When Hyacinth comes home to her new apartment for the first time after a long day at university, it's to the sight of moving bots just finishing dropping off the last of her stuff and moving furniture into place. The full-immersion VR pod her parents gave her is safely hooked up in the pod room, her bed is in her bedroom, she has chairs and a desk and some bookshelves. Clothes are mostly still in boxes, waiting to be hung up in the closet. Holovid and a cozy chair occupy the living room. She doesn't have any food in the small kitchen yet.
Hyacinth - (she's still getting used to the name) - sets down her ill-fitting body on the side of her bed.
It has been pretty much the worst month of her life. She had thought that because it was clear to her, that because the love and the joy inside her that bubbled up when she finally put on the dress was so shockingly obvious, that it would be obvious to everyone she cared about too.
That was wrong, and a disastrous month later has seen her move out of her old family home on the seashore for this cramped apartment. UBI's caught her, sure, but god was it ever a headache getting the papers together and moving everything out. Her family fought her the whole way, but they had to admit that she was allowed to leave if she wanted to -
She pushes up her glasses and presses her palms against her eyes just to bathe in the soothing blackness for a while.
All because of that damn assignment in her creative writing course and some well-meaning advice from that author at the conference to "look at what scares you."
She has no idea what she's doing. University is a week on and a week off now, and she's been doing her best to throw herself into the work, but now she's got nothing to do for nine whole days. Any other week this would be a vacation she'd welcome, but going back to her friends in Soul Reavers is impossible, her family's in the fucking guild, it'd be awkward as hell.
She hasn't got anything to eat. She should go get groceries but she's exhausted.
She gets up and paces over to the window, looking out at the five feet of alley before the window faces another brick wall. It lets in light, but it's a far cry from the seaside view she's used to.
She wants out.
She wants out of this whole situation.
It's ridiculous and unfair and stupid.
She's in the pod before the thought even fully forms, her violet dress flapping against the edge of the pod awkwardly. She pulls it in, settles the neural stimulator on her head, and lays back.
For all her family's reluctance to accept her, they didn't skimp on this present. She'll be safe in here.
It's always a little scary to accept the dive. If the feed system doesn't work she could starve herself unknowingly. But right now, she needs out.
Hyacinth settles back, tenses for a moment - this part is always uncomfortable - and accepts the prick of the intravenous line to the underside of her right wrist. There's more, but she doesn't like to think about it. This is clean. Medical. A safety feature, really. The rest happens once she's under and is gone by the time she wakes, so it's like it never happened.
She lays her head back against the comfortable pillow, and sends the familiar mental motion through the neural crown...
And her room vanishes.
And with a flicker of light, her starspace opens up around her.
She's had it since she was a child. A small plane of stars, to launch and edit programs from. Her own little magic factory. Some of it even works based on her own little bits of code. She's no expert, but she can read an API.
Her body is more slight here, a little more androgynous and formless. She doesn't have a proper avatar here. Never set it up, for... some reason.
She traces a symbol - [Search] - then wills for CORA to appear.
After a few moments of flicking through lore she's brought to a character generation screen. She installed it before the move. Hoping for... something.
Now it's blindingly obvious what she wanted.
Character creation sliders blur under her will. She knows what she wants.
She wants the body she'll never have.
She wants to be free.
She wants braids. Long ones, down to her waist. Lavender hair. Magic. Real magic. Glasses, of course, can't not have them. A pair of fox ears, so Tod Sifv for the race. A smaller, shorter body. Slight breasts. Between her legs can be standard for girls. It's not like she's committed to playing CORA. There'll be another fulldive MMO along if she doesn't like it. Even though she can't reroll this -
It's good enough.
She'll never have another first chance.
She has fox ears. And breasts. And a distinct lack of something she's used to between her legs. Her frame is shorter, her skin a little more sensitive. There's a fluttery sensation in her stomach.
She could stay on this character selection screen for a long time.
It feels right. In a way that no other body she's worn ever has.
... Suddenly, it seems blindingly obvious why she played Undead in Realms of Dragons. The feeling of having a rotting, wrong body is just everyday for her. It doesn't surprise her, the way it did other players. It doesn't feel wrong. The unnatural strength of being Undead was just... how she lived.
But this body is full of energy. She feels like her heart is going to burst, it feels so right.
She grins irrepressibly. "Hyacinth," she says to herself. Her voice is light, bubbly... A little too cute actually.
She tunes it downwards a little. Keep it feminine, but she'd like something... a little more husky and soft, actually... does she want to keep her Canadian accent?
"Hyacinth."
There, that's a little better.
She looks at the confirm button.
Alright so if she just consults the CORA strategy guide she has open in this other simulspace, she should take Ranged Cast Magic for any form of blasting or offensive casting. For defensive casting she should take Self Cast Magic, and if she wants to make magic items of any kind, Sustain Magic. There are a lot of more specialized trees but she wants to be an enchanter of the most generalist type she can be.
Her race gives her Affinity: Arcane for free, which is tremendously versatile, so the question is whether she wants to go with light or fire as her secondary affinity.
Light... is traditional, for women. There's always been an inclination towards "girls heal." That makes her want it a little, but...
Consciousness doesn't return instantly. There's a timeless moment of dislocation before the neural crown disengages and she's left back in the pod.
She gets out, goes into her bedroom. Changes into her VR wear, little more than a set of underwear. She doesn't have a proper bra but that's okay. Nobody's going to see her in the pod, and nobody would know what they were looking at.
She's going to be going down for a long time. She can feel it.
She sets the pod to give her an alarm on next Sunday morning. Nine days of her newest life.
Then she gets back in.
The girl — who is a Darkling, from what Hyacinth remembers of reading the lore during character creation — has large black wings, and horns that sweep back over her scalp, starting just above her violet hairline, and a long dark violet tail with a blunted spade on the end, and bright violet eyes. She's wearing a black blouse and trousers under some very basic leather armor, and black boots.
She dances between the wolves, slashing at them with her saber and occasionally using her wings to vault high over the beasts.
This other wolf wants some. It seems to think Hyacinth looks like easier prey than the Darkling girl, who's a bit bloodied but doing fine, judging by the three other wolf corpses on the ground.
"Oh hey, where'd you come from?", the girl asks. She leaps over a nearby wolf, slashes the flank of another, then briefly lights her sword up with sparking electricity before stabbing the wolf she jumped over, which spasms and limps away from her.
She tosses a firebolt at the wolf with an effort of will, but the end of her staff is off to the side from her earlier cast and it goes wide. Shit, this is one of those games where you have to actually aim, like Terra Defenders.
She runs to the side - always faster than backing up - and lines up the angle, then casts again.
This time the firebolt catches it full in the face.
The wolf she blasts howls and darts back toward the violet-haired girl. The one the darkling girl stabbed with lightning takes one more slash and goes down, and the girl spins and slashes the burned one, which quickly drops as well.
"Awesome. Welcome to Parcosia, I'm Sable, wanna party up?"
One wolf lunges toward Sable's thigh; she leaps out of the way. Another runs past Hyacinth, snapping at her as it passes. It has a large gash bleeding down its side.
The one Hyacinth whacks peels off with a yelp, but then darts back in toward her, lunging at her! The one she blasts, meanwhile, gets very unlucky. Her firebolt catches it directly in a wound, and it sizzles and falls.
"Sweet," Sable replies with a grin, and a party invite appears in Hyacinth's UI.
You have been invited to join Sable Inkheart's party.
Accepting or declining feels like a primitive mental action.
It falls in a bloody heap, and both girls get the chime of a level up notification. When inspected, it reveals that there's an attribute point and three ability points to spend. The former increase a character's basic attributes, while the latter allow purchasing new nodes from one's ability trees, to create new spells and abilities.
She takes a careful step, and winces as her still-injured thigh stabs her. Another thing that's different in CORA. In Realms of Dragons you only took pain on a hit, not afterwards.
"Ow," she says eloquently. "That'll teach me to jump in without slotting any abilities."
On closer inspection, it looks like Sable's stepping a bit gingerly as well. She must've been doing a good job of ignoring it during the fight.
She nods. "Yeah, worth spending some time on that before you see combat. No idea why you landed in the middle of my fight with the wolves, rather than in a safer spot."
Okay, so the system shows her that she has got... Fire Bolt, Repel, and Shove/Leap.
Fire bolt is easy. Fire node in ranged casting plus bolt node in the same ability tree. Very basic. (Ow.)
Repel is the defensive spell she was looking for. It uses a burst node from the Self tree and a Force node from the Ranged tree to throw things away that get too close. It's not the classic defensive ward she's used to, but she could've used it. Serves her right for not looking over herself during character creation.
Shove/Leap looks to be a strength buff that works by aligning force with blows or pushes. Force again, with Enhance from the Self tree and Sustained from the Sustain tree.
All of this she could've used, but she is apparently a stupid dumb-dumb today. Her leg is making it hard to concentrate on anything other than that.
She investigates the Sustained tree, and indeed finds Heal Wounds in it. It's Light affinity so it'll cost a boatload of mana but right now she does not care. She unlocks it, and screw her Fire affinity.
What nodes can she mix with that? Self Burst makes sense. A ranged bolt of healing... less so?
She'll have to see if she can get enough power out of a self burst to not be fucking bleeding.
"Ooh. That feels much better. Cute, handy with a firebolt, and able to heal? Quite a handy combo." She grins playfully. "So what's your name, and would you like to keep teaming up even after we head back to town and collect our bounty?"
<Go on,> Hailey teases internally, <you've only known her for five minutes.>
<Is anything I said wrong?>, Sable fires back with an internal smirk.
She opens her mouth, pauses.
"Hyacinth," she says after a second. "Though I will admit I didn't really think about how it'd abbreviate. Sin and Sable, the purple sisters. Kind of cute." She tugs at a strand of her own lavender hair. "You were really cool fighting those wolves by the way."
"Pretty name, Hyacinth. I do like the ring of Sin and Sable, too. Not sure about sisters, though," she grins warmly as she replies, arching her eyebrows a bit at the end. “And thanks. This game really rewards external skill, and the opportunity to practice in private VR combines really dangerously with having nothing to do. The result is being surprisingly good with a sword."
Not sure about sisters, huh? Well she'll file that away for a bit.
Hyacinth plants her staff firmly. It's a casual motion.
"Yeah," she says. "I'm just coming from Realms of Dragons so I'm a mixture of a complete newbie and an actually good player. The sharpness of wounds in this one really surprised me."
She nods. "It's kind of a lot. Feels... grounding, for me, though. I suppose that's why I made a melee build." She hums a bit. "I haven't played Realms of Dragons. Wasn't a flexible enough magic system for me, honestly, and I wanted something eighteen-plus. No worries about not knowing CORA, though. I think that was level level two for both of us. I just know swords and guns for my own special interest reasons, is all, and picked the former for my build."
<I'm a special interest? Awwww!>, teases Ruby, hugging Sable mentally.
She rubs her thigh where the wound was. It still aches, but kind of in a nice way.
Sheeeeeeeeeeelving that thought.
"Yeah, I wanted to... move on a bit. I moved out recently and I wanted a new game my family wasn't also playing. CORA's been big lately so I decided to try it out."
And so Sable will escort Hyacinth, arm in arm, back to the small Parcosian village that issued this bounty. The woods are mostly quiet, with birds chirping occasionally. When they're most of the way back to town, Sable pauses for a moment, her wings, horns, and tail shimmering and vanishing.
She frowns and shakes her head. "No. You're fine. Darklings sometimes get a bit of unpleasantness, but no one gives artifisuki or any other nonhumans any trouble unless they've spent too much time listening to Pagutum's bullshit."
It appears Sable has mistaken Hyacinth for a non-fae foxgirl.
"Ugh. Them. America loses one war against the Commonwealth..."
She sighs and futzes with her hair a little.
"Can we focus on questing a bit? I don't play games to do politics."
She pauses, tilts her head. "Actually that's a lie, I'm pretty damn good at Mafia. But that's for fun. It's different when real world shit gets involved."
"Good idea, Sin," she says with a laugh and a grin, "I'm trying to avoid those assholes myself. So we're going to get enough money from this to afford an inn for tonight, along with some very basic supplies you're going to need — waterskin, some food, bedroll, a personal tent, maybe some little warding stakes to go around it. If you're sticking with me longer we can share my stakes, but I still want you to have a pair of your own. After that we can see about upgrades to your gear."
