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Jedi z meets Sith Dusk
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Daisy zips up the trail toward home, grateful for how much faster the speeder is when it's not laden with supplies. Today, the only things weighing it down are her, the human passed out over the handlebars, and the unresponsive and immobile battle droid lashed carefully but inelegantly to the storage area.

 

Up ahead, there's a flash of red light. There's really only one thing that can be, this time of the morning.

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The human is looking a little bit worse for wear. There's blood on his fists and some dots and splatters on his skin, and he has a spectacular collection of bruises. (Some of them look a little older than the blood, though.)

He was sleeping, but something started to encroach on his dreams, something hot and dark and boiling like pitch, smoke filling a small room. It's enough that he's stirring before the speeder even stops.

The last thing he remembers was stumbling away from – that – and slumping down over the countertop, so waking up to high velocity is a little disorienting. He groans, not opening his eyes just yet.

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"We're almost there," the droid at his back says, reassuringly. "She's come out to meet us, it'll only be a few more minutes."

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...Oh. Cute droid lady. Familiar voice, at least.

If "she" brought whatever energy he was feeling to the table, though...that's probably a bad thing?

"Should I...uh...get ready to run?"

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"No, you'll be safe. She might not be happy about it, but - we'll figure something out."

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"...okay. Trusting you on this one."

Besides...out of all possible ways to go? That's a pretty excellent one.

He forces himself to sit up with a groan and waits to meet his fate.

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They round a corner and, yep, that's a Sith, standing directly in the path with her lightsaber lit.

 

After a moment, she extinguishes it, and the dark aura dissipates.

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He stares for a moment.

In all fairness, who wouldn't? It's not like he's ever met a Sith before.

"...can you really shoot lightning out of your hands."

He might still be a little out of it.

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" - yes."

 

"Daisy, why did you bring me a Jedi?"

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"I- I- what?"

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Oh, no, dammit. Now cute droid is scared of him. This is not going according to the plan he didn't have.

(lightning tho)

"No, no no, definitely not a Jedi. That was not for me."

Even as he tries to defend himself he keeps glancing at the Sith's palms with barely veiled interest.

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The Sith considers this.

 

"Well, if he is a Jedi he's a smart one, at least. C'mere, Love, tell me what happened."

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She dismounts, and goes to get a hug from the Sith. "Well, it was..."

 

Night; after her usual radio chat with Dusk, she goes visit Nine, the security droid for the pawn shop. His owner doesn't like her talking to him, but - he's her friend, and she's his only friend. They hang out for a while, standing together and talking, the conversation ebbing and flowing slowly as Daisy gives Nine as much time as he needs to think through the things they're discussing.

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He doesn't technically need to be here right now – he's done all the jobs the old man gave him for the day – but he likes these droids. They talk like he's not there, which is kind of comforting in itself, and just listening to the decorated one waiting for the security droid to speak is...well, even outside being adorable, it's pretty nice. Droids can be so much more okay than people.

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And, speaking of people. The shop owner comes around the corner.

Daisy freezes, obviously alarmed.

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...okay, well, something's clearly up.

He stays as still as he can and watches.

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Yep. Something: up.

The shop owner immediately goes hostile. "DZ. I told you to stay away from my droid."

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She backs away. "Yes, sir."

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...who does this guy think he is?

Other than the asshole owner of a droid exercising whatever control he's legally got. Obviously. Still...what does he think he's accomplishing, here, other than scaring someone who seems completely harmless?

He frowns, and moves closer.

 

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He addresses the battle droid. "How long has this been going on?"

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"Four months, sir."

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"So, you didn't listen at all last time I told you. Well, fine. 9P, if you see this droid here outside store hours again, shoot it."

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"Yes, sir."

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The cruelty of it hits him hard and thudding in the gut, makes him freeze in place.

They're friends. This is murder. This is torture.

His head is spinning. He reaches out towards the closest shelf, and his fingers close on some kind of machine part. It doesn't really matter what it is. It's heavy and it's metal and it'll do.

Before he can even think about it he's stepping forward to swing the thing at the shopkeeper's head.

(He won't let it happen.)

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The battle droid has to shoot him; he doesn't have to do more than wing him. A blaze of pain marks his shoulder, and then the man goes down, a mess of blood and ick, and the droid freezes.

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He thinks he just saw brains.

(He hits him again for good measure, caving the skull in with a sickening crunch.)

Then he stands up and looks back at the two droids, hand vaguely wandering to his shoulder, finger tapping at the edge of the smoking hole the blaster left.

He's...honestly not sure what to do next. He didn't exactly have a strategy.

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"Nine? Nine?"

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Nope.

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All right. (No. Not all right at all.)

She turns to the human. "Are you okay?"

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He sticks a finger in the blaster hole.

Ow.

He pulls it out.

"...y...es?"

Then the power that was moving him seems to turn itself off, and he stumbles, catching himself on the counter with a scream of protest from his shoulder. So much for "okay".

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Crap.

 

Well, this isn't getting less disastrous. She goes for the speeder, abandoning the half-unloaded carts from the back of it, loads Nine and then the human, and sets off for home.

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"Well. Good call," she tells the Jedi.

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"I've never actually killed anyone before."

Maimed, yeah, and he's never sure what happens later, but...never with that same sickening finality.

He looks down at the mess of gore on his shirt.

"...this is probably supposed to feel way worse."

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Shrug. "Shock. We're bringing him home and letting him heal up?" she asks Daisy.

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"I hadn't thought that far. But - if you're okay with it, I'd like to. Please."

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"Yeah. Yeah, we can do that."

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"Thank you."

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"...For sure?"

His face does something he thinks is probably smiling.

"That's, uh...that's probably be--"

He falls off the speeder.

Ow.

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Less ow than it could be; she telekinetically cushions his way to the ground with a sigh. "I'll take the back, Love, go ahead and load him up."'

 

It's another twenty minutes; she keeps an eye on him so that he doesn't fall off again.

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Thank the Force for telekinesis. (Really, though.)

He makes sure to stay balanced, leaning on the front of the speeder, but the more time wears on the more he can feel the sharp, insistent burning in his shoulder. He grimaces every so often. Pain can be really annoying when you're bored.

He can't even focus enough to fix it, right now. He doesn't want to fall off again. Twice is just embarrassing.

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And soon they come to what must be the duo's home.

"D'you care whether we put you up in the garage or the house? Not much privacy in the house."

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He makes it halfway through a shrug before remembering why shrugging is a bad idea and wincing.

"Either one's good? But I'm obnoxious, so..."

He trails off for a second, then realizes that the end of that sentence is not necessarily a given.

"...so if you wanna put me in the garage that's cool."

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Snort. "If that's you don't think you deserve being in the house, you go in the house. If it's you'd rather not worry about bothering us, you can go in the garage."

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Oh. Nobody's really put things back to him like that before.

He could definitely get used to that happening more often.

"...little bit of both? But...house wins out, I think."

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She nods. "Daisy, go find the camp bed while I get your friend unloaded?"

"All right." She goes; the Sith starts working on the ties holding the other droid down. "Is there anything else I ought to know?"

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"Uh...well, somebody's probably gonna find that body soon. If that's an issue."

Something else occurs to him and he groans.

"And all my stuff's back on my ship. In town." Guess he's going to need to find new stuff. And a new ship.

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She nods. "I'll go pick it up once we're a little more settled here - is there room for the speedeer? - and they'll get the idea about dropping it."

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Wow, that's significantly better than he expected.

"Yeah, there's a little dock for a speeder in there...I, uh, crashed mine a little while back..."

He finally makes an attempt to get off the speeder. His legs are wobbly, but they manage to hold him up.

"You can get people to drop murders?" That's pretty chill.

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"In that they'd rather drop it than deal with more murders, yup," she grins, amused. "You won't really be able to go back, but it's better than letting them string you up."

She doesn't need to be looking at him to notice if he starts to fall, so she doesn't. The droid is about half free, now.

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...he had some really spectacular luck, running into the one Sith who'd murder people for him. 

He wanders shakily over to the other side of the droid and starts messing with the ropes, trying to figure out how to free it.

"Is, uh...is she gonna be okay? I mean, she seemed like it, but..."

He nods towards the house.

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"Yeah. I dunno, she's going to be pretty upset if I can't fix her friend. I bet I can, but." Shrug. "Wish she'd told me sooner, maybe I could've done something."

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"...here's hoping."

He hopes he didn't get this droid killed as well.

He pats it gently as he loosens some of the ropes, as if it can feel it. Then he wobbles again, catching himself on the side of the speeder.

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And there's the gentle tug of telekinesis again, making sure he doesn't fall any further. "Depends on what's wrong with him. It sounds like it might just be the restraining bolt; that's going to be a pain to get out, but I'd want to anyway. Hate those things," she spits.

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It definitely takes the edge off the dizziness, somehow, when she catches him. It feels more secure.

"They're pretty much the worst."

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She nods, and finishes freeing the droid, floating him into the air without compromising her hold on Kai at all.

"I'm Lord Pradnakt, by the way." She pauses to consider - "you can call me Dusk."

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He has a much easier time walking like this, with the gentle hold of the telekinesis.

"Dusk. Nice. I'm Kai-Zi."

Clearly, "Dusk" isn't a name she offers to just anyone. He feels kind of special.

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"Nice to meet you. And I bet Daisy was too flustered to introduce herself - she might tell you to call her DZ, but that's just nerves, it's not what she prefers."

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"Yeah. Daisy's what her friend called her."

He's valiantly resisting the urge to just lie down and see if she hovers him.

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That's inferrable enough that she picks up on it, and scoops him up into the air for the remaining few yards to the house.

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Holy shit, this is so great.

(It's also a little terrifying to totally lose contact with the ground and get floated around by an invisible force, but, y'know. In the good way.)

Into the house we go!

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From his position he can mostly see the top halves of the walls, draped with pretty fabric, though there's also a wooden cabinet decorated with a swirl of metal insets against the back wall. She holds him still for a few moments, then gently lowers him to the table. "Just a minute, I need to make room for the bed."

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...wow, it's gorgeous in here. At least, the parts he can see. Who even owns this much pretty stuff all the way out here?

She lands him on the table, and he sighs a little and relaxes. Now he's just got to...stay awake long enough to...

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Nope.

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Aww.

She's quiet as can be, rearranging the furniture and setting the bed up, and then carefully floats him over to it.

Your Jedi is cute, Love, she signs, before floating Nine to the table and examining him to figure out where to start.

Are you sure he's a Jedi?

Oh, not really. He's not a Sith, though. But - no lightsaber, either. And you saw how he was; that doesn't say Jedi to me.

Yeah. Okay. And...

Yeah, I'm pretty sure I can take him. If it comes to it, but I don't think it's going to come to it.

Okay.

She unscrews the battle droid's chest plate, and begins rummaging around inside while the protocol droid watches fretfully.

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Oh. Softer. Good. He curls up a little in his sleep.

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Aside from the occasional annoyed hiss or soft swear, she works quietly, gaining access to the bolt after some forty minutes and taking an additional twenty to rig up a reader for it.

I think he'll be okay. There might be another loop, but this one would explain it all by itself. One sec - she puts in the command to clear his ownership flags, and then pauses to restrain him before sending it...

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"Nine?" She's as distressed as Dusk has ever heard her, nearly hysterical.

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"Daisy? What happened?"

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"That asshole had you practically tied in knots even before he died, and when he did you couldn't resolve it. Lucky for him he is dead, I'd be tempted to make him regret it. No, don't get up, I still need to take the bolt out."

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"Yes ma'am."

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"Go ahead and talk to Daisy, though, it isn't that delicate."

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"Yes, ma'am."

 

 

"Are you all right?"

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"I'll be fine as long as you are. Are you?"

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"I think so, I -"

 

"What did you do...?"

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"Cleared all your ownership flags. You're your own, now."

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"Oh."

 

"I - I don't know..."

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"That's fine, there's no rush."

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"Yes, ma'am."

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"Good. Now stay still while I get this out, okay?"

She gets back to work.

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The talking woke him up, just a little, but he's only just been conscious enough to register words are being spoken.

He makes an indistinct noise and waits to fall asleep again.

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It's another hour, freeing the restraining bolt and putting the droid back together. He and Daisy talk quietly while Dusk works, trying to figure out what he wants to do next, but they mostly end up talking in circles; not being owned is just too new, too hard to think about.

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He drifts in and out of sleep, hearing vague murmurs that play on the edges of his consciousness.

what do i want?

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Okay, she signs to Daisy when she's done putting Nine back together. I should nap, while he's asleep. You'll be okay?

Yeah, I think so.

All right. Wake me up if you need me. And off she goes, leaving the droids to sit in companionable mostly-silence.

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He sleeps like a rock, shoulder notwithstanding. His dreams are bizarre and fractured and very bloody.

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When he wakes up -- he doesn't know when, exactly -- the hole in his shoulder does not feel any better.

He should...probably fix that.

He sits up and closes his eyes again, lips starting to move silently.

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This wakes Dusk up, of course. She lies in bed, watching him - healing, yep, that's healing. Good.

She waits for him to be done before heading back into the room.

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He jumps a little when she comes in.

"...Hey."

Now that he's a little more well-rested he's a lot more conscious of the fact that he's been sleeping in a house with a Sith.

He looks simultaneously deeply wary and incredibly intrigued.

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"Hey." She sits at the table, by the bed, casually.

"You helped my Daisy, you're safe here."

(Daisy gets up from where she's been sitting with Nine and gets started on making breakfast.)

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He can't help but grin a little.

"I guess Sith do care about people once in a while."

Now is as good a time as any to start looking around, he guesses. Wow it's decorated in here.

"Next you'll tell me I get to enjoy my breakfast."

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"Yep, she's a good cook. Nine's fine, by the way. Little bit of existential crisis, is all."

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"Heh. That's good. He's a tough guy."

He seems to drift off for a moment, then.

"...so...I really killed someone last night."

 

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"Yup. If it helps anything, I would've as soon as I'd found out about it."

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"...honestly that kind of does help, yeah."

He lies back on the cot again.

"Usually I'm the guy getting beat to shit, not the other way around."

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"Well, not here. Maybe you can take Nine with you, might help you both."

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"No, no, I mean...on purpose."

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"....ah. I see what you mean about 'not a Jedi', then."

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"Self-denial is not for me."

He pauses for a second.

"I mean, getting ganged up on during practice was fun as hell, but..."

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"Heh. Well, not my jam, but we can spar sometime if you want."

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Oh my god, it's like his birthday.

"Will you shoot me with lightning."

He has always wanted to try that.

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"I'll even use the extra painful kind, if you want."

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"You are seriously the best."

Lightning! Sparring! Maybe he'll actually learn something about the Force without the extraneous self-deprivation bullshit! He is so happy he could just-- he could just levitate a few inches off the bed without noticing!

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He is really cute. "Don't get ahead of yourself, now," she chuckles.

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"What d'you mean, get ahead--"

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...huh.

He doesn't feel the cot anymore.

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"Uh--"

Thwump.

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Heh.

"I usually do forms after sunset, it's a little warm for it when the sun's up. And then we can hike up and see some art, if you're in shape for it, I have a couple pieces I think you'll like."

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He nods quickly.

"Art, like...the things we passed by coming up here?" He woke up enough to see a few of them, at least.

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"Mmhmm. There's a few art trails around, if you want to go see 'em."

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"Yeah. Definitely."

He has not, historically, had a ton of time or money to view giant metal sculpture, and he definitely wants to take the opportunity.

"Is it all yours?"

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"Yup - Love?"

"Hmm?" the droid turns to look, and there's a quick signed exchange.

"Daisy does calligraphy, too, though."

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"--hey, really?"

He doesn't think he's ever seen a droid's art. He doesn't think most people would believe a droid can do art.

That's metal as hell.

"Could I see?"

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"Sure, I have a couple pieces in my room." She goes to get them.

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When she exits the room, he looks over to Daisy.

"So...uh, I never actually introduced myself or anything, but I don't wanna interrupt whatever you're making."

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"I'm almost done, sir."

And indeed, when Dusk comes back she signs to her and the Sith floats their meal over to the table: two single-serving mashed-potato-topped casseroles, silver dollar pancakes - half with chocolate chips, half with a swirl of strawberry jam - crispy hash browns, sliced fruit, and a small veggie omelette for each of them.

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He looks troubled.

"...Hey, Kai-Zi is fine."

He's momentarily distracted by the spread, though. That is an incredible breakfast if he's ever seen one.

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"All right."

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"Wow. She doesn't usually feed me this well." She sets the framed art she's carrying on the table and moves off to make room for him to sit.

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"--Hey, is this because of me, then?"

He can't hide how excited he is at the prospect.

He hops off the bed over to the table and slides onto a bench, looking over the spread.

"I don't even know where to start."

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"Yes," she grins shyly. "Try the casserole; Pradnakt usually likes things a little bland, but it's spicier."

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He grins back and takes a bite from the casserole.

Usually he prefers to look a little harder at what he's eating before he starts, but he trusts robot friend's cooking implicitly.

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Under the mashed potatoes is a layer of lentils and corn in a white sausage-style gravy.

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It's delicious!

He is just radiating contentment right now. He looks like he's going to compliment it but before he can really speak he's already taking another bite.

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Dusk doesn't have this problem! She signs to Daisy in between bites.

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"I'm glad you like it," she directs at him as much as her.

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He nods vigorously and barely pauses before reaching for one of the chocolate chip pancakes.

