Darkness steadily encroaches upon a secluded park. It's not quite far enough into evening to earn the term 'night,' but it's certainly getting there. The sun's probably finished setting, but the park isn't well situated to tell. There are better places to watch the sunset, which maybe explains why this park is so empty. That doesn't make it any less pretty, though. Just a good place to get away from people for a while.
He maybe should have picked a better spot if he wanted absolute solitude.
"- And my dinner's gone cold, nevermind that happened because I was too busy berating staff to eat it while it was warm, clearly it's your responsibility, and this is not an easily solved problem by anyone with even a speck of Fire, this is clearly worth raising even more of a fuss about."
A red haired woman in a nice dress stalks down the nearby path, snarling to the air. She clearly hasn't noticed she's not alone. "Everything is, in fact, worth raising a fuss about, because I'm rich and I like hearing myself talk, blah blah blah complain complain complain. It's so fun to torment innocent waitresses by yelling at them for no reason, especially after groping them! I like to spread out how I torment people, it makes my waste of a life matter! No one is allowed to yell at me because for some reason people care about my patronage! I am going to sit here for an hour complaining to anyone that looks vaguely authority shaped about anything that resembles a problem, whee, I'm wasting everyone's time!"
"All right. Well. Someone might as well enjoy this."
She clears her throat a little threatrically, then continues, pacing while she rants. "My food was wrong, it's not salty enough, you don't cook like this other restaurant I've been to, they're clearly very superior. Why am I not there, you might ask? I couldn't really say, maybe they banned me for my personality, maybe I just wanted to unleash it on someone unsuspecting, maybe I don't even really like the restaurant and I yell at the people there just as much, but I yell at everyone equally so no one feels left out! Nevermind that I dress like I should be able to afford my own personal cook, I'm not putting on airs to seem more important than I am, what ever gave you that idea, I am such an important powerful person that I feel the need to grind everyone around me into the dirt just to prove it! Hey, you over there, you're not dressed like you're a waitress and you haven't moved an inch the entire hour I've been talking, but I'm shit at pattern recognition and you look vaguely like you might work here so come over here so I can yell at you, too! Everything is terrible and my food is cold and this is your problem! Whine!"
The woman huffs, clearly running out of things to ramble about. It looks sort of like she'd started a while ago. She then plops on the bench beside Solekaran to sulk. "I should set my brother on him, since he has such a problem with things being cold."
Well, now she's giggling again.
"I did not have that problem! I said I wasn't going to do it before my birthday rolled around, and then it did, and I agonized over it some more the day of because I wanted more magic, and then I didn't because I was pretty sure that if I tried it I'd just die."
"I didn't have any low hanging fruit, either. I was born with Life, Sea, Sky, and Shadow, and my parents dedicated me to Land, Fire, Ice, and Light. So I could have gone for Death like my brother and been there for sixteen hours, or picked something harder that would take less time. So ah. Yeah, no, I'd probably just be dead."
She's dressed nicely enough to not egregiously stand out, she's so proud! There was never any way she was going to be the best dressed person in this restaurant, but she's glad she doesn't look out of place.
"Well this is way more romantic than I was envisioning. Full marks, especially on short notice," she admits, amused.
"Good. Just making sure."
She goes back to perusing the menu. She orders something that she recognizes and expects to actually like instead of something that looks new and shiny, because that seems sensible. Experimentation can come later if she decides to keep going on dates with this person.
"Mm... I'm trying to think of something you'd have heard of," he says.
(And that isn't known to be the Emperor's work and isn't obviously too old to have been built by someone the age he looks.)
"...oh, you know that library on the northeast edge, with the stone windows? I did that."
"You should be. ... I said I'd make complimentary awed noises, not repetitive compliments. Hold on."
She clears her throat. "Oooooo. Aaah. So awed!" Pause. "I did not start that intending it to be sarcastic, it just sort of ended up there by accident. It's astonishingly hard to make convincing awed sounds without anything in front of me to be awed over. Um. Oops. I really am impressed, sorry?"
"What, no, I'm a completely convincing actress!"
She holds a hand up to her forehead, looks at the ceiling, and begins: "Woe! Woe! Woe is me, how can I possibly withstand -"
"... Ma'am?" says the waiter with their food. Esvetielle blinks, drops her hand and sits up, alarmed. "Is... Everything okay?"
"Um, yes, I'm, I'm fine, pay no attention, everything's wonderful, I'm just, um. Sorry."
Giggle. "Oh, but I haven't given up yet! Let's see... you have a lovely smile, you're strikingly reasonable, charming, pretty, hilarious... I'm sure I can come up with a new one, let's see... oh, I know - and you're thoughtful and conscious of your effect on the world. There. I think I'm winning this battle," he says, smugly.
"Good, thank you." She sits up, takes a deep breath, and gets to the business of winning.
Esvetielle fixes him with a look that is only softened a little by the hint of a smile at her lips. "You," she says, with utmost gravity, "are ludicrously talented, wonderfully handsome, smart, confident without straying into being actively obnoxious. You're well spoken in a, a more concise way than I'm used to, when you want to make a point you make it, instead of fluttering about trying to find the right thing to say. Like a, swordsman running around in a conversation, occasionally listening politely, and occasionally stabbing people. You're up front in a way a lot of people aren't, and I really appreciate it, I don't feel like I have to navigate complicated social etiquette or worry if I'm being lied to, you're just." She waves a hand at him, as if this expresses her point. "And also, you're very sweet and you light up every time I smile, and it's really great."
"Flatterer," she breathes affectionately, and then she leans up and kisses him.