She hums thoughtfully. "I don't have explicit plans about next quests yet. I guess we'll see what's available when we get there."
"Yeah, I think I'll stick around. You seem interesting."
She ducks her head. "Sorry about the swearing by the way, the guilds back in Realms of Dragons were... very male-dominated and I found that swearing got me taken a bit more seriously. I can knock it off if it makes you uncomfortable."
Sable giggles and grins, shaking her head. "Unless you start quoting Patriot Church doctrine at me and suggesting I should be purged or calling me 'young man'," she makes an eloquently disgusted face for a moment, before returning to her easy grin, "it'll take a lot more than some cursing to make me uncomfortable."
On the way to the inn, they pass a few homes, some of which double as businesses like a cobbler and a blacksmith and leatherworker. Also there's a general store. Down a side street, an orphanage is visible. The small tavern, when they reach it, has a sign declaring it the Rusted Bucket Inn, with a wooden bucket hanging upside down below the sign.
"Nice to meet you, Jorem. I'm Hyacinth."
She smiles and ducks her head, leaning on her staff a little. "We both took some wounds from that wolfpack, but I was able to focus and manage a healing spell. It just about exhausted me to heal both of us though, so I thought discretion was the better part of valor."
She rubs her thigh. "Also, I've done my fair share of sparring, but it's another thing to actually get bitten." She gives Jorem a sour look. "It still aches a bit."
She giggles warmly and gives Hyacinth a friendly squeeze. "No worries. I've been there."
And then she leads the way out to the shops, with a parting wave to Jorem. First stop is the general store. A wide variety of basic goods are available. Sable immediately bustles off and grabs a bedroll, waterskin, and some assorted tools. "Anything you want while we're in here?"
"I basically only leave once a month to make sure my nutrient paste is topped up, and then stay out for a day or so to make sure I don't shock my system too hard from switching too often. I can make sure to schedule those for your uni weeks."
She adds the two person tent to the pile, and then sets her old tent next to it to trade in.
"Anything else you think you'd like?"
A basic bulletin board hangs on the wall, with various paper notices pinned to it. Little interface windows hover next to each listing the minimum recommended level.
Ten crowns to kill a herd of corrupted mountain goats east of town. (Min level 1-2)
One hundred fifty crowns to identify and put an end to whoever or whatever is corrupting wild animals in the western hills. (Min level 20-25)
Fifty crowns to kill a crew of bandits on the road east of town. Requested by the city of Cardova. (Min level 5-7)
"Well, we're three now and I think we'll at least hit four from the goat bounty. Between the two of us, that might be enough to take care of the bandits. Also, there might be a new corrupted animal bounty tomorrow or the day after that we could use to get to five. They've had them every day this week, from what I hear."
"So for right now I'm hoping for a generalist wizard build. Blasting is good and worthy but I'd like to get into something of a controller role as well. I've always found crowd control to be very useful in these kinds of games. And I'd like to pursue some noncombat applications of magic too - item crafting systems are fun!"
"Crafting systems are so fun," she agrees with a grin. "W—I'm mostly aiming at a sort of swordwitch build, agile as fuck and channeling magic and abilities through the sword. Also, I've got shapeshifting as a racial ability. Infiltrator variant of Darkling. We can probably do decently on our own if you lean into the crowd control and herding, and I bounce between targets being highly mobile DPS."
"We might want a tank, though. And eventually we need to find a dedicated healer, just so we don't eat your whole damned mana pool for it."
She shakes her head. "But yeah. Swordwitch. Currently I have a lightning charge I can apply to my saber, and a couple enhanced strikes and parries. Need to come up with a few better magically empowered attacks, I think, and definitely want to make a deflecting parry that can handle ranged attacks or even spells eventually."
After Jorem heads off, Sable nods. "So hmm. If you're leaning into fire, I could build a fire resistance passive perhaps, make it easier to dance through your crowd control unburnt. That and a few shadow-enhanced strikes, perhaps? Maybe a supernaturally fast attack of some kind?"
This is actually quite good. She's never had venison before.
"Yeah, that makes sense. Given how realistic this game is I'm worried I might actually start a fire with my blasting, so some nodes to supress fire would probably be useful. And would let me get rid of my own crowd control."
She smiles and flips through some nodes, eating a few more spoonfuls of stew. "Oh this is useful. Life drain node. Could make a vampiric slash. It's not strong, but every bit counts. And then here's an elemental cut node, which could be combined with shadow — my affinity — and a couple others to make a shadow cutter. And... ah, there's a basic resistance node. Okay, I think I know what I'm building: a shadow cutter for breaking basic armor, a vampiric strike to minimize how much you need to use that healing spell, and a passive fire resistance ability."
"That makes a lot of sense. Let me see what I've got in my trees..."
She flicks through her nodes, selecting out nodes.
"So what I'm thinking is... I want the Extinguish node from Persistent, and the Ranged Burst node from Ranged... And then I have three more left. I want to do my best to exploit my high Intricacy, so goodstuff utility nodes are probably my best bet, especially because my Capacity is low. So mixins and passives.
"Mixins... Held Spell looks good, it'd let me hold a firebolt for light or create an extended repulsion field... I could take a misc buff from the Ranged tree like less mana expenditure or more power, but that seems boring. Ranged could give me curving or chaining or bouncing shots with some more investment, which would play nicely with Held Spell... I think Held Spell is just an obvious pick, it chains into better persistent effects later.
"I feel like a mana regeneration buff would be nice out of combat utility. I could take a Passive from the Self tree, but the buff percentage is really low. Is there a way to get higher efficiency... Ooh, Meditation! "Dramatically increases the effects of a passive buff while you concentrate on it as an active ability." And it's actually pretty effective. That'd be like Evocation in Realms of Dragons, super handy out of combat."
Void. She's so cute when she nerds out about spell design. "Those sound like some impressive options, and some very solid ways to build for future growth. I like it."
Sable just grins at Sin for a moment, clearly intrigued and delighted, before adding, "I wonder if the meditation will be built on actual meditation techniques."
"Heh, stealth mindfulness therapy. That'd be fun."
She flicks through her trees some more.
"Looking later into the trees, there's eventually a "chain effects" node in the deeper persistent tree. Which I think is core to a high-intricacy blaster build with persist because it lets you build more versatile and powerful anyspells. Anything that gets you more action and capacity economy from intricacy is good for my build.
"Also in the persist tree a little closer is "minor lingering buff", which would let me trade mana and time for stats. There's an old meme about a powerful wizard who'd cast a dozen buffs at the start of every day - I maybe don't want to go that far, but again, anything that gives better action and capacity economy is good.
"Under Self Cast Magic there's passive buffs for all the casting stats. I hate to say it, but I might have to season my Intricacy build with some Capacity simply because only having three spell slots is going to get awfully narrow in practice. We'll see how it goes with Intricacy buffs and so on, but part of me wants more options."
"Looking for crowd control... Extinguish Force could potentially provide some fun effects, I don't know what it'd do precisely but making someone or something unable to walk easily seems like a possible outcome."
She takes another spoonful of her stew and thinks for a bit.
"I should really have a look at all the caster stats again and refresh myself on what they all do."
Stats, briefly explained:
- Strength
- Your physical strength and ability to move powerfully.
- Power
- Strength's magical counterpart, and the might of your spells.
- Speed
- How swiftly and precisely you can physically move.
- Urgency
- Your casting speed, the ability to throw spells quickly and smoothly.
- Endurance
- Your physical stamina, your ability to keep running or fighting longer.
- Capacity
- Your magical stamina, determines the size (and to a lesser extent the regeneration) of your mana pool.
- Constitution
- Your resistance to status effects.
- Toughness
- Your resistance to damage.
- Anamnesis
- Your capacity for "spell slots".
- Intricacy
- The complexity of spells and abilities you're allowed to construct in the ability builder.
"Either you're adorably oblivious or I was subtler than I expected, at least one of the two. You spend several minutes geeking out adorably on spell design, you're incredibly pretty in a very cute and petite way, and you've just rolled with all the chaos since landing here. Yes, I think you're cute."
She eats a bit of stew to keep some semblance of composure after saying that.
"So I was saying! Before I got totally distracted by the flirting. Probably it would be smart to take some Anamnesis improvements soon to slot more spells, and then once I feel I have enough to load a proper toolset we can focus more in on Intricacy. Self Tree has an Anamnesis passive, I just checked, so that can maybe be one of my next three nodes... Or I could just spend my new ability points there, not sure which is more efficient. Rapidity and Power will probably come in later too, but for now I want utility over raw strength."
She nods. "Yeah, a flexible foundation works better, in my opinion. Moving in the direction of more options is rarely a bad idea. Anamnesis is going to be key to early survivability, I think, so you can keep enough things available to be able to respond to a wide enough variety of circumstances."
Then, with a tilt of her head and a thoughtful hum, she wonders aloud, "What sort of crowd control is reachable just with these early nodes, though? Maybe one that makes flames sticky and persistent? That would let you modify any fire spell for area denial, or to ruin a whole group of beasties' days at once."
"Held Spell with Ranged Burst Fire would let me sustain a big patch of fire, but I bet it would suck mana like nobody's business. I could beeline for Minor Lingering Spell in the Persistent tree but it'd take all my points. It's a really good ability though, since it'd apply to buffs too, so it might be worth beelining to."
She flicks through nodes. "Splash spell in the Ranged tree - it's a variant of Burst - comes with a minor lingering effect at a lower intensity around the main target. It might be better to take than the direct more explosive Burst. The tradeoff is less AOE effect, but for longer. More of a damage over time thing."
"I've already got a minor passive resistance, but it might be smart to upgrade it. I don't know what it means to have a "minor" resistance, whether that means I'm already proof to mundane flames or not. It might be smart for us to do a test with a candle or something."
She nods. "Good plan. Resistances usually scale by being immunity below a certain intensity, then decreasing percentage of reduction above that. So I think you'll have candles covered, maybe as far as torches? Not sure. There'll be a candle in the room."
She tears a piece off her roll to sop up some of the remaining stew.
She looks over at the fireplace.
"You're on," she says. "I bet I've got spare mana by now, I can heal it even if it hurts like a bitch."
She leaves the remnants of her stew behind and walks over next to the fireplace, where she crouches and holds out a hand to feel the warmth of the flames on the back of her hand.
Brushing the edges feels distinctly hot. Holding her hand directly in the upper reaches of the flames stings a little but doesn't really get worse. When she starts to lower her hand closer to the logs, about midway down it starts to noticeably hurt, though even there it would take a while to actually do more than redden her skin.
Then she laughs and shakes out her lightly-scorched hand. "Cool!"
She runs her thumb across her palm a little and grins. "Honestly, if I took another fire resistance node I could maybe hang out in the splash of my own flames, which would be one heck of a deterrent for anything that wanted to attack me."
She picks up the poker, which has been lying in the fireplace for a bit, and slides her hand slowly down it until she feels her resistance start to fail again. Does it extend to generally hot objects?
"It's a really interesting sensation. It still feels hot, like, intensely hot, but something in me likes it rather than flinching. It doesn't burn, even when it gets to be too much I have space to play with. I wouldn't want to put my hand on that log down there, but this much is easy."
She hums a bit. "Passives occupy a slot themselves, is the thing, so it would take one hell of an ability build to make an Anamnesis passive that was slot-positive. With the fire resistance, you're just making a new version to go in the already-occupied slot using your improved intricacy and any better nodes you've bought."
"If passives take slots, then the Meditation and Passive Mana Regeneration out of combat recovery build is a bit more fragile because I would have to unslot two of my four things out of combat, which means that if we're ambushed I'm really in a bad situation. On the other hand, being able to meditate to become even more proof against flames is really cool. But probably not actually that useful."
Sin gets up from the side of the fire. "So then it seems I need to pick a fourth node, probably as a mix in... I could take Redirecting Spell from the Ranged tree, and then with Held I'd have a lot of control... But I want to work on the Persistent tree to get to Lingering..."
She sorts through her tree again.
"I'm taking two nodes from Persistent in this, Extinguish and Held Spell, and Heal Wounds is from Persistent as well so we're making good progress there. In Ranged we take Splash Spell and in Self we take Passive Fire Resist. So the last node is really kind of free. That said, most of my core build items are in Persistent..."
