Oh. Oh guided makeouts are so good. And he's—not as compatible with Haru as he was with Lee Tae-gun (a pang in his heart at the thought) but he's a lot more compatible with Haru than every other partner of his. And he, fuck, he's so pent up, he's been aching for Haru for so long, he's kind of desperate in the kissing, and his hands are kind of wandering under Haru's shirt and playing with the waistband of his trousers and he's very noticeably hard.

Haru doesn't complain about any of this; he's whimpering gratefully into the kiss, clutching at Jaeha's back, soaking up the guiding urgently.

There's a part of his brain that's tracking the fact that they definitely shouldn't go any further than this, that it wouldn't be a good idea, but that part is so, so small and so, so quiet, and it's getting smaller and quieter by the second, and the treacherous thing is that it would be good for Haru, but also they 100% shouldn't, it would be a bad no-good awful idea, so while Jaeha isn't the whimpering type he is definitely the moaning type and there's a lot of that happening with a lot of the pressing of bodies together right now. And he doesn't even have the excuse that he needs the guiding urgently, it's not urgent, but it's—definitely something. Something else.

Haru is successfully not angling to escalate! As far as he seems to be concerned they could just lie here with all four of Haru's limbs wrapped around Jaeha and their lips locked for the next, oh, hour or so, and not do any other things. Except make noises. Noises are definitely part of this plan and are happening right now.

Yeah. Because they shouldn't escalate. They really, really, really shouldn't. Haru almost certainly wouldn't want it, in his right mind, it'd almost certainly count as taking advantage of him to suggest it. The fact that Haru seems to be having quite similar physiological reactions to Jaeha's does not actually count as consent, or even as wanting it, they're physiological reactions. If Haru did want it he'd have, have, Jaeha doesn't know, literally ever shown any inkling of interest. Any of it. At all. Unendorsed interest, accidental interest, anything.

"Can I take your shirt off?" he manages to say, when he comes up for air, because that isn't really escalation, that's just good sense. Right?

"Yes," Haru gasps, "yes," and that's too much not-kissing.

...fuck. Why. Why this. Why are the gods doing this to him. He cannot actually be as zen as the Buddha about this. He just can't. There will be another break of not-kissing so that Haru's shirt comes off (though he'll do his best to make it as short as possible) and, and, and skin contact is so good, and Haru is so hot, and, and could he suggest that Haru's pants come off, too. Would that work. Would that be a good idea or a bad no-no idea. Does he have that much self-control. He's not sure he will but at least for now he does. If he's going to be making bad decisions then they will need to be forced out of him, he's not going to jump into them. For now just the shirt is fine.

He's so screwed.

Haru does his best to glue their torsos together once his shirt's out of the way. "Mmmm..."

So screwed. So, so, so screwed. He is veritably fucked. Fuck. Fuckity fuck. God fucking damnit. He's the worst. He's the actual worst. He didn't last two minutes. Not two minutes before he made the bad no-no decision. Haru should stop him from the thing he's doing, which is doing the trousers equivalent of shrugging his shirt off, he should definitely stop Jaeha from stripping to his underwear.

(He won't. Because he's horribly backlashed. And because Jaeha is taking advantage of this. And even knowing it he can't seem to stop himself.)

(It's probably because he wants to believe it's real. That's—pathetic, actually. It's really, really pathetic. This isn't real. This is a blip, a momentary lapse. It'll pass, and never happen again.)

(So is it so bad for him to want to pretend, just while it lasts?)

Haru makes a little "?" noise in the back of his throat when the pants tug past his ankles where they're locked together behind Jaeha's back. He's still got his shoes on, they're dungeoneering boots and don't kick off easy.

Unfortunately(?) Jaeha fails to interpret that sound. So he'll keep going.

...why does Haru still have his shoes on, though. He'll need to fix that. In a bit. Later.

God, he missed this so much. God, Haru is so hot. God, he's going to have so many issues about this later.

Haru does not follow up on his unanswered question mark. When Jaeha's got a thigh exposed he drops one hand to confirm that this is happening without having to break the kiss and look.

Fuckity fuck fuck. Fuckening. Fucken. Fuckor. Fuck.

Can Jaeha untie Haru's shoelaces with one hand without breaking the kiss, time to find out!

Yes, he can do that. "Mmhm," Haru agrees.

Yeah unfortunately his good sense is all gone. If Haru wants to stop him (PLEASE STOP HIM) he is going to need to be the one to do it because off go Haru's shoes and Haru's socks and now he is going to be fumbling with Haru's trousers and that might require Haru to unkoala for a bit which would be a great time for Haru to stop him (PLEASE STOP HIM) but if he doesn't then, uh. Then, uh.

His good sense is all gone.

No if Jaeha wants to take Haru's pants off Haru will allow this and cooperate with it and then once the pants are out of the way wrap his legs around Jaeha again more emphatically.

Fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuck.

Does he have lube. He does not have lube. He does not have lube because why would he have lube, this was never going to happen. Is he going to fuck Haru raw. That feels like the kind of thing one might want to have a conversation about. Jaeha is completely incapable of having conversations right now. However you know what can pass for lube in a pinch, it's spit. Maybe if he pulls away from the kiss to suck on his own fingers for a sec Haru will understand what it is that he's trying to do and will want to stop him. That would be great, would be if Haru stopped him right now right this second before he started to tug on Haru's underwear. Now would be good. Now, please.

What no they should be kissing. What is this not-kissing thing Jaeha is trying to do with his mouth.

It's only a sec! Then they can go back to kissing and those fingers can do some exploring! In a very specific location! That they maybe should've negotiated in advance! But since Jaeha sucks as a person he is not doing any negotiating he is just doing things that should've been negotiated.

"Nng -" Haru moans, but it doesn't sound like a protest and he isn't moving like it's a protest either.

Welp it seems like it's all aboard the Jaeha train towards bad decisionland, your conductor will be Haru's backlash, we hope you all have a very pleasant trip because unfortunately it seems like this train has absolutely no brakes whatsoever and he is about to fuck this gorgeous man's brains out despite them both knowing how much they should not be doing this at all. Well, he is not zen like the Buddha, but since it seems like "fail with abandon" is the name of the game today then he's going to make sure Haru is seeing stars by the end of it and will not let himself feel guilty about it until that happens.

As long as he does this from a vantage point such that Haru can kiss him throughout the proceedings, Haru will not produce words about it at all. Just noises.

He mostly can. He might need more spit, but pre can do in a pinch, and he is so horny he is constantly on the edge of greying out. This way it'll probably be somewhat less than a full hour, though.

As long as the kissing breaks are very brief those don't need to involve words either, just, like, "aaaaaaaannnh" and such vocalizations.

Yeah. Okay. Then they're, uh, doing this. He will do his fucking best not to come too early even despite how much he's fantasised about this and how much better it feels than his fantasies but no promises there.

At least it seems that Haru is enjoying it in-the-moment. There's that. That's good. He'll just enjoy that. For as long as it lasts.