Haru texts Ren a picture of dinner and that he's staying over again, and he snuggles his boyfriend to sleep when they go to bed.

Haru talks, when he sleeps. He hadn't known that prior to the first time he offered to sleep over at Yutaka's, and Yutaka felt a little bit smug about being the one to tell him. He's the only one who got to see Haru like this.

So now they're here, and Haru fell asleep first, and Yutaka can hear Haru breathe and occasionally say nonsensical things while he stares at the ceiling and realises slowly that he does know why he still feels upset. He does know why he's been feeling nauseous and stressed out. He does know why liking Haru has hurt so much, why it hasn't been just happiness and wanting what he can't have and butterflies.

He's in love with Haru. But Haru shouldn't be in love with him. Haru shouldn't like him. Haru wouldn't like him, if he knew everything.

He's in love with Haru, and he needs Haru. He can't ever, ever tell Haru any of this, because if he does, he will lose Haru, and he will lose himself at the same time.

He's in love with Haru, and if he's going to lose himself, that needs to wait until at least two weeks from now. It needs to wait until they've saved Tokyo. He can't, can't, he thinks he won't be able to keep going without Haru. Eventually, sure, he doesn't think he's going to die if he loses Haru or anything, but it will, will, it will damage his effectiveness. He needs to save Tokyo. They need to save Tokyo.

He's gonna counterfeit money, so why not counterfeit this, too? Just for a while? For Tokyo?

It's fine for him to be a little bit selfish for a little bit longer, right?