"For somebody who doesn't eat food you are a great cook."

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"I've had a lot of practice."

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He nods.

The chocolate chip pancake is delicious! Before he even finishes it he starts on one of the strawberry ones. He almost looks like he expects the whole spread to vanish any moment.

Between bites, he turns to Dusk.

"So, uh...what does a Sith even do out here?"

He pauses.

"...what does a Sith even do in general?"

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Heh. "Whatever we want, more or less. I like my space, is why I'm out here - I get to do whatever I want a little more directly, this way, with so few people to compromise with."

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"Sounds like a party."

Mmm, tiny omelet. He loves the tiny omelet.

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Dusk goes from pancakes to the hashbrowns, carefully leaving well more than half for Kai-Zi. "Yeah. Not for everybody, but it was just what I needed - spent a lot of time meditating, my first few years out here, and even more time on art."

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Oh. Huh. He scoops up some of the hash browns and leaves a bit in the dish.

"Had a bad time before you got here?"

Meditation and art as pastimes suggest either a boring or a tumultuous former life to him, and he's fairly sure her life wasn't boring.

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"Yup. My master - well, usually I just gloss it as 'he tried to kill me', but really it would've been worse than that. Ended up with a raging case of force burnout before I managed to kill him instead, kicked around being the kind of Sith you hear cautionary tales about for a few years, finally got my head together enough to decide I didn't want to do that any more, threw pins at a map of the galaxy until I found someplace out of the way enough, and here I am. Here we are, really, Daisy's been with me from the start, there."

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"...well, shit."

He is so bad at articulating emotions. He wants to go for somewhere between "I'm sorry your master was a dickhead" and "that sounds like it sucked, it's good you're better now" and "you're kind of a badass", but he just ends up with another half a pancake in his mouth looking sympathetic.

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"Yeah."

"Ah - I'm a sense specialist; I have some basic emotion-reading going by default. Not much, just about as much as I'd get from body language, but -"

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"...damn, that actually makes life so much easier."

He is quite palpably relieved.

"I kind of wish everyone had that."

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Heh. "All right. Bugs some people, is all. At this point I feel blind without it, personally." She considers. "You could probably learn it?"

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"...That'd be pretty great to learn, honestly."

He takes another bite of omelet. Mmm.

"I mean, I get why it'd bug people, because people are weird..."

More hash browns! What a feast!

"...but I like that I couldn't hide if I was pissed, or excited, or something, even if I tried."

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Nod. "Not the safest thing, not being able to hide that. But it's great for communication."

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"...yeah, probably wouldn't be the safest with some people."

He finds himself taking another bite of the pancakes even though he knows she'll be able to tell that he's suddenly feeling a little nauseous. Stop being so dramatic.

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"Mmhmm." She scoots the serving plates away, just a bit, and then does... something... and the nausea dissipates. "Not the best breakfast conversation, huh."

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...huh?

His hand goes down to his stomach instinctively.

"...what'd you do?"

He looks a little in awe.

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"Do they teach Jedi that one technique to block pain? Turns out you can do other stuff with it, too."

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"I, uh, maybe accidentally didn't learn that one."

He keeps touching his stomach.

"...wow, they would've killed to have something like this."

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Nod. "It's pretty limited; actually not being sick is a different technique. But handy, yeah. Want to learn that one, too? 'Casting it to someone else is tricky, but just using it on yourself isn't too hard."

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"That'd be a pretty neat trick to have."

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"Yeah. Not today, I'll be heading into town as soon as we're done here, but I figured you'd be a couple months healing up; I don't mind you staying that long."

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A couple months. That sounds pretty good to him.

(A little part of him already misses being here, somehow.)

"Yeah. Yeah, that sounds good to me."

He looks down at the table and remembers the calligraphy. Rather than pushing aside his plate quite yet he scoots down on the bench to see if he can look that way.

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Dusk chuckles and hovers them to eye-height. Both are poems; one is short, with elaborate letters in gold ink on black paper and a simple red-and-gold frame; the other is quite long, composed of small precise letters in black ink on stone grey paper, with a frame decorated with the same sorts of flowers that adorn Daisy.

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He has to physically stop himself from reaching out and touching the paper.

While he struggles with the right words to express good, that's beautiful, I like it he reads the shorter poem.

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Nwûl tash. Dzwol shâsotkun: Peace is a lie, there is only passion.
Shâsotjontû châtsatul nu tyûk: Through passion, I gain strength.
Tyûkjontû châtsatul nu midwan: Through strength, I gain power.
Midwanjontû châtsatul nu asha: Through power, I gain victory.
Ashajontû kotswinot itsu nuyak: Through victory, my chains are broken.
Wonoksh Qyâsik nun; the Force shall free me.

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Wow.

That's a little revelation in itself.

He needs to bring that a little closer.

He doesn't move his arm, he just sort of...reaches out, body unmoving, and takes it, without a closing hand.

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It wobbles just slightly as Dusk's telekinesis fades from it. "I imagine Daisy wouldn't mind making you your own copy."

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After a minute of reading and rereading, soaking it up, he sets it down as carefully as he can. (He's never had quite this much control over the telekinesis before.)

"...I'd love that."

He turns to Daisy.

"I, uh, don't know this stuff very well, but...I love the way it looks."

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"Thank you," she says, shyly but very pleased. "I think I have some gold ink left."

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"I can check in town, if you're getting low."

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"All right. I think we'd need to order it, though."

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"Sure."

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Oh. Yeah, there's something there he forgot to ask about.

"So, uh...the speeder...

Was it supposed to come back here with something other than a robot in it?"

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"Yeah, Daisy was on our monthly supply run, we should have a couple carts' worth of stuff to bring back. Mostly stuff to fix," she gestures at the bins along the side wall, some of which are full or partly so of machine parts and some of which are empty, "but, like, I was expecting some books, and we don't grow all my food here. The personal stuff should fit in your shuttle just fine unless it's already packed full."

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"...Huh. I think I was lugging some of those books around for a while. Metalworking and poetry, right?"

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"The really nice poetry book? Yeah, that'll be for me."

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"It was really nice, yeah. (Also really heavy.)"

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"Heh. Sorry. I tend to assume you're only really going to be handling those twice at most, loading and unloading."

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"Hah, no, it's ok. Honestly I just wanted to be careful with it."

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"Well, thank you. Most of my collection is datacards - wouldn't have nearly enough room for it, otherwise - but there's no substitute for a really nice book."

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"...God, there's even more art in this house than I thought, then."

He seems to be satisfied with that.

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"Oh, yeah, all the really good stuff is in back. This is a workroom, things catch fire in here sometimes."

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"Ooooh."

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"Mmhmm. Not sure we'll have time to get to it today, but you can have a look back there."

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"Wait, get to the fire or the art? Because I wanna see both at least once."

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She laughs. "I do try not to set things on fire in here on purpose. But there's plenty of room outside, I suppose."

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"Aww, no flamethrower-sculptures?"

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"Nah. Lightning's much more fun."

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"Upgrade!"

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"Yeah. That one we can see today, it's better at night anyway."

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"Why is everything about this place amazing?"

He tries to levitate a pancake to prove a point, but...

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...it sort of goes up faster and higher than he expected. And now there's a pancake on the ceiling.

"Oh."

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She chuckles, and the pancake detaches from the ceiling and floats itself over to the bin by the sink, leaving only a small spot of strawberry goo.

"Well, there's no reason not to have it set up just how I like it, generally speaking. That seems to be doing most of the work here."

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"So...it's great because you're great?"

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"I suppose you could put it that way."

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"Sounds right to me," Daisy puts in.

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"Honestly? That makes three of us."

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"Can't argue with that, I suppose."

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He takes one last bite of fruit, and then pushes his plate away slightly, sighing.

"So...best breakfast ever. What now?"

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Heh. "You realize she's going to outdo herself tomorrow, I hope. Next I go out and get your shuttle, hopefully before they take it apart as evidence. Daisy, I assume you want to stay here?"

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"Yeah."

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Nod. "So you can stay here or come with me, up to you."

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"I'll come with, if it's cool. I wanna make sure some stuff is still there before we take off."

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"Sure, that makes sense. Ah, it's probably a better idea not to let them know you're also Force-sensitive; this's already going to be a bit confusing for them and I do like to keep things as simple as possible when it comes to how they should react to a Sith or a Jedi showing up."

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"Got it. It shouldn't be too hard. I mean, I don't exactly look like a Jedi."

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"Mmhmm. Anything else you want to do before we go?"

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"Nah, I think I'm good.

...unless you don't want me to talk your ear off on the speeder. Then I should probably borrow a book or something."

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"Not a bad idea anyway - most of what I have is poetry or short stories, unless you want a technical manual."

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"Short stories are good! Weirder the better."

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"Hmmmm. I think I've got something like that, yeah." She heads for the back room.

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Wow that's a lot of art.

The room is dominated by a huge bed, covered in a charcoal-grey comforter that's embroidered with large, loose swirls of glittering silver. The back half of it, what would on most beds be the head, is covered in a small mountain of pillows in a muted rainbow of colors. There's a large landscape hanging over it, of a canyon in rock much redder than the local sort, and the rest of the wall space is so covered - with framed art, and painted scrolls, and wall sculptures in metal and cloth and a variety of other materials - that it's immediately obvious where the calligraphy samples usually hang. Even the ceiling is partially covered in hanging pieces. Beside the bed are a pair of shelves in dark wood, covered nearly as densely with things as the walls are, though somewhat fewer of them are artwork. Plenty still are, though, or are heavily decorated examples of practical objects; the boxes holding many of the things on the shelves are painted, for example, or covered in cloth, or woven of dyed reeds.

Pradnakt ignores all of it, and crouches at the foot of the bed to pull something out from under it with telekinesis.

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...wow.

Once again, it is so hard not to touch any of this.

"...it's all covered in you."

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"Sure, what else would it be covered in? Here," she looks up and flicks a stuffed rancor made with real, if tiny, claws and nails toward him from the shelf.

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"...oh, sweet."

He holds it up in front of him.

"Haha, look at its horrible tiny mouth!"

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She chuckles, and then moves to the edge of the bed with the datacard box she was looking for. "I got this collection a while back, of stories from all kinds of alien species, one disc per species - most of it was pretty good, but a couple of them were just - gets at why we call aliens alien, you know?"

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He sets the little rancor down carefully on the nearest surface and leans in.

"Sounds like the weird ones would be just as interesting for different reasons."

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"Oh, yeah, definitely; I really wish they could've done a droid one, I learned a lot about what those species are like."

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"It's probably hard to get a hold of droid fiction. I don't think a lot of people believe that droids could even write fiction at all.

But I'd read the hell out of that."

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"Yeah. It's not Daisy's sort of thing, but I bet there are some out there who could. If, y'know, they were allowed to grow up enough to get the idea," she sighs. "Well, maybe someday. Meantime I have these; I might be misremembering some of them but at least one should be what you're looking for." She hands him four datacards and then flops backward on the bed to reach for a reader from the shelf.

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"Yeah..."

God. Poor droids.

He tries to put that out of his mind for the moment and take the datacards, tucking them carefully into his pocket.

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And then he has a reader, too, and Dusk heads back to the front room.

"Anything else I should take care of while I'm out, Love?"

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"I hadn't dropped off the library stuff yet. Other than that, no."

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"All right. Last call, Kai-Zi."

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He thinks for a second.

"...where's your bathroom?"

It had to be asked.

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She points him to it.

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He runs off, runs back and grabs one last chocolate chip pancake off the table.

"OK! I'm good!"

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And off they go. It's a four hour trip.

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He spends most of the time reading alien fiction and occasionally giving an animated opinion on one of the stories.

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She mostly resists the urge to ruffle his hair in response.

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Well, he'd be fine with a little ruffling.

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Good, 'cause she's only mostly resisting the urge.

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"It's cute how excited you get about things."

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"What? No. Things are just exciting."

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"And you're cute about it!"

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"I mean...I guess."

He can't quite hide that he's a little happy about this.

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Hair-ruffle.

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Awww.

He scans the horizon again for the town. He's...not easy to scare, but is definitely a little apprehensive about the whole process of walking through a town where he killed someone the night before.

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The road she's taking will give plenty of warning that the town is coming up, but it's not quite in view yet.

"There's nothing to worry about. I can sense everyone there already; even if they weren't going to be avoiding us like their lives depend on it, I'd know instantly if someone was planning on attacking you. But the hard part is going to be finding someone who'll sit still long enough to take a message, not fending them off."

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"The message 'don't go out looking for this guy's murderer'?"

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"The message 'that's what happens to people who mess with my droid'."

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"...Good message."

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"Mmhmm."

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"...you really love her a lot."

He knew that, before, but it's like he's realizing it for the first time again.

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"Yeah."

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"It's cute, honestly."

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"I do try to keep it under wraps a little more than that. I guess I'm too used to being able to lean on the fact that most people would never even consider the idea. She's such a sweetheart, though."

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"...kind of sucks that you have to hide it."

He looks out at the horizon.

"Is that a Sith thing, or a people-suck thing, or...?"

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"Mostly a Sith thing." He can feel her shrug behind him. "Most of the stories you've heard are true, or at least close to it; leaving a vulnerability visible like that is just asking for trouble."

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"Yeah, that makes sense..."

He frowns.

"And then she'd get hurt, so someone could get to you."

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"Yeah. I'm more careful, when there's any actual sign of danger."

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"...why is every Force-sensitive an asshole?"

Present company excluded, of course.

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Another shrug: "They're idiots? I couldn't tell you, for Jedi, but Sith tend to think everything's zero-sum - the only way to get something is to take it from someone else, whether that's things, or prestige, or power. It's so dumb, but if enough people believe it it ends up working that way anyway."

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"...makes sense.

Honestly I think Jedi do the same thing. Just...different words.

Like, if you have anything for yourself, there's nothing left to give to anyone else."

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"Yeah," she commiserates, then brightens a bit: "but any artist can tell you that's not how it really works. I didn't have to take anything from anyone to make my artwork."

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He nods.

"Art is great. People can give you hell, and you can say 'fuck you' and make something amazing out of it."

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She laughs. "Yeah. You're really going to love the art trail I have in mind for tonight."

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"Got some artistic revenge out there?"

He can't wait.

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"Mmhmm!"

The town's been in view for a few minutes, now, but there's still a ways to go before they get there.

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"Looking forward to it."

He squints at the tiny buildings on the horizon.

"I really hope they haven't messed with the ship."

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"Mmhmm. Fragile stuff, or just hard to replace?"

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"Both, plus some illegal shit and some sex toys. I've got all my bases covered."

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"Sounds like we should be able to get most of that back, at least. It's not like they're going to keep me out of their evidence locker."

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"I hope they didn't confiscate the toys. That'd be even more awkward for them than it is for me.

...thanks, though."

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"No problem."

Nyoom.

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Nyoom!

Reading resumes until the town is within reasonable distance.

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"All right, here we go," she tells him as they get close enough for her to be recognized, and then she slows the speeder and starts up the aura of doom.

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There it is again.

He can't help but be somewhat in awe. It's like breathing in a storm cloud, when she's like this, all heavy dark air and the promise of lightning.

He doesn't think he'll have a problem pretending to be harmless.

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It doesn't take long for someone to spot her, and they take off running immediately, followed quite quickly by everyone around them; soon the street is deserted.

Her first stop is the speeder lot, where Kai-Zi would have left his ship; she leaves the speeder running in the street and hops off to stride into the lot.

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He follows her in at a comfortable distance.

The ship appears to still be there, although there's brightly colored tape plastered over the door. Hopefully that means they haven't started going through it.

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The tape detaches and curls into a loose ball on the ground as she approaches; she stops and waits for him when she gets to the door.

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He catches up fairly quickly.

"...uh, it's kind of a mess in there right now. Sorry."

He fumbles in his pocket for the keys.

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"It's fine." There's nobody in earshot; she can be casual about it.

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He opens the door.

It's one of the (unusual, but still available) class of ships that you're actually meant to live in. The main compartment is essentially a studio apartment, with lots of fold-down furniture and drawers that lock in place.

Right now, it's not in tornado-blew-through levels of disarray – it helps that he sort of has to clean up the area before he takes off from anywhere – but someone was clearly living in it for a few days and not staying in it long enough to clean up.

"...this is pretty much exactly how I left it. So, no snooping, I guess. I can open the speeder bay if you want."

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She seems both unsurprised and nonjudgmental. "Nah, I've got some stuff to pick up, it'll be easier to do that on the speeder. Town hall, next, let 'em know what happened."

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He nods.

"Let's go, then."

He will probably follow her a little more closely this time.

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She picks up the Sith body language again on leaving the shuttle and directs him onto the speeder when they get there.

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He is duly directed.

(This is kind of hot.)

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Oh, the hazards of telepathy.

She leaves the speeder in the street again and heads in.

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(Aw dammit.)

He follows her inside.

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She stalks through the halls, exuding menace, and opens an office door apparently at random. There's a man cowering behind a desk inside.

"Who's in charge of the murder investigation from last night?"

He whimpers.

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He's gonna stay back here and try to look a small but non-zero amount of threatening.

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"Making me ask twice isn't the best idea, you know."

"Ah - ah - ah - room 54, room 54!"

"Good."

She leaves him alone - door open - and sets off for room 54.

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He keeps following her.

(This is still really hot. Also she can still sense his emotions. Fuck.)

