It's not a trade Leareth would prefer to have made either – he can't even remember the start of the path, vanished into the fog of lost memories, but his records of the early days after the Cataclysm have his ledgers, balancing the numbers, convicts executed for blood-magic or children dead of starvation, and he doesn't want that to have been the world, but it was.
He isn't a good person. Not by anyone's definition. And now isn't the time to try to defend his worldview and decisions to Maitimo.
:I ought to be able to use any that are near the shields: he sends. :I am considering what other magics might work against Balrogs. And...I think that I ought to obtain memories of the cave location now. If we are under attack and overwhelmed before I am rested, I can at least Gate you and your father and a few others to safety, and you can organize the locals from there:
Leareth looks away, toward the opening of the tent, the camp bustling outside. :Other relevant information that you should have. I am not mortal in the way most people in my world are. I - found a loophole, one might say. If my body dies here, it would be very costly to my plans back home, I lose more of myself than Quendi do even via my method, and I would be effectively lost to your war effort – I am not sure I would be able to replicate my journey here, and certainly could not do it quickly – but I would not be gone forever. So I am willing to take risks, if I think they are justified, and you can ask that of me also:
His lips twitch. :I expect I make more sense as a person if you know that I have lived several dozen lifetimes, and have the knowledge and experience that entails: