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The Fury of Sunsets
Yvette and Serg in Skygarden
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Darkness steadily encroaches upon a secluded park. It's not quite far enough into evening to earn the term 'night,' but it's certainly getting there. The sun's probably finished setting, but the park isn't well situated to tell. There are better places to watch the sunset, which maybe explains why this park is so empty. That doesn't make it any less pretty, though. Just a good place to get away from people for a while.

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It's nice to get away from people sometimes.

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He maybe should have picked a better spot if he wanted absolute solitude.

"- And my dinner's gone cold, nevermind that happened because I was too busy berating staff to eat it while it was warm, clearly it's your responsibility, and this is not an easily solved problem by anyone with even a speck of Fire, this is clearly worth raising even more of a fuss about."

A red haired woman in a nice dress stalks down the nearby path, snarling to the air. She clearly hasn't noticed she's not alone. "Everything is, in fact, worth raising a fuss about, because I'm rich and I like hearing myself talk, blah blah blah complain complain complain. It's so fun to torment innocent waitresses by yelling at them for no reason, especially after groping them! I like to spread out how I torment people, it makes my waste of a life matter! No one is allowed to yell at me because for some reason people care about my patronage! I am going to sit here for an hour complaining to anyone that looks vaguely authority shaped about anything that resembles a problem, whee, I'm wasting everyone's time!"

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A giggle emerges from a park bench in a shaded corner just off the path ahead of her.

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The woman stops, mid-ramble.

"... Sorry, I can do this somewhere else if you'd rather, I was trying to avoid bothering anyone with this."

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"No, go on, don't mind me."

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"All right. Well. Someone might as well enjoy this."

She clears her throat a little threatrically, then continues, pacing while she rants. "My food was wrong, it's not salty enough, you don't cook like this other restaurant I've been to, they're clearly very superior. Why am I not there, you might ask? I couldn't really say, maybe they banned me for my personality, maybe I just wanted to unleash it on someone unsuspecting, maybe I don't even really like the restaurant and I yell at the people there just as much, but I yell at everyone equally so no one feels left out! Nevermind that I dress like I should be able to afford my own personal cook, I'm not putting on airs to seem more important than I am, what ever gave you that idea, I am such an important powerful person that I feel the need to grind everyone around me into the dirt just to prove it! Hey, you over there, you're not dressed like you're a waitress and you haven't moved an inch the entire hour I've been talking, but I'm shit at pattern recognition and you look vaguely like you might work here so come over here so I can yell at you, too! Everything is terrible and my food is cold and this is your problem! Whine!"

The woman huffs, clearly running out of things to ramble about. It looks sort of like she'd started a while ago. She then plops on the bench beside Solekaran to sulk. "I should set my brother on him, since he has such a problem with things being cold."

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"Your brother?"

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"He dedicated Fire on top of being born with some, because he's crazy sometimes. He's really good at burning things."

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"Oh, don't tell me you're—I forget the guy's name, I just remember the part where the park was on fire all day and into the night—"

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"That would be him. Yes, I'm related to the guy that's allergic to any colors that aren't black and decided to dedicate Death and Fire." Eyeroll. "Because that's a sensible thing to do."

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"That sounds like it must make for an interesting life."

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"Yeah, a bit. How many women can sincerely say their brother can kill someone with a glare?" she snorts. "I have yet to introduce him to anyone I've dated. Not that he would, just. 'This is my brother, who can kill you with a thought...'"

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"I confess I might be slightly discouraged from dating you at that point! Slightly."

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Snort. "What, the terrifying brother doesn't make me prime dating material? However will I cope."

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"Date adventurous men," he advises. "Or adventurous women, if that's your game."

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"Either. Adventurous men or women, got it. Thank you for your insight."

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"Or very thoroughly immortal, I suppose, but there aren't many of those around," just one, in fact, "and then what would you do if you wanted your brother to glare them to death after all?"

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She snorts, again. "I'll have you know that I have yet to want a single one of my exes dead! Losing the brother murder option is not likely to be a huge loss."

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"Oh good! I am glad for both you and your exes!"

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"Me too. My life does not need any murder in it. Besides, while theoretically my brother's smart enough to get away with murder, but I'd really rather not put him in that position."

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"That's fair."

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"I'd be such a terrible sister! Also a terrible person, but, you know. I do actually love my brother. I try not to be terrible to him."

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"I don't know, I can think of some things somebody might do that would be worth murdering them over."

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"Well. Okay, yes, but I also try not to date people that I might conceivably want to have murdered in the future."

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"A sound policy if I've ever heard one."

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"Thank you, I try."

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"You are a strikingly reasonable person."

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"... Because I don't ask my brother to kill people, and because I try not to date people that would persuade me to rethink this policy? That earns me 'strikingly reasonable' status? Really?"

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"Mid-furious-tirade, paused to politely apologize and ask if you should take your rant elsewhere. Good sense of humour, insightful, always looking at the implications of things. I stand by my description."

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"I, well, that. Um." She looks away, fidgeting with her hair in lieu of an immediate reply. "... Fair enough, thank you?"

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"And now I've gone and made you uncomfortable. Well done, me. I apologize," he says wryly.

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"Oh no, unexpected compliments, how dare you, your apology is not enough?" she says, looking back at him and smiling. "I wasn't uncomfortable, just a bit flustered. I do not usually get complimented on how I conduct my rambles or the content contained thereof."

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"Well, all right." He smiles back.

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"Now that you've heard me talk about my brother's ability to kill people and seen me angry, hi, I'm Esvetielle."

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"Sekar. Pleased to meet you."

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"Pleased to meet you, too."

She looks like she even means it.

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Aww. He beams at her.

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She smiles back.

"You know," she observes, "it's surprisingly pretty here, at this time of day. Usually I'm uh, not in parks at this hour."

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"I like going to parks at odd hours. It's nice. Restful."

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"Most of the time, anyway," she points out, wryly.

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"Oh, don't imagine for a second that I have any complaints about the turn this evening has taken."

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"Well, all right."

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He grins at her.

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"Do you have a lot of free time to visit parks at odd hours, then?"

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"All the free time I like."

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"Professional rich person?" she wonders, a little amused.

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"I'm technically an architect but not because I remotely need the money, I just really like making pretty buildings. Dedicated Land after being born with it - your brother's not the only idiot around."

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She stifles a giggle. "Sorry, I didn't mean it that way. I don't think you're an idiot, just - more willing to take crazy risks than I am. It clearly worked out for you. I just - when my sixteenth birthday rolled around, there was absolutely no way I was dedicating anything."

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"It was absolutely a crazy risk and I wouldn't dream of denying that. I am not offended in the least."

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"Zeothe - that would be the brother - was annoyed that he only went for Death and Fire, after. Seventeen hours was apparently not enough, for some reason. So uh. That's more the mindset I'm thinking of when I affectionately call him insane."

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...giggle.

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"'I could have had the full set!'" she says in an awkward baritone, clearly pretending to be her brother. "'If I knew what it was like I might have just dedicated everything, why is this one-shot-only, I would definitely not have accidentally blown myself up!'"

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"Wow. Can't say that's a complaint I've ever heard before. 'Wish I could go another round with the agonizing death-storm'."

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Giggle. "And now I am envisioning my brother challenging every agonizing death-storm he can find to a battle of fisticuffs, thank you for this gift."

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Snicker. "You're entirely welcome."

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She indulges in some more giggling.

"More seriously," she continues after she's recovered, "I can see the logic? Half of the reason why I didn't try for anything was that I didn't know how I'd do at it."

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"Yeah. It's hard to know until you're there. I wasn't worried about mine, but that's because when I was sixteen I thought I was invincible."

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Well, now she's giggling again.

"I did not have that problem! I said I wasn't going to do it before my birthday rolled around, and then it did, and I agonized over it some more the day of because I wanted more magic, and then I didn't because I was pretty sure that if I tried it I'd just die."

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"Well, for whatever the opinion of a stranger you met in a park five minutes ago is worth, I'm glad you're not dead."

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"Thank you! Me too! Maybe it was a horrible, horrible mistake and I would have been amazing at it and could be extra magical and trying to fight the agonizing death-storm again with my brother. We just don't know!"

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Giggle.

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"I didn't have any low hanging fruit, either. I was born with Life, Sea, Sky, and Shadow, and my parents dedicated me to Land, Fire, Ice, and Light. So I could have gone for Death like my brother and been there for sixteen hours, or picked something harder that would take less time. So ah. Yeah, no, I'd probably just be dead."

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"Yeah, I see the logic. I applaud your sixteen-year-old self's mature and responsible decision-making."

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"Thank you. My parents were pretty relieved, too, Zeothe gave them grey hair with his adventure."

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Snicker. "I'll bet he did."

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"... I keep talking about my brother. I can talk about other topics too, I swear, it's just - he's very relevant to the topic of magic!"

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"I promise I'm not intimidated," he jokes.

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Giggle.

"I'm not worried about you being intimidated, I'm worried about me being dull!"

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"I'm skeptical that this is a problem you ever encounter!"

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"Flatterer."

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"You caught me."

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"I bet you say that to all of the girls you catch angrily ranting in the park."

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"I assure you, among girls I have caught angrily ranting in the park, you are uniquely worthy of flattery."

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"Thank you, that's very reassuring. Meet a lot of ranting girls here, then? Did I take up someone's time slot without realizing?"

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He giggles. "You're not the first, actually!"

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"Really? Well now I'm tempted to gossip, I probably should resist that temptation."

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"I haven't gone on to strike up conversations with any others, so I don't know their opinions on being gossiped about. Maybe better to refrain."

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"I will magnanimously tolerate being gossiped about later, if you ultimately treat hearing my ranting as a positive experience that you were blessed to witness."

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"It certainly was that."

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"Also that I'm charming and pretty. Don't forget those."

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"Of course."

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"Good," she says, preening a little.

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"Charming, pretty, and strikingly reasonable. And hilarious."

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"You're very good at compliments. Thank you."

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"I try! It's good to know I succeed!"

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Smile.

"Have you had dinner yet?"

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"I have not."

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"I haven't either. For all the restaurant drama, I wasn't actually there to eat. Want to go have dinner?"

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"I would be delighted. Anywhere in particular you recommend?"

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"Not the place I just inspected. Otherwise I'm not really picky."

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"Then I guess it'll be an adventure."

He stands up.

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She does, too.

"I guess so!"

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"Well, I did suggest you date adventurous men," he says, starting down the path at a pace she can easily keep up with. (This is something of a concern because he is very tall, and at his natural stride she might have to scamper undignifiedly in his wake.)

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"You did! Look at me, following your advice near immediately and everything!"

Gosh he's tall. She's pretty tall for a woman, so maybe she could avoid undignified scampering, but - yes, she's glad he's at a slower pace.

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"I'm very impressed!"

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She smiles at him, then hooks her arm through his. That seems like the thing to do.

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Aww. He beams delightedly.

A few turns out of the park, he pauses at a restaurant. It looks like the sort of place she probably couldn't afford to eat at. "Thoughts?"

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"... Probably a bit too expensive if I'm paying for anything?" she admits. "Professional rich person or no, I wasn't going to expect you to buy me everything."

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"Honestly if I felt like it I could buy you the restaurant," he says cheerfully, "but if you'd rather buy your own dinner we can go somewhere more within your budget, I don't mind."

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"I - you - .... Okay, sure, buy me dinner. Not the whole restaurant, though, that. Seems excessive."

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Giggle. "Sure."

They go into the restaurant. They don't appear to personally recognize him, but he's wearing the right clothes and projecting the right attitude to get them a nice little table on a balcony with a good view of the ocean.

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She's dressed nicely enough to not egregiously stand out, she's so proud! There was never any way she was going to be the best dressed person in this restaurant, but she's glad she doesn't look out of place.

"Well this is way more romantic than I was envisioning. Full marks, especially on short notice," she admits, amused.

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"Thank you! It's nice to be appreciated for my successes. Makes me feel all accomplished."

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Giggle.

"I would have been all right with a cheap dive, but this is much nicer."

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"Delighted to exceed your expectations!"

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Esvetielle smiles at him, then goes to peer at the menu to figure out what she's ordering.

"Anything you'd like to recommend, or shall I let my whims lead me?"

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"Oh, I haven't eaten here in a while, I wouldn't know what stands out."

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"Whims it is! I'd make a joke about trying to avoid bankrupting you, but I get the impression I'd have to try really hard to manage that and probably couldn't even then."

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"You are correct."

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"Then I will just order whatever I want, while also reassuring you that I did not ask you out because of your money."

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"Consider me reassured."

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"Good. I'd be frustrated with people trying to manipulate me if I were ludicrously wealthy, I don't want to even accidentally inflict that on you. You probably get enough of it."

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"I wasn't especially worried. You really don't come off as the type."

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"Good. Just making sure."

She goes back to perusing the menu. She orders something that she recognizes and expects to actually like instead of something that looks new and shiny, because that seems sensible. Experimentation can come later if she decides to keep going on dates with this person.

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He picks something. They successfully order their food.

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Hooray!

"So, technical architect, anything you've designed that I might make complimentary awed noises at?"

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"Mm... I'm trying to think of something you'd have heard of," he says.

(And that isn't known to be the Emperor's work and isn't obviously too old to have been built by someone the age he looks.)

"...oh, you know that library on the northeast edge, with the stone windows? I did that."

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She considers.

"I think I've seen it," she says, after a thoughtful pause. "Interior and exterior? The exterior was pretty, but my favorite was the inside, it was very. I felt mildly intimidated by the scale, and this is speaking as a person that is not very intimidated by libraries."

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"Yep, I did the whole thing."

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"Oh." She smiles at her lap and squirms a little. "You're very talented, it was breathtaking."

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"Aww," he says, beaming. "Thank you. I'm very proud."

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"You should be. ... I said I'd make complimentary awed noises, not repetitive compliments. Hold on."

She clears her throat. "Oooooo. Aaah. So awed!" Pause. "I did not start that intending it to be sarcastic, it just sort of ended up there by accident. It's astonishingly hard to make convincing awed sounds without anything in front of me to be awed over. Um. Oops. I really am impressed, sorry?"

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Cannot answer, too busy with this helpless gigglefit.

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"Well," observes Esvetielle, smiling. "That's not a bad reaction to my social awkwardness."

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"Your social awkwardness is immensely endearing."

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"Oh good, I'm glad you find it so!"

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He smiles fondly at her.

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She smiles back.

"Surprisingly enough, not everyone likes having moments of sincerity frequently and egregiously subverted!"

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"It was cute!"

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"Cuteness is subjective! You are an integral part of the cuteness here, in that you are the one finding it cute, and also reacting in a way I find cute. We are in a cuteness feedback loop, woe is us."

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"No. The thing we are is definitely not woe."

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"No? But it's so fun to say woe dramatically! Can we pretend to be a little bit woe for my amusement?"

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"Somehow I don't think the pretense would be very successful."

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"What, no, I'm a completely convincing actress!"

She holds a hand up to her forehead, looks at the ceiling, and begins: "Woe! Woe! Woe is me, how can I possibly withstand -"

"... Ma'am?" says the waiter with their food. Esvetielle blinks, drops her hand and sits up, alarmed. "Is... Everything okay?"

"Um, yes, I'm, I'm fine, pay no attention, everything's wonderful, I'm just, um. Sorry."

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Sekar flashes a reassuring smile. "We're just joking around, don't worry about it."

The waiter is appropriately reassured. He distributes dinners and then leaves.

...Sekar starts giggling again.

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Esvetielle is just going to hide behind her hands now, okay? Okay.

"I am going to give him a tip," she mutters. "A nice one. ... Thank you."

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"You're welcome."

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"Auuugh," she says, very quietly. So as not to embarrass herself further.

"Okay, um. Yes. Let's not pretend any woe. No woe here whatsoever, especially not the imaginary kind."

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He reaches across the table to pat her arm.

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She smiles at him, and touches his hand with her own. "Thanks. At least I can console myself with food. And, uh, the concept if not the specific instance of fast service, because I am kind of impressed they got the food out so quickly."

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"It's a nice place!"

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"It is! I am delighted to be here. Money gets you nice things, who knew?"

She takes a bite of her meal and unintentionally reacts with a pleased sound. Yes, money does get you nice things.

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...that was a good sound.

He smiles at her before starting in on his own dinner.

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"I am," she says, after several more bites of food, "starting to see the appeal of the gold digger lifestyle. Not enough to want to indulge, but, damn."

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Fond smile. "And yet, here you are, on a date with a rich man in a restaurant you can't afford."

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"A single dinner at a really expensive place is not going to break my budget, if you for some reason ditched and left me with the bill," she sniffs. "I'd just have to eat cheaply for a while after. And I am here for you, not your money, there is a distinct difference."

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"Well, fair enough."

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"I would have accepted a cheap dive! Where I buy for myself! You volunteered to spoil me, I heard you, you said you could buy the restaurant."

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"It's true, I did. And I don't regret it in the slightest. You are a delight to spoil."

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Happy squirm. "I, well. Good, I'm glad this is a mutually positive experience."

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"It very much is!"

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Well now she is going to smile at him between bites of delicious expensive food. So there.

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He smiles right back at her.

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"You have a nice smile," she sighs, without really meaning to.

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"Thank you!"

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"... Oh, wow, I actually said that out loud, didn't I, um. I mean, I meant it, just. It's a bit more corny than I try to be?"

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"I assure you I don't mind."

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"I think this is another situation where I might mind a little! I don't want to be - I don't know, straight out of a cheesy discount romance novel."

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"But then, where would we be if no one ever complimented each other for fear of sounding trite?"

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"Probably in a very sad, lonely world," she admits. "Everyone afraid to give compliments and upset that they'd received none, without ever knowing why."

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"What a terrible world. I won't stand for it. You have a lovely smile," he says, gazing fondly across the table at her.

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"Yeah, well, so do you. Ha. Take that, I have defeated you."

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Giggle. "Oh, but I haven't given up yet! Let's see... you have a lovely smile, you're strikingly reasonable, charming, pretty, hilarious... I'm sure I can come up with a new one, let's see... oh, I know - and you're thoughtful and conscious of your effect on the world. There. I think I'm winning this battle," he says, smugly.