She'd meant it to be a quick good night kiss, but she went and stood on her toes to reach him. Which of course means that to keep her balance while kissing she needs to stabilize herself on something, and since the only thing remotely available is Sekar, well. Now she's using him for support. This makes it very easy to tangle her hands in his hair and whoops now this is a bit more than a quick good night kiss.
It goes on rather longer than he meant to let it.
(If her brother sees them, it's going to get... awkward. A seventeen-hour self-dedication is the sort of thing the Emperor shows up to; he remembers Zeothe very clearly, and he expects that Zeothe remembers him just as well, though their conversation was brief.)
Eventually he has the presence of mind to break away.
"Well," he says, a little breathless, touching his fingertips to her cheek. "I've had a lovely evening." He makes himself take a small step back, though he can't resist picking up her hand and kissing it. "I look forward to seeing you next Landsday."
"Good night, Esvetielle."
And he turns and walks away.
This is an absolutely doomed relationship, even more doomed than the usual. What the fuck does he think he's doing? Her brother knows his face. But - she's so lovely and charming and witty and thoughtful. She sparkles. He wants to make her blush again.
Snicker.
"No, instead I, uh. First had to suffer a stupid person while I was at work, who was personally responsible for keeping me there an hour longer than was necessary, and was terrible besides. So naturally, I did the only responsible thing to do, and I stalked into a park alone at, uh. Almost night. Mostly night. To say my expletives where no one would hear them."
"I had fun! It was fun, he was sweet. Very... he very obviously enjoyed making me smile. Lit up every time I smiled at him, it was adorable. Then, the conversational chemistry was kind of insane, it was so easy to talk to him. I - still don't know him very well, but I definitely like him."
Outstanding debts from her brother passed on to her. Looks like several different slimy people that probably had at least one grudge between them noticed, and figured this would be a good time to capitalize on it. They've tacked on extra fees and debts that are, frankly, bullshit, but would only really be cleared with any alacrity if someone had a proper lawyer -
- which she cannot, of course, afford.
She got pinned with one of the more reputable debts while the disreputable debts tied up her money. With nothing to pay with, the debt collector moved to have her sold to pay it off.
And how far along is this process -
He digs up the location of the auction house, spies on it from across the city. They're just starting to set up for the next batch; it'll be a few minutes yet, and she'd have to be awfully unlucky to be first in line.
There's a part of him that wants to just walk in there and take her, but people do rely on him not doing that sort of thing too often. It's better for the stability of the empire if he buys her legally rather than confiscating her on a whim. And—at least until they put the slave-marks on her, there's a chance she might not realize who he is—he might get to see her smile one more time before it's all over—
He makes a portal to an alley near the auction house, takes a deep breath in an effort to regain some semblance of calm, and steps through. They're just about to start when he walks in; he takes a seat near the back of the room.
She's last in line. 'Pretty,' 'red haired,' and 'former-nobility' combine to make her something of an expensive novelty, which is perhaps part of the reason why she was buried under bullshit debts in the first place. A great deal of money could be made from her being sold. Not just from being sold, though that'll be plenty lucrative, but from being a prize that draws people to the auction house to look. Being last is very calculated. The riff raff that have no hope in hell of affording her either clear out or linger at the edges to see what she looks like, and the main seating area is left with some very rich customers.
Her expression, when they bring her out in manacles, is one of despairing and impotent fury. She does not actually need to be dragged to the stage, but when she gets there she venomously spits in the crowd's direction. This earns her a backhand from one of the guards, which invokes one hell of a glare, but not even a whimper of pain.
(Oh, her pride is going to be her undoing. Possibly it would be smarter to pretend meekness so she doesn't draw someone interested in breaking her, but she does not have the composure for it. She is livid, and shaking with anger, not fear.)
The guard in question experiences a moment of unexplained dizziness before Solekaran gets hold of his temper. It's been centuries since the last time he made someone drop dead on the spot just because they pissed him off, but apparently today is really bringing it out in him.
The guard stumbles, but not in a particularly overt fashion, and the moment of dizziness ends without incident.
A young, handsome looking man with a distasteful smirk is the opening bidder. He opens high, and looks at her with a predatory hunger, like he is finally about to get what he wants.
Esvetielle's eyes narrow at him, and she has just enough composure to bite back her snarl. But not the glare. That looks like recognition, not just general anger and disgust at her situation.
He manages not to call on Death even a little bit this time, but in the time he takes to remind himself not to do that, a voice he recognizes pipes up with a higher bid. It's that fellow who collects pretty redheads.
He really does not want Esvetielle going to a collection of pretty redheads.
He doubles the collector's bid. Heads turn in his direction all over the room. Some of them will certainly recognize him, but not all; he does a pretty good job of keeping his face less well-known than it could be.
One person who hasn't yet bidded recognizes him, laughs a quiet little laugh, and sits back in his chair, satisfied. Another recognizes him, staring at him with widened eyes, then quietly leaves her seat to slip out of the room.
Esvetielle straightens, blinking. Her eyes search the room, and fall upon Sekar. Her expression changes from fury to something resembling shame, or perhaps dismay - she would really rather he not see her like this.
The opening bidder is not one of the people that recognized their Emperor, and he raises Sekar's bid by a large sum. He even has the audacity to glare at him.
I didn't think you'd actually do it! she mouths, appalled. And - distinctly not appalled, she sort of wants to fling herself at him in order to cry. This does not earn her another backhand, perhaps fortunately for the guard.
There's a pause, and for a second it seems like Solekaran has won with his absurd, restaurant territory sum -
- then another bidder that has yet to make a single bid leans over and murmurs something to the handsome man. He considers, then nods, grimly. And raises again, by a significant sum.
