It's hard. It's hard, when nothing changes, when nothing keeps changing. Clay's--Clay's nice, Clay's good company, but graduation is--it's close, now.
And Tommy hasn't gotten any better. He's gotten worse.
He doesn't have long left, he figures. If it keeps on going as it is right now, if nothing changes, and Clay graduates--he doesn't have long left. He should probably... Say goodbye, or something.
He doesn't do that. Instead, he starts How To Sex 3. Something to do before he goes. It's hard going, writing How To Sex 3, because he has to try to think like Jesus was when he walked on water, which may sound easy for someone as cool as Tommy "Careful Danger Kraken" Ingram, but it's not. He makes a promise to himself to finish it, before his final hurrah, even though it's hard. Contributing to society and all that. Making Wilbur proud.
It's weird, that he isn't going to say goodbye to Toby. But he's okay with it, he thinks. He was angry, but he's not really, anymore. Just... tired.
Not that he's--not that he's planning on dying, exactly. He just... doesn't think he's going to be strong enough, on his own. And he's alright with that. He'll write How To Sex 3, and maybe he'll say goodbye to some people, and that'll be it for him.
He wants to say goodbye to Alex before he goes, at least. And Clay, obviously. Maybe Niki or Jack, if they're around, but probably not. He's still pissed at everyone, but he doesn't really have a long list of people. Maybe Toby had just--not told them. Or something.
Well. At least he has a plan to present to Clay.