"Do you need a minute?"

"No."

"Okay. What else've I forgotten."

"...start of day three, I mention to you that the entire school will be certain we're dating while I'm walking you across the ice, you're like 'they'll be so well-informed', I suffer a brain malfunction from the idea that you're so casual about the idea that we're dating because I hadn't really put it in those words in my head, you call me cute, I ask you if I'm allowed to kiss you, you say I am, we kiss right there in the middle of the parking lot where anyone could see so it's really no wonder Iwasaki Iemasa found out and it's kind of shocking it took him that long. Maybe it only took that long because he wanted to make sure I'd have a guaranteed spot at Kaiyo before he showed up to tell me I was going there..."

"Kaiyo's the boarding school, right - okay go on -"

He keeps going at that level of detail. Tells Haru about PE and Ashikaga—whom later in the loop he found out had been pissed off because the girl he liked had been one of Yutaka's groupies even after Yutaka was already known to be gay and so he'd been taking it out on Yutaka—and about joining the baseball team, about them having lunch together with the translation club, about power testing with the fancy light measurers in his fancy apartment.

"I committed to waiting ten minutes even after I was done with the rewinding tests so that you wouldn't at any point experience being in a doomed timeline. Fucking..."

"Fucking Walpurgisnacht. I'm going to kill it. I'm going to turn it into dust. I'm going to rip it out of the fucking firmament for, for—thinking it could ever—"

"Thanks," whispers Haru.

He sways in place a little bit and swallows dryly. "Yeah. A-anyway... We did homework together..." Then they went out witch hunting, and Yamanaka went on the first diplomatic overtures to get that map of the Tokyo area and its magicals. They went on another date. They tried to find another witch and both witches they dowse are outside their territory. They went home, and they slept.

The bare itinerary is pretty quick to get down. Little bullet points. He annotates when there's important emotional content but they've covered the heaviest stuff, already.

Next day—right. It's the day Iemasa shows up after school. There's some more snippets of conversation he remembers before that, like someone who thinks he only liked Haru for being the only other openly gay boy at school which is fucking ludicrous—sorry. They also have, or don't actually have, "the monogamy conversation", in which Yutaka is hilariously oblivious to how much of an understatement "monogamous" is as a description of what he is. "I was so fucking stupid," he sighs.

"I mean, it seems like your prior experience was very nonmonogamous."

"It was! I had no idea what I'd been missing out on!"

...isn't that the kind of thing he was trying to say less. Haru doesn't have a strong enough agreement with him on that to say that aloud.

It was probably a Freudian slip.

The rest of classes go by, not very remarkably, and then— "I'm going to tell you what actually happened with Iwasaki Iemasa even though you weren't actually there for it since. You know."

Nod.

"My father was waiting for me in my living room. He demanded to know what took me so long to reply to his message the day before, certain that I'd spent the night with a boy. I had, I'd spent the night with you saving lives. I couldn't tell him that. I tried to deflect it, and he insisted, so I said I'd spent the night with a classmate and didn't have my phone on me. I said we'd done homework together.

"And then he asked me if it had ever occurred to me that my actions had consequences or if I was always so busy begging for other people's attention and love and for them to overlook all of my flaws that I didn't have any time to think about that."

"He said that I was a smart man and that when I wanted to accomplish something I did, at least when what I wanted to accomplish was being miserable and making everyone around me just as miserable."

yeah he seems great at that is NOT fair.

"He told me he'd raised me to play these games better, that he'd hoped I'd learn. I told him he hadn't raised me, he just hired other people to do that and then passed judgment on their results. I told him he'd never been there, and that maybe he thought this was normal because his father had raised him that way, but that when other fathers talk about raising their sons this is not what they mean."

"He was very incredulous that I'd say something like that to his face. He said that he'd hoped I'd be able to make it a week at Shimamoto before creating a mess for him, but clearly that was too much to hope for. He said he was withdrawing me from Shimamoto and enrolling me in Kaiyo. I tried to argue and tell him I'd behave, I'd be discreet, I'd do anything, anything, because I could not—bear—to be away from you—he said if I could behave he wouldn't have had to deal with the past seven years of headaches I'd given him and he wouldn't have had to deal with his own son dragging his name through the mud by being a homosexual in public."

"And you tried re-doing the conversation first and when that didn't work resorted to mind control, right?"