No one raises that. Maybe someone somewhere could, conceivably, but clearly none of them are in this room and willing to fork it over for a single slave. The handsome man claws at his hair, like he could somehow mythically come up with the money necessary if he thought hard enough. This does not, actually, turn up any money.
Esvetielle is looking at him with something almost resembling relief, except -
- that is a truly outrageous sum that no one could sensibly afford. How the fuck-?
Then realization dawns, and she just - stares. One person could afford that. One.
...yeah, she's caught him. Well. It was nice while it lasted.
The auctioneer waits for further bids, and when, predictably, none are forthcoming, declares in his favour. He stands up and comes to the front of the room where the scribe waits with the enchanted brush to mark her as his property.
"Ah - pardon me, sir, but whose mark do I draw—?"
"Imperial," he says, not particularly caring who overhears.
"Wait, what -" hisses the handsome man. "- Her? She'll be dead in a week you're wasting -"
Someone smarter clamps a hand over the idiot's mouth and begins attempting to drag him away before the Emperor kills him.
Esvetielle doesn't even flinch, at either the confirmation or the yelling. Instead she continues to give Solekaran an almost shell-shocked stare. She limply allows herself to be led and for her arms to be arranged for the scribe, not paying any attention to much of anything else.
The scribe paints the Imperial sun on the inside of each wrist. The Emperor... has a hard time looking at his new purchase.
He at least manages not to do anything petty to the handsome idiot.
When the ink has settled under her skin, he makes an idle gesture and all her chains open up and fall away. Then - he moves like he's going to reach for her hand, hesitates, and just beckons instead.
He leads her out of the room, and as soon as they're in a hallway with no one else present he opens a portal to his sitting room.
It's - just about as decadent as you'd expect from the Emperor, although considerably less blatantly evil. Optimized for beauty and comfort, without so much as a single instrument of torture in sight. Walls and floor and ceiling all of a piece, because the Emperor built this place himself by magic. An architect indeed.
"I- wh-" Nope, words are not coming, start over and try again. Standing is slightly more difficult than sitting, so she does that second thing in - a chair. Any chair. Closest one, that seems easiest.
"I don't understand," she repeats, a little plaintively, because that seems to be the only thought that is forming itself into a coherent concept.
"I don't - you know I'm not actually sure? I - Zeothe was framed, if he actually killed anyone and then got caught he would have looked at me apologetically and asked me t-to." She swallows. "To apologize to our parents for him and hand me a, a, contingency plan that would keep. Something this shaped. From occurring."
"Okay. So the last thing he will remember is being executed for a thing he didn't do. That means he should come back to a sister that is not a mess so he doesn't have to - he was already handling a complicated problem with little information and it was really unpleasant. I don't want to do that to him a second time."
Hug. Little smile. She stills and snuggles him. For a little while it seems like she might fall asleep on him, but then she stirs.
"... Mm. I should be responsible. Do you think the talk about, uh - " She holds up a forearm to display his mark, in lieu of words. "- the this related stuff should come sooner or later? Benefits of sooner being that there won't be any unpleasant surprises later and you'll get an emotionally exhausted buffer zone of me having about three fucks left to give, benefits of later being that I will have had at least one nap first and would be more reasonable and less cranky. Either way, I should get food and water and then like. A place to sleep. At some point that resembles soon."
He gestures vaguely at the floor, and a small tree grows from the bare stone, swirling up into the shape of a round wooden table before going still. Tiny buds form on its surface and open up into lovely flowers which bloom to reveal plates of delicious food. A particularly enormous blossom yields a pitcher of water with fruit slices floating in it.
She considers the table of food and drink, then leans up to peck Sekar on the cheek.
"Thank you," she says, then she disentangles herself in order to raid the table. Water first.
"Was that a no to the conversation happening now, then?" she clarifies, after she's downed a full glass of water.
"Well, is the plan to free me and send me on my way when you're sure I won't just get dragged to another auction house? Keep me but let me do whatever I feel like? Keep me but... do something in particular?" She says that last one like she's confused about what he'd even be doing with her.
"To be honest, I don't. I mean, I've heard the everything and don't think that's false, but." She indulges in more water. "If you want to torture me you're really not acting like it? And while I'm not going to claim a full understanding of who you are as a person, I am reasonably confident that you are up front about things that you want and not going to play mindfucky games with me. As far as I can tell, you either want me to be okay, or you find my distress upsetting enough to want to make it stop. So. No, really, what would you even want to do with me."
"Yeah. So why are you resurrecting my brother, are you planning to bring him back and kill him again in front of me? That'd make me cry. Are you feeding me delicious things so you can watch me cry when later you're forcing me to eat bugs and rats? You didn't try to lengthen my crying session in any way, were you observing how long it takes me to come down from it so you can see how you can outdo it when you're trying?"
These are not serious accusations.
...he sighs. He curls up next to her on the couch and rests his head in her lap.
"You - I don't - I'm not a safe person, Esvetielle. I'm not... you're right that I don't want to hurt you, but... it's something I'm kind of in the habit of, you know. Hurting people. I - when I said I mentioned how attractive you are when you cry - I didn't mean any of the silly things you said. But I did mean that the whole time I was holding you while you cried on me, cuddling you and comforting you, not a minute went by when I didn't also think about raping you. I... I want to be someone you can trust. I'm trying to be someone you can trust. But I don't think it's a joke that I might fail."
"I mean, I'm. Definitely having some complicated feelings on that point. I'm vaguely worried that this might make me more - tempting. To you. I'm less vaguely worried about how other people will treat me, with. These marks on my arms. I don't have any idea how to explain it to anyone that cares about me in a way that won't make them very, very worried." She swallows, and shifts a hand away from petting to look at the imperial mark on her wrist.