She hums to herself softly.
"I think I want to take a mana efficiency node in Persistent, that'll let me use my high Intricacy well."
Would she like to grab the log? Grabbing log by the coals only stings now. This probably isn't nearly as hot as mage fires can get at higher levels, but it's hot enough to warm an entire tavern, and should be blistering her hand right now.
Instead it stings.
She grins and cracks up laughing, and leaves the fireplace poker behind in the fireplace where it belongs. "Yeah, uh, I kinda got into character there. This is fun." She ducks her head and smiles and then goes and picks up her staff from where it's leaning against the table.
Soon enough, they're looking at a medium-sized room, big enough not to be cramped but not really spacious either. Two beds sit against one wall, and a desk, two chairs, and a mirror sit across. A sign in the hall indicates that the bathroom is at the end of the hall.
It feels so good to be her. She'd almost forgotten it, it feels so natural. But seeing herself in the mirror, her real herself, makes her feel... amazed. Thrilled. Her stomach is full of butterflies and her whole body seems to tingle a little. The flush on her face is heavy and hot but she doesn't care at all.
Sable kisses her way across Sin's cheek, over her jaw, down her neck, mixing in gentle little bites here and there. Her hand squeezes Sin's ass, pressing her hips forward to grind against Sable's thigh through her clothes. Her other hand cups Sin's cheek, then strokes down her chest and caresses her breast softly.
She stiffens with a sharp intake of breath as Sable's finger brushes her nipple beneath her dress - the sensation is sharp, insistent, bright - and then giggles helplessly.
Gosh this is really, really a lot. This is so good. This is, like, wow.
She seems to be having some problems making thoughts.
Oh good. Trouble forming thoughts is exactly the goal. That means Sable's doing something right.
She notes the gasp she got and thumbs across Hyacinth's nipple again, all while grinding her thigh in harder. Oh, how about she tries stroking the base of Sin's tail?
Oh. Oh wow.
She giggles more and pulls Sable in more firmly atop her, her hands digging into her back and ass.
The hand on her tail just makes even more warmth coil in her core, and her breath shivers as she smothers another laugh with a kiss against Sable's shoulder. She grins helplessly and lays her head in and hazards a soft bite.
"W-wow..." She breathes against Sable's shoulder and closes her eyes for a moment, focusing for a moment on the hollow ache inside her. That thigh pressing into her is so much.
And she keeps building that pressure and intensity, faster and more, because she loves watching Sin come undone like this, watching her begin to realize just how good this can be, when it's only going to get better still. Sable nips and kisses and sucks at Sin's neck, rolls her hips, grinds her own sex against Sin's thigh even as she grinds her thigh against Sin's.
She shudders under Sable's thigh and bucks instinctually, trying to get out from under the stimulation, but that just makes it worse -
Her body shudders and she buries her face in Sable's shoulder. The sensation's filling her up, burning through her, there's nowhere for it to go -
Then she buries her face in Sable's shoulder again and lets out a long string of blushy laughter.
"I, I, um, ehe, oh wow, he, eheheh, okay, I..."
It's so much better than she imagined. Her whole body feels warm and tingly and hot. She doesn't feel the need to stop at all. It's like the intensify of that flare's just kindled the need for more in her.
She presses her lips to Sable's skin and giggles and kisses and moves, grinding back against her even through the lingering warmth. Her body feels sweet and fuzzy like static and she wants more. Her hands grab greedily and her body presses in hard, her thigh shifting against Sable's sex.
It's the best thing that's ever happened to her.
Well Sable certainly won't say no to that. Her blouse comes off easily, revealing the same default grey sports bra, and then she'll shimmy out of her trousers as well. She quickly pulls her bra and panties off too, releasing her shapeshift in the same moment, revealing nipples that run just a bit more lavender or violet than the usual human pink, skin just a bit unnaturally pale, and that her flushed cheeks have shifted to be a bit violet rather than pink-hued as well.
... something in her which has never quite ever been at rest relaxes, just the tiniest bit.
Her hand slips down to Sable's sex, and she starts to stroke as well, imitating Sable's light touches.
Her body is full of happy hormones already, and she just knows that this will be incredible. Her stomach is full of butterflies and her body is flushed with sweat and she's never been so happy.
She gasps again, softly, and bites her lip, pulling away from the nipple she'd been sucking and gazing into Sin's eyes. She notices that little untensing, too. She's so glad to make something in this lovely, precious, beautiful girl's life finally go right. Long overdue, in her opinion.
That gets an intense, shuddery moan out of her. That aching hollowness in her suddenly has an answer and it feels so good. She's being claimed, being filled, being taken.
"H-holy fuck." She clenches instinctually and rocks in against Sable, her own hand pressing in a little more firmly but not quite daring to slip inside.
"Good girl," Sable whispers breathlessly. "Savor it. This is your body, and I'm going to help you find so many ways you can feel amazing in it."
She rocks against Sin's fingers, panting a bit, and then slips a second finger inside the smaller girl. She strokes and pumps her fingers, in and out, stroking against those particular oh-so-sensitive spots along her walls, and then brushes her thumb against Sin's clit, lightly, through the hood.
She stays pressed close, breasts squishing together, gazes locked together.
She responds as best she can, her own fingers daring to slip inside Sable for the first time. Her motions are a little clumsy, but she tries. It's so hard to focus through this. Almost impossible.
She stares deeply into Sable's eyes and nods shakily. "Yeah," she says softly, her fingers pressing up against the roots of Sable's clit like that one sex education manga said to do. "It is."
"Oh, you like that huh?"
She strokes slowly and firmly, grinding in against the spot that got a sigh from Sable. She feels sharp. Sharper than she's ever been, intent like a falcon on its prey. She wants to hear more of those sounds from Sable. She wants it so badly. So much she can taste it.
Her own hips roll against Sable's hand, her body hot and willing, her gaze still locked with Sable's.
She shivers and gasps, biting her lip but holding onto her focus enough to step up the intensity as she keeps plunging her fingers in and out of Sin. Sin may want more noises out of Sable, but she wants them just as badly from Sin.
"I do," she murmurs, "almost as much as I like watching you come apart in my hands from the pleasure."
Sable's not too far behind. She's been building up to this since they first tumbled onto the bed, after all. She moans and shudders and keeps fingering, keeps plunging and rocking, keeps clenching around Sin's fingers. "You," she murmurs breathlessly between kisses, "are a delight," kiss, "and a beauty," kiss-nip, "and a thrill," nibble-kiss, "and I'm the luckiest girl in the Duchy."
Fuck it's beautiful watching her come like that. Sable gasps harder, pants faster, and then a few seconds later she's shuddering and rocking, tail and free arm clinging tight to Hyacinth, a rising set of short moans spilling out of her as she falls over the edge as well.
She twines her tail together with Sable's, and kisses her like she could lose her.
She was right. It was incredible. This gorgeous woman wanted her and got her and she got to make her shudder too and she's no longer a virgin and she got to lose her virginity as a girl -
Her body's still warm and flushed and Sable looks so good. She's comforting. Beautiful. Precious.
This sex thing is really dangerous.
If she's not careful she just might fall in love with this ridiculous woman.
... for right now, though, she just wants to hold her close.
She pulls Sable in and flops down onto the bed.
Sable snuggles tightly into Hyacinth, smiling softly and draping her wings over her. "Well, whichever of us is luckier, I can firmly state that there's no one luckier than the two of us."
Honestly, Hyacinth might not be the only one at risk of falling in love. Clearly neither of them is going to say it yet, though. Even if they're both thinking it.
All this.
All this, and then on top of it, wingsnuggles.
She buries her face in Sable's shoulder and cries. Her tears stain Sable's shoulder as her breath hitches.
"I - I'm sorry - It's all - It's just too much. Too many good things. I -"
She pulls away and wipes at her face.
Well, that's perfectly fine with Sable. She's just going to keep holding Hyacinth here and petting her and snuggling her, wings and tail and all.
"Dumb luck, AI meddling, or both?" She shrugs, giggles faintly, and continues petting. "I feel pretty damned lucky here too."
She settles in close. She doesn't feel like she needs an answer.
Sable's body is warm beneath her, and her feathers are soft and tickiish against her skin. They feel like a warm blanket, a place of safety. A sanctuary.
Nothing in the world can hurt her in this woman's arms.
She feels at peace. Her tears have stopped and her body feels heavy. Her eyes stay firmly closed.
Right now she just wants to stay in this perfect moment.
Then here they'll stay. It's quiet and peaceful, just occasional soft creaks of the wood, warmth from the fire downstairs drifting upward, and the tender embrace of someone who wants to protect and cherish Hyacinth as much as she can. No outside world, just arms and wings and tail and soft bed underneath. Just gentle stroking and soft breath.
This girl...
What does she mean to her?
She's just stumbled into this incredible relationship in less than twenty-four hours. Another trans girl. Who wants to quest with her, who thinks she's cute, who buys her presents...
It's a little too good to be true, isn't it?
But the way she took her, the joy on her face, the way she shuddered -
That's not fake.
She doesn't know this girl, not really.
And yet she's her first.
She's pretty thrilled with this state of affairs, honestly. She squeezes and holds Hyacinth, smiling warmly, lingering in all the wonderful feelings. Who knows if this girl will stick it out, if this time she's found someone outside her head she actually gets to keep? She's willing to try, though.
She mentally pokes her UI, what time is it? Seven thirty? Not bad, she actually slept well for once in her life. Huh... she eyes the girl in her arms.
<Yes, I do think she has something to do with that,> Maya remarks.
Yeah, she probably does. Well, Sable stretches a bit. "They'll have a basic breakfast downstairs, just bread and jam, for another hour and change, I think. So we're not in a rush."
She kisses Hyacinth's cheek.
Adorable.
"Well, I don't know if anywhere in town serves pancakes, but I bet someplace in a bigger city does. The capital if nothing else."
Now she wants to make her pancakes. Pity they don't have a house.
Did she just think that?
<Yep. Pretty sure you're falling for her,> Hailey teases.
Huh. Yeah.
Next up she'll try and lock...
[Extinguish + Fire + Bolt + Splash Spell + Held Spell + Mana Efficiency], that can be Quell Flames.
After that... She'll add Mana Efficiency and Held Spell to Repel and just call it Repel II.
So she has Flare for offense, Repel II for defense, and Quell Flames to get control of fire that gets out of hand.
For her fourth ability...
She could keep Shove/Leap for feats of physical strength, or slot Cure Wounds with some Mana Efficiency, or try Extinguish Force...
She's going to try to slot [Extinguish + Force + Splash Spell + Held Spell]. And that can be... She's not sure. Grease? She really hopes it's Grease, Grease is a killer spell.
She laughs and grins a bit dangerously. "Oh that's perfect. We'll have to see how high up it goes, or if you can exempt allies from the stickiness. I think you should be able to. If so, then I can just dance into the flames and slice everyone you've trapped to ribbons."
Sable nods and leads the way out of town, opposite side from where they came in. On the way out, she takes a moment to explain, "So two useful things you should try out. One, we have a 'party sense'. If you think about where I am, you should get an instinctual sense of which direction and how far away. Give it a try?"
"Now that's a topic I wasn't expecting. Yeah, I've heard of it, there was a site I saw when I was in high school called... what was it... 'Crow's House' or something. By someone who was multiple. They had written up a contract to be signed by all their selves to take care of their shared body and had a bunch of other notes on it... I don't remember a lot more about it except that I thought it was kind of cool."
"Well that's convenient. Chalk another point up to meddling, perhaps. As you may now have guessed, the pretty girl who fucked you last night is secretly five girls in a trenchcoat, and we think that's why randomization offered us the option of an Infiltrator variant of Darkling."
She giggles. "Sorry. We get a bit co-conscious during daily life, but we're solo during sex. The others have lurked a bit today and yesterday, but it was primarily me, Sable, all day, and exclusively from when we went up to bed. So no, you were only fucking one girl last night, though yes, there are five in total now who want to get to know you. And the reason we got this particular randomizer-only race, we think, is because we strongly prefer to have different appearances. This look is always me. Everyone else looks distinctively different, and we finally got enough ability points last night to build everyone's separate forms."
