There isn't. "I don't really like Lórien. It's such a sad place."

"I think that's a thing about you, not about Lórien," she says, heading treeward.

"Well, I don't find it sad. I've been sleeping here while my house is in progress and I'm avoiding your mother, and experimenting with Olórin."

"You're a very alive person, though."

Back in the courtyard they go. "What do you mean? Are you not alive?"

"I might be alive as you. Pretty much no one else is."

"I don't know what you're talking about."

"You'll figure it out," he says contentedly.

"How do you know I won't just languish in ignorance forever? Would you do that to me?"

"If I say it you'll disapprove of me again. I tried saying it to Rúmil and he disapproved."

"...How do you know I'd disapprove?"

"You and Rúmil agree about lots of things."

"That's true," she says. "But we're not the exact same person, so it's not a perfect predictor."

"Most people are boring. They don't do anything. They don't feel very alive and there are places and situations where I don't feel very alive and then I act more like them, or else stop being able to function at all."

"Hmm," says Bella thoughtfully. "...This is probably partly because you just haven't met very many people all cooped up in the palace and liking to do so many things by yourself. But I think I know what you mean. I wouldn't say 'alive', I'd probably go with something differently metaphorical. Sparkly, maybe, most people aren't sparkly."

He nods. "And Lórien makes me...less sparkly, because it's a Vala forest and just there to accommodate and I've spent so many years there waiting for my mother to get better when no one thought she would and I just associate it with - nonsparkliness, and every time I go there I feel myself getting smaller. Though teleporting was pretty neat."

"I think it doesn't feel unsparkly to me because it's one of the places I associate with letting myself be sparklier. I couldn't at home, I knew it'd get out of control so I kept an eye on it and tried not to - but it's safe in Lórien and I bring all the sparkliness I need myself, the forest doesn't have to help, it just has to not hurt."

"That makes sense. An empty room is enough space to be sparkly in. Just - not Lórien."

"It's okay if you don't like it."

"I don't like me in it."

"Then you don't have to go. How come you wanted to come along so badly?"

"See if it felt different now that my mother's home."

"And it didn't?"

"No. Maybe because I wasn't really sad she was sick like I thought, I was sad she didn't like me."