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... This seems to have made her briefly speechless. That probably means he's winning this battle.

"You're - that's - you're," is all she manages. Is that a blush? That looks like a blush.

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He beams.

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"Shush you haven't won, I just need some time to recover," she sniffs, trying not to laugh. She only mostly succeeds.

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"Take all the time you like. I can wait."

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"Good, thank you." She sits up, takes a deep breath, and gets to the business of winning.

Esvetielle fixes him with a look that is only softened a little by the hint of a smile at her lips. "You," she says, with utmost gravity, "are ludicrously talented, wonderfully handsome, smart, confident without straying into being actively obnoxious. You're well spoken in a, a more concise way than I'm used to, when you want to make a point you make it, instead of fluttering about trying to find the right thing to say. Like a, swordsman running around in a conversation, occasionally listening politely, and occasionally stabbing people. You're up front in a way a lot of people aren't, and I really appreciate it, I don't feel like I have to navigate complicated social etiquette or worry if I'm being lied to, you're just." She waves a hand at him, as if this expresses her point. "And also, you're very sweet and you light up every time I smile, and it's really great."

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"Well," he says. "I admit defeat. Delightedly."

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"Pleasure sparring with you, I'll try not to gloat." She winks, her smile irrepressible.

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"By the way," he says, grinning, "you are exquisitely cute when you blush."

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"Thank you," she says primly, pretending that this has not caused her to blush more.

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He smiles fondly across the table at her.

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She smiles fondly back, trying to keep a damper on her smugness. This works about as well as it did for the smile and the blush, but he's spared from gloating. Instead she focuses on finishing her delicious meal before she has any sort of chance to complain about coldness.

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The food is delicious. And yet, unaccountably, Sekar seems to be paying more attention to the company.

But he does finish eventually, and pays for their meal and stands up and offers her his arm.

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After leaving the promised tip, she stands and takes it, smiling.

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Out of the restaurant they go.

"And now what shall we do?"

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She - looks at him with a consideration that implies she is very tempted to suggest something presumptuous...

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... Then shakes her head ruefully and admits, "I should actually probably head home and get some sleep, I've got work in the morning."

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"How reasonable of you," he says. "Shall we meet in the park another evening, then?"

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After a moment of consideration, she nods. "Yes, all right. Next week I'm going to be a bit busy, though, I'd probably be too exhausted to be any fun. Sometime the week after?"

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"Sure. Landsday?"

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"Sounds good. Same place, around the same time? Or... Actually, I suppose it might be more efficient if I invited you to walk me home, and you came by there."

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"I suppose it might," he agrees. "If you didn't mind being walked home by someone you met in a park two hours ago."

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"As I recall, we started with 'my brother can kill you with a thought.' So watch out, sir," she teases, smiling. "No, I don't mind. Besides," she lowers her voice, "I would kind of like to kiss you and would rather not in the middle of the street."

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"Well then I would be delighted to walk you home."

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"Excellent!"

Her home isn't too far away, but the walk is nice enough. She keeps hold of his arm and smiles at him on the way there.

"This was really nice, I had a lot of fun."

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"I agree completely."

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"I'm glad I wandered into a park to vent my frustration!"

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"And I'm glad I was there to overhear you!"

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Giggle.

Soon enough, she stops in front of a modest but nice looking house with a thriving garden.

"This would be the aforementioned home," she says, smiling up at him.

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"It's nearly as adorable as you are."

He leans down to kiss her.

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"Flatterer," she breathes affectionately, and then she leans up and kisses him.

She'd meant it to be a quick good night kiss, but she went and stood on her toes to reach him. Which of course means that to keep her balance while kissing she needs to stabilize herself on something, and since the only thing remotely available is Sekar, well. Now she's using him for support. This makes it very easy to tangle her hands in his hair and whoops now this is a bit more than a quick good night kiss.

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It goes on rather longer than he meant to let it.

(If her brother sees them, it's going to get... awkward. A seventeen-hour self-dedication is the sort of thing the Emperor shows up to; he remembers Zeothe very clearly, and he expects that Zeothe remembers him just as well, though their conversation was brief.)

Eventually he has the presence of mind to break away.

"Well," he says, a little breathless, touching his fingertips to her cheek. "I've had a lovely evening." He makes himself take a small step back, though he can't resist picking up her hand and kissing it. "I look forward to seeing you next Landsday."

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"Yeah. All of those things," she sighs, a little dreamily. She recovers herself quickly enough for a rueful smile. "Good night, Sekar."

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"Good night, Esvetielle."

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This is an absolutely doomed relationship, even more doomed than the usual. What the fuck does he think he's doing? Her brother knows his face. But - she's so lovely and charming and witty and thoughtful. She sparkles. He wants to make her blush again.

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She lingers outside her door for a few seconds, smiling faintly, then turns and heads inside.

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"Sibling or burglar?" calls a voice from upstairs, once she's inside.

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... Esvetielle cracks up.

"Yes!"

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"Oh good, now I can take your place as the good one in the family."

And she can get a hug, because he is a kind brother who wasn't in the middle of anything important anyway.

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Hug! "Ha. Hi. You're up late."

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"Yeah, Nito's being weird and nervous and I don't know why. I know it's important, but knowing that and nothing else makes it hard to sleep, and - uh, I've been playing the excuse game to see if I eventually exhaust myself."

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"I see that's been working out for you."

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"Yep. It's been great."

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... Esvetielle's worried about her brother, but also, separately, has an expression.

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"... What's with the face."

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"What, me, what face, I have no face, I am a faceless horror, what are you talking about?"

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"Uh huh. Right. My sister. Faceless horror, yep."

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Eyeroll. "I um. Tripped over a date and then had a lot of fun."

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"Was the date just lying in the street for anyone to trip over and take pity on?"

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"No, he was - ... Do you want me to let you attempt to get some sleep or drag you off to gleefully gush."

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"Eh, sleep's not happening for another hour at least, I'll take the latter."

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"Okay!"

This is obviously a hot chocolate situation, so she acquires hot chocolate for them both to sip while she gushes profusely.

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"So. Did not literally trip over this person, a good start to any romantic evening."

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Snicker.

"No, instead I, uh. First had to suffer a stupid person while I was at work, who was personally responsible for keeping me there an hour longer than was necessary, and was terrible besides. So naturally, I did the only responsible thing to do, and I stalked into a park alone at, uh. Almost night. Mostly night. To say my expletives where no one would hear them."

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"Yes, nothing that would potentially make mom make a face at you there, nope. Alone in a park at night, good call."

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"Do you want me to stop story time or do you want to shush."

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"I'm going to go with the latter."

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"Ah huh. So! I was not alone in the park, turns out I was interrupting someone. He found my entire, uh, rambling angry speech hilarious and charming."

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"You are temporarily unshushed for adorable sibling affection, do not abuse these privileges."

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"Awwwwww."

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"So he invited me to continue my tirade, which of course I did, he continued to be delighted, and it turned into flirting and then I asked him out."

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"Sorry. I swear it's... slightly... more responsible than it sounds."

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Shrug. "I have done more dangerous things than walk into a park and ask someone out."

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"... This is true."

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"I just have these big brother instincts, you know. Grrr, burn kill maim, my sister, grr. Anyway, go on?"

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"So, um. I didn't mean to ask out a guy that turned out to be rich and then be taken to a ludicrously expensive restaurant that he paid for, buuuuut..."

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"I had fun! It was fun, he was sweet. Very... he very obviously enjoyed making me smile. Lit up every time I smiled at him, it was adorable. Then, the conversational chemistry was kind of insane, it was so easy to talk to him. I - still don't know him very well, but I definitely like him."

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"Aw."

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"Yeah. So we're having another date next Landsday, and I will be suppressing the urge to lovingly doodle his name on perfectly innocent stationery."

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"Should we find you guilty stationery that knows what it did?"

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.... She cracks up.

"Being literal is my job, stop it."

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"I decided that I wasn't going to be outdone, and was therefore going to outdo you in burglary. By stealing your thing."

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"Uh huh."

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"Mhmm," he says, cut off from anything more eloquent by a yawn.

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"Okay to go to bed now?" she asks, softly.

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"Yeah, probably. I will reassure myself with the fact that someone is telling me something going on in their lives, instead of getting into a mess, not talking about it, and then dumping it when the someone realizes it's too big for them."

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"... Hate to be blunt, except not really, but are you sure you should be this guy's friend?"

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Sigh. "No. I will probably punch him and tell him to fuck off this time."

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"Before or after you solve his problem?"

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... Rueful smile.

"Haven't decided. G'night."

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"Night. Love you."

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"Love you too," he yawns, and then shambles off to bed.

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She stays to finish off her hot chocolate and clean the mugs so they won't be waiting for them in the morning, then also heads off to sleep.

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One week later, at a rather boring social event, someone offhandedly mentions someone near their home that was executed for murder. This isn't in itself particularly noteworthy, people just get executed sometimes, except someone might perhaps notice the name.

Zeothe.

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—there are multiple people by that name in the city, but—

He leaves. He checks the records. Yeah, it's him.

He checks for any mention of what happened to the sister.

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Outstanding debts from her brother passed on to her. Looks like several different slimy people that probably had at least one grudge between them noticed, and figured this would be a good time to capitalize on it. They've tacked on extra fees and debts that are, frankly, bullshit, but would only really be cleared with any alacrity if someone had a proper lawyer -

- which she cannot, of course, afford.

She got pinned with one of the more reputable debts while the disreputable debts tied up her money. With nothing to pay with, the debt collector moved to have her sold to pay it off.

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And how far along is this process -

He digs up the location of the auction house, spies on it from across the city. They're just starting to set up for the next batch; it'll be a few minutes yet, and she'd have to be awfully unlucky to be first in line.

There's a part of him that wants to just walk in there and take her, but people do rely on him not doing that sort of thing too often. It's better for the stability of the empire if he buys her legally rather than confiscating her on a whim. And—at least until they put the slave-marks on her, there's a chance she might not realize who he is—he might get to see her smile one more time before it's all over—

He makes a portal to an alley near the auction house, takes a deep breath in an effort to regain some semblance of calm, and steps through. They're just about to start when he walks in; he takes a seat near the back of the room.

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She's last in line. 'Pretty,' 'red haired,' and 'former-nobility' combine to make her something of an expensive novelty, which is perhaps part of the reason why she was buried under bullshit debts in the first place. A great deal of money could be made from her being sold. Not just from being sold, though that'll be plenty lucrative, but from being a prize that draws people to the auction house to look. Being last is very calculated. The riff raff that have no hope in hell of affording her either clear out or linger at the edges to see what she looks like, and the main seating area is left with some very rich customers.

Her expression, when they bring her out in manacles, is one of despairing and impotent fury. She does not actually need to be dragged to the stage, but when she gets there she venomously spits in the crowd's direction. This earns her a backhand from one of the guards, which invokes one hell of a glare, but not even a whimper of pain.

(Oh, her pride is going to be her undoing. Possibly it would be smarter to pretend meekness so she doesn't draw someone interested in breaking her, but she does not have the composure for it. She is livid, and shaking with anger, not fear.)

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The guard in question experiences a moment of unexplained dizziness before Solekaran gets hold of his temper. It's been centuries since the last time he made someone drop dead on the spot just because they pissed him off, but apparently today is really bringing it out in him.

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The guard stumbles, but not in a particularly overt fashion, and the moment of dizziness ends without incident.

A young, handsome looking man with a distasteful smirk is the opening bidder. He opens high, and looks at her with a predatory hunger, like he is finally about to get what he wants.

Esvetielle's eyes narrow at him, and she has just enough composure to bite back her snarl. But not the glare. That looks like recognition, not just general anger and disgust at her situation.

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He manages not to call on Death even a little bit this time, but in the time he takes to remind himself not to do that, a voice he recognizes pipes up with a higher bid. It's that fellow who collects pretty redheads.

He really does not want Esvetielle going to a collection of pretty redheads.

He doubles the collector's bid. Heads turn in his direction all over the room. Some of them will certainly recognize him, but not all; he does a pretty good job of keeping his face less well-known than it could be.

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One person who hasn't yet bidded recognizes him, laughs a quiet little laugh, and sits back in his chair, satisfied. Another recognizes him, staring at him with widened eyes, then quietly leaves her seat to slip out of the room.

Esvetielle straightens, blinking. Her eyes search the room, and fall upon Sekar. Her expression changes from fury to something resembling shame, or perhaps dismay - she would really rather he not see her like this.

The opening bidder is not one of the people that recognized their Emperor, and he raises Sekar's bid by a large sum. He even has the audacity to glare at him.

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He doesn't look at anyone but Esvetielle.

He doubles that one too. (Out of the corner of his eye, he sees the collector slump in defeat.)

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This is not actually enough to make the handsome man back off. He raises the sum again.

Esvetielle is looking at him with - something resembling hope, mixed with a healthy dose of 'why are you doing this you crazy person.'

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He gives her a slight, wry headtilt, as though to say 'didn't I tell you I could buy you a restaurant?', and doubles the handsome man's bid again. They are definitely in restaurant territory now.

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I didn't think you'd actually do it! she mouths, appalled. And - distinctly not appalled, she sort of wants to fling herself at him in order to cry. This does not earn her another backhand, perhaps fortunately for the guard.

There's a pause, and for a second it seems like Solekaran has won with his absurd, restaurant territory sum -

- then another bidder that has yet to make a single bid leans over and murmurs something to the handsome man. He considers, then nods, grimly. And raises again, by a significant sum.

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He sighs slightly.

He doubles on them again, in an I-can-do-this-all-day tone of voice.

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No one raises that. Maybe someone somewhere could, conceivably, but clearly none of them are in this room and willing to fork it over for a single slave. The handsome man claws at his hair, like he could somehow mythically come up with the money necessary if he thought hard enough. This does not, actually, turn up any money.

Esvetielle is looking at him with something almost resembling relief, except -

- that is a truly outrageous sum that no one could sensibly afford. How the fuck-?

Then realization dawns, and she just - stares. One person could afford that. One.

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...yeah, she's caught him. Well. It was nice while it lasted.

The auctioneer waits for further bids, and when, predictably, none are forthcoming, declares in his favour. He stands up and comes to the front of the room where the scribe waits with the enchanted brush to mark her as his property.

"Ah - pardon me, sir, but whose mark do I draw—?"

"Imperial," he says, not particularly caring who overhears.

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"Wait, what -" hisses the handsome man. "- Her? She'll be dead in a week you're wasting -"

Someone smarter clamps a hand over the idiot's mouth and begins attempting to drag him away before the Emperor kills him.

Esvetielle doesn't even flinch, at either the confirmation or the yelling. Instead she continues to give Solekaran an almost shell-shocked stare. She limply allows herself to be led and for her arms to be arranged for the scribe, not paying any attention to much of anything else.

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The scribe paints the Imperial sun on the inside of each wrist. The Emperor... has a hard time looking at his new purchase.

He at least manages not to do anything petty to the handsome idiot.

When the ink has settled under her skin, he makes an idle gesture and all her chains open up and fall away. Then - he moves like he's going to reach for her hand, hesitates, and just beckons instead.

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She doesn't actually register this motion, or if she does, she does not translate it to an order.

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"Esvetielle," he says softly.

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That does it. She blinks, looks away, and quietly trails after him.

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He leads her out of the room, and as soon as they're in a hallway with no one else present he opens a portal to his sitting room.

It's - just about as decadent as you'd expect from the Emperor, although considerably less blatantly evil. Optimized for beauty and comfort, without so much as a single instrument of torture in sight. Walls and floor and ceiling all of a piece, because the Emperor built this place himself by magic. An architect indeed.

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She doesn't look around, because she's staring at him again. But she does actually go through the portal, so that's... an improvement?

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He sits down heavily on a big comfortable couch and puts his face in his hands. (The portal fades away behind her.)

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"I don't understand."

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—he glances up at her.

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"I- wh-" Nope, words are not coming, start over and try again. Standing is slightly more difficult than sitting, so she does that second thing in - a chair. Any chair. Closest one, that seems easiest.

"I don't understand," she repeats, a little plaintively, because that seems to be the only thought that is forming itself into a coherent concept.

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"Sometimes I like to go out and - not be the Emperor, for a little while. It's nice to talk to people who aren't terrified of me."

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She considers this, then nods, only a little mechanically.

"So it wasn't - none of that was, was - it was all real?"

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"Yeah. I hate lying and try to do as little of it as possible. I just - left some things out. Like the rest of the elements of my self-dedication, and the fact that I built a lot more than just that one library."

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"And you had - nothing to do with the, the." She fails to form sentences again. Okay, that's fine. Stop, start over. Form coherent concepts. "And you didn't have anything to do with the clusterfuck that was." Her voice catches a little, but she presses on. "My week?"

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"Heard about your brother a couple of hours ago, somebody just happened to be discussing recent executions. Looked you up to see if whatever trouble he got into had gotten to you too."

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She swallows, and nods.

"You could say that," she murmurs, a hint of rueful.

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"I'd ask what the fuck happened but I get the sense you don't really want to talk about it."

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"I don't - you know I'm not actually sure? I - Zeothe was framed, if he actually killed anyone and then got caught he would have looked at me apologetically and asked me t-to." She swallows. "To apologize to our parents for him and hand me a, a, contingency plan that would keep. Something this shaped. From occurring."

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"Yeah. I - I met him, when he came out of his dedication. He was... memorable. If you'd been any less charming I would've refused to walk you home, wouldn't have wanted to take the chance he'd recognize me."

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That startles a laugh out of her.

"What," she says, sounding almost like herself again, except for that hint of a sob in her throat, "you liked me that much, having met my brother and wanting to -" She cannot finish the sentence, in favor of trying not to cry.

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"...do you want a hug."

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Aborted-sob.

"Yes please."

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And now he has an Esvetielle in his arms, clinging to him and violently sobbing like everything in the world is terrible, none of it will ever be okay again, and like he's the only person in any of it that's anything resembling adequate.

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Well.

 

Yeah he's going to fix this. But - she can finish crying on him first.

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She's going to be a while.

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He doesn't have anywhere to be.

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"Some purchase I am," she sniffles with a complex hybrid of misery and humor. "Outrageous sum of money in order t-to be cried on, I am the opposite of a sound investment."