She grins warmly at Sin. "Challenging my art skills a bit. Maybe make something pretty. Start with something easy, then something a little more worthy of showing off, while figuring out how smoothly this thing can cut.."
She cuts it in half, and gradually carves a heart.
And the body shifts, suddenly, twisting over a second or two into something shorter, with a messy bob of black hair and piercing green eyes. The breasts shift a little smaller, the hips a tiny bit narrower, and a dozen smaller changes integrating everything into a cohesive whole. The new girl shifts the saber to her other hip, to be ready to draw with her left hand instead of her right.
And then she looks at Hyacinth with an interested gleam. "Hi Hyacinth. I'm Hailey. Good to meet you. Forgive the lack of handshake, please, 'cause it takes me a while to feel comfortable with physical contact, and only happens with effort." Her voice is different, a bit higher, a bit sharper, a bit less musical.
Because Sable has four girls sharing her brain and they all agreed to use the same build?
"Y'know, Sable's more hopeful since meeting you than in the past year and a half. I'm impressed." And she's more cheerful than at any point since before the bitch tore her heart out and spat on it, too, but that's a story for another day.
"We basically time-share a life. We have different but overlapping hobbies and interests, similar tastes in partners, and all five of us love each other. So we cooperate. We talk about when we want to switch in, we banter internally about shit that happens, we support each other when shit sucks, and we try not to interfere with each other's romances — although usually Sable winds up taking the lead on those, and the rest of us gradually get to know them if we think it might work out."
She shrugs. "Outside of banter, any given day sees one or two of us, typically. For stuff we'll have to share, like our CORA build, we try to find a compromise. Maya would've wanted a bombardment tank if we could have separate builds, Ruby would've picked something speedy with pinpoint DPS, I probably would've picked a lightning-biased ranger/archer, etc."
She nods. "We dabble in writing as well. Fanfic, mainly. Sable always had the potential for plurality, but she was suppressing it for various reasons. But gradually, one after another, the girls she shipped herself with from various self-insert fics she outlined and started writing wound up living in her head rent-free. Gradually the outlines of the stories shifted to versions that had all five of us together. And here we are now."
"We like to think so," she replies with a smile. "As far as practical things you need to know: we'll all definitely try to get to know you and probably date you, we won't interrupt explicitly blocked out or otherwise private time like dates or sex unless something is meaningfully wrong, and we actually appreciate requests for time with individual system members. Any other questions?"
"Goats," Hyacinth mutters. "Why did they have to be goats."
She looks over at Hailey. "Normally I'd start casting and hope to force them around the ridge, but they'll almost definitely just come right up it. Getting caught in the middle of that herd sounds like a bad time."
She taps her fingers together. "If we use the ridge I can throw them back down it with Repel, but not if you're right next to me. It's an omnidirectional burst, it'll toss you just as much as them. If I set up Glue and fire on the approach we might be okay, but overall this is tricky. Have any ideas?"
Much angry and panicked bleating ensues! They flee away from the fire, and charge toward the adventurers as the obvious source of the attack! Most of them get stalled in the glue field, but a few started far enough out that their path toward the ridge takes them just outside the edges of it. Those few start up the ridge toward Hyacinth and Hailey.
Meanwhile, Hailey darts forward, wreathing her blade in lightning. She stabs sharply into the back few goats, which stumble to the ground as their muscles spasm. A quick leap and some hard flaps bring her up the ridge, where she does the same to the lead goats in the fire. Would the goats like to have an even harder time escaping the flames?
Hyacinth's had a chance to Observe it now.
"Level twelve!", she calls. "Fighting retreat!"
She drops another Glue on it, then turns and runs for it, dropping a Flare ahead of her and running headlong through it. Hopefully this thing isn't heavily fire-resistant like she is.
"Shit," Hyacinth swears. Hailey's right.
She could try and burst it down but that'll leave her with no mana. Then again, if she fights it the slow way the goats will come up from the valley and it'll be a shit-show.
She has to inflict as much damage as she can as fast as she can.
"Get back, I'm going to try and burst it down!"
She holds the fire for as long as she can. If she can't kill it now they're dead anyway.
After a few long seconds, the Held Spell dissipates, leaving behind only the usual clinging fire of her Flare. Her reservoirs are gone.
"OOM!" she calls, and turns and runs for it again. It just might buy her enough mana regen to get one more spell off if it's alive.
Hyacinth probably doesn't see this, occupied as she is with running away, but she's done some serious damage to the bear. It's fur is charred (down past the skin to muscle in some spots), one eye has burst, and it's distinctly moving slower and shakier. It roars again.
Hailey does not trust the bear not to recover a burst of speed and catch Sin before she regens even a shred of mana. She could escape it easily, flying faster than its full charging speed, but she's not leaving Sin behind, and she's not able to carry another person in flight yet.
She lunges past its left side, counting on the disabled left arm to keep it from hitting her, and flickers her shadow cutter to sever its hamstring-equivalent muscle.
She looks across the table at Sable.
This girl fought for her...
And so did Hailey...
She pulls up the system dialog again.
I'd really like to learn more about your other selves - Hailey and all the rest of them. I'd like to meet you all. And, um. I kind of would like to make out with you a bit. Could we go back to our room for a little while after lunch?
We like that idea. I'll make sure we're extended for another night real quick, and then we can head up as soon as we finish eating.
And with that, she brings Sin's hand to her lips for a moment, brushing a little kiss to the knuckles, before standing up and having a brief word (and exchange of coins) with Jorem.
"Makes sense."
She's going to hurry through the rest of her meal and stand back up, taking her staff with her. She smiles at Sable, a little hesitantly, as if afraid that the fluffy cotton-candy thoughts in her brain will all spill out if she tries to express them even a little.
That gets a much deepened blush.
This girl...
She's so tender with her.
She's pursuing her.
She's caring for her.
She's... really, really good.
It's hard to stay objective. She doesn't know much, in the grand scheme of things.
... but she's her first.
Isn't it okay to be a bit of a hot mess?
Hyacinth steps in just inside the door and very gently kisses Sable's lips again. She lingers there for a long moment, recalling the touch of her lips a day ago, her first kiss with this remarkable woman... Her first kiss ever, in fact...
She leans a little more of her body weight against Sable and rests her head on her chest.
"Price we pay for expression, I suppose. Forms cost ability points, just like nodes do."
She gasps very lightly at the kiss to her neck, letting her eyes flutter closed for a moment.
She manages to retain enough focus to buy the remaining slots, though, and then pulls Sin up to her lips for a tender kiss.
Hyacinth kisses back, and settles in.
Sable is so soft. Her wings are gentle against her, and her tail settles so nicely over her hips...
The base of her tail being sensitive takes her a little off guard, but it's not in a bad way. Quite the opposite, actually.
She tangles her hand in Sable's, fingers intertwined, and slides her thumb slowly across her palm.
"But you have so many years of feeling the weight of the other one burdening you, and it takes time to unlearn." She nods softly and strokes Sin's hair. "You're precious. You deserve better than those lingering hurts. You deserve relief. And you deserve to feel the beauty within you."
Hyacinth kisses her again. "Tempting. Very tempting."
She leans back a little, trusting to Sable's wings to brace her.
"If you want to make me think I'm beautiful, convince me. Pray to me with your hands, your lips, your tongue. Show me what I'm worth to you. What it means to you to possess me."
... The touch on her cheek surprises her, again. Sable's hand cradles her face so softly.
(There's no trace of stubble. Part of her flinches at the touch, but the hurt... isn't there. It's just in her head.)
She kisses back.
It feels good.
Her hurt can just shut up for now.
The touches bring more warmth to her body, scorching her in a way that fire can't, filling her up with cautious joy.
She can feel a little tightness between her legs, now, a hollowness.
She feels safe, but also a little desperate. She needs Sable's touch. She needs to be held. She needs...
She needs what she had last night.
Then Sable will tug the dress up Sin's body and over her head, tossing it aside. And then she kisses a path from her jaw to the neckline of her bra, left hand caressing Sin's right breast and right hand groping her ass. Her body presses hotly against Sin's through the remaining clothes separating them, breath hot against her skin.
Indeed, who needs clothes.
Hyacinth gently grinds in, and bites her lip hard when Sable pinches her nipple. It's such a sharp sensation. It almost hurts but in a good way.
She strokes gently at Sable's back, working below and around her wings, on the hypothesis that they might be sensitive just like her tails.
She keeps up the intensity, keeps up the attention. There's no part of Sin that doesn't merit more and more attention and affection and touch, and she obliges every way she can. Her blunted spade tip of her tail strokes along Sin's thighs, her right hand caresses from the base of her tail over her hips and groping her ass, and that thigh keeps grinding, all while the attention on Sin's nipples doesn't let up for a moment.
"Haaaaaaaaaahhhhh fuck..."
Hyacinth suppresses a giggle and wraps her own tail around Sable's, one hand moving lower to take a handful of Sable's ass and the base of her tail. She slows her breath a little, her body stiff, tense. The hollowness inside her aches deliciously, spreading out through her belly and thighs.
She kisses Sable again, and lingers over it, her hips rolling against that upraised knee.
Sable shivers just a bit more at the touch to her tail and her ass, and returns the kiss languidly. If she keeps her mouth busy enough she won't say "I love you" too early. She growls into the kiss and pins Sin against the bed, stepping up the grinding and nibbling a path across her cheek and down her neck, breasts squishing against Sin's, bodies pressed desperately together as though every inch of skin contact was keeping them both alive.
Okay, apparently her tail tip is more sensitive right now, that's a fun surprise. Flushing with the building lust, she slowly pulls her tail back out, angling the tip upward on the back stroke to make sure to stroke against Sin's g-spot, and then plunges back in. She straddles Sin's hips and leans down to kiss her deeply.
Hyacinth kisses back, hungry and heated, and her hands grope inexpertly at Sable's body. Is this where her clit is? Is it okay if she grabs her breasts?
Her tail twines around Sable's thigh as she squeezes her legs together around the intruding tail, her body reacting on its own.
Hyacinth giggles a little, and holds Sable closer, her fingers slipping down and settling where they should be. She kisses Sable again to shut herself up, and starts rolling her hips against that strong, dextrous intrusion deep inside her. With every roll of her hips that spade-tip drags right across her g-spot, and it just makes her crave more and more.
"Haaaaaaaaaaah, fuck, haaa -"
Hyacinth shields her face with one hand, the other still grinding against Sable's clit, her embarrassment getting the better of her as she approaches the edge. Sable's already seen her come before but somehow that doesn't seem to matter.
"Sable," she moans softly. "S-Sable..."
"Oh my sweet Sin, you shouldn't hide this loveliness from me." She pulls her hand up from Sin's nipple long enough to pin the concealing hand to the bed, then holds it there with a wing and returns to pinching her nipple. "Watching you come undone so beautifully is my favorite part."
She flushes beet red, and then that intruding tail grinds against the roots of her clit and she has to bite back a swear.
Somehow being watched just makes it all the more intense. She could struggle, but part of her doesn't want to.
She grabs on hard to Sable's wing and takes what's intended as a soft and steady breath but comes out as a gasp.
"Good girl. Very good girl." The thrusting continues, builds in intensity, as Sable's hands pick up speed to match. That insistent pressure just builds and fills them both up, more and more, as a heated flush stretches further across Sable's cheeks and a soft moan spills out of her.
Sable's kiss tears through her brain as a liquid bolt of pure affection and lust, too powerful to resist.
She clenches her hand against Sable's wing, and her inner walls around her heavy tail, and pants out her orgasm in six sharp, breathless gasps. The heat in her flares, sweeps her body, floods her - and then dies away to warm, comfortable embers, bright and beautiful, like sunset in her heart.
She kisses Sable back, soft and lingering, and siiiiiiiiiiiiighs and grins.
Sable grins and giggles and hugs her back just as tightly. "I feel like I should be saying that. I get to take a beautiful girl, so full of light and creativity and shine, and show her all the ways her life can be just as good and lovely as she is? And she's even handling the plurality fine? Who died and left me their good luck in the will?"
Yeah, it feels like that when you're finally spending time with someone you have actual chemistry with, you start finding that you tend to want similar things, and spending all your time around people who always deny you wears a bit. The change can be a bit of a shock.
