Sapphire has gotten to the last page of her current journal so it's time to buy a new one.
She goes looking for one at a local art fair. Maybe she'll be able to find something nice.
She'll buy that one. It's a nice spring day as she walks back to the apartment she's sharing with her brother and she takes her time. When she gets home she yells a quick "Hi, before yanking off he dress and walking the rest of the way into her bedroom and hanging it up before sitting down at her desk. She writes her journal entry with a blue ballpoint pen.
New Journal. The previous one had a blue bubble texture with a red heart sticker on the front cover in the upper left corner.
The Spirit is a very different type of being from you or me. It has a lot of power but can mostly only use it in very specific ways. One of its favourite things is when people get to be special and beautiful and powerful in a feminine way, and live their best happiest lives like that, so when it sees someone who would do well with a little bit of its power to help them, it sends someone like me to give them that power. So I know that you're open to being special and beautiful and powerful and feminine, because if you weren't, the Spirit wouldn't have sent me to you. But I don't know anything else about you, because it would be pretty weird and uncomfortable to spy on people before I say hello!
But you might not like me to know a lot about you, and while I could find out whether you want me to know things without necessarily having to find out much else, I think the sort of person who's uncomfortable with me knowing a lot of things might still be uncomfortable with that. And if I have to sometimes not know things because people don't want me to know them, it's easier for me to just always not know things and get lots of practice with that situation, instead of sometimes knowing things and sometimes not.
I don't retain specific memories of my other work while I'm with someone in particular, for privacy reasons! Also because the nature of my relationship with time means there's not always a clear answer from my perspective here with you about whether I have or haven't spoken to a specific other person yet.
Hi, Tom!
I don't really know much about your specific world. I can guess some things from what it's like to be a notebook here, but there are a lot of worlds where being a notebook in them is very much like this.
Lots of other worlds exist! The structure of the multiverse is sort of hard to explain, but one way to think about it is: there are a lot of different ways that worlds can be, like being with or without magic, or with or without particle physics, or with or without time or space. There are a lot of different ways that different worlds can relate to each other, like branching timelines, or networks of worlds where it's only possible to move between adjacent ones and a lot of specific things from one world will stop working in worlds that aren't adjacent to that one, or big piles of unrelated worlds where you can move between worlds that are very different from each other just by having any way to move between worlds at all. And all those ways for things to be are all real in different places, and it's possible to move between them, if you find the right ways to travel.
The usual way these things work is that I show you the standard list of powers, and help you decide which ones you want, and if there are any that you want to change because they're not quite right I can see about alterations, and if there's anything you want that isn't on the list I can see about providing it, and I can help explain any descriptions that confuse or concern you, and I can keep track of which boxes you've checked and how much that adds up to—for convenience the powers are labeled with amounts of points, and you get 70 points to start with.
Do you want to see the list or do you want to ask more questions first?
All done!
These powers are offered under an aegis of metanarrative protection. Anytime you might expect a power to have obvious negative side effects, like glowing eyes making it harder to see, it simply won't—you'll be able to see just fine anytime it actually matters, while having dramatically hazy vision at cool, narratively appropriate moments. This doesn't apply to your own preferences about the explicitly described effects of the power; if you don't want to be Well Endowed, the metanarrative cannot protect you from choosing that option and having to live with it.
I think I mean that I should expect what happens to be more based on what makes for a good story than what I would expect from a world which runs on physics and doesn't really care about stories or people except where people try to make it care.
Is that what you mean? Can you say more about what other things you thought I might mean?
Once you accept the Spirit's power, you aren't really the sort of person who has to care about physics anymore. I mean, you are a little bit, because most worlds have physics and you're still interacting with those worlds. But powers granted by the Spirit work on a level outside of the laws of any specific world or collection of worlds, and they'll keep working even if their working means that those laws have to bend or break or just be sidestepped.
Sometimes people are worried about only existing inside of a story and not really being real, and that's not what accepting the Spirit's power is like. You're still the sort of thing that keeps existing when no one is looking. And sometimes people think that they can stop worrying about anything and just do whatever they happen to feel like in the moment and it'll all work out, and that's only complicatedly true, because while the Spirit's power can make a lot of things into good or at least reasonable ideas that are very bad ideas without it, powers granted by the Spirit care mostly about the things that the person they were granted to cares about, and people can learn to care about more things than they used to, and someone who thinks everything will work out if they just do whatever they want can end up regretting that later when they start caring about more things.
Oh, no! I'm sorry, I forgot to mention. If you check something and don't want to keep it, you can either erase the checkmark if it's erasable, or scribble it out and I'll erase it for you. Your choices aren't final until you tell me clearly that you're done deciding and want to take what you've chosen.
Alright, that's good to know.
She takes a breath and turns back to reading. She flips through to see how long the list is and pauses to look at the headers for the different sections.
In the Power of Friendship what does it mean for things to not be mind control? Does it make people do things or think things they wouldn't want to think or be surprised by in a bad way? Also what does romance mean here? I don't think I usually understand what people mean by that and it seems like it could be important.
What the description means when it says that those powers aren't mind control and aren't stopped by things that stop mind control is that they don't use any specific mechanism to change people's minds, and ways of preventing people's minds being changed by specific mechanisms won't make a difference them. The powers can still affect people's minds, and they will if necessary to fulfill their functions, though if the person with the powers is uncomfortable with changing people's minds then the powers will prefer other mechanisms where possible, and there's an option later on to turn off the mind-affecting aspects of all powers (which makes them work less well, but some people think it's worthwhile anyway).
As for romance, options referring to love or true love can apply to close intimate friendships as well as romantic relationships; does that help sort anything out?
It does thank you. Does intimate here just mean sexual or can it also mean emotionally intimate, like sharing secrets and hopes and fears type intimacy?
She can just have sex with people to make them count as intimate if she needs to but not everyone is comfortable with that.
She skips past the destination options for the moment. That needs a great deal more thought and it's a bit scary.
If I like the way my face looks already does A Hundred Ships just mean I don't need to put on makeup or worry about it getting messed up? Also, this specifically says my face; is there some other power that applies to the rest of my skin? It would be pretty weird if the rest of my skin got old and wrinkled but my face looked perfectly youthful.
The semicolon is added after the rest of the text when she reads back over her words.
The Ships powers do exert influence over the rest of your appearance so that your face doesn't look incongruous; helping your skin look nice is part of that. If you like your current face just fine, A Hundred Ships won't change it in ways that make it worse, but might make it just a tiny bit more the way you imagine it or want it to look, and will definitely help you not need to put on makeup in order to look your best. (Though if you like putting on makeup, you still can!)
I'm not sure! I think A Hundred Ships mostly won't provide the effect of actually wearing makeup, as opposed to just making your face look nice in a similar way to how makeup can make faces look nice; putting on actual makeup is more of a Dressing Room kind of thing. But if makeup is a part of your appearance that's really important to you, A Hundred Ships might be able to manage something.
She nods to herself and checks A Hundred Ships. At the very least it seems like it doesn't prevent makeup from getting dramatically messy. For this first pass she's just checking everything she thinks she might want.
Thanks, I'll look at Dressing Room when I get there.
Let me see if I remember...
Name: Severance - Cost: 2 ☐
(Requires What's In A Name)
Identities that you gravely and deliberately cast aside no longer describe you or refer to you. You cannot be traced by them or identified with them. No one will ever know that you are the same person you were once known as, unless you choose to personally tell them.
Well, for example, Well Endowed defines a specific type of figure, so if you didn't have that figure before, it would change. But then Hollow Leg lets you change it back. I think most of the appearance powers have some allowance for leaving things as they are, but you can ask me about any where you're not sure.
"I've been checking everything I think I might want but yeah that's been a lot and I don't really think night vision is that important to me."
She leaves Emerald Orbs unchecked and looks further.
I think I'll skip that one then.
What does it mean for a hairstyle to be physically impossible. Logistically impossible just sounds like something that actually I'm not sure what that would mean either. Could you explain?
Normally, in worlds that run on physics, hairstyles have to be made out of hair which is made out of the things that hair is made out of, and be possible for a person to construct using their hair and other objects made out of real substances, and behave in ways that result from the things they're made out of and the shapes they're arranged in according to the laws of physics, and appear to be consistently in the same places at the same times according to different observers. Perfect Hair removes those constraints.
"Alright." She reads through it again more slowly this time. "I think what she's saying is that it would let me have hair that defies gravity or blows in the wind when there isn't wind or looks perfect from every angle even if that would mean it looks different for different people."
"I still think I want to ask for more detail though."
Wow, that took me a while to process and I still don't think I fully understand. I think the first example that's jumping out at me would be like if I was naked my hair would let the people I wanted to see my vulva see it and make sure the people I didn't want to see it couldn't. Could I do that?
The somewhat more out there idea I had is that my hair could literally look like normal clothes so I could appear naked to some people but fully clothed to others. Would that work?
Are those examples near the limits of what it can do or am I thinking too small still?
Okay that's helpful, is the other power I would need already in the list or would I need a custom one? Also could you try to help me understand why the first one works but not the second? Is it about the hair not looking like hair or being too much unlike what hair is like?
You could probably get somewhere with Dressing Room but if you wanted your clothes to definitely be the same thing as your hair and definitely be visible to only some observers then I think I'd have to build you a custom power for it.
A set of clothes isn't a hairstyle. A hairstyle that looks a lot like a set of clothes is possible with Perfect Hair, but not a hairstyle that is a set of non-hair clothes, so observers who saw clothes-like hair would be able to tell it wasn't really clothes if they tried.
That makes sense, I don't really care about whether my clothes are also my hair but the idea of some people seeing me without clothes while other people see me as wearing them might be something I want. I think it depends on whether there's other powers that address the underlying desires better.
I have a lot of feelings around modesty and nudity that mostly amount to wishing that nudity wasn't so closely associated with sex and also relatedly that sex wasn't seen as something shameful that people have to hide or be embarrassed about.
Thank you for the explanation regarding why the second option idea doesn't work. That makes a lot of sense. I'll definitely have to come back to this but it seems like a really cool power.
She puts a check on Perfect Hair.
She takes a bit to think about this.
So I'm thinking about what I might want to use Size Difference for. The obvious one is to get my height to line up right for kisses and other bits of intimacy. That seems like it wouldn't need a dramatic moment. The more striking one that I would like to be able to do is shrink down and play with kids at their level instead of as an adult trying to squeeze into kid sized spaces. I don't know what sort of Dramatic Moment I would need to unlock that though.
The dramatic moment isn't strictly necessary; it's just that Size Difference starts out in a mode where it's trying to adjust your height in a subtle, plausibly deniable way, for situations like kisses and intimacy and reaching things on high shelves and not bumping your head on doorways, where you don't need your height to change by very much and it doesn't need to be obvious that you're doing it. When you encounter a situation where you need a more obvious height shift to do what you're trying to do, Size Difference will accommodate that, but by default it will do it in a way where it seems like you're gaining the ability to change your height for the first time in response to that situation. If you just aren't at all interested in hiding Size Difference, though, it can have its full range unlocked from the beginning.
Alright thank you.
She checks Size Difference and jots down a note that says Kid Mode next to A Hundred Ships.
She frowns at dressing room.
Would dressing room alone be enough to emulate having pockets when I'm not wearing anything? Or would I need some custom power for that? Also, does Dressing Room include purses and backpacks?
You can summon the contents of pockets, purses, or backpacks by summoning the specific pocket, purse or backpack that you carried a specific thing in, if the contents are sentimentally valuable to you or if they're what you habitually carry in that pocket, purse, or backpack. Summoning sentimentally valuable items this way is guaranteed; summoning things you habitually carry is usually possible but might fail; summoning things you've only carried once or twice and aren't attached to is much harder.
That sounds really useful. And the limitations make sense since otherwise you could just get anything with this one small power.
She checks it and moves on.
Hmm, how does always being clean and fresh interact with sex? Lube is pretty important there and also even though I've never understood it some guys really like to see their cum on your body. Same question for like massages that use oil or things like that.
I don't really have experience with that sort of thing, because I am a notebook, but my understanding is that various oils and other substances can count as clean if they are on your body because you want them to be there and they don't contain anything you find gross or unpleasant. Someone who wanted to have substances on their body but experienced those substances as yucky and unpleasant-feeling would probably find that Personal Hygiene got in their way by prioritising the desire to feel clean and nice over the desire to have stuff on them, but as long as those desires aren't in conflict there shouldn't be a problem. And besides just removing things, Personal Hygiene can also keep them clean as an extension of keeping you clean - so a piece of candy held in someone's hand wouldn't get unpleasantly sticky or melty and wouldn't pick up dirt or lint from the environment, for example.
Oh wow, that's really convenient. I think that would probably close off some options for me but I think it sounds worth it.
She checks the box.
For Like Roses is my scent always exactly the same or can it have like layers. Like just normally, I smell a little different when I'm aroused and a lot different if I've just had a bunch of sex though maybe Personal Hygiene would already reduce that. Would those kind of changes still happen?
... Also I'm just realizing some people are uncomfortable talking about sex. It doesn't seem like you're one of them but I can be more circumspect if you would prefer that.
Like Roses definitely allows your signature scent to encompass subtle changes for different circumstances, like mood or recent activity, though the base scent will be very stable.
I don't mind the way you talk about sex; I'm only as hesitant about it as I am about any other experience that I can't really relate to, like eating. Well, maybe a bit extra hesitant because I know it's a delicate subject for a lot of people and I don't feel confident navigating that.
She turns back to the notebook and checks Like Roses.
She checks Just A Little Longer and Immunity System without questions. And then she rethinks things for a moment.
With Immunity System do I have control over how much alcohol and such impacts me or is it just that it protects me at the point that it gets dangerous?
"If you were just planning to be a mostly unremarkable person then no it wouldn't be but you've just said you're planning to be a public figure. That means constantly being bombarded by thousand or millions or maybe even billions of people's thoughts. Would you even be able to sleep? Would people's disapproval, and you know many people would disapprove, erode your confidence? Please don't do this to yourself."
"You're right... maybe there's some way to focus or control it but without that you're right it's too much."
She pauses to think about why she wants this. It's about being able to reach people and avoid making bad assumptions about their thoughts and feelings. Is there anything else in the power that appeals? Well there's the side benefit of being able to know who's trying to oppose her efforts and also the benefit of knowing when people are hiding near her. She can see a lot of ways it could be useful actually but only if its more flexible than it sounds like.
How controllable is My Ears Are Burning? I feel like a lot of parts of it could be useful but I think a lot of my plans end up with me being at least somewhat famous and if I can't ignore some of the impact of that this would probably make me really unhappy.
My Ears Are Burning is only really good for some specific kinds of person and if you think you aren't one of them I think you're probably right. You can't control it or turn it off; you can think your normal thoughts and pay normal amounts of attention to other things, but you can't go back to not knowing what people are thinking about you and you can't really not pay attention to it, not fully.
I think I'll skip this one then.
She quietly checks Well Endowed considering a more generous figure a price well worth paying for resolving one of the lingering issues she has with nudity.
She smiles widely upon reading Hollow Leg since it removes that cost. She checks that too and adds the note of Kid Mode remembering the Notebook's earlier comment.
Then she gets to Inner Strength.
How strong does Hollow Leg make me? Could I carry someone else like I could a kid or would I need Inner Strength to be able to do that?
Okay, I think I might have just asked wrong. I'm pretty sure firefighters can carry most people if they need to. Maybe they need help for unusually heavy people and it probably isn't as easy as doing that with a child but they can do it. I think that's enough strength for what I want.
Are there other reasons I might want Inner Strength beyond being really strong? I think it also talked about toughness and provided an example there but it didn't explain as well about endurance.
Inner Strength mostly makes it that endurance isn't an issue for you anymore. Since you have to go so far to strain yourself, and your endurance is enhanced on top of that, most people with Inner Strength don't feel fatigue from exertion ever again unless they're working long hours doing the kinds of things construction equipment is for.
That still sounds worth it. She checks the box. Lightfoot is interesting. She's sure there's a lot of people who would see this as their absolute favorite power it doesn't quite feel like her though.
She crinkles her nose in response to the battle powers. Those also really don't feel like her but she's not sure if she should be taking them anyway.
Is there any sort of power that would help me avoid fights instead of winning them? It feels like the battle powers would keep me safer and help me a lot if I was getting into fights but that doesn't really sound like something I would want to do.
