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"By knowing what I care about, and which of those things I care about more," Bella says.

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"Oh," says Feral. "That makes sense, I guess. I don't do that."

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"Then what do you do instead? If you know some stuff matters and some stuff doesn't."

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"Well, if I think of it, I know if it matters or not."

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Bella decides she's not going to get a satisfactory answer to this question. "Sure."

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"I just don't have a list anywhere," he explains. "It sounds like you've got a list of stuff that matters to you, with a bunch of stuff on it, and it's all orderly and everything. I don't have one. But there's still stuff I care about, it's just not organized like yours."

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"I don't have, like, a master list," Bella says. "With everything all outlined neat. Maybe I should, but mostly it's all scattered around between notebooks and I have the general idea memorized and know where to look for details if I can't come up with them."

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"Okay," laughs Feral, "then I'm even less organized than that."

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"I get the idea," she says. "It sounds - confusing."

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"It's not really," he shrugs. "Your way sounds like it'd confuse me more. What happens if what you care about changes while you're not looking?"

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"Then I notice that when I look again, and then I figure out why, and try to find out if it's going to happen again and if I want to let it."

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"But if something came up before you checked, would you go with what was on the list, or what you really wanted?"

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"What I really wanted - if I was sure about what that was. Sometimes I might not be. If I was scared or mad or something, I might feel like I really wanted to do something that I'd know was a bad idea if I was thinking clearer. And then I'd have to sort of - step back and remember why I wrote what I wrote, and see if those reasons are still there, and see if I trust my brain however it's being right then."

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"Oh," says Feral. "Huh." He smiles. "If you write out that list, can I see it sometime?"

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Bella thinks about this. "Maybe not all of it," she says. "But some of it sure."

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"Why not all of it?"

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"Because some of it might be private."

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He shrugs. "Okay."

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"I care about privacy, that'd be on the list," she says with a little laugh. "That's why I wanna learn Occlumency."

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"I don't care much about privacy," offers Feral. "Well, mine. I care some about yours."

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"Huh. So you wouldn't care that much if somebody Legilimencied you and could see - all your memories - and what you were thinking?"

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"...Well, depends on the somebody," he says. "If it was somebody I didn't know that well, or didn't like, I bet I'd get mad. If it was you or the elves I wouldn't mind."

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"Why, you wanna learn mindreading? You can practice on me," he says generously.

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"Not just to mindread," Bella says. "I don't want to mindread anybody who doesn't want to be mindread. It's just, I can't find out how you're supposed to learn Occlumency, and I could make stuff up but I don't know how I'd tell if the stuff I was making up was even sorta right, without - testing it."

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