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Room 54. The door is locked; she kicks it open. The man inside is attempting to hide behind a potted plant; it isn't working very well.

"You're in charge of the murder investigation from last night? Good." (He begins crying.) "The idiot with the pawn shop messed with my droid. If you want the kid who killed him you're going to have to go through me. Understand?" She pauses; he nods, panicked, and doesn't stop nodding. "Good."

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Holy shit.

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And back toward the entrance. "Satisfied?" she asks quietly after moment.

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"Yes, ma'am."

He is trying to politely restrict his tone of voice to "impressed".

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She chuckles, still keeping her voice down. "Good."

And out, and back to the speeder. "Okay, time for errands."

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"...how do 'errands' work when everyone is too terrified to talk to you?"

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"Daisy'll be back next month, make sure they all get paid." She retrieves a piece of paper from a compartment in the front of the speeder.

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"...good system."

He wonders briefly if she gets lonely. Mostly, this is overpowered by the desire to see her scare some more hapless townspeople. He thinks he may be a bad person.

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She looks the paper over, tucks it into a pocket, and heads for the general store.

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Following!

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It appears to be deserted; she heads for the grocery section. "Go find yourself a change of clothes; change, and bring me the tags."

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...Oh. Right. He's still covered in blood. He kind of forgot about that.

"Yeah, that's a good plan."

He runs off to find it. When he comes back he's wearing something very similar to the dark grey tank and black pants he was in before, but without all the biomatter.

(He also has a thin silvery bangle around one wrist. He liked it and thought it fell mostly into the "clothes" category.)

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She doesn't comment on it, and pockets the tags without looking at them. "How's your ship doing for provisions?" (She has several bags of dry goods sitting in a pile at the edge of the grocery section.)

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"It's still pretty good. I stocked up on the last planet.

...there's a lot more instant noodles on there than there should be, though."

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She nods, then winces as, on the far side of the store, a baby starts crying.

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--!!

He turns that way immediately.

"...did someone not get out?"

Worse question: did they leave their kid?

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"-they're hiding," she says, very quietly, "safer than trying to get away, running draws attention."

And then she straightens up again, redoubles the aura of doom, and heads for the back of the store.

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He winces, shrinks back for a second when the aura gets stronger. His mind is buzzing with a fear that doesn't make sense and his whole body is starting to rebel against the idea of following her forward.

He does it anyway.

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There's a knot of maybe twenty people huddled together in the corner; the baby and her parents are in the middle of the cluster.

"Give her to me," Pradnakt orders, but she doesn't wait for a response before lifting the child into the air - this time, she uses her hand to show that she's using her telekinesis - and drawing her to herself.

She takes a moment to settle the infant in the crook of her arm before striding off toward the baby section without a backward glance. (The baby's mother bursts into tears.)

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--oh, what.

He's frozen in place for a second, and then he runs after her.

"What? What the hell?"

At least he's whispering.

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"She was going to kill her," she whispers, running her free hand through her hair. "So I wouldn't get annoyed enough to kill all of them."

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"...she was going to what?"

He doesn't bother whispering.

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"It would be the right choice, with any other Sith." She finds a pacifier and pops it in the baby's mouth, letting her aura fade back to its original level as the noise stops. "Even me, not that many years ago."

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He doesn't respond yet. He's just staring into the middle distance, clearly struggling with something.

                                                                      --she doesn't deserve--

       --to kill your own child, who would--

                                            --this isn't right, this isn't fair--

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"Kai-" she sighs.

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"...please tell me what to do."

    --take the child--

           --give the woman a chance--

                        --she should just die--

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"I'm planning on giving her back," she whispers. "Once we're done. I'm not going to judge someone for the choices they make in an impossible situation. So just finish our shopping and we can go."

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"...okay."

He lets the energy go. It drifts and dissipates.

He'll follow her for the rest of their time in the store, watching what she takes.

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She checks the office supply section for Daisy's ink; there isn't any gold, but she picks up a jar of metallic red instead. Quick passes through the electronics and book sections don't turn up anything interesting; she pauses to re-settle the baby before adding a jug of fertilizer and some seeds from the gardening department to her pile, and then grabs a crimson sweater in her size that she spotted nearby.

"Is there anything else you'll need in the next month?"

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"...I think I've got everything on my ship."

Wait. Wait.

He's almost out of toothpaste.

He walks off and comes back with some to put down carefully in the pile.

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"All right. Wait here."

She heads off for the baby section again, returning with a bassinet; she settles the infant into it and floats it carefully down to sit in the middle of the floor near the entrance, where it won't be missed. Then she floats their things into the air and out to the speeder.

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...Oh.

Before he walks out after her, he pats the child's head gently.

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Aww.

She drops the things off by the speeder and beckons for Kai-Zi to follow her down the alley next to the store, where there's a bit of privacy.

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He follows her.

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She deflates, once she's more or less out of sight of people observing from nearby buildings, though she leaves the aura up. She sits against the building and pats the ground next to herself.

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He sits down, a little unsteadily.

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She puts an arm around his shoulders, pulling him a little closer.

"That was really sweet of you."

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“...what was?”

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"How you were worried about the baby."

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"Who wouldn't be?"

He rubs his forehead. Headache.

"She couldn't worry about herself."

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"Yeah." She dispels the headache - not entirely, but down to almost nothing. "I have a lot of sympathy for the mom, too, though."

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The lack of headache helps.

"...yeah."

Now that he can think a little more clearly, he can start to see the outlines of what she must have been thinking, how she could have thought that the only way to protect everyone around her was to do that.

There's a question he wishes he didn't need to ask.

"What did you do? When you got here first?"

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"Yeah, that's." Sigh.

 

"I stopped coming, after a while. Unless there was something Daisy couldn't handle, and there aren't many things like that, it's pretty much just the one kind of thing. If we get through this visit without me killing anyone, it'll be the first time that's happened."

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“...oh.”

Logically, he expected something like this, but it’s still...a little difficult, to hear it outright.

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"Yeah. It is mostly that I've stayed away; I don't want them to get the idea that having a Sith in town isn't life and death. But that doesn't really help when I am here."

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“Yeah.”

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He takes a deep breath and tries to pop a few dislocated feelings back into place.

”...I guess...let’s make this the first time, then.”

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"Yeah." She gives him a squeeze. "There isn't much else to do, anyway."

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He nods.

”...Let’s go, then.”

With any luck, nothing will go wrong between now and the time they leave.

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With any luck.

She loads up the speeder, then takes them over to the hardware store to pick up the wagons Daisy discarded last night, which have since been emptied apart from the stack of library materials. They go to the library, next; the main section is apparently empty, but one of the librarians is visible in the back office, through a window, and Dusk nods an acknowledgement to her as she leaves the books and discs on the intake desk and retrieves a new stack from behind it.

"I have one more stop to make, is there anything else you need while we're here?"

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“I think you’ve got enough library to keep me busy for a while.”

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"Mmhmm."

The final stop is the feed-and-seed, where she grabs a bag of goat food and a bag of chicken food, then takes a cage and goes to pick out a trio of chickens.

 

While she's examining the birds, a man comes out from between some shelves, wielding a length of pipe, and tries to sneak up on her, apparently assuming that Kai-Zi won't give warning.

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Oh, dammit.

He doubts that man will actually get close enough to do any damage. If he gets almost that close to her, he will definitely die. If Kai-Zi says something, he will also almost certainly die. Kai-Zi wanted to go home without anybody dying.

That's as far in his calculation as he can get before he has to make a choice.

His hand extends in front of him and, with a twitch of his fingers, he slams the man into the wall behind him.

"Fuck off."

...he really wasn't supposed to do that.

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He really wasn't.

The aura of doom falters for a moment as Dusk freezes.

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...shit. Shit that was a really bad idea.

Is the guy at least unconscious now like he hoped?

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Yup. Not laying at a very healthy-looking angle, either.

"All right, time to go," Dusk says, and then picks the man's limp form up and snaps his neck.

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God. Why.

He averts his eyes.

"...yeah. Time to go."

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Yup. Speeder, shuttle, let's go. She tosses the collected purchases in the shuttle's living area and gets the speeder and carts loaded into the cargo bay.

"Just take off, I'll keep everything from flying around," she directs, sitting abruptly on the floor as soon as she's back in the main area.

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She doesn't have to tell him twice. He steps into the cockpit and a minute later the shuttle begins to lift.

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A few things might shift in the cabinets, but everything visible stays firmly put.

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He calls back from the cockpit.

"Tell me where I'm going!"

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"Follow the road east, I'll be up in a bit."

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As soon as they're clear of the town, she drops the aura, and ten minutes later she comes up to flop into the copilot's chair. "Ugh."

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"...that could have gone better, huh."

He pulls back a little when she comes in, as if the aura is still up.

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"Yeah. Not much, that guy was dead the minute he decided to pick up the pipe, but."

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He nods and watches the road twist in front of them. He's glad this is faster than the speeder.

"Yeah."

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"Hey. You can't blame yourself for someone else's stupidity. They know how this works; I've been very clear about it. Sometimes they decide to do stupid things anyway, that's on them."

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"...how does this work?"

He turns a little in his chair.

"I mean...stay out of your way when you come to town, sure. But not everyone can get out of the way."

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"I've never killed anyone just for being in the way - not here, anyway. Scared 'em, sure, I don't want them getting into habits that'll get them killed if some other Sith comes through, but there's only four things that'll get them killed - not following directions, coming into my territory, mistreating Daisy, and attacking me. It hasn't always been that simple - I know what it's like to have an impulse problem - but those four have never not been trouble."

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He nods.

"...makes sense."

He looks back out at the road.

(This is fucked up. This is fucked up for everyone. This isn't okay, but he can't think of a better way for things to be and he doesn't know how to fix it. He probably can't fix it.

It's a lot easier to ignore this shit when you think you have no power at all.)

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"Yeah."

 

"I don't - I'm hesitant to just let you go off on your own, it seems like you're kind of courting some Force problems yourself, there. But if you want to, I'm not going to stop you."

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He thinks about that, for a minute.

"...I don't think that'd help anything. I think...maybe if I stay, something could get better for somebody."

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"Mm."

 

"Maybe."

 

"We're going to have to figure out what to tell them about you; I don't want them suspecting random people of being Sith. I think we can get away with - you're my apprentice now, you didn't know you were Force sensitive until I told you, and telekinesis is just that easy to learn. If you're okay with them thinking that."

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"...wait, wasn't it just us and him there?"

Fuck. He thinks back, tries to remember if he saw or felt or heard anything.

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"Yeah, there was somebody else hiding with him. I'm not sure what she saw; Daisy can probably figure it out and just not say anything if she assumed it was me."

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"...okay, so, uh. Today I learned I'm really bad at stealth."

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"Yeah, the impulse control problem will do that. You probably wouldn't be bad, otherwise, just not as good as a sensory specialist."

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"I'd say I'd work on my impulse control, but...last time somebody tried to fix that I ran as fast as I could in the other direction."

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"Yeah. And they're some pretty good impulses, for the most part. Implementation's a little iffy but that's not so hard to fix."

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"Ha. Yeah, that's one way to say it."

He seems slightly reassured, though.

"Maybe you can teach me that and how to fix headaches."

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"Make a start on it at least, sure."

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He nods.

"Not something you fix quickly, yeah."

He watches out the window for a moment.

"...you could probably kill me whenever you wanted, huh?"

If there's any negative sentiment there it's balanced exactly by the positive. It's just...an observation.

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"Yup." She's also pretty casual about it. "If I wanted to, which I don't."

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"Well, I'm glad I'm not gonna die."

More or less.

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"Daisy would be so upset at me."

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"Huh? For what?"

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"She likes you? She is subtle about it sometimes but I thought that breakfast was pretty clear."

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"Oh. Right. If you theoretically murdered me. I thought you meant 'for talking about theoretically murdering me', which was weird."

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"Ah. No, if I upset you talking about it she'd be a little annoyed, probably, but I was pretty sure you wouldn't be."

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"Honestly, yeah. Even if I was I'd bottle all that shit up for later."

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"Mmhmm."

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He corrects the course of the ship slightly. "Way faster than a speeder" is great for over-land travel until you get a few degrees off and end up miles from your intended destination.

Time for an awkward silence of indeterminate length.

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"Is there anything else you'd like to do while you're here?"

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"I don't know."

He thinks about the calligraphy. He remembers the decoration of the house.

"...maybe make some art that isn't on my skin forever?"

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"Sure. Like what?"

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"Maybe sculpture. I've never really done the 3D thing before."

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"Cool. Something little you can bring with you, or are you thinking you'll leave an installation someplace?"

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"...okay, I was thinking little, but I changed my mind."

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"You could do both, too."

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He nods.

"...there's something else I want to do too, I think. I'll show you when we get back."

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"Okay. There's the turnoff coming up," she points.

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He takes the turnoff, and as soon as the house is in sight he starts to land the ship.

"Hold the stuff in the back?"

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"Mmhmm." She goes back to do that.

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When they've landed (fairly close to the house, but not dangerously so -- he's proud of himself), he leaves the cockpit and immediately jumps up on his desk.

"You can't tell anyone I have this..."

He reaches up for a panel on the ceiling, and with a little wiggling, has it open.

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She watches, amused.

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He comes back down with a small canvas pouch, and reaches in to extract a crystal.

It's a bright electric blue, with an obvious spiraling inclusion -- a crack, really -- on the inside.

"It...wasn't perfect, but it. It was mine, you know? I mean, not really, I kind of stole it, but..."

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"But it suits you. And - attuned, at least partly? Wouldn't've been much good to anyone else, then."

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"Yeah, we're both weirdos."

He looks affectionately at the crystal.

"Attuned, but...Jedi don't like anybody else having kybers at all. These things are everywhere as decoration just because they don't want 'em anywhere else.

So, theft."

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"Well, you won't get any complaints from me."

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"Yeah, I figured I wouldn't."

He slips the crystal back in its bag and tucks it into his pocket.

"It deserves a place to shine. Thought you could maybe help a little."

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"Sure. D'you want to put it in a 'saber, or show it off?"

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"...it's probably a bad idea for me to have that kind of weapon, huh?"

He touches the crystal in his pocket.

"But I want it anyway."

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Nod. "Then that's what you'll do."

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"I'll respect its power. But also use it to make toast."

He opens the door of the ship, grabs a bag and steps out into the sunlight.

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She follows, levitating the rest of their acquisitions behind.

Daisy and Nine have cleared out from the front room; she piles the things on the table and begins floating the food into its designated places.

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"I'd help with the floating but I'd probably break something."

He contents himself with watching the little food parade.

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"Yeah, no worries." It's quickly done, anyway.

"Wanna come meet the goat?" she asks, hefting the bags of animal feed.

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"Um, yes?"

He is definitely on board with meeting a small angry farm animal. Lead the way, Dusk.

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Hee.

The barn is around back, past the garden full of beans and lentils and cherry tomatoes and spinach and herbs and strawberries and a few less-identifiable things.

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He looks around the garden, noting all the vegetables.

"Huh. I guess it does make more sense to grow your own stuff out here."

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"Yeah, definitely. It wouldn't work so well to send Daisy on an eight-hour trip every time I wanted something fresh."

She grabs a strawberry and heads into the barn; stows the bags on a shelf  before leading Kai-Zi out the back door, where there's a fenced-in vestibule before the goat pen proper.

The goat notices them and heads over.

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He follows suit and pops the strawberry in his mouth. (It's delicious.)

When the goat approaches he leans over the fence a little.

"Hi."

He can talk to goats if he wants.

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He can! The goat whuffles at his hands for a moment before switching her attention to Dusk, who gives her the strawberry.

"Her name's Jasmine; I call her Jazz. The chickens are all named after flowers, too, Daisy named them."

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Awwww.

"That's cute as hell. What're their names?"

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"There's a couple I can never remember, but that one's Queenie - queen Anne's lace - and that's Clover, and Lilly, and Petunia."

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"I love them already."

He thinks for a moment.

"So I should probably help with some of this stuff if I'm gonna be in your house eating your food, right?"

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"Not really. Daisy takes care of it, and droids don't do so well if they don't have enough work to do; it's not that much harder harvesting for two than for one."

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He nods.

"...I get why they're built that way, but it seems wrong, sometimes.

I guess they wouldn't get built at all otherwise, though."

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"Yeah. And, like - I don't like a lot of things about how Daisy was made, but that's one of the ones where, if I changed it, she wouldn't really be her any more. And I do like her even if I don't like that."

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"I think I get what you mean."

He's made a little wrong too.

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She nods, then shoos the goat away a bit and opens the gate to go in.

The goat trots in a circle and then lowers her head and paws at the ground; Dusk grins and takes a stable stance, her hands at her hips ready to grab the creature's horns.

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He is pretty sure he's about to watch a Sith Lord gently fight a goat.

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Yeah, pretty much. The goat runs at her; they wrestle for a few seconds before separating; the goat peels off to get a bit of distance and run at her again. They repeat this three or four times, playfully.

"Want a go? She's plenty friendly."

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"...yeah, I've gotta do this at least once in my life."

He edges in through the gate.

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She's pretty focused on the Sith, but a bit of a nudge gets her to go for Kai-Zi instead. Whump.

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Whump!

He wrestles with her, laughing -- he tries a little too hard to be gentle at first, so she gets to bully him a bit before he gets the hang of it.

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She does her very best to knock him over!

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Not gonna happen! (He does wobble a little bit, though.)

