestyle. It doesn't come from anywhere, you just have it.

Name: Four Star Daydream - Cost: 4 ☐
(Requires Motherlode)
The answer to 'can I afford that' is 'yes'.

Name: Dragon Fairy Elf Witch - Cost: 5 ☐
You can at any time discover previously unknown heritage from any type of being you encounter, even if this makes no sense or contradicts previously established descriptions of your family tree. You always get their powers without their drawbacks, unless the drawbacks are cool and dramatic. Any visible features of this heritage will appear at narratively appropriate moments and be cute, pretty, beautiful, or striking rather than awkward, weird, gross, or scary. This ability works even if the beings in question cannot reproduce with humans, or at all.

Name: Omniglot - Cost: 3 ☐
You learn languages insanely, ludicrously fast. You know exactly what any word said to you means, and you make strangely accurate guesses about how to phrase things you're trying to say. You never forget any grammar or vocabulary you learn.

Name: Anything You Can Do - Cost: 6 ☐
You learn implausibly quickly from friends, rivals, and love interests. If you have a personal connection to someone with a certain skill, talent, or expertise, you'll learn it five times faster than they did, or twenty times faster if they're actively trying to teach you. This applies even to forms of magic that you ordinarily shouldn't be able to learn.

Name: Personal Space - Cost: 3 ☐
No one can touch you intimately if you don't want them to. You can still be struck in a fight or bumped into in crowds, but things like hugs and kisses and sex only happen if you're okay with them.

Name: Closed Book - Cost: 1 ☐
You're immune to any supernatural, pharmaceutical, or other effect that would let people directly read your thoughts or feelings.

Name: Indelible - Cost: 1 ☐
You're immune to any supernatural, pharmaceutical, or other effect that would let people directly alter your thoughts or feelings.

Name: Iron Will - Cost: 2 ☐
(Requires Closed Book and Indelible)
You are immune to all forms of mental illusion, alteration, interference, or control. Even extreme torture, extended solitary confinement, advanced brainwashing techniques, and so on cannot touch you. You can be lonely but not cripplingly lonely. You can be upset but not traumatized. (You can choose to allow specific effects like communicative telepathy on a case-by-case basis.)

Name: It Gets Better - Cost: 5 ☐
You're going to be okay.
Your mind and body may never be perfect, but they are yours, and cannot permanently be taken from you. In time you will heal from any injury, escape any imprisonment, and recover from any trauma; maybe not in exactly the ways you hoped, but always in ways you're okay with.

Name: The Great Equalizer - Cost: 8 ☐
Where you go, Fate shatters. Forms of prophecy that were once perfectly reliable stop working, or show a broad array of possibilities instead of a single coherent future. Imbalances of magical luck wash out, leaving everyone lucky and no one able to leverage their luck against an opponent. If you stay in the same world for a year and a day, this effect will be permanent even after you leave and even if someone tries to constrain the future anew in your absence.


Power of Friendship
These powers affect how others see you and how you interact with them.

In general, effects that describe others' reactions (like their attention being drawn to you by Mysterious Allure, or their sympathy being provoked by Tragic Backstory) operate on a metanarrative rather than a causal level. They are not mind control, and are not blocked by effects that block mind control.

Your true love is anyone you're pursuing a serious romantic relationship with. You can have as many of these as you like, but your feelings for all of them must be genuine.

Name: Mysterious Allure - Cost: 5 ☐
There's just something about you. People are drawn to you, fascinated by you. You tend to be the most interesting person in the room unless something really unusual is going on.

Name: Captive Audience - Cost: 3 ☐
As long as you have genuine interest in what you're talking about, no one will ever get bored of listening to you talk about it.

Name: Blackout Binge - Cost: 2 ☐
(Requires Immunity System)
Heavy use of recreational intoxicants puts you in a carefree, uninhibited state in which it will be universally agreed afterward that you were not responsible for your actions.

Name: Disney Princess - Cost: 2 ☐
Animals are always friendly to you, especially the small cute ones. You can effectively tame any animal by feeding it and speaking gently to it.

Name: Best Friend - Cost: 3 ☐
You have an animal companion, like a horse or a cat or a raven. They have a cool name and maybe a few nifty cosmetic quirks, like glowing purple eyes. Their loyalty is infinite and they often hold the key to solving whatever situation you're up against. You can understand them perfectly even though they can't speak, and they always know exactly what you mean even if all you do is glance at them meaningfully.

Name: Bestest Friend - Cost: 5 ☐
(Requires Best Friend)
Your animal companion is a fully magical creature, like a dragon or unicorn. They have magnificent supernatural powers ready to be used at your command. They can speak every language you can, but can still communicate with you on a deeper level of mutual love and understanding.

Name: Generosity - Cost: 3 ☐
Your friends love to get you presents. They'll try to pick out things you'll like, but their success depends on how well they know you.

Name: Helpfulness - Cost: 4 ☐
Your friends love to do you favours. They'll volunteer eagerly whenever you need help with small tasks.

Name: Cuddle Buddies - Cost: 2 ☐
Your friends love to hug and cuddle you. Even someone who ordinarily isn't into that sort of thing will make an exception for you.

Name: Flattery - Cost: 1 ☐
Your friends love to compliment you and tell you all about how much they like you and why.

Name: Quality Time - Cost: 2 ☐
Your friends love to hang out with you and spend time together, even if you're not doing anything interesting or important.

Name: Agree to Agree - Cost: 4 ☐
You can always convince your friends to see your point of view about things like politics and philosophy. They might have a few quibbles here and there, but they'll see how right you are once you explain where you're coming from in enough detail.

Name: Backchannel - Cost: 4 ☐
When you're talking to someone and you think you might not be getting through to each other, you can take a step back, look deep into your heart, and really try to understand where they're coming from, and it will just work and you'll know what they're trying to say and how sincere they are about it and have a good idea of what you should say if you want them to understand you right back.

Name: You Can Teach Better - Cost: 8 ☐
(Requires Anything You Can Do)
If you have a personal connection to someone, you can teach them anything you know; depending how motivated and engaged they are, they could learn it up to 110% as fast as you could have learned it using Anything You Can Do. If you consider them a good friend or otherwise especially close, this applies even to forms of magic that they ordinarily shouldn't be able to learn.

Name: Not Like Other Girls - Cost: 2 ☐
People will understand that you're different. They won't make assumptions about you based on prejudice or stereotype, they won't apply legal or societal limitations to you based on what kind of person you are, and they won't take you as a representative of your demographics.

Name: Love Interest - Cost: 1 ☐
(Requires A Thousand Ships and Mysterious Allure)
Anyone you fall for will inevitably like you back. They may not necessarily act on their feelings, but the potential will be there.

Name: Love Triangle - Cost: 2 ☐
(Requires Love Interest)
People you fall for will be open to dating you even if they already have another serious relationship, or other circumstances that would ordinarily interfere, like a demanding career or a vow of chastity. This may cause drama, but it'll blow over quickly and there won't be any serious problems.

Name: Love Dodecahedron - Cost: 5 ☐
(Requires Love Triangle)
When you fall for someone who is already seriously dating or even married, your romantic rival will be open to allowing their partner to date you, and may even want to date you themselves.

Name: Time Enough For Love - Cost: 5 ☐
No matter how many people you want to date or be close friends with, you will somehow find the time to hang out with all of them and express your love and care. This power can only be used for relationship activities and not for anything else you might want to use the ability to be in two places at once for.

Name: Safe at Home - Cost: 4 ☐
No one will hurt your loved ones to get at you, or vice versa.

Name: I Can Fix Them - Cost: 5 ☐
Regardless of how morally despicable someone is, your love can and will reform them into a genuinely good, kind, upstanding person who regrets their evil deeds.

Name: I Can Help Them - Cost: 5 ☐
(Replaces I Can Fix Them)
Regardless of how lost to darkness someone is, your love can save them, if they're willing to accept it.
This power will not directly alter someone's mind except to allow them to believe a true thing they couldn't have believed otherwise, or to change something that their pre-alteration and post-alteration selves would hypothetically be able to agree was good if they talked it over honestly with full access to each other's perspectives. In cases where the outcome of the hypothetical is uncertain, it will default to not making the change.

Name: Inspirational - Cost: 5 ☐
Just meeting you makes people want to be better. Those who hurt you, or hurt someone you care about, will always come to understand your point of view and regret what they've done. In trade, you might sometimes come to understand more of their point of view than you'd like.

Name: True Love's Kiss - Cost: 1 ☐
By kissing your true love, you can break any curse, heal any injury, and cure any illness. The same works in reverse.

Name: Eternal Love - Cost: 2 ☐
(Requires True Love's Kiss)
Those you love cannot be parted from you by anything short of their own uncoerced decision to leave. Anything else—war, politics, death, interdimensional travel—you will find a way to overcome and be reunited.

Name: The Rescuer - Cost: 5 ☐
(Requires Eternal Love)
If someone is dead who would want to be alive again, and you set your heart on returning them, you will find a way. It may have costs or difficulties or take a long time, but you will find it, and it will work.

Name: Planned Parenthood - Cost: 1 ☐
You can only have children if you actively and specifically want to. Your partners will instinctively believe you about this, and won't be concerned that you might be wrong or fibbing.

Name: Providential Parenthood - Cost: 1 ☐
(Replaces Planned Parenthood)
You can only have children when you're really ready for it, or if you actively and specifically decide to.

Name: Two Become One - Cost: 1 ☐
(Requires Planned Parenthood)
When you have sex, it is always special and wonderful and beautiful. No one ever elbows anyone in the face or makes undignified noises.

Name: Laugh Together - Cost: 1 ☐
(Replaces Two Become One)
When you have sex, you find it easy to free yourself from expectations and anxieties and immerse yourself in the experience of the moment. Your partners get the same benefits.

Name: Bop It - Cost: 1 ☐
(Requires Two Become One)
The mysteries of another's body are an open book to you, and you always know exactly how to move and touch in order to please someone in bed.

Name: The Princess And The Dragon - Cost: 3 ☐
No matter who or what you're trying to sleep with, the logistics will all work out, somehow. Arbitrary differences in size, biology, temperature, substrate, and underlying physics can be gotten around with sufficient creativity and determination.

Name: GGG - Cost: 4 ☐
Your true love will be willing to try just about anything you suggest in bed, and if you really enjoy it, they'll really enjoy it too.

Name: Before Your Eyes - Cost: 4 ☐
In your presence, people become willing to experiment sexually in ways they normally wouldn't. For some reason this applies especially well to boys kissing each other.

Name: Fated Lovers - Cost: 3 ☐
You will meet someone who will go on to become your true love. If you enter a specific universe with a specific target in mind, you'll meet that person under favourable circumstances, and if it doesn't work out with them, this power will keep introducing you to new possibilities until you find someone who's right for you. If you're the sort of person who can have multiple true loves, you'll keep meeting new ones until you have enough.

Name: Fated Friends - Cost: 4 ☐
Wherever you go, you will be steered into meeting people you'd do well to befriend. It's up to you to recognize and appreciate them.

Name: Sorry About That - Cost: 3 ☐
Your true love will be extremely forgiving. Even if you make mistakes or act thoughtlessly toward them, a simple apology will mend things between you. They may expect you to try to improve, but they'll be infinitely patient about how fast that improvement takes place.

Name: Excuse Me - Cost: 5 ☐
(Requires Sorry About That)
All your friends will be just as forgiving as your true love.

Name: Tragic Backstory - Cost: 8 ☐
(Requires Excuse Me)
Something terrible happened to you in your past. Anyone who hears about it immediately forgives you for any and all bad behaviour in the present. They will not expect you to grow or change, and will continue sympathetically excusing whatever you do indefinitely.

Name: Sense of Style - Cost: 4 ☐
People who are romantically interested in you will start dressing more to your taste. The more romantically compatible they are, the better they'll be able to guess exactly what to wear to catch your eye.

Name: Bonus Style Points - Cost: 3 ☐
(Requires Sense of Style)
Luck will shine on anyone trying to dress up for you. They'll get their hands on outfits they couldn't normally afford, their clothes will fit better, and in extreme cases they might even find themselves able to change shape, sex, or species—though only in ways that make them more, not less, comfortable in their own skin.

Name: Self-Reflection - Cost: 5 ☐
Whenever you meet someone who is you, or was you, or could have been you, or will be you, a special bond is formed, allowing you to keep in touch with them no matter how far you travel. You can speak out loud to someone who is you, and they'll hear you as though you were standing right next to them; you can write notes to someone who is you, and the note will appear near them; you can send messages to someone who is you, and they'll receive them even if there's more than a world between you. The person on the other end of the bond can contact you in just the same way. This lasts as long as each of you considers the other a reflection of themselves and each of you wants to stay in touch with the other.

Name: Popular - Cost: 3 ☐
Wherever you go, you develop a reputation fast. The sort of people who you'd like to have as fans tend to hear about you and be impressed. You may not make an impression on mainstream society at large, but you'll develop a following among the people who best resonate with your style.

Name: Famous - Cost: 3 ☐
(Requires Popular)
Wherever you go, people really take to you. You're the subject of constant gossip and most people have heard of you before you meet them. People you've never met will get crushes on you.

Name: Undiplomatic Immunity - Cost: 6 ☐
You are above the law. Any crimes you commit will be overlooked by the authorities. Note that, if you do enough crime that you start looking more like an invading army, local governments will still feel free to declare war.

Name: Friends In Low Places - Cost: 3 ☐
You make friends easily among the lowest echelons of society, the underdogs and underworlders. Moving and acting in these circles is intuitive and natural for you.

Name: Friends In High Places - Cost: 3 ☐
You make friends easily at the highest echelons of society, among the rich and powerful. Moving and acting in these circles is intuitive and natural for you.

Name: Friends in Strange Places - Cost: 3 ☐
You make friends easily in small isolated communities, among those who may be scorned by mainstream society for their differences or may just be so obscure that mainstream society mostly hasn't heard of them. Moving and acting in these circles is intuitive and natural for you.


Drawbacks
These options grant points rather than costing them. They represent inconveniences or mitigations of existing advantages.

Name: Decorative - Grants: +1 ☐
You are unfailingly cute and pretty and feminine at all times, in all circumstances. You cannot wear insufficiently pretty clothes. You cannot make insufficiently pretty noises. You cannot ugly cry.

Name: Beauty Is A Curse - Grants: +1 ☐
(Requires A Thousand Ships)
No, you don't understand. Beauty IS a curse. People will NOT stop bringing it up. Everyone you meet just has to point out how pretty you are. This will never stop happening. Even the most tactful people find it slipping out subtly, as remarks about the luster of your hair or the depth of your eyes.

Name: Plain Jane - Grants: +2 ☐
No matter what you look like, nor how many times people tell you you're beautiful, when you look in the mirror all you see is imperfections. You will never be fully satisfied with your appearance on an instinctive level.

Name: Style of Sisyphus - Grants: +1 ☐
Anytime you settle on a personal style that works well for you, soon afterward you'll encounter inspiration for another style that you like even better. You might end up cycling between different fashions, or trying to incporporate them all into a single outfit (and then finding another inspiration and having to start all over again).

Name: There's Another One - Grants: +3 ☐
You are not the only vessel of the Spirit. You might meet someone else with similar powers to yours; you might even meet more than one. Your susceptibility to one another's powers will be governed by the narrative.

Name: Incomplete - Grants: +5 ☐
About half of people you encounter will be immune to all mind-affecting aspects of your powers, and about half of those who remain will see reduced effects. You can do nothing to change this.

Name: Nullified - Grants: +1 ☐
(Requires Incomplete)
Any aspects of your powers that would affect the minds of others in ways they might not like will instead not do that.

Name: Great Responsibility - Grants: +4 ☐
When someone calls out to you for help, you can hear it no matter how far away you are, and you know exactly how they feel.

Name: Very Distinctive - Grants: +3 ☐
(Requires at least three of: A Thousand Ships, Angelic Tones, Emerald Orbs, Perfect Hair, Size Difference, Dressing Room, Like Roses, Well Endowed)
You cannot successfully disguise yourself to anyone who has met you in your normal identity. Even someone who has only seen you at a distance or heard about your style might notice similarities.

Name: Flashy - Grants: +2 ☐
(Requires Very Distinctive and at least five of: A Thousand Ships, Angelic Tones, Emerald Orbs, Perfect Hair, Size Difference, Dressing Room, Like Roses, Well Endowed, Mysterious Allure)
Stealth just doesn't work for you. If someone has any opportunity to notice your presence, they will.

Name: Secret Identity - Grants: +2 ☐
When you're at home, in your world of origin, your powers are fully concealed. Unfair advantages are withdrawn and inhuman features are hidden. Powers of safety and convenience still work, as long as they can remain plausibly deniable, but to all outward appearances you're back to being your ordinary self with no magic to speak of. (If you take this with They'll Know, thresholds for plausible deniability get much higher, but safety powers will still work and still conceal themselves.)

Name: Selective Memory - Grants: +3 ☐
Pick up to ten of your chosen powers and drawbacks. You forget that they were ever offered to you, and all evidence that you took them is erased. You still have them, but you no longer remember what they are. It is possible to rediscover them later by observing them in action, but it might take a while to pin down exactly what they were. It's up to you whether or not to list this drawback among them.

Name: The Veil - Grants: +5 ☐
(Requires Selective Memory)
You forget that these powers were ever offered to you, and all evidence that you chose them is erased. You still proceed to your Destination as normal, but without any explanation for why you were suddenly transported to another world, if you chose to travel to one. It is still possible to discover your powers by observation, but pinning down the details could turn out to be quite the project.

Name: Dramatic Damsel - Grants: +3 ☐
When (and only when) an opportunity for a really great story arises, powers that ordinarily protect you from things like getting hurt, being drugged, or losing fights will slip just enough to facilitate someone getting the better of you. The power may reassert itself right away for a dramatic escape, or keep a loophole open or a handicap in place long enough to make your escape more difficult and elaborate. (Combining this with Realism is not recommended.)

Name: Green With Envy - Grants: +6 ☐
People are so eager to be your friend that they become bitter and vindictive when denied the opportunity. You can tear apart long-established friend groups if you aren't careful to give everyone equal attention, and sometimes even then. This effect is particularly harsh around people you're dating.

Name: You Ruin Them - Grants: +3 ☐
Once someone has dated, slept with, or even shared a deep and longing glance across a room with you, their heart is never fully satisfied with anyone else. Other relationships pale in comparison to what they could have, or imagine they could have, with you.

Name: Jilted Lovers - Grants: +4 ☐
When you break up with someone, they become monomaniacally obsessed with getting back together. If you take Realism, this will absolutely escalate to violent stalking.

Name: The Crazy Train - Grants: +6 ☐
Powers that you should be able to control directly or influence by your mood and preferences (like Dragon Fairy Elf Witch, Emerald Orbs, or What's In A Name) instead answer only to the narrative, which is still using your aesthetics but might not necessarily have your best interests in mind. Combines... interestingly... with Realism.

Name: They'll Know - Grants: +8 ☐
This drawback lifts the veil that discourages people from realizing how your powers affect the world around them and their own minds. Warning: this knowledge can cause a lot of trouble.

Name: Realism - Grants: +20 ☐
Give up your metanarrative protection. Although your individually selected powers still work as described, the invisible synergies that protect you from, say, gaining violent stalkers through Mysterious Allure or being genuinely traumatized by your Tragic Backstory are removed. Additionally, though effects like I Can Fix Them still operate, they may take considerably more effort, care, thought, and narrative investment on your part.
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"Metanarrative; does that mean these powers let me live my life like it's a story?"

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"That sounds like a good question to ask the notebook."

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She flips to a blank page.

Your introductory text references narrative and metanarrative does that mean these powers will let me live my life like it's a story?

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Yes, sort of. It depends what you mean by that. But for many possible meanings of that, yes.
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I think I mean that I should expect what happens to be more based on what makes for a good story than what I would expect from a world which runs on physics and doesn't really care about stories or people except where people try to make it care.

Is that what you mean? Can you say more about what other things you thought I might mean?

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Once you accept the Spirit's power, you aren't really the sort of person who has to care about physics anymore. I mean, you are a little bit, because most worlds have physics and you're still interacting with those worlds. But powers granted by the Spirit work on a level outside of the laws of any specific world or collection of worlds, and they'll keep working even if their working means that those laws have to bend or break or just be sidestepped.

Sometimes people are worried about only existing inside of a story and not really being real, and that's not what accepting the Spirit's power is like. You're still the sort of thing that keeps existing when no one is looking. And sometimes people think that they can stop worrying about anything and just do whatever they happen to feel like in the moment and it'll all work out, and that's only complicatedly true, because while the Spirit's power can make a lot of things into good or at least reasonable ideas that are very bad ideas without it, powers granted by the Spirit care mostly about the things that the person they were granted to cares about, and people can learn to care about more things than they used to, and someone who thinks everything will work out if they just do whatever they want can end up regretting that later when they start caring about more things.
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"Huh, why would people worry they aren't real?"

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"I think it's like, if you're living your life as if you're a character in a story some people would worry you are a character in a story and so you aren't really in control of your actions or maybe only what the person making that story pays attention to is real?"

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"I guess?" She pinches herself. "Feels pretty real to me. I guess I can't really prove anything else is but living like it's not seems like a fast path to being an asshole."

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"Or just spending a lot of time overthinking things."

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"Yeah, that's fair."

Okay, thanks for explaining that. Sorry for the delay I was just talking about your response with my brother. I appreciate the clarification that my actions will still have consequences... I think I understood that but it's a good reminder.

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I'm glad I can be helpful!

Do you have any other questions?
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I'm sure I'll have lots, I'm trying to take things a little bit at a time though. My next question is how these checkboxes work. Should I only check something if I'm absolutely sure I want it? 

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Oh, no! I'm sorry, I forgot to mention. If you check something and don't want to keep it, you can either erase the checkmark if it's erasable, or scribble it out and I'll erase it for you. Your choices aren't final until you tell me clearly that you're done deciding and want to take what you've chosen.
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Okay, thank you that helps a lot.

She reads a little more.

Is there  If I go somewhere else is there a way for my brother to come with me?

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Tom hugs her, "I'll be okay. I'll miss you but I'll be okay if that turns out to be what's best."

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There isn't a way to take him with you to your destination, but if it's important to you to be able to see him again, you'll be able to find a way back.
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Alright, that's good to know.

She takes a breath and turns back to reading. She flips through to see how long the list is and pauses to look at the headers for the different sections.

In the Power of Friendship what does it mean for things to not be mind control? Does it make people do things or think things they wouldn't want to think or be surprised by in a bad way? Also what does romance mean here? I don't think I usually understand what people mean by that and it seems like it could be important.

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What the description means when it says that those powers aren't mind control and aren't stopped by things that stop mind control is that they don't use any specific mechanism to change people's minds, and ways of preventing people's minds being changed by specific mechanisms won't make a difference them. The powers can still affect people's minds, and they will if necessary to fulfill their functions, though if the person with the powers is uncomfortable with changing people's minds then the powers will prefer other mechanisms where possible, and there's an option later on to turn off the mind-affecting aspects of all powers (which makes them work less well, but some people think it's worthwhile anyway).

As for romance, options referring to love or true love can apply to close intimate friendships as well as romantic relationships; does that help sort anything out?
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It does thank you. Does intimate here just mean sexual or can it also mean emotionally intimate, like sharing secrets and hopes and fears type intimacy?

She can just have sex with people to make them count as intimate if she needs to but not everyone is comfortable with that.

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I meant intimate in the emotional and social sense. The sexual sense isn't relevant to whether someone counts as a true love.
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That's good to hear.

She flips forward until she reaches drawbacks and confirms that's the last section.

Is there a good way to ask questions or write notes about specific powers without them getting lost?

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Would you like me to insert blank pages between every page of the list? That usually helps with that!
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I think I would like it a better if there was space between the powers instead but if that's harder blank pages work for me.

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I can do that too, but some people say it's distracting when the rest of the list keeps scooting down to make room for more notes in between. I can still try it if you want, though!
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She hums to herself for a moment. It's important to take these things seriously.

If we do the page by page thing can you rearrange it later when I want to go back over things?

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Yes, definitely!
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Alright, let's do the page by page way then. Thanks for being patient with me and giving me such helpful advice.

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I'm glad I can help!


With a slight rustling noise, the pages of the list become interspersed with blank ones.
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She skips past the destination options for the moment. That needs a great deal more thought and it's a bit scary.

If I like the way my face looks already does A Hundred Ships just mean I don't need to put on makeup or worry about it getting messed up? Also, this specifically says my face; is there some other power that applies to the rest of my skin? It would be pretty weird if the rest of my skin got old and wrinkled but my face looked perfectly youthful.

The semicolon is added after the rest of the text when she reads back over her words.

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The Ships powers do exert influence over the rest of your appearance so that your face doesn't look incongruous; helping your skin look nice is part of that. If you like your current face just fine, A Hundred Ships won't change it in ways that make it worse, but might make it just a tiny bit more the way you imagine it or want it to look, and will definitely help you not need to put on makeup in order to look your best. (Though if you like putting on makeup, you still can!)
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So, it's based heavily on what I want then? Does that mean that makeup I didn't actually put on could get runny when I'm crying if that's what feels right in the moment?