Sable holds Hyacinth tenderly and keeps stroking her hair and her back, sighing happily. She's reeling a bit too, utterly delighted with this amazing girl she's found. She presses a little kiss to her forehead.
Yep. That's the plan. Just keep spending time on making each other happy for as long as they like. Forever? No, do not try to make lifetime commitments to a girl you've known for two days. No matter how tempting it is. Do not.
She squeezes Hyacinth close and just keeps smiiiiiling happily.
Sable smiles warmly and pets Sin slowly and tenderly while gradually flicking through the shapeshifting setup interface, carefully locking in a shape for each headmate now that they have enough spare ability points to buy more slots. There are still a few alternate shapes people will want, her and Maya especially, but those can come later.
"Nothing to apologize for, Sin," she replies with a smile, stroking her fingers through her girlfriend's lavender tresses tenderly. "You were working on ability design and then had a cute nap, while I worked on the form designs and then some ability design with my headmates. We were planning to do introductions at some point."
She blushes a little, and then smiles. "Yeah. I was thinking about Meditation, and Lesser Persistent Spell. Nine nodes is really a lot! I want to make every one count if I can. Maybe I should take a closer look at the Fire tree...?"
She snuggles in. "And yeah, introductions would be wonderful."
"So Meditation. I was figuring that we'd use it to increase mana regen by boosting Capacity - clearly it won't work for Anamnesis, the extra slot would just go away as soon as I was done meditating - but for downtime it would be cool."
Hyacinth frowns. "You know... I wonder if it would work to boost an Intricacy passive with Meditation. If you could lock abilities with temporarily boosted Intricacy, you could get unusually dense spellwork for your level just by taking more time and effort over the preparation process..."
She leans her head against Sable. "From what I've seen, CORA really likes to reward you for having proficiency in real skills. So by introducing a real skill to the process of creating abilities..." She raises an eyebrow. "It might actually have pretty potent effects."
"Theoretically you might be able to use the meditation to lock a better meditation, which lets you lock an even better meditation, and so on. But in practice I don't expect it to recurse that deep, that's totally something that would require a patch and I can't be the only one to have had this idea.
"Since I want a mana regeneration meditation anyway, it's probably worth trying, I agree."
She goes into her node tree. "It'd spend three nodes to grab Meditation, Capacity, and Intricacy out of the Self tree. So then we'd want to spend the remaining six nodes in the other two trees - Ranged Casting and Persistent Spell. I didn't realize it until I brought up the menu, but it looks like I actually have an equal number of nodes in each tree, counting my starting ones."
She hums softly. "I think I'll try it. No last-minute objections?"
It's not far off at all, especially when the virtual environment helps. A gentle descent, a calming fall away from the world, down she falls, down and down.
Everything is calmer, now. Quieter. Her external senses are muted, muffled, while her internal senses of magic — and of the ability design system — are heightened.
It feels like the CORA is following her flow in her meditation, and trying to match its interface to the state she reaches, avoiding disrupting the trance while still being accessible.
When she feels the system come to her fingertips in the trance, something breaks. She takes a sharp gasp and hyperventilates for a few seconds before she orients herself again.
"I could feel it," she wonders. "I could feel the magic."
Hyacinth grins from ear to ear. "... I always wanted that. Realms of Dragons didn't... quite interface that closely, wasn't willing to reach in..."
"Hold me," she murmurs. "I'm going back down."
She settles against Sable and closes her eyes. Descend the staircase, one number at a time. Ten steps. Breathe slowly and evenly. Nine steps. Listen as your thoughts still and drift away. Eight steps. Swallowed by a calm dark sea. Seven steps. Deeper and deeper...
Six steps down... Five steps down... Four steps down... Three... Two... ———
By the time she reaches the bottom, she's reaching with another sense entirely. The chatter of her mental voice is silent, not even instructing her. She is.
Wordlessly she reaches out to the magic within her, the shard of Chaos lodged in her heart, and feels it unfold...
As she descends, the world goes muffled around her. As she reaches the bottom, she can feel something there to grasp. And then a new interface expands in her awareness. It's much more felt, more intuitive, than the visual graph editor she was working with previously. It still provides the same information about what shapes of node-graphs it will accept, but there's a sense she can follow to feel the other graph shapes that the system can allow, and which ones are unlocked at which levels of of Intricacy. She can access one higher level of structure than she could previously, but also, when she holds a node in this new mental grasp there's a visceral feeling of what it can connect to and what those connections could mean.
Beautiful.
The central node is easy to specify; it reflects herself, in this deep state, so to weave in meditation as the object of her dive is simple.
Something in her responds to that; the memory of holding the red-hot poker against her unburnt hand swims into focus. Flame. She is flame. So flame can be her, as well.
The cinders in her heart settle into the new ability, lending their passion. And from there... The weaves of reinforcement, of purpose. What the flame will ignite. The weave of mana that anchors her spells, that stabilizes the shard of Chaos within her... She sees how to weave it still tighter, in threads of flame.
She shepherds her will. Stay, delicate flame. Here is your fuel.
It feels like the ability locks tighter somehow than it would've outside of meditation. She feels the click of it locking more clearly, down here, like a satisfying clack of flipping a deliciously chunky switch, or the feeling of sliding home the bolt of a rifle as you chamber a round.
The trance deepens. Imagery slips in around the edges of her mind, blossoming in her view.
A palpable sense of meaning flows through the mental space, like ink in water, or smoke through the air.
A delicate flower fills the center of her vision, facing upward. The tips of its petals are pink, the base white. Five sewing needles pierce through the blossom from different angles, emerging below, blood dripping from the tips. Pain, shock, trauma, she feels from the flower.
A thread trails off from the eye of each needle, initially in line with the needle but soon disappearing in a maze of twists and turns, a storm of taut fibers tangling higher and higher. Above, she sees the Imperial Seal of Pagutum, countless threads tied off to its edges, tugging different things within the storm below — including five threads that she instinctively knows are tied to the needles piercing the flower.
The vision pans a bit to the side, and she sees a pair of spools, thread from each twining together into a stronger whole — agreement, symbiosis, compromise — before suddenly the threads snap, the twining broken.
Her view pans further this time, down and across to a different-feeling area of narrative space entirely. She sees a fox-eared seer, divining in a magic mirror (truth, inquiry, reflection), with four ink bottles resting on the table beyond the mirror (manifestation, communication, clarity) — but the mirror is clouded, the ink bottles nearly empty.
Once more her vision sweeps away, now settling on a pair of alchemists, brewing together, bantering warmly as they discuss their brew — partnership, support, reliability.
And then the inky clouds swirl in from the edges and her view clouds altogether.
Crystalline calm washes over her as image after image unfolds in her trance. They wash over her one by one, full of portent yet somehow faraway. Like a dream, and yet not.
A small part of her directs her attention fully towards the tableaux. Listen, it seems to say. This is important.
The pierced blossom. Snapped threads. Pagutum. Herself, seen from afar. Clarity she lacks.
Togetherness.
Then everything is darkness.
She rests in that darkness for a timeless time; then slowly comes back to herself, the trance dissipating away.
She opens her eyes again. The world is loud and bright, even here in Sable's arms.
"I had a vision," she murmurs, wonder in her voice.
"I saw..." The memories are slippery, but she pins them down.
"A needle-pierced flower. The breaking of bonds. Pain. All... trailing back, as if through threads, to the imperial seal of Pagutum."
She takes a long breath. "I was in the vision too. Seen from far away. In front of a mirror. In my reflection I was stronger. Clearer. More... able to see."
She lays her head against Sable. "And I remember a sense of togetherness. I don't know if it was meant between you and I, or between me and whoever sent the vision, but..."
She closes her eyes.
"Oh, and I was able to lock a better meditation with my meditation." Her smile widens to a grin, then she tilts her head to the side. "Didn't name it though. While I'm under it's very... pre-words. I think the second one will gain power from fire?" She shrugs. "Let me call up the interface again..."
The locked ability is [Mediation, Fire, Fire Resistance, Capacity, Intricacy], so... the sensible thing to call it would be "Inner Fire", yes?
She'll have to try it out later.
"Yeah, it's still locked outside of trance. And it felt like it locked tighter, too, a little more solidly..." She raises her eyebrows. "The natural next thing to do is to try and see if we can get the Inner Fire meditation to lock an even better meditation, or at least a better set of abilities... but there's that pesky problem of having another six skill points to spend. I could plow them all into the Self tree, get even better Meditation abilities and even stronger passives for it to feed from..."
She shakes her head. "I don't want to overspecialize my build like that, though. Even if I'm really really tempted to see what I can make out with a souped-up meditation. My remaining six points should probably go into the Ranged Casting and Persistent Spell trees - get the first tier of Lingering Spell at least, and start getting points together towards Effect Chain... Lingering Spell unlocks some new targeting modes in Persistent, the beginnings of being able to cast real ritual magic... I'd want to go over that with you seriously. As for the Ranged Spell tree the obvious thing to buy there is Fire II or higher, or maybe Ray... Though I can emulate a persistent ray with Held Spell fairly well."
Hyacinth nuzzles into Sable. "Sorry, I'm getting into the weeds again..."
Has Hyacinth noticed that getting into the weeds seems to reliably produce the sappy expression Sable's currently wearing? Because Sable's definitely got a sappy expression and she's petting Sin tenderly.
"I think there are massive advantages to be had from such specialization later, but I agree that continuing to focus on some combat capability for now is a very good idea. At the very least it keeps up our ability to gain more levels and pick that up as we go. I'd be glad to go over things with you. I agree that you can probably hold off on Ray for a little longer, judging by how good you are with Held Spell so far."
"Yeah, we've definitely got to pick a primary tactic for this build in the long run, but right now having lots of add-on nodes lets me exploit the high Intricacy. Most effects are better when they last longer, so Lingering Spell is a nice mix-in I can toss into most anything."
She frowns. "Longer-term, though... I want utility. I bet a lot of people build for combat first and forget this is a team game..." She pauses.
"— had another idea. I wonder if I can form an ability that lets me lead people in meditation. I, um." She flushes a little. "I'm actually better at that than focusing myself, I'd say. A... Held Burst of Enhance with Meditation and Intricacy...?" She frowns. "That's five nodes so it might or might not slot, but it's definitely something we should try."
"Probably best to try and slot it using the most advanced meditation I can get access to." Hyacinth traces a finger across Sable's thigh. "Since Fire is in my meditation now, and it's my main mode of attack, I don't think it's a bad move to pick up another level of it just on spec."
She rolls over onto her back on the bed and looks up at the ceiling. "So that's... Fire II, Persistent Spell I, for sure. Let me take a look at the Persistent tree..."
Hyacinth holds her hand up and swipes through menus like she's looking at clouds.
"Ooh, Ritual I under Persistent. An extended casting time spell that produces an effect lasting approximately one hour, but requires ritual foci and or sacrifices proportional to the level and complexity of the cast spell. Opens a set of subnodes for ritual efficiency, casting time, duration, material substitution or reduction..."
She looks over at Sable. "I think this and its upgrades are key to my build as a crafter and support wizard in the long term, but the material components are troublesome. Might not be worth taking at this low a level, given that we aren't likely to have a lot of access to ritual components this early..."
Sable hums and strokes Sin's hair while she frowns consideringly. Good ritual components will be expensive or come from dangerous creatures, but the CORA devs do try to foster a level of approachability for such things even at low levels...
"The devs have a tendency to build some utility for such things at all levels, so it likely wouldn't be useless, but I think we're likely to have access to better components when our ability to kill things goes up a bit more. My instinct is not to buy the ritual node quite yet, and instead save it for our next round of upgrades or the one after. Not too long, though, because once you have the node you'll probably have an instinctive sense for ritual applications of all sorts of things."
"I feel, just on a gut level, that doing guided meditation on a high level is likely to work best as a ritual. The more pieces of scene setting you use for this kind of thing, the better the effects you get in the real world, so..."
"Honestly, just for the sense of what to keep and what to throw out, I want Ritual I. It's a safe longterm buy and I don't have anything else in the Persistent tree that's burning a hole in my pocket. I need to invest more points to get to Chained Effects, and this is a reasonable thing to spend those points on."
