Yeah, but until then. I can do it.

So can I, and I think it hurts me less.

She looks briefly pained. Yeah.

So I'll do it.

Mmhmm. If they ask for me or you need a break or anything I'm still willing; I'm apparently less resilient than I used to be but I should still be able to handle it.

Hugs. Angband is a hard thing to be resilient about.

True, but not what I meant.

Hmm?

I used to be really good for this kind of stuff - I get upset, but I don't mind being upset, it doesn't - didn't - hurt me, I'd be fine again afterward. And I seem to have lost some of that since I was exiled; it used to take a lot more for me to get to the point of having problems like I did last night.

Hopefully that's temporary but if I keep pushing myself it's less likely to be, so. She sighs.

So that sounds like a good reason to not push yourself.

Yeah. Don't want them to feel like they're being punished for messing up, though. She tugs pensively on the tip of one of her ears.

I think he thinks he's getting information, not messing up. And I think he's right. Wanting to die and not disguising it well isn't a mistake.

It is if something bad happens to you because of it.

I don't know. I think I need to take a day or two and figure out what I actually need right now.

Sounds good.

She snuggles up and thinks.

- I need to start eating normally again. That... I've been doing a lot of things, where, if it was one of them, it'd be fine, if it was two or three of them it'd probably be fine, but I can't do this many. And food's a big deal for me, even if the only thing I was doing was changing my diet around like I've been doing that wouldn't be great for me. So, not that. I'll start eating here.

Okay. Sounds good.

She nods. I'll bring the rest of the stuff from my pantry here later.

...don't think I'm up for dealing with their siblings today. Or, uh. At all. Sigh. If I can figure out how, I should, but I'm not going to think about that right now.

Okay.

She pulls her knees to her chest.

If that's not something you're going to be up for, is there a solution other than having you set up their camp to be safe for Maitimo?

I don't know.

I need to... not be responsible for figuring things out, for a little while. Like, today.

Okay.

I don't think there's anything that can't wait that long.

I am sure there's not. Take a break. I need to work but I can have someone in here to sit and sing with you if you'd like.

Yeah, please. I'll probably be up for doing stuff later, too.