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She tries for a little bit, then gives up with a whuffling sound and trots off, tail wagging, to try again. Gallopa gallopa gallopa whump!

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He puts a little more effort into it this time.

"She's serious about this!"

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"Mmhmm! She wants to be the boss!"

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"Nope! I'm the boss!"

He will fight this goat and win!

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She's a pretty persistent critter!

After a few more rounds she breaks off to go sit in the shade, panting.

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"Good game, goat."

He nods in approval.

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"Maaaaa!"

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(Dusk is leaning against the barn, watching with amusement.)

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He hops back over the fence.

"I like her. We're friends now."

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Hee. "Mmhmm."

"So that's about it for chores - I think I'm on the hook for lunch, though. Hungry?"

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"Oh, definitely. Especially after goat-fighting."

He heads vaguely in the direction of the house.

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She goes to the garden, instead, to pick up some potatoes - little fingerling ones - and beans and herbs.

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He's waiting in front of the house when she's done.

"What do you do winter? I guess you must can some stuff, but..."

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"We don't get that much of a winter, here, just a rainy season and a hot season."

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"Pretty good place to garden, huh? Plus it's got soil that works for human-origin plants...or did you have to fix it up a little?"

He sure thinks a lot about growing food for someone who lives on a ship eating ramen.

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"Fixed it up a little. It's not that hard if you know what you're doing."

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He nods.

"I used to read about that kinda stuff a lot. I had weird fantasies about stowing away on some cargo ship to a new planet."

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"I can imagine. I don't know how the Jedi manage to keep anyone at all."

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"Well...it wasn't the Jedi back then. I was born in the middle of nowhere and they didn't have anybody testing. They picked me up later."

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She thinks about it, and then nods. "Makes sense. Sounds like you had one round of bad luck after another, then."

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He laughs.

"Yeah, you could say that. I thought I was so lucky when the Jedi picked me up..."

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Snort.

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"Yep. Turns out they all suck. Surprise!"

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"Yeah. And plenty of Sith are that bad, too. I'm glad you got your ship, however you managed it."

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"I mean, I didn't get off that planet in this one. I had to convince a guy to get me somewhere I could actually save without somebody catching me and bringing me back. But...yeah, I'm glad too."

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"Yeah, I meant - you have your freedom. That's important."

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"Yeah. It really is."

He's not sure whether it's the most important thing, but...it's way up there.

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"Mmhmm." The potatoes are scrubbed; she puts them in the pot to boil and joins him at the table to shell the beans.

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He grabs a handful of beans to help.

"...so, how do you build a saber, anyway?"

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It turns out that that's a specialty of hers; she can go on about it for a while.

His will need a custom design, she points out relatively quickly - something to compensate for the inclusion, to keep it from exploding under the wrong kind of strain.

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Oh, that's interesting.

"Like, what, a vent? Sounds kind of explodey itself."

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"Not if you do it right. I think I can come up with something a little nicer for you, anyway, though, unless you want it for the aesthetic."

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"I wanna see what you can come up with. You've got good judgement, aesthetic-wise."

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"All right. I might be more than a couple months at that, there's a couple tools I'll need to build."

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He nods.

"Plans first, though, right? Or do we need to...test the crystal first, somehow?"

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"Yeah, I need to see how it reacts to channeling energy before I know what's safe to do with it. I could make up some plans first, but then you might get your heart set on something you can't actually do."

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"Yeah, better not. I'd probably try to do it anyway and explode myself."

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"And I like you better unexploded." She puts her arm around his shoulders in an impromptu hug.

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--oh. What? What's happening here?

He definitely likes it, but...he's confused.

He hugs her back.

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This is not conducive to getting lunch made. She goes back to shelling beans after a minute.

But: "You're pretty cool, Kai-Zi. I get the feeling you haven't heard that much."

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"Yeah. Not a ton."

He's smiling as he shells beans.

"Thanks."

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"Seems like the kind of thing you should know."

That's it for beans; she gets a knife and a cutting board and starts on the herbs.

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"It's pretty important info if it's true."

Oh, that smells good even from over here. Sniff.

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"I think I know what I'm talking about." She scoops a bit of chopped herbs up on the flat of the knife and deposits them in front of him.

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"Well, you are kind of an authority on "cool", from what I've seen of you."

Ooh, herbs...he picks up a little pinch and inhales the scent, eyes closing briefly.

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Heh. "I suppose."

Herbs're done. She gives him another quick hug before moving back to the kitchen.

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Hugs are still great the second time. Who knew?

"...I wonder how new guy's holding up?"

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"Yeah, me too." Chop chop mash mash mash. "I'm sure Daisy knows what she's doing."

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"Yeah. Having his friend there has got to help, anyway."

He looks down at the little pile of bean shells he's left on the table, and carefully starts to lift one up telekinetically. The rest scatter a bit in random directions.

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"Mmhmm. I'll check on them after we eat."

Speaking of which: soup. Creamy potato, with the beans mashed in for protein and a sprinkle of cheese and pepper on top.

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Ooh! The bean shell, which he was carefully floating back and forth, flies off in a random direction and hits the wall with a small pap.

"Soup! I'm a fan!"

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"Good! It's not Daisy's cooking, but I'm not too bad."

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It seems like the thing to do is take a bite of soup.

...it is, in fact, delicious.

"I call bullshit! You're good at this."

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"Soup, sure. Soup's not hard."

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"I dunno, I've had some pretty bad soup."

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"Ship food, maybe. I can't take much credit for the ingredients."

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"Well, yeah, ship food can get pretty bad. Some of the stuff I ate while I was in training was almost worse."

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"Well. None of that nonsense here, at least. I'm not a great cook but it's not that hard to just not screw it up."

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He nods.

"Well...pepper still feels like a miracle sometimes, so maybe I'm not the best possible judge."

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"Yeah."

 

"How long have you been out?"

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"Few years now. They had me, uh, 14 to 18, I was riding with Tycho and his crew about a year...and then I got my ship."

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Nod. "Not too bad. My master found me a little younger than that, but he didn't turn out to be a dick until I was about your age."

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"...yeah, guess I was lucky."

Nom. Soup.

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"I mean, it's not really a comparison. I had it better than you until I didn't. I learned a lot of stuff from him."

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He nods.

”...sometimes I wonder what it would’ve been like to have a master.”

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(Yeah she will just ignore, uh, that.)

"Depends a lot on the master. I got really lucky with mine, he didn't care much about what I was doing so long as I was productive and not bothering the other apprentices too much. A lot of them have projects they expect you to help with, or specific ideas about what they want their apprentices to be, or things like that."

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“Well, I probably would’ve been bad at that part.”

He’s never been great at being what other people want him to be.

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"Mmhmm. I think it's pretty dumb in general; nobody's going to be as good at pretending to be something they aren't as they are at really being something they are."

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He nods. It's gratifying, to have someone else say it out loud.

"Yeah. I think most people think subpar normal is better than great but weird, though."

He tries to play that off like it doesn't make him angry, and the anger is buried a long way down, but it's there.

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"Mmhmm."

 

"You want to do something about that," she observes.

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He shrugs and laughs, without any kind of amusement present.

"What could I do? People are just like that."

He does want to do something about it. He wants to be seen.

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She's not reading his mind but he's very legible, emotionally.

"I bet you can come up with something. Maybe make some art about it, see what happens."

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"...well, I guess this is the place to do it."

He can't help but be a little hopeful.

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"Mmhmm."

"I don't think I want you staying forever, but if you're working on a project like that I'm probably not going to kick you out."

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Oh. There it is.

The sudden feeling of betrayal is almost painful in its intensity, but his face doesn't change.

"Yeah, I'm not gonna try to sleep on your couch forever."

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She pauses, and then peers at him.

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...oh.

She can feel it when that happens. He had almost forgotten.

He looks suddenly ashamed.

"...yeah, I can usually, uh, ignore that. Until it goes away."

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"And something gave you the impression I'd be okay with that?"

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He's actually sort of confused by this.

"I mean...I don't have to act on it. It's just a really stupid feeling."

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"Jedi nonsense. From passion comes strength."

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...well, yeah, he can sort of see where she'd get that.

"It's not...I mean, I'd hurt the wrong people. You already said I was staying for two months. That was just...a different way to say it."

It's amazing how he contorts himself into this. It feels wrong but he bears it because what use is he if he can't even let this kind of feeling go?

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"I'm not saying you should just do the first thing that comes to mind, that causes trouble too. But if you want to be here - especially if you want to be here that much - figure out why, and make sure you get that."

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"It's not...just about that."

He's trying to choose his words very carefully, and trying to tamp down the frustration of explaining something he's used to just bottling up and repressing (at least with people he actually speaks to).

"It's about...I can't even say it. It's stupid shit. It's not real."

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She gives him a look, and then scoots over to put her arm around his shoulder again. "But it is real. Even if it's just a thing you think, or a thing you feel, those exist too, and they matter."

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They matter.

The contact was so welcome, before, but now he almost flinches away from it. Almost, but not quite. He keeps still.

"They don't get to anybody else if I don't let them. How do they matter?"

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She leaves her arm there, lightly; if he tries to shrug it off he'll have no problem. "They still affect you, and you matter. And how else would you know what was right for you?"

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He droops a little over the table. The feeling of discomfort from her arm over his shoulders is gone.

"...it's kind of hard to believe I do. Matter, I mean. I'm just..."

a disappointment

a broken tool

meat

"...some stupid lost kid, you know?"

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"Everybody matters, Kai-Zi. I kinda want to have words with whoever convinced you otherwise."

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"You'd have to have a lot of words. It's a lot of people."

He's significantly more relaxed than before.

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"And not the best use of my time, if it doesn't help you any."

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"Yeah. Although it'd be really fun to watch, for a couple of 'em."

'Vengeful satisfaction' is an emotion, right?

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Yup. "Well, maybe someday. In the meantime - I dunno, I'm still not thinking forever, but a couple months isn't very long at all."

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"Yeah, forever's not a good time to stay anywhere."

He leans back on the bench.

"I guess we've just gotta play it by ear. It'll probably help that I can sleep back on the ship."

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"Yeah, I expect that'll be more comfortable all around. Should I leave the cot out anyway?"

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"...yeah, that'd be good, if it doesn't crowd this place too much. Just in case."

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"Yeah, this is pretty livable. I can always put it away for a few hours if I need to."

Hug?

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Hug!

"...what happens now? Other than 'not soup anymore'."

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"I should check on Daisy and Nine, and you're free for the afternoon? Please don't set anything on fire close to the house and if you're going to walk around in the heat make sure you have water with you."

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"Sounds good to me. I promise I won't traumatize Jazz or anything while I'm gone. And I'll bring water."

Time to head off into the great unknown, and hopefully not get lost.

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And she goes back to check on the droids. They're crowded into Daisy's room, and she can hear them talking quietly, about ownership and what Nine wants to do next, and she doesn't interrupt them. Instead she gets out the poetry and the spare reader, and digs the painting supplies out of storage.

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Meanwhile, the desert is hot and scrubby and punctuated with frequent spires and mesas and the occasional arroyo or walking path.

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He fills a backpack on his ship and walks out into the desert, just far enough that if he wasn't looking hard he wouldn't know which way to walk back.

Then he spends an hour or two lighting scrub on fire with his mind.

At first, he does it from a distance. Then he rips up a few dead plants and starts to practice lighting fires under his fingertips.

By the time he comes back, his hands are covered in burns of varying severity, and he has lost and replaced most of the water in his body via sweat and water bottles respectively.

He sits down in front of his ship and goes to work on his hands. Better to not take a shower with open blisters.

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Dusk comes out while he's distracted, very quietly, and sits under the tree with a glass of water with berries floating in it.

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He's too deep in concentration to even notice she's there.

The Jedi tried to teach him that the way to heal is to block out the pain and concentrate on the healing, but that doesn't make the slightest sense to him. How could you possibly separate them? How can you heal if you don't follow the pain, understand it and become it enough to unmake it?

Maybe that's why he's never been able to extend it past himself.

Blisters cover over and shining, red burns sink back into the skin at a remarkable pace.

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She doesn't interrupt him, but watches closely.

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It doesn't take very long at all for it to be finished. It's certainly faster than it's supposed to be.

When he looks up, flexing his fingers to make sure it's all done, there she is.

"...oh. Hey."

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"Hey. Neat stuff."

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"You think?"

He is so pleased every time she compliments him, it's ridiculous.

"It's pretty useful. Also, I learned today that making things be on fire is way easier than making the things next to them not be on fire."

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"Yeah. Sith can't do healing, y'know."

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Oh. That must be scary as hell.

"...it really sucks that I can't do it for anyone else, then."

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"I mean, there's not much inside a few lightyears that's actually dangerous to me. But it's interesting."

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He actually feels the urge to protest, for a moment.

He could be dangerous. Not now, but someday.

There's absolutely no reason to say that aloud, though, no matter how true it is.

"Sometimes I wonder what else I could do with it."

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Amusement intensifies. "Not much, not nothing, though you'll find I'm a pretty tough nut to crack. Anyway, I do power design, I could show you how it's done."

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"...Power design?"

Oh, if that's what he thinks it is, that is a whole universe of possibilities.

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"How to make the Force do stuff, yup. Like this - " she holds up her hand, and it's gloved in lightning, arcing and sparking but never getting more than half an inch from the skin. While he watches, it darkens to a deep navy blue, then shifts to purple, then orange, then red, and back to the starting yellow-white.

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Whaaaaaaat.

He is completely enthralled.

"That is cool as fuck."

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"Yup."

"Jedi aren't supposed to be able to do lightning, but I don't think it'd be impossible to hold onto one while you learned the other."

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He shrugs.

"Honestly...I don't think it's as hard a line as people say it is."

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"Wouldn't surprise me. Just hard to find an opportunity to learn one side when you've already learned some of the other."

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"Yeah, makes sense. I'm just a little fucking miracle of probability."

He says it as a joke, but he actually does feel a little special.

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"Mmhmm."

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“...I should probably shower before I do...literally anything else.”

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"Sounds like a plan. I dunno how your ship's kitted out but mine's pretty nice if you want to use it."

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“...okay, mine’s pretty good, but now I wanna try yours just in case.”

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"All right."

It's behind one of the doors in her room; the entire space is tiled in glittery blue and green and brown, and a short counter by the door holds a sink and a collection of soaps and shampoos - large bottles of unscented and heavy-duty cleaners, and a collection of small bottles in a variety of floral and fruity scents. The showerhead is past that, a large one with a lever to adjust the pressure and a separate, smaller handheld one - and when he turns the water on, he doesn't have to wait for it to warm up, it's just immediately hot.

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...this is an incredibly nice shower.

He soaks for a while, scrubs himself down with the unscented soaps, and then tries one of the little bottles. He has never smelled like jasmine until now. It’s sort of nice.

Fluffy towels afterwards, yay or nay?

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There's one on the back of the door but it's probably Dusk's.

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...Hmm.

Well, time to walk out of the bathroom dripping wet and naked to look for a towel. Nothing wrong with this.

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The bedroom is empty (well, 'empty', it's still so full of art) and one of the two doors he hasn't been through yet is open. The room on the other side of it is dimly lit, but he can see Dusk moving around near the far wall.

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Well, asking is worth a shot.

”Any towels in here?”

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"Yup, getting one." And there it is; she throws it at him. (It's just as fluffy as the other one, maybe even a little more.)

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He loves this towel. He loves it so much.

He dries himself off, and...

Wow. This room is gorgeous.

He can’t help but look around a little before he picks up his clean clothes.

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She gives him a few seconds and then beans him with a washcloth. "Pants!"

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Okay, he can’t help but laugh.

”Okay, okay! Not my fault it’s pretty in here!”

He puts on pants. And neglects the shirt.

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She's chuckling too as she comes out of the back room. "You're getting enough ideas without me letting you hang around pantsless."

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"Pants are overrated."

He sits down on the end of the bed, just because he can.

"And I'm not getting ideas! Just because I'm psyched up about you electrocuting me..."

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There's a thump from the remaining unopened door, and Dusk snorts. "Change topic."

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Deeply dissatisfied internal grumbling.

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He grabs and applies his shirt.

"Uh..."

Dammit. He can't think about a new topic, he's all stuck on having someone hit him with lightning until he passes out and then waking him up to do it again.

(Not now, boner.)

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Snicker.

"Or we can take it outside. Daisy just doesn't want to have to listen."

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"Aww. Sorry, Daisy!"

Now he feels too bad for the robot to talk vaguely dirty about violence.

"She doesn't like, uh, hearing about that, huh."

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"Apparently not. Anyway, we've got a couple hours before dinner, whatever you want to do with it."

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Hmm...

"Well, probably shouldn't go outside. I just fixed the whole dust and sweat situation."

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"We could read some poetry."

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He laughs. It's weird to him that that immediately sounds like a good idea.

"Why not?"

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"All right." She sits on the bed next to him. "Do you want to look through my library, or should I recite some for you?"

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Not to be outdone in comfiness, he flops backwards onto the covers.

"You pick one first."

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"All right. Hey Daisy," she raises her voice a bit, "I'm going to do your favorite."

The mystery door opens; the room beyond is very small, made smaller-feeling by its dark blue walls with their silver wheat patterns and the wooden desk that takes up the entire back wall. There's barely room for both droids to stand inside, but they don't seem uncomfortable. "With the-"

"Yup," Dusk cuts her off with a grin. "Don't spoil it for him."