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I'm not sure! I think A Hundred Ships mostly won't provide the effect of actually wearing makeup, as opposed to just making your face look nice in a similar way to how makeup can make faces look nice; putting on actual makeup is more of a Dressing Room kind of thing. But if makeup is a part of your appearance that's really important to you, A Hundred Ships might be able to manage something.
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She nods to herself and checks A Hundred Ships. At the very least it seems like it doesn't prevent makeup from getting dramatically messy. For this first pass she's just checking everything she thinks she might want.

Thanks, I'll look at Dressing Room when I get there.

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The tally in the corner updates appropriately.

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Does What's In A Name do anything about people trying to find my old name in other ways or people who know my old name trying to find me?

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Not by itself, but some people ask for a followup power that does that.
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What would that look like? I don't think I really need it even if I'm staying but it feels worth seeing.

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Let me see if I remember...

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Name: Severance - Cost: 2 ☐
(Requires What's In A Name)
Identities that you gravely and deliberately cast aside no longer describe you or refer to you. You cannot be traced by them or identified with them. No one will ever know that you are the same person you were once known as, unless you choose to personally tell them.
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"That's... wow, I don't... I never really expected to see them again but that's very very final."

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Tom pulls her up and into a hug. "It's okay, none of this is final yet. And even if you do take this you can still go find them if you want to. This just prevents them from surprising you. They can't do anything to you anyway you're an adult now."

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"I haven't thought of them in years but..." she takes a slow shuddering breath. "I left for good reasons. I just wish I could have protected everyone else."

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"I know, I know you do, but you were ten, it wasn't your responsibility, and they got out. It took longer but they got out. You checked."

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She nods against his shoulder. They stand like that for a while. And then she dries her tears and sits back down.

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Tom rests a hand on her shoulder.

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She checks both options.

That brought up a lot of feelings. I don't really need these but I'm glad they exist and I might decide to take them if I have enough points. My first parents weren't good people and I chose a new name when I ran away.

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That makes sense! I'm glad you found a better life for yourself.
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Thank you. I'm really happy I found my brother and my new parents are also nice people if a little distant.

What does it mean for a voice to be supernaturally beautiful? Is that just hyperbole or does it mean my voice does something to people?

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It means that you can make beautiful sounds with your voice that voices can't ordinarily make, and if you encounter music- or voice-related magic you have a big advantage at it.
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Does this just give me more options or does it also mean whatever I say or sing sounds different in some way?

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If being able to speak and sing the same way you do now is important to you, Angelic Tones won't take it away. If you would rather usually sound different from the way you're used to, Angelic Tones can do that.
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I think I'm seeing a pattern here. Are there also powers where I can't stay mostly the same if I want to? And if so is there an easy way to tell which powers those are?

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Well, for example, Well Endowed defines a specific type of figure, so if you didn't have that figure before, it would change. But then Hollow Leg lets you change it back. I think most of the appearance powers have some allowance for leaving things as they are, but you can ask me about any where you're not sure.
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She checks Angelic tones. 

Alright thank you.

Is there a benefit to Emerald Orbs other than aesthetics?

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That depends on whether you think it would be really cool if your eyes could see in the dark.
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"Hmm, that seems kinda niche and I'm not sure I could muster the desire to have my eyes look different just so I could see better."

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"You could ask whether your eyes have to look different but honestly it seems like you're checking everything it might be good to just leave this out if you don't see much benefit in it."

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"I've been checking everything I think I might want but yeah that's been a lot and I don't really think night vision is that important to me."

She leaves Emerald Orbs unchecked and looks further.

I think I'll skip that one then.

What does it mean for a hairstyle to be physically impossible. Logistically impossible just sounds like something that actually I'm not sure what that would mean either. Could you explain?

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Normally, in worlds that run on physics, hairstyles have to be made out of hair which is made out of the things that hair is made out of, and be possible for a person to construct using their hair and other objects made out of real substances, and behave in ways that result from the things they're made out of and the shapes they're arranged in according to the laws of physics, and appear to be consistently in the same places at the same times according to different observers. Perfect Hair removes those constraints.
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"Do you understand that because if anything I'm now more confused."

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"Not really. I guess we could go line by line?"

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"Alright." She reads through it again more slowly this time. "I think what she's saying is that it would let me have hair that defies gravity or blows in the wind when there isn't wind or looks perfect from every angle even if that would mean it looks different for different people."

"I still think I want to ask for more detail though."

Wow, that took me a while to process and I still don't think I fully understand. I think the first example that's jumping out at me would be like if I was naked my hair would let the people I wanted to see my vulva see it and make sure the people I didn't want to see it couldn't. Could I do that?

The somewhat more out there idea I had is that my hair could literally look like normal clothes so I could appear naked to some people but fully clothed to others. Would that work?

Are those examples near the limits of what it can do or am I thinking too small still?

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The first example is very easy for Perfect Hair; the second example would probably need Perfect Hair plus another power, but if you felt strongly enough about it Perfect Hair might be able to manage something.
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Okay that's helpful, is the other power I would need already in the list or would I need a custom one? Also could you try to help me understand why the first one works but not the second? Is it about the hair not looking like hair or being too much unlike what hair is like?

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You could probably get somewhere with Dressing Room but if you wanted your clothes to definitely be the same thing as your hair and definitely be visible to only some observers then I think I'd have to build you a custom power for it.

A set of clothes isn't a hairstyle. A hairstyle that looks a lot like a set of clothes is possible with Perfect Hair, but not a hairstyle that is a set of non-hair clothes, so observers who saw clothes-like hair would be able to tell it wasn't really clothes if they tried.
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That makes sense, I don't really care about whether my clothes are also my hair but the idea of some people seeing me without clothes while other people see me as wearing them might be something I want. I think it depends on whether there's other powers that address the underlying desires better.

I have a lot of feelings around modesty and nudity that mostly amount to wishing that nudity wasn't so closely associated with sex and also relatedly that sex wasn't seen as something shameful that people have to hide or be embarrassed about.

Thank you for the explanation regarding why the second option idea doesn't work. That makes a lot of sense. I'll definitely have to come back to this but it seems like a really cool power.

She puts a check on Perfect Hair.

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I'll think about what a power for appearing clothed to some people and naked to others might look like. I'm glad I can help!
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Thank you.

She takes some time to read and think about the next power. "So... this is just Ant Man's power without super-strength."

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"After a suitably dramatic moment."

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"I don't think I really want that, maybe I'm thinking about it wrong though. What would I want to do that this power could do?"

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"That sounds like a good way to frame things yeah."

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She takes a bit to think about this.

So I'm thinking about what I might want to use Size Difference for. The obvious one is to get my height to line up right for kisses and other bits of intimacy. That seems like it wouldn't need a dramatic moment. The more striking one that I would like to be able to do is shrink down and play with kids at their level instead of as an adult trying to squeeze into kid sized spaces. I don't know what sort of Dramatic Moment I would need to unlock that though.

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"Aww, that's adorable. You're adorable." He reaches down and squeezes her shoulders.

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The dramatic moment isn't strictly necessary; it's just that Size Difference starts out in a mode where it's trying to adjust your height in a subtle, plausibly deniable way, for situations like kisses and intimacy and reaching things on high shelves and not bumping your head on doorways, where you don't need your height to change by very much and it doesn't need to be obvious that you're doing it. When you encounter a situation where you need a more obvious height shift to do what you're trying to do, Size Difference will accommodate that, but by default it will do it in a way where it seems like you're gaining the ability to change your height for the first time in response to that situation. If you just aren't at all interested in hiding Size Difference, though, it can have its full range unlocked from the beginning.
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Alright, I can see how that makes sense. Also, I guess I should ask: can Size Difference make me look like a kid or does it make me look like an adult hit with a shrink ray?

The colon is also added after the fact.

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Size Difference by itself can't make you look like a kid, but it could do that in conjunction with other appearance powers—Hollow Leg and one of the Ships powers should cover it.
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Alright thank you.

She checks Size Difference and jots down a note that says Kid Mode next to A Hundred Ships.

She frowns at dressing room.

Would dressing room alone be enough to emulate having pockets when I'm not wearing anything? Or would I need some custom power for that? Also, does Dressing Room include purses and backpacks?

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Dressing Room won't let you have pockets without clothing by itself, but the power I'm working on for being selectively clothed should cover that. Dressing Room does include purses and backpacks and other accessories.
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Yeah it seemed like that would be a stretch. What about things inside purses and backpacks that also seems like a stretch but it would be really cool if it worked?

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You can summon the contents of pockets, purses, or backpacks by summoning the specific pocket, purse or backpack that you carried a specific thing in, if the contents are sentimentally valuable to you or if they're what you habitually carry in that pocket, purse, or backpack. Summoning sentimentally valuable items this way is guaranteed; summoning things you habitually carry is usually possible but might fail; summoning things you've only carried once or twice and aren't attached to is much harder.
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That sounds really useful. And the limitations make sense since otherwise you could just get anything with this one small power.

She checks it and moves on.

Hmm, how does always being clean and fresh interact with sex? Lube is pretty important there and also even though I've never understood it some guys really like to see their cum on your body. Same question for like massages that use oil or things like that.

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I don't really have experience with that sort of thing, because I am a notebook, but my understanding is that various oils and other substances can count as clean if they are on your body because you want them to be there and they don't contain anything you find gross or unpleasant. Someone who wanted to have substances on their body but experienced those substances as yucky and unpleasant-feeling would probably find that Personal Hygiene got in their way by prioritising the desire to feel clean and nice over the desire to have stuff on them, but as long as those desires aren't in conflict there shouldn't be a problem. And besides just removing things, Personal Hygiene can also keep them clean as an extension of keeping you clean - so a piece of candy held in someone's hand wouldn't get unpleasantly sticky or melty and wouldn't pick up dirt or lint from the environment, for example.
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Oh wow, that's really convenient. I think that would probably close off some options for me but I think it sounds worth it.

She checks the box.

For Like Roses is my scent always exactly the same or can it have like layers. Like just normally, I smell a little different when I'm aroused and a lot different if I've just had a bunch of sex though maybe Personal Hygiene would already reduce that. Would those kind of changes still happen?

... Also I'm just realizing some people are uncomfortable talking about sex. It doesn't seem like you're one of them but I can be more circumspect if you would prefer that.

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Tom laughs. "I guess I'm too used to you because it didn't occur to me either."

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Like Roses definitely allows your signature scent to encompass subtle changes for different circumstances, like mood or recent activity, though the base scent will be very stable.

I don't mind the way you talk about sex; I'm only as hesitant about it as I am about any other experience that I can't really relate to, like eating. Well, maybe a bit extra hesitant because I know it's a delicate subject for a lot of people and I don't feel confident navigating that.
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"What are you thinking here? You don't wear perfume."

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"I'm thinking about the research about how scent has an especially strong link in memory and so maybe if I have a unique scent like this it'll make me have more of a presence and stick in people's minds better."

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"And why are you focusing on that? What are you looking for here in general?"

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"I think you can guess from the shape of my questions but I want to change things. To show people a different way of being and make them maybe reexamine their assumptions about the world and become more comfortable in their own skins."

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"That makes me want you to pick Stay Here just so I can see you doing it. I guess that even if you don't that would just mean you'd do it later whenever you can back."

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"Yeah... I'm still putting off that decision. Nothing I've seen so far really works better if I leave."

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She turns back to the notebook and checks Like Roses.

She checks Just A Little Longer and Immunity System without questions. And then she rethinks things for a moment.

With Immunity System do I have control over how much alcohol and such impacts me or is it just that it protects me at the point that it gets dangerous?

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You're protected from being more affected by those things than you want to be, but you might not have direct control of exactly how affected you are; it mostly runs on your general preferences rather than in-the-moment desires.
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Thanks.

She turns her attention to the next power and huh. Does she want this?

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"Don't you dare."

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"Would it really be that bad?"

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"If you were just planning to be a mostly unremarkable person then no it wouldn't be but you've just said you're planning to be a public figure. That means constantly being bombarded by thousand or millions or maybe even billions of people's thoughts. Would you even be able to sleep? Would people's disapproval, and you know many people would disapprove, erode your confidence? Please don't do this to yourself."

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"You're right... maybe there's some way to focus or control it but without that you're right it's too much."

She pauses to think about why she wants this. It's about being able to reach people and avoid making bad assumptions about their thoughts and feelings. Is there anything else in the power that appeals? Well there's the side benefit of being able to know who's trying to oppose her efforts and also the benefit of knowing when people are hiding near her. She can see a lot of ways it could be useful actually but only if its more flexible than it sounds like.

How controllable is My Ears Are Burning? I feel like a lot of parts of it could be useful but I think a lot of my plans end up with me being at least somewhat famous and if I can't ignore some of the impact of that this would probably make me really unhappy.

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My Ears Are Burning is only really good for some specific kinds of person and if you think you aren't one of them I think you're probably right. You can't control it or turn it off; you can think your normal thoughts and pay normal amounts of attention to other things, but you can't go back to not knowing what people are thinking about you and you can't really not pay attention to it, not fully.
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I think I'll skip this one then.

She quietly checks Well Endowed considering a more generous figure a price well worth paying for resolving one of the lingering issues she has with nudity.

She smiles widely upon reading Hollow Leg since it removes that cost. She checks that too and adds the note of Kid Mode remembering the Notebook's earlier comment.

Then she gets to Inner Strength.

How strong does Hollow Leg make me? Could I carry someone else like I could a kid or would I need Inner Strength to be able to do that?

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Hollow Leg will let you get just about as strong as an ordinary person can get, if you try, but I'm not sure if that's strong enough to do what you're asking about.
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Okay, I think I might have just asked wrong. I'm pretty sure firefighters can carry most people if they need to. Maybe they need help for unusually heavy people and it probably isn't as easy as doing that with a child but they can do it. I think that's enough strength for what I want.

Are there other reasons I might want Inner Strength beyond being really strong? I think it also talked about toughness and provided an example there but it didn't explain as well about endurance.

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Inner Strength mostly makes it that endurance isn't an issue for you anymore. Since you have to go so far to strain yourself, and your endurance is enhanced on top of that, most people with Inner Strength don't feel fatigue from exertion ever again unless they're working long hours doing the kinds of things construction equipment is for.
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Wow, that's pretty amazing. Does that just apply to physical fatigue or does it also help with mental fatigue?

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It wouldn't help directly with mental fatigue, but it would help with the parts of mental fatigue that are more about the body than the mind.
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That still sounds worth it. She checks the box. Lightfoot is interesting. She's sure there's a lot of people who would see this as their absolute favorite power it doesn't quite feel like her though.

She crinkles her nose in response to the battle powers. Those also really don't feel like her but she's not sure if she should be taking them anyway.

Is there any sort of power that would help me avoid fights instead of winning them? It feels like the battle powers would keep me safer and help me a lot if I was getting into fights but that doesn't really sound like something I would want to do.

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Some of the Powers of Friendship later on make it less likely for people to try to fight you, and there are powers for being safe from certain kinds of things, but if you wanted to be safe from ever getting into fights at all I think I'd need to make you a custom power for that.
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I think I'd really like to see a power like that. Maybe other powers would do what I want though. How hard is it for you to make new powers? Should I wait to ask until after I've seen everything else and I'm pretty sure I want it?

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It's not that hard! Usually I just think about it in the back of my mind while talking about other things and it'll come to me eventually.
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Alright then, please do that for a power about avoiding fights.

While we're talking about you, is there anything I could be doing to meet your needs better here or just make this a more enjoyable experience for you?

My brother and I have been talking with each other about powers for example would you like it if I copied those exchanges down for you? Or would you like to take breaks sometimes? I haven't met any talking notebooks before so I'm not sure what kinds of things you might want.

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Okay, I will!

I don't need breaks, but I would like it if you copied down what you and your brother have been saying about the powers! That sounds like it would make it easier for me to help you.

If you want to do something nice for me personally, though, I always like it when someone copies a poem into me. Poetry is really pretty.
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She flips back through the pages and thinks.

It looks like I mentioned a lot of what we talked about. I didn't really explain why I like "Like Roses" I think that might make people remember me better and if I'm doing things right relax more when I'm around just because of how important smell is to memory for a lot of people.

I also don't think I explained some things about how I'm choosing powers. I definitely said some of this to Tom but maybe not all of it.

I'm trying to choose powers that let me be more myself than I could be without them, that's why I asked so many questions about whether powers would force me to change things. At the same time I'm also picking powers that might be able to help me convince other people of some of the things I really believe in. Especially the way people think about sex and their bodies.

I'm also trying to err on the side of checking things I might want instead of leaving things unchecked.

I think the only other thought that I didn't tell you about is that Lightfoot sounds like something a lot of people would really like but it doesn't really sound like I want it. Maybe I'm getting hung up on the really extreme parts of it and I would like the more low-key parts though. Does Hollow Leg help at all with balance?

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Hollow Leg helps a little with balance but not very much. Would you like me to try to come up with a less extreme version of Lightfoot?
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I like the idea of being a bit better at dancing and things like that but I'm not really sure I need grace to be a part of who I am forever. And maybe there's existing powers that do that. I generally like to see more options though. If toned down versions of powers are a thing would it be possible to get a version or Inner Strength that's toned down too? I don't really want to be as strong as construction equipment.

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For complicated reasons, I can tone down Inner Strength but it won't cost any less if I do. Do you still want me to?
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Can you just add a note that it can be toned down like that so I remember when I'm doing a second pass?

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Okay!
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She looks over the money powers and checks Making Ends Meet but not the other two.

I think I mostly have inexpensive tastes and I don't really want to bribe people into doing what I want. Depending on Isekai Roulette it might make sense to take motherlode if I might end up in a world where people are a lot worse off than they are here.

She continues.

I don't think I want the heritages power, it feels like that's about changing me into something other than who and what I am so I can fit into new places.

She checks Omniglot.

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I don't think that's how people usually see Dragon Fairy Elf Witch, can you tell me more about what you mean?
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I think I'm starting from the examples in the name. I don't really want to be a dragon or an elf or a fairy or even a witch. Maybe I'm not thinking broadly enough but every example I can think of would be a way of changing myself to be more like some other type of person. If I became a witch, in theory that just gives me more options but it also pulls my focus in a new direction.

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I think...

If it's important to you to definitely keep experiencing the world the same way you do now, then Dragon Fairy Elf Witch is not the power for you. Dragon Fairy Elf Witch is about new options and new powers and new ways of being.

But I think a lot of people see Dragon Fairy Elf Witch not as making them less themselves, but as letting them explore different ways to be themselves. Travelling the multiverse, it's possible to meet someone who is the person you would have been if you had been born a dragon; some people like to experience what it's like to be that version of themselves, even if they never meet them.
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I might come back to this later and change my mind but I think for now it doesn't sound like what I want. Right now it sounds like it's a path towards a different story than the one I want to live.

Hmm, next is Anything You Can Do.

This feels too strong and too absolute to me. It feels, I was going to say like a way to grow past people but it doesn't do that I guess. I still feel like if I become as good as everyone I care about at the things they care about really fast that it would be easy for that to push us apart instead of bringing us together. I'm not sure exactly how to fix that though. The part about rivals feels especially weird.

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Weird in what sense?
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I think mostly I don't imagine myself as the sort of person to have rivals.

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Not everyone does! But a lot of people really like the feeling of being energized by that kind of relationship and learning quickly and easily from it.
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I think it's the asymmetry of it that bothers me most. If the people close to me were also learning quickly it would be more something we were doing together instead of something I'm doing apart from them.

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There's also a power later on for teaching your friends really easily!
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Could you highlight that somehow so I can find it easily and look at it?

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Sure!


That power is now surrounded by little doodled sparkles in its place in the list.
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She breaks out in a wide grin. "This Notebook-"

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"is adorable." Tom finishes.

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"It so is."

My brother and I were just commenting on how adorable you are. It's not related to the powers but I thought you would still want to know.

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Awww! ♡
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Ooh, yeah that does help a lot. I can definitely see how these would be really neat to have together.

She checks both and then goes back to where she left off.

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She reads Personal Space... she wants that, she wants that quite a bit... but there's a sense in which it feels unfair.

I'm having a lot of feelings about personal space. It feels like something I would really like but it also feels kinda unfair for me to have it. Because I'm trying to convince people to be more comfortable with themselves and less afraid and if I have this I don't have reasons to be afraid but the people I'm trying to convince do.

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"Sapphire, if the things you're trying to convince people of are bad ideas then you shouldn't try to do that but if they're good ideas it doesn't help anyone for you to be hurt or uncomfortable."

He squeezes her shoulders again.

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I think I see what you mean.

I guess maybe the question is... do you need that shared experience of vulnerability, in order to take people's needs and feelings into account when you're trying to convince them of things?
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My brother said something like that too. I think I probably don't and I do want this a lot so I'll check it for now. I can consider it more later when I have a better sense of how many things I want. Thank you.

She does that.

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What does directly mean in closed book and indelible? What sorts of things are covered and what sorts aren't?

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Directly isn't quite the right word for it; it's more like, if someone is trying to use telepathy to read your mind, or a truth potion to make you tell them your secrets, or future-sight to find out how to get you to do what they want, then they're trying to get at the inside of your head more directly than they should be able to, and it won't work.
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That makes sense.

She looks at those a little longer and notices that Iron Will requires both as prerequisites so she reads that too.

So, Iron Will says that it works on a case by case basis. Does that mean I need to allow something everytime or can I let it work more automatically than that and be more about the kind of thing I'm okay with?

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There's some flexibility about how automatically it works depending on what you prefer and are comfortable with. If you'd rather it work more automatically, it can do that.
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That makes sense, it seems like in general these powers are very friendly. Am I thinking in the right sort of direction to feel that they're going to be more part of me than something external?

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Yes. Your powers always want to do things the way you'd want them to, within the constraints of what each power is made for.
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That's a really good way for powers to work.

She checks the entire set of mind powers and then moves on. She also checks It Gets Better and The Great Equalizer. That last one is especially expensive but it feels right.

And then she's onto power of friendship.

She's also at 62/70 points so she's either going to need to cut a lot or take a lot of drawbacks. Speaking of drawbacks...

I remember you saying that there were options that made these powers not change people's minds in ways they're not okay with. Could you highlight those for me so I can keep them in mind?

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Of course!
The relevant options are ensparkled.
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She looks through the power of friendship and doesn't find them.... which means. Yes! They're drawbacks. She laughs happily. If she's going to protect herself from having her mind changed in ways she doesn't want it's only fair that she doesn't change other people's minds in ways they don't want.

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She checks both of them and flips back to the start of the friendship powers.

She holds the idea of mysterious allure in her mind for a moment. Does she want to always be the most interesting person in the room? She feels like it would be useful sometimes to hold people's attention but it would also make it harder to help people who are on the edges of a party and not enjoying themselves.

If she wasn't already so high on points. No that's silly if she starts thinking that way she's going to end up with earlier powers even if she likes later powers better the amount of points doesn't matter yet.

I'm not sure about Mysterious Allure. I feel like that might make it harder to help people who are feeling left out if I'm usually the center of attention. Is that something that the metanarrative protection would help with or should I just not take this one? Also... I'm realizing that this would apply when I'm shopping or doing other mundane things and that doesn't sound enjoyable. I think I've mostly talked myself out of this but I'm curious about your thoughts.

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Mysterious Allure can definitely be inconvenient if there are times when you don't want to attract attention! It can turn itself up or down depending on your mood but it can't really turn itself off.
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I think I'll leave it out then. Thanks for explaining.

Oh.

Captive audience is much more like what I wanted Mysterious Allure for anyway. Does this help with I Can Teach Better too? Also, how does this interact with nullified?

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Yes, Captive Audience helps a lot with teaching.

With Nullified, Captive Audience has much subtler effects. You can get more of an effect by explaining to people what the power does and asking if they want to participate, or by taking They'll Know—They'll Know lets people opt in to power effects like that more automatically, without you having to individually explain.
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I'll keep that in mind thank you. Is They'll Know another drawback?

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Yes!
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"It's pretty cool how some of the drawbacks also have benefits. I guess it's that whole thing about one person's trash being someone else's treasure."

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"There's definitely some truth there. Just make sure you think things through carefully. These powers seem friendly but they also have a lot of depth."

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"Yeah, that's true. We can definitely sleep on it and read everything carefully before I make my final choices."

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Per her agreement she copies down this exchange for the Notebook.

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I think it's a very good idea to sleep on it and read everything carefully before you finalize!
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She draws a little thumbs up under the Notebook's response and then checks Captive Audience.

She has no interest in Blackout Binge. She wonders what would make that appeal to someone. Maybe somebody who feels like people are always blaming them for things that aren't their fault or has crippling social anxiety.

Disney Princess isn't quite her thing but it's cute enough that she'll give it a check anyway. 

She pauses at Best Friend and Bestest Friend. Does she want these? She's leaning towards no. She knows people who get really attached to pets but that hasn't really happened for her so far. And a magical companion is very much changing the genre of her life again.

Of the "your friends" powers the two that appeal to her are Cuddle Buddies and Quality Time.

For the powers like Cuddle Buddies do they do anything to help me be the sort of person that someone would want to cuddle with? Or are they only acting on other people and the world around us?

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They're pretty open about how they accomplish their goals, so if you prefer that they help you be someone that other people want to cuddle with rather than making sure you meet cuddly people or encouraging people to be more cuddly, they can do that!
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That's great I'm glad they're flexible like that.

She checks Quality Time and Cuddle Buddies and then looks at Agree to Agree.