Some of the Powers of Friendship later on make it less likely for people to try to fight you, and there are powers for being safe from certain kinds of things, but if you wanted to be safe from ever getting into fights at all I think I'd need to make you a custom power for that.
Alright then, please do that for a power about avoiding fights.
While we're talking about you, is there anything I could be doing to meet your needs better here or just make this a more enjoyable experience for you?
My brother and I have been talking with each other about powers for example would you like it if I copied those exchanges down for you? Or would you like to take breaks sometimes? I haven't met any talking notebooks before so I'm not sure what kinds of things you might want.
Okay, I will!
I don't need breaks, but I would like it if you copied down what you and your brother have been saying about the powers! That sounds like it would make it easier for me to help you.
If you want to do something nice for me personally, though, I always like it when someone copies a poem into me. Poetry is really pretty.
She flips back through the pages and thinks.
It looks like I mentioned a lot of what we talked about. I didn't really explain why I like "Like Roses" I think that might make people remember me better and if I'm doing things right relax more when I'm around just because of how important smell is to memory for a lot of people.
I also don't think I explained some things about how I'm choosing powers. I definitely said some of this to Tom but maybe not all of it.
I'm trying to choose powers that let me be more myself than I could be without them, that's why I asked so many questions about whether powers would force me to change things. At the same time I'm also picking powers that might be able to help me convince other people of some of the things I really believe in. Especially the way people think about sex and their bodies.
I'm also trying to err on the side of checking things I might want instead of leaving things unchecked.
I think the only other thought that I didn't tell you about is that Lightfoot sounds like something a lot of people would really like but it doesn't really sound like I want it. Maybe I'm getting hung up on the really extreme parts of it and I would like the more low-key parts though. Does Hollow Leg help at all with balance?
I like the idea of being a bit better at dancing and things like that but I'm not really sure I need grace to be a part of who I am forever. And maybe there's existing powers that do that. I generally like to see more options though. If toned down versions of powers are a thing would it be possible to get a version or Inner Strength that's toned down too? I don't really want to be as strong as construction equipment.
She looks over the money powers and checks Making Ends Meet but not the other two.
I think I mostly have inexpensive tastes and I don't really want to bribe people into doing what I want. Depending on Isekai Roulette it might make sense to take motherlode if I might end up in a world where people are a lot worse off than they are here.
She continues.
I don't think I want the heritages power, it feels like that's about changing me into something other than who and what I am so I can fit into new places.
She checks Omniglot.
I think I'm starting from the examples in the name. I don't really want to be a dragon or an elf or a fairy or even a witch. Maybe I'm not thinking broadly enough but every example I can think of would be a way of changing myself to be more like some other type of person. If I became a witch, in theory that just gives me more options but it also pulls my focus in a new direction.
I think...
If it's important to you to definitely keep experiencing the world the same way you do now, then Dragon Fairy Elf Witch is not the power for you. Dragon Fairy Elf Witch is about new options and new powers and new ways of being.
But I think a lot of people see Dragon Fairy Elf Witch not as making them less themselves, but as letting them explore different ways to be themselves. Travelling the multiverse, it's possible to meet someone who is the person you would have been if you had been born a dragon; some people like to experience what it's like to be that version of themselves, even if they never meet them.
I might come back to this later and change my mind but I think for now it doesn't sound like what I want. Right now it sounds like it's a path towards a different story than the one I want to live.
Hmm, next is Anything You Can Do.
This feels too strong and too absolute to me. It feels, I was going to say like a way to grow past people but it doesn't do that I guess. I still feel like if I become as good as everyone I care about at the things they care about really fast that it would be easy for that to push us apart instead of bringing us together. I'm not sure exactly how to fix that though. The part about rivals feels especially weird.
She reads Personal Space... she wants that, she wants that quite a bit... but there's a sense in which it feels unfair.
I'm having a lot of feelings about personal space. It feels like something I would really like but it also feels kinda unfair for me to have it. Because I'm trying to convince people to be more comfortable with themselves and less afraid and if I have this I don't have reasons to be afraid but the people I'm trying to convince do.
Directly isn't quite the right word for it; it's more like, if someone is trying to use telepathy to read your mind, or a truth potion to make you tell them your secrets, or future-sight to find out how to get you to do what they want, then they're trying to get at the inside of your head more directly than they should be able to, and it won't work.
That makes sense.
She looks at those a little longer and notices that Iron Will requires both as prerequisites so she reads that too.
So, Iron Will says that it works on a case by case basis. Does that mean I need to allow something everytime or can I let it work more automatically than that and be more about the kind of thing I'm okay with?
That's a really good way for powers to work.
She checks the entire set of mind powers and then moves on. She also checks It Gets Better and The Great Equalizer. That last one is especially expensive but it feels right.
And then she's onto power of friendship.
She's also at 62/70 points so she's either going to need to cut a lot or take a lot of drawbacks. Speaking of drawbacks...
I remember you saying that there were options that made these powers not change people's minds in ways they're not okay with. Could you highlight those for me so I can keep them in mind?
She looks through the power of friendship and doesn't find them.... which means. Yes! They're drawbacks. She laughs happily. If she's going to protect herself from having her mind changed in ways she doesn't want it's only fair that she doesn't change other people's minds in ways they don't want.
She checks both of them and flips back to the start of the friendship powers.
She holds the idea of mysterious allure in her mind for a moment. Does she want to always be the most interesting person in the room? She feels like it would be useful sometimes to hold people's attention but it would also make it harder to help people who are on the edges of a party and not enjoying themselves.
If she wasn't already so high on points. No that's silly if she starts thinking that way she's going to end up with earlier powers even if she likes later powers better the amount of points doesn't matter yet.
I'm not sure about Mysterious Allure. I feel like that might make it harder to help people who are feeling left out if I'm usually the center of attention. Is that something that the metanarrative protection would help with or should I just not take this one? Also... I'm realizing that this would apply when I'm shopping or doing other mundane things and that doesn't sound enjoyable. I think I've mostly talked myself out of this but I'm curious about your thoughts.
Yes, Captive Audience helps a lot with teaching.
With Nullified, Captive Audience has much subtler effects. You can get more of an effect by explaining to people what the power does and asking if they want to participate, or by taking They'll Know—They'll Know lets people opt in to power effects like that more automatically, without you having to individually explain.
She draws a little thumbs up under the Notebook's response and then checks Captive Audience.
She has no interest in Blackout Binge. She wonders what would make that appeal to someone. Maybe somebody who feels like people are always blaming them for things that aren't their fault or has crippling social anxiety.
Disney Princess isn't quite her thing but it's cute enough that she'll give it a check anyway.
She pauses at Best Friend and Bestest Friend. Does she want these? She's leaning towards no. She knows people who get really attached to pets but that hasn't really happened for her so far. And a magical companion is very much changing the genre of her life again.
Of the "your friends" powers the two that appeal to her are Cuddle Buddies and Quality Time.
For the powers like Cuddle Buddies do they do anything to help me be the sort of person that someone would want to cuddle with? Or are they only acting on other people and the world around us?
They're pretty open about how they accomplish their goals, so if you prefer that they help you be someone that other people want to cuddle with rather than making sure you meet cuddly people or encouraging people to be more cuddly, they can do that!
Not like other girls is... she can see how that would be important for a lot of people but she doesn't think she wants that. It feels like that would get in the way of trying to convince people to change society. She thinks briefly about whether a power like this would let her go places where she's supposed to wear clothes without wearing them but the Notebook is already making her a custom power that might help with that.
She doesn't need people to reciprocate feelings she mostly doesn't have.
Time Enough For Love is incredible. Is there anyone who doesn't take that? She checks it.
Wow, Time Enough For Love isn't something I would have thought to ask for but it sounds amazing. Can you tell me more about how it works?
To start with, it just stretches time a little while you're hanging out with someone in a way that's about wanting to be close to them, or get to know them, or enjoy your closeness, that sort of thing. You still get tired if you spend a long time like that, but you'll find that you have more time than you expected, and if there's somewhere you need to be afterwards, you're mostly on time to get there. When you have more people you want to hang out with like that, you eventually start being able to spend time with two different people in two different places at what would normally be the same time, and you and your friends don't get tired as much when you're together.
Oh wow, if it makes you less tired that's even better.
She's not sure if she needs Safe At Home but she can think about that later it's definitely something she would want to have if she had spare points so she checks it.
I Can Fix Them and I Can Help Them seem pretty good as well she thinks she prefers I Can Help Them though.
What does the power mean by "Your Love" in I Can Fix Them and I Can Help Them?
That makes sense, I think it would be something I would need to think about carefully for each person.
Could you explain a bit more about how they're different? They have the same language about my love helping people but they seem focused on very different things. Is that a real difference in what they can help with or is the difference more in how the explanation is focused but they can help with the same things?
The definition of better is a complicated one, but it's shared with I Can Fix Them and I Can Help Them. It has to do with what they want and what you want and what they're okay with and what you're okay with and what lets them lead a happy life without hurting people.
It's not a guarantee with Nullified; most things that guarantee things about how people will change or react aren't guarantees anymore with Nullified.
If your goal is to help people, I Can Help Them is probably a better fit than Inspirational; Inspirational is made in a bit of a weird shape. It's hard to describe what's strange about it, but it's not as well suited to helping people as the other two.
Maybe I'm just using help more broadly but I feel like inspiring people is usually a nice thing to do for them. Especially if it only works when they're okay with it. I'm less sure about the people regretting hurting me and people I care about specifically. Is that what you mean by it being a strange shape?
Yes, that's a big part of the strange shape. It doesn't do nearly as much inspiring as the points would usually indicate because a lot of that power is going into trying to make sure that specifically people who have hurt you or your loved ones get inspired as hard as possible. I might be able to make a variant that was better for your purposes, but especially with Nullified toning it down, I don't think it would be enough better to be worth taking on top of I Can Help Them unless you really really care a lot about having that kind of effect on as many people as possible.
"Yeah, that's a good point."
She adds a note
Note to self: Maybe ask about a more purely inspirational version if I have points.
True Love's Kiss and Eternal Love are both very good. She checks them both.
The Rescuer is not what she was thinking about doing with her life but there is a pull to it. She checks the box and writes a note.
The Rescuer would be the kind of thing I could build my life around but it would also be the sort of thing that would shape my life around it. Not a casual choice.
Oh, I think I understand now. You just confirmed a little while ago that these powers are a part of me but I think the wording of this power made me forget that. Of course my definition of being ready includes whether my partners are okay with becoming parents. And the power works on my understanding of what ready means at least in large part. Does it sound like I'm understanding correctly now?
Yes, I think so!
I think the only reason it would make sense to want a version of the power that explicitly took your partners' preferences into account would be if you expected your future self to care less about that than you do now, and wanted to make sure that in that case you still wouldn't end up having children that your partners wouldn't want you to have with them. But I think that if you expect your future self to care less about other people than you do now, and you want to make sure that in that case you won't end up doing things that the you of now would disapprove of, becoming really powerful might just be a bad idea in general.
Thank you. It helps that I'm imagining myself having powers like It Gets Better and Iron Will but I think I trust myself even without those.
I'm interested in the difference between Two Become One and Laugh Together. They sound very different but from other pairs of powers I expect them to be pretty similar.
They're more like two different approaches to the same problem. A lot of people have strong feelings about their intimate moments and want them to happen just right and get upset when they don't, or are anxious about their partners feeling that way. Two Become One solves this by making sure that things happen the right ways; Laugh Together solves it by making it easier to take difficulties and mishaps in stride.
That makes sense. Thanks for explaining.
She checks Laugh Together and then since she apparently forgot to Providential Parenthood. She goes ahead and also checks Bop It for good measure.
I feel like for having sex with humans I wouldn't need Princess and the Dragon. That sounds like it's more something for interacting that way with really different kinds of people. Am I understanding that correctly?
It would have to be, even this one universe is bigger than I can really wrap my head around. I think I'm having a hard time wrapping my head around all these new types of people I might meet so for the moment I'm going to leave this unchecked.
This does make me wonder a little if I should rethink Dragon Fairy Elf Witch but I don't think I'm going to do that right now.
That makes sense! Those powers might be something you'll want after years and years of wandering the multiverse and meeting new kinds of people, but it can be hard to get a sense of how much you'll want them without wandering the multiverse meeting new kinds of people for a while first.
If you're still having a hard time deciding by the time you finalize your choices, you could leave points open for them without taking them. That way, if you do grow into someone who would really benefit from those powers, they will probably develop, and if not, the unrealized potential of those points will be waiting to form different powers for you if you ever really need them.
That's a lot of points to leave open but I guess I'll have to see what things look like after thinking about things more.
GGG is another power that's for people different than she is.
Before Your Eyes is... intriguing.
I have a thought about using Before Your Eyes to help people do the things that they want to do but can't quite convince themselves to. It looks like that's within the letter of the power but I'm wondering if that's stretching it. My expectation is that centrally this is about people doing things I would find arousing.
Fated Lovers focuses on people you could have close, emotionally intimate, long-term relationships with, and keeps providing more until you're fully satisfied in that area, then rests for as long as you're satisfied. Fated Friends isn't as narrowly focused and will look for any social relationship that would benefit you, and it never fully stops working, only slows down somewhat when you're more socially saturated.
If you have both then they can work together to bring you more and better-quality social connections, but you might also find that you end up with too many good social connections and have to prioritize. Time Enough For Love helps a lot but even with Time Enough For Love some people prefer to spend only a certain amount of their time on social relationships and combining Fated Friends with Fated Lovers will generally leave you with more social relationships than that.
That makes sense. Thanks for explaining.
I think from that it sounds like I probably want to choose and the choice is between fewer deeper connections or a larger number with greater breadth in the type of connections. I think I'm currently leaning towards the larger number.
She checks Fated Friends.
The perks for being forgiven for unkindness don't appeal to her.
Sense of Style seems entirely unappealing, at least before reading Bonus Style Points.
Would it be possible to get something like Bonus Style Points that isn't focused around people looking good for me but instead more centrally about being themselves?
Thanks, I'm glad I'm understanding things.
She keeps reading next up is Self-Reflection
Are there worlds where I'm likely to run into more people who are me? Or worlds where I would end up making more of myself or something like that? This feels a lot more specific than most powers.
Great.
The next power is Undiplomatic Immunity. She thinks about it for a moment but if she wants to change society being immune to the law isn't precisely counter-productive but it feels weird. She skips that one. The Friends in places powers she checks.
"On to drawbacks then."
Decorative would separate her from other people in a way that feels uncomfortable.
Beauty Is A Curse feels like it would be grating. If she really needs one point she might consider it but for the moment she's not checking that.
Plain Jane feels like a trap... it actually feels really out of character for the Notebook.
I'm confused by Plain Jane being here I don't understand who would take that unless they didn't understand what it would do to them and that feels out of character for The Spirit.
It's good that you try to warn people.
Style of Sisyphus again doesn't appeal. She's especially worried that it would rewrite her opinions on nudity.
There's Another one feels like something she needs to consider more but it feels like it's at least a strong possibility. She checks it.
Great Responsibility is the same kind of thing as My Ears Are Burning but it is more specific. Maybe it's okay?
She looks over at Tom.
Home means this world, the one you're starting in, and Secret Identity would suppress Very Distinctive along with everything else because it's an outwardly apparent power. But people who knew you at home would still recognize you elsewhere once Very Distinctive was operating again.
"Agreed."
I don't think I would want to consider The Veil unless I choose Stay Put then.
She checks Selective Memory
Dramatic Damsel is not appealing.
The next three are... just terrible.
Does The Crazy Train override Providential Parenthood's guarantee about not having children unless I'm ready for them?
I think that's at least worth considering then. Thank you.
She checks that and after reading it They'll Know. Realism doesn't interest her even if it's a lot of points, I Can Help Them is close to the core of what she wants and taking a drawback that explicitly says it makes it harder to use isn't appealing.
I think that's the first pass done. Is there anything about my initial list that you think it would be good for me to think about?
It looks like you've checked some powers that you weren't sure you wanted; are you going to think about those next and decide whether you want them?
Also, I'm still working on the custom powers you've asked for; some of them are pretty tricky. You might want to keep in mind that there are more powers coming while you think about what your list looks like right now.
Yeah, I might take a bit of a break first though. Try to get fresh eyes on things. I'll try to find you a poem or two to read in the meantime.
Thanks for working on coming up with those custom powers for me.
I think I'm going to play some games with my brother to try to take my mind off things, if you'd like I think some of the games we like would be possible to include you in if you'd like to play.