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--Oh. Tiny room. Maybe droids don't get claustrophobic...?

It's a bit jarring when he realizes they're being observed, but he tries to relax himself enough to listen to whatever is so good she doesn't want it spoiled.

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She stands again, off to one side by the door to the workroom so that both Daisy and Kai-Zi can see her. (Daisy scoots out of the room a bit to make room for Nine in the doorway.) A wave of sparks makes its way up her arms to crackle briefly around her collarbone, and then -

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- her body language changes, Sithy and powerful, with an aura of presence that has nothing to do with being threatening, and she recites:

"Out of the night that covers me,
      Black as the pit from pole to pole,
I thank whatever gods may be
      For my unconquerable soul.

In the fell clutch of circumstance
      I have not winced nor cried aloud.
Under the bludgeonings of chance
      My head is bloody, but unbowed.

Beyond this place of wrath and tears
      Looms but the Horror of the shade,
And yet the menace of the years
      Finds and shall find me unafraid.

It matters not how strait the gate,
      How charged with punishments the scroll,
I am the master of my fate,
      I am the captain of my soul."

As she speaks, the lightning returns, intermittent red sparks emphasizing the words, intensifying and building with each line, each stanza, until she's entirely covered in a cloak of red and blue.

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...He thinks that deserves a slow clap. So he delivers.

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The more he opens it up in his mind the more he likes it.

"...bloody, but unbowed."

He can tell this is hers. Not that she wrote it, it's just...hers.

"Where do you find this stuff?"

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"I have a couple subscriptions. And I've been collecting since I was younger than you."

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"...how old are you, actually? I can't tell."

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"Thirty-six, thirty-seven?" She shoots a look at Daisy.

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"Thirty-six. For another few months."

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"...Huh. Guess that makes sense."

He wasn't really thinking of her as more than ten years older than him. Weird.

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"Yeah. It's not quite the same as somebody Forceblind, but. Been around a bit, yup."

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Oops, that's kind of attractive again. He's just gonna...let that feeling be.

"Do all of us live longer, or just the really impressive ones? They were always pretty vague about that."

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"I think it varies by how powerful you are? It's kind of hard to tell, old age isn't that common." (She sits back down on the bed.)

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Chuckle.

"Yeah, lightsaber fights don't tend to make your lifespan any longer, huh?"

He thinks for a moment.

"...and someone picks up almost all of us, in the end, so we don't get to avoid it."

He's a little mad about that.

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"Yeah." Arm: over shoulders. "It's not the worst atrocity out there, but-"

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"--but...not great."

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"...I mean, it probably didn't do much to shorten my lifespan, but still."

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"It might, still. You look like a Jedi, or at least not like a Sith; most of us would break out the lightsaber first and ask questions never."

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"Oh, yeah. I just mean that I might have died young doing something stupid anyway."

He's at peace with this fact about himself.

"Maybe I should learn to look like a Sith. For emergencies."

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"You probably could. Trickier than teekay, but I won't be surprised if it comes a little easier anyway."

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Oh. That's pretty intriguing, actually.

"Can you teach me?"

It's probably more exciting than it should be, too.

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"Sure." She gives him a squeeze and then flops backward onto the bed. "How are you for sensing the Force, if I do this can you see it?" she asks, sending it swirling through the space above her.

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He reaches his hand out, up towards the swirls.

"More like...feel it. But in an, uh, outside-of-my-body way? Like I have nerve endings out above your head or something."

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"Mmhmm. So what you're doing right now is like this," demonstration, "and Sith generally have something bolder and more freeform going on, like this," she demonstrates again.

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"...I didn't even realize I was doing that."

Wow. The more you know.

He tries to just...reach out a little and change it, sculpt it. His hands move a little involuntarily.

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"Yeah, that's the idea."

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At first he's cautious with it, trying to pull his own aura into just the right shape.

Then he wrenches the right (piece? stream? thread?) out of place and he swears he can feel a crack, wet like dislocating bone.

"...Oh, that's cool."

He doesn't really look like a Jedi or a Sith anymore. Or even a person, aura-wise.

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Her first instinct is to yank it back into place, and she gets as far as giving it a noticeable tug before she realizes that he's fine and backs off.

"Might mess you up, leaving it like that," she observes, after a second of concerned scrutiny.

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He doesn't seem nearly as concerned as her about his own well-being. He's just "looking" at his own aura, completely fascinated.

"Mess me up, how?"

It twitches when he pokes at it, like it's halfway between one thing and another, shuddering between them.

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"Depends what you did, I'd have to watch it for a while to figure it out. Mess up your senses or your natural healing or something, I dunno."

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"...so...I probably shouldn't leave it on, then?"

He looks so reluctant.

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"I wouldn't. Maybe you got lucky and it doesn't do anything, or doesn't do anything you'll mind, but I wouldn't bet that way."

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"Aww. No fun."

He does shove it back into place, though, with an equally bizarre pop feeling. He's not sure if he's the only one getting this.

"I can always wreck it again if I'm feeling lucky."

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She relaxes when it pops back into place. "Mmhmm. And it'd definitely work for making a Sith think you weren't a Jedi."

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He nods, and then laughs.

"I didn't know you could pop an aura out of the socket before. The more you know, I guess."

He is very pleased with his discovery.

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"Yeah."

"So your thing's going to be big effects without much finesse, looks like. I can work with that."

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"Hey, I can totally do fine details, just...not with my brain. That's why I keep setting my fingers on fire."

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"Mm?"

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"I'm trying to make the set-things-on-fire-with-your-mind thing go through my fingertips. So I can actually focus it. It's really hard."

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"Ah."

"Any reason you're doing fire?"

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"Sculpture."

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"Neat." She rolls over onto her side, to better see him.

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"I mean, I bet I could use it for other stuff, but I haven't thought that far ahead."

He wiggles his fingers a little and looks aside at her.

"...Hi."

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"Hi."

(Is she blushing? She is maybe blushing, just a little.)

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...that is just way too damn cute.

He reaches out and taps her cheek.

"You're pink."

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"Well, you're cute."

Thump, goes the door, and Dusk scoffs and sits up to scoop him into her arms.

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--whoa.

Technically, he knows that Force-sensitives tend to be stronger, but...still.

(Kind of attractive.)

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She chuckles, and then carries him out to the cot in the workroom.

Lying side by side is much less of an option, here, they'll just have to make do.

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...ok, he definitely doesn't dislike where this is going.

"Kind of a small space, huh?"

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"Yup." She arranges herself on it and then scoops him up again with hands and telekinesis to lie on top of her. "Comfy, though, hm?"

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"I mean, comfy is a word for it."

He squirms a little. She's warm, and he thinks he can feel her pulse, a little, and he can't stop noticing any of it.

"...ok, this time is definitely flirting, right?"

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"Mmhmm." She crosses her wrists behind his back - a subtle restraint, but definitely one - and reaches up to kiss his nose.

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He's very, very attentive to whether he's being restrained during this sort of moment, because he likes it so damn much.

He receives the nose kiss and laughs, then goes for her lips. Nothing serious, just a brief kiss, if he makes it.

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Mmhmm.

She sets the back of one of her hands to crackling with tiny bolts of lightning - too contained to zap him, yet - and pets him with it, on his back, careful of his spine.

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He can feel the static shivering on his skin, feel the hairs on the back of his neck prickle and stand up. He leans into the touch.

"That's gonna...hit you, too, if you're touching me..."

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"Doesn't have to. You'll see." Petting continues.

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Well, he might as well wait and see, then.

He closes his eyes and sighs as she pets him, trying to let go of the inevitable tension of waiting to be hit by lightning.

(It's way more fun when you don't quite expect it.)

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After a while, she rucks up the back of his shirt, and after another while she rests her hand on the exposed skin.

A little while after that, the sparks start creeping across it, nibbling gently at him, with the occasional sharper bite.

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He twitches and gasps at the bite of the sparks, burying his face in her shoulder.

(It's not enough to be really bad, but it's...a tease, a promise.)

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She pets his shoulders and the back of his neck with her free hand, and takes advantage of the twitching to slide his shirt up further; the sparks get more intense as there are more of them.

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His shoulders tense as the sparks start to build, and he bites his lip to keep from making a noise that would definitely not be appreciated in the other room.

He's never been hurt this tenderly before, and he really, really likes it.

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Her hand on his shoulders goes from petting to massaging; digging at the coiled muscles to evoke another kind of pain. At the same time, the sparking on his back changes texture, from a staticky bite to the sting and percussive force of hailstones hitting him.

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The massage and the hundreds of little impacts are sort of...soothing, actually.

He melts under her hands, breathing slowly into her shoulder, drifting and settling into the sensations.

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The intensity maunders upward, never enough to startle him or knock him out of his trance, occasionally backing off, or with the sting of electricity or the burn of flame mixed in, but mostly just her fingers and the percussive force - more like a rain of blows than hail, after a while - growing inconstantly more painful.

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His mind is slow, foggy, with just enough presence to moan quietly and squirm every time a blow lands particularly hard or there's a new kind of pain.

He's clearly, uh, enjoying himself, in a way that would be evident even if she couldn't sense his emotions.

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She backs off on the intensity - just a little, enough to be one of the lower-intensity phases, but also enough to give him some space to think - as the hand providing the electricity slides into the back of his pants.

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He actually laughs a little -- it's ridiculous, when you think about it, that he met a Sith Lord yesterday and today she's groping his ass with her electric hand -- and then another jolt hits and he makes a different sound instead.

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What good sounds.

The electricity begins spreading again, much more slowly and carefully this time, noticeably stronger at the edges of its range.

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He grabs at her sides without really thinking about it, pressing his face into her shoulder again.

It's like being hit, but not so easy to follow, not so simple an impact, deeper and more thorough. It gets under the skin.

He takes shuddering, uneven breaths, and clings onto her.

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It speeds up a little; apparently she's not going for that particular kind of torture today.

As it reaches his most sensitive parts, three distinct bands emerge at the edge - the tingle of static, the sting and soreness of being hit, and then a deep aching pain, like overexertion or a broken bone, lingering behind them.

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"...fuck. Oh, fuck--"

He bites back a whimper and squeezes his eyes shut. He thinks he could get off on this alone -- probably will, if she keeps it up.

He hopes she can feel some of what this is doing to him.

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"Mmmhmm." She pets the back of his head and bites his shoulder as the intensity ratchets up.

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Oh.

That was enough.

He shudders and curls closer and gasps until he doesn't have any breath left.

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She holds him while he gasps and curls, keeping the intensity steady until he begins to fade; she matches it, until she's just holding him against her, breathing steadily and nuzzling his neck.

"Good?" she asks, giving the top of his ear the lightest of nips.

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He nods weakly.

"Mmh. Good."

There's a deep feeling of contentment that he hasn't even gotten close to since he arrived. (She won't know it for sure, but he hasn't gotten close to it in a long time.)

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"Good." She slides her hand up his back, making no particular effort to avoid the bruises and burns, to rest it comfortably below his shoulderblades.

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He had wondered somewhere in the haze if she was just giving him the feeling of blows and burns, but those are definitely real bruises. 

He makes an exhausted little noise at the movement of her hand.

(He sort of wants to say "I love you", but doesn't know if what he means is "you are kind to me".)

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She pets the back of his head again, gently, and nuzzles his shoulder. "Go ahead and sleep."

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Well, if she says it like that, how can he refuse?

He passes out almost immediately.

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She pets him and dozes until Daisy and Nine come in. Weirdo, she signs, grinning, in response to Daisy's incredulous look.

 

Okay, I trust you. Dinner?

Yeah, whatever.

Okay. And the two of them head outside.

"Hey, Kai-Zi." She nudges him awake.

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"Mmm...?"

He blinks his eyes open slowly. It's hard for him to tell how long he's been asleep.

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"Hey." Pet pet. "Dinner soon, if you want a shower or anything first."

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"...yeah, that'd...probably be a good idea."

He did sort of make a mess of himself.

He starts to get up, and--

"--ow."

It turns out that being covered in bruises and burns from your shoulders down to your thighs makes moving a little tricky.

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She chuckles. "Regrets?"

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"Zero regrets ever in my life."

Well...that might be overstating it a little, but he feels the hyperbole is important. He's more awed and appreciative than anything.

"This is probably gonna suck under hot water."

He says, still feeling no remorse whatsoever.

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"Yeah, probably," she says, sitting up, and then scoops him up again.

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Scooped!

"Aaaah ow you're touching them."

He is oddly delighted about this.

"I have to get a picture of these."

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She giggles, "sure," and then heads for the bedroom, stopping on the way to retrieve a camera from the cabinet. (She floats it in front of herself, her hands being full at the moment.)

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"Ooh. Way better than an awkward self-shot."

He can't wait to see how this turns out.

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She stops to consider for a minute when she gets to the bed, then takes a couple pillows from the pile and drapes him across them, half on his side. She takes a few shots before floating the camera over to show him the one she likes best.

His back is less a collection of bruises and more one huge dappled one, deeper purple over the muscles and lighter over the spine and kidneys and speckled with burns and blisters, with an obvious handprint where she was holding him.

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"...that's gorgeous."

His whole face lights up.

"Is it vain to want that printed?"

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"Do I seem like I'd care if it was?"

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"Nope."

He admires it for another moment.

"...so, I guess I'm gonna use your shower for the second time today."

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"Mmhmm."

"Goona be okay on your own?"

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He laughs a little.

"Yeah, I think I can handle it."

Note to future self: shower with Dusk has technically been put on the table.

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"All right." She scoops him up again and sets him on his feet. "I'll go get you some fresh pants."

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Aww, scoop.

"Appreciated."

He walks off into the bathroom. Shower time. (With added burns, this time.)

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And when he's done, there's an outfit folded neatly on her bed waiting for him, composed of some of the more casual things in his wardrobe.

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"More casual things" is "most things". He barely seems to own anything with sleeves.

He hisses a little through his teeth as he pulls the shirt on over the burns.

It's good, though, the reminder. He thinks he'll keep them for a while.

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He can certainly do that.

At this point he can explore the room, or one of the adjacent ones, or go back to the workroom.

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...huh. He hasn't actually been unsupervised for long before now.

Might as well peek through the doors to the adjoining rooms before he picks a place to explore.

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The tiny room is still claustrophobically small; the desk has drawers he could go through, and the overhead light has a pretty glass shade, but it's otherwise unfurnished.

The back room appears to be storage; it opens out to the right, to a space full of boxes and machinery, and there's an alcove at the end of the wall on the left that he can't see into from the door.

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...well, time to be a weirdo and check out the storage room, then. He wants to know what's back there.

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The alcove is: Dusk's clothes closet. Apparently all her clothes are embroidered - the ones she's wearing today have rows of tiny gold waves at the wrists and ankles - and nearly all of it is black, with the exceptions being dark grey or crimson. There's also a small end table holding various pieces of gold jewelry with gems set into them on stands, and a full-length mirror hanging from the side wall nearest the door.

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That's an interesting place for your clothes.

He picks up one of the sleeves and runs his fingers slowly over the designs. He's not personally a fan of sleeves on himself, but he has to admit these are good ones.

He moves on to look over the jewelry after a minute.

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It's nothing unusual, as fancy gold jewelry goes. One of the necklaces is set with rubies and pearls, the other with black opal; there's a matching pair of earrings for each one and a handful of bangle bracelets.

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He's pretty sure this is more valuable than he is on some planets.

...he holds one of the black opal earrings up to his ear, for just a second, before he shakes his head and puts it down, stepping back from the table.

He turns to look at the rest of the room.

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Various storage boxes and large machinery, camping gear, speeder and generator parts; a row of built-in shelving along the wall nearest the bedroom holding miscellaneous smaller things, like a holoprojector.

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...he'll come back here sometime when he knows what he's looking for. Back into the bedroom it is.

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so much art. Such a comfy bed, too.

The smell of caramelized onions is noticeable from the workroom.

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That's definitely a good smell.

Might as well head that way. He doesn't want to snoop too much.

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Daisy's in the kitchen, splitting her attention between the pot of onions and a bowl of brown goop. Dusk and Nine are at the table, and Dusk is just finishing up an anecdote: "-so that's how we found out that tomato cultivars vary a lot in how they taste. Hi, Kai-Zi."

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"Hey!" 

He peers at the brown goop.

"What's this?"

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"Lentil burger base. How do you like them?"

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"Huh...I'm a fan of spicy stuff, but I dunno what Dusk's into there."

It's already good-smelling goo, he has to admit.

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She nods, "I'll see what I can do," and gets out a second bowl and moves some of the goop to it.

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“Hey, thanks.”

He nods to her and moves over to the table.

”So, I found your wardrobe.”

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"Mmhmm," she sounds amused.

"I won't mind if you want to borrow things, as long as I get them back."

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"I'd be excited, but I am so not confident enough in my ability not to lose those earrings even if they're hooked into part of my body."

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Heh. "All right."

 

"I could make some earrings, if you just want something pretty."

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"...that could be pretty great."

He imagines it for a minute.

"I haven't worn any fancy ones in a while, not since, uh...since. A while ago."

Dammit.

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"Hm?"

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"...Since space pirates."

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"- are you all right?"

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"It's, uh...I probably rode off Tython with the wrong crew."

He rubs the back of his head.

"Running with Tycho's guys was fun until...it really wasn't."

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"Well, you survived it, and came out stronger; that's something to be proud of."

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He laughs.