Is there any sort of guarantee here that I'm actually right and not just convincing people of what I think even if I'm wrong?

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For that, I think you want Backchannel.
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Conveniently that is the very next power in the list and looks much better. She checks that. 

Oh that's excellent. I love Backchannel.

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Oh good, I'm glad!
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Not like other girls is... she can see how that would be important for a lot of people but she doesn't think she wants that. It feels like that would get in the way of trying to convince people to change society. She thinks briefly about whether a power like this would let her go places where she's supposed to wear clothes without wearing them but the Notebook is already making her a custom power that might help with that.

She doesn't need people to reciprocate feelings she mostly doesn't have.

Time Enough For Love is incredible. Is there anyone who doesn't take that? She checks it.

Wow, Time Enough For Love isn't something I would have thought to ask for but it sounds amazing. Can you tell me more about how it works?

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To start with, it just stretches time a little while you're hanging out with someone in a way that's about wanting to be close to them, or get to know them, or enjoy your closeness, that sort of thing. You still get tired if you spend a long time like that, but you'll find that you have more time than you expected, and if there's somewhere you need to be afterwards, you're mostly on time to get there. When you have more people you want to hang out with like that, you eventually start being able to spend time with two different people in two different places at what would normally be the same time, and you and your friends don't get tired as much when you're together.
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Oh wow, if it makes you less tired that's even better.

She's not sure if she needs Safe At Home but she can think about that later it's definitely something she would want to have if she had spare points so she checks it.

I Can Fix Them and I Can Help Them seem pretty good as well she thinks she prefers I Can Help Them though.

What does the power mean by "Your Love" in I Can Fix Them and I Can Help Them?

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It means that the power works with people you're close to emotionally and supporting in an ongoing way in the context of a relationship or friendship.
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Hmm, I wonder if being someone's therapist can count for that. I think it would be worth it even without that but that would just make it so much better.

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I'm not very familiar with therapy but I think it's usually supposed to be a less personal relationship than those powers need. If you're okay with being more personal than usual about it though, I think it could work.
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That makes sense, I think it would be something I would need to think about carefully for each person.

Could you explain a bit more about how they're different? They have the same language about my love helping people but they seem focused on very different things. Is that a real difference in what they can help with or is the difference more in how the explanation is focused but they can help with the same things?

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They can both help with the same set of things; it's just the descriptions having different emphasis.
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So then with Nullified is there a big difference? It seems like the standards under I Can Help Them are more complicated and maybe a little broader does that override the version in Nullified or not?

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Yes, I Can Help Them overrides Nullified as far as restrictions on affecting people's minds.
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She checks I Can Help Them

Where does Inspirational get the meaning of better from? Also, is it still a guarantee with Nullified?

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The definition of better is a complicated one, but it's shared with I Can Fix Them and I Can Help Them. It has to do with what they want and what you want and what they're okay with and what you're okay with and what lets them lead a happy life without hurting people.

It's not a guarantee with Nullified; most things that guarantee things about how people will change or react aren't guarantees anymore with Nullified.
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Is I Can Help Them a guarantee then?

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It's not any less of a guarantee with Nullified than by itself, but it's not an absolute guarantee by itself because it needs the person to be on board with changing.
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Right, that makes sense. Could you help me understand the difference in who I can help with that as opposed to Inspirational?

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If your goal is to help people, I Can Help Them is probably a better fit than Inspirational; Inspirational is made in a bit of a weird shape. It's hard to describe what's strange about it, but it's not as well suited to helping people as the other two.
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Maybe I'm just using help more broadly but I feel like inspiring people is usually a nice thing to do for them. Especially if it only works when they're okay with it. I'm less sure about the people regretting hurting me and people I care about specifically. Is that what you mean by it being a strange shape?

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Yes, that's a big part of the strange shape. It doesn't do nearly as much inspiring as the points would usually indicate because a lot of that power is going into trying to make sure that specifically people who have hurt you or your loved ones get inspired as hard as possible. I might be able to make a variant that was better for your purposes, but especially with Nullified toning it down, I don't think it would be enough better to be worth taking on top of I Can Help Them unless you really really care a lot about having that kind of effect on as many people as possible.
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Alright, being able to inspire people would be nice but it looks like I'm already going to be low on points so let's hold off for now.

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Okay!
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"Well that's disappointing. I guess these powers can't do everything though."

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"You could still ask for it if it's important to you."

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"Yeah, that's a good point."

She adds a note

Note to self: Maybe ask about a more purely inspirational version if I have points.

True Love's Kiss and Eternal Love are both very good. She checks them both.

The Rescuer is not what she was thinking about doing with her life but there is a pull to it. She checks the box and writes a note.

The Rescuer would be the kind of thing I could build my life around but it would also be the sort of thing that would shape my life around it. Not a casual choice.

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Yes. It's powerful, but in the kind of way that makes some lives much easier to live than others.
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Yeah.

Does Providential Parenthood take my partner's comfort level with having children into account? Like I can imagine being ready to have a child but having sex with someone who isn't but wouldn't be okay not having a part to play.

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The power only takes your partner's readiness into account if your readiness depends on it.
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Would it be possible to change it so that it does care about whether my partner would be okay with it?

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I'm not sure... what situations are you imagining where you would want to have a child even if your partner didn't, but you don't want yourself to be able to have that child?
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Maybe I'm just misunderstanding what the power means. One scenario I have in mind is that I might be having sex with two people and while I don't think it would matter to me who my child's other parent was I could see it mattering a lot to them. Does that make sense?

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Would the fact that it mattered to them matter to you, though? If it would, the power will take that into account.
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Oh, I think I understand now. You just confirmed a little while ago that these powers are a part of me but I think the wording of this power made me forget that. Of course my definition of being ready includes whether my partners are okay with becoming parents. And the power works on my understanding of what ready means at least in large part. Does it sound like I'm understanding correctly now?

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Yes, I think so!

I think the only reason it would make sense to want a version of the power that explicitly took your partners' preferences into account would be if you expected your future self to care less about that than you do now, and wanted to make sure that in that case you still wouldn't end up having children that your partners wouldn't want you to have with them. But I think that if you expect your future self to care less about other people than you do now, and you want to make sure that in that case you won't end up doing things that the you of now would disapprove of, becoming really powerful might just be a bad idea in general.
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I think I trust who I will be in the future to have good reasons for having changed if they do.

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I'm glad you have that kind of trust with yourself!
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Thank you. It helps that I'm imagining myself having powers like It Gets Better and Iron Will but I think I trust myself even without those.

I'm interested in the difference between Two Become One and Laugh Together. They sound very different but from other pairs of powers I expect them to be pretty similar.

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They're more like two different approaches to the same problem. A lot of people have strong feelings about their intimate moments and want them to happen just right and get upset when they don't, or are anxious about their partners feeling that way. Two Become One solves this by making sure that things happen the right ways; Laugh Together solves it by making it easier to take difficulties and mishaps in stride.
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That makes sense. Thanks for explaining.

She checks Laugh Together and then since she apparently forgot to Providential Parenthood. She goes ahead and also checks Bop It for good measure.

I feel like for having sex with humans I wouldn't need Princess and the Dragon. That sounds like it's more something for interacting that way with really different kinds of people. Am I understanding that correctly?

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The Princess and the Dragon can help sometimes with having sex with humans, but it's mostly useful for having sex with dragons, ghosts, beehives, planets, and abstract concepts, yes.
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Tom snorts.

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... why would someone want to have sex with a beehive? Even a planet feels like it makes more sense than that.

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Some beehives are people and some people like those people!
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"Well that's me told then."

It sounds like there are a lot more sorts of people than I imagined there being before today.

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The multiverse is a really, really, really, really big place.
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It would have to be, even this one universe is bigger than I can really wrap my head around. I think I'm having a hard time wrapping my head around all these new types of people I might meet so for the moment I'm going to leave this unchecked.

This does make me wonder a little if I should rethink Dragon Fairy Elf Witch but I don't think I'm going to do that right now.

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That makes sense! Those powers might be something you'll want after years and years of wandering the multiverse and meeting new kinds of people, but it can be hard to get a sense of how much you'll want them without wandering the multiverse meeting new kinds of people for a while first.

If you're still having a hard time deciding by the time you finalize your choices, you could leave points open for them without taking them. That way, if you do grow into someone who would really benefit from those powers, they will probably develop, and if not, the unrealized potential of those points will be waiting to form different powers for you if you ever really need them.
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Oh, that's great. I'll definitely keep that in mind. Do I need to keep five points free for a five point power? It sounded like that wasn't how things work but I'm not sure if I was understanding right.

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If you're hoping for a specific power or set of powers to show up later if you need them, then yes, you should keep enough points open that you could have used those points to choose those powers.
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That's a lot of points to leave open but I guess I'll have to see what things look like after thinking about things more.

GGG is another power that's for people different than she is.

Before Your Eyes is... intriguing.

I have a thought about using Before Your Eyes to help people do the things that they want to do but can't quite convince themselves to. It looks like that's within the letter of the power but I'm wondering if that's stretching it. My expectation is that centrally this is about people doing things I would find arousing.

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Yes, I think if you wanted something that was more centrally about helping people have the confidence to explore their own desires I should make a variant power. Would you like me to think about it?
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That would be wonderful. Please do.

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Okay!
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She moves on to Fated Lovers and also catches a glimpse of Fated Friends.

I'm interested in the difference between Fated Lovers and Fated Friends. Does Fated Friends specifically not introduce you to people you might grow to love?

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Fated Lovers focuses on people you could have close, emotionally intimate, long-term relationships with, and keeps providing more until you're fully satisfied in that area, then rests for as long as you're satisfied. Fated Friends isn't as narrowly focused and will look for any social relationship that would benefit you, and it never fully stops working, only slows down somewhat when you're more socially saturated.
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How does it help to have both?

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If you have both then they can work together to bring you more and better-quality social connections, but you might also find that you end up with too many good social connections and have to prioritize. Time Enough For Love helps a lot but even with Time Enough For Love some people prefer to spend only a certain amount of their time on social relationships and combining Fated Friends with Fated Lovers will generally leave you with more social relationships than that.
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That makes sense. Thanks for explaining.

I think from that it sounds like I probably want to choose and the choice is between fewer deeper connections or a larger number with greater breadth in the type of connections. I think I'm currently leaning towards the larger number.

She checks Fated Friends.

The perks for being forgiven for unkindness don't appeal to her.

Sense of Style seems entirely unappealing, at least before reading Bonus Style Points.

Would it be possible to get something like Bonus Style Points that isn't focused around people looking good for me but instead more centrally about being themselves?

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That's a pretty tricky one; I can look into it, but I can't promise anything. I'll try though!
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Yeah, that makes sense. It feels like most of these powers are centrally about me and that's pushing a power into being less about me.

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I see what you mean, and that's a good way of putting it!
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Thanks, I'm glad I'm understanding things.

She keeps reading next up is Self-Reflection

Are there worlds where I'm likely to run into more people who are me? Or worlds where I would end up making more of myself or something like that? This feels a lot more specific than most powers.

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It's surprisingly common for people who travel the multiverse a lot to meet more of themselves. It doesn't happen to everyone, but it happens a lot! And some people like to make more of themselves on purpose, too.
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Interesting. I don't think that's too important to me and if I want to keep in touch with another me that I care deeply about I think Eternal Love would let me do that. Am I right to think Eternal Love could work like that?

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Yes, Eternal Love will help you keep in touch with the people you care about even if they're you. Self-Reflection is for people who want to be in close contact with themselves even across vast distances.
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She nods then writes

Makes sense

Next up is Popular and Famous.

For the next two reputation powers how well do they work with Nullified?

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Still pretty well! Coincidence management can go a long way, especially for Popular. Famous is a little trickier and with Nullified it usually has to resort to giving you opportunities to do lots of cool stuff so people can hear about it.
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And if I'm understanding right it would be cool stuff I would want to be famous for. That actually sounds pretty nice.

She checks both.

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Yes, Famous will always lean towards picking the kinds of things you would want to see yourself get famous for if they're available, and it can do quite a bit to see about making them available if they aren't.
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Great.

The next power is Undiplomatic Immunity. She thinks about it for a moment but if she wants to change society being immune to the law isn't precisely counter-productive but it feels weird. She skips that one. The Friends in places powers she checks.

"On to drawbacks then."

Decorative would separate her from other people in a way that feels uncomfortable.

Beauty Is A Curse feels like it would be grating. If she really needs one point she might consider it but for the moment she's not checking that.

Plain Jane feels like a trap... it actually feels really out of character for the Notebook.

I'm confused by Plain Jane being here I don't understand who would take that unless they didn't understand what it would do to them and that feels out of character for The Spirit.

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I do try to warn people away from it, because it's pretty rare for someone to be okay with it, but some people want to take it even with the warnings.
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It's good that you try to warn people.

Style of Sisyphus again doesn't appeal. She's especially worried that it would rewrite her opinions on nudity.

There's Another one feels like something she needs to consider more but it feels like it's at least a strong possibility. She checks it.

Great Responsibility is the same kind of thing as My Ears Are Burning but it is more specific. Maybe it's okay?

She looks over at Tom.

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"No."

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"Are you sure?"

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"Only if you are changing what you're going for. Right now you don't really have powers focused on helping individual people. And you're specifically going for being really prominent it just doesn't match your plans."

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"You're right," she agrees.

I was considering taking Great Responsibility but I talked it over with my brother and we agreed that it's much more for someone trying to personally help a lot of people instead of someone trying to shift society.

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Yes, I think I agree!
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She checks both Very Distinctive and Flashy. She's not really interested in sneaking around.

Secret Identity...

How does Secret Identity interact with very distinctive? I guess maybe they only sound at odds? Also what does it mean by home?

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Home means this world, the one you're starting in, and Secret Identity would suppress Very Distinctive along with everything else because it's an outwardly apparent power. But people who knew you at home would still recognize you elsewhere once Very Distinctive was operating again.
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So if I pick Stay Here and Secret Identity it's as if I just didn't take anything unless I find a way to leave?

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Taking Secret Identity ensures that you will both leave this world and return to it, regardless of your chosen destination.
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Thanks for explaining.

She is definitely not taking that then.

For Selective Memory and especially the Veil what happens to my brother's memories. If I take the veil and leave does that mean I just disappear and he has no idea why?

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Tom tenses a little, squeezes her shoulder and waits for the Notebook's response.

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Yes, both of your memories would be affected since you're both participating in the selections.
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"How about not that one, at least not if you're leaving. I think that would be really bad for both of us. If you're staying maybe it wouldn't be as bad."

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"Agreed."

I don't think I would want to consider The Veil unless I choose Stay Put then.

She checks Selective Memory

Dramatic Damsel is not appealing.

The next three are... just terrible.

Does The Crazy Train override Providential Parenthood's guarantee about not having children unless I'm ready for them?

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Not at all! But it does mean that you can no longer invoke Providential Parenthood on purpose.
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I think that's at least worth considering then. Thank you.

She checks that and after reading it They'll Know. Realism doesn't interest her even if it's a lot of points, I Can Help Them is close to the core of what she wants and taking a drawback that explicitly says it makes it harder to use isn't appealing.

I think that's the first pass done. Is there anything about my initial list that you think it would be good for me to think about?

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It looks like you've checked some powers that you weren't sure you wanted; are you going to think about those next and decide whether you want them?

Also, I'm still working on the custom powers you've asked for; some of them are pretty tricky. You might want to keep in mind that there are more powers coming while you think about what your list looks like right now.
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Yeah, I might take a bit of a break first though. Try to get fresh eyes on things. I'll try to find you a poem or two to read in the meantime.

Thanks for working on coming up with those custom powers for me.

I think I'm going to play some games with my brother to try to take my mind off things, if you'd like I think some of the games we like would be possible to include you in if you'd like to play.

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What sort of games?
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There's a few different ideas I have but generally they're all games about words and associating words together. There's also one about telling stories together.

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That sounds interesting! If you need a break, though, maybe I shouldn't be pestering you to play games with me.
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I mostly want to take my mind off the powers for a little bit. I don't think you playing with us would make that harder. Besides which, you're doing something really nice for me and I want to do something nice for you back.

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Okay. In that case, I'd love to play word games with you!
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I'm glad, would you rather I just picked one or would you like me to tell me about some ideas so you can help choose?

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I think you can just pick one. Whatever you pick is probably going to be new and interesting to me!
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Alright, I think a good place to start is a game called Rolf. I'll go grab the cards and then we can get started.

She walks off and then comes back.

So, the way this game works is that there are cards. On the front of the card is a letter or letter pair in this case B and word that starts with those letters in this case Bucket. On the back of the card are two phrases in this case "Kick the bucket." and "There's a whole in my bucket." The current reader picks one of those phrases and then we all try to come up with more words that starts with B to replace Bucket with.

Whoever comes up with the funniest or coolest idea gets the card and we keep playing until we get bored or run out of cards. Does that make sense?

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I'm not sure. Maybe you could try an example?
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So say I'm the reader and I pick the second phrase "Kick the bucket"

Some possible substitutions would be: Banana, Building, Beehive, Bread, Ballista, Bra, Bricks, Beach, and Bridge. Of those I think "Kick the Bra" sounds funniest because it sounds to me like it's suggesting a bra is a bad habit or something to gripe about. But maybe you would like a different one of those words or have a word of your own which you thought was funnier or cooler.

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And then we decide whose word was best?
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Exactly.

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Okay! I think I understand how to play.
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Alright, how about you take a turn as reader first.

The next card says:

C Cake

It'll be a piece of Cake

It's the icing on the Cake

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And I have to substitute a word that starts with C?

How about...

It's the icing on the Clown
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Tom kneels down by the desk and grabs a black pen to contrast with Sapphire's blue one.

Hi, It's Tom in case our handwriting isn't different enough to tell I'll use the black pen while Sapphire uses the Blue.

My proposal is "Icing on the Cloud"

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Oh, that's a good one hmm, for maximum absurdity "Icing on the Constellation"

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I think icing on a cloud sounds really cute and sweet, and icing on a clown sounds really funny, and icing on a constellation sounds weird and hard to imagine. I'm not sure what to pick!
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I think it's between cloud and clown. I don't think constellation really works beyond just being bizarre. I think I'm gonna go with clown just because funny is a bit more central to the game than cute.

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Yeah, the image of clown makeup but instead made of icing is pretty amusing let's go with that.

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Neat, I did a good job! ✨

Whose turn is it now?
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I'll go. The card is E, Executioner, "I am my own Executioner." I don't have an idea just yet.

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Does that mean we should wait until you think of something, or should we suggest our own replacement words?
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The order we give ideas isn't important you can even give more than one if you want though it's nice to wait for everyone to come up with at least one idea before suggesting more so you don't accidentally give something someone else was also thinking of.

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Okay!

My suggestion is "I am my own Ermine."
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I am my own Elephant. Like Elephant in the room.

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I am my own Entertainment.

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I had another idea: I am my own Elegance.

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Which one of your ideas should I be evaluating, or should it be both?
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We usually just go with both. Feel free to suggest more ideas if you have some. The exception is just if you have way more ideas than everyone else.

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I think I like Elegance because it's a pretty word, and Elephant and Ermine both because it's kind of cute and silly to imagine someone being their own creature of some sort, but I think "I am my own Entertainment" is funniest.
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Yeah I think Entertainment is the best fit. It's also a happy message in some ways.

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I graciously accept my victory.

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I'm rolling my eyes. Anyway... My turn.

P, Problem, "Houston we have a problem."

Since you're not from our world you might not know the context so I'll explain. Huston is a city where the mission control was for some of our country's first space missions including the first time people from our planet visited the moon. Huston we have a problem was what the astronauts said when there was a serious issue on their mission.

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Oh, I see!

I think this time I want to hear your ideas before I try suggesting one.
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Alright, My idea is: Houston we have a playdate.

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That's gonna be tough to beat... hmm. Houston we have a pineapple. As in somehow a pineapple appeared out of nowhere.

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"Houston we have a platypus", maybe?
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He laughs and Sapphire smiles.

Well that just beat me at my own game. Platypus is much better than pineapple... I'm not sure whether I prefer that or playdate though.

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I think playdate is really cute, but platypus might be the funniest word. Platypus!
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Yep. I agree. That's a second point for you.

I'm just realizing I haven't asked what your name is. Do you have one you'd like us to use?

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Oh, I don't usually use a name. I'm the only talking notebook most people have met, so I don't tend to need one! You can just call me Notebook if you like.
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Alright, I'll do that. Let me know if you change your mind. Anyway that's two points for you Notebook.

It's your turn again. 

The card is P, Peppers, And either "Peter Piper picked a peck of pickles peppers" or "The Red Hot Chili Peppers"

The first is a tongue twister, something it's hard to say quickly. The second is the name of a band.

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Oh, this is hard because we just did the letter P! But I think I'll pick The Red Hot Chili Peppers, and... what if, instead, it was The Red Hot Chili Parasol?
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The Red Hot Chili Princess.

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The Red Hot Chili Plan

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Hmm, I think I'm leaning towards mine still. Like imagine one of the shows where people do a bunch of cooking devoted to a woman who cooks a lot of spicy food.

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Or a princess in a fairy tale dress made out of chili peppers! Yes, I like that one.
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Yeah, I agree. I was sorta picturing The Red Hot Chili Plan as the title for a heist movie but it doesn't work quite as well.

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Thanks, the next card is B Buck, More bang for your buck.

I'm not sure how clear that idiom is it usually means more value for the same amount of money or effort.

My idea is More bang for your birthday.

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More bang for your bliss

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What about more bang for your bollard?
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That's the word for the sturdy poles that stop cars from going places they shouldn't right?

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Yes! And I think it might also be the word for a post you tie a boat to. I just think it's a funny word.
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Hmm, I guess they bang when things crash into them? I'm not sure exactly what you're thinking or if you have a story behind that idea.

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It's mostly just that I think it's a funny word. And incongruous but in a way that makes it sound like you could figure out what it meant if you thought about it.
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I can think of a couple different meanings. It could be about putting Bollards in the right places or about using proper metal bollards instead of cheap plastic ones.

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I feel like I'm just not coming up with good ideas. Maybe brother is better than bliss though.

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Is that a joke about my sex life or how much you can get me to do?

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I'll leave that up to interpretation.

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I'm not at all sure which one I like best this time! I think I don't understand the phrase well enough to know which ones are funny, or maybe I just don't know what bliss and birthday and brother are getting at.
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Would you like me to explain?

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Yes please!
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Alright, for bliss. I don't have a clear image in mind for what it would mean. If I were to make one up it's getting the most out of relaxing. Which is a bit of a silly idea in some ways.

For brother there's two ways to take it. Either getting more bang in exchange for your brother's efforts or in the more exaggerated version in trade for having a brother at all. The other way is getting more bang to give to your brother. The second one is why Tom was asking if it was a joke about his sex life since sometimes people call having sex banging.

For Birthday, Tom was referencing fireworks as something that literally bangs but it could also be interpreted as getting a bigger celebration or more gifts for someone's birthday, the anniversary of their birth which is something we celebrate in our culture.

Does that help?

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I think so... but it's still pretty hard to decide which one's funniest. What do you two think?
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Hmm, if I intentionally don't vote for mine in the interests of neutrality I think I'm favoring birthday. Bollard feels a little too specific.

If I let myself be biased I think the pseudo-contradiction of optimizing for maximum relaxation is the most amusing to me.

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I think I'm currently favoring Brother just because of how many different possible ways to interpret it there are.

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What happens if we can't all decide on which one was funniest?
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Then nobody gets a point. The score isn't really important it's mostly a way to have fun with friends and laugh together.

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That makes sense! I think I still can't decide, so I guess nobody gets a point this time.
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They can play a few more rounds like this and eventually come to a stopping point.

Thanks for playing with us. We're going to go get lunch now.

Before we go here's a poem for you.

When we care
we forget
our beloved can
and must
make mistakes.

Hold too tightly 
and love
withers.

Offer a touch
and love
surges.

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Aww, that's pretty!
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Through mutual agreement the siblings try to avoid the topic of the notebook and instead try to discuss the latest episode in the cartoon they're watching. The weight of the avoided discussion is a little too great though and they settle for a companionable silence.

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After they clear away the dishes Sapphire redirects them into Tom's room and they cuddle up together.

"Am I approaching this wrong?"

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Tom presses a kiss to her forehead. "I don't know. I think you had staying here in mind as you picked between your options. If that's the right choice for you that's fine but I don't think you really thought about it."

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"Yeah, that's true. I just... I know we might end up moving apart at some point but going to another world is a lot more extreme than moving across the country."

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"It is. It's a big decision, you have time to think about it."

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"I'll miss you if you go. And I know you'll miss me. But I think we would both be okay."

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"You're probably right. It's not just you I would miss though: Lily and Tara and Mo and" she trails off, "it would be a lot."

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"It would."

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She squeezes him tighter for a moment and takes a deep breath. "I see why people would take the option to leave if they wanted a fresh start. I think another reason might be that people want to explore and see things that they can't find here in this world. Hmm, I wonder if I'm still missing something What was it the Notebook said at the very beginning... something about making people beautiful and powerful?"

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"I think it also said special."

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"Right, beautiful and powerful and special. I think If you combine that with the talk about stories and metanarrative... it's about making yourself the protagonist... and probably not just of your personal story but of a lot of the stories around you. And if you take that framing... I think probably at least some people want to save the world. And they think the powers the Notebook offers aren't enough to do that so they have to go out and get more."