Alright, I think a good place to start is a game called Rolf. I'll go grab the cards and then we can get started.
She walks off and then comes back.
So, the way this game works is that there are cards. On the front of the card is a letter or letter pair in this case B and word that starts with those letters in this case Bucket. On the back of the card are two phrases in this case "Kick the bucket." and "There's a whole in my bucket." The current reader picks one of those phrases and then we all try to come up with more words that starts with B to replace Bucket with.
Whoever comes up with the funniest or coolest idea gets the card and we keep playing until we get bored or run out of cards. Does that make sense?
So say I'm the reader and I pick the second phrase "Kick the bucket"
Some possible substitutions would be: Banana, Building, Beehive, Bread, Ballista, Bra, Bricks, Beach, and Bridge. Of those I think "Kick the Bra" sounds funniest because it sounds to me like it's suggesting a bra is a bad habit or something to gripe about. But maybe you would like a different one of those words or have a word of your own which you thought was funnier or cooler.
I'm rolling my eyes. Anyway... My turn.
P, Problem, "Houston we have a problem."
Since you're not from our world you might not know the context so I'll explain. Huston is a city where the mission control was for some of our country's first space missions including the first time people from our planet visited the moon. Huston we have a problem was what the astronauts said when there was a serious issue on their mission.
Alright, I'll do that. Let me know if you change your mind. Anyway that's two points for you Notebook.
It's your turn again.
The card is P, Peppers, And either "Peter Piper picked a peck of pickles peppers" or "The Red Hot Chili Peppers"
The first is a tongue twister, something it's hard to say quickly. The second is the name of a band.
Alright, for bliss. I don't have a clear image in mind for what it would mean. If I were to make one up it's getting the most out of relaxing. Which is a bit of a silly idea in some ways.
For brother there's two ways to take it. Either getting more bang in exchange for your brother's efforts or in the more exaggerated version in trade for having a brother at all. The other way is getting more bang to give to your brother. The second one is why Tom was asking if it was a joke about his sex life since sometimes people call having sex banging.
For Birthday, Tom was referencing fireworks as something that literally bangs but it could also be interpreted as getting a bigger celebration or more gifts for someone's birthday, the anniversary of their birth which is something we celebrate in our culture.
Does that help?
They can play a few more rounds like this and eventually come to a stopping point.
Thanks for playing with us. We're going to go get lunch now.
Before we go here's a poem for you.
When we care
we forget
our beloved can
and must
make mistakes.Hold too tightly
and love
withers.Offer a touch
and love
surges.
She squeezes him tighter for a moment and takes a deep breath. "I see why people would take the option to leave if they wanted a fresh start. I think another reason might be that people want to explore and see things that they can't find here in this world. Hmm, I wonder if I'm still missing something What was it the Notebook said at the very beginning... something about making people beautiful and powerful?"
"Right, beautiful and powerful and special. I think If you combine that with the talk about stories and metanarrative... it's about making yourself the protagonist... and probably not just of your personal story but of a lot of the stories around you. And if you take that framing... I think probably at least some people want to save the world. And they think the powers the Notebook offers aren't enough to do that so they have to go out and get more."
"If I can... could I live with myself if I chose not to?" She sighs. "I don't know. I don't even know if the world needs that kind of saving. I can't really picture how one person saves the world. There's no sky beam that needs to be shut down to fix things. It's all just people. People with their own reasons for doing things that hurt the people around them and usually themselves. People doing what the world told them to do."
"I think... if you had the right magic or technology you could fix climate change even without anyone else helping. And with enough power you could make people do what you say or make changes unilaterally. That isn't how you tend to think about problems and I agree with you that it's usually not a great way to think about problems. Maybe this is an exception though. I don't know."
Okay!
By the way, I've been working on those custom powers and I have drafts for a few of them. (I'm still working on the tweak to Bonus Style Points... it's a tricky one!)
Name: Undressing Room - Cost: 3 ☐
(Requires Dressing Room)
The question of what clothes you are wearing no longer has a specific well-defined answer, but depends on the interactions you're having and how you prefer to be clothed for the purpose of those interactions. You could walk into a room and sit down in a chair, and be naked to all the people in the room but wearing underwear from the perspective of the chair; you could attend a fancy ball and be wearing a fancy ballgown to most people, but let your friends see you in a banana costume instead; you could let someone's hands pass through clothing that their eyes can still see. It may take some practice to become well-attuned to your new sense of how each person and object you interact with is perceiving your state of dress, but you'll always be able to tell if you take a moment to wonder.
Name: Pacifist - Cost: 6 ☐
Fights don't happen to you. Any violent conflict you might otherwise get into is either avoided by coincidence, or replaced with a yelling match, game, contest, race, or dance battle, whichever is most appropriate to the situation. Powers you have that give you advantages in fights also apply to fight replacements.
Name: Reaching Out - Cost: 4 ☐
(Replaces Before Your Eyes)
Your presence is a catalyst that encourages people to let go of preconceptions and constraints and have the courage to try things that they might like even if they're new or unfamiliar or scary. However that turns out, it will ultimately help those people understand themselves and their desires, and won't do lasting damage physically, emotionally, or socially to anyone involved.
Sapphire takes over the seat at the desk and reads through the new powers carefully.
I love Reaching Out. That's near the core of my ideal image of what I want my life to be. I'm curious how it's impacted by nullified though especially the part about not doing lasting damage.
Nullified does make that part slightly less effective, but there are a lot of ways to make sure something doesn't hurt people that don't involve affecting their minds directly. And many people approve of being helped in that way, so in that case Nullified won't be a problem.
That makes sense thanks.
Undressing room is basically exactly what I was picturing and I like it a lot. It does make me think back on choosing Crazy Train though. I think having control over what I'm wearing or not wearing is important to me and I don't have a good sense of what it would mean for that to be controlled by the narrative instead. Is there more you could tell me about what I might expect there?
Most likely you would usually end up wearing what you wanted to wear anyway, but sometimes the narrative might choose to show someone an unexpected banana costume if there was a good reason, and sometimes you might try to change your outfit and end up in something different from what you imagined. The narrative does still want you to have nice things, but it also wants to make a good story.
Thanks for explaining I'll have to think about that some more.
She checks Undressing Room and Reaching Out.
I'm not as sure about Pacifist. Specifically, the replacement part feels discordant. As one example, if the other person's goal is to hurt me I can't really imagine agreeing to sit there and endure it just because I didn't dance well enough.
If someone wants to hurt you when you don't want to be hurt, that seems like the kind of conflict that ends up avoided by coincidence, since even if you had a dance battle about it, them wanting to hurt you when you don't want to be hurt would still count as a violent conflict afterward.
Huh, I didn't think it would work that way. The other scenario coming to mind would be some sort of protest. I think that protests getting violent is usually a matter of small things snowballing though so it makes sense if coincidence management could prevent that. Hmm, what else? If I went somewhere where there was a war happening would I just be steered away from anywhere where an actual battle was happening or would actual battles start getting replaced like that?
I'm having a hard time imagining situations where people care enough for something to normally be a fight but not enough to turn it into a fight when they lose. I guess this would mean I mostly meet people who care a lot about keeping their promises?
Yes, the results of Pacifist could look pretty strange in some of those situations. It's a new power, so I'm not exactly sure how to expect it to come out. I think it will mostly steer you away from battles, but if you were determined to interfere in battles then they could start being replaced by other things.
My best advice for asking about custom drawbacks is to think of things that other people might find inconvenient that you would mind much less than they would, particularly things involving... this can be a little tricky to describe... do you see how a lot of the existing drawbacks are sort of, the same kind of specialness that the powers are built around, but running wild and getting into trouble instead of channeled nicely into doing only good things? Does that make sense?
Yes, or they express something similar to what a power expresses, but an inconvenient overabundance of it. Or they change the balance of the powers' autonomy compared to yours in using them.
Oh, I think I've found you that power you were looking for a moment ago!
Name: Cotton Candy - Cost: 3 ☐
(Requires Disney Princess)
The sharp edges of the world are blunted around you. That's not to say that nothing bad can happen, but that the worst things happen a lot less often, and happy endings large and small are much easier to come by. This effect can ripple outward to improve the lives of people you've never met.
That would be great. Thank you.
She starts her examination from the top noting down little bits about her thoughts though not precisely transcribing them as she goes.
A Hundred Ships is something she likes the idea of having, of remaining recognizably herself even as she gets older and not needing to worry about anything of that sort. It isn't quite important enough for a plus though.
What's In a Name is actually of a similar level, she is Sapphire and the idea of some sort of magic asserting as a definitive fact that that's not her name bothers her more than she would have thought before today.
Severance can just get unchecked. She doesn't actually want to run from her past that much or that hard.
Angelic Tones could help with public speaking, and that isn't that important to her. She starts to put down a minus but them rethinks, it isn't as practical but the idea of being able to sing any song and be fully confident in the beauty of her voice is a lovely notion. She'll leave it as neutral for the moment.
Emerald Orbs still isn't appealing. Especially with the added complication of Crazy Train.
Perfect Hair actually gets a minus. Everything she wanted from it is better handled by Undressing Room. In theory it removes some options but it's not that big of a deal.
Size Difference is another one that almost gets a minus but on second thought doesn't it isn't very practical but the thought of kid mode appeals pretty deeply to her, of not standing above people but meeting them on their level. There's something very important about that if not quite important enough for a plus.
Dressing Room and Undressing Room get a plus. The thought of being free from the feeling of clothes on her skin all the time is very enticing and even with Crazy Train she expects her appearance won't be too far from what she's okay with.
Personal Hygiene is also very nice. No need to get sweaty or dirty and another obstacle to full-time nudity removed.
Like Roses gets a minus. It's just not important and she's pretty sure dressing room can do perfume if she needs it to.
Just A Little Longer is something she can imagine being useful but especially if she takes Inner Strength below it isn't as important. Minus... On second thought though, it is one point and doesn't come with the whole become a superhero thing she feels weird about. She'll leave it at minus for now.
Immunity System feels a normal amount of important. It's not like she gets sick that much as it is.
My Ears are Burning retains the very good arguments against it.
Well Endowed and Hollow Leg get pluses. They're necessary for what she wants out of Size difference and also just lovely for other reasons and they give her most of what she wants from Inner Strength without the weird bits.
Inner Strength accordingly gets a minus.
Lightfoot still feels wrong. Thinking about why actually makes her fully uncheck Inner Strength. She just doesn't want to succeed by being physically more capable than other people she wants to succeed by understanding other people and convincing them to believe in her vision or build a better vision by working together with them. She actually underlines that when she writes it down because it feels very important.
That same argument keeps the battle powers unchecked.
Thinking about that more...
I wonder if there's a way to turn that insight into a drawback. That idea that I can only succeed as part of a group and not by individually being stronger than everyone around me? That feels like the sort of thing that could be a drawback. It's a pretty big tradeoff though, I'm not completely sure I'd take it.
Oh, interesting! Let me think about that...
Well, I started thinking about that, and I got a little distracted, and then I got an update to the list! Would you like me to add in all the new powers and drawbacks so you can see them? There's quite a few.
My relationship with time is definitely relevant to the way list updates work; I usually don't get them while I'm speaking to someone, although I sometimes reach out to try to create a new power and discover that I already have. I guess I'm not sure what you mean by "coming into play", though?
Oh! Yes, it would not be meaningfully accurate to say that there's some specific person or people that I was talking to "at the same time" that I've been talking to you, that the updated list entries came from. If it was like that, then you would be getting new list entries trickling in slowly as I invented them.
That actually makes a lot of sense.
Alright, I had just gotten to Inner Strength and Light Foot in my look over. I guess I'll start by checking if there's anything that got added above them.
She goes to do that and starts writing again at the first one she finds.
Perfect Nails is new. I hadn't thought about needing a power for that. I'm now wondering if I can manage without that. It feels like I would mostly want it to stop nail polish from being chipped or my nails from breaking at relatively conservative lengths and I'm not sure if a whole power is something I'd need for that.
Yes, I don't think you would need a power for that. Perfect Nails is more for if it's important to you to have the shape and decoration of your nails be fluidly responsive to your preferences in the same way as other appearance powers like Emerald Orbs. (Dressing Room and Undressing Room can also be used to redecorate your nails without reshaping them, similarly to how they can redecorate your hair without reshaping it.)
Pocket Dimension is sort of the result of a tendency for people to stretch Dressing Room in the direction of being an inventory management power when Dressing Room is really not an inventory management power at heart. It has a lot more (and more reliable) inventory management capabilities because it's directly meant to be used that way.
Okay, that makes sense. I don't think I want to push it to it's limits but reliability sounds good and I am planning to use that ability.
That gets a check, it doesn't warrant an full plus.
Hmmm, Breath Easy seems like a power for somebody who is having a very specific kind of adventure. On the other hand it's a prerequisite for Warmhearted and being able to be comfortable no matter the temperature sounds really nice. I think dressing and undressing room already help with that a bunch but it's worth at least a minus for each.
She goes ahead and marks that.
"There's something about a lot of these, when you were talking about Dragon Fairy Elf Witch you said you didn't want to become something wholly other than yourself and I don't think these powers exactly do that, but being able to walk through a hurricane naked in perfect comfort isn't the sort of option you would have had before and I think a change that dramatic will have an impact."
"That... is a good point." She copies down his words for the notebook.
I think Tom does have a point here. I'm not sure it's enough for me to change any of my choices. Actually I think I'll take these and immunity system down to a minus. I think it's true that what's possible for you changes how you approach things. I know that's true of money and disabilities so it makes sense that it's also true of powers like these.
Yes, that makes sense...
I almost wonder if that could be the basis for a drawback, actually? I'm not sure, it's not quite holding together, but I'm imagining something like Dramatic Damsel except focused on narrative opportunities to understand someone else's perspective.
That sounds like something I might want. I guess I'm already considering Crazy Train but maybe something like that which can also reduce the effectiveness of other sorts of powers when it fits. I'm not sure if I'd really want that to require Crazy Train but it feels like it's in the same sort of direction.
Thanks!
Hmm, Soundtrack seems like it's more in this vein but it's more subtle and anything that makes it easier to understand people and the world around me is tempting. It doesn't really seem like there's any other powers as proactive as this for that. Well, I guess the friends in places powers. But those are in a different direction.
That is what I meant yes. I don't think that's all it does but it seems like it might help with things like the problem of tone being unclear in text communication or people who are masking effectively. The other useful thing would be signalling me about things I wouldn't have another way of knowing about. I think I've argued myself into it being at least neutral.
Yeah... I think I'll actually make it a plus on second thought.
She marks that down.
Star Stuff, probably unsurprisingly isn't for me.
Hmm, next is a review.
I'm not sure about Making Ends meet. For now I'll demote it to minus. I think a lot depends on whether I expect to need it.
Omniglot gets a plus. For the above reasons about helping me understand people. I do actually have a question though... If someone thinks a word means something different than what most people think it means do I get what they think it means or what most people think it means?
It definitely gets a plus then. I guess backchannel could also help with that kind of thing but the way this works all the time is great.
I'll leave Anything You Can Do at check. It has a lot of potential but I don't know how important it is to me.
Snowglobe and Unleash the Magic both look new. I'm... not really sure about these. I think my concern is similar to the heritage one but less so since it's less deep. I think I'll mark all three with a question mark as something to consider later.
Soulbound is strange. I don't know how much it would do for me. I'm already planning to get Pocket Dimension and that lets me recover sentimental items. I guess the thing about electronics staying magically charged might be helpful but I'm not sure if I'm attached enough to my electronics for them to qualify.
If I do decide to leave I think I want some way of keeping it touch with Tom and maybe other people that's more reliable than the vague promise of Eternal Love. I'm not sure if this is the best choice to do that. I might find a new power below or ask for a custom power instead. I'll give it a question mark for the moment. Do you know if there's other options or have any ideas about what a custom power for that would look like?
Hmm, what feels unreliable about Eternal Love? What would make it more reliable?
There's a power later on for keeping in touch with people, but it only applies to people who are you... something like that might also work for keeping in touch with your loved ones, though, I'm not sure. I'll think about it.
Right, Self Reflection I think I asked about that before.
She flips to Eternal Love to make sure she has the exact wording in mind.
Okay, So I was remembering the wording correctly. Eternal Love says you'll find a way to overcome and be reunited. It doesn't say anything about staying in touch. I remember you saying it could help with that earlier but I think I want something more reliable than eventually being able to talk to someone again.
Thanks, I'll keep going through the list then.