She flicks through the menus. "Let's look at its competition though. I could take Sustained Spell II, which would be... eh. I could see it being useful for meditation but in general stuff with a duration of "concentration" is bad. I could take Extinguish II, that'd strengthen my crowd control. Might be worth it. There's also the option of Mana Efficiency II, which is just a nice general purpose flat buff..."
She sighs. "I know I should take some simple basic power boosters but they're just so boring. Having seen what CORA can do with meditation, I want everything to have that same kind of tactile clicky really-doing-it feel. That's something I hardly ever got in RoD."
"Adorable and also caring." She kisses the top of Hyacinth's head. "I think you should buy it. Between our ability to butcher our kills and you gaining the ability to recognize usable resources, I think we could build toward useful rituals quicker than expected at this level."
She gives Sin another squeeze. "That and I think it would make you happy, and I think that's valuable in and of itself."
"Yeah, I suppose I could upgrade Splash or Force..."
Plumph she goes against Sable with a small sigh. "Upgrading Force potentially gives me a second damage type. Splash upgrade would boost AOEs in general. Extinguish upgrade would boost hampering effects in general... Bolt II upgrades bolts specifically, but in the longer term we might want to take Ray..."
Hyacinth bites her lip. "I guess Force is a reasonable upgrade, yeah. It'd boost my crowd control in general, and it's also a potential second damage type..."
"I think we take Force II instead of Bolt II. So Force II, Fire II, Fire Resistance three, Ritual I, Lingering Spell I, and... One more. Do we invest in Ranged spells or Persistent? Probably we put it in the Persistent tree to reach Effect Chain faster, right? So we'd want to take Extinguish II over Splash II or Bolt II."
Hyacinth shakes her head. "But the thing is, if I get Effect Chain too fast, I might not have the Intricacy for such complicated spell effects. Like, a spell that does two things in order is more than twice as complex as a spell that does one thing, and that complexity takes up space. So maybe we don't rush for Effect Chain..."
"What am I going for in ranged casting... I guess in the longer term I'm going for Explosion there, right? But that's a ways in. Ranged Burst could be a prerequisite..."
She frowns. "I dislike having both Splash and Ranged Burst in my build when I could be focusing on just one. Let's just take Splash II for now?"
"Oh, great, there's a whole bunch of stuff I want here. If I get Ritual II then I can take Runes or Investiture and start making cool stuff..."
She frowns. "Investiture, Offerings, Sacrifice is one side of the tree, then on the other side we've got Runes, Diagrams, Scrolls..." She raises her eyebrows. "An item crafting node! Let me see what it says... 'Inscribe a completed ritual into a scroll for later use without requiring full ritual setup. Casting time of the bound ritual remains the same.' That's got to be the start of item crafting, isn't it? But to get it I have to take... Rituals IV, Runes III, Diagrams II. Which requires... a total of five more intermediate nodes below it."
"As much as I'm tempted to beeline for item crafting, I'd clearly be gimping the combat side if I were to invest my whole next three levels into nothing but rituals. Better to move more evenly. But I am really tempted to grab either Runes or Invesititure..."
She shakes her head. "I'll get them soon enough at the rate we're leveling. Stick to the plan."
Back into the menus she goes, unlocking Fire II, Force II, Fire Resistance III, Lingering Spell I, and Splash II.
She blushes, and turns to face Sable. After a moment's indecision, she presses in and kisses her too.
"... and you're cool too, for listening to everything..." She rubs the back of her head, and then seems to remember that she's not wearing anything.
"... We should probably get our clothes on and find somewhere we can build a nice hot fire," she says. "Somehow I doubt our innkeeper would like me to sit in his fireplace."
Hyacinth smiles and nestles into Sable a little more.
"... kind of just want to stay with you, but magic." She makes a balancing scales motion with her hands. "Incredibly hot girlfriend. Incredibly cool magic." The imaginary pans balance first one way, then the other. "... I can take the girlfriend with me to do magic. This solves both problems."
"Both of these have some potential. The bleak essence is... nasty. It's got the ritual aspect of corruption and toxicity. The meat could be a viable offering, though I don't know who or what would accept it. I'm not sure I'd risk using it given that it was taken from a corrupted beast though; I don't particularly want my ritual to accidentally incorporate that kind of aspect, you know?"
"Yeah, I can see some ways that could go badly sideways." She vanishes the materials back into her inventory, then draws her sword for a moment to use the flat of her shadow cutter to disintegrate any residue left behind, before sheathing it again and taking Sin's hand.
Sin flushes a little, but takes Sable's hand.
And off they go to market together.
"I think we should watch for... candles, lamp oil, salt... really basic ingredients, you know? I doubt we'll find too much fancy out here, though naturally if you spot anything that looks exciting point it out."
Hyacinth takes a moment to peruse the herbs. She doesn't know the names of any of these, but they're certainly alive to her ritual senses...
She checks the placards. Basil, rosemary, thyme, mint, marjoram, parsley, coriander, sage, chives and dill.
If she only knew more about herb lore...
She reaches out her hand and listens to her new senses.
The basil feels heavy and rich, like a shield or a coin. A serious herb for serious people.
The rosemary feels clear, like a breath of fresh air. It also feels a little like she knows it, like she has some connection. The sage is similar, but with less of a sense of connection to it.
Thyme and Parsley are uplifting and warm. Like a coal in the heart. Mint... vital and green, bursting with life. The marjoram has a sense of radiating light. The coriander reminds her of Sable, a little, while the dill reminds her a little of herself.
She tries the chives three times, but they don't seem to have any detectable affinity.
It's strange, the second sense she has. Synesthetic and yet so real.
The rosemary is strongly aromatic, and would probably make a good incense...
She looks over at Sable. "I think we should pick up some rosemary for sure. The rest are less certain to be useful, but the rosemary is very aromatic and would probably serve well as an incense. It feels... clarifying. I think it would work well with a meditative ritual."
Hyacinth raises an eyebrow. "Who's accompanying who, now?" But she can't keep it up and breaks out into giggles.
"You're beautiful too," she says. "When we get there I'll need you to stand watch for me, okay? I have little awareness of my outside senses when I'm meditating, and there are potentially things out there that could threaten me even while I'm actively on fire."
She closes her eyes for a moment, then opens them again, and her body begins to shift as she walks. Her hair shifts from violet curls to dark brown waves, her skin darkens, her figure grows curvier, and her eyes turn a vivid copper tone. "Hello, dear. My name is Maya," she says.
She flushes slightly. "One of, yes. My ideal would be to be an incarnate spirit of a warship, or something to that effect, and be able to be something along the lines of heavy artillery on two legs. My being something akin to 'shipgirl-gender', along with Sable being my captain, is in fact how we chose our system name, 'Pirates'."
"We all derive some modicum of passive enjoyment from each other's enjoyment, even when we're not in front," she confirms, "but it is significantly stronger and more direct when we are in front, or at least in co-consciousness. It has proved to be an impressive game, so far, though I wish we had a good way to mesh the sort of bombardment-tank build I would most enjoy with the agility build the others appreciate."
"Then I'll leave you with two things. One, it has been a pleasure to meet you properly. Two, our next headmate, Neopolitan — or Neo, for short — is mute. She will use sign language if you know it, and otherwise she will resort to gesture and expression and body language — or perhaps message you using the internal messaging system."
And then mid-step their body begins to change again. The new girl is much shorter, only five feet tall, and slender. Long, wavy hair tumbles down over her shoulders, left half brown and right half pink, with a white streak in the pink half. Her eyes are mismatched as well, the right brown and the left pink. She skips gracefully and turns to face Hyacinth, walking backwards before her, then blows a kiss.
"Oooh, yeah! I really like high speed combat and being a whirlwind of death to monsters — Sable calls me an adorable blender — but I also really like being a sniper especially if I can mix the two and dash back and forth with a scythe while mixing in rifle shots or sometimes even using recoil for mobility it's so much fun!"
"Yeah. Um..."
Hyacinth looks away. "Can we take a break for a little while? I should, like, eat actual food today and not subsist on nutrient goop for a whole week. You've all been wonderful and I will definitely be back, I just..."
She kicks a rock. "I think I need space to... process everything."
Ruby nods, smiles softly, and then bounces close to kiss Sin's cheek before stepping back and popping the folded-up tent into her free hand from their inventory. "Do what you need. We can wait here until you get back, or if you'll be a bit you can message us when and we'll meet you back here. Whatever works."
There's a long moment of transition as the virtual reality fades away —
And then she's back in the pod, wrist unpricked, her body sweat-stained and achey from the long time spent down. It's been over twenty-four hours, after all; the pod's automatic repositioning equipment means that she's not in any danger of developing bedsores, but she can still feel that she's been in bed for most of two days.
She pops the hatch of the pod from the virtual console, and gets up.
Fuck, she's been missing her hormones...
She rubs her face. Her body feels heavy. Gangly. It aches in her soul.
She doesn't have to be like this.
... but she should really eat food. Get something to eat in the house. Go out. See a real tree. Do something other than mess around online...
She creakily gets up and dresses herself in her purple dress again.
Her phone's still in the pocket.
She texts Sable.
Fuck, being back in the meat suit sucks. I can see why you stay down most of the time.
After Hyacinth vanishes, they pop the tent back into inventory, make a note of the location, and shift to Hailey.
She walks off into the woods in search of something to stab, then tilts her head when they get the text.
H: Yeah. We absolutely refuse to go back out there unless there's a damned good reason.
She jumps up and pulls herself up into a tree, sits on a branch, and leans back against the trunk, sighing softly.
H: Absolute garbage. 1/10, would not recommend. Who do we have to beat up for a refund? Only upsides are that the minigames inside it are sometimes great, and we met you.
Character creation's glitched and a reroll costs $FuckYou in ingame currency, half the players are assholes and some of the GMs are too, you die if you don't eat food, and you spawn in a completely random party with completely shit partner matching and your teammates flame you if you feed. 6/10, I guess it's technically proficient and the physics engine is gorgeous but it's not an enjoyable experience at all without aftermarket mods.
Hyacinth finds herself considering her options.
She could go back to university physically next week...
No, screw that. She wants to learn creative writing, yes, but existing in this body after she's felt the alternative is like being trapped in a tiny metal cage.
Her parents thought they could control her, and they were wrong.
She doesn't have any urgent tasks to do. UBI is free. The VR setup is good for several years yet, and by the time it needs replacing she'll be able to have saved something.
The nutrient feed for the pod's good for at least another month.
Is she really going to do this?
It feels like giving up. She wanted to have a body that felt right in reality. The shaping clinics exist...
The shaping clinics aren't about to give her fox ears and her own magic system any time soon.
She can see it in her mind's eye, the blossom of the node builder in meditation...
She sits on the edge of her pod and she breathes slowly, phone in her hand.
She knows she's not thinking rationally. But there is no god damn reason why she should be here. Dustin can take a hike, they were never that close before she came out anyway.
She's been hurting all her god damn life and relief is just a pinprick away.
UBI's probably not going away.
In the end it's not actually a hard decision at all.
She turns off the pod alarm for seven days from now, and sets it for thirty.
I'm going down. I think forever, or as close as I can get.
It's not even a question. In CORA I can be me. And have a real life. With real people who really care about me. And real magic.
Hot tears stain her cheeks.
Reality is a shit game.
I'd rather have you.
She takes off her dress again. Two days' nutrient stock isn't worth going out for, or even having delivered. She can do it from ingame if she needs to.
She settles the neural crown on her head again, and wakes up from her bad dream.
"I..." Hyacinth looks away.
"I care about what's real. I care that when the body in realspace dies this unaging one will cease to exist too. I care that I'm canadian, and that I'm not Patriot Church, and... all these divisions that only exist because it's taken for granted that the other reality is what counts."
She offers her hand to Hailey. "I need someone to... reassure me that this world is real too. That it's not wrong to believe in it. To decide to live your life in it."
"I think..."
She looks down at her body.
"Some part of me is convinced, now, that it's this world that's real and the other one that's fake."
I'd want to see you in real life rises to her tongue and dies.
What could she possibly learn by seeing these beautiful women's random-ass janky body with the wrong sex.
She wouldn't want them to see her real life Earth body either. This one is real. This is her chosen self.
"... Probably because it'd be a bureaucratic headache, yeah? And I know I wouldn't trust some random nurse to keep things running indefinitely. Better to do it yourself, even if it hurts."