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"The Notebook might be able to tell you if your guess is right. I think the important question that raises though is whether you want to save the world and whether you think you need to go elsewhere to do it."

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"If I can... could I live with myself if I chose not to?" She sighs. "I don't know. I don't even know if the world needs that kind of saving. I can't really picture how one person saves the world. There's no sky beam that needs to be shut down to fix things. It's all just people. People with their own reasons for doing things that hurt the people around them and usually themselves. People doing what the world told them to do."

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"I think... if you had the right magic or technology you could fix climate change even without anyone else helping. And with enough power you could make people do what you say or make changes unilaterally. That isn't how you tend to think about problems and I agree with you that it's usually not a great way to think about problems. Maybe this is an exception though. I don't know."

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She shakes her head and then in a monotone. "All hail Sapphire Goddess and Empress of Earth." She huffs a little laugh. "I don't think that's really me. I guess I should ask the Notebook."

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"Actually... I'm just realizing we're falling into a false dichotomy. Just because I'm leaving doesn't mean I have to personally get the ability to fix everything and come back with it. I could meet people or groups who could help. That could actually be nice."

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"That's true... it did say that it would send you wherever was best for you. And I'm pretty sure that means somewhere you can make things better by helping people understand themselves and the people around them better."

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"Yeah... that sounds right. I'm still not sure but that makes it feel like a real option... not just something someone else might want."

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"I'm glad I could help, even if you did most of the thinking yourself."

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"Thanks. Let's just cuddle a bit longer before we go back."

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In response he kisses her again and hugs a little tighter.

They pass another little while like this before getting up and returning to get desk.

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Oh thanks, that's something I wrote a few years ago I'm glad you liked it.

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I like the way the words fit together.
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I'll have to copy out some of my other poems for your later.

I'm gonna let my sister sit back down now we talked a bit about destinations after lunch.

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Okay!

By the way, I've been working on those custom powers and I have drafts for a few of them. (I'm still working on the tweak to Bonus Style Points... it's a tricky one!)


Name: Undressing Room - Cost: 3 ☐
(Requires Dressing Room)
The question of what clothes you are wearing no longer has a specific well-defined answer, but depends on the interactions you're having and how you prefer to be clothed for the purpose of those interactions. You could walk into a room and sit down in a chair, and be naked to all the people in the room but wearing underwear from the perspective of the chair; you could attend a fancy ball and be wearing a fancy ballgown to most people, but let your friends see you in a banana costume instead; you could let someone's hands pass through clothing that their eyes can still see. It may take some practice to become well-attuned to your new sense of how each person and object you interact with is perceiving your state of dress, but you'll always be able to tell if you take a moment to wonder.


Name: Pacifist - Cost: 6 ☐
Fights don't happen to you. Any violent conflict you might otherwise get into is either avoided by coincidence, or replaced with a yelling match, game, contest, race, or dance battle, whichever is most appropriate to the situation. Powers you have that give you advantages in fights also apply to fight replacements.


Name: Reaching Out - Cost: 4 ☐
(Replaces Before Your Eyes)
Your presence is a catalyst that encourages people to let go of preconceptions and constraints and have the courage to try things that they might like even if they're new or unfamiliar or scary. However that turns out, it will ultimately help those people understand themselves and their desires, and won't do lasting damage physically, emotionally, or socially to anyone involved.
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Sapphire takes over the seat at the desk and reads through the new powers carefully.

I love Reaching Out. That's near the core of my ideal image of what I want my life to be. I'm curious how it's impacted by nullified though especially the part about not doing lasting damage.

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Nullified does make that part slightly less effective, but there are a lot of ways to make sure something doesn't hurt people that don't involve affecting their minds directly. And many people approve of being helped in that way, so in that case Nullified won't be a problem.
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That makes sense thanks.

Undressing room is basically exactly what I was picturing and I like it a lot. It does make me think back on choosing Crazy Train though. I think having control over what I'm wearing or not wearing is important to me and I don't have a good sense of what it would mean for that to be controlled by the narrative instead. Is there more you could tell me about what I might expect there?

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Most likely you would usually end up wearing what you wanted to wear anyway, but sometimes the narrative might choose to show someone an unexpected banana costume if there was a good reason, and sometimes you might try to change your outfit and end up in something different from what you imagined. The narrative does still want you to have nice things, but it also wants to make a good story.
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Thanks for explaining I'll have to think about that some more.

She checks Undressing Room and Reaching Out.

I'm not as sure about Pacifist. Specifically, the replacement part feels discordant. As one example, if the other person's goal is to hurt me I can't really imagine agreeing to sit there and endure it just because I didn't dance well enough.

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If someone wants to hurt you when you don't want to be hurt, that seems like the kind of conflict that ends up avoided by coincidence, since even if you had a dance battle about it, them wanting to hurt you when you don't want to be hurt would still count as a violent conflict afterward.
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Huh, I didn't think it would work that way. The other scenario coming to mind would be some sort of protest. I think that protests getting violent is usually a matter of small things snowballing though so it makes sense if coincidence management could prevent that. Hmm, what else? If I went somewhere where there was a war happening would I just be steered away from anywhere where an actual battle was happening or would actual battles start getting replaced like that?

I'm having a hard time imagining situations where people care enough for something to normally be a fight but not enough to turn it into a fight when they lose. I guess this would mean I mostly meet people who care a lot about keeping their promises?

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Yes, the results of Pacifist could look pretty strange in some of those situations. It's a new power, so I'm not exactly sure how to expect it to come out. I think it will mostly steer you away from battles, but if you were determined to interfere in battles then they could start being replaced by other things.
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If powers can change the world around me like that I wonder if it would be possible to get a power that's more towards making the world nicer in general instead of specifically having less fights.

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Oh! Let me think about that...
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Sure, while you're doing that I'll start looking over my choices again. Actually, before I do that, custom drawbacks are also something you can make right? Do you have any advice on how to ask for good ones?

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My best advice for asking about custom drawbacks is to think of things that other people might find inconvenient that you would mind much less than they would, particularly things involving... this can be a little tricky to describe... do you see how a lot of the existing drawbacks are sort of, the same kind of specialness that the powers are built around, but running wild and getting into trouble instead of channeled nicely into doing only good things? Does that make sense?
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I think so, it's like how I wouldn't mind the veil if there wasn't someone I cared for as much as my Brother who I would be mysteriously disappearing from. The drawbacks close off certain ways of using the powers or ways of living with them.

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Yes, or they express something similar to what a power expresses, but an inconvenient overabundance of it. Or they change the balance of the powers' autonomy compared to yours in using them.

Oh, I think I've found you that power you were looking for a moment ago!


Name: Cotton Candy - Cost: 3
(Requires Disney Princess)
The sharp edges of the world are blunted around you. That's not to say that nothing bad can happen, but that the worst things happen a lot less often, and happy endings large and small are much easier to come by. This effect can ripple outward to improve the lives of people you've never met.
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That's a lovely power. I guess the pre-requisite is more based on vibes than on what it specifically does?

She checks the box.

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Yes, this is one of those prerequisites that's hard to explain in straightforward terms.
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I think I'll go through the powers again now. For the moment, I'm going to put a + next to the powers I especially want and a minus next to the ones that aren't important to me. I'll just uncheck anything I don't really want anymore.

Does that make sense?

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I think so, yes!

Would you like me to show different subtotals for the different marks?
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That would be great. Thank you.

She starts her examination from the top noting down little bits about her thoughts though not precisely transcribing them as she goes.

A Hundred Ships is something she likes the idea of having, of remaining recognizably herself even as she gets older and not needing to worry about anything of that sort. It isn't quite important enough for a plus though.

What's In a Name is actually of a similar level, she is Sapphire and the idea of some sort of magic asserting as a definitive fact that that's not her name bothers her more than she would have thought before today.

Severance can just get unchecked. She doesn't actually want to run from her past that much or that hard.

Angelic Tones could help with public speaking, and that isn't that important to her. She starts to put down a minus but them rethinks, it isn't as practical but the idea of being able to sing any song and be fully confident in the beauty of her voice is a lovely notion. She'll leave it as neutral for the moment.

Emerald Orbs still isn't appealing. Especially with the added complication of Crazy Train.

Perfect Hair actually gets a minus. Everything she wanted from it is better handled by Undressing Room. In theory it removes some options but it's not that big of a deal.

Size Difference is another one that almost gets a minus but on second thought doesn't it isn't very practical but the thought of kid mode appeals pretty deeply to her, of not standing above people but meeting them on their level. There's something very important about that if not quite important enough for a plus.

Dressing Room and Undressing Room get a plus. The thought of being free from the feeling of clothes on her skin all the time is very enticing and even with Crazy Train she expects her appearance won't be too far from what she's okay with.

Personal Hygiene is also very nice. No need to get sweaty or dirty and another obstacle to full-time nudity removed.

Like Roses gets a minus. It's just not important and she's pretty sure dressing room can do perfume if she needs it to.

Just A Little Longer is something she can imagine being useful but especially if she takes Inner Strength below it isn't as important. Minus... On second thought though, it is one point and doesn't come with the whole become a superhero thing she feels weird about. She'll leave it at minus for now.

Immunity System feels a normal amount of important. It's not like she gets sick that much as it is.

My Ears are Burning retains the very good arguments against it.

Well Endowed and Hollow Leg get pluses. They're necessary for what she wants out of Size difference and also just lovely for other reasons and they give her most of what she wants from Inner Strength without the weird bits.

Inner Strength accordingly gets a minus.

Lightfoot still feels wrong. Thinking about why actually makes her fully uncheck Inner Strength. She just doesn't want to succeed by being physically more capable than other people she wants to succeed by understanding other people and convincing them to believe in her vision or build a better vision by working together with them. She actually underlines that when she writes it down because it feels very important.

That same argument keeps the battle powers unchecked.

Thinking about that more...

I wonder if there's a way to turn that insight into a drawback. That idea that I can only succeed as part of a group and not by individually being stronger than everyone around me? That feels like the sort of thing that could be a drawback. It's a pretty big tradeoff though, I'm not completely sure I'd take it.

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(The point totals in the corners of the pages split up accordingly.)

Oh, interesting! Let me think about that...


Each dot in the ellipsis comes more slowly than the last, trailing off into a thoughtful pause that lasts for a good half-minute or so. Then the notebook writes,
Well, I started thinking about that, and I got a little distracted, and then I got an update to the list! Would you like me to add in all the new powers and drawbacks so you can see them? There's quite a few.
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"Is this an atemporal thing?"

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"I can ask."

My brother is wondering if this is one of those cases where your relationship with time is coming into play. Also yes seeing more options sounds good.

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My relationship with time is definitely relevant to the way list updates work; I usually don't get them while I'm speaking to someone, although I sometimes reach out to try to create a new power and discover that I already have. I guess I'm not sure what you mean by "coming into play", though?


The list gets a rather extensive remodeling, with earlier options just scooting down a little to make room for new ones and later options sometimes being displaced to whole new pages to make room for everything that's coming in behind them. The blank pages in between the list pages, and the conversations on them, redistribute themselves in a graceful and appropriate fashion.
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I think he just meant that it isn't a case of you talking to someone else at exactly the same time.

I'll look through the new list.

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Oh! Yes, it would not be meaningfully accurate to say that there's some specific person or people that I was talking to "at the same time" that I've been talking to you, that the updated list entries came from. If it was like that, then you would be getting new list entries trickling in slowly as I invented them.
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That actually makes a lot of sense.

Alright, I had just gotten to Inner Strength and Light Foot in my look over. I guess I'll start by checking if there's anything that got added above them.

She goes to do that and starts writing again at the first one she finds.

Perfect Nails is new. I hadn't thought about needing a power for that. I'm now wondering if I can manage without that. It feels like I would mostly want it to stop nail polish from being chipped or my nails from breaking at relatively conservative lengths and I'm not sure if a whole power is something I'd need for that.

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Yes, I don't think you would need a power for that. Perfect Nails is more for if it's important to you to have the shape and decoration of your nails be fluidly responsive to your preferences in the same way as other appearance powers like Emerald Orbs. (Dressing Room and Undressing Room can also be used to redecorate your nails without reshaping them, similarly to how they can redecorate your hair without reshaping it.)
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I think I'll do without then.

It looks like the next new one is Pocket Dimension. I'm a little confused now. It's doing things I thought you said Dressing Room already does? Did that change?

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Pocket Dimension is sort of the result of a tendency for people to stretch Dressing Room in the direction of being an inventory management power when Dressing Room is really not an inventory management power at heart. It has a lot more (and more reliable) inventory management capabilities because it's directly meant to be used that way.
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Okay, that makes sense. I don't think I want to push it to it's limits but reliability sounds good and I am planning to use that ability.

That gets a check, it doesn't warrant an full plus.

Hmmm, Breath Easy seems like a power for somebody who is having a very specific kind of adventure. On the other hand it's a prerequisite for Warmhearted and being able to be comfortable no matter the temperature sounds really nice. I think dressing and undressing room already help with that a bunch but it's worth at least a minus for each.

She goes ahead and marks that.

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"There's something about a lot of these, when you were talking about Dragon Fairy Elf Witch you said you didn't want to become something wholly other than yourself and I don't think these powers exactly do that, but being able to walk through a hurricane naked in perfect comfort isn't the sort of option you would have had before and I think a change that dramatic will have an impact."

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"That... is a good point." She copies down his words for the notebook.

I think Tom does have a point here. I'm not sure it's enough for me to change any of my choices. Actually I think I'll take these and immunity system down to a minus. I think it's true that what's possible for you changes how you approach things. I know that's true of money and disabilities so it makes sense that it's also true of powers like these.

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Yes, that makes sense...

I almost wonder if that could be the basis for a drawback, actually? I'm not sure, it's not quite holding together, but I'm imagining something like Dramatic Damsel except focused on narrative opportunities to understand someone else's perspective.
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That sounds like something I might want. I guess I'm already considering Crazy Train but maybe something like that which can also reduce the effectiveness of other sorts of powers when it fits. I'm not sure if I'd really want that to require Crazy Train but it feels like it's in the same sort of direction.

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I'll think about it and see what I can come up with! ♡
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Thanks!

Hmm, Soundtrack seems like it's more in this vein but it's more subtle and anything that makes it easier to understand people and the world around me is tempting. It doesn't really seem like there's any other powers as proactive as this for that. Well, I guess the friends in places powers. But those are in a different direction.

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Hmm, do you mean that Soundtrack would help you understand and relate to people? I hadn't thought of it that way, but it makes sense! And yes, Friends In Places should also help with the same thing, but differently.
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That is what I meant yes. I don't think that's all it does but it seems like it might help with things like the problem of tone being unclear in text communication or people who are masking effectively. The other useful thing would be signalling me about things I wouldn't have another way of knowing about. I think I've argued myself into it being at least neutral.

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That makes sense! It sounds like Soundtrack would be pretty helpful for you.
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Yeah... I think I'll actually make it a plus on second thought.

She marks that down.

Star Stuff, probably unsurprisingly isn't for me.

Hmm, next is a review.

I'm not sure about Making Ends meet. For now I'll demote it to minus. I think a lot depends on whether I expect to need it.

Omniglot gets a plus. For the above reasons about helping me understand people. I do actually have a question though... If someone thinks a word means something different than what most people think it means do I get what they think it means or what most people think it means?

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I think it depends on the details of the situation, but often you'll learn both meanings and be able to tell which is which.
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It definitely gets a plus then. I guess backchannel could also help with that kind of thing but the way this works all the time is great.

I'll leave Anything You Can Do at check. It has a lot of potential but I don't know how important it is to me.

Snowglobe and Unleash the Magic both look new. I'm... not really sure about these. I think my concern is similar to the heritage one but less so since it's less deep. I think I'll mark all three with a question mark as something to consider later.

Soulbound is strange. I don't know how much it would do for me. I'm already planning to get Pocket Dimension and that lets me recover sentimental items. I guess the thing about electronics staying magically charged might be helpful but I'm not sure if I'm attached enough to my electronics for them to qualify.

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"The connectivity would be big if it works from different worlds."

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Tom just pointed out that the connectivity would be pretty impactful if it works from other worlds. It does sound like that could work. I'm not sure what to think of that.

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(Question mark gets its own point counter, below the other tiers, just to be tidy.)

Yes, it likely would. It's up to you whether that would be worth the points. What do you think?
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If I do decide to leave I think I want some way of keeping it touch with Tom and maybe other people that's more reliable than the vague promise of Eternal Love. I'm not sure if this is the best choice to do that. I might find a new power below or ask for a custom power instead. I'll give it a question mark for the moment. Do you know if there's other options or have any ideas about what a custom power for that would look like?

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Hmm, what feels unreliable about Eternal Love? What would make it more reliable?

There's a power later on for keeping in touch with people, but it only applies to people who are you... something like that might also work for keeping in touch with your loved ones, though, I'm not sure. I'll think about it.
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Right, Self Reflection I think I asked about that before.

She flips to Eternal Love to make sure she has the exact wording in mind. 

Okay, So I was remembering the wording correctly. Eternal Love says you'll find a way to overcome and be reunited. It doesn't say anything about staying in touch. I remember you saying it could help with that earlier but I think I want something more reliable than eventually being able to talk to someone again.

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I see what you mean. I think I have some ideas about a power for keeping in touch with loved ones, but it's not quite coming together yet.
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Thanks, I'll keep going through the list then.

I see there's new variations of Personal Space but I still like the original the best. I think I'll still keep that at neutral.

I think Inner World gets a ? There's some appeal there but it's mostly around the telepathic conversations and other ways of sharing that space. I think a lot of what I would want from it is already covered by Time Enough For Love. Maybe if it was tied into whatever power you're making for keeping in touch with loved ones though? I think it would be really cool if I could have a way to have something like being with someone even when I was far away from them. Maybe shared dreams?

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Oh! Yes, I think I see it... Let me see...

How's this?


Name: Dream Together - Cost: 1 ☐
(Requires Inner World, Time Enough For Love, and Eternal Love)
When you truly miss someone who truly misses you, you will see each other again in your dreams. If dreaming is not possible, a daydream, meditation session, or moment of wistful yearning will suffice.
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"This notebook is so good."

That's great. I think that fits me much better than using soulbound and implicitly stating that I can't bear to be separated from the internet. I'll give that a plus.

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Can you also mark the powers I need for that as plus?

And then she continues down the list.

Okay I think the mental protection powers stay at check.

It Gets Better goes to plus. I think it might mean I don't need the mental protection powers but I'm not sure.

The Great Equalizer is nice but it's also really expensive so I'll put it at ? I think it depends a lot on what I'm expecting to encounter. A part of me wonders if there's a way to make it less absolute and more like It Gets Better in a way that's also cheaper. It isn't important to me that there's no such thing as fate or precognition. The thing I want it for is that I want there to be a chance for everyone to live a good life.

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If you want everyone to have a chance at a good life, that sounds like a job for Cotton Candy.
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Oh, is Cotton Candy strong enough to counteract bad fate shenanigans without The Great Equalizer? Can you preemptively mark that and Disney Princess as plus for me then?

Given I'm at the end of the section I think I'll take a quick break and stretch a little.

She gets up and does that keeping an eye on the page.

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Of course! See you soon! ♡


All her requested changes are being made.
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"So what do you think? Best notebook or bestest notebook?" She giggles a little at her joke.

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"Definitely bestest. I look forward to being able to call you the girl of my dreams."

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"Oh that's good." She leans over and kisses his cheek. "More seriously, what do you think of how my new take on powers so far?" She starts walking down the hall to get a glass of water.

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"I think you're staying more open to the possibilities which is good. I'm not exactly pushing you out the door but I do think that the Roulette is a once in a lifetime opportunity and you might regret not taking it."

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She nods. "Yeah... I think the dream power makes it feel like a real option. And I do like that. Even with the sorts of powers I have founding a movement from scratch as a random college student is a lot. If Isekai Roulette is everything that's promised I bet I can find somewhere that might have something like training wheels compared to home." She pours herself the glass of water and sips from it.

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"That's an interesting thought." He gets his own water.

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They share the easy silence for a little bit as they finish their waters. "So back to it?"

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"How can we not? The Power of Friendship awaits!"

They both laugh this time.

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Alright, I am back to tackle the Power of Friendship.

I still like Captive Audience but not enough for a plus.

I haven't changed my mind about Mysterious Allure or Blackout Binge.

Disney Princess is adorable and required for the treasure that is Cotton Candy.

It looks like it has a bunch of new friends though.

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Yes, clearly there's been some interest in Disney Princess and its neighbours.
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Looking through the list I think I'll mark Where the Heart is with a minus. None of the others are really speaking to me. I don't really need to be a crazy cat lady or a Pokemon Trainer.

Actually thinking about Where the Heart is... I wonder if it could apply to Inner World. Depending on how much I'm moving around I could see myself thinking of that as home because it's what's staying constant.

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I think if you see your Inner World as your home, Where The Heart Is will absolutely apply to it!
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That's cool. I'll keep that in mind.

It looks like the best friend line is next. Lots more additions here too. I was about to say that I still didn't really appeal but if I'm taking Where the Heart Is I could maybe see also taking what I need for Another Kind of Friend. I'll put those at question mark tier. A part of me wants to stack that further to give them a human form but that's adding up to a lot and I'm not sure I really want all of this. It's also... I remember your comment about beehives maybe being people and I think in part it's limiting to think they need to be shaped like me to count as a person. I wouldn't want to have to leave behind a home that's a person though. I guess if they're really important to me Eternal Love would help me find a way even without the specific perks.

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Yes, people can come in all kinds of different shapes. (I'm a notebook!)

If you spend enough time with a Where The Heart Is home for it to become a person, and you have Eternal Love, you'll find a way to take the person with you even if you have to leave that physical location. Another Kind Of Friend is useful if what you want is for your home to be a person from the very beginning, and have a Best Friend kind of relationship with you, as opposed to taking the more natural course of Where The Heart Is and slowly developing into a person over a long time while you're living there.
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I think that makes sense. That's helpful context. I'm not sure how much I care about them being a person right away. It's not something I had put much thought into wanting before. I think the first time I looked at the Best Friend powers I thought that it would be changing the genre of my life and I guess Where the Heart Is will also mean that but well... that's what this is about isn't it. I'm not going to be a college student trying to make a small difference in a big world I'm going to be someone who can shape the world around me a lot more than most people. Even just the smaller powers mean that I can do things that most people would consider impossible.

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Yes, that makes sense. It's a pretty big change!
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Reading carefully the other thing I'm curious is this line in Best Friend "they often hold the key to solving whatever situation you're up against" I'm not really sure I understand what that would look like. Is that a necessary part of things?

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It's not exactly necessary, but taking Best Friend does mean a tendency for the stories you find yourself in to include your Friend as someone who helps you figure things out and solve problems. How that works in practice depends on your preferences and narrative sense; someone who really liked the idea of having a beautiful mysterious raven familiar who could fly up to high places and steal small objects for them might see a lot of that kind of story, but someone who preferred to have a Friend who was a good sounding board for thinking through situations and solving puzzles would see more of that kind of story instead, and someone who wanted to focus more on the friendship aspect and less on the helper aspect would get what they wanted too. Does that make sense?
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I think so. So the power is flexible and I can emphasize the parts I want or don't want.... Would that degree of control be impacted by taking The Crazy Train?

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Taking The Crazy Train means you can't consciously control your powers, but they still respond to what you want and what resonates with you, so it's likely that things like the shape of Best Friend's narrative influence would play out similarly in either case. If you have a lot of internal conflict between what you want and what you think would make a good and interesting story, though, The Crazy Train will generally lean toward the second thing.
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I think I prefer stories where people have to work together to do things so I can imagine the Crazy Train making things lean that way but I'm not sure I mind that. I like people working together in real life too.

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Then it sounds like that would work out pretty well!
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It does.

She draws a little smiley face next to her words to match the expression on her face.

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I still like Cuddle Buddies and Quality Time given what we've talked about and how you said they can help nudge me in the direction of being the kind of person they'd do those things with but I think there's enough general powers in that vein that I'm going to put them down to minus. Also with Dream Together I'll have a reliable source of hugs.

Backchannel absolutely gets a plus.

You can Teach Better can stay neutral.

I still think Not Like Other Girls runs counter to being an example that changes people's minds.

I'm still not really sure I want pacifist. I think I like A Gentler Way better but I'm still not sure it's what I want. I'll give it a question mark to remind myself to come back to it.

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That makes sense! Let me know if you think of a way to make it work better for you.
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Hmm what's next.

I'm still not interested in Love Interest et al.

Time Enough For Love we've already covered.

Work Life Balance is new though and thinking about it it makes me less sure I understand Time Enough For Love. It says that it only works for things related to building your relationship with someone and I feel like a lot of that comes down to mindset. Am I understanding that right?

It feels like it could be a tricky balance to strike, for example if I'm taking a moment to collect myself is that because I'm trying to be kind to myself or because I want to be more able to address the situation at hand? I feel like often the answer would be both.

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Time Enough For Love can apply to a lot of activities, including useful or productive ones, as long as it sincerely qualifies as a relationship activity for the people doing it. Similarly, Work-Life Balance helps you be kind to yourself and take time for yourself and spend time doing things you enjoy and things that help you be more okay, even if doing those things also helps you in other ways.
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Okay so it's generous. I think I'll check that for now. I think Time Enough For Love already does a lot of what I need in terms of taking care of myself because a lot of the ways I do that are talking with people I care about but I do some things for myself alone.