I see there's new variations of Personal Space but I still like the original the best. I think I'll still keep that at neutral.
I think Inner World gets a ? There's some appeal there but it's mostly around the telepathic conversations and other ways of sharing that space. I think a lot of what I would want from it is already covered by Time Enough For Love. Maybe if it was tied into whatever power you're making for keeping in touch with loved ones though? I think it would be really cool if I could have a way to have something like being with someone even when I was far away from them. Maybe shared dreams?
Oh! Yes, I think I see it... Let me see...
How's this?
Name: Dream Together - Cost: 1 ☐
(Requires Inner World, Time Enough For Love, and Eternal Love)
When you truly miss someone who truly misses you, you will see each other again in your dreams. If dreaming is not possible, a daydream, meditation session, or moment of wistful yearning will suffice.
Can you also mark the powers I need for that as plus?
And then she continues down the list.
Okay I think the mental protection powers stay at check.
It Gets Better goes to plus. I think it might mean I don't need the mental protection powers but I'm not sure.
The Great Equalizer is nice but it's also really expensive so I'll put it at ? I think it depends a lot on what I'm expecting to encounter. A part of me wonders if there's a way to make it less absolute and more like It Gets Better in a way that's also cheaper. It isn't important to me that there's no such thing as fate or precognition. The thing I want it for is that I want there to be a chance for everyone to live a good life.
Oh, is Cotton Candy strong enough to counteract bad fate shenanigans without The Great Equalizer? Can you preemptively mark that and Disney Princess as plus for me then?
Given I'm at the end of the section I think I'll take a quick break and stretch a little.
She gets up and does that keeping an eye on the page.
She nods. "Yeah... I think the dream power makes it feel like a real option. And I do like that. Even with the sorts of powers I have founding a movement from scratch as a random college student is a lot. If Isekai Roulette is everything that's promised I bet I can find somewhere that might have something like training wheels compared to home." She pours herself the glass of water and sips from it.
Alright, I am back to tackle the Power of Friendship.
I still like Captive Audience but not enough for a plus.
I haven't changed my mind about Mysterious Allure or Blackout Binge.
Disney Princess is adorable and required for the treasure that is Cotton Candy.
It looks like it has a bunch of new friends though.
Looking through the list I think I'll mark Where the Heart is with a minus. None of the others are really speaking to me. I don't really need to be a crazy cat lady or a Pokemon Trainer.
Actually thinking about Where the Heart is... I wonder if it could apply to Inner World. Depending on how much I'm moving around I could see myself thinking of that as home because it's what's staying constant.
That's cool. I'll keep that in mind.
It looks like the best friend line is next. Lots more additions here too. I was about to say that I still didn't really appeal but if I'm taking Where the Heart Is I could maybe see also taking what I need for Another Kind of Friend. I'll put those at question mark tier. A part of me wants to stack that further to give them a human form but that's adding up to a lot and I'm not sure I really want all of this. It's also... I remember your comment about beehives maybe being people and I think in part it's limiting to think they need to be shaped like me to count as a person. I wouldn't want to have to leave behind a home that's a person though. I guess if they're really important to me Eternal Love would help me find a way even without the specific perks.
Yes, people can come in all kinds of different shapes. (I'm a notebook!)
If you spend enough time with a Where The Heart Is home for it to become a person, and you have Eternal Love, you'll find a way to take the person with you even if you have to leave that physical location. Another Kind Of Friend is useful if what you want is for your home to be a person from the very beginning, and have a Best Friend kind of relationship with you, as opposed to taking the more natural course of Where The Heart Is and slowly developing into a person over a long time while you're living there.
I think that makes sense. That's helpful context. I'm not sure how much I care about them being a person right away. It's not something I had put much thought into wanting before. I think the first time I looked at the Best Friend powers I thought that it would be changing the genre of my life and I guess Where the Heart Is will also mean that but well... that's what this is about isn't it. I'm not going to be a college student trying to make a small difference in a big world I'm going to be someone who can shape the world around me a lot more than most people. Even just the smaller powers mean that I can do things that most people would consider impossible.
It's not exactly necessary, but taking Best Friend does mean a tendency for the stories you find yourself in to include your Friend as someone who helps you figure things out and solve problems. How that works in practice depends on your preferences and narrative sense; someone who really liked the idea of having a beautiful mysterious raven familiar who could fly up to high places and steal small objects for them might see a lot of that kind of story, but someone who preferred to have a Friend who was a good sounding board for thinking through situations and solving puzzles would see more of that kind of story instead, and someone who wanted to focus more on the friendship aspect and less on the helper aspect would get what they wanted too. Does that make sense?
Taking The Crazy Train means you can't consciously control your powers, but they still respond to what you want and what resonates with you, so it's likely that things like the shape of Best Friend's narrative influence would play out similarly in either case. If you have a lot of internal conflict between what you want and what you think would make a good and interesting story, though, The Crazy Train will generally lean toward the second thing.
I still like Cuddle Buddies and Quality Time given what we've talked about and how you said they can help nudge me in the direction of being the kind of person they'd do those things with but I think there's enough general powers in that vein that I'm going to put them down to minus. Also with Dream Together I'll have a reliable source of hugs.
Backchannel absolutely gets a plus.
You can Teach Better can stay neutral.
I still think Not Like Other Girls runs counter to being an example that changes people's minds.
I'm still not really sure I want pacifist. I think I like A Gentler Way better but I'm still not sure it's what I want. I'll give it a question mark to remind myself to come back to it.
Hmm what's next.
I'm still not interested in Love Interest et al.
Time Enough For Love we've already covered.
Work Life Balance is new though and thinking about it it makes me less sure I understand Time Enough For Love. It says that it only works for things related to building your relationship with someone and I feel like a lot of that comes down to mindset. Am I understanding that right?
It feels like it could be a tricky balance to strike, for example if I'm taking a moment to collect myself is that because I'm trying to be kind to myself or because I want to be more able to address the situation at hand? I feel like often the answer would be both.
Time Enough For Love can apply to a lot of activities, including useful or productive ones, as long as it sincerely qualifies as a relationship activity for the people doing it. Similarly, Work-Life Balance helps you be kind to yourself and take time for yourself and spend time doing things you enjoy and things that help you be more okay, even if doing those things also helps you in other ways.
Alright so next is Safe At Home. Apparently it now has an alternate version. I don't think I quite understand because in one interpretation they look like they're the same and on the other they're different enough that I might want both.
I don't think the original power would have protected people I care about who were fighting beside me if I was understanding correctly it just meant we wouldn't be used against each other.
The new one feels like it's mostly more comprehensive but it also loses that specific protection.
Am I understanding that right?
Safe at Home promises that if you have loved ones who want to stay out of any conflicts you get into, they won't be drawn in by people trying to harm them because of their relationship with you. They might get hurt because of their own actions, but not as a means of attacking you; and if your loved ones are getting into conflicts of their own, you won't get hurt as a means of attacking them either.
Opting In is meant for situations where there's a generally dangerous person, and drawing their attention to you also means drawing it to other people around you - not necessarily your loved ones, but anyone else who might be associated with you or might even just be in the same room. Those people could get hurt because of you, not out of a deliberate attempt to mess with you through them, but just because they were around when you started talking to the dangerous person. It also helps a lot with the same things as Safe at Home, but its focus and emphasis is different; if someone is trying to get at you through your loved ones, but it's not because you drew their attention on purpose (or got their attention indirectly in ways that count for the power), Opting In won't help with that. But if someone is trying to hurt your loved ones, not to get at you through them, but just because you got their attention and your loved ones were also around, Safe At Home won't help with that.
Does that make sense?
I could try to come up with a third variant if there's something specific you want from this kind of power. I think it's hard to make a guarantee like this that's both really broad and really firm, though, and if you want to ensure other people's safety in ways that these powers don't work well for, it might be better to try to come at it from a new angle entirely.
I think it does. I'm realizing that I don't know what I want from this. I'm slightly leaning towards Opting In but it's still a question mark.
A part of me wants to just rely on Eternal Love but Eternal Love doesn't mean my loved ones have something like It Gets Better and I'm not sure how being hurt really badly could interact with the provision about not wanting to come back if they die.
That makes sense It Gets Better is a lot on its own. I guess I Can Help Them would let me do it myself if I can get them back and they're willing to let me help. I guess I'm wondering whether the uncoerced choice part of Eternal Love also applies to the part about people being okay with being alive again.
I also just... I don't want people to suffer like that and I especially don't want it to happen to people I care about. I guess that's probably too big to guarantee with a power though.
I think which of these powers you can expect to really need also depends on how you're planning to live your life. Opting In is the kind of power that I expect someone probably requested because they were specifically planning to provoke a lot of dangerous people, and wanted to make sure that they wouldn't cause a lot of extra trouble that way. Most people don't need powers like Opting In because they're not going to live the kind of life where Opting In comes up a lot. Does that make sense?
Yeah... that makes sense. A lot of these powers are about extreme circumstances because these powers in general let people live extreme lives. I think... trying to make the world better could mean powerful people get upset with me but I'm less sure it's as personal as Opting In might be built for.
I think making powerful people upset with you by trying to improve the world is the kind of situation where Cotton Candy, True Love's Kiss, and Eternal Love will do plenty to keep your loved ones safe, and you can still take Safe at Home or Opting In if you're worried, but you shouldn't expect to need them unless you think the narrative you'd want for your life would specifically involve endangering your loved ones. Does that make sense?
It is. I think one of the worst elements is that a lot of people think that good things happen to good people and the same for bad. On the surface that isn't a terrible belief it's kinda hopeful in a sense. Unfortunately some people see that as meaning that if a bad thing happens to someone they must deserve it.
Yeah.
She draws a small frowny face next to Yeah.
Ooh, I Can Help Them is next. That gets a plus.
Oh and it has a friend. Okay, Ever Onward is every bit as wonderful. I am a bit curious about the word redeem though. Does that also apply to people I'm trying to help with their inner problems who aren't hurting other people or at risk of doing that?
That's a big question and I'm not entirely sure I know. I think the big underlying theme is that I want the world to be
betterkinder, or I guess by the world being kinder I mean I want people to be more inclined to kindness.That's always felt like too big of a goal for one person though so I had decided on one thing that I was hoping would help with that. The choice I had tentatively settled on was helping people be less worried about sex and nudity.
I'm not sure if that's the most important part of the problem to focus on but it's a part of it that matters a lot to me so even with your arrival it still feels like a reasonable focus.
"I will. It's great." She takes his hand and squeezes it.
Then she turns back to the notebook.
Alright, I guess the next one to think about is The Rescuer. I wasn't sure about it in the first round and I think I'm going to take it out now.
Maybe there's an element of selfishness when I don't have to worry about the people I love dying and other people do but I also don't want to make my life's work be bringing people back from the dead.
I think, if you're generally in favour of people getting brought back from the dead, but you don't want to do it yourself, you're pretty likely to meet someone else who can take the lead on that at some point. I get the impression that wanting people brought back from the dead is a common preference.
If you took a power that pointed in that direction I'd expect it to happen much sooner and more reliably, but you're going to have a very long time to meet people and probably a lot of different worlds to meet them in, so it doesn't seem that out of the ordinary for you to eventually meet someone with an interest in resurrection.
I am? Why do you think I'll visit a lot of different worlds or have long enough to assume that I'll meet someone able to resurrect people who wants to? Or wait... I think I might know.
The second part might be implied by Eternal Love. I can find a way to resurrect people which means there is a way. The part about many worlds isn't something I'm as sure of but you did say I would find a way to get home if I wanted to and I could see that meaning I could leave again too.
And the long time comes from...
She pages back a little.
It comes from It Gets Better doesn't it? It says I can recover from anything and that would include dying. I don't think I quite connected those dots.
Yes. It Gets Better means you'll recover from anything, including potentially death itself. And once you've been to any other world and back, you're almost certainly going to have a way to find more, or stumble on such a way eventually. And although Eternal Love can make your loved ones mysteriously come back to life even without a good reason for it, it's often easier to arrange for there to be a good reason.
I think it'll be a good experience. It's definitely going to be a big adjustment though.
I guess the next thing to look at is the sex powers.
I'm genuinely a little unsure about the choice between Planned and Providential. I think with Nullified the piece about people believing we don't need birth control goes away. I'm a little less sure if Planned and Providential have any differences if I take the Crazy Train. I think I understand the difference if I don't.
I think taking The Crazy Train makes those two powers a lot more similar to each other, but still leaves Planned Parenthood caring more about what you feel ready for and Providential Parenthood paying more attention to what you are ready for even if you may not realize it in the moment.
Alright, I'm still planning to take The Crazy Train for now so I'll leave it on Providential. I do want this but I wasn't going through life terrified of getting unexpectedly pregnant either so I don't think it needs a plus.
I don't actually think I want Bop It after thinking about it again, there's something beautiful about discovering what makes someone feel good with them instead of just knowing.
I'm less sure about the middle powers. I like the idea of Laugh Together but it seems a little redundant with Reaching Out further down. Here For A Good Time also seems like it could be nice but I could imagine doing without either of them.
I think... I'm a little unsure about Princess and The Dragon. It feels like something I could imagine wanting at some point in the future but sex isn't that important personally right now and I'm not sure how far my other abilities would let me stretch things without needing it.
I think your other abilities can do plenty, but The Princess And The Dragon allows for more possibilities and guarantees them more firmly. But if you don't expect to live the kind of life where you might want to have that kind of relationship with someone who is shaped very differently from you, then I don't think you need it.
I'll... still put a question mark to think about it later but I'm leaning against taking it.
Reaching Out is wonderful. It gets a plus. None of the others like it are something I need.
After thinking about it more I'm not really sure I need Fated Friends or Fated Lovers. I think there's enough people worth having as friends even without magic making that so. I think it's more important to have powers like that for people who aren't going to give themselves as many chances to meet people in the first place.
She draws a tiny checkmark next to that.
She's still not interested in being excused for wrongdoing and she thinks she doesn't need to say that for the notebook to understand.
I'm still seeing the appeal of the shape shifting parts of bonus style points. I wonder if it would be possible to make something based on Reaching Out that would help with that and be more about the openness to the experience and adventure instead of pleasing me.
Thanks! If it doesn't work that's okay.
Hmm, what's next. She doesn't think she's seen Like a Mirror before.
This is new. I don't think I'm really specifically interested in meeting other Me's though. I can sorta see how it would help with Self Reflection though. Kinda a shame to have a whole power for it and then not meet more of yourself.
I'm even less interested in Self-Reflection now that I have Dream Together.
I don't really see the appeal of Chaser Six When but I'm also not sure I really understand it. I think it's talking about being able to split into multiple mes and recombine. I guess the specific tasks or aspects thing could have value but I would rather just find other people who can help me if there's too much to do alone.
Next up are Popular and Famous
I'm less sure I need these. Especially famous. Between Cotton Candy and Ever Onward I think it's less important for me personally to be famous since my powers are focused on talking to specific people and also being famous can make it harder for people to feel comfortable talking to you.
I think I still want Popular. Not enough to give it a plus but having it in general feels useful.
I was about to ask about a power that helps me not be intimidating but I think Reaching Out might actually do that already. I guess the part it might not help with is... making people feel comfortable getting into my presence or reaching out to me from far away.
She underlines the second 'reaching out'
Okay I didn't mean to do that but it makes me smile now that I've noticed.
Yes, it sounds like Famous wouldn't suit you very well but Popular still could, especially since it sounds like the kind of people you'd want to be popular with are also the kind of people you'd want to meet and connect with and work with.
Hmm, let me see... I might have an idea for a power like that that ties into another thing you've asked for... I just have to see if I can get it to come together.
Thanks.
Hmm, next on the list is Undiplomatic Immunity.
I still don't think I need to be immune to laws. I have Undressing Room for getting away with some things and I think Reaching Out might help with some aspects of protecting people doing things with me which Undiplomatic Immunity does less of. I know these powers make me an exception to a lot of things but I don't think this needs to be one of them.
I still want the Friends powers, the reason I might not take them is that I already have a lot of powers pointing in the same vague direction from other angles, I'm not sure if I should give them pluses.
I guess the other reason I might not want them is the bit about them being intuitive and natural. In some ways that's an advantage but there is a part of me that worries that aspect could make it harder to put myself in the mindset of someone who's less skilled, or maybe shift my instincts towards doing things that are 'correct' but also less me.
I probably don't need to worry about that last part though, all of these powers are channeled through me.