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"You're very attractive when you cry," he says, hugging her.

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"Oh, good, because that was my priority here," she snorts, laughing a little, and - then the laughs are back to being sobs, yep. That was predictable.

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Snuggle.

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After she has had a bit of time to sob:

"Though, there is a logic to b-being a really unsound investment, in like. Most of the potential outcomes for cases like these. I was vaguely hoping w-whoever got me would end up desperately unhappy with their purchase."

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"Oh, they would've been," he says. "Especially whoever that one idiot was, I think he'd have been stubborn enough that when I came to get you I'd have killed him rather than deal with his nonsense."

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She lets out a watery giggle.

"That's kind of gratifying. Can you kill him anyway, he's a prick. - No, I should not make murder decisions while I'm miserable, ignore that."

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"I will wait until you're not miserable before I kill anyone for you," he promises.

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And more giggling. Giggle sobbing. Very talented, this woman.

"Thank you. Why do I keep having this kind of power. Was I secretly dedicated to a, a higher, tenth power? The power of murder delegation?"

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He pets her hair and smiles slightly.

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She sniffles again, and then - yyyyyep, back to the really violent sobbing. No more snarky comments for a while.

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More cuddles.

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More sobs! So many sobs.


Eventually, she does exhaust herself to smaller sobs that resemble hiccups more than the awful bawling she'd been doing earlier.

"Why is everything so terrible," she mumbles into his very damp shoulder, without heat.

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"The world is kind of a fucked-up place," he says, hugging her some more. "Want to hear some good news for a change?"

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"Sure, I could use some variety. Abject misery just gets so dull after a while."

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"I can resurrect the dead."

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She pulls back to stare at him, again. This is a different kind of look.

"You. You can?" This seems to be rhetorical, because she doesn't wait for a reply. "Will you?" she whimpers, looking pleadingly at him with red rimmed, puffy eyes. "Please," she adds, as an afterthought.

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"Yes, of course. I wouldn't have mentioned it if I wasn't already planning to. It's not trivial and I don't want to make a habit of it but I can bring back one brother."

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Nod. ... Sniffle.

"Thank you," she murmurs, snuggling him. Some of the tension leaves her. Not all, but some.

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He cuddles her and pets her hair.

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She hums appreciatively and relaxes a little more.

"I think I'm allowed to make the executive decision to, to - to hold off on resurrecting my brother until I'm less of a mess. Unless being dead is unpleasant in some way?"

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"No, being dead is pretty much... not being."

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"Okay. So the last thing he will remember is being executed for a thing he didn't do. That means he should come back to a sister that is not a mess so he doesn't have to - he was already handling a complicated problem with little information and it was really unpleasant. I don't want to do that to him a second time."

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"You're being strikingly reasonable again," he says, cuddling her.

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"I am too damn tired to waste any energy on being unreasonable," she says, wryly.

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Hug. Deeply affectionate smile.

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Hug. Little smile. She stills and snuggles him. For a little while it seems like she might fall asleep on him, but then she stirs.

"... Mm. I should be responsible. Do you think the talk about, uh - " She holds up a forearm to display his mark, in lieu of words. "- the this related stuff should come sooner or later? Benefits of sooner being that there won't be any unpleasant surprises later and you'll get an emotionally exhausted buffer zone of me having about three fucks left to give, benefits of later being that I will have had at least one nap first and would be more reasonable and less cranky. Either way, I should get food and water and then like. A place to sleep. At some point that resembles soon."

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He gestures vaguely at the floor, and a small tree grows from the bare stone, swirling up into the shape of a round wooden table before going still. Tiny buds form on its surface and open up into lovely flowers which bloom to reveal plates of delicious food. A particularly enormous blossom yields a pitcher of water with fruit slices floating in it.

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She considers the table of food and drink, then leans up to peck Sekar on the cheek.

"Thank you," she says, then she disentangles herself in order to raid the table. Water first.

"Was that a no to the conversation happening now, then?" she clarifies, after she's downed a full glass of water.

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"It... seemed like a problem I could solve, so I solved it. I - have no idea where to even start talking about - things."

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"Well, is the plan to free me and send me on my way when you're sure I won't just get dragged to another auction house? Keep me but let me do whatever I feel like? Keep me but... do something in particular?" She says that last one like she's confused about what he'd even be doing with her.

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"...You say that like you have no idea what 'something in particular' would be..."

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"To be honest, I don't. I mean, I've heard the everything and don't think that's false, but." She indulges in more water. "If you want to torture me you're really not acting like it? And while I'm not going to claim a full understanding of who you are as a person, I am reasonably confident that you are up front about things that you want and not going to play mindfucky games with me. As far as I can tell, you either want me to be okay, or you find my distress upsetting enough to want to make it stop. So. No, really, what would you even want to do with me."

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"I did mention you're very attractive when you cry."

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"Yeah. So why are you resurrecting my brother, are you planning to bring him back and kill him again in front of me? That'd make me cry. Are you feeding me delicious things so you can watch me cry when later you're forcing me to eat bugs and rats? You didn't try to lengthen my crying session in any way, were you observing how long it takes me to come down from it so you can see how you can outdo it when you're trying?"

These are not serious accusations.

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"Because from where I'm sitting, those are all kind of absurd. I'm not scared of you because you haven't done anything that implies you'd want to hurt me. Maybe at some point you'll be too tempted and not be able to resist, but you seem more enraptured by my smile than my tears."

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"I like your smile," he says softly.

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Well, here it is for him to see. She still looks like a bit of a mess, what with all of the crying, but that is a genuine smile that is pointed right at him.

"I did get that impression. I did not actually sleep through our date, you're shocked, I know."

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He hugs her.

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She is happy to cooperate with this! She even pets his hair and snuggles him.

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...he seems kind of - withdrawn and upset. Hairpets and snuggles do not immediately resolve this.

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Pet pet, snuggle snuggle.

"I'm sorry, did I... make something worse, say something wrong...?"

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...he sighs. He curls up next to her on the couch and rests his head in her lap.

"You - I don't - I'm not a safe person, Esvetielle. I'm not... you're right that I don't want to hurt you, but... it's something I'm kind of in the habit of, you know. Hurting people. I - when I said I mentioned how attractive you are when you cry - I didn't mean any of the silly things you said. But I did mean that the whole time I was holding you while you cried on me, cuddling you and comforting you, not a minute went by when I didn't also think about raping you. I... I want to be someone you can trust. I'm trying to be someone you can trust. But I don't think it's a joke that I might fail."

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She shivers a little, but doesn't pull away from him. He can get hairpets. Pensive ones.

"I'm sorry for making a joke of it. I didn't mean it was a joke, I just. I didn't know how else to say the thing I meant." Pet, pet. "It's a coping mechanism. The snarky comments."

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He pats her knee. "The snarky comments are cute. Just - didn't quite land right that time."

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"Yeah, that happens sometimes. Sorry." Pet pet.

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"I want to keep you," he murmurs. "Not - to do anything to. Just because I like having you."

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"Okay," she says, after a thoughtful pause.

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"...what, really?"

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"I mean, I'm. Definitely having some complicated feelings on that point. I'm vaguely worried that this might make me more - tempting. To you. I'm less vaguely worried about how other people will treat me, with. These marks on my arms. I don't have any idea how to explain it to anyone that cares about me in a way that won't make them very, very worried." She swallows, and shifts a hand away from petting to look at the imperial mark on her wrist.

"But a week ago I thought there was no possible way I could ever -" Her voice breaks a little, and she sucks in a breath and tries again. "Ever go to an auction house. It was absurd? I wasn't an idiot, I didn't play fast and loose with any debts, I had a sensible emergency fund, I had my brother and more distantly my parents, and. Then none of that mattered and suddenly I'm. Up on the block and wondering who would fucking buy me and what my life would be like and how bad the inevitable rape would be and. The uncertainty was the worst part, at least if I knew who I was going to I could have some kind of basis to plan from, could expect something, could figure out coping mechanisms. But I didn't." She makes a sound in her throat, and shakes her head. "And I don't want to feel that way again. Ever. I - I can't. And I'd be - afraid, of it ever happening again. Because I didn't even do anything wrong?"

Esvetielle takes a shuddering breath. "And at least if I'm yours I won't ever have to go back. You're the fucking Emperor. You won't die and leave me to someone else, no one could possibly take me from you. That'll just be it."

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He sits up so he can gather her into his arms and hug her.

"I won't let anyone else have you," he says. "I - might have it in me to free you, if that was what you wanted. I don't have it in me to free you and then let - let you be stolen from yourself. I want you mine, and if not mine then no one's."

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She snuggles him and lets out a watery giggle.

"Jealous type, huh?" she mumbles into his chest. "Thanks."

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He laughs softly and hugs her some more.

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Snuggle.

"I think it seems kind of silly to get in a fight over it, anyway. You're. You're the fucking Emperor? Marks on my wrists or not I'm kind of screwed either way if you decide to do something, who even cares. I'm just - tired. I just want to be safe."

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Hug. "I want you to be safe too."

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"I'm glad."

She relaxes in his arms. Oh no, she might fall asleep.

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... And she's out. It was a long day with a lot of emotions. A lot of crying. Not a lot of sleep the night before, or the nights before that.

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Yeah.

 

He gently scoops her up and carries her to his enormous comfy bed and nestles with her amid his soft cozy blankets.

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She peacefully sleeps through her relocation.

 

Much later, she makes a tired sound and stirs, blinking at the room in sleepy confusion.

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She is being snuggled by a dozy cozy Emperor.

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Well that's surprisingly adorable. She considers possible actions, then nestles slightly closer. Cuddles are so nice right now.

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He smiles and sighs happily and nuzzles her shoulder.

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"Hi," she mumbles.

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"Hi."

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"Is this your bed?" she wonders, sleepily. "It's so. Big. Why is it so big."

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"Why not?"

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"Changing the sheets must be a pain. ... Oh. Right. Emperor. Never mind. Hard to get out of?"

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"That just means I get to be cozy for longer." Snuggle.

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Snort. "Some of us have appointments, you know."

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"I will build you a smaller bed." He kisses her forehead.

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Giggle. "Thank you."

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Snuggle.

"Anything in particular you want to do today?"

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"Mm." She gently pulls away to sit up. "... I'd like my brother back, but I need to have everything me related wrapped up and tied with a bow and not requiring any input from him."

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"Okay. So what's that add up to?"

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"I, um." She rubs her face, then is briefly distracted by the still alien imperial mark on her wrist. She drops the hand. "Need to figure that out, really."

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"Is that something I can help with or is it more of a 'build you a bedroom and leave you alone for the rest of the day' sort of thing?"

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"I think you can help with that. Um. So what do you do all day, and where would I fit into that? Since I assume you're, er. Keeping. Me."

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"I do... whatever I feel like. You can pretty much also do whatever you feel like. Well, within practical limitations - you'd have some trouble doing architecture the way I do architecture, you can't fly - although if you wanted wings I could give you some..."

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"... Well that's a thing I never considered possible. I will probably want to do that eventually, actually, that sounds like fun."

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He grins at her.

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She smiles back.

"I think I'd get bored with just hobbies, though. I like - having goals and accomplishing things. I didn't exactly like my job, but I liked having it."

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"Huh. I'm not sure I get the difference. If having goals and accomplishing things is what you want to do with your life, then that still comes in under 'whatever you feel like', doesn't it?"

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"Well, yes, but I assume looking for work becomes slightly awkward when you've got the imperial sun on your wrist, so I might need some help with that."

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"You might be surprised. Somebody asks you what you're think you're doing, you say 'oh, the Emperor says I can do whatever I want', what are they going to do, ask me? I bet I won't have to confirm it very many times before word gets around."

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She considers this, then she smiles. It looks - noticeably different than her previous smiles.

"... How far," she says carefully, "does 'whatever I want' go? Like if I, say, had a personal grudge against certain bullshit fees, can I - wander up to the officials associated with it, and ask questions so I understand what's going on, and. Politely make suggestions?"

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He laughs.

"Sure, if you want. Try not to fuck up my empire, but I bet you're not going to fuck up my empire."

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"I will try very hard not to fuck up your empire," she promises with absolute sincerity. "But I rescind my earlier complicated ambivalence towards keeping me, in favor of childlike glee."

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He giggles and hugs her.

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Hugs!!! Giggling! Yes those things, those things sound good.

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Awwwwww.

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"Do I have - I don't know, specific governmental things you'd rather I not ever touch?" she asks, after there are been sufficient giggling.

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Shrug. "I mostly don't touch governmental things unless somebody is so corrupt I notice. I suppose I might have opinions if you start turning everything upside down, but I don't have a list of those opinions worked out in advance."

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"Okay. Let me know if I incite any opinions, then."

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"I will!" Snuggle.

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Snuggle!!!!!

"Okay," she decides, after a little while. "I feel very wrapped up, now, bow and everything, can I have my brother back?"

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"Sure." He kisses her forehead. "It'll take me a while to put it together; do you have an opinion about where he should wake up, and do you want me to build you a bedroom first?"

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"Somewhere out of the way but recognizable, so he'll know where he is. I'd say our house, but uh. I don't exactly own that anymore." She makes a face. "So not that. We could abuse that poor park some more, he'd recognize it, if we do it at a time no one will be around. Uh, yes to the bedroom, and how long's 'a while,' is it long enough that I'll need to, say, feed myself?"

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"Ten or twelve hours, maybe?"

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"Oh, well. Uh. I am probably going to need to be shown around, then. At least to the point where I can successfully feed myself."

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"By 'feed yourself' do you just mean 'not starve for the next twelve hours' or do you specifically want to be able to make your own food?"

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"First thing, but I'd also appreciate not starving in the future if you're not around to feed me. Though I could probably successfully not starve even if you abandoned me, I bet there is at least one place that will feed me if I show up and loudly declare that I belong to the Emperor and would like to not starve to death."

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Snicker.

"It's moderately inconvenient to get in and out of this section of the palace without my personal intervention but I bet you could do it—anyway, as long as the important thing is 'having food' not 'making food'—I'll show you."

He climbs out of bed and stretches and leads her back to the sitting room and through one of its other doors to a beautiful, exquisitely decorated corridor, and along that to a round half-open room. Half the circle of floor is surrounded by walls and shaded by a half-dome of ceiling; the other half is a semicircular balcony. There are flowering vines climbing the walls and winding through the railings, and a wide round table in the center of the circle. The table is even more treelike than the tree-table he conjured earlier. It is all very pretty.

"If you sit at the table it makes food. It's pretty good at guessing what people will like."

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She follows, taking the chance to actually look at the scenery now. Everything is lovely, and she's - well, pretty okay with spending time here.

"Simple enough. And pretty, too. All right, thanks."

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"I'll go build you a bedroom."

Back to the sitting room, and out onto its adjoining balcony, which is less impressive than the flowery one but still pretty nice. The view is stunning, of course. And a few minutes of stoneshaping later, there is a fully furnished bedroom there, with a stunning view and a balcony of its very own.

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She watches, fascinated.

"Do you just - change the rooms as you feel like, or stick with a usual layout and only change when necessary?"

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"Hmm, bit of both? I change things whenever I feel like it but that doesn't tend to work out to 'new bedroom every week'."

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"Huh. All right. Sounds interesting. Am I likely to encounter anyone while I'm here?"

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"Not unless you climb down the walls. Or someone climbs up, I suppose, but they don't generally do that."

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Giggle.

"Okay. Just making sure."

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Oh dear, she is now being confronted with the fact that the Emperor is actually really cute. How about - not right now. Later, yes, but now, no.

"So um," she says, searching for something she might conceivably care about besides his pretty smile, "there's a place to take a bath here, right? And changes of clothes?"

(Yes, great idea, let's distract from Sekar's pretty smile with being naked in his palace, good job.)

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"Yeah - baths are the other way down the hall, and there's clothes in your room."

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Smile.

"Thanks. Then I think that's probably me set, I can almost certainly amuse myself for twelve hours. I have seen at least one book, I'm good."

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He laughs. "All right. See you later."

And he takes off his shirt and steps up onto the railing of her balcony and grows wings and flies away.

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"- Bye," she manages, after a pause that is entirely Sekar's fault. Or, to be more specific, the result of the removal of his shirt. It's - it's distracting, okay. She hadn't been expecting it.

Oh, she's going to have this problem a lot, isn't she. Flight is obviously one of the major ways to get to and from this section of the palace. Wings do not make nice with shirts. Ergo, he's going to be taking his shirt off a lot. Shit. Because her confusing feelings for Sekar aren't tangled enough, he has to also regularly remove his shirt and be really hot. Like a jerk. Ugh.

Well, she has ten to twelve hours to sort out her feelings. That's something. She could use the time to herself, anyway.

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He flies.

Down to skim the waves in the shadow of the city, up to the top of the sky where the air is too thin to breathe, over the high white clouds and through the cold spray of the sea. It isn't magically necessary or anything; he just thinks best in the air.

It's easy to map the shape of the person missing from Esvetielle's life, and easier still because he met the man, even if only once. After a little less than ten hours of flying, he lands on the plant-table balcony and goes inside to look for her, letting his soft grey owl's wings blow away on the breeze but not yet bothering to put on a shirt.

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Esvetielle's curled up on a couch, reading a book. She looks much improved by ten hours of solitude, and not just in mood and general health. That deep violet gown is definitely not the simplest thing that was available in her wardrobe, because sometimes she makes stupid decisions. It was too pretty to resist putting on, and then once it was on it seemed a shame not to live up to it. It's not like she was hurting for free time. She got bored, it was something to do. This is absolutely not the result of vague sexual frustration brought about by a shirtless Emperor. What would ever give anyone that idea. She is not affected by such mortal things.

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"Hi," says the shirtless Emperor. "So: the park?"

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She glances up from her book and smiles brightly.

(Also: damn it. Shirtless Emperor.)

"Yes!" she says, marking her place in the book and hopping to her feet. "It should be reasonably deserted at this hour, right?"

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"Reasonably, yeah."

A flower grows from the floor and deposits a shirt in his hand; as he puts on the shirt, the flower crumbles away like it was never there.

"If you want someplace definitely deserted you might have to think of somewhere else."

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"I don't expect Zeothe to appreciate being brought back to life in front of an audience - how long does the resurrection itself take? Could we check the park for anyone first?"