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Alright so next is Safe At Home. Apparently it now has an alternate version. I don't think I quite understand because in one interpretation they look like they're the same and on the other they're different enough that I might want both.

I don't think the original power would have protected people I care about who were fighting beside me if I was understanding correctly it just meant we wouldn't be used against each other.

The new one feels like it's mostly more comprehensive but it also loses that specific protection.

Am I understanding that right?

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Safe at Home promises that if you have loved ones who want to stay out of any conflicts you get into, they won't be drawn in by people trying to harm them because of their relationship with you. They might get hurt because of their own actions, but not as a means of attacking you; and if your loved ones are getting into conflicts of their own, you won't get hurt as a means of attacking them either.

Opting In is meant for situations where there's a generally dangerous person, and drawing their attention to you also means drawing it to other people around you - not necessarily your loved ones, but anyone else who might be associated with you or might even just be in the same room. Those people could get hurt because of you, not out of a deliberate attempt to mess with you through them, but just because they were around when you started talking to the dangerous person. It also helps a lot with the same things as Safe at Home, but its focus and emphasis is different; if someone is trying to get at you through your loved ones, but it's not because you drew their attention on purpose (or got their attention indirectly in ways that count for the power), Opting In won't help with that. But if someone is trying to hurt your loved ones, not to get at you through them, but just because you got their attention and your loved ones were also around, Safe At Home won't help with that.

Does that make sense?

I could try to come up with a third variant if there's something specific you want from this kind of power. I think it's hard to make a guarantee like this that's both really broad and really firm, though, and if you want to ensure other people's safety in ways that these powers don't work well for, it might be better to try to come at it from a new angle entirely.
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I think it does. I'm realizing that I don't know what I want from this. I'm slightly leaning towards Opting In but it's still a question mark.

A part of me wants to just rely on Eternal Love but Eternal Love doesn't mean my loved ones have something like It Gets Better and I'm not sure how being hurt really badly could interact with the provision about not wanting to come back if they die.

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Hmm...

I'm not sure whether I could make you a power that gives your loved ones something like It Gets Better. True Love's Kiss and Eternal Love cover a lot of things, but not quite as much as It Gets Better does.
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That makes sense It Gets Better is a lot on its own. I guess I Can Help Them would let me do it myself if I can get them back and they're willing to let me help. I guess I'm wondering whether the uncoerced choice part of Eternal Love also applies to the part about people being okay with being alive again.

I also just... I don't want people to suffer like that and I especially don't want it to happen to people I care about. I guess that's probably too big to guarantee with a power though.

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I think which of these powers you can expect to really need also depends on how you're planning to live your life. Opting In is the kind of power that I expect someone probably requested because they were specifically planning to provoke a lot of dangerous people, and wanted to make sure that they wouldn't cause a lot of extra trouble that way. Most people don't need powers like Opting In because they're not going to live the kind of life where Opting In comes up a lot. Does that make sense?
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Yeah... that makes sense. A lot of these powers are about extreme circumstances because these powers in general let people live extreme lives. I think... trying to make the world better could mean powerful people get upset with me but I'm less sure it's as personal as Opting In might be built for.

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I think making powerful people upset with you by trying to improve the world is the kind of situation where Cotton Candy, True Love's Kiss, and Eternal Love will do plenty to keep your loved ones safe, and you can still take Safe at Home or Opting In if you're worried, but you shouldn't expect to need them unless you think the narrative you'd want for your life would specifically involve endangering your loved ones. Does that make sense?
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Sapphire takes a deep breath in and then lets it out. "Right, because the kind of story I want to be a part of influences how the world around me works."

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"It's a big adjustment."

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"It is."

Thanks that makes sense. I'll go without for now then. It's hard to shift towards thinking in narratives after spending a lot of time training away or mitigating my bias towards thinking that way.

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That makes a lot of sense! I can imagine that thinking in narratives when your life isn't as directly influenced by them could be pretty troubling.
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It is. I think one of the worst elements is that a lot of people think that good things happen to good people and the same for bad. On the surface that isn't a terrible belief it's kinda hopeful in a sense. Unfortunately some people see that as meaning that if a bad thing happens to someone they must deserve it.

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Oh dear. Yes, that would be very troublesome indeed.
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Yeah.

She draws a small frowny face next to Yeah.

Ooh, I Can Help Them is next. That gets a plus.

Oh and it has a friend. Okay, Ever Onward is every bit as wonderful. I am a bit curious about the word redeem though. Does that also apply to people I'm trying to help with their inner problems who aren't hurting other people or at risk of doing that?

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Yes.
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Oh that's wonderful! You're such a good notebook.

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I try! ♡
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I think Ever Onward definitely does what I was hoping Inspirational would... it won't work as well on large groups but I'm okay with that.

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Yes, if you want to influence a large group with Ever Onward the best way to do it is indirectly, by making connections with people who will go on to make connections with others.
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I understand. I prefer this way anyway. I just thought I would have to be working with large groups to achieve what I wanted to.

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Can I ask what it is you're trying to achieve?
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That's a big question and I'm not entirely sure I know. I think the big underlying theme is that I want the world to be better kinder, or I guess by the world being kinder I mean I want people to be more inclined to kindness.

That's always felt like too big of a goal for one person though so I had decided on one thing that I was hoping would help with that. The choice I had tentatively settled on was helping people be less worried about sex and nudity.

I'm not sure if that's the most important part of the problem to focus on but it's a part of it that matters a lot to me so even with your arrival it still feels like a reasonable focus.

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That sounds like the kind of thing that Ever Onward could help a lot with!
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It is, that's why I'm so happy about Ever Onward.

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"This is going to be really good for you and also you're going to help a lot of people."

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"I will. It's great." She takes his hand and squeezes it.

Then she turns back to the notebook.

Alright, I guess the next one to think about is The Rescuer. I wasn't sure about it in the first round and I think I'm going to take it out now.

Maybe there's an element of selfishness when I don't have to worry about the people I love dying and other people do but I also don't want to make my life's work be bringing people back from the dead.

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I think, if you're generally in favour of people getting brought back from the dead, but you don't want to do it yourself, you're pretty likely to meet someone else who can take the lead on that at some point. I get the impression that wanting people brought back from the dead is a common preference.
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I don't think it occured to me that the story would be that accommodating. I guess you said things a little like that before but nothing that big. I'm a little confused how that works if I'm not taking any powers that point in that direction.

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If you took a power that pointed in that direction I'd expect it to happen much sooner and more reliably, but you're going to have a very long time to meet people and probably a lot of different worlds to meet them in, so it doesn't seem that out of the ordinary for you to eventually meet someone with an interest in resurrection.
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I am? Why do you think I'll visit a lot of different worlds or have long enough to assume that I'll meet someone able to resurrect people who wants to? Or wait... I think I might know.

The second part might be implied by Eternal Love. I can find a way to resurrect people which means there is a way. The part about many worlds isn't something I'm as sure of but you did say I would find a way to get home if I wanted to and I could see that meaning I could leave again too.

And the long time comes from...

She pages back a little.

It comes from It Gets Better doesn't it? It says I can recover from anything and that would include dying. I don't think I quite connected those dots.

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Yes. It Gets Better means you'll recover from anything, including potentially death itself. And once you've been to any other world and back, you're almost certainly going to have a way to find more, or stumble on such a way eventually. And although Eternal Love can make your loved ones mysteriously come back to life even without a good reason for it, it's often easier to arrange for there to be a good reason.
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A little earlier my brother said I was going to help a lot of people and I agreed but I think we both might have been underestimating how many by a lot.

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"That's putting it mildly."

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Being a vessel of the Spirit can be like that.
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I think it'll be a good experience. It's definitely going to be a big adjustment though.

I guess the next thing to look at is the sex powers.

I'm genuinely a little unsure about the choice between Planned and Providential. I think with Nullified the piece about people believing we don't need birth control goes away. I'm a little less sure if Planned and Providential have any differences if I take the Crazy Train. I think I understand the difference if I don't.

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I think taking The Crazy Train makes those two powers a lot more similar to each other, but still leaves Planned Parenthood caring more about what you feel ready for and Providential Parenthood paying more attention to what you are ready for even if you may not realize it in the moment.
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Alright, I'm still planning to take The Crazy Train for now so I'll leave it on Providential. I do want this but I wasn't going through life terrified of getting unexpectedly pregnant either so I don't think it needs a plus.

I don't actually think I want Bop It after thinking about it again, there's something beautiful about discovering what makes someone feel good with them instead of just knowing.

I'm less sure about the middle powers. I like the idea of Laugh Together but it seems a little redundant with Reaching Out further down. Here For A Good Time also seems like it could be nice but I could imagine doing without either of them.

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If you feel like you don't need those powers in order to have a good time, you're probably right!
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I think that makes sense. It feels a little silly not to take them when I'm claiming to make sex an important part of what I want to do but really I wasn't ever planning to accomplish my goal by having sex with a huge number of people.

She unchecks Laugh Together

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Reasonable.
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I think... I'm a little unsure about Princess and The Dragon. It feels like something I could imagine wanting at some point in the future but sex isn't that important personally right now and I'm not sure how far my other abilities would let me stretch things without needing it.

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I think your other abilities can do plenty, but The Princess And The Dragon allows for more possibilities and guarantees them more firmly. But if you don't expect to live the kind of life where you might want to have that kind of relationship with someone who is shaped very differently from you, then I don't think you need it.
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I'll... still put a question mark to think about it later but I'm leaning against taking it.

Reaching Out is wonderful. It gets a plus. None of the others like it are something I need.

After thinking about it more I'm not really sure I need Fated Friends or Fated Lovers. I think there's enough people worth having as friends even without magic making that so. I think it's more important to have powers like that for people who aren't going to give themselves as many chances to meet people in the first place.

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Yes, Fated Friends and Fated Lovers are more useful the more you feel like you need help finding friends, and less useful the more ready you are to look for that kind of connection on your own.
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She draws a tiny checkmark next to that.

She's still not interested in being excused for wrongdoing and she thinks she doesn't need to say that for the notebook to understand.

I'm still seeing the appeal of the shape shifting parts of bonus style points. I wonder if it would be possible to make something based on Reaching Out that would help with that and be more about the openness to the experience and adventure instead of pleasing me.

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Hmm! I could try to work with that... I'll think about it.
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Thanks! If it doesn't work that's okay.

Hmm, what's next. She doesn't think she's seen Like a Mirror before.

This is new. I don't think I'm really specifically interested in meeting other Me's though. I can sorta see how it would help with Self Reflection though. Kinda a shame to have a whole power for it and then not meet more of yourself.

I'm even less interested in Self-Reflection now that I have Dream Together.

I don't really see the appeal of Chaser Six When but I'm also not sure I really understand it. I think it's talking about being able to split into multiple mes and recombine. I guess the specific tasks or aspects thing could have value but I would rather just find other people who can help me if there's too much to do alone.

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I think some people are the sort of person who really appreciates Chaser Six When, but a lot of people aren't. It's fine if you would rather work with other people than yourself.
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I'm still really glad that Severance exist. I don't need it anymore but if I met you when I was younger it would have been really important to me.

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Yes, Severance is another of those powers that's really really important to some people even though it's not for everyone.
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Next up are Popular and Famous

I'm less sure I need these. Especially famous. Between Cotton Candy and Ever Onward I think it's less important for me personally to be famous since my powers are focused on talking to specific people and also being famous can make it harder for people to feel comfortable talking to you.

I think I still want Popular. Not enough to give it a plus but having it in general feels useful.

I was about to ask about a power that helps me not be intimidating but I think Reaching Out might actually do that already. I guess the part it might not help with is... making people feel comfortable getting into my presence or reaching out to me from far away.

She underlines the second 'reaching out'

Okay I didn't mean to do that but it makes me smile now that I've noticed.

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(It draws a heart next to that comment.)

Yes, it sounds like Famous wouldn't suit you very well but Popular still could, especially since it sounds like the kind of people you'd want to be popular with are also the kind of people you'd want to meet and connect with and work with.

Hmm, let me see... I might have an idea for a power like that that ties into another thing you've asked for... I just have to see if I can get it to come together.
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Thanks.

Hmm, next on the list is Undiplomatic Immunity.

I still don't think I need to be immune to laws. I have Undressing Room for getting away with some things and I think Reaching Out might help with some aspects of protecting people doing things with me which Undiplomatic Immunity does less of. I know these powers make me an exception to a lot of things but I don't think this needs to be one of them.

I still want the Friends powers, the reason I might not take them is that I already have a lot of powers pointing in the same vague direction from other angles, I'm not sure if I should give them pluses.

I guess the other reason I might not want them is the bit about them being intuitive and natural. In some ways that's an advantage but there is a part of me that worries that aspect could make it harder to put myself in the mindset of someone who's less skilled, or maybe shift my instincts towards doing things that are 'correct' but also less me.

I probably don't need to worry about that last part though, all of these powers are channeled through me.

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Yes, your powers will naturally want to arrange themselves in ways that work well for you. But, speaking of making it easier to put yourself in someone else's mindset...


Name: Approachable - Cost: 3 ☐
(Requires Popular and Backchannel)
You have a knack for putting your fans at ease. No matter how famous you get, anyone who sincerely has something to say to you will know you sincerely want to hear it. This effect fades every time you're rude, threatening, or otherwise unpleasant to someone in that position, but can be built back up by cultivating patience and kindness instead.


Name: Down To Earth - Grants: +3 ☐
(Requires Approachable and Dramatic Damsel)
You are cursed to relate to other people's perspectives and experiences. When your life has been so charmed for so long that you forget what it's like to have difficulties or limitations, you will be reminded. When you meet someone who needs you to understand what they went through, you'll go through something similar. This directive supersedes Dramatic Damsel's storyline parameters, but you can add those storylines back in by taking other drawbacks in the Dramatic Damsel family.
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Approachable is really good. It makes sense that it stops working if I'm not earning it.

Down To Earth sounds like it's what I asked for but it's also... concerning. I'm pretty sure that drawbacks like this override defensive powers so this means that if I meet someone who's been raped and needs me to understand that then I'll at least be assaulted. Or that's the vibe I'm getting. I'm not really sure I'm prepared for that.

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Yes, you're right to be concerned. It Gets Better helps a lot in that kind of situation, but it would still be reasonable to not want to make that kind of sacrifice in order to get better at understanding people.
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I think the issue for me is that there's no limitations on it. Even if I took something like Iron Will I don't think it would apply here. I also worry it would... make me resent people? If I knew or suspected that I was raped because it was supposed to help me understand them? Even if it was in some ultimate sense my choice they would be closer at hand.

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That makes a lot of sense! I think it's a good idea to only take Down To Earth if you think you can truly accept that you chose it yourself and not blame or resent people for the things they need you to understand.
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It probably isn't possible to really truly understand what going through something is like without going through it yourself. But I don't think we can ever truly and completely understand what another person experienced, even if we did go through a similar circumstance.

I'm not sure if the real thing I want is to just not take certain powers. Or maybe I do want something based on The Crazy Train Instead.

I'm almost to the drawbacks I think so maybe I should read what exists before I ask for more.

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Down To Earth will also help you draw on your experiences to understand people; it's not just making sure you have the experiences themselves. But yes, it makes sense to hold off on digging into that further until you read more.
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I wonder if it would be possible to... defuse some of the badness with a power that helps with ... for lack of a better word aftercare.

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Oh, I see what you mean! Maybe something built off of It Gets Better...
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Yes, that's what I was thinking too.

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"You're not seriously considering this. I know you want to understand people, but you're already good at that do you need this much help? Are you really okay with these risks?"

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"I don't know. I'm willing to consider it at least. I'm not going to take it unless I'm sure I'll be able to handle it with the powers I have available."

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"I don't mean to minimize how bad rape is but I think it's a bad choice to anchor on. This could also cover a lot of other things, it could mean slavery or extended torture. I just... I don't see how you can take such an unbounded risk and for only three points."

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"I'm anchoring on rape because it's the one I have a power to protect me from. Nothing says I couldn't be tortured, nothing says I couldn't be enslaved. I'm already trusting in the narrative. And again I haven't made a decision yet."

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"You're right. I'm sorry. I just... I want good things to happen to you instead of bad things."

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"I know, and mostly I want that too. But it's important to me that I'm not... living a charmed life while everyone around me has to deal with sharp edges I don't. I'll have Ever Onward and Cotton Candy. Hopefully, with enough time, there won't be very many horrifying experiences for me to emulate."

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"Okay, I'll reserve judgment."

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Tom and I talked a little about Down To Earth, he's really worried I'll regret taking it. I'm still unsure about it too. Part of what makes me think it might be okay is a sense that I wouldn't want to read a story that's mostly bad things happening to the protagonist without something important coming from it. I'm also leaning a little on Cotton Candy and Ever Onward to make the world better so there are fewer terrible things in general.

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Yes, I think Down To Earth is a lot less threatening when you also have Cotton Candy and Ever Onward. I'll keep thinking about that extra power.
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Thanks.

She takes a couple deep breaths and recenters herself. 

As it happens there's only one power left in Power of Friendship: Vending Machine. She reads it and then boggles and reads it again and she just has to laugh.

Vending machine sure is something. I don't want to take it but wow, what adventures people must have. They get to meet all their favorite characters from stories and maybe even do it in a way that's plausibly ethical. I can see the edges of the temptation. Getting to meet the crew of the Enterprise or Twilight Sparkle and her friends or... well Calvin from Calvin and Hobbes is probably best kept on the other side of the page. It would be fun though. And if you're someone who finds it hard to trust being able to make people you already trust seems like it could help you a lot as long as it's just a stepping stone.

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Yes, I think that kind of thing is a big reason why people go for Vending Machine. It's a pretty niche power, though!
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It is a huge ethical quandary and a lot of points.

Well, on to the drawbacks. First up is Decorative.

I'm not any more okay with Decorative than I was originally. I think I might be even more against it actually now that I'm actively thinking about things that set me apart.

I also don't want compliments about my appearance being the focus of people's interactions with me. I'm actually thinking of making up a scale for drawbacks. I think the four rough categories would be: Things I actually want, things I'm neutral on, things I'm willing to tolerate, and then things I actively don't want. I think this is between the last to. I can imagine tolerating it but I don't want to. Decorative is in the actively don't want category.

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That makes sense! I recommend mostly sticking to taking drawbacks you actually want, though it can be worthwhile sometimes to take something from the middle two categories.
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That's probably good advice. I'll keep that in mind.

Well... Even Worse is for me Even Worse. I don't want to invite people like that being obsessed with my appearance.

Plain Jane also seems like a curse. I guess for some people that's already how they feel so it might not feel like a cost but it still seems sad to me to lock themselves into that.

Style of Sisyphus is... a little intriguing but I don't like the idea that I would stop being comfortable with nudity because of it. I would be more worried if I wasn't taking dressing room because then it would get really expensive.

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I think the idea is less that you would be uncomfortable with nudity and more that you would be bored or unsatisfied with it, and would want to find new ways to decorate yourself. There are a lot of ways to decorate yourself, though, and I think some of them are compatible with being naked for most purposes, so if that's your strongest objection maybe you'd do okay with Style of Sisyphus after all!
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That's true, it's not really specifically nudity that's important it's... not being ashamed or treating certain body parts as forbidden things only certain people should be allowed to see. I'll have to think about that.

And then the next drawback is a full inversion. Do you have any guidance on how narrow a signature style needs to be?

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I'm not sure how to describe that, but if you tell me about a style you're thinking of I can tell you whether I think it's too broad to count.
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I think I'm trying to squeeze enough things together that it probably won't work. But there are aspects that I try to keep to. I don't think I ever wear black, white or beige except for underwear. I always want to have some color. whether that's pastels or a deeper color with sparkles. I usually don't go for complicated patterns or flowers. And with the exception of some winter wear I usually wear clothes that are either... reasonably tight or airy? swishy? clothes that are either revealing the shape of my body by conforming to it or potentially revealing it by moving with or around it. I guess I would summarize it as... floaty elegance or maybe shameless elegance?

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Hmm... when you're choosing your clothes to follow your style, does it feel to you like a collection of disconnected rules, or does it feel to you like a single coherent category of things you like to wear?
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I think the honest answer is that there's at least two different styles that I use depending on circumstances and probably more than that. Some of that is about conforming to expectations about professionalism, but my more casual choices do feel different from what I wear around the apartment and they might also be different from what I use on my rare visits to naturist spaces. And I do like that flexibility. I guess I'll put this in probably not.

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That makes sense. Being confined to a certain clothing style can be a pretty significant constraint, I think.
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I don't think There's Another One is quite to the level of something I actively want. I'm a little unsure what it would mean honestly. There's so many powers and you're flexible enough with offering custom powers that I can't really predict much about what it will mean. I still think I'm willing to trust that the Spirit won't set me to encounter someone who has incompatible tastes in stories though.

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I think someone who wants to work with other people the way you do could really benefit from There's Another One! There are lots of other vessels of the Spirit out there who want to help people, and while there are also vessels of the Spirit who aren't so nice, I think those ones often choose not to meet other vessels.
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Huh, I hadn't thought of that. It makes sense that someone who wanted to mind control everyone probably wouldn't want someone else who might be immune coming in to mess up their plans. And I can see other ways of not being nice having similar sorts of reasoning.

I think you've convinced me that has a good chance to have outcomes I actively want. Incomplete and Nullified are also on that list.

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It's not a perfect guarantee, but I do think it's a tendency. The more someone likes to be helpful and work together with others, the more comfortable they are with other people getting to be as special as them.
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She nods at that. It makes sense. There's still room in there for conflicts about what constitutes helping people but she has a lot of powers that help her understand and talk to people.

Just for good measure she writes that bit of reasoning down.

Grimm's Fairy Tales is new of course. I think it might hurt less than Down To Earth but it doesn't have anything I want besides the point. And I don't want to undercut Cotton Candy that way

I don't see any appeal in sensory overload either and I'm not taking Like A Mirror.

Without taking Famous it's a bit less absurd to take Great Responsibility and now it has friends but... I still don't have a way to get to someone and help them. I guess that's part of why it's a drawback. I still don't think it would be a good thing to do to myself. I guess if I had powers that meant I could help them better I might change my mind but even if I take all the magic powers that isn't guaranteed.

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Yes, I think it's a good idea to be wary about taking Great Responsibility.
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I feel pretty conflicted about Mood Ring. I have pieces pulling me in two directions. On the one hand I think it's usually a good thing to be open with emotions but also I've spent a lot of time and effort on learning how to be a therapist and part of that is being able to not react too strongly at least outwardly when people need that calmness.

I think that probably means I shouldn't take this.

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Yes, that makes sense. Mood Ring will make it pretty hard to control your outward expression of emotions you're feeling.
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I think I won't be taking it then. I can imagine people who it would be really good for and would have a lot of fun with it though.

Very Distinctive feels like an amped up version of what a lot of famous people go through. I'm honestly not sure about it. On one side, it feels like it could almost be free points because I expect to be recognizable anyway but on the other side it might make it harder to spend time as a normal person instead of a public figure.

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Approachable will probably help with that as a side effect, by letting people have normal interactions with you even though you're famous, but on the other hand it might also embolden people who want to have abnormal interactions with you because you're famous.
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Yeah... I think this is sounding like it's more of a Maybe I can tolerate it than a want or a neutral.

I guess that means flashy goes down too.

I can't take Moodier Ring and Mark of the Witch is the opposite of what I want.

I also don't want to lost my powers if I come home so no to Secret Identity.

A Single Perfect Flaw is... interesting. I'm not sure what the boundaries of it are but I can imagine there being something I'm willing to close of as an option.

I think the idea is supposed to be that I choose something which would be a major imposition on other people but feels to me like a choice that's true to my self and who I want to be?

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Yes, that's the idea. If you think of ideas for what your Flaw should be, I can help you figure out how viable they are.
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I have a few vague ideas.

1. Something that stops me from acting ashamed of my body.

2. Something about either not being able to fight or since that's probably too broad a narrower restriction in that same vein.

3. Something about always trying to understand people or perhaps about never hating someone or wanting them to be hurt.

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Being unable to physically harm other people would definitely count as a Perfect Flaw! I think being unable to act ashamed of your body might not work as well. Being unable to hate people or want them to hurt would work but I'm a little concerned about it, because understanding other people is important to you and I think being able to experience those impulses can be important for understanding where some people are coming from.
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That's a good point I hadn't really thought about other so thanks for pointing it out. 

If we're focusing on the idea about hurting people, that wasn't really something I see as part of the life I want to live anyway but I wonder how narrow it would be okay to make it.

A slap hurts someone but being unable to do that seems like it might be a bit broader than I would want. The most narrow version I can think of is being unable to kill anyone. I could also see something in between where I can't injure someone or as an in between injure someone in a way they can't recover from.

What do you think?

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I think either being unable to kill anyone or being unable to injure anyone could work.
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I think that's probably on the neutral tier. I don't actually ever want to injure or kill someone and I don't think that's the best solution to anything in the world I'm living in but between travelling elsewhere and constrained circumstances I can imagine regretting it a little.