"But a week ago I thought there was no possible way I could ever -" Her voice breaks a little, and she sucks in a breath and tries again. "Ever go to an auction house. It was absurd? I wasn't an idiot, I didn't play fast and loose with any debts, I had a sensible emergency fund, I had my brother and more distantly my parents, and. Then none of that mattered and suddenly I'm. Up on the block and wondering who would fucking buy me and what my life would be like and how bad the inevitable rape would be and. The uncertainty was the worst part, at least if I knew who I was going to I could have some kind of basis to plan from, could expect something, could figure out coping mechanisms. But I didn't." She makes a sound in her throat, and shakes her head. "And I don't want to feel that way again. Ever. I - I can't. And I'd be - afraid, of it ever happening again. Because I didn't even do anything wrong?"
Esvetielle takes a shuddering breath. "And at least if I'm yours I won't ever have to go back. You're the fucking Emperor. You won't die and leave me to someone else, no one could possibly take me from you. That'll just be it."
He sits up so he can gather her into his arms and hug her.
"I won't let anyone else have you," he says. "I - might have it in me to free you, if that was what you wanted. I don't have it in me to free you and then let - let you be stolen from yourself. I want you mine, and if not mine then no one's."
She considers this, then she smiles. It looks - noticeably different than her previous smiles.
"... How far," she says carefully, "does 'whatever I want' go? Like if I, say, had a personal grudge against certain bullshit fees, can I - wander up to the officials associated with it, and ask questions so I understand what's going on, and. Politely make suggestions?"
"Somewhere out of the way but recognizable, so he'll know where he is. I'd say our house, but uh. I don't exactly own that anymore." She makes a face. "So not that. We could abuse that poor park some more, he'd recognize it, if we do it at a time no one will be around. Uh, yes to the bedroom, and how long's 'a while,' is it long enough that I'll need to, say, feed myself?"
"First thing, but I'd also appreciate not starving in the future if you're not around to feed me. Though I could probably successfully not starve even if you abandoned me, I bet there is at least one place that will feed me if I show up and loudly declare that I belong to the Emperor and would like to not starve to death."
Snicker.
"It's moderately inconvenient to get in and out of this section of the palace without my personal intervention but I bet you could do it—anyway, as long as the important thing is 'having food' not 'making food'—I'll show you."
He climbs out of bed and stretches and leads her back to the sitting room and through one of its other doors to a beautiful, exquisitely decorated corridor, and along that to a round half-open room. Half the circle of floor is surrounded by walls and shaded by a half-dome of ceiling; the other half is a semicircular balcony. There are flowering vines climbing the walls and winding through the railings, and a wide round table in the center of the circle. The table is even more treelike than the tree-table he conjured earlier. It is all very pretty.
"If you sit at the table it makes food. It's pretty good at guessing what people will like."
"I'll go build you a bedroom."
Back to the sitting room, and out onto its adjoining balcony, which is less impressive than the flowery one but still pretty nice. The view is stunning, of course. And a few minutes of stoneshaping later, there is a fully furnished bedroom there, with a stunning view and a balcony of its very own.
Oh dear, she is now being confronted with the fact that the Emperor is actually really cute. How about - not right now. Later, yes, but now, no.
"So um," she says, searching for something she might conceivably care about besides his pretty smile, "there's a place to take a bath here, right? And changes of clothes?"
(Yes, great idea, let's distract from Sekar's pretty smile with being naked in his palace, good job.)
"- Bye," she manages, after a pause that is entirely Sekar's fault. Or, to be more specific, the result of the removal of his shirt. It's - it's distracting, okay. She hadn't been expecting it.
Oh, she's going to have this problem a lot, isn't she. Flight is obviously one of the major ways to get to and from this section of the palace. Wings do not make nice with shirts. Ergo, he's going to be taking his shirt off a lot. Shit. Because her confusing feelings for Sekar aren't tangled enough, he has to also regularly remove his shirt and be really hot. Like a jerk. Ugh.
Well, she has ten to twelve hours to sort out her feelings. That's something. She could use the time to herself, anyway.
He flies.
Down to skim the waves in the shadow of the city, up to the top of the sky where the air is too thin to breathe, over the high white clouds and through the cold spray of the sea. It isn't magically necessary or anything; he just thinks best in the air.
It's easy to map the shape of the person missing from Esvetielle's life, and easier still because he met the man, even if only once. After a little less than ten hours of flying, he lands on the plant-table balcony and goes inside to look for her, letting his soft grey owl's wings blow away on the breeze but not yet bothering to put on a shirt.
Esvetielle's curled up on a couch, reading a book. She looks much improved by ten hours of solitude, and not just in mood and general health. That deep violet gown is definitely not the simplest thing that was available in her wardrobe, because sometimes she makes stupid decisions. It was too pretty to resist putting on, and then once it was on it seemed a shame not to live up to it. It's not like she was hurting for free time. She got bored, it was something to do. This is absolutely not the result of vague sexual frustration brought about by a shirtless Emperor. What would ever give anyone that idea. She is not affected by such mortal things.
"I don't expect Zeothe to appreciate being brought back to life in front of an audience - how long does the resurrection itself take? Could we check the park for anyone first?"
(Also, that asshole. He's doing this on purpose! He could have put on a shirt before coming to see her. But no! He waited until after! Aaaaugh.)
"Okay. This'll get a bit messy, sorry about that."