(Also, that asshole. He's doing this on purpose! He could have put on a shirt before coming to see her. But no! He waited until after! Aaaaugh.)

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"A few minutes, but it's kind of eye-catching."

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"... How much do you not want people finding out about your ability to resurrect the dead? I assume at least a little, else I expect I would have heard of someone trying to ask you to bring someone back."

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"It'll be kind of annoying if I end up with hundreds of bereaved citizens flinging themselves over the palace walls to beg me for their lost loved ones."

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Snort.

"Well. Ah - all of the possible places we could bring him back are either public in some way or unfamiliar to him." She considers. "... Here, then, he'd be annoyed with me if I asked you to sacrifice foresight just for his brief comfort."

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"Okay. This'll get a bit messy, sorry about that."

He stands well back from the couch and closes his eyes. Blood flows from his hands, twisting and twining through the air, twin streams joining to form and fill the shape of a person. It condenses and pulls inward until the shape clearly matches Zeothe, defined in rather more detail than his sister might like, made entirely of bright swirling flowing blood—

—and the Emperor breathes out, and doesn't breathe in again for a long moment, standing perfectly still with two thin trickling streams of blood still connecting him to the person-shape's hands—

—and the shape ripples, and is abruptly displaced outward by Zeothe himself, solid and real and standing perfectly still and not breathing. Blood splatters over just about everything in the room. After barely a blink, the blood turns to water and evaporates, and a vine grows from the floor and wraps around Zeothe's motionless form and transmutes itself into a shirt and trousers, and the Emperor finally opens his eyes and inhales, and so does Esvetielle's brother.

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Zeothe's death was not a nice one. He'd cooperated once clearing his own name was off the table, since that gave the best chance to minimize the backlash towards the rest of his family, but killing a self-dedicated Death mage is not something done casually.

He inhales in a hiss of anticipation of further pain, twitching involuntarily and clamping down on the urge to lash out with magic. Just let it happen, don't make it worse, just -

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"Zeothe," murmurs Esvetielle. She doesn't move to embrace him just yet, he probably doesn't want anyone touching him right now.

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Her brother makes a sound in his throat at the bewildering discomfort of sudden wholeness after having been decapitated, then cracks open his eyes to look at her.

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"Hey," she continues, voice soft and gentle. Now she takes a tentative step forward. "It's me, you're fine, you're safe."

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"Eselle-? What?"

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"You died." He will not appreciate minced words right now, he needs concrete facts even if the words hurt to say. "You've just been resurrected."

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"- Oh." He swallows, then looks away from his sister's face to take stock of the room. He spots Solekaran.

"Thanks," he says, in the Emperor's direction, making the obvious conclusion.

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"You're welcome," he says, cheerfully.

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He has so many questions and does not really have any idea where to start with them - where is he-?

Zeothe looks at his sister again with an imploring look.

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Now he may have a hug.

"You're in the palace. You've been dead for five days. I'm fine. Mom and Dad don't know yet."

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Confused, slightly clingy hug. Best sister. Yes, please keep explaining.

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Esvetielle is really not happy about saying this next bit, but she will not mince words -

"After you died, I - got overwhelmed. By sharks that smelled blood in the water. We no longer have a house. And -" she hesitates, pained, but pushes on. She hooks a finger to pull down her sleeve mid-hug, then shows him the mark on her wrist, one arm still around him.

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His arms tighten around her and he snarls.

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"Yeah, I know. Sorry. But I'm okay. Do you remember the, the date, I went on. With the guy in the park."

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... He looks at the Emperor and raises his eyebrows. You went on a date with my sister???

He nods.

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The Emperor smiles at Eselle with blatant adoration.

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"Yeah," she confirms, noticing the direction of Zeothe's head. "He had nothing to do with the clusterfuck, but he did catch wind of - of me, and stepped in. He's been nothing but kind to me, including, ah. You."

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He studies the Emperor's expression, then nods again.

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"So now I'm planning out how best to leverage my new status to meddle in his empire!" she says, a bit brighter than she'd meant to. "Because when the Emperor says I can do whatever I want..."

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That is an expression of - not quite horror. Horror is too strong a term. This is the expression of a man who understands the full implications of what was just said, and that while supportive, is not entirely comfortable with his sister's new choice of profession. And is maybe a little concerned. Because oh, shit, his sister is probably going to end up running at least part of the empire.

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"So it all works out. Questions?"

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He considers.

"Since I was wrongly executed for murder," he says carefully to Sekar, "do I get one free murder pass, because I feel that if I get executed for murder I should at least get the catharsis of getting to kill someone."

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"Who d'you want to kill?"

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"The asshole that framed me."

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"Go right ahead."

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"Thank you."

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... His sister looks kind of uncomfortable, but continues hugging her brother.

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"No complaints?" he confirms, quietly.

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"I mean, my week's been shit, you died, we don't have a house anymore, and I was sold into slavery. But Sekar held me while I cried on him about all of that, doesn't want to mistreat me, and wants me to be happy."

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Nod. Hugs.

"... Dying sucks."

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"Well, don't do it again."

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Snort.

"I'll do my best."

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He lingers in sisterly hugs a little while longer, then gently lets go of her to look at Sekar.

"What's my legal situation like?" he wonders of Sekar. "Am I supposed to keep my head down for a while and pretend to still be dead, do I get a formal pardon, or...?"

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"I'd kind of rather it not get around that you were dead and have now stopped that, but if you don't have a good way to keep it quiet or don't feel like it then sure, yeah, consider yourself Imperially pardoned."

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"Without any help, I can definitely keep it quiet if I leave the city. I could probably keep it quiet without leaving the city, but I'd be a ghost without an identity for a while without help, which might be a bit uncomfortable. Would it be possible to pretend my death was faked?"

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"Well, they'd probably complain about how hard it is to execute people who self-dedicated Death. What do you mean, 'without help', what kind of help? Money, a place to stay, a whole new face?"

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"I'm pretty okay with leaning on my Death self-dedication for why I'm still alive. It makes sense, and it's not like I was dead for very long. People that know me probably wouldn't be surprised that I managed to survive execution. I was being vague because I wasn't sure what you'd be willing to give me. Money and a place to stay would be great, a whole new face would be great, but it all depends on how we'd like to play this."

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He shrugs. "I'm in a helpful mood. How do you want to play it? The new-face way, the 'I self-dedicated Death and made friends with the Emperor, sucks to be you' way...?"

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"'I self-dedicated Death and made friends with the Emperor, sucks to be you' sounds the easiest to pull off, and I wouldn't have to rebuild my entire life. Though I might like to have a new face to run reconnaissance with so I can get the story to make as much sense as possible."

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"Sure. What do you want to look like?"

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Uncaring shrug. "I don't care very much. Whatever you feel like doing?"

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"Sure."

He looks thoughtfully at Zeothe, and then - he has a new face. Same height and build, nothing that would make him need to relearn major motor skills; all the differences are in cosmetic details, although the new facial structure might still take some getting used to.

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"Thanks!"

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"Aw. You're fluffy."

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"I am that, aren't I." He runs a hand through the mess of wavy curls that is now his hair. "This is weird. Am I making expressions that make sense, my face is all. Different."

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"Your smile didn't look weird, but I'd have to see more facial expressions from you to say. .... Can I pet you."

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"You may."

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His sister giggles, then pets the fluff, delighted.

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"Okay, I'm done, you can have your dignity back now."

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Snort.

"Thank you, it's so essential to my character. Now, can I borrow a mirror so I can make ridiculous faces at myself?"

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A spontaneous flower grows out of the floor to give him a charming little silver hand mirror.

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"Thanks! Off to go make faces to myself, then, where's a room I can get some privacy?"

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"You can borrow my room," offers Esvetielle, pointing it out.

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"Sure. Thanks." He gives a wave, and heads off to make faces to himself.

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"I like your brother," says the Emperor to Esvetielle.

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"Me too! Thank you for returning him." Hug!

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Eee!! Hug!!

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She considers him, then leans up and gently cups his face to kiss his cheek.

"Really. It - hurt, to not have him be somewhere in the world. Thank you."

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Awww. He smiles down at her.

"You're welcome."

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She smiles back, then steps out of the embrace. Zeothe might give her a weird look if he came back to her snuggling and making eyes at the Emperor. She'd rather not have to weather any weird look at all.

"Knowing my brother," she says, "once he's got his face under control he's going to want to go check things out immediately. Want to help me make an adventure bundle for him?"

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"All of the things I expect my brother is going to want or need while going on whatever adventure he's on. He does this a lot, I have a system. Typical staples include money, various weapons of assorted sizes, a water canteen, portable food of some kind, rope, maybe a change of socks. Things someone that is running around in the middle of the night like a lunatic would like to have. ... Boots. He will need a sturdy pair of waterproof boots, he doesn't have his anymore."

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Yeah he's smiling adoringly at her again.

(He really wants to be hugging her, but given that she very recently stopped hugging him, he probably shouldn't. She's so cute though! It is a dilemma.)

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She smiles back, completely unaware of his dilemma. Poor Emperor.

"Also a coat of some kind. He'll make a face, but if he's going incognito he should not follow his usual fashion. Which is to say, it should not be black. It should be warm and waterproof, preferably with lots of pockets because the man despises carrying bags. For some reason. Even little practical ones. Possibly just to annoy me."

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"Hmm," says the Emperor. "So—"

A very large flower grows from the floor and disgorges a long coat. The coat appears to be wool, a medium-dark blue-grey reminiscent of stormclouds. It has two big exterior pockets, a few smaller ones, and even more on the inside. It is exactly Zeothe's size.

"Something like that?"

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"That's perfect! Thank you." She grins. "I for one am excited to see my brother in a color. At least one."

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He giggles. A smaller flower deposits a pair of boots on the floor next to the coat.

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Smile."This is so convenient, thank you. Okay, other things. ... I think he'd rather describe the weaponry he wants himself, so unfortunately that can't go along with the adventure bundle. I don't expect he'll be sleeping in any strange places, so I don't have to worry about that, at least. Hm, is he likely to need to bribe anyone...? Probably, so he'll need money, and I'll need to make sure the coins don't jingle annoyingly -"

Her brother will be so well equipped.

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He's so responsible about not casually causing rampant inflation every time he wants things!

Esvetielle is clearly having a lot of fun with this.

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Zeothe returns while the ensemble is being assembled, and finds the whole thing rather funny. He produces opinions on weaponry (and is delighted with the results) and the chosen fashion choices (he makes a mild face at the colors, mostly for his sister's benefit) and otherwise leaves it to Esvetielle and Solekaran.

When this process is complete: "Well, I feel very well equipped, thank you both. Where's the exit?"

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"Where do you want to go?"

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"Somewhere discreet in the neighborhood where I lived, if you know where that is."

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The air opens up into a shimmering oval portal the size of a full-length mirror. "There you go. Getting back is a different question; it's technically possible to reach my rooms without my help but it's not what I'd call easy. We should probably arrange a meeting or something sensible like that."

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"Yeah. Uh. Pick me up where you dropped me off, this time tomorrow?"

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"No, Eselle, I am not going to sleep outside."

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"Thank you."

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Giggle. "Sure."

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"Right then, I'm off." He hugs his sister goodbye, nods to the Emperor, and departs through the portal with a casual wave.

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... Esvetielle indulges in a sigh, mildly sad about her brother's departure. She only just got him back, and he's away on an adventure. This is understandable and she doesn't want to demand that he immediately spend time with her while he's under a time crunch, but that doesn't make it suck less.

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"D'you want a hug?"

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She gives him an assessing look, then smiles slyly.

"No, I'd like to cuddle."

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"Suits me."

He scoops her up and carries her off to bed.

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She eeps with surprise, then lets out a little laugh.

"I can walk, you know." But it does not sound like she minds the alternative.

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"But I like carrying you."

He kisses the end of her nose and sets her down on the bed and snuggles up next to her.

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Esvetielle notes how she liked him carrying her too, that also he brought her to his bed, and that now that she thinks about it, she'd probably enjoy it more if he snuggled up on top of her, and now she's a faint shade of pink and is trying not to think about any of those things. Nope. None of those things.

"Well," she says, her voice catching a little, "all right then."

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...he smiles, but doesn't say anything. Instead: cuddles.

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Yep, cuddling, that is nice and wholesome. Except for the part where it involves lots of close bodily contact. In his bed. Except for that part.

She searches about for a topic of conversation to distract from the sexual tension. Possibly in vain. "You're, um. You can call me Eselle, you know. If you want."

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"Okay." Snuggle. "You have a pretty name. Both of them."

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Snuggle. "Well, thank you. Occasionally I worry my full name's a bit, ah. Long and unwieldy. But it's too weird for people I don't know to use my nickname. Too... overly familiar."

Yes, good. Conversation. That helps with her problem. A little.

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"I don't mind whichever name you want to call me when we're alone, but I do try to keep Sekar the friendly architect separate from the Emperor in people's minds generally. Your brother is obviously also an exception."

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"Sure. I'll avoid upsetting the balance between Sekar the friendly architect and the Emperor. So in front of non-brother people, that'd be, what. Emperor when I'm playing up the meekness and possibly trying to make you sound scary, Solekaran when I'm not? Do people call you by your actual name or do they just quiver in terror?"

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"People call me by my actual name sometimes! I've been known to go to a party and have hardly anybody quiver in terror the whole time, as long as I never acted annoyed about anything!"

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... Giggle. She possibly shouldn't giggle at that, but it's kind of funny anyway.

"All right." Snuggle. "The idea of being adorable at you in public is kind of hilarious. People would look at me like I was crazy. I wouldn't be - I don't know, subverting your reputation in any way you cared about, right?"

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"You would not. I don't mind if you want to be adorable at me in public, it sounds like fun."

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"Okay. We'll see. I might not end up even going to any parties, anyway."

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Snuggle. "Up to you."

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She smiles warmly at him. ... It is mildly tempting to kiss him. Nnnnno let's not do that just yet, that sounds like something that would absolutely spiral out of her control in a heartbeat. Especially with their kissing record. One kiss, and it definitely spiraled out of her control in a heartbeat. She suspects there might be a theme.

"Thanks." Snuggle.

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—well now he's thinking about kissing her.

Snuggle. Yes. That.

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"... This is totally going to spiral out of our control at some point, isn't it," she murmurs, reaching out to touch his cheek.

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...he smiles. "You mean the thing where we're lying here snuggling and wanting to kiss each other? Given what happened the first time we kissed, yeah, that sounds pretty likely to me."

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"Yeah. That thing. And - yes. Me too." Snuggle. "Possibly we should be clever and have a conversation before inevitable spiraling. I think I could have a conversation without it spiraling, what about you?"

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"Oh, probably."

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"Okay." She hesitates, then says, "So, there's one thing about me that I haven't mentioned yet, and it's likely to end up super relevant if we spiral. I'm, ah. A masochist. So. We are actually even more like kindling flirting with fire than you probably thought."

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...he smiles.

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"I mean granted that doesn't mean I'd enjoy any and all torture, context is really important, but. Um. Yes. That didn't make it harder to resist spiraling, did it, because if not I was going to go over what I do and do not enjoy since that's relevant. Give you a list of, of yeses instead of just leaving you to guess."

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"I'd like to hear that."

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Nod. "Okay. I like being bitten, especially on the neck and shoulder. Um, to the point where there's blood. I really like nails or knives, scratching and slicing down my back. Not, uh, whips, though, somewhat unfortunately. They're a bit too - I don't like feeling like I'm being beaten? They skirt a bit too close to that. Burns are good, but more as something fun to play with after they've been inflicted than fun from the actual burning itself. I don't think I'd like really severe burns that involve skin getting melted and blackened. It sounds kind of gross."

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He smiles and kisses her forehead. "That's a pretty nice list."

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"Thank you." Nuzzle. "I enjoy rough sex, including being, ah. Mercilessly fucked until I cry, and also while I cry. Since you mentioned finding me attractive when I cry, that seems relevant. It's sort of an emotional dump where I can get all of my feelings felt all at once, and then after it's. Like all of the problems I had before are small and easy. It's nice. I like struggling. Haven't tested out begging for mercy yet, I expect to like it but the ex-girlfriend I got experimental with really didn't kink on it. Other kinds of begging is positive so far."

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He pets her hair. "Well aren't you a treasure," he murmurs.

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Giggle. "I try. Uh, let's see. Ice and cold is a no, it's just uncomfortable. Being tied up is a definite and enthusiastic yes. Haven't been gagged, and I haven't been choked or strangled, so I have no idea how I'd react to those. Broken bones are similarly untested. Verbal abuse of the calling me names variety is a resounding no. Uh, anything you're curious about? I neglected to make a list."

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"Do you know what happens when something damages your slave-marks?"

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"I know it'll hurt, a lot. But I have yet to test it."

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"I'd enjoy doing that to you. Just a little, to see how you like it."

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"Okay. If it's short and sweet, sure. Please hold me and comfort me after if I don't like it? Though that seems like it might provoke spiraling if I do, so we should be sure we're done with everything else first."

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Smile. Nuzzle. "All right."

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Smile. "Are there things I shouldn't do? Either because you wouldn't like them, or because they might cause things to go in a direction we don't want?"

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"That's - not usually a problem I have, but I admit I've never dated a masochist who knew I was the Emperor before."

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She nods.

"Have you, um. Is your experience all...?" she waves a hand, at a loss for words.

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"I've dated before. As Sekar the Friendly Architect, I mean. Obviously nothing very long-term, but if you're asking if I've ever had consensual sex, the answer is 'yes, lots'."

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"Oh, all right. I guess you - have had time, yes."

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Wry smile. "Yeah."

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"... That's got to suck, though. Getting to know people, dating them. Then they put together the puzzle and suddenly they're terrified of you."

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"I usually try to break up before we get to that point."

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"That's a bit better. I guess." Pensive snuggle.

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Snuggle. Hairpets.

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"I wonder what would have happened if - this. Didn't happen," she muses, a little absently.

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"Hmm?"

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"If the clusterfuck of a week didn't happen and you didn't end up literally owning me, I mean."

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"Oh. I suppose I would've failed to avoid meeting your brother eventually, and then you'd have found out who I was."