"Honestly, I sort of got myself into it. Not like I hated being there at first."

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Nod.

"And that's certainly better than the alternative, but that doesn't mean it wasn't bad."

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"Mmhmm," Daisy chimes in. "We've been through plenty of things like that. Nine, too. It wouldn't've been better if he'd just been wiped, but that doesn't mean this isn't hard."

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After a moment, he nods.

"Yeah."

He thinks he probably has some shit to work through, re: the space pirates thing. It's kind of a relief to be told it was bad, though.

"...anyway, that was a while ago, and now I don't have any. Fancy jewelry, I mean. I liked the black opals."

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"All right. Well, opals are hard to come by, but black with colors I can do."

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“Black with colors is good. So’s durable metal. I like stuff that holds up.”

He thinks.

”Are there any good sites for gem hunts around here? It’d be kind of cool to find something myself...”

He really does throw himself headfirst into things. He’s already excited about it.

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"Mmhmm. Nothing very interesting, but there's some caves out in the northeast quarter with that kind of thing. I don't know much about mining, though, I wouldn't even know they were there without my Force senses."

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He nods.

”I mean, as long as there was never a mining operation here or anything, there’s usually some surface-level stuff. At least, there was back home.”

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"Yeah, nobody's been out here but me. We can go tomorrow, if you want - do you two want to come?" she directs at the droids.

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"I think we'll stay here - unless you want to, Nine?"

There's a long pause, and then Daisy goes "yeah, we'll stay."

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“I’ll bring you guys back some pretty rocks. If we find any.”

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"That would be nice," she says, the grin clear in her voice. "I have some tigers' eyes set aside for my next decorative upgrade; Nine might like a setting of something you've found."

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"Yeah," he allows. "That would be nice."

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He nods appreciatively. Setting something into your body must be a big deal, and he’s honored, but doesn’t quite know how to say it aloud.

”Here’s hoping there’s good stuff out there.” 

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"I'm sure we'll find something." (Daisy begins shaping the goop into patties.)

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He nods.

"...so, if you can sense stuff about the landscape...what else is there around here?"

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"Not very much? There's some fossils that'd be neat to dig up if I had the first idea about how to do that, I guess. And caves, we've got some good caves."

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"Oh, yeah, fossils would be cool. I have no idea how to do that either, though."

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"We could figure it out, if you're here long enough. Might make a good base for some kinda art."

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Nod nod.

"I love this weird desert art house."

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"And you haven't even seen a sunset yet."

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"...oh, I'm so ready for that."

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"Not too much longer. It's my favorite time of day; I suppose that's pretty obvious."

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"Looking forward to it. If it's cooled down some maybe we could eat out there."

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"Sure, we could. Daisy, join us on the roof?"

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"Sure." She sounds pleased. (Burgers go in the oven; she joins them at the table.)

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Aw, yes. He loves sitting on top of buildings. People are generally not supposed to be up there and that is an excellent motivation for him to go up there anyway.

He looks over at Nine.

"Gonna come up too?"

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"You should, for your first sunset. Dusk doesn't invite people up very often."

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"All right."

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"'Two robots and two humans are sitting on a roof' sounds like a setup for a bad joke."

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Daisy chuckles.

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He looks between Daisy and Nine.

"What's your guys' story, anyway?"

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"He's, ah, been there for a couple years now," she glances at Dusk. "And I'd already heard rumors that Mr. Torrarmi wasn't wiping his droids, so I stopped by to say hi - it isn't great for us to grow up isolated. And then it turned out we got along."

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"...good thing you guys found each other."

He looks quizzically at Dusk.

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"- wouldn't've been a very good idea for her to bring him home, a couple years ago."

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"Or, it would, but we didn't know that yet. You were doing the best you could."

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"Yeah." She reaches for Daisy's hand, and Daisy takes hers and squeezes it.

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He's uncertain. He wants to know what's going on, and to say something that helps if he can, but he also feels like he's interrupting something that's not really for him to see.

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"-sorry, I'm not really used to having guests yet. I only really got a handle on, ah, not hurting people when I didn't really mean to, a couple years ago. And it took us a while to be sure - if we had known we could've just gotten him then."

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"It was a hard problem." Handsqueeze.

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He nods.

"...it must have been pretty lonely."

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"I wouldn't've made it without Daisy, yeah." Bit of a grin, with that, just the shadow of one really.

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Nod.

"You've been through some shit together, huh?"

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"Yeah." She sounds fond. "Living out here has been nice, though."

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Aww.

"I guess the heat probably doesn't get to you so much, right?"

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She chuckles. "Dusk did actually have to upgrade my cooling system, when we first got here. But I don't feel it, no."

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"Oh, right. Overheating's still a thing. Probably isn't much better for you guys than it is for us."

Not that there's any way to check, but...

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Shrug. "I don't really have a way to compare; Dusk isn't bothered by it at all."

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He looks aside at Dusk.

"Your thermoregulation must be pretty excellent."

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"Force effect. I can share, if you like." The heat briefly dissipates.

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Whoa.

"...teach me that one too?"

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"Sure," she chuckles, and replaces the effect. "I don't have great range on it, maybe something like thirty feet, but I can leave it up while you're around until you pick it up yourself."

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"Nice! It's, uh, not a huge effort, right?"

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"Nah. I have lots of practice at just leaving things going."

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"That's pretty cool. I wonder if you could get healing to work like that."

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"Hm, maybe. It seems like it takes a little too much focus, but I've only seen the one example, there might be a way to do it anyway."

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"...yeah, it does take some special attention. I guess, the way I do it, that much sensory input right in the front all the time would be...kind of hard to live with."

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"That doesn't necessarily mean it's impossible. My Force senses are always-on, but I have 'em set up so they don't bother me unless there's something I'd want to know about. Like - y'know how if you're asleep, a loud noise will wake you up, or someone quietly saying your name, but a quiet noise that isn't your name won't? It's like that."

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He nods.

"I guess...if I could set it up like that, it'd work. Probably a long-term project, though."

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"Mmhmm. It's super handy once you figure it out, though. I can tell where anyone is and what they're feeling anywhere within - probably close to a hundred miles, now, it's been a few years since we measured it and it was just shy of seventy then."

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"...wow."

That is pretty damn cool.

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"Yeah. You're pretty much just not going to be able to sneak up on me, ever, it's pretty good."

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"...Pretty sure you can sense people who are sort of still in space. People couldn't sneak up on you from space."

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Giggle. "Not even 'sort of'. I'm not quite up to the satellites yet but I do notice when someone's coming out of orbit overhead."

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He swings his legs to the side so he can flop back on the bench. Ow, burns and bruises.

"Space feelings. Holy shit."

 

 

"...I don't remember what I would've felt like when I was landing."

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"Unless you've been around a couple months, I missed you - it's only a few times a year that someone comes in the right way."

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He shakes his head.

"Nah, this was just supposed to be a quick stop."

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"Mmhmm. Well, maybe you'll be here long enough to catch the next one, and maybe I'll be able to bounce it to you by then."

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"...like, let me feel?"

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"Mmhmm."

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"...so, what's the thing keeping you from bouncing stuff now?"

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"I could, actually, but I'd have to meditate for it and it'd take a little while to work out how to send to you- ten, fifteen minutes maybe. Once I'm more familiar with you I can just do it."

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He nods.

"You have to learn my brain first."

The idea is at once sort of disquieting and deeply fascinating to him.

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"Yup. Not - deeply. exactly, but enough to figure out how to speak your language."

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He nods.

"You sure you want to see enough of my language to figure out how to speak it?"

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She chuckles. "You really think you're going to scare a Sith?"

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"Hey, you're not scared of a trash compactor just because you don't want to jump in one."

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Snort. "You aren't, and even if you were I'm certain I've seen worse."

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"Absolutely."

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"I'm unique garbage. There's no trash just like me."

After a moment:

"...thanks, though."

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"It's really obvious."

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Nod.

"Probably is, from out there. But it's kind of hard to tell from in here, you know?"

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"You helped my Daisy. It could hardly be clearer."

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He's about to protest a little, say that it was just what he had to do, but...

He guesses that means something good, actually.

He hesitates, then sits back up and leans in to hug her quickly.

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She gives him a squeeze, and then lets him go. "Yeah, that."

(There's a change in the smell of the room; seems like the burgers will be done soon.)

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Sniff. Ooh.

"...sorry in advance if I get burger on your roof. Lentils hate sticking to lentils."

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"- I might be a little too used to cheating with teekay, yeah," she chuckles. "Don't worry about it."

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"Nothing wrong with cheating at lentils. I'd try but I'd probably smash 'em into my face."

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"Which - might be fun, I guess," she chuckles, "but mostly wouldn't be an improvement."

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"Yeah. Plus the lentils-in-eyes risk is way too great."

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"Yeah." 

Daisy goes and gets the burgers, assembles them, and fills a tray with the plate of burgers, a bowl of potato salad, a shaker of chili flakes, and smaller plates with half a dozen deviled eggs and some shortbread cookies with jam. "Ready whenever you are - Dusk, bring the carafe?"

"Of course." The pitcher of water floats off the table.

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"Speaking of cheating with teekay..."

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"Yup."

Daisy brings the tray, and Dusk brings the carafe and a pair of glasses, and they lead the way around to the side of the house that Kai-Zi hasn't seen yet, where there's a metal ladder bolted to the wall. Dusk takes the tray from Daisy and leaps up, looking back over the edge after a moment. "C'mon up!" (The droids seem to expect him to go first.)

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He scrambles quickly up the ladder. You get really used to these living on ships.

As soon as he's on the roof, he stands up to admire the view.

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It's a pretty good view: wilderness from horizon to horizon, with just barely a smudge to show where the town is and the sky beginning to turn colors behind it.

 

(There's a platform on the roof, big enough to be only slightly crowded with the four of them there; the only furnishing is a once blue, now very faded cushion.)

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He nods appreciatively and sits down on a corner of the platform, facing the sunset.

"I like it up here already."

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"Mmhmm. It's my meditation spot, I'm up here every night." She settles the tray next to him and sits on the other side of it. "Burger?"

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"Yes, burger."

He takes one from the tray and bites into it. The general emotional impression is intense approval.

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"Did good, Daisy." She takes one herself, and one of the deviled eggs.

 

After a few minutes, the sun gets low enough to catch one of the installations, out in the desert, and make it glitter.

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"...oh."

He stares out at it, forgetting about the remnants of his burger for a minute.

"Did you...make that for the sunset?"

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"Mmhmm." She points out in a direction, and after a moment another sparkle appears. "There's a bunch."

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He leans immediately out over the roof.

"How many are there?"

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"Couple dozen. I go put more up every so often when I'm between ideas."

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"I love them."

He picks up an egg and watches the show.

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It's gorgeous, with different collections of sparkles fading in and out as the sunset continues.

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He is completely fascinated.

(He does have to look away occasionally to blink the afterimages out of his eyes.)

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Daisy's cooking will go tragically unappreciated.

 

"Pretty great, huh? There aren't too many places someone could put together something this big."

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Oh, no, he's definitely eating eggs while he watches this. Two great sensory experiences at once!

"I guess there are perks to living in the middle of nowhere."

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"Mmhmm."

"And the solitude - not sure if that's a perk or not, exactly, but it's something. Nice, mostly, I guess."

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He nods.

"Probably has good days and bad days."

He contemplates the glittering scenery.

"...it's pretty cool to know so few people have seen this, though. You made it just for you."

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"Yup. Grand total of four, now." She waves to the assembled group.

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"...on the one hand, people would love this. On the other hand, fuck people."

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She chuckles. "Mmhmm."

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He cups his hands around his mouth and yells into the vast and empty desert.

"This is our sunset! Fuck you!"

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The Sith: has a gigglefit. And sets the tray of food down onto the roof so she can scoot over and put an arm around his shoulders.

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He laughs himself and leans up against her.

"Well, it is."

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"Yeah. I don't really think about them that much, though. Especially up here, this's mine."

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He nods.

"Yeah. It's probably different when you've been here longer than, like...a day."

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"Yeah." She lies back, pats Daisy's knee where the droid is sitting crosslegged behind her. "You'll have some time to get used to it, not that it'll be quite the same."

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"Yeah. I guess...if I ever build a place of my own, that's how it'll feel."

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"Mmhmm."

"Don't get that from the ship?"

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He thinks about it for a minute.

"...I guess I do. But there's only so much I can change it, so it's not...the same."

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"Ah. Yeah, if you don't have the engineering background. Can't help much there."

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He nods.

"Maybe I'll learn someday. I can't fuck around too much with it in the meantime, though."

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"Mmhmm. Worth learning, it sounds like. Most things are, if they make you more free." She gives Daisy another pat and sits up to ruffle his hair.

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"Sounds right to me."

He nuzzles the hand in his hair without even thinking about it.

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She scritches the back of his head, probably quite a bit more gently than he'd like but the droids are right there, and hums to herself. "I think I'll skip 'saber practice today, or put it off anyway. Head up to see the art as soon as we're done here. Does that sound all right to you, Daisy?"

"Sure."

"Okay." Slightly more intense scritching.

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Scritches! He loves this!

He rubs up against Dusk's hand some more and sighs.

"Can't wait to see what you put up there..."

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"I bet." The tiniest spark jumps from the tip of her finger to the back of his head - plausibly just static, but how likely is that, really?

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...grin.

"That felt like a threat."

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"Maybe."

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"Most humans are a little more circumspect," Daisy tells Nine.

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Dusk twists around to look at him, her hand still in Kai-Zi's hair. "I can stop if it's making you uncomfortable."

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Whoops. He shoots the robots an apologetic look. Sorry about all the weird meat-person stuff.

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"It's okay. I don't understand, but it doesn't bother me."

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"Yeah, all right." Her hand drops to Kai's back between his shoulder blades. "Tell me if it starts to, okay? I do want to know."

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"All right."

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He hisses a little as she presses on the bruises.

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She eases up.

"We do need to talk about my 'saber practice - that's the one situation where I really am dangerous, still, even if I don't want to be."

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He can't decide whether he's glad or disappointed. Well...there's time for that when there aren't robots right behind them. Plus, the current subject would probably better explored while he's not having his bruises touched up.

He nods, with some of the usual mixture of apprehension and attraction that comes with Dusk being 'really dangerous'.

"If I'm just...not around, during those times, would I be in the clear?"

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"Yup, that's the safest way to do it. Daisy generally just stays in the house."

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"...so, I guess the problem is if I want to watch."

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"You could. I won't come after you. You just have to stay far enough away that I don't accidentally decide you're a threat."

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He nods.

"I think I can do that."

He allows himself a moment of daydreaming about Dusk deciding he's a threat.

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"- maybe Daisy will sit with you, the first couple times."

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"I want to be offended or something, but that's definitely necessary."

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"Yeah. You okay with that, Love?"

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"Yeah, sure."

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"Thanks."

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"Sorry for making you babysit."

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"It's no trouble."

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He looks back up to watch the last of the fading sun.

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It's so pretty. Dusk keeps her arm around his shoulder, above the bruises, and when the last bit of glitter fades and the sun finally disappears, she gives him a squeeze.

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"...thanks for showing that to me."

He leans his head against her arm.

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"You're welcome." She scritches the back of his head again. "Anything you want to do here before we go?"

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He takes a moment, and then sighs.

"I wasn't gonna fix my back for a while, but I guess I probably should before we go hiking anywhere."

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She chuckles. "We could take the speeder."

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Better solution!

"Sounds good to me."

He looks back at Daisy.

"Thanks for cooking. It's been great every time."

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"You're welcome." She sounds proud.

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"-are you programmed for that?"

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"No, I learned it."

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"Huh."

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"Yeah. It took a while, but if you end up staying, you could learn it too. If you want."

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"Yes, m'-" he cuts himself off.

"I'll think about it."

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She squeezes Kai-Zi, a little tenser now. "Take as long as you want."

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"Okay."

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He pets her shoulder tentatively. He's not sure what else he can do about the situation at hand.

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She scritches the back of his head again. "He'll be all right." She relaxes, obviously intentionally.

 

"Daisy, do you need me to do anything here before we go?"

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"I think we're good - did you refill the generator?"

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"Nope, I'll take care of that."

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"Okay. Kai-Zi, come help me with the dishes?"

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"Oh! Yeah, sure!"

That's an unusual amount of enthusiasm for dish-doing.

He'll follow her down to...wherever that happens.

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Downstairs in the kitchen! Dusk follows with the tray and dishes and then goes out front again; Nine sits at the table and fiddles with a piece of broken machinery.

 

"Are you all right?" Daisy asks, as she hands him the first dish to be dried.

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He dries it carefully and sets it aside.

"Huh? Yeah. Why?"

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"I saw your back, earlier. It's kind of worrying."

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Oh. Aww.

He laughs a little.

"Oh, yeah, don't worry about that. I, uh...I'm weird, and think it's fun."

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"All right," she says, after a few moments' thought. "I suppose that's safe enough. If she ever scares you with it, though-" sigh. "Keep in mind that she is a Sith; you're playing with fire."

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There's so many awful responses he has to that.

But...

He nods.

"Yeah. I'll remember that."

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"Good."

 

"It's been almost two years, she might be stable, it's just hard to know. We've thought that before and been wrong - granted not for two years, but..."

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"She seems nice to me."

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"She is; that's not the problem."

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"It's, uh...I don't know for sure if this is it, but..."

He hopes he's not drawing a connection that isn't there.