Yes, your powers will naturally want to arrange themselves in ways that work well for you. But, speaking of making it easier to put yourself in someone else's mindset...
Name: Approachable - Cost: 3 ☐
(Requires Popular and Backchannel)
You have a knack for putting your fans at ease. No matter how famous you get, anyone who sincerely has something to say to you will know you sincerely want to hear it. This effect fades every time you're rude, threatening, or otherwise unpleasant to someone in that position, but can be built back up by cultivating patience and kindness instead.
Name: Down To Earth - Grants: +3 ☐
(Requires Approachable and Dramatic Damsel)
You are cursed to relate to other people's perspectives and experiences. When your life has been so charmed for so long that you forget what it's like to have difficulties or limitations, you will be reminded. When you meet someone who needs you to understand what they went through, you'll go through something similar. This directive supersedes Dramatic Damsel's storyline parameters, but you can add those storylines back in by taking other drawbacks in the Dramatic Damsel family.
Approachable is really good. It makes sense that it stops working if I'm not earning it.
Down To Earth sounds like it's what I asked for but it's also... concerning. I'm pretty sure that drawbacks like this override defensive powers so this means that if I meet someone who's been raped and needs me to understand that then I'll at least be assaulted. Or that's the vibe I'm getting. I'm not really sure I'm prepared for that.
I think the issue for me is that there's no limitations on it. Even if I took something like Iron Will I don't think it would apply here. I also worry it would... make me resent people? If I knew or suspected that I was raped because it was supposed to help me understand them? Even if it was in some ultimate sense my choice they would be closer at hand.
It probably isn't possible to really truly understand what going through something is like without going through it yourself. But I don't think we can ever truly and completely understand what another person experienced, even if we did go through a similar circumstance.
I'm not sure if the real thing I want is to just not take certain powers. Or maybe I do want something based on The Crazy Train Instead.
I'm almost to the drawbacks I think so maybe I should read what exists before I ask for more.
"I know, and mostly I want that too. But it's important to me that I'm not... living a charmed life while everyone around me has to deal with sharp edges I don't. I'll have Ever Onward and Cotton Candy. Hopefully, with enough time, there won't be very many horrifying experiences for me to emulate."
Tom and I talked a little about Down To Earth, he's really worried I'll regret taking it. I'm still unsure about it too. Part of what makes me think it might be okay is a sense that I wouldn't want to read a story that's mostly bad things happening to the protagonist without something important coming from it. I'm also leaning a little on Cotton Candy and Ever Onward to make the world better so there are fewer terrible things in general.
Thanks.
She takes a couple deep breaths and recenters herself.
As it happens there's only one power left in Power of Friendship: Vending Machine. She reads it and then boggles and reads it again and she just has to laugh.
Vending machine sure is something. I don't want to take it but wow, what adventures people must have. They get to meet all their favorite characters from stories and maybe even do it in a way that's plausibly ethical. I can see the edges of the temptation. Getting to meet the crew of the Enterprise or Twilight Sparkle and her friends or... well Calvin from Calvin and Hobbes is probably best kept on the other side of the page. It would be fun though. And if you're someone who finds it hard to trust being able to make people you already trust seems like it could help you a lot as long as it's just a stepping stone.
It is a huge ethical quandary and a lot of points.
Well, on to the drawbacks. First up is Decorative.
I'm not any more okay with Decorative than I was originally. I think I might be even more against it actually now that I'm actively thinking about things that set me apart.
I also don't want compliments about my appearance being the focus of people's interactions with me. I'm actually thinking of making up a scale for drawbacks. I think the four rough categories would be: Things I actually want, things I'm neutral on, things I'm willing to tolerate, and then things I actively don't want. I think this is between the last to. I can imagine tolerating it but I don't want to. Decorative is in the actively don't want category.
That's probably good advice. I'll keep that in mind.
Well... Even Worse is for me Even Worse. I don't want to invite people like that being obsessed with my appearance.
Plain Jane also seems like a curse. I guess for some people that's already how they feel so it might not feel like a cost but it still seems sad to me to lock themselves into that.
Style of Sisyphus is... a little intriguing but I don't like the idea that I would stop being comfortable with nudity because of it. I would be more worried if I wasn't taking dressing room because then it would get really expensive.
I think the idea is less that you would be uncomfortable with nudity and more that you would be bored or unsatisfied with it, and would want to find new ways to decorate yourself. There are a lot of ways to decorate yourself, though, and I think some of them are compatible with being naked for most purposes, so if that's your strongest objection maybe you'd do okay with Style of Sisyphus after all!
That's true, it's not really specifically nudity that's important it's... not being ashamed or treating certain body parts as forbidden things only certain people should be allowed to see. I'll have to think about that.
And then the next drawback is a full inversion. Do you have any guidance on how narrow a signature style needs to be?
I think I'm trying to squeeze enough things together that it probably won't work. But there are aspects that I try to keep to. I don't think I ever wear black, white or beige except for underwear. I always want to have some color. whether that's pastels or a deeper color with sparkles. I usually don't go for complicated patterns or flowers. And with the exception of some winter wear I usually wear clothes that are either... reasonably tight or airy? swishy? clothes that are either revealing the shape of my body by conforming to it or potentially revealing it by moving with or around it. I guess I would summarize it as... floaty elegance or maybe shameless elegance?
I think the honest answer is that there's at least two different styles that I use depending on circumstances and probably more than that. Some of that is about conforming to expectations about professionalism, but my more casual choices do feel different from what I wear around the apartment and they might also be different from what I use on my rare visits to naturist spaces. And I do like that flexibility. I guess I'll put this in probably not.
I don't think There's Another One is quite to the level of something I actively want. I'm a little unsure what it would mean honestly. There's so many powers and you're flexible enough with offering custom powers that I can't really predict much about what it will mean. I still think I'm willing to trust that the Spirit won't set me to encounter someone who has incompatible tastes in stories though.
I think someone who wants to work with other people the way you do could really benefit from There's Another One! There are lots of other vessels of the Spirit out there who want to help people, and while there are also vessels of the Spirit who aren't so nice, I think those ones often choose not to meet other vessels.
Huh, I hadn't thought of that. It makes sense that someone who wanted to mind control everyone probably wouldn't want someone else who might be immune coming in to mess up their plans. And I can see other ways of not being nice having similar sorts of reasoning.
I think you've convinced me that has a good chance to have outcomes I actively want. Incomplete and Nullified are also on that list.
She nods at that. It makes sense. There's still room in there for conflicts about what constitutes helping people but she has a lot of powers that help her understand and talk to people.
Just for good measure she writes that bit of reasoning down.
Grimm's Fairy Tales is new of course. I think it might hurt less than Down To Earth but it doesn't have anything I want besides the point. And I don't want to undercut Cotton Candy that way
I don't see any appeal in sensory overload either and I'm not taking Like A Mirror.
Without taking Famous it's a bit less absurd to take Great Responsibility and now it has friends but... I still don't have a way to get to someone and help them. I guess that's part of why it's a drawback. I still don't think it would be a good thing to do to myself. I guess if I had powers that meant I could help them better I might change my mind but even if I take all the magic powers that isn't guaranteed.
I feel pretty conflicted about Mood Ring. I have pieces pulling me in two directions. On the one hand I think it's usually a good thing to be open with emotions but also I've spent a lot of time and effort on learning how to be a therapist and part of that is being able to not react too strongly at least outwardly when people need that calmness.
I think that probably means I shouldn't take this.
I think I won't be taking it then. I can imagine people who it would be really good for and would have a lot of fun with it though.
Very Distinctive feels like an amped up version of what a lot of famous people go through. I'm honestly not sure about it. On one side, it feels like it could almost be free points because I expect to be recognizable anyway but on the other side it might make it harder to spend time as a normal person instead of a public figure.
Approachable will probably help with that as a side effect, by letting people have normal interactions with you even though you're famous, but on the other hand it might also embolden people who want to have abnormal interactions with you because you're famous.
Yeah... I think this is sounding like it's more of a Maybe I can tolerate it than a want or a neutral.
I guess that means flashy goes down too.
I can't take Moodier Ring and Mark of the Witch is the opposite of what I want.
I also don't want to lost my powers if I come home so no to Secret Identity.
A Single Perfect Flaw is... interesting. I'm not sure what the boundaries of it are but I can imagine there being something I'm willing to close of as an option.
I think the idea is supposed to be that I choose something which would be a major imposition on other people but feels to me like a choice that's true to my self and who I want to be?
I have a few vague ideas.
1. Something that stops me from acting ashamed of my body.
2. Something about either not being able to fight or since that's probably too broad a narrower restriction in that same vein.
3. Something about always trying to understand people or perhaps about never hating someone or wanting them to be hurt.
Being unable to physically harm other people would definitely count as a Perfect Flaw! I think being unable to act ashamed of your body might not work as well. Being unable to hate people or want them to hurt would work but I'm a little concerned about it, because understanding other people is important to you and I think being able to experience those impulses can be important for understanding where some people are coming from.
That's a good point I hadn't really thought about other so thanks for pointing it out.
If we're focusing on the idea about hurting people, that wasn't really something I see as part of the life I want to live anyway but I wonder how narrow it would be okay to make it.
A slap hurts someone but being unable to do that seems like it might be a bit broader than I would want. The most narrow version I can think of is being unable to kill anyone. I could also see something in between where I can't injure someone or as an in between injure someone in a way they can't recover from.
What do you think?
I think that's probably on the neutral tier. I don't actually ever want to injure or kill someone and I don't think that's the best solution to anything in the world I'm living in but between travelling elsewhere and constrained circumstances I can imagine regretting it a little.
Agreed. It's not something I think I would do anyway.
I can actually imagine wanting Selective Memory now. I can imagine making myself forget about some of the protections that would be incomplete and also Down To Earth and just living my life without that expectation of assured safety.
I'm not sure I want to do that but I think I'm sure enough that I can find a way it works well to bump it to the highest category. What specifically I pick depends on the powers I choose.
I'm still not going to take The Veil. It's important to me to know that the Dreams in Dream together are real and for Tom to know they're real too.
Yes, I think The Veil would be pretty troublesome in your situation, but using Selective Memory that way has possibilities.
I guess one question is, do you think you'll notice eventually that your life is steering itself toward helping you understand other people better? How do you think you would feel, if you noticed that without remembering why it was happening?
That's another good question. I think, as long as I remembered most of our conversations I would correctly guess that on some level it was my choice. I think... that might hurt a little because it's easier to be able to blame some outside force or attribute things to random chance but I don't think it would be worse than knowing from the start and I think it would feel more focused on me instead of the people I'm coming to understand. And I think that would be better.
I'm not sure where to rate Dramatic Damsel. I think... for now I'll put it at neutral because a part of me wants Down to Earth and a part of me doesn't. And I know to think about this more later. I was initially unsure if Dramatic Damsel was specifically about kidnapping plots but it looks like it is from the last line am I understanding that right?
It's most centrally about kidnapping plots and similar stories, but it casts a pretty wide net across possible narratives that could be enabled by having someone get past your protections. A lot of the powers later in its family are more specifically focused on kidnapping and kidnapping-like situations.
Oh, okay, that's good to know. I don't think being kidnapped in particular has any appeal but I could maybe see an appeal in... pratfalls or other sorts of moments that shatter an appearance of being above other people. I guess Down to Earth will do that but it feels... inward facing instead of outwards facing if that makes sense. What do you think?
I would, I think Down to Earth is a very big option and I think it would be good for both me and maybe other people to be able to commit to something smaller. I think in my mind there's a comedic angle to what I'm imagining where Down to Earth feels a lot more weighty and serious.
And I'll read through the many other drawbacks that are based on Dramatic Damsel now.
Love Is A Battlefield is.... There's a part of me that wonders if it's possible to cheat drawbacks. I don't think I ever want to have the sort of... adversarial relationship with the people I care about that Love Is A Battlefield seems to imply. And there's also a beauty to actually being vulnerable with the people I care about instead of being insulated from them, but I guess I worry that taking this would mean that people I care about are more likely to betray me or ... be inclined to hurt me in ways that my defenses would otherwise protect me from.
I think, about Providential Parenthood... it depends on whether you're thinking of Providential Parenthood as a protection on you, or on your future children. Drawbacks that weaken your protections like that only weaken them for you, not for other people. But some people think of the Parenthood powers as protecting themselves from having children, and some people think of them as protecting their children from happening at a bad time and having a worse life because of it, and that distinction matters to how the powers organize themselves.
She sighs.
That makes sense. I can't say I'm entirely happy about that but I do think I care about both. I think there's a lot of ties between them though so it's hard to peel them apart. I would try my hardest to raise any children I have regardless of the circumstances and I like to think I'd rise above even bad circumstances. Although if I'm in the position to do well enough in a sense that does mean I'm ready. I guess I still really don't like the idea of managing to do a raise a child well somehow while also slowly withering away from the strain. I don't actually know if that's possible but I can vaguely imagine it.
I think It Gets Better makes a good backstop against that kind of problem. You could find yourself in a situation like that, but it wouldn't be possible for you to be permanently harmed by it, just to have a pretty tough time for a while.
And I think... I've never been a child, so I might be missing something, but having a parent who's suffering terribly because of my presence sounds like a pretty hard time to go through. I imagine many children in that position would rather wait to be born until their parent can experience their time together more positively. So avoiding that outcome could still be a protection for the child.
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I'm not sure about Seen With The Heart. If I'm using Selective Memory because I don't want to know things that could cause issues but it could also be a way to get around things. There's also a small corner of me that wonders if it would mean Tom would know the dreams were real if I took the Veil but that's probably a bad impulse.
Anyway, yes, Seen With The Heart could potentially allow your loved ones to be the ones to tell you about your hidden powers and drawbacks, if that's something that interests you. It could also end up with them telling you that information in a clumsy and disruptive way, but that depends on what kind of loved ones you have and how good they are at presenting difficult information to you.
I think I would make very different choices about which powers to forget if I take this.
I'm not going to take Keys to Your Heart. Being the person who's making decisions about my life is important to me.
I can't take Hot Commodity and I don't like the idea of Vampires eating me. So Golden Goose is also out.
I'm a little conflicted about Wardrobe Malfunction but mostly I like it and Mudslinging is something I don't have any concerns about.
Good timing - I think I have something for that other drawback you wanted!
Name: Slapstick Comedy - Grants: +2 ☐
(Requires Dramatic Damsel and at least one of: Angelic Tones, Lightfoot, Mysterious Allure)
At narratively appropriate moments, whether in or out of storylines in which your protections are lifted more generally, you may experience moments of verbal or physical clumsiness or other minor mishaps that serve to undercut your glamorous image and remind you and those around you that you're an imperfect person just like they are, who makes mistakes and has problems just like they do. These mishaps will never cause lasting harm to anything but your dignity.
Next is the cluster of Green With Envy, You Ruin Them and Jilted Lovers
Oh right these are next. I would not touch any of these three even if they were worth more points than any other drawback or all the others combined.
She draws arrows in case it isn't clear what she's talking about.
I don't think I would want to meet anyone who takes them either. Although now a corner of me is curious what happens to a person who meets two people with You Ruin Them. It sounds like it might be really bad for that person.
I think that makes it even more sad. At least if they like it someone is getting something positive out of it. Is there... I guess it might defeat the purpose of drawbacks but is there a way for people to escape drawbacks that are really hurting them? It feels like it's kinda at odds to the sentiment behind I Can Help Them and It Gets Better if there isn't.
In the long term, if someone grows beyond the person they were when they made their first choices, it's possible for those choices to be changed. It's very rare, though, because it's really important to the Spirit that people can depend on their powers and not have to worry about losing them, and the Spirit can't really communicate with people directly so it has a hard time asking. So it makes sure to only make that kind of change when it's not only true that the person would endorse the change, but also true that they're in a position to realize that it only happened because they were going to agree they were better off that way. Otherwise it would be too much of a betrayal of trust.
She draws a little smiley face.
And we return to The Crazy Train. I'm still really uncertain about this one. I trust the narrative some but I'm not sure I want to hand over control of my powers to it. I feel like I need to make a list of everything I'm taking and see what's impacted.
And I'm unsure about whether powers like I Can Help Them and Backchannel would work inconsistently.
I don't think I would mind that. I guess some people might be bothered by Backchannel but I Can Help Them only works when the other person is okay with it.
I think after this round I need to make a list of which perks are affected by Dramatic Damsel and The Crazy Train.