He stands well back from the couch and closes his eyes. Blood flows from his hands, twisting and twining through the air, twin streams joining to form and fill the shape of a person. It condenses and pulls inward until the shape clearly matches Zeothe, defined in rather more detail than his sister might like, made entirely of bright swirling flowing blood—
—and the Emperor breathes out, and doesn't breathe in again for a long moment, standing perfectly still with two thin trickling streams of blood still connecting him to the person-shape's hands—
—and the shape ripples, and is abruptly displaced outward by Zeothe himself, solid and real and standing perfectly still and not breathing. Blood splatters over just about everything in the room. After barely a blink, the blood turns to water and evaporates, and a vine grows from the floor and wraps around Zeothe's motionless form and transmutes itself into a shirt and trousers, and the Emperor finally opens his eyes and inhales, and so does Esvetielle's brother.
Zeothe's death was not a nice one. He'd cooperated once clearing his own name was off the table, since that gave the best chance to minimize the backlash towards the rest of his family, but killing a self-dedicated Death mage is not something done casually.
He inhales in a hiss of anticipation of further pain, twitching involuntarily and clamping down on the urge to lash out with magic. Just let it happen, don't make it worse, just -
Esvetielle is really not happy about saying this next bit, but she will not mince words -
"After you died, I - got overwhelmed. By sharks that smelled blood in the water. We no longer have a house. And -" she hesitates, pained, but pushes on. She hooks a finger to pull down her sleeve mid-hug, then shows him the mark on her wrist, one arm still around him.
That is an expression of - not quite horror. Horror is too strong a term. This is the expression of a man who understands the full implications of what was just said, and that while supportive, is not entirely comfortable with his sister's new choice of profession. And is maybe a little concerned. Because oh, shit, his sister is probably going to end up running at least part of the empire.
"I'm pretty okay with leaning on my Death self-dedication for why I'm still alive. It makes sense, and it's not like I was dead for very long. People that know me probably wouldn't be surprised that I managed to survive execution. I was being vague because I wasn't sure what you'd be willing to give me. Money and a place to stay would be great, a whole new face would be great, but it all depends on how we'd like to play this."
"Sure."
He looks thoughtfully at Zeothe, and then - he has a new face. Same height and build, nothing that would make him need to relearn major motor skills; all the differences are in cosmetic details, although the new facial structure might still take some getting used to.
She smiles back, then steps out of the embrace. Zeothe might give her a weird look if he came back to her snuggling and making eyes at the Emperor. She'd rather not have to weather any weird look at all.
"Knowing my brother," she says, "once he's got his face under control he's going to want to go check things out immediately. Want to help me make an adventure bundle for him?"
"All of the things I expect my brother is going to want or need while going on whatever adventure he's on. He does this a lot, I have a system. Typical staples include money, various weapons of assorted sizes, a water canteen, portable food of some kind, rope, maybe a change of socks. Things someone that is running around in the middle of the night like a lunatic would like to have. ... Boots. He will need a sturdy pair of waterproof boots, he doesn't have his anymore."
She smiles back, completely unaware of his dilemma. Poor Emperor.
"Also a coat of some kind. He'll make a face, but if he's going incognito he should not follow his usual fashion. Which is to say, it should not be black. It should be warm and waterproof, preferably with lots of pockets because the man despises carrying bags. For some reason. Even little practical ones. Possibly just to annoy me."
"Hmm," says the Emperor. "So—"
A very large flower grows from the floor and disgorges a long coat. The coat appears to be wool, a medium-dark blue-grey reminiscent of stormclouds. It has two big exterior pockets, a few smaller ones, and even more on the inside. It is exactly Zeothe's size.
"Something like that?"
Smile."This is so convenient, thank you. Okay, other things. ... I think he'd rather describe the weaponry he wants himself, so unfortunately that can't go along with the adventure bundle. I don't expect he'll be sleeping in any strange places, so I don't have to worry about that, at least. Hm, is he likely to need to bribe anyone...? Probably, so he'll need money, and I'll need to make sure the coins don't jingle annoyingly -"
Her brother will be so well equipped.
Zeothe returns while the ensemble is being assembled, and finds the whole thing rather funny. He produces opinions on weaponry (and is delighted with the results) and the chosen fashion choices (he makes a mild face at the colors, mostly for his sister's benefit) and otherwise leaves it to Esvetielle and Solekaran.
When this process is complete: "Well, I feel very well equipped, thank you both. Where's the exit?"
The air opens up into a shimmering oval portal the size of a full-length mirror. "There you go. Getting back is a different question; it's technically possible to reach my rooms without my help but it's not what I'd call easy. We should probably arrange a meeting or something sensible like that."
... Esvetielle indulges in a sigh, mildly sad about her brother's departure. She only just got him back, and he's away on an adventure. This is understandable and she doesn't want to demand that he immediately spend time with her while he's under a time crunch, but that doesn't make it suck less.
Esvetielle notes how she liked him carrying her too, that also he brought her to his bed, and that now that she thinks about it, she'd probably enjoy it more if he snuggled up on top of her, and now she's a faint shade of pink and is trying not to think about any of those things. Nope. None of those things.
"Well," she says, her voice catching a little, "all right then."
Yep, cuddling, that is nice and wholesome. Except for the part where it involves lots of close bodily contact. In his bed. Except for that part.
She searches about for a topic of conversation to distract from the sexual tension. Possibly in vain. "You're, um. You can call me Eselle, you know. If you want."
"Sure. I'll avoid upsetting the balance between Sekar the friendly architect and the Emperor. So in front of non-brother people, that'd be, what. Emperor when I'm playing up the meekness and possibly trying to make you sound scary, Solekaran when I'm not? Do people call you by your actual name or do they just quiver in terror?"
... Giggle. She possibly shouldn't giggle at that, but it's kind of funny anyway.
"All right." Snuggle. "The idea of being adorable at you in public is kind of hilarious. People would look at me like I was crazy. I wouldn't be - I don't know, subverting your reputation in any way you cared about, right?"