She settles back on her hands on the grass and stares up at the cloudy sky.
"Think of it like... a lich guarding their phylactery. You don't entrust that to some random person. You want someone you trust. Someone who cares, someone who's loyal."
Hyacinth takes it, and squeezes.
"... I want to celebrate. A new start. A new life. I'm tired of being a good boy. I want to do something inadvisable."
She giggles. "I would suggest getting drunk, that's traditional, but I don't actually want to annoy our tavern-keeper friend. Got any better ideas?"
"If I knew where a Pag-sympathizer bar was close by, I'd say we go start a bar fight — walk in with our horns showing and holding your hand and see how long it takes for some bigoted scum to throw down about it, then beat their asses into the ground," she replies with a laugh.
Hyacinth giggles. "I mean, it'd hardly be sporting for me to just fry 'em, now, would it? And more importantly I might burn down a perfectly innocent bar. Still, with the right loadout of enhancement spells it could still be fun."
She smiles at Hailey. "I guess for now we just... carry on. First day of the rest of your life. We have so much time. And so much to learn. It's still only my second day in Paragnosia or whatever this place is called again. I've got a lifetime of memories of another world stuck in my head and it'll take a while to properly learn my place here. Chaos does weird things to a girl."
Hyacinth puts her staff to use once more as a walking-stick, and it's not long before the patch of rocks comes up on their path.
"Here we are," she says. "Let me just slot my new fire resistance, I bet it'll be necessary with a fire of this size."
She pages through the menus, locks Fire Resistance III as a single passive, and slots it over Fire Resistance II.
Hyacith tilts her head. "It feels more proper not to start it with magic. I mean, it seems strange to use magic to generate magic, right? It feels better to use a mundane source, it's more of a ritual that way."
She sits cross-legged atop the pile of wood on the level pieces, checks again that her fire resistance is properly slotted, then nods to Hailey. "Go ahead," she says.
It's intense. The heat wraps itself around her like a living thing. She can feel the flame trying to consume her, to make her a part of it. But she is a part of it already.
She closes her eyes, triggers Inner Flame meditation, and falls inward.
It's a different experience than before. Her instinctive reach for an image of a calm dark sea to lull her jars like a bruised shin.
Inner fire.
She envisages it. The flame begins at the base of her spine, like a fuse or a wick; from there it spreads inward, towards her abdomen and her sex, flushes of all-too-familiar heat and energy... then upward, through her heart, warm and bright (sable) and onward, nestling in her collarbone before flicking upward to root on her brow. She is a candle, burning, every part of her channeling the flame...
The intuitive interface spirals up into her as a breath of heat, a current of flame. She locks an even stronger Inner Flame meditation with it in a flash like sizzling sparks, using even more of the parts of her nature that are like flame and less of the parts of her nature that grant volume and strength, instead braiding the flame within her tighter, tighter...
The new ability slots in and disrupts her trance, but she patiently rebuilds the flame within her to its full brightness once more. It burns blue-hot within her belly and womb, fierce and sharp — but not intensely enough to break through to the next layer of potential. She will not consume all today.
Within this forge in her heart, she remakes herself. Ability after ability weave together, each of her standard abilities - Flare, Glue, Quell Flames, and Repel - relocked with the strongest nodes her soul can bear.
Finally she turns her attention to her other meditation. She can sense how to weave it, in this state, with the flame running through her...
[Ritual I] in the center. Around it, three will-o-wisps, circling clockwise. [Enhance I]. [Intricacy I]. [Meditation I].
It locks.
Slowly, Hyacinth comes back to herself. It always takes time for her to recover from such a deep trance.
For perhaps half a minute, she has the sensation of the flame breathing with her, flaring and falling slowly, until it fades away from her body entirely and falls back to the logs beneath her.
She opens her eyes and meets Hailey's gaze with a smile.
"Let's be careful getting me up," she says. "I don't want to accidentally kick ash into your lap."
Another half hour's hike through the hills, and they reach a group of five moose. They're headbutting each other restlessly, antlers crashing together with clatter after loud clatter. Black veins run away from their eyes, down their snouts. They don't appear to have noticed the girls yet.
In the middle of one of Hailey's leaps, a moose catches her in the side with its antlers, and she tumbles from the air. With a scowl, she leaps up again, the energy wreathing her saber turning blood-red. Two slashes to the offending moose later, the gouge in her leg is healing smoothly, and she leaps off it to another, whirling from beast to beast as she whittles them down.
Hyacinth slots a healing bolt over Quell Flames and heals Hailey.
"Well," she says. "That at least was straightforward." She frowns. "Not sure if I want to go hunt bandits, they might have bows and I don't have a solid defense against that right now. You okay to travel back to town?"
She huffs a bit. "Just... ugh. Need to butcher the moose before we head back, but..."
She looks down at her hands, back up at Sin, back down at her hands, then shakes her head.
"Nothing for it."
And then she steps forward into a hug, her breath hitching sharply as she makes contact before slowly and carefully exhaling.
She nods, then kneels down in front of the moose and starts carving them apart. It's calming, meditative. Soon enough she has a great deal of moose meat, various organs, antlers, and more bleak essence.
She stands and nods, wiping her hands off on a relatively clean and intact bit of pelt, then finishing the cleanup with the flat of a shadow cutter.
"Okay. That's that. Ready to get out of here?"
"Honestly, if someone were to ask me..."
She taps her fingers against her arm. "I'd want good odds. Something in the high nineties. We are talking lives and minds on the line here. But... there are real surgeries with a one-in-a-hundred chance to kill you. And shaping's no joke either. For a shot at a digital lifespan...?"
She smiles. "Yeah, I think I'd take a one in a hundred chance of death or serious complication. Maybe even a one in fifty chance. If I wanted to get serious about it... my natural lifespan would be, like, another sixty years or so? And with a digitization let's say that rises to two hundred or so, because file storage is hard and data loss happens. So you've got... one hundred forty years to gain, versus sixty years to lose. So theoretically you're still breaking even on lifespan if you take a two-to-one chance of dying.
In practice, though, if you follow the naive lifespan calculation you mostly die and sometimes are very long lived. So the overall impression is... I might even go as low as a one in ten chance of dying. Nine out of ten of me getting to live to be two hundred is worth taking a one in ten chance of dying."
"Yeah."
Hyacinth runs a hand through her hair. "I mean, we've already got stuff that integrates with the senses neurally so well as to fool them completely, and I've heard SAIs are a thing these days... But then again, it is one of those 'it'll happen in another twenty years' for the last century kinds of things..."
"Oh good. I do like being convenient."
Hyacinth casually checks her inventory for her coin balance. "Incidentally, I was wondering how much money we've got between the two of us — between the bounties and the inn stays and the materials and gear I've no clue what our budget looks like."
"Let's see..." Hailey does a bit of mental math. "We had a hundred crowns before you showed up, the wolves paid ten, as did the goats, then fifty for the bear, and another twenty we'll get shortly for the moose. We've paid out... eleven crowns seven silver so far. So that means by the time we get back to the inn we'll be looking at a hundred sixty-eight crowns between us."
"That's five months of pure inn stay. If we were to get, like, an actual house or apartment I bet we could cover it for a year easily. Adventurer economy's kind of funky, huh?"
She tilts her head. "You know, I think I like it better this way. Go kill a bear, get two month's rent. I can super live with that deal. Sure, I sometimes almost die, but I come back, you know?"
"Iiiiiiiiii..."
Hyacinth looks away. "D/S stuff, mostly. I — definitely would like to try some S&M stuff sometime too, I've said that. I just — you were my first, genuinely. Never felt comfortable before I put this body on, and everyone could see it. So..."
She blushes. "... I, um. Was pretty predictably into forcefem stuff... some of it kind of rough... and I've read a decent chunk of hentai including some actual sex education material... it was kind of a... special interest of mine. And the more I learned the more I wanted to be... hot like the girls I read about..."
Hyacinth drops her face into her free hand and blushes helplessly. The fact that her other hand's occupied by her staff means she can't really hide her embarrassed face though.
Hailey grins sharply, cups Hyacinth's chin, kisses her deeply, and then nips her lower lip as she pulls away.
"Well, now I've got an idea for what to do if we ever figure out how to run separate avatars simultaneously. Tie you up with your hand between your legs and make you watch while one Pirate fucks another into a mewling puddle."
"I just... the Patriot Church people, they talk about autogynephila and shit and say that — trans people are all sex perverts and get off on being women. And that describes me. I am a sex pervert who gets off on being a woman. And that's just..."
She looks down at herself. "It makes you wonder if the other things they say are true too. That I'm deluded. Sick. Wrong. That there's something broken in my brain that makes me act like this. And... in the worst case, you know, that I should actually die for it. You know the doctrine."
"Those assholes are the proverbial stopped clock. They got lucky and found one girl who kinks on it, but they doesn't mean a single other fucking thing they say has any validity. The entire basis of their bullshit runs on sex-shaming and pleasure-shaming and the naturalistic fallacy."
... She needs to get herself under control.
She slots her basic meditation skill over the healing bolt in what is quickly becoming her utility slot, and throws herself into it for a long moment. She walks slow, rhythmically. Even steps, supported by her staff.
It helps.
"... What I mean to say is... I was raised to believe in truth. Not just what people preach, not just listening to authorities. Actually looking at the evidence. And the evidence I have on the fact of the matter in my case is closer to the Patriot Church's model than anything I've ever heard advanced by a pro-trans advocate."
She shakes her head. "That doesn't mean the patriot church is right. They could be taking a true piece of evidence to a completely wrong conclusion as they so constantly and obviously do. But I'm not able to just dismiss the question because that's wilfully ignoring evidence. The data I have is not in accord with either side's testimony. So I'm left in the dark trying to find my own way."
Hailey nods thoughtfully. "I can respect the truth-seeking there. Let's look at it this way. They're against polyamory, homosexuality, trans acceptance, and the worst ones are even against sex outside that's not for procreation and ever questioning scripture or pastors. The cited reasoning in all cases is that it's 'unnatural and against scripture'. What's the common thread between all these things? Also, you're familiar with the naturalistic fallacy, right?"
"Yes, I'm familiar. And I acknowledge the point. It's just... I don't want to be stuck pretending that my life went the way that the trans advocates would like it to be. I don't want to become a weapon in the Patriot Church's hands, but at the same time I don't want to pretend my reasons were clean and sanitary and good. My reasons were a mess. I just feel that society's not yet ready to accept "Yes, I am a sex pervert, and I am going to live my life in accordance with the kink role I prefer, and anyone who disagrees can get bent" as a real, serious proposition, you know?
She huffs at the thought of society's predictable reactions and nods. "Yeah, they likely aren't ready to accept that. And too bad for them. What would it mean for there to be a true distinction between valid and invalid reasons to be trans, though? How would that world look different from one in which 'invalid reason to be trans' wasn't a coherent idea?"
"... You've got me there. I just worry. Keeping this secret is hard, and living in the meat sack has been harder, and there are times when I just want to put everything down and hide."
Hyacinth leans a little against Hailey.
"I just want to be able to be my true self. But it feels like no matter where I go I'm an outcast."
"Yeah, I figured it'd be more complicated for you all. But..." She smiles. "You're the first people in my life I've been able to talk about all this with without even a trace of fear. I'm going to get a house with you and be your sister and your lover and your girlfriend and... a lot of things."
She grins at Hailey. "Way, way, waaaaaay too late to back out now."
"Thanks much, Jorem."
She looks over at Hailey. "For once I don't have an immediate next objective. There's 'quest and get stronger', naturally, but it's been two days of questing already and I could use something more calm. Inn's not going anywhere, and the bounties we've had so far paid well; but if I'm to settle in here I want a longer-term plan."
Hyacinth also bedflops.
She lies there for a few minutes, then de-equips her boots and sits cross-legged at the head of the bed.
"Okay," she says. "Items on the agenda. One, uh, Pagutum and the mysterious vision. Two, do we want to fight bandits and other non-shardbearer sentients in this world or not? Three, what about the guided ritual meditation. Four, what about figuring out a proper house. Five, um, a thing that's about sex that I want to say. Six. Other methods of having fun and broadening our knowledge. Um, in-game books and stuff. Do we want to travel? Do we want to join a shardbearers' guild? That kind of thing. Seven... Another thing about sex, or maybe just an expansion of what I already know. Eight... I'd still like to take creative writing courses, is there a way to do that from in VR. Nine... contact my lone irl friend and inform him that if he wants to see me I'll be in VR until further notice."