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"Yeah, but this is my brother we're talking about. He would have met you, acted perfectly cordial the entire time and kept his screaming on the inside, and then politely taken you aside to chat in order to figure out more about the situation. It might not have exploded."

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...snort. "Really?"

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"Probably. He'd definitely pick up on the unstable equilibrium present, and only want to upset it deliberately. Instead of freaking out and flailing. Whether he could pull it off would depend on circumstance, but I think he could."

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"Well. That would've been something."

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"Yeah." Snuggle. "But we got off topic, didn't we."

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"We did." Pet.

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She hums appreciatively at the hairpets.

"Though we might actually be something resembling done. I'm vaguely worried about, um, getting caught up in something, and suddenly needing you to stop? But that seems like a trust thing I'll just have to gain over time."

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Pet pet pet.

"I - don't know for sure if I'd deal well with that. But I have done it before. Just - never with someone who knew who I am, and I think it's easier, when they don't."

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"Okay. So we should probably attempt to take it slowly so we don't get in over our heads. Much as I'd appreciate... not taking it slowly."

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...he smiles, and pets her hair.

"Yeah."

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She smiles back.

"You're so sweet," she sighs.

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"Being sweet to you is very rewarding!"

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"Mm." She nuzzles him. "I really want to kiss you. Think we could manage to take things at a speed that resembles slowly if we tried hard and believed in ourselves?"

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"I think maybe we can manage that."

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"Good."

And then, of course, she kisses him.

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Mm. Kisses.

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She is trying so hard to not have this spiral out of her control, but when he gently kisses her like she's the most amazing person in the world it's really fucking difficult.

A sound she didn't mean to make forms in her throat, and while her self control does not crack like delicate porcelain, it does get significantly dented. Mm, kisses.

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He kisses her, and pets her hair, and then somehow ends up with his hand cupping her face. She's so kissable. It's good. She is good.

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One arm ends up wrapped around him and pulling him closer, the other ends up gently caressing the hand cupping her face. Kissing him is so wonderful, he's so - so - himself.

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Oh she's so cute and pretty and sweet and, and, and delicious

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She feels pretty delicious, and she's so happy to be kissing him, and she keeps accidentally making little noises and squirming closer, and that's probably bad, she should probably try to, to not do that -

It's so difficult to stop, though.

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And he appreciates her squirming and her noises so very very much.

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"Oh this is so hard," she whines, when she manages to scrape up enough willpower to pull back. It - it takes a while. Kisses are very compelling. Very compelling.

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He smiles at her. "You're lovely. Mm. Want to find out what messing with your slave-marks is like or will that just tempt you further?"

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"It might tempt me further. ... But now I'm kind of curious about what it's like. Mmm." Snuggle. "The curiosity is tempting me to do stupid things."

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Snuggle.

"We could go back to the kissing." Pet pet. "The kissing is good."

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Giggle.

"It is," she sighs, dreamily. "But I think there's - I have more trouble stopping something I'm in the middle of than I do resisting something tempting. So that might not actually be better."

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"Aw." Pet.

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Thoughtful (and vaguely appreciative) hum.

 

"... Let's go with the slave-marks test, because otherwise the curiosity will bother me until I either get you or decide to get experimental on my own. And we know what kissing does to my self control."

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"...well all right then."

He hmms thoughtfully, then sits up and gently tugs her into his lap.

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Eselle cooperates with this move! She even rolls down a sleeve so the mark is visible and helpfully presents it to him.

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He runs his fingers lightly over the mark, which does nothing at all; then he presses down on it with his fingertips, which after a few seconds makes it tingle strangely.

"Not the fun part yet," he murmurs.

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She shivers and leans on him.

"Oh, I don't know, the anticipation's kind of fun."

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He laughs and kisses the top of her head and strokes the mark again, and then digs his thumbnail into it. Not even hard enough to hurt, if this were anywhere else, just enough to leave a little dent in the skin—

—and it feels like being on fire, like needles of ice jabbing through her skin, like lightning flashing up her forearm, like shockingly intense heat and cold and pain pain pain pain pain

—he lets up almost immediately.

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This earns him a startled squeak of pain and an involuntary twitch from the woman on his lap. But then it's over, almost just as it began. She blinks back a hint of tears and slumps into him.

"Oh," she gasps, a quiver in her voice. It does not sound like a bad quiver. "T-that, that, ah. Certainly explains why it's not common to slice it off, doesn't it."

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"Oh, cutting it is much worse."

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"Is it," she murmurs, sounding a bit too interested in the answer. Or perhaps just the right amount of interested, for him.

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"Want to see what I mean?"

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She considers the question seriously, nuzzling him absently as she thinks.

"... Yes." The word is a little daunting now that it's hanging out in the air like that, but she doesn't want to take it back. Shivering a little, she nestles closer to him and closes her eyes.

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He cuddles her and pets her hair and picks up her arm and kisses the Imperial sun and then gently brushes his thumb across it, opening up a tiny cut.

pain, burning freezing smashing slicing pain, not just in the mark or even just in her arm but everywhere, singing raw and wild along every nerve—

It fades out after half a second. There is a single round drop of blood beading on her arm, and no sign whatsoever of damage to the mark.

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It's so fast that she doesn't, actually, have time to properly scream. Instead it dies half formed in her throat, coming out as a strangled high pitched whine. Her entire body flinches as if to get away, pain pain pain overriding all else.

Then it's over. Just like that. Nothing's wrong at all.

She cries anyway, clinging to Solekaran and trembling.

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He holds her in his arms and kisses her forehead.

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"Fuck," she pronounces after several sobs, still trembling.

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"You're lovely."

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Eselle barks a little quiet laugh that's half a sob, then leans up to kiss his jaw.

"Thank you." She sniffles again, then reaches up to scrub at her tears. "Damn. That was intense."

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Snuggle. "Did you like it?"

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"Not - not as a thing to do every day. Or every other day." Snuggle. "... But, mm." A hint of a smile tugs at her lips, and she kisses his jaw again. "Yes."

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"You're a treasure." He kisses her on the cheek.

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"You did spend obscene amounts of money on me," she points out with a watery giggle.

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"And you were worth all of it."

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Snort.

"Thanks." Snuggle. "Okay so, not breaking the skin would be fine regularly, with occasional exceptions for when I'm not feeling particularly masochistic and just want something loving. That is for when we don't want me to be very coherent."

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"I like you when you're not very coherent." He kisses her forehead. "Later. When we've - got more practice."

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Nuzzle.

"Yeah. We're supposed to be attempting to resemble taking it slow. That would not be doing that thing." She shivers again. That sure is an assessing look she's giving him.

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Snuggle. "Mm, and what do you want to do right now?"

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It would be bad form, communication wise, to just pounce on him and kiss him. She will not do that. They need to have good communication, it's really important.

"I want to get in a bit more practice," she murmurs. "Your nails digging into your mark on my wrist, your teeth on my neck. And then I want to do something very forward and ask you to fuck me."

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He smiles.

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"What do you want to do?"

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"I like your plan. Your plan sounds good."

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"Okay. We can do that, then." She decides that she'd like to be kissing his neck, so she does that. Her other sleeve can also be pulled down for easier mark access. That seems like the thing to do.

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He snuggles her and pets her and wraps his hand around her wrist and squeezes gently, not quite hard enough to set off the warning tingle - no, there it goes.

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Her breath catches in her throat at the warning tingle, and she squirms a little in his lap. She doesn't stop what she's doing, though, his neck is going to get as many kisses as she can manage before he begins.

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Snuggle. Snuggle snuggle.

 

He digs his thumbnail into the mark and holds it for a second before letting go.

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This incites a high pitched and squeaky whimper, directed into his neck. After he lets go, she shivers, giving herself a moment to breathe and blink back tears. Then with a quieter whimper, she resumes what she'd been doing before.

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He tangles a hand in her hair and gently tugs her face away from his neck so he can kiss her properly.

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Ooo. She inhales sharply at the relocation, docilely letting him pull her away, then kisses him with significant enthusiasm.

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Mmm. Yes good.

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So good! She's shivery and enthusiastic about all of this. He can even have the quiet sounds again, he must be so proud.

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He is proud, yes, among other things.

 

He pauses in kissing her and shifts his grip on her wrist and tightens his hand in her hair and digs his nails into that mark again.

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This time, she has time to realize what he's about to do just before the pain comes, and stiffens in anticipation and almost-fear. Then it hits, washing down her wrist in a wave of agony, and she makes a sound that resembles a high pitched moan. She doesn't struggle, but she does squirm in his grip again.

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He lets go of her wrist, watching her face.

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She runs through a number of expressions after he lets up on her mark. They are not the expressions of an unhappy woman. Her face scrunches up in anticipation of more pain that doesn't come, softens to something a bit more obviously into it, then she runs through several microexpressions as she retakes stock of her current circumstances from where she left off. Tears leak from her eyes as she opens them to look around.

When she looks at him, it's vulnerability and longing and a hint of something like fear, of this person that can so easily wreck her.

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He smiles adoringly at her.

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Well, now she's smiling back.

"Hair pulling," she says, sagely. Her voice is a little more breathy than usual. "Thing I'm into. Should maybe have made a list."

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"I like the things you're into."

He kisses her again.

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She hums her approval and then yes kissing good. There's a hint of salt, this time. That would be from the tears.

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This does not get in the way of enthusiastic kissing. The enthusiastic kissing is important. She even moves to cup his face with her free hand.

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The enthusiastic kissing is very important.

...he's maybe pulling her hair a little.

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Well, she's maybe whining a little, low and quiet, so that's what that gets him. Squirm. Also one slightly louder whimper when the squirming makes the pulled hair a bit more obvious.

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She is so very very kissable.

 

He finds her wrist again with the hand that's not busy slowly tightening in her hair, and he squeezes hard enough to make the mark tingle pretty aggressively, but not - quite - enough to hurt. Yet.

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Her breathing picks up, and the low whine in her throat turns higher pitched. She attempts squirming, but this only really successfully incites her to make more varied sounds. Her free hand trails down to entangle itself in his shirt.

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He squeezes harder, harder - the warning tingle sharpens - at the point where he's holding tight enough to cause light bruising, there's a bone-deep flash of pain, and then he loosens his grip the moment she reacts.

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Kissing will have to accept her sincerest apologies, because for right now she has to put it aside in favor of crying out in pain. When that's done, she relaxes, but her breath comes out sharp and shallow. A tiny sob hitches in her throat.

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He kisses her again.

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Does he want her shivering and pliant and whimpering faintly? Because that's how he's getting her. She kisses him back like she's drowning and he's her only source of air, despite the second sob that forms in her throat.

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Yes, he does very much want her that way. Mmmmm, kisses.

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She concurs! Kisses are pretty great. Her breathing slowly settles, and the squirming picks up again. Her free arm wraps around him to pull herself closer, which puts more pressure on her hair and earns another whine.

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Clearly he should experiment with pulling her hair a little harder.

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This experiment nets the following results: one low moan, originating from what seems to be Eselle's major sound source for this encounter, the back of the throat, and a slight pickup in breathing again, complete with some squirming. At first her priority is kissing him, but after a few seconds and one desperate and whimpery kiss, she leans towards the hand in her hair, willing to be moved where he likes.

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Hmm. He thinks he would like to pull her head back and bite the side of her neck.

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The sound she makes for this is the loudest yet, a shriek that bleeds into another moan. She flinches and squirms and then falls still, except for the shivering.

"I was wondering if you were going to do that," she breathes. "Fuck, yes."

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"You're a treasure," he murmurs, and bites her again, harder. Not quite to the point of blood, but she'll definitely have some fun bruises later.

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It's kind of a pity he can't see her expression, because she makes one, but she tries to make up for that with her moan. It is a prime example of its kind, with a good volume and strength, but not overstaying its welcome.

"I-I feel, very treasured - oh, please."

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That sounded like he should bite her again. He bites her again.

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He is so smart, he gets a prize. The prize is another moan, one full body shiver, and a few other noises that imply Eselle is trying to language and forgot how. Despite her current language handicap, she still successfully gets across her opinion of these circumstances. In short, she approves.

The first word that comes out unmangled is, "Sekar..."

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She mentioned that she likes being bitten hard enough to bleed.

He can do that.

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Then she will bleed! And cry out, and tremble on top of him, and make little mewling sounds, and move the wrist still in his hand towards the thumb that's already inflicted so much pain. All of those things.

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He digs his nails into her slave-mark, and this time doesn't let up for several seconds.

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Her shriek is ambiguously positive, but the specific way she squirms on him and trembles violently and tangles her free hand in his hair is not. The sounds she makes after the shriek aren't, either. Low whimpers of pain and pleasure, broken only by soft sobs. It's a good thing he's holding her upright by her hair, because otherwise she'd be in danger of pitching to the side.

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Oh, what a treasure she is.

He kisses her.

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She's not a paragon of coherency right now, but she remembers what kissing is and how to do it shortly after he demonstrates. He tastes like blood, her blood, and when she realizes this she moans and kisses him like she's drowning again. The occasional sobs makes this task a little harder, but she doesn't think he'll mind.

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He really really does not mind at all.

 

He slows down, kisses her softly, gently, lets go of her wrist, loosens his hand in her hair.

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Eselle makes a piteous whine.

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Aww. He kisses her again - softly, again - and murmurs, "You all right?"

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She understands the meaning of those words, but needs a minute of breathing and cooling down to understand them in context. Oh. He's checking on her. That's actually really sweet.

"... Yeah," she pronounces, smiling at him. "Good eye, I was. Maybe a bit too caught up in the moment, there."

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He smiles, and hugs her, and kisses her on the cheek.

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Snuggle. She leans on him and touches the bite mark on her neck affectionately.

"You're very compelling," she adds.

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"You make the most amazing noises."

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She giggles a little.

"Do I? Thank you, I'm glad you like them."

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"You are beautiful in every respect." Kiss.

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Kiss.

"Thank you. Unfortunately all of my compliments for you are in pitches of piteous whine right now, so I should maybe not repeat them just yet."

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He laughs, and pets her hair, and gives it a playful tug.

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This earns him a giggle for his trouble.

"You're unfairly hot," she mock-complains.

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"Why thank you." Kiss.

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Kiss. ... Kiss that kind of has a hint of going further than she meant it, before she manages to get a lid on it and stop.

"I think I'm all right to continue," she murmurs.

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"All right."

He kisses her. He puts his hand in her hair again.

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Appreciative hum, and also yes. Kissing. This time, she doesn't have to assert self control.

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The hand in her hair slowly tightens.

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He may have a whine. A very, very tiny one. Just a hint of a sound, really.

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That's a good sound.

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It is, and she's so glad he likes it!

She can't help but notice that both of her wrists are free. It's pretty obvious that he can fix this whatever time he wants, so she's going to take this opportunity to touch him while she can. Her hands go exploring available Sekar based surfaces.

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If she's going to be exploring his surfaces she should really have more of them to explore. He pauses to take off his shirt.

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Mm. Yes, excellent, this improves things immensely. Things were already pretty good before.

Enjoying him is a task she takes to with a lot of enthusiasm. She even gets distracted from kissing him in order to look. Because it is such a great view, and she gets to touch him, too.

"Do you have," she breathes, "any idea how sexually frustrated I was from your shirtless adventures?"

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He giggles softly. "I caught a hint."

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"Very frustrated! Very, very frustrated! The visual kept popping up while I was doing other things, distracting me! I'd be there, reading about something innocuous, then bam. Shirtless Emperor." Kiss.

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Kiss. "Well, here I am, if there's anything you'd like to do with your shirtless Emperor and have just been waiting for the chance."

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"Get this dress off me," she invites breathlessly, "and I'll be more than happy to do all kinds of things with my lovely Emperor."

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He grabs the dress and casually rips it off her. In his hands it tears as easily as dry autumn leaves.

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She goes quiet and still.

"Fuck that was hot."

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"Ridiculously, insanely hot!" she continues indignantly, at a more reasonable volume. "You just - and it just - that - it -" And then, because clearly sentences are not working out for her, she whines and kisses him hungrily.

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He tangles his hands in her hair and kisses back with much the same attitude.

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She is in too many clothes, which is to say, any. Fixing this is important and she begins attempting to do so. Unfortunately, this is somewhat complicated by how she's also trying really hard to touch the maximum surface area of Sekar that she possibly can, and refuses to compromise on this front. It's not really conducive to taking off clothes. What a terrible fate.

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What if all of both their clothes just crumble away into nothingness while he's still kissing her, does that solve the problem?

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Yes!! Yes it does! He's so helpful and great, and that's still really hot, and she's so happy. She's just going to kiss him passionately, attempt to maximize the amount of skin contact between the two of them, and whimper and tremble.

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Good.

 

He lets go of her hair and pauses in the kissing for a moment, cupping her face in his hands.

"Do you want me to fuck you?"

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She raises her eyebrows, then quirks a smile at him. Her expression is of amused puzzlement, as though she's wondering where he ever got the idea that she didn't.

"Yes."

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He kisses her again, and pins her to the bed and squeezes her wrists until pain flashes deep in her bones, and gives her what she wants.

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It might have been smart to check how soundproofed these rooms are. This occurs to her while she's in the middle of making some of those sounds he likes so much, because that seems relevant. This thought is then discarded, for being too coherent for the current circumstances. Hopefully the room's soundproofed enough, because 'volume control' also requires more coherence than she has available right now.

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It's the Emperor's rooms. No one's going to mind a little screaming.

Though if he has his way there'll be more than a little.

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He can definitely have his way, though there's a bit of an art to eliciting this. She has complete faith in his ability to pick it up.

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It is a delightful art.

 

Eventually, he is done learning all the wonderful noises she makes. He flops on the bed with a contented sigh and wraps his arms around her to hold her close.

"Mine," he murmurs into her hair.

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She's mostly a puddle of exhausted shivery afterglow, but the two braincells that have somehow managed to remain functional throughout that are proficient enough to observe and process that word.

It should probably be a bad word, should probably want to make her flinch away and run for the hills. Instead she just foggily thinks about how it seems completely ridiculous to argue with. He literally bought her, brought her to his pretty palace, resurrected her dead brother, then carried her off to his bed for what has been a really incredible night. She lies here next to him with his bite marks on her neck and his slave marks on her wrists, completely spent from several magnificent hours. Safe and happy.