She smiles warmly at him. ... It is mildly tempting to kiss him. Nnnnno let's not do that just yet, that sounds like something that would absolutely spiral out of her control in a heartbeat. Especially with their kissing record. One kiss, and it definitely spiraled out of her control in a heartbeat. She suspects there might be a theme.
"Thanks." Snuggle.
"I mean granted that doesn't mean I'd enjoy any and all torture, context is really important, but. Um. Yes. That didn't make it harder to resist spiraling, did it, because if not I was going to go over what I do and do not enjoy since that's relevant. Give you a list of, of yeses instead of just leaving you to guess."
Nod. "Okay. I like being bitten, especially on the neck and shoulder. Um, to the point where there's blood. I really like nails or knives, scratching and slicing down my back. Not, uh, whips, though, somewhat unfortunately. They're a bit too - I don't like feeling like I'm being beaten? They skirt a bit too close to that. Burns are good, but more as something fun to play with after they've been inflicted than fun from the actual burning itself. I don't think I'd like really severe burns that involve skin getting melted and blackened. It sounds kind of gross."
"Thank you." Nuzzle. "I enjoy rough sex, including being, ah. Mercilessly fucked until I cry, and also while I cry. Since you mentioned finding me attractive when I cry, that seems relevant. It's sort of an emotional dump where I can get all of my feelings felt all at once, and then after it's. Like all of the problems I had before are small and easy. It's nice. I like struggling. Haven't tested out begging for mercy yet, I expect to like it but the ex-girlfriend I got experimental with really didn't kink on it. Other kinds of begging is positive so far."
Giggle. "I try. Uh, let's see. Ice and cold is a no, it's just uncomfortable. Being tied up is a definite and enthusiastic yes. Haven't been gagged, and I haven't been choked or strangled, so I have no idea how I'd react to those. Broken bones are similarly untested. Verbal abuse of the calling me names variety is a resounding no. Uh, anything you're curious about? I neglected to make a list."
She is trying so hard to not have this spiral out of her control, but when he gently kisses her like she's the most amazing person in the world it's really fucking difficult.
A sound she didn't mean to make forms in her throat, and while her self control does not crack like delicate porcelain, it does get significantly dented. Mm, kisses.
He laughs and kisses the top of her head and strokes the mark again, and then digs his thumbnail into it. Not even hard enough to hurt, if this were anywhere else, just enough to leave a little dent in the skin—
—and it feels like being on fire, like needles of ice jabbing through her skin, like lightning flashing up her forearm, like shockingly intense heat and cold and pain pain pain pain pain—
—he lets up almost immediately.
This earns him a startled squeak of pain and an involuntary twitch from the woman on his lap. But then it's over, almost just as it began. She blinks back a hint of tears and slumps into him.
"Oh," she gasps, a quiver in her voice. It does not sound like a bad quiver. "T-that, that, ah. Certainly explains why it's not common to slice it off, doesn't it."
He cuddles her and pets her hair and picks up her arm and kisses the Imperial sun and then gently brushes his thumb across it, opening up a tiny cut.
—pain, burning freezing smashing slicing pain, not just in the mark or even just in her arm but everywhere, singing raw and wild along every nerve—
It fades out after half a second. There is a single round drop of blood beading on her arm, and no sign whatsoever of damage to the mark.
It's so fast that she doesn't, actually, have time to properly scream. Instead it dies half formed in her throat, coming out as a strangled high pitched whine. Her entire body flinches as if to get away, pain pain pain overriding all else.
Then it's over. Just like that. Nothing's wrong at all.
She cries anyway, clinging to Solekaran and trembling.
It would be bad form, communication wise, to just pounce on him and kiss him. She will not do that. They need to have good communication, it's really important.
"I want to get in a bit more practice," she murmurs. "Your nails digging into your mark on my wrist, your teeth on my neck. And then I want to do something very forward and ask you to fuck me."
This time, she has time to realize what he's about to do just before the pain comes, and stiffens in anticipation and almost-fear. Then it hits, washing down her wrist in a wave of agony, and she makes a sound that resembles a high pitched moan. She doesn't struggle, but she does squirm in his grip again.
She runs through a number of expressions after he lets up on her mark. They are not the expressions of an unhappy woman. Her face scrunches up in anticipation of more pain that doesn't come, softens to something a bit more obviously into it, then she runs through several microexpressions as she retakes stock of her current circumstances from where she left off. Tears leak from her eyes as she opens them to look around.
When she looks at him, it's vulnerability and longing and a hint of something like fear, of this person that can so easily wreck her.
This experiment nets the following results: one low moan, originating from what seems to be Eselle's major sound source for this encounter, the back of the throat, and a slight pickup in breathing again, complete with some squirming. At first her priority is kissing him, but after a few seconds and one desperate and whimpery kiss, she leans towards the hand in her hair, willing to be moved where he likes.
He is so smart, he gets a prize. The prize is another moan, one full body shiver, and a few other noises that imply Eselle is trying to language and forgot how. Despite her current language handicap, she still successfully gets across her opinion of these circumstances. In short, she approves.
The first word that comes out unmangled is, "Sekar..."
Her shriek is ambiguously positive, but the specific way she squirms on him and trembles violently and tangles her free hand in his hair is not. The sounds she makes after the shriek aren't, either. Low whimpers of pain and pleasure, broken only by soft sobs. It's a good thing he's holding her upright by her hair, because otherwise she'd be in danger of pitching to the side.
She's not a paragon of coherency right now, but she remembers what kissing is and how to do it shortly after he demonstrates. He tastes like blood, her blood, and when she realizes this she moans and kisses him like she's drowning again. The occasional sobs makes this task a little harder, but she doesn't think he'll mind.