She pauses for a long moment.
"I feel like there should be a ten..."
"I mean..."
Hyacinth sighs. "I was just kind of thinking that..."
She looks down at her feet. "I was always an altoholic in Realms of Dragons. They'd let you have like five characters and I used all my slots. I've been a troll — species — and a zombie and an elf and so on and so on pretty much all at the same time. It feels a little uncomfortable to only have one body in CORA."
"Yeah, I'm wondering too. It's just..."
She sighs and shakes her head. "None of the bodies I had before were me. They were — faces I put on, bit parts. There was always a sense of artifice. This body's not like that. It feels natural. Right. So I'm confused."
Hyacinth folds her hands in her lap. "How did you find out there was... another person in your head? Or maybe I should be asking... where did you come from? I hope that's not too invasive."
She hums thoughtfully. "So we described the whole 'fictive' thing, what with all of us moving into Sable's head as a result of stories she was writing, but we didn't explain what the experience of it was like. It varies a whole lot for every system, but for us, it feels like having a thought or reaction in your head that feels like it belongs to someone else, or alternatively like the person happening right then isn't the same person that was happening five minutes ago."
"I... huh. I've... experienced that. Before. Sometimes when I'm — bright and smiling and – willing to play around, willing to tease — it feels a lot like I'm a whole different person. It's like.... there's two states I can move between, sort of mechanics-focused and shy and — the kind of person who can dart out and ask things. And... Sometimes I can even ask that part of me questions, say, "I want some courage" or "what should I say here" and it feels like it's able to answer that in the way I can't."
She ducks her head. "I... thought that was just normal."
"I feel like... if there's another person in here, she's me too. We're — two faces of the same person? I'm not sure that's actually true. But —"
She rubs the back of her head. "People talk about being a different person at work from at home. I... have always been a different person around my family. Online I was safer, I could have relationships that weren't based on... my family facilitating. And it's there I learned how to be an extrovert. But my family... they don't even really try to understand me. So it's safer to be small. If I look like the kind of person who can't be asked anything of they let me be."
She nods and squeezes Sin's hand. "Yeah. Families can be like that, sometimes. As for what you're describing there, that sounds like what's called 'median plurality', which is where the system members see themselves as all different facets of one person, different perspectives."
"Hmmm, let me see. Thing number one, I'm a domme. We didn't lie that you took our virginity, but there's... a certain amount of wiggle room in that statement depending on how you count sexting. Always as a girl, naturally. We just were never confident enough to actually take the plunge and incarnate in a girl body. What if it was terrible. What if our friends found out. This kind of bullshit. Having seen it and done it, god were we ever missing out."
"I have a sex education manga collection that would make a member of the patriot church faint, or better yet, get a clue. I've practiced giving blowjobs on toys. I've got a whole collection of lingerie my parents don't know I own. My favorite piece is a light blue corset that's starting to fall apart now. I used to wear it to university under a t-shirt."
Hibiscus raises her eyebrows. "Like, when Hyacinth says we're a sex freak, she means it. We've worn toys beneath our clothes in public once or twice. For a virgin we are off the fucking charts when it comes to kinkiness. You've already seen how strong our libido is what with Sable going two rounds with us in two days, and we plan to make that a habit. You're worth holding on to, and worth having fun with — and Hyacinth would make sure to add, "worth being intimate with", but that's less of a priority to me to be honest. I've considered on occasion that I might be legitimately hypersexual before, so, like. It's a whole fun time."
She coughs. "That is to say, I'm still in love with you. But it's been two days. It's going to take more than good sex and a listening ear to catch me for good, even if you are a wonderful partner. We're inexperienced, and we know how first relationships tend to go, so if y'all aren't here in a year we'll pick ourselves up and keep going. The fact you're open to polyamory and also plural are huge pluses to me, to be honest. I can't really see myself in a single relationship, I'm a little too sexually omnivorous for that. Any single partner is unlikely to have the range and variety in preferred kinks to give me a well-balanced diet, you know?"
Hailey cackles. "Sable is blushing up a storm right now. Direct fucking hit."
She grins and nods. "So we're not just poly, Sable is obligate poly. If someone tries to tie her down and be her only, it will end in tears when she inevitably catches feelings for another person. Also, we seem to be incapable of romantic jealousy entirely, so if our eventual tank winds up being a sweetheart and you fall for her, we'll just be delighted and flirt with her as well — assuming Sable hadn't fallen for her already. So I think that aspect will go fine, on top of the benefits of our being plural and having a variety of different kinks."
Drumming her fingers for a moment, she smiles and continues. "The only kinks that are a hard no for all of us are scat and watersports. If you find a craving for literally anything else, ask.
"Oh, and speaking of hypersexuality, that's actually another reason why we live in VR as much as we do — the more time we spend outside, the worse our libido functions, and that just pisses us off."
"Sounds like the two of us are in for a fun time then. Well, I'll let Hyacinth say some things too. Eventually. I've always wanted to participate in a threesome or moresome or even an orgy, so if we can find a cool kink community here in CORA we've got a golden ticket."
Hibiscus sighs out. "That said, I would like to go over the plan with you more generally. Hyacinth's too shy to say it directly... Well, she was trying to get around to it. I'll give her some points on that front. She's head over heels for you but also anxious you'll turn out to be Secretly Bad somehow. At the exact same time, she wants you to be the first to kill her in CORA. As a kink scene, obviously. I'll be along for the ride of that too, which sounds like a fun time." She taps her fingers against her arm. "So, like, the actual agenda, give me a second here..."
"I think our first priority has to be securing long-term housing if we really do intend to stay in CORA. I don't want to be dependent on an innkeeper, even one as cool as Jorem, to keep a roof over my head when things get dicey. Been there with the family, don't want to go through that again. Ideally we get a house we actually own. That's a long term goal though. In the intermediate stages probably the smart thing is to find a cool Blessed guild that's up on our situations and lodge with them in a guild hall or similar. That still has issues with people being cool, but I would rather depend on Blessed if I can."
"In the nearer term, I would so love to hypnotize you, or any other member of your system. That's what got me into dommeing, the allure of having someone under my sway. That guided meditation is burning a hole in my pocket and I want to see what you girls are like when you're on the other end of the power balance."
Hibiscus nods firmly and smiles. "So yes, Hyacinth wants to make sure not to die until it's time to try it out properly, which is part of why she's a little reluctant to quest. The more monsters we fight, the higher the chance there is of some accident that steals her killginity. As for hypnotizing Sable or Maya, definitely sounds fun. And regarding housing, I agree that heading for a larger city is a sensible plan."
"As for the fighting humans thing... Hyacinth's got a hangup about fighting things that look like people but aren't. She doesn't want to get used to treating any class of people as disposable, not even bandit NPCs in a VR game. Partly also she's leaning real hard on immersion to cope right now, and from an in-world perspective it makes sense to be reluctant to kill another sentient being. I think she has a point, but also she's definitely thinking about it too hard. Same general problem as the sex pervert thing, fixating on a little detail that doesn't quite fit with how she wants to conduct herself and blowing it all out of proportion to make herself feel like a terrible person."
"One possible angle to line up killginity — that's an adorable word, by the way — for the scene with Hyacinth would be to pick the brain of an experienced adventurer who's died a few times already, if we can find one. Might be worth keeping an eye out during supper. And for the bandits, is it any amount reassuring to Hyacinth that the sentence for banditry in Parcosia is death? We wouldn't be changing what happens to the bandits, just accelerating it."
"Okay, then I think we have a plan: watch for an experienced adventurer to ask about the death dream, take Hyacinth's killginity as soon as we're sure that's chill, quest our way toward bigger cities and look for guilds and rentals, or maybe even houses for sale. In the interim, y'all hypnofuck Sable and we see if she gets more detail in a vision of her own to figure out what the fuck is going on with Pagutum, because those assholes are almost certainly up to no good."
Sable strokes Sin's hair tenderly, soft and warm and caring. "Yeah, the first time knowingly being out of front is always a trip, and even more so if a bunch of plans get made at the time. Valid to be a little rattled." She presses kisses up and down the back and top of Sin's head.
"It's a bit of a hack compared to what you've got going with you all, but it seems to work. The real issue is that when one of us is out, the other one is really hard to hear unless we're deliberately listening. It really jarred Hyacinth to not even have a chance to talk."
She flips the coin back over.
Sable grins and nods. "Yeah, that sort of thing is important to practice, both for the skill itself and to reassure each other. We had to practice a bunch too, early on."
She sets out the plate, tears off a chunk of bread, and puts some cheese on it, then takes a bite.
He's kinda hot, NGL, but also he's an obvious total noob. It's the classic "shady dude in the corner" character every guy who thinks they're cool makes before they smarten up a bit. She has been there.
The cat ears kind of spoil the effect though, so maybe he's got a sense of humor. She knows most real edgelords would probably take Darkling if they weren't just boring old humans.
"Yeah, I've died a couple times. Got gored by a moose once. Wasn't fun."
Cocoa accepts his drink from Sable and takes a swallow. "The pain cuts out fast once you know you're dead. You wake up elsewhere. For me it's this... study, full of old books and comfortable leather chairs. There's a woman there. She served me jasmine tea and talked with me. Helped me... sort my head out. She seemed nice, kind of like an older sister. I didn't get her name. I should really ask."
"The locals tend to mislike it if you start fights with edged weapons inside the town, even if it's a friendly fight against another Blessed. Risk to bystanders. If there was a Blessed training hall out here it'd be another story, but this town's too small for a proper one."
Cocoa takes another forkful of pie. "Wouldn't mind a fight though, it'd be good training. Sparring rules? First blood? Or do you mean a serious one?"
Cocoa waves casually to the guards as they pass, and then they're out.
Despite the somewhat hilly terrain, the level area doesn't take long to get to. It's a small area in between two low hills with a couple scraggly bushes at either end.
"Look good to you, Sable?" Cocoa looks over at his opponent.
"Right, yeah, sure."
She's done this a hundred times before in Realms of Dragons. She cradles her staff in the crook of one elbow and brings her hands together.
"This is a death match between Cocoa and Sable. It will begin on the third clap of my hands. Wait for the signal..."
Hyacinth brings her hands apart, then together in three sharp claps.
Cocoa's not fast enough to twist away from the blade, but his leather armor catches the blow and turns what could have been a serious injury into a wide bruise. He staggers, but retaliates, his daggers lashing out to try and catch Sable's unguarded throat and her stomach respectively.
She flaps again to try to evade, managing to interpose her sword before the dagger aimed at her throat, and catches the other strike on her leathers, staggering backward, winded. She manages to retain enough focus to whip her tail out to try and catch Cocoa's ankle, though.
Cocoa whirls with his second dagger, and as Sable comes in he raises his empty hand to intercept Sable's blade —
There's a blast of wind from his palm, and Sable's blade is knocked aside violently, far out of space to recover. In the moment while Sable's guard is down, Cocoa strikes with his dagger and sinks it into Sable's throat.
... okay okay okay okay.
This was the plan. This was exactly what she was aiming for.
Nonetheless, she finds herself on her knees on the grass grabbing the body.
It takes a second for her to come back to herself. She's hyperventilating and her body feels all hot and cold.
She toggles her meditation. Stills her breathing.
Sable awakens in a quiet living room, lying on an exquisitely comfortable couch with soft, deep purple upholstery, a weighted blanket draped over her. She sits up a bit and looks around. Another couch, two armchairs, and a small pile of pillows fill the rest of the room. Various knick-knacks sit on shelves: sculptures in gemstone and glass and steel, bottles of ink in all sorts of colors, metal puzzles, and more. Large windows reveal a purple sky, pink clouds, and stars in countless colors.
A teenage girl — maybe sixteen or seventeen years old — sits in one of the armchairs, staring out the window, watching and listening to the waves as they wash against the shore. Her blonde hair is tied back in a messy bun, a pair of glasses with plastic frames sit on her face, and she's wearing shorts and an oversized sweater.
"Evening, Pirates. Evening, Sable. How are you feeling?"