She shifts in his arms to look at him, then gently kisses him. "... Yours," she agrees, a little shyly.

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He grins at her.

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She smiles back, then leans into him with a contented hum.


Aaaaaand she's out. Which is perhaps not surprising.

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He snuggles her all night, even though he only sleeps for four hours of it.

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It's a full eight hours until Eselle sleepily stirs, though she doesn't look like she particularly wants to.

"Mmrgh," she complains, hiding from the morning by snuggling closer to Sekar.

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He pets her hair.

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"I hurt all over," she accuses affectionately, slightly muffled from her Sekar-based hiding place.

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Pet pet. "Do you want me to fix that?"

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Appreciative, sleepy hum. "Mm. Eventually, probably. For now it's fine."

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"All right."

Snuggles. Such snuggles. Such good soft warm cozy snuggles.

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So many snuggles!

"Good morning, by the way," she yawns.

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"It certainly is." Snuggle.

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... Well now she's giggling like some idiot school girl. Shit.

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"Damn it, you can't be all cute like this early in the morning, I am unprepared to handle it. Save your adorable affection for later, when I'm fully functional."

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"Aww." Pet pet pet.

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"No, no, we just talked about this, weren't you listening? Adorable faces like that are for later."

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He kisses her forehead. "You're not going to stop me from being adorable in my own bed."

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"What if I make really compelling sad faces at you?"

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"Somehow I don't expect that to result in less cuteness."

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"Probably not." Kiss.

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Mm. Yes. Kiss.

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"Last night was pretty incredible," she says. "If you'd been wondering."

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"I suspected as much." Kiss. "You're lovely. I'm - glad we got it right."

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"Yeah, me too. I'm glad that everything worked out right. You're - you're so sweet."

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"You are very rewarding to be sweet to!"

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She smiles fondly at him, then gently bestows another kiss.

"Like my smile that much, hm?"

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"It's a good smile."

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"Thank you. You are going to do terrible things to my ego. Terrible, terrible things."

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He giggles and kisses her.

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Kiss!

"... I'm really glad you learned about - about everything in time to be at the auction house," she says, more seriously.

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"Yeah. Me too."

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"Sorry. Didn't mean to assassinate the cuteness, just." Shiver. "Yep, that would have sucked. Even knowing you would have come looking for me."

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He scoops her closer and kisses the top of her head. "I would have. And I'd have found you."

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"I figured. Emperor, and all. Able to find me even if my stalker put me in a tiny underground box. It's honestly pretty comforting."

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Snuggle. "And you're mine and I'm not letting anyone take you away from me."

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The word 'mine' elicits an entirely different kind of shiver.

"Possessive, aren't you?"

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"Yes I am."

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She snorts, amused.

"I should probably be more uncomfortable with this than I am. Except the sentence I'm thinking is, 'Well, as long as you take good care of me.'"

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"I intend to!" Kiss.

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"Good, good. Having me is a lot of responsibility. You have to feed me regularly, keep my water bowl full, brush me weekly, clean my litter box, maybe take me on walks if I start to gain too much weight..."

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Giggle.

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"The cat metaphor is surprisingly accurate, I even brought you a dead thing."

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"That is pretty much the exact opposite of what happened," he says. "I brought you a live thing."

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Giggle.

"But my phrasing is so much funnier! Would you have brought me a live thing if I hadn't cried about him on you?"

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He pets her. "Might have. Would've taken me longer to decide to, though."

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"See? I brought a dead thing to your attention by making a bit of a mess. I metaphorically brought you a dead thing."

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"No, I don't think so. Too much of a stretch."

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"Bah. You're no fun. I would make a great cat."

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He pets her some more. "If you were a cat I would not want to fuck you," he points out.

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... Giggle.

"Okay, yes, but this is not about if I'd prefer to be a cat, it's about if I'd make a good one! Obviously I prefer being human, opposable thumbs are great."

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Snuggle.

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Snuggle.

"I acknowledge that I should get out of bed, but the cuddles are too compelling. And the bed is too big. How do I escape."

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Snuggle. "Who says you have to get out of bed?"

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"I do! I refuse to still be here by the time you go to pick up my brother. And I'd like to meddle in your empire, and can't do that from bed, unfortunately."

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He laughs.

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"Granted, I don't think I'd like to meddle with your empire while nude, so maybe it's for the best."

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"You're adorable."

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"Thank you." She smiles at him and then carefully sits up.

"Ow," she complains, without heat. "Shit, you really wrecked me, didn't you."

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He grins up at her.

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She snorts, then leans over and gently kisses him.

"Yeah, okay. I'll take that healing now, this'll get annoying if I'm running around all day with it. ... Leave me a bite mark to remember you by?"

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"Okay."

He heals her. He leaves behind one bite mark, a deep bruise on her shoulder in the shape of his teeth.

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"Not that I was likely to forget, or anything, just. I'm feeling sentimental." She touches the bruise affectionately.

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He sits up and scoops her into his lap and hugs her. "Mmmmm. Mine," he says warmly.

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Eselle giggles a little, and hugs him back.

"Mhmm. Enjoy saying that, hm?"

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"Yes. I'm very glad I have you. You're good to have."

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"Aw." Kiss. "Thank you, Sekar."

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He smiles and hugs her.

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Hug!

"Are you trying to persuade me to stay in bed with you. Because you're doing a pretty good job."

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"Of the places you could be, in bed with me is a pretty good one!"

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"It is," she acknowledges, amused. "Do you just like having me here on principle, or is there something in particular you'd like to do with me?"

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"I suppose what I probably should do is feed you breakfast."

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"I would appreciate that. And it would be polite to make a lady breakfast after spending the night with her. But that wasn't the question I asked."

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"I don't have specific plans, I'm just lazy and affectionate and don't want to let go of my beautiful Eselle." He kisses her forehead.

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"Aw." Snuggle. "All right, fair enough. I'm sorry for teasing, I like it here, too."

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He wraps his arms around her and nuzzles the top of her head and pulls her close enough to the edge of the bed that when he conjures breakfast via floor-flower they can actually reach it.

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Then they can have a snuggly breakfast together! She will try not to get any crumbs on him. This might be hard to pull off.

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He doesn't seem to mind the crumbs.

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Well, she'll still try to avoid getting any on him anyway, so there.

And then once she is fed, he can get a kiss. Call it an apology, for some of the crumbs that she did not manage to avoid dropping on him.

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Mm. Kiss.

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Kiss!

"You're very cute," she informs him. Has she said that already? She has probably said that already.

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"Thank you. So are you."

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She smiles at him fondly.

"So, scale of one to ten. How weirded out are people going to be when they see us being cute at each other?"

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"Twelve."

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She giggles.

"Is it terrible that I now want to be aggressively cute at you in public? It's probably terrible."

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He giggles and hugs her. "Maybe a little. But I'm hardly going to stop you."

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"I am probably going to revel in freaking out your staff by being really adorable at you," she informs him, in a stage-whisper. "I'm not going to go overboard with it, I don't want everyone to think I'm completely crazy, but..." She grins. "It sounds really fun."

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"You might scare somebody," he says. "If you're unpredictable and - ostentatiously not afraid of me - I can see that adding up to 'dangerous' for some people."

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"... Ah. Yes. That - is a thing to be aware of, isn't it." Pensive snuggle. "Right."

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He pets her hair. "Sorry."

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"Don't be, I'd rather be aware of it beforehand and avoid scaring people than happily cavort about in a terrifying fashion." Snuggle. "Logically, I know you're scary, but the rest of me doesn't consider you someone to be scared of."

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"Awww." Snuggle. "I'm glad you're not afraid of me."

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"Me too. I'm absolutely certain you could be very scary if you wanted to," she says this almost fondly, "but I like that you don't see any reason to hurt or scare me."

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"I want you to be safe and happy."

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"I've definitely been getting that impression!" Kiss.

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Kiss.

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Snuggle.

"I should probably get cleaned up," she muses. "Maybe put on some clothes."

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Snuggle. "Would it help if I let go of you?"

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Giggle.

"Probably. Unless you want to live the rest of your immortal life with your arms wrapped around me? I can imagine how that'd work for bathing, but what happens when one of us needs to pee?"

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"Magic," he says, and giggles.

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Snort. "Ah huh." Kiss. "Would you just be removing the need entirely, or just. Magic it all away regularly...? This might be a question that's too weird."

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"I can actually do the first thing, but it feels really unsettling to have done and it takes some time. Admittedly less time than raising the dead."

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"... Well now I'm tempted to request it. It's not unsettling after you're done putting it in place, is it?"

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"No, you pretty much only notice it by the absence."

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"Well, all right then. Do you want to help me grow past the petty needs of my fragile mortal form, Sekar?"

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Giggle. "Sure."

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"Hooray!" Hug. "Thank you. Are there other unsettling things in this vein you're willing to offer? I would love to skip all of the annoying maintenance parts of being alive."

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"I don't keep a list or anything. I can make you not need to eat but that one is kind of weird, I undid it on myself after a few months. If you don't like food much to start with it might be worth it but I missed being hungry."

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"Maybe pass on that one, then. Uh. Things about mortal existence that annoy me... I already have something to prevent pregnancy myself, but I'd appreciate not bleeding once a month?"

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...he smiles wryly. "I can do that, yeah."

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She observes his expression, and tilts her head a little.

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"I like it when girls bleed."

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"Oh," she says, understanding dawning. "... Would me bleeding by more conventional manners do, because I am just. Completely unable to find that kind of bleeding sexy in any way, sorry."

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He giggles. "If I couldn't live without it I wouldn't have offered to make it stop!"

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Snort.

"Well, all right. Thank you, then, I'd appreciate it."

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Snuggle. "I can do both of those now if you want."

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"Yes please!"

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He curls up and hugs her close, which is not magically necessary or anything but is very comfy.

 

It does feel kind of unsettling. And it takes about ten minutes.

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Eselle makes a face at how it feels, but doesn't complain. Snuggling helps. Snuggle, snuggle.

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Snuggle snuggle! "There, done."

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Snuggle!

"Thank you," she says, fondly. He gets a kiss for his kind service. Kiss!

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Ee. Yes good.

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Aww. He's so cute.

... Something occurs to her. She blinks.

"When you say you're keeping me, do you mean, ah. Forever?"

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"Ideally."

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"Oh," she says, a little distantly. "Wow, immortality. Okay. I'm fine with this."

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He giggles and kisses her on the cheek.

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Snuggle. "I mean, I hadn't really been thinking about it in - those terms. Um. Can my family get immortality, too? You haven't met my parents, but they, uh. Raised me. And my brother. Which probably says some things about them."

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"Of course. Anyone you like. Though not if it's so many people that I end up doing nothing but bestow immortality for a month straight."

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Snort.

"I'm not nearly that social. I'd like for people to just be immortal, but I think asking one Emperor to personally immortalize everyone is really shit for scale. Thanks." Kiss.

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Kiss. Snuggle.

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Snuggle.

"What's the immortalization process like? I assume that you being you, de-aging is an option along with just freezing someone at a specific age?"

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"Mm? Yeah."

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"So we don't need to drop everything to go find my parents on the continent as quickly as possible. Just making sure."

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He laughs. "Yeah, there's no rush."

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"Yeah. I mean, I'd want to spare my parents the pain of arthritis and the like, so maybe some rush. But not a very pressing rush."

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Pet pet. "You're very sweet."

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"I love my parents! I would like them to be around forever, and not in any kind of personal discomfort while they're around. Is that noteworthy? That doesn't feel very groundbreaking in levels of sweetness."

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"Mm, it's not groundbreaking by itself but it's an example of you being sweet." Snuggle.

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"Oh, all right. Fair enough." Snuggle.

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Snuggle! Lovely warm soft cozy snuggles.

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"... Did you actually throw some guy off a roof?" she wonders, idly.

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"Hmm? Yeah."

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"Why?"

She probably shouldn't find this kind of funny, because someone did actually die, but. It's just such a ridiculous way to die, and it's hard to say that it was unexpected. The Emperor does not throw someone off of a roof randomly.

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"He was really annoying."

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...

She should not giggle. It's a very serious thing that should be treated seriously.

She giggles anyway.

"What did he do?"

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"He treated me like an idiot. An easily manipulated idiot. And when I told him to either stop or get lost, he did neither. And then I lost my temper. I kind of wish I had better self-control, but on the other hand I feel like it would've been really easy for him to avoid that outcome if he could just have let go of his dream of an Emperor-shaped lever with which to rearrange the world into a shape more to his liking."

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"Oh dear," she says, kissing his temple. "I think I agree, actually? That probably makes me a terrible person. It sounds like he did not have enough self preservation instinct. I mean, yes, more self-control for you, but. Why would he ever treat the most powerful man in the world like an idiot."

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"He couldn't figure out why anyone would have what I have and not use it the way he'd use it unless they were just too stupid to notice the opportunity."

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"That's a failing of intelligence on his part, then," she sniffs.

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"It certainly didn't turn out well for him."

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Snort.

"Shit, I'm going to start giggling again. I don't want to giggle again, except actually this is kind of funny."

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He laughs and hugs her.

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Hug! Snuggle.

"I wonder if I'll have the patience to be able to - I don't know. Run interference for you. Herd the idiots away from you, so you don't lose your temper and throw someone off a roof."

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"You're certainly welcome to try. But the way I interact with the government of my empire is set up to minimize the amount of nonsense I have to put up with, so the ones who get through despite that are usually the most persistent."

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"Oh, charming. Well. Maybe that's a problem that's amenable to throwing my brother at it. He's better at people than I am. Or maybe not." Snuggle.

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Snuggle. "Maybe. He can try it too if he likes."

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"We'll see if he's willing. I'd just like to spare everyone from roof related incidents. I don't think idiots should die for being idiots, even if I'm not very sorry about it, and I don't want you to have to need better self-control to avoid things you don't want."

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"Aw." Snuggle.

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Snuggle.

"My life sure has taken several turns, hasn't it. Ordinary life to the auction house to plotting in the Emperor's bed. It's kind of funny."

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"A little," he agrees, nuzzling her. "I like it when you plot."

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"Really? I would have thought people plotting how to use power near you would be old by now."

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"But none of those people were you."

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She laughs and kisses him. "Because you like me, or because my plotting is inherently charming?"

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"Both!"

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"Aha." Kiss. "I see. I have seduced you with my charm and wit."

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"Mmhmmm."

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"Poor Emperor." Kiss.

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Kiss. "Who, me? I'm delighted."

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She hums, pleased, then kisses him again. These kisses are slowly sliding into more serious territory. Guess she isn't getting out of bed anytime soon. Oh well.

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Mmmmmm. She's so kissable.

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Is she? Gosh, she never knew, they'll just have to take advantage of this fact, won't they? Mm.

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So kissable. Among other positive qualities.

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He's got a number of positive qualities of his own. She's so appreciative of them. So very, very appreciative.

"How do you want to play this?" she murmurs. "Gentle?" Smirk. "Not?"

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"I see merit in both options. And you?"

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"The same." Kiss. ... Thoughtful look. "How much finesse can you do with Life while, mm. Occupied?"

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"Why do you ask?"

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"I might have an idea. Could you make me desperate for you?"

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"Hmm. What do you mean by that, exactly—?"

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Squirm. He's doing this on purpose. The jerk. (The really hot jerk that she adores.)

"I think I might like you to make me very sensitive and aroused, then, mm. Play with me a little. And possibly also tie me to your bed, now that I'm thinking in this vein."

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"I can do that." Kiss.

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Kiss! Nuzzle.

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He hums thoughtfully, pins her to the bed, and kisses her some more.

And - yep, that is definitely some magic that's happening there.

And now he thinks he would like to investigate all her most kissable locations.

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She makes a little startled yelp when he pins her beneath him, then:

"Oh. Oh." She squirms and begins trembling under him, blinking up at him with wide eyes. "Oh, shit, I-I forgot to ask, is this room, is it - soundproofed, I m-might make, make noise, oh touch me touch me please, yes -"

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He laughs softly.

"You don't have to worry about anyone hearing you," he promises.

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"Good, good, that's - so good - please -"

Would he like more squirming and trembling? Because she has so much of both in stock!

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He would! He would like those things very much!

 

He keeps not getting around to tying her to his bed. Holding her down with his own hands just feels so much more personal.

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She does not have any complaints!

Actually, she's kind of babbling compliments.

"- I want you, so strong, I love being yours, pleasepleaseplease you feel so good I want you I want you fuck me fuck me please I want you -"

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This was such a good idea.

But no, he's not going to fuck her. Yet. He intends to keep playing with her for a long while first.

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She begins making additional sounds, whimpers and whines and tiny hisses as she sucks in air. Along with this she starts regaining a bit of coherency, and even scrapes up enough coordination to squirm with purpose.

Her babbling follows a similar theme.

"Sekar, Sekar I'm yours - I want you, you have me begging already, oh, my Emperor, my lovely powerful Emperor, you have me I'm yours take me enter me I need you I want you please -"

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She really knows how to play to her audience, doesn't she.

And they have recently discussed his imperfect self-control.

But he is not overcome by lust quite yet.

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Fuck that didn't work what will work -

"- you had me in pieces and begging for you in under a minute, please I want you I want you, my Emperor please, I'm yours, yours yours yours have me have me please over and over and over, I need you I need you master please -"

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"You're mine," he says softly, "and I can make you beg for as long as I like."

And then he shifts his grip on her wrists and digs his nails into both of her slave-marks.

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She lets out a wail that evolves into a hoarse and whimpery moan, enhanced by copious amounts of writhing.

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He gives her a few seconds, then shifts his grip back to the painless one and returns to his survey of kissable locations.

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Well, now she's sobbing pitifully between her whimpers of desire.

"Sekar - please -" is about all she can make out.

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"You're so beautiful."

And kissable. In numerous locations.

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"Then fuck me my Emperor I need you -"

Oh look, she's recovering some coherency! She's even back to purposeful squirming. While sobbing. And whimpering.

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Her squirming is ineffective. Her Emperor holds her down effortlessly.

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She makes a little whine and tries squirming a little harder! This doesn't get her anything except even more sexual frustration. She sobs again, with feeling.