She understands the meaning of those words, but needs a minute of breathing and cooling down to understand them in context. Oh. He's checking on her. That's actually really sweet.
"... Yeah," she pronounces, smiling at him. "Good eye, I was. Maybe a bit too caught up in the moment, there."
Mm. Yes, excellent, this improves things immensely. Things were already pretty good before.
Enjoying him is a task she takes to with a lot of enthusiasm. She even gets distracted from kissing him in order to look. Because it is such a great view, and she gets to touch him, too.
"Do you have," she breathes, "any idea how sexually frustrated I was from your shirtless adventures?"
She is in too many clothes, which is to say, any. Fixing this is important and she begins attempting to do so. Unfortunately, this is somewhat complicated by how she's also trying really hard to touch the maximum surface area of Sekar that she possibly can, and refuses to compromise on this front. It's not really conducive to taking off clothes. What a terrible fate.
It might have been smart to check how soundproofed these rooms are. This occurs to her while she's in the middle of making some of those sounds he likes so much, because that seems relevant. This thought is then discarded, for being too coherent for the current circumstances. Hopefully the room's soundproofed enough, because 'volume control' also requires more coherence than she has available right now.
She's mostly a puddle of exhausted shivery afterglow, but the two braincells that have somehow managed to remain functional throughout that are proficient enough to observe and process that word.
It should probably be a bad word, should probably want to make her flinch away and run for the hills. Instead she just foggily thinks about how it seems completely ridiculous to argue with. He literally bought her, brought her to his pretty palace, resurrected her dead brother, then carried her off to his bed for what has been a really incredible night. She lies here next to him with his bite marks on her neck and his slave marks on her wrists, completely spent from several magnificent hours. Safe and happy.
She shifts in his arms to look at him, then gently kisses him. "... Yours," she agrees, a little shyly.
"He treated me like an idiot. An easily manipulated idiot. And when I told him to either stop or get lost, he did neither. And then I lost my temper. I kind of wish I had better self-control, but on the other hand I feel like it would've been really easy for him to avoid that outcome if he could just have let go of his dream of an Emperor-shaped lever with which to rearrange the world into a shape more to his liking."
"Oh dear," she says, kissing his temple. "I think I agree, actually? That probably makes me a terrible person. It sounds like he did not have enough self preservation instinct. I mean, yes, more self-control for you, but. Why would he ever treat the most powerful man in the world like an idiot."
She begins making additional sounds, whimpers and whines and tiny hisses as she sucks in air. Along with this she starts regaining a bit of coherency, and even scrapes up enough coordination to squirm with purpose.
Her babbling follows a similar theme.
"Sekar, Sekar I'm yours - I want you, you have me begging already, oh, my Emperor, my lovely powerful Emperor, you have me I'm yours take me enter me I need you I want you please -"
"I'm not really the one to ask, am I? I mean, I'm not about to tell you my lifestyle isn't fucked up, but... until you, I would've said it was obvious that I couldn't be the person I am and expect anybody to ever love me. And I don't think it's a bad thing that I turned out to be wrong about that."
Eselle huffs a halfhearted laugh. "Yeah, fair enough. I don't think it was bad for someone to turn out to love you, either. On general principle. I just - I want it to be a good thing that I fell in love with you? Not unhealthy or a bit too twisted or. I don't know. Some other nasty adjectives."
"Apology accepted." Pensive snuggle.
"It's hard to - talk about my feelings if I feel like you're just going to..." She trails off, then shakes her head, makes an unhappy sound, and scrunches again. "I don't - my feelings don't have a conveniently placed off switch labelled 'In case of emergencies'?"
She flops backwards onto his bed and spends a little while contemplating the ceiling. Well, that sure was an unpleasant conversation that just made the both of them extremely unhappy without actually solving anything for either of them.
Okay. Let's sort through this mess logically, now that she's got time and space to think. What are her problems? Well, first, it bothers her, to have someone she loves go off and actively hurt people. She doesn't like people being hurt, and it's - it's weird for people she cares about to hurt people. Like the world is not arranged as it should be if the people she loves hurts people without good reason. She also likes being an undisputed positive on the world, able to just say that she made the world better for having been in it. This - feels like it calls that into question a little. Except, no, that's a logical fallacy. Loving someone who does terrible things is perhaps a bit fucked up, but the world isn't lesser for it. There's no grand debt she must repay for the sin of who she ended up wanting to be with. She wants to make the world better, period. No connection to who she loves.
While she would really like for Sekar to stop hurting people, and will probably try to make that happen in the future if it looks possible, it's not precisely a deal breaker. Which is a thing she sure learned about herself, isn't it. What a fucking bizarre thing to not be a deal breaker, he literally tortures people, holy shit. After a bit more analyzation, no, she's not broken for that. She just probably has taste that veers into questionable. She could spend a while hating herself for that, but, in short: nah.
Okay. That's probably her sorted. Ish. But there are two people in a relationship, so - how does she think Sekar was feeling?
... It would kind of suck to finally find someone who loves you, after several thousand years of being alone, who then went 'me or a major character trait.' Like, yeah, the major character trait is 'I want to torture people,' but. That probably hurt at least a little. The idea of being a simpering lovesick fool doesn't appeal, but he wasn't asking her to be okay with the torture. He just - didn't want her to find him intolerable.
He clearly wants what's best for her. Even if it would hurt him.
And for the rest, she's just thinking in circles and probably needs his actual input on.
... Then, okay, more than just being adorable at each other. C'mon, you're a grownup, you can use words. She pulls away enough so she can look at him properly.