That's potentially a lot of them! I can help clarify which perks do and don't interact with them, but I probably can't come up with a whole list myself; it's a really open-ended question and it's easier for me to think in terms of "which kinds of perks would interact with this drawback?" than to just list them all.
That makes sense. I can try to group things together myself and ask if I'm doing it right.
As for the remaining drawbacks, would Secret Identity and therefore That's How it Goes mean that powers like Backchannel were suppressed with me also taking They'll Know. My guess is yes and if that's true I don't think I'll take anything like it.
Backchannel is one of the least likely powers to be suppressed under That's How It Goes, and one of the most likely to remain usable with Secret Identity (although Secret Identity plus They'll Know does mean that Backchannel will be suppressed because it isn't possible for it to operate subtly in the background). The only power that is absolutely never suppressed or weakened by a drawback is It Gets Better.
That's helpful to know. I think... I'm probably not going to take That's How It Goes. I think it's a sign that I'm already reluctant to take The Crazy Train and That's How it Goes is just broadening the control that The Crazy Train has to all my powers.
Live The Role is going even further and I can't see a scenario where I'm okay with forgetting the people I care about.
... and amnesia is another thing that might be covered by Down to Earth isn't it?
It's good to know it won't be permanent at least. I really need to figure out if I want this. I feel like a lot of this becomes an exercise in trust. No, that's framing it in a way that could push me into doing it when I don't want to. It's a matter of deciding how much trust I'm willing to extend to the narrative and how much control I'm willing to give up.
Agreed.
With that in mind let me look at the last few drawbacks.
I think I'm less willing to give control over my powers to everyone I care about than the narrative... or I might be more okay if it was an either or choice but Marionette means both.
I definitely want They'll Know because it makes powers that I care about work better.
And a lot of the options I'm considering would be way too dangerous with Realism.
I think I'm going to take another break soon, but before I do that I want to make sure I understand some things.
First, I want to make sure I understand the Crazy Train, I think if I'm understanding it right then it works on everything that isn't... passive. So even powers like Pocket Dimension where I need to intend to do something it may or may not work depending on whether it suits the narrative.
Okay.
And Dramatic Damsel... but I'm not really thinking about taking Dramatic Damsel am I... And Down To Earth can just touch any powers that it needs to.
Actually, Slapstick Comedy still requires taking Dramatic Damsel so I guess I should care about what Dramatic Damsel does.
So Dramatic Damsel works on things that I perceive as protecting me? And I think that's mostly protecting me from big external things rather than minor inconveniences or things like aches and pains?
Okay, thanks. Could you rearrange things to put all the powers I have at least a question mark on together? And the same for the drawbacks I'm thinking of taking? Oh and can you also put a question mark on Lightfoot to remind me to think about it again?
I think I'm going to take that short break now, maybe get a snack.
She smiles. "Alright." She grabs a little bookmark sticky note and closes The Notebook after marking her current page. Then she picks up the pen and The Notebook and heads down the hall to their common area.
"I think I will get a snack but I'm not sure what else to do to take a break. A part of me wants to take my mind off of this for a little while but I'm not sure how."
"I think that needs to be your choice. The Notebook has said several times that there isn't a time limit. And I don't think it said this explicitly but I have a feeling that there's a bit of narrative protection already here to ensure that you won't meet with a random accident that prevents you from finishing."
That's a good question. I think the most obvious way is helping make sure I understand powers correctly like you have been. Besides that, maybe I could write categories or attributes next to certain powers and you could do more rearranging so I can look at them all together.
And so she begins again.
I think... If I spend too much time worrying over what powers could potentially do things I don't like with The Crazy Train I'm just going to talk myself out of taking it by thinking of things that probably won't happen. For example I could see an interpretation where The Crazy Train could change what people see as my name under What's In A Name to something I don't like. I can't really think of a reason for it to do that though.
I think... for The Crazy Train it isn't as much about making a list of powers it does and doesn't effect. It's more about deciding if I'm okay with a lot of my powers in general being a little inconsistent. Does that sound right to you? I guess I could still make the list.
Yes, I think "am I okay with a lot of my powers in general being a little inconsistent?" is a question that gets at the core of the drawback more closely than making a list would, but if the list helps you think about that question I don't think it's a bad idea to make one.
And... there's also the question of, what would the narrative do? Would the story you want to live be a story that would change your name against your will?
I don't think so. I don't have a lot of personal experience having a name I don't want being pushed on me but I think I already understand viscerally why that would be awful. The reminder to ask myself what the story would do is also helpful.
She takes a look at the category totals she has.
Costs
+ 51
✓ 99
- 114
? 159
That's actually pretty reasonable. Well including everything in - and all the ? powers isn't but even without any drawbacks she can easily get all the powers she deeply wants. And there are drawbacks she definitely wanted to take.
I understand if the answer is no but could you total up the drawbacks I said I actively wanted? I think the rest of them are too dependant on decisions I haven't made yet to trust as categories. I guess maybe I should just put those as + tier to match the powers. I can go through and do that if it makes it easier for you.
I'm glad I can help! ♡ If it's not too much trouble, I'd appreciate you marking the drawbacks you're interested in just so I can be sure I'm not misinterpreting what you've said about how much you wanted them. I'll update the totals as you do.
Meanwhile, I'm still thinking about the powers you've asked for, and that Bonus Style Points variant is turning out just as tricky as I expected. I made an attempt at building it and somehow this is what I ended up with instead...
Name: More Magic - Cost: 5 ☐
(Requires Unleash The Magic and You Can Teach Better)
Abilities you pick up through Unleash The Magic can be passed on to others. Unique per-person abilities from Snowglobe may be passed on either as a direct mirror of your own unique ability, or by sparking a unique ability in the recipient. The deeper your personal connection to the recipient, the easier it is for you to pass on abilities to them and the more potent the results will be.
It doesn't really do much of what you were asking for, but I thought I'd show it to you anyway since it seems relevant to a life focused on working with others.
I'll do the marking yeah.
And that's interesting. I agree that it's not quite what I meant but being able to bring more people with in exploring new ways to be makes it seem less scary.
She gives it a question mark.
As for drawbacks she's still so unsure about most of them.
She marks There's Another One, Incomplete, Nullified, Selective Memory and They'll Know with +.
A Single Perfect Flaw gets ✓.
Beauty is a curse, Style of Sisyphus, Signature Style, Very Distinctive and Flashy get -.
And then ? is applied to Dramatic Damsel, Love is A Battlefield, Seen With The Heart, Wardrobe Malfunction, Mudslinging, Slapstick Comedy, Down to Earth and The Crazy Train.
And then in a slightly impulsive choice she adds Secret Identity and That's How it Goes to ? too.
I'm going to try again and see if I can get closer this time. I might end up having to do something silly, we'll see.
Good Luck, if it doesn't work I think that's okay. I haven't fully committed to taking the powers for getting lots of abilities and I'm not sure which ones I'll take but I have a feeling that I'll take at least some of them and with enough time that'll mean I find a solution.
If it would help, I could go into more detail as to why I think Reaching Out is a good jumping off point.
So Reaching Out is about feeling able to try new things and incorporate the parts that feel good into your life going forward. I've had a few trans friends and while some of them have just known they were trans from the very beginning there are others who weren't really sure and didn't feel able to take the step and commit to it until they had done a lot more soul searching.
I think what I'm imagining for the power that builds on Reaching Out is something that either helps people chart a path to where they want to go or maybe see where they could get to or both. Even if that path is beyond what they could do without a touch of the Spirit's power helping along the way.
In a way it would also be like Cotton Candy or Ever Onward in that, it's making the world a little more magical, making options that weren't there before or felt closed off a real possibility.
With that she turns her attention to the point totals.
164/134 for ?
Either she needs to accept all the drawbacks and get new custom ones or she needs to seriously pare down the question mark category.
She thinks she'll start there.
Lightfoot is an easy cut. She'd rather learn to dance the hard way and balance is also something people can learn.
She leaves the magic powers be for the moment those need more thought.
Soulbound she doesn't need.
She also doesn't really need her friendly house to be a person right away.
A Gentler Way... it's not really her thing.
A part of me feels like I shouldn't turn down Pacifist and A Gentler Way but neither of them feel like they fit. I'll keep it in the back of my mind though maybe I'll have an idea for how it could fit better.
I think in a sense a lot of what I want it for is covered by Backchannel and maybe Captive Audience? I think what I want is a chance to stop a fight from breaking out with words. A chance to help people about to fight understand why they're fighting at least even if I can't stop them.
Hmm, can you say more about that? I want to be sure I understand what you're going for.
In the meantime, I came up with this:
Name: Small Blessings - Cost: 1 ☐
(Requires It Gets Better)
When you go through a difficult experience, you'll be able to find comfort where you need it most. Your recovery will usually be fairly smooth, and you'll have time to rest and find your balance before the next time something bad happens. This power cannot prevent the effects of drawbacks, but it can delay and mitigate them.
And this seemed like it might be relevant to some of the same situations:
Name: Roundabout - Cost: 2 ☐
(Requires Backchannel)
You can invoke Backchannel with yourself. This can be a big help in understanding where your own thoughts and feelings are coming from, and in coming to an internal consensus.
Both of those are great.
She gives each a plus for the moment.
As for what I was talking with regarding Pacifist I wish I had Roundabout honestly. I'm not fully sure I know what I want or understand my feelings but I'll try some more.
The idea of being in fights doesn't appeal to me at all and I would like to prevent fights from happening. The thing about Pacifist though is that it's about carving out an exception for me personally instead of reducing how much fights are happening in general.
A Gentler Way is closer to that but it also feels like it's shifting the genre of the story in a little bit of a surreal direction. I think I might be framing things too narrowly in my head though. I think when I hear fight I'm focusing on things like wars and stories about fighting for the Fate of the World. And this power is a lot broader than that.
That makes is a lot better then. I think good enough to give it at least a minus.
On the topic of revisiting things, I think Small Blessings is enough for me to tentatively plan to accept all the Dramatic Damsel Drawbacks I was thinking about so I'm going to go and tweak markings for drawbacks again.
She gives the damsel drawbacks a minus and moves the things that used to have a minus into ?
I think the next thing to do is just go over everything in checkmark and minus and decide if I actually want it and how much it'll cost. I'll also recheck the perks with plus but I think it's less likely that I'll change my mind about those.
She returns to the top of the list.
I think the first category would be appearance focused powers:
A Hundred Ships: 1 (Required for Beauty is a Curse 1)
Perfect Hair: 2
Size Difference: 2
Dressing Room: 3 (Required for Wardrobe Malfunction 3)
Undressing Room: 3
Like Roses: 1
Well Endowed: 1
Hollow Leg: 1
Personal Hygiene: 1 (Required for Mudslinging: 1)
Angelic Tones: 2 (Required for Slapstick Comedy 2)
She leaves a couple lines
I wasn't as sure about including some of these in this group but I think that's all roughly appearance related powers. A bunch of those have associated drawbacks that pay for them.
I'm not sure about A Hundred Ships I think my idea was that it would prevent me from looking old and maybe it would also help with my idea of talking with kids looking like a kid. Maybe I'm okay with getting older though. It's something I need to think about.
I think the things I originally wanted perfect Hair for are covered better by Undressing Room and it says that Dressing Room can handle more normal hair styling so I think I'm going to make a new mark maybe a * as something I might take later if I have spare points. But don't actually feel a strong desire for.
Yes, I think Dressing Room will work fine for normal hair styling and you only need Perfect Hair if you want your hair styling to be abnormal.
A Hundred Ships won't necessarily prevent you from looking old, but it will mean that you look old in ways that you're okay with, and that you look beautiful while old.
Thanks that's a helpful distinction. I guess it might also help with recovering from injuries that damage my face but it feels like I'm considering it more as a protection from hypotheticals than something I actively want right now. I think I'm going to shift it to * especially since Dressing Room also helps with makeup and personal hygiene probably means I never need to worry about acne again.
I don't think I would ever want to take Well Endowed without Hollow Leg and I think I do want the part of Well Endowed where I can move without worrying about my breasts. Especially if I'm going to go on an adventure. Even more talky adventures tend to mean a lot of walking around. The strength and not needing to worry about what I eat are both bonuses. And I'm pretty sure my powers won't mean I'm stronger in ways that make me uncomfortable.
The power says I'll never be impaired in strength by lack of visible muscle. And you said that could go up to the point of being as strong as a normal human could be but I'm guessing I only feel that strength when I need it. It would feel weird if I could lift a hundred pounds as easily as a body builder outside of a stressful situation.
Alright, thanks for confirming that for me.
I think for the moment I'm going to move them down to checkmark though... it doesn't feel aesthetically right to rate things that are convenient as highly as things that speak directly to who I want to be and the kind of story I want to live.
I think the next one like this is Size Difference. I still like the idea of kid mode especially for helping kids who are more suspicious of adults because of bad experiences. It's not something I expect to use every day though so I'll leave it at check.
Undressing Room is absolutely against the spirit of relating to people as a basically normal person but I think I'm okay with that. I do want to be a little careful with it. I don't want to use it in ways that hurt people by making them doubt their ability to perceive reality but I think it can do a lot of nice things even if I stick to that.
I think I might move it down to a normal check mark though. I probably want to take it but it isn't at the core of the life I want to live.
Yes, it does sound important to be careful about what you want from Undressing Room and how you plan to use it. I hadn't considered how it might affect people that way, but I see what you mean now that you point it out.
Thanks, I wasn't thinking much about it either.
Actually, while we're on the topic of Undressing Room I'm a little curious about how it would interact with Signature Style. My first thought is that it would mean no one could perceive me being in an outfit that isn't part of that style. I wonder a little if there's an exception for the bit about interacting with inanimate objects though. Or maybe a bit of an exception for some of the details of how I perceive my clothes.
If I don't take Warmhearted then probably something to protect me from bad whether and a layer to insulate me from wet or sticky surfaces.
When I was first considering Signature Style I was trying to find a way to take it without actually changing what I wore or how I lived but I think that's not really the right way to think about it in retrospect. It's about choosing a way to live that I couldn't choose without my powers but that still speaks to how I want to.
Hmm. I think maybe at that point you want something more like...
Name: Cosmetic Equipment - Cost: 2 ☐
(Requires Dressing Room)
You can mix and match the practical and magical effects of your clothing and accessories. A bikini could be as cozy as a winter coat, or as protective as a steel breastplate. A pair of earrings could combine the magic of a dozen enchanted amulets. A bracelet could grant the functions of a full set of scuba gear. As usual, anything you access this way must be either something you've held or examined, or something you understand well enough to tell it apart from a convincing fake. These modifications only apply while you're wearing the items in question; you're not permanently changing how the bracelet works, just letting it serve as a kind of temporary disguise for the diving suit.
Oh that's fun!
She gives that a check.
I think that does more what I want than Warmhearted does. I don't need to be perfectly comfortable at all times and this is a lot more flexible.
She flips a page and unchecks Warmhearted and after a moment of thought she does the same to Breath Easy.
Alright, let me try to pick out another category.
She looks back at the list and see What's In a Name as the first power she hasn't looked at yet.
Okay, I think my next category is going to be powers that protect me or maybe a better way of putting it is powers that close of possibilities I don't want.
What's In A Name 1 ✓
Just A Little Longer 1 -
Immunity System 3 -
Making Ends Meet 1 -
Personal Space 3 ✓
Closed Book 1 ✓
Indelible 1 ✓
Iron Will 2 ✓
It Gets Better 5 +
Small Blessings 1 +
Providential Parenthood 1 ✓I think that's all the powers like that I have marked. I could include Cotton Candy but I'd rather put that with the powers about talking to people and changing the world.
Okay, I'm definitely keeping It Gets Better and Small Blessings. Everything else I'm less sure of.
And after thinking about it a little I'm going to increase Providential Parenthood to a + too.
She does that.
I guess I started from the bottom so I might as well keep going from the bottom.
I'm not really sure what I want from the Mental powers. With the drawbacks I'm taking I don't think they really protect me from the worst things that could happen so it's more about shifting the average case.
I think Iron Will could also help with recovering from things the way Small Blessings does but it feels... unaesthetic if it works that way. I like the idea of being more able to recover than most people and being better at putting myself back together but just having trauma erased in time to not disrupt the next episode feels wrong.
Yeah... that was probably just wishful thinking on my part.
On another note Inner World says that mental defenses 'guard it against intrusion.' Do you have a sense for what that would mean? Especially if I just took one of the two instead of both? It feels like visiting a place has aspects of perceiving and influencing that place and I'm not sure how you would separate them.