"...it moves you. And it's...a lot more sure about hurting people."

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"Yeah."

 

"And if you're in the habit of following it, it's hard to break that. I don't - want her to have that problem again."

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He nods.

"...it's hard to imagine being controlled by that all the time. I'm...glad she's out of it."

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"Yeah."

 

"She'll probably be okay, if she's taking it that casually. But it's a risk you should know you're taking."

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"...honestly, I've probably got better odds than if she wasn't doing it."

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She gives him a look. "Hm?"

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"I kind of...look for trouble. It's hard not to."

He rubs his neck.

"I figure this is probably better than whatever else I would get myself into."

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"Ah. Well. I'm glad I picked you up, then." She's grinning, a little, from the sound of it.

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Aww.

"I'm glad you picked me up too."

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"Good."

There weren't many dishes to wash; she's midway through packing the leftovers up to fit in the fridge. "Dusk's probably hanging around out front, if you're ready to go."

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"Yeah, I think I am."

He waves as he heads for the door.

"See you, Daisy."

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"Enjoy yourself."

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Dusk is out front, as predicted, lounging at the base of the tree. She hops up when he comes out. "You might want a jacket or something, it gets chilly at night. Or I can take care of it."

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"I'm gonna grab one just in case. Don't wanna make you be my space heater."

He runs off to the ship and returns with a well-loved leather jacket.

"Ok! Ready when you are."

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She's grabbed her cloak and is putting it on by the time he gets back, and then gets out the speeder. "D'you have night vision, or did you not stay with the Jedi that long?"

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"I've got it. They teach you that pretty quick."

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"Good, I won't worry about finding the flashlight then." She sits at the back of the speeder's long seat and pats the space in front of her.

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"...wait, am I driving?"

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"Nah, I can reach. C'mon."

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If she says so!

He hops on the speeder.

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And off they go! The path is scrubby, but well enough defined that there's no real chance of losing it, and even going fairly slowly on the speeder it takes only ten minutes to reach the first installation.

It's a lightning study in wire, twice the height of a human, two bolts spreading out into a nest of sparks.

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He hops off the speeder as soon as he can to walk up close to the sculpture.

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She follows, and after a moment a little bolt of lightning comes from behind him, alarmingly close to his elbow, and hits the statue, lighting the whole thing up in pale blue sparks.

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He laughs in delight and has to physically hold himself back from touching the thing.

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"Not a great idea to do that while you're grounded, yeah," she chuckles. "Wouldn't kill you, but I'd rather not bring you back unconscious."

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Aww, now he wants to touch it even more.

"How do you make it light up that long?"

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"Custom build; I treated the wires so the electricity can't run between them as easily as it usually would, so it stays up in the structure longer. You could climb it, you won't be the best path to the ground if you aren't touching the ground."

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He doesn't even need to hear anything past "you could climb it". He starts to scale the thing right away.

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She only lets him get a foot or two off the ground before zapping it again, more gently this time. She's poised to catch him with telekinesis if he falls.

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He flinches and makes a short, sharp noise when the electricity hits him, curling in towards the structure.

Then it passes and he laughs breathlessly.

"I like this one!"

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She giggles, "good!" and gives it another zap, this one blue and painful.

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His grip involuntarily tightens on the metal and he just about screams as the current crackles through his body, lighting up his nerves.

He's still laughing afterwards, though. It's exhilarating, trying to hang on while she charges the thing with lightning, but he's still too low for the risk of falling to mean anything. He tries to climb further up.

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She keeps a close eye on what he's doing, so he's never really in danger, though it certainly seems it, sometimes - she'll zap him when he has only one hand on the statue, or with the green lightning that tries to push him off, or both at once.

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He leaps from side to side, hangs off the thing one-handed, scrambles and dodges and then holds on for dear life every time the shocks come. It's amazing.

He reaches the top, or close, and looks down at her triumphantly.

Then he lets go.

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He falls, for one glorious moment, and then the telekinesis appears, scoops him up and loops him through the air before setting him on his feet in front of Dusk.

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The moment of falling is incredible.

The sudden grip of the telekinesis might be even better.

He grins at her when he lands.

"You caught me!"

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"I did say I don't want to bring you back unconscious," she giggles, and ruffles his hair. "Silly."

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"Yeah. Well. Still."

He rubs his head up against her hand.

"Are they all this good?"

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"Not mostly. There's some I think you'll like, though."

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He hops back on the speeder.

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And on they go. She slows to a stop in front of the next piece: A sheet of iron, fractured into pieces and arranged to capture the first moment of exploding outward, on a backdrop of stone with rust stains dripping bloodily down it.

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He hops off again and walks slowly around it, looking from every angle he can.

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Dusk stays on the speeder, leaning on the handlebars as she watches him take it in.

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"Does it have a name?"

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"Mmhmm, 'Fracture'."

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"It's, uh..."

He looks for the right word, doesn't find it, and gives up.

"Pretty relatable."

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"Yeah." She turns off the speeder and dismounts to give him a hug.

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He laughs.

"Hey, what's this for?"

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"That's a pretty lousy way to feel, and -" she gestures at the art- "'s kind of a self portrait, y'know? So I know how it is."

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"...that makes sense. Thanks. It's still weird for somebody to respond to that stuff like I'm being serious."

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"Well." She scoops him up. "You'd better get used to it."

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He loves being scooped! He laughs.

"Looking forward to it."

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She kisses his forehead and heads toward the speeder. "Let's go see something cool."

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He nods enthusiastically.

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She passes a statue - a twist of dark metal, claws, and fangs, glittering menacingly in the moonlight - and stops at something that doesn't seem to be artwork at all: a large metal frame, a few stories tall, studded with various bits and pieces with unclear purposes. She scoops him off the speeder again and settles the two of them on a stone bench across from it. "So, I don't know how much you know about Sith, but there's a thing where - we have what we can defend. It's not very nice but it makes things very simple, in some ways; if you want things to be different you know exactly what you need to do to make that happen. Understand?"

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He's not sure he gets the relevance, entirely, but he nods quickly.

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She nods, too. "So my master - well, tried to kill me and keep the corpse, more or less." A sharp note comes into her tone. "And here's what I did about that."

She stands and strides over to the structure, pausing to retrieve a red-painted rod that she holds like a lightsaber and to turn on the floodlights that light the lowest section. Then she stalks into it, assuming a dull, feral, crouched stance as she does.

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He watches in fascination.

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The bits on the frame come to life as she approaches them, swaying in mimicry of robes; she follows the robed figure farther into the structure, inattentive to her surroundings, saber held slack.

Then, suddenly, she darts forward to attack, and the sketched figure retaliates with a bolt of lightning; she brings the saber up to parry, and the figure jumps back, startled, and leaps away, up into the second level of the structure.

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He wants to follow her up but he's too transfixed by the display to move.

(It's like seeing her really fight. It's beautiful.)

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She leaps into the darkness, following the figure, and an instant later a new spotlight illuminates her, clinging to the structure, parrying a pair of saber blows. She gains the advantage, and her opponent retreats again; she follows, through a series of increasingly impressive leaps, dodges, and parries. Eventually the figure just flees, and she chases him, practically flying through the air, now twenty feet up. She dodges one final lightning bolt, and comes to the climax of the performance, crouched on a shadowed figure at the pinnacle of the structure; she growls menacingly and cuts its head off, releasing it to hang a few feet below in a shower of simulated gore.

She holds her position for a few seconds, triumphant and menacing, then leaps gracefully to the ground, tucking into a tumble as she goes, lands neatly, and takes a bow.

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Holy shit.

He slowly begins to applaud.

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She grins, bows again, and goes to sit with him.

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He has no words, at first. It takes him a minute.

"...I think I just fell in love a little bit."

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She grins. "Yeah, that's one of my proudest accomplishments. Top three, definitely."

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"It's amazingYou're amazing."

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"Mmhmm."

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"I really need to build that saber."

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"Yup. I can put together a spare, if you want to get started; plenty of people train on a temporary one while they're figuring out what they want in theirs."

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He nods vigorously.

"Yeah. Please."

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"All right. Tonight if there's time; tomorrow if not." Shoulder-hug.

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Shoulder-hug is gladly accepted!

"I'll try to keep all my limbs attached."

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She chuckles, "yeah," and then looks thoughtful. "Sith'd be offended at the suggestion, but if you want a low-power 'saber that can't hurt you, I can make one."

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"...that might help with practicing without maiming myself, yeah."

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"Yeah."

"- switch mine over for sparring, maybe, I can put it back after."

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...wow. He's not entirely sure but he feels like that's pretty significant, symbolically.

"That'd probably improve the experience of being stabbed. Staying-alive-wise."

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She chuckles; if he's listening carefully he may detect a note of tension in it that wasn't there earlier. "That's the idea, yep."

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Huh. He is definitely listening carefully, and he takes note.

(He's not sure what about what he said was wrong, and it makes him nervous.)

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She peers at him. It probably doesn't help with the nervousness.

 

"I don't want to hurt you, and I don't - mind, exactly, making myself less dangerous to avoid that. But if you're going to make a big deal out of it, that I mind."

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"...oh. I, uh...out of you making yourself less dangerous, or out of you being dangerous in the first place?"

His heart has dropped into his stomach. The way she's looking at him definitely doesn't help.

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That gets another genuinely-amused chuckle. "First thing. I know how you feel about the second one."

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"Yeah, you definitely do."

Internally, he is panicking just a little. He knows he'll feel differently about it just from her having asked, but what happens if it doesn't change enough? 

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"Hey." She pulls him over, onto her lap; for a moment, as he lands, his back doesn't hurt, and the ache gradually fades back in over the next few moments; she pets him, tracing curlicues on his belly and ruffling his hair. "I could kick your ass, but I don't want to, I'm not looking for an excuse. If it turns out to be a problem I just won't do it. All right?"

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Oh. That feels much better. The anxiety drains away quickly.

"I'm not worried that you're gonna kick my ass."

The pain is grounding, and the touch out of nowhere is incredibly reassuring, and he finds himself able to speak.

"I'm worried that I'm not worth keeping."

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"Well." She ruffles his hair a little more emphatically. "Keeping someone's a pretty big responsibility. But I do want to."

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"I don't know if this is ever going away."

He motions vaguely to the side of his head.

"Is it still...okay?"

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"Yeah, it's okay." She covers his hand with the one that's been stroking his belly, entwining her fingers in his and giving it a squeeze. "It seems like you could be handling it better, we might want to work on that, but handling it better doesn't mean making it go away." Another squeeze, and a grin - "and it's cute, anyway."

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"...cute?"

That's way better than expected.

The idea that there's a better way to handle it, that it's not just an unsolvable problem, gives him a little hope, too.

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"Yeah, cute." She pets his head some more. "You're very - innocent, about some things, it's pretty adorable."

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He snorts.

"What, me?"

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"Mmhmm." Pet, pet. "You don't worry about things, unless there's something right there to worry about. It's been a long time since I've known someone who didn't."

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"...I guess I don't."

He nuzzles her hand.

"I mean...if it's not right there yet, it's not real yet."

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"Sure. Doesn't mean it won't kill you once it is, though." She gestures indicatively at the metal framework.

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"Hey, it's hard enough to worry about my own safety in the short term."

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"Yeah, that's cute, too."

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"So glad you think weird things are cute."

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"I don't think it's that weird." Pet pet. "Anyway - Daisy gets a say, too, and we should plan on checking back in eventually, make sure it's still what we want, but -" she shifts him to a half-sitting position and kisses his forehead. "My Kai-Zi?"

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"...your Kai-Zi."

He says the phrase almost in awe. He likes how it feels.

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She grins and pets him, then impulsively scoops him up and relocates them to the ground, where she can stretch out beside him.

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He's okay with this!

"How'd you get so important so fast...?"

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Petting: continues. "You needed somebody who really sees you, and I'm good at that."

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"Yeah. You are."

Nuzzle.

"The whole 'lightning' thing is a plus, too."

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"Doesn't hurt, no." She lights up the back of her hand and trails a swirl of sparks on his belly, lightly charring his shirt.

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He groans a little and leans up into the touch.

"Well, I mean, it does, but...that's kind of the idea."

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She chuckles, and sends a pulse of pale blue down the swirl, leaving that broken-bone ache behind it.

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He bites his lip, squirming on the ground enough to agitate the bruises and burns on his back.

"Aah...fuck, that's not fair..."

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"You like it anyway, though." The blue reaches the end of the swirl, changes to a pale sage green and the sensation of bruising hailstones, and begins making its way back to her hand.

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He nods emphatically and reaches to hold onto her arm.

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She allows it; the lightning climbs her arm to his hand and then starts down his arm, covering the whole thing like a sleeve. Meanwhile, the green sparks return to her fingertips and set out again, a second curve forming behind them.

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His fingers twitch gently under the touch of the lightning, and he gasps as it climbs up his arm.

When it starts to arc over his stomach he shivers.

"You are...so good at this."

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"Mmmm," she hums, and it's not a moan but there's something moanlike in it. "You want to -?"

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He does his best to pull her on top of him.

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She cooperates, and then pauses to take off her cloak and shirt; the sparks on his chest and arm last for a few seconds after she takes her hand away before petering out.

She grins down at him, running her hand over his chest again, tracing the burned patterns in his shirt and the blisters rising beneath.

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He looks up at her in awe, letting out little sighs at the attention to the burnt skin.

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She basks in it, a little. "You can touch," she allows after a moment.

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His hands trace reverently up her sides, just feeling the shape of her, starting to learn the contours of her body.

(She's gorgeous.)

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Mmmm.

She leans forward to kiss him, one hand on the ground, the other coming up to cup the curve of his jaw.

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He kisses back and winds a hand carefully into her hair.

This feels very different from the last time. There's that slight spark of nervousness and the same thrill there was his first time, and he can't quite place why.

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Of course it does. "Mine," she whispers into his mouth.

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He definitely likes hearing that.

His hand runs down her back slowly, and he sighs against her lips. He can't help rolling his hips a little underneath her.

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She smiles, at that, and rolls them over so that she can get his shirt off, and then his pants, pausing at each stage to caress the newly exposed skin, her hands rough against him where the tools of her trades have calloused them.

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He helps her with his clothes, shivering a little where her hands brush over him.

The moment he can, he leans down to kiss her again.

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Mmm, kisses. She puts a hand on his hip, and one behind his head, and then she must be doing something to stop his hair from catching fire from the sparks.

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He gasps.

It's so intense, there – he thinks he can feel every leaping spark of lightning crawling down the back of his neck, and the threat of it arcing into his spine makes him all the more aware. God, it's good.

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It spreads - down his neck, down his shoulders, down his arms; across his chest, along his collarbone, up to the small of his neck...

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It just gets better and better and better.

He abandons the idea of kissing entirely and curls his head down to bite her shoulder, making a noise that's not quite identifiable but is definitely loud.

His skin is all lighting up with pain, the muscles underneath twitching from the shocks.

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The hand on his hip disappears, and she bucks under him, getting enough room to slide her pants down. Then it's back, at the base of his spine, and sparks start spreading down from it as well.

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His hips slide against hers and he moans as the sparks creep down from her hand.

He feels bright, crackling, like a live wire. He thinks even if she stopped his skin would still be charged, that if anyone touched him but her it would be the last thing they did.

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"Mmmm. My Kai-Zi." She nips at his ear as her hand disappears again, snaking between them to guide him home in the moment before the sparks disperse completely.

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Oh.

That's...very different than anything he's used to.

He doesn't move for a moment, just tries to process the sensation, taking slow breaths into her shoulder.

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She rolls her hips and gives him a squeeze. "'sgood?"

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He moans and bites her shoulder again.

"M--mmhmm."

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"Go on, then."

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He starts to move, making little noises into her shoulder and tangling a hand in her hair.

(Compared to the pain, this is so embarrassingly intimate.)

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'Embarrassed' isn't what she was going for at all; she squeezes his legs between her knees, and the sparks retreat from his throat. "Tell me what would be better," she commands, quietly.

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Oh.

"–I think if..."

He moves all at once to try to sit up on his knees and pull her into his lap.

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It doesn't work; she restrains him until the sparks on his head and chest have had a chance to disperse, and then nods.

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...well, that contributed to his enjoyment of the situation.

He tries again.

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This time she cooperates; the lightning arcs painfully to his heels as he goes to sit on them, and then wraps around his feet and ankles. She hugs him, with her free arm, and kisses him deeply, and then there's a gentle push of telekinesis at his back and her hands settle at his hips as she begins rocking into him.

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This is definitely better. He's not covering her, smothering her, keeping her from escaping (who knows where those words or those thoughts come from?). It's balanced.

He holds her as close to him as he can, tries to feel nothing but the heat of her skin for a moment even as the sensation of being inside her is almost overwhelming and the lightning at his feet makes it hard for his mind to work at all.

He returns the kiss, deep as he can, and moves with her.

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Mmmmmmmm.

(...wow, it's been a while. Even distracted as she is, she's not going to last long.)

 

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(Honestly, given all the factors in play here? Neither is he.)

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And, there she goes. The support at his back flickers out for a moment and everything below the base of his spine is bathed in sparks as she clenches around him, holding him close and moaning.

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With the clenching and the flood of sparks, it doesn't take long for him to follow her.

He grips her a little too tight and gasps into her shoulder and shakes like a leaf with the feeling.

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She clutches the back of his head and lets the sparks recede. "My Kai-Zi. Mine."