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All right, he's toyed with her enough for now. Time to give her what she wants.

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"Oh - thank you thank you yes -"

And now language is a little bit beyond her. Sounds are not. Neither are movements.

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Oh good.

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She remembers a word, and soon is persuaded to whimper it.

"Sekar..."

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"Eselle, my Eselle, so beautiful..."

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Adoring whimper! That doesn't require language she doesn't have! She does that.

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It's a while before he finally undoes the magic and flops on the bed and scoops her close and cuddles her.

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A while is fine. She'll just be whimpery and adoring and only occasionally capable of language for that while. Sounds good to her.

Then, yes, snuggles. Tired, tired snuggles.

She attempts to language and only manages an affectionate, but completely unintelligible mumble.

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Awwwwwwwwww. Snuggle-nuzzle.

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Eselle giggles a little and nuzzles back.

Eventually she recovers the ability to use words.

"My Emperor," she mumbles, adoringly.

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"Mmmm."

Cuddle.

"That was an excellent idea and I'm glad you had it."

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She giggles and nods.

"Me too," she sighs, dreamily. "I have fantastic ideas."

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"You do." Snuggle.

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Snuggle. "'I can make you beg as long as I like' was a nice touch. By the way."

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"Oh good!"

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"I thought I had you for a second there," she says, with a little affectionate laugh. "And then, nope." Nuzzle.

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"I was tempted. But I've learned some self-control in the last five thousand years."

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"Mm." Kiss. "Lucky me. I was trying very hard to be persuasive."

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"You did very well."

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"Oh good." Nuzzle.

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Snuggle.

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Snuggle! And one very adoring gaze.

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No. Two. Two is the number of very adoring gazes going on here.

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Gosh. Two adoring gazes. Well, she'll just have to snuggle him and pillow her head in the crook of his neck and gaze up at him. Adoringly.

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She is so cute and soft and sweet and snuggable and good.

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"... I think I'm in love with you."

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"I think I'm in love with you too."

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Shy smile.

"Yay us?"

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Giggle.

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Giggle.

"It wasn't the fantastic sex, though I did really appreciate that." Nuzzle.

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"I think the fantastic sex just - made me notice what I was already feeling."

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"Yes! That!" Adoring smile.

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He grins at her.

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Smiiiiile.

 

"... I should probably actually get out of bed if I have any hope of Zeothe not immediately realizing we've spent all day having sex."

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...giggle. "All right, that's fair."

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She leans up to kiss him, then gently disentangles herself.

"It's probably a lost cause, but I'm motivated to try."

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He kisses her and hugs her and lets her go.

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Eselle gives him another adoring smile, and then stretches and crawls out of bed to go get cleaned up. ... She's probably going to need a bath. That's fine, she can have a bath.

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Watching her have a bath would probably not be conducive to the success of her stated goals. He flops lazily in bed instead.

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Being watched by the Emperor while she bathes probably wouldn't help with her stated goals, no.

She gets cleaned up and presentable, in a lovely new dress and everything. Then she can go see her Emperor again.

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"You're so pretty. I love you."

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"I love you too," she says, fondly, sitting on the edge of the bed and smiling at him. Adoringly.

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"If we keep looking at each other like this, we're so going to end up fucking all day."

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"I am fully capable of looking at you adoringly without it evolving into sex," she sniffs. "If you expect to have failures in self control that's your problem."

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"Are you sure?"

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"Mmhmm. Shockingly enough I'm pretty satisfied at the moment."

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"Well now I'm just tempted to take that as a challenge."

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She laughs.

"Okay, admittedly I might not be able to banter with you without it evolving into sex."

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He grins.

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Eselle smiles back at him.

"Are you going to put on clothes?"

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"Eventually."

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"Ah huh."

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"It's not like getting dressed takes me any time or effort."

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"You'd think it being easy and instantaneous would mean you'd get dressed sooner, without inertia to combat," she teases, amused.

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"No, it means I don't need to bother until the very moment when I actually have to have clothes on."

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"Lounging around naked is clearly so very important."

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"What good is it being the all-powerful emperor of the world if I can't lounge around naked when I feel like it?"

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"Fair enough." She reaches a hand out to gently hold his hand. "Lunch, then? And then drop me somewhere where I can begin my dastardly plan to meddle in your empire?"

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He smiles, and kisses her hand, and lets it go, and conjures lunch.

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Lunch! With some adoring looks! Adoring looks that studiously avoid eating too much of the eye candy. They don't entirely refrain, but she'd like to do something besides fuck him all day.

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Smiiile.

"So is the plan to introduce me to some people you think I'd find particularly helpful for meddling, or point me in a direction, wave fondly, and pick me up later?"

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"You might do better without direct introductions."

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"Really? Even if you then left?"

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"People get weird about me, and they get much weirder when I show up in person, even if I go away afterward. My administrative staff is mostly people who are way less like that than usual, but - still not none."

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"Ah. All right. So I just - introduce myself, say you said I could do whatever I want, say that I'm very curious about how the government works and would appreciate if they could have someone show me the ropes?"

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"Yeah."

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"And I should probably not be cheerful and perky about the Emperor planning to keep me forever."

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"Probably not," he agrees. "Most of the people I keep aren't nearly so happy about it."

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"I -"

Pause.

Blink.

"..... Wait, do you still have them? I - thought -" She's not sure what she thought, actually, so that sentence just kind of dies pathetically and she's left with it half-finished in her throat.

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...he blinks. "What were you imagining had happened to them?" he wonders, bewildered.

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"I was maybe not thinking too much about it because it was unpleasant and hard to conceptualize when I liked you so much and I was busy handling all of the immediate problems," she mumbles, to her lap.

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...aw. He reaches out as though to hug her, and then changes his mind and drops his hand.

"Well. I make sure to keep some around, because not doing that is the kind of thing that leads to making regrettable impulse decisions."

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"Ah. How - how many?"

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"...is it going to do you any good to know that?"

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"It - might help with understanding of scale a bit, I want to know if regrettable impulse decisions can be prevented by just... making it clear that I don't mind being interrupted and carried off sometimes? But I am also admittedly one person."

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"You're one person and I don't want to - hurt you."

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"Is - specifically, is hurting someone necessary? Or are they things that are just so extreme most people are hurt by them?"

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"Mm... no," he says. "Sometimes what I need is to not care, and I can't do that with you and wouldn't want to if I could."

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"Not care as in not have to worry about what would and wouldn't hurt someone?" she clarifies. "Or just - not care about the person you're torturing."

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"Mm. First thing."

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"... That's actually not as bad as it could be," she muses. "It's not completely impossible to come to a solution where nobody's hurt without their permission."

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"Suppose not," he agrees. "Bit difficult, though."

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"A bit. Better than impossible, though."

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Shrug. "Yeah."

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"I - I still -" She waves a hand, weakly, at Sekar. I still love you. "I'm just. Yep, that's a thing I hadn't considered and just faceplanted into."

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He hugs her.

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Hug.

"I'm - helping with the situation, right, by being in love with you, I'm not being some idiot girl that's gotten a bit too caught up? Objectively speaking? I suppose you're not the one to ask, but."

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"—I don't know what you mean by 'helping'."

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"Giving you an alternative to torturing people, or being a reason to want to not, or - something that brings the number of people that get hurt down a little."

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"I don't - that's not what being in love is for," he says. "At least I really hope not."

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"Well - no. Of course not. I just - it - would shut up some of the parts of me that are screaming that there's something wrong with me for loving you anyway."

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...he sighs. He hugs her again.

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Pensive hug.

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Yeah. That.

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Snuggle. "Should probably put the meddling on hold for a while, then," she murmurs. "So I can get my head sorted out."

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Pet pet. "All right."

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She leans into him.

"... Is there? Something wrong with me?"

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"I'm not really the one to ask, am I? I mean, I'm not about to tell you my lifestyle isn't fucked up, but... until you, I would've said it was obvious that I couldn't be the person I am and expect anybody to ever love me. And I don't think it's a bad thing that I turned out to be wrong about that."

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Eselle huffs a halfhearted laugh. "Yeah, fair enough. I don't think it was bad for someone to turn out to love you, either. On general principle. I just - I want it to be a good thing that I fell in love with you? Not unhealthy or a bit too twisted or. I don't know. Some other nasty adjectives."

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"It's not your fault that I'm the way I am and it's not your job to get me to stop. If the only way you can tolerate being in love with me is if it makes me a better person, then - then I was right after all, wasn't I?"

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"I - that's - that's not what I meant."

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"Then what did you mean?"

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"It's not a matter of, of magically making you a better person. I - just -" Words fail her and she scrunches inward for cuddling.

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He hugs her and pets her hair.

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"I wasn't trying to make this a confrontation," she mumbles into his shoulder.

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"I'm sorry," he says, cuddling her.

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"Apology accepted." Pensive snuggle.

"It's hard to - talk about my feelings if I feel like you're just going to..." She trails off, then shakes her head, makes an unhappy sound, and scrunches again. "I don't - my feelings don't have a conveniently placed off switch labelled 'In case of emergencies'?"

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Pensive snuggle.

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"So it's not whether I tolerate being in love with you or not. I am and that's probably not going to stop?"

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"...if you couldn't tolerate it then—I wouldn't want to keep you in a situation you found intolerable."

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"... I don't know what that ends up meaning. You, what, drop me off on the continent and wave goodbye?"

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"I don't know either. Something."

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"Oh." Pensive snuggle.

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Yes. Snuggle.

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"And to think," says Eselle, deadpan, "we could have been having sex all day."

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—he snickers.

"I love you," he says, hugging her and kissing the top of her head. "You're so—I don't know. Lovable." Nuzzle.

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She snorts and relaxes a little.

"Thank you. I love you, too." Snuggle. Still kind of pensive, but less upset.

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Snuggle. Much snuggle.

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... Yeah, she thinks she's going to have to come to terms with the fact that her boyfriend actively tortures people without his help. He's not really helpful towards this endeavor.

But he's good for snuggling.

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Snuggability is definitely an attribute he has.

 

"Well," he says after a few minutes, "I've stayed in bed all day and now I want to go fly. Will you be all right here by yourself or should I let you out somewhere?"

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"Here's fine," she agrees. She makes an attempt at a smile and it doesn't quite fit. "Have fun flying."

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He kisses her forehead and pets her hair and hugs her and gets out of bed.

"Thanks," he says, calling up floor-flowers to put clothes on him as he heads for a balcony.

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The forehead kiss, hairpets, and hug all together earn a much more sincere smile from her.

"Love you," she adds as he goes, because - that seems like the thing to add, when one has just had an unpleasant conversation with a loved one.

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He glances back at her and smiles. "I love you too."

And then he's off.

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She flops backwards onto his bed and spends a little while contemplating the ceiling. Well, that sure was an unpleasant conversation that just made the both of them extremely unhappy without actually solving anything for either of them.

Okay. Let's sort through this mess logically, now that she's got time and space to think. What are her problems? Well, first, it bothers her, to have someone she loves go off and actively hurt people. She doesn't like people being hurt, and it's - it's weird for people she cares about to hurt people. Like the world is not arranged as it should be if the people she loves hurts people without good reason. She also likes being an undisputed positive on the world, able to just say that she made the world better for having been in it. This - feels like it calls that into question a little. Except, no, that's a logical fallacy. Loving someone who does terrible things is perhaps a bit fucked up, but the world isn't lesser for it. There's no grand debt she must repay for the sin of who she ended up wanting to be with. She wants to make the world better, period. No connection to who she loves.

While she would really like for Sekar to stop hurting people, and will probably try to make that happen in the future if it looks possible, it's not precisely a deal breaker. Which is a thing she sure learned about herself, isn't it. What a fucking bizarre thing to not be a deal breaker, he literally tortures people, holy shit. After a bit more analyzation, no, she's not broken for that. She just probably has taste that veers into questionable. She could spend a while hating herself for that, but, in short: nah.

Okay. That's probably her sorted. Ish. But there are two people in a relationship, so - how does she think Sekar was feeling?

... It would kind of suck to finally find someone who loves you, after several thousand years of being alone, who then went 'me or a major character trait.' Like, yeah, the major character trait is 'I want to torture people,' but. That probably hurt at least a little. The idea of being a simpering lovesick fool doesn't appeal, but he wasn't asking her to be okay with the torture. He just - didn't want her to find him intolerable.

He clearly wants what's best for her. Even if it would hurt him.

And for the rest, she's just thinking in circles and probably needs his actual input on.

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It's a couple of hours before he lands and comes inside. He looks... a little tired.

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She looks up from the paper she'd been absently doodling on and smiles a little when she sees him.

"Hey," she says softly. ... Does he look like he would like a hug, because she'd kind of like to hug him.

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He does seem a little in need of hugging, yeah.

"Hi."

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Well then he will be so hugged. Hug.

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He wraps his arms around her and exhales a soft sigh into her hair.

"I love you," he murmurs.

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"I love you, too." Snuggle.

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Snuggle-hug. He seems to find it cheering.

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Good, that was kind of the point of it. She pulls back enough and stands on her toes so she can kiss his nose. That seems like a good avenue for continued cheering attempts. Nose-kiss!

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—he giggles, and scoops her up for a return nose-kiss, and then puts her down again and hugs her and pets her hair.

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Well that's adorable and she eeps before she breaks down giggling. Yes, hug.

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... Then, okay, more than just being adorable at each other. C'mon, you're a grownup, you can use words. She pulls away enough so she can look at him properly.

"I, um. I'm sorry. I realized in retrospect I probably, um. Hurt you a little. When I basically said I needed you to stop torturing people in order to tolerate loving you. I'm sorry, for that. It was kind of. It hurt you when I didn't mean to and while I was trying to sort out my head? And honestly it wasn't even accurate once I did sit down and sort out my head."

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...hug.

"I - yeah. Thank you. For apologizing. It was... I mean, I couldn't even say you were wrong to want that? It's perfectly reasonable not to want to date someone who keeps sex slaves so he can torture them whenever he feels like it."

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"Right. It wouldn't be wrong, but it was. Inaccurate and more hurtful to you than I'd like to be."

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He pets her hair.

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Hug.

"Do you want to hear just the end result of me sorting out my head, or hear the highlights of this road of self discovery I went on?"

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"—it seems like it might make more sense with more context?"

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"That's fair." Nuzzle. "Okay, so a relevant thing about me is that I like the world being... the term I want to use is arranged sensibly? I want people to be where they're safe, happy, fulfilled, and not worried about being hurt. Where they have the resources they need to do what they'd like to do, an environment that fits them, and surrounded by people that they like and that they're complemented by. Which is obviously a thing that's kind of too impossible to ever properly exist, but that's not the point of it. The point's more of - like an exercise in puzzle solving, where the world is a giant scrambled jigsaw puzzle and we're clicking together pieces because they fit together, not because we're going to get a satisfyingly complete puzzle at the end of it."

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...he smiles. "Aw."

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Fond smile. "Thank you. So within this metaphor, I like putting pieces together. For a number of different reasons - I like seeing pieces that fit together, I find pieces that obviously don't fit a bit distressing, and I like being the sort of person that solves puzzles. It's personally fulfilling to make systems and people work, for everyone involved. And it's not the right solution if it's at the expense of one of the pieces, either, it's - it's not an exercise in bending pieces into shape so they fit where I find it aesthetically pleasing, or trading off one person's suffering for everyone else's bliss, or ignoring the inconvenient pieces that don't have obvious places to fit with because they're annoying. It's making pieces click together, whatever that happens to mean for the pieces themselves. If that makes any sense."

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"Hmm. Maybe."

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Snuggle. "So that baseline probably explains why my reaction to your, erm, sex slaves, was to reach for the - the 'I specifically am responsible for less people being tortured' button a bit better? It was sort of. There is a thing that doesn't tidily work out for everyone involved, and it's in front of me, have I made it all fit a bit better with how I've clicked with one of the involved pieces, how does this affect the overall attempt to solve puzzles. Which makes sense from a detached puzzle solving perspective, but from a personal one can get the results we saw, and I'm sorry. I should not be looking at our relationship from a detached puzzle solving perspective, and instead focus on - if I fit with you. As you are."

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...he hugs her. "Yeah. It's—I don't—"

He sighs, and starts over. "It's no joy to be told that I'm not fit to love, but it's no surprise either. So when it seemed like that was what you meant, I didn't think to question it."

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She can pet him, can't she, hair pets can go both ways. Pet pet pet.

"I'm sorry for making you feel that way," she murmurs, snuggling him.

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He tugs her over to the nearest comfy couch so he can curl up with his head in her lap.

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She consents to tugging! He may have so many hair pets. And a kiss on his forehead, along with an apologetic look. Pet pet pet.

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Snuggle-nestle-snuggle. "I love you."

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"I love you, too." Pet pet. "Should I continue? I'm perfectly happy to keep petting you if you'd like to just do that."

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Cozy nuzzle. "Mm, go on."

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"All right." Forehead kiss. "So then I sat down and figured out what I could tolerate, and uh. The results were a little surprising? I'm not okay with the sex slaves and the torture, but I..." She trails off, thoughtfully petting him. "Well, okay. My brother's going to kill someone in the next couple of days, if he hasn't already. Possibly via torturing him to death, I'm not actually sure, I haven't asked and frankly don't want to know. This makes me uncomfortable, and if he's going to kill someone I'd really rather he do it cleanly, but it's. I'm going to love him regardless? He's my brother, I love him, I will disagree with some of his choices and attempt to argue him down if I disagree enough, but. It's based around who he is, not what he does?"

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"Mm. Yeah, I see what you mean."

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"So this is like that. I'm not okay with how you have and torture sex slaves, and I want to find you alternatives, but that's. Not connected to how I feel about you. I like how you smile at me like I'm the most - precious, beautiful thing in the world, you're delighted every time I do something silly and ridiculous, you brighten whenever I smile. I like how you're straightforward, honest, and more than willing to just - talk things through. I like the chemistry we have, it's so fun to talk to you. Like I'm - the word I want to use is dancing." Hair pet. "I'd find loving you intolerable if it made the lives of people worse, certainly, but I don't think it does. I just - you'd be doing this even if I weren't in the picture. It doesn't, actually, have anything to do with me. I can get all angsty and hate myself and deny myself a thing that I really want on empty principle, but I'm. I need more than empty principle? I'm a - direct and tangible results kind of girl."

