She doesn't want to see the body.

All right.

When he remembers he goes to Karen's room. There's a guard there. 

"Did she -"

         "Sir?"

"My baby's in there. Do you know if - do you know if she's alive -"

         "I don't know anything but I'm not allowed to let you in there."

"God."

        "I can pass on a message -"

"No, I can do that myself because you're all fucking telepaths -" Ender?

We all remembered once she died. I'm sorry.

But - 

I'm sorry.

I don't know how you live with yourself.

I have a lot of practice.

They hold a funeral in a field of wheat. It's tall; Quendi sing to it, and it grows so quickly you can see it add an inch if you watch it for a while. Today they're all singing a funeral song. They don't have a funeral song for babies but they do have one for children. It's very old. Only three people are around who remember the last war where it was needed. 

Do you want to go?

Yeah. That'd be - good. 

Do you want to walk? I can carry you.

I can walk. But thank you.

Ryan knows? Ryan should get to -

He knows, yes.

OK. Good.

Does he kinda hate me?

He seems to be dealing with all his mixed feelings about you by hating me, actually. 

Oh. I - guess that's understandable too.

Yeah. Also when I didn't remember anything I told him to marry you which was not the most helpful approach on the whole.

Oh. Huh. He did ask me. I told him I wanted to give him an answer when I wasn't dealing with blood loss and stuff.

Sorry. It. If you'd been -

It's OK. It was a - weird set of things. If she was gonna live I probably would've wanted to. Although that does sound like it might lead to ever having sex, which is slightly problematic, but - anyway. It's fine.

You did great at working through things when no one else could think about them.

Thanks. I'm glad we talked about stuff after the nightmares, I wouldn't have done as well if we hadn't.

Takes practice. Hope it never ever happens again.

Yeah. And hey, it might not. We no longer live in the bullshit capital of the world.