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When he comes down from it enough to think, he loosens his grip enough that he's not worried it'll hurt.

"...I really like you."

Sort of stating the obvious, at this point, but he felt it was necessary.

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"Good," she says, and kisses him, and tugs him down onto the ground where they can relax. "I like you, too, 'f it wasn't obvious."

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He nuzzles her a little.

"...really, really glad it's mutual."

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"Yeah." She pets him, and looks up to grab her cloak and bring it over to cover them both; it's snuggly and warm after the cool night air. "You okay? It seemed like you weren't, for a minute there."

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Snuggly is definitely good. Now that there's less exertion involved, it's chilly out here.

"I'm okay. Didn't even know I had that hangup. I guess it's never come up."

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"Yeah." She pets him thoughtfully.

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"...not that being embarrassed is always terrible."

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"Yeah," she grins, "but that wasn't what I was going for, and that's kind of important. And it's -" she humms, thoughtfully.

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"It's?"

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She shrugs, and smooths down his hair, petting from the top of his head down to his shoulders. "I'm not sure I'm making the right comparison. But - when it was me, it was important for me to have - the right story, the right understanding of what was going on and why. It made it bearable, until I was strong enough to stop it."

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He looks a little alarmed.

"Maybe not the best comparison, yeah. You weren't forcing me to do anything."

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She blinks - "yeah, wasn't and won't. I meant your pirates."

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"...oh. Right. Them. D'you think it's related?"

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Hug. "Yeah, it felt like it."

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"It did kind of feel like I was...trapping you or something. And also kind of felt exposed."

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"Yeah." Pet pet. "You weren't trapping me at all, but it's understandable, it looked like that a little." Squeeze. "Happened to you?"

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"Yeah. Sometimes."

...

"It also just feels weird. Like I'm pretending to be the guy."

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She's already holding him close; she gives him another squeeze.

"Pretending?"

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Squeezes are good.

"I mean, I'm a guy, but not like that. Whatever that is."

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She nods, gently tracing the edge of one of the blisters on his shoulder with her thumb. "I think I get it."

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He leans down to kiss her hand.

"I wish I got it."

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"Being in charge is hard; it doesn't suit you. And - I think you care too much about doing it right to do it anyway."

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"Hey, I can do stuff that's hard. And I could totally be in charge of somebody if I tried."

Nuzzle.

"Just not gonna try."

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Headpetting. "I don't mean you couldn't, just that it wouldn't suit you. Like - if I said, hey, since you're going to be around a while, why don't we build you a house; go ahead and draw up a layout - you might need some tips, but I bet you'd be fine. But if I said we were going to knock down the house, and it's up to you to design a replacement - much less comfortable, even though it's all the same skills, right?"

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"--Oh, yeah. Definitely."

That's absurdly emotionally accurate.

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"Yeah." She presses her forehead to his and drops her hand to his hip. "And that's fine, there's nothing wrong with it."

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...aww.

He kisses her and laughs.

"Do I actually get to build a house?"

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"Yeah." Kiss.

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He gets to build a house!

Even if she couldn't feel it, he'd clearly be pleased.

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Reality intrudes after a minute, though.

"The stuff I've been doing for money kind of depends on...not being out here."

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Nod. "I'm not going to stop you from leaving, if you want. But I'm not charging rent or anything, either," she grins.

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He nods.

"I just don't wanna hang around and eat your food and not help out any."

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She nods. "We're really not hurting for money; I cleared out Pritruth's bank accounts after I killed him, and I still have most of that. But I hear you, it's good to feel like you're doing something useful. I do machine repair, and the art of course, and Daisy brings it into town every month to sell; you could do something like that?"

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Nod.

"And, uh...I'm definitely gonna have to go sometimes. Just because otherwise I won't be seeing enough new stuff, I think."

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"Yeah, of course." Pet pet. "Maybe we'll come with you sometime."

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"That'd be fun."

He tries not to overestimate the action/adventure component of that trip and fails.

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She chuckles. "Yeah. Been a while, for me, I'm kinda looking forward to it."

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"Wonder where we'll go. Erutak's supposed to be great, except for the volcanoes...can't really afford to go to Dion-5  but it'd be kind of fun to sneak on..."

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"Doesn't sound like either of those would be a problem. You might be thinking too small."

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"What's thinking big, here?"

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"I dunno - joyride a rancor? Pick some poor Hutt and steal all his slaves? You've got a Sith lord - and no slouch of one - and a couple million creds of budget if you come up with something awesome enough, stars're the limit."

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"I love you."

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"I'll think of something really good."

He yawns quietly.

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"I bet you will." She runs her fingers through his hair. "Wore you out, huh?"

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"Little bit. Maybe."

Yes, he definitely qualifies as worn out.

"Been a hell of a couple days."

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"Yeah." Soothing petting. "Mm - we can figure out the sleep situation tomorrow, one night should be fine. You okay to ride home?"

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"I'm good to ride, yeah. Sleep situation?"

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"I can tell when you're awake, and it'll wake me up, and I don't usually sleep at night. It's not a big deal, there's a few ways around it and I can go a few days without."

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"Oh. Sorry about that."

He would maybe feel worse about it, but this petting is remarkably soothing.

"Gotta work on being nocturnal."

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"Not your fault." Squeeze. "Don't worry about it. But don't feel guilty about sleeping in, either."

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"I can definitely sleep in."

Reluctantly, he starts to pull himself off the ground.

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She shimmies back into her pants while he's doing that, and then flies his up to be easily grabable.

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He laughs and puts them on.

"I need to learn better teekay."

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"It's handy, yeah." She kips up onto her feet and gives him an impulsive quick hug before fastening her cloak around her shoulders. "I'll have to take a closer look at how you're doing it sometime, see what's up with it."

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He nods and sits down on the speeder.

"Maybe I can stop throwing stuff by accident."

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"Yeah." She flicks their shirts into the back, slides on behind him. "Have you ever tried something really big?"

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"Well, I picked up my ship once. Does that count?"

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"Mmhmm." She turns on the speeder and heads for home. "How'd that go?"

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"A lot better than I expected, since they told us that kind of thing was impossible. I had a killer headache that day, though."

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"Huh. Did whoever was teaching you - seem like they knew what they were doing? It sounds kind of like they just - fucked up teaching you the form."

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"...I don't know, honestly. But if I tried to do things the way they taught me, I just ended up breaking windows."

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"Yeah. Well, we can have a look tomorrow." They pass the lightning statue and turn toward the house.

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"Mmhmm."

He yawns again, as if to illustrate why 'tomorrow' is necessary.

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She chuckles and nuzzles the back of his head. "Am I putting you in my bed, or will you find the room too distracting?"

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"...'m definitely fine with your bed."

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"Good."

Past the barn to the clearing in front of the house, and she stops the speeder and scoops him up to head inside.

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He is happy to be scooped, and even happier to approach a bed.

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The workroom is dim and empty; the bedroom, too, but a sliver of golden light is visible at the top of the door to Daisy's room.

Dusk flicks down the comforter and arranges the pillows into a cozy nest, and then deposits him in it, curling up behind him with an arm slung over his side as she brings the comforter back up.

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Cozy. So cozy. He sighs in contentment.

"Thought you didn't sleep at night?"

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"Yeah. Goona hang out for a while, though." Squeeze.

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"Mm. 'S good."

He shuts his eyes and puts his arm over one of the pillows.

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He's asleep very quickly.

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She's cuddled up behind him when he wakes up; the only sign that she left at all is the soft fabric of her nightgown at his back.

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He lets himself drift in and out of sleep for a while, to give her a little more time.

Then he just lies awake and enjoys the feeling of someone asleep behind him.

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It only lasts for a minute, and then she yawns and gives him a squeeze and stretches, pressing against him as she does.

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"...You weren't kidding, huh?"

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"Was not, yeah." She ruffles his hair. "You too blistered to move, or y'wanna go get breakfast?"

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He makes an attempt at moving.

...actually, ow, never mind?

"I...think I should probably fix some of these first. I guess."

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"All right." She snuggles up again. "Can you do just some? It didn't look like you were steering it that much, last time."

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"...probably not. I can't focus it on different, uh, pains yet."

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"Yeah. Hm."

"Can you see how you'd do this?" She sends the Force swirling around them, peeling it apart into separate, dissonant, almost antagonistic streams; it's unlike anything he's ever seen a Jedi do, or even anything he ever heard them describe.

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No mental processing now. Just watching.

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She keeps it up. The longer she does, the clearer it is that it's something she's doing; that she's guiding the Force, rather than letting it guide her, as a Jedi would.

After ten minutes or so, she lets go of it, letting the threads settle back into - almost - their natural patterns; there's still a noticeable disturbance, where they're unable to return to their previous state, like a wrinkle in a piece of cloth or a kink in a hose. "Shouldn't do too much of that, it adds up after a while. But do you get the idea?"

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"...I didn't know you could break it."

He sounds in awe.

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She chuckles. "Mmhmm. It loses some power that way, but if you put your feelings behind it, it more than makes up the difference and you have better control."

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He tries to reach out to the warped spot, feel the 'contour' of it.

"They never even told us you could."

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"Yeah, well," she shrugs. "Jedi. They're not aiming for effectiveness."

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"I get why they wouldn't teach it but you'd think they'd at least show us how to fight it."

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"Oh, you generally can't; in a combat situation everything's going too fast for that kind of thing to work."

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"Not just in an actual fight. This seems like the kind of thing they want to avoid."

He prods at the little ripple.

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"Ah. That, yeah, but - little one like this isn't corruptive, but the bigger ones are; if you've heard of Sith tombs and stuff being dangerous, that's this guy's big brother. Even if you know what you're doing, it's risky being in a place like that long enough to do anything about it."

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He nods.

"...I want to do what you can do. But I don't know if I want to...hurt it, like that."

Is it really different from what he did to his own aura? Is this just left over from Jedi training?

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Squeeze. "Yeah. Once you know what you're doing it's not so hard to avoid it, if you want to, but it takes a while to get there. There is stuff I can teach you that doesn't need it at all, though, if you'd rather just focus on that - lightning does, but the sense stuff doesn't, and the headache blocker and things."

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"...that stuff first, then, I guess."

He can definitely deal with her being the one with the lightning for now, and he's equally excited about learning the other stuff. It gets rid of the internal conflict when he decides to delay the...pulling-apart.

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"Sure." She ruffles his hair. (Gosh he's cute.)

"Anyway, I though that'd be worth a try, with your healing, but I guess not."

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"–I could still try!"

The reluctance to tear apart the threads of the Force is instantly replaced by the intense desire to show her he can.

He reaches out and twists, with no real regard for the safety of what he's doing, mimicking what she did before.

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There's a moment of resistance, and then it twists apart, weakly echoing his emotions back to him as it does. The threads writhe distractingly; individually, they're easier to control than the natural Force, but it will obviously take some practice to get them working in concert this way.

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He moves them one at a time, trying to block out the others to focus in on each one, and then tries twisting them back together differently, forcing them into their previous position but with a clear mark of interference.

When they echo back to him they tell him you're right.

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He can do that, easily, but they don't quite come together in the right way to do healing; every time he gets close, something slides out of his grasp.

The emotional echo continues, faintly and easily missed.

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He tries to focus in on the echo.

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It shifts under his attention, echoing back his hope, and his curiosity, but also, more strongly, his frustration at his failure and his fear that he will continue to fail.

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Maybe if he–

He starts feeling at the places where he feels his own life woven in with the Force.

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"Hey," Dusk interrupts, reaching over to take his hand. "No experimenting on yourself today."

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He jolts out of his concentration.

"–but it wasn't working."

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"-yeah? It might not, that way. You've still got to be careful of yourself."

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"...yeah. I guess so."

Slightly disgruntled. If he wasn't supposed to take himself apart with the Force, the universe shouldn't have made it so easy. Mostly he sees her point, though.

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She nuzzles the back of his head. "We'll get you some livestock to practice on, or something."

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There is an instant feeling of alarm at the idea.

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"- you were going to try it on yourself, you're worth more than some chickens or whatever." The arm she still has slung over him goes tense, restraining.

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"I guess so. Just seems...I mean, I don't need it. I don't want to fuck up some poor bird who doesn't know what's going on."

The arm helps.

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She relaxes a little, and gives him a squeeze, keeping her grip on him as she talks. "Sure. But that's still better than fucking yourself up. I might not be able to fix it, y'know."

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"...yeah. That's true. I guess they'd be somebody's dinner otherwise, anyway."

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"Mmhmm."

"Speaking of which - you goona be okay with it if I go hunt, this afternoon?"

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"–this is going to sound really weird, but I want to come with you."

The prospect excites him in...a very weird way. A slightly aggressive way.

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"That does sound weird." She hums thoughtfully. "I suppose I should have guessed that you'd have trouble with Force feedback."

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"Force feedback?"

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"Yeah - here, roll over so I can see you. When you use the Force like that, it heightens your emotions, especially negative ones and aggression. Varies, how much people are affected by it."

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He rolls over obediently.

"Good to know it's not me wanting to catch something on foot, kill it with my teeth and cover myself in its blood."

He still feels it, knowing it's not quite his own, but it's more muted.

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"Heh. Yeah. I have some meditations that'll help with it; that'll be the priority before you mess with it again, okay? Don't want to lose you to that, either." Hug.

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Hug.

"That what happened with you?"

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"Oh, no, no," she protests, alarmed. "I mean, you're not - it's not entirely unrelated. But there's no amount of this that would do that to you - you'd have problems, but -"

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"...but not even close."

He looks at her with obvious concern. He can't help but wonder what it was like, what exactly it was that she went through, how much it still hurts. He wants her not to be in pain.

But he also knows it's not his business, really, and he withdraws a little.

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"Not even close, yeah." She gives him a squeeze. "It was pretty horrible, but I'm okay now. I'm not going to risk you like that, though - it's way too easy not to be. Especially if you have trouble just with this."

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"...okay. I'll trust you on that one."

Part of him rebels immediately. It's because she doesn't trust you. It's because she thinks you're too weak. He shoves it aside. This, he reminds himself, is infinitely better than nobody to tell him not to hurt himself at all.

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"Hey." She brushes his hair out of his face, gently. "I want you to be okay. And nobody can be okay like that; I'd know. There's nothing good about it, not even for you."

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The acknowledgement that what's good for him might be different is enough to get rid of most of his objections, along with the simple fact of her wanting him to be okay. He nods.

(He's being seen much more than he used to be. He really likes it.)

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She grins, and gives him a quick kiss. "So, breakfast?"

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"Yeah, after I fix these. I guess you can always give me some new ones."

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"Mmhmm."

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He sets to work on healing. Again, it's faster than it should be, and he twists and moves while he does it in the right ways to make the patchwork of burns really sting.

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She watches, holding him loosely until doing so puts her in his way. "You aren't using a Force sense when you do that, are you," she comments when he's done.

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"Huh? No. Regular senses work fine."

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"They obviously work, but that might be why you can only heal yourself - can't affect something if you can't see it." She disentangles herself from the pillow nest and stands, stretching a bit, as she talks.

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He nods.

"I should probably learn to do it the other way, huh. It's just...easier this way."

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"Might be easier with the sense, once you get used to it. My Force senses are just senses for me, now; I can turn them off, but it's like walking around with my eyes closed, why would I do that."

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He nods.

"That would be pretty cool."

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"It is, yeah." She scoops him up. "But enough nerd talk, let's go eat."

The droids are already at the kitchen table, which has a bowl of peaches on it that wasn't there last night; breakfast is oatmeal with baked peaches, with whipped cream, cinnamon, and berry syrup for toppings.

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Good food!

He starts to eat right away. He appreciates this oatmeal immensely.

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Dusk gets a bowl too, and signs to Daisy while she eats.

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Nine, meanwhile, slides over to sit closer to Kai-Zi.

"Thank you for helping us the other day. Are you all right?"

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He nods.

"Nothing Force-healing couldn't fix. You seem like you're doing better too."

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"Mmhmm."

"Daisy has been very helpful. And the Sith, too."

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He nods.

"They're pretty helpful people. This is a good place to be if you're lost and confused."

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"Yeah."

 

"Are you going to be around for a while?"

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He nods.

"Probably, yeah. That okay?"

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He goes still; Daisy notices quickly. "Yes, it's fine," she interjects, and then goes back to her conversation with Dusk.

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"- fine," Nine repeats, a little vaguely, and then more normally: "It's fine."

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It takes him a moment to figure out what must have happened.

"Oh. Sorry. Must mess with your brain."

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He nods. "Daisy says it should get better in a few months."

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"I guess you must need practicing with, uh, making choices in general. We're lucky we get to do that from the beginning."

He gestures to himself and Dusk.

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He nods. "Droids aren't for this. But they want me to try anyway."

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"Making choices is pretty great once you get used to it."

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He goes still again; Daisy doesn't jump in this time.

 

"If you say so," he offers, eventually.

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He looks a little concerned, but doesn't say anything about it, just watches him and takes another bite of oatmeal.

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"Droids aren't for that," he repeats. "It's hard to think about."

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He nods.

“Makes sense. Guess how I see it as a human is a lot different.”

More peaches.

“Glad you’re okay.”

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That's much easier to reply to. "Thank you. I'm glad too."

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He grins and returns to his food. It doesn't take long for him to finish the whole bowl.

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Dusk's not far behind, and Daisy gathers up the dishes to wash them.

"So, given any thought to what you want in a house?"