"I, um. I'm sorry. I realized in retrospect I probably, um. Hurt you a little. When I basically said I needed you to stop torturing people in order to tolerate loving you. I'm sorry, for that. It was kind of. It hurt you when I didn't mean to and while I was trying to sort out my head? And honestly it wasn't even accurate once I did sit down and sort out my head."
"That's fair." Nuzzle. "Okay, so a relevant thing about me is that I like the world being... the term I want to use is arranged sensibly? I want people to be where they're safe, happy, fulfilled, and not worried about being hurt. Where they have the resources they need to do what they'd like to do, an environment that fits them, and surrounded by people that they like and that they're complemented by. Which is obviously a thing that's kind of too impossible to ever properly exist, but that's not the point of it. The point's more of - like an exercise in puzzle solving, where the world is a giant scrambled jigsaw puzzle and we're clicking together pieces because they fit together, not because we're going to get a satisfyingly complete puzzle at the end of it."
Fond smile. "Thank you. So within this metaphor, I like putting pieces together. For a number of different reasons - I like seeing pieces that fit together, I find pieces that obviously don't fit a bit distressing, and I like being the sort of person that solves puzzles. It's personally fulfilling to make systems and people work, for everyone involved. And it's not the right solution if it's at the expense of one of the pieces, either, it's - it's not an exercise in bending pieces into shape so they fit where I find it aesthetically pleasing, or trading off one person's suffering for everyone else's bliss, or ignoring the inconvenient pieces that don't have obvious places to fit with because they're annoying. It's making pieces click together, whatever that happens to mean for the pieces themselves. If that makes any sense."
Snuggle. "So that baseline probably explains why my reaction to your, erm, sex slaves, was to reach for the - the 'I specifically am responsible for less people being tortured' button a bit better? It was sort of. There is a thing that doesn't tidily work out for everyone involved, and it's in front of me, have I made it all fit a bit better with how I've clicked with one of the involved pieces, how does this affect the overall attempt to solve puzzles. Which makes sense from a detached puzzle solving perspective, but from a personal one can get the results we saw, and I'm sorry. I should not be looking at our relationship from a detached puzzle solving perspective, and instead focus on - if I fit with you. As you are."
"All right." Forehead kiss. "So then I sat down and figured out what I could tolerate, and uh. The results were a little surprising? I'm not okay with the sex slaves and the torture, but I..." She trails off, thoughtfully petting him. "Well, okay. My brother's going to kill someone in the next couple of days, if he hasn't already. Possibly via torturing him to death, I'm not actually sure, I haven't asked and frankly don't want to know. This makes me uncomfortable, and if he's going to kill someone I'd really rather he do it cleanly, but it's. I'm going to love him regardless? He's my brother, I love him, I will disagree with some of his choices and attempt to argue him down if I disagree enough, but. It's based around who he is, not what he does?"
"So this is like that. I'm not okay with how you have and torture sex slaves, and I want to find you alternatives, but that's. Not connected to how I feel about you. I like how you smile at me like I'm the most - precious, beautiful thing in the world, you're delighted every time I do something silly and ridiculous, you brighten whenever I smile. I like how you're straightforward, honest, and more than willing to just - talk things through. I like the chemistry we have, it's so fun to talk to you. Like I'm - the word I want to use is dancing." Hair pet. "I'd find loving you intolerable if it made the lives of people worse, certainly, but I don't think it does. I just - you'd be doing this even if I weren't in the picture. It doesn't, actually, have anything to do with me. I can get all angsty and hate myself and deny myself a thing that I really want on empty principle, but I'm. I need more than empty principle? I'm a - direct and tangible results kind of girl."
... Eselle is slightly distracted by her book, and has trouble looking away. She manages it, because brother, but there's a struggle. She finishes the paragraph.
She beams when she sees aforementioned brother, though. "Hi!" ... Then she makes a face. "Do you want your face back because this is weird now."
And for a minute there can just be familial hugs.
... But they cannot last forever, not practically, and so Zeothe gently releases Eselle and looks at Sekar.
"I think I'd like to handle being legally dead and convicted with murder sooner rather than later. My judge was bribed, want to go terrify him?"
"I think you might be underestimating how useful it is to have self-dedicated mages in the world who aren't me," says the Emperor. "The world would be a much poorer place if I was the only person in it who could put up a building in an hour. Or heal someone from the brink of death."
She thinks for a little while, then describes a relatively simple game involving a board with holes in it, different colored pegs for each player, and getting those pegs from one side of the board to the other as quickly as possible by either moving a single hole, or by hopping over other pegs. First one to manage to get all of their pieces from one side of the board to the other wins.
Both she and her brother have some practice at it.
She recovers from her giggling and smiles fondly at him, then gently scoots away and fixes her hair. Her brother's here, cuddling Sekar in front of him would feel kind of weird. And she suspects that she doesn't want to test her self control in regards to not being affectionate towards her Emperor. So: gently scooting away. Sorry, Sekar.
"Cards?" she offers. "Unless either of you have any better ideas."
Zeothe spots the expression.
He considers that perhaps affairs between his sister and the Emperor would not benefit from his presence. He trusts his sister to be able to defend herself at least as well as he could, and his presence looks like it might have accidentally unbalanced something. She doesn't need him hanging around and getting in her way.
"Might be better if I went and found a place to sleep for the night. Besides the one I'd been staying in, anyway."
"Um. I don't feel that you did anything wrong or anything, I just... Knowing myself, I knew that if I kept being lovey at you it would probably escalate to a point that I would be really uncomfortable about my brother being in the room? I don't like other people being all.. public display of affectiony around me, I don't want to do it to them. Even if I love you and hugs and hairpets are great."