When something goes unpredictably and catastrophically wrong, and the plane starts spiralling down uncontrollably out of the sky, Merrin has about four minutes and a half minutes worth of warning that she's going to PERMANENTLY DIE.
This wasn't supposed to happen.
Four minutes and thirty seconds is not nearly long enough to think and feel all of the many thoughts and feelings she might have about this situation. It is long enough to feel quite a lot of frustration, about the fact that she's SUPPOSED to be TRAINED for EMERGENCIES and yet, in this particular emergency, none of her Exception Handling skills are worth anything at all. There's not going to be a medical emergency, here, there's no way to save anyone including herself, and the eight boxes of Exception Handling gear packed in the cargo section - for the training scenario she was supposed to be doing tomorrow - are completely irrelevant.
People who aren't her, who have engineering skills, spend the last four minutes and thirty seconds of their remaining existence frantically trying for some desperate last-ditch solution. Merrin spends it not panicking, because she can't do anything to help but she can at least avoid making anything worse.
When the plane hits the ground, it happens almost too fast to feel anything at all.