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Snuggle. "Yes, that's one of the things I like about you."

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She smiles at him fondly, then leans down to kiss his forehead.

"Thank you. So, yeah. I'm maybe a bit fucked up, but who cares, so's everyone."

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"And by any measure that says you're fucked up for this, I must be much worse!"

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... She giggles.

"Yeah, a bit." Kiss.

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He leans up to kiss her and then nestles his head in her lap again. So cozy.

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So very cozy!

"I'm still going to want to find you ethical alternatives, though. I - don't like it when people suffer."

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"I don't mind ethical alternatives as long as it's not - not a matter of 'do this or I can't love you'."

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She winces. Yep - that would hurt, wouldn't it.

"It's not. I'm sorry I implied that it was." Pet, pet, pet.

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Snuggle. "Thank you."

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Snuggle.

"I love you."

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"I love you too."

What a good lap she has. So cozy and cuddlesome.

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She does her best! He can have so many hair pets. So many.

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"You're very cute," she observes fondly, after a while of this.

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"Thank you!"

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She leans down to kiss his forehead, smiling at him.

"Are you willing to use your Imperial omnipotence to get me a book? So we can stay like this until we go pick up my brother."

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A flower grows from the floor and deposits a book in her hand and then crumbles away.

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"Thank you," she says, with another fond smile. After a bit of gentle readjustment, she manages to arrange herself so she can read and occasionally pet him. Without propping the book up on his face, even.

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It's very cozy. Perhaps he will nap.

(The book is a surprisingly poignant romance. Not much sex or violence, lots of complicated feelings.)

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When she realizes the genre she leans down to kiss him.

"You're a sweetheart."

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He giggles. "I just picked one I happened to remember liking, I didn't put a lot of thought into it."

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"Aw. I was all set to be delighted with your thoughtfulness. If you didn't put a lot of thought into it, how will I be delighted now?"

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"I guess you'll just have to be disappointed."

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"So disappointed. My omnipotent Emperor got a book for me with his magic powers, and he didn't meet the required quota of thoughtfulness! Disappointment! Despair! Devastation!"

Nose kiss. "Poor me."

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Giggle.

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She also giggles, fondly ruffling a hand through his hair. Then: reading. She's invested, now.

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Cozy snuggles.

The book is really emotionally engaging. The characters and their conflicts are complex and believable. When the lead pair breaks up, it feels painful but understandable, and when they get back together at the end it feels like they really earned it.

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.... She becomes so invested that she forgets to pet him. Also what time it is. Is Sekar going to keep track of time for her, so they can pick her brother up on time? Because she is not equipped to be the responsible one right now.

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You wouldn't know it to look at him, but yep, he's paying attention to the time.

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Good. Then she's free to get really invested in this imaginary couple and their troubles.

 


She hasn't finished the book by the time her brother needs retrieval.

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He doesn't actually need to go anywhere in order to make the portal.

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Here is a brother!

"Hi!" he says, looking mildly amused at the two of them. "It went well, I should just be able to show up and reveal myself dramatically without making anyone think you resurrected me."

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... Eselle is slightly distracted by her book, and has trouble looking away. She manages it, because brother, but there's a struggle. She finishes the paragraph.

She beams when she sees aforementioned brother, though. "Hi!" ... Then she makes a face. "Do you want your face back because this is weird now."

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He snorts.

"I would love my face back. And to stop being fluffy. The fluff is charming but this is like, the opposite of how I want my hair to be."

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Solekaran waves a hand theatrically and restores Zeothe's face.

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"Aauuugh thank you I'm free!"

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Eselle giggles, then carefully marks the page she's on and gently scootches out from under Sekar to go hug her brother.

Hug!

"Was it that terrible?"

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"It was fine for a day undercover but not as a life choice I want to make. I could maybe see myself with longer, less fluffy hair? But curly hair at that length and fluffiness is. No. Opposite of how I want my hair to be."

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His sister giggles again.

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It's pretty funny.

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And for a minute there can just be familial hugs.

... But they cannot last forever, not practically, and so Zeothe gently releases Eselle and looks at Sekar.

"I think I'd like to handle being legally dead and convicted with murder sooner rather than later. My judge was bribed, want to go terrify him?"

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"Sounds good!"

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"He was -" begins Eselle, then she stops herself and lets her breath out in a hiss. "Right. Have fun."

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"Yep." He kisses his sister's forehead.

He rattles off the name and address of the judge.

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Portal! Judge's sitting room!

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The judge is in the sitting room, having a cup of tea and reading over what looks to be paperwork of some kind. Upon the portal's creation he makes an undignified shrieking noise.

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"Hello! Do you remember me?"

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He makes another undignified shrieking noise and scrambles to his feet. Tea goes all over paperwork.

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"I normally don't poke my nose into this sort of thing, but Zeothe mentioned to me that somebody'd been bribed to have him executed. You're really not supposed to do that, you know."

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"H-he, he was executed -"

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"Is any part of 'self-dedicated Death' confusing to you? It didn't take."

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"Y-you got, you went and got." He waves a hand at Solekaran, then hisses and shrinks. "I-I'm sorry, your, your majesty, I. I." The sentence doesn't come, but tears do. They're not very dignified.

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"That's good to know," he says, cheerfully.

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Whimper, shrink.

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'I don't know about you," he says to Sekar, "but I would like an explanation. Sit down."

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The judge meekly sits.

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"See, it just being about money doesn't make sense. I would not accept any amount of money to piss off someone like me." He plops himself, casually, into one of the judge's empty chairs. "So what was it?"

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He doesn't say anything, shivering and quietly blubbering in his chair.

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"...I really don't think you want to play this game," says the Emperor. "I really, really don't."

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Whimper.

"I-I thought, I thought. The city could just be rid of you," he mumbles, into his lap.

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"... You're going to have to be more specific about the why. What, is my face weird? My cheekbones intimidate you?"

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"I don't give a shit about your face," he hisses. "You - you - the people like you, who dedicate Death and think it's fun, you terrorize everyone around you and make children think it's safe to - to."

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... This actually stuns Zeothe to speechlessness. He leans back in his chair, looking at him thoughtfully.

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The Emperor sighs.

"I'm pretty sure nobody thinks self-dedication is safe."

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"No, but they think that because someone else turned out with ultimate magical power that they can have it too, and, and. The world doesn't need you, we can get by with dedications at birth and what people are born with. You just - you just make everything worse."

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"You're really in the wrong city for that. Objectively speaking. Just to clarify, you live in the magical flying city held aloft by the omnipotent Emperor."

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The judge sniffles in an annoyed fashion. "N-no one's going to think they can become another Emperor."

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"I think you might be underestimating how useful it is to have self-dedicated mages in the world who aren't me," says the Emperor. "The world would be a much poorer place if I was the only person in it who could put up a building in an hour. Or heal someone from the brink of death."

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"My daughter would be alive."

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"... So you try to kill someone else's son?"

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"Ha. And how much did you care when you decided you wanted to risk your life for magic? And what good are you going to do the world, hm? Death and Fire, skirting around the law as you please, doing whatever you want -"

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Zeothe considers a possible reply.

"My sister got sold into slavery," he says, flatly. "Because I got tried and - well, almost executed."

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"What?"

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"It could've gone very badly for her," the Emperor contributes. "Didn't, but could have."

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The judge doesn't seem to have anything to say to that. He's staring blankly at his tea-stained paperwork.

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"You seem like you maybe need to think things through a little better."

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He makes a choked sound that's a hybrid between a whimper and a sob.

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"Want to declare me innocent now?"

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Whimper-nod.

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"Oh good!"

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"Thank you. Anyone else involved?"

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The judge swallows, then mumbles a name to his lap.

"H-he said you were. Trying to get his brother into trouble."

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"Was he. Then that," says Zeothe, "will be my next stop. But I should just be able to handle that on my own, if I'm no longer legally dead. Unless you particularly want to come?" He looks at Sekar.

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"Nah, have fun."

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"Probably at least a little."

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He looks at the judge.

"Estimated time for when I will no longer be a wanted man?"

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"I - I can file the paperwork today, but - ah - sometime tomorrow to be safe?"

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"Guess I find somewhere to sleep tonight and go be a terror tomorrow, then."

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The Emperor makes a portal back to his sitting room and steps through it, with a slight beckoning wave to Zeothe.

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"Have a nice night," says Zeothe to the judge, neutrally. Then: sitting room!

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Eselle's nestled on the couch, engrossed in her book.

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"That went well, I think!"

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"Yeah, I think so too."

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Eselle - after a pause - looks up from her book and gives a little smile.

"Good! Um, should I not ask questions about how it went well, or...?"

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"Nah, it's fine. We basically were just ourselves at him and he cracked and started crying near immediately."

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... Snort. "Okay."

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"He had some ill-considered opinions about self-dedication."

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"And had someone killed for it?" she says, bewildered.

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"I think there were some other factors at play, he mentioned someone telling him I'd been trying to get his brother into trouble, but, uh." He sits on the couch next to his sister. "Basically yes."

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"Please tell me he's - not going to work as a judge again. Ever."

She hesitates to go so far as 'please tell me he's dead,' but she... definitely thinks about it.

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"I'll tell the right people that he took a bribe to kill somebody."

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"Oh, good. Thank you." She bookmarks her page, puts down the book, and hugs her brother. "My brother. People aren't allowed to kill him."

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Snort. "Thank you."

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"Also, you know. People taking bribes to convict innocent people for murder. Bad."

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"Thank you for the clarification. I was confused there."

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"Hush." Hug.

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Sibling snuggles!

"Would you like to play a board game? Or - um, I don't know, cards or something."

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"I don't actually have any board games, but I'm not opposed in principle!"

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"I'd be okay with a board game."

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Giggle. "Okay. I doubt I could recreate the more complicated strategy ones from memory, but I can describe a simpler one for Sekar to make?"

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"Sure."

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She thinks for a little while, then describes a relatively simple game involving a board with holes in it, different colored pegs for each player, and getting those pegs from one side of the board to the other as quickly as possible by either moving a single hole, or by hopping over other pegs. First one to manage to get all of their pieces from one side of the board to the other wins.

Both she and her brother have some practice at it.

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Naturally, Zeothe patiently waits until his sister is almost done building a peg infrastructure for getting across the board. Then, he ruthlessly and mercilessly sabotages her main method of using it, and promptly commandeers the whole thing for himself.

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"You're an asshole and I hate you," declares Eselle, firmly.

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"If you don't want me to steal your nice things then you shouldn't make them for me!"

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"Also a terrible person. You are a terrible, terrible person. Just so you know."

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He's also a giggling person.

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"Sekar, sweetie? Do you perhaps want to team up for the express purpose of destroying my brother?"

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"I'm not actually all that good at this game!"

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"That's okay! I'll take any ally against the brotherly menace! I can even help you with strategy. Look at him, and his smug face, he definitely needs to be destroyed."

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Zeothe's face is more 'amused' than 'smug,' but yeah okay, close enough.

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Sekar giggles helplessly.

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"Also, if we don't team up he's probably going to win, because he's an asshole who steals my things."

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"For some strange reason I had imagined board games would be a relaxing pastime."

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"No, they're serious business. This is how bonds of love and trust are forged and broken. The board game is the crucible by which they are tested."

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Zeothe giggles.

"I don't know, I'm having a marvelous time!"

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Eselle sniffs and does not dignify this with an answer.

"Please join me in crushing my evil brother?" she wheedles, batting her eyelashes at Sekar in a manner that is probably supposed to be persuasive.

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"What if I don't want to?"

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"I will probably pout and Zeothe will probably win," she predicts, sagely. "These would be terrible outcomes, of course. To be avoided at all costs."

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Giggle.

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"I can't help but feel that you're hurting your case with your arguments, here."

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"To be avoided at all costs," sniffs Eselle, tartly.

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"You say that, but that doesn't make it true. For example: are you in fact at all persuaded by her argument?"

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"Not really."

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"Damn it."

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Exactly as predicted, without an alliance, Zeothe wins.

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Also as predicted, Eselle pouts. Grumpily.

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Sekar smiles adoringly at her and ruffles her hair.

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She huffs, crosses her arms, and dramatically looks away. Probably to disguise the smile, and not very well.

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"I love you very much."

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"I love you, too," she sniffs. "But I'm afraid I can't look at you right now. Because you're just so terrible."

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Snort.

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"Am I allowed to hug you, so long as you don't have to look at me?"

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Eselle hums thoughtfully.

"Oh, fine. I'll close my eyes and then you may hug me."

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Hug!

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Hug.

Then Sekar may also have a hug, so he doesn't feel left out.

"Now do you understand the horrors of letting my brother win?"

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"You pouted! It was adorable!"

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"But he's a menace! A menace that steals my nice things!"

She's pouting again.

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Hair-ruffle.

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Well now she's pouting more.

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"You are artfully sabotaging yourself, you know. It would be less fun to win if you didn't pout about it at all."

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"Well. Well. You hush."

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The Emperor giggles.

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"I might even find it tempting to win in a way that didn't infuriate you! ... Probably not, though, that's just fun on its own merits."

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"Aauuuuuugh."

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Giggle.

"I love you! Done with board games now?"

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"I love you, too. Yes," sniffs Eselle, but she's stopped trying to repress her smile. "I have had enough stolen from me for today, thank you."

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"Awwwwww."

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Aww. The Emperor may also have a hug.

"Granted, now I don't know what to do. Zeothe's less bad about stealing my things in cards, but if the game allows for it he'll usually find a way to annoy me. Because he's terrible."

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"I am, it's true."

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He hugs her, giggling. Why are they so adorable???

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"Did we break the Emperor?"

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"We might have," says Eselle, gravely. "Sekar, sweetie. Fight it. Fight the giggles, come back to us. We need to figure out what to do now that Zeothe's ruined board games forever."

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No. Instead, giggles.

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"I feel that saying that I ruined all board games forever is inaccurate. I ruined one board game, for maybe an afternoon, just for one person. It's temporary board game sabotage more than anything else."

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"Of course. My mistake."

She pats Sekar's hand, smiling. "You okay?"

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He hugs her. "You're so cute."

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Hug!

"Yes we are, thank you for noticing."

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"Yay, the Emperor isn't permanently broken, I don't have to freak out and try to figure out how to keep the empire from collapsing."

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... Well now Eselle's giggling.

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"If you think the empire would collapse without me you haven't been paying attention."

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"Not immediately. It runs perfectly fine on its own. But if you were permanently broken, someone would get cocky eventually and want to make a bid to be Emperor, and presumably you wouldn't be around to swat them. That would be a problem."

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He snorts, and ruffles Eselle's hair, because she is adorable.

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She recovers from her giggling and smiles fondly at him, then gently scoots away and fixes her hair. Her brother's here, cuddling Sekar in front of him would feel kind of weird. And she suspects that she doesn't want to test her self control in regards to not being affectionate towards her Emperor. So: gently scooting away. Sorry, Sekar.

"Cards?" she offers. "Unless either of you have any better ideas."

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—he glances after the retreating Eselle with a hard-to-read expression.

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Zeothe spots the expression.

He considers that perhaps affairs between his sister and the Emperor would not benefit from his presence. He trusts his sister to be able to defend herself at least as well as he could, and his presence looks like it might have accidentally unbalanced something. She doesn't need him hanging around and getting in her way.

"Might be better if I went and found a place to sleep for the night. Besides the one I'd been staying in, anyway."

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Eselle blinks at him, mildly confused.

"Okay," she says, a little hesitantly.

She looks at her brother, then at Solekaran, concerned. The hard-to-read expression is predictably hard to read, and so she is still pretty confused.

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The Emperor blinks, and looks up at Zeothe. "Uh, okay? Where do you want a portal to—?"

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"Uh - park where I did my dedication?"

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Can she get a hug from her brother before he mysteriously flees into the night because Sekar made a face? She is so confused.

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Hug.

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Portal.

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Extra hug. "You seem like you have some things to work out. Didn't want to get in the way of it," he murmurs to his sister.

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...?? Okay?

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"Sorry," he apologizes. "I'll see you later."

And then the brother is gone.

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She's going to get a hug from Sekar because, uh. What.

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...yes, hugs, hugs seem like a good plan.

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"I am," she declares, "so confused."

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"I'm kind of confused too, honestly!"

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"Okay, well. That's great." Hug. "... You made a face, earlier, do you think that was it?"

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"...a face?"

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"Uh. I do not know how to describe the face. It was an unhappy face? I think? ... Did I do something wrong...?"

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"—I... I don't know."

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It is now time for a return of the confused face. Look at her, so confused.

"... Okay?"

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"I don't really remember - you moved away and I felt weird about it and then before I had time to think about what I was feeling your brother suddenly got up and left and I was feeling confused instead."

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"Oh. ... Well now I'm less confused about him suddenly leaving, then. He left because he realized that we had a relationship thing to talk about, and I would feel really really awkward trying to have one in front of him."

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"...it's not going to be much of a conversation if all I can say is 'I felt weird when you moved away but I don't really know what I was feeling or why'."

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"Well. Fuck. I will need to have a talk with my brother about overreactions later."

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He laughs.

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She snorts, too.

"Well. Want to try and talk it out, even if my brother fled so efficiently he interrupted the very emotion that incited him?"

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"I'd have no idea where to even start!"

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"All right. Uh. Well I scooted away because I felt weird, we can start there and work our way forward and try and piece together the mystery of my brother bolting like his life depended on it?"

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"Okay..."

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"Um. I don't feel that you did anything wrong or anything, I just... Knowing myself, I knew that if I kept being lovey at you it would probably escalate to a point that I would be really uncomfortable about my brother being in the room? I don't like other people being all.. public display of affectiony around me, I don't want to do it to them. Even if I love you and hugs and hairpets are great."

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"...I don't want to... not be able to touch you when I'm happy like that."

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... Head tilt?

(... Yeah she's seeing why her brother fled with maximum efficiency.)

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Words??? No.

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Well, she figures out her words, after a thoughtful pause.

"Well, all right," she says, snuggling him. "But I assume you also don't want to touch me when it would make me uncomfortable?"

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Wince. Pensive snuggle.