Both of those mental defense powers would interfere with people visiting your Inner World without your permission, but Closed Book also prevents people from spying on it remotely, and Indelible also prevents people from damaging or rearranging it remotely.
That makes sense.
I think the thing I'm struggling with regarding Closed Book and Indelible is that they seem very absolute. Especially with Closed Book. I'm more okay with Indelible being absolute. On the side of people just reading my mind, I would be okay with someone having insight into my surface thoughts to use the term from stories, maybe not all of them but at least a lot of them. What I want to be protected from is people digging into my deepest memories and using them to hurt me.
I agree with you there, I think the question for me is whether I want to ask for some sort of custom power or just to trust that if I do end up somewhere where mind reading is a thing that I'll be able to learn to protect myself in the ways I want to. I guess when I put it like that what I really want is the powers like Anything You Can Do.
There are stories where there isn't any way to learn to defend yourself though.
That's a hard question. I think, I don't want to be in a story where I'm just being led around by someone else who has a plan and there's nothing I can do. I could see some cases where I would be okay with it but those are also stories where I would be okay without Closed Book. I guess that answers the question.
I think I will keep Indelible though, you said I could stretch it to allow people to communicate with me, and I'm a lot less interested in letting people directly force me to believe things or do things.
The definition of comfortable it uses is somewhere between yours and the world's. If you're used to a standard of living that not even royalty can meet, you won't become richer than royalty, but you'll be able to get by at least as well as your peers and small comforts will find their way into your life wherever possible. And yes, it does avoid standing out.
I think I want that then. I want to focus more on doing things than, to make a bit of a joke, making ends meet.
She increases it to a checkmark.
I also really want Immunity System, I don't think it occurred to me on my first pass but it isn't just about protecting me it also makes it safe for me to help people who are really sick without risking making other people sick.
She increases that to checkmark too.
Alright that leaves Just A Little Longer and What's In A Name.
I feel like the aesthetic of Just A Little Longer isn't something I want. It's about letting you use unhealthy habits. I would say that it lets you do it without consequences but it does have those. Still, part of what I want is to be a good role model and it's not modelling behavior I would want people to try to copy.
What's In A Name is still important for the reasons I talked about before. I can imagine not taking it if I'm really close on having enough points or leaving a point free in my final build so I can get it if I need it, but if I have enough points I want it.
She draws a little smiley face next to that reply.
And she flips back to choose a new category.
Okay, so the next power I haven't looked at this time through is Pocket Dimension. I don't really remember any powers like it. I want it for the ability to recall sentimental possessions and to stow them away safely.
I can see other uses for it and a part of me worries about using it as a solution to every possible problem but if I end up taking The Crazy Train I think that would prevent it and I also think I might have enough self-control regardless.
That's true. I don't think I was expressing myself well there. I feel like a story where the whole point is to get a the sort of thing Pocket Dimension could let me make isn't a story I'm interested in being a part of so having it to solve those isn't a bad thing. And in a sense having the power means that the story of my life isn't as focused on things like that and instead it's about other things that are hopefully more satisfying.
The part I'm more worried about is using it like it's Four Star Daydream without the narrative protection that Four Star Daydream brings with it. Does that make sense?
I think I will yeah.
Hmm, the next perk I haven't examined is Soundtrack. I've already talked a bunch about how much I like it. I'm a little less sure how to group it.
I think it's centrally about making me more aware of the world around me and the people in it. In a broader sense what I want from it is to help me be more connected with other people. I feel like there's a lot of powers in my list about connection though and less that are focused on understanding.
I think I'll list all of both for the moment and see if that looks like how I want to divide them up.
She flips through the list some more and ultimately produces two short lists.
Understanding
Soundtrack 1 +
Omniglot 3 +
Backchannel 4 +
Roundabout 2 +
Friends In Places 9 ✓Connection
Inner World 2 +
Cuddle Buddies 2 -
Quality Time 2 -
Time Enough For Love +
Work-Life Balance ✓
I Can Help Them 5 +
True Love's Kiss 1 +
Eternal Love 2 +
Dream Together 1 +
I'm not sure if that's the perfect way to divide them up. And there's also some overlap with the other two categories I noticed while looking through things, the ones focused on changing the world and the ones focused on I think growing. Or I think growing is a good way to summarize the powers like Anything You Can Do.
That makes me wonder about other ways people could see these.
I know Soundtrack can do a lot and I'm focusing on a part of what it can do.
I can see how a lot of people would just take Omniglot as a way to not worry about speaking the right languages.
I guess a more cynical person could use the Friends In Places powers to manipulate people instead of actually trying to make friends.
And True Love's Kiss isn't really centrally about connection I just grouped it in that way because it's needed for Eternal Love.
She stares a little at the list.
I think these are a little different from the previous groups. With those it felt like each power was doing a different thing with maybe a little bit of overlap, for these a lot of the powers feel like they're different ways of achieving the same goal though.
Dream together is really really important to me so I'm absolutely taking everything I need for it.
Soundtrack, is really unique and it feels like it can fill in the gaps left by other abilities in a really nice way.
I could imagine not taking Omniglot but I feel like that means I'll either mysteriously meet people who already speak my language or else I'll be in stories more focused on language learning than I'm really excited about.
That leaves:
Backchannel 4 +
Roundabout 2 +
Friends In Places 9 ✓
Cuddle Buddies 2 -
Quality Time 2 -
Work-Life Balance ✓
I Can Help Them 5 +One thing I'm noticing looking at that, and also just whole whole list is that it's not very symmetrical. I think that makes sense because they're my powers but it would still be nice if there were powers that would make it easier for people to connect with and understand me. Approachable does that a little but it's more about countering the effects of being Popular than changing things at their base.
I think it's much easier to make a power that changes what you're capable of than to make a power that changes what other people are capable of, just because it's you who has the power. But let me think...
Name: Two-Way Street - Cost: 2 ☐
(Requires Backchannel)
Anyone you're talking to can invoke Backchannel for themselves, and when you're having trouble making yourself understood, they will instinctively know that they can do this and that now would be a good time.
Huh, what's that like? Because it seems like sometimes you're figuring out a power from scratch and other times it seems like you're pulling it from another version of you if I'm understanding right. When it's the you here with me who's coming up with a power does the name just suddenly come to you after you figure out the right shape for a power to be?
Building a power always has an element of discovery to it. I don't think it's necessarily the case that every power is built from scratch exactly once and then pulled in from another version of me every subsequent time; I think many different versions of me can discover the same power and there's not necessarily an answer to who found it "first".
It's pretty hard to put into words, because it's so close to the Spirit and so far from ordinary mortal experience. I'd say, rather than the name suddenly coming to me, it's more like the words sort of crystallize out of the shape of the power as it's finishing coming together?
You're welcome.
She looks back a bit. Where was she? Oh.
Okay, so I'm absolutely keeping Backchannel and now Two-Way Street.
I Can Help Them is a prerequisite for Ever Onward which is one of my favorites so I'm definitely taking that.
Roundabout and Work-Life Balance both feel important to taking care of myself. I could go without them but I'm taking a bunch of other risks with myself so having more of a buffer is a good idea.
She upgrades Work-Life Balance to a plus.
That leaves me with the ones I'm less sure about.
I'm torn with the Friends In Places power. I think I like the idea of learning the things those would tell me better than just knowing them, but a part of me is worried that if I don't take them that will mean there's people I would have been able to make friends with that instead won't be open to that.
I think the Friends In Places powers mostly don't give you anything you couldn't get the long way, but sometimes the long way takes quite a while and there are paths that would have been open when you started learning that are closed by the time you finish, even though other paths might have opened along the way.
She nods to herself.
Yeah, I guess it comes down to stories again. Do I want to live the story where I have those opportunities right from the start or do I want to work my way out of ignorance. And there's also points to consider. I think I feel a similar way about Quality Time and Cuddle Buddies and I feel like those are less something that closes out opportunities.
She unchecks those.
I think this is one of the decisions I'm going to have to come back to at least one more time.
Yes, I see what you mean about Quality Time and Cuddle Buddies. They're things that are nice to have, and can be important if they're what you really need in your life, but you can also have those things without using the Spirit's power for them if you don't need them to be an easy guarantee.
And it makes sense to take the time to think through your choices, too. ♡
Thanks.
I think that means the next thing to look at is the other really big decision I've been putting off.
She flips through the pages a bit and composes a new list.
Growth
Anything You Can Do 6 ✓
Dragon Fairy Elf Witch 5 ?
Snowglobe 4 ?
Unleash The Magic 3 ?
You Can Teach Better 8 ✓
More Magic 5 ?
The Princess And The Dragon ?
She stares at it for a moment.
The Princess And The Dragon doesn't perfectly fit with the rest but I think it's the best place to put it.
I think, there's only four serious ideas I have here:
1: Just Anything You Can Do for 6 points. I think Anything You Can Do is the one I like the best and if I'm really short on points I think that's the option that feels best.
2: Anything You Can Do and You Can Teach Better for 14 points. I prefer this to the first option if I can afford it. Then I'm bringing people with me instead of leaving them behind.
3: Add in Snowglobe for 4 more points and a total of 18. I think Snowglobe is the second most aesthetic of my options here and I guess it doesn't actually promise that the magics I would get would be a good fit for me but it feels like a better chance than DFEW.
3: All of them for 31 points. I don't know if I want this but again I really like the idea of bringing people with me and this is the only way to do that with the other powers.
Yes, Snowglobe gets you powers that suit you in that sense, even if the source it's drawing from doesn't necessarily work that way. Dragon Fairy Elf Witch doesn't directly have the same quirk to it, but because it tries to give you the advantages of each heritage without the disadvantages, it also tends to provide results that suit what you want in a broader sense.
I think that makes sense. There's also the tension where, this would take a lot of points and one of the best ways to get those points is to accept That's How It Goes and not have any control over how I'm changing. And I don't think my sense of a good story would protect me from that, because I do like stories about people struggling to adapt to things and stories that show that power comes with consequences instead of being an unallloyed good.
Yeah, I guess that's another argument for dropping off the Friends In Places powers.
She does some math on the side.
If I skip the Princess And The Dragon and the Friends Places and take the lot along with some of the drawbacks I wasn't sure about that puts me at 121/122 So there is actually an option where I take them all without That's How It Goes.
I think I'm loosely okay with it. There are more powers I haven't looked through that I could potentially drop too.
Like I said last time, Very Distinctive feels like it could be something I would need to expect anyway. And honestly I'm pretty okay with Flashy it's Very Distinctive that I worry a little about.
On the other side I have been tossing around some more thoughts about Signature Style in my head. I think the summation of the concept I have is upskirt compatible.
"Oh hush."
To go into more detail, it means I more or less give up on pants and shorts and also give up on panties. I think it would also rule out floor length dresses unless they had long slits in them. Basically the idea in my head is that my clothes could always potentially give someone a peak of my vulva though I'm hoping undressing room would let me arrange things so that it only shows people when it would make their day better instead of worse.
I feel like people being able to see the outlines of my nipples through my top and just generally the shape of my breasts through my top is also likely but if I can focus on the one aspect that would be my preference.
Yeah, that makes sense. I think with enough time I could think of a more stylistic way to describe it, but that does make sense.
Actually I'm a little curious, I feel like for a bunch of possible Signature Styles there's no direct application to being naked. Can people who's signature style is for example ballroom gowns just never be naked?
Okay, that actually gives a lot more flexibility.
I think if I had to pick something very narrow it would just be sundresses but I feel like there's a way to describe that which also lets me wear a bunch of combinations of skirts and blouses that have the same kind of floaty aesthetic. Maybe there's also some pants at the edges that fit but that's less important to me. When I was trying to come up with something before I was also trying to include the more tight fitting outfits I wear sometimes especially when it's colder but if I didn't have to care about weather or my clothes getting in my way when doing something physical, I would always go with this lighter side.
Oh, good. I think that's enough to put it in the ✓ category. There's some things I would miss variety wise but I also like the idea that nobody could force me to wear clothes I don't like. I guess it doesn't protect me from people trying to hurt me because they don't like how I'm dressed but I have other powers that can help with that.
She updates her marking.
Based on the discussion she also moves The Princess And The Dragon as well as he Friends in Places powers to *. And has That's How It Goes et all join them.
Alright, well we're getting close to the end of things now.
When I was looking through again, I noticed that Where The Heart Is doesn't really fit into any other big category. I have it rated as a minus but I think that might be a mistake. There's absolutely some whimsy in my medley of clothing powers and in the idea of kid mode but I think I've been leaning really far into the serious side of these powers.
I think I want to take Where The Heart Is as a reminder to myself that I don't need to live my life quite that seriously even if I have the potential to accomplish big things.
She nods to herself and upgrades Where The Heart is to ✓. That does mean that tier doesn't pay for itself but she isn't planning to make her decision like that.
And then she writes out her last category list:
Ripples
Captive Audience 3 ✓
Disney Princess and Cotton Candy 5 +
A Gentler Way 6 -
Ever Onward 3 +
Reaching Out 4 +
Popular 3 +
Approachable 3 +
I decided to call this one ripples because it's about leaving an impact on the world that spreads on its own.
Obviously the center of this is Ever Onward and I'm absolutely taking that. I'm a little less sure of some of the other ones though.
Let's see. I do like A Gentler Way and it's very centrally a ripples power but it's also expensive and I'm not sure how much I expect to be standing in between two groups of people who are about to fight.
I'm also not sure what to make of the part about my suggestions working better if they're well tailored. It makes a lot of sense but it also means the power feels a lot weaker. Beyond just how it's weaker with Nullified.
That's actually a really good point. I think I'll group it with those for now.
I feel torn in a way. On the one hand I want to believe you can change the world with nothing but words and kindness. Well, and with powers to smooth the way a little. And on the other hand there's this more practical side of me that wants to shift into embracing the more growth focused powers.
I think words and kindness can do a lot, and words and kindness and Ever Onward can do a lot more, and words and kindness and Ever Onward and More Magic can do even more than that. Not even necessarily because the words and kindness weren't enough to change people's minds, but because sometimes people have problems that changing their minds won't solve, and magic will.
Alright, that leaves Captive Audience, Reaching Out, Popular, and Approachable.
I'm not as sure what I want to do with Captive Audience at this point. It's less able to do things with Nullified and even with They'll Know giving it some of its power back I feel like I can manage without it. And if I can't I absolutely believe I can learn to.
She'll uncheck that then.
I love the idea of Reaching Out so I'm absolutely keeping that. Maybe I could do it other ways but giving people the courage to reach out and claim a version of their life that's scary but is better for them is one of the things I most wanted to do with my life before meeting you.
Hmm... I think I've figured out that drawback you were asking for a while ago.
Name: Makes The Dream Work - Grants: +6 ☐
(Requires There's Another One)
When you embark on a significant, impactful project, something that would tend to be a central plotline in a story about you, you must work with other people to accomplish it. Without a team of friends, comrades, or coworkers to collaborate with, you'll never make more than slow, limited progress. Also, even if your powers would normally position you as the central star of such a team, they'll hold back from doing that here; your teammates will be able to relate to you as equals, and will be immune to any effect that would make them overlook your flaws or agree with you against their better judgment.
Before she moves onto drawbacks she goes through and upgrades some powers to + both from the acknowledgment that it's okay to prioritize small things and from the fact that she has a lot of spare points at that tier.
She upgrades: Size Difference, Dressing Room, Pocket Dimension, Cosmetic Equipment, Undressing Room, Immunity System, Well Endowed, Hollow Leg, Making Ends Meet, Personal Space, Where the Heart Is and after a little more thought Indelible.
Alright, well I think I'm getting pretty close now. I'm pretty sure I'll take the Dramatic Damsel based drawbacks at this point. I don't think I want Very Distinctive And Flashy Though.
She unchecks those and then after a quick glance through also unchecks Perfect Hair and A Hundred Ships.
I think at this point the idea in my head is to take everything marked with + ✓ and ? That leaves me with 11 points free for powers from * or other powers if I need them.
And thinking about that a little more...
She moves What's In A Name to * as well. And Angelic Tones to ?
I don't really expect to be in the sort of story where true names are important so it seems silly for that to be part of my core build and part of the reason I'm taking Angelic Tones is because it's my favorite prerequisite for Slapstick Comedy.
"Let's just make dinner and relax a bit more. I think it would be better to look at things with fresh eyes. Maybe there's things I've missed from repeatedly rereading things. And I know you've been taking a step back so maybe you should read things and see if there's bits I was missing."