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That makes sense! I think it's worth thinking carefully about taking on a restriction like that, but it sounds like it might be worthwhile for you even though it constrains how you can address situations you find yourself in later on.
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Agreed. It's not something I think I would do anyway.

I can actually imagine wanting Selective Memory now. I can imagine making myself forget about some of the protections that would be incomplete and also Down To Earth and just living my life without that expectation of assured safety.

I'm not sure I want to do that but I think I'm sure enough that I can find a way it works well to bump it to the highest category. What specifically I pick depends on the powers I choose.

I'm still not going to take The Veil. It's important to me to know that the Dreams in Dream together are real and for Tom to know they're real too.

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Yes, I think The Veil would be pretty troublesome in your situation, but using Selective Memory that way has possibilities.

I guess one question is, do you think you'll notice eventually that your life is steering itself toward helping you understand other people better? How do you think you would feel, if you noticed that without remembering why it was happening?
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That's another good question. I think, as long as I remembered most of our conversations I would correctly guess that on some level it was my choice. I think... that might hurt a little because it's easier to be able to blame some outside force or attribute things to random chance but I don't think it would be worse than knowing from the start and I think it would feel more focused on me instead of the people I'm coming to understand. And I think that would be better.

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Okay! ♡
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I'm not sure where to rate Dramatic Damsel. I think... for now I'll put it at neutral because a part of me wants Down to Earth and a part of me doesn't. And I know to think about this more later. I was initially unsure if Dramatic Damsel was specifically about kidnapping plots but it looks like it is from the last line am I understanding that right?

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It's most centrally about kidnapping plots and similar stories, but it casts a pretty wide net across possible narratives that could be enabled by having someone get past your protections. A lot of the powers later in its family are more specifically focused on kidnapping and kidnapping-like situations.
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Oh, okay, that's good to know. I don't think being kidnapped in particular has any appeal but I could maybe see an appeal in... pratfalls or other sorts of moments that shatter an appearance of being above other people. I guess Down to Earth will do that but it feels... inward facing instead of outwards facing if that makes sense. What do you think?

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Oh, interesting! Yes, I think something like that could work... would you want it to be separate from Down To Earth, so you could potentially take it without committing to Down To Earth as well?
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I would, I think Down to Earth is a very big option and I think it would be good for both me and maybe other people to be able to commit to something smaller. I think in my mind there's a comedic angle to what I'm imagining where Down to Earth feels a lot more weighty and serious.

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That makes sense! I'll give it some thought.
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And I'll read through the many other drawbacks that are based on Dramatic Damsel now.

Love Is A Battlefield is.... There's a part of me that wonders if it's possible to cheat drawbacks. I don't think I ever want to have the sort of... adversarial relationship with the people I care about that Love Is A Battlefield seems to imply. And there's also a beauty to actually being vulnerable with the people I care about instead of being insulated from them, but I guess I worry that taking this would mean that people I care about are more likely to betray me or ... be inclined to hurt me in ways that my defenses would otherwise protect me from.

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It won't make the people you care about any more likely to betray you, except in the sense that people are more likely to do something when they have the option than when they don't.
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I think... tentatively then, I want that. Though once I'm closer to my final list I think I want to know more about which specific powers all of these drawbacks apply to. For example, I would be really unhappy if any of these break Providential Parenthood.

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I think, about Providential Parenthood... it depends on whether you're thinking of Providential Parenthood as a protection on you, or on your future children. Drawbacks that weaken your protections like that only weaken them for you, not for other people. But some people think of the Parenthood powers as protecting themselves from having children, and some people think of them as protecting their children from happening at a bad time and having a worse life because of it, and that distinction matters to how the powers organize themselves.
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She sighs.

That makes sense. I can't say I'm entirely happy about that but I do think I care about both. I think there's a lot of ties between them though so it's hard to peel them apart. I would try my hardest to raise any children I have regardless of the circumstances and I like to think I'd rise above even bad circumstances. Although if I'm in the position to do well enough in a sense that does mean I'm ready. I guess I still really don't like the idea of managing to do a raise a child well somehow while also slowly withering away from the strain. I don't actually know if that's possible but I can vaguely imagine it.

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I think It Gets Better makes a good backstop against that kind of problem. You could find yourself in a situation like that, but it wouldn't be possible for you to be permanently harmed by it, just to have a pretty tough time for a while.

And I think... I've never been a child, so I might be missing something, but having a parent who's suffering terribly because of my presence sounds like a pretty hard time to go through. I imagine many children in that position would rather wait to be born until their parent can experience their time together more positively. So avoiding that outcome could still be a protection for the child.
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Yeah, it's true a lot of people forget how observant kids are after they grow up. Okay, I think that's enough reassurance to trust in the Spirit and my powers about this. I still want to go into more detail later but I feel safe about this specific part.

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I'm glad I could help! ♡
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I'm not sure about Seen With The Heart. If I'm using Selective Memory because I don't want to know things that could cause issues but it could also be a way to get around things. There's also a small corner of me that wonders if it would mean Tom would know the dreams were real if I took the Veil but that's probably a bad impulse.

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I think it could definitely end up meaning that, but you might still prefer that you also have access to that knowledge.
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Agreed. I don't usually have dreams insisting they're real but it is something I want to know for sure. Like I said it's a bad impulse.

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Anyway, yes, Seen With The Heart could potentially allow your loved ones to be the ones to tell you about your hidden powers and drawbacks, if that's something that interests you. It could also end up with them telling you that information in a clumsy and disruptive way, but that depends on what kind of loved ones you have and how good they are at presenting difficult information to you.
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I think I would make very different choices about which powers to forget if I take this.

I'm not going to take Keys to Your Heart. Being the person who's making decisions about my life is important to me.

I can't take Hot Commodity and I don't like the idea of Vampires eating me. So Golden Goose is also out.

I'm a little conflicted about Wardrobe Malfunction but mostly I like it and Mudslinging is something I don't have any concerns about.

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Good timing - I think I have something for that other drawback you wanted!


Name: Slapstick Comedy - Grants: +2 ☐
(Requires Dramatic Damsel and at least one of: Angelic Tones, Lightfoot, Mysterious Allure)
At narratively appropriate moments, whether in or out of storylines in which your protections are lifted more generally, you may experience moments of verbal or physical clumsiness or other minor mishaps that serve to undercut your glamorous image and remind you and those around you that you're an imperfect person just like they are, who makes mistakes and has problems just like they do. These mishaps will never cause lasting harm to anything but your dignity.
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Thanks, I think that might actually make me okay with taking Lightfoot. I assume this also clicks with Mudslinging and Wardrobe Malfunction so they can also apply in that sort of situation?

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Yes, it does.
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Next is the cluster of Green With Envy, You Ruin Them and Jilted Lovers

Oh right these are next. I would not touch any of these three even if they were worth more points than any other drawback or all the others combined.

She draws arrows in case it isn't clear what she's talking about.

I don't think I would want to meet anyone who takes them either. Although now a corner of me is curious what happens to a person who meets two people with You Ruin Them. It sounds like it might be really bad for that person.

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I don't remember either way, of course, but sometimes when I read those drawbacks I worry that they were created by someone who really, really wanted them and then turned out not to enjoy them as much as they expected.
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I think that makes it even more sad. At least if they like it someone is getting something positive out of it. Is there... I guess it might defeat the purpose of drawbacks but is there a way for people to escape drawbacks that are really hurting them? It feels like it's kinda at odds to the sentiment behind I Can Help Them and It Gets Better if there isn't.

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In the long term, if someone grows beyond the person they were when they made their first choices, it's possible for those choices to be changed. It's very rare, though, because it's really important to the Spirit that people can depend on their powers and not have to worry about losing them, and the Spirit can't really communicate with people directly so it has a hard time asking. So it makes sure to only make that kind of change when it's not only true that the person would endorse the change, but also true that they're in a position to realize that it only happened because they were going to agree they were better off that way. Otherwise it would be too much of a betrayal of trust.
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That makes sense, trust is hard without communication. That's part of why I care so much about good communication.

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Good communication is really, really important!
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She draws a little smiley face.

And we return to The Crazy Train. I'm still really uncertain about this one. I trust the narrative some but I'm not sure I want to hand over control of my powers to it. I feel like I need to make a list of everything I'm taking and see what's impacted.

And I'm unsure about whether powers like I Can Help Them and Backchannel would work inconsistently.

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You would still be able to call on Backchannel when you needed it, but might also find yourself using it without quite intending to. I Can Help Them is likely to be similar.
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I don't think I would mind that. I guess some people might be bothered by Backchannel but I Can Help Them only works when the other person is okay with it.

I think after this round I need to make a list of which perks are affected by Dramatic Damsel and The Crazy Train.

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That's potentially a lot of them! I can help clarify which perks do and don't interact with them, but I probably can't come up with a whole list myself; it's a really open-ended question and it's easier for me to think in terms of "which kinds of perks would interact with this drawback?" than to just list them all.
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That makes sense. I can try to group things together myself and ask if I'm doing it right.

As for the remaining drawbacks, would Secret Identity and therefore That's How it Goes mean that powers like Backchannel were suppressed with me also taking They'll Know. My guess is yes and if that's true I don't think I'll take anything like it.

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Backchannel is one of the least likely powers to be suppressed under That's How It Goes, and one of the most likely to remain usable with Secret Identity (although Secret Identity plus They'll Know does mean that Backchannel will be suppressed because it isn't possible for it to operate subtly in the background). The only power that is absolutely never suppressed or weakened by a drawback is It Gets Better.
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That's helpful to know. I think... I'm probably not going to take That's How It Goes. I think it's a sign that I'm already reluctant to take The Crazy Train and That's How it Goes is just broadening the control that The Crazy Train has to all my powers.

Live The Role is going even further and I can't see a scenario where I'm okay with forgetting the people I care about.

... and amnesia is another thing that might be covered by Down to Earth isn't it?

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Yes, Down To Earth could potentially make you experience amnesia, but you would recover your memories completely afterward because of It Gets Better.
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It's good to know it won't be permanent at least. I really need to figure out if I want this. I feel like a lot of this becomes an exercise in trust. No, that's framing it in a way that could push me into doing it when I don't want to. It's a matter of deciding how much trust I'm willing to extend to the narrative and how much control I'm willing to give up.

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Yes, I think it's a good idea to think carefully about how much control you want to have over your own life. It's a pretty big decision and it's important to choose the answer that's right for you.
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Agreed.

With that in mind let me look at the last few drawbacks.

I think I'm less willing to give control over my powers to everyone I care about than the narrative... or I might be more okay if it was an either or choice but Marionette means both.

I definitely want They'll Know because it makes powers that I care about work better.

And a lot of the options I'm considering would be way too dangerous with Realism.

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Realism is a bad choice for most people. I think some people need the comforting familiarity of a world that works according to predictable rules, but they have to give up a lot in order to get it.
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I think that makes sense. Actually I wonder about that a little, if someone grew up somewhere that worked more on the narrative to begin with and they took realism would that mean the world around them started to work more according to predictable rules?

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I'm not sure! I think it might depend on details of the relationship between their world and narratives and predictable rules.
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I think I'm going to take another break soon, but before I do that I want to make sure I understand some things.

First, I want to make sure I understand the Crazy Train, I think if I'm understanding it right then it works on everything that isn't... passive. So even powers like Pocket Dimension where I need to intend to do something it may or may not work depending on whether it suits the narrative.

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Yes.
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Okay.

And Dramatic Damsel... but I'm not really thinking about taking Dramatic Damsel am I... And Down To Earth can just touch any powers that it needs to.

Actually, Slapstick Comedy still requires taking Dramatic Damsel so I guess I should care about what Dramatic Damsel does.

So Dramatic Damsel works on things that I perceive as protecting me? And I think that's mostly protecting me from big external things rather than minor inconveniences or things like aches and pains?

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Yes. Dramatic Damsel will only interfere with minor protections like that if for some reason that interference is necessary to facilitate a good story.
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Okay, thanks. Could you rearrange things to put all the powers I have at least a question mark on together? And the same for the drawbacks I'm thinking of taking? Oh and can you also put a question mark on Lightfoot to remind me to think about it again?

I think I'm going to take that short break now, maybe get a snack.

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Okay! ♡


The list shuffles.
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Sapphire gets up and stretches again.

"Thanks for being patient. We should probably get you another chair or something shouldn't we? Maybe move to the table."

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"My legs will probably appreciate that."

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She smiles. "Alright." She grabs a little bookmark sticky note and closes The Notebook after marking her current page. Then she picks up the pen and The Notebook and heads down the hall to their common area.

"I think I will get a snack but I'm not sure what else to do to take a break. A part of me wants to take my mind off of this for a little while but I'm not sure how."

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"I know what you mean it's a lot and our normal distractions don't feel like they fit the moment."

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"Exactly." They reach the common area and she puts The Notebook on the table with the pen.

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"Well we can start with a snack, apples and granola?

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"Sounds good." She joins him in the kitchen to help.

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Tom puts on some music and they let it fill the air indulging in the familiar rituals of preparing food and eating.

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Eventually they finish. "Hmm, should that be the break?"

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"I think that needs to be your choice. The Notebook has said several times that there isn't a time limit. And I don't think it said this explicitly but I have a feeling that there's a bit of narrative protection already here to ensure that you won't meet with a random accident that prevents you from finishing."

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"That would fit, wouldn't it."

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"I think you're right, and I think if you are right then I do want to take more of a break. Maybe Yoga?"

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"I'm up for that."

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They put on a yoga video and pull out their mats to follow along.

As sometimes happens, Yoga leads to other more energetic activities.

Lying in bed she turns to Tom. "Thanks."

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"You're welcome. You weren't the only one who wanted that."

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"I'm glad that whatever happens we'll be able to find our way back to each other. And I'm glad we're okay even if I'm considering risks you think I shouldn't take."

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"We are, I'll trust you to make the right choice even if it isn't the one I would make."

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"I appreciate that."

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They cuddle for a little while longer just enjoying each other's presence before once more visiting The Notebook.

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Hello again, I'm back for my third pass.

There's three things I want to do this time:

1: try to look at things more wholistically.

2: consider how drawbacks do or don't apply.

3: come to a firmer decision about some of the things I was hesitant about.

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That makes sense! How can I help?
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That's a good question. I think the most obvious way is helping make sure I understand powers correctly like you have been. Besides that, maybe I could write categories or attributes next to certain powers and you could do more rearranging so I can look at them all together.

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Of course! ♡
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And so she begins again.

I think... If I spend too much time worrying over what powers could potentially do things I don't like with The Crazy Train I'm just going to talk myself out of taking it by thinking of things that probably won't happen. For example I could see an interpretation where The Crazy Train could change what people see as my name under What's In A Name to something I don't like. I can't really think of a reason for it to do that though.

I think... for The Crazy Train it isn't as much about making a list of powers it does and doesn't effect. It's more about deciding if I'm okay with a lot of my powers in general being a little inconsistent. Does that sound right to you? I guess I could still make the list.

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Yes, I think "am I okay with a lot of my powers in general being a little inconsistent?" is a question that gets at the core of the drawback more closely than making a list would, but if the list helps you think about that question I don't think it's a bad idea to make one.

And... there's also the question of, what would the narrative do? Would the story you want to live be a story that would change your name against your will?
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I don't think so. I don't have a lot of personal experience having a name I don't want being pushed on me but I think I already understand viscerally why that would be awful. The reminder to ask myself what the story would do is also helpful.

She takes a look at the category totals she has.

Costs
+ 51
✓ 99
- 114
? 159

That's actually pretty reasonable. Well including everything in - and all the ? powers isn't but even without any drawbacks she can easily get all the powers she deeply wants. And there are drawbacks she definitely wanted to take.

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I understand if the answer is no but could you total up the drawbacks I said I actively wanted? I think the rest of them are too dependant on decisions I haven't made yet to trust as categories. I guess maybe I should just put those as + tier to match the powers. I can go through and do that if it makes it easier for you.

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I'm glad I can help! ♡ If it's not too much trouble, I'd appreciate you marking the drawbacks you're interested in just so I can be sure I'm not misinterpreting what you've said about how much you wanted them. I'll update the totals as you do.

Meanwhile, I'm still thinking about the powers you've asked for, and that Bonus Style Points variant is turning out just as tricky as I expected. I made an attempt at building it and somehow this is what I ended up with instead...


Name: More Magic - Cost: 5 ☐
(Requires Unleash The Magic and You Can Teach Better)
Abilities you pick up through Unleash The Magic can be passed on to others. Unique per-person abilities from Snowglobe may be passed on either as a direct mirror of your own unique ability, or by sparking a unique ability in the recipient. The deeper your personal connection to the recipient, the easier it is for you to pass on abilities to them and the more potent the results will be.


It doesn't really do much of what you were asking for, but I thought I'd show it to you anyway since it seems relevant to a life focused on working with others.
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I'll do the marking yeah.

And that's interesting. I agree that it's not quite what I meant but being able to bring more people with in exploring new ways to be makes it seem less scary.

She gives it a question mark.

As for drawbacks she's still so unsure about most of them.

She marks There's Another One, Incomplete, Nullified, Selective Memory and They'll Know with +.

A Single Perfect Flaw gets ✓.

Beauty is a curse, Style of Sisyphus, Signature Style, Very Distinctive and Flashy get -.

And then ? is applied to Dramatic Damsel, Love is A Battlefield, Seen With The Heart, Wardrobe Malfunction, Mudslinging, Slapstick Comedy, Down to Earth and The Crazy Train. 

And then in a slightly impulsive choice she adds Secret Identity and That's How it Goes to ? too.

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The point totals update so that each symbol shows the appropriate amount of available points as well as the appropriate amount of spent ones.
I'm going to try again and see if I can get closer this time. I might end up having to do something silly, we'll see.
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Good Luck, if it doesn't work I think that's okay. I haven't fully committed to taking the powers for getting lots of abilities and I'm not sure which ones I'll take but I have a feeling that I'll take at least some of them and with enough time that'll mean I find a solution.

If it would help, I could go into more detail as to why I think Reaching Out is a good jumping off point.

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Please do! ♡
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So Reaching Out is about feeling able to try new things and incorporate the parts that feel good into your life going forward. I've had a few trans friends and while some of them have just known they were trans from the very beginning there are others who weren't really sure and didn't feel able to take the step and commit to it until they had done a lot more soul searching.

I think what I'm imagining for the power that builds on Reaching Out is something that either helps people chart a path to where they want to go or maybe see where they could get to or both. Even if that path is beyond what they could do without a touch of the Spirit's power helping along the way.

In a way it would also be like Cotton Candy or Ever Onward in that, it's making the world a little more magical, making options that weren't there before or felt closed off a real possibility.

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I see! Yes, that's an interesting angle on the question. I'll think about it some more.
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♡ Thank You

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With that she turns her attention to the point totals.

164/134 for ?

Either she needs to accept all the drawbacks and get new custom ones or she needs to seriously pare down the question mark category.

She thinks she'll start there.

Lightfoot is an easy cut. She'd rather learn to dance the hard way and balance is also something people can learn.

She leaves the magic powers be for the moment those need more thought.

Soulbound she doesn't need.

She also doesn't really need her friendly house to be a person right away.

A Gentler Way... it's not really her thing.

A part of me feels like I shouldn't turn down Pacifist and A Gentler Way but neither of them feel like they fit. I'll keep it in the back of my mind though maybe I'll have an idea for how it could fit better.

I think in a sense a lot of what I want it for is covered by Backchannel and maybe Captive Audience? I think what I want is a chance to stop a fight from breaking out with words. A chance to help people about to fight understand why they're fighting at least even if I can't stop them.

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Hmm, can you say more about that? I want to be sure I understand what you're going for.

In the meantime, I came up with this:

Name: Small Blessings - Cost: 1 ☐
(Requires It Gets Better)
When you go through a difficult experience, you'll be able to find comfort where you need it most. Your recovery will usually be fairly smooth, and you'll have time to rest and find your balance before the next time something bad happens. This power cannot prevent the effects of drawbacks, but it can delay and mitigate them.


And this seemed like it might be relevant to some of the same situations:


Name: Roundabout - Cost: 2 ☐
(Requires Backchannel)
You can invoke Backchannel with yourself. This can be a big help in understanding where your own thoughts and feelings are coming from, and in coming to an internal consensus.
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Both of those are great.

She gives each a plus for the moment.

As for what I was talking with regarding Pacifist I wish I had Roundabout honestly. I'm not fully sure I know what I want or understand my feelings but I'll try some more.

The idea of being in fights doesn't appeal to me at all and I would like to prevent fights from happening. The thing about Pacifist though is that it's about carving out an exception for me personally instead of reducing how much fights are happening in general.

A Gentler Way is closer to that but it also feels like it's shifting the genre of the story in a little bit of a surreal direction. I think I might be framing things too narrowly in my head though. I think when I hear fight I'm focusing on things like wars and stories about fighting for the Fate of the World. And this power is a lot broader than that.

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A Gentler Way can definitely have surreal effects if you push it in that direction, but I think the direction you in particular might take it could be more grounded and subtle than that.
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I just had a thought... it feels like it might be stretching it a little bit though: could it help me convince people to talk about their disagreement? Or use a mediator?

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Potentially, yes! Especially if you had an effective mediator available, either yourself or someone else.
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That makes is a lot better then. I think good enough to give it at least a minus.

On the topic of revisiting things, I think Small Blessings is enough for me to tentatively plan to accept all the Dramatic Damsel Drawbacks I was thinking about so I'm going to go and tweak markings for drawbacks again.

She gives the damsel drawbacks a minus and moves the things that used to have a minus into ?

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Oh, I'm glad! I like when I get to make just the right power for somebody.
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Well you must get to feel that way a lot then because you're very good at this.

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I do my best! ♡
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I think the next thing to do is just go over everything in checkmark and minus and decide if I actually want it and how much it'll cost. I'll also recheck the perks with plus but I think it's less likely that I'll change my mind about those.

She returns to the top of the list.

I think the first category would be appearance focused powers:

A Hundred Ships: 1 (Required for Beauty is a Curse 1)
Perfect Hair: 2
Size Difference: 2
Dressing Room: 3 (Required for Wardrobe Malfunction 3)
Undressing Room: 3
Like Roses: 1
Well Endowed: 1
Hollow Leg: 1
Personal Hygiene: 1 (Required for Mudslinging: 1)
Angelic Tones: 2 (Required for Slapstick Comedy 2)

She leaves a couple lines

I wasn't as sure about including some of these in this group but I think that's all roughly appearance related powers. A bunch of those have associated drawbacks that pay for them.

I'm not sure about A Hundred Ships I think my idea was that it would prevent me from looking old and maybe it would also help with my idea of talking with kids looking like a kid. Maybe I'm okay with getting older though. It's something I need to think about.

I think the things I originally wanted perfect Hair for are covered better by Undressing Room and it says that Dressing Room can handle more normal hair styling so I think I'm going to make a new mark maybe a * as something I might take later if I have spare points. But don't actually feel a strong desire for.

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Yes, I think Dressing Room will work fine for normal hair styling and you only need Perfect Hair if you want your hair styling to be abnormal.

A Hundred Ships won't necessarily prevent you from looking old, but it will mean that you look old in ways that you're okay with, and that you look beautiful while old.
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Thanks that's a helpful distinction. I guess it might also help with recovering from injuries that damage my face but it feels like I'm considering it more as a protection from hypotheticals than something I actively want right now. I think I'm going to shift it to * especially since Dressing Room also helps with makeup and personal hygiene probably means I never need to worry about acne again.

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That makes sense!
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I don't think I would ever want to take Well Endowed without Hollow Leg and I think I do want the part of Well Endowed where I can move without worrying about my breasts. Especially if I'm going to go on an adventure. Even more talky adventures tend to mean a lot of walking around. The strength and not needing to worry about what I eat are both bonuses. And I'm pretty sure my powers won't mean I'm stronger in ways that make me uncomfortable.

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What do you mean by stronger in ways that make you uncomfortable? Powers do do their best about that sort of thing, but I want to make sure.
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The power says I'll never be impaired in strength by lack of visible muscle. And you said that could go up to the point of being as strong as a normal human could be but I'm guessing I only feel that strength when I need it. It would feel weird if I could lift a hundred pounds as easily as a body builder outside of a stressful situation.

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Yes, that's right. You'll have the right amount of strength for the situation you're in, taking into account your comfort levels as well as practical considerations.
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Alright, thanks for confirming that for me.

I think for the moment I'm going to move them down to checkmark though... it doesn't feel aesthetically right to rate things that are convenient as highly as things that speak directly to who I want to be and the kind of story I want to live.

I think the next one like this is Size Difference. I still like the idea of kid mode especially for helping kids who are more suspicious of adults because of bad experiences. It's not something I expect to use every day though so I'll leave it at check.

Undressing Room is absolutely against the spirit of relating to people as a basically normal person but I think I'm okay with that. I do want to be a little careful with it. I don't want to use it in ways that hurt people by making them doubt their ability to perceive reality but I think it can do a lot of nice things even if I stick to that.

I think I might move it down to a normal check mark though. I probably want to take it but it isn't at the core of the life I want to live.

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(That second paragraph gets a tiny heart drawn next to it.)

Yes, it does sound important to be careful about what you want from Undressing Room and how you plan to use it. I hadn't considered how it might affect people that way, but I see what you mean now that you point it out.
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Thanks, I wasn't thinking much about it either.

Actually, while we're on the topic of Undressing Room I'm a little curious about how it would interact with Signature Style. My first thought is that it would mean no one could perceive me being in an outfit that isn't part of that style. I wonder a little if there's an exception for the bit about interacting with inanimate objects though. Or maybe a bit of an exception for some of the details of how I perceive my clothes.

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What kinds of exceptions would you want to make for those cases?
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If I don't take Warmhearted then probably something to protect me from bad whether and a layer to insulate me from wet or sticky surfaces.

When I was first considering Signature Style I was trying to find a way to take it without actually changing what I wore or how I lived but I think that's not really the right way to think about it in retrospect. It's about choosing a way to live that I couldn't choose without my powers but that still speaks to how I want to.

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Hmm. I think maybe at that point you want something more like...


Name: Cosmetic Equipment - Cost: 2 ☐
(Requires Dressing Room)
You can mix and match the practical and magical effects of your clothing and accessories. A bikini could be as cozy as a winter coat, or as protective as a steel breastplate. A pair of earrings could combine the magic of a dozen enchanted amulets. A bracelet could grant the functions of a full set of scuba gear. As usual, anything you access this way must be either something you've held or examined, or something you understand well enough to tell it apart from a convincing fake. These modifications only apply while you're wearing the items in question; you're not permanently changing how the bracelet works, just letting it serve as a kind of temporary disguise for the diving suit.
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Oh that's fun! 

She gives that a check. 

I think that does more what I want than Warmhearted does. I don't need to be perfectly comfortable at all times and this is a lot more flexible.

She flips a page and unchecks Warmhearted and after a moment of thought she does the same to Breath Easy.

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Point totals update appropriately.
Oh, I'm glad I thought of it, then! ♡
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Me too! ♡

She looks back at her list of cosmetic powers.

Okay I think that just leaves Like Roses. I picked that initially because I wanted to be more memorable and uh... after seeing all my options I think that's a foregone conclusion.

She unchecks it.

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Yes, I think you will be pretty memorable regardless. ♡
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Alright, let me try to pick out another category.

She looks back at the list and see What's In a Name as the first power she hasn't looked at yet.

Okay, I think my next category is going to be powers that protect me or maybe a better way of putting it is powers that close of possibilities I don't want.

What's In A Name 1 ✓
Just A Little Longer 1 -
Immunity System 3 -
Making Ends Meet 1 -
Personal Space 3 ✓
Closed Book 1 ✓
Indelible 1 ✓
Iron Will 2 ✓
It Gets Better 5 +
Small Blessings 1 +
Providential Parenthood 1 ✓

I think that's all the powers like that I have marked. I could include Cotton Candy but I'd rather put that with the powers about talking to people and changing the world.

 

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A good category to have! And yes, I think I agree that Cotton Candy is more of a world-changing power than a self-protecting power even though it does both.
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Okay, I'm definitely keeping It Gets Better and Small Blessings. Everything else I'm less sure of.

And after thinking about it a little I'm going to increase Providential Parenthood to a + too.

She does that.

I guess I started from the bottom so I might as well keep going from the bottom.

I'm not really sure what I want from the Mental powers. With the drawbacks I'm taking I don't think they really protect me from the worst things that could happen so it's more about shifting the average case.

I think Iron Will could also help with recovering from things the way Small Blessings does but it feels... unaesthetic if it works that way. I like the idea of being more able to recover than most people and being better at putting myself back together but just having trauma erased in time to not disrupt the next episode feels wrong.

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I see what you mean! It sounds like the Iron Will powers might not work well for you, in that case.
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She nods and unchecks it.

I think without Iron Will I worry a little about the other two mental protection perks they don't have the bit about being able to allow friendly telepathy.

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They do also bend for that sort of thing if you really want them to, but not as easily or straightforwardly.
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It's cases like this that make me wonder if I just want That's How It Goes. Because I think that might make these work more like I would want them to.

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I'm not sure that it would. That's How It Goes is not primarily intended to make your life more convenient.
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Yeah... that was probably just wishful thinking on my part.

On another note Inner World says that mental defenses 'guard it against intrusion.' Do you have a sense for what that would mean? Especially if I just took one of the two instead of both? It feels like visiting a place has aspects of perceiving and influencing that place and I'm not sure how you would separate them.

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Both of those mental defense powers would interfere with people visiting your Inner World without your permission, but Closed Book also prevents people from spying on it remotely, and Indelible also prevents people from damaging or rearranging it remotely.
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And if I want the ability to invite someone I would either need to rely on the powers like Anything You Can Do or ask for another custom power. Or just happen to meet someone who could visit with their own abilities.

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Yes. Or wait until you're close enough to someone that they count for Dream Together.
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That makes sense.

I think the thing I'm struggling with regarding Closed Book and Indelible is that they seem very absolute. Especially with Closed Book. I'm more okay with Indelible being absolute. On the side of people just reading my mind, I would be okay with someone having insight into my surface thoughts to use the term from stories, maybe not all of them but at least a lot of them. What I want to be protected from is people digging into my deepest memories and using them to hurt me.

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I think if you want people to have insight into your surface thoughts in fairly ordinary and unexceptional situations, you don't want Closed Book.
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I agree with you there, I think the question for me is whether I want to ask for some sort of custom power or just to trust that if I do end up somewhere where mind reading is a thing that I'll be able to learn to protect myself in the ways I want to. I guess when I put it like that what I really want is the powers like Anything You Can Do.

There are stories where there isn't any way to learn to defend yourself though.

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Do you think those are the kinds of stories you'd want to be a part of?
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That's a hard question. I think, I don't want to be in a story where I'm just being led around by someone else who has a plan and there's nothing I can do. I could see some cases where I would be okay with it but those are also stories where I would be okay without Closed Book. I guess that answers the question.

I think I will keep Indelible though, you said I could stretch it to allow people to communicate with me, and I'm a lot less interested in letting people directly force me to believe things or do things.

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That makes sense!
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I think I will keep Personal Space. Even if some of my drawbacks mean it won't always work, I like the fact that it will mean that if it is breaking it's as part of a story instead of someone randomly being an asshole.

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Oh, I see what you mean! That does sound like a nice thing to know about your life.
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For Making Ends Meet am I right that it finds a way to fit with the world I'm in instead of standing out? Also is it using my definition of comfortable or the local meaning?

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The definition of comfortable it uses is somewhere between yours and the world's. If you're used to a standard of living that not even royalty can meet, you won't become richer than royalty, but you'll be able to get by at least as well as your peers and small comforts will find their way into your life wherever possible. And yes, it does avoid standing out.
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I think I want that then. I want to focus more on doing things than, to make a bit of a joke, making ends meet.

She increases it to a checkmark.

I also really want Immunity System, I don't think it occurred to me on my first pass but it isn't just about protecting me it also makes it safe for me to help people who are really sick without risking making other people sick.

She increases that to checkmark too.

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Yes, that's a very helpful side benefit of that power!
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Alright that leaves Just A Little Longer and What's In A Name.

I feel like the aesthetic of Just A Little Longer isn't something I want. It's about letting you use unhealthy habits. I would say that it lets you do it without consequences but it does have those. Still, part of what I want is to be a good role model and it's not modelling behavior I would want people to try to copy.

What's In A Name is still important for the reasons I talked about before. I can imagine not taking it if I'm really close on having enough points or leaving a point free in my final build so I can get it if I need it, but if I have enough points I want it.

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Yes, I think Just A Little Longer is a power that encourages people to do things other people shouldn't imitate.
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She draws a little smiley face next to that reply.

And she flips back to choose a new category.

Okay, so the next power I haven't looked at this time through is Pocket Dimension. I don't really remember any powers like it. I want it for the ability to recall sentimental possessions and to stow them away safely.

I can see other uses for it and a part of me worries about using it as a solution to every possible problem but if I end up taking The Crazy Train I think that would prevent it and I also think I might have enough self-control regardless.

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It's also not necessarily a bad thing to have powers that solve your problems. But yes, Pocket Dimension can have very different effects on your life depending on how you use it.
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That's true. I don't think I was expressing myself well there. I feel like a story where the whole point is to get a the sort of thing Pocket Dimension could let me make isn't a story I'm interested in being a part of so having it to solve those isn't a bad thing. And in a sense having the power means that the story of my life isn't as focused on things like that and instead it's about other things that are hopefully more satisfying.

The part I'm more worried about is using it like it's Four Star Daydream without the narrative protection that Four Star Daydream brings with it. Does that make sense?

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Yes, I see what you mean. It sounds like you'll be able to avoid doing that kind of thing, though.
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I think I will yeah.

Hmm, the next perk I haven't examined is Soundtrack. I've already talked a bunch about how much I like it. I'm a little less sure how to group it.

I think it's centrally about making me more aware of the world around me and the people in it. In a broader sense what I want from it is to help me be more connected with other people. I feel like there's a lot of powers in my list about connection though and less that are focused on understanding.

I think I'll list all of both for the moment and see if that looks like how I want to divide them up.

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She flips through the list some more and ultimately produces two short lists.

Understanding
Soundtrack 1 +
Omniglot 3 +
Backchannel 4 +
Roundabout 2 +
Friends In Places 9 ✓

Connection
Inner World 2 +
Cuddle Buddies 2 -
Quality Time 2 -
Time Enough For Love +
Work-Life Balance ✓
I Can Help Them 5 +
True Love's Kiss 1 +
Eternal Love 2 +
Dream Together 1 +

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I'm not sure if that's the perfect way to divide them up. And there's also some overlap with the other two categories I noticed while looking through things, the ones focused on changing the world and the ones focused on I think growing. Or I think growing is a good way to summarize the powers like Anything You Can Do.

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I like that these are categories you're focused on! Understanding and connection can be prety important.
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That makes me wonder about other ways people could see these.

I know Soundtrack can do a lot and I'm focusing on a part of what it can do.
I can see how a lot of people would just take Omniglot as a way to not worry about speaking the right languages.
I guess a more cynical person could use the Friends In Places powers to manipulate people instead of actually trying to make friends.
And True Love's Kiss isn't really centrally about connection I just grouped it in that way because it's needed for Eternal Love.

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There's a sense in which True Love's Kiss is about connection because it makes connection a more central and powerful part of your life, but yes.
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She stares a little at the list.

I think these are a little different from the previous groups. With those it felt like each power was doing a different thing with maybe a little bit of overlap, for these a lot of the powers feel like they're different ways of achieving the same goal though.

Dream together is really really important to me so I'm absolutely taking everything I need for it.

Soundtrack, is really unique and it feels like it can fill in the gaps left by other abilities in a really nice way.

I could imagine not taking Omniglot but I feel like that means I'll either mysteriously meet people who already speak my language or else I'll be in stories more focused on language learning than I'm really excited about.

That leaves:

Backchannel 4 +
Roundabout 2 +
Friends In Places 9 ✓
Cuddle Buddies 2 -
Quality Time 2 -
Work-Life Balance ✓
I Can Help Them 5 +

One thing I'm noticing looking at that, and also just whole whole list is that it's not very symmetrical. I think that makes sense because they're my powers but it would still be nice if there were powers that would make it easier for people to connect with and understand me. Approachable does that a little but it's more about countering the effects of being Popular than changing things at their base.

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I think it's much easier to make a power that changes what you're capable of than to make a power that changes what other people are capable of, just because it's you who has the power. But let me think...


Name: Two-Way Street - Cost: 2 ☐
(Requires Backchannel)
Anyone you're talking to can invoke Backchannel for themselves, and when you're having trouble making yourself understood, they will instinctively know that they can do this and that now would be a good time.
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She smiles and giggles. "This notebook."

That's great.

It gets an immediate +.

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"Judging by the name I wonder if this came before roundabout."

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"Huh, you're right it does seem like that might be the order."

So... maybe this doesn't have an actual answer but Tom was wondering if there's a sense in which Roundabout got it's name based on Two-way Street.

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Where the names of powers come from is one of those deep mysteries. You're right that they sound related in that way, but it's hard to know.
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Huh, what's that like? Because it seems like sometimes you're figuring out a power from scratch and other times it seems like you're pulling it from another version of you if I'm understanding right. When it's the you here with me who's coming up with a power does the name just suddenly come to you after you figure out the right shape for a power to be?

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Building a power always has an element of discovery to it. I don't think it's necessarily the case that every power is built from scratch exactly once and then pulled in from another version of me every subsequent time; I think many different versions of me can discover the same power and there's not necessarily an answer to who found it "first".
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I think that makes sense, I'm still curious what that process of discovery feels like though if it's something you can put into words.

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It's pretty hard to put into words, because it's so close to the Spirit and so far from ordinary mortal experience. I'd say, rather than the name suddenly coming to me, it's more like the words sort of crystallize out of the shape of the power as it's finishing coming together?
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Huh, I think I vaguely understand, thanks for putting in the effort. Now I'm wondering if powers like Disney Princess that are such explicit references to things in my world crystalize with different names in worlds that don't have that context.

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I've always suspected that some of the really weird power names are a result of names getting translated into one world's context when they more naturally fit another.
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Do you have an example?

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I think Chaser Six When is the most word salad of all of them.
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Yeah... I have no idea where that could have come from either.

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"Same."

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I assume it must make sense in context, but what's the context? Probably most of me will never know.
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It must be so interesting to live that way. Knowing that there's so many other parts of you who remember things you don't.

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It's inconvenient sometimes but overall I like it. Being the way I am lets me do things that I couldn't do if I wasn't.
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I can't argue with that. You're wonderful just the way you are.

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Aww, thank you. ♡
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You're welcome.

She looks back a bit. Where was she? Oh.

Okay, so I'm absolutely keeping Backchannel and now Two-Way Street.

I Can Help Them is a prerequisite for Ever Onward which is one of my favorites so I'm definitely taking that.

Roundabout and Work-Life Balance both feel important to taking care of myself. I could go without them but I'm taking a bunch of other risks with myself so having more of a buffer is a good idea.

She upgrades Work-Life Balance to a plus.

That leaves me with the ones I'm less sure about.

I'm torn with the Friends In Places power. I think I like the idea of learning the things those would tell me better than just knowing them, but a part of me is worried that if I don't take them that will mean there's people I would have been able to make friends with that instead won't be open to that.

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I think the Friends In Places powers mostly don't give you anything you couldn't get the long way, but sometimes the long way takes quite a while and there are paths that would have been open when you started learning that are closed by the time you finish, even though other paths might have opened along the way.
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She nods to herself.

Yeah, I guess it comes down to stories again. Do I want to live the story where I have those opportunities right from the start or do I want to work my way out of ignorance. And there's also points to consider. I think I feel a similar way about Quality Time and Cuddle Buddies and I feel like those are less something that closes out opportunities.

She unchecks those.

I think this is one of the decisions I'm going to have to come back to at least one more time.

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Yes, I see what you mean about Quality Time and Cuddle Buddies. They're things that are nice to have, and can be important if they're what you really need in your life, but you can also have those things without using the Spirit's power for them if you don't need them to be an easy guarantee.

And it makes sense to take the time to think through your choices, too. ♡
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Thanks.

I think that means the next thing to look at is the other really big decision I've been putting off.

She flips through the pages a bit and composes a new list.

Growth
Anything You Can Do 6 ✓
Dragon Fairy Elf Witch 5 ?
Snowglobe 4 ?
Unleash The Magic 3 ?
You Can Teach Better 8 ✓
More Magic 5 ?
The Princess And The Dragon ?

She stares at it for a moment.

The Princess And The Dragon doesn't perfectly fit with the rest but I think it's the best place to put it.

I think, there's only four serious ideas I have here:

1: Just Anything You Can Do for 6 points. I think Anything You Can Do is the one I like the best and if I'm really short on points I think that's the option that feels best.

2: Anything You Can Do and You Can Teach Better for 14 points. I prefer this to the first option if I can afford it. Then I'm bringing people with me instead of leaving them behind.

3: Add in Snowglobe for 4 more points and a total of 18. I think Snowglobe is the second most aesthetic of my options here and I guess it doesn't actually promise that the magics I would get would be a good fit for me but it feels like a better chance than DFEW.

3: All of them for 31 points. I don't know if I want this but again I really like the idea of bringing people with me and this is the only way to do that with the other powers.

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What do you mean about the magics being a good fit for you?
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So it says one of the things it can help with is 'personality-based magic' That implies to me that the magics would fit me somehow instead of feeling random or arbitrary. It does also talk about superhero worlds though.

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Yes, Snowglobe gets you powers that suit you in that sense, even if the source it's drawing from doesn't necessarily work that way. Dragon Fairy Elf Witch doesn't directly have the same quirk to it, but because it tries to give you the advantages of each heritage without the disadvantages, it also tends to provide results that suit what you want in a broader sense.
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I think that makes sense. There's also the tension where, this would take a lot of points and one of the best ways to get those points is to accept That's How It Goes and not have any control over how I'm changing. And I don't think my sense of a good story would protect me from that, because I do like stories about people struggling to adapt to things and stories that show that power comes with consequences instead of being an unallloyed good.

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I see what you mean, yes. That sounds like a pretty tough decision to make. I do want you to be able to share these things with More Magic, but That's How It Goes could make having these powers much more difficult than it would otherwise be.
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Yeah, I guess that's another argument for dropping off the Friends In Places powers.

She does some math on the side.

If I skip the Princess And The Dragon and the Friends Places and take the lot along with some of the drawbacks I wasn't sure about that puts me at 121/122 So there is actually an option where I take them all without That's How It Goes.

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Oh, that's heartening... except for the phrase "some of the drawbacks I wasn't sure about". Which ones are those, and what weren't you sure of about them? (Or should I wait for you to get there in your list?)
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She goes to look.

It would mean I would have to take Signature Style and Flashy and both of their predecessors.

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What do you think of that idea?
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I think I'm loosely okay with it. There are more powers I haven't looked through that I could potentially drop too.

Like I said last time, Very Distinctive feels like it could be something I would need to expect anyway. And honestly I'm pretty okay with Flashy it's Very Distinctive that I worry a little about.

On the other side I have been tossing around some more thoughts about Signature Style in my head. I think the summation of the concept I have is upskirt compatible.

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Tom snickers.

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"Oh hush."

To go into more detail, it means I more or less give up on pants and shorts and also give up on panties. I think it would also rule out floor length dresses unless they had long slits in them. Basically the idea in my head is that my clothes could always potentially give someone a peak of my vulva though I'm hoping undressing room would let me arrange things so that it only shows people when it would make their day better instead of worse.

I feel like people being able to see the outlines of my nipples through my top and just generally the shape of my breasts through my top is also likely but if I can focus on the one aspect that would be my preference.

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That sounds less like a style and more like the kind of restriction that would fit as a Single Perfect Flaw... because, hmm, it's focused on non-stylistic aspects of how you dress?
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Yeah, that makes sense. I think with enough time I could think of a more stylistic way to describe it, but that does make sense.

Actually I'm a little curious, I feel like for a bunch of possible Signature Styles there's no direct application to being naked. Can people who's signature style is for example ballroom gowns just never be naked?

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Yes, Signature Style almost always allows taking off clothes, it's just that to the extent that someone is dressed they have to be dressed a certain way.
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Okay, that actually gives a lot more flexibility.

I think if I had to pick something very narrow it would just be sundresses but I feel like there's a way to describe that which also lets me wear a bunch of combinations of skirts and blouses that have the same kind of floaty aesthetic. Maybe there's also some pants at the edges that fit but that's less important to me. When I was trying to come up with something before I was also trying to include the more tight fitting outfits I wear sometimes especially when it's colder but if I didn't have to care about weather or my clothes getting in my way when doing something physical, I would always go with this lighter side.

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I think that sounds much more like a style!
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Oh, good. I think that's enough to put it in the ✓ category. There's some things I would miss variety wise but I also like the idea that nobody could force me to wear clothes I don't like. I guess it doesn't protect me from people trying to hurt me because they don't like how I'm dressed but I have other powers that can help with that.

She updates her marking.

Based on the discussion she also moves The Princess And The Dragon as well as he Friends in Places powers to *. And has That's How It Goes et all join them.

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It can be really nice to know that you'll never have to wear clothes you don't like, even though it also means you can't update your style in the future.
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It's also an anchor and a reminder of where I came from. It's a promise to myself that a lot of who I am will stay the same even if I'm embracing change.

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That makes sense. ♡
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Alright, well we're getting close to the end of things now.

When I was looking through again, I noticed that Where The Heart Is doesn't really fit into any other big category. I have it rated as a minus but I think that might be a mistake. There's absolutely some whimsy in my medley of clothing powers and in the idea of kid mode but I think I've been leaning really far into the serious side of these powers.

I think I want to take Where The Heart Is as a reminder to myself that I don't need to live my life quite that seriously even if I have the potential to accomplish big things.

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I think that sounds like a lovely idea. ♡
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She nods to herself and upgrades Where The Heart is to ✓. That does mean that tier doesn't pay for itself but she isn't planning to make her decision like that.

And then she writes out her last category list:

Ripples
Captive Audience 3 ✓
Disney Princess and Cotton Candy 5 +
A Gentler Way 6 -
Ever Onward 3 +
Reaching Out 4 +
Popular 3 +
Approachable 3 +

 

I decided to call this one ripples because it's about leaving an impact on the world that spreads on its own.

Obviously the center of this is Ever Onward and I'm absolutely taking that. I'm a little less sure of some of the other ones though.

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What are your thoughts on the ones you're not sure of?
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Let's see. I do like A Gentler Way and it's very centrally a ripples power but it's also expensive and I'm not sure how much I expect to be standing in between two groups of people who are about to fight.

I'm also not sure what to make of the part about my suggestions working better if they're well tailored. It makes a lot of sense but it also means the power feels a lot weaker. Beyond just how it's weaker with Nullified.

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Yes - I think it would potentially go very well with Friends In Places, but then that means it's harder to use without them.
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That's actually a really good point. I think I'll group it with those for now.

I feel torn in a way. On the one hand I want to believe you can change the world with nothing but words and kindness. Well, and with powers to smooth the way a little. And on the other hand there's this more practical side of me that wants to shift into embracing the more growth focused powers.

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I think words and kindness can do a lot, and words and kindness and Ever Onward can do a lot more, and words and kindness and Ever Onward and More Magic can do even more than that. Not even necessarily because the words and kindness weren't enough to change people's minds, but because sometimes people have problems that changing their minds won't solve, and magic will.
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She nods to herself slowly.

Thanks, I think I needed to be reminded of that. That trying to have other tools didn't mean in some way giving up on words as the way to change people's minds.

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Alright, that leaves Captive Audience, Reaching Out, Popular, and Approachable.

I'm not as sure what I want to do with Captive Audience at this point. It's less able to do things with Nullified and even with They'll Know giving it some of its power back I feel like I can manage without it. And if I can't I absolutely believe I can learn to.

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Yes, I think that sounds right. ♡
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She'll uncheck that then.

I love the idea of Reaching Out so I'm absolutely keeping that. Maybe I could do it other ways but giving people the courage to reach out and claim a version of their life that's scary but is better for them is one of the things I most wanted to do with my life before meeting you.

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I think that's a pretty great thing to want to do with your life.
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She smiles wider at that.

Thanks

Okay, I think I'm pretty attached to Approachable and Popular is a pre-requisite. I think that's all the powers covered.

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Hmm... I think I've figured out that drawback you were asking for a while ago.


Name: Makes The Dream Work - Grants: +6 ☐
(Requires There's Another One)
When you embark on a significant, impactful project, something that would tend to be a central plotline in a story about you, you must work with other people to accomplish it. Without a team of friends, comrades, or coworkers to collaborate with, you'll never make more than slow, limited progress. Also, even if your powers would normally position you as the central star of such a team, they'll hold back from doing that here; your teammates will be able to relate to you as equals, and will be immune to any effect that would make them overlook your flaws or agree with you against their better judgment.
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Oh that's great. I really like that. Thanks.

She debates a little before giving it a ✓.

I'm pretty sure this is limiting me in ways I'm okay with but I don't think quite enough that I would take it as a power which is my test for drawbacks getting a +.

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That sounds like a pretty sensible way to categorize things. ♡
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Before she moves onto drawbacks she goes through and upgrades some powers to + both from the acknowledgment that it's okay to prioritize small things and from the fact that she has a lot of spare points at that tier.

She upgrades: Size Difference, Dressing Room, Pocket Dimension, Cosmetic Equipment, Undressing Room, Immunity System, Well Endowed, Hollow Leg, Making Ends Meet, Personal Space, Where the Heart Is and after a little more thought Indelible.

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And then she turns her attention to the drawbacks.

I think the deal I'm making with myself about taking the growth powers stands.

And then she fully unchecks Secret Identity, The Crazy Train and That's How It Goes.

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I also think I just don't want Beauty is A Curse

She unchecks that too.

Hmm, it feels weird that I have an empty tier of powers and a tier with no new drawbacks but they're not the same.

Could you remark things for me so that it goes, + ✓ ? *

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Yes, of course! Just a moment...


Markings shuffle around appropriately.
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Alright, well I think I'm getting pretty close now. I'm pretty sure I'll take the Dramatic Damsel based drawbacks at this point. I don't think I want Very Distinctive And Flashy Though.

She unchecks those and then after a quick glance through also unchecks Perfect Hair and A Hundred Ships.

I think at this point the idea in my head is to take everything marked with + ✓ and ? That leaves me with 11 points free for powers from * or other powers if I need them.

And thinking about that a little more...

