I'm a magical superhero now. You got got by the kind of thing I magically superhero at. Most people don't remember it very clearly, which is why no one else is acting like much happened just now, but you apparently have a bit of magical juice, so you can do telepathy and recall what happened.

YEAH I CAN RECALL THAT I JUST TRIED TO KILL MYSELF! THAT I ALMOST DID! I CAN RECALL THAT ALRIGHT!! I'M RECALLING IT VERY VIVIDLY!!!!!!!

I saved you, you're okay! I'm not sure how to talk people down from a panic attack, sorry!

Yeah he's just. Going to rest his forehead on his desk and. Try not to hyperventilate too much. Because that would be mortifying on top of EVERYTHING ELSE like how he ALMOST DIED and now there's MAGIC SUPERHEROES or some shit.

He's starting to feel nauseous.

I don't know if my healing powers work on panic attacks but they probably don't and I can't use them out of the shiny outfit. Deep breaths? - slow ones, not like that.

Okay. Deep breaths. Deeper. No, deeper than that.

Well at least I'm only being pathetic in front of you rather the entire fucking class.

Deeper than that.

...giving me telepathy was not a good idea. Take it away.

It's not a thing you have, exactly, it's a thing Kyubey's doing. You don't have to use it.

I clearly don't have the self-control to stop myself at least right after I NEARLY DIED deep breaths deeeeep breaths

Do you want me to just ignore you?

I mean you can do whatever you want of course but I don't think that will help actually it'll just be even more mortifying to know you're listening but not like reacting or anything.

Deep breaths. His heart is calming down.

...no that's his pressure dipping.

A smarter person than me might ask to go see a nurse but definitionally I am not that smart.

What the fuck do you mean, definitionally, go to the nurse.

It will be mortifying to need to go see a nurse for something that literally no one has any idea even happened and I'd rather just die here thanks.

Hey Kyūbey are you listening can you in fact actually make it impossible for me to relay my thoughts I've embarrassed myself enough in front of this guy I actually had already embarrassed myself enough several days ago I'm in embarrassment overdraft now.

I can but if you change your mind then I will help you with that too!

Yes thank you I much prefer being alone in my thoughts also what the fuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuck

"Ishiguro-sensei, I think Iwasaki-san looks faint?"

"Iwasaki-san?" says the teacher. "Are you all right?"

God fucking damnit.

He lifts his head up and tries to smile. "No, don't worry, I'm fine." The fact that he's kind of pale and on second thought somewhat covered in sweat and shivering a bit is immaterial.

"You don't look quite well. Miyata-san, take Iwasaki-san to the nurse, please -"

Miyata gets up to escort him.

Oh awesome ANOTHER PERSON is about to witness his embarrassment from up close, wonderful, perfect, what a great way for a day in which he ALMOST DIED to keep going—

Miyata doesn't say anything about it, at least, just walks him there and makes sure he doesn't collapse on the way.

Ughhh.

He doesn't actually need the nurse he just needs to. Sit down. And breathe. And kind of be alone for a while? Can he slip away? When no one's looking?

He can lie down on a cot, but he can have a curtain around it if he would like for privacy.

Ughhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.

That'll have to do.

Fucking. Fuck. Shit. Fuck.

What if he just closes his eyes for a bit, then, and tries to focus on his breathing, and not on how he almost died, yes, he's fine, he didn't die, he's fine, now, he

Yutaka opens his eyes then screams and flinches away hard enough to fall off the bed.