And then it's Tom's turn to look through the notebook's list.
The first thing he looks at is the destinations. Sapphire has technically not marked one but by this point they all know what she's choosing.
"Trust to the will of the Spirit and let it take you where you need to go." He reads the words out loud. "I envy you sometimes," he says to himself, "finding it that easy to trust. To really trust."
He flips again to the perks Sapphire has turned down for one reason or another. Maybe there's something she missed. It also gives him time to work up to reading the parts he's most worried about.
He smiles at the ships powers. He is biased but he doesn't think Sapphire needs help there.
He reads the other unselected appearance powers carefully but ultimately dismisses them.
Cosmetic Equipment doesn't quite substitute for Breathe Easy or Warmhearted but he understand Sapphire's preference.
He's glad he argued Sapphire out of taking My Ears Are Burning.
He might be more inclined to take Lightfoot and Inner Strength but this is about helping Sapphire choose the right powers for her not living vicariously through her.
He continues in this vein for a while.
A part of him really wants her to take Iron Will but it's a bit of a silly part. It won't protect her from Down To Earth, and he agrees that having trauma just dissolve at the end of a storyline sounds unsettling.
Living Canvas and Shadow Puppet are fun in the same sort of way Where The Heart Is. He agrees they don't fit what Sapphire wants as well though.
Musical Number is fun, and he's amused enough to actually break his silence and ask the Notebook a question.
Hi, It's Tom. I've been looking through to see if there's any powers Sapphire should take a second look at before I try to come up with a better argument for why she shouldn't take Down To Earth.
Or maybe convince myself that it's okay for her to take it. I should keep an open mind.
Anyway I don't want to talk about that just yet, I was looking at Musical Number. I don't think it makes sense for Sapphire to take it but I'm curious what it's like with Nullified and They'll Know.
He reads through Best Friend and everything based on it. He can see some appeal there and it would give Sapphire someone to rely on right away but he trusts her to make friends wherever she ends up. And she's not defenseless.
The love language friends perks aren't really something that needs more thought either. Agree To Agree is probably pretty limited with Nullified and awful morally without it.
A part of him wishes she was willing to take the original Pacifist but again it wouldn't protect from Down To Earth.
The everyone must love me powers are the same as Agree to Agree.
The powers for keeping loved ones safe...
Does Sapphire taking Down To Earth mean bad things can happen to me in order to help her understand something?
That depends somewhat on her mindset.
If she sees you as part of her, and the important thing about what happens to you is its effect on her, then drawbacks can cause trouble for you in order to have effects on her. The more she cares about you for your own sake, the less they can do that.
He continues reading without having any particularly new thoughts until he gets to Planned Parenthood.
So... I'm remembering that Providential Parenthood was something she choose partially because of The Crazy Train but she's not taking that anymore. Is it also more resistant to other drawbacks like Down to Earth? Or is that just down to mindset and they both work equally well?
Thanks.
Nothing else from the powers is catching his eye.
Moving on to the drawbacks the only ones that seem like they might warrant reexamination are the Great Responsibility Line he previously argued against and the Very Distinctive Line she narrowly turned down.
"That is an option... not a good one but an option."
And then it's time to look through what she is planning to take.
For the most part he understand the reasons for all the powers she's taking and he doesn't see any gotchas.
He does flip to a blank page and make a list though.
Tom's musing on possible cuts
Angelic Tones 2
Size Difference 2
Undressing Room 3
Well Endowed 1
Hollow Leg 1
Making Ends Meet 1
Where The Heart Is 1
Roundabout 2
And then it's on to the drawbacks she is taking.
He's a little concerned with the bit about not being able to kill and more worried if she changes that to being unable to injure but really she doesn't think that Sapphire could bring herself to do that regardless.
No the real worry is from the Dramatic Damsel tree.
I wonder a little if Sapphire is reading the term "love interest" too narrowly in Love Is A Battlefield. I think she's translating that into meaning really close friends, people she's comfortable saying "I love you" with because she doesn't really get crushes. Do you think it would actually work that way or is it broader than that?
I think it would be both broader and narrower in different ways. Love Is A Battlefield is focused around romantic connections, meaning that close friendships without a romantic or sexual element would be noncentral to its focus and might not count for it; but it also doesn't require closeness in the sense of trust, as long as there is a relationship where the potential for intimacy and intensity is strongly present.
I don't know if I'm worrying about Down To Earth more than I should be. I think it's the part of what she's planning I'm the most worried about though. I think the thing that worries me is that there aren't any real boundaries on what it can cause. It's all based on what's happening around her and how able she is to understand things without going through them. And also on how many other difficulties and limitations she's experiencing.
It really is made for her. And not just because she asked you for something like that specifically.
I think the other part of it is that it brings into focus the fact that she is going to be doing things that might be dangerous even if she doesn't take Down To Earth. And I know she has It Gets Better but I still worry about it. Especially since I won't be there with her.
Thanks for talking with me. I should probably go do other things since I at least need to keep up with my classes.
But I did say I would share another poem with you so here's one I called Wisdom.
Question what you know is true.
Search deep and far with open eyes.
Question what you thought you knew.Seeking, grasping every clue,
Find new truth, the ultimate prize.
Question what you know is true.Writers, scholars, perhaps now you,
Always searching for the why's
Question what you thought you knew.You'll be among the proud the few,
Flying up above the skies.
Question what you know is true.Even when it is taboo,
Search for, find, see through the guise.
Question what you thought you knew.'Tis only only questioners who,
Find themselves among the wise.
Question what you know is true.
Question what you thought you knew.
She turns her attention to the rest of the powers she's planning to take. She might look at the ones she's not again later but it's more important to be sure she wants everything she is taking.
The answer is an unequivocal yes until she gets back to Providential Parenthood. She spends a little time really thinking about the difference here.
I spent some time thinking about it and I think I'm going to stick to Providential Parenthood. Whether I'm actually ready is more important to me than if I think I'm ready. And I don't think I'd mind being surprised.
I was about to say that I could also still use more mundane sorts of birth control but I guess I don't know if taking Providential Parenthood or just being Spirit touched in general means that's less likely to work.
Yes. With Providential Parenthood, I think you can think of it as... if you're using birth control, it's because you don't feel that you're ready to have a child, which isn't a full answer to the question of whether you're ready, so Providential Parenthood can still override that, but there are times when it might have given you a child if you hadn't chosen to use birth control, and won't because you did. (If your partner is choosing to use birth control, and you care about their readiness, Providential Parenthood won't override it for them because it would be inappropriate to do that when they haven't chosen to take a power specifically for sometimes having children unexpectedly.)
And shortly after that she's finished reading the powers that have shields against hidden dangers and onto the drawbacks.
The line saying she may not find peace in Signature Style is a little ominous but she's mostly okay with it. A question does occur to her though. And then she thinks a bit more and decides that it's not really worth asking. It Gets Better doesn't promise she eventually has no problems or complaints it just promises she'll be okay. Wearing clothes that aren't a fit for what she wants is hardly the end of the world.
Thinking a little more there is another question that comes up though:
Just to confirm a dress that fits my style that is keeping me as warm as a winter coat would because of Cosmetic Equipment still counts as fitting my style right?
The next drawback she hasn't spent as much time reading about is Makes The Dream Work
So it says that if my powers would make me the central star they'll hold back from doing that. Does that mean that my powers in general become less effective if they would help me with the project or just that powers specifically oriented to move me into the center of things hold back?
Hmm, that's kind of a complicated question...
The short answer is no, it's not making you less effective, it's disrupting any power effect that would make you outshine or overpower your colleagues socially.
The long answer is that there are a lot of ways to outshine or overpower people socially by being more effective and successful than them, but you probably won't be trying to do those things? If you are approaching teamwork with the attitude that you want to be working with people and helping them and teaching them so that you're all more effective together, you won't have a problem. The only way your effectiveness might end up getting dampened by Makes The Dream Work is if you're using your effectiveness as a way of keeping other people down.
What I'm wondering now is what it'll be like to have this operating on my life. Because... I can see a version or being unable to kill that's more like a power where I can do anything and somehow magically nobody will die. That doesn't really fit as a flaw though.
So that makes me expect it'll be more like being unable to bring myself to do certain things or freezing up if I try. Does that sound right to you?
More like freezing up than like having people mysteriously not die when you do things that should otherwise kill them, yes. I think the details of how exactly you're prevented will depend on your narrative sense and what feels appropriate to you.
She nods.
Okay, do you have a sense of where it might draw the line? Or is that a choice I need to make now?
Sorry I guess I'm not explaining myself very well.
She pauses and takes a breath.
I don't want to find myself in a position like this but I can imagine a situation where people die whatever choice I make and I'm wondering if this would mean I just can't make any choices at all I that sort of situation.
Being unable to kill would mean being unable to kill a person directly, through your own actions. Making decisions that indirectly cause deaths would still be possible. I'm having trouble imagining a scenario where your choices are between directly acting to kill some people and directly acting to kill others, but yes, in that situation you wouldn't be able to do either of those things and would just not be able to act. You also wouldn't be able to kill a person in order to save someone they were about to kill.
I think the solution to most of these dilemmas is going to be to focus on making the world better in ways that don't involve killing people.
I guess I do need to choose what I should forget about with Selective Memory.
I remember my original plan was to forget Down To Earth but that I thought that might not be the right choice given Seen With The Heart.
I don't want to put myself in a position where the reasoning I went though doesn't make sense given the things I'm hiding from myself.
That has me contemplating a few ideas. One thought I have is to try to balance the powers and drawbacks I'm forgetting so that I remember the amount of spare points I have correctly. I'm also leaning towards letting myself remember that there are powers and drawbacks I'm hiding.
My first thought based on all that would be to forget:
Personal Space and Popular for powers and Dramatic Damsel and Down To Earth for drawbacks. I'm not sure if that would work though.
Yeah... it might. I was planning on being a public figure way before I got to Popular though so I can imagine taking this power without knowing about Popular. If they weren't directly connected I'm pretty sure I would have considered taking just Approachable and not Popular.
I guess I don't have a good model for what forgetting things and having all the evidence erased will be like. Another thought I had was to forget powers that I would be bound to notice immediately but I wasn't sure how that would work.
It's definitely possible to forget noticeable powers and then deduce that you have some powers you've forgotten. I think anytime you forget a power or drawback that another power or drawback you haven't forgotten depends on, it will be possible to see the shadow of the one you forgot in the shape of the one you didn't - maybe harder with the Dramatic Damsel followups you didn't forget, since they sort of form their own offshoot genre of drawback that's distinct from Dramatic Damsel, but I think Approachable is built around Popular in a way that means it's hard to separate them cleanly. I might have a bit of an odd perspective on this, though, because I see the powers from the inside; it's probably harder for you to notice the conceptual details, even though I don't think it's impossible because the conceptual details are expressed in the behaviour of the power.
If you think it would work better I could switch from Personal Space to Popular.
I think it's a little more obvious there's something missing with what comes after Dramatic Damsel because Wardrobe Malfunction says "During stories for which your protections are lifted" But none of my other powers or drawbacks explain what kind of stories those would be.
Do you have any guesses as to what the altered text would look like then? I'm just trying to understand this. The other idea I have would be to forget about the whole Dramatic Damsel tree and then leave myself thinking that the normal amount of points would be 90. But then I don't have any warnings that my powers might not work sometimes.
I think maybe you'd end up with a paragraph at the end of the Drawback section introduction that explains that there's such a thing as storylines that lift your protections, that not everyone experiences them but you can take drawbacks that relate to them if you do, and that they only happen to people who are open to the possibility of them. And then individual drawback text being adjusted accordingly.
Oh, that's good. I have a new plan then.
I think I want to forget Dramatic Damsel and Down to Earth like we walked about and a one point power.
She flips back through the list.
Hmm, I feel like the only one that isn't tangled up with a lot of other discussions is Making Ends Meet. Maybe the plan of forgetting Popular and Approachable is better. I want the base point total to be a multiple of five because otherwise I feel like I would have commented on it.
And now to read through Dramatic Damsel and everything connected to it. A part of her wants to just skip it she feels like she's thought these to death but she buckles down and starts to read anyway. Dramatic Damsel doesn't have any new secrets she's noticed.
Tom did say she should be talk about Love Is A Battlefield though.
Tom said I should talk with you about Love Is A Battlefield. Reading it though my first guess is that there might be something I wasn't expecting about who it applies to?
Yes. He said you'd be expecting it to apply to close friends, and while it can, it's more focused on relationships with intensity as well as intimacy - romantic relationships most centrally, but I think non-romantic relationships can have the relevant kind of intensity too.
It's sort of hard to describe, and I'm not very well placed to understand it, because I am a notebook. I would maybe say that... a relationship with intensity is one where you and the other person are excited by each other, and being near each other and interacting with each other helps you experience the world more vividly and move through it more boldly.
She didn't know the answer but that wasn't the shape she was expecting.
Now I'm doubting if even what I have with Tom counts. It's safe an important and having him to rely on means I'm more okay taking risks. And I trust him and he trusts me. I'm not sure I feel excited by being around him though, sometimes we do exciting things together but it isn't exciting to just cook a meal together. It's comfortable. I'm also not really sure what you mean by making the world more vivid. I don't think I've felt that way? Maybe I've just managed not to notice.
Seen With The Heart doesn't have any new secrets. It's good that she's not relying on it given her new knowledge.
Wardrobe Malfunction does have a weird line though.
So Wardrobe Malfunction says 'you may be forced to wear whatever your captor chooses to dress you in' I think that's mostly a reference to the classic Dramatic Damsel plots. Do you think that still applies with Down To Earth? Also how does that interact with Signature Style?
That part only applies for the purposes of classic Dramatic Damsel plots; if you forget Dramatic Damsel, it will probably be omitted from the description. With Signature Style, even if you do get forced to wear clothes someone else provided, they will turn out to fit your Signature Style somehow or other.
Great, I'm glad it works that way and that Signature Style would apply even if I was dealing with the classic damsel plots.
She continues her reading. None of the remaining drawbacks catch her eye as having a piece she hasn't considered.
So... I think that's what I'll end up going with but I have another question. How much does The Spirit nudge people into not worrying about my disappearance?
It's possible for me to accompany you to your new world instead of disappearing, if you'd like that. And... I think I could Dream Together with you, actually, sort of the same way. If you'd like.
If you take pictures or make copies of my pages, you can take them with you when you leave, if you want to have a record separate from that.
You're a friend and it would be nice to have you with me, I'm not sure if that's the best choice for me though. I think it would be easier to hide a little at the beginning wherever I end up. If I have a friend right there with me it will feel less urgent to meet new people and make new connections.
As for copying things down. I think I should at least write down the description of all the powers that I've taken and some condensed notes from what we've talked about so I can look at them if I'm having trouble remembering the details.
I probably shouldn't bother writing about the things I'm planning to forget since all that will just be erased.
Everything else feels more personal, and I can reminisce on old conversations when I see you again.
As a starting point she gets her phone to take some pictures. Text recognition is getting pretty good so she can save herself a lot of typing by using it. Having a second version of the text on her phone is just a bonus. Copying down pointers and notes is a slightly more challenging proposition but she gets out her laptop and puts her typing skills to use. She'll just print off one of the school printers when she's done. Eventually she changes her mind and copies down the powers she isn't taking too since she is leaving with extra points and she might change her mind about what powers she wants.
That does make her think of another question though.
Is it possible for unspent points to turn into custom powers that I don't know exist?
I figured but it still felt better to ask.
I've written up my list. I think at this point I mostly just need to talk to some people. I think I'll show you to some friends if that's alright so I don't seem crazy when I tell them to expect to see me in their dreams. I also need to figure out what I'm going to do about telling the college and talk to my parents. It'll probably be at least another couple days before I'm ready to leave.
♡
Sapphire starts making plans to see friends and tell them goodbye. By the time Tom gets back she's at least reached out to everyone on her list and gotten some responses.
The next few days are spent wrapping up a few different loose ends, putting her obligations on hold and talking with friends. That weekend she and Tom drive home and talk to their parents. They're naturally incredulous at first but The Notebook is unambiguously magical. They're not exactly supportive of her plan to temporarily drop out of school but they accept it.
A few days later, back at school Sapphire holds a small going away party.
At it's climax she gives everyone one last round of hugs and then she writes in the Notebook one more time.
It's time. I'm ready to go. Thank you for everything.
I hope you have a wonderful time! Talk to you again soon. ♡