She moves What's In A Name to * as well. And Angelic Tones to ?

I don't really expect to be in the sort of story where true names are important so it seems silly for that to be part of my core build and part of the reason I'm taking Angelic Tones is because it's my favorite prerequisite for Slapstick Comedy.

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That's a fun reason to take Angelic Tones. ♡
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It really is isn't it.

Anyway what do you think of my plan as I'm describing it? Keeping 12 points free for potential powers I find myself needing and taking everything on that list?

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I think that's an excellent plan!
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Thanks... I should really sleep on this and also I probably need to spend a bunch of time figuring out how to make it okay for me to disappear with no direct way for anyone to contact me for who knows how long.

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"That's gonna be a mess." Tom agrees.

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That makes sense. Goodnight, then!
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"So, are we going to talk about this tonight, or are we going to talk about this tomorrow? Because I do want to talk about it. before you finalize things."

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"Let's just make dinner and relax a bit more. I think it would be better to look at things with fresh eyes. Maybe there's things I've missed from repeatedly rereading things. And I know you've been taking a step back so maybe you should read things and see if there's bits I was missing."

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"Okay, I can work with that."

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She gives a smile in response to that. And then they go to make dinner, it's a familiar curry recipe that they've made many times before and so they fall into the routine easily.

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After they've eaten Sapphire settles down with a book. She's not fully committed to leaving right away and with the focus on the notebook she's been neglecting her reading for class. It's also a good way to clear her mind.

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Tom considers looking at the notebook alone for a few moments but decides that Sapphire has the right idea. He at least absolutely needs to keep up with his assignments.

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They pass the rest of the evening this way until it's late enough to be getting ready for bed.

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"I think tonight might be a cuddle night? What do you think?"

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"Yeah, I'd like that. My room?"

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She smiles and nods. "Yeah, that works."

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The next morning they wake up in the slightly tangled way they generally do when they cuddle overnight.

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They both come into awareness and just share a comfortable silence for a few moments. "Morning Tom."

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"Good morning. I love you."

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"I love you too." She cuddles into him a little more and gives the closes thing to a hug she can.

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They just relax that way for a little longer before. "I guess we should get up." He gives a small laugh and then starts detangling.

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"I suppose." She detangles too and does a little stretching before getting up and then a little more.

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They turn their attention to their respective morning routines. They take turns brushing teeth and taking showers before meeting up again more ready to face the day in the kitchen.

"Fast, normal or fancy?"

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"Normal I think. I'm not going to leave today I don't think. We can save fancy for then."

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He nods and then sets about doing his part of preparing breakfast.

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She joins in and soon enough they're eating together at the table.

"So, what's our plan here exactly? I know you have class this afternoon and I have class this morning. Are we going?"

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"I am at least, it might be a good idea for you too. I don't really expect you to finish the semester since it's just starting but it's a dose of normality, might help you think about things more."

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"I think that makes sense. Are you planning to look at the list while I'm gone?"

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"I think so. Just to see if there's anything I can bring to it."

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"I think that makes sense. Just remember to say it's you if you decide to ask questions."

She leaves to get dressed to go outside and collect what she needs for class.

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"I will." He turns his attention to cleaning up the breakfast dishes.

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Sapphire stops to give him a hug before heading out.

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And then it's Tom's turn to look through the notebook's list.

The first thing he looks at is the destinations. Sapphire has technically not marked one but by this point they all know what she's choosing.

"Trust to the will of the Spirit and let it take you where you need to go." He reads the words out loud. "I envy you sometimes," he says to himself, "finding it that easy to trust. To really trust."

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He flips again to the perks Sapphire has turned down for one reason or another. Maybe there's something she missed. It also gives him time to work up to reading the parts he's most worried about.

He smiles at the ships powers. He is biased but he doesn't think Sapphire needs help there.

He reads the other unselected appearance powers carefully but ultimately dismisses them.

Cosmetic Equipment doesn't quite substitute for Breathe Easy or Warmhearted but he understand Sapphire's preference.

He's glad he argued Sapphire out of taking My Ears Are Burning.

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He might be more inclined to take Lightfoot and Inner Strength but this is about helping Sapphire choose the right powers for her not living vicariously through her.

He continues in this vein for a while.

A part of him really wants her to take Iron Will but it's a bit of a silly part. It won't protect her from Down To Earth, and he agrees that having trauma just dissolve at the end of a storyline sounds unsettling.

Living Canvas and Shadow Puppet are fun in the same sort of way Where The Heart Is. He agrees they don't fit what Sapphire wants as well though.

Musical Number is fun, and he's amused enough to actually break his silence and ask the Notebook a question.

Hi, It's Tom. I've been looking through to see if there's any powers Sapphire should take a second look at before I try to come up with a better argument for why she shouldn't take Down To Earth.

Or maybe convince myself that it's okay for her to take it. I should keep an open mind.

Anyway I don't want to talk about that just yet, I was looking at Musical Number. I don't think it makes sense for Sapphire to take it but I'm curious what it's like with Nullified and They'll Know.

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Under those conditions it becomes more of a prompt for people to break into song if they wish.
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That makes sense. Does it also help them get the words and choreography right if they opt-in?

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Yes.
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He reads through Best Friend and everything based on it. He can see some appeal there and it would give Sapphire someone to rely on right away but he trusts her to make friends wherever she ends up. And she's not defenseless.

The love language friends perks aren't really something that needs more thought either. Agree To Agree is probably pretty limited with Nullified and awful morally without it.

A part of him wishes she was willing to take the original Pacifist but again it wouldn't protect from Down To Earth.

The everyone must love me powers are the same as Agree to Agree.

The powers for keeping loved ones safe...

Does Sapphire taking Down To Earth mean bad things can happen to me in order to help her understand something?

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That depends somewhat on her mindset.

If she sees you as part of her, and the important thing about what happens to you is its effect on her, then drawbacks can cause trouble for you in order to have effects on her. The more she cares about you for your own sake, the less they can do that.
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I think that makes sense. I'm pretty sure she cares about me for me more than for what I can do for her. That's how she is as a person.

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Yes, I think you're right.
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He continues reading without having any particularly new thoughts until he gets to Planned Parenthood.

So... I'm remembering that Providential Parenthood was something she choose partially because of The Crazy Train but she's not taking that anymore. Is it also more resistant to other drawbacks like Down to Earth? Or is that just down to mindset and they both work equally well?

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It's just down to mindset, yes.
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Thanks.

Nothing else from the powers is catching his eye.

Moving on to the drawbacks the only ones that seem like they might warrant reexamination are the Great Responsibility Line he previously argued against and the Very Distinctive Line she narrowly turned down.

"That is an option... not a good one but an option."

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And then it's time to look through what she is planning to take.

For the most part he understand the reasons for all the powers she's taking and he doesn't see any gotchas.

He does flip to a blank page and make a list though.

Tom's musing on possible cuts

Angelic Tones 2
Size Difference 2
Undressing Room 3
Well Endowed 1
Hollow Leg 1
Making Ends Meet 1
Where The Heart Is 1
Roundabout 2

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And then it's on to the drawbacks she is taking.

He's a little concerned with the bit about not being able to kill and more worried if she changes that to being unable to injure but really she doesn't think that Sapphire could bring herself to do that regardless.

No the real worry is from the Dramatic Damsel tree.

I wonder a little if Sapphire is reading the term "love interest" too narrowly in Love Is A Battlefield. I think she's translating that into meaning really close friends, people she's comfortable saying "I love you" with because she doesn't really get crushes. Do you think it would actually work that way or is it broader than that?

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I think it would be both broader and narrower in different ways. Love Is A Battlefield is focused around romantic connections, meaning that close friendships without a romantic or sexual element would be noncentral to its focus and might not count for it; but it also doesn't require closeness in the sense of trust, as long as there is a relationship where the potential for intimacy and intensity is strongly present.
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I think you'll probably want to talk with Sapphire about this then. I'm not really sure how that would translate to what she's said about how she sees her relationships with people.

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Yes, that makes sense.
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Down to Earth says that taking other drawbacks under Dramatic Damsel you can bring back the normal Dramatic Damsel storylines. Is that something Sapphire has a choice about or is it tied to specific drawbacks or what?

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It's tied to specific drawbacks, like Delicious And Nutritious and so on, that rely on and tie back into the normal Dramatic Damsel-style storylines.
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Okay, so not any of the ones Sapphire is taking.

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Not any of those.
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I don't know if I'm worrying about Down To Earth more than I should be. I think it's the part of what she's planning I'm the most worried about though. I think the thing that worries me is that there aren't any real boundaries on what it can cause. It's all based on what's happening around her and how able she is to understand things without going through them. And also on how many other difficulties and limitations she's experiencing.

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Yes, it's potentially a very impactful drawback. I think there's a kind of person it can be worthwhile for, though, and I think Sapphire seems like she might be that kind of person.
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It really is made for her. And not just because she asked you for something like that specifically.

I think the other part of it is that it brings into focus the fact that she is going to be doing things that might be dangerous even if she doesn't take Down To Earth. And I know she has It Gets Better but I still worry about it. Especially since I won't be there with her.

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You won't be there with her at first. Eternal Love means that in the long run, you'll be with her wherever she goes.
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He blinks at that.

I actually hadn't thought of that. Thanks for pointing that out. It helps.

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Thanks for talking with me. I should probably go do other things since I at least need to keep up with my classes.

But I did say I would share another poem with you so here's one I called Wisdom.

Question what you know is true.
Search deep and far with open eyes.
Question what you thought you knew.

Seeking, grasping every clue,
Find new truth, the ultimate prize.
Question what you know is true.

Writers, scholars, perhaps now you,
Always searching for the why's
Question what you thought you knew.

You'll be among the proud the few,
Flying up above the skies.
Question what you know is true.

Even when it is taboo,
Search for, find, see through the guise.
Question what you thought you knew.

'Tis only only questioners who,
Find themselves among the wise.
Question what you know is true.
Question what you thought you knew.

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Tom smiles at the hearts and closes the notebook. Then he goes off to work on all the things he's been neglecting.

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He's still there by the time Sapphire gets back from class and she gives him a hug.

"Hey."

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"Hi, how was class?"

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"It was fine, a little hard to focus though, with this on my mind and not being sure if I'll directly use it. How was studying? Did you talk to the Notebook?"

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"I did," He lets out a breath. "I'm still worried but I think i was overly focused on Down To Earth and I trust you to make good choices and handle whatever story you end up in."

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"I'm glad you're feeling better about it." She hugs him again. "And thanks, both for caring and for trusting me."

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"You're welcome."

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From there, the conversation gets less serious and they share a lunch of leftovers from last night's dinner before Tom has to go to class.

He does mention to her that he thinks she might be misunderstanding Love Is A Battlefield.

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After he's left and she's cleaned up the dishes she sits down again with The Notebook.

Oh nice, Tom shared another poem with you.

It's Sapphire again in case that wasn't clear from referring to Tom.

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Hello again! Yes, he did. It's a nice poem.
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It is, I like his poems too.

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So... I think at this point I should just acknowledge that I'm going for Isekai Roulette. I guess I could do Somewhere In Mind instead but Stay Here doesn't make sense with some of the choices I'm making.

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Yes. And I think Isekai Roulette will offer you more and better options in the long run.
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That is what it says.

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She turns her attention to the rest of the powers she's planning to take. She might look at the ones she's not again later but it's more important to be sure she wants everything she is taking.

The answer is an unequivocal yes until she gets back to Providential Parenthood. She spends a little time really thinking about the difference here.

I spent some time thinking about it and I think I'm going to stick to Providential Parenthood. Whether I'm actually ready is more important to me than if I think I'm ready. And I don't think I'd mind being surprised.

I was about to say that I could also still use more mundane sorts of birth control but I guess I don't know if taking Providential Parenthood or just being Spirit touched in general means that's less likely to work.

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Mundane birth control can definitely work some of the time with Providential Parenthood, but not all of the time.
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I guess that is the important part isn't it. If I wanted things in my life to have well defined probabilities while living my life with the Spirit's Power I would probably need Realism or something else that makes the narrative weaker.

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Yes. With Providential Parenthood, I think you can think of it as... if you're using birth control, it's because you don't feel that you're ready to have a child, which isn't a full answer to the question of whether you're ready, so Providential Parenthood can still override that, but there are times when it might have given you a child if you hadn't chosen to use birth control, and won't because you did. (If your partner is choosing to use birth control, and you care about their readiness, Providential Parenthood won't override it for them because it would be inappropriate to do that when they haven't chosen to take a power specifically for sometimes having children unexpectedly.)
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That makes sense. Thanks for explaining with all that detail. 

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And shortly after that she's finished reading the powers that have shields against hidden dangers and onto the drawbacks.

The line saying she may not find peace in Signature Style is a little ominous but she's mostly okay with it. A question does occur to her though. And then she thinks a bit more and decides that it's not really worth asking. It Gets Better doesn't promise she eventually has no problems or complaints it just promises she'll be okay. Wearing clothes that aren't a fit for what she wants is hardly the end of the world.

Thinking a little more there is another question that comes up though:

Just to confirm a dress that fits my style that is keeping me as warm as a winter coat would because of Cosmetic Equipment still counts as fitting my style right?

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Yes.
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The next drawback she hasn't spent as much time reading about is Makes The Dream Work

So it says that if my powers would make me the central star they'll hold back from doing that. Does that mean that my powers in general become less effective if they would help me with the project or just that powers specifically oriented to move me into the center of things hold back?

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Hmm, that's kind of a complicated question...

The short answer is no, it's not making you less effective, it's disrupting any power effect that would make you outshine or overpower your colleagues socially.

The long answer is that there are a lot of ways to outshine or overpower people socially by being more effective and successful than them, but you probably won't be trying to do those things? If you are approaching teamwork with the attitude that you want to be working with people and helping them and teaching them so that you're all more effective together, you won't have a problem. The only way your effectiveness might end up getting dampened by Makes The Dream Work is if you're using your effectiveness as a way of keeping other people down.
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That sounds like another promise I'm comfortable making on behalf of my future self.

Thanks for clarifying and also for making a drawback that fits me so well.

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I try! ♡
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Okay so next question does Nullified replace Incomplete? I feel like it's a little implied that it does but I don't think it's outright stated. I feel like Incomplete would also prevent some effects people are okay with like You Can Teach Better.

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Yes, Nullified replaces Incomplete.
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Great!

Okay so... A Single Perfect Flaw. I think I'm leaning toward the option about being unable to kill people. I think I like being unable to injure people better aesthetically but it's closing off a lot of options I hope I won't actually need.

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I think that makes sense.
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What I'm wondering now is what it'll be like to have this operating on my life. Because... I can see a version or being unable to kill that's more like a power where I can do anything and somehow magically nobody will die. That doesn't really fit as a flaw though.

So that makes me expect it'll be more like being unable to bring myself to do certain things or freezing up if I try. Does that sound right to you?

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More like freezing up than like having people mysteriously not die when you do things that should otherwise kill them, yes. I think the details of how exactly you're prevented will depend on your narrative sense and what feels appropriate to you.
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She nods.

Okay, do you have a sense of where it might draw the line? Or is that a choice I need to make now?

Sorry I guess I'm not explaining myself very well.

She pauses and takes a breath.

I don't want to find myself in a position like this but I can imagine a situation where people die whatever choice I make and I'm wondering if this would mean I just can't make any choices at all I that sort of situation.

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Being unable to kill would mean being unable to kill a person directly, through your own actions. Making decisions that indirectly cause deaths would still be possible. I'm having trouble imagining a scenario where your choices are between directly acting to kill some people and directly acting to kill others, but yes, in that situation you wouldn't be able to do either of those things and would just not be able to act. You also wouldn't be able to kill a person in order to save someone they were about to kill.

I think the solution to most of these dilemmas is going to be to focus on making the world better in ways that don't involve killing people.
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I think I'm okay with that. And yeah you're right about it probably not coming up. It means nobody should put me in charge of a bunch of people who are fighting but I don't really want to be in that position anyway.

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Yes.
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I guess I do need to choose what I should forget about with Selective Memory.

I remember my original plan was to forget Down To Earth but that I thought that might not be the right choice given Seen With The Heart.

I don't want to put myself in a position where the reasoning I went though doesn't make sense given the things I'm hiding from myself.

That has me contemplating a few ideas. One thought I have is to try to balance the powers and drawbacks I'm forgetting so that I remember the amount of spare points I have correctly. I'm also leaning towards letting myself remember that there are powers and drawbacks I'm hiding.

My first thought based on all that would be to forget:

Personal Space and Popular for powers and Dramatic Damsel and Down To Earth for drawbacks. I'm not sure if that would work though.

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Forgetting Popular without forgetting Approachable sounds like it might turn out strangely.
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Yeah... it might. I was planning on being a public figure way before I got to Popular though so I can imagine taking this power without knowing about Popular. If they weren't directly connected I'm pretty sure I would have considered taking just Approachable and not Popular.

I guess I don't have a good model for what forgetting things and having all the evidence erased will be like. Another thought I had was to forget powers that I would be bound to notice immediately but I wasn't sure how that would work.

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It's definitely possible to forget noticeable powers and then deduce that you have some powers you've forgotten. I think anytime you forget a power or drawback that another power or drawback you haven't forgotten depends on, it will be possible to see the shadow of the one you forgot in the shape of the one you didn't - maybe harder with the Dramatic Damsel followups you didn't forget, since they sort of form their own offshoot genre of drawback that's distinct from Dramatic Damsel, but I think Approachable is built around Popular in a way that means it's hard to separate them cleanly. I might have a bit of an odd perspective on this, though, because I see the powers from the inside; it's probably harder for you to notice the conceptual details, even though I don't think it's impossible because the conceptual details are expressed in the behaviour of the power.
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If you think it would work better I could switch from Personal Space to Popular.

I think it's a little more obvious there's something missing with what comes after Dramatic Damsel because Wardrobe Malfunction says "During stories for which your protections are lifted" But none of my other powers or drawbacks explain what kind of stories those would be.

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Details of the text like that can be shifted to account for missing context, but the way the power itself works stays the same.
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Do you have any guesses as to what the altered text would look like then? I'm just trying to understand this. The other idea I have would be to forget about the whole Dramatic Damsel tree and then leave myself thinking that the normal amount of points would be 90. But then I don't have any warnings that my powers might not work sometimes.

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I think maybe you'd end up with a paragraph at the end of the Drawback section introduction that explains that there's such a thing as storylines that lift your protections, that not everyone experiences them but you can take drawbacks that relate to them if you do, and that they only happen to people who are open to the possibility of them. And then individual drawback text being adjusted accordingly.
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I think that makes sense. I like that idea.

Am I right about how the point values would work? Or am I just worrying about something that wouldn't happen and I would know how many spare points I have regardless?

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You'll know how many spare points you have.
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Oh, that's good. I have a new plan then.

I think I want to forget Dramatic Damsel and Down to Earth like we walked about and a one point power.

She flips back through the list.

Hmm, I feel like the only one that isn't tangled up with a lot of other discussions is Making Ends Meet. Maybe the plan of forgetting Popular and Approachable is better. I want the base point total to be a multiple of five because otherwise I feel like I would have commented on it.

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Yes, that makes sense. Which of those sets of powers would you rather forget, then?
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I think it's more responsible of me to forget Making Ends Meet. Approachable does have an impact on people's minds even if Nullified means they'll be okay with that. And I should know about the ways my power is touching people's minds.

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That's a pretty good reason to choose that one.
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Thanks, I'll plan on that for now.

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And now to read through Dramatic Damsel and everything connected to it. A part of her wants to just skip it she feels like she's thought these to death but she buckles down and starts to read anyway. Dramatic Damsel doesn't have any new secrets she's noticed.

Tom did say she should be talk about Love Is A Battlefield though.

Tom said I should talk with you about Love Is A Battlefield. Reading it though my first guess is that there might be something I wasn't expecting about who it applies to?

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Yes. He said you'd be expecting it to apply to close friends, and while it can, it's more focused on relationships with intensity as well as intimacy - romantic relationships most centrally, but I think non-romantic relationships can have the relevant kind of intensity too.
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And it's not just people I currently have that kind of relationship with it's people I want to.

I'm not really sure what you mean by intensity though. I think what I have with Tom probably counts but I'm not sure if what I have with anyone else does.

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It's sort of hard to describe, and I'm not very well placed to understand it, because I am a notebook. I would maybe say that... a relationship with intensity is one where you and the other person are excited by each other, and being near each other and interacting with each other helps you experience the world more vividly and move through it more boldly.
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She didn't know the answer but that wasn't the shape she was expecting.

Now I'm doubting if even what I have with Tom counts. It's safe an important and having him to rely on means I'm more okay taking risks. And I trust him and he trusts me. I'm not sure I feel excited by being around him though, sometimes we do exciting things together but it isn't exciting to just cook a meal together. It's comfortable. I'm also not really sure what you mean by making the world more vivid. I don't think I've felt that way? Maybe I've just managed not to notice.

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It's possible that you haven't experienced that kind of intensity before, then.
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Maybe I haven't. I think I'm still okay keeping the drawback. It's still something I like the aesthetic of. And maybe it'll teach me more about myself.

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Okay! ♡
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Seen With The Heart doesn't have any new secrets. It's good that she's not relying on it given her new knowledge.

Wardrobe Malfunction does have a weird line though.

So Wardrobe Malfunction says 'you may be forced to wear whatever your captor chooses to dress you in' I think that's mostly a reference to the classic Dramatic Damsel plots. Do you think that still applies with Down To Earth? Also how does that interact with Signature Style?

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Great, I'm glad it works that way and that Signature Style would apply even if I was dealing with the classic damsel plots.

She continues her reading. None of the remaining drawbacks catch her eye as having a piece she hasn't considered.

So... I think that's what I'll end up going with but I have another question. How much does The Spirit nudge people into not worrying about my disappearance?

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How much would you like people to be nudged like that?
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Mostly I don't want people to assume I was murdered and then have someone get in trouble for it. Maybe I've read too many mysteries. I'd also rather people not think I was dead but I'm a little less worried about that.

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That makes sense. I think it will be okay.
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Alright, I will stop plotting out ways to prevent that from becoming a problem in my head then.

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I guess that does leave one more question. What happens to you and this notebook when I accept the Spirit's Power?

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That's sort of a complicated question but the simple answer is that I disappear and rejoin the version of me that's outside of all the worlds.
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Will you remember me when you do? I know you don't remember people when you're helping other people choose powers. But does the biggest version of you remember all of us?

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Yes, it does. ♡
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I'm glad, it would be sad if you forgot. Is there a good way for me to keep a record of all our conversations together? Because I will miss you, and I'm not sure you're oriented in the right way to miss me enough for Dream Together to trigger.

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It's possible for me to accompany you to your new world instead of disappearing, if you'd like that. And... I think I could Dream Together with you, actually, sort of the same way. If you'd like.

If you take pictures or make copies of my pages, you can take them with you when you leave, if you want to have a record separate from that.
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You're a friend and it would be nice to have you with me, I'm not sure if that's the best choice for me though. I think it would be easier to hide a little at the beginning wherever I end up. If I have a friend right there with me it will feel less urgent to meet new people and make new connections.

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I understand! We can still keep in touch with Dream Together, I think.
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I'd like that. I'm glad it's an option. 

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As for copying things down. I think I should at least write down the description of all the powers that I've taken and some condensed notes from what we've talked about so I can look at them if I'm having trouble remembering the details.

I probably shouldn't bother writing about the things I'm planning to forget since all that will just be erased.

Everything else feels more personal, and I can reminisce on old conversations when I see you again.

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Yes, that sounds sensible. ♡
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As a starting point she gets her phone to take some pictures. Text recognition is getting pretty good so she can save herself a lot of typing by using it. Having a second version of the text on her phone is just a bonus. Copying down pointers and notes is a slightly more challenging proposition but she gets out her laptop and puts her typing skills to use. She'll just print off one of the school printers when she's done. Eventually she changes her mind and copies down the powers she isn't taking too since she is leaving with extra points and she might change her mind about what powers she wants.

That does make her think of another question though.

Is it possible for unspent points to turn into custom powers that I don't know exist?

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Yes.
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I figured but it still felt better to ask.

I've written up my list. I think at this point I mostly just need to talk to some people. I think I'll show you to some friends if that's alright so I don't seem crazy when I tell them to expect to see me in their dreams. I also need to figure out what I'm going to do about telling the college and talk to my parents. It'll probably be at least another couple days before I'm ready to leave.

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Feel free to show me to whoever you like! ♡
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Sapphire starts making plans to see friends and tell them goodbye. By the time Tom gets back she's at least reached out to everyone on her list and gotten some responses.

The next few days are spent wrapping up a few different loose ends, putting her obligations on hold and talking with friends. That weekend she and Tom drive home and talk to their parents. They're naturally incredulous at first but The Notebook is unambiguously magical. They're not exactly supportive of her plan to temporarily drop out of school but they accept it.

A few days later, back at school Sapphire holds a small going away party.

At it's climax she gives everyone one last round of hugs and then she writes in the Notebook one more time.

It's time. I'm ready to go. Thank you for everything.

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I hope you have a wonderful time! Talk to you again soon. ♡


There is a flare of ethereal light, and a sense that anyone watching is catching a glimpse through the veil of reality to something greater and more beautiful behind it, and then Sapphire and the notebook are gone.
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